#I feel the fandom gets a lot of oops babies

[tmnt-tychou]

After the Tiny Turtles get returned back to their own time, Don and Leo take Mona to the hot springs in the Hidden City to relax. She was getting a little stressed out at the end.

But now everyone has Tiny Turtles on the brain and some mutants’ biological clocks are ticking. Fan babies are imminent! (Characters are in their mid 20′s.)

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@thelaundrybitch

[whitetiger-byakkomaru]

{ Not me listening to the Arcane: League of Legends OST while I'm trying to write things out for Shinya.

Honestly, I can see Shinya listening to stuff like this all throughout his teenaged/high school years, especially since I headcanoned Shinya to be somewhat troublesome for the Hīragi family while he was growing up with them (sometimes he ran away like a rebellious teen and caused trouble, sometimes he'd pull pranks and then blame them on someone else). }

[beenbaanbuun]

Not sure if this is a request or me just going insane after reading your dumbification yeo fic but oop-

Been thinking about jealous Yeosang nonstop since then because I always get a little disappointed when fics paint him as this super passive, open lover. I mean it's all well and good to be someone who's genuinely okay with their partner having multiple partners/being kinda flirty, but I honestly don't see him as the type to be that chill

I mean sure he wouldn't exactly be as loud or aggressive about it as sayyy.... Joong or Sannie, I am a switch!Yeosang enthusiast after all, but I still think he'd get upset if he saw you being too chummy with one of your guy friends or one of the other members.

Early on in the relationship it would probably be all cute, he gets pouty and quiet, maybe clingy after and he needs lots of affirmation and assurance before he feels secure again.

But once he's comfortable with you? C'mon, you CANNOT tell me he's not the type to pin you against the door as soon as you get home, hands and lips desperately latching on to you as you clutch at his hair, deep voice muffled by your skin as he seethes over That Guy who kept hitting on you or how Wooyoung was a little too touchy for his peace of mind (woo totally did it on purpose btw).

And oh my god if those angry growls turn desperate? If you're not responding verbally cuz you're just so overwhelmed by everything that's Yeo?? And he suddenly whines into your neck and nuzzles your pulse point seeking verbal affirmation??? And you grip his hair and he whimpers when you tug so he has to look you in the eye?????

I need to calm tf down before I drop a whole 1.5k word smut fic in your ask box but you get the idea XDD

Jealous yeo lives rent free in my brain and you're writing has him running LAPS TwT we as a fandom have failed to have enough yeosang smut on the market and it Saddens Me

~Lyra

i am CLINICALLY INSANE!!!!!!!! WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME 😭😭😭

like i’m sorry but i can imagine him just pinning you to the door, fully clothed, and grinding up against you. his mouth is just on your neck, sucking, biting, kissing at your flesh until its mottled with purple bruises. like there’s literally no rhyme or reason, he’s just that desperate to his his mouth on you and mark you up that he barely gives you a minute to think straight.

like you’re still both fully dressed and your back is still presses uncomfortable against the door, but that doesn’t stop yeosang from bucking his hips up into yours, dry humping you because he doesn’t have the patience with you right now. he needs you to know that you’re his and his alone.

“can’t fucking believe you,” he growls before biting down on the soft flesh. you keen at the sensation, legs going weak. you’re glad he has you pinned to the door; if he didn’t, you might fall, “all over that guy as if you don’t have a perfectly good boyfriend who takes care of you. what? did you just want my attention? because now you have it.”

you whimper as he grinds down hard against your pelvis, his clothed hard-on rubbing so deliciously against your folds. you want him in you, but with everything that’s going on, you can barely think, let alone talk.

“s-sangie-” you choke out, trying to tell him how bad you need him, but you’re cut off by the whine that claws it’s way up your throat.

“what?” he grunts into your neck, “you want to tell me something?”

you nod, but no words come out. yeosang chuckles darkly into your neck.

“go on then, baby,” his teeth graze against you, threatening to add to the purple bruises that run up and down your skin, “if you’re going to tell me anything, tell me how bad you need me.”

you know it’s an ego thing. of course it is; yeosang was obviously hurt when he saw you flirting with the other man, and now it’s your job to repair that. and you would, if you could hold a thought for more than two seconds. you’d love nothing more than to stroke his ego, make him feel all big and powerful and like he’s the only man in the world.

but you just can’t. every time you open your mouth, you lose your train of thought and all that comes out is a few pants as yeosang tears your mind down to nothing. you cant even focus when he pulls back a little, studying your face with glassy eyes before diving right back into your neck. he doesn’t suck, or bite, or kiss this time. he just nuzzles the sticky skin with his nose, mumbling almost incoherent words against it.

“baby,” he says after a moment or two, voice a little breathier than before, “baby, please tell me me how much you need me. need to hear it.”

his tongue darts out and he begins to lap one of the bite marks, as if trying to soothe it. it only makes your mind race more.

as do the continuous whimpers that you can hear spilling into the air, only this time they’re not from you. they’re from yeosang.

yeosang who is still grinding into you, albeit with sloppier, softer motions than before. who is still pinning you to the wall, only with a more desperate grip, as if you’ll slip away if he lets go. who still has his face pressed against your neck, words slipping from his mouth, but now they beg rather than degrade.

“baby, please,” he whispers, and you feel something wet fall against your neck; a tear, “i need you tell tell me you need me.”

he sounds so pathetic, crying into your neck like that, and it soon sinks in that the tables have turned without you even really realising. the man that had pinned you to the door minutes prior, wanting nothing more than to teach you a lesson, had vanished. he’s been replaced by your baby boy, who was so desperate to hear how much you wanted him. so desperate to know that you loved him as much as he loved you.

you try your hardest to gather your thoughts, just enough for you to be able to scrape together a sentence or so. but with yeosang bucking against you like a dog in heat, its so incredibly hard. add that to the fact that he’s gone back to suckling at your neck like its going to bring him some sort of comfort and there’s no way you were getting a coherent sentence out.

so you lace you fingers into his hair, grateful of how long it had gotten, and tug. he lets out a long whimper, eyes rolling into the back of his head as you tug his far enough back to see his face. you tug again, wordlessly pleading for him to look at you. just once would be enough for him to see how thoroughly mindless he has you already. just once for him to understand that he is all you can think about right now.

[weirdly-specific-but-ok]

REWATCHING GO S1, LIVE PLAY-BY-PLAY OF DOOMSDAY WAHOO

HELLO MAGGOTS REWATCHING SEASON 1 BECAUSE THE FIRST TIME WAS A KIDNAPPING CHAOTIC MESS. EPISODE ONE HERE GOES. I DON'T REMEMBER A LOT OF DETAILS BUT YES.

Opening scene and Earth's got vibe-checked by God and I've been gaslit about the dinosaurs

GARDEN OF EDEEEEEN wow his first appearance and Aziraphale's already so prissy and flustered might fuck around and fall in love with him idk

I finally understand who these mf's are hi Hastur and Ligur you're not zombies after all

FOR FUCK'S SAKE SECOND SCENE CROWLEY'S BEEN IN AND SHE WALKED IN, SERVED HIPS HAIR AND CUNT, AND THEN MANAGED TO TALK HER AWAY INTO A PROBLEM

LIKE GENUINELY SHE COMES AND SASHAYS WITH HER HAIR AND SAYS TIMES ARE CHANGING AND HEAD OFFICE LOVES ME AND JUST INSTANTLY HASTUR AND LIGUR USE HER WORDS AGAINST HER

idk sister mary loquacious is kinda doing it for me rn with that satanic nun's habit and losergirl energy

third crowley scene and he's misplaced THE LITERALLY GODDAMNED ANTICHRIST because he made small talk with a bloke outside without checking for details

mmmmhm yes sister mary wink again your bitchless decisions are sexy y'know what i mean

Gabriel feels like his brain was eviscerated and replaced with one of those youtuber's paid course promos at the end of their how to change your life in 45 days: three simple mindset shifts video

so THIS IS WHY EVERYONE KEEPS SAYING PAVLOVIAN IN THIS FANDOM IT'S BECAUSE OF DUCKS of course it's because of ducks

mmmhm yes sure crepes French revolu--Crowley stop eye-fucking Aziraphale you're making everyone at the Ritz horny

Aziraphale don't moan into your food man you can't take these two anywhere

Crowley thanking the driver for slowing down is everything to me

And they're drunk hu-fucking-zzah good thing we'll have 11 year olds saving the world coz these fuckers sure ain't doing shit

OH MY GOD HE WAS TRYING TO SAY BOUILLABAISSE I JUST REALISED. I THOUGHT HE WAS JUST MAKING KISSY FACES AT AZIRAPHALE I'M NOT OK-

What Aziraphale was doing back was definitely kissy faces though that mfer wasn't even trying to say bouillabaisse when Crowley said what sounded suspiciously like baby

kissy kissy from lil miss prissy [i would have made such a great high school bully shame i had no inclinations that way]

SORRY WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK WAS THAT SOBERING UP EXCUSE ME THE FANFICS MADE IT SOUND LIKE IT WAS A CLICK AND THEY'RE SUDDENLY NORMAL WHY IS THE ALCOHOL REFILLING

oop nun down nun down

i want ya see a wile ya thwart amirite on a t-shirt

"actually i encourage humans to-" just say you're a lazy bitch azi we love you

love crowley fake-manipulating azi into helping like azi wants to be manipulated y'know so it's not technically his fault he was wiled over or whatever and they're both just such ENABLERS

not azi going SOFT at being godfathers with crowley

NOT BROTHER FRANCIS PLEASE NO FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS SACRED AZI WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS PLEASE

WARLOCKKKKK I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

HNNNG MICHAEL SHEEN HAD TOO MUCH FUN WITH THIS

why is nanny ashtoreth so seductive with that of course dear is it just crowley's inherent disastergirl sex appeal

HALF PONYTAIL CROWLEY I AM A FUCKING SLUT FOR HALF PONYTAIL

GASLIGHTING HEAVEN AND HELL THAT'S MY BABYGIRLS

erIC THE DISPOSABLE DEMON I DIDN'T KNOW THEY COME IN S1 well not come i hope unless being eaten by a hellho--nope

ANGEL CROWLEY SAID ANGEL ANGEL ANGEL

CROWLEY TRYING TO BE SUBTLE ABOUT KILLING BEFORE GETTING ANNOYED

waiter crOWLEY OUTFIT I CANNOT BE NORMAL AFTER THE WEDDING DRESS DESIGNING ABOUT THIS COSTUME

FOOLS WRONG BOY YOU FOOLS IM DEAD

DOG IS UNIRONICALLY SO CUTE EVEN BEFORE IT GOES SMOL

gonna give my roxie a kissy brb she's my angel and all this dog talk makes me miss her (she's a few feet away under the bed)

i asked her for a kissy and she crawled out and gave me a kiss i love her

DOGGGGG ADAMMM

...roxie's crying to be taken downstairs it's nearly 2 am this is on me for waking her up i crowley'd myself fml

EYYYYY WELCOME TO THE END TIMES don't mind me I'll have to take roxie down yes I know maggots I'm crowley-coded I KNOW THAT I'M A BLOODY DISASTER BYEEEEEEEE

[batshieroglyphics]

Surprise self-rec time! Pick 3 of your favorite things you’ve written and share them here, then put this in the inbox (anonymously or not) of your fellow writers to spread the positivity and help celebrate already written fics 💞

I feel like this is a trick question, mostly because I am multi-fandom, and I tend towards favs per fandom, as opposed to favs of all time, lol So, uhhh, how about a fic from 3 diff fandoms that...I don't know I'd call them my 'fav', but they're the ones I'm most inclined/tempted to reread in that fandom on a whim.

For Fullmetal Alchemist, I'm going to say Colours in Your Eyes. It was a Big Bang piece, and I really, really loved how it turned out. Playing with soulmates is always interesting, but I loved the chance to fuck around with this one. I had a lot of fun playing with the ideas of cultural differences and how when you discovered your soulmate could change things. And I was just so, so happy with the ending. I think the last ending I adored as much as I did this one, was Reclaim. It just....hit that sweet spot.

Picking one for Final Fantasy VIII, lol, okay, that's...rough. I going to go with Noblesse Oblige, I think. I did so much work on developing the world in this fic, and building out original characters that were able to join as part of the main cast. It's also my only fic that really looks at how the events of canon might have unfolded in the following months. It was very much a labour of love, and I remain very proud of it.

I'm going to cheat, for Star Wars, actually, and pick a series: JasBen Save a Galaxy Far, Far Away. Because it has the healing and the happy ending that Obi-Wan—Ben— deserves. It's also got Jaster being an awesome and supported Mand'alor, and Tor not going batshit, and Xanatos getting the healing he deserves, and little baby!Obi-Wan being the cutest fucking thing. And it manages to be both pro-Jedi and pro-True Mandos, without shitting on either one, or shitting on the New Mandos (although it's pretty clear they're less than respected, oops), which is...such an achievement in this fandom, I am so proud of myself for it. I am sad that the clones aren't in it, but the series feels to me like healing and acceptance, and that's almost always going to be my go-to when I'm trolling my fic, looking for something to read.

[marshmallowprotection]

You’re really good at analyzing the characters so what are some common mischaracterizations or head canons people in the fandom have about the characters that you don’t like?

Common? Well, there are a lot of things little things that I don't care for when I see them, but I know most people feel the same. Yoosung has a huge one. I hate when people make cousin jokes at his expense and I scroll and block when I see people make them at this point. It's not funny, and you don't understand Yoosung as a person. You don't understand his grief and frankly, that's insulting because that's a big part of his character arc.

People belittle him and make him feel like a kid when he's twenty-one years old and coming into his own. He's not a baby, sure, he going to learn a lot in the future because there's so much he hasn't gotten the chance to experience, but lack of experience doesn't mean that he's not capable of standing on his own. Yes, compared to the other RFA members, he hasn't done a lot, but that doesn't mean he's not super accomplished. He was a stellar student, he worked hard to get to the place he is, and the only reason he's floundering is due to the grief in his heart.

Grief plays a huge role in his story and if you want to understand him, you need to know his grief. Set aside the fact that Rika's still alive. He doesn't know that and in most routes, he never does. She was so very important to him because Yoosung was a lonely person even though he was a popular kid who didn't have trouble making friends. He was lonely and you can tell he's lonely if you look hard enough to see it in your own eyes.

Actually, if you want my headcanon about him, I think Yoosung was an oops baby. I think his sister was much older than he is and due to that fact, he was never super close to her. Sure, his family is the most normal in the entire game, but that doesn't mean it doesn't have its own faults. His mother loves him, she does her best to take care of him, but it seems like his father is always rather busy at his job with the government. With a sister much older than him that he can't ever seem to relate to, and a mom who is trying her best but pushes him when he makes mistakes, and a father who isn't around all that much for him, it's got to be lonely.

Why else do you think he latched onto Rika when she came to speak to him? She saw him. She saw him and related to him. She was closer to his age and knew how to talk to him. It's no wonder Rika became a very important person in his life. She saw that he was lonely and that he needed others to root for him, and that's why she convinced him to stick around and join the RFA. Rika did care for Yoosung, she really wanted him him to do well in life back then, and pulling him into the RFA was the best thing Rika did for him because it gave him a place to have others to turn to for advice.

The RFA is a found family no matter what, and even though the RFA playfully bullies Yoosung sometimes, they're some of the only people who know the facets of who Yoosung is.

Zen isn't a narcissist and even if he was one, that's not a bad thing. However, I will say it's not a good look when folks shout that word and villainize personality disorders. Please, I implore people to do more research and be more mindful about how they speak about personality disorders, not just with narcissistic personality disorder, but BPD, OCD, etc.

He is overcompensating. When he is spouting compliments toward himself, it's because he's trying to convince himself that those words have power. Words do have power, let me tell you, and if you call yourself trash all the time, you are inevitably going to believe you are trash. 

I'm not saying you have to do what he's doing to build up your confidence, but I'm going to say that what he's doing can be quite helpful for people. You'll make a lot of progress if you're not trying to beat yourself down. The world isn't going to hold back its punches, so why in the world would you beat yourself down just to help the things that want to see you crumble? I know it's easier said than done, but it's good to be in the habit of not insulting yourself.

You don't have to compliment yourself, but don't call yourself trash. 

You know another thing about him that gets to me? It’s something he shares with Jumin that doesn’t get the conversation it needs. Both of them have more in common than they realize. They're both victims of sexual harassment, and one of the reasons why I love Zen Route has to do with the fact that they get to have a healthy conversation about their insecurities and what they've both experienced.

Jumin downplays his copious trauma all the time, but speaking with Zen is a way to front those demons with someone who won't mince words for his sake but will also be understanding and considerate at the same time. Jumin thinks he isn't allowed to complain to expend on his trauma because he's a man in a place of privilege. He thinks it isn't important in the grand scheme of things. He thinks he got lucky and others deserve far more sympathy than he does because they've not had as much fortune as he has.

Zen calls him on his shit for it. That's why I love when Zen and Jumin can truly begin to understand each other underneath their banter of "Zen hates Jumin because Jumin reminds him of his older brother in the worst way imaginable" and "Jumin lets Zen poke at him because it's fun to have debates and discussions with others and Zen doesn't hold back" and "Zen gets rightfully angry about how rich people can flaunt their wealth" and "Jumin doesn't even hate Zen, he just leans into what Zen expects because it's what Zen "wants.""

Zen and Jumin have a lot in common. Sure, some people understand that, but I think some of the little details get missed. It took me a long time to understand Jumin because he peeved me at first, but once I got to see who he is as a person, I realized that you shouldn't judge a book by its cover, and that's a lesson we all know, but it's good to get it reinforced. You learn that in Zen's Route, and you can't shake it off when you get Jumin's Route when needs the same theory applied to it.

I just don't like it when put don't put weight on Jumin's trauma and entirely miss it when it's blatant.

Don't get me started on the bad ending. I don't like talking about his bad ending because people like to romanticize that relationship and call it canon. That's the problem for me. I also love indulging in Bad Endings myself, but I do not call them the good ending. My problem with Jumin’s BE is that there are people who claim the Bad Ending is healthy and fight to say that it’s a “better ending.”

Listen, my friend, if you want an ending with a relationship that has BDSM, you can have that. You can have that in the Good Ending. You do not have to get a Bad Ending to get it, you can write and imagine it in the Good Ending, and you can have the characters communicate consent and boundaries. You can imagine that and have it that way! I can't believe I have to say that! It is 100% okay to consume content for the Bad Ending and to create it.

But for the love of God, stop calling it a Good Ending and stop acting like it's healthy. Cheritz made a DLC for it because they knew people would pay for that. That's literally the only reason why that got made and I hate it. I hate that his trauma about his damn mother is hidden in a ending that emotionally destroys that man and you would never know anything about it unless you decided to play it. His mother is a piece of shit, by the way, but I'm sure most people know that by now.

All I want is for people to call the ending what it is and to tag it appropriately so I can avoid it. I don't want to consume anything for it and that's my choice. I'm not saying you can't enjoy it, please enjoy it if you want to enjoy it, but call it for what it is because I call all of the Bad Endings I consume Bad Endings for a reason.

I hate it when people say that Jaehee is bland. I hate it when people say that Jaehee is overbearing about Zen and then they bash her into the ground because she "gets in the way" of Zen/MC. I hate when I'm forced to see someone claim that Jaehee's route isn't romantic. Y'all do realize that Jaehee's route has the most realistic route, right? She isn't yet aware of her sexuality or her feelings toward other woman. It doesn't occur to her at first that her feelings for MC are romantic and it takes time for her to fall in love. She's not rushing this experience... she's indulging in it.

She wants to be your partner, your best friend, your closest person in the world first, and as you get closer, that's when you fall in love. She needs time to sort out her feelings, that's the kind of person she is. It takes her time to process her feelings. She's spent her entire life in a place where she's had to fight to earn her keep and look after herself. She went after a career field that would take care of her, and while it's great that she's good at being an assistant to Jumin, it's empty.

It doesn't make her happy. It gives her enough money to pay for all kinds of tickets to see Zen perform, sure, but it doesn't make her feel good about life. Jaehee's route is about someone who feels like they are trapped in a job that's killing them slowly because they don't think they can dream and try something risky because that risk might just be the thing that makes them happy and fulfilled.

I understand that people get frustrated when Zen gets to have hard conversations with Jaehee. I know that a lot of people would rather see the MC complete those visuals with Zen or do it themselves, but I think it’s important to understand why Zen is the one who talks to Jaehee about dreams and passion. Zen ran away from home to chase after his dream knowing it may not happen. It took him a while to get to the point he's at today, and not that many people are lucky when they chase after their dreams. He took a huge risk, which is very scary when you could take the easier path next to it, and to him, it was the risk worth taking.

Jaehee's afraid to take risks.

Having Zen, her idol, tell her to follow her passion, made a difference. On top of that, Saeyoung helped her, too. He could see that she was miserable and he offered to do that report for her so she wouldn't have to torture herself when she finally found something that put light in her eyes. Saeyoung, Zen, and MC are the real MVPs of that route.

While those two are doing their best, you’re doing the same work in the background. You are her confidant, the person who hears her, and the one who is there at the end of the day when all is said and done and she needs somebody to listen. 

That's how she starts to fall in love with you, and it's something she'll realize a little bit later after you two are working together to achieve a dream, and I think it's important to understand that. Your relationship builds from being friends to falling in love.

Yes, I understand there are jokes about them just being friends and this route being the platonic one, but I don't think people understand Mystic Messenger took a huge leap in 2016 by having a romanceable queer female route in the game. Progress is progress, and it's damn important to be happy when we have these milestones. I've seen so many other games come out after this leap was made and it's getting better with every new game that comes out that has male and female options. 

I know it can feel like such a minor thing after the fact, but little jumps are what make progress happen. Whether it's the wedding in Steven Universe that was fought by tooth and nail in 2018, or with Korrasami going canon in 2014, progress comes when we fight for it. Jaehee's route is one of those moments.

Pushing Cheritz for more gave us more romantic content in the game as well.

The Valentine’s DLC for Jaehee is much more blatant and even the Christmas DLC has its moment. Better yet, the birthday images over the years have become much more forthcoming in the fact that Jaehee and MC are in a relationship. You can be proud of the little things, and you can be proud of progress, because if you don't take a moment to appreciate the little things, it feels like the world is bleak and that's no way to live. 

I hate it when people misunderstand Saeyoung but that's something that's been fought over a lot over years so I don't think I need to say a lot about that. He is a multifaceted character and people limit him to being a silly guy. We all know where people go wrong with that at the end of the day and it's so much easier just to keep scrolling than it is to deal with someone who only wants to make him a joke. He isn't the butt of a joke. He's Saeyoung Choi.

However, I will say that I don't appreciate it when people don’t give him the same compassion as Saeran when it comes to his trauma. What I mean by that is I don’t see people talk about what Saeyoung suffered through because of Mother Choi—I don’t see a lot of talk about how Saeyoung was parentified and had to fight tooth and nail to take care of Saeran to the point where his identity became one in which his only reason for living was to take care of Saeran. People scratch the surface of this, but they don't get into the thick of it.

I don't see people talk about his feelings about his mother and how his parentification haunts him to this day. 

When people write (Secret Ending) Saeran to be an asshole. I have a lot of squicks about him fandom wise.

I have never enjoyed people writing him out to be cruel and vindictive but that is something people have done in the past, but fortunately enough, I haven't seen many people do it in the last year or so but it was a problem back in the day and it still irks me when I think about it. I get it, a lot of what we know about him has to be built on what we think as the player since there isn't information about him after his breakdown with his brother.

As fans, we had to build his personality ourselves and figure out his perspective. I don't think there's a right or wrong way to make some content for him, but I do hate it when people go out of their way to make him cruel. 

One of the reasons I wanted to start writing him in the first place was because every time I tried to read content for him, he would be such an asshole to Saeyoung. I get it. I know why people assume he would be that way, but he is baked in apathy and numbness. He does not have the energy to fight and made that abundantly clear in the end that he doesn’t have the strength to fight Saeyoung anymore. That's the main reason why he just stopped trying to... you know, get rid of himself.

His brother was never going to let him die. He accepted that he can't leave this world even if he wants to, so he's trying to make the best of what he has. He has the sky and he has ice cream, and that's pretty much all he has. 

He is sullen. He may not always be forthcoming or kind people, but he doesn't have the energy to be destructive anymore. It would take a lot to upset him. You would need to push every button in the book to get him to lash out. What's the point in lashing out at everyone when it doesn't solve anything? That's not to say he doesn't have moments where he can't see anything but the past and he lashes out because he's terrified, but that's different than actively choosing to be cruel to other people.

I don't think he has many people around him other than Saeyoung and MC. He doesn't know how to interact with other people and he doesn't particularly want to start at this point because he feels like it's too late. I also don't agree with the people who imply that he would be friends with the RFA. That is where I differ with a lot of people and I'm okay with that because that's just the way I imagine things to be and I don't try to force my opinion on others. 

It's nothing against the members of the RFA. I just don’t think he would want to be friends with them. Jumin and Yoosung especially. They were closest to Jihyun and Rika. It's not their fault they had that closeness with them, but because of that closeness, Saeran wouldn’t want to go near there.

Saeran killed Jihyun. We could argue up and down all day long if that was something he wanted to do when he raised that gun to defend himself thinking his brother was dead. But, he did do that even in the wrong state of mind and that's something he has to carry for the rest of his life. Jihyun was Jumin’s best friend. Saeran won't be able to look that man in the eye even if Jumin could look past it knowing the complexities of the situation.

Yoosung held Rika close after the events of the Secret Ending and shipped her off with Zen, don't get me started on how much I hate that because I write it out of anything I write with the Secret Ending. That never happens in my Secret Ending. Rika goes to jail to face the consequences of her crimes and gets some well-needed therapy for her own trauma that's been left to the wayside.

He wouldn't want to be around Zen or Jaehee, either. He stalked them for years. He put them through hell depending on the ending you're playing. He doesn't want to be around them and he doesn't want their "pity" friendship. Saeran knows they would be nice to him for Saeyoung's sake, and he doesn't want that. I get it, I love it when Saeran is friends with the RFA, but that isn't happening in the Secret Ending, I'm sorry. Your MC can be friends with them, but... I just can't say Saeran will.

It was actually a dream of mine to write a SE Saeran/Reader fic that had the characterization I wanted for years and I finally a few years ago because I said, "What the hell, people will read it if they want." If you want to see my take on SE Saeran, please, read my fic Iris, It will keep you busy for a while, it's 170k.

I've never been huge on Yooran in the context of SE Saeran/Yoosung because most of the basis is built around the Bad Ending and when I see content for them, I'm always wary of it because I know there's a subtle chance that the writer might make Saeran become an ass to everyone around him and treat Yoosung in ways I'm not going to even think about. You can write whatever you want, just tag it properly if it is an unhealthy dynamic, and back in the earlier days, there weren't a lot of warning tags so it really soured it for me given how I already felt about SE Saeran.

I do think the ship can be great when it is founded in Another Story, though. Yoosung admires Saeran and even admits to having a crush on him, and in this ending, hey, if you want to imagine Yoosung/MC/Saeran or Saeran/Yoosung post-Another Story? I would love to see it. Because, God, Yoosung treating VAE Ray and Saeran tenderly during fireworks because they're terrified of loud noises? Or, even better, I'm giddy at the thought of Yoosung and GE Saeran baking together in a French kitchen!

I have thoughts and feelings about Rika and V as well, but those don’t land most of the time for me because I have to consistently hammer home that I don’t condone what either of them did every time. Just because I try to understand their past and motivations doesn't mean I condone their bullshit. Motivation, Traumatic Backstory =/= excuses. There is no excuse for their actions and they need to face judgement for it. Hard to have a conversation about them because some people think I'm condoning or erasing their actions by trying to understand more about them as person.

So, I don't get too heavy into those two, but I will say that a lot of people don't understand Rika and V because they don't want to. I can't fault them for that, either.

I understand why most people would not want to touch them with a ten-foot pole. You are not being forced to learn more about them, why they are the way they are, or what brought them to the point in which they made their choices. If you never want to learn anything more about them, I can't blame you for that. But, if you want to talk about them in a larger capacity beyond "I hate them and I want them to go to face justice for this and that" (very valid take, by the way), it's important to understand their motivations, if nothing else. 

I think they are interesting characters and I want to understand more about them because looking at Jihyun is an uncomfortable mirror for me at times. It's helped me be a better person.

[thewritingginger]

;) Alphabet - Ran Haitani pt. 2

Wow! It’s been a HOT minute since I’ve posted  I’ve been in a rut lately but I’m trying to work myself out of it :)

In the mean time here's some spicy Ran HCs for your Tuesday 

Fandom: Tokyo Revengers  Letters: C, E, G, O, U Warnings: 18+, GN! Reader, Talks of sex

Enjoy ~

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person)

Ran’s cum is usually pretty thin & not a lot comes out

If he’s on a business trip/ too busy to get off w/ you or by himself he might produce more

He enjoys cumming inside his partner, if they want him to, but he really likes painting his partner with his seed

Spraying it onto their belly or onto their used hole feels more territorial to him than filling them up

Isn’t afraid to eat his cum out of you oop

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

Ran has a fair amount to experience

Most of them are one night stands or short term flings

He does have long spells w/o action cuz work gets in the way and it can become more of a hassle than fun to get laid when he is trying to work—also not to mention boi would probably prefer taking a nap over the risk of having a meh lay with a one night stand

But all that said, he knows enough to get you off and listens well enough to become a pro at working your body

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

As we know Ran is a little chill boy

Of course he, if in a serious relationship/ is down bad, he will slow things down and make love to his partner

But if something happened like knocking heads or stumbling he just laughs it off and gets back to business

He never wants his partner to feel bad when you should both be feeling good

Also he can have a playful streak

Especially during foreplay/ the initiation of sex

If you’re ticklish, he might use that against you

He might say some cheesy/ silly shit

“So cute I could just eat you up, Baby,” he says as he is kissing and playfully biting down your torso and sides, or your inner thighs towards the space inbetween

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

Loves lazy licking on his partner

He could honestly spend a while between your legs

If he catches you lying on the couch he might strip off your pants and get to work between your legs for the fun of it

He is part of the does it for HIS pleasure gang

Of course tho he does love seeing your lips wrapped around him

He’ll sink far into whatever seat he is in—the couch, his office chair, ect— with his hand gently caressing your hair as he watches you work yourself up and down his shaft with that lazy smile of his

He also praises you, both while giving or receiving 😉

“You taste so good, Baby”

“Stop? Is my tongue too much for your sensitive body? I’m sorry, Sweetheart but I have no intentions of stopping till you come on my tongue.”

“Just like that. Good Girl/Boy.”

“You are so good for me, knowing just what I like, huh.”

Honestly on nights he wants to get off but is too tired, he loves opting for oral/ using his hands

But he loves it as a “main course” any time, any day

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

He is a teasing mother fucker

It’s not always in a hyper dominate way during sex

He finds it much more fun during foreplay—he’ll do it out in public if the mood strikes him

“Careful, Baby, keep looking at me like that you’ll let everyone you’re dripping in your panties for me.”

If he put a toy in you before y’all left the house he likes you turn it on when you least expect it

Once when you were out to dinner with him and the guys he had you squirming in your chair, trying hard to hide it. He just put his hand on your thigh and leaned into your ear,

“You all right, Sweetheart? Do you need to go to the bathroom?” 

Then he just laughed when you gave him a glare 

Hope you liked that!

If you want to see more, let me know 

Feedback & Interaction is always appreciated :)

💛 ~

~ Masterlist ~

[year2000electronics]

PLEASE say more about the fandom demonization of Branch's brothers cuz I feel the same. I've been dying for some nuance in this house

OH I VERY GLADLY WILL. i’ve said my piece about how brozone was in a COMPLETELY different situation than branch due to being teens or young adults when he was a baby and how being locked into a career you’re starting to hate your role in while being bossed around by your big brother who is acting like your BOSS, and how damaging that is for your own self image and how it’s so much harder feeling trapped in your life at that age instead of at branch’s age, but i feel like something people also don’t think about is like. the doylist thing. (doylist: reasoning for something to be happening that is about real-world actions and intent, not the canon lore)

which is just the very simple fact that… of course branch’s brothers had to disappear and go no-contact for 20 years, because branch did not mention them in the first two trolls movies and it would be weird if he didn’t for any other reason. it’s the same w king peppy, where he accidentally becomes WAY worse by not mentioning the genre trolls and viva when like. it HAD to be a secret otherwise why was none of it mentioned in trolls 1? time travel isn’t real yet so we can’t retroactively foreshadow any of this

BUT since trolls is a Fandom and since fandom is inclined to take things very seriously about media i don’t think that matters to people a lot haha so i guess at the end of the day, to me it feels a little disingenuous when people only focus on branch’s trauma in the situation because i feel like it’s a far more interesting thing for branch to see their side of the story too! not necessarily for insta-forgiveness but me personally i like writing the brozone era where branch is oblivious to the fact that yeah, it DIDNT just all end in one bad show, which is branch’s perspective (maybe why he’s so bitter, too- to him things were perfect until they weren’t) but instead how brozone was slowly putting cracks in the brothers’ relationship and how things were slowly and slowly getting worse until it snapped, and at that point they just HAD to leave. like the dramatic tension of the brothers needing to escape their own horrible situation they’ve made vs “oh yeah you have a baby brother oops” vs the bros leaving BEFORE TROLLSTICE WAS EVEN A THING (don’t argue w me on this i have proof) so they think leaving him with grandma, his LEGAL GUARDIAN, was the best decision!!!!

it’s all just so JUICY and it makes me a little sad when people are like “i think branch should get to yell at his brothers for 13 hours straight. i think they should Suffer for what They Did” because the full situation is so much more intriguing than that

[andreafmn]

12 Days of Ficmas - Day 10

Prompt (by @12-days-of-ficmas): fighting while setting up the christmas tree/soft emo reconciliation

Word Count: 2.9K

Story Description: (Y/N) understood how hard Aaron worked, and everything that his job entailed. But when life starts to happen without him around, she can't help but feel scared that his job is taking things that can never be replaced.

Fandom: Criminal Minds

Pairing: Aaron Hotchner x Female!Reader

Warnings: whole lotta angst, also pregnancy trope (oops)

A/N: I'm all caught up!!

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Keeping Promises

Working in the BAU was taxing work, and (Y/N) understood that. It called for long hours, traumatizing cases, and a lot of time away. Being part of the behavioral analysis unit meant sacrificing moments with loved ones, missing child milestones, and looking over holidays. All of that (Y/N) understood – she always understood.

Since she met the unit’s chief, she had learned just how much being a special agent took from a person. Aaron Hotchner had missed anniversaries, birthdays, parent-teacher conferences, and many other dates to count. But, of course, she acknowledged how hard it was they worked to keep people they didn’t know safe.

Still, she couldn’t help but get irritated from time to time. It was frustrating to have to tell Jack that his father wasn’t gonna be home for many of the days the little boy deemed special – his soccer games, his spring recital, his camp graduation. It was frustrating to get ready for dates that would never happen. It was frustrating to have to live their family life for the two of them.

“Hotch, we were supposed to pick out the tree by last week, and have it all decorated for this weekend,” (Y/N) spoke into her phone since it was the only way she could communicate with her husband. “You promised Jack we would have you home for Christmas this year, that we would do everything we haven’t in a very long time.”

“Look, (Y/N), I told you it wasn’t a sure thing that we’d be done with this case. I know I told him that I would be home, but I can’t just leave in the middle of work,” Hotchner argued. He knew he was hurting his family, the same thing he had done years ago and had vowed not to do again. “Just get a tree and we’ll decorate it when I come back.”

“Baby, you can’t keep doing this. He was so excited to have you home this weekend. You can’t keep making promises like this to him and not seeing them through. It’s gonna break the poor kid.”

“What do you want me to do, (Y/N)?” Hotch said, exasperation clearly laced in his words. “I can’t be in two places at once, okay? You knew this when you married me. I have a demanding enough job for you to be pestering me about it every single time I miss something.”

“So, that’s how it’s gonna be then?” the woman said trying to hold back tears. “Just one time, Aaron. I was just asking for this one time for you to be here. I understand that your job keeps you away and I’ve always been fine with it. But Jack misses you. He wanted his father here and he won’t be. Sorry that I had to try one more time before I broke the news to the kid.”

“Honestly, (Y/N), you’re starting to sound just like Hal....” Aaron stopped himself as soon as the words left his mouth. He knew how hard she tried to not push him as his late wife had. “(Y/N), wait…”

“Goodbye, Aaron.”

(Y/N) hung up the phone quickly, allowing herself to let the tears flow freely. She was hurt, she was angry, and she was defeated. She didn’t want to bother her husband about his job, she knew how important it was to him. But she simply wanted to give Jack a Christmas with his father and his mother figure together, at least once. If she couldn’t do it for the boy, what chance did the one that she had found out she was carrying have?

Instead of moping, she called up her brother and asked him if he could pick up a tree for her. He was the only one close enough that could.

“Do you think you could take Jack with you? I want him to be able to do Christmas-y things,” she told her brother Dean. “I would but I have horrible morning sickness and I can barely move from the bathroom as is.”

“Yeah, of course, I’ll take the little guy,” Dean chuckled. “But I don’t know how good they’ll be. It’s Christmas Eve Eve. I just can’t believe Aaron won’t be here for this.”

“D, don’t. Please,” (Y/N) sighed. “I already had a fight about it with him. I don’t want to think about it anymore.”

“Sorry, sis. I’ll come by in thirty to pick up Jack, alright?”

“Thanks, Dean. I really appreciate it.”

She went up the stairs to find little Jack in his bedroom drawing. The thing she dreaded the most was the sad gaze that fell upon him every time she had to tell him his father wouldn’t make it. But she would never badmouth his father to him – he was a hero.

“Hey, buddy. What’re you drawing there?”

“It’s a present for daddy,” he exclaimed. “This is you, daddy, and me decorating our tree. Isn’t it pretty?”

“Wow! It’s great, bud.” She had to hold back her tears again, not wanting the kid to be worried. “Jack, listen. Daddy’s not gonna be able to make it tonight like planned. But he has a case for you. You need to go with uncle Dean and you’re gonna pick out the best tree you can find – any tree you want. Make sure it’s big and pretty, okay?”

“Alright, I’m on it!” Excitement filled his voice; sure this is what was meant to happen.

The kid didn’t know any better yet. He still had high hopes for his father and thought he got sad when Aaron wasn’t there, he believed (Y/N) when she told him it was all part of a plan. He got ready quickly and told her all about the tree he was planning to get.

When his uncle got there, he was more than excited about going on his mission. (Y/N) zipped up his jacket, put his mittens on, and fixed the hat on his head. After she placed a kiss on his cold cheek, she helped him up into Dean’s truck.

“Okay, bud. Have a lot of fun with uncle Dean. I’ll see you when you get back,” she told him as she buckled him in his car seat. “Call me if you need anything.”

“Will do, momma,” he responded, kissing her cheek. “See you later.”

She waved goodbye as the pair rode out of the driveway. Soon after, she was on her knees in front of the toilet, barfing out what little she could eat for breakfast.

Alone in the house, her fears crept in again. What if she did have to raise Jack and the baby all by herself? What if one day she got the call that Hotch wasn’t coming back? In his line of work, anything could happen to Aaron – anytime and anyplace. It scared her. It gave her a crippling anxiety she could barely contain many days.

Hours passed and she went through a rollercoaster of emotions. At first, she was angry, then she was sad, then anxious, and finally angry again. She didn’t want to feel this way, but she couldn’t control it. Mainly it was the hormones but worrying over Hotchner often left her this way.

To distract her mind, she cleaned around the house, wrapped Jack’s presents, and cooked dinner. (Y/N) needed to focus on anything but Aaron or the baby. Because the more she thought about it, the more emotional she got.

By the time the boys came back to the house, (Y/N) was exhausted.

Jack ran into the house, the ball of energy he always was, and startled her. He was excited about the tree they had gotten and had not stopped talking since he stepped into the house. The boy plopped on the sofa right next to her, giving her a big hug as he continued his rambling.

Meanwhile, Dean struggled to pull the tree into the house. The tree was big enough and he was by himself. But with (Y/N)’s and Jack’s rooting, he was able to place it on the base and stabilize the trunk.

After they ate dinner and Dean left for his own place – with a bottle of whiskey as payment – (Y/N) readied Jack for bed. He was exhausted after a long and exciting day. As he kept talking about all they did, his eyes started to betray him, making his head bob.

“Do you think we could wait for daddy to do the tree?” Jack asked as he yawned.

“Well, honey, I’m not sure when he’s getting home,” she told him. “And tomorrow’s Christmas Eve so we won’t have much time to finish it.”

“I just want daddy to be here. We were going to do the tree together. He promised.”

“I know, buddy.” More tears. She bit down on her tongue so the liquid didn’t fall. She had to be strong, for Jack’s sake. “What if he comes in really late? You know you have to be asleep for Santa to leave your presents.”

“Well, you can do it then. But only if he comes in late. Promise?”

“I absolutely promise, darling,” she smiled down at him. “Good night, bud.”

“Night, momma.”

(Y/N) kissed his forehead and tucked him in, making sure he was warm for the night before turning off the light. She went to bed promptly after, a couple of tears in her eyes and ager swimming through her veins. Something told her Aaron wouldn’t be coming home on time.

***

The whole day.

Jack and (Y/N) were waiting the whole day for Aaron to walk through the doors, but he never did. She even went as far as to leave him a couple of angry voicemails on the phone. He simply didn’t come home.

Morning slowly shifted to night. And as snow packed onto the pavement outside, (Y/N)’s anger grew.

Time trickled by, and Jack grew more and more tired. As eleven o’clock rolled around, Jack was sound asleep on the couch. He had waited as long as he could for his dad to come home, but his body couldn’t take it.

Two more hours and (Y/N) heard movement outside. Headlights brightened the living room, Aaron’s car coming into view. As soon as it did, boiling anger crept over her. She put on a coat and went to meet her husband outside.

“Look, (Y/N)…” Aaron tried to start before his wife talked, but she beat him to the punch.

“No, Aaron. I’m tired of excuses. I’m tired of you saying that it’s your job. Tired of you going back on what you say to save other people. Meanwhile, I am doing my absolute best to keep this family together,” she sobbed. “You told me you had taken those days off to be here with Jack. That’s all he wanted for Christmas, he wanted his father to be here. But you couldn’t help it, could you?  You still took another case. You couldn’t keep your promise, Aaron.”

“(Y/N), I know. I just…”

“Daddy!” Jack interrupted them, running into his father’s arms. “I knew you would make it.”

“Of course, buddy. I tried really hard to get here on time, but work held me back.”

“That’s okay,” the boy smiled. “We can do the tree now.”

“Honey, it’s a little late to be up,” (Y/N) told him. “But tomorrow we’ll all be together to open Santa’s present.”

“But I wanna stay up!”

“Jack, listen to your mom. We’ll do it next year, okay?”

“Okay!” The boy extended his arms to (Y/N), asking her to carry him inside.

She quickly obliged and put the kid in his bed. After going over their night routine, the woman headed downstairs. Her brows were furrowed and her arms crossed against her chest. If Hotchner couldn’t read her body language, he had no business being in his job.

But she didn’t talk. When she got downstairs and they started putting up the decorations, she didn’t say a single word. Instead, she worked around Aaron, who had rolled his sleeves and loosened his tie as he helped her. Or at least tried to.

Every time he placed an ornament out of place, (Y/N) would scoff or grunt in annoyance. Soon enough, he was growing tired of the silly game. It was childish and ineffective, he thought but didn’t dare say a word. He had screwed up. She had a right to be mad.

As he picked up a specific ornament, he was meant with another sound of disapproval.

“What now?” he said annoyed.

“That ornament is Haley’s,” she said, “Jack likes to put it at his height so he can look at it every time he stands in front of the tree.”

“I… I didn’t know.”

“I know you didn’t, Aaron. That’s because you’re never here to see these kinds of things. You didn’t know he likes to put all of his mother’s ornaments where he can see them; that he only asked Santa for a full day with his dad; he even drew a goddamn picture of how he wanted today to go,” she finally said. “That’s why he wanted you here. Because there are things he wants to do with you and show you, but he can’t. You’re missing out on him.”

“And I wish I could be here all the time, (Y/N), but I can’t. I can’t just decide today’s not good for me,” he responded. “Don’t you think it hurts me to miss those moments with him? That I wouldn’t trade it all for a day with him? But my work needs me.

“Your family needs you too!” She tried her best to keep her voice down, worried she’d wake the kid. But her emotions were taking over her, tears stinging her eyes. “We need you too, Aaron.”

“Where is this coming from? You’ve never been this pushy about my work. It makes no sense.”

“Because I’m scared!”

“Of what, (Y/N)?”

“That one day you won’t come home,” she sobbed. “I’m terrified every time you walk out that door; every time you don’t pick up your phone; every time you are SSA Hotchner, I am terrified. I don’t want to wake up one day and receive the call that you’re gone. Because I can’t do any of this without you, Aaron. I can’t raise a family without you – I don’t want to.

I know you love your job and I get the risk that comes with it – which is why I try my best not to bother you about it. But things have changed and your job can’t be the biggest thing in your life. You are not your job, Aaron.”

“What do you mean, darling? What has changed?”

“I’m pregnant.”

Aaron couldn’t believe what he was hearing. Everything was finally clicking into place. But he couldn’t find the right words to say as he processed the information he was given.

“Please, say something, Aaron. Anything.”

“God, I am so sorry, (Y/N).” He wrapped her in a tight hug, one hand on her neck and the other on the small of her waist. He needed to hold her and let her know he was there for her. “I shouldn’t have taken the case, you’re right. And I shouldn’t have said those stupid things I said. I should’ve kept my promise, but I couldn’t help myself. It’s hard for me to release control, and when the case fell on my desk I ignored my free days and went to Sacramento; I’m so sorry.

I know it must be hard to have to care for Jack, and now finding out you’re pregnant. I’m sorry I haven’t been here enough for you, darling.”

“I’m not asking you to give up your job, honey,” she cried into his chest. “I simply want for you to be more present. To be in your son’s life, to be in this baby’s life… in mine. That’s all we want.”

“And I will try harder at it, (Y/N). I swear I will.” Hotch was crying now, holding (Y/N)’s jaw with both of his hands to stare into her eyes. “I don’t want you to feel alone anymore. I don’t want to see Jack’s life through a video lens, much less this baby’s. Starting today, I promise you – and this time I intend to keep it – that I will be more present in our family. I can’t lose you either, darling.”

Aaron wiped away her tears before placing a kiss on her lips. It was a touch they needed, a touch they missed. Being away didn’t hurt one of them more than the other. It hurt them both.

“So, you’re pregnant?” Aaron chuckled as he wiped his tears away. When she nodded, he smiled brightly at her. “I’m gonna be a dad again.”

“You are, honey,” (Y/N) finally smiled. “But right now, we have to finish up this damn tree and put the presents under the tree.”

“Well, I know I’ve got the best present already. And I will do everything I can to guard it with my life.”

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[dezimaton]

musing to myself "ah, it's nice I can interact with some other artists for once during artfight for the month of july"

then I realized, it doesn't need to be just july

I could try to add more interactive activities to my art blog

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it dawned upon me that my current mode of posting is pretty un-interactive. I just draw what i like, then post it into the abyss that is the internet. sometimes I get some really sweet tags(and oh how I wish to vigorously shake the hand of some users that consistently brighten my day), but ultimately they're one-way messages: me to them and them to me

I would like to encourage more of a back-and-forth, a dialogue, since that's what I miss the most from the old internet before the current state of social media: I miss talking with people! exchanging goodies! appreciating ocs and sharing my own!

I don't think I'll be able to recreate that environment, but I can at least try my best to cultivate the energy

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so I brainstormed

art trades + compliments

freeform + meme commissions

oc asks + doodle responses

(open to suggestions if anyone has ideas!)

there are reasons why I don't do these presently, but I think perhaps in a limited capacity they are worth trying to see how it feels

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to elaborate-

art trades & commissions: I love drawing for other people! I love seeing everyone's varied ocs and their unique lore! and I love seeing people smile when they're handed a little art treat

artist-request-fatigue permitting, I could, would, and have spent my free time drawing for others for a good couple of years

The downside is that I end up neglecting my own characters. So sometime on my art journey I decided to distance myself from trades and comms to allow space for personal work

This decision freed me up to fall into an obscure fandom and end up STILL only sparsely drawing my own ocs. (oops!) But I don't regret the time I spent hellswording. I met a lot of good people and made a number close friends that I still talk to

So I'm thinking at a low frequency of once a month, I could try to do a little art trading/comms while retaining the rest of my free time for my own art (and life things that aren't drawing haha!)

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oc asks + responses: this one is a two pronged 'why not'

first one is, admittedly, that writing and characterization are a major weak point of mines

For the longest time my characters were design-only. I could assign them a profession and vaguely imagine a world they exist in, but I could not wrap my head around what personality they'd have and how they'd react to things- their likes and dislikes- how they'd interact with others (such vital stuff!)

After my stint in addhell, reading a great deal of fanfiction (and scuffily writing baby's first fics), I only recently started to grasp how to imagine an interaction and setup a scene

I'm still weak in this area which makes me hesitate, unsure I'd be able to answer oc asks definitively, but I think the /trying/ is part of the process of figuring them out

It's kind of silly, but I have this worry of answering one way then later deciding it's no longer accurate. Slowly trying to accept the idea that my word need not be law forever. I am not a company trying to maintain a consistent depiction. My ocs are allowed to grow with me and I am permitted to change my mind (because doing so too- is discovery in a way)

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The second wrench in the gears is that most of my ocs are positively ancient! dating back to 2013 (holy shit, the time really does pass) I still love them dearly, but their designs and stories are, as one would expect, outdated

I have not revisited their lore because while they have potential, they're so scattered (1-2 per verse...) and so bare bones I'd need to invest a lot of energy to flesh them out. the ideas will remain at the back of my mind, but I don't plan to work on them anytime soon. As such, they aren't well suited for oc asks since I don't have much depth to scratch at

Of the new guys, I have Tive! my cute lil sona! pngtuber for streams! and overall representative stand-in for socials. I don't intend to do anything with him other than draw him for fun, so he is free to meme! He has a little story packed with visuals I like, so I'd be happy to share more about him

The other 5 characters that I really want to share but haven't are for bhg. This is a little rpghorror game I want to make! Because they're involved in a story I want to tell (but try not spoil), as well as the project being very slow moving with just me working on it- I feel there is a low risk to sharing them at this stage

I've been working on them for the past year or so. My goal was to design them as a group so they complement each other in look, theming, and personality (trying to cook up fun interactions). It was a lot of effort going back n forth between characters, making multiple revisions, but I think I'm finally at 90% complete! I have a well balanced looking cast that I feel rather proud of

Lately I've turned my attention back to trying to assemble the slew of potential themes/scenes together into a reasonable timeline. Once again, writing is not my strong suit so boy am I feeling The Difficulty

pros

answering oc asks may help me figure their personalities better & iron out kinks in the visual designs as i doodle them

its a half-baked storytelling method, but not without merit- if i end up never finishing the game (I want to believe in myself though)

it'll be fun!

cons

answering asks may detract energy from development (but I'm not always motivated so this might not be so bad if i do it during muse downtime)

risk of AI datascraping/idea respinning before I can finish my vision

So- I think I can answer asks for Tive for sure! It feels a little lonely for him to be the only character up for questions, so I'll stew over some more whether I want to introduce and include bhg crew. I do want to try at least once though!

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If you've made it this far down this long ramble, wow. thank you for listening to me rave like a madman haha

After this year's artfight comes to a close on Aug3 (it was extended), I hope you'll consider chattering with me once I write up how the trades/comms will work. I've thought out an easygoing system that i hope will be fun and low stress ✨

[dearest-painter]

Yandere Hanzo and Soldier 76/Jack(separately) with a Bimbo!Fem!Reader & Himbo!Male!Reader who got their favorite sweets for their birthday.

TW/CW:Yandere behavior, unhealthy behavior, abusive relationship, abusive behavior, unhealthy relationship,Y/N stupid as hell,Like bitch don’t even realize why her/his Bf/Husband(depend which one) has red stains on their clothes,if I forgot any do not fear to tell me!,hella long!

A/N:So I changed jack’s to himbo as he’s gay (recently was told because I’m now just getting back into the fandom) and I wanna be respectful

Tag list: @originalgothhoagiefish-blog

HANZO

In a simple way? Shocked yet happy,you thought of him on his birthday even though you do that very often. He sadly still had work so he went but not before you pampered him as much as you could which made him embarrassed yet loved. As he was at work you started your plan as you made sure to do all your chores early just to start celebrating his birthday. You knew he didn’t like big celebrations for him so it was just gonna be a cake big enough for a few family and friends,a whole lot of pampering,spoiling your husband,and surprising him!

How would you surprise your lovely husband? Easy! Getting his favorite sweet! You made sure to get body guards as he always wants you protected how sweet of him! You soon got back with his favorite sweet. He got home exhausted as you got towards him very excited which made him smile. “Happy birthday honey!” “Thank you my love” “oh I made you some cake for any friends and family you chose and I got you something~~!” He was intrigued and curious. You ram towards the kitchen then back with a bag. “Shut your eyes!” He did so reluctantly as he smiled and sighed.

Putting one in your mouth you kissed him which he didn’t mind until he realized it was his favorite candy. When you pulled away he saw your giddy and happy face. “Well~? Did you like the surprise?” “Yes my dear I did and my favorite candy?” “Of course! I wanna show you how you make me feel! Loved!” He smiled and hugged you sniffing your scent. He’s happy he never told you his profession and that he married you his wonderful wife!

SOLDIER 76/JACK

He didn’t expect it one bit. He was exhausted and tired and all he wished to do was spend the rest of his birthday with his lovely stupid boyfriend. Nothing seemed odd at all before he left to work. As soon as you knew he was gone you started to bake a cake for him and make his favorite candy which was snickers…it wasn’t easy but it did help! You weren’t paying attention to the time and didn’t hear the door opening.

He knew something was off when he opened the door. He saw a light on so he silently went towards it only to see you his beautiful stupid lovely boyfriend in his oversized shirt,shorts,and an aperan on which made him feel as if you two were finally married. He saw the cake you made for him and some snickers? “Not sure if these are good…hope he’ll enjoy them enough..” he walked behind you and wrapped his arms around your waist as he rested his face in your shoulder. “EECK-!” “Easy baby,also anything you make I’ll enjoy it sweetie” “oh Jack! It’s you! Wait why are you home so early?” “Babe,I’m on time today” you were confused as you checked the clock to see he was right.

“Oops…lost track” “I know darling. How about we eat some cake and snickers then clean up and see where the night goes” “of course! Anything you want as it’s your day!” Such a stupid boyfriend,you didn’t even know where your old male friend went after he flirted with you. You didn’t know that the red splotches on his outfit were blood that belong to enemies that flirted with you. Such a stupid lovely boyfriend.

[sinisxtea]

aprils fools and bloops aside LETS TALK ABOUT THE LUCAS SINGLE EP AND TXT MINI EP ?????

going to talk about the lucas ep bc i’m a bigger nct stan so i feel like this is important to talk about. so this is a long rant i apologize.

disclaimers: this is a rant from someone who’s biggest ult group is wayv (in case you couldn’t tell from the winwin pfp…) so i’m going to try to remain as unbiased as possible and talk on my thoughts of lucas with wayv and lucas without wayv

personally, i’ve never actually cared for lucas. all throughout their songs and all the nct u units with lucas i always questioned lucas’s placement within them. i never liked his singing/rapping style at all. preferred winwin and hendery’s deep voice, and sometimes i would get mad at the line distribution on sm’s end because those two deserved so many more lines than they were getting. i feel like within wayv, hendery, lucas, and winwin’s roles were so blurred and overlapped lucas often over shadowed them because he was considered the center/face of the group. he was definitely popular and charismatic in interviews, and a lot of people knew him after his appearance on running man. now that lucas is no longer with wayv i feel that focus has shifted to ten, which honestly deserved because ten is an all rounder (not a rapper sm please stop making him rap….) i’m honestly really happy with wayv’s currently line up (even though winwin isn’t getting that many lines but agahhshueudghss that’s sm’s fault.)

i won’t talk about the controversy since that’s still a big… situation within the fandom.

(i do not support him btw...................... i pirated the album oops!)

honestly, i’m surprised lucas didn’t leave sm. the whole way they were marketing his comeback made him seem like guilty of his actions. which again i won’t address on, but looking outwards in, it seems like sm is just using him for profit so i feel that all hate directed towards lucas should be directed towards sm instead.

now onto the album!

Renegade: I actually really really like the instrumental. when i listen to a song, i take in fact vocals and instrumental because those are key components to a song. I’ve never practically enjoyed lucas’s voice in any song… but I actually do think he can rap?? at least in this song. it’s a full song so instead of sharing lines with others he does have a chance to showcase his full talent, which i think is what sm was trying to achieve. I can actually find myself listening to this my in my free time because the chorus is so catchy. ignoring the hate and criticism aside, i enjoy “sm core” music and i quite like this one. on terms of his singing ability, nothing stands out to me but again… i’m also here for the music.

Dip it Low: yes i listen to the whole album that’s how i work. I like the funky beat of this one. Lucas’s vocals blends with the instrumental sometimes, so i feel like i’m just listening for the instrumental. “baby girl” is throwing me off so hard.

Crushing on you: very summer core esq vibes. not my cup of tea, only listened to this one once. in all honesty, it seems like this whole album was a marketing ploy to cater to Lucas’s already existing fans who supported him. Which is really shitty on SM’s end, using Lucas, but it’s business I guess.

[magician-kitty]

Red Son x Male!Reader Headcanon(s)

Context: Being affectionate towards each other. Mostly him.

Red Son is not one for very touchy feely moments, he likes more quiet, subtle, domestic affection.

But if it’s for you, he’ll gladly accept any kind.

He’ll give you like, soft kisses here and there, Oh! And give you pats on the back for reassurance.

Like one time you were kissing his arm all the way up to his cute face.

Totally got him flustered, like really flustered.

“M-My love, please this is u- unnecessary!”

“But dulce príncipe, I just looove you so much, I never wanna let go~ You nuzzled your cheek against his.

Ugh! This was too much for him. Not that he’s complaining about it.

The most he will allow in public is hand holding, but considering he can teleport or travel quickly through shadows you usually don't have the chance for people to see you anyway.

Sometimes when he’s feeling down you’d lay him on his stomach and give him back massages. And boy, did he enjoyed it.

“Hmm, my sweet. You’re hands are simply majestic~” Red Son stated as you worked your lovely, lovely hands over the muscles of his shoulders and arms.

“Don’t sweat it Red, you’re always so tense so just relax, and let me take care of you~”

Ooooh, he’s too in love with you right now!

Let’s see…smooches! Lots and lots of smooches!

This boy is a like a ticking bomb. Once he’s angry…tick….tick…Boom! 💥

And what better way to calm him down: kisses!

When Red Son gets too pumped up, like Waaay up. He takes you into his arms, dips you down and smothers you with kiss.

“Yes, we did it! We won! My dearest Y/N we’re alive!”

Woah, okay..this was certainly a side of him that you hadn’t thought you’d see. Not that you’d mind one bit. He looked completely embarrassed at his actions and lifted him back up.

“Uh, I uh- I’m sorry if I-“ He cuts him off him him repeating the same thing.

“Just go with, baby~”

Oooh, he’s all fired up now! Like Natsu. Oops, wrong fandom.

And that’s it for today, good night everybody!

[catchyhuh]

OK, so what do you think of the pair (not necessary a couple) that's probably the least thought over in the fandom: Goemon and Zenigata?

lucky for you the contagious bastard that poisoned me with the knowledge of these people LOVED these two back in the day and baby i’m pulling out the archives for you!!

UM EDIT: SORRY I FORGOT TO ADD A WARNING- BRIEF MENTION OF GOEMON TRYING TO KILL HIMSELF THAT ONE TIME IN THAT ONE P2 EP. IT'S BARELY 10 WORDS ALL PUT TOGETHER BUT JUST IN CASE

the insane thing that i’m just now realizing is that. aside from the pilot film and idk how much we’re counting that,  i think napoleon’s dictionary and the part 2 ep are the only times i can think of off the top of my head where they talk 1 on 1 for more than two lines. and the first one is zenigata bothering him during a movie and the second is him trying to stop him from killing himself. THIS SERIES IS WILD WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT,

zenigata took a while to adjust to how damn quiet goemon is, probably because everyone he hangs out with will start yelling at the drop of a hat, but goemon acclimated to zenigata’s… zenigataness very easily, probably because. everyone he hangs out with will start yelling at the drop of a hat. over time they meet in the middle. and by that i mean zenigata starts using his inside voice when addressing him

i kinda feel like because of the whole suicide in jail scare zenigata is a bit of an unintentional worrisome wilson. well really when it comes to goemon. like of course he’s fine he’s a grown man dude. no his arm is ok. no he doesn’t need you to save the last blueberry muffin for him. its equal parts annoying and secretly charming to goemon like aw :) he does not want me dead. what a solid guy.

i imagine there’s comfort in Not Getting It and being around a guy who also does Not Get It. fujiko goes “ok you both drank way too much. calling an uber” and they both go Huh?? and she goes “you are not driving in that state” “no that’s not the problem what the hell is that” “yes i do not understand. an uber what” and she goes “oh my god.” there’s a sense of relief standing next to the other guy in the room that’s baffled and disgusted by the idea of a fridge having a wifi connection <3

i dunno maybe it’s just because mentioning the pilot has THAT specific interaction spinning around in my mind but they get along very well. not that i can’t EVER imagine them arguing, but it probably doesn’t go very far. i mean the farthest it went was probably goemon just staring at him, and doing the silent “shut up” cue he does where he’ll pop zantetsuken’s sheath slightly, and after a weighted pause zenigata goes “oh i know you’re not threatening to use that toothpick on me” and then they both were like Oh Shit. why’d i do/say that! oops! and then it deescalates. goemon must be the only person who can actually chill zeni tf out without just leaving the room. now that i think about it goemon really is the most mature out of everyone for someone who’s implied to be the youngest of the 5 isn’t he? not that that's saying a lot with these guys

[wearethewitches]

idk if it was described in selune thou with valeria but aylin/isobel babies would have INSANE fucking bone structure. y’all seen isobels defined cheekbones and square jaw??? aylins long sharp jawline defined enough to cut glass? moon babies are gonna break hearts everywhere

oops forgot to answer this

yes. very much YESSSSSS, all moonbabies get early access to Hot Bone Structure Genetics - isobel has all the cheekbones, and imo giving them magical divine-ness is just going to enhance all of that.

considering i just reread you slow down time yesterday by complete coincidence, i feel like it's fate to get to answer this ask.

(Selûne, thou) with softest starglow.

you slow down time / in your golden hour

my ao3

((also, that one series called tadfools associated. because i have a lot of fandoms and this is just my bg3 stuff))

[inusmasha]

Just rambling about InuKag dynamics I don't see ppl talk about.

this is 'long post' disclaimer .

Its a ghostly day today, and I have it all to myself. So while defrosting this english muffin I started musing about what sort of dynamics I like most in fiction. Like not just romantic wise. I wanted to figure out what was.. the tension? I enjoyed most... between what two archetypes?

And I what I noticed is that I love a good Mentor/Mentee dynamic. It's something that's been pretttyyyy consistent since childhood. (I can't name any atm to help my argument but you feel compelled to keep reading)

However, I didn't see how this would fit InuKag? My Titanic? My ship of dreams? My childhood? InuKag sometimes stands out like a sore thumb compared to my other interests. I was going to chalk it up to "Well it's baby's first anime so.." UNTIL..

I realized the fandom tends to focus on how Kagome helped Inuyasha (recover his lost heart, humanity, the unconditional selfless love, understanding ect.) but like.. we don't really talk about what he provides for her as much? And I'd love to indulge you with my take but we'd have to go over why I think Kagome decided to leave the modern world and opt for a life in wilderness of the Feudal Era.

Yes, yes. A big part is Inuyasha. That is a huge driving factor. But Im saying step back and see what's happening in the grand scheme of things.

I think..for Kagome..her romance with Inuyasha acted as a portal to a type of freedom she didn't know she craved. He acts as a guide of sort. He gives her access and safe passage to explore this dangerous world fully without fear. It reminds me of when I was with my first bf and I was over the moon happy when I realized I could walk around at night with him. It was THRILLING to my sheltered teen ass. It was like I was holding the key to the VIP room. I was allowed backstage. He was a door that opened me up to new experiences that would not of been available to me at that time otherwise!

And then the benefit of being immersed in nature. With your lover. Who is a figure that exists outside of the society that was keeping you locked up in the first place. Kagome's name is also referencing 'a bird in a cage'.

Like?

Kagome also serves as a guide for Inuyasha. She brings him back from the liminal space of the forest to the village/community/connection. Again opening him up to the possibility of trusting others and forming bonds and setting down roots in the village.

Kagome also represents us the Audience. She is our perspective. She is "The Ordinary Teenage Girl". She's pulled into the well like we are being pulled into the narrative. She grapples with her identity. Her purpose. Her abilities. She's lip singing to Kelly Clarkson with her hairbrush in front of the mirror. She's trying to get to school but...OOP...You know what? I'm 16. I'm suddenly in a fairy tale. The faries spirited me away and I can't take the test right now. The magical jewel was in my hip you see. I'll think about high school entrance exams later when I'm done shooting my sparkly arrows.

You can't sit there and tell me that you didn't long to escape the druggery that came after graduating lol? The what so I do now? The who am I ? And where do I belong? What major do I want? I have to buy a house now? No? I have to fix my credit score-

No babe. You're going to hitch a ride on your bf's back with ya hair down and eat fruit by a waterfall. He's going to ask you wtf a test is to the sound of a million birds chirping in the morning. Then you're going to go back to your loving village that welcomes you home and calls you a hero.

It makes sense that she stayed. It makes sense. You just gotta... see the vision.. you gotta FEEEEL the escapism.

Anyway yeah lol. Not really a mentor to each other per say but their meeting was a catalysis for a lot of growth and learning and trials and tribulations that changed them for the better. And it just feels similar.