#I think sometimes it's a genuine misunderstanding of the term

[dykefaggotry]

the way this website balks at the term "culturally christian" is so funny to me like. oh shit you mean the religion our government and culture is structured around might impact you even if you're atheist and ESPECIALLY if you're ex-christian? noooo it's the people using it to describe a phenomenon of western culture that are wrong

[iseos]

: CHERISH

wc. 978 archive. pairing. nishimura riki x fm!r synopsis. imperfect chemistry genre. fluff now playing. cherish by ive

  HIGH SCHOOL WAS A CONFUSING TIME, and for niki, navigating the complexities of teenage emotions felt like solving a never-ending puzzle.

he had harbored secret feelings for y/n since they first met in their freshman year; but, expressing those emotions was an intricate challenge he was yet to conquer. instead, he often found himself acting rude towards her, which, to his dismay, she often returned.

  now with graduation quickly approaching, niki and y/n were still, to put it mildly, not on the best terms when it came to their interactions. from snarky comments in class to unintentional eye-rolls during group projects, their relationship was fraught with tension and misunderstanding.

  yet, underneath the façade of bickering and sarcasm, it was obvious to those around them that there was a connection waiting to be explored.

  it was just a question of when, or if, it would happen.

  having grown tired of watching niki push y/n further and further away with his ruthless teasing, all while in private hearing how hopelessly enamored he was for the girl, his friends convinced him to take a different approach. urging him to set aside his pride and initiate an open conversation with y/n, they hoped it would bridge the gap between the two teens and pave the way for a genuine friendship.

  niki found her in the library like he expected, and he couldn't help but notice the frustration etched across y/n's face. she seemed utterly absorbed in her book, scribbling down notes in a frenzy. despite approaching with good intentions, he couldn't resist the urge to interrupt.

  "working hard, i see," niki teased, leaning his hip against the table she was using.

  y/n looked up, her expression a mix of annoyance and weariness. "what do you want, niki? finally come to help with the assignment we were both supposed to work on?"

  niki hesitated for a moment, his confidence slipping as he briefly made eye contact with his friends, who were sitting at a table on the other side of the room as support, animatedly trying to encourage him with dramatic arm movements. realizing this was his chance to finally try and mend their tense relationship, he cleared his throat and decided to be more sincere for once.

  "look, i know sometimes i'm rude to you—"

  "sometimes is the understatement of the century," y/n interrupts monotonously, her eyes back on her notes as she continues to write.

  "—but i wanted to say i'm sorry for that. we have to work on this project together, and i want it to go smoothly."

  y/n looked up at the dark-haired boy with a raised eyebrow, a hint of skepticism in her gaze. "you're apologizing?" she turned and looked around the relatively empty library, expecting this interaction to just be some cruel prank. she didn't even notice his friend group quickly busying themselves with random books.

  she eventually turned back to the boy standing in front of her again.

  "yeah, i am," niki nodded, his voice tinged with genuine sincerity. "i don't want us to keep arguing like this. i think we could actually make a pretty good team if we put our differences aside."

  y/n regarded him with curiosity, her guard slightly lowered now, "you really mean that?"

  "i do. i want us to work well together," he nodded again, his determination shining through, "i also need to get a good grade on this project so i don't fail this class..."

  his last comment made y/n scoff, however, there was a hint of laughter behind it as she pointed to the empty chair beside her for him to sit in.

  as they worked on the project together, niki and y/n slowly started to shed their defensive layers and engage in more meaningful conversations, some of which occasionally taking place outside the regular time they spent working in the library together. the arguments became less frequent, replaced by laughter and shared moments of understanding.

  their chemistry project became the turning point in their animosity-turned-newfound friendship. they spent hours working side by side, forming a deeper connection between discussing equations.

  y/n began to see the kind, thoughtful side of niki that she hadn't noticed before, and niki found himself admiring her intelligence and determination even more.

  one sunny afternoon, as they wrapped up the final parts of their project, niki couldn't help but steal a glance at y/n. her eyes sparkled as she explained a complex chemical reaction, and niki realized he couldn't keep his feelings hidden any longer. he cleared his throat, trying to sound as genuine as he could.

  "y/n, there's something i need to tell you."

  she turned to look at him, a hint of curiosity in her gaze as she hummed in acknowledgment.

niki hesitated for a moment, it felt like he flashed back to the day their friendship began to form; the weight of his unspoken words once again hanging in the air

  "i really like you, y/n. i have for a long time."

  y/n's eyes widened in surprise, and niki could see the mixture of shock and confusion dancing on her features. she didn't know how to react.

  niki cleared his throat once more, his heart feeling like it would pound out of his chest at any moment. "i know i was rude to you a lot — so i don't blame you if you don't feel the same, but i really do like you a lot."

  she remained silent for a moment, her gaze locked with his. then to niki's surprise, a smile crept across her face.

  "you're serious?"

  niki nodded, his vulnerability evident. "i am."

  y/n leaned in closer, face just inches from his, "you're the most confusing person i've ever met, niki, but maybe i like you too."

“although im selfish, i never lie you know, i really like you”

© iseos

[thewritingmagician2022]

Hi! I was wondering if you could write how the boys would react to an mc that don’t speak English very well? Spanish it’s my first language and it’s funny because some times I misunderstand what they say and I just stay like 🤷🏻‍♀️

Sorry for my bad english 😅 I hope you’re fine and healthy uwu

Ironically, I am not healthy - hence the really long delay. But thank you!

Lucifer: Lucifer is not impressed with himself; how did he manage to not realize that you didn’t speak English as a primary language? This complicates things just a little bit but he’s not going to feel too bad about it or give you any leeway.

His favorite thing to say is “you know what I mean!” when you act like you don’t understand what he’s saying. Sometimes you’re able to figure it out and sometimes you’re not but Lucifer doesn’t care. He pushes you to be self-sufficient; you better find a way to make it work while you’re down here.

On the low, he will sign you up for English classes at RAD or get you a private tutor to make sure you’re able to communicate well enough while you live down there.

Mammon: He is so confused sometimes. The two of you will go back and forth, just confusing each other more and more as you try to figure out what the other person said/meant.

Mammon is the kind of person who’s flipping through a pocket dictionary and trying to speak Spanish to you but he’s absolutely butchering it almost every time and ends up saying something rude/nonsensical by accident

It’s really cute that he tries though and he usually just finds it more funny than anything when you don’t understand him

Levi: Levi is embarrassed when you guys can’t fully understand each other. He feels ashamed that he obviously can’t communicate clearly and wonders why you would ever bother trying to talk to an otaku like him

He definitely hides away in the beginning because the language barrier bugs him

The more you talk, the more you both understand each other. He even starts speaking Spanish a little; he learned Japanese for anime so the least he can do is learn a little Spanish for you

Still, he much prefers texting because the phones can auto translate everything and he doesn’t have to worry about either of you being confused/a misunderstanding

Satan: Satan finds it funny in the “well, well, well, Lucifer finally screwed up” kind of way and he tends to dramatize how many misunderstandings there are just to spite Lucifer even more for accidentally choosing a human that doesn’t speak fluent english

With that in mind, Satan starts learning Spanish pretty much immediately and, once you two are on friendly terms, he starts tutoring you in English as well to make sure you can understand and communicate well while you live in the Devildom

Like Mammon, he carries around a little pocket dictionary; however, he’s much more efficient with it and can actually use it to translate

Asmo: Asmo doesn’t need to understand what you’re saying for him to understand you and vice Versa!

He thinks it’s so cute when you get confused and he loves to use gestures and dramatic facial expressions to convey whatever point he is trying to make - it usually doesn’t work well and ends up even more confusing but you both have fun the whole time

Definitely someone who will sometimes pretend to not notice you’re confused (or if he’s rambling about something he genuinely may not even notice) and he doesn’t need you to reply to keep the conversation going; he can talk enough for you both

Beel: Beel is confused and you’re confused

Like Levi, he may avoid communication in the beginning because Beel is usually quiet anyway but it sometimes feels like it’s not worth the hassle and confusion

Beel mimes things to you sometimes to try to better explain himself. He’s surprisingly good at charades and it usually clears things up well enough for you.

If he doesn’t understand you, he usually tries that nod/smile people do when they have no idea what the fuck is going on because he wants to be polite

Belphie: Belphie is too tired for this shit. You’re just going to have to figure out what he said for yourself; use your phone to translate or something

He will draw pictures sometimes, if it’s something he really wants to share with you and he can’t find the right words

When he doesn’t understand you, he doesn’t even pretend to. He just stares at you until you figure out a way to say it in English or make your point known in another way

Diavolo: Diavolo is entirely charmed by the language barrier. He loves that humans have so many different languages and loves how clever you all are about trying to understand each other

He does feel a bit bad considering it makes your life more difficult and miscommunications can be a pain in the ass

To rectify this issue, he tries to make all the demons learn Spanish and asks you to lead them in Spanish lessons and then everyone can speak your language!

Obviously that’s not realistic though and he settles for learning some Spanish himself and making sure all of your learning materials at RAD are translated for you to make things easier

Barbatos: Somehow Barbatos always knows how to say things in a way you understand and he’s always able to understand what you’re saying too

You have a sneaking suspicion that he may actually be fluent in Spanish but he refuses to admit it

Barbatos doesn’t even needs words; he understands your mannerisms and facial expressions well enough and he’s equally good about making himself clear to you

Solomon: Solomon speaks all human languages, both current and past. However, he’s not very good at it because he doesn’t practice the skill often so he’ll be a bit rusty in the beginning

Definitely uses spells and engagements to help communicate better and auto translates books and things for you so you have an easier time rather than struggling to read everything in English and he’ll translate any papers you write in Spanish to English too to make your life easier

Being the mischievous man he is, Solomon does love to laugh a little when you’re not able to understand someone, especially the brothers, and occasionally he may “misinterpret” what they’ve said to cause a bit more chaos

Simeon: Simeon actually already speaks some Spanish. He’s not fluent like Solomon but he understands enough to get by and he’s really good at helping translate between you and another person if there’s an issue

He’s asked you to teach him more Spanish so you guys can communicate better and he offers to help you with English as well

Simeon is a little ridiculous and loves playing the guessing game when he doesn’t understand something, rather than looking it up. He and Luke make a bit of a game of it to see who can figure it out first when there’s a miscommunication

[ellena-asg]

Do you have any specific sparrington headcanons?

Hey ♥️🫂

Oh, yes! I have a little AU for them 😄 Post AWE, James survives!AU + headcanons

James befriends Will and Lizzie and this means he sees Jack very often; one day Jack and James have a sincere talk and they forgive each other - they still love to banter but they're now on good terms only

Jack sees that James is lost and lonely so he says that James isn't admiral anymore but he will always be a seaman and Pearl needs such a fine sailor and then James, seeing that there's a place for him and feeling something in his heart (and being tired of his society) decides to join Jack's crew 

Jack and James are more and more fascinated with each other, they enjoy working together (and admire each other's skills - maybe Jack will finally hear "the best pirate I have ever seen" 😂), they notice there are things they share, they talk a lot about sea, books (James loves Jack's knowledge), legends, so many things, about Will and other friends, they joke sometimes, Jack helps James in his new pirate life and is amazed how much piratey (and hard-working) James is 

they truly enjoy each other's company but they still have some issues and they misunderstand each other sometimes; Gibbs sees that and tries to help them, he tells James about Jack's trust issues, about all people that betrayed and hurt Jack, he tells that Jack (like James) was abused by own family, he also tells about Jack's heroic deeds and all great adventures he had

James talks with Jack, he says how much he understands him now, he says Jack can always trust him, he also tells Jack about his own past, about abusive childhood (those details that Jack didn't know) and dreams; they become friends

soon they see they're in love but they're both insecure/they panic - Jack thinks that James wants some fine lady and that he's generally the worst love interest for James and James thinks that he's not romantically good/interesting enough for Jack, he also thinks that Jack may see a relationship as chains, plus: James needs a stable and long-term relationship and he wants to be someone's the only one 

somehow these two dorks confess their love and their fears (maybe when they're arguing? when they're jealous? - let's say Angelica or someone else pops up and they and James behave like two fighting cats, Jack is irritated so he is irritating 😉, James is pissed of, boys start teasing each other and soon they're yelling and boom!)

after confessing they have a talk, they realize they need each other and can heal their souls together; James says that he wants Jack, he loves and respects everything about him and Jack says that he never felt needed but it is nice to be needed, he was bitter about love issues but James happens to be his love, a genuine one so Jack is lost 😄 Jack needs James as much as he needs the sea (even more, he fears 😉) and sweet sassy Norrington (never Borrington!) is definitely enough for him

Jack makes James' first tattoo (it's a bank swallow) 

James wants to have another tattoo (with Jack's name or something like that) and Jack wants to have “Jamie” tattoo on his chest (close to his heart)

Hm, what else…

they are forever together, they have many adventures with their pirate family, they can get married or not (if they decide to, then Gibbs is their officiant and Will & Lizzie are their groomsman and groomsmaid)

they have no kids but they are fantastic uncles for little Turner(s) and all pirate kids (James calls them piratelings)

they find a very poor stray cat on the street and they take him with them (they live on Pearl but they also have some cosy place somewhere) - they have a Cat's Name Discussion 😛

of course they have their Sparrington Chemistry all the time and they still love teasing and flirting with each other

Jack loves when James is sassy to their enemies and he generally loves his sarcasm, sometimes he calls James “Your Sarcasmness” 

James is grateful that Teague once saved his life but he has no respect for him and he isn't afraid to tell Teague what an awful father he’s for Jack

Jack says that James is the only good in Norrington family; they both have hate for Lawrence (James now understands what an evil his father was) and for James' cousin Fitzwilliam P. Dalton III (they call him Fitzy and they pronounce it in a funny way) - Jack sees him as annoying remorseless liar, James sees his older cousin as spoiled man and Lawrence’s favourite boy (Lawrence treated Fitzy much better than he treated James and he was always like “James, your cousin this… your cousin that…”)

they're a perfect duo also when they fight (enemies know it well)

they love kissing each other, they shiver from love and desire, they love cuddling in bed (they love their physical and mental intimacy, they're happy they're lovers AND friends, they feel soooo safe and good with each other)

they don't hide their emotions, they don't lie to each other, there's no shame in their relationship (You need to cry? Then cry! I will cry with you. I will comfort you. I will give you warmth)

they support each other and are loyal to each other but sometimes they have different ideas or one is like "NO, we WON'T do it!" and the other is like "Oh yes, darling, we WILL!" and their pirate family is so done 😂 They're comedy gold sometimes!

when they need some relationship advice they both go to Will (Lizzie hears everything and she usually rolls her eyes 😂)

they are very grateful they have such friends like Will and Lizzie (and all their pirate family)

James is friends with monkey Jack, Cotton's parrot, Poochie and Will's donkey and it cracks Jack up (plus: "That monkey, REALLY?"); Jack also finds it adorable and oh, he pretends he's irritated when James says that deep down Jack loves that monkey 😄

when people ask James why he "betrayed" his society (king's men) he says "Saved by pirates" and he smiles (or "Saved by a pirate" and he looks at Jack lovingly)

sometimes after arguing with Jack, Hector goes to James and is like "You are rational one, right? So PLEASE, if you could..." - but sometimes James is more goofy than Jack and then Hector is dying inside 😛

[mae-i-scribble]

My post on How I Attended and All Guys Mixer picked up a few more notes than I was expecting recently and it reminded me that I've been wanting to talk about how appreciative I am about how the series handles sexuality. I'll only be talking about the manga here bc I haven't seen the live action drama nor do I plan to. But I just think it's really neat that with our 3 male protags we get to see 3 very unique reactions to 1) learning that crossdressing is a thing and 2) how they in turn feel attraction wise.

I'll start off with Asagi as I feel his is the most straightforward in that he just takes everything in stride. Literally nothing phases him. Thanks to that he's the most nonchalant of the group, just chatting up and trying to make friends per usual. He's confused somewhat, but doesn't pay it any mind and just tries to get to know everyone as he would any other new friend. Personally, I can really see an aro/ace argument for Asagi due to the way he's just, completely unaffected and uninterested in the romantic ongoings around him. He compliments the girls and such but even when the manga is going pretty hard pushing its other pairings Asagi and Fuji truly just seem like good friends. I'm not delusional, this is a romance manga that from the get-go clearly has these pairings in mind to all get together romantically, but until it happens I can gaslight myself into believing my aroace truth (is coping so bad).

Going from most chill about everything to 2nd most chill we have Tokiwa. Tokiwa is an interesting case in that he's polite to such a degree that he does his best to mask his initial confusion and shock (to the extent that yknow, a comedy manga will allow). Though it doesn't really work because he is very overwhelmed by the situation at hand. However, I don't think this is attributed to the girls' crossdressing alone in the same way that Hagi can't get over his initial shock of the concept. Tokiwa's chief concern isn't the "weirdness" of it all but the fact that he came here expecting a meet cute with a cute girl and instead is getting a meet cute with someone equally as charming but with none of the reserved attitude we see Suo have while she's fem-presenting. My boy is not worried about gender norms he is worried for his sanity due to the attractive person flirting with him.

Honestly, this panel here implies that he finds masc-presenting Suo even more attractive. The fact that he even tries to reassure himself that because Suo is a woman this situation is less flustering is very interesting. Not that it does anything. Pouring one out for Tokiwa for real. As the manga goes on, Tokiwa gives off the vibe of someone who is comfortable with his sexuality enough that the gender presentation of the person he likes is irrelevant, both are attractive to him in different ways. Again, while Suo's crossdressing is a point of interest in the sense that it's not something he understands or gets intuitively, he doesn't have nearly the same level of crisis as Hagi does. His attraction to Suo is never questioned- rather it seems to be a question of whether or not he thinks Suo is genuine in her flirting.

And our last boy is Hagi, poor beloved Hagi who is having the time of his life trying to figure out that hey, sometimes people don't dress or present stereotypically. It's a rough life for you Hagi. However, his inner conflict is very gripping. I find his reaction and subsequent coming to terms with the idea of crossdressing a very realistic take on the subject much more akin to your average person being introduced to everything for the first time. It never feels mean spirited even if Hagi can be offensive in this thoughts and comments at first- it's born from a place of genuine confusion, both towards himself and towards the girls. Hagi falling in love with Kohaku, while a little to rife with misunderstandings for my taste, I think is a wonderful narrative of how even being straight doesn't mean that there is one way to feel attraction. While Kohaku throws around the idea of him being bi due to him being attracted to Kohaku while she's masc-presenting, Suo best sums it up when she says that it's not about the words or the looks, its about who it's coming from. And given that we haven't seen Hagi struggle with this from anyone else, it's a safe bet to say he likes Kohaku as masc-presenting, not necessarily masc-presenting people or men in general. Attraction as a fluid concept is something most straight romance stories, let alone a comedy based one, seldom bother to explore along the gender spectrum. Hagi's struggle to understand himself and what his attraction to Kohaku means to him personally is such an interesting take that it elevates the entire storyline out of miscommunication hell almost (just almost).

Idk idk this feels like a very silly rant to have but I do in fact love this manga more than a reasonable amount and this is definitely one of the top reasons for it. I would love for it to get a bit more attention but I shall settle for rereading it for the 20th time I suppose

[disabledunitypunk]

Hey, I'm the OP of the post you discuss here. I didn't write that post in any of those contexts you bring up, I wrote it in response to seeing people talk about disabilities or being disabled and then classifying disabilities into "physically disabled" and "neurodivergent", rather than "physically disabled" and "mentally disabled" (although the distinction wasn't even necessary for the specific post that inspired my vent). It doesn't have anything to do with specific communities, and I'm genuinely a bit lost about where all of this is coming from when I made that post out of mild annoyance that people will use "neurodivergent" as if it's always interchangeable with "mentally disabled", when mental disabilities are just some of many neurodivergencies. I wasn't annoyed about the neurodivergent community or the terms people use for themselves – I was annoyed by how people use the term as half of a binary for disabilities instead of, y'know, actually focusing on disabilities. It feels like it does a disservice to those who don't consider their neurodivergencies disabilities, as well as mentally disabled folks who don't use the umbrella term of neurodivergent. That's what I was venting about. Not about specific neurodivergent subcommunities.

Next time you're confused about one of my posts, please just message me instead of screenshotting my posts to post your own assumptions and comments about it. I'm very hurt by the fact you didn't bother to actually come to me with your concerns and have instead made a post that you admit is an "ungenerous reading" about a vent I would have been more than happy to elaborate on. It feels like you've been talking about me behind my back, which I do not appreciate.

I wanted to thank you for correcting us. I understand your frustration and want to apologize for our misunderstanding. I think honestly we were a bit afraid to reach out personally individually, but tried to at least avoid our platform bringing negative attention to your blog, but we went about it the wrong way. For both that and our misinterpretation, we apologize.

We've been trying to acknowledge where we are biased and ignorant due to trauma and other factors, but we still are sometimes wrong. For all that you were understandably frustrated with us, we appreciate your willingness to be patient and explain to us anyway, and to be kind despite where we screwed up in addressing that. We will do better going forward.

We have saved screenshots of the post that we can add to this ask for context at your discretion (because we very much do want to take responsibility for what we've said), but we've taken down the original post out of respect for your feelings on how we mishandled this. We tried to keep in mind from the beginning that it was a vent post that wouldn't explain every nuance that might be present within the conversation, but we still failed to take the time to really understand your perspective and reach out to you when we were confused.

I can explain further our background on where our response did come from if it would be helpful, but I won't force you to read it unsolicited, because the important thing is that we messed up and didn't come to you out of an irrational fear. While we have had bad experiences in the past, they have been with people who haven't shown the repeated patience and grace you have in the time we've interacted with you, and we should have had the courage to assume that you would continue to be so.

We're not always good at apologies, so if there's anything else that would be helpful to hear or for us to do, please let us know. We're sorry, and thank you for addressing this with us.

We have apologized directly to OP but want to make sure our followers have the opportunity to see their explanation as well, hence also answering the ask here.

-Mod Stars

[good7luck]

VNC manga chapter 57 spoilers

** my personal interpretations

Jeanne from JJ’s point of view (feat. Chloe & Noe, etc)

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I’ve seen some complaints “JJ/Chloe should’ve met Jeanne, too, not just Noe!”, which sometimes leads to “MJ-sensei must hate Jeanne” and/or “bad, misogynistic writing”.

I’m not a huge fan of Jeanne myself, but I don’t particularly hate to see her, and I really wouldn’t have minded getting more canon (positive) interactions between JJ/Chloe and Jeanne.

The thing is...

Chloe is fully asleep now, unable to chat anytime soon. And...

JJ and Jeanne are NOT that friendly two of them...yet, at least ^^;;

(more under the cut)

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Both JJ and Jeanne have a special history and bond with Chloe EACH, sure, but it doesn’t magically make the two friends, much less close ones (ex. Vani & Domi, over Noe / Noe & Olivier, over Roland). Both took Chloe’s hand together in the last minute to save their important Chloe. Before that, Jeanne was mostly, genuinely trying to kill JJ (the “Beast”) & Chloe (the supposed target), even if she wasn’t being 100% murderous, as she still believed the ”Beast” was her precious Chloe and so hesitated in her mind.

To JJ, Jeanne was the powerful and dreadful Bourreau who kept coming to murder his beloved & the innocent victim Chloe then and now again. No one else other than JJ has trusted Chloe’s innocence or tried to listen for so long (even aside from the evil mastermind Church). Honestly...we haven’t seen Jeanne apologize to JJ/Chloe for her huge misunderstandings and attempted murders...on screen, yet, at least (it might or might not appear in the future, who knows).

I think JJ, too, probably wasn’t being 100% murderous mainly because he knows Chloe still greatly misses Jeanne (even if he’s been always with Chloe, oops ^^;;). We haven’t seen JJ (NOT as the “Beast”) explicitly getting mad at Jeanne in canon, but I won’t be too surprised if he actually (still) feels jealous and angry at her deep inside ^^;; Perhaps also disappointed and frustrated at her that she never ever recognized or even had a single doubt (* she couldn’t, as a Bourreau, I know, but does JJ know?) that the not-even-very-Chloe-looking “Beast” (that was doing not-so-Chloe-things, be it Church or JJ) was possibly never Chloe.

In the manga, JJ wanted to save the utter stranger Noe all because Noe protected JJ (the “Beast”) from Jeanne (I’m not sure but I think the anime cut this part out), even if he didn’t even know why Noe came here yet. It’s hard for me to believe JJ is suddenly on good terms with Jeanne sincerely, ignoring all their long, negative past...even if they finally saved Chloe together ^^;;

On the other hand, JJ and Noe are much more the close friends (though JJ ended up assaulting Noe in the castle). To JJ, Noe is his actual first friend (other than Chloe), never Jeanne. That’s why JJ decided to come to see Noe (and the doctor Vani) specifically, to give his thanks (and apology for the assault), even if it’s obviously too dangerous when JJ/Chloe are officially “wanted”, as both Vani and Dante explicitly complained.

My point is NOT that “Um, Jeanne is in fact terrible, did you not know?” BUT that there have been simply not enough positive interactions only between JJ and Jeanne yet (or whatever possible causality), which would lead JJ to voluntarily go see her, despite all the dangers.

If Chloe was awake and wanted to see Jeanne, then JJ probably would’ve done so. But if not? I just don’t see why JJ would personally “miss” Jeanne in general...and so it’s quite understandable to me that JJ didn’t risk the safety of himself (& Chloe) for Jeanne’s sake, especially when there was technically no (urgent) “need” ^^;;

I suppose Chloe already fell asleep like that before JJ got treated by Vani (when Jeanne was still around them!), so maybe JJ in ch 57 just didn’t have any word from Chloe to give to Jeanne particularly, cuz Chloe literally never woke up. If there was any, I think he would’ve already told Jeanne before they got separated in Gevaudan...?

There’s this, too: Again, JJ/Chloe are officially “wanted”.

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No hard feelings on Jeanne or Jeanne/Chloe or Jeanne/Chloe/JJ etc! Obviously not trying to discourage any fanwork creation, either...!

I get that it could be very frustrating not to see Jeanne/Chloe sweet reunion and proper closure on screen in canon, after their long and solid past got revealed in the very long arc. Still, personally I never expected to see NEW scenes from the old Gevaudan arc again at all, but surprisingly it happened in ch 57...so there might be more to come in the future, to reveal something unknown, for example. Not to mention MJ-sensei might be intentionally doing some tricks for her plans, like to bring some dark plot twist later XD

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This wasn’t supposed to be this long OTL

Thanks for reading my personal interpretations and opinions!!

[smileymoth]

For the ask thing. I wanna know your 10 headcanons about Etho. And 10 more about one of your OCs please :3

ok ok.. Etho <3

He SUCKS at expressing his emotions. He does not know what he is feeling. Ever. This leads to misunderstandings with everyone, especially Bdubs since he is very vocal about his own feelings.

He's nonbinary and gender-non-conforming in a way :333

He sometimes chases his own tail when he's in a silly mood and forgets that he in fact has a tail. He falls over and whimpers because he got dizzy. (sometimes the fault of too much redstone)

HE IS 100% A SCENE KID. Perhaps even an emo kid. He had raccoon tails as a teenager and wore heavy eyeliner and homemade tripp nyc trousers since his parents wouldn't buy him a pair

There's always something off about his construction work. When he lived in the monolith basement he sound proofed it, but somehow it only soundproofed it to him, Bdubs could still hear what he was doing down there. Etho has no idea how that is even possible.

He got his face scar as a child, but doesn't remember how he got it. All he knows is that it didn't heal properly so now he has a semi-split lip which he is very self-conscious about, hence why he wears the mask. Bdubs is most likely the one of the few people who have seen him without his mask since he trusts him the most.

You know, he could get his lip fixed via surgery, but he is afraid of doctors and needles and syringes and the idea of someone putting him under anesthesia, so he'd rather not.

Oh and also he has dust and pollen allergies. Because of course he does. :) Good luck with that Etho!!! The mask does help.

His sleep schedule is awful. He goes to sleep in the middle of the night if not the morning, sometimes he forces himself to pull allnighters which end up with him being out of commission for an entire day -- he hates it. He needs to be productive and do things.

This also means he eats redstone for extra energy. It makes his heart race and sometimes makes him shaky but he doesn't care. He thinks it tastes quite nice. But again which redstoner doesn't consume redstone for the fun of it...

HE'S SEASONAL. He sheds fur on his ears and tail in spring and grows a thicker layer on during autumn.

AS FOR MY OC.... Let's do June because I've been thinking about him a lot lately :heart:

He goes by all pronouns, he doesn't care what you call him since he doesn't know what gender is. If he was born into genZ he would ID as non binary or a trans femme, but since this is the 80s he does not know if to call him that or not. He's just June <3

June isn't his legal name, his legal name is Julian. Boys at his school would call him Julia because of how feminine he was. That same group would become his close group of friends who would drag him everywhere. He did not know if they were doing it out of malice to make fun of him and put him in weird situations or because they genuinely liked him. One of the boys 100% had a crush on him.

His dad was a college professor teaching English, his mom was a nurse. This meant that they were barely home as his dad had work quite far from home and his mom did long hours. Since his parents were quite distant, it also distanced him from them. He'd rather call his beloved Nanny his family than his actual parents.

He developed an eating disorder in middle school which has carried out throughout his life, with recovery and relapse over and over and over again. Age 40 his heart gave out and he had a cardiac arrest. Luckily he could be resuscitated but it left him with short term memory problems and other issues.

June loooves her band mates. He'd do anything for George and Lydia. He and George would share the bed if possible and cuddle together since they were both severely touch starved. This continued after they both found life partners since everyone was ok with it.

She has autism that was undiagnosed till late adulthood when his partner forced him to therapy for his eating problems.

June has insomnia, so when he finally did fall asleep during tour Lydia and George would make sure to be as quiet as possible to not wake her.

He met his life partner Lawrence on their american tour in late 80s. They met at a bar and June dragged him back to the tourbus afterward. June was instantly starstruck with him and refused to let him go so they spent a few years sending each other letters and meeting up every now and then till Lawrence moved to the UK to live with him. Law calls June his 'girlfriend' and 'wife' infront of his friends which makes June melt inside. He will never get enough of kissing Lawrence. <3 They're disgustingly cute together. George doesn't get how Lawrnece is so patient with him... George also didn't like Lawrence in the beginning bc it felt like he was stealing his best friend. Lydia couldn't stop teasing him about how ''ohhh you like your little June <333 you love himm<333" which pissed him off. Anyway. I'm getting carried away T_T

June can be very annoying and stubborn. She needs to get her way always and forever, and gets upset when she doesn't. When he's upset with someone he tends to just ignore the other person, giving them silent treatment, even if he's still cuddling up to them. Sometimes when he's very overwhelmed he does simply shut down and loses speech for a bit until he feels better.

He has always carried his childhood teddy along with him everywhere -- to tour, to new homes, on trips. It is his comfort item that is always with him, even if hidden at the bottom of the suitcase.

!!! thank you Ety!!!!!!

[uncanny-tranny]

I think sometimes people misuse words like "internalized transphobia".

Internalized transphobia is the specific self-hatred or self-detestment a trans person has for themselves (oftentimes due to society's messaging about trans people). This self-hatred stemming from bigotry stops and ends at one's own self. Internalized transphobia, for example, would be when I thought I could never "look like" a man, and hated myself for it.

Internalized transphobia is not when a binary trans person says that nonbinary people are "stealing the spotlight". That's transphobia.

Internalized transphobia is not when a trans person says a trans girl looks like a "man in a dress". That's transphobia.

Internalized transphobia is not when a trans person says a trans boy shouldn't even bother getting bottom surgery because he'll just have a mutilated result. That's transphobia.

In all these example cases, the transphobia is not directed inwards. It is directed outwards. I think there is some genuine misunderstanding to what the term refers to, but I also think sometimes people think "internalized bigotry" is a euphemism for genuine displays of said bigotry. It isn't, though.

[teaveetamer]

I keep seeing takes like “Dimitri is a toxic man who embodies toxic masculinity who has to be fixed by women who submit to his every whim and that’s why so many women like him” and it drives me fucking insane

Same toxic masculinity anon here. Like it just makes me so sad? It genuinely makes me want to cry and throw up. I hate that we still have to see takes like this in 2023, and sometimes these takes are from other women too

I was actually thinking about the origin of that post recently too.

Frankly, I think it was a huge dick move to put so much blatant misinformation out there, repeatedly get called out on it, and then just nuke it without making even a single attempt to actually correct the misinformation.

Now I talk to people who have spun out some wild shit from that post who have no idea where it even came from, and the second you try to engage in an actual conversation about it then it becomes abundantly clear that they don't actually know what they're talking about and they can't actually back the reading up with anything substantial (because the post itself was based entirely off of a misunderstanding and a lie in the first place).

And yeah, add a heaping fucking helping of sexism on top for literally one of the most obnoxious fucking fandom experiences I've ever had. Like I am so fucking sick of 3H fans just throwing out "smart boy" terms they have no fucking idea about and then getting mad at people who actually understand them for actually understanding them and trying to use them properly.

"Toxic masculinity" is an actual fucking concept and in the 3H fandom it's basically been reduced to "anything I don't like" because their core understanding of the concept begins and ends at "it's bad".

[ailendolin]

Thanktival 2022 - Day 10 - Yonderland

Title: The Wisp [AO3]

Characters: Ho-Tan, Alvin, Thomas, Alison and Debbie

Prompt: Project Crossover

Summary: A portal malfunction leaves Ho-Tan and her son stranded at Button House.

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The Wisp

“Mum?” Ho-Tan felt timid fingers squeeze her hand. “Where are we?”

Definitely not Debbie’s kitchen, Ho-Tan thought as she took in the room they were in. Shelves lined the walls on either side of them, filled with books right up to the ceiling that made her itch to take a closer look, and through a set of windows she could see an orchard, beautifully in bloom, that reminded her of her childhood home. Beyond the trees, the sun was setting, tinting everything in a warm golden glow.

It was also gently filtering through the hole in the chest of the young man sitting by the window who was staring at them with a mix of curiosity and bewilderment that Ho-Tan assumed her own face was mirroring.

“Where did you come from?” he asked them with a frown. “Alison didn’t mention we were having any guests today or … costume parties.”

His eyes roamed over their clothes in a rather judgmental way and Ho-Tan felt Alvin’s hold on her hand tighten.

“Mum,” he whispered, his voice trembling slightly as he half-stepped behind her. “That man is bleeding.”

At his words, the man looked down at himself and hurriedly covered his wound. “Oh, apologies. I know it’s an ugly thing to – wait, you can see me?”

He looked so genuinely surprised by that fact that Ho-Tan found herself offering him an unsure smile. “Yes?”

“Oh!” the man exclaimed and slid from the windowsill, his eyes suddenly wide and almost childlike with excitement. “I’ve not seen you around before – which means you must have just died! Welcome to Button House, then! My name is Thomas and–”

Alvin let out a squeak and hid his head in Ho-Tan’s side.

Thomas faltered. “Did I say something wrong?”

Wrapping an arm around her son in comfort, Ho-Tan shook her head. “No. I think there’s been a misunderstanding, though. We’re – we’re not dead. Just … lost, I guess. ”

“Oh,” Thomas said in dismay. It lasted only a second, however, before his face lit up again. “Then you must be like Alison! Pray tell, did you recently fall from a window? People can sometimes see ghosts after they do, you know?”

Alvin sucked in a sharp breath.

“He’s a wisp, Mum! A wisp!” he whispered, digging his fingers almost painfully into Ho-Tan’s side.

“Wisp?” Thomas repeated. He made a thoughtful noise. “Well, I suppose you could call us that. The more common term would be ghost, though.”

Ghost, wisp, gasman – it all came down to the same thing: they were talking to a dead person right now. A dead person from a different world, no less, because Ho-Tan was pretty sure they were not in Yonderland anymore or any of the other eleven realms. Before she’d met Boo, she probably would have put her hands over her ears and screamed at the prospect of standing in front of a very real wisp. She couldn’t deny that she still felt the urge to do that but she’d learned from Debbie not to be so quick to judge people – and she really didn’t want to scare Alvin any more than he already was.

So she took a deep breath and said with as much confidence as she could muster, “It is our pleasure to meet you, ghost Thomas. I am Ho-Tan and this is my son, Alvin. Alvin, say hello to ghost Thomas.”

“Just Thomas is fine, Thomas said as Alvin sneaked a quick glance around Ho-Tan’s back and muttered a faint, “Hello,” before hiding again.

“We didn’t fall from any windows,” Ho-Tan went on. “But we did come through a portal from Yonderland. Have you heard of it?”

Thomas blinked at her, confirming her suspicions that he wouldn’t be able to help them get back home with his wisp powers. “No, I’m afraid I have not. But Alison might have? I could go get her.”

He pointed at a door to his right and Ho-Tan smiled gratefully even though she had no idea who Alison was. “Thank you. That would be very kind.”

When Thomas had gone, she turned around and knelt down in front of Alvin.

“I know you are afraid,” she said softly and waited for him to meet her eyes before she reached up to cup his face. “But I don’t think that wisp is going to eat us.”

“How can you be sure?” Alvin asked. “All the stories say–“

“The stories might be wrong,” Ho-Tan said.

Alvin gasped. “Mum!”

As gently as she could, Ho-Tan tucked a stray strand of hair behind his ear. “We’re in a different world, Alvin. What’s true for Yonderland might not be true here.”

“But it could be,” Alvin argued.

“Yes,” Ho-Tan conceded. “But did Thomas struck you as a man-eating monster?”

Alvin dropped his eyes to his shoes.

“No,” he admitted reluctantly.

Ho-Tan smiled, knowing her son would come around eventually. “Then let’s be kind to him like we would be to anyone else and hope that this Alison can help us.”

Alison, it turned out, could not help them. She had never heard of Yonderland before, let alone portals, but her eyes lit up in recognition when Ho-Tan mentioned the town Debbie lived in.

“Oh yeah, that’s only like a two-hour drive away from here,” she said. “I suppose we could take you there if all else fails …”

“But it would probably be wiser to wait and see if Elf and Nick figure out the problem with the portal first,” Ho-Tan finished with a smile, sensing that Alison wasn’t too eager to travel all that way if not absolutely necessary.

“Yeah, probably,” Alison said. “I could give you a tour of the place while you wait? You could meet my husband, Mike, and the other ghosts.”

Alvin, once again clinging to Ho-Tan’s side at the mention of more ghosts, firmly shook his head. Ho-Tan gave Alison an apologetic look. “I think we’ll just stay here in your library if that’s all right.”

“Yeah, of course,” Alison smiled. “Not sure if there’s many children’s books in here but you’re welcome to take a look around if you’d like.”

Ho-Tan’s face lit up as if Thanktival had come early. “Thank you, Alison.”

She spent the next half an hour or so browsing through the collection with Alvin, carefully cataloguing everything that sounded interesting in the little notebook she always carried around with her wherever she went. Thomas had returned to his seat by the window and glanced at them every now and then before at last he heaved a heavy sigh and, nodding at the quill in Ho-Tan’s hand, said, “How I envy you. To be able to write down your thoughts at any time.”

Ho-Tan glanced down at the words she had just written. The ink hadn’t even dried yet. “Were you a scribe as well?”

Thomas shook his head. “A poet. Still am, really. At least I try to be. It’s hard to create and compose when you’re bereft of the most important tools of your trade.”

“I can imagine,” Ho-Tan said softly, remembering a time from her childhood when she had to fight for every scrap of paper.   

“Maybe Mum can write for you,” Alvin suggested shyly. “She’s really good at recording things.”

The look of naked hope in Thomas’s eyes was almost too much to bear. “Would you?”

Ho-Tan couldn’t have said no even if she’d wanted to. Together with Alvin, she joined Thomas by the window and got to work. Time flew by as Thomas composed, looked over what she’d written, revised it with her and Alvin’s help, composed some more and revised it again. The sun had long set by the time a familiar blue light appeared in the corner of the library and Debbie stumbled out of the portal with a relieved, “There you are! We were worried sick!”

After some confusing explanations on both parts –

“We had to find out where the portal went and ended up in Croydon the first few times.”

“We’ve been helping a ghost compose poetry!”

– and a timely intervention from Alison that cleared up most of the confusion, it was time to say goodbye.

“Thank you for assisting me with my poetry tonight,” Thomas said softly as he shook first Ho-Tan’s and then Alvin’s hand. “It means more to me than you can imagine.”

“Thank you for not being a scary wisp,” Alvin smiled shyly up at him.

“And for your hospitality. Until next time,” Ho-Tan said. She offered him one last wave before she followed the others through the portal.

On the other side, the Elders were anxiously waiting for them after she and Alvin had been pulled into very tight and affectionate hugs that lingered longer than usual, Debbie gently took her aside. “I’m not sure there’ll actually be a next time, Ho-Tan. It was pure luck we even managed to find you this time.”

Ho-Tan smiled. “I’m sure you’ll figure it eventually, Debbie. And until then, I have a favour to ask of you.”

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Two weeks later, a package arrived at Button House, addressed to Thomas Thorne. When Alison opened it for him and he laid eyes on his very own poem, beautifully penned on fine paper and framed with golden wood that seemed to emit a warm glow and couldn’t possibly be from this world, he felt his throat close up.

“To Thomas,” Alison read softly from the letter that had been attached. “Thank you for welcoming us so warmly to your world when we got lost. Love from Yonderland, Scribe Elder Ho-Tan and Younger Alvin.”

Alison’s eyes moved over the poem, taking in every line in a way that made Thomas’s veins thrum with nervousness.

“Did you really write this?” she asked at last. When he nodded mutely, Alison’s eyes softened with a genuine smile. “It’s really beautiful, Thomas. We should hang it up in your room.”

Thomas swallowed around the lump in his throat. “I’d like that.”

Over the following days, weeks and months, whenever the others laughed at his pitiful attempts at poetry, he would go to his room and read the lines he’d managed to compose with Ho-Tan and Alvin’s help to remind himself of what he was capable if given the chance. It always took a little while but eventually his cheeks would stop burning with shame and he would find the strength to try again.

Because it wasn’t hopeless.

Because he wasn’t.

[whoneedsapublisher]

A Bit Late For This Isn't It?

Fic two! A Mousou Telepathy fic from ages ago that forced me to figure out work skins on Ao3.

Words: ~1500

Summary: Aya comes to a realization that would have been much less awkward if she'd figured it out much much earlier.

Also on Ao3

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Ayako, was, in a word, embarrassed. Perhaps even mortified.

For so long, she’d known that Hayato was in love with her. In time, she’d come to realize her own feelings for him. It had been a long road to that conclusion, and along the way, Mana had been unlucky enough to have her heart broken  That was sad, of course, but there wasn’t much that Ayako could have done about that. Hayato just… didn’t think of Mana that way. Even if he wasn’t obsessed with Nakano, he wouldn’t be interested in Mana.

The problem was that Ayako had… well, she hadn’t… directly asked Mana for her blessing to get together with Hayato, exactly, but… with how she was, her feelings were obvious, and Mana was forced to come to terms with Ayako being interested in Hayato and to get over it.

Which made it so, so, much worse when she realized that there was someone she liked more than Hayato.

It wasn’t that she didn’t like Hayato. He was still kind, and passionate, and had helped her out of her shell in his own way, and she was still attracted to him a little but… he was a little creepy sometimes. And their relationship felt… based on a lie. It made her feel guilty. He only really liked her because of her power, right? Because she could read his face, when really she couldn’t, and just had a shortcut.

Well, and also because he thought she was sexy, but… well, she wasn’t really that swayed by reasoning like that...

But there was someone else in her life who didn’t like her because of a misunderstanding. Someone who genuinely cared about her, without any illusions driving it. Someone who had saved her from herself, and helped her through low times without any hesitation.

The one person who knew her secret, and still wanted to be around her.

Mana.

Ayako buried her head in her hands, her ears burning. From her left, she could hear Yacchan wondering what was wrong with her this time. It was the “this time” that really stung, but she couldn’t deny it…

But really, what was she supposed to do now…? Mana had been willing to swallow her feelings and cheer Ayako on, how was Ayako supposed to turn to her and say “um, actually, I don’t want to date Hayato, I like you more”?

What other choice did she have, though? She was easy enough to read already, but Mana was particularly good at telling what she was thinking. There was no way Ayako would be able to hide her feelings from Mana even if she wanted to.

And… she wasn’t sure she did. What good had running away from confessing to Hayato done her? This time, she wanted to be honest about her feelings. And… maybe they could still be friends after Mana turned her down. Mana and Hayato were still friends, right? And Mana had been able to move on from Hayato. Maybe Ayako would be able to move on too, once she was rejected properly.

She was… pretty sure that was going to be the outcome of all this. She could read Mana’s mind, after all. And Mana hadn’t shown any interest in her beyond platonic, really. And she’d been interested in guys. So the two of them dating… it probably wasn’t possible. But she still wanted to do this right. Then at least she could feel like she’d done all she could.

She sat up and stared ahead, composing herself.

Oh, Yacchan thought. Looks like she came to some kind of a decision.

That is, assuming she could manage to confess before her face gave it away...

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“So what did you want to talk to me about?” Mana asked. She looks nervous… What’s up?

“Um…” Ayako said, trying to gather together her courage. Mana looked at her with concern.

Suddenly, a thought sprung unbidden into Ayako’s mind.

How different would Mana’s face look once Ayako had said what she planned to?

Images of Mana recoiling in disgust bubbled up in her mind, and Ayako froze.

She’d just been assuming Mana would just brush this off. Sure, she thought she’d probably be turned down, but she hadn’t considered Mana’s reaction to it beyond that. Hayato hadn’t been that bothered by Mana’s confession but… that was a girl confessing to a boy. He couldn’t have been surprised that Mana was straight. But.. how would Mana feel, knowing that Ayako was attracted to women? Would she feel betrayed? Would she be angry?

“Aya? Are you okay?” Now what’s wrong…? She got scared all of a sudden…

“I-I’m fine,” Ayako said hurriedly

She’s such a bad liar… Come on, you know I can tell by now, right Aya? “Uh,  you don’t look fine.”

“I-I…” Ayako stuttered.

It must be about what she wanted to tell me… what, is it about Hayato or something? “Just so you know, I’m not gonna get mad if it is,” Mana said, sighing.

“Um… it’s definitely… not about him…” Ayako managed, flushing. God, what had she been thinking? She never should have done this. Mana was going to hate her…

She looks so afraid… what is she so worried about? It’s not like she’s confessing to me or anything…

Ayako froze.

Wait, what’s with that reaction?

“I’m in love with you!” Ayako blurted out, before Mana could figure out it.

“What?!” What happened to being in love with Hayato?!

“I’m sorry!” Ayako said, bowing. “I-I realized I didn’t really have that deep of a connection to him, b-but I care about you a whole lot, and-”

“Okay, so you care about me, but does that mean you’re in love with me?” Mana asked skeptically. “Like do you wanna… you know…”

Ayako flushed red and covered her face as Mana’s mind filled with images of the two of them… getting intimate. Or maybe more precisely, Mana was thinking about that, and it was Ayako’s mind that was generating these… vivid images.

“Y-Yes,” she mumbled.

“H-Huh,” Mana said. Me and… Aya? I’ve never really… thought about it… I guess I have started seeing what Hayato sees in her since we’ve been friends… but… she’s a girl… ah, no offense, but… god! It’s really inconvenient for you to read my mind when I’m trying to think about this!

“I’m sorry!” Ayako said.

“Just… can you… go somewhere else for a second so I can think without you listening, please?” Mana said, waving distractedly at her.

“O-Okay…” Ayako said, slinking away. Well, at least Mana hadn’t seemed angry, or anything. That was a relief. She… wasn’t sure what she’d do if Mana started to hate her. 

So, well, that was it, then. She hadn’t completely ruined things, at least. At least that was good! Still… Mana’s reaction hadn’t been too encouraging. And it wasn’t like Ayako had expected anything else. But… was that just her being cowardly? She was afraid of being rejected, so she’d basically already decided it had happened? Wasn’t it better to at least hope, a little?

Her phone buzzed and she jumped a little, then quickly pulled it out.

It was from Mana. “You can come back now.”

Ayako took a deep breath and headed back behind the school.

When she got there, she found Mana looking awkward.

Jeez… this is gonna be weird… “Alright,” Mana said. “I… haven’t exactly thought of you like that before, but… I think I might be interested in dating you.”

Ayako stared at her in shock. “W- Really?” she asked, a smile creeping onto her face along with a blush.

Yeah, she definitely looks cute when she smiles like that...  “Well, you know I’m not lying, right?” Mana said. This is going to be really weird to explain to Hayato…

“Hey Hayato!” Mana said, hand in hand with Ayako. “You know how you turned me down for Aya? Sorry, but I stole her from you!”

Hayato collapsed to his knees, his head slumping as Mana laughed victoriously.

Ayako giggled.

“Ah, just for reference, I’m not planning on saying that or anything!” Mana said quickly. It is a little funny, though.

“So do you want to… hold hands, then?” Ayako asked, holding her hand out shyly.

Is that really something you need to be so bashful about? Well, I guess stuff like that is what makes her cute. “Sure,” Mana said, taking Ayako’s hand. Still, is she gonna be like that with everything?

Nakano’s shirt was unbuttoned enough to give her a lot of cleavage, her jacket open and a blush on her face.

“Ah… Mana, do you want to… you know,” she said bashfully, reaching up to unbutton another bu-

“Wait! No! I didn’t mean-” Mana said, flailing her arms above her head as if she could wipe the image away. “God, this is gonna be so weird. Sorry.”

“Don’t worry,” Ayako said, a slightly resigned look on her face. “I’m used to it...”

[twisted-wonderland-but-gayer]

Some voicelines that make me want to pass out and not in a good way:

Jack: “I was just about to head to the library. …Is the idea of me reading really that surprising?” When we know that Jack gets judged a lot because of his 'mean looks'

Malleus: "Why are you distancing yourself so much? Are you afraid of me now too? Heheh..." this one's kinda tricky since Yuu could've just been messing around and Malleus decided to joke on it, but it stands out to me cause he does say it when he's joking in other voicelines/and if he misunderstands, Yuu's usually quick to correct him

(CONTAINS SPOILERS so you can skip it if you want!!!)

Vargas Camp Azul: "You think I've eaten too much? Oh, no, there should be no qualms with that today, since I've burned more calories than usual." Why... would you say that to anyone??? Let alone Azul????

There's a bit more of them but those are just examples of voicelines that drive me crazy... I'm used to the not caring or being an insensitive asshole thing that goes around NRC but meh it's still shitty to react like that with someone you're supposedly getting on real good terms with lol

I usually don't mine spoilers but uh that last part is pretty scummy... My guess is that the Yuu we play as is a GN Enma Yuuken. In the Manga s/he isn't a bad person. They're an extremely kind character but blunt character, who many describe as cheeky. Yuuken tried to look out for Riddle in the first chapter just for Riddle to scream at them.

Theyre a responsible vice captian of the kendo club, a fucking swordmans club (and this can also explain what Yuu does during OBS). Theyre a lot like Jack as in theyre sporty and have a strong moral code. They also have a very close friend that they left behind called Saya, whom they remixed to train with since they look up to them.

They seem to be a bit dense, perhaps a musclely thembo but it's so weird that we don't even get a consistent Yuu across the game? Especially since Yuu in canon is very kind??? My guess is that they didn't mean it to be an asshole. They know that Azul is very strict with his diet, and they as a sports member and leader is also very understanding of that and wants to help others.

They probably just wanted to check in with Azul to make sure he's not ruining his goals. As for Jack, he's not all that open about himself aside from sports, so it's probably genuine surprise. My guess with Malleus is that he lightly threatened him as he sometimes does and Yuuken obviously being cautious shows caution. Malleus of course lightly teases for Yuu and thats really it, kinda like how Maleficent and Aurora are.

Idk. I think Yuuken is such an interesting MC that gets done dirty in the games. Like hello? I get that were supposed to be a blank slate but give us a sword like Yuuken????

[altocat]

Hi! ive been in a really big sephgen mood, and i was wondering if you had any hcs about them? Im kinda starving for them ^^’

Tasty Sephgen. The spiciest of ships. My faves.

-They bicker like an old married couple and spar like a couple of rowdy teenagers but are essentially attached at the hip. Sephiroth is extremely close to Angeal but he has always considered Genesis his best friend.

-Mutual crush/infatuation. They cover it up by being extra competitive and aggro towards each other in training. Genesis often tries to get Sephiroth's attention by sleeping around with a lot of people to see how Sephiroth would react. And gets saddened when Sephiroth seems to have no reaction at all, while Sephiroth is inwardly SEETHING. Neither of them actually communicate their feelings to each other. Which often leads to a lot of misunderstandings.

-Genesis IS genuinely jealous of Sephiroth's fame and wants to surpass him someday. Part of it is due to his own insecurity and sense of weakness, part of it is so that he can impress his childhood icon and prove to him that he's worthy. Unfortunately, this leads them into acting like a pair of idiots getting reckless during their fights. Both of them really like fighting and competition, but their inner feelings often give way to things getting very quickly out of hand.

-Despite this, they both respect each other tremendously. When separate from each other, most people immediately pick up on the fact that they talk about each other constantly. And both would be lying through their teeth if they said they didn't spend many sleepless nights...thinking about each other.

-Angeal and Zack are ultimate wingmen, just saying.

-If they were to become an actual item, they'd be excessively physical with each other, and probably would have gotten into a ton of trouble as a result. Not a single segment of Headquarters hasn't been tainted by their...antics 8'D

-Shitty parents on both sides. Neither side approves. Both Sephiroth and Genesis could give less of a fuck.

-Despite all the aggressive intimacy and give and take between them, they are surprisingly very affectionate and attentive to each other. Sephiroth enjoys showering Genesis with attention and praise to the point where the latter gets completely flustered. Genesis, for his part, has a softer side and will be the first one to comfort/be gentle around Sephiroth during one of his post-lab episodes.

-They could probably finish each other's sentences. Both are too embarrassed to bother though.

-They kind of low-key worship each other? Sappy, gooey stares at each other when they think the other isn't looking. BUT also still a bunch of juvenile shit-talking immediately afterwards so that they can cover it up.

-They sometimes sit together and provide very faint, intimate little touches here and there. A hand on an arm. A kind of absent-minded brushing the bangs out of the other's face. Sort of just right up on each other and being casual about it. Sephiroth doesn't like being touched at all, so this is a big deal for him to be like this.

-Sephiroth is lying about Loveless, mostly to go along with Angeal's disdain for it. While he doesn't care about the actual content, he secretly loves hearing Genesis read it aloud.

-Genesis gradually becomes aware of the fact that Sephiroth might not exactly be fully human. He doesn't ever tell Sephiroth this though, probably as a kindness as he knows it could really mess Sephiroth up. If he were to tell him, it would be a very tricky methodical process, one that involves a lot of reassurance.

-Far, FAR into the future where CC never happens? They break down what remains of their barriers and find a level of true harmony away from Shinra, content to just be around each other. Sephiroth has learned what it means to trust and rely on someone, to let them inside. Genesis comes to terms with the fact that he'll never really surpass Sephiroth, but that's okay--he has Sephiroth's undying admiration. A person has seen who he is and what he can do. A person has SEEN Genesis Rhapsodos. And that's more than enough to live on, all he could ever want.

[v-67]

Completed watching Season 1 of Kimi no todoke

And I gotta tell you

The welling up of emotions that I felt from watching this anime, it was like, when I'm on a rollercoaster and it's going so so so fast and I feel like my heart's gonna burst away, it gave me that kinda feeling.

It made me smile and root for our girl Kuronuma.

And my favourite part within this anime is when something so obvious is pointed out, but the thing is you only get it when it's pointed out, for eg : when Kuronuma understands that by talking to them, her feelings will reach them, so she has to talk to them to make the misunderstandings go away

Her understanding of these things, slowly and steadily, makes me realise how in life, I usually don't communicate my feelings to people

It's easier to say I'm bad at expressing gratitude, because when someone does something for me, I feel an overwhelming sense of a positive emotion, and it's difficult for me to express that feeling by just thanking someone in an awkward stature, so I usually don't say anything. But it's important for me to express it, and learn to express things properly, not just gratitude, but also general communication. I always feel like I'm either intimidating or invisible, and people don't approach me, but I've never taken a part to improve that. So i'mma do that, and I'm also going to be a better person, I'm going to keep driving towards it.

My point was, that sometimes it's good to have a reminder of the most obvious things, so I'm here to remind anyone who's reading this, that reach out to people, and communicate your feelings. If there's a misunderstanding, talk to someone and they'll understand. Don't assume and sit with silence and solace. Express. And keep on expressing.

I also like how when Kurumi likes Shota and does what she does, the way Sawako deals with it, I have so much genuine respect and admiration for her honesty and the way she dealt with it, I know the character's portrayal is of trusting everyone and such, but sometimes I like it. I wish the real world could be such that we could trust people on their words and not question if they meant it or not. But yes, I loved the way Sawako was honest about not being able to support her rather than going along with it. It felt good. I also loved that she never saw her as an enemy, but rather just someone who likes the person she likes too, yes, she envied her a little, but she never really carried any hate. And it was just really sweet.

I also love how Sawako slowly unravels her feelings, sometimes I think things are rushed within the real world and the modern world is all about fast pacing, but the way Sawako ensures her feelings, and if she feels this way about Shota or everyone else, and her small steps towards figuring her own emotions out, and her being honest about her feelings and not brushing them off. I find that extremely beautiful. These feelings that she gave time and patience to understand, and nourish, I feel like it's what we should all be doing.

I also loved the part where Kuronuma looks up the term Rival in the dictionary and it translates to 'Likable Foe'

I also love love loved the part of Chizu and Toru and Ryu, that whole episode where Toru comes by to visit Chizu because Ryu called him, and the way things process down and the bond, it was very sweet and heartwarming.

And Shota as a character is just really really warm, and his nature, is very very kind. Manifesting a person like him for all of us, because sometimes all you need, is a person like him to give you a supportive push towards acceptance and understanding. A little support comes a long way, and I hope we can be that person and have such people in our lives.

I want to see more of Ayane, SHE MAKES ME LAUGH TOO MUCH, and she's so smart. I love it. I want to see how her story unravels in Season 2

I also find Pin very funny lol. That part of Kurume, and the part where he's just normally sick but calls Kuronuma because he thinks she is an exorcist was WAY TOO FUNNY lol

I actually would've written this post after completing the whole anime but my heart can't take it fr, it's too much. I feel so many warm and happy emotions, I feel like it'll explode. So idk if I'll watch season 2 anytime soon. Heart feels too much you know?

I'm supposed to be completing this one long anime, but I've taken a smol break since a few things happened and I've been watching short anime because I don't want to watch that one when I'm feeling down. I'm feeling better now so maybe I'll start watching it again. But I guess I'm just a little not ready for me to complete that anime or reach it's ongoing schedule.

[homeshippinglikeapro]

im back because i needed closure so i didnt think about this for the next 24 hours, you said a lot that refused to understand where i was coming from based on a fundamental misunderstanding on how i found your content so let me clear things up so i can at least move on and you dont have to let your rage boil. yes me coming back is digital self harm, i honestly dont give a shit about my needs rn though. i found your junejade post from a recommendation because i follow the #kanaya tag, not from going to your page, i do have situational awareness. second my trigger is very real and because of that, panic turned to anger, turned to rage. not saying i shouldve sent a 3 post diatribe but yknow! i called you terminally online because i was mad, pissed even, that something ive tried to keep away from my eyes as best as possible, hit it in two seconds, with terms ive never heard of because i dont follow the nuances of this shit. i wish you understood better that those were the words of a panicked angry mentally ill person, and not a faceless piece of digital paper for you to tear apart, and that im not just "hating" im genuinely getting upset and losing it, because thats how triggers can go sometimes. thanks for reading, care about yourself and all that jazz /gen im not being sarcastic

ooook, so, a lot to unpack here (didn't wanted to, but oh well).

I accept you apology, don't worry, I know how being triggered by something can be. Not going to tell you that you shouldn't had to do it because 1- I already did, 2- you already recognize it yourself, it would be useless.

I admit I was very defensive, for lots of reasons: first of all, being loud and rude is just part of my personality (sometimes people thinks that I'm rude and mad even when I'm calm); I do get angry very easly but also calm down very easly (so don't worry about me); I tend to get like that mostly when I see somebody attacking innocent people (and I saw your comments as an attack to the person who requested me those drawings, I know NOW it wasn't true, still...); lastly, my community (the com/proship) is always under attack by antis and such (talking from experience).

I genuinly thought you were going to be a pain in the ass for the stuff I post even when I do what I can to let this stuff in the circle of people who WANTS to see this. And also the fact that you send lots of asks very quickly, accusing me and such (+ I woke up at 6 am with this shit) did made me jump-mad.

I'm only sorry that I took your comment as an "example" for other future people who might want to come and being bitches about all I make just because. But I'm not going to apologize for my tone.

For the tags thing, I'm not going to tag my drawings as "incest" for a simple reason: I think it's disrespectful (if you go to my main, you'll notice how I stopped using it). When I had problems, I searched in the incest tag and I still do believe that the tag should be used to discuss traumas, IRL situations, and similar. Don't want to put my very triggering stuff where people go to find solutions, discussions, help, etc, that's why I'm using the fictional/fandom equivalent to it, because, this way, only people who search for it (for coping/shipping reasons) can see it. I KNOW there are many people using the tag to post ship art, not going to be one of them.

With that being said, hope you'll block me very soon, not for me (I can very much handle all the insults and rage), defenetly for you.

Hope that's the clousure you wanted.