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polaroidbills · 1 year

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enhypen when you find their baby photos cute

genre/cw: bf!enhypen x reader, mega super duper fluff, one mention of "dying of cuteness", lots cheek and face squishing

a/n: this was my very first request! i loved writing this so keep requesting more!

heeseung 희승

"oh my god you were soo cute! i could just squish your little cheeks!"

you're currently sitting on your bed, looking through a photobook of heeseung's baby and childhood photos. cooing over how cute and squishy his cheeks were.

"babe stopp!" he snatched the photobook and slammed it shut.

"noo but i wasn't done looking at the photos!"

"too late! should've taken a picture of them," he shrugs.

"well it's a good thing i did!" you grab your phone and open the pictures you got, putting it up next to heeseung's face.

"see you were so cute! what happened to you?" you compared the baby photo to heeseung now, frowning.

"what?! take that back!" he starts tickling you.

"okay! okay! fine! you're still very cute!" you say laughing.

"good!" he finally stops tickling you.

"see you look the exact same!" you grab his cheeks and squish them like they were in the photo.

"yah! stop it!" he starts tickling you again.

jay 제이

"baby you've been looking at these photos for an hour and a half noww," jay complains.

"but look at how cute you were! i can't stop!"

"well you're gonna have to stop," he grabs your phone to turn it off but before he could you ran away. off of the couch and around the kitchen island.

"yah! come here right now!" he tries to catch you but you run even faster.

"i'll stop under onee condition," you smirk as an idea comes up in your mind.

"okayy? and what is that one condition?" jay asks suspiciously.

"you need to pose like this photo!" you show your favourite baby photo of him.

"what? never!"

"pleasee! i promise i'll stop looking ag the baby photos, if you do this one thing!" you plead.

"fine," jay sighs and does the flower pose like the photo.

"yes!" you quickly snap a photo of him doing the pose.

"good! now stop looking at those photos!"

"i will i will!"

three hours later. all you been doing is staring at the photo you just took of jay.

jake 제이크

you were busy looking through baby and childhood photos of jake. until you felt arms snake around your waist and a head on your shoulder.

"watcha doing?"

"looking at this cute little baby. aw this one is my favourite," you smile at the photos.

"yahh stop looking at thesee," he closes the book and tosses it to the side. "why look at these when you have the real thing right here," he puts his hands under his chin as he smiles.

"but it's not as good as these photoss," you complain.

"yah! i'm soo much hotter and better than before come on, don't you agree?" jake whines at your remarks.

"haha just kidding my baby," you then put your arms around his waist pulling him closer into a hug.

"you better be."

sunghoon 성훈

"wahh you were so cutee," you smile as you go through baby sunghoon photos sunoo sent you.

"yah! where did you get these?" he grabs your phone out of your hand to see the photo up close.

"that's none of your business," you laugh trying to get the phone back.

"oh i'm deleting this!"

"wait no! please! i love the photo!" you jump up when he raises the phone higher.

"and delete! there the photo is gone now," he hands you back the phone.

"ugh! i can't believe you!" you turn around to fake sulk.

"baby?" you don't respond.

"baby i'm sorry. i didn't think it was that big of a deal to you," still no response, you're just on your phone. "yah! are you texting sunoo?"

"uh noo?"

"hey! you so are!"

"well you just deleted my favourite photo of you! so now i gotta get it back from sunoo!"

"he sent them to you?"

"yes!"

"oh i'm gonna slap him across the fa- wait. did you say favourite photo of me?" you nod, giggling. "yah!"

he then tackles you to the bed, tickling you.

sunoo 선우

"oh my god i can't! you were so cute as a baby!" flipping through the photobook, you squeal at how cute sunoo was.

"i know right! like my cheeks were so squishable!" he too, exclaims how he looked as a baby.

"ahh i can't! i'm gonna die of cuteness!" you pretend to faint.

"and my cheeks still are squishable! see?" he pinches his cheeks as you get up to do the same.

"and you're still the cutest ever! ugh i love you so much," you smile at him.

"you were also so cute as a baby!" he shows you a baby photo of yourself.

"yeah but not as cute as you though! i'm lowkey jealous."

"yeah i know," sunoo rolls his eyes, sassily pretending to flip his hair.

jungwon 정원

"aww oh my godd! you were so cuteee!" you flip through the photobook rapidly as the adrenaline flows through your body.

"yahh didn't i tell you to stop looking at those? i'm right here!" jungwon waves his hands in front of your face, getting your attention.

"wait you literally haven't changed! you look the same!" you hold the photo up to his face. you then grab his cheeks and squish them like how they were in the photo.

"there! i can't! cuteness overload!" you clap your hands at how similar it is.

"stopp!" he whines and shoos your hands away.

"wait i need a picture of this. could you pose like this pleaseee?"

"no. never in a million years."

"pleasee jungwon pleasee," you plead.

"no. thats my final answer."

"oh okay that's fine," you turn your back and cross your arms, pretending to sulk. but jungwon buys it as real sulking.

"wait babyy i'm sorryy," he grabs your chin to turn your head. revealing a pout on your lips.

"love i'm sorry. please talk to me," you don't say a word. instead you just sit and pout.

"fine i'll take the photo," jungwom finally sighs, giving in to your demand.

"yes!" you celebrate as he poses and you snap the photo.

niki 니키

you were busy scrolling through old baby photos of niki when you came across your all time favourite one.

you then ran to the living room where he was on the couch and shoved your phone right in front of his face, showing his the photo.

"look! weren't you the literal cutest baby ever! like i could just squish your cheeks oh my god!" you laughed.

"yah! where did you get that photo? i told everyone to delete it!" niki asks shocked.

"ha your mom sent it to me!" you laugh still staring at the phone.

"oh yeah?"

"yup!"

"well guess who sent this one to me?" you look up at him confused as he puts his phone up, revealing an old baby photo of you.

"yah! what the hell?! my mom sent this to you?" you grab his phone to get a better look at the picture.

"haha yes she did! and i made it my wallpaper!" niki turns his phone on and off to show his lockscreen.

"oh my god! that's so embarrassing!"

@polaroidbills please DO NOT copy, plagiarize, or repost any of my work.

🏷️ @enhacolor

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jellyfishoreo1206 · 1 year

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I really wasn't expecting so many people to like my Mirage x reader so much! I'm glad you guys liked it!

Though this is a rewrite, because I accidentally deleted the original. I'm still a little salty about it but it's whatever

Though there will be a small few changes that aren't updated in the part 1, but nothing much, just how the text will be colored. And some inconsistent POV changes

Y/N-Pink

Mirage-Blue

Noah-Orange

But anyway, here's part two!

Part one is here btw

Meeting Mirage ;)

Warnings: Suggested drug usage, language

"So is there a reason why we're walking instead of taking your car?" Currently right now, Y/N, who was about to go to bed several minutes ago, is now walking the empty streets of Brooklyn with Noah right beside her. And in addition of that, a blindfold for some reason that she's still trying to figure out. It was nearly midnight and this man literally just told her he had something important to show her. Many questions asked, and no answers yet.

He just kept responding with, 'you'll see when we get there', which is slowly starting to tick her off. And to make it just a little worse, she's still in her PJ's, a black tank top, some baggy white sweatpants that aren't even hers, and some worn out spiderman slippers. And it's fucking cold.

"It's close by, not even that long of a walk."

"It better be, because I swear to God Noah if whatever you're about to show me is something stupid I'm going to fucking kick you."

"I swear it's not."

"Also why did it have to be at night? Why not early in the morning?!"

"Because it couldn't wait until early in the morning!"

"Mhm, yeah right. You didn't even let me have time to put on a jacket. It's fucking cold."

"It's summer."

"You know how cold I am naturally!"

"Wouldn't be surprised if you were a lizard."

"Maybe I am, maybe I'm just befriending you so I can slowly take over humanity! Maybe so I can lick all the things I want without getting weird looks from people because it'll all be lizards!"

It was quiet for a moment, before the pair started to laugh at the comment. Sometimes they can't take each other seriously. It's always one of the two that makes the most random comments to ever been said.

"I'll get you some of those croissant thingys from that bakery you like. As a, 'Sorry for dragging you out of your apartment to show you something' apology."

"You better, you mother fucker...and bring some milk too."

"You're the only person I know that likes milk as a beverage."

"Hey! You can make all kinds of shit out of milk! It's not weird to like it as a beverage. Hell, you were drinking it out of your mother once!"

"Never say that sentence ever again."

Sooner or later, they finally arrived at their destination. With the jingling of keys, Noah unlocks a door before gently pulling her into the building. She was immediately hit with the smell of oil, the fumes of paint, and the smell of gas. Wherever they are, Y/N's guessing they're in Noah's garage.

Now, Noah was nervous, the whole entire time they walked here, he was fidgeting with his finger every so often. He fears how his best friend will react to Mirage, and hoping, hoping it's a good reaction. Though, it might be a small chance, but that's not stopping him from praying to the point someone passing by will probably think he's a little crazy.

"Heyyy you're back! And you brought the pretty lady too~" Now Y/N wasn't expecting another person to be here. She thought it would just be the two of them. Not that she was complaining, maybe this important thing needed someone to look after it so it wouldn't break or something.

Though in reality, it's a huge 12ft robot chilling on the floor, waiting for the both of them. But she doesn't know that. Yet.

"Y/N, I want you to me-"

Noah was cut off by Mirage, a pout on his face as he crosses his arms. "Nu uh man! Lemme have this one!" He quickly clears his throat, with a flirtatious smirk replacing that pout in seconds.

"The names Mirage, bonita~ But you can call me yours~" There was a playfulness in his tone, and to Y/N, he seemed very confident and outgoing. Maybe a little flirty, but that's fine with her. Though he does sound rather young, maybe around the same age as Noah? (I don't know how old he is, but I'm guessing maybe around 19-21, also reader is like 6 years older than Noah) And what a strange name, maybe it's a nickname he likes to go by.

"That's the most cheesiest line I've ever heard in my entire life." Y/N let's a chuckle slip through, snapping out of her little mind rant, a small smile making it's way onto her lips.

"Hey I spent a good amount of time on that! Plus, it's not that cheesey.."

"..Was that too cheesey?"

"Dude you're the one who came up with it, not me."

"But you're supposed to be my wingman here! I scratch your back, you scratch mine." There was a small stare down between the two, before Noah sighed.

"...okay maybe it was a little too cheesey-"

"I may not be able to see, but you guys are horrible at whispering."

Y/N was still standing somewhat next to Noah, arms crossed over her chest as she waited for their so called secret conversation to be over with. All the things she wants do is to go to sleep and enjoy her day-off the next day. That's all she asks for.

"Anyway, what's that important thing you wanted to show me, Noah?" She goes to remove the blindfold, but was stopped by a frantic Noah holding her wrists in a soft, but firm, grip.

"Shit! S-Sorry, it's just.." Noah sighs out in frustration, letting go of Y/N's wrists. "I gotta tell you something before I show you the thing." Said woman raised her brow at Noah's behavior. Now's she getting a little worried for what the hell Noah might show her.

"It's.. It's not something illegal, right?"

"No!" He pauses for a few seconds, "At least I don't thin-"

"NOAH-??"

"Right. So, uh, I think it's best if you just..see for yourself?"

"Why do you sound so unsure." Finally glad to be able to take off the damn fabric, Y/N looks at her surroundings, blinking rapidly to adjust her eyes. Her suspicions of being in Noah's garage was correct. But what she wasn't expecting was a huge metal being sitting in the middle of the room, optics on her with a mischievous smile on his face.

"Hey~"

It takes a few seconds before her mind could catch up, her expression blank. When the scene in front of her processed completely, she immediately turned around, walking towards the door with fast and hurried steps.

"Nope. Nu-uh. Not dealing with this shit tonight. Fuck this shit. I'm out. Peace. Adíos. Goodbye forever. So lon-"

"Y/N wait c-come back!"

"And I will walk 500 miles, and I'll walk 500 more-" Grabbing onto the handle, she tries to open it. Only thing was the door jammed repeatedly. "Fucking shit."

"Ouch, they never treated E.T like this." He pouts, dramatically putting the back of his hand to his forehelm. Now he was kind of expecting her to scream or least for her to faint, but this reaction was more amusing.

"Just let me, uh, us explain-!" Noah forcefully put himself between Y/N and the door, holding out his arms so she wouldn't try to go around. A staredown ensues.

"Please..?" Shrugging his shoulders a little with an unsure smile on his face, his attempt to make himself as convincing as possible. With a sigh, she nods, backing away from the door with slight hesitation. Turning back to the robot in question, Mirage has a bubbly smile on his face, optics lighting up.

"There you go! I ain' gonna hurt you," The mech coos teasingly. "Quite a show you put up though, ever thought of doing stand-up comedy?"

Y/N was still a bit tense, looking at the bot in caution. She doesn't even know what to do in a kind of situation like this. Hell, what do you even do in a kind of situation like this?

But despite that, Noah seems to know, Mirage was his name? He seems to know him pretty well, from how well Noah and him seem to get along. It actually explains a lot of things, that you didn't realize until then. How Noah seemed to be very secretive whenever it came to his garage, and seemed to be somewhat cautious whenever someone looks through his things.

"It's okay mami, you can admire this handsome face as long as you like~" Mirage's flirtatious voice broke you out of your mind ramble, a blush covering your face in an instant. You spaced out without realizing it.

"S-shit my bad."

"Heyy, it's alright~ Not often you come across a face like this!" He sticks his glossa out, making a peace sign with his servos as he winks at her. It, oddly made him cute. A small chuckle comes out of the woman, posture now slightly relaxed a little more, but still tense. Thinking this was a dream, she goes to pinch her arm as hard as she can, but no it's no dream. Maybe she had to much edibles before going to bed, and she was just in the streets all sluggish and her mind is throwing delusions at her, just for entertainment. Like a jester of sorts.

But she ran out of edibles 3 days ago, so that's most likely not the reason why.

Like promised, Noah and Mirage explained what, where, who, and why he was on Earth. And that there's more of him. And that they can transform into cars. And he demonstrated this, by transforming into a car himself. The Frankenstein car you were inside not longer than a week ago.

Now the dots were finally connecting.

She continues to ask him a variety of questions, each of which ranging from how long he's been on Earth, why he choose a Porsche to be his alt mode (to which he responded with, "A cool guy like me needs to have a pretty cool alt to go along with it" followed by a flirtatious wink), and how many other people know about his existence. By know your shoulders are less tense, posture completely relaxed as she continues a conversation with (mainly Mirage) the two of them.

And Mirage, being the big flirt he is, kept throwing pick-up lines whenever the chance showed itself, accompanied by a wink and a cute smirk. Each one making you a little flustered.

Eventually Noah had to leave, because apparently Kris never went to sleep in the first place, to busy to defeat Bowser. He knew because Kris accidentally blew his cover via walkie-talkie. So now it's just you and Mirage, all alone in the garage.

It felt somewhat awkward, but Mirage always found a way to break the silence of everything.

"So how'd you meet my boy?"

"His mom, she was a co-worker of mine a few years ago, and decided to invite me over to her house to meet her kids."

"And what, you guys hit it off there?"

Y/N let's out a small chuckle, shaking her head. "Not exactly. He was a little nervous at the start. We only started talking when I offered to babysit Kris." And the conversation continued on from there, leaking into the early hours of the morning.

Mirage knew he wanted to know and see more about the human, she's just so pretty and fascinating! And her reactions and little faces she makes are so cute to him, make him wanna squeeze her little cheeks. His tanks are filled with the fluttery feeling again, the more they talk, the more it increases. Now he knew when to take risks, and this is one of them definitely. He knows he wants to see more of her, to keep talking with her. Just makes his spark go absolutely crazy.

So why not ask her out?

Alright Mirage, you can do this, my man! Don't let that nervous feeling pull you down. C'mon c'mon c'mon! When will you get another chance like this ever again?

After giving himself a small prep talk, Mirage finally asks. "Hey you wanna go to the drive-ins sometime tomorrow? I'd love to keep seeing that pretty face of yours more~" A wink following with a smirk. His confidence was all over the place, and his spark was beating rapidly, like it's going to come out of his chassis. Obviously it wasn't shown on his face, but internally he was a nervous wreck.

You were somewhat taken off-guard by his question, a blush covering your cheeks. Is he asking you out on a date? I mean, he could be asking to hang out more, but his various flirtatious comments and compliments thrown at you made you think otherwise.

Now that she thinks about, he's actually a lot better than any person she's been in a relationship with. He's actually makes her laugh, is nice and gentle, a good listener, and overall quite comfortable to be around with. And he's quite a cutie and handsome one too..fuck it.

"Sure. What time, handsome~?" The mech perked up at her response, optics lighting up. "How 'bout sometime at 7? I know a pretty good spot~"

"Then it's a date." Oh how that word made his spark flutter. He does a little dance and fists his hand in the air for his small victory, Y/N laughing a little at his antics. Her cheeks hurt so much from smiling so much. She's pretty excited for tomorrow's drive-in now.

When Mirage finally settles down, she beckons him down to be at her level, a small mischievous smile on her face. Confused, he does so, couching down until becoming face to face with her smiling face.

Warm lips peck his metal cheek, his optics widening in surprise at the bold gesture, a blue blush makes itself known on his face. The warmth spreading through his entire body as a shiver goes up his backstruts. Now he's for sure his spark might just beat out his chassis. She can practically hear it!

"Something for you to think about until tomorrow~ Goodnight Mirage~" And with that, she leaves the garage, a big smile on her face as she makes her way home, ready to finally crash into her bed and excited for the night tomorrow.

Mirage was left crouching in the garage, a surprised look still of his face, still trying to process what had just happen. His look of shock then quickly shifted to a look of giddiness, letting out a victory whoop as he tries to calm his beating spark.

"Man, what a woman!" And he cannot wait to see her again.

#transformers x reader #mirage x reader #rotb mirage #rotb mirage x reader #such a cute baby #rise of the beasts #knightverse #bayverse #noah diaz

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hancyan · 4 months

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The medicine for the new coronavirus was too expensive, so I gave up on taking it. Only the rich or those on welfare who receive free medical care can afford such ridiculously expensive medicine. Under the health insurance system, the self-pay is 30%, but it's still expensive. With something like this, ordinary people would hesitate to take the medicine. It will probably be a few years before the medicine gets cheaper, so all I can do is bear it and stay in bed. Oh, sorry. I'm feeling so sick that I feel like complaining. I'll probably delete this later lol

#random notes #non sims

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avelanlorelay · 1 year

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*Fireflies*

Mature | Fluff | Fluff and Smut/Romantic | Post The Queen of Nothing

Words: 4,124

Summary: Cardan steals Jude from the feast to show a surprise. Based on the deleted scene from The Queen of Nothing.

*Just cuteness and happiness. English is not my first language so sorry for any mistakes 🖤

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/49553290?view_adult=true

You are the light I've been searchin' for forever

Feels like I've really never felt the rain

Buried in the desert, didn't think I'd push through the dirt

You just cleansed me like a waterfall, you came

You cranked the heat up, I was cold

My past grew mold around my heart

And all my anger, sadness, regret disappeared, it's madness

I'm not used to all this water love, it's true

Light Shower, Melanie Martinez

He squeezed her hand, a signal for Jude to trust him, even though her patience was wearing thin as they walked through the woods, toward a lake Cardan used to visit near the palace. He had whispered furtively in her ear in the middle of the feast, promising her a surprise and a kiss if she would accompany him without asking questions.

Despite Jude’s reprisals that they shouldn’t run away in the middle of dinner, abandon the guests and especially escape the guards. But of course, a rebellious and impudent King like him didn’t care about any of that. Cardan agreed with a prankish smile, satisfied with his new title.

She followed him, though, perhaps because she was tired of Lady Asha’s glares and Minister Randalin’s exhausting babbling. Or maybe she was really tempted by the promise of a kiss. Jude hated to admit it, but Cardan’s lips were always good justification for breaking the rules.

Amidst the sound of owls and other creatures moaning or rejoicing in the dark of night, Cardan heard his Queen sigh, tired probably, but too touched by his willingness to surprise her to complain aloud. Oh, his Tempting Fruit Jude, who had already charmed him while sour, now made him even more smitten with her little efforts to prove herself sweet.

“Don’t worry My Queen, just a little bit more and we’ll arrive. Oh, perhaps you would rather have called your servants to carry you in a litter. He turned with a smirk so he could see her brown eyes roll back.

Even now as High Queen, Jude wasn’t usually as ostentatious as Cardan – except when it came to politics, of course, Jude then was all beauty and orders – but she wasn’t spoiled like the king, he had to admit.

“Perhaps I would rather you carried me in a litter.” She replied, eyebrows raised in sass, which no other person would have the audacity to say to the High King of Elfhame.

Cardan laughed.

“And am I not already one of your most faithful servants, my Goddess?” He pulled her to his side, placing a soft kiss on her hand. He was grateful for his magical vision for being able to see Jude's cheeks turn crimson like a red rose. She made a strange sound in her throat.

"What sound is this? Are we getting there yet? Jude pointed, quickly changing the subject.

Cardan became aware of the sound of water and the croaking of frogs nearby.

"Indeed. Wait here, I'll be back shortly.

"Cardan..." She began.

“Just trust me, Jude.” He insisted with a smile. Not a malicious smile or one of silly joy, but a truly sweet one, increasingly present on his lips.

Cardan didn't wait for her answer, he slipped through the trees. Five minutes later, Jude prepared to follow him, not caring to spoil the surprise, when she heard Cardan's voice humming her name. She approached with a small smile and almost gasped when she finally saw him.

Her King was smiling by a shining lake, illuminated by hundreds of fireflies that flew together, moving and dancing in harmony with the silent song of the woods, illuminating a carpet of white flowers that bloomed and spread out to cover the dry leaves of the ground and the trunk of the surrounding trees. A sweet scent of jasmine and honey lingered in the night.

Jude felt love move her heartbeat. In the light of the living stars, Cardan looked even more handsome and charming. Even more passionate. She had to blink a few times to make sure it wasn’t a dream.

“Did you like it?” Cardan asked hopefully, gesturing to induce the fireflies to fly around Jude. She turned to follow them with her gaze, but said nothing. “I have been training for some time.”

His tail swayed back and forth in anticipation, his usual confidence faltering terribly with her long silence. It was always like that with Jude. At all times, he found himself yearning for her reactions to his jokes, to his kisses, to his touches, from the most delicate to the most intimate. A rare laugh, a sigh of comfort, a moan of pleasure. Every melody that came out of Jude’s lips was the most beautiful song to his ears.

But at the moment he heard nothing. Perhaps the flowers were overkill? Maybe Jude was finding him clingy. Maybe he should tell all those silly fireflies to stop dancing and go away.

“It is splendid.” She finally sighed with a smile and he felt his heart dance in the chest along with the fireflies.

He smiled smugly, proud that he’d managed to impress her. Cardan held out a hand for Jude to join him at the edge of the lake.

“Did you do all this just for me?” She asked, brow furrowed, a little surprised and thrilled at the same time. Jude didn’t even remember that there was a lake near the Palacio, and especially didn’t knew that Cardan trained to charm fireflies.

She realized that she still wasn’t used to the idea that Cardan was her husband now and that lovers did romantic things for each other, asking nothing in return, even in Elfhame. Indeed, it seemed she would never get used to the idea that Cardan was hers, that he thought of her, that he liked to surprise her and give her gifts, that he wanted her. Without any logical explanation, his love was like Faerie magic itself.

“Well, I still don’t have much experience with being a husband and I also thought you wouldn’t like something too extravagant. So I tried something romantic in the right measure. However, I’m also not sure any measure of romance suits your tastes.” Cardan explained with a shy smile.

Jude couldn’t help but laugh and could have sworn his cheeks reddened. He was undeniably handsome when he was -rarely -shy.

“Actually, I like any measure of romance when it comes to you.” She moved closer, wrapping her arms around his neck. Cardan raised his eyebrows in surprise. “So feel free to be romantic whenever you want.”

“Oh Jude” He sighed, in love “You’re not mocking me, are you?”

The Queen pressed her lips together, drawing her eyebrows together.

“If every time I try to be affectionate you’re going to get suspicious, then I’ll give up right here.” Jude replied, promptly withdrawing her embrace. He pulled her back against his chest before she could pull away any further.

“No, don’t be so cruel to me. But sometimes, everything seems too perfect to be true. I feel like I’m dreaming.”

Jude thought so too, but she at least had the advantage of knowing that every word of love and devotion that fell from Cardan’s lips-and of which there were many, even when she didn’t ask for it, even at inappropriate times-were the absolute truth. . He, however, was not so lucky. Jude remembered how he hadn’t believed her when she confessed that she loved him for the first time, making a mental note to try to remind him of the truth of her feelings whenever necessary, even if it wasn’t with words.

"So… it’s a dream.” She concluded simply, with a small smile that reflected across his lips, before she attacked them with a kiss.

After a long moment, the fireflies swirling around them like a spiral, Cardan tried to pry their mouths apart, but Jude bit his lip to stop him. He moaned into her mouth and after a lot of effort, managed to pull away with a husky laugh.

“Wait, my dear kissy. Actually, I brought you here so we could bathe in the lake. I used to enjoy swimming back in the day, before I became King. I realized I missed it, so I wanted to come back here, but with you.”

Most of the time, he swam alone, enjoying the peaceful feeling of floating in the water, of feeling free. No pain, no hurt, no anger. Just freedom. Nicasia accompanied him some other times. They exchanged secrets and kisses and risky caresses, and he walked all the way home with a goofy smile on his lips. But those moments were long forgotten by Cardan, the happiness of those memories fading with time, as his love for Nicasia had faded. Disappeared from a place in his heart, so that Jude could occupy it entirely

In every moment with her, Cardan could feel the memories being eternalized in his own skin, just as he could feel the flowers opening in the ground, as if he and Jude were intertwined like the roots of a single rose. And every moment together with Jude, he wanted another and another and another, and as many memories as he could keep in the hundred or two hundred years they would live together.

“As long as you don’t try to drown me this time.” Jude narrowed her eyes with a wicked smile.

Cardan froze. He had completely forgotten about that day. Jude watched him blush a second time, truly a miracle. She had to stifle a laugh when he lowered his gaze.

“Oh, that. I don’t think I’ve ever apologized properly. I’m sorry, Jude. But if you give me a chance, this will be the perfect opportunity to replace this terrible memory with a much better one.”

Cardan looked into her eyes, a small hopeful smile, his tail twitching nervously for the second time that night. He could almost feel his muscles getting tired. She smiled brightly at him, moving close enough that her breaths seemed like a single, as she murmured,

“You’ve already done it. No bad memories exist when I’m with you, Cardan.”

He raised his eyebrows in surprise and swore his heart had stumbled a beat.

“Ask again if I’m mocking you and you’ll have to swim alone.” Jude added grimly.

“Fair.” Cardan chuckled, raising his hands in surrender as he approached the lake. He had been speechless anyway.

Cardan removed the long wolfskin cloak from his shoulders, followed by his doublet and shirt, and threw them carelessly to the earth. It took Jude some time in her silent admiration to realize that he was taking off his pants as well. Her cheeks flushed as Cardan turned to her stark naked, gaze inquiring and tail twitching impatiently. All his pale skin glistened in the moonlight, as if the King was it sole focus. It was mesmerizing and intimidating at the same time, his unearthly beauty.

“As tempting as your gaze is, I would like you to hurry up.”

His petulant tone snapped her out of her trance. Jude cleared her throat.

“You want me to go in the water with you completely naked? If anyone sees it, they’ll think we were doing something else.”

Cardan rolled his eyes. His queen didn’t care much for the fae’s nudity and even their inhibitions with sex. But Jude seemed terrified that anyone would find her in the slightest bit in that condition or in any way related. Jude only allowed the folk to see her as a warrior, never as a lover. Not that it bothered him, she had always been secretive anyway. On the contrary still, Cardan liked to think that her innermost side was reserved for him alone, her greatest proof that he possessed her every confidence. As if he were special.

“Good.” The King snorted with amusement. “You can swim with your clothes on if you want. Everyone will wonder what happened to the Queen when you returns soaked from head to toe, though.”

“Or you could lend me your robes and walk naked to the palace.” She retorted insolently.

The laugh Cardan gave echoed through the forest, as revitalizing as birdsong.

“Well, then surely everyone would know what happened to the Queen.” He snapped, so bold he didn’t even make a point of looking at Jude. He didn’t wait for her either as he waded slowly into the water, the fireflies clearing a path for his to pass.

“Come on Jude, the water is very nice. Warm, as you like in the bath. The sun must have been pretty hot this morn...” His excited voice trailed off as he turned and saw Jude wading into the lake. She had let her chestnut curls loose and, naked with every detail of her body exposed and lit by the night, Jude looked as beautiful as any mermaid of the sea. He would have gladly drowned at the sound of her melodious voice, even for a single kiss. She laughed at his silly expression.

“Why are you looking at me like that? With those rosy cheeks, you looks like a maiden boy who has never seen a woman without clothes.” She scoffed, cupping her hands together to get some water and splash it on his head, wetting his black hair.

“No matter how many times I look at you, your beauty always disturbs me.” Cardan muttered hoarsely, ignoring her taunt and the drops dripping from his hair.

Jude felt her cheeks burn. It was still hard to get used to being the center of all attention from those black eyes. She ran her hands through his wet hair and pushed it back, leaving his face fully exposed to smear kisses over his pale skin. A kiss on top of one apple, then the other. Another kiss on the forehead and one more on the chin. One last at the corner of those soft lips, right where he hid his smiles.

When she pulled away, Jude combed his black brows with her thumbs and smiled into his smitten eyes. He looked like a hypnotized sailor, ready for her to drag him under the water.

“I dare you to see who can stay underwater the longest.” She said suddenly with a teasing smile. Cardan needed a moment to process her sudden change in mood.

He smiled and agreed. Jude counted to three and they both submerged in the water at the same time, her long hair flowing around her like a great crown. With puffy cheeks and a small smile of suppressed amusement, she was beautiful and she was his wife.

Underwater, Cardan reached out his hand and the entire lake lit up as if stars had fallen from the sky. Jude’s eyes widened and when she looked up, she realized it was the fireflies that had formed a carpet over the lake, following his movements.

Jude could see a shoal of violet fish swim in a row at the bottom, followed by a small water fairy riding a pink eel. At the very bottom were glistening mosses and a variety of water plants and flowers. She had never been able to see what she had in the lakes of Elfhame before. All the while, the King’s eyes followed her awestruck gaze.

When he could no longer hold his breath, Cardan emerged and Jude followed him.

“You won!” He laughed breathlessly, pushing his hair back.

“It’s so amazing. Do it again.” She asked in awe, ignoring her small victory.

“Why do not you try? Go ahead. Come on, Jude.” Cardan persisted when Jude stared at him in disbelief.

She held out her hand as he had and a rare goofy laugh escaped her lips as the fireflies followed her, even as Jude twirled her fingers, they danced in sync with her movements. Her eyes sparkled with the reflection of the lights.

“But I don’t understand...” She mumbled with furrowed brow. “This is magic, but I’m not magic. I’m just a mortal girl.”

“You are the High Queen, Jude.” Cardan smiled, taking her hands in his. “And this is our land, Elfhame. Yours and mine. You gave me this.” His voice has genuine admiration.

“And you gave it to me.” Jude reminded him softly.

“In fact, if we’re both upfront about our intentions, we set a trap for each other. And you fell perfectly into my trap, which made me really proud of my skills.” He grinned cheekily.

Jude clapped his shoulder. He held her hands tighter and savored her lips and the smile that crept onto them afterwards.

Neither of them worried that they had been gone for too long or that any guests or guards had noticed their absence. They swam deeper into the lake and discovered new creatures and plants. They played with the fireflies and laughed so hard their stomachs hurt. They floated in the water and watched the clouds move.

Only when Cardan took Jude’s hands in his and felt her fingertips wrinkle like shriveled fruit did he stop, frowning in concern.

“What happened to your fingers?”

“It’s normal. It happens because I was in the water for a long time.”

“Does it hurt?”

“Oh, no” Jude chuckled at his lovely genuine concern. “It’s like armor for human skin to get used to water. It’s just a little uncomfortable, but it can happen in the bath too.”

“Oh.” He raised his eyebrows. “We better get out of the water before you turn into a plum.” Cardan dropped one more kiss on her fingertips and stepped out of the lake, helping Jude out as well. He knew she didn’t need the help, but he also knew that she liked it when he showed her that he cared.

“But I don’t want to go back yet. Can’t we stay a little longer?” Jude questioned as she wrung out her hair at the lakeside. By this time, she no longer cared that Cardan saw her naked anyway.

He stared at her in mock surprise.

“And to think it was so hard to convince you to come… But if that’s what you want.” The King shrugged “I won’t be the one to deny you something in life.”

“It’s better anyway.”

Cardan grimaced.

“You are incredibly demanding today, aren’t you?”

Jude clicked her tongue ready to bite back a reply, but then she noticed he was leaning back, gently twisting the furry tip of his tail.

“What are you doing?” She asked with a surprised laugh.

“It gets heavy when it’s wet. Don’t laugh, Jude.”

“I am not.” She lied with a amused smile. Cardan shook his head in mock irritation, reaching down to pick up his robes from the floor.

“For my Demanding Queen, only the finest accommodations.” He said with warmth, dramatically laying his soft cloak on the flower-strewn ground.

He lay down in all his elegance and nudity and Jude couldn’t help but be reminded of the sculptures of Greek gods from the human world. She wouldn’t tell him of course, she’d already done enough for his arrogance for one night.

She lay on his chest while Cardan stroked her damp hair and they were both silent for a long moment, simply admired the stars. Until Jude realized too late that it wasn’t a good idea to hug Cardan while they were without clothes and having skipped the first step that usually got them into this situation. It was stronger than she was, this desire that had haunted her for so long and that now it was finally free to indulge whenever she wanted.

Their skin was still damp, and with hers pressed against Cardan’s, they warmed each other, making the touch even more inviting. She was up and sitting on his lap before he could notice.

Jude felt him under her body almost instantly. She almost let out a laugh, the poor King should have been holding back for a long time, but he was too respectful to try anything with his wife outside of they rooms.

“Jude” Cardan panted, clutching the lined cloak on the floor beside his tightly to avoid touching her. “I don’t want to test my resilience right here and now. Let’s go back then.”

Jude smiled and ran her hands slowly over his chest and belly.

“I already said that I don’t want to go back. And if we go back, we’re going to have to join the party. I want to party with you alone.”

Cardan covered his face with his hands and growled.

Jude laughed and pushed his hands away from his face. He looked at her with a frown.

“Are you sure?”

“No one will see us here, willt hey?”She asked shyly, stroking his soft cheeks.

“No. Nobody, I swear.” Cardan promptly stated. Too fast, even. The controlled desperation in his voice was comical, and though Jude was trying hard to sound seductive, she laughed again.

“Then fine.” She moved closer to kiss his lips and he responded eagerly.

Cardan turned them so that Jude was under his body. He kissed her all over her face as she had done to him, taking the opportunity to move down her body. On her muscled belly, he stopped to lick her belly button and followed with kisses down her inner thighs, skipping a spot that Jude thought was extremely important.

She gripped his hair tightly and pulled him up.

“I need you. I need you now.” Jude whispered in his ear, nibbling the tip of his pointed ear. Cardan shivered and let out a hoarse groan.

He squeezed Jude’s breasts hungrily and hurriedly positioned himself inside her, moving slowly as their breathy moans echoed through the forest.

Amidst the scent of flowers and the lights of dancing fireflies, Jude and Cardan made love as if they were the only ones in the world illuminated by moonlight.

“You are so delicious…” She whispered into his neck, spreading wet kisses over his skin. “I love having you inside me. I want you so much...”

Cardan shuddered and kissed her on the lips with even more desire. He had once confessed to Jude that he fantasized about her flattery, now she always whispered sweet nothings that drove him crazy. To mock him or not, Cardan did not care. He would beg at her feet for more if he had to.

“I am the one who desperately wants you.” He stroked her cheeks in his long-fingered hand. “Say what you want and I’ll give you anything, anything you wish. If you asked me for the stars, I’d go up to the sky and knock them down for you. I’d make the planet stop spinning, Jude. Just ask and I will give you everything I have and steal what I don’t have.”

Jude caressed his soft lips with her thumb, as if they were the petals of a rose. Her amber eyes like two fireflies twinkled only for Cardan.

“I don’t wish for anything. All I want is you. It is more than enough.” She slid her fingers under his chin and pulled him to her, their mouths intertwining effortlessly.

When she melted into him and pressed him inside her, her lips vibrated into the kiss with a drawn-out moan from Jude. He tightened her thighs around his body tightly and increased his thrusts, releasing himself inside her with his whole body shuddering and a growl. Jude pulled away biting Cardan’s lip, panting and with a small smile of satisfaction. Cardan always invoked many of her smiles.

He buried his face in her neck and almost purred when he felt Jude’s hand stroke his damp curls with water and now sweat. Another hand of her gently ran its fingers over the old and newly self-made scars on his back. Cardan could spend the rest of his long life there in her arms. He would forever be undone by her, in fact.

**** ***

They walked back through the forest barefoot, the warm night air drying their skin and hair. Between kisses and laughter, they stopped halfway to lean against a tree, their swollen lips tireless of each other. They promised to come back whenever they could and make it a secret place. Those memories they would create together Cardan would never forget.

That night, the King and Queen returned to the party just as the sun was about to rise through the trees. Their absence was not noticed by any revelers, however, all too involved in the celebration. Cardan and Jude danced and laughed, a secret on their lips shared only between them.

He loved it, how it was now part of her secrets. She felt as light and exhilarated as she had never allowed herself to be before.

If life had ever been cruel or boring, neither of them could remember.

*I modified some lines from the deleted scene and made some references to HTKOELTHS.

Thanks for reading! 🖤💗

#cardan greenbriar #jude x cardan #jurdan #tfota #the cruel prince #twk #fanfic #fanfiction #tfota fanfic #jude duarte #tqon #ao3feed #Spotify

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zroqravity · 4 months

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no you are literally so right about the patreon thing though

i don't wanna be a hater on my blog so I'm gonna be on anon, but it is genuinely a stupid financial decision.

also like.

why the fuck was the update on patreon only??? if it concerns riptide, their main campaign??? like at least make a community post (they didn't have a problem making community post for merch for an exclusive campaign but they can't talk about hiatus on there??? weird)

also a thing that annoys me is the fact that they still have ads and shit on episodes, they have sponsorships. and it's not weird, every single podcast with a patreon I listen to has that (dndads, which they actually made a reference to once in an intro, naddpod) but they're the only ones that have activity on patreon and NO activity on main feed. it's weird!

and those podcasts manage to have active main campaigns while also having successful patreons! i understand that for the boys it's like a main job and so the pressure to have it pay off is high. but it's just not gonna if they move to patreon completely. it never works! I've seen people try so many times and it never works because patreon just doesn't work like that. it literally advertises itself as a place for exclusive content and it ain't exclusive if it's The Only thing that exists.

anyway I think they should have prioritized getting wanderlust out first (if they make it like the suckening I swear to fucking god I'll explode), THEN doing a patreon mini-campaign and then coming back with riptide. or better yet, posting the mini campaign along with riptide coming back to lure people in. would work on me if patreon wasn't locked away from regionally

they're just managing it all rather poorly tbh. like I get it? they're making money and I would also prioritize that shit, I understand. but at this point some of it just feel disrespectful. like posting the update on patreon of all places (not even fucking twitter???? or smth?)

anyway anyway. sorry for getting all of this off my chest in your askbox I just. most people I follow and/or am mutuals with for jrwi have patreons and i just feel like I can't complain about it. yknow? it's probably just in my head but yeah. you're so right

THE UPDATE THING YEAH I DIDNT KNOW I COULD ACTUALLY WATCH IT FOR FREE FOR QUITE A WHILE! It'd reeallllly weird to only put it on patreon especially when they have posted things of this sort on twitter in the past and at least made a community post abojt it on youtube, I can't think of exactly why they did this honestly but just the fact that they did it makes me suspicious despite there not being anything technically wrong with it and leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

also they have ads enabled on patreon stuff?? Yeah that is kinda weird and something I've never thought about before. Also a big fan of dndads here, in my original repay to the ask I actually mentioned them as a podcast who uses their patreon well but decided to delete it.

PATREON IS REGEON LOCKED??!?!@ THAT MAKES IT SO MUCH WORSE NOT ONLY ARE THEY LEAVING OUT FANS RHAT DONT PAY BJT ALSO SOME THAT WOULD PAY BUT JUST HAPPEN TO LIVE IN THE WRONG PLACE??????#@ AND THESE PEOPLE WOUNDNT EVEN BE ABLE TO SEE THE UPDATE

yeah they are handedly this shit very poorly, I'm glad my asks could be somewhere for you to talk about this bc I know how frustrating this is, I'm really glad I finally got the guts to speak more about this bc its something I've had a big problem with for a while and it's really nice to see that it's not actually all in my head and I'm not just being a hater unreasonably like I tent to think i am

Sorry for the late reply, my reply to your other ask will come even later, sorry again o7

#my asks #asks #anon ask #didnt read over this bc i need to go #but i hope its coherent #hater anon

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moonshotsx · 1 year

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10 for sashnetra pls 🫶

10. It’s been six months since we last saw each other and that’s all you can say?

take 2 because the first draft was deleted by tumblr

Sasha didn't know why she walked up to Anetra's place, not after half a year since she'd broken up the poor man's heart.

It had been pouring all night, her flimsy jacket barely was able to keep her stage outfit from getting wet.

She already could tell her makeup had been ruined by the rain, making her look even more pathetic.

As she made her way up the stairs of Anetra's apartment complex, she noticed just how much hadn't changed.

The ceiling of the corridor where the younger man's apartment was still sported the same leak Anetra had been complaining about for a while.

The clicking of her heels echoed in the empty hallway just made it more obvious how late it was.

She knocked three times at the familiar door, silence falling back as she waited.

Would he still be awake? Maybe it had been a stupid idea to come over like this.

Moments later, her thoughts were answered when a buzz-cut Anetra appeared behind the door, looking very much half asleep.

"You cut your hair?" was the first thing she managed to let out before she could think it through.

Upon hearing her voice, it seemed that Anetra had finally fully registered who was in front of him.

His stance went from neutral to defensive in an instant, he frowned before replying.

"It’s been six months since we last saw each other and that’s all you can say?"

He sounded so tired and annoyed.

Sasha knew he had all the reasons to.

"I'm sorry... I-I just needed to see you, but maybe I should-"

"You're going to catch a cold if you don't get dried off," he sighed, "Just get in," he moved to the side and closed the door behind Sasha.

"You should take a shower, you know where everything is," he continued as he made his was to the sofa, "Take the bed, I'll be fine on the couch".

"Anetra, I-"

"Save it for tomorrow morning," he laid on the couch, putting one arm to cover his eyes.

Sasha stood there awkwardly for a few minutes before walking into the bathroom.

She quickly stripped herself of the drenched clothes and hopped into the shower.

As the hot water hit her skin, her tears flooded.

She had broken Anetra's heart, and yet he hadn't hesitated to let her in.

How could have she been so stupid to ruin what they had?

#fic prompt #sashnetra #boynetra x sasha #club au

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starlightandetherealshadows · 1 year

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an assortment of author rambles (7/24)

Hi honeybees,

I have a couple of things I need to address before they get out of hand. There’s also some updates in this mix. ༘⋆♡⸝⸝💌⊹。°˖➴

I’m endlessly appreciative of the people who are supportive; the plethora of asks I’ve received that have been sweet and thoughtful have warmed my heart.

I’ve gotten a few messages that go something along the lines of “do ___ or I won’t read your IF” or “thanks for making ___ change, I’ll still be reading” and it’s pissed me off enough to address it.

It’s physically impossible for me to please everyone. Do not send me messages like this. You will be blocked. Yes, even if you’re saying you’re still reading my story. Because you’re not saying it out of interest and out of love for the world I’m creating, you’re saying that because you got your way.

I have different options of approaching my interactions on here. I would prefer to be transparent with you all in my writing process; I also don’t want to create false expectations by not updating you all on ‘major’ story changes. Authors change elements of their story all the time. It's part of the game.

That being said, I have the ability to just write my story and post updates when it’s necessary. There’s no obligation to be interactive. Not ideal for me and my personality type, but if it saves me stress and prevents me from receiving rude, entitled messages, then so be it.

If I need to, I'll turn off anonymous asks for the time being.

Anyways, updates.

To everyone that's sent in their thoughts on MC stat checks or romance routes, I did read all your messages and thank you for your opinions! I didn't respond to all of them, but they are appreciated.

The V romance isn't working and i have to remove them as a triad RO. It's like putting a square peg in a round hole and hoping no one notices. Polyamorous people or people who want to experience a healthy, equal triad relationship deserve better than what the V romance would turn into. With that in mind...

V-type poly with V and MC dating Zero and not each other still works just fine. Any and all MC's can romance Zero, can still fight with V and gain friendship/rivalry with them.

If V is removed as a RO outside of the v-type poly, that means I would add another as an official RO. I'm between Carter and Delphine. Leaning towards Delphine because she's gorgeous and sapphic and I adore her. She would be introduced a few chapters in. Carter and Maggie would remain as flings/possible additions to the group scattered throughout. That would make the official RO's A, C, D, X, Z.

No MC stat checks to initiate any of the RO routes. If there are some incompatibilities, that will be a conversation with the RO and you might get more of a slow burn romance (ex. stoic MC's with C) There might be personality/stat checks to initiate certain moments in the romance (ex. if you're a very sarcastic MC, your RO may not think you mean your affections and you'll have to put in the work to convince them)

I'm gonna get to everyone's asks!! (eventually) I work during the day and I'm writing essays for my medical school applications which take up a lot of my time. So if it's been a while since you've sent your ask, don't worry. I'll get to it! Especially if it's a RO reaction or lore related, those take me much longer to write and cost more energy. But i do love chatting with y'all, so I try to carve out some time for that.

Do not send asks complaining about the changes; they will be ignored and/or deleted. I share them to be transparent.

Okay I think that's it for now. Thank you again for all the amazing messages y'all have sent and I'm sorry for this tone switch, just needed to clear this up. ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

I'll be online later tonight to answer more fun asks and be silly goofy with y'all!! (and if you read all this, thank you for reading my lil novel of a post)

All my love,

Cheye

#memento mori #update #y'all should see some of the asks in my inbox rn like lmaoooo

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ohbo-ohno · 10 months

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Hi there, I was the one that sent the FemGhost x reader x Ghost. I wanted to apologize for sending it. I know you’re busy and I don’t wanna add more to your load. ALSO if that request did make you uncomfortable then I am really sorry! It’s never my intention and you are one of my favorite writers and I really, really, really, hope I didn’t make you feel icky because of that!!

Please feel free to delete it! Thank you for seeing this, I appreciate you and your writing! ❤️

BABE no worries at all lmao!!! you are so incredibly Good and Fine. i only didn't answer that ask because i don't write fem ghoap :') nothing else, i promise <3

also when i say "i'm busy, i'll answer asks later" it's not me complaining about asks!!! im sorry if it comes off like that!!! i just mean like, i'm not disappearing, i'm not ignoring you, i'm just booked for a bit haha. i always feel a bit Weird when i go a little too long without posting, so i'll post something really just to make myself feel better lmao

btw i loooove getting asks, i really do. i have like 50 so i don't answer a lot, but i really do love seeing the thoughts you guys send to me <3 if i had a problem, trust that i would make it known lol

#asks and answers #usually if i don't write something i get an ask about i'll rec a blog that DOES #but i had just said smth about not writing fem ghoap a couple days before and i feel weird posting the same thing several times in a row #yk?

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thedonutdeliverygirl · 1 year

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To my Tumblr friends:

I'm sorry. I'm sorry I complain, I'm sorry I get so caught up with my own problems I'll forget to ask about yours,I'm sorry if I overshare and make you feel uncomfortable, I'm sorry if I make you feel like I don't care about you I promise I do, I'm sorry if I don't tell you how much I appreciate you being there for me, I'm sorry.

I'm probably gonna delete this later because I'm scared of my emotions and people.

#im sorry #my mutuals #you guys mean a lot to me

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azurith2 · 1 year

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My response to Bons post

So I made a "side blog" to make sure this gets seen, it seems to have been removed from their post that I reblogged.

There is a lot to unpack here, first off the incident with your server, I've already admit to multiple times that I was in the middle of a mental break down when the incident with Hades happened. That it was my fault, I spoke more at length about this with "my best friend" because we talked more, but I was actively suicidal. I apologized to both you and her.

"Blaming you" for my server falling apart, I never said a word to you about it until you came on my server complaining about someone making a server from your server and all the activity on yours dying, and then I pointed out that's what you did on my server. You specifically have a rule about not making new servers from your server now because of this. And I more blamed it on the death of our VA project.

I did the night the server was made go to mu friend because I was having a panic attack associating it with the shit Hickory did. *Beacsue we were friends* I never asked them to delete the server or not continue with the project.

Nothing I ever said was meant as a guilt trip to you, I remember specifically telling you that you'd done nothing wrong.

Now as for me joining yours, I never really wanted to, but did anyway because I didn't want to disappoint my friend. They put a lot of pressure on me, and after I snapped I was clearer with my feelings, Something they said they wanted.

Even later tho when they tried to blame themselves for the incident I took 100% responsibility. I did have some bad medication, and it had me really screwed up mentally and physically. I communicated all of this to both of you. Also I don't ever remember asking for Lee to be kicked, I'll go back over our dms and make sure, but I specifically remember venting to them because they were an owner and my friend. I may be wrong tho I was not myself during that time and actively suicidal (said friend actually asked me what my plan was tho, so that was nice)

Yeah my behavior on your server was shit, that's part of why I never attempted to go back even after I got my medication straight. I've already apologized to you both over the incident I'm not sure what else you want from me there. If you still had issue with me after that you could have come to me instead of pulling this

The incident with Hickory, no it was another not proud moment of mine, she had me so on edge I was afraid to talk on my own server, this is the time period my friend and I started talking more in DMs. Yeah I blew up, but I'd found I'd been lied to, and had people going behind my back, purposely keeping secrets from me. and again I'd apologized for my explosive reaction. Hickory did a lot of damage but I at first didn't talk about her at all. I never attempted to "turn everyone against her" we had a night where we mutually vented about the situation. I didn’t go out warning people away from her, she was gone and I just wanted to move on. It's nothing like what you're attempting to do to me now. And like you noted, I tried to reach out to her to talk things out, before things got bad.

As for your issues with me and joining in on HC discussions on the server, I was sharing my opinions just the same as you guys were. I never silenced anyone, I could have just kicked people I disagreed with. in fact one incident got out of hand because I didn't want to just kick them. If me disagreeing with your head.canon is enough to make you not want to use it, then I'm sorry but maybe you put to much stock into my opinion. That was one of the issues I had with Hickory, she sought me out as a source of validation and I couldn't be that for her.

As for the incident of running someone off the server, again yes I argued with them, but Hickory is the one that was super aggressive. I should have acted sooner and removed her as a mod but I didn't because she had me afraid. But ultimately the person ran off had devolved into personal attacks rather than debating the characters merit and that was major no no.

Its also part of the reason I removed you as a mod, which by the way I was hesitant to do anyway, because you were a minor, but our friend talked me into it. I didn't want a repeat of regretting how things went with Hickory.

As for the incident with Jamil and Kalim’s recolor, I made that comment, because they seemed to be going for more Canon accurate not just looking to make them darker for dark skin Arab rep. Because that card was ridiculous.

As for the comment about the weird HC with 500, I never specifically said what it was. and it was in comparison to the like 20 notes my friend had gotten on a gorgeous peice of artwork. I also was trash talking the memes I made that got a lot of notes. I think you're really trying hard here with that one.

As for my thoughts of trans Cater, there was a reason I never wrote it, I admitted it was a bad idea. I wasn't Trans and couldn't represent it properly. And I wasn't adding trauma, the stuff with his sisters is written into his character.

As for my thoughts on race swapping in general, my argument was that it wasn’t right to yell at someone who may draw say Leona a little lighter because they identify with him, and wanted him to look more like them, and yet turn around and race sawp another character. I personally also prefer characters as the races they are presented in game, but expressed that was a personal preference. My major issue was the ",It's okay when I do it, but not when they do it" mentality.

As for the Vampire thing I'm very confused, there wasn't much of anything said after the earlier raid, and when you left. I never called anyone a vampire (and why would I use that degotory I like vampires, I made Cater one?) and I would never dismiss someone's fight with cancer. Cancer sucks, I've lost a lot of people in my life to it.

I think that was most of the major points, and again I don't know why you let any of this go on so long rather than talking with me. You never said a word about how you felt, when I'd been honest with mine.

Addon: Being upset about the Riddles mom is Cater’s doctor thing is so weird. I said that cuz I'd made their mother's friends because rich and powerful women, had nothing to do with them being in the same country. You forget *mirror travel* exists .

#twisted wonderland #azurith #truth

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