#I'm feeling weirdly nostalgic today

[asexualaromanticautistic]

goodnight tiger joel, goodnight ogre joel, goodnight bug joel, goodnight just-a-guy joel, goodnight just-a-guy with shrek ears joel, goodnight wolf joel, goodnight ambiguous hybrid but is definitely far from just a human joel, goodnight 11ft joel, goodnight tanuki joel.

and most importantly, goodnight just straight up shrek joel.

[legacyshenanigans]

Hello B!! I'm back at it again with Rominis shenanigans and ideas for you today are:

First time Rowan showed Omi his werewolf form. I know he can't really see the whole thing but you know what I mean....I just think that also could have been a nice moment between the two. I feel like the amount of trust between these two had to be strong for Rowan to feel comfortable showing him that side of him and Ominis not being afraid of him. 🥹❤️🐺🐍 (If you haven't written it already that is)

And the other one is just the usual chaos and this one is the stereotypical dog (or wolf in this case) Vs cat moment. Maybe Omi is looking after a stray kitten or someone asked him if he could watch their cat for a few days and the cat just decides to crash on Omi's bed obviously invading Rowan's territory not to mention Omi could be giving the kitty all the attention. I donno just the image of Rowan being jealous of a little cat could be really funny 🐺🐈

Don't worry I'll eventually ran out of ideas I've been known to get an art block pretty frequently (so you won't have to deal with my chaos anymore). If that happens expect another spam of memes 🤣❤️

As always have a wonderful evening B!! ❤️❤️

Your little Dragon friend 🐲❤️🐍

I always love your Rominis asks my lil Dragon 💚 and I love your memes too! Haha. I hope you're having a good evening/day too, I had a nap, and I've not long woke up 😅💜 yeah I can do these for you 😊💚

Rominis 🐺💚

Pets and Scratches.

First time Rowan transformed in front of Ominis.

Ominis and Rowan: *walking in the woods together*

Ominis: I was thinking?

Rowan: Oh?

Ominis: I havn't been around your werewolf form yet *smiles*

Rowan: I..Well..I wasn't sure if I'd ever want to reveal that side of me, not to you anyway..I never want to frighten you.

Ominis: You wouldn't frighten me, Rowan? I like you, you wouldn't hurt me, why would I be frightened? *soft grin*

Rowan: *stares at Ominis for a moment with a slightly concerned look on his face before he slowly transforms*

Ominis: (??)

Rowan: *sits in front of Ominis in his werewolf form, looking at him through almost sad eye's*

Ominis: *reaches out and feels Rowans wet nose and giggles, then feels the fur of his head*

Rowan: ....

Ominis: *pets and scratches Rowans head with a sweet smile*

Rowan: *tail wags as his face relaxes*

Ominis: ...How do you feel?

Rowan: *even deeper, more hoarse voice* Oddly calm..

Ominis: *chuckles* Do you like pets like this?

Rowan: ..The only people that have ever petted me in Wolf form were my parents..So, yes, it feels weirdly nostalgic.

Ominis: I'm glad..I'll always give you pets if you need them *endearing grin*

Rowan: *crinkles his nose and bares his teeth like he's smiling*

Cats and Dogs

Rowan doesn't like cats. Especially not cats that are taking Ominis's attention.

Rowan: *wandering into Ominis room* Hey, baby.

Ominis: *chilling on his bed with a cat* Hey *smiles*

Rowan: *notices the cat and tenses up, letting out a growl before his hand shoots up to his own mouth*

Ominis: (?!) ..Did you just growl?

Rowan: ..Why is there a cat here?

Ominis: I think it's a little stray, think it came in through my open window, and just decided to have a little rest on my bed with me *smiles*

Rowan: ...Urgh...I dont like cats.. And why does it look so cosy next to you *small frown* and why are you petting it.

Ominis: Awww come on, Rowan, don't be jealous *chuckles*

Rowan: *slowly approaches the bed, his eyes glued to the cat, as he sits down next to Ominis*

The little cat: *gets up and sniffs at Rowan*

Rowan: *nose twitching*

Ominis: Rowan?

Rowan: ...Urgh. it's sniffing me.

Ominis: *giggles*

Little cat: *sits on Rowans lap*

Rowan: *small growl* URGH. It's sitting on me!

Ominis: *bursts into a fit of chuckles*

~

[musesofthequill]

hiiii... soo a big part of my journey through life just adjourned today, never thought this day would come but weirdly enough, it felt natural. I've realised that one reason for that is that I didn't even have such pause of circumstances to even think of it yet. however, now, I'm starting to lean into the waters of a new start. something, I don't know how to feel about, I've had to go through the worst of emotions and best of risings over the past 2 years. truly, exhilarating.

what I've gained from that is the realisation of the importance of gratitude.

I wouldn't be an ounce of who I am if it wasn't for everything and everyone around me. the good, the bad, the sad, the regretful, everything . of course, if anyone knew what regrets I'm talking about they'd wonder if I'm sane to say I wouldn't change it, but truth be told, I'm okay with laws of nature.

somehow I also feel saying that makes me selfish because had nature shown the ugliest of it's faces, I'd have lost faith in goodness.

but still, I want to stay true to right now.

so back to the nostalgic part, I feel like I'm slowly losing my privelege to childhood and youth and lack of responsibility. every now and then when I think about how everything is turning, I feel a mellow tune playing and my eyes getting heavy. growing up might as well be the worst thing ever.

whether we're creations of science or a greater power i do know, we're nothing without art. it makes you feel alive. in the provinces of adulthood, art fades and the very bitter, grey dull concrete is what replaces it. I don't why we have synonymised art to privelege. it's a right. everything that makes you feel, deeply, truly and longingly is art itself. art is supposed to make you feel.

I've always believed that the world's most precious art are the people. I'm biased on that too. bitter people repulse me but then again, what do I know.

but my people, my people are gold. I'm so thankful, truly.

I love life because I have you all. specifically you, reading.

anyways, this is getting too long. in the end all I want to say is I know we're growing up fast, too fast but so is everyone so I guess it's fine. I just hope we never lose our need for art and our lives of love and happiness. let's work hard but let's not forget we need to live. let's live for the peaceful sunny mornings. thank you to those who came, who left, who stay and those who'll remain.

i love you

[7grandmel]

Todays rip: 10/11/2023

HELLO CYBER WORLD!

Season 5 Featured on: SiIvaGunner's Highest Quality Rips: Volume GS

Ripped by Expensive Dispenser

Sometimes when picking these out, I feel a bit worried that I'm overdoing the amount of Undertale/Deltarune content, but then I remember that the two games combined have over A THOUSAND rips on the channel - and it starts to make a bit more sense...

Either way, this wasn't really a rip chosen specifically for the Deltarune-iness of it, but because of the joke featured - Hello by OMFG. OMFG's very particular brand of electronic music is one which I closely associate with bands like the annoyingly-similarly-named LMFAO - a band whose songs practically defined the early 2010s. Be it Everyday I'm Shufflin' or Party Rock, the Smosh-age of online content was very much accented by that particular brand of cheesy, corny, yet undeniably catchy electronic dance music. One strange remnant of how long they've survived was with hit YouTuber Pyrocynical's now legendary 250K subscriber special from 2015, which weirdly began circulating as a meme in 2018. If you've ever heard the phrase "So guys, we did it, a quarter of a million subscribers!", then that's where its from - a quote said after a faux-MLG clip of Dying Light with the aforementioned OMFG song playing.

It feels...wrong, to call this kind of shitposting a product of "cringe culture", because while the meme is entirely about sharing how ridiculous that era of YouTube was, it has an air of...nostalgia, to it. I covered this way, WAY long ago with Super Paper Mario if it was a rhythm game for mobile, a rip whose joke I and many others initially falsely attributed to the Pyrocynical meme - that kind of video-making has, due to changing trends and overall mockery, just fallen out of fashion entirely, and its something we're somehow nostalgic over despite it not really being all that long ago.

Three years past even 2018 when the meme first took off, HELLO CYBER WORLD! is able to feel even more like a nostalgic tribute to OMFG's and company's very specific influence of the internet as a whole. In a way, I feel like Toby Fox's music has become a new kind of cornerstone for YouTubers - its widespread popularity along with its lack of risk for music copyright has made it a standard in YouTube videos from hugely popular creators. So HELLO CYBER WORLD!, especially with how overall well-made it is, feels like a marriage of those two times (weirdly prevailing theme recently, huh?). The rip sort of blurs the line between being a rearrangement and melody swap, changing core parts of A CYBER'S WORLD to recreate the most iconic parts of Hello, whilst still primarily using the instrumentation of the latter within the former's melody. Paired with the sort of conglaturatory, triumphant feel of both songs, and it's a mix that feels destined to have happened - executed damn near flawlessly, as to be expected from Expensive Dispenser.

[iwanttobepersephone]

Went with @fukin-shortass to the river park today! Started feeling weirdly... preemptively nostalgic? As I went to bed today. Kinda like, that feeling you get when you know you're gonna treasure those memories forever. So, I decided to draw the moments I remember in the most clarity, and I really like them for lazy lil doodles in the middle of the night, so I'm posting them ^^

[terastalungrad]

Feeling nostalgic, so I'm looking back at past Big Brothers. See how strongly I remember them.

2000: BB1

Caught the last two weeks of this, and was HOOKED. I learned of the existence of this show because a teacher built a school assembly around its popularity.

2001: BB2

Watched from launch, utterly obsessed. All the spin-offs, loads of live streams.

2002: BB3

Really into the metagame by this point. Love the nominations. Started studying psychology in school, now believe I'm brilliant at analysing people.

2003: BB4

Very cosy memories of this one. Watched it with my mother and brother, really rooted for lovely Cameron to win. My last summer before uni.

2004: BB5

Big Brother goes evil! My mother sends me VHS tapes so I can watch at uni. While watching the live stream one night, my brother steals my passport to run away to America. It's okay, we get him back.

2005: BB6

Doctor Who's back by this point, so Big Brother's no longer my favourite TV show. I find this one tougher to watch. I don't warm to many of the housemates.

2006: BB7

I auditioned for this one! So glad I didn't get in in retrospect. How different would my life have been? Can't imagine doing standup as a former Big Brother housemate.

Loved the series, though. Two Welsh speakers!

2007: BB8

Strong start to this series - I liked the idea of putting all the women in first, and slowly trickling in the men. But it's won by Brian Bello - very funny, I liked him, but his victory felt like a sign of reality TV becoming more constructed.

2008: BB9

Didn't watch this one. Furious when I found out the winner was Welsh. I turn my back for one minute!

2009: BB10

Enjoyed the series, but once again annoyed by the winner. Which seems strange now! I think today, I'd love the series to be won by a glamour model. Would I? I still gravitate towards the freaks and misfits, but I take a lot more pleasure in the victories of people who incur the snobbishness of the public.

2010: BB11

Skipped this one. It had been too long since I'd really loved a Big Brother, so I decided the magic was gone.

2011: BB12

First Channel 5 series. I'm freelancing by this point, so two weeks before it ends, I watch it all in one go. Loved it!

2012: BB13

All-time favourite series. The winner's a grumpy trans man from North Wales, how could I ask for more? Such an exciting series. And the first one I watched in full while on Tumblr.

2013: BB14

Didn't watch this one. Why not?? Maybe BB13 had been so perfect for me, I didn't have room in my heart for another series. I suppose I was also taking standup a lot more seriously by this point. Maybe I was too busy.

Furious when I found out the winner was Welsh. I turn my back for one minute!

2014: BB15

Very patchy memory of this series. I remember being extremely grumpy about the final. I was away visiting friends, so couldn't watch it live, and then had the winner spoiled for me in the most annoying possible way. Didn't love the winner either.

2015: BB16

Didn't watch this one. Too grumpy from last year. And I bet Jim Davidson had won Celebrity Big Brother by this point, an all-time low point.

I don't know a single thing about this series. Checking Wikipedia, turns out a Welshman came second. I turn my back -

Oh, except I did post a weird joke about this season. I don't think that was based on knowledge, though. I probably just saw people posting about BBUK and posted my own silly gag.

2016: BB17

Didn't watch. Don't know anything about it.

I wish I was a recation videos guy, because I just looked up this series and found out it launched the rise to fame of Andrew Tate!! Woah. First to be evicted, apparently.

In fact, omg - he's the first ever MAN to be the first evicted housemate.

2017: BB18

I weirdly DID watch this one, and I have no idea why. None of my friends were watching it. In fact, I'd forgotten I'd watched it until. I went to file my charts for the current season, BB20, and found that my folder included detailed data for BB18. I didn't just watch it, I kept my most detailed ever diagrams.

2018: BB19

Didn't watch this one. Who knows why?

A Welshman came second. I'm not even surprised at this point.

Pre-lockdown: BB1

Managed to get hold of this series and watched the whole thing. Really interesting to see it through modern eyes - how our values have changed!

2023: BB20

This one's on right now. I'm enjoying it a lot.

So let's recap my gaps - BB9, BB11, BB14, BB16 BB17, BB19. I'd enjoy watching some of these one day.

[onmywaytobe]

NaNoWriMo Day 30

yeah so this was another day where i really just phoned it in so as not to break my streak. I'm weirdly nervous about the next scene even though i know what's happening. i want to see how quickly i can finish an entire draft in one go so I'm going to keep working (and maybe posting about it...we'll see)

Total words: 52,256

Words written today: 454

Favorite line(s):

The outfit was simple, but I still felt pretty. The well-fitting dress was a nice break from the heavy layers of winter, and it was a good reminder that I still had legs. The dress had gold accents that brought out the gold in my skin and hair, making me glow. It had been awhile since I had done anything for myself, and making an effort on my appearance felt nice. It reminded me of home, getting ready for the spring festival. But I didn’t feel as nostalgic as I usually did when I thought of home. ABO was my home now, and I was just excited to get to party with my new family.

this is a little silly but we're getting to the whole beauty and the beast scene where she's all dressed up and they realize they're in love or whatever and idk I'm just happy for her lol

[imunbreakabledude]

I'm sorry you gotta deal with that, I feel like my username wards off a lot of weirdos but a few still have gotten through the cracks and its caused me to turn off public chat at least in the really populated areas. Especially the skilling bosses and minigames though, I don't know what causes the public chat to be especially bad there. I like looking at peoples rsns though. My favorite ive found is 'I Poop Alone' which is an iron. But I've added you back and I should be on a little later, I escaped the house today so I've been a bit busy.

But on the tornadoes I get you completely, it feels like the tornadoes move an extra square sometimes just to screw with you. And on my last I swear to you the tornadoes lasted longer than usual just to stack me out on the last possible tick.

I think I will end up making an iron, with the release of Varlamore the early to midgame looks way more interesting and fun plus if I make it to bowfa down the line that'll at least be quite a while of playtime before that grind. Plus even if i don't like it I can just use the account as like a wildy boss scout or for like corp instances.

omg yeah even before i became a public chat off by default person due to people being strange and annoying about my RSN i always turned it off at wintertodt/tempo/gotr. and shooting stars. those are all the worst. I guess any activity where people are bored and know there's an audience for them to get a reaction out of, they feel compelled to say dumb shit just for attention? I don't get it. it's a shame because once in a while you can have a nice, normal, or even a bit odd but not skeevy chat with a rando in public chat, that's one of the great things about an mmo, but the loud minority of creeps make it hard to to put up with...

I do love a good RSN, i like that one lol though I do roll my eyes at UNCREATIVE edgy/raunchy usernames. if they're funny, 100%. example: "tztok-fatkok". hilarious, thematically appropriate. but something like "pussytits69," ew, come on, try to use more than one braincell... lol. there's also a sad (but small) amount of outright offensive usernames (like racial slurs/stereotypes). idk what makes people wanna do shit like that.

but RSNs like yours are top tier... the kind of thing that a kid comes up with and then becomes close to your heart. it weirdly bums me out that almost no one has numbers at the end of their RSNs anymore? except bots. everyone having to put numbers at the end or some xX Z3RKER Xx kinda shit is nostalgic as hell... lol

anyway... if you do end up making an iron, have fun! with varla there's definitely tons of early-mid game options that can spice up some elements that were boring but "mandatory" (not really, but due to lack of other good options) before. and you're right you can always use the account for something else if you want! so it might be an antidote to the burnout to immerse yourself in earlygame stuff again (while benefitting from new options/QoL changes like not having to do kourend favor again, lol)

[imuyumiii]

Hey... Do you know the song sung by the voice actor from the pilot Hazbin Hotel? Called Thank you and goodnight. Weirdly this song reminds me of Mystic Messenger, despite being a new fan and having been into this game until this year 2024 I already felt a connection, seeing old posts about this game from an old fan somehow makes me tear up. Despite I'm a fan of 2024, I somehow feel nostalgic about this game despite never actually experience it before

I didn't know the song, but I've tried listening to it! I get it how the song feels nostalgic because the lyrics really are! As I listened to it and reminisce my experiences playing mystic messenger since 2019, it made me realise how close I am to the characters and how they shape me in the way I am today. It's a very good song :)

[mindymorning]

Mentor Roulette #2

Doing some more Mentor Roulette's today, also hoping to knock out some WT objectives and get some Second Chance points! I decided to play Summoner today, since I'm feeling a little out of it, I can play something extremely simple.

And first up is - Oh god it's an extreme trial. Okay, okay, it is only Garuda, and things actually went smoothly, so it wasn't so bad. Still, first documented EX on this blog!

Annoy the Void Guildhest. Easy clear, as expected.

The Porta Decumana! Very smooth, and I got to use the LB3!

Mount Ordeals. This one normally goes so by really easily, hell, I had to farm this one a ton for the TT card, but this run went really weirdly, and took more than 12 minutes to clear. For a good while, even while the tanks were alive, I had aggro. It was... a time, certainly.

Akh Afah Amphitheatre.... Extreme. This one took a few wipes, but we still cleared! Woo!

Smileton! I love this dungeon, and it was also a very clean run. Only forgot about the last boss cleaving half the arena, otherwise went perfectly!

Eden Ramuh! I might have forgot about the Ixion's for a moment and got knocked off the cliff. Maybe.

The Navel (Extreme). Unfortunately, the first time I've had a group in mentor roulette that couldn't clear. It seemed as though we were going to be able to, but unfortunately one of the tanks disconnected. We had so much echo, too! :(

P6! I actually started playing early Endwalker, and finished the MSQ around when 6.2 was coming out, so these four bosses are pretty nostalgic for me.

The Royal Menagerie! I really love this fight, and I hope they give it the same minimum item level treatment they gave The Final Day.

And the last one for today, Urth's Fount! Arguably the most obscure trial in the game, but a pretty fun one, as far as ARR trials go.

In spite of the extreme Titan run failing, this was a solid round of roulettes, I feel.

[lastheavens]

Fall

I grew up in New England where fall has a very specific type of feeling. The weather is between 40 and 60 until mid November when the weather usually just stays in the 40s. The trees are beautiful orange and red. The animals in the yard have switched from deer and bunnies to just turkeys. When my sister was younger Sundays from September to November were for football games where she cheered. Every weekend I'd sit with my mom on the sidelines, the amount of blankets and jackets we brought slowly increasing as the season went on. The smell of the parent run concession stand still lingers in the air on the first crisp day of every year. My favorite part of fall back home though was the fairs. Harvest fairs every single weekend where I got to eat delicious food and drink homemade lemonade while wandering around looking at the animals. I would spend hours at every fair I went to wandering through the vendor buildings hunting for free samples and looking at the barns filled with art or baked goods. If I was lucky my family would go to the Big E where I'd wait up to an hour just for a baked potato from the Connecticut building. Then every November I'd head back up there with my parents to go to the Equine Affair, a big horse convention basically. I grew up with these things as a guarantee of every single fall.

I moved to the Midwest for college back in August. I left too early to go to any fairs and fall break was too late and too short to go back home and enjoy any. It was in the 80s until mid September then went back and forth from 50 to 70 until last week. Today is Halloween and it's snowing. Part of me is actually weirdly nostalgic about this fact since I remember two Halloweens growing up where I was trick or treating with snow on the ground. Yet the other part is just disappointed. This is the least fall feeling fall I've ever had. Apparently where I live fairs happen more in July. The only connection I've really had to anything back home has been the stupid apple flavored syrup from starbucks since it makes any drink taste like an apple pie. I got a few homemade lemonades from the farmers market a couple times but it never had the same vibes as fair lemonade. Apparently there were no baked potatoes at the Connecticut building this year so I guess I didn't miss out on that. But the Equine Affair happens the weekend before I'm home. At least the leaves here are changing color but none of that has been met with the perfect weather for just a t-shirt, flannel, and jeans. I didn't get to bake Halloween sugar cookies this year and I'm too old for trick or treating. I've barely had any apple cider and my mom brought me some donuts but they made me sick. I can't wait to go home for Thanksgiving and experience a little bit of the fall I'm familiar with. I just can't wait to go home.

Current obsession song:

Can you tell I went to see the fnaf movie lol. My halloween costume is actually Vanessa lol. But like game Vanessa.

[feeder-of-rodents]

Feeling weirdly nostalgic for early IDW today because I have a cold, which it's making everything have this weird smell and I guess I also had a cold last year when I started reading IDW because somehow the smell reminds me of it.

I kind of want to go back and read some of it to dwell on the nostalgia but my problem is I can't figure out which story/phase/era I'm nostalgic for. It's not Infiltration or The Transformers 2009 or anything after Dark Cybertron. Right now I'm thinking either somewhere in the Maximum Dinobots-All Hail Megatron era or maybe even early MTMTE. Might be both since I probably had a cold multiple times during reading since it gets pretty cold in here

Well, it's too late to read anything today so I'm just gonna enjoy the wave of nostalgia while it lasts since I'm gonna have to be blowing my nose on school toilet paper tomorrow and it has an all-engulfing terrible smell that's not gonna go away for the rest of the day

[darkshinsou]

Doesn't Love Me Anymore

Warnings: Angst, fluff, mentions of cheating, mentions of sex, Kirishima x reader, Bakugou x reader

Part 1

Word Count: 1.3k

I woke up and chose pain today. Thank you my lovely beta reader @sugaslittleangel and do enjoy:) also, if you want to listen to it, I thought this song kind of suited this fic

You woke up with a start, your dream nostalgic and depressing. It's been a while since you've dreamt of him. You never want to again. You get up and walk to the bathroom, splashing your face to cool off and then making your way to the kitchen. While grabbing a cup of water, you feel a pair of arms snake around your waist and a head on your shoulder. "What are you doing up so early, Y/N?" 

You lean into Kirishima and rasp out, "I had a bad dream, that's all. Why are you still up?" 

He groans and mutters into your shoulder, "I had paperwork to do." You look at him in acknowledgement and down the cup of water before spinning around, pecking him on the lips. 

"Well, I'm wide awake now, so why don't I join you?" You grin at him as you hook your arms around his neck. He smiles down at you and kisses you. 

Still kissing you, Kirishima responds to your question, "Go sit down on the couch. I'll be there in a moment." You nod and he lets you go, walking off as you skip to the living room. He joins you a minute later and sets his laptop down before picking you up and placing you in his lap. He then continues his work as you play with his hair. You fell asleep like that. 

Bakugou felt like shit. He was still seeing the girl, but it wasn't the same. There was no thrill, no love, and the only reason he kept her around was for sex. He threw himself into work after you left, since it distracted him from the emptiness he felt. He missed your cooking, he missed the smell of you, and he missed your warmth. He also distanced himself from his friends, wanting to be alone. Deku was really the only one he ever talked to now. This is thanks to Deku, since he always pestered Bakugou. He didn't realize how lonely he was when you weren't here. How antisocial he was when he didn't have you by his side. How much he depended on you until he ran out of clean socks. His days were spent with work, eating one decent meal, and sleeping. What was the point of doing anything else? 

You were on a walk when you saw him. He was in his hero costume and talking to a civilian. You hid as he looked up at the tree, exasperated as he saw the cat. He quickly gets the cat down and starts walking in your direction after and you freak, standing up and beginning to run, that is, until he calls out to you, "Y/N? Is that you?" 

You freeze and turn around slowly, "Hey, Ka- Bakugou. How are you?" You stutter over his name and he flinches as you call him with his last name.

He's in front of you when he answers your question, "I've been better. How's it with you?" He wishes he could say that he wanted you to be happy, but it would be a lie. He wants you to still be missing him, to still want him, to still be hurt after your breakup. He wants that so he can ask for you back. Back in his arms. Sleeping in his bed. But, he never truly gets what he wants, now does he? 

"I'm doing great, actually! I'm sorry you aren't feeling good, but I have somewhere to be, so I'll see you later, okay, Bakugou?" Your response hurts and he nods mutely. You walk off and he looks up as he feels small droplets hit him. Did the forecast say it was going to rain today? 

You him as you open the door to your home, forgetting about your run in with Bakugou and focusing and dinner. Kirishima was going to be home soon and you wanted him to be able to relax and be comfortable. 

After cooking dinner, you set the table and wait on the couch. The door opens only minutes after and you smile as you run to the door and into Kirishima's arms. He chuckles and kisses your forehead while squeezing you tight. "Something smells good! What are we eating today?"

You drag him to the dining room and look back at him, beaming, "You'll just have to see!"

Bakugou's company was having a party to celebrate New Year's and, after hours of pleading from Deku, he was forced to go. Dressed in a dress shirt and dress pants, he waits for Deku to get ready. "How long does it take you to get ready, damn nerd!"

"Sorry, Kachan! I'll be out in a moment!" After another minute passes, Deku walks out in a blue suit and with his hair slicked back, "Let's go!" Bakugou grunts in response and they make their way to the car. 

Kirishima was in awe. You looked stunning in your dress, and the smile you were wearing with it made you all the more beautiful. He placed his hand on your lower back and pushed slightly, "Let's go, angel. We don't want to be late." 

You nod excitedly, "I've never been to one of these events before!" Kirishima chuckles at your excitement. 

"Well, I'm sure you'll enjoy it!" He tells you. After opening the door for you, he hips into the driver seat and puts the car into drive. 

Once you guys arrive at the party, he tells you to wait as he rushes to open your door. You giggle as you get out, his hand automatically finding its way around your waist after. Walking inside, you were stunned. It was extravagant, to say the least. The big chandelier and the band and- Oh my god, how many heroes are here? You spotted Mount Lady, Shouto, Earphone Jack, and the list goes on. You grin up at Kirishima and feel your body shake in excitement, "This is so cool, Kirishima! Thank you for bringing me!" 

"You're welcome, Y/N! Let's go have some fun!" Kirishima brings you over to meet his friends, more excited than ever.

Bakugou was already downing drinks, not really caring to greet anyone. Deku wandered off a little bit ago and left Bakugou alone, which was a bad idea on his part. Drink after drink, he was surprised the waiter hadn't cut him off. He grunted at anyone who tried to start a conversation, and glared when they didn't get the hint. He felt another tap on his shoulder and was about to scream at them when he heard, "Hey, bakubro! Long time, no see! I wanted to introduce someone to you!" Bakugou only turned around and stared in shock at you gripping Kirishima's arm tightly. "Bakubro, meet Y/N! My lovely girlfriend. We've been together for around a year now!"

Bakugou nodded, "That's great. I'm glad you're happy, Kirishima. I wish you guys the best." Kirishima looked at his friend weirdly as he ran off. 

"He's acting weird. I'll ask him about later, but for now, let's get something to eat!"

This hurt so much more than when he lost you. Seeing you happy with someone else was like multiple punches to the chest. He's never felt this pain before. After making it to an empty room, he fell to the floor, clutching his chest and wailing. He let out all the pain that has been bottling up inside him. 

After seeing Bakugou run off, Deku followed, concerned. When opening the door, he found the man that he looked up to for so many years weeping. He looked so vulnerable, so weak. All Deku could do is draw him into a hug and let him cry it out into his shoulder. "What happened?" He asked after Bakugou calmed down. 

"She doesn't love me anymore." Is all he replied. 

Taglist: @unicornlover25

[tomb-bloom-noctem]

Ducktales ended a year ago.

And I'm just realizing this at 3 am the day after its one year anniversary.

Geez.

How do I feel?

I-

It's hard to say.

When I first heard of the reboot I rolled my eyes. Figured it for another stupid soulless reboot brought to you by Disney.

I refused to watch it even.

Until I finally didn't. And I realized oh dang, this is actually pretty funny? And it really seems like they actually care about the characters and want to do something more with it!? Whoa!

I got hooked. Hell, DT17 became a piece of my identity. Something I gushed love and praise to everyone unfortunate enough to be in proximity to me over. Online and off. Became a huge source of comfort for me.

And fuck, when I began feeling suicidal in 2020 again, something I turned to for an outlet. I began The Attempt & The Aftermath, a fanfic I still am working hard on to this day. It's currently the 3rd longest Ducktales 2017 fanfic on all of Ao3 with at this time over 301,000 words. (And something I'll see through until the very end however long it takes. Updates might be slow and I'm sorry but I will literally never abandon this fic unless something outside my control happened to me.)

And then we got Season 3. Which started out so strong and seemed so promising. And then it kind of dipped, suddenly the writing and direction seemed much more off to me than before? Not everything was a negative and I don't want to be too critical right now but the direction DT17 started going in was...confusing at best, frustrating at worst.

Then we got the leak that Season 3 would be the last.

Which made me both sad and nervous.

The following episodes had highs and lows but as we got to the finale I started to feel even more upset. I didn't want the show to end but even more so I didn't want it to end badly.

"The Last Adventure" finally aired on March 15th, 2021. And I feel irritably mixed about it.

Because in my personal opinion, some of that finale was easily the best stuff of the show. And other bits....(*cough* clone bullshit twist) bring it down to such a low that it makes me angry.

I was saying it for a while prior to the finale but I felt DT17 was having a growing problem of "unearned emotional payoff expectancy." Again speaking only for myself and my own feelings and interpretation of the show. The finale really hammered that home for me with the clone twist as well as some other moments that went along with it.

It's been a year and I still haven't written my ideal finale rewrite. I'd still like to but honestly a huge part of why I haven't done so is I need to go back and give The Last Adventure another few watches. But it disappoints and frustrates me so much that I still don't have the will to do so yet.

I've tried to never contribute too much negativity to the fandom but Season 3 just...weirdly broke something in me. More than my expectations. Is it weird or unhealthy to say that a rebooted animated tv show for a show I somewhat knew and enjoyed, but not overwhelmingly nostalgic to that was designed for kids, of which I'm no longer the target demographic of, broke my heart? Yeah probably. But that feels like the only way I can describe it.

I know I'm not the only one disappointed. I know I probably didn't have my expectations in the best of check. But damn. The DT17 finale freaking hurt me. And then that's it. Ducktales 2017 was done and gone. Only our loving and seething memories remain.

Now it's been a year since it passed. I didn't even realize it. Dang.

I just don't know how to feel?

I thought this day would come and I'd be annoyed. Maybe make a few rant posts about how much I find the finale disappointing and air my grievances into my corner of the void. But honestly? I don't feel like doing it. At least not tonight. Not today.

I kinda just feel sad.

I miss being excited for Ducktales. I miss being more involved with the fandom, excitingly theorizing and geeking out with everyone, even people I don't know the way I do the friends I made thanks to DT17. I miss getting the theme song stuck in my head all day long. I miss the passion that I used to have for this show. It's not gone completely, it's just not nearly as strong. It's mid. Just like the finale.

I still occasionally read and sometimes actually manage to write for my fanfiction. I'd like to still also do more DT17 fanfics. Eventually. Someday. (Writing is hard sometimes, I'm sorry.)

I've met some awesome people thanks to this show. Some of my closest friends.

I've gotten some incredible kind words from strangers thanks to TA&TA. As well as some of the cruelest insults and attacks. (Mostly on tumblr but still. It hurts getting hateful anons not gonna lie.)

I don't post about DT17 much anymore. Hardly ever interact with the fandom. Hell I'm sure my reputation is either people don't know me at all or they think I'm some crazy bitch who writes a disturbing mental health duck fanfic and gets too defensive over it. Which, yeah. I do sometimes. I've been called out and blocked over it. Yeah. I get defensive. I'm sorry about that. It's honestly my only piece of the show I still have any fire left in me over. Something I work hard on and try to forge into what I want it to be. That's not an excuse but I am deeply sorry for it.

Anyway. I don't entirely know where I'm going with this bumbling word vomit anymore.

I just-

Dang. I miss Ducktales 2017.

I didn't think I'd say that after how upset I was at the finale.

But yeah. I really am. Even if it's not the finale I wanted. Or that chunks of Season 3 bother me to no end and contain what I feel are many of the worst episodes in the whole show.

But still. I really really miss DT17.

I miss it in like that same kind of nostalgic way that I miss 4Kids anime dubs from my childhood Saturday morning cartoons, weirdly enough. Objectively some of it is bad and some of it is good. Subjectively it's become an important piece of my heart and history no matter how bad or good it is. I can't ever fully hate it no matter what anyone else around me might say. But I also have criticisms that weren't there before. Rewatching just isn't the same. Not quite as magical as it once was.

But a part of me still loves it. And won't let that go.

Happy 1st finale anniversary Ducktales 2017.

Time is turning my sourness into a source of bittersweet.

[sweetlittlevampire]

I'm feeling weirdly nostalgic today for something I can't seem to remember if I ever had. For like...a certain feeling, or a certain kind of situation, and I can't really grasp or describe it in a more concrete fashion. It's very strange.

[papermonkeyism]

I cannot believe I'm actually liking Dude McSmirkface now. Just needed a pair of tits (and a story/personality from another character) as mentioned in this post from earlier today.

Here's his original form, by the way. From the year 2005. With his original crew, only half of which still exist.

I dunno, I guess I'm feeling weirdly nostalgic today.