#Presque Vu

[evadwrites]

i have some thoughts on zar’s exit from the fandom & their decision to delete their fics and how the fandom is reacting to that. and the fandom is reacting horribly.

and the irony of it all! because, arguably, crimson rivers is what zar is most known for. crimson rivers, set in the hunger games universe, created by suzanne collins to criticize capitalism, the entertainment industry, and consumerism patterns of offered media and how it varies based on a social class. and zar’s work added so much nuance to what suzanne collins had written. zar had done an excellent job writing james, sirius, and regulus as victors and exploring their respective traumas when it comes to being in the public eye.

regulus (and james, too) constantly felt like he had no autonomy and no choice because he was thrust into the public light and pressured into doing exactly what was expected of him. and sirius? oh, sirius. sirius won his games and was made into this galaxy-sized celebrity by the hallows, expected to conform to every assumption made about him, to follow all the rules his new role as a mentor & a victor burdened him with. but most importantly—the hallows viewed sirius as nothing more than what he could offer to them. they looked at him and did not see the person.

zar wrote that, and tens-hundreds of thousands people read it and completely misunderstood. because zar wrote 865k words exploring how traumatizing it is to be made into an Image, to be stripped away of your autonomy for the sake of entertaining others. zar wrote that, only for the marauders fandom to do the exact same thing to them that the hallows did to sirius, to regulus, to james; to victors.

and that. that is fucking infuriating.

because, yes, zar is a brilliant writer, but first and foremost, zar is a person. and the way a large part of the fandom has been treating them is completely dehumanizing.

STOP saying “i respect/support zar’s decision but [insert a paragraph about how devastated you are and how you cannot stop crying]”.

STOP sharing the pdfs/epubs of his fics on literally all social media platforms when it’s the one thing zar explicitly asked people to not do.

STOP feeling entitled to the creative work that does not the fuck belong to you. STOP thinking that you have any right to demand anything from zar. STOP hiding emotional manipulation in-between words of illusory support and respect.

and to quote zar: for fuck’s sake, STOP calling them zeppazariel.

zeppazariel is a brilliant writer who was elevated within the fandom to a height so big that it hurts when you fall and crash, and the fandom pushed zar down. the marauders fandom made zar into a full-blown celebrity, but

zar is a person.

REMEMBER THAT.

[labyrinthhofmymind]

not much just thinking about sirius’ pov in atyd and how him and remus got matching rings after they reunited

not much just thinking about presque vu wolfstar and the necklaces they left at the tree

not much just thinking about sirius’ memory loss in crimson rivers and how at their wedding, remus stopped the whole thing because he noticed sirius was not fully there and simply waited until he returned

not much just thinking about wolfstar trying to come out to james and lily in tcoptp

not much just thinking about them in every fic and all their first kisses and the summers they spend together and all their hilarious and horrible attempts at keeping their relationship a secret at school and their trips away together and the proposals and the weddings and the carving of initials and the rings that show their heart rate and love and and and and and and

[ravenoclock]

currently reading: presque vu by bizarrestars

ripping my hair out rn. i absolutely adore their writing.

[absolutelyflabbergasted]

so I didn’t like wolfstar for like. A while. And I reasoned with this like “oh it’s because he’s an ass to reg” reg is an ass back, what’s ur point

and then I was like, oh I relate to Sirius a lot, actually. I still don’t like wolfstar tho??

And I was so confused, cause I don’t get the aro ick usually, not with Rosekiller or Darlene or Jegulus.

Then I got it with Marylily too, and I was like ohhhhh.

I relate to Sirius and Lily too much, and tend to accidentally insert myself into their situations because I reenact fanfics in my dreams sometimes.

and the ick I get with them is the same ick I got when I tried dating someone for like a month in the 8th grade.

Like I tried reading atyd and presque vu and I was like hmmmmm why do I dislike this, because you are being silly and delusional in a bad way for your own happiness

[chilloutdog]

anyways. presque vu by bizzarrestars is a literal work of art. i think we must acknowledge it. we must embrace this. if i could read one (1) marauders fic for the rest of my life that would probably be the one. it’s not even finished but i know it’s one of the best i’ve ever read. yeah. that was all thank u.

[crispysheepofman]

"He's no brother of mine," Sirius repeats, saying it, speaking it. He speaks. He speaks, and does not know that Regulus has never spoken those words himself, and never will. That doesn't mean very much, in the grand scheme of things.

Regulus never was one to speak, was he?

[brandileigh2003]

what are you reading right now?

I just finished: If You're Gonna by @brigidfaye

Also befriending a ravenclaw by @kreestars

A couple of the wip I'm reading (excitedly waiting for)

Date me, Remus Lupin by @her-smile-forges-galaxies

Accio by imparfait

Kill your darlings by @sophsicle

As the Worm Moon Dies by @rollercoasterwords

And presque vu and Underground Gladiators by bizarrestars

disintegration (no spoilers, only on 21) by @mayescapade

[carswinky]

Arthur and eames, my beloved!! Do you have any fics to recommend, I’ve read a couple, and I just reread those ones because they’re so good and I don’t know where to start to find the best fics!! Do you have any favourites?

honestly, i WISH i had a list for you 😭 i haven't read any fics in sooooo long.

however, my all-time favourite is Presque Vu.

forever ago someone did an audio version of it and i would listen to it all the time! 10/10 and definitely feels like THE inception fanfic

[420mermaid]

[ghstlymess]

𝑃𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑞𝑢𝑒 𝑣𝑢

etimologia

emprestado do francês presque (“quase”) + vu (“visto”).

A confusão sutil e recorrente entre ilusão e realidade que é característica da paramnésia (...)

- Joseph Heller

Paramnésia:

delírio ou confabulação baseada na memória, ou uma incapacidade de distinguir entre memórias reais e fantasiosas.

"(. . .) Um psicólogo poderia ter chamado isso de

p r e s q u e v u

– a sensação que as pessoas às vezes têm de que algo incrível está para acontecer – mas meu nome para isso era muito mais humilde: uma

h a r m o n i a "

- Stephen King

[sunnysaystuff]

presque vu

i knew sirius was going to die and i read it anyways. i am in tatters.

yeah you got that right. same author of crimson rivers and in my honest opinion? so much more pain. i can't even deal rn

i need genderfluid sirius like right now please give me fic recs i can't deal with this

[evstellae]

presque vu by bizarrestars is absolutely destroying me as a sirius kinnie but i love it

[labyrinthhofmymind]

all you losers who haven’t read presque vu by bizarrestars are really missing out… like imagine not reading this masterpiece of a fic? LAME

JUST KIDDING IM ACTUALLY ON MY HANDS AND KNEES BEGGING AND PLEADING EVERYONE TO READ THIS BOOK ITS MY ROMAN EMPIRE I CANT READ ANY MARAUDERS FIC WITHOUT THINKING ABOUT IT ITLL CHANGE YOUR PERSPECTIVE ON CANON ITS SO PERFECT AND AMAZING GAH PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE READ IT YOURE NOT A LOSER YOU JUST HAVENT BEEN EXPOSED TO THE BEAUTY THAT IS PRESQUE VU

[ravenoclock]

@labyrinthhofmymind

the following content has spoilers for a fic called presque vu by bizarrestars.

I WILL BE KEEPING U UPDATED BECAUSE I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO ABT THIS. ITS TOO LATE TO BACK OUT.

ANYWHO;

SIRIUS SAYING REG AND JAMES ARE THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO KNOW ENOUGH TO LOVE HIM KILLED ME. I DIED. WTF.

OH AND THE SETTLE DOWN THING AND HOW SIRIUS FOESNT WANT TO SETTLE DOWN. AND REMUS BEING LIKE ‘YEAH I WOULD FOR THE RIGHT PERSON’ AND LOOKING AT SIRIUS AND SIRIUS IS LIKE ‘he deserves better and you know it’ NOO, LOVE, YOU ARE SOULMATES PLS PLS RECONSIDR. DJJSSJSJSJ.

also Sirius’ whole thing about not wanting to label because why the fuck do you have to label is so real. it’s literally what I tell my friends when they ask why I don’t label and they just look at me weird (except for one of them who said—to my face btw— ‘there’s so many labels just pick one’). anyways Sirius spiralling and being like ew why tf is he making me spiral (abt Dearborn) is SO FUNNY (ik it was like an angsty scene and all but they made me crack up).

Peter yelling ‘don’t forget to use the spells’ is so USHAKAKNS. WHY?! and knowing he’s a spy…. have I mentioned that I want to rip my hair out? No? currently ripping my hair out.

…the chapter ending? the ending of chapter 7??? excuse me??? WHY DID SIRIUS DO THAT. the heartbreak I could feel from Remus. WTF. also I don’t think Sirius did it (the thing with Dearborn) but again, he’s an extremely unreliable narrator so who tf actually knows. idk tho. can I say I’m neutral unless it’s confirmed that he did or didn’t do it? what do u think? wolfstar is so problematic and low key toxic but DHSHJS I LOVE RHEM SM. GAH. also the paranoia in this chapter with Sirius suspecting Remus as the spy… WHY. WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY??!!!!!? canon compliant fics will be the death of me I swear. they’re like a drug you can’t get enough of with the full knowledge that it’s not that good for you. anywho. also Sirius is like ‘I wouldn’t settle down not because you don’t deserve it but because I don’t’ and I find that heartbreaking. :(( Sirius you are loved.

when I finish the next few chapters I’ll post another rant. tysm for reading!!

[pqdfootsmoon]

so im reading presque vu by bizzarestars for the first time and naturally, since its a canon complaint fic, james and lily die, and i literally cannot breathe.... like my chest hurts, i can not see through tears, there are so many used tissues close to me... i cannot breate

zar literally said in the notes in the begining of the chapter that this was the most harrowing thing he's written, and seeing that after i fully sobbed my eyes out to crimson rivers like a fucking baby, i was like, there's no way it can be worse....

it was worse, like so much worse omg

[crispysheepofman]

Two stars, two hearts, and yet still too different.