There was always this frantic quality to Buck's relationships
With Abby it was.. I need to be a better man, I need to be the bigger person, I need to be understanding
With Ali it was ... I need to change something
With Taylor it was... I have to make it work
With Natalia it was... I need to be quick with this cause who knows if I'm running out of time/I need to use the lightning strike as a wake up call
And then there is Tommy
Tommy who makes the first step but then lets him breathe through it for a moment
Tommy who asks HIM out
Tommy who cares that Buck doesn't do anything he's not ready for
Yes, Buck is a little frantic with the date but
Tommy gives him room and grace and understanding
And then the coffee date!!!
For the first time we see Buck AT EASE looking at a romantic connection with someone
Is he still Buck, and moves a little head over heels? Of course he is!
But it's not cause he's desperate
It's cause he's EXCITED
He's filled with so much joy and excitement
and for the first time he has no outlined plan with a relationship, no map he's following
Instead he allows himself to discover and explore this relationship and this part of himself
He's so excited about it
So free and bright and content with it
Tommy really stopped that hamster wheel and showed him a new way and
Buck is guided by that inner light of his now, without trying to direct it
And he's not looking for what's missing, what's wrong or following a plan
He just lets himself be and experience and explore and discover
And just
The sheer joy and ease of it all
I can't!
Go, Evan, go and spread your wings and explore that joy
You deserve it so much
😭😭😭😭
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Okay but on a serious note. I love how unapologetically queer the world of Our Flag Means Death is. Like it isn’t just the characters, it’s not just their actions or attitudes or anything. Like the world itself is just this modge podge melting pot of every kind of human being and not once is anyone ever asked to apologize for it. Not once is anyone persecuted for it, because what the show does is immerse you in this queer landscape of pirates and found family and relationships while judging it’s character solely on their actions and who they are as people rather than their sexuality or identity. And soon you’re watching the show, of course invested in the romance, but also in the hope and growth of the characters and how they grow not just further into their queerness but also further into themselves as human beings.
Like I adore it, it’s so refreshing. We never have a “oh he’s gay?” Or “are you gay?” Or “what?! You’re together?” Moment it’s just like yeah whatever we have bigger things going on like childhood trauma, relationship trauma, growing as people, being happy and having hope.
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