#SORRY I RAMBLED SO MUCH

[quinni427]

I think if queerness wasn’t as stigmatised a lot of straight men (and others) would realise that even if they are sexually attracted to women they may not be romantically attracted to them. Being aromantic is more common than we think.

If it was widely known that someone’s sexual and romantic attraction don’t necessarily have to be the same cheating and emotionally unavailability would probably be much less common.

More people need to know that you aren’t necessarily a failure if you don’t have/want the average heteronormative family structure.

Knowledge about LGBTQ+ people doesn’t just benefit us it benefits everyone. You shouldn’t have to live a certain way if you don’t want to.

[vinbitism]

Hi,

I love all of your content! Just wanted to say that Vinny is such an underrated character and I miss him. Evan is cool but I feel like people also forget that in the mining town four iteration, Vinny was also a “creepy” kid. I kinda head cannon that Vinny (in all iterations) is also a little morbid, even if it’s just morbid curiosity about small things like taxidermy and such.

HIAHAIAHSIAUZUSHZH PLEASE OMH I LITERALLY THINK THIS TOO. Vinnie has always been creepy throughout the whole series, and honestly it's one of my FAVORITE things about him. like a person is dead and he sees their body the first thing his brain tells him to do is to pull out his camera and film it. THE MOMENT someone dies he's almost wayyyyy to eager to share it with the viewers.

He's always had a thing for creepy things and he's even SUPER obsessed with zombies (like Evan and Jeff as well)

Honestly I really can see him being a taxidermy kind of guy, I feel like he'd find beauty in it, like he finds that he's preserving a life, he's keeping something safe. I feel like he definitely loves to collect creepy things that he finds around thrift stores and Evan would probably HATE it and tell him he's gonna get haunted or something and Vinnie would tell him he WANTS to be haunted. He would probably like ugly clown figurines and creepy dolls, he'd want to give them a better home.

Fairmount Vinnie was so happy when he was found, he was playing and having a good time while there was such a horrific display in the other room, it just continues to show that Vinnie kinda has an off switch in brain that flicks off whenever there's death involved.

Honestly Vinnie is SO Norman Bates coded to me and I cannot even begin to explain that one tbh. I JUST FEEL LIKE.... THE VIBES..... THE LYING... THE BEING GUILTY BUT NOT REALLY BEING GUILTY... it'd just be Evan instead of normans mother bc like.... he summoned habit and hung around with Evans decaying body and acted as if NOTHING WAS CHANGING.

I love Vinnie more than anything,, he's literally THE character ever. He's so morbid and into all things macabre. I mean even in the fairmount letters VINNIE LIKES HABIT. Vinnie is drawn to horrifying figures because the horror is all he really knows

[grantmentis]

what do you think the coaching problems were with pwhl new york? do you think there might be more turnover with the assistants?

Sorry for such a late response! This week had been crazy. Anyway, I think there was a mix of on ice and off ice issues with PWHL New York

The off ice ones? Well I’m not there, but Hailey salvain of the athletic reported this

I can only say so much there, and of course this stuff is always more prominent / notable on a losing team because people are frustrated, but depending on how serious and widespread this is it could effect if they just want to start completely fresh or if they want to keep the assistants. The reason I could see the assistants staying is because the special teams, which is typically a job allocated to the assistants, was one of the few bright spots for this season

Speaking purely on ice, it did feel like Draper was just a bit over his head, which I think can happen when someone’s been in the same coaching role for decades then all of a sudden switch. He did a genuinely great job in university of Alberta and coached one of my fave players, autumn macdougall, I got no beef with him as a guy but it’s a lot of change with very little blue print

I think the area it showed most for Draper was defensively, where there was just….no defensive structure at all, especially among forwards, and these were players we know have defensive capabilities. It would make sense that this is the area that would suffer the most for a coach who’s played a really really long time in usports where offense has typically been a little more muted and goaltending strong. It’s a cliche but it’s very much a symptom of players playing as individuals and not a system leading to them being hemmed into their own zone and blowing coverage - which every team experienced for a while because they’re brand new but New York got worse and worse with as the season went on. I know this is mostly just my general thought, I hope to get more into the statistical side when I have some time off from work and school and other life stuff

Overall I’d like to see Colton Orr back because he was successful on the whale and I think he’s a good coach that has taken teams that are in hard circumstances - not having a permanent home, being in the New York market which despite being the biggest is definitely the toughest for hockey due to overall lack of hockey culture (I grew up in Brooklyn and am speaking from experience New Yorkers do not get mad at me), the ability to play a high paced, fast, offense heavy system while also getting the best out of shutdown defenders. That said I get if they want a clean slate. I know some people really want a woman as coach which I get but I don’t care as long as they’re dedicated to the sport and have experience.

My last hot take is I also expect some very significant roster changes for New York this offseason, maybe a blockbuster trade, I think anyone but like Shelton and Schroeder is on the table (not because the rest are bad, but I think there’s a lot of shake up willing to be made for the sake of identity)

[calamitoustide]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Spread the self-love ❤

okay im gonna finally do this 😭 this is like picking my children though so give me a second

Dear Reader

This One was the first one I wrote where I was like this is my fic. Obviously they are all my fics but this ones just different. All the other ones were always favorites of my friends and so I gave them to them even if they weren't technically gifted to them but this one was all me. It was everything to me. I honestly would get a tattoo of "Stay Close To The Sun" that's how deep my love for it runs. I actually have the stuck note hanging up on my wall and it's been there since I wrote it. (I had to tape it to make it stick but it's there!) There is nothing I would change about this fic. Nothing. It is perfect. It is everything to me. I am gripping it so hard in my palm no one's taking it from me. (and they have tried lmao)

I Might Like You Less Now That You Know Me So Well

This one gave Dear Reader a run for it's money. These two are so special to me. When I started writing it all it was supposed to be was fluff with like a little angst. It was always sad James but they were supposed to be over it 😭 or at least healed from it but it grew and it's so much different than it used to be. And it's for the better! It's also my first like nonbinary James fic and I love them very much they are so special to me. Even if Everyone who comments on it uses the wrong pronouns for them :) they are so special to me!!! There are little moments where I'm just in this fic. I'm going about my day and suddenly I am in the that van and watching the scene play out. I am at the tattoo parlor watching James grip Regulus hands because they're deathly afraid of needles. I am at the grand canyon and hearing James say they're not scared of heights anymore because they "found something scarier." I am at that beach hearing James whine "I was supposed to be in the water by now. I want to be in the water. I know I promised I'm sorry. I want to be in the water." It is forever engrained within me. Thinking about this fic is like breathing to me.

You Don't Get To Tell Me About Sad

My current little sad James fic, and it also was never supposed to happen. I don't like band aus I've tried them... multiple times but it never worked. I had a marylily one, a pandalily one, I had a jegulus one too but it just never stuck. This one though just worked for some reason... probably because it's hardly a band au honestly. There's some music and the fame plays a big part in it later but it's what I do best sad James and hurt/comfort. I also thought I would never write another sad James before this one because the ideas simply weren't coming. This one was even a struggle to plan fully. This is the first time I've made James' sadness run off into anger, and I thought that was an interesting aspect of it to explore. He's trapped and the only way he feels like he can get any relief is through anger. This is also one of my exes to lovers Jegulus fics and oh I love it. I've written three and this might be my favorite in the way that jegulus are never actually broken up. They are barely holding onto that they've always been together since the first chapter even if they're not saying it. This one is just very special to me and since I'm writing it right now it's not fully formed in my head but I know it's gonna break top three with the other two when it's done.

When You Saw That Dead Little Bird (You Started Crying)

THIS ONE! Okay it's from early 2023 and I remember obsessing over it even if it's only 4k. Out of all my one shots this is the one I always go back to and the one I always try to push on people. I love metaphors anyone who reads anything I write will know that and I was obsessed with the Moon Song dog metaphor. The dog, owner, and bird was everything to me I couldn't stop thinking about it. So I was writing this fic from the perspective of Regulus being the "owner" and James as "the dog" running up to him to give him a dead bird (Lucius dead) as a gift. The owner yells at the dog for giving them something awful/disgusting and the dog just doesn't understand why! So that was the original goal... and then well... I lost track of the goal. I was talking to one of my friends at the time about it, how the bird was supposed to represent innocence. That's why the owner is upset, it's awful to look at because it's pure and sweet. But Lucius isn't innocent Regulus doesn't care about the bird being dead he cares about the blood on the dog's teeth. And so James became the bird as much as he was the dog. And then I started thinking about Regulus killing himself in the war and putting all the blood on his own hands to save James from it and he became the dog and the bird too. They're both everything. They're destroying themselves for love. It's the tale of devotion. The tale of being so devoted to something it turns into your end. You might be able to tell why that was so appealing to me :/

Let The Light In

Alright so the last one was harder to choose but I'm going with Let the Light In because aroace Jegulus have my soul. They are everything to me. I remember seeing another fic with an aroace couple who are usually seen as romantic and I just stared at it for so long. I didn't read it I wasn't really into the ship but I was driving to school just obsessing over the idea with jeg. I remember parking like ten minutes early and instead of walking to my class I just sat in the car and sent a vm all about it not even knowing what I wanted just knowing I wanted Jeg in a QPR. What came out of it is everything to me. Jegulus figuring out their sexualities together and growing comfortable with it. James who wanted nothing more than romance his entire life and was grieving the kind he'll never be able to feel. Regulus who wanted nothing of it but attached himself to James anyway because he couldn't help it, and ended up welcoming love into his life. They are everything, and this fic has so many... not so great memories attached to it now looking back but it's still just as light and beautiful. There's just something about them, and I want desperately to write aroace Jeg again one day. They are calling my name.

[marichild]

he really hasn't is the craziest thing. for all his screaming about how much he hates that dazai left and chose him he's never actually doubted atsushi's abilities. probably in part due to his deep rooted faith in dazai so on and so forth. but also. he's been so insane about atsushi since forever. like. waves hands. fucking dies for him. TWICE. gives his ability too. doesn't fucking question why it works. and also just a personal headcanon its occurred to me that if he's obsessing over and observing(?) atsushi so obsessively THERES NO WAY HE HASNT NOTICED ANYTHHING ELSE. RIGHT. right

dying to protect atsushi TWICE is crazy actually. akutagawa doesn't even remember who he is this time. question for our audience has this man ever been normal at all

[flibbertiggibit]

Watching this Cassandra Bankson video, and some things she says early on in the video perfectly encapsulate my 20+ year struggle with my face:

“I felt like I was so ugly and that my acne was so bad that it was harming others to see me with my acne. Like it was decreasing their quality of life. So I would cover it up every day.”

“That makeup ended up becoming both a wall and a shield to me.

It was a shield that stopped other people from saying negative things or just seeing acne as the first thing they notice when they meet me.

But it also became this wall that kept me closed in and I couldn’t express myself or be myself because I was constantly walking into a room and wondering what other people were thinking of me.”

While Cassandra has managed to tame her acne and no longer wears foundation, I still struggle and still cover it up. I can’t leave the house without it because I still can’t get rid of the feeling that I’d be horrifying everyone who saw me.

I work from home and can’t turn on my camera for meeting unless I’ve put a full face of makeup on. Which means sometimes, when I don’t have the spoons to spend 45 mins doing makeup (I also have a chronic illness), then I just straight up can’t turn my camera on.

There have been a couple times where my acne has settled down enough and I’ve been feeling brave enough to actually go outside without makeup on. But it’s literally been about once or twice in the last five years.

And the weird thing is that aside from the use of makeup as a shield, I also like it for its creativity. I would still wear it if I had clear skin, I just wouldn’t HAVE to wear it. I could go super light on foundation and focus just on the most fun parts, like eyeshadow and lipstick and blush. And then it could just be a fun hobby for me, instead of a crutch.

(Also I’m one of the few people whose skin is slightly better when I wear foundation than when I don’t, because I can’t stop myself from picking at the acne when I’m not wearing foundation. If am wearing it, then I have the overriding “don’t mess up the makeup” drive that stops me or at least prompts me to notice when I start picking my skin.)

(Quotes are from approx. 2:13 - 3:13)

[bizarrelittlemew]

i can't wait to be 30+ and still in fandom and i can't wait to be 40+ and still in fandom and i can't wait to be 50+ and still in fandom and i can't wait to be 60+ and still in fandom and i can't wait to be 70+ and still in fandom and i can't wait to be 80+ and still in fandom and i can't wait to be 90+ and still in fandom and i can't wait to look back on my life and know that i loved things deeply and passionately and was inspired to create and was part of communities with incredible people from all over the world brought together by the stories that touched us

[bberetd]

PIGTAIL DAISY ACQUIRED!!!

[sh0jun]

At first I jumped from character to character too

Like They were my favourite on a monthly basis 😭 like- "this month it's marius and next month it's luke!" Shit like that

Then after a year long break my preference in otome men fell to a certain type and that was shady guys who seem to be ruthless and try to push you away but deep down are the nicest and very traumatized.......preferably with white hair and golden eyes (more preferably with white hair) which surprisingly (and quite scaringly) matches the description of many guys in completely different games

So....yeah Vyn is my favourite<3 and no amount of 'onee-san', sunshine or domestic fluff and househusband core will change that sadly lol

yall ended up deciding on your favorite men on TOT? How? does marius's 'onee-san' not entice you? Does Luke's sunshine not call you closer? Does artem's domestic fluff and househusband core not affect you at all?

You chose a favorite and never wavered? How?

[kcrabb88]

It's truly wild to me how many people out there don't understand that the Star Wars prequels are a tragedy or how tragedies work.

Posts like "these are the Jedi failed movies" truly just make me shake my head. They're actually the "fascism wears a smile until it strikes you down and then it's too late" movies. They're the "the senate became corrupt and clapped in the face of genocide" movies. They're the "make people scared enough of war until they accept authoritarianism" movies. They're the "fear and possessiveness will tear you up on the inside" movies. The Jedi were the heroes of lore, people loved and looked up to them, looked to them for safety, and then too much got put on their shoulders on purpose by Palpatine, and also by a senate that didn't want to act (not you Padme and Bail and Mon, you're perfect). They were drafted and used and scapegoated, which is, you know, a tenet of the vast majority of authoritarian governments (Hitler and Stalin, for instance, might be on different ends of the political spectrum, but they sure both did scapegoat specific groups and commit mass murder, just differently).

When some people say "these movies are about the fall of the Jedi" what they mean is "the Jedi failed" but that's not what "the fall of the Jedi means." It means they were wiped the fuck OUT. Like, Jesus, in Rogue One Tarkin is talking about burning out the final MEMORY of the Jedi by blowing up the holy city in Jedha. Palpatine had to get rid of the Jedi because to get rid of the Jedi was to get rid of the final people standing in his way after he had already worn them out. His intention was not only to kill them, but to alter the galaxy's entire perception of them. To rip away hope. People are always looking for the Jedi to be Bad or nitpick their mistakes (because while other people are allowed to make mistakes, the Jedi never are). Palpatine made himself look like a benevolent grandpa who would keep everyone safe. And that, more than anything, is what gave him SO much power. He stole the narrative.

It's just like. Of course WE know what was going to happen! We know from watching the OT that the PT can only end in tragedy. But the characters don't know that! They don't have all the info! That's how a tragic story structure works. We see it coming and they can't.

Anyway. The Jedi are laser-sword wielding monks with psychic powers who just wanted to do what they could to help. The world would be better if more folks remembered that.

[triona-tribblescore]

So, whats with the suit?

[aingeal98]

Ultimately the resolution of Jason and Cass fights comes down to the fact that while he has his own ideals that don't mesh with the bats, Jason can be flexible. DC skipped the whole reconciliation with the family but while he's willing to kill it's generally a means to an end to him, not the whole entire point unless you're talking about Joker. Meanwhile for Cass the question of killing vs not killing is dead serious to her which means any time they're working together and things start going off track it's like:

Jason: Look if we kill this guy we send a message to his boss which makes it easier for us to negotiate with him from a position of power and I just think that-

Cass, snatching one of his guns and pointing it at her own head: Go on, pull the trigger. Kill him. Kill me. Go tell Batman that you let his daughter die to make a negotiation easier. He already let you die so no problem right? You think we should die? You think our life only worthwhile as part of a plan, just because we're killers? Are we doomed? Are we rotten to the core with no hope of redemption? Go on then, kill us and kill part of your soul alongside it. You clearly don't care for it so why are you even trying? Kill yourself along with us, come on Jason let's all just die right?

Jason, slowly backing away: I think you may be projecting a tiny bit so just. Calm down before I call the suicide hotline please.

Cass, slowly lowering the gun and knocking the random henchman unconscious: Yeah that's what I thought, fucking pussy.

Jason: Mm yeah you know what I hate you actually. Fuck this mission I'll just shoot you right now if you're going to be this annoying about it.

Jason, explaining things later to Dick: So I just kept shooting at her until I ran out of bullets and we both calmed down enough to call a truce. We tracked the guy down and didn't kill anyone but I did blow up the batplane just as a last minute screw you. Is she always this uh... intense?

Dick: Yeah, one time I broke up with Barbara and she threw me out a window. She's just like that.

[shigeoreum]

Loved how the answers to V’ger and Spock’s question of “Is this all that I am?” lie in such human concepts of love, acceptance, union. The completion of their sense of selves are not dependent on the two men, but rather so much more fulfilling, real, and tangible through loving them and everything that comes with doing so.

Side note: love being a want or need for union is a philosophical take i don’t 100% agree with (narratively speaking it’s so romantic, though, especially in this movie’s context LOL), but Marilyn Friedman’s twist on love as more of a separate, “third” unified entity (a federation of the lovers’ selves) was fun to think about ^_^

[remxedmoon]

i hit 1k followers recently!!!! yipee!!!!!!! thank you all!!! so in celebration here’s all of my completed isat doodle pages, from oldest to newest. go nuts with them!! and maybe don’t look at the first doodle page too closely. it’s Old.

(no greyscale version below for once! just some mushy ramblings. you don’t have to read them don’t worry)

hhhhhha?? so many people. where did you come from. how did you all find me.

ok but seriously, thank you all so much for all the support. i never really. expected to make it this far? like, ever?? i’ve mentioned it a few times on here, but i’ve been a lurker for the past… 2 years, i think? and even before that, i never gained much traction outside of a couple posts. so this has been. very new to me!! in a nice way!! it’s weird to feel like an actual member of a community!! that people know about!

the idea of finally coming back to social media was Daunting (i literally got stress hives writing my first post lol) and the warm reception really. meant a lot?? i don’t think i would’ve ever gotten the courage to come back if i hadn’t been encouraged to by the people over at the isat discord!!

the fact that people actually care about my art still doesn’t feel real?? seeing people take inspiration from my art is just. surreal. just. auagssh. thank you all so so much for everything, i really do appreciate it!!! i’m really glad to be in this community. sorry if this all sounds sappy and long winded i’ve just got a lot of emotions about this whole thing!!

(also as a bonus for reading all this or whatever. here’s a concept page for isatscryption! it felt a little out of place next to my normal canvases so i’m putting it down here! yipee! sorry my notes here are so disjointed auauau…)

[lucabyte]

isat doodles in the form of a silly-serious-silly sandwich

[smiledog16]

oh we are so cooked.