#Self-Aware Yosano

[selfaware-bungou-stray-dogs]

Akiko Yosano (self-aware)

Self-Aware! Akiko Yosano x GN! Reader

Warning: Yandere. OOC. Spoilers for Yosano's past. Mentions of been torn apart. Mentions of medicine. Mentions of war. Mentions of Kunikida been broken. Yosano is angry. Yosano really doesn't like you at first. But she became better. English is my second language.

Becoming self-aware

🩺 Akiko Yosano was a calm and intelligent woman. Yes, she can be sadistic, she knew that, but she was a good person.

🩺 When Yosano became self-aware, she was furious. Yosano didn't care that she couldn't remember her parents. She was furious, that she remembered something from her past.

🩺 She wasn't real?! If she wasn't real, why she remembered The Great War?! Why she remembered treating people during The Great War?! Was The Great War real?! Was her work alongside Mori real?

🩺 Why she was forced to treat solders when she was eleven?

🩺 Yosano stormed away from the office. Tanizaki siblings find her only on the next day. Yosano almost destroyed a warehouse where she met Atsushi for the first time.

🩺 Tanizaki siblings managed to bring Yosano back to the office.

🩺 And then she felt the entity's presence.

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Yosano was ready to destroy the entity. She doesn't care, who it was. She felt that this thing is responsible for the current madness. 

For the last few days, all ADA members were staying in the office. The situation was so bizarre. They don't want to be left alone.

Yosano can't see her friends' conditions. 

Kunikida looked like a husk of his former self. Carefree Dazai looked dangerous. Atsushi looked lost. Fukuzawa-sensei tried to stay strong, but Yosano can see, that present seems almost broken.

The entity was the reason they were suffering. And the entity was a coward. It never showed itself. If Yosano met it, she would tear it apart.

And then time resets.

And Yosano was once again in the warehouse, where Dazai proclaim he wants to make Atsushi a part of ADA. Both Dazai and Atsushi looked peaceful.

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When they start feeling your presence

🩺 Be grateful that Yosano can't reach you.

🩺 Because if she could, she would eliminate you.

🩺 Yosano was sure, that you are a demiurge. An evil human-child. Were their lives entertaining for you that you reset time?

🩺 At the day when Black Lizards attack ADA office, Yosano was ruthless. Thankfully, she didn't kill anyone. Then she heard a voice.

"Yes, Queen, slay! [||||||||||||] cool! And she [||||||||||] style!"

🩺 Yosano felt, like she was cuddling with a bunch of kittens who adored her. Was it entity's feelings? That pure? Yosano was confused. If the entity was evil, why its feelings were that genuine?

🩺 Everyone could see Yosano's anger. Some were silent. But two people weren't.

🩺 Atsushi was first, who talked to Yosano. He told her about the entity been kind and sympathetic towards him.

🩺 Then there was Dazai. He, once again, was carefree. Dazai assures Yosano, that she will see the truth. That there is some hope.

🩺 Then, few days after her talk with Atsushi and Dazai, she saw, that Kunikida, again, looked as strong as he was before.

🩺 Kunikida looked delightful. He told everyone about entity, thanking him for showing them an importance of making plans.

🩺 Yosano's anger lessen. Atsushi, Dazai and Kunikida looked normal, not brainwashed. Maybe, there is something more to that strange entity?

🩺 It was a day when she took Atsushi for a shopping trip. The day, when they met Kyoka.

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"You want to know what death is? I'll tell you. Death is the loss of life. Despite everything doctors like me attempt... a patient's life can still fall through our fingers. You think death lies in the apex of science? Anyone with such little regard for life will die by my hand."

Yosano heard cheering.

"tell him" "you are right" "wish my dentist were more professional"

"Doctor Yosano, I think you are the good doctor. But, most importantly, you are a good person. ADA is so lucky to have you as their friend. And as their doctor."

Yosano feel, like someone touched her hair.

[In reality, you mindlessly pet manga's page with Yosano on it.]

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🩺 The same day, Yosano's anger disappeared. Because of Ranpo.

"I finished the investigation. It seems, that our entity is a simple human. Like we are. They don't have ability. There are no abilities in their world. And they have no idea, that we can hear them."

🩺 Yosano couldn't be angry at you anymore. The whole situation wasn't your fault. Yosano wishes, she can say that she is sorry for hating you. Yosano thought that if you met face to face, she will take you for a shopping trip.

🩺 And then Mori Ougai and Yukichi Fukuzawa met. The union was formed. All of them were trying to find a way out of this world. Find a way to you.

🩺 Yosano and Mori had a heated argument. They wanted to decide, who will be your doctor. No one wanted to back off.

🩺 Ivan Goncharov was the one who ended the argument. He offered Fyodor Dostoevsky to become your surgeon. Yosano and Mori formed a truce and agreed to look after your health together.

And then, one day, the purple moon shined above Yokohama.

When you installed BSD Mayoi Inu Kaikitan

🩺 Yosano take her job as your doctor seriously. Even in game.

🩺 All Yosano's cards now can heal. Even if all their skills are set on dealing damage.

"Wow, I didn't know that Yosano skill can heal 50% of team HP! Did devs buff her card? Now Very Hard Event stage won't be a problem"

"Yosano from Empress card is gorgeous"

"I need more Power up materials. Time to raise up Infirmary level."

🩺 When BSD gang gain access to the rest of your phone, Yosano take it upon herself to remind you about your health.

🩺 Now your phone remind you to take a rest from computer, to take a nap, drink water, go for a walk.

🩺 And if you need to take medication, your phone (Yosano) will remind you about it.

🩺 If you buy something online, Yosano will "accompany" you.

🩺 Yosano can't wait for the day when you meet. She and others will protect you. Because, for them, you were Their Guiding Light.

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You were sick. It was a simple cold, but still, you felt awful.

Two notifications pop up. One is the reminder to take your pills. Second is from BSD Maoi game. You got a present from Yosano. Third of your notes from characters.

"[Y/N], I hope you are doing well. Remember, you are a good person. Please, take care of yourself. Akiko Yosano"

There was a cute stamp with Yosano attached to the note.

Your smile was weak. But, as with Kunikida and Atsushi before, you select Yosano's card and pet Yosano's chibi sprite.

"Thanks for your concern, Yosano. And for the kind words."

You were too tired to notice that sprite's eyes became warmer.

[theprettywriter]

Your beauty and my lust: Dazai Osamu

Synopsis : when he couldn't stop himself and his mind wandered to your delicate skin and soft curves.

Genre/Warnings: ada dazai, masturbation, fluff, mature themes

Author's pov

Sex was a common thing for dazai. When once in a while he wanted someone else's touch and needed a quick relief, he'd just flirt his way inside a woman's heart and her body. But it was just sex and nothing more. Some women were okay with it and some weren't. Not that he cared as it only ended up with him getting kicked out. And when there was a mutual choice, he'd leave after satisfying both himself and his partner for the night. No cuddles or soft love making. Just rough and quick and dirty sex which in most cases, left his partners in wanting more. But he didn't care about them.

That wasn't the case when it came to you. The new and shy member of the armed detective agency. Now dazai admits that he likes all women but the day he saw you for the first time, he felt his heart flutter for the very first time. And that was a new feeling for him. So at first he tried to keep his distance from you. Yes, he's talk to you normally and reply kindly whenever you asked him something or just greeted him after coming to work but he didn't try to make any moves on you.

He didn't flirt with you like he flirts with every other woman and he didn't act like a crackhead like he does around kunikida. Of course you weren't aware of his usual nature because you were new at the agency but sometimes he found himself acting like his real self rather than that annoying coworker who'd jump in a lake the moment he sees one.

So no matter how many times he tried to keep his distance from you, it never worked because the moment you look up at him with that sweet smile and those beautiful soft eyes, he felt his heart melt. More than once, he caught himself staring at you as you worked or talked to any other member. When you'd walk towards yosano's clinic to tell her something, his eyes would be caught staring at the gentle sway of your hips, your soft curves as you'd bend down to pick something off the floor, or when his eyes would soften as he'd watch you laugh and smile at something kenji said. He noticed that you were fond of the younger members despite not knowing them since too long.

No one noticed when he stopped flirting with every woman he sees. No one noticed when he stopped asking women to commit double suicide with him. Of course Ranpo was the first person to notice that the former executive has feelings for his new coworker. But he didn't say anything and just watched as dazai handled you so gently, the hand that once held a gun and killed countless people was the same hand that was now gently pressed against the small of your back as you slipped on a stray piece of paper lying on the floor.

Ranpo watched as your feelings for the former executive grew by the day as well. He noticed your shy smile and your timid steps as you gave dazai a cute little paper bag which had a small box of cookies in it. He noticed how shyly you told dazai that you had made the cookies yourself and that you wanted him to try some. It was so obvious, Ranpo thought as he munched on his snacks and watched his coworkers acting like fools in love.

It was snowing one night and you and dazai were walking home together. You didn't notice when he gently guided you to the inner side of the side walk and walked besides you on the outer side because you were too busy telling him about the new case that you handled Alone for the first time. You were dressed snuggly in your pale blue winter coat But you were a little worried that dazai's trench coat was too thin for the snowy weather so you took out your warm scarf from your bag and looked up at him shyly as you both walked side by side.

"dazai san?" you said softly, a soft blush rose on your cheeks when he looked down at you with eyes swirling with emotions "yes angel?" he grinned when he saw your blush deepen and your eyes widened at the nickname despite him calling you that multiple times. "u-umm" you stutured slightly out of shyness but he waited patiently for you to finish your sentence, only looking at you with soft eyes "y-you look a little cold so would you like my scarf?" you say shyly as you extend your scarf towards him.

His eyes widened for a moment before he grinned softly and nodded, despite not feeling cold. But instead of taking the scarf, he stopped walking and leaned down, looking at you expectantly "care to help me doll?" your eyes widened once again as you blushed profusely and nodded silently while raising your hands by his neck and gently tie the scarf around his neck. You smiled softly as he leaned back to his full height and pulled the scarf over his nose. You didn't notice his eyes darkening when your scent wrapped around his senses because you were already walking ahead.

You waved at him before entering your dorm and he sighed, groaning softly as he walked in his dorm and closed the door behind him,forgetting to lock it because his mind was hazing with lust. He let out a small grunt as he took off his coat and sat on his futon before taking off your scarf. He was going to place it on the table before his moments halted and he slowly raised the scarf towards his nose and inhaled deeply, his eyes falling shut as he smelled the jasmine perfume that you always wear.

A low groan left his lips when he felt his cock throbbing in his pants and his breathing got heavier by the second. He had stopped sleeping around after realising his feelings for you. You were precious. Too precious for someone who is tainted like him. But he couldn't help it as his mind wandered to thoughts that he wouldn't dare say out loud. He breathed heavily as he fell back on his futon and unbuttoned his shirt, feeling a little too hot. He fumbled with his zipper and pulled down his boxers just enough to tug his hardened cock out. A deep grunt left his lips as he pressed your scarf firmly against his nose and inhaled deeply as his hand palmed his cock.

"fuck" he groaned, squeezing his cock tightly before he spat on his hand and rubbed his saliva over his cock to make his movements smoother and faster. Heavy pants left his lips as he sniffed your scarf again and his pace increased, his toes curling up and feet pressing against the futon as he jerked himself off. His movements quick and desperate as images of your soft curves and gentle voice clouded his mind.

You smiled softly at the thought of seeing him again as you knocked on his door, his key in your hand. You had found it earlier today lying by his desk and picked it up thinking you will give it to him later. But then it completely slipped your mind and you just found it in your dress's pocket. Thinking he must be trying to find it, you decided to give it to him now as you knocked again. Your brows furrowed when you didn't hear any reply and a small seed of concern settled inside you because he'd always answer after one knock. You knew he wouldn't be asleep because you both just got home a few minutes ago after all.

"dazai san?" you knocked again, the worry growing inside you when no reply came. Hesitating for a moment, you tried to open his door, a little surprised that it wasn't locked. "dazai san, I'm coming in!" you called out as you entered his dorm but again, no reply. After taking off your shoes you walked in to see his living room empty other than a few half empty bottles of sake on the table. He wasn't in the kitchen either so you walked towards his bedroom and raised your hand to knock but you froze when you heard a low moan "nghh.... fuck y/n It feels so good" your eyes widened and your cheeks flushed when you heard the deep moan of your name. You should leave, you know that. Maybe you heard wrong, yes that must be the case.

You know you should leave but with the door slightly ajar, you couldn't help but peek a little and heat curled in the pit of your stomach when you saw him. He was laying on his back, his legs sprawled out as his large hand worked up and down his cock which was covered in pre cum. His shirt was completely unbuttoned , revealing his bandaged chest and his hair were sticking to his forehead as he panted heavily. Your eyes widened when you a familiar scarf lying by his face and You felt yourself getting wetter by the second as you saw him pressing his nose in your scraf and breathing in deeply as he squeezed his cock tightly. your cheeks flushed even more as you felt your arousal sticking to your panties,causing you to unconsciously press your thighs together.

Oh it was so wrong. You should leave, you should leave but it was as if your feet were stuck to the floor as your eyes watched his movements, your body heating up as you gripped your dress. A soft whimper left your lips when another sultry moan of your name left his lips and you felt yourself gushing as his movements quickened and his abdomen clenched "hah- god y/n I'm so close" his eyes rolled back and his face pressed against the pillow and mouth hung open in a deep groan of your name as his cock spurtled out ropes and ropes of hot cum.

Your panties were ruined, you could feel the wetness of your arousal and it was a little uncomfortable. But you couldn't move from your spot as he breathed heavily, covering his eyes with an arm as he laid there, trying to catch his breath. Just as you were about to force yourself to move, a raspy chuckle left his lips "how long are you gonna hide there, doll?" you gasped softly and clamped your mouth shut as you felt embarrassment and shame filling inside you.

He groaned softly as he sat up, not bothering to dress himself as he tilted his head and looked at the ajar door with a lazy smirk "come here y/n" the way he said your name, it was enough to make you follow his command and you walked in shyly, trying to avoid eye contact with him. He chuckled and pulled you down on his lap, his smile widening when he watched you squirm and blush profusely "i-im so sorry-" you were cut off and a soft whimper left your lips when he suddenly pressed his lips on yours in a deep kiss.

"need you angel" he murmured, smiling softly as you kissed him back as he laid you gently on his futon. His hands trembling as he made sure to be gentle while sliding off your dress as you looked up at him with soft eyes filled with trust and adoration and lust.

Dazai Osamu is not a gentle man. But when it comes to you, he doesn't want to be anything but gentle.

And for the context, he noticed you the moment you entered his dorm.

[lesbianyosano]

thinking about how kunikida is inarguably suicidal and yet how many people seem to miss this completely when discussing his character, likely bc the way he goes about it stands in complete opposition to how dazai deals with his own suicidal tendencies (disclaimer, i’m basing this of off what i can remember bc i’m too lazy to look for all these scenes rn)

because dazai is fully aware of his feelings, embraces them, really. all of his attempts are unambiguous and he talks about wanting to die a lot, but he also has strong self preservation instincts (if you can call it that). he rarely puts himself in immediate danger and strays away from pain. also all of his attempts (from what we’ve seen in the main manga at least) are highly ineffective (and he knows it) because he’s still hoping to find some reason to live, it’s a huge theme in his character arc (which doesn’t diminish how he feels or how serious his condition is)

but with kunikida is the complete opposite. first of all, he doesn’t seem to register how he feels as being suicidal. i would imagine it’s partly because of how strongly he associates the feeling with dazai, and he’s nothing like him so it can’t be that. but when you pay attention to how he acts it becomes clear that’s what’s going on with him. the helicopter scene is the prime example, how quick he is to throw his life away even when he doesn’t really have to (there had surely been different ways to deal with the hunting dogs then, i mean chuuya was right there), but this also comes up during the scene with aya when she’s first introduced. after the bomb thing gets resolved she asks him what he would have done if yosano didn’t come and he just.. smiles and tells her that he promised not to have people die in front him (i’m paraphrasing this bc i’m too lazy to find the chapter sorry). and it’s easy to miss i guess, but it’s still so chilling he basically admits that he’s rather die on the spot than have to deal with the guilt of not being able to save people. like that’s not,,,, a normal and healthy way to think. and then there’s also what jouno says to him (and again i’m paraphrasing), how his first involuntary reaction to the possibility of his friends dying was relief, with shame and fear coming afterwards. because if his friends are dead that means he can give up and die too.

so yeah uh, i think there’s something really wrong with him and most of these feeling seem to stem from guilt which makes me wonder what the hell happened to him that he’s now acting this was. asagiri release the forbidden backstory <\3

[kaurwreck]

I saw your recent headcanon bsd post and honestly you really get the characters (or you get me <3 because i fully agree with them) especially the Atsushi and Dazai one which is practically canon for me. Do you have more Atsushi and Dazai headcanon you can share? I really love it when people talk about those two

I'm so glad the Atsushi and Dazai headcanon resonated with you! I call them headcanons, but they're canon to me; it's my sandbox and I'm building sandcastles.

I don't think I'm articulate enough to adequately express my thoughts about Atsushi and Dazai's relationship, so rather than try, I'm going to share more bulleted snippets of headcanons that hopefully relay the vibes if not the substance.

Atsushi is emotionally brilliant, but has the intellect of an idiot kitten. Dazai is intellectually brilliant, but has the emotional intelligence of an idiot kitten. Nevertheless, Atsushi is NOT self-aware, in the slightest, while Dazai is excruciatingly self-aware. They would devour each other in the wild but are a bonded pair in captivity.

At least once a week, Dazai loses Atsushi at the store and then doesn't listen to the intercom when he's called.

Dazai thrusts himself into the thick of villains and conflicts because the narrative will not let him die, but he can't move it forward from there. Atsushi can and is compelled to, even, because it's the only way he'll survive.

In 55 Minutes, Atsushi indicates that maybe all skills come from elsewhere and are imposed upon us. In that way, he's drawing a parallel between skills and the cultural, societal, temporal, familial influences that construct our understanding of our existence. He's also saying that perhaps what Dazai and Kyouka have going on with their otherness and inability to control their skills is kind of what happens to all of us, just in different ways. This is why he is the protagonist. He does not see separation. He sees people and he sees the constructs and frameworks that people build around themselves, but which they can also deconstruct and rebuild. Dazai isn't convinced he's a person, but Atsushi guilelessly and unwaveringly looks at him and sees a person anyway. He has that effect on others; he did the same thing to Kyouka, and Lucy, and Akutagawa, and even Ango when Ango aimed a gun at Kyouka and Lucy. Worse yet, they see reflections of their personhood in his eyes. It's intoxicating, and enlivening, and frustrating, and terrifyingly vulnerable. Dazai experiences it as absolution. Atsushi experiences it as obvious.

Dazai tries to give Atsushi shaken baby syndrome when Atsushi annoys him, even though Yosano keeps telling him that Atsushi's too old.

Chuuya and Atsushi unabashedly want to love and be loved, it's second nature to them, albeit in different ways. But Akutagawa and Dazai convinced themselves they were perfectly fine not loving and never being loved; up until they met someone who everyone loves, which is so, horribly vexing to them because they're so different and unique and no one understands them and yet here they are, vying for the attention of someone who seems to know something they don't. So, they cope by loving those they love in ways no one else does. Which is to say: like freaks.

Dazai gets involved with Atsushi and Akutagawa not just because they need mentorship or for Atsushi. He's there in solidarity with Akutagawa. Dazai is there because he needs someone who understands the reality of the idiot situation that they got themselves into because they're idiots. Dazai and Akutagawa were both supposed to die young and in abject misery. And yet here they are. Being yanked around by objectively unreasonable people who seem to think they know better. Worse, Dazai knows that he and Akutagawa want to believe them.

Atsushi and Dazai are cat-coded, when the others run it activates their predator instincts.

dazai is so afraid of feeling; he doesn't think you can survive emotion, he thinks emotions exist to trick you or destroy you and that others' expressions of emotions are disingenuous or naive; emotions burn him terribly and he can't imagine it's any different for everyone else. and if it is, then that just further evidences that he's not human after all, that he wasn't built to survive in a world that hurts him so terribly. it's why he's so certain kunikida is going to get swallowed by his ideals. it's why he raised akutagawa in pain and neglect and why he was so disgusted by akutagawa's lack of emotional control. it's why he can't hold onto chuuya for longer than it takes chuuya to fall asleep after corruption. it's why he slapped atsushi and demanded disassociation from him when atsushi started to panic about what he'd done to naomi and haruno. but fyodor is what it looks like when you succumb to that, and chuuya and atsushi and oda are what it looks like when you don't, and as much as dazai thinks he's capable of loving anyone, he loves atsushi and chuuya and oda, all of whom grappled with their own humanity and then elected to be human anyway. and as much as he thinks the others are deluding themselves, and as much as he still believes he's right about humanity's insincerity and insipidity, and since oda asked him just before dying over his own fruitless emotions anyway (although it began before oda asked), dazai has decided he would rather fiercely protect the outcasts who refuse to see their own futility than exert any energy proving himself correct. and if he can bully a reflection of himself in the process thereof, then all the better.

Dazai lies and claims Atsushi is his son for Father's Day discounts. It's so obviously untrue and outlandish that store clerks are too distressed by his thick face to call him out and so he gets away with it. Atsushi plays along because he wants the discounts too.

[delusionalwriter02]

Insta as Fyodor's GF p.2

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Yn_theoneandonly : last friday night @.Fyofyo

Fyofyo : remind me to never do that ever again

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : seeing you drunk is certainly a rare sight

↳ Golgot : and a VERY fun one

↳ Fyofyo : my reputation is ruined

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : cmon love, you're allowed to have fun from time to time

↳ Fyofyo : the headache is not worth it

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : but the pampering was

↳ Golgot : Ynnn can you pamper me toooooo ??

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : fuck off

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Yn_theoneandonly : i don't need to adopt him i don't need to adopt him i don't need to adopt him I NEED TO ADOPT HIM

Fyofyo : You want a cat my dear ?

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : I want a whole menagerie

↳ Fyofyo : consider it done

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : ....... what ?

Sig_ma : So have you adopted him ?

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : he adopt me

↳ Sig_ma : Excuse me ?

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : he followed me home, he choose me, who am i to decline ?

↳ Sig_ma : From this angle, yeah it makes sense

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : the cat distribution system finally heard me

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Yn_theoneandonly : so...hmmmmm.... to summarize my day. I adopt an adorable cat named Charlie and an horse because my INCREDIBLE bf says so, living THE LIFE

Yosanugirl : how to have a rich rich rich bf

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : *how to have a bf that loves you

↳ Yosanugirl : I'M sorry but even if I love somebody to DEATH, I don't have the money TO BUY AN HORSE

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : Yosano, my one and only, we'll get you an horse and we'll go on a walk

↳ Yosanugirl : don't need your pity

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : will that make you happy ?

↳ Yosanugirl : ......yes

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : then we'll do it

Fyofyo : I'm glad you're happy my dear

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : I'm happy just being with you, you don't have to buy me everything

↳ Fyofyo : we got the space, the money so why don't take advantage of it ?

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : i don't even know what to say except I LOVE YOU SO DAMN MUCH

↳ Golgot : FYODOR I LOVE YOU TOO PLEASE BUY ME

↳ Fyofyo : Buy you ???????

↳ Golgot : No no no not me but I want the advantages of loving you too

↳ Fyofyo : I'll give you a punch and that's it

↳ Golgot : you're mean

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Yn_theoneandonly : love him to death

Golgot : thirdwheeling them for the night is very humbling

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : glad you're self aware

↳ Golgot : I hate you

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : me too don't worry

↳ Golgot : I'M NOT WORRY

↳ Fyofyo : Do not scream on my wife ever again.

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : YOUR WHAT

↳ Golgot : YOUR WHAT

↳ Gintonic : you're twinning

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : GIN DO NOT says something like that

↳ Golgot : twinning with that golddigger ??????

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : A WHAT YOU STUPID CLOWN

↳ Golgot : YOU'RE STEALING MY SPOTLIGHT

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : what spotlight ???? the one in the very very back of fyodor's mind ?

↳ Golgot : I HATE BOTH OF YOU

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : THEN GO AWAY ?????

↳ Fyofyo : Nikolai, you better apologize right now or I swear you won't live another day

↳ Golgot : Fine, I'm sorry Yn for saying you were a golddigger

↳ Yn_theoneandonly : Apologies not accepted

↳ Yosanurgirl : THAT'S MY GIRL

Hey! Hope you liked it ? @cassymassy90000 thank you for the request and I hope I didn't disappoint you haha, I have so much fun writing little "clash", I love Nikolai but in the Fyodor's Insta, I like writing him being a bit jealous, anyway thank you for reading!!

with love <3

[maeri-ell]

Bungou stray dogs || hcs - They caught you smoking || BSD x SMOKER READER

Yosano, Ranpo, Fyodor, Dazai, and Chuuya 

ENJOY!!   (✯◡✯)  

Fem!reader

Akiko Yosano

She is a skilled doctor with a unique ability to heal wounds and inflict pain. 

When it comes to her interactions with others, she can be both caring and blunt, always prioritizing the well-being of those around her.

If Yosano were to catch the Reader smoking, her initial reaction would likely be a mix of surprise and disapproval. 

She would approach the situation with her characteristic straightforwardness, not hesitating to voice her concerns.

Firstly, Yosano would express her worry about the health risks associated with smoking. 

Being a medical professional, she is well aware of the detrimental effects that smoking can have on one's body. 

She would emphasize the importance of taking care of one's health and urge the Reader to consider quitting.

Yosano's disapproval would stem not only from the health aspect but also from her belief in personal discipline. 

She values self-control and would see smoking as a form of weakness or dependency. 

She would likely question the Reader's reasons for starting and encourage them to find healthier alternatives to cope with stress or other triggers.

However, Yosano's reaction wouldn't be solely scolding and lecturing. 

Beneath her stern exterior, she genuinely cares about the well-being of others and would offer her support in helping the Reader quit smoking. 

She would share her knowledge of the harmful effects of smoking and possibly even suggest various resources or strategies to aid in the process of quitting.

Yosano would be there as a steadfast source of encouragement and accountability. 

She would check in on the Reader's progress, celebrating each milestone and reminding them of the positive impact their decision to quit has on their health.

Overall, Yosano's reaction to catching the Reader smoking would showcase her concern for their well-being and her determination to help them make healthier choices. 

Her headcanon portrayal would highlight her role not only as a skilled doctor but also as a caring and supportive friend, guiding the Reader toward a healthier lifestyle.

Ranpo Edogawa

The brilliant detective of the Armed Detective Agency, possesses an uncanny ability to solve mysteries with his unparalleled deductive skills. 

Despite his childish and carefree demeanor, Ranpo is incredibly perceptive and observant, always seeking the truth behind every situation.

If Ranpo were to catch Reader smoking, his initial reaction would likely be a mix of curiosity and nonchalance. 

He would approach the situation with a nonchalant attitude as if he had expected such behavior from them.

Ranpo: casually leaning against a nearby wall "Well, well, what do we have here? Caught in the act, huh?"

Reader: surprised and flustered, quickly putting out the cigarette "Ranpo-san! I... I can explain."

Ranpo: raising an eyebrow, a mischievous smile forming on his lips "Oh, no need to explain. I'm not really interested in your reasons. Smoking is a personal choice, after all.”

Reader: relieved but still feeling a hint of guilt "I didn't expect you to react this way, Ranpo-san."

Ranpo: shrugs nonchalantly "Why would I? As long as it doesn't affect my mysteries or the agency's cases, you're free to do as you please."

Although Ranpo may appear dismissive at first, his inquisitive nature would likely kick in soon enough. 

He would be curious to understand the reasons behind Reader's smoking habit, purely out of a desire to comprehend human behavior and motivations.

Ranpo: tilting his head, a spark of curiosity in his eyes "So, what led you to pick up this habit? Is it the thrill of rebellion or something else entirely?"

Reader: opening up, feeling a sense of comfort in Ranpo's presence "It's mostly stress relief, I guess. Helps me relax in challenging times."

Ranpo: nodding, his expression thoughtful "Interesting. I suppose everyone has their own way of coping. Just remember, there are healthier alternatives out there."

While Ranpo may not actively push Reader to quit smoking, he would subtly plant the seed of considering alternative stress-relief methods. He may even suggest engaging in activities that stimulate their mind or spark their curiosity, redirecting their focus to more constructive outlets.

In the end, Ranpo's headcanon portrayal would reveal his acceptance of personal choices while still subtly encouraging self-improvement. He would maintain his carefree demeanor, leaving it up to Reader to make their own decisions, but with a subtle reminder that there are always better options available.

Fyodor Dostoevsky  

He is known for his cunning intellect and manipulation skills, always strategizing and planning ahead.

If Fyodor were to catch Reader smoking, his initial reaction would be one of mild interest rather than surprise. He would observe them with his piercing gaze, analyzing their behavior and motives.

Fyodor: a subtle smirk playing on his lips "Ah, indulging in the vices of life, are we?"

Reader: taken aback, hastily putting out the cigarette "Fyodor-san... I didn't expect you to be here."

Fyodor: calmly stepping closer, his eyes fixated on Reader "There is a certain allure in watching someone partake in self-destructive habits. Do enlighten me, why do you choose to poison yourself in such a manner?"

Reader: feeling a mix of unease and curiosity "I suppose it's a way for me to escape, even if temporarily. A moment of comfort."

Fyodor: nodding slowly, his expression thoughtful "Escaping reality, I see. An understandable desire, but is smoking truly the most effective means?"

Fyodor would approach the situation with a philosophical perspective, engaging Reader in a discussion about their motivations and the potential consequences of their actions. He would delve into the psychological aspects of smoking, exploring the underlying desires and emotions that drive such behavior.

Fyodor: his voice carrying a hint of intrigue "Tell me, does smoking provide you with the solace you seek? Or is it merely a fleeting illusion, a temporary distraction from the inevitable?"

Reader: reflecting on Fyodor's words, a hint of contemplation in their eyes "Perhaps you're right. There may be healthier ways to find comfort without compromising my well-being."

Fyodor: a ghost of a smile crossing his face "Indeed, there are always alternatives. Embracing the darkness within oneself can be both liberating and destructive. The choice, my dear, is yours to make."

While Fyodor may not actively discourage Reader from smoking, his philosophical insights would leave a lasting impact, planting the seeds of introspection and self-reflection. He would challenge Reader to question their motives and seek healthier means of finding solace and escape.

In the end, Fyodor's headcanon portrayal would embody his complex and contemplative nature, leaving Reader to ponder their choices while subtly guiding them toward self-discovery and personal growth.

Dazai Osamu

Known for his carefree and unpredictable nature. He possesses a dark past and a twisted sense of humor.

If Dazai were to catch Reader smoking, his initial reaction would likely be a mischievous grin, amusement dancing in his eyes. He would approach the situation with a nonchalant demeanor, as if he had stumbled upon a source of entertainment.

Dazai: leaning casually against a nearby wall "Well, well, what do we have here? Our dear Reader indulging in the forbidden pleasures of smoking, I see."

Reader: caught off guard, hastily hiding the cigarette "Dazai-san, I didn't expect to run into you."

Dazai: chuckling softly, his gaze lingering on the hidden cigarette "Why, my dear Reader, are you drawn to such a? The temptation of rebellion, perhaps? The taste of freedom in each puff?"

Reader: feeling a mix of embarrassment and curiosity "Sometimes, it helps me calm my nerves or unwind after a long day. But I know it's not the healthiest habit."

Dazai: raising an eyebrow playfully "Ah, seeking comfort in the moment. I can empathize with that. Life is undoubtedly chaotic. However, have you pondered the consequences?"

Dazai's reaction would be characterized by a combination of teasing and genuine concern. He would playfully prod Reader, using his dark sense of humor to highlight the risks and potential dangers of smoking.

Dazai: smirking mischievously "You know, my dear Reader, smoking may not be the most effective way to confront the chaos. But who am I to judge? After all, we all have our vices, don't we?"

Reader: a mix of amusement and resignation "I suppose you're right, Dazai-san. Maybe I should find healthier ways to cope with stress."

Dazai: feigning surprise, placing a hand on his chest dramatically "My, my, Reader, you're suggesting we abandon our sinful delights? How scandalous! But perhaps it wouldn't hurt to explore new approach of self-care."

While Dazai wouldn't explicitly discourage Reader from smoking, his lighthearted banter and subtle guidance would encourage them to consider healthier alternatives. He would emphasize the importance of self-care and finding constructive ways to cope with stress and chaos.

In the end, Dazai's headcanon portrayal would reflect his complex persona, blending humor and concern to nudge Reader towards self-improvement while reminding them that life's struggles can be faced with a touch of irreverence.

Chuuya Nakahara

Known for his short temper and quick wit. When it comes to his reaction if he were to catch the Reader smoking, it would be no different.

Upon catching sight of the Reader with a cigarette in hand, Chuuya's eyes would narrow and his expression would harden. He would approach them with a mixture of irritation and concern evident in his voice.

Chuuya: "What the hell do you think you're doing?"

Reader: startled, quickly extinguishing the cigarette "Chuuya-san, I..."

Chuuya: cutting them off, voice filled with annoyance "Smoking? Are you kidding me? Do you have any idea how bad that is for you?"

Reader: feeling guilty, stammering for an explanation "I... I'm sorry. It's just... I needed something to help me relax."

Chuuya: scoffs, crossing his arms "And you think smoking is the answer? You're only making things worse for yourself."

Chuuya's initial reaction would be fueled by his strong dislike for unhealthy habits and self-destructive behaviors. He would be genuinely concerned about the Reader's well-being, though his way of expressing it might come off as harsh.

Chuuya: softer tone, but still firm "Look, I get it. Life can be tough. But there are better ways to cope with stress. Smoking will only ruin your health and make things worse in the long run."

Reader: nodding, remorseful "I understand, Chuuya-san. I'll try to quit."

Chuuya: sighs, his expression softening slightly "Good. It's for your own sake. If you need support or someone to talk to, don't hesitate to reach out."

Chuuya's headcanon portrayal would show that beneath his tough exterior, he genuinely cares about the well-being of those around him, including the Reader. He may not always express it in the most gentle way, but his intentions are rooted in wanting the best for them.

Chuuya would keep an eye on the Reader's progress, offering occasional reminders and words of encouragement. He would be there as a source of support, showing that he believes in their ability to overcome their smoking habit and make healthier choices.

In the end, Chuuya's headcanon reaction to catching the Reader smoking would reflect his concern and determination to help them break free from harmful habits, even if it means being blunt and demanding in his approach.

[luna-alatus]

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----------------------------------------------------------------------------- ➷ Headcanon➷ ╚» Reader has decided to get new glasses, resulting is some.. comical events ╚» Prompt: "Hey there (reader)- Oh wow you got new glass-.. glasses... AH CRAP-!" ╚» Charcter/s: Dazai Osamu, Atsushi Nakajima Pt. 1 - Dazai Osamu | ft. Kunikida ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- » Dazai Osamu ● Currently the Agency was quiet once Kunikida was calmed down about the fact the bag of bandages was late, another reason he was probably so easily calmed was the fact the (reader) had just gotten a new pair of eye glasses for themselves. ● How does that co-relate to the fact he had calmed down for that reason? ● Well the (reader) seeing as they had new glasses, they were having slight headaches here and there and well.. the added noise made it worse- and well seeing as Kunikida was their friend he had quieted down for them. ● A small time skip later, the late bandaged detective had decided to finally show his face up to the agency. ● Sadly he wasn't exactly aware of the (reader) had gotten new glasses and needed their environment to be quiet for a while- ● So being the dramatic bastard he was- he had to make a grand entrance and immediately this entrance had caught Kunikida's attention. ● Fortunately or well.. unfortunately it seemed the (reader)'s new look with their new glasses on had caught the suicidal maniac's attention making him pause his dramatic entrance. _________________________________________________________ » Scenerio

The agency was it's usual quiet yet busy self this morning, right now everyone was basically doing their own thing and getting their own work done. It was quite a calm morning today actually-.. if you disregarded a certain blonde's soft cursing as his work partner was once again.. late as usual. Though asides from that- everything seemed to be as normal as ever. Although the (reader) did get new glasses, as after a certain mission- their vision was slightly, well to put it short broken. And they didn't want to go through doctor Yosano's treatment just for that... cause.. hah.. They had decided to just consult an optometrists and they had suggested to just get glasses, so they did just that. And well.. it was okay, granted the killer headache they were having because of it slightly sucked- But you do what you gotta do, besides at least their vision was a lot better now with the glasses and all. It was probably late afternoon, which was around 1 to 2 pm, by the time Dazai Osamu. (Kunikida's late partner and the well known suicidal maniac in the agency) Had decided to show up for work finally, to probably just end up laying on one of the couches and do nothing again for the entire day- then again, it was to be expected. This was Dazai after all. And of course, he just had to make his dramatic entrance- he was after all the Dazai Osamu. With that being said, a loud slam of a door would be heard once the brown haired detective entered the agency's office a bright smile on his face as always. "Good morning everyone!~" A crack of a pen was then heard. "DAZAI-!!! YOU IMBECILE- IT'S 2 IN THE AFTERNOON YOU BANDAGED SQUANDERING MACHINE..!"

They would go back and fourth for a while- before Dazai's eyes would catch the (reader)'s making him pause with his bicker with Kunikida for a while..

Their mouth slightly hanging open as he saw the fact they had new glasses on- as he'd ignore Kunikida's scolding. He was just ultimately told to just sit on his desk and do his work.

And for once in his life, Dazai just nodded quietly before heading over.. still, the male was slightly surprised and more or less also charmed at (reader)'s new look-

So much so that as he was about to head over to his desk he had accidentally bumped into a wall on the way.

'SMACK'

"Ow-! Ah.. damn it.." The bandaged detective would curse as he'd back away from the wall he just bumped into.

Walking over to his desk again- before he felt someone take his face into their hands, and that someone was no other than the (reader).

"Woah, you okay there bandages?" Their eyes would be seen filled with concern over their friend.

Seeing as they had just collided into the wall like that- they had a good feeling that hurt, a lot.

"Ah is my belladonna worried about me?~" And as per usual, Dazai was once again making light of a somewhat serious situation.

Making the (reader) roll their eyes at them as they'd gently check the male's face for any injuries, clearly not seeing how their brown eyes would observe them so closely.. or how their eyes were softening as they'd check over them so worriedly.

"Always gotta keep that charm of yours up huh..?"

Dazai just chuckled at their words, as he'd subconsciously leaned closer into their hands smiling softly at them.

"You look pretty with your new glasses on.."

A pause.

"Ah.. really..?" (Reader) would flush slightly at the taller male's comment clearly not expecting that.

"Thank you.."

All the whilst the suicidal maniac just smiled at their flushed face, chuckling softly.

"I should be the one thanking you~ Your beauty is so blinding it had blinded me for a second and I had bumped into a wall!~"

"Dazai shut up..!"

Let's just say, he had a fun time teasing the (reader) about that throughout the entire day. But of course he'd tone it down for their sake as they would mention how loud noises were causing the headache they had currently because of the new glasses worsen because of it.

So in summary, Dazai basically would tease the hell out of you but at the same time care for you and tone it down for your sake seeing as again, the headache and all.

But that wouldn't stop him from complimenting you of course~

[kaeyx]

I'm gonna go off the d!Mori concept

Like everyone in bsd is scared of Mori Kyouka literally started shaking when she saw him again and dazai with yosano are absolutely traumatized by him he's perfect addition of course he isn't ALWAYS cruel but his silly behaviour is a mask in pretty sure Dazai got that strategy from him idk it feels like he'd be in higher hierarchy who just happened to take an interest to you of course the first strategy is to woo you with his facade but it best not to let your guard down, he's determined to get what his wants and on top of that pretty possessive and clingy it's okay to be spicy to him jokingly He might even play along but it's important to watch your tongue fiesty is one thing for him but disrespect another. He has power and influence and he's very much aware BUT He can play it nice if you play it fair. He's not expecting you to fall over to your knees (just yet) but do not strive him of affection because he's determined to get what he wants one way or another. Through pathetic silly act or his actual self

Yesss d!Mori can be very scary if he wants to be! He's really powerful and has no issue with showing that, he's not flashy but he'll nick you with his talons if you get too feisty. Mori is an incredibly lonely person, imo mostly because he keeps treating people like pawns instead of forming actual connections with them. Excellent for a boss, terrible for his social life. But he can bypass this by simply deciding your purpose is to be his doll! He can't use you as an asset or a warrior, no, you're far too sweet and weak for that. Any demon would tear you to shreds. D!Mori keeps you around like a pet, a cute little lapdog. He's fond of you, of course, he indulges you and lets you sit in his lap and pull on his horns, nobody else has been allowed this close in centuries and Mori has to admit he likes the contact. But like any dog, you'll get muzzled if you're too feisty. Mori won't tolerate outright disrespect, even if he does soften himself a lot for you and lets you get away with things a normal demon would be killed over.

[cqthqrtic]

how about …….. b d e for yosano 👀

warnings: vulnerable yosano :((, biting kink, thigh choking, brief mentions of kink.

a/n: this blog is a lesbian yosano truther blog.

nsfw alphabet prompts.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Yosano really loves her legs. She has tall, toned, and slender legs with very strong thighs and she knows it. She’s particularly proud of her thighs when she wraps them around your head while you eat her out, squeezing your head gently while purring praises and carding her fingers through your hair. I think Yosano really loves people with sensitive necks. She’s a total neck biter; she gets off on biting at your neck while you whimper and clutch her shirt in your fists. Yosano just thinks your neck is oh so pretty with her love bites !!

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

She’s actually a switch! Everybody thinks she’s just a dom, but she does like subbing in a very specific way, and no it’s not being a brat. Yosano likes being softly dominated, she wants to be pampered and taken care of. She wants to be vulnerable with you but because this beautiful woman is deeply traumatized, she has difficulty with showing her softer side. With you, although it will take a lot of time and trust, she does let you take control. Yosano will let you have her as long as you take care of her. Hold her like she’s precious (because she is!), eat her out gently, fuck her while kissing her cheeks. Treat Yosano with the utmost care and respect, lord knows she deserves it.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Yosano is pretty experienced. She took time to explore her sexual preferences in the first years of her young adulthood and is now very aware of what she wants. Yosano’s been with a lot of women (and a few men) and tried so many different things, from flogging to pegging. It’s how she figured out she was a lesbian. Eventually, when she figured out her preferences, she slowed down and is now in a happy, secure relationship with you !! Yosano is honestly a good first time to have. She takes things slowly, is knowledgeable enough where she can take the reigns, and is a good at voicing her thoughts in bed. In short, all hail queen Yosano.

[marahuyomae]

His Mother's Prodigy: The Doctor's Dilemma: Balancing Ethical Obligations and Personal Feelings

Dr. Yosano had gone through great pains to avoid ruminating on previous events in her life, but what if she were to come face-to-face with a younger version of herself who continues to haunt her? Despite this, she would nonetheless struggle to harbor any feelings of resentment towards this youthful presence, well-aware that this younger one was unaware of the turmoil they were causing. As a result, all she could do was remain silent and pretend that this younger self was nothing more than a stranger.

Alternate Title: Rintarou kept crying

The members of the Armed Detective Agency chattered amongst themselves,

their voices blending in a sea of conversation. Though their line of work often involved fighting crime and solving cases, today was different – the agency was bustling with an unusually high level of activity. People were bumping into one another and maneuvering through the crowd to accomplish their tasks, making for an unusually busy day at the agency.

A particular 27-year-old detective sat at his table, surveying the bustling office environment of clerks, secretaries, and detectives. He softly hummed to himself, "My astute reasoning skills are signaling that an out-of-the-ordinary event is about to occur." With his eyes closed, he continued to contemplate the potential development.

"It's not like it's anything we can't handle anyways..." In an unhurried fashion, Ranpo was indulging in a lollipop while entertaining himself in a relaxed state of mind. He was slowly chewing on the once-firm candy that had softened due to his repeated licking. A slight sense of excitement motivated him to kick his feet.

...1

...2

...3

...4

"And...." As Ranpo pronounced the last letter in a drawn-out manner, the door suddenly creaked open- just as he expected, causing a loud bang that caught the attention of everyone in the Agency. The occupants immediately turned their heads to investigate the source of the commotion. They witnessed a lanky brunette and an albino entering the room in a hurry, with the latter carefully bearing an injured young lady in their arms. The brunette raised his voice in a desperate tone, signaling the seriousness of the situation.

"Call Yosano-sensei! Quick! The child is experiencing significant difficulty breathing! Their oxygen levels are dropping and they are coughing up blood." The dark-haired man raised his voice to gain the attention of the other employees within the Agency, creating a loud and chaotic scene. This disturbance drew the attention of the female doctor, who immediately approached the child and examined her vials. Upon examining them, she gasped in horror as she realized that the child was struggling to breathe.

Yosano's hands visibly tremble as she sees the readings from the monitor. She sets down the oxygen mask that the child is wearing and immediately begins assessing her condition. With expert medical skills, she quickly locates the source of the child's life-threatening injuries. She diagnoses that the child is... suffering from acute sepsis. The young female doctor takes a deep breath, exhales through her eyebrows, and begins performing lifesaving measures for her patient.

"We need to intubate them immediately and give them oxygen support!" As the doctor yelled out in a frantic tone, the albino instantly responded by picking up the child and hurrying toward the infirmary. Upon entering the infirmary, the albino delicately placed the child on one of the hospital beds. The pure white sheets contrasted the child's ghostly appearance, which exacerbated their already concerning condition resulting from the lack of blood flow and difficulties breathing.

Thou Shalt Not Die

君 死 給 勿

As the doctor spoke, a stunning and graceful display unfolded before her. A flock of butterflies took flight around her poised form, their wing beats filling the air with a beautiful melody. The doctor's eyes were determined as if she were the goddess of the sun, Amaterasu, who shone a blessing upon those below her. With fiery resolve, she sought to save the young life before her.

The multitude of butterflies descended upon the wounded child, their proboscises delicately drawing nourishment from the injured flesh, akin to maggots in the process of decay. The butterflies persistently fed on the child's tissue, subsequently regurgitating it, contributing to the restoration and healing of the wound, ultimately returning it to its original form. Yosano watches in awe as the butterflies work their miracles. She has no words as she witnesses the incredible sight. Her eyes are filled with admiration as the butterflies continue to eat away at the child's wounds, leaving behind pristine fresh flesh. Her expression changes to one of relief, knowing that the child’s life has been spared. The doctor’s gaze shifts from the miracle of the butterflies to the child’s face. She nods her head gently, satisfied that her powers have allowed this young one to live.

Yosano watches as the child regains consciousness. Her expression quickly becomes one of relief as she sees the girl breathing comfortably. The doctor's lips curl up into a small smile at the healthy color returning to the child's face. Despite the girl obviously still being disorientated, Yosano attempts to alleviate her confusion.

"It's alright, dear. You're safe here. No one will hurt you. Just take a deep breath and calm down..." The doctor, in a comforting and soothing manner, speaks to the child who has just awoken. 

As the child slowly gains her bearings, she queries with a soft and barely audible voice, "Wha-what...? Where am I...?”

"Shh... Shhhh... Shhh... It's okay, honey, you're safe. Please, don't panic!" Yosano gently speaks to the child, using her most reassuringly sweet voice. She leans in closer to her and whispers.

"We're at the Armed Detective Agency. I'm Doctor Yosano. Remember, don't try to talk too much. It'll hurt your throat, okay? Take some deep breaths." The doctor gently rubs the child's back and guides her to engage in a series of slow, controlled breaths. As they slowly inhale and exhale, the doctor offers instructions, urging the child to remain calm and focus on her breathing.

The child, still trembling but gradually calming down, takes the opportunity to observe her surroundings. As she looks around, she studies the people in the room, taking note of the doctor who is instructing her. With her keen aubergine eyes, the young one turns her attention back to the doctor and poses her inquiry, "Was it acute sepsis?” she paused as she caught her breath, “I was on rounds to check on patients, but I accidentally left one of them unattended for a period. They were so incensed that they stabbed me with a scalpel out of spite. I didn't realize it at first, but soon after, I realized my mistake and the consequences I'd face. I didn't bother to tend to my wound, thinking it wasn't a big deal, but it turned out to be an infection..."

Yosano instructed the brunet and albino to vacate her vicinity so that she could continue with the young girl’s care. At this point, Yosano realized that the child was a medical student- although they looked too young to perform hospital rounds. However, the incident gave her reason to pause and ponder her attitude and approach to her patients. She had to do better in the future, she realized, because if she didn't, she may end up causing more harm than good.

"So, you're a medical student?" Yosano asks with a smile.

"And you're right about the sepsis." She adds.

The doctor watches the girl's movements with interest. She is observant, intelligent, and articulate, unlike most people her age. Even after undergoing such a traumatic injury, she is still able to speak eloquently and ask perceptive questions. She makes a mental note that this young female has potential.

The child listens intently to the doctor's observation, slowly nodding her head to show her acknowledgment. Upon hearing the doctor's comment, her small form seems to swell with a sense of pride. With a soft voice, she responds, "Yes, that's correct. I'm a third-year medical student at Tokyo Medical School's college-prep course. Despite my young age, I'm proud to say that I have maintained high grades throughout my academic career."

Despite the lighthearted amusement on Yosano's face, the doctor takes a moment to ponder the intriguing piece of information that the child had inadvertently revealed. She notes with interest that the young one mentioned the Tokyo Medical School college-prep course instead of the present-day name of the university, the Faculty of Medicine, University of Tokyo. This revelation led Yosano to wonder if the child had arrived from the past, possibly 20 years ago or more, or if there was some other explanation for her statement.

Yosano is also intrigued by the girl's remark. She's puzzled by her word choice of 'college-prep course', especially since the name had changed so long ago. She quickly decides to ask about her background, hoping to gain some insight into her unique language.

Yosano's brows furrow in curiosity as she takes a moment to process the child's statement, "Excuse me, but what year do you think it is?"

The child's expression morphs as she queries with confusion, "1986...? Is it 1986?"

Yosano falls silent for a moment, the realization of the child's mistaken perspective and her true origins dawning on her. Confirming her observation, the child was indeed from 27 years ago- the year 1986.

Yosano's eyes widen as she processes the child's statement. She was correct. The young female doctor's suspicions were confirmed. The child was from the past. The doctor was still not certain why this child had suddenly appeared here, but she knew she had to figure out what had happened to the girl. As she thought this, the doctor decided that she would address her first query.

"And what is your name?" She asked.

The child excitedly declares, "I am Mori Rintarou, future physician of the Tsuwano Domain's Daimyo and the eldest son of Mori Shizuyasu!"

Yosano was taken aback by this new piece of information, the realization that the child was, in fact, a young boy with feminine features and a feminine outfit. Yet another revelation occurred as the child introduced himself: he was the younger version of the Port Mafia leader himself- Mori Rintarou. This news was unexpected for Yosano, but it did offer insight into the child's intriguing background.

Yosano's eyes go wide as she realizes who the child really is. She is absolutely stunned. She never would have guessed this was who she had been treating. The doctor's eyes quickly take on a serious demeanor and she asks the boy another question.

"Rintarou-kun, are you alone? Was anyone with you when you got here?" She stares at the child with urgency.

The young boy hesitated, not quite sure of how he should respond. After taking a moment to collect his thoughts, he speaks up, "I'm afraid I don't know who brought me here for treatment- if I assume that the brunet and albino are indeed the ones, all I can say is that I was in the middle of my rounds when I started to feel extremely faint. I remember feeling very sweaty and nauseous before passing out. When I regained consciousness, I opened my eyes and found myself in this location..."

Yosano skeptically raises her eyebrow, doubting his claim. However, she can't fully dismiss his statement. After all, he is still young and his memory may be a little hazy. So she decides to shift her course of questioning. "What were you doing right before you felt faint? Please think carefully. Any detail you may remember could be essential to identifying your whereabouts."

The young boy makes a concerted effort to recall as much as he can about his circumstances. He states, "I do have some recollection of today being my third day of training as a trainee in a hospital. During that time, a patient stabbed me out of anger and I tried to calm them down. However, I started to feel lightheaded and numb. The heat and sweat became intense, which led me to faint on the spot- and assuming that the brown-haired man and albino saw me, they were the ones who took me here, but the loophole of everything is- why would they bring me here when I can get treated in the hospital I was being trained on? I am not where I should be… is that correct?"

Yosano nods her head, acknowledging that his situation is very peculiar. She decides to probe a bit further to uncover more information.

"You're correct. If you were in a hospital, why would Dazai and Atsushi bring you here? It isn't logical. Something just doesn't add up." Her expression becomes one of caution as she continues her line of inquiry.

The young boy, Rintarou, pays close attention to the doctor's knowledge of his two saviors, remarking, "You seem to be acquainted with them. I must ask, are they your colleagues? I would be grateful if you could interrogate them about their perspective of events. They might have found me somewhere else."

Rintarou's assumption held the possibility of truth- the young lad's observational skills truly proved his worth.

Doctor Yosano rises to her feet, signaling her intention to depart. The young lad furrows his brows, tilting his head to the side as his gaze follows the doctor's figure.

"Where are you headed?" he asks, confused.

Doctor Yosano let out a disappointed sigh as she acknowledged that she would be unable to inconspicuously slip away; the shrewd child noticed her mannerisms far too nimbly.

"I'm going to see Dazai and Atsushi. I need to ask them some questions regarding your arrival. You are free to stay here or come along with me." Yosano states, making her request.

Rintarou gives a subtle nod of agreement, stating, "I believe hanging around here for some time might do me good because my garments are still drenched. It's embarrassing to show up to others in this condition. Do you have any spare clothes, miss...?" his voice trails off as he realizes he failed to inquire about the doctor's name.

Yosano chuckles at the boy's lack of knowledge. Her expression then softens as she offers to lend him some of her clothes.

"My clothing wouldn't fit you very well, since I am a woman and you are a young boy. But I suppose it'll have to do." A small smirk appears on the doctor's face, she couldn't resist making a lighthearted joke. "Besides, perhaps it's what you deserve for not asking me what my name was."

The youth gasps rather theatrically, staring at the doctor with a sense of disbelief. "Hey now! It isn't fair that you reprimand a mere child like myself in this fashion. I was simply too distracted by the joy of being healed to notice!" He laments exaggeratedly, gesticulating wildly with each word and drawing out his sentences in a whiny fashion.

Yosano smiles at the boy's dramatic display, amused at his sudden change in demeanor.

"Relax, relax. I'm just teasing you, nothing more. I'm not truly upset. However, this 'mere child like yourself' better use his sharp senses to figure out who I am. It is basic etiquette to address someone by their name when in good company. So you say I am a doctor... What is my name?"

The young lad pouted in a somewhat childlike manner, reminding Doctor Yosano of the famous sweet-addicted detective.

"Do I really need to use my brain to come up with an outcome?" Rintarou bemoaned with a playful tone, "I might end up overexerting myself! What if I sustain an injury because of such arduous work?" he exclaimed in an exaggerated fashion, even though both of them were well aware that such an outcome was improbable.

Yosano chuckles, "Oh you poor boy. You are truly a burden to the world, aren't you?"

Her words are said in a gentle and soft tone, but her sarcasm is still palpable. "You know what? You don't have to try and figure out who I am. I don't want your precious, innocent mind to overheat. How about I just give you a hint? The letter "Y" is part of my name." Yosano offers him the opportunity to guess.

The young lad uttered a low groan, shifting his gaze discreetly around the room in search of clues; however, he was left in a state of displeasure when he failed to find anything that might assist him in the matter.

"Oh come now. Are you really struggling with this?" Yosano couldn't help but laugh out loud, amused by the boy's reaction. "I've provided you with the first half of my name: "Y" is the first letter. Can you really not figure out the other half of my name?" She challenges the young lad with a smirk.

The youthful lad treated the doctor's statement as a challenge and scrutinized her, thoroughly studying her physique from the top of her head to the bottoms of her feet. With a serious expression, he mused, "Is it possible that... your name might be... Akiko? The name suits your eyes, which are clear and sparkle brilliantly, much like crystals..."

Yosano is taken aback by the child's analysis of her, though she does find it to be surprisingly spot-on. This boy certainly has a sharp sense of deduction for being so young. However, she couldn't let his compliment go unchallenged.

"My eyes sparkle brilliantly, like crystals, huh? Well, you're correct. My name is indeed Akiko. However, there is still more to my name that you haven't figured out yet."

The youth gave a gentle shake of his head, exclaiming, "I have grown weary already! Physicians shouldn't place such undue pressure on their patients!" He then proceeded to recline himself in a petulant manner, much like a child.

Yosano can't help but chuckle. The boy's manner is very childlike despite his knowledge and intelligence. She decides to tease him further.

"Tsk, tsk. Are you really this weak to the task? What a shame. I suppose a bright kid like you should be capable of remembering such a simple task. Is your age showing?" She tries to goad the young lad into figuring out her last name.

"Aren't you supposed to be in a hurry for your meetings with that Dazai and Atsushi guy?" Rintarou attempted to defend himself as he reasoned, "You can't be wasting time like this. Also, don't forget that a patient requires sufficient rest!" he adds, gesturing towards himself to emphasize his point.

Rintarou's moping persona reverted back to one of dramatic sparkles as he disregarded everything the doctor mentioned except for his intelligence. "Of course, I am a genius, no need to reiterate it," the lad confidently proclaimed, displaying a self-satisfied grin.

Yosano is clearly enjoying this game of banter now. She loves it when he displays this over-confident, theatrical attitude. The doctor leans in closer to the boy and speaks in a calm tone, trying to act concerned when she is anything but. "It is a bit concerning how long you've been attempting to deduce my name. You do know it's impolite and immature to play the fool, correct? Perhaps you are not the intelligent young lad I initially perceived you to be after all?"

Yosano smirks at his response, completely undeterred by his words. She doesn't care about hurting his childish feelings.

"Oh, I most certainly can." She speaks in a mocking tone, "I just did. So yes, it is possible to declare that you are not a genius. If a boy such as you truly were a genius, he would have figured out my name by now."

Rintarou relented, stating, "Fine, your last name is Yosano and your first name is Akiko!" With a self-satisfied smirk plastered onto his face, he added, "I can even see it on your identification card," before feigning the act of removing an inessential layer of grime from his shoulders as if to symbolize his victory.

Yosano snickers at the boy's dramatic celebration of his victory. She laughs at the fact that he needed to resort to cheating to solve the mystery, unable to figure her name out on his own.

"Aww, you even cheated to figure it out. How pathetic. I thought a genius would be able to figure it out without resorting to such crude methods. I'm so disappointed with your display of weakness."

The child suddenly burst into melodramatic weeping, though his tears were fake, as he yelled, "I didn't cheat! Your identification was around your neck the entire time," he whined in a manner that was much more akin to a toddler throwing a tantrum than anything else.

Yosano bursts into laughter upon witnessing the child break down into a tantrum. Her expression is one of complete incredibility, as if she cannot believe how childish a young genius such as him could actually be so immature.

"Oh dear, I think I broke him. This child is much more pathetic than I thought. Tsk, I was expecting more from an alleged genius."

"No way," Rintarou exclaimed while still sulking, as if he was protesting against a false accusation.

"Oh yes way! I most certainly can call your intelligence into question. I believe in my professional opinion that you are a rather dim child who can't even understand basic humor. That would definitely imply that your intelligence has been lacking since an early age." Yosano smirks, trying to goad the child into an outburst again.

The youth puffed up in annoyance and attempted to appear as composed as possible, exclaiming, "I shall dismiss any remarks that you have issued my way as if I did not hear them. For I am a highly mature person who possesses no room for such juvenile insults," before sparkling with dramatic flair once more.

The doctor raises her brow at the child's remark, chuckling softly to herself. She decides to push him further and states in a teasing tone "Really now? Are you claiming to be a highly mature individual despite your obvious emotional outburst after my simple mockery? My dear, if my words are enough to push you to such an exaggerated tantrum... You are indeed very inferior."

"Nonsense," Rintarou exclaimed with his eyes squeezed shut as he attempted to exude an air of maturity, as if to emphasize that the accusation was absurd and had no impact on him whatsoever.

Yosano snickers in amusement, unable to hold back her giggles. This child truly is a unique and entertaining one. She cannot understand how a supposed genius is this immature, yet she finds him to be somewhat fascinating.

"You can't seriously expect me to believe you are mature just because you keep saying you are. I can clearly see you are extremely frustrated. Your tantrum is most definitely proof that you are immature, weak, and inferior."

The youth pouts once more, almost resembling a sodden feline and mutters, "I'm sorry," his words tinged with some remorse for his previous behavior as he tries to reconcile after his outburst.

Yosano smiles slightly at the sudden change in the child's attitude. He has become rather adorable now that he is sulking. It is funny how he has switched from trying to appear intelligent to displaying all his childlike characteristics. The doctor laughs at the irony of a genius being so immature.

"Oh, how adorable... Forgive you? Forgive you for behaving in such a childish manner? You really are quite amusing you know?" 

Despite his earlier antics, Rintarou makes an effort to stifle his impulse to deliver more sharp retorts, understanding that he had exceeded the boundaries of acceptable behavior in an environment that he had no business in, and therefore refrains from engaging in any further acts of insubordination.

Yosano is glad that the boy has realized the severity of his actions. She cannot deny that she was having fun teasing this kid, but she also doesn't want to be completely insensitive after all. The doctor softens her expression, addressing the boy in a kinder manner.

"Your apology is accepted. However, you should know that you are still quite a troublesome brat."

Rintarou falls into a state of silent contemplation as the doctor concludes her interaction with him and departs to address her fellow colleagues who had discovered him in the first place. The lad does not utter a sound but instead simply gives a slight nod of acknowledgment as he watches the medical professional depart.

Yosano watches the boy's response from a distance. She grins at the fact that her interactions with him have clearly left a lasting impression. The doctor is content with how the situation ended and decides to meet with the other members of the agency as originally planned. She exits the area, heading to Atsushi and Dazai's current location.

Once the doctor exited the young boy's line of sight, he wasted no time to return to his state of relaxation and immediately fell into a deep slumber, having finally expunged the residual energy that had accumulated from his earlier antics.

"I wanna go home..."

[selfaware-bungou-stray-dogs]

What if the reader acts like Nicole from Class 09? Like all the things that happened to her but g/n?

Okay, I got that idea after I start thinking over that request. I slightly changed it. I hope, you are okay with that, and I apologize in advance.

Masks we were forced to wear

Sort of! Self-Aware! Yosano Akiko x GN! Traumatized! Reader

Description: Your past still haunts you. You just want to escape.

Warning: English is my second language. AU - World of Tech-magical Progress. Film Industry Abuse (Reader are forced to be filmed, forced to act like Nicole) Mentions of heavy topics (drugs, shooting). Open finale.

You couldn't move. Medical restraints were keeping you in one place. Your body was shaking, you were sweating.

Wet cloth were put on your forehead. Through pain and foggy gaze, you see Yosano.

Doctor had bags under her eyes. She whispered.

"Don't worry, [Y/N], we will go through it together."

You breathe through your nostrils. It has only been two days, since your treatment started, and you already wanted to quit it. But, you knew, that they won't let you go back.

Because they cared. For some reason, they cared about someone, like you.

__________

This world was full of magic, technology and progress. Every aspect of everyday life and tied with hundreds of magitek gadgets.

Teleports, machines that make food out of water, holographic screens...

And Restarter... The "Holy Grail" of Entertainment Industry.

Years of research. Years of building. Years of magic power flowing into the mechanism.

And it was done.

Mechanism, that will scan a person, save information, and, after said person would put into Restarter's cabin, revert them to the state, described in saved information.

What kind of sick bastard thought, that this thing should be used to make films more realistic, instead of putting it into hospitals?

It all started small.

Real bruises and scratches, instead of makeup. Real tattoos.

It was only a matter of time, before they will go further.

__________

That TV Series supposed to be progressive. To show, how terrible schools can be. How terrible teachers can be. How terrible students can be.

And you were a mane star.

You had some similarities with the main caracter. Your families had a similar past, your older brother was a lazy man, who couldn't care less about anyone, besides himself, and you, while not as bad as the main, character, you could be a jerk sometimes.

Everything changed, when filming started.

Countless failed scenes. Days, spend in a studio.

Being chocked, shot, drugged...

And every day was ended in a cramped cabin of Restarter.

It could reverse your body injuries.

It could never reverse your mind.

___________

You hated everyone.

Your fellow actors, director, producer, operator, your mother, your brother, your father, fans of the series.

You hated, that you can't quit, that you were forced to go through borderline torture in studio, that you were forced to acts a sociopath before fans.

Because that's what people want to see. Because Restarter will undo the damage. Because you have no reason to complain, shut up, and bring your mother another paycheck...

You stopped care. If you had some sympathy in you, it was buried deep inside you by years of "industrial abuse".

You were forced to wear a mask. And, after all this year's, remains of it still clung to your face.

When you finally became eighteen, you took last paycheck, broke the contract and left the country.

__________

You avoid talking to people as much as you can.

You stopped watching anything, that have real-life actors. You stuck to animation and drawings.

The world was full of sick people. And you were the sickest among them.

__________

When BSD Cast appeared before you, you thought, that time, you get some strong painkillers. However, no hallucination can be warm and try to take away the bottle of pills from your hands.

Yosano can be surprisingly strong.

_________

Your head hurts. You just got a bunch of information dumped on you. You spoke up.

"You... You are mistaken... I am not a hero... I am not a good person... I... can't care about real people, including myself.... I... still care about you all.... But... I could stop..."

You looked up at them.

"You heard me ranting about my past, right? You knew what you will deal with... I can give you money, I still get royalties. But, please... Leave. Don't sink with me."

Everyone was quiet. Then Naomi spoke.

"Tea. You promised Kirako and I drink tea together. Are you... care about us enough to fulfill this one promise?"

You wanted to snarl at her, but get over it. You were hungry. You can keep yourself and have one tea party.

You slowly nodded and stand up.

"Fine. I will bring the cattle..."

You turn on your heels.

You made step forward kitchen.

Something sharp pricked your neck.

And world became black.

____________

🐾 And long month of treatment started. Yosano explained, that they can't just leave you in that state. They will cure you, made few visits to your “colleges”. And, after justice is served and you are healthy, they will leave.

🐾 For months, you were under constant watch. For months, you were getting news about your family, director, actors and everyone, who were involved, being exposed for various crimes.

Restarters were banned.

What you needed all this years ago finally happened.

And BSD Cast always were near.

Taking care of you, getting psychological help to you.

Trying to bring [Y/N], the real person back from the stink mess, called [Y/N], The Lead Actor, playing the role 24/7.

You finally felt emotions again.

_________

You opened your mouth, letting Naomi feed you another spoon of porridge. Yosano was checking the results of the blood test.

"Your test is showing better results, then the test from last week. It is good. Soon, you will be healthy."

You opened your mouth. Before Naomi could feed you again, you spoke.

"Just... Just leave me... Find a better person to stay with..."

Your voice was soft again. But, you knew, that you couldn't truly become how you were, before the filming.

Yosano raised an eyebrow.

"Do you really want it? Or did you change your mind?"

You didn't answer.

_______

It was over.

You got justice. Your health became better.

You were standing before BSD Cast, like a year and a half ago.

And you finally have an answer about the future.

Stay... Or leave....

You opened your mouth.

And tell them about your decision

_________

A/N: Reader's choice is up to you. Did they stay? Or did they leave?

[noose-lion]

Bsd Dead Apple Quick Analysis: The Ability Fog/Mist

Spoilers: light novels and movie

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Spark notes version: The Fog reflects how much control a person has over their ability.

I was just thinking, as I tend to do, about the different ways the abilities manifested in Dead Apple with the whole fog incident. Because in some cases we see a very uncanny copy of the the user, like with Kunikida, Yosano, and most of the Ada.

The Ada abilities all looked the same (where it counts). Possible side affect of Fukuzawa's ability?

Or in Mori's, Kyouka's, Auktugawa's, and Atsushi's case we had the visible representions of the ability themselves. Elise, the Tiger, Rashomon, and Demon Snow.

Does Elise appear older here or is that just me?

But in the case of Fyodor, we have an almost completely perfect sentient copy of him.

Interesting how the ability double is wearing Fyodor's usual clothing. Reflection of self?

I find this line, said by Fyodor, interesting.

"I am crime. I am punishment. Crime and punishment are close friends. Borders vanish. Rooms awaken. The incarnation of death, the master of the ability-consuming fog… Eat, howl, and make violence as your instinct desires. This is neither a loss of control nor a singularity."

I've always interpreted that as Fyodor being in such control over himself and in extension his ability, (Though this is conflicting, since it is unclear if Fyodor can turn his ability off and on. I have a theory for that too!) that not even the Fog could affect it. It's perfectly balanced, which he is deeply aware and understanding of, so the Fog has nothing to work with. He is not a slave to his instincts like other ability users.

I assume that a character's ability is a representation of themself, I'd even go as far as to argue that abilities are shaped by the person's life. (Kyouka is a great example of that, but I can go in deep detail with each and every character on this theory) In saying this, I argue that there is a direct link in having control of one's self and having control in one's ability.

All of that just to say, that Shibusawa's Fog, while it turns a person's ability on them, the ability will only be as aggressive in equal amounts to how much control is had over it.

Think about it like this:

Fyodor: Has as much control over his ability as possible (I have a good theory on this!) within the bonds of his ability. So the ability is non-aggressive (toward him) and is fairly sentient, and it appears to just be a copy of him.

Also note the placement of the gem. Not the better protected forehead, but rather the hand.

The Ada: Has fairly strong control of their abilities. Perhaps supported by Fukuzawa's ability. They all appear similarly non-human (maybe another side affect of Fukuzawa's ability) and all are highly aggressive.

Once more, the Ada abilities resemble this so strongly. It HAS to mean something.

Auktugawa, Atsushi, Kyouka: They have little to no control. Aktugawa arguably has the most control of his ability, seen when he uses it to fight. Both Kyouka and Atsushi rely on an outside force to control their abilities. This is reflected by how their abilities appear under the affects of the Fog. Rashomon appearing as a separate entity, but not the same as the actual ability. While Beast Beneath the Moonlight and Demon Snow both are just the abilities themselves.

Side note: Mori would also fit into this category. Curious.

Personally, I saw Rashomon as the most interesting outlier. What is going on here? The gem is not on the forehead nor does it resemble the original ability or it's user.

But here's the real kicker.

Dazai and Chuuya.

We see Dazai's ability separated from him, (when his heart rate is slowed enough for another ability to work on him, I argue that it was more of a will power thing in which I have a detailed explanation on No Longer Human, but that is neither here nor now). His ability takes no form, just a circular mass of power.

The variables for the Fog's effect on No Longer Human is hard to understand due to whole singularity thing we have going on. I've simplified it to the little rhombus/diamond shaped gem = the Fog in affect. We know that it takes the ability killing the user for it to be added to Shibusawa's collection.

Using the logic for the aforementioned abilities, Dazai has no control over his ability, and in extension no connection to himself.

Chuuya is the difficult one. We never see For The Tainted Sorrow separated from Chuuya, (thank you Dazai and your emergency face to crotch) though I did read somewhere that Chuuya's ability couldn't be separated anyway due to something or the other in Stormbringer.

But if we ignore that little tidbit for the sake of the theory. Chuuya was fighting (without his face in Dazai's lap thank you) in the Fog and was never affected by it. This leads me to believe that Chuuya is in complete control of his ability and in his understanding of and connection to himself.

Conclusion: The Fog brings out the affected person's ability in a reflection of the affected person's control over it and their understanding of self.

Which makes me want to take a deep dive into this...

Do with that what you will.

[frankenjoly]

Lacerated

fukumori + 42 | lacerated (shinedown) -have post break-up angst bcs there was no other scenario -as a heads up: mentions scarring in process from self-harm (which i took from one of @rashomune's ideas)

Turn on the lights, make me a porcelain doll

Whisper your secrets, can't get to the truth at all

No training was needed to notice the pair of eyes staring right at him as Fukuzawa moved around the kitchen; the girl hadn’t been exactly stealthy even, despite not having uttered a word yet. And, instead of inquiring quickly, he had chosen to give her some space first.

“Do you need anything, Yosano-kun? If the matter is hunger, no need to worry, dinner will be ready soon.”

“Thanks. But also…” She trailed off, clearly gathering the courage to at least anticipate what had brought her there so early. “There’s something I wanted to tell you.”

“Of course, what is it?” After checking nothing would start burning on the stove if he directed most of his attention somewhere else, Fukuzawa turned to face her and nodded in encouragement.

“I… well, I’m not exactly a fan of his, you know. But still, I’m sorry Mori-sensei and you broke up because of me.”

“Do not apologize, please.” He hadn’t been faring well, and that was anything but a secret between those walls, but still… “It was your case like it could have been anything else. So focus on your new life, will you?”

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“Those are healing well.” Elise commented, well aware of how there was absolutely no need.

“Undoubtedly.” Was Rintarô’s answer, as he finished putting new bandages back on with a calm demeanor who would fool a lot of people. Not her, though; she was basically wired to know.

The wounds she had referred to, the ones he had just finished tending to, had been caused by Rintarô’s own hand albeit not on purpose. After the fight at the hospital rooftop, Elise had gotten out of combat mode and found him gripping so hard at his own upper arms there were now three identical markings on each side, where nails had dug in.

She hadn’t asked, not because she couldn’t but because (again) there was no need to. Huh. So much for the guy who had talked about how having a heart didn’t win wars and all that jazz.

“You know you can weep again, right?” Elise was, still, somewhat asking now. “That, curse the guy in question…” She shrugged.

“Hm, seems your list can go on. Can’t it, Elise-chan? Because now I’m curious. Were you going to suggest I’d get a rebound next?”

“Eugh, no.” A fake gagging sound accompanied those words.

(Also on ao3.)

[kaurwreck]

do you have any general headcanons about bsd that you're fond of? sort of alternatively, any interesting tidbits about the irl authors to share? your blog has taught me a lot, maybe even a bit against my will 💀 irl authors were so funny ANYWAY ty so much for oversharing because i enjoy it a lot!!

I've been chewing on how to answer this because I have so many headcanons I'm so fond of, but it felt too self-indulgent to pour headcanons on you when I could offer facts as an alternative.

I post what I learn because it excites me, but also because I think it's wrong to have the resources I do without striving to share them. Since I haven't been writing fic like I used to, analyses and factual deep cuts are also all I have to offer the community in return for the joy this media brings me. It's not what everyone always wants, but it's the only other way I know how to engage.

That said, at least this time, I'm going to share several of my headcanons (some of which are theories) instead. But, so that I'm not completely wasting anyone's time, I'll also include one (1) Akutagawa fact at the end, if only because I think it's devastating 🧡

the Executives

Chuuya and Verlaine have a monthly standing appointment with each other to smoke and drink Bordeaux and wax poetic in French in Verlaine's depression hovel. It's a pretense for Verlaine to tell Chuuya about Rimbaud, and for Chuuya to listen and remember so that he can be the edifying stele Rimbaud's grave wasn't afforded.

It's also so they can vent, gush, and gossip.

Kouyou and Verlaine both want to dress Chuuya and bicker over it, especially ahead of formal events and special occasions. Chuuya and Verlaine are closer in taste, so Verlaine often prevails, but where Chuuya won't accept Verlaine's suggestions without inserting his own street urchin, delinquent flourishes, every so often he allows Kouyou to dress, accessorize, and accent him to her heart's desire (especially if she hasn't seen Kyouka in some time).

Chuuya does not, ever, listen to or humor Mori's wardrobe suggestions.

When the Executives convene for a meeting requiring conensus or a quorum, Mori places a maneki-neko in the seat reserved for Dazai as a proxy. (It used to be in Dazai's seat all of the time, but it was repeatedly vandalized, so now Mori otherwise stores it in his desk.)

Chuuya is a workaholic who's leisure is often occupied by engagement with interests relevant to his professional development; Kouyou maintains strict boundaries around her leisure time (namely spent on or to provide for Kyouka), and Mori is only not-working when he's spoiling Elise, although he usually works through that too.

As a result, Chuuya and Mori spend the most time together, and Chuuya is so used to co-working with Mori in Mori's office that he forgets it's not also his.

Chuuya maintains the Port Mafia's relationships with foreign syndicates, contacts, and illicit trading partners. This is for several reasons: he's a polyglot, and it furthers and maintains his other languages; Kouyou thinks it's good for him to practice diplomacy and negotiation; Mori is aware the organization prefers Chuuya as his heir and wants him well established with their business partners should Chuuya succeed him; Chuuya has friends in Europe he enjoys visiting when the role requires travel; and it deters malicious foreign interest in the Port of Yokohama since Chuuya reminds those who don't consider Japan a world power in the aftermath of the Great War that Yokohama is stewarded by a hot tempered guard dog who can control the most astronomically influential fundamental force theorized by physics.

Chuuya's half-mullet is a reference to both Verlaine's side ponytail and Kouyou's half-bangs.

Mori is asexual.

the Agency

The Agency office has a spare room that Fukuzawa has furnished and decorated to be a relaxing reprieve for mindful repose. The Zen room, colloquially. Dazai uses it to masturbate at work, Ranpo uses it as a spare pantry, Yosano has appropriately pointed out it should be a lactation room for accessibility and equity but uses it to read and write erotica when bored, Kunikida uses it for the nervous breakdowns he doesn't want the others to see (and to smoke), Kenji has never once needed it, Tanizaki and Naomi use it for unspeakable acts, Kyouka uses it for shikantaza as Fukuzawa intended, and Atsushi isn't aware it exists.

Atsushi isn't allowed to have prolonged screen time because Kunikida thinks he's too impressionable, which is why Kunikida won't let him have a smartphone or a tablet. He's going to be very annoyed when he learns that Ango allowed Atsushi to use his tablet unsupervised during the Hunting Dogs arc.

Atsushi doesn't know about bills, pensions, or investment portfolios because Kunikida is maintaining his for him without him noticing. (Kunikida intends to teach him about each and transition small responsibilities, but only once Atsushi turns 20.)

Kunikida also maintains Dazai's, or at least he tries. Dazai keeps finding the accounts and draining them on sake, gambling, elaborate attempts to tease others, and impulse purchases.

I do not think Dazai has any savings from the Port Mafia; I think he spent what he had during the two years he was in hiding, and that he's never been capable of resisting ridiculous purchases for elaborate machinations. Like, he once paid a man who took the same train as Kunikida every day to stand near Kunikida and sneeze without covering his mouth at the exact same time every day for almost a year. Then, on a day when Kunikida had several important meetings, Dazai asked the man to sneeze 37 seconds later than usual. It ruined Kunikida's entire day; he had to take paid time off to recover from the aftermath.

Yosano treats Kunikida like a little brother and nurtures and chides him. She doesn't baby him, though, because he responds best when he has high expectations to meet and because he externalizes his frustration in a way she genuinely doesn't have the patience to tolerate. This is to his benefit; it humbles him and keeps him from becoming too condemnatory and punitive.

Dazai and Yosano slept together when he first joined the Agency. They haven't since, but they have a mutual understanding that she can and does use (i) his self-flagellating, psychosexual attraction to her and (ii) his habit of objectifying competent, compassionate women as victims of his attraction to manipulate him for his self improvement and her sometimes sexual gratification. He's usually fine with it; she doesn't when he isn't.

They're also aware that they sometimes remind the other of Mori (well before they became aware of each other's pasts with him) so they maintain a level of emotional and physical distance to protect themselves and each other. Mostly, this distance is pre-calculated and mutually respectful. But sometimes it's not; sometimes, it's punitive and petty.

Yosano and Dazai have never explicitly negotiated any of the above, nor have they ever needed to. This is another way in which they remind each other of Mori, and so their synchronity ensures their distance.

Atsushi thinks Kyouka is under his care, but Kyouka and the rest of the Agency know that he's under hers.

Tanizaki's feigned harmlessness is to deflect attention and scrutiny, but it's also part of his 24/7 BDSM relationship with Naomi.

Dazai is the only stray cat Fukuzawa knows better than to smother, which is why Dazai may wander but will always slink his way home.

Atsushi's selectively acute perceptiveness into the hearts of others renders Dazai unusually vulnerable and bare in such a way that Dazai covets. But it's also why Dazai frets enough about Atsushi's perception of him that he changed clothes before seeking him out and tried to explain himself at the end of Dead Apple. That Atsushi didn't need him to is why Dazai wanted to; Atsushi engenders a drive in others to meet his faith in them energetically and with sincerity. He has no idea that he has this impact on others; which is why Lucy and Akutagawa also want to drown him.

There are enough spare dorms that Kyouka and Atsushi don't need to share; Fukuzawa, Ranpo, Yosano, Kunikida, and Dazai just all agreed that Atsushi and Kyouka would be happier and do better if maintained as a pair. And Dazai thought it would be funny to lie.

etc., Etc.

Kouyou speaks, acts, and dresses like an oiran in reference to irl!Kyouka's favorite and most consistent character archetype. Non-coincidentally, irl!Kyouka's preference for writing seductive, powerful, maternal, victimized, narratively damned women characters was Oedipal in nature.

Dazai's skill, like Kyouka's, was transferred to him, which is why he's incapable of controlling it as effectively as other touch-based skill users like Hirotsu and Chuuya control theirs. Dazai's skill was transferred to him by Natsume and is a fragment of Natsume's own skill (his nine lives, so to speak).

Skills are shaped by and manifest in response to their users' intense and often unmet or insecure needs and desires. Much like any coping mechanism, they're constructs as deeply ingrained as personalities once formed.

Kyouka and Dazai's limited control over their abilities is a psychological barrier rather than a matter of in-universe physics.

Atsushi is the white tiger, Akutagawa is the azure dragon, Dazai is the black tortoise, and Chuuya is the vermillion bird. They're the four symbols, and they embody four of the five phases (while grappling with the fifth).

Natsume brought Dazai to Mori, and followed Dazai to Fukuzawa.

Ango, Kunikida, and Chuuya have a group chat to coordinate the keeping and care of Dazai, but Ango is habitually kicked and then begrudgingly allowed back in.

Agatha Christie directs the Order of the Clock Tower from where she's imprisoned in the Elizabeth Tower (nèe the Clock Tower, misnomer Big Ben). This is less a headcanon and more a substantiated theory— if you notice, the room Agatha Christie is always depicted as being inside in the manga has wood panels that are reminiscent of the oak paneled walls of the irl prison room in the irl Elizabeth Tower. The anime iteration more generally references elements of the Elizabeth Tower's Gothic Revival design in the room's symmetrical and ornate carved details, decorative moldings, arches, tracery, vaulted ceiling, heavy and curved and elaborately patterned furniture, etc., etc. Her skill being called And Then There Were None and her cold, calculating, sadistic personality also suggest she takes after Judge Wargrave, who was both the righteous condemner and among the righteously condemned.

As for your irl fact: Akutagawa Ryuunosuke's children did not call him dad; they called him Ryu-chan.

[seitosokusha]

In the dazai is a wildcard au which are his social links?

THAT IS AN EXCELLENT QUESTION!

I didn't do everyone, but here's a couple that I pieced together. Also I know Tarots are open to interpretation and I used a couple websites mixed together.

So Dazai himself is the Fool. -waves- it might be shown as his relationship with ADA (as a group) is what would have caused it to level up. His time in PM was a reversed Fool who finally uprights himself to become who he is today. I think his relationship with ADA, as it continues and grows (and he comes to trust them, but we're still a bit far off from that) and tries to become a better person, his own little journey.

Kunikida is the Magician.

He's mostly upright. Like look at that creation meaning! That's basically his ability in a nutshell. He sometimes falls into reverse, but that's usually not his fault -cough cough dazai's pranks cough cough-

Atsushi is Strength.

Our tiger boy is probably one that is constantly in Reverse, learning to become upright. But also his connection to Dazai is what fosters him turning upright.

Mori is probably The Emperor.

It just fits him. Just... that's everything about his relationship to Dazai in a nutshell. The authority figure, the tyranny. It works out.

On the other side. I think Fukuzawa makes a great Hierophant. I think he freely swings between Upright and reversed. He's normally upright, but he seems to instinctively understand when to challenge the status quo.

I think Dazai learns a lot from that. There's comfort in routine, in tradition. But sometimes going against the grain is good too.

Chuuya is The Lovers.

(That's not an skk joke, but like, that's amusing). But it describes Dazai and Chuuya's partnership best. It was Upright when they were together in PM, it's currently in Reverse. (It's the only relationship Dazai currently has that's constantly, consistently appears to be in Reverse. He doesn't really know how to fix that. I'm not even sure he knows it's in Reverse.)

Ranpo is The Judgement.

I'm not entirely convinced on this choice. But my typical hc for Ranpo and Dazai's relationship is that Ranpo usually causes some awakening/reflection in Dazai. Ranpo cares too much about his cute kohais to let them wander around lost for too long. And as smart as Dazai is, sometimes, he's just dumb.

Ranpo, like Fukuzawa, (in fact I would say he learned it from Fukuzawa) can freely swing from upright to reversed. A lot of this materializes as like "lack of self awareness" aka his whole "i don't know how to use trains"/"i need glasses to use my ability"/"OF COURSE I have an ability"

Odasaku is The Hang Man

Just... look at the meaning. That's the Dark Era right there.

Yosano could be either Star or Death. Death would be deeply ironic, but I like the transformation aspect in association with Yosano's butterflies. But the hope from Star is really nice touch too, as someone who had been in a similar position as Dazai under Mori and found her way out of the dark.

Here's where I started running out of energy xD I had a couple other ideas. Someone recommended Ango as Hermit. I thought Kenji might be a good Chariot (now that we know more about his ability). IDK what they are, but Kouyou and Akutagawa would also be social links. Probably also Fyodor too. Tanizaki and Kyouka to also finish off ADA.

[ao3feed-fyozai]

A falling façade.

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by saavni

Osamu Dazai was a façade. An appearance that he never abandoned in public. Since childhood, great despair had overtaken the boy. Throughout the years of anguish, Dazai has attempted suicide on numerous occasions. All to no avail. In the end, he has forever remained in this hell. But now more than ever, his mask is cracking, falling. Humour can't overcome his depression any longer. Worse, his colleagues are noticing, and the news is spreading. Some of his co-workers are trying to assist. Unfortunately, even his enemies are made aware of this. Dazai is in danger, yet he remains oblivious.

Words: 2899, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death

Categories: M/M

Characters: Dazai Osamu (Bungou Stray Dogs), Kunikida Doppo (Bungou Stray Dogs), Oda Sakunosuke (Bungou Stray Dogs), Fyodor Dostoyevsky (Bungou Stray Dogs), Nakahara Chuuya (Bungou Stray Dogs), Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs), Akutagawa Ryuunosuke (Bungou Stray Dogs), Edogawa Ranpo (Bungou Stray Dogs), Sigma (Bungou Stray Dogs), Edgar Allan Poe (Bungou Stray Dogs), Mori Ougai (Bungou Stray Dogs), Tayama Katai (Bungou Stray Dogs), Miyazawa Kenji (Bungou Stray Dogs), Tachihara Michizou (Bungou Stray Dogs), Tanizaki Junichirou (Bungou Stray Dogs)

Relationships: Dazai Osamu/Nakahara Chuuya (Bungou Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu/Kunikida Doppo (Bungou Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu/Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu/Edogawa Ranpo (Bungou Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu & Oda Sakunosuke (Bungou Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu/Fyodor Dostoyevsky (Bungou Stray Dogs), Edogawa Ranpo/Edgar Allan Poe (Bungou Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu/Sigma (Bungou Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu & Mori Ougai (Bungou Stray Dogs), Edogawa Ranpo & Yosano Akiko (Bungou Stray Dogs), Jouno Saigiku/Tachihara Michizou (Bungou Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu/Nikolai Gogol (Bungou Stray Dogs)

Additional Tags: Dazai-Typical Suicide Mentions (Bungou Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu is a Mess (Bungou Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu Needs a Hug (Bungou Stray Dogs), Depressed Dazai Osamu (Bungou Stray Dogs), Bottom Dazai Osamu (Bungou Stray Dogs), Top Nakahara Chuuya (Bungou Stray Dogs), Top Kunikida Doppo (Bungou Stray Dogs), Top Fyodor Dostoyevsky (Bungou Stray Dogs), Top Jouno Saigiku (Bungou Stray Dogs), Top Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu Not Being an Asshole (Bungou Stray Dogs), Oblivious Dazai Osamu (Bungou Stray Dogs), Self-Harm, Self-Esteem Issues, Suicide Attempt, Vulnerability, Heavy Angst, Dialogue Heavy, Inner Dialogue, Multiple Pairings, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Childhood Trauma, I'm Bad At Tagging, Platonic Female/Male Relationships, Romantic Angst, First Kiss, Unrequited Crush, Love Triangles, Love/Hate, Love at First Sight, Enemies to Lovers, One-Sided Dazai Osamu/Oda Sakunosuke (Bungou Stray Dogs), One-Sided Dazai Osamu/Nakahara Chuuya (Bungou Stray Dogs), One-Sided Akutagawa Ryuunosuke/Dazai Osamu (Bungou Stray Dogs), One-Sided Dazai Osamu/Fyodor Dostoyevsky (Bungou Stray Dogs), One-Sided Dazai Osamu/Kunikida Doppo (Bungou Stray Dogs), Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, My First Fanfic, First Dates, Everyone Is Gay, Jealous Nakahara Chuuya (Bungou Stray Dogs), Jealous Akutagawa Ryuunosuke (Bungou Stray Dogs), Jealous Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs), Protective Nakahara Chuuya (Bungou Stray Dogs), Protective Akutagawa Ryuunosuke (Bungou Stray Dogs)

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