#THANK YOU FOR THE BEST ASK EVER

[q29v]

*hands you a megaphone* favorite alkaloid hcs go

SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT BUT I NEEDED TO COLLECT MY THOUGHTS.

ok so i'm a HUGE fan of the alkaloid dorm. like i miss that era so so bad so let me start with this headcanon. that dorm was probably so chaotic like could you imagine. you have hiiro who probably snores like a beast and wakes up at 5am, aira who probably goes to sleep at 4am and wakes up at 12pm, mayoi who sleeps like once a week due to insomnia and tatsumi who..... honestly i feel like his sleep schedule is pretty normal actually. they totally eat breakfasts and dinners like actual families too like look me in the eyes and tell me it's not true. i feel like tatsumi is the one who makes most (and the best) breakfasts, but others often help him too! especially hiiro since he wakes up pretty early.

another hc it's pretty basic and do forgive me for that but GOOD GODDDDD FLOWER SHOP OWNERS TATSUMAYO. i know i know but i need domestic ttmy even more than i need to breathe okay

AIRA LOOOOOVES PLAYING WITH MAYO'S HAIR he loves braiding it and stuff!!!!! and i understand him so well mayo's hair looks so so so nice ...................... love it so much

they're all autistic btw. and more precisely mayo is selectively mute (projecting on my faaaveeeessss :333), aira's basically that one kid in your class who's TOTALLY autistic but no one cares enough to get him diagnosed, hiiro has alexithymia and tatsumi's veeery good at masking

I DON'T WANNA MAKE THIS POST TOO LONG SO I'LL MAKE A PART 2 IN THE FUTURE THANK YOU

[inkskinned]

so while i was writing the book, i became violently suicidal.

this was mostly due to the fact that i had a very bad reaction to some meds and my brain stopped producing any serotonin. also i was in the last semester of grad school where it's actually illegal to feel anything but dread. so it wasn't going well.

somewhere in the fog of it i became aware i needed help. nobody was taking clients or my insurance. i didn't want to do inpatient care - it wasn't right for my needs. there's not really an "in between" stage between "inpatient" and "no care," but i was trying to do the right thing. i was trying to activate the chain of command that was my emergency plan. i knew i needed help now.

i used betterhelp.

i know, i know. i'm a straight-A student and so smart and so clever, how could i ever use something so blatantly bad. to be honest with you, i didn't feel particularly keen on it from the getgo - things that seem too good to be true usually are. also, if something online is free, the price is usually your privacy.

the thing is that there was kind of a global pandemic happening at the time and i worked 5 jobs alongside of being a fulltime student and also like writing a book on the side. it is a miracle that i even thought about getting help. i would love to tell you i had the mental wherewithal to like, process whether this was the right choice for me. mostly i was desperate. i was so suicidal that i was trying to find a reason to stay inside of fortune cookies. i was the kind of suicidal that looks like splatterpaint. i hadn't been that bad in an entire decade.

they took my data. i gave them it freely. somewhere out there, they have a dossier on me. on everything i survived. my story in little datapoints, scattergraphed beautifully.

the first woman told me that really i should be grateful, because (and this is a direct quote): "at least you're not anne frank." i said that i felt that statement was antisemitic, as anne frank's life and experience shouldn't be compared to like, a nonbinary lesbian in western massachusetts. the therapist said that i should try to use lucid dreaming to try to picture myself in an actually scary situation, like running from nazis.

i applied for another therapist. i was willing to accept the possibility that there was a bad apple in the bunch. the next therapist and i even laughed about how inappropriate that statement was. and then, in our next session: the new therapist said if i was struggling with body image issues, i should just work harder on my appearance. she spent 3 sessions in a row talking about how she was grieving, and made me memorize facts about her grandmother so "she can live on through my clients."

i am a three's-a-charm kind of person. okay, so what if the last person made me uncomfortable. i figured it was just a misunderstanding of priorities - she had felt she was sharing with me, i had felt like i had to take care of her. i applied for another therapist.

the last woman asked me to help her pray. she bowed her head. i stared at her, frozen, while she said: lord, i beg you: cure her. take the pain of being gay away from her.

i spent somewhere between 2.5 and 3 months on betterhelp. in that whole time, i was not getting the professional help i so desperately needed, even though i was fucking trying.

in the end, i survived this because i finally could get off the meds that were literally killing me. a request for a real therapist finally went through. i survived because my friends saved my life. because nick let me sob myself dry in his arms. because maddie took the razors out of my room when i asked them to. because grace slept over in my bed for like 3 weeks in a row since nobody trusted me not to hurt myself when i was alone. i survived because i got fucking lucky. because even when i was desperately suicidal, i was too old and too self-aware to take "you need to be prettier" as good advice.

the thing is that there's a 19 year old me who isn't like that. who would have heard "just think about how grateful you should be" and said - oh, i see. i would have assumed that is what it means to be in therapy: the same thing my abusers used to tell me. that i am just pretending and lazy. that i am ugly and unworthy.

betterhelp positioned itself to take advantage of an incredibly vulnerable community. it preys on desperation. it knows it is serving people who are not doing well mentally. it saw that there is a huge need for real, immediate, compassionate mental health care: and then it fucking takes your money and privacy.

i still get their ads on instagram. last night i watched as a woman in a pool pretends to talk to a different woman. they discuss her anxiety.

there's a 19 year old version of me, and she didn't survive this. she was too tired, and drowning. i almost fucking died. this thing almost fucking killed me.

in the ad, the woman playing the therapist takes a note on a clipboard and then nods once, sagely.

i have to admit it's a pretty scene. the steam and light coming off the pool water lands on the actresses. like this, it almost looks baptismal, holy.

[amelieofgreengables]

the Dread Captain Laudna of the Queen De Rolo (Boaty) (with first mate Ropey)

[stealingpotatoes]

I DON'T THINK LUKE EVER KNEW OF MAUL SO IMAGINE MAUL SHOWING UP AND HOWLING WHEN THERE'S A SKYWALKER CROCH GOBLIN AND LUKE'S LIKE wait who is this guy you know him?

luke is literally the worst combination maul could ever encounter. he can't be even SLIGHTLY swayed by the dark side, his fighting style never makes sense, he's anakin's son (n therefore an eldritch force entity), and most importantly: he was kenoOOOBIIIIIIIII's padawan.

maul would genuinely have some kind of aneurysm at meeting luke

[yooo-lets-go]

your art brings me genuine fucking joy, like i come back and look at it repeatedly. especially that napping Roach art okay i love him, he's chronically underappreciated it feels like & all i wanna do is drape a warm blanket over the sleepy lil bug and give him a hot cocoa when he wakes up, bc he deserves it :')

thoughts kinda got away from me there but the point still stands: YOUR ART VERY GOOD, 11/10 MAY ALL YOUR ART PROGRAMS COOPERATE AND NEVER CRASH

Thank you guys!

Enjoy the Roach 💕

[gremnda]

do you have a s8 pearl design? i love the ones you’ve made for her s9 and s10!

AAAAHHHH YOU ARE SO KIND THANK YOU SO MUCHH ;A;; <3 i really love drawing Pearl hrhfgrhfghrf thank you for this request, it made my whole day so much better hahah

but yes!! season 8 pearl, i did draw her once with keralis and once with boatem but i never did make a ”design” post so here it is :D moth pearl!!! i really want to add some evo/eye motifs to the design in the future for the lore effect but for now her design is full of moons lolol

[pierog]

Hey! I have to ask because you seem like a good resource, I have never had a PIEROGI before, and want to know if you have any good recipes for them?

PIEROGI RECIPE from my babcia

ingredients: 10 medium sized potatoes 250g curd cheese, or a mix of ricotta and cream cheese 1 large onion salt and pepper sour cream, butter, & bacon to serve

and, for the dough: 4 cups white plain flour approx 1 cup of water tablespoon of olive oil (or you can buy round dumpling sheets from asian supermarket if lazy)

TO MAKE

peel, cut and boil potates until cooked

chop your onion finely and caramelise it in a bit of oil.. don't let em burn or they'll taste bitter

mash your potates and cheese. add the onion, salt and pepper, and mix very well. cover with glad wrap and set aside

in a mixing bowl add your flour and salt to taste. start adding the water or oil until you have a dough you can roll out very thinly

put a large pot full of water to boil, add one tsp of salt & a glug of cooking oil to stop the sticking

knead your dough a few times til it becomes elastic and easy to work with

lightly flour your work surface and, with a rolling pin, roll the dough as thin as possible, like 1-2mm. the thinner you can do this the yummier the final result, but work within your comfort zone, as you don't want the pierogi to split when boiling

use a glass to cut circles out of the dough

placing the circle of dough in the palm of your hand, stretch slightly and add a heaped teaspoon or more of the potato/cheese mixture. yummy!

stretch the dough around the mixture to seal into a dumpling, and place them on a floured plate

when you're ready, boil your pierogi about 5 or 6 at a time, making sure they don't stick to each other or the pan. boil til they float to the surface.

pull them out with a slotted spoon and lay them on a draining board to cool congrats! you have make delicious pierogi ruskie. you can eat them straight away, but i loooove to fry them all crispy in oil and butter... i hope this brings you so much love and dumpling

[fanfic-gremlin-ft-trauma]

A (slightly angsty) domestic zukka hc I’ve been thinking abt a lot: I think Zuko would have a sort of knee-jerk flinching reaction when anybody touches his scar (with katara he looks like he’s bracing himself and with mai his whole upper body is sort of being held in place by her) (which i definitely think mai did on purpose to make him feel more comfortable but anyways) I think Sokka would after the first time figure out Zuko flinches hard even when he sees it coming and he’s The Plan Guy so I think he would secretly experiment and find out Zuko doesn’t flinch when sokka drags his hand from a different part of him (like his hair) onto his face. So he just starts doing that and it takes Zuko a stupid long amount of time to realize “hey Sokka touches my face a lot and it doesn’t suck. I wonder why🤨” until one day he figures it out like Sokka you sneaky shit you were nice to me and I didn’t notice

Bc the whole “zuko lets Sokka touch his scar bc he trusts him and he’s super normal abt it” is nice but it doesn’t feel realistic? You can trust someone a whole lot and still have instinctive trauma reactions. I think it’s much sweeter if Sokka notices and figures out a way to make it better without being asked.

Oh….. I’m….. this is a nice one 👍🏼

[baysaurus]

ISAAC HENDERSON 🫶🫶🫶🫶

that's it that the post. literally nothing else to add.

[accirax]

Could you please draw Ally and Tess sitting on Hunter's shoulders like he's their personal steed?

[slytherinslut0]

your writing is so cringe

there are better authors than you lmfao

[iamespecter]

Your human Kinger (Caesar) is awesome and I want to take him on a lovely dinner outing to Chuck E Cheese where I teach him how to game the skeeball machines before heading home and getting ready for bed at the early hour of 8:30 pm where I help him comb out the tangles in his hair knowing they'll be there the next day anyways, and also make out with him sloppy style or something at some point in all that. Your art style owns btw and I'm liking the fic the art is companion for so far, keep it up 🔥🔥

You're gonna have to excuse him, he's still not exactly feeling 100%

[yume-fanfare]

You gotta be careful with rival stuff tbh. One day you go like "Oh I'm gonna defeat you and show you who is better!!" and the next you realize you want to grow old to see your "rival" live a long and happy life that he always deserved

this is what happened in the ss finals i think i still havent read the story

[stealingpotatoes]

Once the padawans of the New Jedi Order grow up, do you think they’ll start getting bounties of their own? And just add to the wall of Wanted Posters back at the temple. Sort of a right of passage, your not a full knight till someone somewhere would pay to have you killed or captured.

LMAO HOLY SHIT YES. the masters are all trying to discourage this but YOU try stopping a horde of jedi children from being gay and doing crime

[birrdify]

this is soooooooo totally not the actual writer but there's this oooooooone fic called Sever the Ties that me, this totally nameless anon SOOO didn't write, it's kinda like, emotional as all hell but also kinda gay. That writer also who totally isn't me is also planning a less 34 focused sequel to it since they liked writing it so much it's just taking a while. The plans do exist tho and a bit of the beginning

HOLDON WHAT???? HELLOOO????? OH MY GDO NICC IM SO SORRY I JSUT FOUND THIS??? HELPLP I TOOK A DOUBLE TAKE AFTER READING "SEVER THE TIES" cause i went oh my god! thats the fic i read! and OH MY GOD!! THATS THE FIC I READ!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fic HERE and thsi is nicc: (since i dont think anon asks give notifs) @34saveme34 (IF YOU DONT MIND ME TAGGING YOU MY BAD

[ijzermansdriesen]

-e. e. cummings.

Happy Birthday Ally ♡ @if-music-be-the-food-of-love