#U are just selfish and its not a big deal.

[theparadoxart]

fucked up parents and their fucked up parenting

[pushingdaisies1]

Its never too late baby . . . ♡

(✧ ˚.) PAIRING-> James "Logan" Howlett {A.K.A} Wolverine x Mutant Reader >_<

(✧ ˚.) SUMMARY -> You were always someone who utilized your strengths. Physical and mental, you were a jack of all trades. You were a true hero to the students you taught within the school. Amongst the other X-men, you would always be one of them. But you had this little tick, that always annoyed Logan no doubt. You were a secretive person, too secretive for even his "standards." For others, you were a pillar of nurture and guidance. He saw your well-meaning nature from miles away. It was almost sickening to him how you would stretch your capabilities out to no end. He would never deny that he could be selfish. Sometimes it's more worth it to save your spine, than risk it for someone else. Though with the problems being thrown the team's way as of recent, he always saw you spinning your wheels. You wouldn't reason with him even when he of all people would lend you a shoulder to cry on. Even the students at the school could see it. With their childish snickers and big-eyed looks at your comfortable banter with Mr. Howlett whenever he helped with class. You were in love with the Wolverine. Again, out of all the Canadians - him? It wasn't something like a schoolgirl crush. It was an infatuation sort of deal. You burned for him mind body and soul. You would pretty much follow this scoundrel to the ends of the earth, even the end of your life if prompted. Which causes something to break between you two after you risk your livelihood for your family. The people that made up your heart, including Logan.

(✧ ˚.) AUTHORS NOTE -> hi party people!! I saw so much of the sweet reception for my first ever logan piece , so tysm!! Genuinely from the bottom of my heart the love means so much. As I’m currently going through my x-men marathon time if you will , I’ve had this idea brewing for a while. Thankfully the resurgence of logan content has given me the push needed to formulate this yk! This isn’t a part two to my previous logan post. That will be coming very shortly, but this is its own thing. Timeline wise... erm.... idrk a good place to put this SIGH. I'm thinking like in between x2 and the last stand. also one last final note , the title I took from Chemtrails over the country club. specifically the one lyric - "it's never too late baby so don't give up." felt like an appropriate whimsy title, nd I have been hearing that song everywhere lolz. Anyways, toodles!!! ᐢᗜᐢ (✧ ˚.) CWS (?) -> Descriptions of blood and graphic injury , they/them pronouns for reader !! , mentions of major character deal , Logan cares too much ... which could mean nothing , ur comatose for like the good first chunk of this , Jean and u have LORE!!!!! (not rlly but u and her have backstory beefers/her "passing" affect reader 100%) , mourning/grief, And that's on having no healing powers!! Buh-dun-csh!!

Your fall from grace was quick on the battlefield. This was supposed to just be any regular mission. You were using it as a way to clear your head after all. But you took a leap too far and now here you were, plummeting. The issue at hand was apprehended, sure. But you didn't leave the fight unscathed. Your vision grew too spotty for you to even make out your surroundings. Your hearing too even started to fog. Looking down, somehow or some way a large-sized piece of shrapnel metal had made it into your torso. Right in the sweet spot that was not in the lungs. Your legs began to wobble, losing your footing slowly but surely. You didn't realize your body was falling to the ground. The warm feeling rushing through you was the blood exiting from your hefty wound. It was ironic the last thing your eyes met before collapsing. Logan turned back around immediately once he noticed you weren't clamoring to the jet. His heart sunk to his stomach as he immediately sprung over to you. By the time your head had smacked against the ground, you went out. Your fingertips began to buzz, your fatigue lifting all of a sudden. All of the hurt and weight on your shoulders lifted? You felt freer than before, with a piece of debree stuck inside of your body no more. Even if some people regarded mutants as the next step in human evolution, a majority were still stuck with fleshy bodies. If only you were made out of steel. In this momentary unconsciousness, you thought about everything that went wrong. Your existence as a whole, joining the school. Moving up from student to teacher at Professor Xavier's school, like Scott and Ororo you were one of the first. Regarded as maybe one of the most useful of the bunch. No one could ever compete with Storm, the literal incarnate of a goddess. You thought of her as your eyes closed, embraced with the warm memories of your early days within the school.

The professor was never one to play favorites among his students. But when he searched you out and arrived with a less conniving Magneto at your door, it was clear you were special to him and his cause. From that day forward you were seen as a pillar of hope to a lot of the students. To some, you were like a mother, to others a guardian who would save them no matter the risk. To Logan Howlett - "The Wolverine", you were a coward. A coward that he admired. A coward he respected due to the ways you handled... stress in the simplest of terms. From the day he met you, he wandered around the halls of the mansion bewildered and confused. Something about you stuck out. He would've done something with this urge sooner if his eyes weren't honed in on another.

From day one you were not surprised how fast he fell and yearned for Jean. The woman you saw as your confidant, your best friend, she was magnificent. Smart and poised all in one with a strong set of mutant abilities. She was on the same power level as the professor, which made sense for their connection.

For living in Jean's shadow, you didn’t hate it. You were her right-hand man. Your balance was comforting, she was like your sister. The professor in small quiet moments of honesty to you liked to compare you to him and Magnus. When times were simpler they weren’t at opposing ends of the mutant kind spectrum. Yours and Jean's dynamic made you feel at ease with yourself. How could you worry? Your identity became a part of hers a long time ago. Logan saw more to that with you. Sure you could nag a lot of the time, and you always barked up his tree whenever he found ways to smoke on school grounds. But you just had this pull for him. He'd always find his way to see you first whenever entering a room. His brash and gritty attitude always got all mushy around you. He over time grew a lot more fond of the smallest details when it came to you. He was an amnesiac, his past only bits and pieces. But you made him feel grounded. You cherished his growth in ways no one else had. You were the reason why he was so drawn to the "now" of life. He needed that in times like this. He couldn't keep up for long after the realization that Jean was gone finally sunk in. Drowning at his one-sided attraction, the longing that he could've done more, you pulled him right out from that rut. Thank god that the two of you combined had horrible sleep schedules. His nightmares still stirred while you were suddenly afflicted with these with the memories of being on that jet when it wouldn't take off. That same pain rocketed through you every night as you were haunted by the sight of Jean finally swept into the oncoming flood. The feeling of grief ricocheted throughout the entire school. But you found your way to stay afloat. It was Logan, which you never thought of yourself admitting. But truth be told it was him. He was the most anchoring thing around you. Ororo distanced herself for the first month, while Scott cracked under the pressure of grief. Late nights dashing around the campus halls to the kitchen, out to the court where you two just talked. You had never seen him talk so much until you two became each other's support. It made you feel better seeing him smile more. Especially when it was at you. Again, you would never utter that truth EVER. At least that's what you thought. But his smile was a nice reminder of all of the light he held inside of him. As much as he despised ... everything, he was still so nurturing in his own ways. Nightmares were an excuse for him to be next to you. Nightmares were his excuse to hold you tight to his chest. The pain of loss was a collective "excuse" between the two of you to just .. be close.

Soon though, this ideal predicament between you both started to crack. Because even though she was dead, you still knew you would always be inferior. It may be all in your head but the hate kept you driven. It kept you driven but also mad. Small things would set you off soon enough. You knew deep down whenever he'd look into your eyes, it was a nice reminder of Jean. Even with how much he denied it when you came to him in tears, your bitter pain and grief clouded your judgment.

Logan saw that even with his help you were still hurting. He didn't want to get involved in it entirely as some of it was your own demon. But he saw how bad your spiraling was and still wouldn't accept his help. Not even from Ororo or Scott, not even the professor. Neither of you would admit who started the argument. It was late, and you were tired from pushing yourself to grade papers. Logan couldn't sleep and wandered his way to your classroom of course. The conversation was fine until he mentioned the problem. Your problem which you didn't want to deal with right now. As you were only running on a few hours of sleep. But even with Logan's usual "take and give no fucks" attitude, he knew he needed to push. You were slowly shutting yourself off this time, and he didn't expect himself to be a part of that mix. It was all a misunderstanding, but the two of you were angry and fire was thrown.

Your shared feelings were complicated. This whole ordeal with him brought out the "worst parts" of your love for him. He too was dealing with his internal dilemma. How could he move on from Jean and you were still latched onto the idea of her? It was a stupid question that was brought up in a Logan way, which of course caused the spat to escalate. His poor mistake was what he shouted. Already with the fear of waking one or even all of the students, you hated what he even dared to utter. "We're friends, you need to calm down about this whole obsession thing bub!" Originally you were thinking of just heading to bed. You were too tired to continue on with this constant bickering. But that's when you exploded on him. You regretted every last word you said to his face. Because it was you speaking your honest truth. About what you felt for him, about your hurt and your pain. How Jean was practically your lifeline. Losing her was like losing a piece of yourself. Especially since you rubbed it in about the kiss he and her shared. That you had seen and that made you sick to your stomach. A couple hours later she was dead. Your heightened emotions make you feel almost dizzy. The more you talked the more you realized his expressions distinct shift. As he was reaching out for you, you immediately swatted his arm askew. He didn't realize he hated to see you cry as much as he did until now. With broken sobs, you ran out of your classroom. The papers once stacked neatly were now laid messily all over your desk. You made sure to keep quiet. What broke your heart even more was a half-awake Rogue you ran into. She looked even more awake seeing your distraught state. Her feet tip-toed against the wooden floors of the hall before she looked at you. A big reason you and Logan were so close too, was because of Rogue. She was a good kid, he always rubbed off on her. He told you everything about how he and Rogue met. You were so enamored hearing him recount even the foggiest of memories. It could even be arguments with Scott he had, you'd just sit there with wide eyes as you listened. His word became your gospel. It warmed you to your core hearing him almost sound like a dad. He had looked out for her from the beginning. You always tried to do the same even when he left for Alklai Lake for answers.

It was so silly when she had practically pushed you and Logan to talk. She was just a kid and you two took up the almost suto role of her protectors. Friend or parent, she too found two trusted people to confide in. So you immediately went into "teacher mode" as soon as she saw you with watery eyes. She looked puzzled when her face met yours. You calmed down her storm of questions as she sputtered on and on. What's wrong? , is something happening? Are you okay? The hug you shared was one of the last meaningful hugs you had with another living being. You practically cradled her in your arms as you helped her calm down. She looked up at you, her larger brown eyes almost like the ones of a puppy. "Please don't be lying to me... y'know ah don't like liars." She whispered softly, her bubbly southern accent quiet. Your heart broke into a couple more pieces as you lied through your teeth. With a content nod, you bidded her a goodnight. Turning back to your room to drown your sorrow in god knows what. It had only been a good couple of months after Jeans' death that a mission arose. The X-men were laying low after everything at the base. For the school's and students' sake. But it was always on time when something bad happened for the team to fix. Old enemies came a-knocking and this time it wasn't Magneto. It was all supposed to be an in-and-out operation. You immediately clamored to get your hands dirty once again. You and Logan hadn't been talking for the last couple of days. Not even meeting in the dead of night to speak to another. You longed to hear about his afternoons subbing with Storm. This was your chance to regain some well-needed level-headedness. The thrill of doing what's right for a better tomorrow always made you feel better The mission even got Scott to come out of his puddle of mourning. Making you feel even better seeing your good friend so triumphant as he quickly clamored for his uniform. You and Logan didn't even brush shoulders as Storm and Scott dashed off to prepare the jet for takeoff. Everything should have gone fine. You should have all made it out alive. Every single one of you, that's what you had planned. Your lapse in judgment will always be your curse. Because now here you were, in the lap of the man that made your stomach churn. That made you feel LIKE that silly schoolgirl feeling you despised. Snapping back to reality, you realize where you are currently laid. Logan's eyes eased from his previous panicked look of fear as he saw you conscious. You were still bleeding but it seems that with quick medical attention either one of them got it to lessen. Your heart raced as you felt the warmness of his hands as they pressed against your cheeks. "Come on, there you go. Just focus on me." He cooed to your heaving chest. In the far back of the jet, you couldn't see Ororo or Scott. What you could see though was the remnants of blood on Logan's suit. He must have carried you off of the rubble and into the X-jet. Your smile was nothing compared to the horrid wince that left you. Finally, after this long moment of ease, the pain set in.

Going down to hold your gut, you shuddered as your vision all of a sudden wavered. You took in a sharp breath as finally, you noticed how in bad shape you were. Red filled your palm as you shuddered. Thankfully Logan noticed you and your shaky breath and immediately gripped your hand. Even in this state, you were currently in, you would always be able to focus on him. "I know, I know it's scary. You got hit pretty bad, but it's okay. Just focus on me and you'll be okay? I have you." He encouraged softly with that comforting rasp in his throat. His eyes were shaken and his lip was firm. Though his mood lightened somewhat because at least now you were awake.

You tried to speak but you were so weak. That same fatigue stung you as you stumbled over your words. He cradled you in his arms as he kept his eyes only on you. Your weary mind still around belittling you, another one of your eerily humane curses. He saw your chest quicken and lip quiver as your eyes began to lull, you were struggling. "Hey .. don't strain yourself - what is it?" He too began to worry as you saw his vulnerability bloom. Finally your chest steady as you took in one big breath of air. You let out the one thing keeping you from slipping back into rest in one huff. "Don't let me die, asshole." The asshole part came out more garbled from you after you coughed out your last words. Your last words before your eyes fell closed. For some reason, your hearing stayed for just a while longer. In and out, you could hear him cursing under his breath. The last thing you hear is Logan's panicked shouting at Scott, "Can this hunk of metal go any faster?!"

Finally, after so much pain, there was quiet. Peace and quiet after your constant heartache. You felt freed from the chains of reality. From birth to now, now seemed like your death. You left your current reality with a bitter-sweet smile as you felt consciousness swarm over you.

You couldn't feel how long you were out. Oh, but Logan could. Six weeks you lay in the infirmary. With some sort of miracle and hope, Ororo was barely able to stabilize you. The team rushed back into the mansion in panic as your wounds were assessed. But no, you couldn't feel the panic that coursed through your loved ones as you lay so peacefully. You didn't know your heart rate was being tracked. You were stable but anyone could guess it'd take you a while to re-reach consciousness. That your accident broke the barely well Scott Summers. But most of all it affected Logan to the core. He felt his world shake under him as he finally realized what had just happened. Something snapped in a man so stuck in his ways. Those words you said to him before you went back down. They were short but in the moment meant so much. Not to mention the fact that even Logan, so careless and free, was guilty. Every time he came back just to see you, he wanted to curl over and into you. Just like how he mourned Jean, he mourned you. Though .. he couldn't because you were technically still here. He may have not noticed it but everyone else could. The lack of your presence hindered him the worst. He missed the way you'd bother him out of the blue during the quiet time around the school. He missed you telling him about your life. He missed the shitty snort you did when you laughed too hard at one of his bad jokes. He missed seeing you happy. He missed seeing you move around. Pestering students for turning in assignments late or cheating. He missed the feel of your lips against his forehead when his nightmares of Jean flared up. He missed the way you looked at him. The way you saw him not only as a man but as himself. He didn't know how to admit it but he.. missed you. He missed you so bad and it was eating away at him. He spent hours out of his day visiting you. Like what you two always did when you were alone, he talked. About his day, what he ate, and even the lessons he overheard. The school got even quieter with you gone and he hated it. He felt bitter and broken, he didn't want to feel like that. He especially missed the way he felt with you. Almost like being on cloud nine. He finally understood the pain you felt when Jean died. This time on a more intimate level than he'd like to admit. He felt like the moon was ripped away from him after the sun. Now he was just the lonely tide, washing away against the shore until you returned. Ororo did all she could to help. All she could do was maintain your physical well-being as your body healed with rest. Logan hated the wait. The time you spent not walking around the halls of the school was maybe one of the worst times in his life. Since it hit him so deep on a real level. In this array of pain and even more guilt, he felt something dawn on him as you were still comatose. He was in love with you, Logan was in love with you. He felt like an idiot but the realization would always stay true. No matter how stupid he felt. As much as he wanted to deny it, he knew. In the middle of his thought process, he heard the swift slide open of the infirmary doors.

Right now he was standing over you. The one thing that kept his spirits high about your recovery was the gentle rise and lower of your chest. He didn't have to look behind him to know it was Storm. She too had taken her time checking in on your unconscious form. He sighed as she walked up right beside him. She gently cupped the examination table where your body would lay. She looked down at her hands with a bitter-sweet smile on her lips. She looked over to Logan, who was at a pause with himself. She decided to finally break the long silence. "You know they'll be fine, right?" She hummed as she glanced up to look over you. He chuckled softly as his brow pinched. His chuckle came out more like a rugged scoff. "I know, this just feels weird." He sucked in a breath of stale air. "It was funny the first night you arrived at the mansion.." Storm drew up a memory of that fateful night. "As soon as I and Scott brought you in, they immediately volunteered to help Jean down here with your examination. They were always enamored with your set of abilities. You were one of a kind to them especially, I suppose." Now his hands gripped into the sides of the examination table. He looked down, in pity of you and himself. How could he be so blind? Storm butted in once more as she noticed his demeanor shift. "All I'm saying is, they'd be happy to know how much you worried." He nodded in response, reminiscing when things were good. From your first encounter to now, his heart warmed. "I'd do it for anyone else." He gritted out as he bit back a smile. The truth was he was still in agony about Jean's loss. It felt wrong to love you as he had longed for her after all of this time. But you felt like a whole different story. He didn't have to sit in agony knowing that no matter what his love would always be with another. You always gave him the time and day, hell even down to the minute to just be honest. He needed you at his side no matter what you were to him. Maybe you were more than a friend, maybe he was crazy about you, but you understood him. In a way maybe Jean never had. Ororo knew he needed more time so she complied with the awkwardness in the air. "I'll give you some more time. Rest easy Logan, they'd want that." She insisted before making her way out of the infirmary. He immediately looked down back at you, before looking back at the monitor tracking your heart. He sighed, biting into his lip. He stuttered the only thing that had been keeping him sane since he last felt your eyes open. "Don't fail me now dimples... I need you." He gritted as his teeth were practically ground into his gums. It has become a regular part of his routine now. Once the students were back in their dorms for the night, down to the infirmary he goes. He could never be tired of seeing you at rest. Seeing you okay and not in pain. He just wished he could hear you speak. He hoped that you could hear his pleas for you to wake.

As much as he longed for you he just bided his time. Like the fool he was, like the idiot he felt like when you made him so weak. You made him feel the most human he ever could feel.

That day was supposed to be a normal day. Classes had been more and more brief. After the loss of Jean and you being "put out." But he did not expect to see what he did next. Going into the elevator to head downstairs, to of course see you as always. He was ready to talk about what you missed away and so on. His chest tightened once he saw what was right in front of him. It was you, you were walking? You were awake and on your own two feet. Your midsection was still bandaged but at least you were standing up straight. But then it finally clicked. Wait, you shouldn't even be walking around right now?!

He immediately ran to steady you once your expression went more absent. "Welcome back to the land of the living." He roughly inquired with a small, pleased grin. "I feel like shit, so don't start with me Wolvie." You gritted out with that smile that made him too feel all good on the inside. Quickly, his arms calmly wrapped around you. He longed for your embrace for too long. It wasn't like you were fighting him when he enacted this. You wrapped your arms around him too. He made sure not to squeeze too tight with your bandages and all. A gentleman must stay mindful, he could recall you poking at him as he had a beer bottle half hidden in his jacket.

Your head gently rested in the crook of his neck. That quiet he hated so much before when seeing you in the infirmary was warmer now. He liked the peace and quiet between the two of you when you were there WITH him. After some minutes passed, you met him back face to face. You eyes lingered as you watched the way he swallowed in with composure. You had longed for him to see you. Finally, all the puzzle pieces were clicking, and with your luck all at once. You knew before this would have never happened. It felt wrong and almost hurtful for you to be doing this. But go big or go home I guess. It was you who initiated it, and he gratefully complied. Still keeping you steady, once your lips met his hand immediately went to cup your cheek. In the bliss shared, all of a sudden it felt right. The tender embrace of your lips with his felt good. It was hungry and it was liberating. You could feel his heart beating out of his chest as quick gasps for air were taken. "I'm sorry." He uttered out, forehead against yours. "I know." You said with a sanguine look in your eye. "I love you." He uttered again at a rapid pace. "I know." You purred, your eyes looking back into his hazy ones. Things would always be complicated between the both of you. But deep down you had hope. Maybe not now, someday things could just be normal between you and The Wolverine. That's all you wanted and that's all you dreamed of. Yours and his timing by all means was horrible. So it wasn't surprising this delightful moment got interrupted by Scott of all people. You and Logan looked back, hands immediately darting off of one another. Time to address THAT later.

Scott's mouth fell agape as he began to regret coming down here in the first place. He readjusted his glasses with a small scowl. "Well hello to you too, and Logan." He turned his head to give him that same look. "Wanted to check on you but clearly -" He made sure to put a specific emphasis on 'clearly.' "That job has been overtaken by him.. I'll get Ororo." Before either you or Logan could interrupt him, Scott was already pressing buttons up to the main floor. Now that it was just the two of you bubbling laughs were shared. You felt finally okay. You felt like yourself after those months of nothing but remembrance. You and The Wolverine wormed back into conversation as you could finally talk BACK to him. Another thing you wouldn't ever admit was that yes, you did hear him. His gentle words would always be your favorite secret. After that display of affection though, your and Logan's bond never stayed just a little secret after that. Even after all the trial and error, and the more soon to come, you finally had another moment. Another moment that you could look at when you are older and with more grays on your head. Logan Howlett was yours, no matter how much the universe wanted to throw you around a loop. You'd always have him by your side, till the end of time. Nothing would stop you from cherishing this connection. Not even the burning phoenix crackling over the horizon. You and Logan against time baby.

ꔫ✉ reblogs/interaction is appreciated <3

[emmyrosee]

oikawa you say?? my favourite character in the whole entire series? you don’t understand how happy I am to hear you say that bc I’ve been sitting on this idea for so long not sure if I should send it in or not BC I WASN’T SURE IF YOU WERE INTO OIKAWA THAT MUCH 😭 …alright I’m gonna call myself out a bit with this one. BUT ITS OKAY ITS FINE.

hype man oikawa. he’s. so. good. at. hyping. you. up!!!!

you don’t ever feed your own ego so HE DOES IT FOR U. like, let’s say you managed to accomplish something (big or small, an accomplishment is an accomplishment) and it becomes a big point of pride for you, like huge, and you don’t want to show it that much cause??? you don’t want to come off as if you’re bragging!!! but oikawa sees through it and totally just feeds into it to see you smile and stand a bit taller. like out of the blue on a random Tuesday he’d just kiss you on the cheek and bring it up and just 😭🫶🏻

I’m so soft for him emmy. he’s so proud and LOVESSSS it when he sees that you’re proud of yourself too. he’s safe he won’t judge you at all for being just slightly prideful in whatever you’ve done/are doing. HE GETS IT!!!!! (cough that one scene in season 2 with ushijima) HE KNOWS YOU’D DO THE SAME FOR HIM!!!!

MWAH ILY💋 HAPPY MILESTONE!!!!

ARE YOU TRYNA KILL ME?

Oikawa is the best hype man you could ask for, because he knows how good praise feels and how bad degradation feels, so he’s always the one to take all your accomplishments- be it taking a shower after a bad day, to getting a promotion at work- and make them the biggest deal he ever could.

“UHHH BABY!!! IM SO PROUD OF YOU, THIS IS A BIG DEAL!” He always says, cradling your face in his big hands and beaming down at you with the most pleased twinkle in his eye. You merely shrug and giggle softly, which he dramatically gasp, “are you NOT completely impressed with yourself? Because I will make you be.”

“No, no, I am!” You assure, nuzzling into his warm palm. “It’s just… it’s not that big of a deal.”

“Not that big-“ he cuts of his repeating with a dramatic sigh and playful scratch of his head, “babe, you do realize this is something you accomplished. This is another checkmark on how great and smart you are- not to mention how hot-“

“I don’t think this has anything to do with being hot,” you snort.

But Tooru doesn’t let it go. Nay nay.

The next morning, the smell of fresh fruit and baked goods filled the air (obviously from the store because he’s banned from cooking without your watchful supervision), and you smile in the warmth of your pillow and slowly sit up with a stretch, swinging your legs over the bed and shuffling to the kitchen.

“BABYYYY!” He beams as he sees you, dropping the muffin he was holding to immediately pull you into a hug, peppering your face with kisses. You giggle at the tickly feeling and smile at him, only to pout as he pulls away to pick up the muffin. “Did you sleep well? I mean, I assumed you did, because you were drooling on me, so…”

“I do not drool!” You snicker, but your further teases die on your tongue when he makes his way to the counter and grabs a thick bouquet of flowers, your cheeks blazing at how serious he finds this and is encouraging you to do the same. “You didn’t have to do all of this,” you mewl, walking back into his arms. He wraps his free one around you and kisses your head repeatedly.

“Yes, I did,” he whispers. “Don’t be humble. You’ve earned this. And I’m so, so proud of you.”

Tears sting at your eyes at his words, and you burrow into him deeper, taking selfish inhales of his clean scent and fresh cologne, the closeness of the flowers adding a sweetness to your man.

“Come on,” he encourages, pulling away once again to get you to enjoy your breakfast. “I got you some pastries, grabbed you a breakfast sandwich, cut up some fruit, and I grabbed you one of those smoothies you like so much.” He says all of this with pride and a broad smile, pulling out a chair for you to sit in, “here. I’ll make you a plate.”

“I can do that,” you giggle.

“I don’t want you to. Today is all about celebrating you- who would I be if I didn’t pamper you today?”

“Well, when you put it like that,” you hum, watching him move around the kitchen and blushing slightly as he winks at you. He puts down the flowers and gets busy making you a plate of breakfast. “Hey, Tooru?”

“Yeah babe?”

“Thank you. For letting me have this. And being yourself.”

He smiles and chuckles to himself, scooping you a big helping of fruit.

“I’ve got you, baby. Gonna always take care of you and your accomplishments.

“You deserve it.”

[hyunsvngs]

mh minsung 3some.. minho being so so rough with you fucking your ass (take as you will can he anal or jot) and jisungie fucking your mouth telling you how well your doung vs minho whos telling you how much kf a whore you are

idk if this has heen written or if u have im getting deja vu i feel like ive read something like this hell

ive not written it no. but now its in my wips. i love this concept kai, but i have this to propose however:

a threeway kiss with minsung, jisung moaning and doing little grabby hands trying to get you and minho closer to him. he’s so so hard in his pants, bulge pressing at the seam of his jeans.

eventually, minho pulls away, sighing. jisung’s his little brat but you’re such a good girl for him, despite soaking through your cute lil panties. when minho pulls away, jisung is looking up at him with wide eyes, pleading silently.

minho rolls his eyes, pushing jisung backwards on the bed with one firm hand on his chest. “strip. i’ll deal with you first then, huh? greedy.”

and jisung’s nodding, eager to get his pants off so he can feel minho touching him. when he manages to get naked from the waist down, minho’s pulling his own boxers down just enough to free his cock, and then he’s wrapping one hand around the both of their lengths. it’s a big stretch for his small hand, but it’s so worth it to see jisung’s hips bucking into his touch.

jisung’s squirming, whining, “minho- ah, ah, yeah, m’- feelin’ so good-“, and his eyes dart over to you where you’re sitting there patiently. you’re trying not to squirm yourself, trying to be a good girl for minho like you always are. when jisung’s eyes fall onto the wet spot on your panties.. well, it takes two thrusts and he’s spilling over minho’s fist.

minho scoffs, looking down at his hand. “seriously? i try to be nice to you and you cum so quick that you can’t even fuck our girl.”

jisung’s whimpering, blinking over at you. he hadn’t even considered he may get to fuck you after, he was just so so excited to feel minho. minho’s shifting on the bed, pulling your panties aside until his hand covered with jisung’s cum meets your soaking folds.

“there’s my good girl. always so wet, yeah?” you’re whining, nodding. you want to stick up for jisung, say that yours and minho’s boyfriend tried, but a selfish part of you is so desperate to feel minho. minho’s pressing into you all of a sudden, using jisung’s cum to alleviate the stretch and his feline eyes are landing on the fucked out boy lying next to you. “watch me fuck her using your cum as lube. fucking watch me. this could’ve been you, huh?”

jisung’s loving it, every second of it when his eyes land on you and you’re repeating his earlier motions, doing grabby hands at him for some kisses.

♡ juno

[definitelynotnia]

im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed

my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.

and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.

anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,

I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me

im going by metro which is quite safe

im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18

she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)

anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm

so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?

anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".

and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.

[theambitiouswoman]

I am really thankful for the advice u gave previously. I really want to increase my self esteem and be a better version of myself but Actually I'm a people pleaser. I don't know why but others opinion matter a lot to me. I always want to best in front of everyone. So I don't know what to do?!

Hoping u are having a great day<333

Here is a secret. I used to be such a people pleaser. For a period so long in my life, I don't even care to admit, haha. I realized after my healing journey where that stems from, but thats a story for another day.

Being a people pleasure got me used, taken advantage of, taken for granted.. and ultimately lead to me losing my self esteem. I am very stubborn too so I had to go through quite a bit of disappointments for me to decide to change my ways.

You need to sit with yourself and think, what about you behaving that way makes you think you feel good or fulfilled. That way you can work out healthier ways to fulfilling those voids/emotions.

Some ways you can start:

Obviously the first is to think about why you always want to please others.

Start saying no :) Just "no". The end. Scary word, I know. SAY NO.

Share your feelings. This is so insanely important. Do it without being mean. Just be honest.

Do things you enjoy more. Put yourself and your life first. Do not compromise on your tasks for anyone else. You can schedule with them when you are free. Self respect.

Avoid people who always take and never give. Yes you may be attached. But you are attached to people who do not care about you and it is important you realize it. I did in certain occasions tell friends when they would do this and unfortunately in my experience, while some corrected their ways for a short period of time, they always reverted back to being selfish. So I became selfish too and cut them off.

You can't make everyone happy all the time. And by choosing to put yourself first, you are going to anger people who are used to taking advantage of you. This might scare you or make you feel bad. So know that you are having those feelings because you are suppose to and it's normal.

Be nice to yourself and tell yourself how amazing you are. Starts with you.

You will notice in general that nothing bad happens when you say no. It is just your fear making a big deal about it in your head.

Remember that it takes time to establish new habits and its okay if you mess up. Never be afraid to speak up for yourself or change your mind. It is not what we do, but HOW we do it that determines the result.

[filurig]

12 or 27 for Arvo + Folke?

ill answer both hihiii thank u for these!!!

12. Do they have any affection for each other? How do they show it?

yes - folke, after some denial, becomes aware of it. because initially his view of their relationship is a bit like arvo's in that he thinks he's in it to observe someone really weird... he comes to the conclusion that he does genuinely like him as a friend much quicker than arvo. arvo... doesn't really get there, or its more like a combination of him having sort of forgotten what affection kind of is - like what emotion would be the equivalent of that, AND also just denying any sort of emotion that concerns personal connection/camraderie between them (this of course changes during pt 2 but i'll talk mainly about pt 1 pareidolia for this answer)

folke is a very touchy person and likes showing affection by closeness - he's big on hugs and just general proximity. this is a bit difficult in regards to arvo because he's very very much Not a fan of that and reacts quite aggressively to it (not in chewing him out but like... pulling away violently and giving folke a good O_O stare). but it is something that folke makes the effort to adapt to and learns pretty fast that he should reign in when with arvo. other than that there are other ways he shows affection that is more congruent with arvo... inviting him into his own life/routines and showing him more of his own interests etc. basically spending time etc. and also eventually through food - circumstances already lead to folke having to cook food for arvo and during this he tries to learn his tastes and seeing just how well he can adapt to them. also through art, specifically woodcarving - he offers to teach arvo how to do it, and begins to carve figurines vaguely inspired by him - which he then gifts to him

arvo on the other hand will unknowingly show his affection through spending time as well - arvo is the type of person who can really enjoy just sitting in silence together and not even doing anything in particular. if he's affectionate towards someone he'll be more prone to talking, asking questions, and most of all - showing inexperience. you know you've really wormed your way into his heart if he admits to not really knowing how to do something in front of you WHILE he also doesn't consider you someone he has to show submission to. at the point in their relationship (in pt 1) where they're the closest he also even makes the effort to hold back on saying things that he knows will upset folke... with great difficulty.

(this is also something that will backfire on him later)

27. How far would they go for each other? Would they risk their own lives for each other?

this one is a bit difficult bcs neither i think would directly sacrifice their life for the other if given a very straightforward choice, but through the story they do make decisions that could potentially have put their own lives at jeopardy for the other - at least in their view. it also kinda depends on what part of the story too...

pt 1 folke: willing to risk a lot - his trust in arvo is put to the test and he is willing to bank on his hunch on it being correct when he would've been potentially killed if wrong

pt 2 folke: wouldn't want to risk much lets just say...

"epilogue" folke: does end up risking his other relationships which is a huge deal for him. perhaps his willingness to sacrifice eventually builds up to similar levels to the end of part 1...

pt 1 arvo: wouldn't want to sacrifice much for most of this part, but does end up making a decision where he basically gives up on his own life as a concession to folke. (in a way... its how he sees it in his brain)

pt 2 arvo: does end up risking his life for even just the potential reigniting of their friendship in a sort of roundabout way (LOL)

"epilogue" arvo: i think he still has that degree of selfishness that would prevent him from being too selfless, but he is certainly willing to give up a lot for him atp

[scary-mdconfessions]

OK I’M BACK I’M SORRY

ok so. 👏 i get really jealous whenever i see somebody i like with someone else. no big deal, right? well it has been. for the past few months… no, actually 7 months. every time i see n with somebody else, especially uzi, i just crumble. erruhghhhhhh liek c’monnnn i’m so her i’m literally her stoppppppp LIKE I GETR REALLYJEALOUS AND I’VE HAD ACTUAL FUCKING MENTAL BREAKDOWNS OVE RIT???? BUT I CAN’T COMPLAIN BECAUSE EVERYBODY LIKES IT THE SHIP AND ughhhh sorry i got a lil overwhelmed there sorry pooksters 😔

my point is… well there’s not really a point i just needed to rant. it hurts when i see n with someone else :( that might be selfish, but those are my feelings. suck my dick if u don’t like them 😊 /j ofc

If its any help, on most socials you can mute any related tags :"

And the Yumeship (Selfship) community is pretty nice in my experience! Given I haven't interacted with other MD selfshippers, but my friends & Twitter mutuals who are GI, HSR & other media are really nice! And most respect boundaries on "no doubles" in my experience :3

Hope I could help a little -🌙

Edit: Also! Kinsona is a thing! Idk much about it but its basically you as the character. With your "I'm so her" I assume you heavily relate to / Kin Uzi? That could be a way to help with that - making an Uzi Kinsona :3

[uncanny-tranny]

i know this isnt usually what ppl send u but i look up to u and i love the way u see transness, im sure u can help. basically i got top surgery 4 months ago and im extremely unhappy with my results. not the surgeons fault, he warned me getting keyhole might require revisions, and im getting them in november, but i cant help feeling like ive failed my transition. i still have so much chest dysphoria. how to cope until november? it's unbearable, its all i think about; that i still have, u know...

Continued ask:

First of all, I feel the need to emphasize that this isn't your fault. You haven't failed at anything. It is okay not to be satisfied with your results right now, especially with a surgery that needs revisions. You are entirely allowed to seek those revisions, and while it's nice that other people think the results look fine, that doesn't outweigh that your opinion about your chest and how it looks is most important. You are not selfish or unreasonable to acknowledge this. I just really, really feel the need to say this because I worry that so many trans people are afraid to admit when they aren't totally satisfied with surgery because it takes a lot of effort and they want to show the "appropriately amount of happiness." This idea, however, isn't right and isn't fair. You are allowed to feel however you feel about your results; other people's opinions aren't a factor in that.

I will also state that I haven't had surgery yet, but I definitely would encourage you to build trust in yourself to express this. It's great that you have admitted how you think about the results. That's a big deal! I think, though, that it can be important to build trust in yourself to be able to be happy and satisfied. There may come a point where, after revisions, you are happy, and that's something I also noticed in your ask. I just think it can be helpful to internalize that hopefulness because it empowers you to know that this isn't permanent.

I also hope that you have a support network that is affirming and will listen. It's nice to be told that others think your chest is fine, and I'm sure they are completely genuine and mean it, but I think it's missing the point. It isn't about having a "cis chest" or a "good-looking chest," it's about having a chest that makes you happy. If you're able, I'd definitely make that clear if you haven't (no judgments if you haven't)

This is a tumultuous time, I'm sure. You deserve to be able to express the full range of your emotions however works best for you. But not for one second do I wish you feel that you have failed. There is nothing you failed at. Transition will always be a unique experience, for the better and worse. I just wish you peace along your journey. You are the most important part of your transition. Your body, your voice, your spirit all matter so immensely, no matter where you are in this part of transition. If there is nothing tangible I can do to help you with this, then I simply want to remind you of just how utterly you matter. I'm glad you were able to open up about this. It's so incredibly vulnerable and scary to admit, even though there is nothing bad about what you feel.

[shijieswife]

unpopular opinion but anything u put out onto the internet will be criticised. im not saying it should - fan works especially, since they are made out of love of the fans for fucking free, and therefore no one has any right to shit on it. however... fandom is a place made for stupid fights, debates over interpretations and just. general silliness. ofc it can go overboard, and toxic fandoms r always there, BUT. theres a big difference btwn a fight btwn two people who disagree, and sending death threats.

specifically in regards to the mdzs fandom: the book is controversial (in a sense it deals with many themes people dont like - classism, materialism, the (selfish) pursuit of glory and the (unselfish) pursuit of true justice) and hard to understand, so of course people will fight over what they deem the right interpretations are. if u make a point which someone disagrees with, theyre allowed to fight with u. where they cross the line is when they start making death threats to u. but criticising what u said while not making anything personal a part from calling u dumb ?? i dont think theres an issue.

ofc, this only applies to peoples opinions - not their fan works, that they put so much effort in, no matter how much u disagree with it. (what i mean is - shittalking a specific fanwork, instead of a whole genre) i personally would be fine with people shitting on my fandom takes, but not with people who give non constructive crit to my works !

but please remember, whatever emotions u feel, theyre valid. please know theres no shame in taking a break. its not weak or cowardly to take care of yourself.

[asexualkiba]

had to do it to em. kankuro

[send me a character!]

favorite thing about him: his absolute and insurmountable genderless failure swag . i was gonna say the show always needs more giddy insane theater kids but he is more than enough how could i be selfish enough to ask

least favorite thing about him: screentime

favorite line: ummm that moment when we first see him do karasu and kuroari's finishing combo, the translation kind of varies but he's essentially calling final curtain on his fucked up little puppet show and im big on that energy

brotp: there are too many good ones considering frankly i just want him to have friends,, sakura tenten lee shikamaru sai. akamaru. idfk. frankly what ive been rotating in my head is him hanging with baki. like he's probably done a great deal of annoying that man and i think he should keep it up. i think abt them..

otp: r u kidding

notp: fully who do people even ship him with . i see kiba i see shino tjose make sense. i couldnt notp those. sakura sure whatever. i think he is just a chill guy. i do think its funnier if he just lives his whole life never really getting that shino guy's deal. die having beef. but no i couldnt say its a notp

random headcanon: buzzcut kankuro underrated esp because i think his hair is probably never a consistent length. he'll let it grow til its long enough to annoy him and then chop it all of completely. forget about it the next few months, it grows out, when it gets annoying again chop chop buzz buzz etc. and so on. (annoying is defined by how hard it is to manage while he's trying to work on puppets)

unpopular opinion: this is popular but i need it said more . for what reason on eartj does he not wear nail polish

song i associate with them: wow!❤️ i do not know

favorite picture of them: sorry for the quality i used what i had on my phone already and this is a picture i took of my TV screen i think he is such a bitchy gossip why is he on the balcony multitasking people-watching with calling out his sisters missed opportunities

[narwhalandchill]

so happy to find someone as intense abt childe as i am. sending love mwah

THANK YOU!!! U TOO

(also i swear i wasnt intending for this to get so long sorry you provoked me HSJAKDKSIFI)

i havent known peace for so long i dont know what it is abt him but he just hacked my brain. its just... hes just a guy. hes everything. hes fucking unhinged hes going to torch celestia and ill kiss him on the mouth for it. hes a complete egomaniac taking massive pride in his own abilities yet somehow also so humble and amicable and easygoing most of the time that its jarring when juxtaposed with his status and ambition. hes a weapon and only finds thrill in the mayhem he sows and reaps. so supernaturally efficient at causing chaos everywhere the harbingers literally try to send him overseas just so he might be someone elses problem. hes so effective at his job its literally described as surgical precision but also working among schemers with no interest in scheming himself and sometimes that ends w him as the tricked one too despite him v much not being stupid. hes objectively a terrible person but with so little of that typical and boring villainous angst and malice to him. choosing violence everyday is simply what he does to stay on that crush and devour everything in his path speedrun any% sigma grindset. bro fishes. he watches and does public performances. he cooks he cleans he doesnt gaf about fitting the basic tropes ppl try to shove him into he has so many facets to himself and whats so wild is that none of them are lies. its all true to himself its all him he simply chooses to display those sides in different manners depending on the situation but its all genuine like Man. the bloodlust is no less authentic than his affection for his family (tho im sorry calling him a particularly good brother is... a stretch. his love for teucer is genuine but the way hes going abt it is incredibly selfish and unsustainable and highkey cruel like lil bro is getting trust issues for life. but selfish in a very human way that just makes him more interesting imo. but hes pretty shitty at it lets be real). theres so much to him its just. theres no one like him. he couldve been so tropey and basic but hes not hes everything. hes just a guy and thats the greatest fucking compliment i can give him hes just So Good.

like i had my big insanity era in 2021 the Initial phase so to speak then for like year n half ish got sorta alienated bc of the general pervasiveness and state of childes.... unsatisfactory fanon imo (still limits my interactions w most content like i Dont trust ppl to get him right and interesting and fun lmao) + lack of canon content + complicated irl reasons no need to elaborate but like the way i took him back Instantly once fontaine happened and its just been vindication after vindication and im so happy like. i was SAYING hed be a massive deal YEARS ago i called it i knew it i am being fed so fucking good. tho i do still worry a bit like Please do him justice. but like god im just so Happy to have this madness abt him infecting my brain again bc i was Genuinely feeling p conflicted and unsure abt stuff n whether hoyo was going anywhere w him and all. but like we are SO back oh my fucking god

anyway hoyo now release the abyssal alt. i Will go full send

[spotsupstuff]

heck i really just want to say how much i love the sibling dynamic of pebbles to moon, he’s like the independent kid who dislikes being nagged and cringes at affection, also doesnt show if he’a grateful for something easily because *pride* and gets embarrassed easily lol, yet if there’s somebody else that’s worse he straight up hides behind the said person(moon) he just pushed off of and ultimately cares for her in a more secluded way anyway. The vibe may be bits inaccurate but it’s how it felt after reading the comic of innocence high hipping pebbles and other arts

YEAH ITS LIKE the main idea i have of what's going on is that he was very forced to have everything spinning around Moon. he exists to help Her, his place has Her culture instead of developing its own (that makes him as a culture nerd disappointed and annoyed), he was set up to choose Her as his mentor, they share certain supplies, in my thing he is even Identified under her acronym n tag on the map

so he feels nasty as hell about that. he wants to get away, prove that he's more than just a complex supportive organ and a fool Moon needs to lead, so when it comes to Big Defining things he pushes her away

but the thing is that Moon is *nice.* she geniunely loves him. and when someone geniunely loves you it's kind of hard to stay mad at them 24/7- after all! even though she doesn't really approve of Suns in the position of a mentor, she never tried complaining about Pebs' decision to take Them as his mentor (even though maybe she should have)!! he has his own free will to act on and she respects that unlike the Ancients

so what he does is that!!! if it's something he can argue benefits more Him, if he can hide behind that, he will silently love her back. like asking her about the history she has seen for the sake of broadening his reference pool in research (a tiny little silent "i want to listen to you talk for a bit, let's spend some time together?"), challenging her to race at who gets simulations and such done faster ("we get to laugh as we run at the hip with each other in the only way we really can- i think that sounds quite nice. would you be up for it?")... if it helps putting him higher, he's doing it. but he also kind of comes off as a prideful selfish asshole as a result. plus what u said- i really like that he'd hate bein nagged at and open physical affection. this man is a handshake kind of kid. suit constantly on, kind of boy. arms behind the back, lookin fly n serious kind of man

but Yeah then there's these moments where when he doesn't really wanna deal with smth or is legit uncomfortable/scared and he hides behind Moon because he subconsciously knows she will have his back and protect him as long as he's hiding no matter what's happening (except maybe against large centipedes she hates those. that's when She hides behind Him). it's that silent sibling™ understanding

[anzynai]

I JUST FINISHED READING ALL THE BOOKS FROM THE GLORIOUS MASQUERADE

and i have some thoughts i’d like to share about it

(keep in mind there are spoilers obv!!)

SO FIRST OF ALL, apologies to that anon who sent me the ask about rollo a few weeks back (i barely knew who rollo was at the time so i didn’t know how to respond) BUT I WILL GET TO U SOON. literally binge read every book starting from FRIDAY. so i’ve been very very busy.

first about my love azul, i love his personality so much. i like how he sticks to it too, like call it selfish (it kinda is) but he doesn’t DO things for no reason. yet, i feel like even as manipulative he seems, he still has his pride. i also enjoy that his personality doesn’t get in the way of caring for his friends. ie. getting jade and floyd the gifts he gave them, especially catering the gift to what they liked. even though, he said he would technically expect something, i can tell he just genuinely cares for them.

despite that, i think it’s also pretty cool that he does THE SAME THING essentially for epel and deuce, even if it’s just to get on their good side. it’s just kinda a “classic azul” kinda scheme and i live for it!!

NOT TO MENTION, how cool he was??? i loved that he got to play such a big part in this event. like, making a deal with deuce for his magic??? SO SMART. love him. being so precise with his magic that malleus compliments him???? beautiful. an added bonus that he got a bit shy ab it too it’s so cute

also, i love how jamil takes every chance he can get to get a dig at azul. people always are like “jamil hates him!!” and all that but jamil always teasing azul suggests otherwise??? its pretty cool. obviously, i dont think its like (realistically speaking) theyre like besties or whatever but they definitely don’t hate each other.

i thought another thing that was nice was azul and idia’s relationship. it’s a strange kind of comfort between each other. idia ALWAYS finds him as some shady guy, but nonetheless, of all the people he would speak to, he seemed most comfortable and talked to azul the most. boards game club rlly helped out with team bonding.

another thing with idia is that i love how antisocial he is because it’s just such a core part of his personality but he makes it work!! yet, he’s not modest at all??? I LOVE THAT. like he knows his worth and it surprised me but i still loved it. like that scene with the exploding rag thingies, he was so proud of himself and had absolutely no shame in asking for compliments because he knew what he did was genius??? love him so much.

I LOVED that part where ruggie and jamil tweaked together to basically use the students from the other schools as human shields LOLL they weren’t lying when they said they were gonna use dirty methods but somehow it feels a bit refreshing knowing it’s not all “kiss and make it better” and then it actually gets better. like ruggie and jamil (two important characters) are not innocent and completely good, yk?? i really love that they did that.

also i adore their dynamic. they’re both so similar and they didn’t know it until this event and i just KNOW they’ll get along amazingly in the future.

i also enjoy jamil’s personality when he’s not around kalim. i really liked this in the first main story, but jamil just seems like this very monotone “do as told” kinda average person whenever he’s near kalim (which makes sense because he’s meant to make kalim shine) but it’s really nice getting to see his real personality away from him (a personality that pairs very well with ruggies and loves to tease others especially azul)

i officially LOVE malleus. i adore that he seems like such a scary guy, but he just wants friends. the way he was marking off the days in his calendar or even prepared a whole performance??? AMAZINF. and how he was so upset because the invitation wasn’t genuine??? like that’s so sweet to me, i don’t know.

also it’s hilarious to me how no one wants to get on his bad side. that one scene where rollo said he didn’t need to talk to rocks and malleus just sent him a glare and he immediately said “i’ll think about it” GOLDEN. or like how idia and azul were a bit cautious because they didn’t want to make him angry. it’s so funny

now, rollo. honestly, i feel like i expected worse. i think his story is really interesting and id like to get more info about it. i find it really cool that rollo and idia actually have a lot in common and idia actually hinted at it quite a few times.

honestly, i think it’s sad how i think rollo genuinely thought he was in the right??? or maybe he doesn’t know what’s right from wrong but there’s so many ways people cope and his was just.. not good for people. but ALSO the flowers don’t kill the people right??? i’m not sure i think it just takes their magical power. not really justifying what he did but i can understand WHY he did it. i really like him and i hope we can see more of him soon.

THATS ALL I HAVE FOR NOW. honestly, don’t really think anyone’s gonna read this but… it’s here anyway?? really enjoyed this event 🙌🙌

[bimbocoreblonde]

"U = Ugly/bad Habits" Any of the fall guy characters 🥰

Any? Sweetie, around here, we go big or we go home! Bad habit headcanons for my favourite The Fall Guy characters!

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?) for Colt, Tom, Jody, Gail, and Dan.

Colt

Colt is super impulsive, and has a habit of doing things before he even begins to think them through. Most of the time, it gives him the vibe of a golden retriever, which is adorable - but then there was the time he brought back an actual golden retriever to your cramped one-bedroom apartment, and as much as you loved Dorothy (named after your favourite Golden Girl, of course), it was kind of a pain until you could find a bigger place to live.

Tom

Self-centeredness, thy name is Tom Ryder. No matter how many times you tell him about something, chances are if he doesn't put it on a post-it note, he's going to foget it. After you've stuck around long enough, though, he starts hoarding everything you tell him on post-its he carries around with him at all times. He's selfish, but that doesn't mean he doesn't care.

Jody

Jody is extremely dedicated to her career...although sometimes that means that she puts it before you. She works late, sends your calls to voicemail or doesn't reply to your texts, and even when she is at home it's in body only: her mind still at work. Sometimes it's hard to deal with that, but Jody is also incrediably devoted to you, and you know if you need her: she'll be there.

Gail

Gail can be so casually cruel sometimes, and she doesn't even seem to realise it. If asked, she'd say she was just being honest about things, but more than once you'd had to walk away from a conversation before she said something you couldn't forgive. Gail knows this, and she's trying to be better before you walk away for good, but it's a work in progress.

Dan

Dan's only bad habit is making film references at every single opportunity he gets. Most of the time, you find it cute, but sometimes it does get a little annoying. He tries not to do it when he's in a serious situation, but sometimes he can't help it when he's nervous. When you found out his proposal ("I don't really know how to say this, will you marry me?") was a quote from My Big Fat Greek Wedding and not just him being adorably awkward, you didn't know how to feel...but you still married him. He was, afterall, adorably awkward.

[violetziegler]

Presenting my PSO2 OCs (and their FF counterparts)

Angela Ziegler - Techter (SGE)

Mother of Violet and Natasha. Younger Sister of Amber and Valerie.

Personality: Bright, Cheerful, Friendly, Calm, Polite, Protective. Likes: Playing music, Tea, Knitting Dislikes: Others doing her job, Being left out. Moral Alignment: Lawful Good Relationship: Widow

Angela its very charismatic with everyone around her, loves her daugthers more than anything, her relationship with her sisters its great, even when things heat up with Valerie. She was married to Samuel with him she had Violet and Natasha, sadly her husband passed away on the Aelio Town inccident. Excelent at what she does even on the battlefield helping others. with her techniques and supportive habilities she keeps everyone safe!

Angela is my main character in PSO, and been like that since Kvaris released and i don't think ill swap anytime soon.

Violet Ziegler - Slayer (GNB)

Daughter of Angela with Samuel Natasha's older sister

Energetic, Funny, Sassy, Impulsive, Immature, Proud, Mean. Likes: Music, Skateboarding, Fighting, Annoying other people Dislikes: Slow people, dismissing her jokes. Moral Alignment: Chaotic Good Relationship: Single

Violet its a tough person to deal with. at first you might already hate or love her. she's loves taunting everyone in various ways. she does it the most with her sister Tasha and her cousin Emma. She joined the ARKS defenders just to not be bored at home doing nothing. very skillful with both the Gunblade and Katana she's the best on taking down foes with quick strikes.

Violet was my main prior Kvaris also, i was writing a novel that she's the protagonist, don't ask about that novel btw

Natasha Ziegler - Ranger (MCH)

Daugther of Angela with Samuel Violet's younger sister Dating Clovis

Shy, Organized, Immature, Clever, Smart, Skillful, Responsible

Tasha is very introverted, quite the oposite of her sister Violet, She hates being around too many people, also the nerd of the family, loves observing and researching everything that picks her interest lately she's trying to overcome the shyness with a little of a visual change with Emma's help, just like her mother she will do everything she can to help her closest friends, including tolerating her sister's jokes. Aside from that, Tasha and Violet make a great team that won't lose to anything

Natasha i still play on FF but I'm not even close to a MCH main xD

Amber Ziegler - Bouncer (WAR)

Older Sister of Valerie and Angela Dating Taara

Cheerful, Confident, Gentle, Bold, Protective, Impatient, Daring

Amber laughter erradiates positive energy for everyone around she can be tough sometimes though, when people get out of line she acts like a mom specially with Valerie when she starts to being bossy. Amber also is an inspiration for Violet, she even started training because of her! Altho Amber can use Techs she focuses more on showing her physical strength.

Amber has a bit of multiple love interests. they mistaken it for her gentle nature. if u find me playing with Amber don't be surprised for her Brazilian accent

Valerie Ziegler - Force (BLM)

Middle sister of Amber and Angela

Arrogant, Bossy, Cold-hearted, Fierce, Fancy, Honest, Dedicated, Mean

Valerie is very arrogant with anyone exept with Amber. sometimes Violet passes the limits of Valerie tolerance and she says things she kinda regrets, that never seen to affect Violet though. Valerie likes using spells more than her sisters that prefeer close combat. she's no strange to it though.

Emma Rosett - Braver

Angela's Niece Violet and Tasha's Cousin

Childish, Competitive, Daring, Insistent, Selfish, Cheerful, Creative

Emma its very cute when she wants too, or if she's not trying to best the people she envy, mainly Violet, this big rivalry prompted her to learn how to fight with Katana instead of Bow. She is a great singer and dancer. oh and she loves Ange's desserts.

If you find me with Emma, she will have a French accent

Svetlana-7 - Hunter/Ranger (RDM)

Works as a Maid for the Ziegler's

Logical, Precise, Meticulous, Obedient, Serious, Knowledgable, Polite

Svetlana-7 is a CAST who forgot everything except her own name, with time passing she discovered a hidden power within her that is different from photons. to keep her secret safe she became a Maid for the Ziegler's. Svetlana created a deep bond with Violet and Natasha, she treats them like friends, her only problem with being a Maid its the need to tolerate Valerie with her dislikeness of CASTs Also she has named her mag companion Adrik.

Svetlana-7 its a reference for my love for the Destiny Universe. Her "hidden" powers its the Light and Darkness, and Adrik its supposed to be a Ghost. (please sega release something close to a ghostshell)

Svet its the biggest design change ever since i stopped playing PSO2, As i couldn't make a proper CAST nor Exo in FF, i just grabbed another aesthetic that fits her very well, Cyberpunk. the end result made me VERY happy

Clovis Bray - Fighter

Dating Natasha

Quiet, Creative, Charming, Gentle, Respectful, a bit lazy

Clovis is another nod to Destiny still has no lore attached to him.

Taara Rai - Gunner

Dating Amber

Arrogant, Impolite, Sassy, Charismatic, Cheerful, sometimes Vulgar

Taara wanted to be an ARKS Defender since a child, but she was never able to do what it takes, her solution? enhance her body with cybernetics. she is still not officially an ARKS, but dabbles on doing their job from time to time. Lately she's been seeing Amber she doesn't know what picked her interest, but surely it did.

A friend of mine inspired me to do an Android character, her surname is a nod to Magic the Gathering character, Saheeli Rai, one of my favorites planeswalkers. If u find me ingame with her she will have an Indian accent

Sayoran Hara - Waker

Timid, Disciplined, Immature, Gentle, Kind, Forgetful, Courteous.

haven't made up lore for him right now. but already tought in some interactions with my other characters (specially Amber, Taara and Valerie) if you find me ingame with him he will have a Japonese accent.