#Understanding Self

[crazydetectivetimetraveler]

[shiningmystic]

Just a quick reminder:

Even if you work on your looks and feeling better on the outside; your insides and there feelings need work too. Don’t neglect your mental and emotional body because you think physical work is the only way to make yourself feel better. It will help in some ways, but it won’t change the trauma you have been through! You deserve unconditional love even if you don’t have the energy to look the way you want; you are always worthy and that needs to be understood inside and cultivated daily because of what others/yourself have made you believe.

If you don’t look the best today or you feel dysphoric or ugly in your skin; that does not take away from your worthiness of love and beauty you hold within yourself. You deserve unconditional love always! And from that you can spread unconditional love to others ❤️

[sherlockmeme]

Decluttering

A slice of me does not concur with what the rest of the fraction conforms to. Hence, for the sake of intrapersonal growth, I allow that slice to finally be free from the enigma and contradictory disagreements within me. I apologize to those who will not be kept. Not only due to dislike that you’ll be out of the circle, but also one’s soul is not found to be mildly amusing. I need space. I adore…

[dazedoctober]

the most intense lesson i’m in the midst of learning right now is that it is okay to experience disappointment in a safe relationship. it is not indicative that a person is going to leave, it is simply emblematic of the fact that humans are not perfect and will inevitably disappoint you. it doesn’t make them bad nor does it reflect poorly of their credibility in the relationship. when we experience immense trauma in our lives it takes a toll and can cause you to expect abandonment in the wake of disappointment. these emotions play off each other like a domino effect, it’s a learned pattern. and it’s destructive. once you become aware and start to rewrite the story that you are safe to experience disappointment in your relationship and that you are still deeply loved by your partner and still deeply love your partner in return, it will allow you to forge a new path in your neural network of learned behaviour, and allow you to start making healthier choices based on this new pathway

this morning my partner woke up for work and i was beat tired so i kept sleeping and before he left, he came and crouched over me and kissed every inch of my face over and over again. he told me how cute i am, how beautiful i am, and continued to kiss every part of me. i’m thankful for his patience and for his overflow of love. most of all i’m thankful for the dedication he has to himself to become the best person he can be, he inspires me to keep growing because he illustrates how evident growth impacts not just you but the people around you too

[anoritheark]

7.0 Me

I'm an. updated new me, a few apps added, files transferred, a virtual digital share.

I woke up to a new version of me. I had been updated, apps added, files transferred, a digital share, files lost, bytes deleted, self corrupted so much that I cannot recognize me from the start.

[heavyheartedhorror]

You deserve to smile until your face is tight, laugh until everyone around you laughs without knowing why, and to enjoy yourself as if are on the vacation of your dreams....

[theoldkyokodied]

If you follow my main you had to know this was coming… anyway. Enjoy these bloodweave doodles :)

[amygdalae]

its interesting to me how self-deprecation neatly ties into making others feel bad. like. if you constantly assume that you’re stupid no matter how informed or skilled in a topic you might be, people who are a bit less learned or skilled than you might see how you, someone who is obviously skilled, talk down about yourself, and assume that if you think YOURE an idiot you must think theyre an even bigger idiot and lose confidence or find you intimidating as a result. its fucked up. and its part of why it can be so important to break out of cycles of self-hatred--not just for yourself, but for people around you

[pemprika]

an untainted innocence

[shiningmystic]

I’ve realized I have a gaping hole of abandonment that’s finally being realized. My father was a single parent and lost him wife to early. With his big heart and devastating loss after devastating loss (my uncle died 4 years prior to my mom) he shut himself off.

This meant that me and my siblings were emotionally deprived and took whatever terrible scraps from our actual caregivers; our grandparents who were very clear they didn’t want to raise another set of children. We felt handed off to and ignored. Like we didn’t matter but then when we needed to keep up appearances that’s when we got attention.

Is it my fathers fault? Yes in some way because he had 3 kids and shutting down with that responsibility is neglectful but could you blame him? The way he was raised and the fact he has to be a single parent when he has a hole in his heart is unfair.

Was it my grandparent fault? Yes in some way because they could have stepped up and seen the situation for what it was: a tragedy. But there lives living through ww2 was already tragic why would they think this was any different? It was unfair for my grandparents having to take care of us when they just wanted to relax and not be parents.

But what about the kids? That’s what I thought in my teens as I had revelation after revelation. It was all about them because they suffered and neglected themselves. Why must the kids pick up the scraps to repair there hearts when it was so ready and willing to love before the neglect? The abuse? The abandonment?

Maybe that’s why I am so angry and judgmental of myself; do I abandon others unknowingly? Do I still blame myself for what was done to me? Do I deprive people of my love because I can’t bare to get hurt but I’m hurting others by doing that. Love isn’t a thing but a whom; people a person a choice.

People will love you even if you don’t, pushing them away only hurts you because it continues the narrative of being alone. It’s not that no one will hurt you, it’s knowing that there is someone out there worth loving and loving you back.

My heart is heavy I’ll go drink some tea.

-ShiningMystic

[thewaywardstoic]

How do people get good at anything? What are the steps they take to hone their skills?

Hello, I’m The Wayward Stoic, and I will pen your question into journal tonight. Pride. It all starts here. I’m sure you’re probably thinking, “But to be prideful is a sin or immoral”. And sure, you may be right. Just as a broken clock tells time twice a day. Pride alone isn’t some sort of evil incarnate. It isn’t a “path to the dark side” or such hyperbole nonsense. Though, some of that…

[conspicuous-clown-car]

AAAAAAAAAUUUGGHHHHH

themb ;w;

[jabesa0]

💵 Money Shot 💵

[itzitxou]

Smooches for shizun 💞

[heavyheartedhorror]

I always speak from the heart even when I'm quiet......

[thatdeadaquarius]

About your language brainrot. I see your "Reader's writing can't match tyvat's long and flowery writing" and bring you "Tyvat isn't used to books over 50 pages long so a short story to the Reader is a whole dictionary to tyvat readers".

Seriously, have you seen how thin the books are? They don't wrote novels, they write short chapters formatted in the way really old stories are. As in, summarizing all the events down into one smooth story then adding a few quotes. Fanfiction writers are insane. They will willingly sit down and write hundreds of words at a time. To them, a proper modern day story of maybe, oh 10k words or so, would probably be like the Oddessy itself.

If we were to combine the two headcanons. It would end up as many historians being intimidated by this insanely long written scripture in the language of the forgotten.

I'm going to take this a step further and say that if the creator asked some people to proofread their things, it would establish a hiarchy of who is able to actually finish the book the creator read and who isn't.

NOW THIS, THIS IS MY FUCKING JAMMMM

I'm so sorry this is so old!! u probably all know this by this point that I've really slowed down as the year has gone on, but I graduated university and then got my first job so its been pretty crazy!

Sun: Reader (you/they/them)

Orbit: Headcanons-ish

Stars: dash of all the book/nerds of Genshin, heavy on Sumeru?

Comets & Meteors: Content Warnings: Cussing, 16+ Mature Audiences, Spoliers for Sumeru Archon Quests/Scaramouche, & Trigger Warnings: mention of shipping/characters shipping themselves with you.

Comment if any missed, please.

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FULL STOP.

THE AKADEMIYA, FONTAINE RESEARCH INSTITUTE, HAVE BEEN WAITTTINNGGGG ON YOUR ASS LMAO

You fall from the fucking sky like a 5 star, or pop out of the Irminsul or whatever

and immediately are mobbed by scholars. LMAO jkjk (not really, bc that's what it’d feel like)

can you even imagine the dread older stories(”the classics” to them), that was instilled in the poor students around Teyvat??

id like to think ur works are the most preserved over the thousands of years of Teyvat archeologists excavating them, in comparison to other authors (teyvat just likes you more, suck it William Shakespeare)

also, bc I cant resist language differences/world building I'm sorryyyy 😭 😭

the vocab of Genshin lang vs. ours, has significantly less vocabulary like their actual dictionary is 1/3 the size of ours type of energy

(Omfg all ur fanfics being considered like insanely long realistic romantic classics or tragedies like Jane Austen-level, and only the richest and biggest play companies put on plays about ur stories bc the script goes on for hours)

(ur plays only get put on for rlly big events bc of this, like Lantern Rite or like a Summer/Winter festival/your birthday, which is, yes, an international holiday)

dude the sheer power move of anything you’ve written being essentially “Journey of the West” to them, like Damnnn.

endless like adaptations, plays, Teyvat-short stories condensing it, (THEIR OWN FANFICTION ABOUT UR STORIES)

the power is, in fact, going to your head every time another scholar both deflates at how long ur stuff is, but also lights up bc they get to read it

speaking of scholars… you know who snatched you up first. you know. you don’t even need to read the next line.

Alhaitham.

sneaky bastard he is, absolutely manipulated, mansplained (and manwhored bc he knows he’s handsome, cheeky little shit) his way into getting you to sit down with him and interview you about both translating other classics, your own, giving your own analysis of others works and ur own, and picking ur brain apart of how/why you wrote urs, etc. its fucking endless,

Kaveh had to come rescue you bc u were starving to death after getting stuck with the Haravatat scholar in his office for nearly 7 hours of interrogation discussion about literature

and Alhaitham wasn't even nearly done, he’d informed you as you left that he already had another appointment for later conversation scheduled (how?? you don't even know ur own schedule??? you have a schedule???) and was looking forward to more of your “creative and enlightening input” :)))

(you’re never going to escape him, not even Nahida herself can save you from his stubborn ass)

On another note, Xingqiu is quaking when you agree to autograph his copy of your stories (of which he has all hard covers of the first edition translations)

Zhongli/Rex Lapis is known for having a near-lifelong passion for searching for your works specifically, and learning how to translate them better into Teyvatian vernacular

like the same way he can absolutely speak on Rex Lapis facts/rocks/adepti info, is the same confidence he speaks about knowing ur work lol

(yes he did also ask for several autographs and another sit-down talk about the works, tho a lot more sneaky then Alhaitham bc he just casually gets u guys into it during dinner)

Barbatos/Venti has written some of the most famous songs based on your stuff, he has his favorites too,

but he always claims the best songs are any that have been written in the story, like either when a character sings something, or there are like quotes from songs ur fanfics are based on lol

(he also demanded to hear what they actually sound like from you, yes, you have to sing them for him lol)

Venti also can surprisingly drunkenly ramble the entirety of at least one of ur stories, like, word for word lmao

(Diluc gave in and did give him a drink on the house for that one, just once, Venti doesn’t remember it lol)

(I forgot to mention, u guys still speak the same language, just like, different versions of it)

ur works being one of the few things all the Archons can freely talk about with each other, like it’s neutral ground bc they’re all fangirling about it lmao

Furina and Neuvillette have had like,, fierce debates over the decades about character dynamics and the general drama of ur stories, they’ve gotten into it enough they’ve stopped talking to each other for a couple days a few times lol

Albedo, Sucrose, Kokomi, Yae Miko, Ei, Raiden, have read every single work they’re gotten their hands on in Teyvat (it took them like a literal year or longer)

Albedo drew you fanart for every single story, bc he’s hyperfixated on everything related to you ngl,

Kokomi had commissioned smaller pocket versions of ur works (which later got popular thanks to Yae Miko) both the OG and the Teyvat shortened versions

THE HARBINGERS ARE THE MOST DOWN BAD LMAO

Childe has literally tried to recreate battle scenes from ur works lmao

and gets especially riled up about fighting someone who resembles any characters from them (esp villains, what a cutie)

You cannot fathom the amount of research throughout Teyvat that has been secretly or indirectly funded by Pantalone/Tsaritsa

from the experts to analyze them, to funding play companies to act them out, to actually excavating places to get more of ur stuff unearthed

(the Harbingers absolutely are the first group of people that got to read several of ur stories first bc of this, like the world’s most exclusive secret book club lol)

Scaramouche used to clown on Childe all the time about how he was too impatient to even “sit down and read the King’s classics”, and he was downright insufferable when he found out about Tartaglia’s habit of recreating battle scenes/that being what motivated him to fight sometimes lol

that being said, Wanderer surprisingly never forgot ur stories.

Even when his memories were wiped for a bit, he found comfort in these fantastical epics still sticking around, even when his old names did not

(he mayyyy or mayyy nottt have secretly namedhimselfafteroneofthetragicprotagonistsherelatesto- )

oh btw, Nahida also found joy and comfort in ur stories when she was trapped, they also helped her literally grow as a person bc she had ur stories to help her sort of process the world/what life was like outside of her dreaming prison 🥺💔❤️‍🩹

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OMFG

ANYWAY FULL TONE SHIFT LMFAO-

the ABSOLUTE SPIRAL-RED-STRING-CONSPIRACY-THEORY-BOARD ENERGY IF THIS WAS A BLUNT LANGUAGE AU LMAOOOO

like specifically how Teyvatians like to give all the context ever thru their words, but older deities/beings like you just do simple phrases that can have deeper meanings (whereas teyvat just explains all the meanings behind their words)

STOP there’s like an official display at the Akademiya and Fontaine Institute of red string theory boards 😭😭 (look what you’ve done to themmm LMAO)

for like every story of urs, INCLUDING THE FANFICS STOP

IMAGINE THE SHIPPING WARS IF U EVER WROTE ONE THAT WASNT EXPLICIT OR LIKE ONE OF THE MAIN ROMANTIC INTERESTS HAD CHEMISTRY WITH OTHER CHARACTERS HAHAHAHAA

that's actually what Akademiya scholars argue about the most viciously, it’s like politics you can’t just bring up ships from ur stories casually in regular convos 💀

(poor Cyno has to deal with a shipping war once a year bc someone always makes the mistake of reading ur work for the first time (without being told to not talk to others abt ships lol) and it starts an all out brawl in the cafeteria every time LMAO)

Also yes.

Cyno is a fanboy.

(he has read Creator x Reader-insert fanfiction.)

(As have most of the characters mentioned, and those not lol)

…

(I'm gonna make a whole Creator x reader fanfic post one day i stg lmao)

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an iced coffee? for me?? :0

ok but real talk…

wtf do you guys wanna see for new years!!

i didn't do a inktober/october days thingy bc i felt too unprepared (and bc id wanted to post that 1000+ followers eldritch au for Halloween)

but now i kinda wanna, at least for a few days :o

ill post a poll in a minute, so check it out!! but still, please feel free to comment some ideas here! :)

Safe Travels Deafening Dreamer,

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