#Which made it even worse

[tiralja]

Ok, I have to scream about this somewhere but nobody I know cares about trashy trasmigration bls so! Here we go!

You ever read something with such a stupid cracky premise that there is no way yhat you can take it seriously? Like a 35yr old dude getting thrown into his students smutty bl book about a world that has holy relics that are dildos and whos main character exists just to get fucked by all the characters there? Like one of those really smutty ones, with love interests that crossed the line between pushy and outright abusive sometime last century? Exept this isn't that main character. The MC's supposed to be this longhaired twinky pretty boi and instead they get this muscly teacher who has and will punch the main leads face in if they don't start behaving soon.

So it's one of those stories, where the new main character changes the plot, charms the main leads and has to complete a stupid quest (it's those gd dildo relics, they were stolen and he has to find them) and it's all fun and games!

Until it's very much not.

It's only been like 30 chapters but so far we have gotten:

A long flashback into the original MC's timeline and seen a glimpse of how had it actually was for him (real gd bad, holy shit that's some graphic whump)

Good old race inequality (this is a fantasy setting, some races in there are treated p damn bad)

Both of the current main characters companions getting slowly worse over time as the main character doesn't allow them to fuck him (one of them is also very gd unstable and has tried to get into his pants multiple times, including that time he made an obedient clone of the MC, fucked it on top of his sleeping body and then when that wasn't satisfying enough woke the man himself up so the clode could finish on his face. This man is certifiably insane) and hints that they also have bad backstories them both.

Add to all that that apparently the original MC also exist int this world, has stolen a legendary sword, is going around killing hordes of demons and also knows the current MC by name.

This is just!!!!!

I love it when the story you start reading for crack takes you by the scruff of your neck and trows you right into the deep end of some actually really interesting plot and characters!

Like, what is that psychos deal, how long untill the sweet seeming companion completely cracks, and most importantly, what the hell is up with the original main character?

[turtleblogatlast]

No but like every time I think about Splinter and what he had to go through just to keep the boys alive, my heart hurts for him so badly. Is he perfect? No not at all, but none of them are and by god does he love his sons.

The fact that all of them are alive, and grew to thrive despite the circumstances surrounding them is a testament of how much Splinter loves his boys. He raised four babies following the most traumatic time of his life, all alone with nothing but the sewers to house them (to hide them.) I feel like he’s not given the credit he deserves for all he’s done.

And I get that it’s easy to hold up his flaws and faults when it comes to parenting, I myself like looking into them because flawed characters are super interesting and said flaws make them more realistic and engaging, but he tries, and again, so many others would have given up on the boys or failed along the way but Splinter didn’t.

He’s their father, for all his faults he did his damndest to make sure they survived.

[stiffyck]

I'm posting it before I can back out

No one will ever see me again goodbye I'm going to chuck myself off a cliff now

[claitea]

breaking free from neotwewy is a very Kieran song i think

[sincerely-sofie]

*Skitters up to you on all fours and drops this in your lap, then scrambles up the walls and onto the ceiling and immediately falls asleep*

Comic time! Lucky wakes up in the middle of the night and has a chat with Sen in this one.

[comradekatara]

i’ve been thinking about this a lot lately, and i wanna hear your thoughts on it:

jet is kind of sokka’s hama. he’s who sokka could have been, if he didn’t have katara to support him — much like hama is who katara could have been, if she didn’t have sokka to support her.

i just think there’s a few neat comparisons to be made with jet & hama (and their episodes as a whole).

hmmmm……. there’s a certain kind of appealing symmetry to this claim on its face — sokka and jet are both the leaders of children who must be ruthless and occasionally employ underhanded tactics to achieve their goals — but I actually think that notion does a great disservice to katara. yes, hama and jet perform a very similar function narratively; yes, hama resembles a “dark telos” for katara and thus a sort of trial, and so is stands to reason that jet would also be sokka’s dark telos and trial, since he thwarts jet’s plan much in the same way that katara stops hama’s bloodbending. but like… is that actually true? at all?? “jet” is not actually a sokka episode; it is a katara episode.

sokka doesn’t actually learn anything in this episode or grow in any meaningful way, he’s basically just correct from start to finish. sokka never once experiences the destructive impulse of prioritizing revenge over justice, he is never power-hungry, and he never feels the need to assert himself in a way that “proves” something to his oppressors. if anything, sokka’s worst impulse is his tendency for self-destruction. but you know who does sink into their grief and prioritize destructive revenge? (I wonder…)

both jet and hama exist as trials for katara, eminently appealing figures (hot cool boy who shares her pain and sympathetic elder who shares her burden) in her life who are not what they seem. sokka is immediately suspicious of both of them, and katara is immediately taken with them. katara’s ultimate trial is, of course, in “the southern raiders,” when she is overtly compared to jet by aang, and when she uses the tools of violence she learned from hama in a moment of pure rage and grief. katara prioritizing her humanity is the moment that she fully challenges her potential for becoming them. and it’s not because she’s listening to sokka and appreciating all that he’s done for her, it’s because of aang’s influence, the ways in which he has loved and supported and inspired her to love herself more than she despises her oppressors.

I think people have a tendency to assume that jet is sokka’s narrative foil, before he is katara’s, because they share a few superficial similarities and sokka stands up to him in a more productive way, but jet is nothing like sokka beyond those superficial aspects, whereas he specifically exists to foreshadow katara’s own descent. if anything, the mechanist sort of represents sokka’s dark telos, since he sacrifices his principles for the sake of keeping his people alive and he prioritizes technological innovation in the necessity of war over the preservation of important, sacred sites of cultural heritage in the name of science, which is an impulse sokka definitely possesses and needs to be curbed (by aang). and you could also claim that kya and yue are sokka’s dark teloi, as martyr figures who embodied his fantasies of heroism (which vastly differ from katara’s fantasies of heroism, of course).

but, i would also argue that sokka is himself a “dark telos,” to aang. sokka is the self-negating, depersonalizing, hollow and ruthless figure that aang can never let himself become. jet is a portent designed for katara specifically, a warning to never sink into her grief and rage too fully to wade back to the surface. but sokka is nothing like jet, and never has been. he may come out of his interactions with jet looking quite good, but that really proves nothing. katara isn’t influencing him to be less power-hungry and manipulative and vengeful — no one is; he simply isn’t like that. that doesn’t mean he isn’t himself a portent, however. and that, to me, is far more interesting than a more superficially pleasing yet arbitrary and reductive appeal to “symmetry.”

[stiwfssr]

[governmentmandatedryujinstan420]

releasing this from the hj discord dungeon because the public populace was in agreement also i'm chronically offline on tumblr and need to fix that for my chronically online ahh

[alexisntedgy]

thomas is such an interesting character because everything he does is so affected by his trauma. and even though there’s layers to that trauma, all of those layers stem from or ultimately come back to one event (his death). his trauma is complex, but at the same time it happened in a millisecond.

we don’t see other characters react the way he does to sudden loud noises (save for the captain at times, but that’s just him I think) or have the obviously deeply flawed thought processes he has. he’s stuck in a cycle of almost recreating the build-up to the traumatic event or searching for the same thing over and over again (women who look like Isabelle did, frankly). obsessing over things, but especially women, to the point where at times he is actively trying to convince himself he’s in love.

we see this very clearly in season 3 with his rapid switching of love interests between two women who happen to look alike, and he even twists Mary’s words so it affirms to him that what he is experiencing is infatuation and not a very, very long lived and deeply ingrained trauma response.

his lack of boundaries is not okay by any means, but ultimately I’ve met so many people with complex trauma (which I also have) who have shockingly similar thought patterns. his understanding of love is both immature/underdeveloped and tainted by the pain his mind associates with it by default.

final note for this rant: the fact thomas touches his wound when romance or death are brought up is such a clever detail regarding all of this.

[always-a-joyful-note]

Welp. Tag tagged by @justplaggin for the game

rules: spell out your name or url with songs

I couldn't resist, and thank you very much for it, Jay/Plagg!

To challenge myself, I'm gonna see if I can stick to songs from anime East Asian shows/stories

A - All-in (Alien Stage)

L - Last Dimension (TRIGGER)

W - wi(l)d-screen baroque (Revue Starlight)

A - Artistic Partisan (ALKALOID x Valkyrie)

Y - Yumemiru Architecture (Kagehira Mika; Enstars)

S - STRONGER & STRONGER (Zool)

A - Ame (MEZZO)

J - Joker Flag (IDOLiSH7)

O - OMEGA (STEREO DRIVE FOUNDATION; Yuukoku no Moriarty)

Y - Yume Shizuku (Re:vale)

F - Forever Note (MEZZO)

U - Until it Dies (覃云; Link Click)

L - Lily (Luck Life; Bungo Stray Dogs)

N - Now and Then (Re:vale)

O - Or the Beautiful Golden Drop (Knights; complete version out on May 22, so have the game version)

T - THE POLiCY (IDOLiSH7)

E - Eccentric Party Night!! (Five Eccentrics)

19 songs...and I tried to find ones that I genuinely enjoy right now (RIP to me making this challenge harder), so hence, the above mostly-Japanese-dominated list.

No pressure tags: @bobisnolongerhere @lizzieonka @rosencrantzsguildenstern @msperfectsheep-posts @mahounonbinary @praise-the-lord-im-dead @nitunio @akitchenknife @teslathelame @koi0boi @mihai-florescu @forebodinglight @imissthembutitwasntadisaster and anyone else seeing this because i am now incredibly curious about what songs you will choose (im so sorry if I forgot someone)

[waterfallofspace]

Anyone else not able to say 'bless you', either because it feels too personal, embarrassing, slightly erotic or a mixture of all of the above-

Buuuuuut also whenever an event interrupts the conversation, you feel so much more awkward not saying anything/commenting on it at all, and so you wish you could just... say that phrase, or have some other thing that makes sense to say to just- shrug it off???

[rainy-day-revelry]

I both love and hate realizing that my fixations and headcannons for one fandom are just carry overs from the previous ten fandoms I’ve been in. My tastes have not evolved, I’ve just been trying them in different fonts. Gosh dangit.

[sunforgrace]

they saw him gearing up to scream and cry and throw up about the angel being dead again but it’s really bad this time so he had to charge up (like one of those lightbulbs you have to leave out in the sun) for mega widower era….2! and said send his ass to car heaven

[hammill-goes-fogwalking]

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[almost-nostalgic]

Marcille let me know that my usual style wasn't going to cut it, and instead I resorted to colour pencils.

A rough sketch, but I enjoyed it. I don't think of myself as good with colour, but it's definitely fun to use. I have a bad habit of making colours look muddy and gross... I have banned myself from using my usual black pen on this, because I know I'll go overboard. I'm very bad at making things look soft with black ink.

Personal life below the cut.

I have a job interview on Tuesday for a receptionist role. Turns out some place kept my resume from 3 months ago, so I guess it's good to know that the hundreds of job applications I sent out aren't just going in the bin. I haven't had a single call or email back for a job since Feb, so it's exciting, but nerve-wracking. After I quit after 3 days at my freight forwarding job, I feel a bit useless. I had a commission from a friend, but obviously that doesn't mean a shiny new career as an artist has begun lol.

I'm not sure that a receptionist job will be the right fit, but I really should give it a shot. People always tell me I'm great at customer service and that I'm charismatic, but it really drains me. Hopefully, a receptionist job will be more emails and waiting around rather than constant face to face customer service. I'm really good at interviewing, but I just can't stop myself from promising too much of myself. I have a bad habit of giving 100% of my energy to a job, which is a great way of being sucked dry and burning out.

I also can't say I'd be good at just sitting around either because I always feel the need to do something if I'm working. I remember working in the bakery and my boss literally volunteering to have me for as many hours as I want and to pretend to look busy because she had an excess of hours to give to employees and refusing because I couldn't handle busywork. I'm sure I can find a balance somehow...

[undertheredhood]

it’s quite sad that the only thing keeping jason todd from killing himself is that there’s a very probable chance of him being resurrected again, which is the last thing he wants happening.