#a.m. thoughts

[canticleofcanticlesforleibowitz]

Time to date myself, I guess. I’m not only old enough to remember this show, but to also know someone who did this job IRL- at the same time. Anyway, just remembering way back when and why older women cling to their crush on this ridiculous retired Francophile.

[cryingwithangels]

i have entered my hungry girl era - hungry for love. hungry for learning. hungry for growth. hungry for self discovery. hungry for healing.  my appetite can never be stilled. it’s ever-growing

[solesurvivorjen]

Trauma is so fucking weird.

Sometimes I go through times where I think I fuck up and I expect the person to yell at me and tell me how much of a peice of shit I am. Or ghost me completely and talk about how shitty I am behind my back. I'm not sure which is worse or if I can tell. I think I lost that comprehension with all the shit I've been through.

It's so strange to me when I mess up and the person just talks to me calmly about the thing messed up. It's so shocking to me that people would want to have an actual conversation with me about the problem instead of yelling at me and berating me. I'm not use to it but it's something I'm trying to work on. Working on not to expect the worst out of people and actually comprehending human compassion, empathy, and understanding.

It's so scary when I mess up because I either flight or freeze and I feel my whole body on fire when I feel like I do something wrong. I'm just really thankful I have a proper support system who makes me feel safe and appreciated and tell me I'm only human and I'm flawed that I don't need to call myself a peice of shit for every small mess up.

[hood-ex]

I just think Dick should take notice that Bruce almost never makes eye contact with him anymore when they're in public together because Bruce is constantly scanning the rooftops around them. Like Bruce is incredibly paranoid about snipers now, and he's especially vigilant around Dick, and if they go in a shop or building, Bruce will always either corral Dick away from the windows, or he'll place himself closest to the windows so that if anything does come flying through the glass, it's going to hit him first.

[thoughtkick]

You walked away and all I did was watch you, because no matter how hard I tried to make you stay, you still left.

A.M.

[tokutaiseichan]

I’ve pointed this out before but so far, Hotarubi is the only chapter where a Like Dove never made any appearances. Thanks to Taiga, we know that Like Dove is probably some kind of a spying device and everything points to the possibility that its duty is to monitor missions involving ghouls.

Yet it never made an appearance during the course of Hotarubi’s mission. Why is that? At first, I thought it’s perhaps because Taiga had killed and eaten the one that appeared during the Sinostra chapter. In the first place, we never found out if there are more than one Like Dove. It’s an anomaly—and a rare one at that. It might be the only one or maybe not.

But then I started thinking: what if the reason a Like Dove didn’t appear to monitor the ghouls’ mission this time is because they already have an “Insider” involved in the mission?

Zenji is automatically out. My man’s dead and Darkwick doesn't even know his ghost is still wandering around. Subaru? Makes sense since he has already lied to everyone before. What’s another secret? But after all that happened at the Ultio prison and considering his personality, I feel like what he confessed that time was everything he was involved with. Subaru’s awful at lying and hiding things, if he’s the spy he’d be a bit more obvious and feel even more guilty. So hmm… I wonder who we’re left with……

Remember how during that one time MC was trying to escape again, Haku was the one who just conveniently showed up and successfully convinced her to not defy Darkwick anymore?

Sure, we can see it as simply a considerate gesture of a senior looking after his anxious junior. Especially when it's so blatantly implied later that he had experienced the consequences of going against the rules. Still, the timing is just… too perfect…

MC trying to escape → Bumped into Rui who's about to head to a mission → Haku suddenly appeared (Rui: “But Moby said no one usually rides around this time of the day~”) → Haku scolded both MC & Rui一brought up the clause of disciplinary actions if one were to do anything funny during missions and reminded Rui of his standing (Haku: “You know it's even worse if you're the one she's with, right?”) → Haku got MC away from Rui → Haku reassured MC and convinced her to stay at Darkwick to break her curse first instead of running away (like what he did before?)

It's almost as if he was purposely sent there for damage control.

“I'll keep this incident a secret from the Academy,” when the reason MC can't even escape in the first place is because Darkwick already knows what she's trying to do? Yeah, right. If you have tried to run away before, you'd know Darkwick has eyes everywhere.

I also found his responses from chapter 2 of his Personal Story rather interesting.

If MC thanked him → “…You shouldn't put too much stock in what I said, you know.” (He acts like the ever dependable and reassuring senior to MC but when she expressed genuine gratitude, he immediately backed off. Does he feel guilty because of how MC seems to always trust his words now? Because he’s keeping something from her?)

If MC shook her head → “Looking at you trying so hard made me realize how underhanded I am.” (Now he just sounds so bitter here…)

There's also the bait and switch with Hotarubi.

During Sinostra, MC found out the existence of a spy among the ghouls. And immediately at Hotarubi early chapters, Moby told her that the Hotarubi ghouls are hiding something. This planted seeds of doubt in MC一she thought one of them might be related to the spy. But at the end of the book, it was… in a way, disproven.

The secret they kept was Zenji's existence一for Haku & Zenji一and Subaru's mission regarding Lyca and his true stigma. This, ironically, leads up to MC being much more determined to trust the ghouls and be more wary about the Academy and Institute一even more than she originally did.

The reason I brought this up? Because the narrative has now painted Hotarubi as the “innocent” house. They made us (both MC & the readers) think how the ghouls over there are just trying their damn best to protect their friends… so that you'd suspect it the least for housing any spy (whom, in Taiga's words, is supposedly trying to screw other ghouls over). They made it seem like Hotarubi must've shown all their cards by now and gave us a sense of… relief? In a way.

(Obviously, there's still the mystery of Haku's dorm transfer. But that's for another day…)

Last but not the least, I'll bring you Haku's last words he told MC before jumping into the fire:

EN: Sorry, I guess I couldn't be the guy you wanted me to be. Ha ha… Don't look like that. Never lost faith in me, did you?

JP: ……すまんね。おまえさんの期待��、応えられんかったわ。はは……そんな顔しなさんな。最後におれを信じてくれて、ありがとね (Direct, almost word-to-word tl: ……Sorry. Looks like I couldn't meet your expectations. Haha…… Don't make that face. Thanks, for trusting me even at the bitter end.)

“Thanks for trusting me to the end,” are you Implying MC has reasons to lose her faith in you, Mister Haku Kusanagi? 🤔🤨

This is probably just me reaching but, has anyone noticed how “trust” seems to be a recurring theme with MC and Haku in particular? “Trust me. You'll be fine here,” and “If you need any help, I'm always happy to lend you a hand,” but also, “Don’t take what I said too seriously.” Which is it???

Anway, since Obscuary is just around the corner, I just wanna say that: 

1) If a Love Dove doesn't appear then it means I'm just looking too much into things and that the reason it doesn't appear is simply because Taiga has killed the one during Sinostra. And everything I wrote up to this point are hogwash.

2) If a Love Dove does appear again, I'll add +1 sus point to Haku.

“Why are you so suspicious of Haku anyway?” Years of watching anime and reading manga/visual novels/etc has taught me that you should always be wary of the sawayaka oniisan type. =w=)b

If you read until this point then thank you for giving my 2 a.m. rambles a chance! But please keep in mind that they don't call me Detective Reaching #2 for nothing. 🤧 For now, I'm going to log off so 🫡 Ciao!

[sarmaril]

No actually I'm still hung up on it.

Zero's "a friend is a person your trust" revelation DIRECTLY followed by the WoL thinking about Zenos.

Zenos, whose feelings towards the WoL were so strong that they not only broke through Meteion's Ultimatium, carried the Warrior on his back, and then as he lay dying STILL had a strong enough sway over the dynamis in at the edge of everything to save the WoL's life, letting himself die at the end of it, their conversation ending with Zenos, through his final act, confessing that the only happiness he found in life was with someone that he didn't know how to love in a way that wasn't violent and selfish with a passion enough to tear the world apart.

"A friend is a person you trust" not to WoL, not ONLY at least, because they had a friendship that was not built on the foundation of a mutual trust, but on the foundation of challenge, and acceptance for the other as the broken, fascinating thing that they are.

My enemy, my friend.

[sun-marie]

You're everything.

💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙

[thehopefulquotes]

You walked away and all I did was watch you, because no matter how hard I tried to make you stay, you still left.

A.M.

[uber-dawn]

chat i'm having random thoughts about eos post-game and eevee protagonist. it's no secret that eevee is a popular pick for this game and imo no matter what you choose to evolve them into there's a very poetic explanation for each (though i'm not sure how well i can articulate my thoughts lol). like,

- Flareon: coming from a world of darkness and sharp hostility, the hero chooses to become a soft and fluffy fire type. the hero is so smitten by the sun in the past (and so horrified by the lack of it in the future) that they become a fire type to bring that warmth and light wherever they go! (plus flareon's my favorite :])

- Jolteon: similar to flareon, wanting to bring light to the people of the past. there's also something to be said about the fact electric type are immune to paralysis, as well as the idea that hero was gone for months after defeating dialga, then once they come back they're alive! they want to run, and jump, and celebrate that they're here!

- Vaporeon: the fact that Grovyle and hero were seperated in a storm, that they met partner for the first time on a beach, that the hidden land is across the ocean, (smth smth manaphy, ive never played that far), that water doesnt flow in the future, eeeeverything about chapter 5, and that the partner found comfort in the krabby's bubbles. water in eos is important when it comes to partings and reunions.

- Umbreon: they're a dark type. do i need to explain.

okayifyouinsist, hero comes from a world of darkness!! even if they don't remember it, that darkness affected them on such a deep level that their body never forgot! as well, umbreons and dusknoirs have lots of golden rings on their bodies, and umbreons have a type advantage against dusknoirs your partner still loves you in your new form, but everytime they look at you they can't help but remember Him, and shudder. it's about being forced to reckon with the fact you placed your trust in Dusknoir, and he took advantage of it and betrayed you.

- Espeon: right this wasnt just about umbreon. espeon and umbreon were made to be parallels; where umbreon has high defenses, espeon has a high special attack (+ dark type is immune to psychic). where umbreon has a type advantage on Dusknoir, espeon has a weakness. an umbreon hero will never trust Him again; and espeon hero chooses to believe in second chances.

- Leafeon: GROVYLEEE, it's about choosing to change your very dna so that you never forget your friend! in the short time you know him, you fully understand why your past self stood by his side! there's sorrow in that without your memories you'll never fully understand your relationship with him, but your soul remembers, and you still love your friend. deep down, a leafeon hero is ashamed they ever considered Grovyle a criminal, and wishes they could have had more time with him, in less dire circumstances. last note, the fact that the world of the future was so barren and lifeless without the sun, and the fact you become a leafeon to reflect how the future is alive. :)

- Glaceon: the fact that the hero comes from a world that was frozen, and still becomes an ice type, the future was cold, but a hero glaceon still found beauty in it. it's about remaining hopeful and that with or without fixing the future, you still need to survive in this world. it's about understanding your situation and making peace with it, while still striving to make it better.

- Sylveon: i remember that when fairy type came out, people were trying to justify why it was strong against dragon, and my favorite explanation for it was that in "fairy" tales, the hero slays the dragon. the sylveon hero did it! they slew the dragon, and their story has finally come to an end! as well, it's about wanting to give off a cheery look. it's about saying "don't look at the violence and darkness, look at me, smile! i'm here to help you!" (we'll have Explorers DX someday, trust 🙏. )

[surqrised]

You walked away and all I did was watch you, because no matter how hard I tried to make you stay, you still left.

A.M.

[punkeropercyjackson]

How i look with he/they pronouns and no t

[super-marvel-dc]

Steve, to Bucky: How did you lose Y/N at a military base?!

Bucky: I don't know! One second they're here and the next they're gone!

Steve: I thought you put the leash on them so this wouldn't happen?!

Bucky: I did, but they chewed through it!

König, walking into the room: *Waves* hello!

Bucky, and Steve still arguing: *Without looking at König* hello.

Y/N, hanging upsidedown off of König: Hi guys, look what I found!

Steve, and Bucky: *Stops arguing and stars at Y/N in disbelief*

Y/N: Can we keep him? He's adorable!

König: *Blushes*

[unmotivated-student]

[After THAT conversation with Cellbit, Natalan was talking about how Cellbit and Baghera basically destroyed his armor]

Duxo: ah no mames, you should've told them to give you a new one [armor].

Natalan: No, I asked for it, it's okay.

Duxo: [*laughs*] No... so sad...

Natalan: For messing with married men bro.

Duxo: You didn't do anything wrong Natalan, you didn't do anything wrong...

Natalan: For messing with married men bro.

Duxo: But you didn't mess with married men.

Natalan: Now he is married, I reminded him [that he and Roier were together in the past] and it hurt him, he couldn't stand it.

Duxo: well, it's true he couldn't stand it... Well, in fact you did get married, because weren't you married to Rodezel? And then you also cheated on him with me...

Natalan: Yeah! You were a witness.

Duxo: Yes but you cheated on him with everyone.

Natalan: You were a witness.

bro knew what he was doing and he didn't give a fuck, they were married for like five seconds and he still decided to get in front of Cellbit and say "yes yes, I was also married to him, you're not special" [obviously not using those words xd] even when he was killed by Cellbit and the chat said to him something like "you should've told him about the child you had" he just went "haha yeah, I should've done that" even though he didn't even remembered well the kid's name.

Que grande

[thespilledquotes]

You walked away and all I did was watch you, because no matter how hard I tried to make you stay, you still left.

A.M.

[bumbleactuallypostsart]

day 3: Lové

(i did not know what to do for this one so take this)

This is based off that one post by dogman where he said if there WAS an Olandy route you’d have an option to date them as well,,

PLUS extra version I thought was funny (I’m unfunny)

Me when I’m STUPID and accidentally made poor Oliver look like a TWINK WSNRWKNRWKNWKRN IM SO SORRY HE DIDNT DESERVE IT PLS FORGIVE ME 😭😭😭😭

Love is love guys when a green thing can pull so can you (or if you don’t want to I wish you the best of luck!)