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musingsoflulu · 2 years

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Mountain Lakes 100 Race Recap

"I've always just looked at 100 miles as life in a day. You have all the trials and tribulations of a life in one day." - Ann Trason

I accomplished a very big thing this past weekend. It was one of the hardest thing I've ever done in my life, but what a privilege it is that I was able to choose to do this hard thing.

The day started off at 8 AM along the buttery Pacific Crest Trail and winding back around Timothy Lake. We couldn't have asked for a more beautiful day and the forest provided shade and some views of Hood through the trees. I saw Keiren around mile 7 at the first aid station and we did a little dance and hugged before I continued moving. The next 24 miles were spent listening to a throwback Thursday playlist @katherine-withak put together for me and talking with people on the trail. I went into the race with a goal of getting sub 24 hours (sub 14:24 min miles) which was ambitious but didn't feel impossible after speaking with Anna Mae. I started off conservatively, averaging 11:00-12:00 min miles, knowing that I would slow down later on in the race and also lose time at aid stations. I ended up running with a group of infectious disease docs/professors from Seattle for several miles before I landed at mile 31 to see Logan, Mom, and my uncle David again.

We spent a total of 13 minutes tending to my feet, refilling my pack, taking in some Tylenol and salt tabs, and slathering my legs in diclofenac gel before I set out again. Unfortunately, in the midst of all the chaos, I forgot my phone with Logan and couldn't listen to any more music until I saw them again at mile 57. This stretch was tougher (more ups and downs vert wise) but legs were still feeling pretty fresh and I was in good spirits. Passed a "Disco and Dad Joke" aid station, heard a few dad jokes that were just as bad as you'd expect. Saw an amazing sunset over Mount Hood National Forest. Didn't realize how low I was on water and ran out with about 4 miles to go before I saw my crew again. Made it through though and came into the mile 57 aid station at around 8:00 PM.

I was feeling much worse at this aid station. Getting ready to run for hours alone in the dark felt daunting. My feet had started to develop some nasty blisters and my shirt/sports bra were soaked with sweat from the day. I had packed a long sleeve shirt and spare sports bra, but had completely forgotten to pack a spare short sleeve shirt. My uncle David gave me the Under Armour shirt off of his back and it made all the difference having dry clothes on. We slathered my legs in diclofenac gel again, popped two Tylenol, filled up my bag with all the caffeinated things, and I set out into the night.

Miles 57-83 consisted of me going through most of the aid stations again (this part was an out and back). The climbs were hard. I was very tired, mentally and physically, and had been up for almost 24 hours at this point. I started getting paranoid about mountain lions following me while I was alone in the dark. Every shadow scared me. Every time my life hit a reflector on a course marking, my heart skipped. But another playlist that Kat made me got me through it and I kept repeating the mantra that Alli told me before the race- "It's not always. It's just right now." I said this to myself over and over and over.

By the time I got into the mile 83 aid station, I was still 40 minutes ahead of schedule for my sub 24 hour goal. Mom, Uncle David, and Logan were pretty dialed at this point, lightened my pack for the last 18 miles. Crew was very limited and so many of my friends couldn't be there in person. Logan showed me videos they all created to encourage me - Claire, Mindy, Kirsten, Alli, Dani, Kat, Tay, Bronwyn, Alex, Anne Mae. So much support, so much love. It was completely overwhelming. I was finally able to pick up Keiren at this time to pace me. She was so encouraging, distracting me with stories about her time in the Alps this past month and holding me steady as I went uphill. I had knots in my right calf and left quad that wouldn't go away and every step uphill hurt badly.

Once the sun came up, I got a little bit of a second wind and saw the end was so close. I thought rocks on the trail were potato sacks. I told Keiren that I missed malls because they're so nostalgic. I'm sure I said other very silly things.

I heard the screams at the finish line and ran as fast as I could down the hill, trying to hold it together until I crossed at a time of 23:44. As soon as I did, I broke down crying, hugging Logan and my family so tight. I hugged the race directors, who handed me my sub 24 hour buckle. I hugged Keiren, who was also crying.

I think the most overwhelming part of running 100 miles is how many people were willing to help me get there. Running 100 miles is innately very selfish. Time is suspended and you are solely focused on putting one foot in front of the other. Not to mention the time it takes to train for one. Friends modified their schedules to get in miles with me. They sent me care packages and encouraging messages. My family flew across the country and spent 2-3 days helping me prep for and complete a 100 mile race, all while sleep deprived and jet lagged. Logan made dinner almost every night as I put in the miles after work, walked Harper every morning because I was too tired and needed more sleep, adjusted our weekend plans around my long runs, crewed for 3 days at Wonderland while I ran around Mt. Rainier with friends. He did all of this and never expected anything in return. The most selfless, giving partner I could have ever asked for. I just feel so lucky and so loved.

I don't really know what's next for me. I'm taking a break from training for a while and just plan on doing what feels good for my body and soul. Whatever the future holds, I've taken so much away from this entire experience.

#trail running #running #oregon

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chrancecriber · 2 years

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Radio NET Bulgaria (December 28, 2022)

23:56 NORMAN BROWN - It Keeps Coming Back 23:52 KEN NAVARRO - Walking Each Other Home 23:49 VINCENT INGALA - Snap, Crackle, Pop 23:45 BE'NE MUSIC - Missing You 23:41 PAUL DOZIER - No Ordinary Love 23:37 JEFFERY SMITH - Groove You Tonight 23:33 JEANETTE HARRIS - You Can Dance 23:29 KOOL&KLEAN - Cruise 23:24 JAZZ FUNK SOUL - Fall Departs 23:20 BRIAN SIMPSON - Here with You 23:15 NICHOLAS COLE - Between Us (feat. Michael Stever) 23:11 BLAIR BRYANT - Red Tiger 23:06 NILS - Hey Ya 23:00 MARCUS ANDERSON - Clean Heart 22:55 ROGER SANCHEZ - Another Chance (Afterlife Mix) 22:49 R.I.B - I Look At Sea Horizon 22:45 FILIPE NARCISO - Forbidden Love (Original Mix) 22:41 JENS BUCHERT - Polaris (feat. Shine) 22:37 LOWLAND - Seven Cities 22:32 SEXY LIYA, DEEMA - Chemistry Of Love (DJ Shved Remix) 22:26 DEEP SECTOR - Rainbows (Original Mix) 22:21 DJ SHAH, ADRINA THORPE - Who Will Find Me (Acoustic Version) 22:18 SWEET EUPHONY - After We Close Our Eyes (Chillout Version) 22:13 ANN GRACE - Moon In Love 22:08 ABOVE & BEYOND, OCEANLAB - I Am What I Am (Original Mix) 22:05 ZARA, SNATT & VIX - No Angel (Zetandel Chill Out Mix) 22:01 DUBDIVER - Desert Land (Eternal Calling Mix) 21:58 SCUBBA, IVETTE MORAES, RONAN - The Sweetest Taboo (Remix) 21:55 SENSPROOF - Starflight (Alex Atmospheric Chillout Remix) 21:52 ACTIVA, JULIE HARRINGTON - You Are Here (Ambient Mix) 21:49 ASHLEY WALLBRIDGE, ELLEAH - These Walls (Album Mix) 21:43 SHERRIE LEA - No Ordinary Love (Arnold T Chill Mix) 21:37 ADELE - Skyfall (Skerdi M & Angelo DownTempo) 21:33 BLANK & JONES, ELLES - Mind Of The Wonderful (Acoustic Version) 21:28 YIRUMA - River Flows In You (N-Drew Fate Remix) 21:24 SYLVERING - Strangelove 21:21 LEO ROJAS - Flying Heart 21:15 MILA - Impation 21:11 FOR FOUND FUTURE - Time Is Moving (Chillout Lounge Mix) 21:07 GARBAGE - Milk 21:02 MEDINA - You & I (DJ Petroff Remix) 20:58 TYDI, TANIA ZYGAR - The Moment It Breaks (Original Mix) 20:52 JOHN DAHLBACK - Everywhere (D.O.N.S. vs. Tranquillo chill mix) 20:48 ZAZA, JORGE NAVA - Broken (Chill Mix) 20:43 DINKA - Hotel Summerville (Original Mix) 20:39 SOLID SESSIONS - Janeiro (Chiller Twist Blue Line Remix) 20:33 VIVIAN LACOSTE - Clair Del Mar 20:28 ALBERT ST. BARTH - Sabor Do Lounge 20:22 20SABANCI - As Faces Fade (Domenico Cascarino & Luca Lombardi Chill Out Remix) 20:15 AUROSONIC, KATTY HEATH - My Good Place (Mark Otten Downtempo Remix) 20:12 DJ PAULBASS, DJ GORODNEV & P.KOLVINKOVSKY - Call Me (Lounge Mix) 20:08 HEAVN - Bright Lights 20:01 TORNIKE - Night Steps (Original Mix) 19:55 GREEN POINT ORCHESTRA - Miriam Dub 19:50 GARY B - Time To Slow It Down 19:47 LOST FREQUENCIES, FLYNN - Recognise (Acoustic Version) 19:42 ATB - Let U Go (Schiller Remix) 19:38 MICHAEL E - People Watching (Rubber Neck Mix) 19:32 351 LAKE SHORE DRIVE - Soiree Rouge (feat. Blueberry) 19:28 KIRSTY HAWKSHAW, TENISHIA - Reason To Forgive (Piano Mix) 19:23 ANDAIN - Much Too Much (Zetandel Chill Remix) 19:19 EMMA HEWITT - These Days Are Ours (Zetandel Chill Out Mix) 19:13 CHRISTIAN HORNBOSTEL - Waiting At Potsdamer Chaussee 19:08 SUNLOUNGER, ZARA TAYLOR - Lost (Chill Version) 19:04 ALY & FILA, JWAYDAN - We Control The Sunlight (Chill Out Mix) 19:00 MICHAEL ANGELO, MELISSA LORETTA - Hearts Unspoken (Christopher Breeze Chillout Mix) 18:53 KITARO - Matsuri 18:49 THOMAS ANDERS - You're My Heart, You're My Soul (Acoustic Version) 18:44 SAGI REI - Fall Again 18:39 RHEINGOLD ENSEMBLE - Deja Bo 18:35 SUPER8 & TAB, JAN BURTON - Free Love 18:31 PIANOCHOCOLATE - Les Souvenirs (Original Mix) 18:27 AREA CODE 51 - Chillout In Paris 18:22 BISSEN, THE CROSSOVER - Washout (Piano Mix) 18:19 CJ STONE, ANNA TURSKA, SHERLOCK - Believe Me (Chill Out Classic Mix) 18:16 HOUSE MASSIVE, J. 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Austin Jay) 15:55 BRAD ALEXANDER - Through the Fire (feat. Andrew Gouche) 15:51 PAUL DOZIER - Myrtle Beach 15:46 BRIAN CULBERTSON - Later Tonight 15:42 ACOUSTIC ALCHEMY - Catalina Kiss 15:38 SEAN U - Xlr8 15:34 PAUL BROWN - Softly, as in a Morning Sunrise 15:30 NILS - The Hump 15:25 MICHAEL LEMMO - Nobody Knows 15:22 PEET PROJECT - Bring Me To Life 15:18 PHIL DENNY - Ride With Me 15:14 NORMAN BROWN - Spirit Power 15:09 JAZZ FUNK SOUL - Keep Holding On 15:05 LOUIE FITZGERALD - Surviving the Storm 15:00 NICHOLAS COLE - Feelings 14:56 AL DEGREGORIS - Mauritius 14:53 DAVE SERENY - Talk To Me 14:48 JOE MCBRIDE, THE TEXAS RHYTHM CLUB - Morning In A Distant Land 14:43 PAUL HARDCASTLE - Domino Effect 14:39 RAINFOREST BAND - Annisa 14:35 KENNY NIGHTINGALE - My Saxophone 14:31 RICK HABANA - Eclipse 14:27 BENNETT B - MIdnight Passion 14:22 KIM WATERS - Go 14:18 GREGG KARUKAS - Show Me The Way 14:14 KEN NAVARRO - Into The Light 14:10 JAREZ - Take My Time 14:05 BRANDON WILLIS - Bring It On 14:00 PETER WHITE - Our Dance 13:56 DEON YATES - Suit and Tie 13:52 CAROL ALBERT - Sometime 13:47 JAY KING - Soulful Bossa Nova 13:43 THREESTYLE - Prime Time (feat. Magdalena Chovancova & Robert Fertl) 13:39 CHRIS STANDRING - Snowfall 13:34 LIN ROUNTREE - Fluid 13:30 DANIEL DOMENGE - Always to Run 13:26 NILS - Waiting on Hold 13:21 LARRY CARLTON, PAUL BROWN - Miles And Miles To Go 13:17 JEANETTE HARRIS - Thankful (feat. Joel Bowers) 13:13 STEVE OLIVER - Chips And Salsa 13:09 RICHARD ELLIOT - Ricochet 13:04 EUGE GROOVE - Tango in Rio 13:00 ANDRE DELANO - Vocalistic 12:56 OLI SILK - the Limit's the Sky 12:52 NILS - My Friends 12:48 JACKIEM JOYNER - Trinity 12:44 PIECES OF A DREAM - One for the Money 12:39 NELSON RANGELL - Welcome Home 12:35 NORMAN BROWN - Up 'N' At 'Em 12:30 GERRY SMOOTH - Let's Dance 12:27 DEAN JAMES - Georgia On My Mind (feat. Salio) 12:24 WALTER BEASLEY - Be Thankful 12:19 QUINTIN GERARD W. - Attitude Indicator 12:16 NICHOLAS COLE - It Ain't Over 12:11 KEN POWE - Wish You Were Here 12:08 VINCENT INGALA - Personal Touch 12:03 JEREMY HECTOR - Islander 12:00 MARK JAIMES - ABC 11:56 BENNETT B - Buenos Aires 11:51 MICHAEL LINGTON - Til the Morning Light 11:47 MARCUS ANDERSON - Hazelnut 11:42 JAWANZA KOBIE - Let Me Lead 11:37 KEN NAVARRO - By My Side 11:32 GEORGE JINDA - Beautiful Gold 11:29 DAVID BENOIT - @Home 11:24 JULIAN VAUGHN - Ecstasy 11:20 RICK BRAUN - Love Will Find a Way 11:17 DEON YATES - Wiseguys 11:12 ALTHEA RENE - Inner Circle 11:09 JAY KING - I Once Had Your Love 11:04 ROB TARDIK - You Know What I Mean 11:00 BOBBY LYLE - Living In The Flow 10:55 TONY LINDSAY - Soul Soldier 10:51 LES SABLER - Tranquility 10:47 ADAM HAWLEY - Just A Friend Of Mine 10:42 DOMINIC CAMARDELLA - Carmelita 10:38 LEBRON - Red Hook 10:34 JOHN E. LAWRENCE - Wake up the Groove 10:30 JOY RIDE - Joy Ride 10:25 EUGE GROOVE - Of Course 10:21 PAUL BROWN - The Rhythm Method 10:17 NILS - Don't Hold Back 10:13 FOSTINA DIXON - More 10:09 JACKIEM JOYNER - Europa (feat. Keiko Matsui) 10:04 STEVE OLIVER - Long Road 10:00 NORMAN BROWN - West Coast Coolin' 09:55 RAGAN WHITESIDE - Gonna Fly 09:51 MARCIN NOWAKOWSKI - Huggy Bear 09:46 DAVE KOZ - Surrender 09:42 PAUL JACKSON JR. - B.F.A.M. (Brothers from Another Mother) 09:38 FREDDIE FOX - No U Turn 09:34 SAM BASSMAN JENKINS - That Moment 09:30 VINCENT INGALA - Sexy Mama 09:25 JOYCE COOLING - Jelly on My Jacket 09:21 CHAN HALL, TONY CRADDOCK - Stay Awhile 09:17 BRIAN CULBERTSON - Your Smile 09:12 PIECES OF A DREAM - Just Do It! 09:09 JESSY J - Mr. Prince 09:05 BRANDON WILLIS - Next Friday 09:00 KEN NAVARRO - Stoned Soul Picnic 08:57 ERIC DARIUS - Heaven Sent 08:52 RICHARD ELLIOT - Ain't Nothing Like The Real Thing 08:48 JULIAN VAUGHN - Loving You 08:44 RICK BRAUN - Me And You 08:39 ANDY SNITZER - She Loves Me 08:34 DREAMING IN COLOUR - Yearbook 08:29 AL DEGREGORIS - Odyssey 08:24 BOB BALDWIN - It's a New Day 08:20 MARION MEADOWS - Consequences 08:17 PHILLIP DOC MARTIN - Pocket Love 08:13 PETER HEROLD - Something About The Name Jesus 08:09 CRAIG SHARMAT - Outside In 08:04 PETER WHITE - Walk On By 08:00 JAY KING - Baby Lets Dance Tonight 07:56 KONSTANTIN KLASHTORNI - If I Told You 07:50 CINDY BRADLEY - Sonny's Home 07:45 PAUL BROWN - Las Vegas 07:41 PHIL DENNY - Kinda Wanna 07:36 JAREZ - All Night 07:31 JACKIEM JOYNER - In Love Again 07:27 MICHAEL ROSS - On the Beach with You 07:22 CHRIS GODBER - Energy 07:16 MARCUS ANDERSON - I Surrender All 07:12 RAGAN WHITESIDE - How Do You Know (vocal) 07:08 DAVE KOZ - Together Again 07:04 BE'NE MUSIC - Journey 07:00 LUKAS LEUTHOLD - When I See The Sunshine In You 06:56 BLUEY - You Are the One 06:51 GERALD ALBRIGHT - So Amazing 06:47 DEE BROWN - Deep Secrets (feat. Blair Bryant) 06:44 KENNY PORE - Love Crossover 06:39 BLAKE AARON - Groovers and Shakers (feat. Darren Rahn) 06:35 PATRICK YANDALL - Down at the Shell 06:31 NILS - Let's Bounce 06:27 DREW DAVIDSEN - I'm Into You (feat. Ron Tyson) 06:23 ERIC DARIUS - Jean Maries Groove (Dedication for Prvcy Jeans) 06:19 PETER WHITE - Stormfront 06:15 REGGIE CORDINGTON - Waterfalls 06:10 VINCENT IOIA - Caribbean Nights 06:04 OLI SILK - This Was Then, That Is Now 06:00 DAN SIEGEL - A World Away 05:56 GREGORY GOODLOE - All the Way 05:51 ROBERTO RESTUCCIA - That's It For Tonight 05:47 MARCIN NOWAKOWSKI - I Love Your Smile 05:42 RICHARD ELLIOT - Moomba 05:38 PHILLIP DOC MARTIN - Beautiful 05:34 VINCENT INGALA - Baby I'm Hooked (Right Into Your Love) 05:30 TONY SAUNDERS - Celebrate You 05:26 FREDDIE FOX - Southern Ways 05:22 MARCUS ANDERSON - Paisley Red 05:18 KIM WATERS - Hidden Treasure 05:13 LOUIE FITZGERALD - Plantation Key 05:09 ROB TARDIK - Flip Flop 05:05 AL DEGREGORIS - Connect the Dots 05:00 MEKIEL REUBEN - Stop Stalling 04:56 JAREZ - Driving Force (feat. Willie Bradley) 04:52 NORMAN BROWN - Won't You Stay 04:48 JAKOB MAGNUSSON - Hook, Line & Sinker 04:44 JIM ADKINS - Into the Storm 04:40 CHUCK LOEB - Springs 04:36 BONEY JAMES - Solid 04:33 MILES GILDERDALE - Where I'm Going 04:29 EDGARDO CINTRON - Together Again 04:25 MARK ETHEREDGE - Resonance (Remastered) 04:21 DEE LUCAS - Zimbabwe 04:17 PETER WHITE - Life Story 04:12 KEITH MASON - He's Holy 04:08 THE SMOOTH JAZZ ALLEY - Let's Ride 04:04 MARCUS JOHNSON - Sunday @ Sequoia 04:00 DAVE BAKER - California Dreaming (feat. Rich Kurtz & Walter Runge) 03:56 MARC ANTOINE - Groovin' High 03:52 JEANETTE HARRIS - People Make The World Go Round 03:47 ANDRE CAVOR - Heaven 03:43 FUNKTASTIC PLAYERS - Second Date 03:38 ERIC MARIENTHAL - Flower Child 03:34 GARY MEGGS - Life's Little Changes 03:30 DON VINO - Worried (Feat. Tye Platinum) 03:27 WADE C. LONG - Happy Go Lucky 03:23 TERENCE YOUNG - Love Ballad 03:19 JAZMIN GHENT - Kickin It Up 03:14 REZA KHAN - Painted Stories 03:11 BENNETT B - Together We Stand 03:08 ADAM HAWLEY - Dance With Me (Feat. Gerald Albright) 03:04 PHILLIP DOC MARTIN - Sexy Love 03:00 CHRIS STANDRING - Whatever She Wants 02:57 VINCENT INGALA - Look At Me (I'm In Love) 02:52 JOHN E. LAWRENCE - Photo Shoot 02:48 RONALD BOO HINKSON - Simply Beautiful St. Lucia 02:44 CAROL ALBERT - Fly Away Butterfly 02:40 GIL - You & Me 02:35 GINO ROSARIA - Island Life 02:31 ROB TARDIK - That's a Strut 02:26 AL DEGREGORIS - East 86th 02:22 DAVE KOZ - Can't Let You Go (The Sha La Song) (feat. Luther Vandross) 02:18 JAREZ - All Of Me 02:15 PEET PROJECT - Down to the Lake 02:11 DEE BROWN - Love You Too 02:07 EUGE GROOVE - Hey Boo 02:03 2UNES - Rock Steady 02:00 RICK HABANA - LA to KC (feat. Blair Bryant) 01:55 DEE LUCAS - Dollar Bill 01:51 JACKIEM JOYNER - Close 2 You 01:45 DEE LUCAS - Take The L 01:41 PETER WHITE - Venice Beach 01:36 NELSON RANGELL - That's the Way of the World 01:32 THE SMOOTH JAZZ ALLEY - Night Out 01:28 KENNEY POLSON - Love on a Two Way Street 01:23 MARC ANTOINE - Follow Your Bliss 01:18 MADOCA - Surrender 01:13 AMANDUS - Chrome Improvement 01:09 MICHAEL HAGGINS - Gift To The World 01:05 PETER HEROLD - The Way You Are 01:00 RANDY SCOTT - Intimacy 00:56 SONIX - Cloud 9 00:52 KONSTANTIN KLASHTORNI - Chica Timida 00:47 DAVID DAVIS - If Your Girl Only Knew 00:42 ACOUSTIC ALCHEMY - Now I'm on My Way 00:38 GREGG KARUKAS - Fly Away (Thinking of You) 00:35 BEN TANKARD - Afternoon Nap 00:31 J. WHITE - Just Ride 00:27 PHILLIP DOC MARTIN - Flowin' with It 00:21 NICK COLIONNE - Whatcha Gonna Do 00:18 DANNY LERMAN - Saxsultan 00:14 JOYCE COOLING - Take Me There 00:09 LOWELL HOPPER - Night Song 00:04 CHRIS GODBER - Soul Searchin 00:00 GABRIEL MARK HASSELBACH - Hang On To Your Love

#Radio NET Bulgaria #Smooth Jazz #Chillout #Lounge #Downtempo #Ambient #Trance #2022 #December 2022

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clairekreads · 6 months

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After Anna by Alex Lake @alexlakeauthor @harpercollinsuk #afteranna #bookreview

Happy Tuesday everyone! Today I’m reviewing Alex Lake’s 2015 thriller After Anna. It’s been on my Netgalley shelf for far too long so it’s another hit on #OperationNetgalley. Continue reading After Anna by Alex Lake @alexlakeauthor @harpercollinsuk #afteranna #bookreview

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#Alex Lake #book review #crime fiction #Harper Collins #Harper Fiction #netgalley #psychological thriller #review

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ithillyienseowyn · 9 months

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ithillyienseowyn reading list: re-read-a-thon edition

Again, this is just for me to pre-plan this isn't the official layout for my reading in the new year just a list of what I plan on reading/re-reading just so I have a visual to keep track of, it will be under my new re-read tag, anything under a series or trilogy will be titled in bold with the singular books listed beside the aforementioned title.

Red White and Royal Blue

I'll Give You the Sun

The Duff

Beach Read

Book Lovers

The Hating Game

Grishaverse: The Lives of Saints, The Language of Thorns, Six of Crows, King of Scars

The Wrath and the Dawn: Wrath and the Dawn, Rose and the Dagger

Cruel Beauty: Cruel Beauty, Crimson Bound

The Secret Circle: The Initiation, The Captive Pt. 1 and Pt. 2, The Power

Simon vs: Simon vs the Homo sapiens Agenda, Leah on the Offbeat

THUGverse: The Hate U Give, Concrete Rose

Alex Stern: Ninth House, Hell Bent

Off Campus/Briar U: The Deal, The Mistake, The Score, The Goal, The Chase, The Risk, The Play, The Dare

All For the Game: The Foxhole Court, The Raven King, The King's Men

Anna, Lola and Isla: Anna and the French Kiss, Lola and the Boy Next Door, Isla and the Happily Ever After

The Kiss Quotient: The Kiss Quotient, The Bride Test, The Heart Principle

The Witcher: The Last Wish, Sword of Destiny, Blood of Elves, Time of Contempt, Baptism of Fire, Tower of the Swallow, Lady of the Lake, Season of Storms

ACOTAR: A Court of Thorns and Roses, A Court of Mist and Fury, A Court of Wings and Ruin, A Court of Silver Flames

To All the Boys: To All the Boys I've Loved Before, PS, I Still Love You, Always and Forever Lara Jean

Poldark #7-12: The Angry Tide, The Stranger From the Sea, The Miller's Dance, The Loving Cup, The Twisted Sword, Bella Poldark

Lord of the Rings: The Silmarillion, Unfinished Tales, The Hobbit, Lord of the Rings

Bridgerton/Smythe Smith Quartet: The Viscount Who Loved Me, An Offer From A Gentleman, To Sir Phillip, With Love, When He Was Wicked, It's In His Kiss, On the Way to the Wedding, The Sum of All Kisses, The Secrets of Sir Richard Kenworthy

One of Us: One of Us Is Lying, One of Us Is Next, One of Us Is Back

Sweet Magnolias: Stealing Home, A Slice of Heaven, Feels Like Family

The Hunger Games: The Hunger Games, Catching Fire, Mockingjay

The Lunar Chronicles: Cinder, Scarlet, Cress, Winter, Fairest, {Heartless}

Bloodlines: Bloodlines, The Golden Lily, The Indigo Spell, The Fiery Heart, Silver Shadows, The Ruby Circle

Throne of Glass: Throne of Glass, Crown of Midnight, Heir of Fire, Queen of Shadows, Empire of Storms, Tower of Dawn, Kingdom of Ash

The Raven Cycle: The Raven Boys, The Dream Thieves, Blue Lily, Lily Blue, The Raven King

Shades of Magic: A Darker Shade of Magic, A Gathering of Shadows, A Conjuring of Light

Heartstopper: Heartstopper Volume 1, Heartstopper Volume 2, Heartstopper Volume 3, Heartstopper Volume 4, Heartstopper Volume 5

Shadowhunter Chronicles: Clockwork Angel, Clockwork Prince, Clockwork Princess, Chain of Gold, Chain of Iron, Chain of Thorns, City of Bones, City of Ashes, City of Glass, City of Fallen Angels, City of Lost Souls, City of Heavenly Fire, Lady Midnight, Lord of Shadows, Queen of Air and Darkness

Addicted/Calloway Sisters/Like Us: Addicted To You, Ricochet, Addicted For Now, Kiss the Sky, Hothouse Flower, Thrive, Addicted After All, Fuel the Fire, Long Way Down, Some Kind of Perfect, Tangled Like Us, Sinful Like Us, Charming Like Us, Wild Like Us, Fearless Like Us, Infamous Like Us, Misfits Like Us, Unlucky Like Us

#misc #pinned post #ithillyienseowyns re-readathon

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tranthologies · 1 year

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EPISODE HIGHLIGHT: CICADA NIGHTS

Today we're highlighting our 15th episode of Season 1: "cicada nights"

it's about drag in the south and queer trans boys in love

you can find it wherever you get your podcasts! (if not, pls let us know!)

https://shows.acast.com/tranthologies/episodes/cicada-nights

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Slide 1: A brown background. In white lettering, a title reads: "cicada nights" In the centre of the page, there is the cover art for this episode. It pictures a wooden building against a night sky. The cover art has arrows pointing away from it with text coming off them. The text coming off the arrows reads as the following: "1. Southern accents 2. Y’all means all! 3. Drag in the south 4. Celebrations of queerness 5. T4t boys 6. Hallmark cheesy but they’re all drag performers.” There are sparkly gold stars across the top of the page, and cowboy boots in the bottom right corner.

Slide 2: A brown background. There is a design of a piece of paper in the centre of the page. On the paper, text reads: “Two trans boys who’ve been in love with each other for years team up with the other trans queer kids in their small southern town of Starry Lake, Mississippi, after they’re enlisted by their local beloved drag performers to save the only drag bar-and trans safe space-in miles. AKA, a trans country story about protecting your safe spaces no matter the cost.” There are sparkly gold stars across the background, and cowboy boots in the bottom left corner.

Slide 3: A brown background. Covering most of the page, there is a design of white lined paper. On the paper, an excerpt from the episode reads: “Lucky: Here’s the thing about Cici, Beau. The things she did don’t start here at Cicada’s and they don’t end here. If we don’t save the bar - and that’s a big if - what she gave us is connection. And friendship. I looked up to you for years. I thought you were so brave. And then when you were the one who fixed up my motorcycle, that felt like fate. That felt like community. Connection. You had my back, and I had yours with the mean kids at school, too. And Darlene, and Jojo, and Brooks - she introduced you all to each other. She made sure that even if somethin’ terrible happened, like losing her, or losing Cicada’s, we would still have each other. And we do still have each other.” There are sparkly gold stars down the right side of the page.

Slide 4: A brown background. In the centre of the page, there is a design of white lined paper. On the paper, the credits read: “CREW: Written by Morgan Champine. Directed by Felyx Pozorski. Audio editing by Alex Abrahams. Music by Eden J. Storm. Cover art by Wyll. CAST: Necrotika Trashwhore as The Announcer. Theo Wampuszyc as Beau Dixon. Kaz J. Calkins as Lucky Rivers. Kash Hervias as AnnaMae Dixon. Wes French as Jojo Jackson. Moira-Juliet Scott as Darlene Porter. Zoey Davis as Indie Anna // Indy Tyler. Wyll as Miss American Pie // Buck Garrett. Sats Di Stefano as Hush Puppy // Hazel Macy. Charles as Little Miss Peachy // Patrick "Patty" L. Emily Larus as Corn Hole // Gage McLean.” There are sparkly gold stars across the top of the page, cowboy boots in the top right corner, and a cowboy hat on the left side of the page.

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20 Things I Do NOT Own Or Buy As A Minimalist | Minimalism | Simple Living | Decluttering Ideas

Becoming a minimalist made me realize that I don't any a lot of things to live well. Here is a list of 20 things I do not own as a minimalist.

Soft Pastel Garden Painting Time Lapse

Welcome, friend! I help creative women find peace through original artwork. A Selection Of Sold Artwork: It is an honor to send these pieces to their forever homes. I am grateful. Let’s Connect: I would love to chat with you, hear your story, and help you find the perfect piece to add to your collection. Email me here.

15 Inspirational Art Quotes For Artists That Will Inspire You to Create

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Unfashionably fashionable: the best of Rankin – in pictures

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Join me in wishing a safe journey to my father, Alex Fadynich. He left us last night peacefully at home to join his sister, Anna, who passed away on Christmas morning, and just 5 days after dad’s 88th birthday. Those two raised one another after their father died when they were very young. It did not stop them from knowing how to nurture a family, they both excelled with their children and grandchildren. My father, my hero, my critic, but always my friend, beyond that and above all he set the example for me in every step I took becoming a man. I could not have raised a well rounded son of my own without my mom and dad. Forever unconditionally loving, his family always came first. He provided for us, opening up opportunities, that put me in a position for success in my own career. He shared that strength with countless friends and business associates too. I will miss his mortal being, but his soul lives on in everyone he knew I love you dad, and glad you are at peace. (at Pines Lake, Wayne, NJ) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cm9rCcJvVVU/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Allen C Ivanov, Washington inmate 396362, born 1997, incarceration intake at age 20, sentenced to life without parole

Murder, 3 individuals

Allen Ivanov, who took his newly purchased rifle to a Mukilteo house party and killed three people, was sentenced to life in prison without parole.

Snohomish County Superior Court Judge Janice Ellis handed down the sentence before a packed courtoom, telling Ivanov, "Your actions are heinous. ... You deserve to be separated from society for the remainder of your life."

Ivanov, 20, pleaded guilty to three counts of aggravated first-degree murder and two counts of attempted murder.

Court documents portray him as a young man distraught over a break-up with his girlfriend, Anna Bui. The documents say Ivanov considered Bui his "dream girl."

Bui was one of three people killed. Jordan Ebner, of Lake Stevens and Jacob Long, of Everett. Ivanov also shot at Tristan Bratvold and Alex Levin as the two men tried to escape the house party, according to charging papers. A fourth victim, Will Kramer, was shot in the back but survived.

Ivanov also addressed the packed courtroom, saying he apologizes "wholeheartedly" for the shootings.

He said current gun laws make it too easy to buy a firearm, but took full responsibility for his actions. "Satan was in control," he said.

"I did not intend for events to unfold the way as they did that night. In a moment of shock, I pulled the trigger because I could not control my emotions."

Court documents, written by Mukilteo police Detective John Ernst, say Ivanov crept outside the home in the Chennault Beach neighborhood with an AR-15 rifle he had bought a week earlier. The rifle was so new that he had to read its instruction manual to operate it as he sat in his car outside the home where a party was going on.

As he was hiding outside the home, a male who was at the party discovered him, Ivanov told police. "No, no," the partygoer said.

He told police he was scared and opened fire. "He stated at that point that it was too late to turn back, and once he had pulled the trigger his adrenaline kicked in," Ernst wrote.

Ivanov went into the house and found Bui, and shot her twice, court documents say.

He saw a male running toward the house and shot him. He went to a balcony off the master bedroom and shot two more males, court documents say. Ivanov went to the roof, but realized that he was out of ammunition.

Ivanov returned to his car.

He had another magazine in his car. He had bought it hours earlier after he left his job at the Apple Store at Alderwood Mall.

Ivanov said he was loading the magazine in the call and intended to go back into the party and use the AR-15 rifle more. Instead, he drove away.

The documents portray a distraught Ivanov who was jealous that Bui had moved on with her life and had begun dating other men.

Ivanov, questioned by police after he had been arrested in Chehalis later that day, told investigators that he had broken up with Bui two months earlier, but realized it had been a mistake. He wanted to resume his relationship with her.

She was the first girl he had kissed, he told police.

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Casting Frozen for EJ & Val

i was just on youtube and i saw a sneak peak for the next hsmtmts episode and i thought i would take it upon myself to do val & ej a favor and cast the show for them. you’re welcome. it is currently 12:34 AM. i will come back after watching the auditions episode to reevaluate my guesses and then again after the cast list is posted to see what i got right.

Elsa: Kourtney

There’s literally no need for me to explain this it’s so fucking obvious I will die on this hill. Kourtney is a powerhouse and Elsa is a powerhouse role so come on!

Anna: Gina

Once again dying on this hill too. Come on! Use your brain! It’s literally her season!!!

Hans: Jet or Ricky

I say Jet purely because of his broody bad boy attitude and Hans being one of the villians of Frozen. I also said Ricky because of the clip in the trailer where he dips Gina cause why else would they be dancing together if not to practice for “Love Is An Open Door”?? But if Jet doesn’t audition I legitimately don’t know who would get this role cause I said Ricky is gonna be Kristoff and he can’t play both roles.

Olaf: Carlos

I think this cause of when he played Lumiere for Beauty and the Beast in my brain the roles are kind of interchangeable. Idk why but it feels right in my gut tho.

Kristoff: Ricky

I mean what other option do we have??

Duke of Weselton: Jet?

This could be Jet if Jet doesn’t sing and somehow gets roped into doing the show. But I feel like this is a stretch.

Oaken: Maddox

So in episode 1 Maddox sings Shallow Lake which kind of has the same vibe as “Hygge”, the song Oaken sings in the musical so that’s where I get this from.

Bulda: Ashlyn

I would die on this hill cause this just makes sense. I mean think about it Ashlyn singing Fixer Upper to Gina makes sense cause Ashlyn is the one who is always giving Gina boy advice and the person Gina goes to for boy advice. It would be so cute!!

Young Elsa: Alex

This comes from the new cast member Aria Brooks literally looking like a mini Kourtney in the trailer. So... and it works with having Kourtney be Elsa so.

Young Anna: Emmy

Also coming from the new cast member Liamani Segura looking like a literal mini Gina in the trailer. I really want Gina to play Anna please!!!!!!!!!

so that’s it see ya after the new episode drops

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After Anna

I love horror and thrillers. Something about zombies and midnight murders really pull me into stories. But nothing gets to me quite like books with realistic bases. Nothing’s scarier to me than what people can to do to each other. I recently read After Anna by Alex Lake and I have a lot to say.

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Antenne Vorarlberg Chillout Lounge (July 27, 2023)

23:57 Olga Scheps - How Much Is The Fish? 23:52 Leslie, Ben E, Falki - Help Myself (Original Mix) 23:48 Two Lanes - Pièces Froides: Ii. Danses De Travers 23:44 Kygo & Sasha Sloan - I'll Wait 23:40 Trentemoller - Miss You 23:38 Atb & Topic - Your Love (9pm) 23:35 Lika Morgan - Ding Dong 23:27 Nor Elle - Silent Storm 23:23 Dvine - Ever After 23:19 Daniel Steidtmann - Pigeon Lake 23:11 Boral Kibil, Mahmut Orhan - Herneise (Original Mix) 23:07 Blank & Jones - Sunshines Better (Feat. Mick Roach) 23:03 Federico Aubele - Salvacion 22:59 Lstn - Undecided 22:56 Bernward Koch - Flowing Colors 22:54 Robert Manos - With No End 22:51 Mike Candys & Séb Mont - What's On Your Mind 22:49 Christopher Von Deylen - She Never Told Him Her Name 22:47 Suduaya - Flow 22:42 Elderbrook & Bob Moses - Inner Light 22:38 Schiller - Free The Dragon 22:32 De-phazz - Anchorless 22:30 Vievie - Sea Roses 22:27 Hagen Feetly - Cry 22:21 Fous De La Mer - Esse Sonho 22:18 Nora Van Elken - Interstellar 22:12 Parra For Cuva Feat. Anna Naklab - Swept Away (Original Mix) 22:08 Scotty & Wilcox - Gimme! Gimme! Gimme! (Wilcox Extended) 22:05 Robin Schulz - Never Know Me (Radio Mix) 22:01 Adele - Skyfall 21:56 Tebra - Istok 21:52 Robert Manos - Silver 21:48 J-walk - Soul Vibration 21:44 Alex Breitling - Faith 21:41 Robin Schulz & Felix Jaehn - One More Time 21:36 Soulcraft - Beware Of My Love 21:33 Schiller - Midnight In Shiraz 21:29 Passenger 10 - Serving The World 21:24 Armin Van Buuren - Never Wanted This 21:20 Klangperlenspiel - Million Words 21:15 Black Zone Ensemble - Bubbles 21:12 Hypnosis - Pulstar 21:08 Lstn - Sky & Sand 21:06 Lost Frequencies - Are You With Me 21:01 Sum Wave - Beach Memories 20:58 Hein Klein & Cheyenne - Every Breath You Take 20:53 Dalibor Dadoff, Nacho Lezcano, Grabo Bakos - Sounds Like A Melody 20:50 Armin Van Buuren Feat. Rbvln - Weight Of The World (Feat. Rbvln) 20:44 Hraach & Armen Miran - Nowhere 20:40 Lemongrass - Comme Toujours 20:37 Mike Candys & Jack Holiday - The Riddle Anthem Rework 20:33 Nora En Pure - Enchantment 20:28 Hannah Ild - Right Beside You 20:24 Golden Tone Radio - Glück 20:20 Sans Souci - Twin Lakes 20:14 Monolink & Zigan Aldi - Fidale (I Feel) Vocal Version 20:10 Klangperlenspiel & Puzzls - Kyoto (Wish You'd Move On) 20:06 Beatkonexion - On Air 20:04 Digital Camel - Shine Bright 20:01 Avaion X Vize X Leony - Pieces 19:58 The Alan Parsons Projekt - Eye In The Sky 19:54 Armin Van Buuren & Garibay - Phone Down 19:50 Blank & Jones Feat. Zoe Durrant - Adios Ayer 19:45 Kaskade - Maybe 19:42 Junge, Junge Feat. Jamie Hartma - Wicked Hearts 19:37 Thomas Lemmer & Andreas Bach - Embracing Love 19:31 Mollono.bass, Ava Asante - Feeling Good 19:27 Kidsø - Fir 19:21 Roger Shah, Feel, Zara Taylor - One Life (Pedro Del Mar & R.i.b Chillout Remix) 19:16 Victoriya - Nothing Remains 19:12 Klangkarussel & Poppy Baskcomb - This Love 19:07 Alex Sail Feat. Al I Bo - Symantec Clime 19:04 Robin Schulz & David Guetta - On Repeat 18:59 Lyke - Stay With Me 18:54 Jonson - S.c.e.n.e. T.w.o. 18:49 Arden - Open 18:45 Passenger 10 - Voices In Her Head 18:39 Lemongrass - Feel Good 18:33 Banderas - This Is Your Life (Easy Life Mix) 18:22 Cell - Above The Clouds (Live Version) 18:15 Hraach And Armen Miran - Krunk 18:10 Bolier & Leandro Da Silva - Floripa (Extended) 18:05 Lux - Secret Fish 18:01 Tycho - Horizon 17:58 Blank & Jones - Swept Away 17:53 Depeche Mode - Useless 17:45 Armin Van Buuren & Avira Feat. Sam Martin - Mask 17:42 Undressd - Forever Young 17:37 Aromabar - Renegade 17:34 Majestic & Boney M. - Rasputin 17:31 Sanah - Invisible Dress (Maro Music X Skytech Remix) 17:24 Cosmo Klein Feat. Ynot - When Doves Cry (Original Mix) 17:17 Colyn - Lightyears 17:12 Mr.da-nos - San Francisco 2k20 17:08 Maomakmaa - Unicorn (Remix By Jasmon) 17:02 Christopher Von Deylen - Free 16:59 Alle Farben Feat. Jordan Powers - Different For Us 16:55 Above & Beyond - Is It Love? (1001) (Original Mix) 16:52 Nora En Pure - Fibonacci 16:47 Lovers Lane - Island Memories 16:41 Beyhude - Terso 16:34 Hraach Feat. Iveta Mukuchyan - Sarer Jan 16:31 El Profesor - Busy Bye Bye 16:28 Robin Schulz Feat. Alida - In Your Eyes 16:25 Armin Van Buuren Feat. Jake Reese - Need You Now 16:17 Chaim Feat. Meital De Razon - Love Rehab 16:14 Dimitri Vegas - Pull Me Closer 16:11 Shaun Frank & Takis Feat. Shells - Don't Say I Love You 16:06 Airstream One - Southern Light 16:03 Klingande, Wrabel - Big Love 15:55 Trinidad - L'oiseau (Original Mix) 15:51 Maxim Lany Feat. Freya Alley - Anymore 15:44 True & Berger - Imprint Of Pleasure 15:39 Fous De La Mer - Luz 15:36 Lunax - I Like 15:34 Sam Feldt & Sam Fischer - Pick Me Up (Vavo Remix) 15:27 Wd2n - Sultans Of Swing (Original Mix) 15:23 Jan Blomqvist & Bloom Twins - High On Beat (Sofi Tukker Remix) 15:20 Nora En Pure - Epiphany 15:15 Axwell / Ingrosso - Something 15:07 Julian Wassermann - People 15:05 Felix Jaehn, Cheat Codes Feat. Bow Anderson - I Just Wanna 15:01 The Chainsmokers Feat. Daya - Don't Let Me Down 14:57 Karsten Kiessling Feat. Helin - Fight Like A Lion 14:54 Moby - Lie Down In Darkness 14:51 Steve Forest, Te Pai - Never Gonna Give You Up 14:46 Atb & Anova - Route 66 14:37 Aural Float - Dreamer's Dream 14:34 Alan Walker Ahrix - End Of Time 14:32 Alok & James Arthur - Work With My Love 14:27 Tibet Project - Tibet (A Passage To ...) 14:23 Daniel Portman - Sensual Desires 14:19 Schiller - White Nights (Don't Let Me Go) 14:15 Lexer Feat. Audrey Janssens - Till Dawn 14:12 Avian Grays & Azteck - Endlessly 14:09 Lost Frequencies & Mathieu Koss - Don't Leave Me 14:02 Schwarz & Funk - Savannah Sunset 13:55 Armen Miran Feat. Jivan Gasp - Lost Memories 13:52 Lilly Wood & The Prick And Robin Schulz - Prayer In C 13:49 Sans Souci - Take My Breath Away (Original Mix) 13:46 Lunax & Zana - Gone Tomorrow 13:41 Boozoo Bajou - Lava 13:38 Chicane - Capricorn (Back Pedal Brakes Remix) 13:31 Worakls - By The Brook 13:25 Chris Zippel Feat. Tusnelda - Blade 13:22 Vievie - Blue Island 13:19 Pulsedriver & Tiscore Feat. Anna Grey - We Are 13:13 Alex H - Seeking Agapism 13:10 Mefree - Horizons 13:07 Paratone - Time After Time 13:00 Depeche Mode - Waiting For The Night 12:59 Nathan Evans - Wellerman (220 Kid X Billen Ted Remix) 12:52 Djuma Soundsystem - Les Djinns (Trentemøller Remix) 12:49 Moli - Cloud No9 (Montmartre Remix) 12:46 Parov Stelar - Fire 12:41 Schiller Mit Moya Brennan - Falling 12:39 Sons Of Maria - A Kiss Like This 12:36 Trinix - Soweto 12:32 Era - Ameno 12:29 Klingande & Bright Sparks - Messiah 12:26 Lucas Estrada & Henri Purnell & Neimy - In My Fantasy 12:22 Lelo - On Your Mind (Lemongrass India Mix) 12:19 Gamper & Dadoni - My Lovin' 12:16 Edx - Neptune 12:10 Vargo - The Moment 12:07 Pretty Pink Feat. Mark V - Don't Dance 12:03 Schiller X Ro Nova X Tricia Mcteague - Illuminate 12:00 Armin Van Buuren Feat. Angel Taylor - Make It Right (Trinix Remix) 11:57 Nto (Fr) Feat. Sofiane Pamart - Invisible (Piano Version) 11:50 Armen Miran - Precious Story 11:46 Blank & Jones Feat. Zoe Durrant - One Evening (Lofi Selection) 11:42 Sons Of Maria - Elevate 11:39 Patchy - Friend (Original Mix) 11:34 Tinlicker Feat. Roos Jonker - Come Back Home 11:28 Deep Dive Corp. & Setsuna - Transatlantic 11:23 Eli Kazah - Return Home 11:19 Jean-michel Jarre - Oxygene, Pt. 4 11:15 Winona Oak & Robin Schulz - Oxygen 11:10 Kölsch - Left Eye Left 11:07 Dennis Kruissen Feat. Liza Flume - Another Soul 11:01 Matvey Emerson - Luna 10:56 Faithless Feat. Nathan Ball & Caleb Femi - I Need Someone 10:53 Kryder & Natalie Shay - Rapture 10:50 Ed Sheeran - Photograph (Felix Jaehn Remix) 10:47 Alok & Timmy Trumpet - Underwater Love (La Vision Remix) 10:43 Nora En Pure - Dry Sobbing 10:41 Julian Perretta - Miracle 10:36 Fous De La Mer - Luces 10:31 Pete Tong & Tale Of Us Feat. Jules Buckley - Time 10:27 Wim Mertens - Close Cover 10:24 Trinix - Vision Deluxe 10:17 Jean-michel Jarre - Equinoxe, Pt. 4 10:14 Danny Avila - End Of The Night 10:10 Viva La Panda & Finding Molly - Bring It On (La La La) 10:05 The Funky Lowlives - Time To Let Go 09:59 Blank & Jones - Coh 09:56 Filous - Let It Snow (Original Mix) 09:53 Sam Feldt - Show Me Love (Original Mix) 09:48 Glide - Y Môr 09:45 Loud Luxury - Cold Feet 09:40 Schiller - Zukunft 09:33 Blond:ish Feat. Shawni - Wizard Of Love 09:27 Dale Anderson Feat. Anil Chawla - Pimento Grove 09:20 Tapesh And Dayne S - How I Do (Original Mix) 09:13 Nora En Pure - Oblivion (Extended Mix) 09:07 Sans Souci - Venice 09:02 Maestro & Cabal - Clifton Bay 08:59 Mount & Emdey - Venus 08:56 Diena Van Diest - Don't Give Up 08:53 Alina Baraz & Galimatias - Fantasy (Felix Jaehn Remix) 08:50 Buchs Feat. Nokyo - Cheverolet 08:47 Norman Feller - Retrospective 08:43 Eli & Fur - Come Back Around 08:41 R3hab X Lukas Graham - Most People 08:35 Melosense - Road & Lights 08:32 Gamper & Dadoni - Gimme! Gimme! Gimme! 08:29 Twisted Harmonies Feat. Mougleta - You & Me 08:25 Schiller & Giorgio Moroder - Lichtjahre 08:19 Beyhude - Rüzgar 08:15 Nora En Pure - World Of Rules 08:06 Boris Pillmann - Love You 08:04 Hugel - Can't Love Myself (Feat. Mishaal& Lpw) 07:58 Fous De La Mer - Vue Sur La Mer 07:55 Goldfish Feat. Nate Highfield & Dan Silver - Forever Free 07:52 Blank & Jones Feat. Coralie Clément - Cest Mieux 07:46 Enfant De Luxe - La Tete Dans Les Nuages 07:43 Kush Kush & Sickmellow Feat. Kazhi - Blacklight 07:39 Lucy Neville - Shameless 07:36 Lost Frequencies - Sun Is Shining 07:33 Matoma Feat. Jonah Kagen - Summer Feeling 07:28 Schiller & Tricia Mcteague - Guardian Angel 07:20 After Sunrise - Deep Breath (Extended Mix) 07:17 Möwe - Bad Intentions 07:15 Dj Antoine Feat. Ablai - My Corazon (Dj Antoine Vs Mad Mark 2k21 Mix) 07:08 Aural Float - Still Here 07:05 Basixx - Stay In Your Sunlight 07:03 Troels Hammer - Azur 07:00 Hanns Feat. Lu - Chemistry 06:57 Melonia - Sweet Child O' Mine 06:50 Boris Pillmann - Mood Of Moonlight 06:47 Rene Rodrigezz & Tristan Henry - Let Me Go 06:45 Bolier & Arman Cekin - Fade Away (Feat. Rhi'n'b) 06:39 Rue Du Soleil - La Francaise 06:36 Together Alone - Let Go 06:31 Rìfìs Du Sol - Alive (Anyma Remix) 06:27 Loungertrip - Brighter Day 06:24 Iossa, Ken Holland - The Seed Feat. Iossa (Original Mix) 06:21 Nora En Pure - Sign Of The Times 06:15 Schiller - The Future Iii 06:11 Neptune & Moonnight - I Need A New Love (Original Mix) 06:05 Bent - I Love My Man 06:01 Röyksopp Feat. Astrid S - 02 Let's Get It Right 05:57 Mike Candys - Sky (Club Mix) 05:50 A Sagittariun, Skip Mcdonald - Crystallization Feat. Skip Mcdonald (Original Mix) 05:44 Röyksopp Feat. 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Upcoming 2022 Romance Books That Deserve A Lot More Hype and Recognition

Title: FULL FLIGHT

Author: ASHLEY SCHUMACHER (author of Amelia Unabridged)

Release Date: FEBRUARY 22, 2022

Everyone else in the tiny town of Enfield, Texas calls fall football season, but for the forty-three members of the Fighting Enfield Marching Band, it’s contest season. And for new saxophonist Anna James, it’s her first chance to prove herself as the great musician she’s trying hard to be. When she’s assigned a duet with mellophone player Weston Ryan, the boy her small-minded town thinks of as nothing but trouble, she’s equal parts thrilled and intimidated. But as he helps her with the duet, and she sees the smile he seems to save just for her, she can’t help but feel like she’s helping him with something too. After her strict parents find out she’s been secretly seeing him and keep them apart, together they learn what it truly means to fight for something they love. With the marching contest nearing, and the two falling hard for one another, the unthinkable happens, and Anna is left grappling for a way forward without Weston. A heartbreaking novel about finding your first love and what happens when it's over too soon. Ashley Schumacher’s Full Flight is about how first love shapes us—even after it’s gone.

Title: ALWAYS JANE

Author: JENN BENNETT (author of Alex Approximately)

Release Date: MARCH 29, 2022

A chauffer’s daughter finds herself in the middle of a love triangle with the sons of her boss’s wealthy next-door neighbors in this delightfully romantic story. Love—and Fen Sarafian—do not care about your summer plans. Eighteen-year-old chauffeur’s daughter Jane Marlow grew up among the domestic staff of a wealthy LA rock producer, within reach of bands she idolizes, but never a VIP. Every summer, Jane and her father head to the Sierras to work at the producer’s luxury lodge at Lake Condor—a resort town and the site of a major musical festival. The legendary family who runs the festival are the Sarafians, and Jane’s had a longtime crush on their oldest son, Eddie—doltish but sweet. So when a long-distance romance finally sparks between them, she doesn’t hesitate to cross class lines. But Jane’s feelings about Eddie are thrown into question after she returns to the lake and reconnects with his alluringly intense brother, the dark horse of her placid summer plans. A fellow lover of music—and hater of the game—Fen Sarafian has been ousted from the family and is slumming it at a vinyl record shop. He burns for Jane like a house on fire and will do anything to sabotage his older brother, even if it means taking a wrecking ball to a multi-million-dollar music festival. Or Jane’s heart.

Title: SEE YOU YESTERDAY

Author: RACHEL LYNN SOLOMON (author of Today Tonight Tomorrow)

Release Date: MAY 3, 2022

A magical romance in the vein of Groundhog Day about a girl forced to relive her disastrous first day of college—only to discover that her nemesis is stuck in the time loop with her. Barrett Bloom is hoping college will be a fresh start after a messy high school experience. But when school begins on September 21st, everything goes wrong. She’s humiliated by the know-it-all in her physics class, she botches her interview for the college paper, and at a party that night, she accidentally sets a frat on fire. She panics and flees, and when she realizes her roommate locked her out of their dorm, she falls asleep in the common room. The next morning, Barrett’s perplexed to find herself back in her dorm room bed, no longer smelling of ashes and crushed dreams. It’s September 21st. Again. And after a confrontation with Miles, the guy from Physics 101, she learns she’s not alone—he’s been trapped for months. When her attempts to fix her timeline fail, she agrees to work with Miles to find a way out. Soon they’re exploring the mysterious underbelly of the university and going on wild, romantic adventures. As they start falling for each other, they face the universe’s biggest unanswered question yet: what happens to their relationship if they finally make it to tomorrow?

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Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Warnings: yandere, obsession, stalking, mentions of death and grave robbery, might get darker as the story progresses.

Words: 3870.

Summary: One night your friend calls to remind you about commemorating your classmate who had drowned many years ago.

P.S. This was influenced by a Russian VN Opravdanie and some mourning rituals.

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One more evening. One more wasted day. With a grocery bag in your hand you kept walking the snowy streets of your home town where you spent all your life, never really trying to move somewhere: you had long decided there was no sense in going anywhere else even if your never changing routine was driving you crazy sometimes. Life was all the same in other places, too.

It was boring. Always quiet, always repetitive, always reminding you that it didn’t matter even if you’d forget the whole past year because it was all the same. A boring office job, small but stable salary, meetings with a couple of friends and fellow classmates from time to time, going to the same grocery store every week, returning to an empty apartment, spending your evening watching tv on the couch near a small radiator. Sometimes you would visit your parents or grandmother, listening to their concerns about you not having your own family yet and refusing to meet some son of their friends. Visits to another town close by were even more rare. You had never actually been to another country, and you had no idea what if felt like. Funny, but you didn’t even care.

You were stuck in that small snow-covered town where it had always been cold even when the gloomy summer was coming, and that was how it was supposed to be. You were destined to work somewhere you didn’t even like, one day marry a good for nothing guy and give birth to children who would inherit the same fate. There was nothing that could change - unless some hurricane would come and destroy the town at all. Then you would have to settle in some similar boring place and live the same way there.

Shaking off the snow from your hood, shoulders, and boots, you stepped into your apartment, happy it was much warmer inside - the radiator was working, thank goodness. As you hang your coat inside a hall closet, you brought the bag to the kitchen, lazily opening the fridge and looking at the meat leftovers and some porridge you cooked this morning. Uh-huh, you were too tired to make dinner, really. Some ham sandwiches would do.

Sitting on the coach again and watching some noir movie with a sandwich in your hand, you thought about how stupid your life was. What was you reason to live? Do some work nobody cared about? Making those silly reports nobody was going to read? Pleasing your parents with your mere presence? It was all you could think of, and the thought made you sad.

Suddenly, your phone rang, and you almost dropped the sandwich. Who was that? Your parents were going to bed early, and they didn’t really call you at this hour. Who was that?

Ah, Alex, a former classmate of yours who then studied in the same university as you. He was your good friend, and from time to time you were gathering in a cafe to chat about how things were going or just walked the streets together, complaining about your jobs.

“Don’t forget to commemorate Barnes today.” The message said, and you froze, furrowing your brows. Commemorate who?

That’s what you wrote to him, trying to remember who Alex was talking about.

“Barnes! Our classmate.” The next message said. “Remember when he got transferred to another school when we were 14? I’ve just talked to Anna, she said he drowned in the lake that year. Commemorate him today, it’s the day of his death.”

Oh shit. It’s true, you remembered that funny kid with a smile a mile wide and striking blue eyes all the girls were jealous of. How could you forget James? If you remembered well, you were kind of in love with him, but you were too young to really recognize your feelings and do something about them. Besides, when you thought of it now, you doubted James wouldn’t laugh at you. You two were just 14 years old, for God’s sake.

So, he died? Drowned? He probably wanted to take a shortcut through the lake instead of going through the whole park surrounding it, but that year the ice wasn’t strong enough to carry his weight, and he drowned just like several careless boys before him. Poor James. He was just a kid when it happened.

Suddenly, you realized how stupid of you was to think about your boring life and get upset over something so trivial. James was dead. You’d never chat about him with Alex and hear something about Barnes moving to some other city or getting a good raise or having a kid. He died. He was never going to get a job, marry someone, have children and live happily. You bet he would give anything for the boring life you were having.

Feeling cold, you stood up from the couch and headed over to the kitchen with a phone in your hand, a half-finished sandwich in the other. If it was the day of James’ death, you should really commemorate him: it meant having a drink and remembering something good about the boy, rest his soul. Maybe the next time you saw Alex you should talk about James with him, ask how did it really happen.

Despite you going through all the kitchen counters the only thing you found was some half-empty bottle of vodka probably forgotten by Alex or some of his friends. Shivering in your old knitted sweater, you looked out the window and furrowed your brows: it was too cold and dark to return to the grocery store for a bottle of wine. You’d prefer staying home and having just one shot of vodka, it was more than enough for commemorating someone. Not like James would care, really.

Cutting a few pieces of ham, cheese and some stale bread, you stopped for a second and went to an old wooden cupboard, taking out a few candies in bright-colored wrappings. Deciding it would be enough, you poured vodka into the glass and flinched, taking it closer to your mouth. Ugh, you never really liked strong alcohol, and the smell was kind of disgusting. Alex would laugh at you now, you thought and brought the glass to your mouth again.

I’m sorry it happened to you, James, you said to yourself, and the image of a smiling boy suddenly appeared in your head. You were a good kid. Rest in peace.

Knowing you won’t be able to tolerate the drink in your glass if you kept taking a sip after sip, you downed the shot and squeezed your eyes shut, feeling the liquid burning your throat and making you cough. Shit, it was certainly too strong for you, so you quickly took a piece of bread and put some cheese on eat, swallowing it to get the taste of vodka away. Disgusting.

I hope you are in a better place now, James.

Taking a deep breath, you quickly finished your improvised sandwich and took a candy, leaving a wrapping on the table and not even bothering with throwing it in the trash bin. The taste of alcohol was still lingering on your tongue, and it was hard to breathe, making you cough and shut your eyes again. Damn, that was the last time you drank it. From now on nothing but wine!

Thinking water wasn’t enough to keep that irritating taste away, you put a metallic kettle on the stove to make some tea and sat back, watching the snow storm becoming stronger outside. Except the actual snow, everything was pitch black - street lights never worked despite people complaining to the town administration all the time. They only shone bright near the town hall, that’s how thing were in this godforsaken place.

Shit, you had the audacity to think of things like that when you were commemorating James, the boy who died before he even reached adulthood. Who on Earth cared about street lights right now?

Shaking your head, you decided to switch the lights off in the kitchen to have a chance to see the street. Soon you were sitting close to a cracked windowsill and staring at the never ending blackness, finding an odd comfort in it and the sounds of a raging storm. With each passing second it felt like your life wasn’t as bad as you thought.

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When you woke up from a loud sound as if someone was hitting the walls with great force, it smelled like something was burning in the kitchen, your throat dry and your head heavy; you felt like you were knocked down and stepped on because your head hurt. What had happened? What was that? That smell?..

The kettle on the stove.

Your body moved on your own when you opened a window, the snow getting in immediately and flying over the kitchen while you struggled to stand, using a chair to get closer to a stove with its surface becoming red, a kettle slowly melting on it. As you switched if off, you turned on the tap and immediately poured water over the kettle, then spraying some water on your face and clothes, realizing you almost caused a fire. Why didn’t the damn alarm work? Oh, this shit was so old you were hardly surprised.

Damn, you were lucky you had an electric, not a gas stove. You’d be dead by now.

As you slowly came back to your senses, you suddenly thought about that odd sound of someone hitting the wall upstairs, eventually waking you up. There was an old man living upstairs, the one who had always been in a cranky mood, but he had never woke you up at night like that. Was it the heat? Did he feel it and woke you up? Was it something else?

Looking at what was left from your beautiful metallic kettle on the stove, you let out a breath nervously and, wearing something like your old autumn jacket - it was hard to tell what you pulled from a hall closet - you quickly left your apartment, running up the stairs. What if the old man was having a stroke?

Feeling a bit dizzy still, you banged his door desperately, not knowing if he was still conscious or not. Was he still alive? Was he alright? If he were, was he going to open the door and yell at you at the top of his voice for almost burning your apartment down? Well, you thought you’d prefer the last option if it meant the man who saved you also stayed alive.

But he wasn’t opening. In fact, you heard no sounds coming from his apartment at all. Shit, he was really having a stroke, and you needed...

“Is everything alright?” Somebody to your left asked, and you jumped, clutching the jacket on your chest. “I’m sorry if I scared you, but you have been banging the door as if your life depends on it.”

It was a tall, beefy man in a black t-shirt with some heavy metal band on it, his dull brown hair quite long for a man living in a town as conservative as yours, eyes strikingly blue. He was living next to the man above you.

“Your neighbor...” You had a hard time pulling yourself together, your throat parched and scratchy. “He has been hitting the wall... He might be having a stroke.”

The man arched an eyebrow at you, cocking his head to the side. “You sure? He went to see his children a few days ago. I don’t think he came back.”

“No, I’m sure!”

Obviously, the wall banging sounded right above your head, and no one but an old man living above you could do it. Yes, you were close to fainting that moment, but the sound was too clear to just brush it off.

“I need to call an ambulance.”

“Wait, he left me the keys to his apartment in case if the drain bursts again. Give me a second.” The next moments the stranger disappeared inside his own apartment, and for a couple of agonizing seconds you were left all alone on the staircase until the man showed up with a key in his hand, proceeding to open the door.

Getting inside, you started yelling loudly, “Sir! Sir, are you here?”

You ran to the kitchen, almost forgetting about the stranger: the picture of an old man laying on the floor breathless was making your hair stand on end. However, once you got there and put the lights on, you realized there was no one there. The kitchen was completely empty, dust gathering on the top of the counters and in the corners of the room. It looked like no one had been there for at least a couple of days. Were you mistaken? No, it couldn’t be, you heard that sound, it woke you up, for God’s sake!

Immediately proceeding to the other rooms, you saw a blank expression on the face of the stranger wandering the corridor and realized no one was in the apartment at all. How could it be?

“See, he didn’t return yet.” The man said as you turned to him, perplexed and not really understanding what was happening here. “There was no banging, I didn’t hear anything but you, actually.”

“No, it can’t be.” You put a hand on your forehead, deciding whether you had been hallucinating from the heat or the man was simply lying to you. “I... I’m sure I heard something. Could it be the other neighbor?”

“There are no other neighbors. Just the old man and me.”

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You tried forgetting about that night, still shivering from the thought you could easily die if you didn’t wake up. The kettle was destroyed along with your stove, and dad sent you some money to get a new one once he heard you crying over the phone. He promised not to tell about this your mom - she would definitely either faint or have a real heart attack.

The old man came back home a few days later just like Bucky, the guy you met that night, told you. He was perfectly alright, still in his snarky mood though. You decided you really heard that knock in your dream, otherwise the only way to explain what had happened was if thieves got inside old man’s apartment, but it was ridiculous. Bucky’s flat was certainly too far for you to hear the sound so clearly, too.

When you told Alex the story, he took the whole other direction, watching you wide-eyed and telling you it was certainly the spirit of James waking you up and saving you from such stupid death. In the end, that time you had been in the middle of commemorating your dead classmate. He certainly didn’t want you to die the same day as him. Maybe he was even grateful to you for remembering him.

Well, whatever. Despite you actually getting nervous because of Alex’s words, you decided it didn’t matter. You were safe. Now you just had to take care and never drink anything alcoholic at all. And never switch off the lights when your stove was on.

The next week you spent trying to forget about this story, working like a horse and taking extra hours just not to return home to your empty apartment. You were going to spend the weekend at your parents’ place for a change, but on Friday the last minute when you already wanted to depart Alex suddenly showed up at your door with a bottle of vodka, pack of ham and some sliced bread in a plastic packet.

“Are you mad?” You raised your eyebrows at him, angry he brought a bottle when you explicitly told him you weren’t drinking anymore. “What is this?”

“That’s not for you.” Your friend brushed it off as if it didn’t matter. “We have to visit Barnes’ grave.”

“Wait, what?”

“We need to visit his grave.” Alex repeated to you angrily, shoving a pack of ham into your arms. “I talked to the priest, and he said we need to go visit boy’s grave. It’s a must!”

You rolled your eyes at him, not even knowing how to react. Clearly, your friend has lost his mind.

Surprisingly, Alex was so pushy you couldn’t get him out of your place until you agreed to go to the graveyard with him and pay your respect to your classmate. Alex was absolutely sure the boy had saved your life, and it was disrespectful towards him to just leave things as they were. You agreed only because your friend had promised to bring you to your parents with his car.

Once you bought a couple of red carnations, the two of you headed to the graveyard, passing a small church and stopping the car right in front of the large iron gates. Nervously looking at them, you wrapped your coat tighter around your body trembling from cold, glancing at Alex in that stupid fur hat of his.

“Come on, it won’t take long.” He said, catching a sight of you. “I know the place. Let’s just go clean the grave, leave flowers and vodka, and then go. It’s the least we can do.”

Huffing and puffing with irritation, you got up from your seat and left his old car, a pack of ham still in your hands along with carnations. It was ridiculous, but, well, cleaning someone’s grave wasn’t a bad thing, really. You wouldn’t be surprised if James’ parents moved to some other place after that terrible incident, and his grave could be deserted after all these years.

Clenching carnations in your hand, you followed Alex into the gloomy graveyard, looking at old rusted crosses and new shining ones, moss-covered gravestones and a couple of monuments made by some rich citizens for their beloved who had passed away. You didn’t like coming to this place - it felt like it had always been cold here even in the hottest day of the year. Now, in the middle of February, it was freezing.

“Just a few more meters!” The man in front of you said, gesturing somewhere to the left where there were much less graves. “It should be here.”

Furrowing your brows, you kept walking, looking at the grey gravestones and looking for a familiar name. Not this one... not that one either... those two weren’t what you needed...

You bumped into Alex all of a sudden as he froze in place, and you snapped at him, “What the hell man? Why are you standing here?”

But he didn’t reply to you, gesturing somewhere to the right side of the path, and you stilled on your spot, too, looking at the destroyed grave with a broken tombstone laying in the snow. A little iron fence around it was torn apart, and it even looked like someone tried digging the grave. As you got a bit closer, you read “James Buchanan Barnes” on the broken stone and clenched Alex’s hand in yours, afraid to make one more step. God, who did that? What monster could destroy a grave, much less the one of a poor boy who died so young?

It looked so horrible there was no reason to attempt cleaning this mess. This place certainly needed a renovation, but you didn’t even know if you were allowed to do it since you weren’t James’ relative. God, why no one tried doing something with it? Did his parents really leave the town?

“That’s not good.” Alex suddenly said, his face getting extremely pale. “Oh shit, this is not good at all.”

“Of course, it isn’t.” You shook your head, still unable to believe your eyes. “What kind of bastard do you have to be to do that? Let’s go ask a supervisor what has happened here.”

When you found the man cleaning the path on the other side of the graveyard, he told the two of you it was a very odd story when somebody destroyed a boy’s grave, going as far as ruining his tombstone and even digging up the coffin. Well, of course, from time to time some vandals would show up to make a mess, but it had never went further than painting a few tombstones. Besides, only James’ grave had been destroyed, all the ones close to him were left in the same state as before. Why? Why targeting a grave of some poor drowned boy? The supervisor thought someone decided that his parents put something very valuable into the grave, provoking a thief to act, but the strangest thing was that the coffin turned out to be completely empty. The corpse had never been found as if it had never been there at all.

Did they bury an empty coffin? If the body had been destroyed or not found at all, there was nothing odd in that, but the supervisor swore the coffin wasn’t empty when he had been helping bury the boy. It had been such a tragedy when it happened, he said, adding he remembered that day well: the town you lived in was small, and the death of a child was a big thing here.

What happened to James’ body? The supervisor didn’t know. By the end of the story he was talking in a hushed voice. On the other hand, Alex was so pale as if he saw a ghost.

You spent time crossing the graveyard in complete silence as you processed the words of an old supervisor. What a cruel thing it was, to stole a corpse of a 14 year old kid who had done nothing wrong in his entire life. You couldn’t comprehend the reasoning behind this act: what, when the thief found nothing in the coffin he decided to take a corpse and throw some punches at it? God, it was disgusting. You really hoped that person was already in prison.

“Listen, I need to go and see the priest.” Alex mumbled to you in the car, and you realized he was trembling a little as if the thing he saw was too much for him. “That’s a very, very bad thing. I'm not sure Barnes’ soul rests in peace.”

“Alex, please.” You rolled your eyes, eating a piece of ham you were intended to leave on the grave. What, did you friend was really going to talk about ghosts after all he saw? He should have been worried about the thief destroying people’s graves. “You’re too superstitious. Of course, he rests in peace! His grave has nothing to do with it, but we really need to contact the administration, make them repair the place and found the bastard who did this. It’s inhuman to leave it like that.”

“No, no, you don’t understand!” The man on the driver’s seat shook his head disapprovingly. “What if James is still here, unable to continue his path? What if his ghost still wanders this place after all these years? Fuck, he certainly isn’t good anymore.”

“Alex-”

“No, can’t you see? That time when you fell asleep with your stove one... What if he didn’t save you but tried to kill you when you commemorated him that night?”

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