#again i don't even like the ship but please be normal <33

[xxlady-lunaxx]

Christmas with the Uppermoons 🌲 (Chaos with the Uppermoons)

Theme: SILLYNESS

Note: MERRY CHRISTMAS OR WHATEVER YOU CELEBRATE IN DECEMBER (or like happy random normal day of the week if nothing-)!!!

Anyways, here's the ships!: DouKaza, NakiDaki, KokuZan, KaiGyu (we'll pretend they're both alive at the same time), Gyokko x the christmas lights, Hantengu x ...air?? (idk I never write either of Gyokko or Hantengu LMAO.....) 

Ages brought closer together for KaiGyu and NakiDaki for obv reasons

Alright, let's see if I can finish this before the day of christmas <33 

Started: November 6th

Finished: (with a lot of procrastination) Dec. 24 (help)

Every year, on December 25th, the Uppermoons had a Christmas party. Which was ironic because, of all people, Muzan was the one that made them do it. Yes, Muzan. 

For some reason that none of the Uppermoons knew, Muzan had taken a liking into this human, Christian (i'm not even christian but i do christmas bc yes..) holiday and.. made his demons celebrate it. 

So now, like the past 500 years, they were readying for the holiday once again. 

This was the one day that they never went out on missions to kill. And the one day the Demon Slayers had a break. 

All of the Uppermoon's food would be stored up from a week before till now simply so they didn't need to go out and get their food on Christmas. This was, again, Muzan's idea.

Now this year was different, somehow. Different because, well, Muzan had a boyfriend. And he'd been rather keen on being a good one back, given that none of his relationships had been... successful. So, he had bought... a large amount of the most random gifts ever just to please Kokushibo (and if it wasn't obvious, Kokushibo is his boyfriend). 

And Muzan was attempting to be the matchmaker for his Uppermoons because they were so fucking oblivious!! (Like he wasn't as well.. It took him so long to realize Kokushibo liked him back and he could literally read his mind).

Muzan was pissed, though. Because a certain Uppermoon was trying to be the one to make all of the decorations and that certain Uppermoon was excedingly annoying. 

Gyokko, pleading, was showing Muzan a box full of vases which were supposedly his art and that he should be the one to make the decoration for the tree. 

"No!!" Muzan had shouted, and quite literally kicked the box of vases across the Infinity Fortress, breaking them to pieces. 

Gyokko cried for hours after that, and only because Kokushibo soothed him did Muzan stop himself from killing Upper 5. 

Later, Muzan called an Uppermoon meeting and.. 

"Gyokko," he said. 

The Uppermoon, still in tears, looked up. "What?"

"You must dress up as the grinch and then stay in the corner of the room all of Christmas and.. cry. Okay?" Muzan decided, crossing his arms. 

"What?!" Gyokko cried, "why??"

"Because I hate you!"

"I..."

Daki covered her mouth, trying not to laugh, and said, her words muffled by her hand, "I can get him a costume."

"Perfect," Muzan said. "Alright, now I hope all of you have been buying things for each other—if you got anything for Gyokko give it to him the day after Christmas because the Grinch doesn't deserve anything. Okay? We have only a few days to decorate the Infinity Castle so I hope you all know what to do!!" 

They all nodded simutaneously, Gyokko sniffing indignantly as he did. 

"Right. Now hurry up. Kokushibo, meet me in my office in a minute." Muzan turned and left, leaving the Uppermoons to prepare—and Gyokko to suffer in silence.

(Ehm. You might know by now that I don't particularily favor Gyokko 😇)

×××

"Kokushibo. I need your help," Muzan said, his voice lowering on the word 'help.' He'd never asked for help before in his whole life—honestly.

Kokushibo cocked his head. "Do you, now? What for?" he asked curiously.

"The Uppermoons are so stupid!—Not you, of course," Muzan quickly corrected. 

"Hm. Why so?" the six-eyed demon asked. 

"Because Akaza like Douma but he pretends he hates Douma and Douma—the stupid motherfucker—likes Akaza but thinks it's just that Akaza smells nice so he likes to be with him more, Daki likes Nakime but is too afraid to say anything, Nakime likes Daki but had bad experiences with past relationships so doesn't want to say anything, Kaigaku likes Gyutaro and knows which Uppermoon likes which and is rather loud-mouthed and a gossip but he never can tell Gyutaro how he feels, Gyutaro likes Kaigaku but doesn't know how to do relationships, Gyokko is, for some weird reason, madly in love with art, and Hantengu is scared of everything including air," Muzan said in one breath, sighing at the end. "So you see, they're stupid. And I'm trying to get the Uppermoons together—in relationships, but not Gyokko and Hantengu for obvious reasons—and I've not been able to!!" 

"Ehm.." Kokushibo stared at him for a minute, trying to process everything. Then he said, hesitantly, "I guess I could help? I'm no expert in this place but I can try.."

"Thank you!" Muzan said, relieved. "It was starting to get annoying trying to read their minds to see what they thought of my announcement and finding them only longing to be kissing some other Uppermoon. It's irritating." 

"Right..." 

The demon king put a hand on his desk and leaned on it, looking Kokushibo up and down. "So, why don't we go do something together now that we're by ourself? A little freedom before we have to put ourselves to dealing with the Uppermoons?" he suggested, grinning. 

Kokushibo laughed. "Alright, then."

×××

And hence began the matchmaking service of Muzan Kibutsuji. Oh, and Kokushibo of course.

First patients, were Uppermoon's 2 and 3. Or, the lemon and the strawberry as Muzan and Kokushibo called them when there weren't alone. 

Muzan proposed that they would first try to get Akaza to admit his feelings because... because Akaza was really stubborn. Well, so was Douma but they eventually agreed that Akaza would take a bit more convincing since Douma usually ended up agreeing pretty easily since he had no sort of handle on his own emotions. 

Muzan told Nakime to teleport both of the Uppermoons to one room in which they couldn't escape, then he would care for the rest.

After that, Muzan watched the two through Nakime's eye, seeing them confused at first.

"Hi," he said unceremoniously, his voice echoing into the room they'd been teleported to. 

Akaza and Douma looked up simultaneously. 

"Master?" Akaza asked, confused. 

Muzan nodded then realized they couldn't see him. "Ah, right. You two must confess until you both understand. And then I'll let you out," he explained. 

"Oh," Akaza said. His mind raced. Could it be that Muzan knew who he loved..?

Douma stared down at the ground and his hands fidgeted. "I...I confess that once, when all my cult members went to a festival, I was tired and hungry. And I... didn't want to go look for humans to eat... so I ate a chicken."

Akaza raised an eyebrow. "You what?"

"Ate a chicken..."

The shorter of the two bit back laughter and Muzan's voice rang around them. "You idiot! That's not what I meant when I said 'confess.'"

"It wasn't?" the blond asked, confused.

"No, you dumbass," Muzan said, exasperated. Why'd he chosen this person to be in the Upper ranks again? "Akaza, you go first."

Akaza's laughed stopped almost immediately and he averted his eyes, turning away from Douma.

Completely clueless, the rainbow-eyed demon tilted his head in confusion. "Are you okay, Akaza-dono?"

"Shut up," Akaza snapped, crossing his arms and glaring at the floor.

"Akaza," Muzan said sternly, as if scolding a little child. "Tell him." 

Akaza looked away and was silent for a moment before—"Fine." He turned back to Douma, his eyes narrowed. He looked very stern. Serious. 

Douma swallowed, fearing the worst. 

But then Akaza said, "I fucking like you."

And then the world melted away and Douma was blinking and staring up at Akaza with his eyes wide. "You do?"

"Bitch, didn't I just say that?"

"You aren't lying?" Douma asked hopefully.

"If I were lying Master would kill me!!!" Akaza snapped, getting irritated.

"I probably would," Muzan agreed.

Kokushibo, who was standing next to Muzan and being given the ability to see and hear everything that was happening, stifled a laugh. Muzan rolled his eyes at his boyfriend and shushed him before turning back to the two Uppermoons.

"Now, Douma, what do you want to say about what Akaza told you," he said, as if a parent trying to get his child to understand.

Douma thought for a moment—actually thought—and then said, "Thank you?"

Akaza sighed. "Why do I like you again?"

Muzan was having similar thoughts and, deciding that Douma was very much like a child, said, "Listen, if you don't figure it out I'm going to have you be punished!" 

Douma pouted. "Okay..." He turned to Akaza. "So, do you know what I'm supposed to say?"

"You're supposed to say about how you feel of what I said," Akaza said, cringing at his own words. He didn't really want to know. 

"Hmm..." The blond demon appeared to be deep in thought as he started pacing around the room. Then he stopped, quite suddenly, and said, "Akaza-dono!"

"What?" Akaza said, his tone bored now. 

"I like you too!" he said decidedly, making Akaza's eyes widen. 

Definitely unexpected.

"What?" he repeated, though more intrigued now. 

"I like you too, Akaza-dono! You said you like me, and I like you too," Douma explained. 

"Like... like-like, or just like?" Akaza asked slowly.

"Wut." Douma blinked. (I wrote duoma-)

"Like-like or friend-like?" Akaza tried. 

"What's like-like?"

"Like... love? Sorta? Or, like, more than friendship?" he said, confusing himself.

"Uhm... Like-like!" Douma exclaimed, poising his hands on his hips triumphantly for figuring it out.

"Oh."

A silence quite deafening spread through the room, making Douma fidget uncomfortably.

"Is that bad?" Douma asked after another moment.

"No, no it's not," Muzan said, answering for Akaza. "Now you two can go off and fuck now I don't care. Nakime?"

The biwa demon complied, strumming her instrument and teleporting the two Uppermoons to Douma's cult room.

×××

"Two down, four to go!" Muzan said, apparently very proud of himself.

Kokushibo agreed, sitting down on the chair in front of Muzan's desk. "Now what?" he asked.

Muzan hesitated and his previous triumph seemed to simmer down. "I... don't really know."

His boyfriend laughed, making him snap his head up indignantly. "Hey!! It's not like you're giving me any ideas," he protested.

"Okay, okay, fine," Kokushibo said, sighing. "Do we have a sort of deadline?"

Muzan tapped his chin. "Christmas?"

"But that's in, like, 3 days..." he whined.

"Yeah and we only have two more 'couples' to go through," Muzan said. "We just need some plan. What do Daki and Nakime like?"

Kokushibo shrugged. "Shopping? At least Daki does. Oh! We could tell them to go shopping for the gifts and then we'll make sure they grow closer through that?" he suggested.

"Yes! We can set them up to go to one of the stores that I pretend to be human in as a worker," Muzan decided. "I'll ask them if they're dating or something."

Kokushibo nodded. "Alright. And Gyutaro and Kaigaku...?"

"Ughh, I don't know," Muzan whined. "We'll think of that tomorrow."

He stood and clapped his hands, projecting his voice to make sure Nakime would hear him now. "Nakime! You and Daki must go shop for presents now. Understood?"

Nakime, confused, said, "Yes, Master."

There was the sound of the biwa echoing around them then Kokushibo and Muzan found themselves on a street. Muzan grinned, "Alright, you go think of something for Kaigaku and Gyutaro or whatever, I'll go do my shift now."

"Fun," Kokushibo sighed, walking off. 

×××

Nakime walked silently beside Daki, wondering why the hell she had to do this. Like, it wasn't completely out of the blue since Christmas was coming up, but it really was random. Especially since he'd said for her to go. Daki would be more reasonable but Nakime usually just put up the decorations.

Why this this year?

Or maybe it had something to do with the fact that Muzan had been trying to get Douma and Akaza together...?

She sighed, raking her hand through her hair which was pulled up in a ponytail, her eyes disguised as human ones—two human ones. Distorting but she couldn't cause confusion.

"You alright?" Daki asked, turning to her as they walked, their feet marking footprints in the snow.

"Mhm, just wondering why I have to go," Nakime grumbled.

Daki laughed. "You'll live. Or are you cold? I can hug you," she said, grinning. She was wearing clothes more appropriate for winter—Gyutaro had insisted—and she looked absolutely... adorable in them.

The biwa demon shook her head as they approached the first shop. "We can't walk like that," she remarked.

"You can carry meee!!!" Daki teased. 

"How are you to help me shop then?" Nakime pointed out, stepping through the door. 

"Finee..." 

They looked around, finding themselves in a clothing store. 

"Hmm, I should buy that grinch costume for Gyokko now," Daki said, looking around. "I'll meet you at the front, no? We can meet up when we're done so we can pay and go on, alright?"

Nakime nodded and the two split up, going each their own way.

×××

Muzan waited, drumming his fingers mindlessly on the counter. It took a while and he was starting to regret having decided to take on this job as he knew Daki took a long time to shop, but then they finally walked up to him and he stood up, making sure he kept down his aura to a less menacing one, more fragile and human-like so they wouldn't notice. 

"Hello! Having a nice christmas, I suppose?" he said, his tone cheery, matching his smile.

Daki nodded and placed her things on the counter—taking up half of the space. Nakime placed her things there as well which ended up only being half of the amount Daki had gotten. 

"Yep, you?" she said, fixing her ponytail.

"I'm doing alright, myself," Muzan said, picking up the first item. "Are you two dating? You seem very close," he commented, careful to not look too curious. 

He looked up and gave them a tentative smile.

It took them a second to realize what he meant and they flushed simutaneously, instantly shaking their heads in denial. 

"No?" Muzan asked, counting the payment. "Such a pity. Close friends, then?" he decided. 

"Ehm..." Nakime mumbled, her usually pale-white palor practically glowing with pink. "I suppose."

Daki nodded her agreement quickly. "Yeah... Close friends..!" she said, pushing what she was buying closer to Muzan, urging him to continue.

"Right, right. Nice to go shopping together, hm?" he said. 

"Yep!!" 

"You sure you aren't dating?" Muzan pushed, laughing. "Your 'friend' here is quite pink."

"I'm just cold," Nakime said quickly—too quickly.

Daki glanced at her, almost surprised, then nodded as well. "See, I told you you should carry me!" she said. 

Nakime sighed. "How would we carry this?" she asked, motioning to their things. 

"Uhhhh, with you hair," Daki joked. 

"Alright, here's the charge," Muzan said, jotting it down quickly. "Anything else?" he asked.

Daki shook her head. "That'll be it."

"Mhm, have a merry Christmas!!" he called out to them as they walked out the door. 

Once they were out of sight, he quickly placed the money in the cash register (idk what they used if it was smth diff so we'll just do it as it's done here now<33) and called out, "Kokushibo!! Go follow them!!"

Kokushibo, at Muzan's command, followed the two girls as they walked to the next store.

They walked in silence, their hands full with their things and their thoughts elsewhere. Both appeared to be flushed and most definitely not from the cold—especially since demons aren't affected in visible ways by cold.

Kokushibo followed them until they entered the store then he paused and went back to Muzan.

"So?" the demon lord asked, his eyebrows cocked in curiousity. 

"I think that you've at least sparked something other. They didn't talk or anything but they were... definitely thinking about it," Kokushibo said, smiling.

Muzan leaned over to him and gave him a quick kiss. "Good."

×××

"Okay! For Kaigaku and Gyutaro, we're going to need Daki. But since she's... developing her relationship with Nakime, we can have you talk to Kaigaku first," Muzan said, leaning back on his chair.

"Why me?" Kokushibo huffed.

"Because he sees you as a father," he said, rolling his eyes. "And you can just pretend you want to see him for training or shit, I don't care."

"...alright. What do I say? Or do?" the Uppermoon asked, confused as to where this was going.

"Just talk to him about random shit then drop big ass hints that he likes Gyutaro and that he should ask him out. Kaigaku catches on with that sort of shit really easily, don't worry." Muzan sat up. "Shouldn't be too hard."

"You say it so vaguely, though..." Kokushibo complained. 

"You'll do great, Kokushibo," Muzan assured him. "Want a good luck kiss?" he teased.

"Yes."

Muzan slipped around his desk and went to kiss him but arms wrapped around his waist and lifted him onto the desk. 

"Hmm, don't go too far Kokushibo," he warned, though he gave him a tender smirk. 

×××

Kaigaku stood in Kokushibo's house—a small human one with a lot of curtains and boarded up windows to make it look as if an abandoned one though it was far from that inside. 

"Soo, what am I doing here? Training again?" Kaigaku asked, his arms poised on his hips in a relaxed posture.

"No, just talking," Kokushibo said, sitting down on a chair he'd placed across from the one he's put down for Kaigaku—who wasn't even using it. 

"Hmm, what about?" the training-to-be-an-Uppermoon-demon asked, his eyebrows perked in curiousity. 

"Stuff."

"Elaborate."

"Sit down, Kaigaku," Kokushibo sighed.

He sat. (totally a sentence)

"Start the conversation, then. I've got to finish wrapping the presents," Kaigaku huffed.

"Alright. Hmm, so your place as an Uppermoon? You'll be taking as... Uppermoon six if there were to be any vacancies," Kokushibo said awkwardly, after a moment of silence. He honestly didn't know what he was supposed to say. He'd had a vague idea but then he'd gotten all caught up with Muzan and... shit, so it'd slipped his mind. 

"And...?" Kaigaku prompted. "I already know that, you know-"

"Right, right. Gyutaro and Daki are Upper six at the moment," the Uppermoon said, thinking quickly. He had to bring Gyutaro into the conversation.

"Mhm?"

"Maybe you should train with them? Like, Gyutaro, say! You seem to be around him a lot recently. Have you befriended him well?" he asked, mentally approving himself. 

"Oh, uh..." Kaigaku paused. "Yeah, sure. I've... befriended him, all right.

"Very well," Kokushibo said, noting the emphasis on friend.

"Why do you ask?"

"I want to make sure you have closer sight on what it's like to be an Uppermoon. You should really talk to Gyutaro more. Ask him out if you want to go and talk to him somewhere more... private?" Kokushibo suggested, a glint in his eyes proving he meant other than what he was saying.

Kaigaku, obviously realizing this, flushed. "Ask him... what?" 

"Out."

"I know, I meant, uhm..." he faltered. "Nevermind. Okay." 

"Great! And hopefully he can be more than just a friend, in which you two can bond together in other ways to give you more experience," the Uppermoon said. He stood, then, and said, "Have fun!" before walking off deeper into his house to wait for Muzan.

×××

And then it was Christmas.

Muzan and Kokushibo lay quietly in Muzan's room, both having wanted a bit of rest, when the door slammed open.

They jolted up. "Wha-"

"IT'S CHRISTMASSS!!!" Daki exclaimed, grinning widely. She wore a sort of onesie that was red and white with patterns of reindeers. "GET UP FUCKERS!!!"

"Daki!!" Muzan groaned. "Quiet down."

"NO CAN DO!!" she said, dashing off.

Kokushibo sighed. "We better get going then."

"Right. I'll go see if Gyokko has the costume on," Muzan said.

"Mhm." Kokushibo kissed him on the forehead and then the two demons stood and walked out of the room, noting the decorations put up all over the Infinity Fortress.

"It looks beautiful," Daki said as Muzan and Kokushibo entered the main gathering room. 

Nakime smiled. "Thank you."

"I know someone else she finds beautiful," Muzan said under his breath.

"What?" the biwa demon asked, turning her gaze to him.

"Nothing. Alright, Gyokko!! Where are you?"

Daki burst into laughter then, bringing the attention of the demons to her.

"What?"

"I gave him the costume of the grinch an hour ago and he'd been complaining that it's not fit for him to wear and that it's not artistic at all so he won't come out of his pots," she explained, pointing to one of the flower-designed vases sitting in the corner of the room.

Muzan shook his head. "Gyokko, get your cowardly ass out of the stupid vase and show us the costume. If you don't, I'm going to make sure every one of your pots are destroyed and your paints and materials are thrown into an ocean." 

Gyokko, obviously shocked by this threat, gasped and the sound echoed in the pot. 

"Well?" the demon lord said impatiently.

"Fine..." Gyokko whined, slowly but surely going out of the pot. 

There was a beat of silence as everyone stared at him, the bright green fuzzy—but somewhat soaking wet—fabric of the costume making him look worse than ever as he averted his eyes to the ground, his face flushed in a red hue contrasting against his usually pale skin.

And then—

Laughter rang out from Muzan making nearly every Uppermoon flinch in surprise.

"Nevermind, Gyokko. You already looked like shit before but that's worse. You can take it off... at midnight," Muzan decided.

Gyokko huffed. "Okay. How long till then?"

Daki grinned. "Nearly twenty four hours. It's nearing to one AM of today," she said giddly.

"...Fuck. Can I at least stay inside the pot?" he whined. 

"Nope, you have to stay out in that corner of the room the whole day, remember? And cry but I suppose that's optional," Muzan said, raising an eyebrow to see if he'd contradict.

"Fine."

×××

"Nakime!" Muzan hissed.

He was right behind Nakime, watching the other Uppermoons and Kaigaku exchange presents and talk. 

"Yes, Master?" she said.

"Put mistletoe over where Kaigaku and Gyutaro are in a bit, alright?" he said, his voice low in a whisper.

"Yes, Master." 

"Okay, now go talk to Daki or something and stop sitting by here the whole time. You can play  music later," he dismissed.

Nakime nodded. "Alright."

×××

Kaigaku was laughing as he spoke to Gyutaro when he noticed something above him. He looked up, his action being followed by a similar one by the Uppermoon he spoke to. 

"Mistletoe?" he said. "Was that always there?"

"No, I don't think so," Gyutaro said.

Kaigaku paused. "Gyutaro," he said suddenly, grinning.

"Huh?"

"People put up mistletoe because you're supposed to kiss if you go under it. We're under it," he said, raising his eyebrows slowly, trying to get Gyutaro to understand. 

"Wha...- OH." Gyutaro froze. "You want to..?"

"If you want to..." 

"So... yes?" he said slowly.

"Do you?"

"...yes."

Kaigaku nodded and leaned forward, pushing the box he held in his lap to the side. "Yes." He closed the distance between them, their eyes fluttering shut almost instinctively. 

When they pulled apart, both's cheeks were flushed and Gyutaro looked to be practically glowing, a shy smile forming on his face.

But then Daki gasped, and they turned to look at her. "What?" they asked in unison, as if the kiss had brought their words together.

"You guys... just... KISSED?!" Daki said, her voice almost in a shriek.

"Is that a bad thing..?" Gyutaro asked uncertainly.

"ARE YOU KIDDING?? IT'S THE BEST THING EVER!!" Daki squealed. 

Taken aback, Gyutaro took a moment to respond as he blinked, confused, at his sister. "It is?"

"You realize the both of you have been crushing on each other for, like, months and said absolutely nothing?!" she said, rolling her eyes.

"Months..?" Kaigaku asked, his eyes widening. 

"You too," she deadpanned. "You've liked him for longer, no?"

"Fuck off..." he mumbled. 

Gyutaro looked torn between backing up Kaigaku or his sister and he remained silent.

Douma, noticing this, turned abruptly to Akaza—who was about to go talk to Nakime—and said, "Akaza-dono!! We both like each other too! Can we kiss??"

Akaza glared at him. "Fuck no!"

"Why??" the blond whined, pouting. 

"Because you look like shit and you are shit," Akaza said, huffing and turning away.

"But... you like me!" Douma pointed out.

"My feelings have been corrupted."

"I wanna kiss you, Akaza-dono!" he said impatiently.

"Too ba-"

He was interrupted when lips pressed against his in a fleeting moment.

They stared at each other for a second, then Akaza turned red and turned away, covering his face with his hands.

Douma smiled happily. "You're pretty, Akaza-dono!" 

"I hate you," Akaza mumbled, the words too weak to be true.

"I love you too!"

×××

(watch me run out of ideas so imma end it now)

"Hmm, looks like they're having fun," Kokushibo noted, smiling.

"Yeah. What about Nakime and Daki, though?" Muzan asked, sighing.

"Don't force it, they'll figure it out themselves.

"Alright."

Muzan leaned against his boyfriend's chest, their arms and legs tangled up with each others comfortably.

"Love you, Koku... Merry Christmas," he said, stealing a short kiss from the Uppermoon.

"Love you too."

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LY ALL

HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS OR HAPPY WHATEVER!! <33

ALSO IDC I'M POSTING THIS HERE PAST CHRISTMAS I WAS TOO LAZY TO YESTERDAY

[captain-astors]

4, 14, 18, 21, 32, 33, 34 for furuta x ui please

I love the variety you picked out! These bastards... I could probably elaborate on any of this, but this is pretty lengthy already.

4. Who initiates affection? Why does the other not initiate affection as much?

It's not that much of a difference but typically, Koori starts it, Furuta keeps it going. Simply, Furuta's more inclined to poke and tease but he prefers to let Koori take initiative in the sense of "Sure we're doing this", and then he runs with it for as far as he wants. It tends to come of boredom, frustration, or sheer loneliness and desire to be close with someone. (Though the last one gets written off as one of the prior.)

14. Do they enjoy PDA, or are they more private with affection?

Not really. They have little interest in explaining this weird relationship to anyone else because that requires acknowledging it's a relationship. Furuta likes to test the limits of what can just be written off as "The Bureau Chief being weird again", though, much to Koori's lament.

18. How do they care for each other when one of them is wounded/sick?

Teasingly or irritably respectively, yet carefully for both. That's a lot of words that end with ly, anyways. As much as they're pains about it, they really don't want to lose virtually the only person they have left, even if said person isn't a good one, or doesn't deserve to be stuck with them.

21. Do they enjoy domestic life?

If they could sit down and try to obtain it instead of leaning full tilt into their doomed existences, yes I think they would. At the end of the day what they both wanted most was to live a normal life and to be loved, in a twisted way they found a glimpse of that in each other. They justify this relationship with a need to feel alive, that implies emphasis on the moments of brief violent emotion and while yes that excites them and sparks them out of their misery for a moment, it's the quiet ones after that actually bring them the most happiness. They'd hate to think that it wasn't just a result of the quiet though, or worse, that it's requited.

32. Do either of them drink? If so, who’s the lightweight, and how does their partner care for them?

Koori's the typical drinker, and we've seen how he acts in canon. He complains and wallows in his own misery for a little which... isn't happiness, but it's slightly better than bottling it all up. Furuta finds it charming, the honesty is good. He's happy to take him home and make sure he doesn't choke while listening amusedly to Koori's gripes with himself, Furuta, and just about everyone else.

Furuta likes the experience but he's weird about it. While it alleviates the stress of his constant performance for a time, he hates getting anything more than a little tipsy in front of people because if he's not in control of his own actions down to the finest detail his carefully crafted masks start melting into each other. You'd think his half-human nature would give him a high tolerance, but I think I've mentioned how his digestive system is kind of fucked, and that extends to his metabolism. If he ever felt compelled to allow himself to get drunk around Koori, Koori would probably just be occupied with not letting this idiot die and ignoring the weirdly genuine-feeling nature of certain comments mixed within his typical hysterics.

39. When and how did they admit that they loved each other? If they haven’t yet, why?

(I already did 33, so I'm throwing in this one because it allows me to explain a rather crucial point of their relationship for me, as long as it stays inside the time confines of their canonical collaboration. Also the friend I was going to ask for a number is asleep.)

Rather than having a fixed interpretation of them as a ship, I kind of shift around how much genuine affection and feeling they have for each other depending on how much I want them (and myself) to suffer! Between Koori's loss of Hairu and Arima, and Furuta's... everything, there's a lot of potential for one-sidedness, or even mutual projection of feeling. But personally I think the cruelest (and funniest) idea is genuine requited love, buried amidst miles of that projection and pretend and agreement to lie to each other. The only worse thing than loving someone else is to be loved, the world denied them happiness and they don't really fight against it. They accept it, and that willingness to accept demise goes directly against the idea of love. Their plans and goals do not work if they care for each other, so it's all just an idle way to pass time.

So no, they probably haven't, and if they do it'll be with their dying breaths because they simply don't have the time to work that out. Koori will always be chasing after a shadow of Furuta's siblings, looking for Hairu, and Furuta will never admit that he wants more. They're both going to die unfulfilled and it's delightful.

Of course I have scenarios in my mind where it works out somewhat better but this is a fun one.

[grandmofftarkinsuggestions]

let us discuss tarkin x leia. as a treat.

[twirlyeyebrows]

hi omg i never knew you took requests!! i’m so glad i saw your post, i love your writing :)

maybe something with zosan x reader? like, them playfully fighting over y/n while both in bed with the reader? if that’s against your rules, maybe just something with zoro where the reader gives him a massage after he trains. thank you!!

tysm for your request, this was so fun to write :) <3 (also it's not against my guidelines at all, don't worry!!) thank you for the compliment on my writing aaaaa <33 :,)

Sleepily Smitten (Zoro X Sanji X Reader)

✶ I'm not polyamorous myself, so if this fic is in anyway upsetting to anyone, please let me know and i can change/remove it :) ✶

♡ Content Warnings: N/A

♡ Gender Non-Specific Reader!

♡ Word Count: 1,552

The crew getting separated had been nothing less than a huge shock to you all. Being ambushed by a Warlord out of nowhere was something that none of you had expected.

Even more shocking than that though, was how everyone seemed to cling onto each other way more after you had all reunited.

For example, everyone knew that Zoro and Sanji always had a thing for each other. They had never made it clear but they didn’t need to. It was so apparent that it went unspoken. But now that they had been away from each other for two years and had finally gotten to see their faces once again, they couldn’t keep their hands off of each other… or you.

It had been a bit of a surprise at the beginning. You never expected for both the swordsman and the cook to fall for you. You weren’t complaining though, you weren’t going to lie and say that you didn’t secretly have feelings for both of them at the same time. You just never considered you’d get lucky enough to win the pair over.

The whole crew was on the ship relaxing from the huge battle you’d won the day prior. Everyone concluded that you all deserved some rest, especially after how demanding everything had been lately.

When you imagined “rest”, it hadn’t included Zoro and Sanji both being in bed with you, but you were happy to accept your fate nonetheless.

At this moment, you were huddled between both men. Zoro’s arms were around your stomach, holding you close as he breathed into your neck, dozing off. Sanji was within your delicate grasp, mostly asleep but always keeping an eye out in case something were to happen. You were living the best of both worlds, being spooned by one man you loved and spooning the other. You couldn’t comprehend how you managed to get so lucky.

Your heart swelled as your arms lifted softly to Sanji’s breathing pattern. You began to rub tiny circles into his stomach with your finger. You heard his breath hitch softly then return to normal with a small hum. You leaned into his neck and peppered it with graceful kisses. You elicited a few more sounds of joy out of the man.

His sunny locks shifted against the pillow as he turned his head to look at you. His bangs flopped onto the pillow and you could see both of his eyes (and his curly eyebrows which you love so much), a rare sight to see.

“(Y/n),” He drew out, sleepily. “If you keep kissing me like that, I’m going to have to steal you away from the moss brain completely.” He whispered. You giggled and proceeded to do exactly that.

You softly snagged a warm kiss from his lips, sighing in relaxation as you tasted the stale cigarette flavor on his breath.

All of the sudden, you felt the man behind you’s arms squeeze tightly around your torso. Your smile grew wider as you heard a groan escape Zoro’s mouth.

“Like I’d let you do that, Curly.” He said, poking his head up from behind you.

Sanji’s serene smile turned smug as he gazed up at the swordsman.

“Oh yeah? Just try it, bastard. I won't allow it.” Sanji spat back at Zoro playfully as he grabbed a hold of your arm and secured it around himself.

You felt yourself blushing as the two men fought over you. You never wanted to leave this spot. Nothing could have possibly felt more comforting than being sandwiched between the two people you were fond of most.

“You know what? I might have to take you up on that.” Zoro said as he hoisted himself up in the bed. You thought it was funny how the way he laid on his side resembled a model’s pose. He was more than handsome enough to be one if he wanted to.

Sanji wriggled out of your grasp with an annoyed sigh and sat up on his knees atop the soft sheets.

He pointed at Zoro with overflowing sass.

“There’s nothing you could do to take (Y/n) away from me.” He said as he put a hand in your hair and ruffled it. Your eyes shut on instinct as you melted into the feeling of his palm against your scalp.

You then felt Zoro’s rough touch against the crook of your back. You melted further into a puddle of affection. His hand glided up and down against your spine in the delectable way he tended to.

Zoro didn’t say anything in response, he just stared at Sanji with a glare that he knew would work against him. Even though the boys fought nonstop, they were still head over heels for each other and Zoro knew how to use it to his advantage.

The swordsman hit Sanji with a complacent gaze through his eyelashes. Sanji shifted around in the spot he was sitting in as his grip on your hair tightened ever so slightly. You laughed at how Sanji was putty in Zoro’s hands.

“Fuck you.” The chef said as he let out a saccharine snicker.

He shuffled his fingers through your hair one last time and got back down on top of the blanket next to you. He caught your gaze and didn’t let it go. He loved watching your eyelashes flutter and your mouth turn up in joy when he was this close to you. He could stare at you forever if you gave him the opportunity.

Zoro let out a defeated sigh with a light chuckle at the end. He sounded too tired to argue.

It wasn’t often that you were able to catch a glimpse of Zoro fully relaxed. It was one of your favorite things to witness. You turned away from Sanji and up at him, getting lost in his one functional eye.

He looked back at you with a look that showed all the care he felt for you. You could almost feel your heart pop out of your chest. You smiled and patted the empty spot next to you, hoping that he’d join you and the other man in the cuddle.

He got the memo and didn’t hesitate to settle down next to you. He grabbed your chin cautiously as if you were made of glass. He turned your head towards him and placed a chaste kiss on your lips.

Sanji whined as he flung his arm around you, pulling you closer to him.

“Don’t be selfish, garden head.” He said in a huff in the swordsman’s direction.

“Stop being so clingy you damn love-cook.” He growled back.

Both of them bickered back and forth but their faces were bright red and their eyes were covered in a glassy haze. Something about the whole situation made you think that maybe for some reason they weren’t actually mad at each other.

“Guys, stop.” You said through broken laughter. “We’re supposed to be relaxing, aren’t we? Can’t we just lay down for once?” You said, still giggling through your words.

Of course you didn’t mind them arguing over you, it was enough to make anyone feel special and desired, but more than anything you just wanted to feel them calmly next to you.

Sanji exhaled and Zoro let out a small grunt, clearly thinking they both had unfinished business. Despite this, both of them softened when hearing your request.

In an instant, Zoro lifted you on top of him and began attacking your face with kisses, causing you to laugh loudly and try to shoo him away lightheartedly.

Sanji wasted no time filling in the gap that you left in the bed, moving so close to Zoro that he was pressed against his side. Sanji looked at Zoro with a sly expression and began kissing him the same way Zoro was to you.

Zoro tried to act aloof but both you and the cook could tell that it affected him. He could try all he wanted, but he couldn’t hide his affection from you two. He relaxed his grip on you and faced Sanji, catching the smaller man off guard by kissing him on the lips.

You fell onto Zoro’s chest in utter exhaustion and felt your eyes grow heavy. You had been worn out from this entire adventure and now you just wanted to sleep with the comfort of your two favorite people in the world.

Both men looked at you with an absolutely smitten look. They couldn’t help but think “How cute..” when they saw you like this.

The men looked at each other with looks of surrender, deciding to save this battle for another day. What everyone wanted right now was to get a good rest for once.

Zoro swaddled you in his arms, holding you in a bear hug as you laid on top of him. Sanji found one of his arms caressing your back and the other falling around the swordsman who was nearly fast asleep.

You and Sanji let out one final sleepy chuckle as you closed your eyes, allowing yourself to get lost in the sounds of both of their breathing and the swordsman’s heartbeat.

All three of you sheltered smiles in your sleep as the feeling of being together solaced each one of you to sweet dreams.

[kittytheartist]

Oh what I meant about Teru- (this is about canon! nothing fanon)

It's just that Teru cares for his family so much and doesn't care about the others very much

He let Hanako live because Kou wanted to watch after him blah blah blah

He kept the pink bunny thingy (for the life of me I can't remember how to spell their name and don't wanna mess it up) because Tiara wanted it

He went to get the supernatrual back not because of Akane or Nene but because Kou wanted to.

Mostly everything he does is for his family(he also basically gave up his childhood so kou could live normally)

He sees Akane as a cockroach because he is half supernatural and the whole reason they even 'talk' is because of Akane being half supernatural. Teru doesn't even talk to the other student council members and even does their work when they skip out and I feel like he would do the exact same thing if our Akane was a normal human- he wouldn't care for him

And the whole reason he seems to 'care' is because Teru watches over him. But he only watches over him to make sure he doesn't do anything bad

And he might have a thing for Ao-chan but I have no idea (for we don't know why he would need her for something he wants)

I'm saying that if Akane(who is the only person he's 'close' too, if we wanna squint our eyes) asked Teru to help him get back Aoi-chan he'd roll his eyes at him or heck might even laugh but what I'm trying to say is he might pretend to consider it but his intention would never to actually do it because he will only do it for his family

He was content in living with no supernaturals but because kou wanted it he did it

And to when the attack happened in the severance I don't think he'd save Akane if he was in Kou's place(he would not risk his life for him) mainly because he would love to make sure that his family, Kou is in a safe area.

I repeated myself a little here but of well.

But in fanon totally!! Teru would swoop in and save our damsel, akane and his life for him because they are totally in loveeeeeeeeeeeee~~~!!! <33

And because this is long enough I'll just add a little more (sorry hon <3)

And in Akane's case

As we see when he is in love he isn't afraid to show it (we see this when he started dating Lemon because of the confession tree, because the tree made them a couple/made them fall in love lol- Oh Yamakane is super amazing and cute- I ship it btw) he purposes to Aoi-chan all the time and with lemon he told the entire class while do weird poses that they were in love and dating.

We see he doesn't act like a tsundere at all when in love

We see how he acts with his classmates - he's polite and kind and caring because he isn't the bestest of friends with them

So it's obvious he feels a friendship with Teru to show his true true self or in a bad way... he doesn't care enough to hide his true personality because he doesn't like him just like he doesn't like the other supernaturals

So yeah Akane may feel a friendship with Teru but he hates it because how Teru teases him about dating Aoi or literally tieing him in that supernatural weapon for hours on end while letting the (fucking can't remember how to spell) pink bunny things do what every they pleased

Yeah Teru gave him a thing to stop him from seeing supernaturals but I feel like he gave it to him because he felt pity or didn't want seeing these unnatural to mess up his school life (because again pity or something else but not a great feeling like care)

So canon Akane may feel a friendship with Teru but Teru probably feels a little bit of friendship(but then again he hates supernaturals so he is probably in denial about seeing him as a friend)

The thing is- Teru hates the dead people so it would probably take him sometime to even consider him a friend and would any day at anytime chose his family over anyone-even himself

while Akane-well I said it multiple times already now- sees him as a friend but is annoyed by that fact and is in love aoi-chan(even if he is a little, just a little /hj obsessed)

BUT IGNORING CANON TERUKANE IS AMZING- I LOVE IT- KISS ALREADY- TOTALLY CANON- I WANT IT TO BE CANON I LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM- TERU MY GAY ICON AND AKANE MY BI-CON <33333333 FANON IS THE BESTTTTTTT LOVEEE WOWOW

sorry for the long ask and typos, buddy :')

Oh and about the me running a mitsukou blog- I don't- I run a whole different fandom blog lol

I don't even read that much Mitsukou fanficion- I read like maybe 10 to 15 (I know that does probably seem like a lot but it isn't- I literally have a reading list where I have 100+ Hananene/amanene fanfics that I read so yeah it isn't a lot) I have read more Terukane fanfics

I actually do follow a Mitsukou blog but that's like maybe 1 or 2 while I follow so much Terukane/Hananene blogs Or just incorrect tbhk quotes

OH and again about the Yakoo and Satou they are totally dating- They literally had a divorce (in after school hanako or one of the extras I think) I love them so much

But how about NENEKANE

I love Nenekane- just think about it.... <3

Akane deserves all the love from everyone! :DD

Wait- this is making me think about who I ship this man with.... I ship him with lots of people wtf?

Teru, Aoi, Lemon, Nene and Hanako what

.... I thought about it and decided that Akane is a whore /j

sorry once again for making this ask MUCH Longer than it really should've been :'3

Hi Anon, thanks for clearing what you meant up! But I will kindly ask you to get tf out of my ask box, because I can find so many things about this that is completely misread and you seem to see Teru like most HanaNene shippers do (I know I'm passive aggressive but I'm a spiteful person and honestly I dislike most of the tbhk fandom and you end up in the rants I'm having a hard time not yelling how Teru's character is written) and honestly felt my Teru stan and kinnie self start boiling, I WILL SAY, Teru LOVES his siblings so much and yes he does SO much for them, and would do more, but let's be clear on Teru's character, he is so justice prone and raised off of it and as much as people say Kou is all about "justice" his form of showing it is horrible but Teru's morals are FAR better and he goes out of his way to help others,

now about your canon vs fanon......it is wrong beyond all reason, and here's the fuck why;

Teru only caring about his siblings is half right, he cares for them and tries to keep himself only to them but he ACTUALLY AND GENUINELY CARES FOR AKANE OK??? IN FUCKING CANON^^

first off, Teru has never seen Akane as just a half roach, and doesn't treat him as such AT ALL, he gave Akane the glasses because he wanted to give him the option he never had of getting a normal life, hearing Akane say how much this will change everything Teru genuinely saw a living in distress and wanted to help because that's his job, and he thinks a disgusting supernatural should never trick a human like that with such dirty tricks, in no way was this a pity move

TERU HERE EVEN CALLS IT A FAVOR!!! he didn't mind doing this at all and the expression (SPECIFICALLY HIS EYES AND EYEBROWS!!!THEY ARE A KEY FACT TO READING HIM!!I TOUCH ON HIS FACIAL EXPRESSION READING HERE) he makes looking at the glasses, and the attitude he seemed to have giving the glasses to Akane, he seems genuinely happy with what he did because he has helped a living in a situation they know nothing about, and he is GENUINELY remembering this moment, in no way does he show signs of pity here, it was not a pity move.

how does his facial expression say pity and no caring? his face when he doesn't care and thinks you're a sad sight is THIS

we can even see his face in the second to last panel, his eyes are closed and is the closest we'd get to the panel where he's messing with Akane, don't you see how different he acts and how different he looks? both panels have similar themes but the difference on how he treats a supernatural and Akane (a half supernatural) doesn't this show you how he sees him differently?

even when he talks about pitying and torturing Akane her he seems to be having a GOOD TIME MAKING AKANE'S LIFE HARDER (not in a genuine way but in a way that is entertaining to him and Akane DOESN'T MIND, he may say how annoying it is and it IS getting in the way of him doing his work, but he respects Teru SO MUCH!! Akane respects and looks up to Teru VERY much it's so amazing how much he trusts Teru with everything, and the mutual trust Teru shares, Teru never trusts anyone with anything, but I'll talk more on their trust later I'm the post) Akane has mentioned how Teru could get in trouble if he told anyone, but he doesn't!! because he genuinely finds no problem with this, he despises when he sees something unfair, and is SO QUICK to point it out! THE ENTIRE CLOCK KEEPER ARC WE SEE THIS PART OF HIM, he hates and finds it unfair how he has to go after Mirai and throughout the series he is constantly honest to Teru, and points out when something is unfair to others, he pointed out how unfair Hanako was being to Kou because he didn't even get a chance to help Nene, and he pointed out how unfair it was that Nene was roped into being Hanako's assistant, and how he himself was tricked, but he doesn't make sure Teru would stop this because if he apsolutely wanted him to stop he would put up more of a fight!! he can be so stubborn of he disagrees with something like how he is shown in the beginning of the grim reaper arc and Nene even had to try DRAGGING HIM!! arm in arm they were fighting, but Akane doesn't even give attitude or a temper towards Teru for tying him up, he is VERY collected about it, he just gets back up and continues, and Teru lets him down yk, I doubt he let his beads drop Akane accidentally, he never plans to keep him up there for too long, and was only severely tied up after the clock keeper arc because it was a punishment.

as much as Teru loves to call him pitiful and say things are sad to look at, the only thing he actually pitys looking at is a supernatural because they're made of regret, clinginess to the life they lost, rue, anger, jealousy, it genuinely upsetting to see such a vile creature cling so desperately, but Akane is no where near a supernatural, and he genuinely doesn't find him annoying or pitiful, he was tricked by a horrible supernatural, he doesn's hate Akane and never will, he may despise the way he goes about his crush for Aoi, he may think that a women should never be approached like that, shown in his card to Akane

he shows so much respect to Aoi, as a female because it's only curtis to be a gentleman, but he thinks the way Akane acts is apsolutely disgusting, NOT BECAUSE HE'S HALF SUPERNATURAL📢🚫 Teru in no way has an idea how to deal with a half supernatural like Akane and he doesn't do anything, he DOES make his life harder, and bullies him over being a half supernatural, but in NO👏WAY👏DESPISES👏HIM👏FOR👏IT

Teru is shown to respect women time and time again throughout the series, he's very gentlemenly when it came to Nene visiting them to return Hanitaro, and when he interacts with Aoi, and is always curtis with the background ladies we see.

now about that mutual trust they share for each other, first OFF!! Akane trusts, respects, and admires this man SO MUCH, and we see that when their relationship really starts to grow more, grim reaper arc and ALL of in between of current, after the betrayal of Teru not saying anything about Aoi not able to come, that tore him apart because that was the first time Teru wasn't honest with him, he didn't mention a mejor thing, but after thinking it over, he saw it as the right decision and Teru had done what was reasonable, he respects him that much!!

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how can you ignore so much of what Teru has done and say it's only for his family? ok so Teru in the navigation arc has NOTHING to do with Kou!! and he even would have left him behind at home, but he didn't think ANY of this would take place, because his ENTIRE goal currently is to save Aoi, Teru would NEVER roll his eyes or laugh at Akane if he flat out asked for help, but instead Akane brung him back up in the shrine by saying he COULD do it himself and wouldn't mind because he'd never give up. Akane even EXPLAINED Teru's character to us at the sleep over!!

here this reaction of Teru's isn't a "I don't care to help you" but it's a "YOU HAVE ME ON POINT" Teru in NOW WAY has EVER been read like a book like this, honestly he's probably uncomfortable with how much Akane can see through him like glass, Akane here explains how justice prone Teru is (as I mentioned in the beginning) and tells us how much he works for the town and how he would help anyone if he thought there was even a slight chance (that's why he does nothing to stop Nene from seeing Hanako because it IS her destiny to die young, but Aoi's ISN'T, and she can be saved, which is why he will help wether others will join him to the far shore or not, leading Akane on to see if he'd catch on too his plans was a test of he should bring him or not, but Teru trusted Akane to catch on!! he thought Akane was smart enough and trusted him to be able to see what Teru was up too. but he didn't expect him to see so much about him, the face expression on Teru isn't not caring, he didn't ever think Akane knew him that well, he feels like an open book, he's never felt like that so of course he goes dead quiet, this is a first time, he doesn't know how to feel.

and what caught me tripping so bad was.....when you said canon Teru wouldn't save Akane if he was in Kou's shoes right now? because he would apsolutely protect Akane with his life! and he would protect Aoi and Kou too, yes, Kou will always come to his mind but the others that far behind and he will protect all of them in an instant. how can you say Teru wouldn't protect Akane when he already has?

in this scene after he came to save Akane and he had his breakdown because of Aoi, he was VERY worried about Akane and it's written all over his face and body language, I made a post on it, and that would fill the spot here, Teru knelt down to his level and put his hand over him, MAKING SURE NOTHING CAN HURT HIM, how can you see Teru as someone who doesn't care about anyone except family when he's done so much for people outside of family? and how could you write them off as they don't go under surface level when they understand each other without saying it!! Teru even leads the supernatural in the opposite direction even though moving to the other side might put him in a harder disadvantage, if he really just took pity on him he would act far more different. he goes as far as hitting Akane multiple times when he's wounded to get it across his stubborn head that he's fucking injured and can't do shit, I CANT EXPRESS HOW WORRIED HE LOOKED IN THESE PANELS IN THIS SCENE???

HIS FACE SAYS SO MUCH HERE AND HE DOESN'T SAY MUCH WHEN IT COMES TO THIS SCENE WE GOT WITH THEM AND THAT SHOWS HOW MUCH THIS IS STRESSING HIM, if you read the link to the post earlier about his facial expressions you'd understand what his eyebrows are saying right now. and THIS is an entire post on what I'm talking about right now so go read it go understand more, trust me these links I'm putting complete what I'm saying so I don't have to repeat it all in this post, otherwise I'd just copy and paste or it'd be VERY similar so just take the time to read them please :( IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY I MEAN

and how does Teru only care about his siblings when he went to the far shore prior to this ONLY for Akane

because he found the glasses and got WORRIED, he didn't know what happened to him, and even said to his face that he came to rescue him, and was surprised to find Aoi there, it's in his dialogue

Imagine my surprise...To find you this close to the far shore.

he meant Aoi, he only came her with the impression of helping Akane, and USES the terminology of help, I don't think the way he acts about how he came here with the thought of Akane in mind, and did that for Kou, like this HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH KOU, so how has he ONLY been doing this for his family? he has done so much for others in this series, he even apologized for coming later then when he'd like, probably because he hadn't realized Aoi was still with Akane otherwise if he rushed it more he could have saved her, but he'd thought they got separated or she was lost/taken or ANYTHING, he just didn't expect they'd still be together, so this shows how much he'd do for Akane hm? he'd go through the far shore, get worried at the sight of his glasses, save Aoi for Akane, he was completely aware of her Akane blood heritage during this and was completely ready to leave and never see her again, so how could he have a crush on Aoi when he literally didn't mind leaving her? he didn't care to save her, and thought she was gone, but after seeing her again, and Akane breaking down, having the worst week of his life, he couldn't just leave Aoi, he went above and beyond to figure out a way to save Aoi, for Kou? nooo, for Tiara? noooo, why the fuck would Kou care so much about Aoi? it's not in his objectives when he mentions it, and when he thinks of Nene's objectives he doesn't really care about Aoi, she's a upperclassmen he's seen and she's the most popular girl in school, why would he want Teru to specifically save Aoi when he could care less and has NEVER mentioned her? because Teru has a strong sense of helping those who can be helped and Akane would lose himself without her.

• • •

Akane's respect despite, of the betrayal he felt after Teru never told him about how Aoi couldn't come back, he blamed himself, and his respect for Teru SKYROCKETED, he went above and beyond defending Teru's actions in his head and always sees the moves he makes as rational, but I'm sure if he REALLY had a problem with it he'd say so he's a very honest person, but he understood why Teru did and acted like that, he completely understood him after the severance and in that week he really did still respect him (I touch on that in this post too), he defended him at the sleepover and asked if he really was the one protecting the entire town by night, Akane wants to see the best in Teru, not in fanon, but in CANON, he explained why and tried so hard to see if Teru really was so reliable, and he was READY to defend him in the shrine

even in a shrine, which he was making sure to be on better behavior, he wouldn't stand for people saying bad things about Teru that were just wrong, and wanted to get in the middle of them, and the next panel he tries to interfere again, saying how it's not that simple and probably had a lot more to say and got very frustrated when he just stormed out, not to mention how he openly let Teru vent about his feelings, he didn't stop him from moping but he didn't know what to do either. tbh he lifted Teru back up and gave him the will to keep going and the smile he gives Akane and the way he looks at him would be enough to tell you he cares a lot more then you think, he doesn't look at ANYONE else the same and only gives Akane these types of smiles, sadly I've reached the image limit but the way Teru smiles and acts towards him compared to how he treats others is so....fruity

I DO agree that TeruKane mutually hate that they subconsciously love and care for each other and watch each other's back sjsjshdj but not in the way you exactly described.

and that's another point of trust! they watch and fight each other back to back all the time and trust each other to watch out for themselves but don't hesitate to save each other, in the navigation arc when they're fighting on the train Teru doesn't hesitate to help him but he also trusted him to protect himself and watch Teru's back whilst still having his injury(sense Akane never got healed) their mutual trust is such a strong part of their relationship.

and if Teru really didn't care why would he invite him on a three way date? he had fun with him even ordering something for him and something they could share, would he really do that if all he cared about was his family?? I don't really know what you think of the date as sense you seem to see Teru as someone who is shallow and only looks out for his family when he cares and does so much for the entire school/town/characters and he's sacrificed everything for others, not just his family, although he's completely dedicated to making his family happy but his character doesn't solely revolve around his family and canon TeruKane is SO much better then fanon and their dynamic and interactions are very amazing and they really do go deeper then skin deep, it's just like how Akane over the series isn't JUST about Ao-chan. Teru and Akane care for more characters in this series and they care about each other, wether they'll ever admit it to each other or not.

I'm going to say it now, Teru wouldn't gone back to the far shore if Aoi turned out okay because Kou wanted to save Hanako or see Mitsuba (which Kou would NEVER tell Teru, and from what we saw in chapter 87 Teru doesn't have much insight in what Kou feels or thinks) and he was going to exercise Hanako regardless of Kou, because he'd warned him before that he wouldn't hesitate on it if he acted out. so the navigation arc didn't take place at all because Teru was doing this for Kou, he would honestly think Kou's better off moving on and finding a way to cope, Teru would never want Kou to be involved in the supernaturals that twisted his morals, so this is something he would never do for Kou. he even expected Kou to stand by the sidelines, and was surprised when he took action against him.

Teru even tossed Kou out of the way of No.6 towards Akane because he knew he could trust Akane with him, COME ON DO WE EVEN HAVE TO MENTION THAT TERU HAD AKANE PROMISE TO PROTECT KOU?????? TERU STUSTS NO.ONE. WITH THAT EXCEPT HIMSELF!!!! why would he ask and trust a half supernatural he hates and would never do anything for to protect his brother? because THEY MUTUALLY TRUST EACH OTHER!! Teru believes Akane would honestly keep the promise and help him as much as he can in the future, tbh Teru would have trusted him blindly to protect him but he was worried about the near future (we still don't know why Teru made him make the promise in particular, looking at you AidaIro) but he needed to be sure and make sure Akane had the objective

TERU HAS NEVER IN HIS ENTIRE LIFE ASKED SOMEONE ELSE TO KEEP HIS BROTHER SAFE‼️‼️NOT A SHRINE PRIEST NOT NENE‼️ NO👏ONE👏 EXCEPT👏THIS👏BITCH👏👏

(uhmmmmmm nvm ig I lied here's my analysis—idk of this is generic but yk @stillhumanoidblob hope you enjoyed or it wasn't as good as you hoped</3) btw Anon Tiara owns a

M o k k e

it's name is Minamoto Fairy, remember it.

sorry if I came on too strong or hurt your feelings Anon, but your ask made my Teru stan boil because I read this man like I read the back of a label, I love him and I think obsessing over fanon can be so sjdjd idk canon is much better and he isn't and never has been an un caring asshole who only looks out for family.

btw I ship TeruKane(my otp), AoiKane(on certain days/qpr) YamaKane, HanaKane(not romantically) AkaNene(I love it sm) TeruKaneAoi(underrated HE IS SUCH A WHORE

anyways thanks for sharing Anon sorry I had to go off on you but this ask got me fuming (I have a temper)

BUT I DON'T MAKE THEIR DYNAMIC CONSTANTLY ROMANTIC!! I hate when people do that :(

but most of my posts could be taken as romantic? that's fine! but I enjoy them sm

THIS IS NOT PROOFREAD!! please forgive any Grammer mistakes I text fast!

[gunsatthaphan]

Hi! I just remembered like two asks you received some time ago, i wanted to squeeze in but I forgot 😅 It was about My Only 12% and the work of New and Wabi Sabi in general… Lmao.I so agree with you. This is not a read, but I am not a fan at all. And even of Earth k either. Nothing personal but all of those things mentioned don’t have any… spark. And so when I saw your anon saying they liked New’s produced shows I was shocked bc it is very often not the case, but it’s nice to see there are shoes for everyone (... is that even a saying??)

And about Between Us, I’m not excited at all tbh but ig it’s a good thing. That way I can be ‘surprised’ by it. But UWMA was soooo long ago. I loved it! back then, but since then I changed my ‘views’ you know ? And my liking of certain types of shows. Like if I watch it now… I think I’ll somewhat like it but really I will see just the negatives. I guess it really is about the production of it all (BUT not JUST that obviously. Not everything is bc of ONE man). And I know I’m probably THE ONLY ONE on this but, I get tired of seeing the same pairings over and over and over again. Like Fluke and Ohm, or Boun and Prem. Like it’s kind of always the same… atmosphere to the ships. To be clear, I didn’t see Win and Team in Even Sun, but they kind of have the same… monotony, and same with Ohm and Fluke. The more they have a series together, the less I feel it.

And I only feel that with that studio I realized. Bc I like Jimmy and Tommy, they acted with different vibes in remember 15. And also Off and Gun bdhcnd NOT ME! Need I say more haha.

So what I got from this is that I don’t like wabi sabi studio in its entirety, at all 😂😂 That's sad but yeah. They used to announce stuff and I'll get excited. But after 7 project ...😬 And I tried again with M12% but hm:/ So I guess I'll keep clear of this company. They have good premise but bad execution in my opinion.

And please I’m not trying to be rude, I’m sorry if I come off that way. I’m not the acting or prod. police. But I just see people from time to time talking abt (some of) it, but never really do it. So I just shared my opinion with you bc you seemed to have shared opinions with me. And obviously it’s totally fine if you agree just 2% of my GIANT rambling. 

It’s okay if you don’t engage with this <3 

I think you’re coming back soon from Thailand right? Enjoy the rest of your trip <33

hi anon!

lol that's okay. and I completely agree with everything.

for me wabisabi is just kind of a homogenous soup of cringe lol idk. uwma was good and everything that came afterwards wasn't. Their shows are all the same at this point and as long as New is directing them, it will stay that way lol. Not a fan of his directing style at all, which worked back in 2018 but not in 2022. The only reason I liked star and sky was the cast + plot but it definitely could've been better with a different director. But that's just my opinion.  

The issue with them recycling their actors and giving them the same roles over and over again definitely goes hand in hand with that. Now I know gmmtv kind of does the same but the difference is they have a much bigger range of shows and actors so you can't compare the two imo. BounPrem definitely have that monotony issue you mentioned, more than OhmFluke. Fluke has a big range and is doing well, Ohm not as much lol. But for me, they still work better than BP overall. Like Even Sun was weird enough to be funny but BP were the same in that too. Comparing them with mii2 and offgun is a lost battle because they're polar opposites lol.

And I agree, my views and preferences on shows have changed over time too. I think that's normal. In 2018 I thought LBC was high cinema which......no comment lmao. And I still consider uwma good today but definitely not as much as back then. I guess the more shows come out, the more picky we get which is fine.

But yeah all in all I don't think I'll ever watch a wabsabi production again unless they change their concepts lol. I'll take a look at between us because who knows, but if that sucks then bye bye. There are shows out there that deserve more attention than them. 😬

xxx

[that-gayyy-bitch]

I have this headcanon that the Gryffindor Quidditch team were little shits, that Oliver could barely control, so he made a rule board, which started off pretty normal but got out of hand.

I imagine it was like this: (This is the Quidditch team in the first 3 books.)

1. Quidditch is not just a game. People who think otherwise will face the wrath of Mr Wood.

2. Mr Wood is NOT a cane to beat people with.

3. Don't let Fred and George near anything. Anything.

4. Friendly reminder that the chasers aren't secretly super Ministry spies who could kill with one glance if they wanted, no matter what Fred says.

5. Hufflepuff's seeker is not secretly a badger.

6. Harry is our baby-secret weapon, and must be protected at all costs.

7. Keep the Chocolate Frog Card stash away from Alicia and Katie.

8. Playing 'Spin the Broomstick' and '7 Minutes in the Broom Cupboard' is forbidden.

9. All pairing names are forbidden. Especially Johnwood and Wooter.

10. Oliver Wood is not a walking sexual innuendo.

11. Anyone who says 'Morning Wood' will be high-fived punished.

12. Harry I don't care if your scar is hurting, just catch the snitch for Merlin's sake.

13. People who say Fred and George are the same will be attacked by bludgers.

14. Incidentally, if Fred and George pretend to be each other one more time, they'll be attacked by bludgers when they're least expecting it.

15. The next person to ruin Wood's date by saying 'He's a keeper.' then winking is off the team.

16. Betting on how many times Wood will fall off of his broom is forbidden.

17. Beaters are not code words for prostitutes.

18. Anyone heard singing 'We saw Oliver's butt' will clean the broom cupboard for a week.

19. Discussing if twins are exactly the same EVERYWHERE is forbidden.

20. Oh they're not exactly the same. ;)

21. Fred and George are now forbidden from writing on the rule board.

22. Friendly reminder that Angelina is not to be trusted with our clothes, and the next time the twins convince her to take them, the three of them will be picking them out of the lake themselves.

23. Singing 'Potter for captain' and 'How will Potter end up in the Hospital Wing next?' is banned. (On weekdays.)

24. Insulting Slytherins is allowed if they start it, but if you don't want us to get disqualified, please refrain from sneaking live spiders into their quidditch robes.

25. Katie is not allowed to hold anyone down and give them a makeover.

26. George is not allowed to help.

27. Pranks wars between the Weasleys and the Chasers are forbidden.

28. Dragging Harry into these wars as bait is also forbidden.

29. Selling strands of Wood's hair to first years is strictly prohibited.

30. If Fred and George are huddled together, it's bad and they must be separated before someone's broom turns into a marshmallow.

31. Angelina and Alicia will refrain from singing 'We're the most sassy quidditch team on the planet with the best butts ever.'

32. Fred and George will not join in.

33. Fred and George will NOT EVER AGAIN show their butts no matter how 'glorious' they are. Well they are. No Katie.

34. Harry will not ask 'Where do babies come from?' in earshot of rival quidditch teams.

35. Professor McGonagall is not a cat who's animagus is a human.

36. Alicia will not ring a bell in Wood's ear every time he says Katie Bell, Katie, or Bell.

37. Bad puns are banned everyday except for Thursdays.

38. Though spraying shampoo on Professor Snape's head and blaming it on Zacharias Smith was funny, refrain from doing it in front of McGonagall.

39. 'Touching Wood' for good luck is prohibited.

40. Shipping McGonaWood is hilarious creepy and needs to be stopped.

41. Fred, George and Katie will not turn all of the Ravenclaw brooms into squirrels when they're not looking, even if 'It was only a joke' and 'We were going to change them back.'

42. Oliver Wood does NOT sleep with a toy golden snitch. Well he totally does.

43. Fred and George will refer to rule 21 and keep their filthy mouths shut.

44. Holding out a broom in front of your body and sniggering 'long' and 'hard' is immature and will be banned.

45. Threatening to shove broomsticks up people's butts/nostrils is not a good way to taunt any rivals, Slytherin or not.

46. Harry is NOT the Gryffindor mascot, and will not be forced to wear a lion costume and dance.

47. If it is heard that anyone has been insulting the team then rule 25 will be overlooked.

48. Reminder that Oliver Wood puns are banned, and any new ones will banned. Unless they're really good. No.

49. Playing '(Oliver) Would You Rather?' is forbidden.

50. Draco may be a slimy git, but de it's prohibited to turn his hair colour to red and gold, no matter how hilarious he looks.

[casmybelovedass]

The Destiel Folder: Season 6

[Season 4; Season 5] Man, this season... an emotional rollercoaster

Episode 3:

Cas admits he and Dean "share a more profound bond." (15:35) uuuhmm okay

"You think I came because you called?" (16:31) cut to "I always come when you call" later on in E21

"When a claim is laid on a living sould, it leaves a mark, a brand." ... like a handprint maybe? (22:33) Cas basically called dibs on Dean and admits it

Dean, I get it, Cas looks hot when he fights, but you don't have to look at him like this (24:42)

The amount of eye-fucking in this scene (25:56) almost 30 seconds (of Dean checking out Cas) of Old married coupleTM moments. Dean is worried about Cas dying again by the hands of an archangel. He just got attacked and wants to go out. But Cas has to go save the universe from a holy war. Basically a wife asking her soldier husband not to leave for the war.

[(26:28-26:30) Dean was totally looking at the BOOTY]

NOW FOR THE JUICY STUFF: Cas and Balthazar obviously had a history. More than brothers or war buddies. We could parallel them to Dean and Lisa: both old flames coming back after a long time and all.

Also, Balthazar can sense something is going on between Cas and Dean. It's so clear he can (35:26). ICWAW, we would assume Balthazar was an ex, getting jealous over Cas' new love interest

Episode 6:

"You asked me to be here, and I came", OH what about the whole 'I don't come because you call' thing? (13:40)

How domestic is this moment. Cas pouring Dean a drink, trying to comfort him (14:03). He hates seeing Dean like this, and hates even more the fact he can't do anything about it

Cas knows Dean is hurt enough already, and doesn't want to get him involved with a war that's not his to fight (14:20), but still wants to help

Episode 7:

Second time Cas starts stripping in front of Dean and he just stares (2:32)

Look, all I'm saying is... they really don't have to stand THAT CLOSE to each other (4:07)

Episode 9:

[Not a destiel moment but Dean struggling to say the words "gay guy" is too fucking funny to me (33:45)]

Episode 10:

Dean, will you not check out the angel in front of your brother, please? (11:54)

Dean is visibly uncomfortable at Cas watching porn practically NEXT to him, and having a BONER practically next to him. Understandable, but still... kinda gay (15:58) Look at Dean's face, my God (16:07)

[I'm screaming Dean looks like he's wondering what it'd be like to kiss Cas (25:29)]

"CAS?!" (26:23) the way Dean gets progressively more worried about Cas fading/being taken away and shit, kills me

[Cas is so fucking confused as to why Dean would suggest he'd let him have an hour alone with Meg (39:25), either that or he's embarrassed he might've actually wanted to. Meg and Castiel were cute together]

"If there's anything we can do-" "There isn't. I wish circumstances were different. *stares at Dean with puppy eyes* Much of the time, I'd rather be here." (39:46)

Also, Dean stares at Cas for 15 seconds, but averts his eyes when saying "We're your friends"? (40:01) Denial? Something's off. ICWAW, this would indicate tension, unspoken feelings

Just... the way Dean looks at Cas, and when he flies away (40:17) HIS EYES

Episode 11:

Balth jokingly calls Cas Sam's 'boyfriend', and Sam reacts normally, letting it fly over his head. When later in episode 17, Balth calls Cas "the angel in the dirty trench coat who's in love with you", Dean gets pissy. Just like later in 10x5. Touchy much? (13:48)

Balth admits he doesn't like Dean, and that "screwing him would delight me", but calls the one brother who threatened to crisp his wings, a "capable young man" (14:46). Jealous much? ICWAW we would read some sort of romantic rivalry between those two.

Episode 14:

This face... where have I seen this face before?

Oh yes, here

Dean looks at Lisa, the so called "love of his life", the same way he looks at Cas. Fuck my life

Episode 15:

"Cas" (Misha) starts stripping and Dean... stares... again (9:23)

"Well, Cas... now that you have your sword, try not to die by it." (39:53) Is it a saying? Or a reference to Dean being Michael's Sword? As in "He is gonna be the death of you"? And Balth looks at Cas THAT WAY?! (40:01) You can't tell me there was nothing between these two. Kill me now

Fucking stop being an old bitching married coupleTM already (40:25) you are hurting me

Episode 17:

Balth 'jokes' about Cas being in love with Dean (18:48) ICWAW we would read this as an ex being petty about the new love interest and teasing said love interest about it

Wow, jealous much, Dean? Again, ICWAW, this would totally be seen as jealousy for your crush's ex (27:30). And Dean, you're staring at Cas' lips again (27:37)

[Sam: "So, you killed 50,000 people for us?" Cas: *looks at Dean* "... No, I didn't... They were never born." (37:49) This is so stupid, but... sure, Cas... sure. That's what you ment.]

Cas makes a small speech about fighting for freedom, choosing your fate and all, while looking at Dean (38:55). OKAY SUBTEXT!!!

[As soon as Dean mentions boobs, Cas is gone (39:36) LOL]

Episode 19:

"It's not like Cas lives in my ass. The dude's busy. [...] Cas, get out of my ass!!!" "I was never in... your-" (4:28) and then they stare... Were you having unholy thoughts guys?

"Without your power you're basically just a baby in a trench coat" #MARRIED (10:38), "My friend is very sick." "I have a, uh... painful burning sensation." OH COME ON!!! (11:22)

"You know who whines? Babies. *pats Castiel*" (14:28) I'm sorry, pats him wHERE??!!

Dean saves Cas again (19:38)

The way Cas says "Dean, Dean!" (23:09)... I'm so fucking weak, and look at those EYES! (23:41) kill me now

"The kid... The little kid, he's one of them." "... Unbelievable." "Yeah, I know, Cas. You told me, all right?" (37:48) #MARRIED

Sam and Bobby immediately think Cas might be betraying them (39:31), while Dean won't even immagine the possibility. "This is Cas we're talking about!" (39:52)

Episode 20:

Even tho Dean can sense something is off with Cas, he won't bring himself to admit it. And the eye-car-sex. That. (4:44-4:53)

"You're distracted. [...] Is that all you're holding, huh? See... the stench of that Impala's all over your overcoat, angel." (6:20) this has such sexual undertones. ICWAW, it would be MENT as having sexual undertones. Also Crowley ships it

Dean protects Cas even tho clear evidence is there, and even feels bad about lying to him (12:06). And Cas feels oh so bad about Dean trying to be loyal to him, even when he was starting to suspect (13:18)

Dean still refuses to acknowledge the possibility of Cas' betrayal (19:56). His speech about Cas... I'm weak. "He broke ranks, gone to the mat, cut and bleeding for us, so many frigging times. This is Cas!" (20:10). ICWAW, this would be read as Dean having feelings for Cas, and as those feelings were getting in the way of his best judgment

Cas goes against the King of Hell to save the boys... but Dean first (21:48), and Dean defendes him against Bobby and Sam, apologizing for doubting about him. Cas hates having to break their trust

The look on Dean's face as he realizes Cas had been lying the whole time... BROKEN (23:35-23:49)

Cas doesn't want Dean to have to sacrifice more than he already had for him (25:19), and when Crowley shows up, Cas' first instinct is to look back at Dean protectively (25:30), and does that again before following Crowley (26:17)

Cas wants Dean to be happy, stay retired, even tho he was so longingly looking at him moments earlier (29:09)

"You gotta look at me, man. [...] Look me in the eye and tell me you're not working with Crowley." (32:38) the absolute desperation in both Dean and Cas, how HURT they look. THEIR EYES! Dean looks devastated

"I did it to protect you, I did it to protect all of you!" (33:09) one of the many "you, all of you" no-homo saves Cas pulls while talking to/about Dean

"I had no choice!" "No, you had a choice... You just made the wrong one." (34:21) how fucking hurt Dean looks. "Where were you when I needed to hear it?" THE EYES

"I was there... Where were you? *flashback to Cas looking back at Dean*" I'M DEAD

"It's not too late. Damn it, Cas. We can fix this!" "Run. You have to run, now. RUN!" (35:33) and they do, but Dean looks back at Cas, and the way they look at each other... STOP (35:47-35:52) ICWAW, this whole scene would seem like someone trying to save their loved one, and OH boy, that stare exchange would seem either a silent confession or a reminder of their feelings for the other

Cas visits Dean in the night, even tho they clearly don't trust him and don't want him there, and Dean leaves it be (38:06), and even apologizes for having to angel-proof the house against him

#MARRIED (38:28), "I'm doing this for you, Dean. I'm doing this because of you." (38:35) ICWAW... do I even need to point this out?

"Next to Sam, you and Bobby are the closest thing I have to family..." the look on Cas' face as Dean says this (39:15) "... that you are like a brother to me." did Cas' eyes just get more glossy? Poor baby. Also, ICWAW, by the way they interact, this statement would feel wrong on so many levels

"You're just a man. I'm an angel." ... why does it feel like Cas is telling that to himself more than to Dean? (39:43) "I'm sorry, Dean." (39:55) Kill me

Cas questions his decisions, asks God for guidance, the moment he understood he hurt Dean. He doesn't want to hurt Dean, but will do what he has to do to if it means he will be safe

Episode 21:

[Not a destiel moment, but "fragile masculinity" much, Dean? (4:20) "I was too busy having sex with women." (why do you feel the need to specify 'women'?)]

This Dean-Balth bickering has such current-former love interest fight vibes (8:52). Come on, ICWAW, this would totally be the case

Here's another Cas/Lisa parallel: how Dean acts here, looking for Ben and Lisa (13:11), and how he acts in S8 while looking for Castiel ("WHERE'S THE ANGEL!?")

Cas saves Dean again (21:46). "I didn't ask for your help." "Well, regardless. You're welcome." #MARRIED

They are both on the verge of tears... "I thought you said that we were like family." (22:22) They hate this situation. They hate not being like always, close, friendly, family

"Dean... I do everything that you ask... I always come when you call. And I am your friend." (22:39) the way he says 'Dean' and how his voice trembles. Dean is basically almost crying now (23:45)

"Dean, I said I'm sorry and I ment it." "Thank you... I wish this changed anything..." "I know.. So do I." (37:45)

[Alright. I do believe Dean really grew to love Lisa during that year they spent together, but I don't buy the "I always loved you, ever since that one hook up on that one weekend we knew each other for" shit. Dean wanted to give a try to the whole 'apple pie life' he'd promised Sam, with a good woman he knew Dean had feelings for.

If he grew to love Lisa over a couple of years after 1 hook up, I'm sure he could do the same thing for Cas after over a decade (he for sure would have already If Cas Were A Woman)]

Episode 22:

["You've always got little old me." "Yes... I'll always have you." (30:26) These two... Come on, they HAD to be ex lovers!]

"We were family once. I'd have died for you. I almost did a few times (Cas did actually, twice). So if that means anything to you... Please... I've lost Lisa, I've lost Ben, and now I've lost Sam... Don't make me lose you too." (39:55) ICWAW, this would be seen as a straight up CONFESSION

The hurtful look on Dean's face when Cas says "You're not my family, Dean.", and the terror when he thought for a second that Sam might have killed him (40:39)

["You will bow down and profess your love unto me, your Lord... or I shall destroy you." ... okay, Cas, honey, I get you are tired of waiting, but this is not the right way to get a confession out of Dean (41:20)]

[Season 7>>]

[clouds-rambles]

Love is eternal... but you are not

Pairings; Ara x Selene

Warning(s); Major character death, angst, hurt no comfort, panic attacks

Summary; Mortals and immortals should really have relationships... Ara knew that much. But she was loved and she loved. Why is it never enough?

Words; 943

Notes; *YELLS INTO A PILLOW* Comfort ship is when two oc's, Ara and Selene deserve the world but alas I like to punish myself, @clouds-amnesia for you my dear <33

Keep reading under the cut!

Ara!

Wow it's been a while since I last saw you (67 days and 12 hours from when I'm writing this letter) and I know I don't normally write letters when I'm out and about but I'm missing you.. a lot..

I miss your cute hugs, your kisses, your smile, your laughter, the pet names you use for me. I feel lonely. And my exhibition is supposed to last another fortnight so I can't see you for another three weeks... it sucks... I just want to be by you

Do you remember last summer solstice? We went atop that mountain to witness it, and we saw those mountain lions? I do. I didn't say it then because I was too busy kissing you but. The way the two were basking in both the sunlight and each other? It reminded me of us. The way we'd open the curtains on the nice summer mornings just to lie together in bed and soak in the sunlight. I coo at the memory of you pouting at the sun because it was in your eyes.

I want to be back home now... see you and our litter of kittens. I'm sure they're more like cats now. Have you given them all names? If so I have to tell you I've basically already named the kitty with the paw socks 'Socks' super unoriginal but it just fits her so much, and she looks super cute. If you do give some of the kittys away just don't give cute lil' socks away please <3

Now that I bought up the memory of solstice I'm just overcome with so many emotions and memories... so excuse the odd happy tear on the paper

Love you Petal. I hope you're having a good time and you're not overworking yourself.

Selene xx

Selene was alive when the letter was sent, she was actually alive up until a week and a half ago according to the letter than accompanied this letter but now? Selene's gone. Beaten thanks to some inexperienced adventurers walking into a hilichurl camp.

Now level headed, rational Ara would have nodded and gotten on with her day. Ara is not level headed. Especially not in this moment. She's angry, upset, she's in mourning and she just wants her precious wife back.

And in all fairness Ara didn't storm to each of the adventures homes and beat them half to death, she just wrote several... extremely strong worded letters with more than enough death threats to sink a battleship.

It's been hard for her though...no body to bury and no sibling to let her speak to her ghost just once just to maybe get some closure.

'Ara isn't supposed to be like this' she tells herself, in the mirror, as she's brewing tea, as she's trying to sleep. Ara doesn't cry, because she doesn't lose people. Ara doesn't cry because Selene was supposed to be here forever... Ara doesn't cry....

Ara sits in her bathroom rocking back and forth. Her body screams for, her body yearns for the touch of her lover. Or at the very least to have her siblings here to comfort her. But alas she can't have the former anymore... and the latter are littered across the continent... she could find Cael with ease but... she isn't sure how she'd break it to her brother that the woman who has saved his life multiple times is gone. Ara isn't really bothered how Cael would react... more how she'd react. Telling people that Selene is gone... just makes them even more gone. The tiny chance that Selene will walk through the door goes away the second Ara tells anyone. It goes away the second Ara has to accept that Selene is gone. The chance of seeing her wife again... gone. More gone than it already is...

Ara isn't sure how much time has passed, her life has slowed... patients come and go to see the Green Witch. But every time someone asks where her cute wife is. Her composure is gone and the client has to go home.

Ara tries doing things. The things that she used to do before Selene arrived. But nothing feels the same. Sleeping is met with coldness no matter how hot the evening is. Cooking is met with memories of Selene complimenting the spiciness of her dishes, with memories of the two of them dancing to nothing more than the rhythm of their hearts. Inside feels cold, memories of cuddling by the fire and reading books together spring to mind. Outside feels colder, Ara's met with memories of Selene happily talking to vendors asking about their families.

Ara desperately wants to go back to domestic bliss with her wife. So desperately that it almost hurts.

Ara has experienced loss before. Loving mortals is a losing battle. It only ends in never ending regret. And Ara seems to have a think for women who put themselves in danger.

A losing battle really...

But...

This time was supposed to be different. Ara made a contract. Selene was supposed to be immortal that was what their spirit contract entailed.

And yet...

Bested by a hilichurl camp...

Three hundred years is a long time for mortals. It was a long time for Selene. It took almost a hundred years to get over seeing her closest mortal friends and family dying. Selene was doing fine.. more than fine. Selene had been happy and in domestic bliss

And yet..

Fate took both Ara and Selene's happiness.. again.. and at the cost of Selene's life.

Fate has never been friends to the lovers...

Maybe unhappiness is what fate wanted to give Ara

[secretsandwriting]

This is what won as well as responses to almost if not all the comments left.

After this I'll make the new one to go over some of the options you guys brought up to refine it.

Ok, so first here are the things that are done and will be in the next one.

Y/n will be a vigilante. (83.3% voted yes)

Enemies forced to work together (76.7% voted yes)

Enemies to lovers (76.7% voted yes)

Dating to stay undercover (53.3% voted yes, 23.3% voted its fake dating, thats always an option)

Fashion (76.7% voted Fashion)

People might die. (36.7% voted just not the batfam and co, 26.7% voted no please let everyone live, and 26.7% voted maybe as long as I don't like them)

Angst response is easier to show then to type out.

So now were on to the three questions where you could type your answers.

Things you don't want.

+ means there different requests I put together

Stalker ex boyfriends + SA and yanderes + Crazy ex + Allusion to s*xual *ssault + dark themes, r@pe, abuse, cheating + S**ic*de. It's a really bad trigger for me. If it ends up in play, trigger warning in advance.

First off, I don't really want to do any of these and I know I've done some of them before so I get why you're bringing it up. I'm actually trying to avoid them more now because its not the best for me to be writing them and all that.

As for the dark themes, its based off DC so I can't promise that not coming up as for trigger warnings, I'm not the best at them but I do try to put them before any part that has things in them so that's a given. But for the most part the only ones of these I see happening is the dark themes and those would mostly be the normal Gotham things.

Pet’s Dying, My pets dying lol

I mean, I figured out a way to help stop that so you don't have to worry about it.

Really gritty violence?

The nice thing about smau is that people don't normally post that type of thing on social media, escpecially if your trying to keep your identity secret. Also I don't like how I write things like that so I try to avoid it. There might be mentions of it happening but I doubt I'll ever go into too much detail on it.

SLOW BURN LIKE NO SIS I CAN'T HANDLE THAT

Well, since undercover dating won there won't be too much to slowburn.

If it is enemies to lovers, please don't make them too antagonistic

No this would be my favorite version of enemies to lovers. They may be enemies but they know that the other isn't actually that bad but they have pride so its really just petty in general.

IF YOU KILL THE MAIN CHARACTER AGAIN IM COMING FOR YOUR KNEECAPS

Jokes on you I took my own knee caps

jason being a whore

I love this but you don't want it which almost makes me sad but ok anon. I'll try not to make Jason a whore.

No kids: just everyone being young and living it up without being too idk domestic?

Ok, idk how to avoid making it too domestic but I'll try.

Anything you do want?

Having to live together. Cohabitation

Easy. I got you anon.

Titus and co as well as Jason bestie + bat cow 💕 + reader may be enemies with dick but reader and damien have a brother-sister bond

These three kinda go hand in hand and I like all of them.

Soulmate au? Secret dating?

Probably not soulmate au and secret dating would have to be a side relationship because Dick and Y/n would be fake dating. So I could do it, but I need another couple to do it with.

Stupidly cute fluff + happiness maybe + Some sweet domestic fluff is always nice :)

Already wanted all of these in it, so you three are thinking on the same wavelength as i am.

SASSY PET RACCOON LIVING HIS BEST LIFE , FAKE DATING where maybe ONE of the batfam still don't believe that they are dating and try everything to prove that they aren't which leads to Dick and reader to try absolutely anything to convince everyone

I love it. Thank you. However the pet raccoon isn't confirmed yet as there were a bunch of other options people put in so I'm going to have that one run again.

john mulaney quotes

THE FACT I NEVER THOUGHT OF THIS I TRULY SAD. THANK YOU FOR TELLING ME!! THIS WILL DEFINITELY HAPPEN

Flustered Dick, even if lowkey + Dick's ass

I'm combining these simply because together, they give me some great ideas.

y/n having literally EVERYONE wrapped around her finger (maybe one exception idk)

Ok, but really. This is a great idea. Everyone just loving her but one of them sitting in the corner like. "Idk man, something about her isn't right..." Proceeds to sip drink.

CAR CHASE CAR CHASE And maybe slowdancing in the rain

So these were sent in by the same person. I like both! I like both a lot. I just figured out how to do a car chase in smau so its all good!!!!

Soft, moonlit whispers as one of them bleeds deeply + Dicks reaction to love interest being hurt, badly. I always love that. + fluff, and angst (maybe reader getting injured really badly)

I might get in trouble for this, but I do like the ideas... A lot...

More action

I'll try! I've found it a little hard with smau and I'm not the best action writer but I do want to add more action so I'll try to figure out how to do more.

Anything else or is it all covered?

pls for gods sake, for my sake, for your sake, don't kill the pets

Ever since I got this, it was one of the first so its been a little while. I keep wondering if its a threat? But again, pets dying isn't planned. I should have enough to go for plot so that there is no need to kill pets.

A lil bit of CRACK just batfam crack in general oh and maybe BATCOW making an appearance

The only problem with batcow, is pinterest doesn't have many pictures of cows that look like they could be pets because there are rarely people with them so thats why batcow hasn't shown up. Since I have more time to plan this one, I'll look for more options and see if I can find any.

what if, and hear me out, we made it gay🌈? or, at least, masc fem reader?

No, simply because I'm not comfortable writing it as the main relationship/character. I've tried before and I didn't like it in the least and scrapped a week work. So If I tried I doubt I would finish it, if I did, it wouldn't be good because I would probably just give up part way through. So I can definitely do ships and all that that aren't the main but for some reason every time I've tried to do it as a main relationship, I hate it. Sorry!

it would be cool to have more poc or lgbtq rep

I'm actually planning for more poc to happen in the current one. I noticed lack of poc not long ago and confused myself as to why so there will definitely be more representation.

As for lgbtq, I'll try. I was planning on trying to have at least one ship or something because I haven't. But as long as its not the main relationship I can do it so that I'll at least post it.

kiss ily muah

I love you too! muah! I really needed this, thank you!

NO KIDS PLEASE AND THANK U

Ok, No kids and you're welcome.

If there is an instance of fashion, could they help each other get ready, and laugh and joke a lot?

You genius you! Of course I love it!

Nope everything’s perfect! love from yours truly fuzzycloudsz <33 + All covered + All good! + We good + That's all. I love your stuff. + its covered !!!@ cant wait!!! + All good

I'm glad I got everything then! Thank you guys! I'm glad you like my stuff and that your excited for the new one!

[byakuyasdarling]

Please feel free to share your happiness with us!! I can assure you that it doesn't annoy anyone!! To be honest, it makes me really happy to see that you are having fun! I genuinely love hearing about your selfship, the dynamic is truly wonderfull! Besides, I know how nice it feels to talk freely about someone or something you love,, So please don't think you are annoying anybody by doing what you like!! ♡♡♡ I wish you the best, you are so awesome and valid!! ^_^💕

You are literally the sweetest oh my gosh 💙💙 right back at you!! I always enjoy reading all your posts about your ship, I am just really bad at communicating how much it makes me happy to see! Sdididjdjeej You’re so nice it genuinely warms my heart 💙💙 you’re incredible.

Anyway, I’m gonna slide my incoherent happy ramblings here ^///^

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As a side note: I wrote this yesterday but THEN I FELL ASLEEP WHILE WRITING IT,,, which is a pretty good indicator I was happy while writing it ^o^

Literally my whole day in class today was basically just thinking about him, which is pretty uncommon since I normally focus a lot on my work, but today my head was ALL OVER THE PLACE.

Sjskrfhhtr precious <<<3333 (keep it composed, Freya, keep it composed)

Anyway, so naturally I have a few things to say about my bastard man.

Admittedly I’ve been thinking about the fact he’s fluent in French for a solid 24 hours now and I have tried to devise some pet names or phrases he generally says to S/I. I either published it in a post, or in one of my drafts that he does occasionally drop a few sentences in French to S/I if he’s tired enough to just revert his mother’s first language (explained in another post).

That’s a pretty rare occurrence, however, I do think he’d also say a few things to her in French that are a bit more touchy-feely. He’s more comfortable to be that way as she can’t understand much of what he’s saying, while also clearly expressing love for her.

Perhaps something like:

“Prenez mieux soin de vous, ma chérie.” -> (very roughly: “Take better care of yourself, my dear.”)

“Tu es belle, ma chérie.” -> “You’re/ You look beautiful, my darling.”

“Tu es si belle, chérie, si douce.” -> “You are so beautiful, so delicate/ sweet” I like to think he says this one after he kisses her <<33 sdjdosjeje n e way

Outside of those being rather rough and basic: I was thinking about nicknames. He sticks very closely to the classics. He enjoys the sense of intimacy he has calling her by a pet name, though.

His favourite is definitely “darling” / “my darling”. He uses that one a l o t. “Dear” and “love” also give off very much the same vibe. He does use “sweetheart” but not nearly as much as the others. Same goes for “ma belle” (my beautiful — but sometimes translation seem to say “my pretty girl”, depends who you ask) and “ma chérie” (close to “my darling”), he uses them a lot less compared to the others.

He???? Calling me pretty??? >///< <<333 I would like that, ahahaha. Again I have gone very stupid with love sudidjjdkrjr

A few smaller side things that have definitely been living rent-free in my thoughts to end my little ramble off:

He tends to correct her posture a lot when he walks past her or is sitting with her

S/I tried to show him a few shows she watched as a kid (we’re talking about Pokémon everyone lmao), and he just r e f u s e s to watch it. He’ll end up just reading a book next to her while she tears up a little at all the inspirational moments (and obviously sad ones — don’t even mention Bye Bye Butterfree to me, I WILL CRY). If she is tearing up though, he’ll squeeze her hand a little to try and offer his comfort.

He warms her hands when they’re cold >///< (hesjsidj hand kisses >///<,, just kidding, just kidding... unless?)

Thank you so much, Octo!! You are so amazing and kind <<<333 have a wonderful day!!

[ultrahamilham]

You tagged me in a thing and I had a stroke, bless you

I get all Pikachu meme whenever I see you in my dash and you've referred to me and acknowledged my existence because it is literally the best thing ever, I have a mini stroke every time

Three ships: Jamilton, Jamilams and Jamilmads (would've said lams but then it just sounds like I'm saying the same ship in three different ways lol)

Last song: Uhh, I don't listen to music much, but Ultimately by Khai dreams

Last movie: The Hunchback of Notre dame

Currently craving: Sushi, oddly enough (I haven't had it in about nine years but still, want)

Currently reading: The Da Vinci code, and about five different fanfictions

About a very late answer to your question (My family has COVID, which is shocking to hear, or so I'm told, but they're recovering and they fortunately had a mild case and no one has any history of disease so they're going to be okay! That's what the doctor said and I'm praying), Taco hell made me laugh really hard when I read it and really lifted my spirits because I remember being in not a great place when I started it but it made me smile which was like, a thing for me, and don't judge me but I think The three way was probably my favourite and I don't want to think about what that says about me but it was really because I love works that are that long (around 50k is always my sweet spot). I'm not sure if I'm remembering right and I'm so so sorry if I'm getting the title song wrong but that one Jamilton fic with uh, Gucci and fendi in the title was really fun to read ;-;

I also remeber the first work of yours I ever read was this comfort Whamilton around 1.5 or 2k where it starts raining and Alexander is on edge but George comforts him- Okay, I'm ranting now, apologies. ;-; (idk You're super cool and I want to talk to you like, normally, but you'll hateee me and I don't want that and so here)

I never really get a chance to respond as soon as I'd like, BUT I never get to and if you don't want to know/care about my life- please skip to the next paragraph thank you. So, I did end up watching Snowpiercer! I watched all ten episodes in one day which is iffy to say the least, but I'm still alive! I did love it. And I've been alright- a bit anxious with everything, but I've been giving my tests and uni and stuff. Yesterday, I was about to go to the vet when u realised about two minutes into the ride that I forgot my dog so that was embarrassing. Almost competing with the time I dropped my phone and then followed it, dropping to my knees and immediately bursting into tears (Nothing even happened to my phone!). So if you read this, thank you again.

I wanted to ask how you were doing too! If you don't mind xxx

And as for the fanfic writer asks, would you mind answering 50 ;-;

Wgjfvqkcwkh also I heard about you and Henni getting married so CONGRATULATIONS that is the most amazing, sweetest thing and in honestly so f*cking happy for both of you. I audibly awwed when I saw that post and I can't believe I just remembered.

I'm so sorry this got out of hand with how long it is, I didn't mean for it to be ;-;

-shy anon, sincerely apologising for possibly ruining your day by oversharing and/or overstepping (also with love and congratulations for you and her)

I get the surprised pikachu face whenever you show up in my ask box ;-; It always makes me happy!!!

Okay but sushi is always good. The craving comes randomly for me as well. I didn’t crave it at all when I used to make it for a living, because I got so tired of it, but now I crave it every once in a while lol it’s really good ;-;

I really hope everyone is doing okay! COVID is scary and it’s no joke. Having it before was horrible for me and I would never wish it on anyone. I hope everyone including you is okay ;-;

I’m glad Taco Hell did what I was meaning for it to do! It’s meant to be lighthearted and make people laugh. It’s based off of my life and it’s actual situations I end up in all the time. It’s quite amusing lol

I would never judge you. The Three Way is literally the one fic I am most proud of. I could never judge you. I literally go back and read it every once in a while and go like “I made that... Holy fuck...”

Oh! Gucci Not Fendi is the title. I’m glad you liked it!!!

Rant all you want! I adore that Whamilton fic ;-;

Seriously, my dear, I can promise you that I won’t hate you at all. Believe me, I really won’t. I’m probably the most awkward and annoying person anyone will ever know and I overshare like everything. People know more about me than they really should.. Lol

I care about your life, I was the one that asked you to tell me! But honestly, snowpiercer was soooo good... Like I tried to binge it all in one day but I was trying to write as well and it didn’t go over well lmao, snowpiercer ended up winning! I’m really glad you watched it!!!

That whole forgetting your dog thing is a mood. Today I forgot to turn on the food heaters and I realized it right before it was too late. Almost lost $200 worth of meat... Oops... Lmao

I do that with my phone if I drop it even if it’s okay. I just freak the fuck out and cry before I know if there really is an issue

Also I’m doing good! I decided to just lay back and relax tonight so I’m having a few drinks and I’m gonna watch random shit lol I was up for 33 hours the night before last and slept for 15 hours after. I can’t recommend doing that, especially not when you’re like 24. I’m too old for that shit.

Hell yeah I can do 50! I will give you a sneak peak at the 3rd part of the three way... .-. It will be posted on Oct 19th!!!

Here it is. This is seriously NSFW lol:

Alexander looked down at Thomas and ran the fingers of his free hand through Thomas' hair. He licked his lips as he watched Thomas work his tongue expertly inside George. "You're such a good boy Thomas, you're already wrecking him." He purred. 

Thomas let out a low moan and kept up the work, getting a little more aggressive. Alexander could feel himself getting hard in his pants at the sight coupled with George's shameless moans. Alexander looked back at George's face and grinned a bit. "Are you proud of us, Daddy?" He asked. 

George pressed his forehead against the headrest and panted as Thomas wrecked him. He tried to push back against Thomas to no avail. "Fuck… Y-yes… Yes you two did so good… Please… Please do as you wish… Whatever you choose, do it… I will take whatever you give me, you de-deserve it…" George bit out desperately.

Alexander grinned in delight at that. He looked at Thomas who looked just as excited from what George just said. He then touched Thomas' shoulder. "Alright, that's enough babe. I'm going to stretch him, then we can give him a good spanking. Why don't you undress for me? I have a little treat for you." He purred.  -END of the preview.

Thank you so much! We are so freaking happy that it’s happening. We were planning it more today! It’s so amazing ugh.

I appreciate it all the same! It’s not too long for me at all!! Don’t you worry my dear <3 you didn’t overstep at all!

[starstruck-xavier]

For the bthb Don't Let Them See You Cry for Moceit

Lavender

tysm for the request! i had fun writing this one, i hope you enjoy <33 another fic for @badthingshappenbingo​

ao3 || wattpad || bthb masterpost || fanfic masterpost

words: 1627 ships: moceit (up to your interpretation) warnings: verbal fighting/arguing, nothing physical prompt: don’t let them see you cry fandom: sanders sides

summary: Patton has never liked the sound of fighting, but at least someone catches onto that. bingo card and fic under the cut!

X = finished, O = work in progress i’m still taking requests!

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Patton has never liked the sound of fighting.

He knows that these arguments usually get resolved, that it’s very rare nowadays for the sides to hold extensive, serious grudges against each other thanks to the improvement in communication that they’d all been practicing with Thomas, but this is six characters all trapped within the confines of one man’s imagination and the laws of physics out in the real world. They can’t be separated from each other for alone time that easily. Everyone is always everywhere.

Individual words can’t even be distinguished from the quarrel that Logan and Roman are having, yelling meaningless insults at each other, Patton and Virgil merely caught in the fray. About five minutes of this has transpired with Virgil becoming more and more fidgety until he sinks out with an apologetic look to Patton, not even noticed by the other two quarrelling.

He’s the dad character, he should be able to stop them from fighting! But whenever he opens his mouth, the lump in his throat threatens to rise and spill his tears. And then what would they think of him? He can’t let them see him cry. Even though everyone’s been comforting and supportive of him through his more emotional days, this is a different situation. Roman and Logan are too caught up in their argument to think about timeout or indoor voices.

So, Patton waits, blinking rapidly, breathing deeply, waiting for a moment of silence so he can clear his throat and cause them to realise just how loud they’re being. Thomas probably has one hell of a headache. It’s getting harder and harder to watch the two sides argue, their quarrels clearly straying from the topic they’d first started on. However, just as Patton thinks he’s about to break, he feels a tugging that alerts him to being summoned elsewhere.

When he rises up again, he’s in a room that doesn’t look extremely familiar, but the black and yellow theme gives away just who’s it is.

“Janus?” Patton scans around the room until he lays eyes on the newly accepted side. "I’m— I'm just moderating a discussion in the common room. Do you need anything?”

"I’d hardly call it a ‘discussion’, Patton. I’ve been listening." Narrowing his mismatched eyes with suspicion, Janus walks over slowly and touches his gloved fingertips to Patton’s chin, gazing into watery eyes. "Don’t try to force your tears down. You’ve got a lot bottled up in there.”

Instinct compels him to deny that he’s feeling anything negative, plaster a smile on his face and force his voice up a pitch to uphold his sunny disposition, but then Patton remembers who he’s talking to. Janus can spot lies, that’s his function. Still, the moral trait simply takes off his glasses to rub at his eyes, not ready to let everything go just yet. “Logan and Roman are just… arguing. It’s a little much. They didn’t even notice when Virgil left.”

Janus hums in thought, then perks up as he has an idea. "I’ll go out there for you and handle things. I think that if I try to join in as myself it’ll set them off further, so, may I impersonate you for the time being? I know they both have a soft spot for you, but I saw how upset you looked watching them. You can stay here.”

Ever since Janus’ multiple impersonation plots, he’s learned to ask for permission before shifting into another side’s look. As reluctant as he was when Thomas decided to get everyone to work on better communication, he’s aware now that taking someone’s place without letting them know will cause confusion and general discord, and so he awaits Patton’s answer, hearing a distant ‘falsehood’ screech through the walls.

"Yes… please. Y— You don’t have to—“ Patton starts, but Janus shushes him gently.

"I know I don’t have to, but I want you to feel better." The snake skin on Janus’ face starts to fade as he alters his appearance to mirror the side in front of him. "I won’t be back soon, and then you can’t tell me everything that’s been on your mind lately." He smirks humorously, eliciting a more genuine smile from Patton, then conjures a pair of glasses and clears his throat, feeling his larynx lift upwards to accommodate the difference in voice patterns that the two exhibit. "Don’t go anywhere, kiddo!”

There’s no flaw in how Janus captures his voice with a dorky movement of his shoulders, making Patton chuckle to himself for a moment, then all the smiles leave him as soon as he’s left alone. He makes his way to Janus’ bed and sits down, leaning against the wall and hearing muffled conversation in the common room.

"Okay, guys, let’s not fight anymore.”

"Oh, my apologies, Patton. We must’ve figuratively strayed from the original topic.”

"Yeah, because Calculator Watch over here is being too stubborn to listen to my idea!”

"I was listening, it’s just preposterous!”

“Logan! Roman!”

A few seconds of silence drift through the air, then… "Where did Virgil go?”

"He left about five minutes ago. Poor kiddo must be pretty anxious.”

That reminds him - Virgil. He’s been on Patton’s mind for some time as well, adding to the mountain of emotions lodging in his throat. The kind, apologetic look he’d received from the anxious side before he left feels strangely refreshing after the buildup of tension between the two, ever since the whole puppet video. They’ve definitely made an effort to repair their friendship - Patton treats Virgil more like his intimidating self while still maintaining a doting, fatherly attitude and Virgil tries not to direct his outbursts towards him - but still, it seems like something’s missing. Patton just wants his best friend back.

The thought sends his tears overboard, and within a matter of seconds he’s stifling his sobs into his hand. The softener in Janus’ bedsheets underneath him provides a little bit of comfort, but every time Virgil’s face appears in his mind, the faucets in his eyes open a little more. It’s getting harder to keep his hitched breathing under a controlled volume, and he doesn’t want to alert anyone’s attention so that Janus can continue with his plan, so he grabs a pillow, sets his glasses down beside him and hides his pain away from the rest of the room.

The pillow smells of lavender. Lavender, purple… Virgil…

Patton doesn’t lift his head when he hears the familiar whoosh of displaced air as Janus returns, he just continues to sharply inhale the lavender scent and sob through his exhales. He doesn’t even try to collect his scattered pieces when a pair of arms wrap around him and hold his trembling body close, keeping it intact. Of course, with Janus being part snake, he doesn’t radiate body heat like the other sides when he gets hugs from them, but that doesn’t change the feeling of a comforting body leaning against his. All the while, Janus stays quiet and waits for him to talk, sprouting his four extra arms after a while to card one hand through his hair and trace various patterns into Patton’s arms and back with the others.

It takes a long time for the moral side to steady his breaths, but eventually he removes his face from the tear-stained pillow to look at Janus with red eyes and a runny nose. He barely stops himself from apologising, apologising for crying, crying into his pillow nonetheless, instead reminding himself that he is the emotional side and that it’s completely normal for him to be feeling this way - something he’s had to remind himself of for so long. No words are spoken yet; Janus uses his extra arms to shift Patton into his lap and then moves to lay down on the bed with Patton’s head against his chest. Tears still leak from puffy red eyes, but it seems that he’s finally let all of his most intense emotions out.

For the rest of the day, every now and again Patton says something like "I wish mine and Virgil’s relationship was the same as it was before”, or "I made Thomas think he was a bad person”, or "I just hate seeing my family fight" in between sniffles, and Janus continues the comforting motions of gloved hands in his hair and on his back, underneath his blue polo, telling him that Virgil doesn’t hate him, neither does Thomas, and it’ll all be okay soon as long as everyone decides to cooperate, and Patton knows that there’s nothing but truth in his words.

"Did you manage to get Logan and Roman to forgive each other?" He asks after a few minutes of comfortable silence.

Janus hums amusedly. "Yes, I eventually revealed myself and told them I'd get Remus to gently nudge them down the stairs if they didn’t.”

The response causes Patton to laugh adorably as he props himself up on his elbows to look at him, the corners of his eyes creasing in that way they do when he’s smiling genuinely. “Janus, no violence!”

"I was only joking, sweetie." The dorky side’s forked tongue flickers out with his smile, but then he tilts his head playfully and looks into Patton’s eyes for a moment. “…Unless?”

Patton has never liked the sound of fighting, but at least somebody has caught onto that now. In the meantime, the two will laugh the evening away and then fall asleep, tangled in each other’s limbs, but then eventually Logan and Roman will sort out their differences for good, Patton and Virgil will finally have a long-anticipated conversation, and Janus will be supporting him all the way.

Maybe it’s helpful to let yourself cry in front of somebody else every now and again.