#ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh me sob

[solmesia]

I hope you feel better! ❤️ HC-

Halsin is the camps therapist but Astarion knows he needs to talk about his stuff too and sometimes when they are just cuddling or hanging out Astarion assures him he can talk to him about anything and eventually Halsin does. They help heal each other.

Shadowheart has a tramp stamp dont @ me

Lae'zel sometimes has the worst bedhead you have ever seen braids and strands of hair are almost sticking straight out. She's too eepy to care tho.

Astarion learns how to turn into a bat non acsended 😤

[strawberrisoulmate]

ah... hey, darlin'.

i know i ain't the best with words, but i still wanted to send you somethin' since it's valentine's day an' all.

first off... i guess i should say that ya make me happy — real happy. i actually used to think that i would never... well— it's just... been a long time since i felt like that. bein' with you makes it easy to forget all the bad times i've been through and to just be myself again, and i really appreciate that. nobody else has ever done that for me — nobody else has ever wanted to, either. most people only see the stuff i've been through when they look at me, but you're... the only one that just sees me. and that's... it means a lot to me.

you mean a lot to me, actually. i might not say it all the time, an' i might not be the best at showin' it, but you mean the whole world to me. i don't know what i'd do or what i'd be like if it weren't for you. and... hopefully i never have to find out. i'd like to never know.

so, ah... i guess what i'm tryin' to say is that... i love ya, hannah. more than you probably know.

happy valentine's day. i love you.

flynn ❤️

ahhh flynn, oh my gosh… this is so unbelievably sweet. i love you so much, too ♡

i know i can get really moody and i cry a lot and there are times when i’m probably a major pain in the ass to deal with. but i can’t tell you how much it means to me that i have you here with me. really, it makes me so happy. you make me so happy.

happy valentine’s day, sweetie. i love you so so much.

[timetraveler-artist-writer]

omg i just realized, i need to leave my books, nooooooooooo. even my sketch pads.

[me-writes-prompts]

-:"I can't stop loving you." Angsty romance prompts for your otp:-

(This prompt list...... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. tag me if you write these ☠️)

By @me-writes-prompts

"It's not you...it's me. I can't stop loving you."

"If I knew loving someone would hurt so much, I still would've loved you."

"I'm tired of being the only one who loves you. I need you to love yourself first." oof

"This is not the version of you I fell in love with. And honestly, I've forgotten the real you." T-T

"Is it so hard to believe I've stopped loving you?"

"I can't live without you. I can't love without you. I need you, by my side, always did and always will." "You'll be okay. I know you will."

"It's not okay to just leave me here, after telling me you love me back." "We can't- we'll never be together."

"So you choose them over me? After all we've been through together, you choose them?" (AZIRACROW MY HEARTTTTTTT)

"I'm forbidden to love you. I'm forbidden to be with you. So, what am I to do if not fall on my knees and beg for you to stay?" (bear with me here AHHHH)

"It's truly funny...how you can't choose who you want to be in love with. I didn't choose to be in love with you. It just happened, and I wish it didn't."

Walking in rain to their house just to find that they're no longer there.

"You can't go. You cannot leave me here. You promised we'll be together forever." (No words)

Playing the song they always sang together to, and just crying.

"It'll never be the same between us. We'll never be the same."

"Your silence speaks more than you ever have. And, I'm not sure why it took so long for me to notice."

"You've drifted so far away from my side that I can no longer reach for your hand and guide you back to me." SOB OMG DID I JUST WRITE THAT

"I can no longer recognize you. And that's not even the saddest part. It's the fact that you no longer make any attempt to make me understand you."

[multifandomhallucinations]

actually sobbing my fucking eyes out

ignore the time but GODDAMNIT DREAM- FUCK YOU- WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT- FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU AUGDIDBIEJSKSNDJS AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

this made me sob harder than passerine did

im buying those fucking flowers and growing them now

aint nobody stoppinv me - alex/topaz

[lunerna21]

Okay so now that I’ve finished White Rabbit Fest, I NEED TO TALK ABOUT HOW MUCH I LOVED THIS EVENT

***Slightly long post ahead just forewarning you lol***

WHEN I WAS ABLE TO MEET DEUCE’S MOM DYLLA, I WAS FREAKING OUT LIKE MOTHER LIKE SON AND THEY ARE SO GODDAMN SIMILIAR

THEIR SMILES!? MANNERISMS!? EVERYTHING AND ITS SO STINKIN CUTE!!

AND THE OUTFITS?! SO CUTE! I WAS IN LOVE WITH EVERYONES COSTUMES

And when Deuce came out in his outfit 😭❤️ He looked so good but it was so cute seeing him all embarrassed (kinda reminded me of Idia in the ending of Book 6 😂)

And when Dylla mentioned about how Deuce speaks so often about US AND ACE

MY HEART COULDNT TAKE IT I HAD TO WALK AWAY WITHOUT WANTING TO FALL INTO A PUDDLE OF HAPPINESS IT WAS TOO MUCH

I WOULD DIE TO SEE DEUCE SPEAKING ABOUT US AND OUR FRIENDSHIP BUT YET THE THREE OF THEM JUST CAN'T ADMIT HOW MUCH WE LOVE EACH OTHER AHHHHHH

THERE WERE SO MUCH MORE INTERACTIONS WITH EVERYONE THAN IN THE PAST BUT I JUST LOVED THE BANTER BETWEEN EVERYONE (and of course everyone dealing with Grim and his endless stomach lol)

And YALLLLLL when this scene came up 😭

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ITS TOO MUCH I LOVE THOSE THREE LITTLE SHITS SO MUCH

BUT THE BEST PART FOR ME WAS SEEING DYLLA BEING SO PROUD OF HER SON AND DEUCE STICKING UP FOR HIS MOTHER AND SHOWING HOW MUCH HE'S CHANGED FROM ATTENDING SCHOOL

.....couldn't tell you how badly I was sobbing happy tears it's just beautiful I can't even express how happy this whole event made me feel

For some reason I didn't watch Deuce's vignette when it released for the JPN server but OH MY GOD I WAS NOT DISAPPOINTED IN THE SLIGHTEST

(Also I totally didn’t squeal like a fangirl when we went to walk with Deuce ALONE but we’re not gonna talk about that 😇)

I felt so bad that Deuce had to keep reliving his past mistakes including how some of the townspeople treated him instead of moving on from the past

AND WHEN THEY SAID THIS ABOUT HIM!!

I WOULDVE LAUNCHED MYSELF AT THEM SO QUICKLY LIKE HOW FREAKIN DARE YOU SAY THAT ABOUT MY BOY DEUCEY (even though yes him AND TWO OTHER LITTLE SHITS also contribute in most antics as well)

And when Deuce said this shit I needed a moment to pause and cry into my pillow 😭

AHHHHH NO DON'T SAY THAT I WANTED TO LAUNCH MYSELF OUT THE WINDOW I HATE HOW MUCH HE DOUBTS HIS GROWTH FROM THE BEGINNING (*cough* *cough* and how he got his unique magic BEFORE ACE I LOVE THAT)

But THANK GOD after Deuce was being a complete sweetheart and helping the people out he started to acknowledge his growth!!

LIKE HELL YES DEUCE SPADE, YOU HAVE GROWN SO GODDAMN MUCH AND I WISH YOU WOULD CONTINUE TO FEEL THAT WAY

I can't empathize how much I love Deuce and its just so satisfying and amazing to see a noticeable different from when we first met him and I cannot wait to see him kick ass in Book 7+8

AND FINALLY THIS JUST SENT ME BACK TO HIS PROMISE FROM WISH UPON A STAR!!! IT WAS TOO MUCH MY HEART-!!

.............Okay now that I've spoken my piece, this event is without a doubt a 100000/10 because of how wholesome this event was and seeing Deuce just being an absolute angel

Now I'm preparing myself for who knows how long till we meet up with Deuce or Ace again in Book 7...💀😔

[farleighlover]

hello dudes i’m late to this i fell asleep very early BUT HAPOY BIRTHDYAB @firemenenthusiast AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *fireworks shoot up* 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️🎉🎉🎉

this girl is an amazing writer and works her ASS OFF i don’t know how to do that (obviously) but AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH the angst never fails to make me cry i remember sobbing after reading that one jann fic GOSH DARN IT

BUT GUYS 20 IS A HUGE AGE i can’t believe i’m turning 20 in one month what the fuck BUT ITS OKAY CLOCK IT

ANYWAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY UOU ARE SO FUNNY I SOMETIMES SCROLL ON THEIR PAGE FOR JUST WHAGEVWE LITTLE POSTS THEY HAVE AND JUST TALKING TO THEM IN TEPLIES IS HILARIOUS SO HOORAY I HOPE 20 TREATS YOU WELL #ILOVEYOUQUEEN

[rawcherrycake]

BARGING INTO YOUR INBOX

I can’t bro… I just can’t… I can’t take my eyes off of your drawing that’s SO SAD THEY LOOK SO HAPPY IN THE PHOTO AHHAYAYERAAAGH

Analyzing the lyrics a bit:

“It must be nice to love someone who lets you break them twice”

THAT

THAT IS AN ANALOGY TO HOW DNA DIES EARLY IN BOTH TIMELINES

I AM CRYING SCREAMING SOBBING ON THE FLOOR ABOUT THAT

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

EDEN

EDEN‼️‼️

…

SHAKES YOU

I WAS LISTENING TO THAT SONG AND SOMETHING JUST CLICKED IN MY BRAIN

IHAD TO ANGST FORGIVE ME

[seoafin]

i was rereading chapter 5 of dog days are over and fuck man i just love it so much ik we are all excited for the smut but these chapters before are what make the smut all the more worth it!!! if it was just straight sex without building up their relationship and their dynamic it would fall so flat for me but the way you freaking write geto and his flat smiles and his measured tone of voice anytime he’s slightly displaced or wants to manipulate ripmc to stay longer or eat more food🥺🥺🥺🥺 my heart flutters u can rlly see the cult leader coming in my pookie and my heart starts hurting so muchhhhh have u felt like that when you read a rlly good fic? like ur heart is weightier than before and u can just feel it in ur chest and you’re so nervous but fluttery and geniunly fucking shy as hell too…..or do i just have heart problems omg. when geto asked ripmc if the food wasn’t tasty in front of the waitress to get ripmc to eat while he was ordering drinks my pussy fluttered when gojo said put it all on my card too omg MY MAN RIGHT THERE how do u think of scenes like that scenes that are just so fuckinh them like scenes that until you write them i wouldn’t even think about but then i read them and i’m like fuck yeah geto would not even just geto gojo too and his indiscernible looks i can literally visualize him sitting there with his glasses looking at you and i can feel the weight of his stareeeeew gojo asking for more kisses when yours and getos lasts a second longer i love them so much omg. especially when she’s all like guys let’s keep this a secret and they’re all like ……….fine🤨 JSJWKWKKS so pls take all the time in the world you need to not get to the smut i’ll love the smut but i love these kinda scenes even more. also take some time for yourself to decompress and relax!!! i just love the way ripmc fits seamlessly between the two so bad omg she’s literally their missing piece i’m gonna fucking sob. can i ask? is she gonna tell geto and gojo about the mission that went rlly bad? do they know already🧍🏻‍♀️? omg imagine if they find out nanami knew before them?? also do you think there’s anything ripmc could do to get them genuinely mad and angry cause i was thinking of gojos “you cheatin on me” which btw i literally could imagine him saying those exact words and it was teasing so it made me think do they actually care about cheating? like have they had actual fights about it before geto n gojo? and what would they do if like ugh thsi is so angsty i’m sorry i’m on my period🧍🏻‍♀️but how would they react if like ripmc cheated on them? like a kiss or smt? would they be hurt because their trust was broken or would they be hurt because they think ripmc is theirs? BTW THIS SO MAKES IT SOUND LIKE I CHEATED AND IM JUST SELF INSERTING AS RIPMC I SWEAR I JUST THINK ITS INTERESTING TO THINK ABOUT THE SADDEST OF SCENARIOS IF UR UNCOMFY ANSWERING FEEL FREE TO IGNORE PLS!!!!!! anywaysssss i rllly fucking love ur writing so much and i hope you’re having a blast in japan you deserve it❤️‍🩹 i’m so excited and proud for not being like scared to go after what u want u too omg❤️❤️

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THANK YOU!!!!! can I just say that I LOVE writing geto and his subtle cult leader tendencies in the poly au like YES gaslight gatekeep girlboss (but in moderation lmfao) It's really the small moments where you could think that yeah...this is a guy that totally went off the rails and started a cult lmfao...he keeps his manipulative tendencies but channels them into forcing ripmc to take care of herself and [redacted] he's so awful I love him truly!!!!!

niku also brought up stsg knowing spoiler alert......they know and they definitely aren't happy she talked about it with nanami instead of them. they wanted her to tell them of her own volition, so expect the mission to come back up again in a later chapter lol also for all of ripmc's many faults I genuinely think she can do no bad in their eyes. if she did something it's justified unless it's directly impacted her health as in she put herself in danger and got grievously injured. I can definitely see them getting actually upset and angry with her for that but if anything the repercussions are more like....ripmc being stuck in a room for a week and getting coddled to death until stsg deem it enough 😭

It's not that stsg care about cheating it's more the fact that they are very secure in their relationship with each other and aren't worried about it. gojo might occasionally be annoyed and even pissed when they're arguing about geto being popular but it's never that serious. on the other hand ripmc.... 😭😭 ripmc would never cheat on them and they know it but she's also the most likely to entertain flirtations without knowing someone is flirting with her. when stsg jokingly flirt with another person they're always in control of the situation. they know which lines shouldn't be crossed. they use it as a means to purposefully get the other jealous. sometimes they try to make ripmc jealous and it backfires! another thing is the fact that because the line between lover and friend is so blurred in regards to stsg she doesn't quite understand that there are certain things that only a "boyfriend" gets to do to her which further translates to her not having any sense of boundaries with other people just like she doesn't have any sense of boundaries with stsg. obviously stsg wouldn't be happy about that 💀 if ripmc kissed someone else they probably approached her and asked if they could and she just said yes bc she couldn't find a reason to say no dhjsnfjsndb anyway they'd be more peeved than anything and they'd make it a point to make sure nothing like that ever happens again [ominous]

ANYWAY yeahhhhhhhhh I just think about geto a disproportionate amount aka so much it's unhealthy I'm so obsessed with him

[crushedsweets]

Hey so I just randomly came across your blog and I have a couple things to say-

1. I checked out the website for your AU and it's fucking awesome I'm so invested now

2. I've kinda been stalking your page... Sorry. It's just so hard not to hyperfixate on your hcs, they're so silly and entertaining lol.

3. I was into the fandom back in like... 2014-2015ish? And after those couple of years I kinda "grew out of it" but then about a year or two ago I got dragged back in by my ankles and I've been fluctuating ever since, so thanks for pulling me back for the [INSERT NUMBER HERE]teenth time

You're really cool 👍

-⚓

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH POUNDS MY FIST SOBS SCREAMS INTO THE DIRT ANON U R SO KIND TO ME WHAT THE FUCKKKKK...

i love when ppl get into my au and hcs its so fun i feel like im sharing a plate of cookies w yall or smth idek...

also heavy agreed on point 3 LOL i was obsessed 2015-ish (age 10), then stopped, then came back 2019-ish (age 14), and now im back 2023.. (age 19)... i see it comes back every 4-5 years...

i am hoping i stay much longer this time since i actually post my art/hcs and feel wayy more involved in the community :3 i love it on here everyones cool fun etc...

[junosfilmjournal]

my review for mutt (2023) dir. vuk lungulov-klotz

this is my first time seeing someone like me (a gay, latino trans guy) on screen. we barely get represented in film and i couldn't stop crying while watching. i'm also glad that feña's unlikable. it made me like him even more. trans people are always put into this box on who we're supposed to be. trans men are regarded as a "safe type of man" because we were born female. whether it's intentional or not, it's obvious the people who say that don't see us as men, but as gender non-conforming women. more trans men need to be assholes!

there were so many parts of this movie that were painfully relatable that it was just hilarious. i had the same conversation with my 11-year-old niece, who's basically my little sister, that feña had with his sister. she was my first and only family member who didn't look at me like i was crazy. if anything, she rolled her eyes at me because she already knew due to the trans flag in my room. she told me "okay? i have gay friends.", which just made me laugh.

his relationship with his parents is like mine but reversed. my mother wants to be supportive, but she just doesn't understand what being transgender is. i've been out for more than a year and my mother has only called me her son once. she still uses my deadname and misgenders me. in the beginning, i would remind her not to, but i've grown tired of that. we got into so many arguments over it. they would always end with me sobbing while she told me it was hard for her too. she still has her moments though. i'll never forget when we were shoe shopping together and i saw the cutest mary jane platforms. i gathered up the courage to tell my mother i wanted them, but it didn't change the fact that i'm a boy. she told me, "i don't fully get you, but i know." that was the first time i was sure she wasn't lying to me.

growing up, my father was pretty much my hero. i was closer to my mom, but i still looked up to him. he wasn't around much when i was in elementary and i would cry while looking through the family albums. he eventually came back for good and i was the happiest kid ever. though, it didn't last long. as i was growing up, i was also realizing just how much of an asshole my father is. the first time i hit back, i was 15, protecting my mother from his drunken tirades. i can still see his shocked face clearly in my mind. ever since then, our relationship has become nonexistent and it got worse when i came out. he looks at me in disgust because i'm "trying (and failing) to be a man" to him. he looks at me like he doesn't know where he went wrong.

everything about this movie pulled at my heartstrings. i'm so glad i had a box of tissues next to me. i'm gonna have a hard time moving on from this. it's just so special TO ME! thankful for all the trans artists out there who make me want to keep going and create art of my own. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

[h5eavenly]

HEY angie !!

OMG OMG MY FAV AUTHOR FOLLOWED MEEEEE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I hope ure taking care of urself, i love ur writing style especially fallen star like i resonate with it soooo muchh

PLUS the writing is so poetic? like?! howw?? its so beautiful

i dont usually feel alot of emotions when i read books because i have read like tons of hundreds of them but fallen star got me straight up sobbing fr

ty for writing such a great book, i hope u can convert it to an actual hard cover book someday

Hey kaede🤍 im ur fav author?? that is such an honor aaa tysm🥹🥹 im so glad you like fallen star so much i worked really hard on it so to know you felt such emotions makes me so happy (pls dont cry tho i'll wipe your tears for you🙏) ty for reading and giving it sm love truly means the world to me🫶 i hope you are taking care of yourself as well and staying healthy love🤍🤍

[historia-vitae-magistras]

Tell us more about #3, #6 and #9, please!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

The Blue Hour — Valley Forge — 1777

Hopefully this will be this years Christmas fic. A very small portion of the Continental Army starving and freezing at Valley Forge in the winter 1777-1778 consisted of French Canadians who had joined the American cause during their absolute disaster of an invasion into Quebec. Most of them returned home because the US congress couldn't support its own military, much less foreign volunteers who came without their own money and supplies. And I saw one brief mention of how upon seeing an American in a red coat that had been dyed a shitty drab brown to differentiate them from the British, a nameless French Canadian handed over a blue wool coat that had belonged to his own French-born father in in the Seven Years War. And the symbolism. Matthew and Alfred are trading colours, trading mentors, and trading values. Matt spent his entire life dressed in blue and fighting the British empire and gifting that to Alfred with some various others.

L'heure bleue is when the sun sets below the horizon but there's still just enough light to see what reflects blue through the atmosphere. Just enough love left in them to keep the dark at bay.

My Mother Told Me — Wessex — 9th century

I've only mentioned it a scattering of times through some fics and I can't decide how old Arthur and Rhys are for this but its the carving out of the Danelaw in the 870s as Magnus and Sigurd pincer their way through Arthur in the east, Rhys in the West and then turn north towards Alasdair. At some point in this madness, Magnus cut Arthur shoulder to opposite hip, laying him open before Rhys shot him full of arrows and they fled across the Irish sea. This is the day he earned his title of half-dane.

My Mother Told Me is from a cinematic translation of an adaptation of a skaldic poetry Egill Skallagrímsson that talks about a man who's mother foresaw hime become a powerful viking with ships who would travel much and kill many. Pretty much an ironic dead-ringer for Arthur.

Why does thou sit upon my grave? — Cumbria — 6th Century

This is a reworking of the fic I posted and took down about the series of events that lead to Eirian's (Britannia's) death. How when she was already weakened by Christianity and paying off German invaders to keep a hold of her throne in Rheged, the sun disappeared from the sky in 536 with a volcanic eruption and 541 CE the first wave of the the black death swept through and when they've only just recovered, bad luck in several forms hits them and the final blow comes when another wave of anglo-saxon invasions slam into Cumbria and when their own hillfort collapses, she decides it will be the end of her life. and the consequences of their inheritances and when her youngest son lays himself on the grass that has grown over her burial barrow and cries until he wakes her.

Why does thou sit upon my grave? Comes from an English folk song where the narrator is a body beneath the ground awoken from death by the sobbing of a loved one.

[readysetjo]

I have a theory that it’s my pcos that makes me struggle to cry. I literally just had a mini sob and tried to let it take me but it just quit it’s been my whole teen/ adult life like this I want that release so bad but my body won’t let me ahhhhhhhhhhHHHH

[yesloulou]

you just are lovely! that response was super sweet as well😭 but the real answer is I've been stalking your blog a lil bit (in a non creepy way!!!) and i can tell you're a kind person just by the way you interact with anons and go above and beyond to answer some of the questions so i had to drop a little message to make sure you know your effort doesnt go unnoticed! keep being you<3

this is everything to me bc id really like to think that im the things you say 🥲 to be told ur a kind person is like. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i feel very warm and gooey atm. big sob. 🥲🥲🥲. wdym keep being me (i mean i know but like. this genuinely means everything to me) thank you so much for this whoever u r if i can put this ask in a locket and wear it around my neck i'd really like to do that 🥲

[claudia-kishi]

1.10 || 3.17