#also love the idea that he can to feel Call of Chaos effecting him even when he isnt in the metaverse whenever the entity uses it on someone

[hetyra]

Every antagonist in P5 was focused on order and control, so post-game idea: Goro has to fight against chaos.

Imagine the character with an ability called Call of Chaos struggling with a metaverse threat trying to drag him down further into chaos. Post-rehab, still going to therapy, and now there's some other entity in the cognitive world trying to force him to give into the Call. Said entity is even using Call of Chaos itself on peoples shadows and Goro has to prove it isn't him doing it. All the while Akira is seeing the news and starts suspecting Goro's alive because of it and becomes determined to hunt him down.

With Goro in the end gaining total control over the Call, as well as finally having control of his own life.

[7ndipity]

Let Me Love You

Jungkook x Plus Size Reader

Summary: When your friend Jungkook confesses his feelings, you ghost him, despite your own feelings for him, fearing that the relationship will end in disaster. Can he convince you otherwise?

Word Count: 1.4k

Warnings: Angsty, mentions of anxiety and body insecurities, swearing, suggestive, only partially proofread

A/N: Thanks to the lovely anon who requested this! I wanted to post this last night, but I was super tired and fell asleep(I’m still sick lol). Also, part of this is based on a dream I had and couldn’t get out of my head, so sorry if it feels a little random.

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The noise and lights of the party had been almost overwhelming, even around the pool, where some of you had separated off, a few even deciding to brave the cold water to swim.

“Wanna take a dip?” He’d asked as you sat tucked off to the side together, letting your feet hang over the water, leaning in close to hear each other.

“I don’t have a suit.” You’d replied.

“You won’t hear me complaining.” He’d smirked, making you roll your eyes before quickly dropping your attention to the drink in your hand, trying to hide the growing heat in your cheeks.

Jungkook had always been a notorious flirt, especially when it came to you, never missing an opportunity to make some sly comment that would have your face burning, much to his amusement, though you doubted he realized the full effect his words had on you. You’d never shared your feelings for him or your long standing crush, knowing he wouldn’t be into a plus size person like you, and had just focused on maintaining your friendship instead.

“Well, I’m going in.” His voice pulled you out of your thoughts, glancing up just in time to see him yank his jacket off and slip in, allowing the water to come up over his head for a moment before resurfacing with a gasp, shaking his head at you like a dog.

“You’re insane.” You commented, laughing.

“You love it.” He said, catching hold of your arm to help pull him out of the water.

“You’re getting me wet!” You squealed, trying to skooch away from him, but he trailed after you, making you both laugh until you were stuck in the corner.

Jungkook’s laughter trailed off, expression suddenly turning serious as he looked up at you. “I wanna try something.” He said.

“What is it?” You asked warily.

Rather than answering, he braced his hands on either side of you, boosting himself up and pressing his mouth briefly to yours.

You froze, staring at him wide-eyed as he pulled away and sank back down.

“What was-?”

“I like you, y/n,” He said quickly. “I want to be with you.”

“I-I-” Your head felt like it was spinning as you stared at him, nearly nodding before reality suddenly began to seep back in, filling your veins like cement.

“I-I’m, I can’t, I’m sorry.” You were scrambling to your feet before you had fully gotten the words out, leaving him staring after you in confusion as you pushed your way through the crowd to escape.

That’d been three days ago, and since then, you hadn’t spoken more than a handful of words to him.

You knew dodging his calls and texts was far from a proper solution to your current predicament, but you couldn’t come up with any better ideas, mind still in absolute chaos at the sudden revelation.

Despite your efforts to push it away, memories of the night kept playing on loop in your head, the way he’d looked at you, the feel of his lips on yours.

You couldn’t believe it, the guy of your dreams told you he was into you, and you ran away. Brillant.

You shook your head, slowly dragging yourself out of bed and making your way to the kitchen in search of coffee.

It wasn’t that you didn’t want to be with him, you did, more than you cared to admit to even yourself, but in the back of your mind, there were those same nagging voices that had held you back from confessing in the first place. As a bigger person, you’d experienced more than your share of mistreatment and let downs connecting to your size, only further feeding into your insecurities that you weren’t good enough. And although Jungkook had never given you a reason to feel that way with him, you still couldn’t shake that deep seeded fear that, if you said yes to him, one day he would wake up and realize that his feelings had changed, that the attraction he thought was there wasn’t really, not in the way he originally believed, and you would end up losing one of the most important people in your life. You couldn’t handle that, you couldn’t afford to lose him, it would kill you.

You were shook out of your thoughts by an insistent knock on your front door.

“Who is it?” You called, cautiously making your way over, glancing at the clock and noting that it was only 7:30 in the morning.

“Y/n?” Your stomach dropped at the sound of Jungkook’s voice.

You briefly considered not answering, but you knew from previous experience that he would wait on the other side of that door for as long as necessary just to see you, having stayed with you through more than one meltdown in the past.

Taking a deep breath, you opened the door. “What do you want, Kookie?” You asked quietly, looking up at him. He looked almost as tired as you felt, faint shadows visible under his eyes.

“Can I talk to you for a minute, please?” He asked, keeping his voice soft, but you could see the tension in his eyes.

You nodded, not trusting your voice, stepping back to let him in.

He made his way to the living room out of habit, with you following behind, before finally turning to face you. You spotted your reflection in the mirror over his shoulder, showing you how small and nervous you looked, like a cornered animal.

“You’ve been avoiding me.” He said simply. It wasn’t a question, but there was clearly one attached to the statement.

“I was just giving some time.” You said lamely, wincing at the feeble excuse.

“Time for what?”

“To make up for my stupid mistake at the party.”

“You mean when you ran out?” He asked. “That was my fault, I shouldn’t have dumped everything on you so suddenly like that.”

“It’s more than that.” You said, fiddling with the hem of your shirt.

“What is it?” He studied you for a moment before asking quietly. “Do you… not like me that way?”

“No!” You said quickly. “I do, fuck I do, but that’s the problem.”

“You’ve lost me.” He said.

“Koo, it’s just-” You sighed, struggling with your words. “It just doesn't make any sense, we’re too… different”

“No, we aren’t,” He argued. “You’ve said it yourself, if anything, we're too alike.”

“I meant, because I’m…” Your words died off.

“Because you’re bigger?” He finished, understanding crossing his expression before shifting to sadness as he saw your eyes drop. He knew about your struggles with your self image, but he’d never thought they’d be an issue between the two of you. He was always trying to compliment you and let you know how amazing he thought you were.

“Y/n, you know I love you for you right?” He said gently.

“But what if that’s not enough?” You asked “What if you just think you want me? What if you get tired of not being able to do cute coupley things with me because I’m too heavy? What if-?”

Jungkook suddenly moved forward, causing you to backpedal until you were pinned between him and the wall.

“Look at me.” He breathed, staring down at you, completely serious. “There is no universe where I wouldn’t find you fucking gorgeous, you hear me? I have always, and will always love and want you, and nothing will ever change that. Even when we’re super old and gray and wrinkly, I will still be fucking awestruck by you.”

You let out a weak laugh at that, despite the tears gathering in your eyes.

“So, will you let me love you?” He asked, looking at you tenderly.

You nodded. “Yes.”

He smashed his mouth to yours, holding onto you for dear life as he tilted his head to the side, deepening the kiss as he traced the shape of your lips with his, causing you to let out a tiny whine.

Wanting to further prove his point, his hands slipped down to the back of your thighs, catching behind your knees and hoisting you up so you were held up by him. You let out a squeak of shock, wrapping your arms and legs around him for support.

“See?” He asked, grinning at you proudly. “Don’t you dare say that you're too heavy for me.”

“You’re insane.” You laughed, shaking your head at him.

“You love it.” He grinned, letting you pull him back in for another kiss.

[5five5five5five5five5five]

Bored take some Viktor five content:

* five and Viktor end up being roommates due to everyone else not having the strong tolerance to handle his ass. Viktor doesn't either but they wanted to go back to the start and rebuild a dynamic after all the chaos and drama.

* they end up getting really close. It's easier for Viktor to listen to five talk about his past now that they have experienced all sorts of weird shit and five is less bitter about viktor's new found independence and choices now that the world is saved.

* I hc that five has trouble using Viktor's preferred name and five HATES IT. It's not to be disrespectful or not understanding gender, he's all cool and very respectful. It's that when you have truama as deep rooted as his, calling out his siblings names on a daily basis in a lonely ruined world for 40 years. Carrying around viktor's book as a lifeline to stay close to him....it's just not something your brain can let go. he wants to let it go, he feels like a ass everytime he slips and apologizes like 3 times even when Viktor said it's ok. his truama CLINGs to viktor's dead name like his life depends on it. He does get better at it as they start live together and it was a 1/9 chance anyway so Viktor wasn't too bugged by it and understood that it's not meant to be disrespectful. Trauma's a bitch. They both get that.

* they take turns making lunch and dinners. Breakfast is always coffee and peanut butter and marshmallow sandwiches.

* Five starts collecting vintage cook books because he's had food from other timelines that aren't as popular anymore and wishes to make them.

* Viktor LOVES Chappell Roan. Five is unimpressed but likes watching Viktor just jam out well doing chores or studying.

*Viktor would drag five to a lot of queer centric events and five would feel out of place at first like "I'm your 60 year old straight cisgendered brother that looks 15. I don't fit in and I don't think that drag show bouncer is going to be as lenient as that strip club in the 60's...long story." But over time, five actually starts to enjoy himself. And maybe learning his gender and sexuality along the way (I don't have strong opinions on that yet. All ik is he's such a fruit and has no idea /pos. When Viktor and Klaus are your favorite siblings....ask yourself whyyy)

* they host small dinners with a handful of siblings at a time. They can't host all of them at once due to their apartment size (it would be a disaster) but sometimes Diego, Lila and the kids come over. Or just Luther with fast food well he was walking home. I think the biggest group would be brother nights (sorry Allison....i feel so bad for her lmao I think her and Lila hang out on those nights. )

* five and Viktor realized that giving the other puppy eyes breaks the other easily. I think both have trouble saying no to the other due to feeling bad about how much they fought and were butting heads throughout Dallas and the hotel. Five doesn't want to let his bs behavior under "gotta save the world" distress linger between them. And Viktor doesn't either, he also misses his brother and just wants to see him happy and relaxed for once.

*that doesn't mean they don't fight. They bicker consistently about such basic things . From where the remote is to when the other will be home to the past. They don't don't do a good job at not throwing the past in each others face......but they useally settle down.

*Viktor LOVES to try and use therapy talk with five, who hates it at first. But overtime, I think after a very strong breakthrough in his issues and realizing how much not being under survival adrenaline is effecting him, he becomes more accepting of it. And it's helped their fighting and understanding each other a lot.

* I feel like they get rather touchy together over time. Fixing each others hair, leaning on the other well sitting on the sofa, etc

*five has to tie viktor's ties ALL THE TIME.

*(tw drugs) I feel like they have "rekindling our Lost teen years together" nights where they get high (they only take edibles bc neither like smoking) and watch all the cartoons five has missed. Wear comfy clothes. Talk about nothing. They try to make it a point to talk about anything BUT family and the past. Witch helps them grow closer.

*five wants bees. They have no room. Five is very sad. Viktor hopes they one day get a bigger place to have bees.

* five gets a emotional support animal with viktor's help. mr.pennycrumb! They do all the training and five loves that boy with his life. He really helps him with episodes and panics.

* Viktor ends up helping five with rather basic things. Again, no more survival adrenaline to make him speed learn everything all the time. He can afford to be confused and frustrated. "Egh How does the tv remote work again?" "The pepper grinder has stopped wo- oh the other direction..." Five starts to feel rather useless but Viktor likes helping. five bitterly jokes at Viktor being either his elderly care nurse or babysitter. Viktor reassures him it's not like that and they are just brothers and he needs help.

* Viktor gets into the habit of calling five "bud" as a loving brother pet name.

I've ran out of brain fuel. I could go on for hours about them though.

(PRO SHIPS DNI THIS IS ALL PLATONIC)

[sonicjustbecause]

Sonic and Nine. Is not betrayal. Is a cultural shock

Nine doesn't consider Pyongyang New Yolk his home. So he doesn't miss it if he goes somewhere else.

It happened that when he meet Sonic, he discovered the existence of the prisms and the shatterspace, though he discovered the empty Grim first.

The Grim is a Mars-like world, (without the umpleasant effect such as freezing or disappearing of the magnetic field etc...). On the contrary it can be considered a primordial world. There was a time where auroras were visible on the whole Earth when the magnetic field was forming. That glowing red in the Grim is an aurora, it really gives an image on Nine's world: 'Is empty, pretty grim. Is perfect!'

Sonic understood Nine doesn't consider New Yolk world his home. But he has another idea: "Well, you can come to my home!". Sonic's idea is a world where you are completely free. You can do whatever you want, move where you want, eat what you want, live some adventure and also stop Dr.Eggman from taking over, the latter is the only responsibility you truly have. A perfect place for Nine in Sonic's mind. There is also Tails, they can excange some tips since they're both scientists.

The Dr. Kim Jong-un, or, as I call him, Dr. "Cicciobello".

Sonic and Nine did one mistake (a normal mistake especially by so young characters like them, 15 and 8 years old, thinking their ideal world is best). Nine grew up in a North Korea-like tiranny, where even being friends is forbidden. The chaos council robots tried to kill a kitten and a puppy just because they were showing friendly behaviour. So for him a better world is one where he can live in peace, but still similar to the tiranny where he grew up (only things workd the way Nine wants). He wants keep Sonic for himself, trapped like a pet. In this aspect Nine is just like Chris Thorndyke From Sonic-X. The difference is that Chris is a spoiled brat nobody cares about (not even Sonic Fans), Nine is more capable, more loved by fans. He is a villain, the main antagonist, but we all would love to see what he is going to do, and hoping for the best outcome.

Sonic on the other hand grew in total freedom. But I already describled what his world is like.

Is their so different culture, their totally different point of view (They can't undersand the point of view of the other) that made them feel betrayed. I think in the end pieces will come togheter.

[rosetheocto]

Hey! Hope you're doing well.

Firstly, really like your voice for Chi, I can tell why @gnomey22 mentioned it! Secondly, I was wondering if you'd be up for sharing any Failtopia headcanons?

AAAA hello!! and ty for the compliments on the voice! I love sharing the headcanons I have for this series so much, I tried to think of ones for these guys that haven’t really spread around all too much, most of this is a mix of silly and serious lol

headcanons under the cut :0

part of the reason why C!Failboat wasn’t considering the darker implications of having 15/16 year olds getting traumatized in his party until probably after his Wake Up Call is because of what he went through with his family when he was that age. it’s not an excuse, but I wouldn’t be surprised if he kinda internalized/normalized what he went through when he was younger and convinced himself that It’ll Be Fine for these guys to be going through The Horrors since he’s still alive and well after everything (he’s not having a good time)

Simple Bob DESPISES Mar, even after the timeskip and S2. Since Mar has been possessing Hank all this time, that means he’s the one who was responsible for Punnyatta’s death. Bob is never gonna let that go for as long as he lives (also Post Game Isn’t Real HE IS NOT UGLY)

Big Bill has a HUGE birth family, like you go back to their pond or whatever and it’s just a whole flock of ducks just chilling there. they aren’t even built like Bill, they’re just regular normal ducks lmaoo

Orion and Mrs. Oopsie knew each other since high school, and spent most of their time breaking the rules and getting in detention (you gotta pry the idea of a younger Orion being a troublemaker out of my cold dead hands) also they absolutely won prom king/queen together lol

Friend is around 1000 years old when S2 happens, and yes they’re immortal change my mind

Chat is the only one that can properly see Void. why this is? only they know

Chat also listens to BENJIxScarlett and similar… ‘songwriters’ somewhat often. they would 100% jam out to that slop let’s be real

Mar always had somewhat of a feeling that Lee and Hank were the same entity, yknow being in control of his body for decades and all, but tried to brush it off and assumed he was imagining things (huge mistake lmaoo)

Shrimp likes to occasionally invite other members of The Incident onto her livestreams after S2, (she let Chat in once. never again.) No matter who it is though the chaos that ensues during these streams will never not be entertaining

Erica and Bo’s relationship 100% reminded Orion of him and his wife’s when they were younger (Mrs. Oopsie was def a vampire before she got sent to Dr Pepper Hell trust me bro)

S2 Dark Curse is Dr. SHOOK!!! (this is canon trust me)

Chi has helped on stage effects for Shrimp’s concerts alongside Bill surprisingly often. Lanc has also chipped in occasionally, but it’s mainly Chi and Bill that do the heavy lifting

Mar has kept a good amount of his Dark Curse powers in S2, but he unfortunately had his strength reduced by Kazoo Man enough to where he can’t just snatch the faces back from the Mystery Curse on his own

I promise I have WAY MORE (for both seasons) I’m just tired and my brain is fried lol, again tysm for the ask!! :D

[neverchecking]

(Forward real quick into Chain era Hyrule)

Sage keeps calling Sweetpea 'Fugus' because he's like a 'goddess damn mushroom that wont die'. Sweetpea is all "That's the nicest thing you've ever said about me! I love you too!"

(And to be perfectly honest, the whole Sage is approachable thing is kinda his own fault since Sweetpea loves kids and they sometimes get Sage and Sweetpea confused and Sage just goes with it. Cause ya know, they're kids. Aaliyah is giving him so much shit and Tia's just happy he's talking to someone.)

Sweetpea is the only version of that Link that isn't attracted to Aaliyah and the Triplets are like "You have terrible taste." (Instead he has a thing going on with Sidon and Yona. Sage doesn't want to know the details and if Sweetpea keeps telling him said details, Tia is about to be down a family member. Sweetpea realises his other counterparts don't have the same tastes as him and promptly chooses Chaos :D )

He thinks the way Wild and Cal are immediately gone on Aaliyah is hysterical but also is like lowkey running an intervention that's 68% effective so they don't have two dead bodies on their hands.

Of course when he spots a chain member flirting with his princess, Sweetpea is like "The Fuck you are :)" and is setting the Wolves on them while he distracts Tia.

(I feel like one of the older Chain is the way to go. Either Warriors, Twilight or First if we include him. Cause the idea of one of them being harassed by the Menaces all while Tia is mostly oblivious is funny. He can hold his own but he might need back up. Thank gods Wild is helping, even if its for his own benefit.)

Sage calling Sweetpea Fungus (I assume that's what you meant?) and Sweetpea just being like '<3 I knew you'd soften eventually brother!' and Sage is setting him on fire is so funny to me like-

Sweetpea is the brother that's all 'Friends! Love! Flowers!' and Sage is the one that barks.

(Okay, but like Sage is good with kids. He just doesn't have the patience for the adults that come with them. They all love the twins but the adults are like..."are you sure?' It's both heartwarming and the funniest thing ever. Bc on one hand, this man has literally slaughtered monster camps single-handedly. On another, he lets the village children braid his hair, flowers and all.)

(Sweetpea is counting down the days until he can call himself an uncle, man. Whether it's Tia finally finding someone or Aaliyah deciding its time to settle down. Bc he is going for the title of best uncle ever. It will be his.)

Sweetpea is the only one seeing Aaliyah for who she really is lmao. The triplets calling his taste terrible is actually so hilarious. Like they're just drooling over her while she chops logs and Sweetpea is gagging in the corner. He's seen her eat dirt before. He knows what she's like. ALSO Sweetpea being an oversharer when it comes to Sidon and Yona is so funny. Sage has no patience for it, but he's secretly the softest brother to sweetpea, so he 'listens'. But if he has to hear one more bit about Zora anatomy he's blowing up the place.

Sweetpea is the most annoying big brother when it comes to Aaliyah. Those two are throwing down every chance they get.

He's running distractions and lowkey foiling all of Sage's murders attempts. Wild and Cal owe him such a big thank you. And they don't even know it.

Imagine him spotting it and he just nudges the two feral beasts like 'Hey, someone is hitting on big sister-' and watches as they go absolute feral beast. like just D:< biting and tackling.

(Okay hear me out. All of them. So now it's three on three. Wars vs. Sweetpea, knight v knight. Twilight vs. Sage. Successor V Predecessor. First vs Aaliyah. The most composed knight in the timeline yet v an undead feral creature who was never meant to play a big of a part as she does who now has this super powerful rock on her side. Sweetpea may just look past Wild's obvious attempt on getting close to his SIL for the extra help.)

[oasis-makcr]

I mean, you can have this ask be the start on how all the wrong things Crowley did wrong.

Oh, Seven, where do I start. I've only been here for two years, but there's so much. I think he's mostly gotten worse this year, though.

Very easy to bribe.

Unfortunately that's why he let me transfer to NRC. My father paid him a generous sum of money to let me attend school here, and I'm still not exactly sure how much money. All I know is that it was enough to completely renovate the Scarabia dorms -- keep in mind that every dorm has its own pocket dimension -- and then STILL enough to fill an entire room with gold, jewels, all kinds of valuables, and I know it didn't put a dent in the family finances. At least some of the money was so that I could take the role of Housewarden as a freshman. You know, despite the fact that I had no idea what I was doing, and had not even asked for the role.

This is also why he lets... a lot of things at the school slide. An example I find honestly a little more egregious is that he made a DEAL with a STUDENT attending the school here to let him open up a cafe in their dorm for the rest of campus. The cafe isn't what I have a problem with; what I did have a problem with is that this student would then go on to make deals with other students who couldn't possibly meet the terms of the contract, and would be forced to work for his establishment and effectively be at his beck and call. And Crowley did nothing about it because... ????

Said student has since gotten better about how he runs things, and no longer makes contracts like that, which is why I'm not naming him.

Again, the problem is that the Headmage really will let you get away with just about anything if you have the money for it.

Little to no regard for student (or really anybody else's) safety.

Crowley sees no issue with endangering the lives of his students due to his laissez-faire style of handling problems on campus. Well... perhaps laissez faire isn't quite the right term. It's laissez faire right up until he decides to blackmail students into helping with problems on campus that should almost CERTAINLY be handled by, oh, I don't know, the college staff? Granted, there have been some situations where I'm not really sure what the professors would've really been able to do, but I feel like that's even more reason to not place that kind of situation in the hands of their students.

Abduction of a student by a ghost which could have ended in that student's death due to how marrying a ghost works? Well, why not just send the students in with a specific ring that enforces the "til death do you part" part of marriage while asking the students to woo the ghost princess who's decided that one of our students is the love of her life and that she cannot be dissuaded from changing her mind?

The Faeland faeries have taken the magestone that helps regulate temperature and weather in the dorms to make into a piece for the Fairy Gala and they have to have a good gala or else it will remain winter for the rest of the foreseeable future? Sure, let's send some students in and disguise them as fae, if they cause an international incident and throw the climate of Twisted Wonderland into chaos it's not my problem! Aren't I so magnanimous? Oh, the students don't like this idea? They think the staff should handle this? I'll threaten to hold them all back a year until they help!

(Though attending to be part of the fashion show and dance WAS really fun. Still was one of Crowley's worst ideas.)

There's just a very consistent pattern about this and I know Crowley thinks this is a good thing, and while I don't think it's a terrible idea to let students solve their own problems, you can't do that with bigger situations like this. You really just can't.

Little to no regard for the well-being of students who rely on his so-called kindness to get by (the Ramshackle situation).

So I feel like at a school - and I've never been to school before NRC - it should be the responsibility of the staff to look after the wellbeing of their students. I feel like this is a reasonable expectation?

At the start of this year, a student from another world showed up in one of the coffins we have in the Mirror Chamber, which is where we also host a lot of our ceremonies. All freshmen get to be in a coffin because it symbolizes leaving behind your old life to become a mage, I think it's a nice notion, it's not really the important part but I felt like I should state this to explain why the start of the school year was weird.

Well in one of those coffins was a direbeast (Grim) and a human not from Twisted Wonderland (Cloud). They get out of their coffins early, it's a weird debacle, Grim set my ass on fire, it was a bit of a circus. Cloud isn't assigned to a dorm because while he DOES have magic, his magic is just different enough from ours that the Dark Mirror doesn't know what to do with him. So from what I know, he had to fight to be accepted as a student, same with Grim, who also is perfectly intelligent and capable of magic.

(Crowley also said he was tempted to turn Grim into dinner, which is a complicated subject for another time.)

What bothers me is that Crowley was more than willing to kick out a kid around my age with nowhere to go and be forced to fend for himself, and while he's given Cloud permission to be a student and ALSO a job as janitor, I'm still under the impression he's not being paid well, AND they live in Ramshackle, which is... I've seen the place during Halloween, the place doesn't have heating or A/C, there are holes in the roof and walls, Cloud essentially lives somewhere that should be condemned if it hasn't been condemned already.

Crowley also promised to find Cloud a way back home, but has done nothing on that front, but... I guess I'll give him a pass for that because Cloud has said repeatedly that he doesn't want to go back home, and from how he talks and acts, I think that's definitely a good thing for him.

The other problem is that Crowley also seems to 'forget' to even ensure that Cloud and Grim will even get food during school breaks because, again, they have nowhere to go home to, this basically IS their home, and it just! Pisses me off that Crowley's just allowed to do all of this and that there's really nothing I can do on a more official level because if I figure out a way to get him removed from his position, news about the overblots might come out, and that might put everybody on campus in a WORSE position.

But to make a long post short, I have no respect for the Headmage, and I'll tolerate him because that's what we're all expected to do, but otherwise I'm not happy about how he handles things.

[glapplebloom]

I’LL CRUSH YOU!

The Mecha Sonic everyone loves originated from a Flash Animated Series called Super Mario Brothers Z by Alvin Earthworm. His idea of mixing Super Mario, Sonic and Dragon Ball Z has been done prior, but not as effectively as he did. It has the feel of Dragon Ball, the humor of Mario and some of the best animated fight scenes of the era. But the breakout star of it has to be Mecha Sonic. 

Now why did Mr. Earthworm chose Mecha Sonic to be his big bad? Because of all the Sonic Sprites, his was the easiest to work with. With long limbs and multiple angles, Alvin used the sprite effectively to build the terror people see now. He even used a technique modern Sprite Animators use: individually cutting the pieces to create new poses. Even I do this from time to time. So what is his story?

Mecha Sonic was really Metal Sonic: Robotnik’s greatest creation. Unlike the other Sonic robots, Metal Sonic kept persisting after each defeat: getting stronger and faster. One day, Metal Sonic decided to pull a Cell and absorb his brothers into himself. This created the Turbo Mecha Sonic we see in the series. And the first thing Mecha did? Crash the Death Egg onto the planet and kill all of Sonic and Shadow’s friends.

With his sights on the Chaos Emeralds, Sonic and Shadow were the only ones able to fight back and were on a losing effort. Their only hope of saving this universe: send the Chaos Emeralds to another universe. And that leads to the events of Super Mario Brothers Z, where both Mecha and the Hedgehogs travel to the Mario Universe and the slaughter he leaves behind there.

All this led to a boom in popularity for Mecha Sonic. Even today, many sprite animators still use Mecha Sonic similarly to how Alvin Earthworm did. Which kind of gave people a Mendela effect and associate Mecha Sonic more towards the SMBZ story than what he truly was: a boss fight that was pretty easy. I bet a lot of people who watched SMBZ but never played S3&K until Origins were surprised at how easy Mecha Sonic was.

I am a fan of alternate interpretations of characters. Heck, look at my work and see how drastically different some of the characters are to another. But my big issue with Turbo Mecha Sonic is the overuse of others using this specific Turbo Mecha Sonic. I’ve seen many fan series inspired by SMBZ use Mecha Sonic just like Alvin: character traits and all. It kind of waters down the effectiveness of the guy when another series has all the Sonic Heroes still alive and Mecha is still being treated as a threat.

Which is why in the Reboot, Alvin Earthworm decided to do something different. Instead of Turbo Mecha Sonic, he introduces Metallix. This is a modified sprite originally done by Dave "Entrail" Burns and easily modified since it’s a MM8 Bass sprite base. In the original, this was going to be Mecha’s Final Form when he gets all the Chaos Emeralds. Now, he is the form Metal Sonic (or Mecha Sonic) took to defeat Sonic once and for all.

This allows Alvin to keep the threat of the original Mecha while rebuilding his new design to show he is a much bigger threat than before. Compare the fights with the original Mecha Sonic and Yoshi to the more recent take on it. It’s much more brutal. It’s also why when I had to use him in Royal War Infinite, I went with merging him with Chara’s Soul to make him a unique take on Turbo Mecha Sonic. One that’s more driven to prove his superiority instead of one who wants mindless destruction like other’s take on him.

And for the finale, to show just how great an alternate take can be, we look at IDW’s version of Mecha Sonic.

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31, 33, and 1! ^^

31: Look at the country you are currently living in. If they are an official Hetalia character, how do you feel about that character, as well as the country itself?

That would be the United States of America. Alfred F. Jones. I have... mixed feelings about him as a character. I do really love him! But he does not well encompass a lot of things I personally like to see in a representative of the US, hence my own deviating revisions of an American Representative in Daniel King. (And for England in Nicholas & Noel, and, well, all of my muses lmao) America's so incredibly vast and has so many cultural lines that it pretty much necessitates multiple characters to more accurately portray a wider scope of American mindsets and personalities. Alfred can be the bright, loud, annoying tourist and overbearing sort of American that's eager to start a brawl and hark on about the perfections of his Union while Daniel can be much softer-spoken diplomat who would rather adjust his posture and demeanor to match the country he's visiting and take on some of the darker aspects of a country fuelled by Corporate Greed and be the economist side of the legislative feud between Federal and Local jurisdictions. America is a mess and chaos and I could ramble about being fascinated, impressed, disgusted and wary of so many things about this country for literal days on end but this is a simple ask, therefore I will hold myself back. This time.

Alfred's an awesome character, please do not take my stance as hating on him, but I do find many aspects of his characterisation to be extremely annoying and overplayed. I love him, I don't love what Flanderisation has done to him in a lot of the Hetalia fanworks I've consumed over the years.

tldr; love Alfred F Jones, have my own ideas and I'm allowed to play with those.

33: What are some of your biggest headcanons?

Every individual Representative is completely unique. They're all going to have wildly different origin stories and sets of lore behind him. Some more outlandish than others. Sure, majority of my own Reps were humans who were magically selected by the Universe At Large to be an extremely good example of A Perfect Englishman or A Perfect Canadian, but then there's my Prussia who was magically created by occult magical practices by the Catholic Church and then said magic went haywire sideways and created a feral bloodthirsty living weapon who eventually learned self-control. Sort of.

Day-to-day lore also varies wildly; Noel (my Modern England) has extreme wanderlust but finds it physically painful to stay away from England for too long (see: After a decade of living in Australia with intent to retire from being a representative, his general health declined rapidly and forced him into a hard physical reset of his facade); Daniel (America/New York) has a binding magical contract where he cannot disobey - but he can Lawyer! - an order given by a member of Congress; Gabriel (Utah) can hear the Desert Buzz and if allowed to concentrate, can communicate effectively with coyotes and bees.

Representatives are largely unnecessary to the running of a country/state/city/region, and so are not holden to strictly historical paths that rep'd place had gone down. They're individuals and can have their own stories, even ones that are contradictory to what is believed about history. See: Daniel being a loyalist during the revolution. Again, this will vary wildly.

1:What got you into Hetalia?

Studying, actually! While searching for a study guide to assist my AP Euro History class in my sophmore year of high school, I came across a youtube video titled "What if WWI was a Bar Fight?" and while reading the comment section, there were many references to an anime called Hetalia. Curiosity had me looking up the show, watching a couple episodes, continually forgetting it was a thing and yet still revisiting the concept of Personified Representations of Countries as I wrote out summaries of various historical events thru the guise of Reps. I slowly consumed more actual Hetalia content, but by about five years into playing with Reps, I had decided I liked my own developed Personifications better than either canon or fanon Hetalia Reps and largely abandoned Hetalia in favor of simply enjoying my immortal lads as their own creations with loose ties to Hetalia as a starting point. A bachelor's degree in history and fourteen years later, I still enjoy Hetalia, but largely do my own thing.

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Alright I gave in and watched the Teen Wolf Movie and since I posted about the series on here before I’m not going to type out my feelings. Read not just for obvious spoilers but a recap of the entire movie.

There are so many things that are straight up bad, I don’t know who did the visual effects here but that’s not what I’m going to be talking about here. Right off the bat, yes I loved seeing these characters on screen again, loved having some new content but, oh boy. Sometimes things are better off if you leave them the way they were. First of all, I get why some people (Dylan, Arden and probably more) did not want to be part of this. I would be lying if I said I don’t miss those characters because they added a lot to the team and the story. Stiles’ ideas were what got them through most of the shit in the early seasons and that’s also why the later seasons weren’t as catchy I guess. But it’s their choice and if they want to leave that behind I respect that. With Kira, it feels like they tried to write the story of Liam’s (girl-?)friend for her but idk man. If they did they had to change a lot. Also it would’ve been hella weird for Scott to have 3 ex girlfriends running around in one place. For the rest of the characters Scott, yes, we needed him. He’s the main character. Makes sense he’s back. Lydia, same as Scott. She’s part of the pack and we need people that aren’t werewolves. Malia, alright she fits it. She’s a little different, a little reckless. I was never really a fan of her back then but I don’t dislike her, she can be fun. However making her Parrish’s love interest seems odd. Parrish, makes sense that he still works in Beacon Hills so of course he’s back. Sherif Stilinski, same as Parrish. He lives there, he’s still in contact with the others and thanks to his job he’s involved in the crimes. Chris, even in the later seasons it was weird for me that he still talks to the others. Basically his whole family died and I don’t know if I would’ve stayed there to be invested in this whole chaos after that. But since he’s also in the last seasons it makes sense he’s in the movie as well. Melissa, same as the other adults, she works and lives in Beacon Hills. And she’s Scott’s mom so of course she’s involved in his shit. Derek, ok so, I don’t know who he fucked and then ditched because how does he have a child with no wife? Like I get it people part ways but this just seems off. Also I don’t know what being a father did to him but he seems like a dumbass in most scenes. Like, completely out of context and character. Eli, it feels weird that he even exists. He’s a fun guy, typical gen z if I may call him that and I guess we needed some young blood as well as someone for a possible spin off. Wouldn’t be teen wolf without any teens. Liam, we started off strong and towards the end he seemed to have disappeared. What happened? Coach, a classic. He’s the same as always. Not a single complaint about this man. Deaton, he’s only there for mythical input. He’s still doing his job at the clinic and Scott’s still in contact with him so yeah, he can be in the movie. Mason, took me a while to realize it was him. But hey, he got a job and he’s doing great. Sucks for him to get involved in this shit again. What happened to Corey? Allison, I will talk about this later but for the story it makes sense for her to be back Jackson, we all love his chaotic nonsense but why the hell didn’t he do anything in the movie? He just talked. No claws, no fangs, nothing? I’m disappointed Peter, do we hate him? Do we love him? Who knows. Tbh I was sick of him being the villain for no reason throughout the series but in the movie he was pretty useless. Why didn’t he die in the end? Wouldn’t be the first time we see him crispy Adrian Harris, ok hear me out. I’m all for bringing back people from former seasons but who is this man. He looked nothing like he did back then and besides the scar around his neck nothing linked to the past. Does he have a motive besides being mad about being killed last time? How did he know about the nogitsune? Or where to find it? It doesn’t make sense. Victoria Argent, she’s back as an illusion so it’s fine. No complaints. Conrad Fenris, I forgot this man existed and they only used him for what? To show they brought Harris to Eichenhouse? Not sure if they’re hinting at a sequel or whatever but idk. Could’ve gone without him. But since the actor is Tyler Posey’s dad I can see past that. Now to the actual story... A lot of people called this movie a fix fic for what they “messed up” in season 3. Which, I get to some points. Kiling Allison was a big decision back then but they had their reasons. It felt sort of reaslistic that kids who fight evil sometimes don’t make it out alive so even though I was sad about her death, it made sense. And for this movie, I didn’t hate the idea of bringing someone back who died previously. They did it multiple times with Peter so. Also I watch Supernatural so nothing ever stays dead. So the movie starts with Liam and his coworker/friend/girlfriend working at an asian restaurant when a hooded person comes in and demands the nogitsune.

They try to run but the person catches up and takes the jar in which they keep the nogitsune? Seems pretty reckless if you ask me to keep it in a jar. The person then “makes an arrangement” with it and sets it free in the form of a firefly.  

The next scene shows us Scott working together with Deaton and the fire department to save a little girl as well as a dog from the ruins of a collapsed building. Which makes me wonder why Deaton works with them in the first place. But we see that Scott has his powers and uses them to save people. Back at the animal shelter/clinic Scott sees Allison or think he sees her before she vanishes. 

Maybe I missed the point where he mentions that he has been seeing her for a while now or maybe this was the first time, however Chris shows up and tells them he’s been seeing her for years. They both seem to have heard the same word “Bardo” which Deaton quickly explains means a state between life and death. They they figure out that Allison must be stuck between life and death and decide to go back to Beacon Hills to find a way to help her. And of course, Christ somehow has the sword that killed her 15 years ago. 

The next scene shows Lydia in her new life, she seems to be a business woman doing very important business. But during a meeting one of her coworkers/ clients whatever asks who Allison is because every word in her presentation paper says Allison. She is shocked and rushes to her office where she begins to sketch and skribble on loose pieces of paper, the way she used to do back in earlier seasons.

Back in Beacon Hills, we see a teenage boy break into the “Hale Auto” shop to steal Stiles’ old jeep. He drives away with it but is seen by Parrish who is on duty and watches the road. 

Next we see Mason who is also a cop and was on the phone, heading towards Sherif Stilinski to tell him about Parrish wanting to talk to their “consultant”. They’re in the middle of the forest but their surroundings are burnt to the ground. Turns out Derek is working with the police and Parrish snitches on the boy who turns out to be Derek’s son. However that happened because the whole movie doesn’t explain where that kid comes from. 

However they talk about the other fires that have occoured before and that this wasn’t gasoline. They eventually tell Derek his son has stolen the Jeep again even though Derek hates it. We then see his son drive up to a red light to impress a girl but before he can leave, Derek, the Sherif and Parrish have caught up with him and Derek slashed his tire. In the meantime Scott and Lydia meet at the spot where they fought the Nogitsune back in S3, the spot where Allison has died. We get a bunch of flashbacks of her dying in Scott’s arms while he stares at the old ruins. Lydia arrives and they have a small moment before she shows him the sketches she has drawn earlier. Somehow she knows exactly what they need to save her namely a handful of dirt from that exact spot. So they go on to smash the ground to grab a handful of dirt. Which was weirdly intense for them to simply pick up some dirt.

Either way they pack up and head to (I assume?) Melissa’s house where they meet Chris to discuss their next steps. Jackson shows up, has some funny lines, grabs pizza and rearranges Lydia’s sketches to form an image of the nemeton. I know I’ve made posts about this stupid tree before but I feel like the creators of this show and movie repurpose old elements too easily. You expect a new crazy thing and it’s the same old tree. It’s fine if it makes sense but it’s getting old. Same with Peter being the villain. But I have to say I liked the way the showed it this time unlike the same drawing of the same tree they used in the series.

For the next scene we see a small family house and a car pull into the drive way. Derek and his son Eli enter the kitchen and Derek is mad about his son’s behaviour. They argue and in the end we find out that Eli, although he is a born werewolf to the Hale family genes, has trouble transforming and even healing. I’ve seen a post pointing out all the little ridiculous details about the kitchen like the wine and protein powder or the flowers in front of the house and I must say Derek really is a housewife. Even though I couldn’t stand all the new characters from S5 and S6, Eli is pretty funny and has some great lines throughout the movie.  

Back at the Hale Auto shop, Parrish arrives after they dropped off the Jeep. As he walks in, a coyote enters the shop and transforms into a very naked Malia. At this point I was already disappointed in the writing because I knew what was going to happen. In the series we had the thing between Lydia and Parrish which already seemed off but as it turns out 15 years later, he and Malia have a non exclusive thing going. He seems to be more interested in her but she doesn’t want the commitment. 

After they’ve done the do and got dressed Malia receives a text from Lydia, telling her they need to talk urgently. In the next scene Derek tries to bond with Eli, offering to practice with him for the upcomming lacrosse game but as it turns out Eli escaped through the window of his bedroom.

We see a short scene of Deaton and Chris in a garage where Deaton hold a silver bullet and says he needs answers. Next we see Lydia and Scott pull up in their car to where they meet Malia. They greet each other and Scott and Malia have a bit of a weird moment which makes sense considering their past. However if this was real, everyone would act like this because they’ve all dated each other. Anyway, they head out into the woods to find the nemeton.

Back to Deaton and Chris, Deaton asks a bunch of weird questions and riddles before they start a fight and Deaton eventually throws mountain ash on Chris. He then stumbles backwards and from his mouth a firefly appears and flies away. Which leads to the question how the fuck this firefly got inside him or how long it has been possessing him. Also what was the point of this? Was Chris evil during the previous scenes? Doesn’t make much sense to me.  

In the woods, Lydia, Scott and Malia come across Eli who just so happens to know where the nemeton is. Again, this tree has been in the picture since S3 how has no one ever remembered where this thing is located? They eventually find the tree and send Eli home before they start their little ritual with the dirt and the sword. They all claim to have no idea what they’re doing but who came up with this idea in the first place? Either way the sword gets sucked into the tree and they decide to leave, thinking nothing has happened. If I ever see a sword get sucked into a tree I would think at least something has happened, right? Or is that just me. Through some magic light Allison appears completely naked and unconscious and they all turn back around to go pick her up and get her to the car.

They drive her to the hospital where they meet Melissa. They put her in a room, wondering if it’s really her or not. In the meantime, a whole swearm of those fireflies get to the nemeton and enter it. The sword reappears as well as the nogitsune we’ve known from S3.

There’s a cut and we switch to the school where Coach pep talks a bunch of lacrosse players as well as Eli who is walking behind everyone else. The Sherif appears and talks to him, telling him not to steal the jeep while Derek is off to tell the coach to let his son play in the game even though he sucks.

At the hospital Lydia, Malia, Scott and Melissa discuss what’s happening with Allison while she manages to sneak out of her room, steal some clothes and tries to escape the hospital. They chase after her and I have to say, for someone who has been dead for 15 years it’s pretty impressive that she was able to fight off several security guards, a were-coyote and an alpha. Even for someone with her training, she’s still human. But hey, power balance isn’t one of teen wolf’s strenghts. There’s a short fight where Scott tries to tell her who he is but she doesn’t remember, she is only looking for Derek Hale. Which I find odd. Why does she only remember Derek and not the others?

She injures Scott with a pair of scissors and watches him heal therefor she knows he is one of the monsters. She breaks free and manages to escape after meeting her father and not recognizing him either. Once again, why does she remember no one except Derek? At the police station, Sherif tells Mason, Parrish and another deputy to do their jobs basically before they all leave. A single deputy is left at the station and when he hears a weird noise he goes to investigate only to find the nogitsune in one of the cells. He tells him the deputy is a kitsune as well and goes on to kill him to steal “his nine tails”. I didn’t really get this scene or what the point of it was besides the nogitsune getting more powerful and leaving behind a body for the others to find.  Outside the hospital, Scott, Chris, Deaton, Malia and Melissa talk about how Allison might not be herself and that she didn’t recognize either of them. They come to the conclusion that she only remembers being a hunter and is now a threat to every werewolf, especially Derek. Allison arrives at the basement of, what I assume is, the Argent household and goes straight to picking up some weapons. While in there, the nogitsune appears and uses the form of her dead mother to convince her to kill the others, starting with the betas. Also she drops the F bomb in that scene, which was fine but I could’ve thought of better uses. 

Lydia and Jackson arrive at the police station where they find the dead body of the deputy. 

Derek carries his son through the locker room at the school because he has injured his foot after playing for like a minute at the game. Eli is disappointed but Dereks tries to cheer him up by telling him how great he is. At least he’s being a good dad. Allison shows up and attacks them while Derek tells Eli to run away. They fight and he realizes who she is before she shoots him with an arrow, nearly killing him before Liam and his girlfriend (who happens to be a kitsune) show up to save him. Scott and Malia arrive as well and Allison decides to leave. Derek is basically bleeding to death but keeps talking about Eli and how he can’t run or transform. 

Once again, we see the sherif and the deputies at the scene of a forest fire and they still have no idea what caused the fires but they conclude it’s not a regular arsonist. The mood shifts and a bunch of oni appear and attack the deputies. 

A short cut of a scene with Derek, Scott and Malia in the car, talking about them having to find Eli because he can’t transform nor heal on his own, making him an easy target for Allison. 

Back with the deputies, we see Mason wandering around, randomly shooting through the fog while the oni appear. They attack and kill one of the random deputies before they get to Sherif Stilinski, Mason and Parrish. They try to fight them but eventually get turned into smoke and disappear. 

Back at the Hale house, Derek is on the couch, surrounded by Melissa, Malia, Chris, Scott and Deaton who takes care of his wound. He says the healing works faster with fire which is when Peter appears out of nowhere with a blowtorch. Typical Peter behavior even if it’s more than weird. He then proceids to burn the wolfsbane out of Derek’s wound to save him. After that Scott heads out after receiving some encouraging words from his mother.

Eli apparently decided to take the car to flee and is now trying to pump some gas when Allison shows up, crashing her car into his at the Hale Auto shop. He stumbles and hurries inside with his ankle still injured.  

Liam and his girlfriend arrive at the Police station where they meet Lydia and Jackson. They tell them about the dead deputy and Liam’s girlfriend explains he was a kitsune as well. 

the adults at the Hale house talk about how Allison might be an illusion and Peter confronts Chris about it but he assures him that this isn’t his daughter and he will not be guided by emotion. 

Eli is still trying to get away from Allison and hides inside the shop, waiting for his moment to attack her. But he is still injured and she quickly takes over, ready to kill him.

To his luck, Scott arrives and distracts her but that results in him getting shot by her arrow instead. The two werewolves get out and Scott manages to get Eli to heal his wounds and injured ankle by triggering his healing. Yes, Scott is still the Alpha™ and just growls at him to get him to heal 15 years of trauma. Either way it works and they can now run into the forest where Scott tells him to keep going alone because he needs to confront her. 

At the police station, the four of them discover that the hooded person who stole the jar is the same person to set the forest on fire. Lydia and Jackson decide to find the person who set the fires while Liam and his girlfriend go leave to find Scott. 

Liam stumbles onto a road and almost gets run over by the Sherif who then takes him in while Melissa, Peter and Chris decide to follow his tracks into the woods.

Scott and Allison still fight while he tries to talk some sense into her. 

The Sherif and Eli arrive back at the Hale house where Derek has healed completely and is relieved to see his son alive. One thing I love about this movie is Derek being a Good Dad™

However their little moment gets interrupted by a bunch of Oni showing up once again. 

Liam and his girlfriend break down in their car and get attacked by the Oni as well before they both get taken down and turn into smoke. 

At the Hale house, they all try to fight but don’t stand a chance against the Oni. Derek gets stabbed in front of his son who then runs and hides in the basement with Malia. 

Eli goes ahead to fight the Oni but also gets taken down and just like the others disappears into smoke. Only Malia survives by pulling down the curtains of the windows and letting sunlight in, making the Oni disappear. 

Scott and Allison have been fighting the entire time and she has cornered him at the edge of a cliff. He still tries to convince her he’s the good guy and eventually stabs himself with her knife to prove she can trust him. 

At the police station, Jackson is tired of sitting around and he and Lydia decide to head out to the woods to investigate the fires when Malia and Parrish show up and tell them everyone else has been taken by the Oni. Also loved this little moment of Jackson with the shrug.

After that we see the best shot of the movie: the full body sniff. Peter crawling on the floor, pointing out a huge ass puddle of blood that everyone saw even without werewolf senses.

At the burnsite, Lydia and Jackson search for clues. While Malia and Parrish go off to “kill” the Oni with silver. I don’t know how they suddenly came to this conclusion and never though of this before but ok. 

Scott and Allison make their way through the woods while Scott points out her regrets and her mask starts to crumble when he mentions their motto “We protect those who cannot protect themselves”. 

Back at the burnside, Lydia and Jackson figure out what the trees that burnt down create mountain ash and the person who did it used the fires to do exactly that. I don’t remember if it was ever mentioned in the series where mountain ash came from but cudos to Lydia for knowing it either way. 

Malia and Parrish have another moment and kiss while they pick out weapons to kill the Oni while Scott and Allison arrive at what looks like a basement. We later learn it’s a room inside the stadium. Scott is still very badly injured and close to dying while Allison has visions of the nogitsune/ her mother telling her to keep kililng them even though she’s having doubts.

Next we see Eli waking up, tied to a wooden post. Around him are all the others who have been kidnapped by the oni, they’re all tied up as well. He tells Derek he managed to heal but they are now trapped, that’s when the Oni show up once again. Also.. this set. It’s supposed to look creepy but to be honest it looks cheap. And the strings, I’m not even calling them ropes, they used to tie up the people look like they fall apart at the slightest pull.

Scott finally wakes up and talks to Allison and tells her she died in his arms and if she wants to know more about the past she has to save him from dying.

 Back in the Oni world, they try to break free but Deaton kindly reminds them the strings are so powerful and can’t hold them back while the Oni approach them with their swords. Liam then notices the sounds around them which then lead us to the lacrosse field and the match that is happening at the same moment. 

The scene switches and we see the lacrosse stadium and the teams running onto the field as well as the coach doing his usual thing.

Meanwhile Melissa, Chris and Peter have stumbled through the woods and came to the conclusion that Allison must have gotten Scott and that their destination is also the lacrosse stadium.

Jackson and Lydia are driving in their car while she is on the phone with Parrish who is still with Malia picking out weapons. Lydia suggests that the one who set the fires this time might also be the one to set the fire who killed Dereks family 20 years ago. Which, to me seems a little far fetched but ok. And she goes on to say that this person was supposed to be dead. 

Speaking of, the next shot shows us the hooded person who leaves a trail of mountain ash around the base of the stadium which then magically merges together. So it’s not just regular mountain ash, this one moves on its own. But with this scene, and others later, I never get why bystanders don’t find these people suspiscious or say anything. You see a hooded dude pour out some shit from a container and you decide to ignore it? Ok  I guess.

Back in the basement, Scott pulls out his wallet and shows Allison the picture they took together 15 years ago which then helps her remember their past. We see a bunch of flashbacks from their time together, a dozen scenes of them being lovey and cute. And he talks about them and their friends. Once again, he tells her she needs to save him by burning the wolfsbane out of his wound in order to hear about the rest.

The nogitsune arrives at the Oni scene and climbs up the stairs to the others, once again talking in riddles. He first turns to Derek and then to Eli to which Derek says to not be afraid. Eli, the gen z that he is, responds with some witty comment for which I actually love him. 10/10 humor. The nogitsune talks about him not being a wolf just yet and scratches his cheek only for Derek to growl at him. 

Next we see Scott almost passed out, seemingly waking up from Derek’s howling when Allison approaches him with a road flare thingy. The same they already used back in S3 during the Motel California episode. She uses the flame to burn out his wound and yet again we see flashbacks, this time from said episode and this is what bothers me. They use these flashbacks to show the emotions and memories but they never show a single frame of Stiles. (I assume it’s because of copy right regarding Dylan but it feels out of place. He was so important for Scott and they fucked this up in the later seasons as well) 

The fire triggers his healing and he screams in pain which can be heard by the other werewolves in the Oni world. Like before, it helps Eli to heal the wound the nogitsune gave him and Derek is all star-eyed, happy dad for his pup to become a big wolf. And Eli, once again, delivers the hilarious line of “how am I supposed to see my own eyes”. The nogitsune gets mad and goes for Eli again. 

In the meantime the lacrosse game has been going and it doesn’t look great for Coach and his team. Scott discovers they’re right by the field and Allison says she needs to find his father because he is also in danger and that she might remember Scott before she leaves. 

In the Oni world, the nogitsune decides to yeet Eli and throws him through a portal that has him landing in the middle of the lacrosse field where he immediately gets run over by the players.

Scott follows Allison out and stops her to tell her to be careful because no one knows it’s really her. He’s being the simp he is and tells her he still loves her. Which fits him tbh but after so many years and other girlfriends it feels a little out of place. But she was his first love and died in his arms so he may be excused.

She leaves and Scott gets a look of the field and realizes Eli is walking around all disoriented while being yelled at by the coach. 

Jackson and Lydia arrive at the stadium and discover the mountain ash and that it can’t be broken, figuring out that whatever is supposed to take place is happening right now. Jackson tried to break the seal but it merges back together right before the hooded person steps around a corner. And this is something that bothered me for ages, the inconsistency of these magical things in the series. Sometimes they could break it sometimes it was impossible. One time a wind blow let them through, the other time Scott had to fight for his life to get through.

Scott catches up with Eli and he explains him where everyone is and that they’re trapped. Scott walks around with a massive blood stain on his shirt but no one seems to notice. They head out of the stadium but get stopped by the mountain ash barrier which Scott runs into head first.

The hooded person reveils his face and Lydia immediately recognizes him as their old chemistry teacher while Jackson has no idea. Classic Jackson, we love them for that. Adrian Harris then responds with “I was your chemistry teacher, Jackson. You fucking imbecile.” Loved the second use of the F bomb. He then shoots Jackson with something? and demands Lydia to scream. 

Eli and Scott rush to the coach to ask him for help to get all the people out the stadium without panic. They all figure out that the only way to do that is to play lacrosse and win the game so they change into the jerseys and play. 

Jackson is on the ground and Harris has Lydia grabbed by her arm, showing her the Oni World and her friends suffering. Again I’m not judging the CGI here but damn. Whoever did this really let it slack. 

We switch over to the Oni world where the others are still trapped. Derek, Deaton and Sherif talk about how Derek hasn’t transformed into a wolf since the one time when Eli was little. He got so scared that Derek never dared to do that again which also might be the reason for him to take so long to discover his own powers. 

On the field, they’re still playing lacrosse and Scott shoots the ball miles from the goal, all the way up to the score board where Allison just happens to be standing, smiling at him. 

Harris still pressures Lydia into screaming. Telling her that her heartbreak pain is especially appealing to a nogitsune that’s when she reveals why she and Stiles broke up. Namely because she kept having visions of him dying in a car crash. I understand the reasoning and her motif to save Stiles but really? Breaking up with him was the only solution she could think of after everything they’ve been through? 

Peter walks up to Allison at the railing and straig up smashes her head against it knocking it out. No word spoken. We switch back to Scott and Eli on the field, stll playing for the win while the other team’s coach questions Scott even being on the team because he looks 30. Which tbh is hard to tell from so far away with all the gear on. Anyway, Coach replies and tells him that’s Greenberg. 10/10 

In the Oni world they can hear the game above them and Derek is happy Dad once again that his son is actually playing. They keep playing, Eli makes the shot and they win. Everyone cheers and people start leaving the stadium. 

At the top rank, Peter is holding his claws to Allison’s throat when Melissa and Chris show up. Chris throws a blade at Peter who catches is and infects himself with the wolfsbane before letting go of Allison.

Chris and Allison hug and they’re happy to be back together even if she still doesn’t know for sure who she is. Tha’s when smoke appears and Allison grabs her bow and just straight up walks into it and disappears. Which is dumb. Just dumb.

She, Eli and Scott land in the Oni world and realize they’re now trapped as well while Malia and Parrish arrive at the Stadium. Whatever the fuck took them so long.  

Right in front of Scott, Allison and Eli some Oni appear and they go in for a fight, now knowing how to kill them. They do a weirdly choreographed partner fight but it gets the job done.

Malia and Parrish sit by the mountain ash barrier and he trie to burn  through it while there are literally people standing behind him and watching him turn into a hellhound. 

The fight in the Oni world oes on but they need to wait for Parrish and the silver bullets. However I always thought they were also killing the werewolves with silver, shouldn’t Allison’s weapon be silver? 

Lydia, Jackson and Harris are still watching from the outside and when Allison is about to get hit, she goes on to scream. 

The shock waves pushes back the Oni and gives Scott and Allison a moment to recover while she is having major flashbacks of their friendship which makes her remember everything. Once again, not a single frame of Stiles in sight.

The nogitsune holds Eli at, well, claw-point and Scott offers his life in return of the others. Offering to sacrifice himself and dying in Allison’s arms in order to save everyone else. Allison refuses at first but then goes on to shoot him with not one but THREE arrows in the heart before he falls down. Also somehow he put on a clean shirt after the game that is now also covered in blood.

The Oni that threatened Peter, Melissa and Chris disappear, showing the game of the nogitsune is over.

The nogitsune thinks he has won because Scott is about to die but the arrows go up in flames instead and he heals his wounds. 

Thanks to Liam’s girlfriend and her fox fire, he is saved and Allison manages to shoot the nogitsune right in the head with her arrow. Don’t know when or how they came up with this plan or if she did that all by herself but it felt like an easy fix.

The nogitsune is mad again and the Oni reappear along with Melissa, Peter and Chris who all start fighting and killing them thanks to their silver weapons. 

Lydia and Jackson are still watching everything with Harrison while Jackson pulls a knife out of his boot and attacks him. Don’t know what he cut exactly but this was the only time we got to see Jackson’s kanima eyes. However they manage to knock Harris out and Lydia clumsily reaches for his gun and takes it away.

The nogitsune vanishes for a moment which gives Eli the chance to free his dad with their combined power. Derek once again being a super dad. They bond over being werewolves and being Hales and break the ropes together ♥ before they go on to free everyone else super fucking easily.

Parrish and Malia are there too now somehow and hand out silver bullets to everyone who has a gun so they can kick the Oni’s asses. Also Sherif shoots one right in the face.

The nogitsune stumbles back towards them, super mad and you can see him spitting everywhere while he’s talking. He talks about the gift Scott gave him and rips off the bandages around his head to reveal his transforming face. But he just looks really fucking ugly.

Scott and the others wolf out and he, Derek and Eli go to attack him but are transported into another place. Each one finds themselves in a room matching their eye color. Scott in red, Derek blue and Eli yellow. They can hear each other but the nogitsune starts to attack them. 

They figure they can break the illusion by finding each other and eventually manage to fight off the nogitsune and break out of these rooms together. This whole scene seemed kinda pointless and while it was visually pleasing it did nothing for the plot in my eyes.

Once they’re back in the Oni world, they hold onto the nogitsune so Parrish can come and kill him off. But apparently he couldn’t do that on his own so he yeets Scott off the nemeton after telling him he’s the alpha and Eli is part of his pack now before he tells Parrish to Blaze it™. Actually he says “Light this fucker up” so we have F bomb number 3. 

Parris doesn’t hesitate at all and burns the nogitsune AND Derek to a crisp while everyone else just stands there shoked to the max including Derek’s own son. And for a brief moment we see his eyes glow red one last time before they basically explode and only Parrish is left behind.

Everyone is shocked and sad and speechless and Eli is breaking down and once again we see this monstrosity of a fucked up perspective. 

Allison walks up tp Scott to take his hand as if they hadn’t just watched their friend die. The oni masks drop to the ground, disappear and they are all back on the lacrosse field. We hear soothing music and people hug and help each other up. Lydia and Jackson come over to the field while Scott and Allison share a kiss. 

They pull away and look over to Eli who just lost the only fucking family he had since his mother is non-exsistend. And this is the worst moment in the movie for me. This kid lost his dad after everything and they’re treating it like nothing. They might be used to losing Derek, or thinking he is dead, but for this kid his world is ending. However Scott walks up to him to hug him because that makes it so much better. 

The camera zooms out and we see the empty stadium.

The next scene show’s Derek’s funeral service in their home. Everyone’s there even the Coach who didn’t even know Derek existed until the beginning of the movie. Scott stands at the front and starts giving a speach about how Derek has saved his life in so many ways and how he made him and Eli brothers. He makes an important point about found family and how much they all mean to each other. At this point we’re all crying. 

Eli walks out with tears in his eyes and the Sherif follows him out in the hallway. He hands him the keys to the jeep and Eli mentions once again that Derek hated it which leaves us wondering why Derek hated Stiles jeep so much. The Sherif goes on about how Derek kept fixing that jeep after Stiles left it even though it was so beyond repair and how Derek always managed to get up after a defeat and kept going just like that. We see a bunch of flashbacks of Derek getting punched, tortured, beaten and so on while the Sherif tells Eli to just keep it going. 

The scene switches and we see the Eli driving the Jeep through the woods and over a bridge with some soothing and happy music in the background. 

The scene changes and we see Scott and Allison at the dog shelter before the camera switches over to Deaton and Eli who adopted a dog. Allison tells Scott she feels wistful about having lost so much time but Scott isn’t worried about the past because he knows he’s having a future with Eli and with Allison. 

They kiss again and we see a police car driving down the street at night.  Inside there’s Harris and a deputy. Which is already weird because why would any normal person transport a criminal at night? They stop in front of a big iron fence and we see there’s another car behind them. Harris asks what’s going on when two men get out of the car behind them and continue to grab him and pull him out of the deputy car. Another man gets out of the car, this time it’s Conrad Fenris, the director of Eichenhouse, while they drag Harris to he back of the other car. He complains about the others being crazy and about the kids being werewolves to which Fenris replies they’ve heard plenty of stories about teenage werewolves and there’s always a new one. This whole scene feels unnecessary unless they’re trying to promote a second movie which I hope will not be coming.

The last scene shows the cliff over Beacon Hills and Eli walking up to the edge during a full moon with glowing eyes and we hear a lion-king-line “Remember who you are” in Derek’s voice.

I’m sure they’re trying to promote him as the new teen wolf, the new kid. To be fair they made him likable and relatable enough that kids like him and I’m sure he will do great but do we really need another teen wolf series? As much as I love the characters, spin offs usually ruin the source material as seen with this movie.

So that’s the movie. It honestly felt like binging 3 seasons of the show in one day. A lot of shit happening any only after going over everything a second time to make this post I actually understood half the shit that was happening. Most of the scenes felt rather rushed and even though I get there’s not much time in a movie to show actual growth I was hoping for less “easy” fixes. This is a problem that happened often during the show that always bothered me. They got Derek to fix everything in 5 minutes, Scott had magical alpha powers and could suddenly do impossible things. Sometimes this feels like lazy writing and the rushed explanations or even the lack of explanations felt exactly like that. 

However I enjoyed seeing these beloved characters in their new lives even though we didn’t get to see much about what they actually do and even if I’m still sad that some characters didn’t make a comeback I think they came up with a pretty decent storyline. At first I was sceptical about bringing Allison back but it fit. But just like the later seasons of the show, I watched this because I love the characters and the cast not the great writing. 

I don’t agree with a lot of choices they made (killing Derek, giving Derek a son, Malia and Parrish being a thing) most of it seemed wrong in a way but I can accept their choices and the movie was still somewhat enjoyable even though I continuously switched between “I hate this”, “I love this” and “What the fuck”. 

Solid 7.5/10 thanks to the many funny lines from Jackson, Coach and Eli 

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The Song of the Wedding Rings

The idea here was to write about marriage in terms of the actual punishing metallurgical processes by which gold wedding rings are made, from the formation of the minerals in which it is found to the finished pieces of separated jewellery with which the marriage begins. It became quite an effective allegory for the resistance and conflicts invited when two souls embark on the perilous adventure of wedding into one and was a deliberate challenge to the convention that the wedding is the 'happy ending' of something as in romance novels, as any 'married' person knows it's just the start and you aren't really 'married' in that sense for a long long time, if ever. The ego resists it as fiercely as the love invites it. Thus the choice of poetic form, terza rima, is  that chosen by Dante for Paradiso but also for Inferno and Purgatorio. This 'wedding' of the he and she  is hell and purgatory with a vision of heaven. I read it at our best man's wedding as part of the service though for obvious reasons in that context I emphasised the heavenly vision just before the end.

#marriage 

He. It's very dark in here. I'm paralysed, Dorman and dreamless. Feel poles Of heat and cold unchanged. And neutralise

Them. Don't know what to do with myself, doled With endless wastes of time to kill. Waiting For someone to turn me up, an end to hold

Onto. Feel a distant purity but ring False, hopelessly flawed and dull, when struck. Dumb. This happen to me. Especially nothing.

I sent a short time somewhere crowded, numb. About eight million years. There was lots Of immigrant stuff I'd vaguely become

A art of. It was probably chaos. I just lay back, let it all not happen. Then there was a change. The night was a-buzz,

Vibrating. And I - it was quite sudden I suppose - was in two places at once. It got - warmer. My molecules loosened,

Got a little excited.... Ages thence, It registered that the immigrant stuff, With impossible speed, had vanished, whence

I was more my own thing. Though a good half (In two different places) was missing, Cut. But that's neither here nor there. I have

No lost identity. I feel nothing.

She. Can't move. Can't. Move. Can only steal my grain Against him, against more change. Petrified. And what should I? Nothing ever mends. I'm

Stuck with myself, though God alone knows why. I never asked to be here.Molten Light's Delirium conceived me just to lie

Beneath the piled millenniums of Night In everlasting restlessness. I'd been Going nowhere. Slowly. Coldly. My bright

Beginning finished soon as it began. Now I'm in my own way. Too dense to shift From it. In a life without end... I'm dammed.

The only chance I've got - of real Life - Is being overcome by Force. Another's. But afterwards I'd only lie there. Stiff,

As if unmoved. Regardless.Why bother?

He I want her but won't give a mile, an inch. She's only a bit of stuff. But, oh, she's Heaven. If only she'd yield, I'd be so rich!

She I've done with cast-offs, drossy heels and quartz. I was bathed in cyanide to free me, Though a false gleam conceals it, of course.

I hate and despise like poison sweet These clods, detest their coarsened common feel. I'm REFINED, (if you even know what it means).

No. Not just 'polished' my so-called 'dear'.  REAL.

He You needed nerves of steel just to survive Where I cane from. You were given a scrape nd crushed from the start. Bent/ All you insides

Exposed. Filed. Drilled into shape. You needed a tempered will like iron, Smoothness and flash a hammer couldn't break.

The fault's my background. Not whom it picked on.

She You want me? Why? Does a certain stable Fluency attract you to me, blending My lightness and grace? I'm pliable

If you really try. But I risk nothing, It's just how I am, it doesn't move me. To you it;s magnetic. All this straining

To reach me's YOUR problem. YOUR star. Icy.

He I feel half dead. My other half's somewhere Else. One day I'll be got back in once piece, Perhaps. Meanwhile, I've been jolted half-aware

In opposite directions. Once...Or twice...

She Or not... No amount of chemistry, No amount of earth, no amount of time Can touch me. Put your life's current through me

I'll stay switched off. Like lead, for all my shine.

He I can't wake up. Such fatigue. It's so hard To push through this irresistible dark, Fate's Immoveable object - myself.... I'm shattered.

Ony once, I was dreaming of a shape Brilliantly mettled, Primely Moving. It all Came together, in every place...

She Oh yes, I've dreamt of a true Golden Age Where I, the immutable Iron Maid, Break out at last of that golden cage,

Dim memory melting riveted gaze, Endure, am accepted in, a world I embrace. Touch. Know - another being. Feel...

Escape...

                   But - No. Im too rusted in place In my restlessness. I will play it straight. Keep a grip. Lie low. Remain poker-faced.

Preserve my goodness, value, glow. And wait.

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OH MY GOD.

i just realised.

this is my blog.

i can do whatever i want.

so heres a giant fucking ramble with as many thoughts on Shenggou Ye as i can manage (who if you dont know is an oc belonging to my wonderful best friend reese aka rai aka rai.diate and her story universe Liar Liar Chaos Fire 😁 she doesnt know im doing this, this is for me):

if you dont know how did you NOT know shenggou ye accidentally became a biiiiiiit of a hyperfixation for me (exaggerating). reese and i can't exactly pinpoint when it started but we think its around the time we started a zombie apocolypse roleplay with us two and another friend <3

i love him so much i daydream and fantasise about him every moment i get. i see the colour red, or a wild dog or hyena, something to do with kung fu, or any obscure thing that i manage to tie him to and i go absolutely FERAL. hyenas are now my favourite animal because of him. i see a ricecooker and laugh at how he loves rice because his asian ass is so goofy (just like me fr). i love the colours red and teal which are his main colours. my favourite songs are loose cannon by set it off and mama by mcr which are his songs. he is TAKING OVER MY LIFE /POS

i feel bad that i dont get like this with other characters, especially my other friends and even my OWN, but thats just what ended up happening and i cannot seem to control myself lol

i even made up a list of why i kin him do you want to see it well too bad youre seeing it anyway i told you this is a megapost megalist mega fuckfest okay not a fuckfest but you get the idea:

SHENGGOU KIN MOMENTS:

- large hearts, both literally and metaphorically

- imposter syndrome (self-doubt, feeling like a fraud/liar)

- scared of being disowned/losing loved ones

- making jokes during serious moments (struggling to cope so makes light of the situation = ends up brushing it off/ignoring it)

- loving our best friend from high school fr fr /gen /pl and being so excited when we see them <3

- saying fucky ass and baybee (im the reason he says it LMAOOO)

- gayass motherfuckers (both bi)

- WE BOTH HAVE PUSSIES LMAOOOO and we aren't really dysphoric about it hell yeah (im trans and sheng is intersex 💪)

- lying lying chaos crying (i know a lot of them lie but shhhhhh)

- not being good at voice regulation/shutting the fuck up LMAO (apparently its a sign of autism... shenggou ye autism real!!? /j)

- having silly laughs <3 idk my mama makes fun of my laughs and he has a silly laugh it counts sshhhh

- he probably sits on surfaces weirdly or on places you wouldn't normally sit on, and i sit weirdly so YEAH

- sex jokes? yes please (they are funny !!!)

- dramatic as hell but its because we are silly goofy

- annoying as fuck but its slash pos

and thats all i had but theres probably more in fact im doing things because he does them, like saying "L" LMAOO BUT i mean it in an endearing way 🫶

ive also been calling my mother mama a LOT more like thats WHAT ive been calling her exclusively and i know for a fact its because shenggou calls HIS MOTHER mama and the song mama by mcr again. tsk tsk this hyperfixation is legit taking over. but i love it so much.

hes all i want to daydream about. we (friends and i) have a running joke that he is my husband, i love calling him my dearest darling husband shenggou ye. its great. but i like thinking about him with me during the day, maybe doing something stupid or dangerous and laughing at him, him helping me calm tf down when im stressed. its a weird coping mechanism but strangely effective!! i prefer keeping to myself but thinking about him with me makes me feel more seen and heard and loved. and reese is a bit like him, so its also like having my best friend with me even if shes not really. i like to think i can tell shenggou anything because thats how i feel about her. again, its all really stupid and cringe but its really nice and fun

im only now realising this is probably just turning a friends oc into a para. or like. something like a para. i mean the daydreams do get vivid.. Huh!

anyway thats about all i feel like sharing, i dont expect anyone to see this like all my other posts, i just enjoy screaming into the void and seeing if anyone screams back. let it be known, having weird coping mechanisms is cool and youre so.valid. /gen biggest hugest thank you to my bestie reese for creating this goober i am obsessed with. without her art that captures his handsomeness and her writing that demonstrates his personality i would never have fallen so deeply in love with him to the point of delusion.

Now if you'll Excuse me. i am going to dream the Best dreams (shenggou will be in it). thank you and Goodnight ^_^

[ax3022-ancutadantepelgrom]

Inspiration For the Project

So my friends saw this film at the Manchester animation festival 2022, I, unfortunately, could not make it. However, they kindly shared the trailer with me since when explaining my project it reminded them of this film. I would say we have very similar ideas about using wood however it is much different to mine. As I have an emphasis on the environment. I like the aesthetic of wood being carved in a stop-motion manner it makes it feel organic rather than 2D, and it draws the audience into the environment as though you could touch it. I would like to try and engage a similar effect in world-building however, my desire is to have a burnt aesthetic instead.

I do wish I had the opportunity to go as I was not able to stream this at home.

I would say I, of course, have to include William Kentridge as an inspiration for my work since he is using a non-traditional form of medium to make animation with charcoals. He is a South African artist, now 67 years old with several exhibitions in several museums around the world, recently he had one in London that I was unable to attend. He works within many mediums with a political, science, literature and history ground within them. In 2016 he created a centre in his home town called Less Good Idea to create a space for experimentation and creativity whilst holding workshops, public performances and mentorship. He is also a recipient of honorary doctorates.

He is an inspiration because I found enjoyment from using charcoals through him and his expressive medium. And try to replicate this has been fun through my experiments. Its artwork intrigues me about how it can make art move and further express an emotion. It has a gritty sense of realism and humanity which I also desire to express within my work.

Jodie Mack

English born (1983, Uk London) American woman, experimental film maker and animator. Attending the Florida university for the MFA in film, video, and new media at the school of art institute of chicago and teaches at Dartmouth College.

I choose her for my research because of her in-depth abstract experimental animated films. I love to play and push boundaries and so does she.

Most importantly her creative chaos comes from her exploration of pattern, place and life. I will say however I was not able to recreate a similar experiment. However, it has helped frame what experimental can be.

Hayao Miyazaki & Studio Ghibli

Created from three men, Hayao Miyazaki, Isao Takahata, Toshio Suzuki. ( there was a fourth guy Yasuyoshi Tokuma, executive producer owning the parent organisation to studio ghibli. but he has passed away, and it was only recently that Isao passed. He wasn’t very prominently seen, but a close friend to Hayao)

The studio was founded June 15th 1985, tokyo, by themselves. Including there music composer Joe Hisaishi.

They’ve created so many films, even Hayao’s son was involved directing a few movies. (And i have watched nearly all of them apart from the ones in the museum that are stricted). The one movire that signified to the western world and Disney was Spirited away, winning an Academy Award for best Animated Feature at the 75th Academy awards. Making it the first of its kind as a foreign film. Surpassing Titianic worldwide grossing.

In 2016 it was voted the fourth best film of the 21st century picked by 177 film critics around the world. It has continued to recieve appraise.

The Studios Net income is 1.426 billon yen (2011) and has around 150 employees.

Hayao has truly been the centre of the operation and has masterful talent. Not to say that Isao is his equivalent but suited to different audiences that have made his movies stay hidden from mainstream television in the west. Hayao just won’t retire because it’s his reason to live, to show the small joys in life. His pacifist views are the core of his work dealing with this through each film from Nausicaa to Howls Moving Castle and his new upcoming film Boru the caterpillar. He reflects on what he learns and the struggle of being in the very medium that is a part of most of the problems he dislikes capitalism, pollution and war.

His films also touch on some of the positive nature of humans as well and in this way, he gives vigour to us imperfect beings. Yet leaving it up to us, introducing positive things that his characters do such as cleaning and cooking etc.

He is an inspiration since he started me on this journey towards animation, as well as giving me the courage to show what I believe and nothing less. People may not like your work however you will find your way. As well as to use yourself within your work, as that's what sets you apart. His activism is what he can do, and that's something I believe should be the core of any topic such as this. Further his way of being empathic to the environment as though it was a character is something I wish to bring into my work.

[finelinevogue]

birthday wishes

Description - it’s your daughters birthday party and harry isn’t there

A/N - idk if any of you know but i’m sleepwalkingstyles on wattpad too and this imagine was my most well received so i couldn’t not post it here!! hopefully you all enjoy too x

warnings - self deprecation, swearing

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The morning sun crept through your window, its rays warming up your cold skin. You would normally be temperate and comfortable, but without your loving husband, Harry, sleeping next to you, you were left to feel a cold and empty bed instead.

Harry was in Japan currently. He said he needed some time to escape and write music, for his new album, just like he had done when he went to Jamaica. You had been reluctant to the idea at first, because you knew how much you, your 3 year old daughter and 1 year old son, would miss him, but he assured you that he'd call, text, face-time and even snapchat you both all the time. And he kept his word. Even if he was like a granddad when it came to using snapchat!

You knew he needed the time to himself, because that's when he writes his best music, and you didn't want to be the one to take that away from him.

But it has been really hard.

You definitely couldn't have coped if you didn't have Anne, Gemma or your parents around to help.

You knew that Harry wasn't escaping to get away from family responsibilities, because he would do anything, and you mean anything, to help you out when he was here. His management had been pushing him for new music for a while, but he explained he wasn't ready. However, when management started to become more strict with him, you told him he must go - just for a little bit.

He made sure that Theodore, you newest baby, was at least 1 year old before he went to Japan. He was only going for 5 weeks. It was always lovely face-timing him, although each time it made it much harder to say goodbye to him.

As you turned over to look at the alarm clock you heard the light pitter-patter of feet, on the hardwood floors, indicating that Ella, your daughter, was about to intrude into your bedroom. It had been like this most mornings recently, the feelings of missing her dad growing stronger.

The door was slowly pushed open and you felt movement on your bed sheets. It wasn't long before Ella's small hands were softly pushing your body, thinking that she was waking you up herself.

"Mummy wake up!" Ella whined.

You turned your body to face her. Her hair was crazily orientated over her head, which was the sign of a good nights sleep. Her large, green orbs were so bright and happy you were sure they could make even the saddest person smile.

"Morning, baby." You poked her in the stomach, earning a little giggle from her.

"No mummy." She swatted your hand away. "Mummy?" She crawled over the bed sheets to crawl on top of you. You shuffled back against the headboard so you could get comfortable, whilst also paying attention to Ella.

"What, my love?" You patted her hair down in places, trying to calm the chaos.

"Do you know whose birthday it is today?" She asked in a sing-song voice.

"Let me think." You played along with her, scratching your head for effect, obviously knowing it was her birthday. "Is it a gorgeous, little girl, called Ellas', birthday today?" You rhetorically asked. Ella was smart for her age and so she'd caught on to the fact you were messing with her.

"That's me! Mummy, that's me!" She jumped onto her feet and started bouncing on the king sized bed. You never understood why you'd bought a king sized bed, when you and Harry could quite easily sleep in a single bed you sleep that close. "It's my birthday!"

"Of course it is, angel!" You grab her under her armpits, pulling her in to kiss her all over her face. "Happy birthday, my gorgeous girl." You continued to kiss her until you believed she'd got the message that you loved her very much.

"Now can I open my presents?!" She asked excitedly, not understanding how she had this much energy at 7:30 in the morning.

"How'd you know you've got presents, baby?" You asked. Of course you'd bought her presents, but you didn't want her to grow up a brat and have the mindset that she'd get treated every year; even though she would! Especially if Harry had anything to do with it.

"Daddy said, last night on the phone, that you'd got me lots of presents, but that his present was the best." She furrowed her eyebrows as she remembered last nights phone call to Harry.

Harry's present was the best?

You knew Harry had bought her a few gifts, sent through the post, but you and him had collectively bought her main present. How would Harrys gift beat a personalised, painted, wooden-toy princess castle?

"Oh okay then, baby. Let me go and care to Theo and then we'll join you in the lounge." You squeezed her little, dimple filled, cheek and helped her off the bed, as you got off yourself, allowing her to scramble away to discover her presents.

You went to the toilet and did your morning routine before going to wake up Theo. He had been a really good sleeper for the first week, but after that he'd been really restless, meaning endless all-nighters for you. You think it has something to do with the absence of his father.

The duck-egg painted room was met with the muffled whimpers of an awakening 1 year old. Theo could sit up by himself now and had mastered the ability to crawl. You opened his blackout curtains and let the morning sun awaken your son.

"Morning mister." You coo as you reach in to the cot to pick up your son. He had little tears running down his cheeks already, and he'd only just woken up. You'd managed to get him back to sleep at 2 am, after him waking up at 1 am. "Oi what's wrong with you, hey?" You rhetorically ask him, obviously not expecting an answer. "You missing your daddy?" You ask and Theo lets out a little hiccup from crying and wipes his tired eyes with his small fists. "I miss him." You keep talking to him, hoping it would distract him, kissing his forehead a couple of times.

You walk to the lounge, with Theo on hip, and admire Ella patiently waiting for you. She was surrounded by a mass of presents.

"I waited for you mummy." Ella told you, looking proud of herself.

"Good girl." You praised her, as you came down to sit on the floor with your back against the sofa. You placed Theo on the floor, in front of you, between your open legs so you had your hands free to help Ella if she needed it.

"Do you think Theo wants to help me, mummy?" She sweetly asks as she grabs her first present.

"That's a lovely thought, baby, but I don't think he knows how to open them just yet." You stroke your hand through her soft, chocolate curls. Ella surely got her heart of gold from her father.

"And the presents are quite heavy." She exaggerated as she picked up the first present. She definitely got her drama queen side from her dad too.

"Well just be careful then, angel." You cautiously told her, not wanting her to hurt herself. Theo was sat upright, intensely watching his sister. His tiny onesie engulfed his fragile body, just making him look so adorable.

Ella unwrapped her first present with ease. "Mummy look!" She held out what looked like a jungle themed jigsaw puzzle. You knew that was off your parents.

"Wow, baby!" You humoured her. It was the best feeling getting to see your children happy. "What's this animal?" You quizzed her.

"A lion?" She timidly asked, obviously not wanting to get it wrong.

"Good job, Els." You kissed the top of her head in praise. "We'll have to keep a record of what everyone's bought you so that you can send them 'thank you' cards. Okay?"

"Okay." She agreed, but you knew she was too engrossed in her presents to actually have listened and understood what you just told her.

••••

The past 2 hours had been spent opening presents, slowly... But it showed just how grateful Ella was for every gift. She'd gone crazy when she opened her princess castle. She ran around the lounge for a minute straight, screaming how much she loved it. How could Harry's present top that?

You'd made breakfast pancakes, with bacon and syrup, as per Ellas request. Theo was very stubborn at breakfast, refusing to eat or drink anything, which ended up with you nearly having a breakdown. You didn't, because you knew it would be selfish to do so in front of the kids.

Ella was now getting herself dressed and you had just put Theo down for a nap, due to him being so restless. His sleeping pattern was so messed up, but really you needed Harry back in order to help fix it.

Harry was due home next week and you were so ready for him to be back. You couldn't miss him anymore if you tried. He said he would call at some point today, to speak to Ella. You were upset, for him, that he would be missing Ellas 4th birthday, but you knew he would make up for it when he returned. He had already booked for him and Ella to go their favourite ice-cream restaurant. Yes, restaurant. They always ended  up getting the 3 course ice-cream meal - resulting in them rolling home with their full bellies.

You were expecting guests over from around 12pm. You'd invited over close relatives of yours, and Harrys' of course, friendly neighbours and some of Ellas friends from play group. You couldn't believe Ella was starting school this year! She was growing up too fast for your liking.

You blow-dried your hair, and made your way in to the walk-in-wardrobe. Each time you stepped in you laughed to yourself about the door at the back of the closet and how it, did indeed, lead to a vault for Harrys suits.

You picked out a pastel green and white dress. It was a piece from your best-friends new, spring, fashion collection, and you loved promoting and helping her fashion line. It was, abnormally, good weather today and so you decided to bring the spring look out. You added some white heels to make your outfit look more sophisticated and finished off by adding light amounts of natural-looking makeup.

After getting yourself ready you proceeded down the hallway, to Ellas room, to check on her. As you approached the room, you could hear her talking to herself. "No Barbie, you like Ken remember?"

You moved around the corner to see her sitting on the plush carpet, playing with her Barbie dolls. She had put on a green dress, with funky patterns on, that made her look like a princess. You were surprised she'd chosen that dress and not her Cinderella costume!

Her room was currently a tip. You'd moved all her presents in to her room, until you could find storage for them, so that guests could actually move around your lounge without stepping on a plastic toy.

"Ella, sweetheart, are you ready? People will be here soon." You stepped in to her room.

"Mummy!!" She ran over to you and hugged on to your legs tightly.

"Hello angel!" You giggled at her small, but loving, action. You crouched down, so you could be at height with her head and kissed her forehead.

"Can you do my hair mummy?" Ella asked politely, stepping away from your legs.

"Of course, my love." You guided her to the children's table and chairs set, that was in the corner of her room, where she liked to host tea parties, and sat her down on one of the chairs. You pulled out a bobble and a hairbrush from a nearby drawer, and began to comb her hair. There were a few nots along the way, but her hair was back to its lush, bouncing curls in no time. You tied up the majority of her hair on to a ponytail, some pieces falling out due to how short the locks were.

Once you were done you phone begins to vibrate in the back pocket of your trousers. You pull it out expecting it to be Harry, but instead it's your mum.

"Hey mum?" You tried to sound excited to hear from her, but you secretly was hoping to hear Harrys voice.

"Hiya, pet. Just calling to say we're five minutes away from yours." She spoke rather loudly down the phone, as all older people do.

"Do you want me to put the kettle on?" You asked.

"Yes please, pet. See you in a few." And with that she ended the call.

"Was that daddy?" Ella asked with her big doe eyes.

"No, i'm sorry angel." You brushed a strand of hair back behind her ear, so it wouldn't bother her. Harry was Ellas hero, and all she really wanted for her birthday was his phone call.

You made your way to the kitchen, with Ella following closely, and let the water run in to the kettle before letting it boil. You made note of the time, 11 am, and made a mental list of things you needed to prepare for having guests over. All the food was pre-prepared, last night, with the help of your sweet daughter, and the majority would only need to be shoved in the oven. The rest was just snack bits and platters of fruit and veg.

"Mummy?" Ella called out.

"Yes, darling?" You responded whilst pulling out three mugs from the cupboards, filling them all with tea bags. PG Tips, of course, not that gross Earl Grey stuff.

"I miss daddy." She sadly admits. You turn to see her eyes were glossing over and her lips starting to wobble, preparing herself for the tears that would shortly follow. You instantly crouch down in front of her, and cup her cheeks with your loving hands.

"Aw, baby, it's okay. I miss him too. He'll be back before you know it, though, alright?" Ella offered you a cautious nod instead of words. "He wouldn't want you to cry, though, okay? So we're going to have a happy day."

"A happy day." Ella repeats to herself, putting on a grinning smile.

"That's right, baby." You awarded her with a kiss on her forehead before heading back to the finishing kettle. "Nana and Grandad will be here soon!" You cheer, trying to make her think of anything but her father.

"Yaaay!" She screams excitedly, making you laugh.

As if on queue, there's a knock on the door, as well as a chime from the doorbell. You follow an ecstatic Ella through the house and unlatch the chain, to open the door.

"Nana! Grandad!" Ella runs and jumps in to your dads arms.

"Happy birthday, petal." Both her grandparents chorus. You give your parents a hug and a kiss upon entry and direct them in to the kitchen.

Ella takes her Grandad off upstairs, probably to show off all her new toys.

"How are you, pet?" Your mum asks as she places her handbag on the kitchen island. You begin transferring the hot water from the kettle and into the mugs.

"I'm alright. Tired, but alright." You truthfully told her, because you knew that being stubborn wouldn't get you anywhere with her.

"And the children? Where's my baby grandson?" She asked whilst pouring the milk in to the mugs, you adding the sugar where necessary.

"Ella misses her dad, obviously. Theo has been a handful recently. He's not sleeping well, luckily he is now, and he refused to eat, or drink, this morning and I just feel really helpless. You know?" You stressfully run your hands over your face. "They just need their dad. Hell, I need him." You admit.

Your mum moods in acknowledgment before talking. "It'll be alright Y/N. You're a strong woman, mother and wife. Harry will be here before you know it." She tells you, the tone in her voice sounding beyond convincing.

"I know, I know." You remind yourself that you only have to keep going, without Harry, for another week. "Right. Okay." You talk to yourself, before you could start crying due to stress. "I'm going to bang everything in the oven and hopefully it'll all be ready by the time people arrive." You couldn't tell whether you were telling your mum, or yourself, that.

"Anything I can do to help, pet?" She takes a sip of her tea, finding it too hot so leaving it to cool on the side. You'd downed your tea, not really having the time to lazily sit around today.

"There's some tables already set up outside." You pull out some colourful, checkered table cloths from a cupboard and hand them to her. "If you'd kindly dress the tables with these, and then the platters in the fridge can be arranged on them then." She nods in understanding before walking off to do her job.

••••

You managed to have everything in the oven, and back out of the oven, within an hour, which was perfect timing for your guests.

Anne, Gemma and Michal had arrived shortly after your parents and they all sat in the sunny garden, whilst you continued to cook. Neighbours and extended family continued to drift in throughout the afternoon. Ella's friends had arrived bang on 12pm, as you expected, and they were all having bundles of fun out in the garden. You had hired a bouncy castle and so that was occupying the kids for the moment, knowing it would cleverly tire them out for bedtime.

It was now 2pm and the party was in full swing. You were currently warming up some extra sausage rolls in the oven, seeing as they disappeared at lightning speed once you'd placed them on the table.

"Hiding in the kitchen are we?!" You turned around to see Gemma waltzing in, with a glass of champagne in her hand. You couldn't help but laugh, knowing she was trying to make you feel better.

"Kids ate the sausage rolls like the world is ending tomorrow!" You joked, leaning to rest on the kitchen island.

"How are you doing?" Gemma sincerely asked, knowing how hard it had been over the past couple of weeks. Gemma was the sister you never had, which meant you told her everything. She knew how badly you, and the kids, missed Harry and how it was taking a toll on your mental health.

"I'm getting there. Yourself?" You asked to make polite conversation, but Gemma could tell by the dark circles under your eyes that you putting on a brave face; pretending you were alright.

"Not too bad. Missed my niece and nephew though." She placed her hand over her heart for effect, making you smile.

"Yeah they've missed you too. You're definitely Ellas favourite person."

"Pfft! Not true! You are, for sure." She put down her champagne glass so she could open the bottle and refill her glass.

"Oh, I don't know Gem! You'd be surprised!" You laughed. Gemma was about to reply before the deafening cries of Theo echoed through the house. "Excuse me." You apologised and left for Theos' room.

Upon arrival you noticed how much louder his screams were. You walked in and shut the door softly behind you. Theo was sat up in bed, crying his eyes out all over again. You not having a clue why, since he didn't need changing and he rejected food, drink, sleep and even you.

"Hey mister! What's all this about hey?" You cooed, whilst lifting him out of bed. Once he was in your hold he stuffed his head in to your neck and continued to cry, with his heartbreaking sobs. "What can I do, sunshine? Hey? What can I do?" You kept asking him, as if he was going to give you an answer.

You aimlessly walked around the room, bouncing Theo up and down in your arms to comfort him. Nothing working. His continued cries made you feel so weak, because you couldn't do anything to help him.

"C'mon Theo. Help mummy out here. Please." You whisper your last word, hoping, by some miracle, he would stop crying. But he didn't.

The door slowly opens and you see Gemma enter. You sigh to yourself, not liking other people to see how bad a parent you were being.

"I, uh, sorted out the sausage rolls for you." She told you, earning a thanks from you. "Do you want me to try?" Gemma asked carefully, not wanting to step over any boundary you may have drawn.

What was the harm in her trying?

"Okay." You softly say, handing over your sobbing son to his Aunty. He chokes on his tears a bit, making him cough, but Gemma helps him out by gently, but firmly, patting his back. Within a minute, Gemma had gotten him to calm down and he was quite content with spending time latching on to her.

Even though you were beyond relived that Theo had calmed down, you felt pretty shitty. You couldn't even stop your son from crying. In that moment you felt like a worthless mum and you quickly excused yourself, from Gemma, before you ended up breaking down in front of her.

You zipped to your bedroom and shut the door. You made your way over to the edge of the bed and sat down on it. You hunched over, planting your elbows on your knees, and face in your hands, before you starting crying yourself. You tried to be as strong as possible for your children, but it has all gotten a bit too much recently. You were also jealous from how Gem had managed to quiet your son, yet you couldn't. You tried to make sure your crying could only be heard by you, not wanting to concern other people. You breathed heavy, attempting to control your falling tears.

Your bedroom door opened, expecting to see Gemma with Theo, but instead seeing your gorgeous Ella.

"Mummy? You okay?" She softly asked, clearly worried about her mother.

"Yeah, baby, i'm fine." You assured her, hating yourself more for letting your daughter see you in such a vulnerable state.

"Why are you crying mummy?" She padded over to you and stopped in front of you, to take your larger hands in her tiny ones.

"It doesn't matter, sweetheart. Mummy's fine." You kissed the top of her head to comfort her, knowing you probably looked like a mess with your bulging red eyes. "Did you need something, angel?" You queried, wondering why she'd come looking for you in the first place.

"Oh yeah! I nearly forgotten!" You smiled at how her sentence was grammatically incorrect, but not having the heart to tell her in that moment. "Grandma says there's a surprise for me downstairs, but she wants you there too. I also want you there mummy." She rocked back on her feet sweetly.

"Of course i'll be there, baby." You smile at her, letting out a large sniffle to stop your nose from running.

"Yay! I love you mummy!" She told you. You'd heard it a thousand times already, but each time she said it, it made your heart melt.

"I love you, birthday girl." You pinched her cheeks lightly and she let out a world-saving giggle. Ella clamped on to you hand, weaving you both through the halls, and the stairs, until you ended up outside with everyone else.

"There's the birthday girl!" Michal shouted causing Ella to cling on to your leg, and hide away, out of shyness. Utterly adorable.

There was a mix of people standing up and sitting down, and you decided to sit down. Mainly because you were so exhausted. Knowing you had a restless night with Theo ahead of you, made you feel even more exhausted. You loved the boy, so fucking much, but you wished he could just sleep like a sloth, instead of a nocturnal creature.

"Right. Can everyone hear me who wants to hear me?" Anne shouted up, causing the chatter to die down. Ella came and clambered in to your lap, casually laying against your front. Gemma was standing near Anne, Theo still attached to her, and she mouthed to you whether you were okay to which you nodded, not wanting to make her feel bad.

"Before we sing happy birthday to the birthday girl, and then get to eat some lovely cake, we have a surprise for our lovely Ella." Anne continued, making Ella all giddy in your lap causing people to chuckle.

"Baby, sit still." You whispered to Ella, because she kept unintentionally fidgeting.

"The surprise took a while to plan." Anne rolled her eyes dramatically. She was such an entertainer, much like her son.

"Grandma what is it?!" Ella shouted impatiently, whilst kicking her legs excitedly.

"What do you want it to be?" Anne asked.

"Hmmm..." She thought to herself. "My daddy to phone call me." She decided, making your heart break at her words. You were pissed off that Harry hadn't called yet. It's not like he had that busy of a schedule.

"Okay. Let's do that first then. Shall we call him?" Anne asked Ella, everyone watching and listening intensely.

"YEAH!" She squealed in your lap, launching out from your hold and over to where Anne was dialling numbers into her phone. It was quiet enough so you could hear the ringing. You bit your lip and prayed to God that Harry would answer his goddamn phone. But after the line went dead, you knew your prayers hadn't been answered.

Your heart broke even more, if that was possible, whilst watching Ella frown in confusion as to why her dad hadn't picked up.

"Why didn't daddy pick up?" She quietly asks to herself, but loud enough for people to hear. Everyone looking upset for her.

"Maybe because he wanted to say happy birthday to you in person, instead?" You heard what sounded like Harrys' raspy voice reply, thinking your mind was playing cruel tricks on you. Until you saw him weave his way through the crowd of people he'd been hiding behind.

You took one look at him and that was enough to set you off crying again, in disbelief that he was actually here.

"DADDY!" Ella screamed so loudly, you could've sworn a glass cup broke. She sprinted over to him where he was already crouched down awaiting her embrace. That was all you saw before you buried your head in your hands, crying to yourself again.

You knew he was really here, you'd just seen him, but part of you kept asking yourself 'is this a dream?'.

It'd been twenty odd seconds and people were laughing and awing loudly around you, probably because Harry was being the best father to Ella and Theo, whilst you couldn't move you were so in shock. Beautiful shock though. Completely relieved he was back, and safe. You heard the sounds of knees cracking, indicating someone had crouched down in front of you. Large, warm hands pulled yours away from your face, to uncover the tear-stained mess.

"Well hello to you to, baby!" Harry chuckled, causing you to do so too. Looking in to his mesmerising green orbs, you felt at home again. Tears flowed freely down your face as you laughed at him.

"Jesus H! You know how to give a woman a heart attack!" You choked out between sobs, but made him laugh nevertheless.

"Just you, love." He teased, making you roll your eyes at him. "Really? I fly back to surprise you and all I get is a roll of the eyes!" He continued to tease you.

"Fuck off! You nearly killed me with shock Harold!" You say dramatically.

"Can I get my welcome home gift now?" He smirks, knowing full well he would.

You harshly grab the back of his neck and pull him towards you, as if you were in a real hurry to make his lips meet yours. Which you were. He reacted as quick as you did and engulfed your cheeks with his large hands, showing he was just as desperate for you as you were for him. The second your lips touched lips, the firework display ignited within you. A feeling you had so deathly missed. You were never one to display so much affection in public, especially in front of your parents, but in that moment nothing else mattered except for you and Harry. The kiss merely lasted a few seconds, but that was enough for each other to realise how much you missed and needed each other. Your tears continued to fall throughout the interaction; Harry's finger caressing your cheek, continuously, to wipe them away. He absolutely hated it when you were upset.

Neither one of you wanted to pull away, but there were still many people watching you both, and Harry knew that if you continued you'd start to feel uncomfortable. So he took what he could of you, in that moment, knowing you'd both continue this later tonight.

"Shit, i've missed you." Harry gasped for air due to you leaving him speechless, as always.

"Same here." You chewed the inside of your lip to refrain yourself from attacking Harrys' lips again, not wanting to cause too much of a scene. Harry kissed your forehead and then rested his against yours, you closing your eyes in comfort. Your world feeling at peace again.

"Mummy! Look! Daddy's back!" Ella ran over to you and told you the news as if you didn't already know. You pulled away from Harry, licking you salty lips, to look at your joyful, now, 4 year old.

"I know, angel!" You laughed as she bear tackled Harry in a hug. "Isn't it great!?" You asked her.

"Yeah! But why are you crying again mummy?" She asked sincerely.

"Agai—" Harry was about to ask with furrowed eyebrows, but you beat him to it.

"Happy tears, Els. I'm just happy." You assured her, for the second time today. She turned back to Harry, happy that you were too, but Harrys face was more of a 'we're-talking-about-this-later' kind of face, clearly concerned.

"Was that a good surprise Ella!" Anne reached you, smiling so widely at the happy family.

"Yes! The best present ever." It clicked as to what Harry meant now. Yeah he definitely won the presents game.

"Where's my other little rascal?" Harry questioned over Theo. You pointed over to his sister and you looked down at your oh-so-interesting hands to distract you from the negative emotions from previously.

Ella ran back in to the bouncy castle, with her friends, after asking Harry to join her. He told her he'd be there when he's seen to everyone else, because he knew after he started to dedicate his time to his daughter there was no way anyone was pulling him away from her. Harry waltzed over to Gemma and Theo, retrieving him from her arms. You noticed Theos' face light up at the sight of his dad, body wiggling like crazy trying to be as close to him as possible.

You got up yourself, giving Anne an enormous hug and thank you for setting up such a wonderful surprise. You'd forever be in her debt now. You headed in to the kitchen and took out some fresh bottles of champagne, from the fridge, replacing the empty ones.

As much as having Harry back had repaired your longing, broken, heart for him, you were still frustrated and upset at yourself for not having been able to take care of your children properly. Ella had been no problem, apart from the occasional tantrum over missing her dad, but Theo had been tough work. You knew having Harry back would calm things down now, but you were angry at yourself for not being able to do it yourself.

You started to wash and scrub the dishes as a distraction. It was your daughters birthday for God sake. Why were you being so selfish?

Your dad walked in a few moments later. "Heya, pet! I'll do the dishes, love." He told you, instead of offering.

"Oh it's alright dad! I got it." You start scrubbing the plate harder out of built up frustration. Your dad calmly, but firmly, places his hand over yours preventing you from scrubbing any more.

"Y/N." Your dad starts. You turn to face him, wondering what he was doing since he never called you by your name. It was always pet names instead. "Stop. Harry wants to speak to you anyways." He pulls your hands out of the water and starts scrubbing the dish you were once doing. "He's in your bedroom I believe."

You nod and silently make your way to the bedroom. God if Harry's about to tell you that he found someone else in Japan, and was leaving you, you might actually over feed yourself with ice-cream until you die. That would be a happy death, right? You open the door and see he's sat on the edge of the bed, twiddling his thumbs together, something he always did when he was anxious. The close the door, locking it in the process, the sound making Harrys head shoot up. It was only then that you realised he was crying. His eyes, puffy read from all the shedded tears.

"Baby what's wrong!" You dash over to him and tackle him to lay down on the bed. You straddling him, laying over the top of him to hug him tightly. His feet still dangling over the edge of the bed made you wonder how comfortable he was.

"I-I'm sorry Y/N/N." His words taking you aback.

"Sorry for what? You have nothing to apologise for H." You meant it. The man had done nothing, that you currently knew of, that was wrong.

"I shouldn't have left you." He muttered to himself, before turning to directly face you. You sat upright, because he did. "Why didn't you tell me you were struggling, baby?" He sadly asks whilst cupping your cheek, to which you lean in to. There was no point in playing dumb.

"That wouldn't have been fair on you." You looked down to escape his intense gaze.

"So you made life harder for yourself?" He rhetorically asked, but you answered anyway.

"It's only been like this for two weeks, H." You stated, not thinking it was a massive deal to get in to an argument about.

"Two weeks too long, baby." He added, making you sigh in defeat. "Gem told me how you've been beating yourself down over being worthless and unfit to be a mum, and I need you to understand baby, this is important, I need you to understand that you are the best fucking mum in the world to our kids. You would do anything for them, I know you would, because I would too."

"But—"

"I haven't finished." He cuts you off and boops your nose to tell you off. "It's meant to be hard, baby, and it's not meant to be a straight-forward road, but you're making it harder for yourself by not allowing my inside that pretty head. Okay? You need to let me in, and help you out. We have different purposes as parents. You are far much better at getting the kids organised for events or distracting them with creative activities than I am, and it just so happens that i'm better at sending the kids off to sleep than you are. Over time those roles may change, or we may even perfect them all and be equals in every area. None of that means you are a shitty mum. So don't think that, ever. Alright? Promise me."

"Okay."

"No, baby. I need you to promise me." He lifted up your chin and pressed a curt kiss to your lips before allowing you to respond.

"I promise you, Haz." You kiss his lips more passionately and allow yourself to linger on them for a a prolonged few moments.

"Don't try and distract me, baby." He pulls away, making you pout in annoyance. "I need to know that you're okay first."

"I'm okay." You hang your arms over his shoulders and massage the curls at the back of his head.

"I know Theo has been a handful recently, and i'll tell him off when he's old enough to understand-" You abruptly laugh. "-but i'm here now and i'm not leaving, like that, again. I hated it. Next time you're all coming with."

You were excited to hear every minute detail about his trip, knowing how he secretly will have loved it.

"Hope you wrote some good music whilst you were away!" You laughed, hoping the late nights and early mornings weren't all for nothing.

"Of course." He came to your lips for a quick peck. "I wrote a song caller Sunflower, Vol. 6 because I re-wrote it 6 fucking times before I liked it."

"Why?"

"Because it was going to be my 'honey-im-home' gift, for you, and i wanted it to be perfect. Like you." You laughed at his cheesiness, but not wanting him any other way.

"Can I listen to it?" You bite your lip in anticipation.

"After you've given me your welcome home gift, baby." He winks coming to kiss you neck a few times, after moving your hair out of his way.

"Harry it's your daughters birthday! Go and spend time with her and treat her like the princess she is." She try and push him away from your neck, but heavily fail.

"After i've treated you, my queen." He said, all smug, and flipped you around, pushing you in to the bed and proving to you how worthy you just were.

[anxious-art-block]

LU Headcanons Part 3: I Thought of These While Watching Baymax

SCOTTISH LEGEND

“Aye.” “Wur youse vaccinated wi’ a gramophone needle?!” “A wee devil more like.” “Yer aff yer heid, Wild.” “It’s pure dead brilliant!” “She was a bonnie lass…” “Speak O’ the Devil.” “Aye right!” “Moan fur a wee drink, Cap’n?”

My grandfather is Scottish so these are things I’ve ACTUALLY heard him say

Also, her Hylian is based on Gàidhlig to further prove this 

Vegetarian Sky

When the Chain is on Tetra’s ship for the first time, Wind gathers the crew into singing The Wellerman 

When Four is arguing with someone he stands on the nearest stump, table, or chair to reach their height or taller. He needs to assert dominance.

While they all have their “Titles” since they’re all named Link, how ‘bout some nicknames?

Twilight: Cub/Rancher/Twi Time: Dad/Old Man/Sir Wild: Pup/Gremlin/Champion/Princess Wind: Sailor/Young One/Ghostie Four: Smithy/Munchkin/Artificer Warriors: Captain/Princey/Pretty Boy/Wars Legend: Vetertan/A Sheòid [by Ravio]/Honeybee [by Ravio] Hyrule: Traveler/Roolie/Buttercup Sky: Angel/Darling [by Sun]/Hero

Twi’s Hylian is based on Chinese [I like the idea of him singing Yours Forever from Over the Moon about Midna ;-;]

Legend just… doesn’t mention that he’s the prince of his Hyrule. Like it literally just slips his mind until they’re there and he talks to Fable and it just slips out, and he’s like “oh did I not mention that?” 

Obviously, due to the number of musical instruments, challenges, and quests in the Zelda universe, people have given their HCs about the boys’ musical talents, so here’s my 2 cents:

Fuck the idea that having the hero's spirit also means being tone-deaf, what about the Chain being able to sing and the ZELDAS CAN’T

TAKE THAT HYLIA

Hyrule doesn’t sing a lot, it would draw too much attention in his Hyrule so he chooses not to, but he has a very haunting air to his voice [I use Ashley Serena as a reference to how he would sound] and sounds lovely when he does

And because of his travels, he’s a very good dancer! Like, REALLY good. He learned all sorts of stuff from the places he’s been, and simply enjoys doing it which only made the skill grow

TWILIGHT SOUNDS LIKE JEON JUNGKOOK 

It was first discovered that he could sing so well when he was about 13 when he was on the ranch just singing aloud to the goats and Ilia heard him and told e v e r y o n e 

Legend has a smooth and deep voice, can sing in like 6 different languages, and can play like every instrument invented 

Srsly u could probably give it a brand new one and would probably pick it up within like a minute 

Warriors: This piano costs more than your house

I will continue to draw Twi in JKs outfits, so feel free to drop me ones u wanna see him in [like send an ask or smth]

Anyway

Time and Malon will make little duets often, with him on his ocarina and her singing, or them both singing just cause they love each other *sobs*

Ok enough music stuff on to the shit y’all care about 

Wild and Flora were goofing off and trying on each other’s royal dress and guard uniform then looked in the mirror and both just kinda went  “Oh.”

This is me saying they’re both trans [icons]

I really like the nicknames thing for the Chain & Co. so my idea is that Wild calls themselves that even after the journey, and that their Zelda ditches the name ‘Zelda’ and changes it to Florian 

“So, what’s your Princess Zelda like?” “Oh, I don’t have a Princess Zelda.” “???” “No, I have a Prince Florian.”

I also demand - platonic or romantic - that we keep the absolute CHAOS that those two have

LITERALLY TRIED TO MAKE WILD EAT A FROG IN CANON WHERE IS THAT ENERGY Y’ALL

W H E R E  I S  I T

Gives Wild his old royal dress and Wild cries

Twilight has really sharp K9s [c’mon there had to be SOME side effects to being a wolf for a while]

And is secretly a cat person

Four loves Wild’s Hyrule ‘cause of the surplus of minerals and mining

Time calls the Chain “His boys” 

Sky will take random sticks or logs he finds and carve small designs into them when he’s bored, as well as idly strumming his lyre 

You're welcome

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Best Draco/Hermione Fics Dramione Shippers Read in 2020

A few days ago, I asked you what were the best Dramione fics you'd read in 2020. Here's the huge list of your excellent recs (in alphabetical order):

A Creature Most Unusual by JMilz: Draco Malfoy is on a mission. Unfortunately, Hermione Granger catches him in the act. When she sees that he has adopted a rather unusual magical creature, she becomes determined to make sure he takes care of it. Little does she know, the animal may hold her key to eternal glory . . . and a whirlwind romance. M, 9 Chapters, 24,460 Words

A Little More Alive, Far Less Lost by MGL_Dramione_Lover: After Draco's post-war trial, he finds himself attending his 8th year at Hogwarts with Hermione. As remorse and acceptance replace anger and hate, the old enemies begin a friendship that sparks into much more than they ever hoped for. Hermione's goal as Head Girl is to banish old prejudices and unite the school while Draco's only wish is to become a man worthy of her love. M, 22 Chapters, 84,823

A New Light by mithrilstarlight: Draco spent six years doing his best to keep his head down. Then he runs into Hermione Granger. Turns out, they actually have a lot in common.Chapters posted M/W/F. T, 18 Chapters, 33,876 Words

A Second Look by RiverWriter: Her best friend's life was a mess and she would have done anything to make things better for him and his sons. So, when she found her former enemy in a similar situation her heart went out to him as well... and the beautiful blond baby in his arms didn't hurt his case. It was certainly enough for her to give him a second look. M, 30 Chapters, 127,243 Words

All that is Rare by smithandbarrowman: In the wizarding world, it has long been assumed that men are Alphas and women are Omegas. However, when Hermione Granger discovers that assumptions are rarely factual, her status as one of only a handful of female alphas that has ever existed has men falling at her feet.But there’s only one man she wants, and like the male alphas before her, the hunt is on until he bears her mark. E, 31 Chapters, 119,755 Words

All the Wrong Things by LovesBitca8: Sequel to "The Right Thing to Do" - Draco's POV. Part 2 of the "Rights and Wrongs" series. E, 24 Chapters, 160,297 Words

All You Want by senlinyu: Eighth Year at Hogwarts was supposed to be Hermione’s. And it is, just not in the way she expects. Omegaverse fic. E, 36 Chapters, 172,651

apples & cream by LovesBitca8: She could have taken her things and gone through his Floo without a word. She could have ignored him on Monday morning, as though last night had been no more than a fever dream and too much Firewhisky. But she’d come back to bed. Inspired by the lovely NikitaJuice's "apples & cream." E, 1 Chapter, 1,426 Words

Beginning and End by mightbewriting: Years. Broken into months into weeks into days—into hours, minutes, seconds—into moments. Simple at one end, complex at the other. In Draco’s experience, moments, even when simple, had a habit of becoming irretrievable. Moments grew, stretched, multiplied into ages and eras that defined whole stretches of measurable time. Draco regretted several moments in his life, some within his control, some without: all of them irretrievable in nature. At a certain point, wedged between ‘what-ifs’ of his own devising, he’d stopped trying to keep track of those regrettable moments: now and then, pushing and pulling, coming and going, beginning and end. Moments were only moments for just as long. After that, he had no control. A Draco POV prequel to Wait and Hope. E, 48 Chapters, 242,100 Words

Bells on a Hill by HeyJude19: Left by his fiancée a month before the ceremony, Draco never got his dream wedding, so agreeing to assist Granger with her own wedding planning to distract himself from his broken engagement seems like a great idea—though Draco probably shouldn't fall in love with the bride-to-be. Based very (very) loosely on The Wedding Singer. T, WIP

Bending Light by scullymurphy: Draco Malfoy was in exile, though they called it protection. It was the summer after sixth year and he'd taken Dumbledore's offer, defected to the other side and been sent away to a small town in Italy for his troubles. No magic, few rules, and not a lot to do - until Hermione Granger showed up. M, WIP

Break for me by Ada_P_Rix: COMPLETE _______________ "-I told them this wouldn’t work.” He cut in through gritted teeth as he kept his eyes on Hermione, making her pulse quicken and she couldn’t help but clench her thighs together at the rough, husky tone of his voice. He didn’t miss it; his eyes landed on her thighs and they darkened even further. “I can’t help her when all I feel like I want to do is pin her down and fuck her into the mattress.” _______________ Hermione gets into a little accident at work and is infected with a hybrid potion created to cause certain heightened side effects. Draco offers to stick around to give his work partner a little support ... if he can Occlude long enough to resist her... E, 7 Chapters, 45,107 Words

Breath Mints / Battle Scars by Onyx_and_Elm: For a moment, she's almost giddy. Because Draco Malfoy's been ruined by this war and he's as out of place as she is and — yes, he has scars too. He's got an even bigger one. She wonders whether one day they'll compare sizes. E, 51 Chapters, 148,908 Words

Bring Him to His Knees by Musyc: Draco is on the case of a murderer, but to investigate, he needs a fake relationship - and a kink club play partner. When Hermione volunteers to take the role, both do their best to maintain the lie without letting each other know the truth: neither of them are acting. E, WIP

Calendar Boys by anne_ammons, Nadiapolyakova (Rijaya83): She had thrown out the idea on a lark, but now Hermione Granger was tasked with bringing the charity calendar to life. What was one more thing on her list? An art/writing collaboration between nadiapolyakova and anne_ammons - twelve photos and a piece of the story behind them. M, WIP

Cherry Mint by dirtymudblood: "He could smell her. Even multiple train cars away, he could smell her. Except, Draco didn’t know who she was. He ignored his natural instincts to pant like a dog and follow the scent to the omega in the beginning stages of heat. Instead he willed himself to rub his knuckles against the rough wood of the table in front of him." E, 27 Chapters, 58,081 Words

Dark Water and Dying Eyebrights by bexchan: One of them is desperately trying to remember their past while the other is forever trying to escape theirs. It's seven years after the war and Draco has managed to avoid almost everyone from Hogwarts, living a lonely life on a small island, far away from the wizarding community. But a familiar face in a cafe window capsizes his world into chaos. Dramione. EWE. Memory fic. M, WIP

Difficult by provocative envy: COMPLETE: "I should," I repeated. "But I don't want to." And then he smiled, and I was wrecked. HG/DM. M, 30 Chapters, 87,041 Words

Don't Look Back by Onyx_and_Elm: It’s the smell of it. Chemical. Bitter and sharp as a raw edge on metal. Just a hint of it as she passes him at breakfast — but enough to stop her dead, mid-step. There is Wolfsbane in his tea. E, WIP

Don't Threaten Me with a Good Time by monsterleadmehome: She scoffs. “If you must know, he ‘elected’ me because he thinks our shared animosity will keep you in check. He’s also not worried about you trying to shag me as a distraction.” He leans back, stubbing out his cigarette on the banister. His eyes rove over her from crown to toe and back. She lifts her chin and tries not to shiver. “Well, he’s right about that.” Lucius Malfoy hires Hermione Granger to whip his son into shape so he can find a pure-blood bride and receive his inheritance. What could go wrong? E, 10 Chapters, 48,092 Words

Draco's Gift by TriDogMom: Draco gives Hermione a gift because of an instructional YouTube video. M, 1 Chapter, 1,705 Words

Dragon in the Dark by GracefulLioness: The battle is won, Voldemort is dead, but the war is far from over. In the new Death Eater regime, Draco Malfoy does what he must to survive and keep his mother safe. Now a highly trained assassin, Draco has learned to think of his targets as inhuman beings, but when he is tasked with killing someone from his past, he can no longer hide from the horrors of the world around him. E, 31 Chapters, 164,782 Words

For a Present Under the Tree by grace_lou_freebush: When Draco and Hermione eloped, the Wizarding World turned against them. Hermione is stuck in a low level, low paying Ministry job with no hope of upward movement. Draco can't even convince someone to hire him. Now, it's Christmas, and Draco knows Hermione deserves the world - or at the least a Christmas gift. He finds the perfect hair comb to replace the horrid Muggle brush she's been making due with, and he'll do anything to afford the paltry present so he can have something to put under the Christmas tree for his wife. Making a beeline for the jewelry box containing the hair combs, Draco rifled through them, landing on an ivory comb with queen anne rose carvings and gold filigree detailing. He brought it to the startled shopkeeper and set it down gently. Pulling his sixth generation Malfoy heirloom pocket watch from his coat, he shoved it in the wizard's face without second guessing himself. "I would like to make an exchange." E, 1 Chapter, 10,141 Words

Fortuitous by MrsRen: Recently divorced Draco doesn't believe in the ideology of having one true love. He certainly doesn't expect to meet his match in a Halloween themed coffee shop, but fate has a peculiar way of giving you just what you need. M, 13 Chapters, 93,695 Words

Fuck, Marry, Avada by Lilian_Silver: Some years after the war, the gang meets up at the Leaky to play a silly game, with very real consequences. E, 1 Chapter, 3,106 Words

Give Me An Hour by RZZMG: As the war continues to rage on around them, Hermione Granger decides to seduce fellow Order Member, Draco Malfoy, one night while at Grimmauld Place... and everything between them changes after that. Fic follows the "five times" trope, and is dedicated to raspberryjukebox. One-shot. A/U-Extended War scenario. Dramione. Drama-Romance-Hot Shag! COMPLETE! M, 1 Chapter, 3,251 Words

Good Girl by arabellaleyes: Hermione is tired of their normal routine in the bedroom. What will happen when she asks Draco to spice things up? One-shot. Complete. M, 1 Chapter, 9,000 Words

Hindsight by floorcoaster: It's a New Year and Hermione decides it's time to make some changes. T, 12 Chapters, 167,694 Words

How to Love Thy Neighbour by WhatSoMalfoy: After her relationship with Ron falls apart, Hermione attempts to juggle a personal muggle life with a professional wizarding one. After encountering her high school nemesis in the most unlikely place, Hermione adds another ball to the juggling mix. M, 14 Chapters, 41,992 Words

How to Move On by longdistance: It's been nearly a decade since the war. A long time since she locked herself away. A long time since he faced his mistakes. She's what he wants. He's what she needs. It's time for both of them to figure out how to move on. M, WIP

Hydrotherapy by eilonwy: Draco finds a trip to the showers after playing Quidditch... enlightening. E, 2 Chapters, 7,163 Words

I Choose You by melanoradrood: At the end of Fifth Year, Hermione finds out why It is that none have approached her with a Marital Contract, the only way she can remain in the Wizarding World after Graduation. It has already been signed by her Magical Guardian, someone she has never met - she is to be the next Lady Malfoy. A year and a half later, she is a married witch, but still, Draco Malfoy, who had chosen her above all others, had not spoken of it. In fact, they barely spoke at all. And when trouble heads their way, Hermione means to change that. Really, she means to change a lot of things. E, 5 Chapters, 24,527 Words

Isolation by Bex-chan: He can't leave the room. Her room. And it's all the Order's fault. Confined to a small space with only the Mudblood for company, something's going to give. Maybe his sanity. Maybe not. "There," she spat. "Now your Blood's filthy too!" DM/HG. PostHBP. Now complete with epilogue. M, 49 Chapters, 284,050 Words

It Happened in Egypt by bionically: Wandless in Egypt: Draco's stranded in Egypt, but luckily, there's a Granger in sight. Now, if only he could be prevented from strangling her. Fun times abroad: It was supposed to be a leisurely solo trip down the Nile. Hermione didn't factor in one blond man from her past and all his drama. Then, of course, there's the fact that everyone's after him. Much hilarity ensues. Maybe. *** A rom-com adventure/mystery featuring two unwilling partners on the run from Lucius Malfoy, alien-hunters, Muggle police, and local wizards engaged in a civil war. T, WIP

Love and Other Misfortunes by senlinyu: Draco Malfoy is dying. He's part-Veela and needs his mate to survive. Post-war, Hermione Granger is a workaholic, up to her eyeballs in legal activism on behalf of Magical Beings, and hasn't yet noticed that Malfoy is the Magical Being who needs her most. “Because I don’t want to be saved by you just because you feel like you have to.” He was properly furious now. “I’m in love with you." Hermione stared at him. She knew but somehow hearing him say it made the air shimmer with magic. "I’m in love with you,” he said again, despairingly. “And that means I want you to be as happy as you possibly can. And you won’t be, not with me.” M, 23 Chapters, 98,584 Words 

Manacled by senlinyu: Harry Potter is dead. In the aftermath of the war, in order to strengthen the might of the magical world, Voldemort enacts a repopulation effort. Hermione Granger has an Order secret, lost but hidden in her mind, so she is sent as an enslaved surrogate to the High Reeve until her mind can be cracked.Now illustrated by Avendell. E, 77 Chapters, 370,473 Words

Measure Of A Man by inadaze22: To truly know someone is to differentiate between who they once were, who they are now, and who they're capable of being. Hermione realises the duality of one man as she rectifies what she knows of the past and begins to understand the pieces of who Draco Malfoy is now: a father, a son, and a man. E, WIP

Meet the Malfoys by raven_maiden: 4 Works, 21, 442 Words

of flavoured names and coloured sounds by Pink Panda (Ejacyeolation): "He doesn’t question it at first, the fact that sounds have colours and words have flavours. He grows up with it, grows up seeing powerful ruptures of colour when his mother plays the piano and softer, translucent bursts when the people around him speak. His father’s voice fills his vision with sombre oranges and lilacs while his mother’s is a pleasant mix of delicate greens, blues, and greys. The word father tastes like wet wood and the word mother tastes like the pumpkin juice the house-elves frequently serve him."In which Draco just wants to know what colour Hermione's moans would be. He also wants to know if her skin would taste as sweet as her surname or maybe as intoxicating as her given name. E, 2 Chapters, 10,351

Once Upon a Night by longdistance: One night will change everything. M, 17 Chapters, 57,444 Words

One and Done by PacificRimbaud: Hermione Granger has a career she loves, friends she can depend on, and a nice set of hand towels for her new flat. She's single and tired of tiresome men, but that doesn't stop her from wearing beautiful lingerie underneath her serious Ministry skirts. Or having pictures taken in naughty knickers. Just once. For herself. Draco Malfoy doesn't get upset at the sight of blood, which is good, because he sees a lot of it. What he doesn't see a lot of is Hermione Granger in her unmentionables. Usually. A series of meetings and mix-ups in which one cannot possibly mean done. E, 4 Chapters, 35,011 Words

Our shared silence by Vofastudum: She wakes up one morning and everyone is just gone, vanished like they never existed at all. Everyone but Him. And in this silent solitude, he's all she has. Hermione and Draco alone in empty castle. Mystery and a plot twist you didn't see coming! EDITED 10/2020 M, 17 Chapters, 40,149 Words

Pinned by bionically: Draco doesn't know what he's expecting when he follows Blaise down a dark alley, but it certainly isn't this. For a man with an addictive personality, this isn't going to turn out well. Assigned trope: Voyeurism *** Or, a chance encounter with a frizzy-haired witch from his misbegotten past in the last place anyone should have expected to see her sets Draco's disordered life on its ear. The path to redemption is truly paved with unexpected surprises. E, 20 Chapters, 110,886 Words

Really Sell It by RoseHarperMaxwell: Draco's having a rough eighth year, and Hermione's going to make it better for him. "Well, it’s clear what needs to happen.” She gripped his chin, tilting his head to make sure she hadn’t missed any injuries, before looking straight into his eyes. “You’re my boyfriend now.” *Featuring fake dating, exhibitionism, and sex-positive Hermione Granger. Submission for Farewell to Summer: The 31 Flavors of Smut Fest. E, 1 Chapters, 7,612 Words

Remain Nameless by HeyJude19: How did it feel? It felt like he was barely holding it together. She, of all people, should shun him. Or yell at him. Curse him. Spit at him. Take out her wand and blast him off the face of the earth. It was crushing guilt and relief and confusion all at once when he looked at Hermione Granger. The monotony of Draco’s daily routine had become both a lifeline and a noose. But this new habit of grabbing coffee with Hermione Granger is quickly becoming a reason to get out of bed and is unfortunately forcing him to re-evaluate his inconsequential existence. Hermione is living her life in fragments, separate pieces scattered about, and she can’t find a way to step back and let the full picture form. Why are morning meetings with Draco Malfoy the only thing that make sense anymore? E, 51 Chapters, 312,315 Words

Remember Us As War (but call us forgiveness) by Anyaparadox: Following the devastation of the Battle of Hogwarts, The Wizarding Population Growth Act is put into effect. All witches and wizards will be matched with their most compatible partner. Failure to comply will not be tolerated. Survival is key. Hermione reminds herself of this. Survival. She can fix this, if only she can survive. The war has made this a task she is equipped for. Marrying Draco Malfoy will hardly be the worst thing she's ever endured. M, WIP

Ring A Ring O' Roses by Gallivant: Dark Magic, Dark Wizards and a mysterious and deadly Dark Flux, which, in the wrong hands, has the terrifying potential to mass-murder Muggles and Muggle-borns ... It’s been fourteen years since the end of the Second Wizarding War and the Wizarding World is settled, stable and seemingly safe… Hermione Weasley has it all: a loving family, a successful career - and happiness… of sorts. But a series of unexpected events is about to turn her life upside-down, threatening those she loves, fatally undermining the peace between worlds that has prevailed for centuries … changing life as she knows it, possibly forever. If working with Draco Malfoy was the last thing Hermione Weasley ever wanted, falling for your enemy was the least expected. A quest to thwart a magical weapon of mass destruction has devastating consequences. A race to save the world, becomes a race to save themselves… M, 65 Chapters, 527,141 Chapters

Set Fire to the Rain by HarleyQuinn1317: What happens when the one you're destined for is the last person you should ever be with... When the Ministry of Magic asks for volunteers for their Marriage Initiative, Hermione Granger must come to terms with the one terrible deed she committed during the Second Wizarding War. Can she find it in her heart to forgive herself and finally learn to let love in? E, WIP

Sex and Occlumency by Graendoll: Hermione didn't escape from the war unscathed, and when she finally decides on a solution to her problems she's left to explore it on her own. A chance encounter with Draco Malfoy sets her world on it's head and leads her down a path towards healing that she would never have anticipated. E, 18 Chapters, 65,079 Words

The Art of Seating Etiquette by inadaze22: Hermione believes that every problem has a solution, and that solution can be found in a book. That is, until Draco starts sitting to her right every Friday. She has no answers until help comes in the form of an unlikely source: Ron Weasley. E, 1 Chapter, 9,734 Words

The Auction by LovesBitca8: In the wake of the Dark Lord’s triumph over Harry Potter, the defeated must learn their new place. Hermione Granger, former Golden Girl, has been captured and reduced to human chattel. Sold to the highest bidder as the top prize at an auction of Order members and sympathizers, she is thrust into the rabid, waiting hands of the Death Eaters. But despite the horrors of Voldemort’s new world, help—and hope—seem to arise from the most unlikely of places. PART 3 of the RIGHTS AND WRONGS series. E, 41 Chapters, 325,702 Words

The Binding by Curly_Kay: “Okay, what we know so far.” Hermione listed, "One, our magic is drawing us together. Two, we can use each other’s wands. Three, there were actual sparks when you touched me."After an infant binding ritual magically joins Hermione and Draco to counteract the Black family blood curse, they must navigate the secret binding through their years together at Hogwarts. E, 35 Chapters, 175,451 Words

The Carnal Club by Ada_P_Rix: COMPLETE The Halloween Ball is fast approaching with Hermione at the helm.... What a delightful time to suddenly learn of a centuries old secret sex-game club that is currently ran by a Blonde haired Slytherin. Oh, and it only happens once a year every October, when the winner takes all at the Halloween Ball ...The First Rule of Carnal Club: You do not talk about Carnal Club. E, 8 Chapters, 43,306 Words

The Disappearances of Draco Malfoy by Speechwriter (batmansymbol): The night that Harry and Dumbledore return from the cave, the Death Eaters are delayed from reaching the top of the Astronomy Tower for one more minute. Draco Malfoy lowers his wand. A Deathly Hallows rewrite in which Draco accepts Dumbledore's offer to fake his death and go into hiding with the Order of the Phoenix. T, WIP

The Erised Effect by Ada_P_Rix: Hermione and Pansy work in a shop together. Draco, Harry, Theo and Blaise all work together at the Ministry. They all meet up every Friday at the pub to have drinks. Pansy has a new fantasy potion that she likes to call 'The Erised Effect' that she's keen to try out on willing participants ... Boys are so easy to manipulate when alcohol is involved .... E, 13 Chapters, 88,852 Words

The Fallout by everythursday: Hermione learns about growing up through the redemption of Draco Malfoy. E, 49 Chapters, 310,229 Words

The Figures of Figuring Out by Vofastudum: You were the biggest riddle in my life. You were the one I couldn't figure out. You were the only thing I couldn't find a pattern to. You were something I couldn't look up from any book. Unwritten, with no instructions. And I was used to finding solutions! Post-war eight-year secret romance. Edited 12/2020 M, 13 Chapters, 26,951 Words

The Flat in Bath by Ada_P_Rix: Loosely inspired by 365 Days...-- Malfoy grabbed her chin, forcing her to look directly at him. “Don’t you dare, Granger...” He told her roughly as his intense gaze bored into her own. “I fucking forbid you to come until I’ve had enough of you...” Draco caught her cheeks now between the fingers of his free hand and then snapped her head to the side and licked her earlobe, trailing down to her jawline. “...one flutter of those delicious walls of yours and you’re going to wish you never opened your legs for me.” -- __________________ Hermione is kidnapped during a raid and taken captive by someone who doesn't plan on 'torturing' her in the conventional way... E, WIP

The Gloriana Set by ThebeMoon: The War is won, and Hermione Granger is back at Hogwarts as an “Eighth Year”, feeling reckless and determined to shed her prim bookworm persona. She will do as she pleases, and anyone who doesn’t like it will see the business end of her wand. Also returning is Draco Malfoy, universally hated but determined to restore his family’s name. Hermione’s hopes for a quiet school year are quickly dashed as she contends with mischievous First Years, killer plants, enchanted hair accessories, a totally inappropriate Moaning Myrtle, renegade Death Eaters, a nice vampire, a poorly named study group, a depraved party, and mysterious, threatening blood messages on the castle walls. We have redemption, partial redemption and (sadly or hilariously) no redemption at all. Throw in a snarky, disturbingly attractive Draco with his own secret agenda, and we have a very slow-burn Dramione with a side of who-dun-it. COMPLETE! M, 81 Chapters, 271,830 Words

The Library of Alexandria by senlinyu: The Library of Alexandria is not for just any witch or wizard. Many bookworms may try but few are permitted to pass through its doors. The books residing there are ancient and powerful and, if one happens to make a mistake, the consequences can be rather—novel. E, 6 Chapters, 26,383 Words

The List by AureliaBlack90: After her divorce, Hermione decides to get out of town to recover from the pain of her lost relationship and the miscarriage she suffered a year previously. She arrives in the Cotswolds depressed and aimless but compiles a list of things to do that she hopes will help her get back on her feet. In the midst of her journey to find healing she keeps running into Draco Malfoy, who is nothing like she remembered him. He invites her into his world, and Hermione finds exactly what she was looking for - in the place she least expected it. E, 10 Chapters, 70,526 Words

The Manuscript by alexandra_emerson: Five 1/2 years after the war, in the middle of a big fight with Draco, Hermione finds a manuscript. It’s a retelling of her and Draco’s love story, written by him. She never realized how much he was struggling before she read his words. Snippet: I could spend my whole life apologizing to you Hermione, and it would never be enough. Post-war, angst-filled Dramione with a happy ending. M, 21 Chapters, 154,918 Words

The Memory of You by PotionChemist: Draco Malfoy and Hermione Granger fell in love against all odds, but there was one big problem — he was already married. Pressured, Hermione does something she promised herself she would never do again and erases their affair from his memory. Completely devastated, she avoids seeing Draco or the Malfoys at all costs. But is their love too strong? Are they inevitable? What will happen if he finds out about their previous relationship? E, WIP

The Mountain and The Sea by AlexisDanaan: Hermione Granger was perfectly happy with her life, her job as a Healer Trainee, her ugly cat and her cute little house in the countryside. And then Draco Malfoy had to go and mess that all up, typical git. Post-Hogwarts, EWE, OOC, creature!fic. E, 12 Chapters, 40,441 Words

The Nietzsche Classes by Beringae: The Ministry takes action against the remaining prejudice in the wizarding society and asks Hermione for help. “What do you want? Money? Power? Name your price, Granger. I’m not about to let pride get in my way when an Azkaban sentence is on the line.” M, 15 Chapters, 45,807 Words

The Phoenix Potion by FedonCiadale: Twenty years after the battle of Hogwarts.... Harry is head auror and is worried about cases where Muggleborn children meet with accidents, Ron is a famous Quidditch keeper. Both haven't talked to Hermione for ages and certainly not to her husband, Draco Malfoy. Narcissa Malfoy struggles with a curse, and Neville and Luna try to stay friends with all. The key to solving the problems may lie in the past, a time nobody really wants to revisit and some can't. T, 111 Chapters, 237,745 Words

The Potioneers by omnenomnom: They need each other unfortunately. Hermione has tricked Draco under her tutelage, arrogant attitude and all. But she would be simple to think he would accept it quietly. They have both have secrets to hide, old wounds better left to fester, and a world full of mermaids, dragons, and magic to explore. T, 53 Chapters, 196,559 Words

The Pretense by Colubrina: Voldemort died, but the Death Eaters live on. Hermione Granger traded herself to Draco Malfoy in exchange for safe passage for core Order members. Now he's pretending to love her, Narcissa is pretending to believe that, and Hermione is walking a tightrope behind enemy lines as she figures out what is going on. Unfortunately, people fall off tightropes. (no non-con) T, 50 Chapters, 108,164 Words

The Right Thing To Do by LovesBitca8: Hermione felt the pounding in her ears again. She would see him for the first time since the Great Hall, gaunt and stricken at the Slytherin table with his mother clutching his arm. She hadn't meant to look for him. Not in the corridors, not beneath the white sheets of the fallen, not on the way to the Chamber of Secrets with Ron, but she was a stupid girl. E, 36 Chapters, 174,911 Words

The Seven Year Witch by TheLastLynx: A boy and a girl have been meeting – coincidentally – for seven summers. While they pretty much hate one another most of the year, for those secret summer moments, they manage to see each other in a different light. But will that be enough to bring them together? A Dramione story about growing up and changing perspective, told along - and in-between - the lines of canon. M, WIP

Thirty Times Lucky by galfoy: "Granger, I can't hire you on any longer," Draco said. Hermione stared at him. Losing her job might actually mean losing the War, and she had to bargain, but there was literally nothing she had that he would want. Or was there? M, 2 Chapters, 7,128 Words

Traditions by raven_maiden: She straddled him slowly, still biting her lip, her hands on his shoulders. He held her hips tightly as he stared up at her. “So beautiful,” he whispered, and she flushed prettily, like she always did from his compliments. “You never need to hide from me.” ** Hermione Granger and Draco Malfoy fell in love during the war. One year later, they're heading home for the holidays so he can finally meet her parents. There's just one teeny little problem: her parents think they're both Muggles. E, 14 Chapters, 68,767 Words

Waifs and Strays by Kyonomiko: War leaves a lot of orphans in its wake. Hermione is one, by her own hand, and she struggles with the realities of her situation. When she finds an orphaned familiar, it seems meant to be, giving and receiving comfort helping to heal her fractured heart. Unfortunately, the animal is actually a wizard, and he has his own issues. M, 31 Chapters, 118,152 Words

What You Think Is Right by icepower55: Six years after the war, Hermione parents are dying and her marriage to Draco is crumbling. Nothing seems logical in her life anymore. Her healer tells her to start writing about it, so she does, as a way to figure things out, and remind herself along the way. Hell is proximity without intimacy -Dante's Inferno M, WIP

When the Bell Tolls by everythursday: As a Dark revival begins to rise four years after the war, Hermione Granger is placed on the assignment of putting an end to them – and her first task is to recruit the Ministry's best hope and last option in the form of Draco Malfoy. E, 20 Chapters, 148,033 Words

Wreck by JMilz: Serving as Minister for Magic, Hermione Granger is finally at the peak of her career. With a beautiful family, a successful book, and the public on her side, her life should be a fairytale. Unfortunately, there is trouble in paradise, and when Draco Malfoy pays her a visit, she begins recalling their history and questioning her marriage. The reality is: every relationship is hard. M, 53 Chapters, 187,992 Words

Thanks to every person who contributed (I hope I've mentioned everyone. If not, let me know. 😊): @certified-arsehole @fedonciadale kiwim22 @really-sad-devil-guy endless-musings @headfullofnargles @pinksunsets-world @rosseliz01 @dramioneden @all-consuming @elricsister @injailoutsoon12 reclusivebird @mariakov81 @notthatchhavi @mordanbooqs @haaatch @hpsassenach @ybaeby @farmgirl-in @coyg-81 @eiramrelyat metterschling-plus-two @a-maidens-fantasy @sansacat @vofastudum @lexayeon @1800-rewrite @aneiria-writes @anonymouslydramione 

It took much longer to compile this list than I thought it would. Hopefully, I didn’t skip anything. 🙈

Happy New Year. May it be better than the previous one and full of great Dramione fics and fanarts! 🥳🥳🥳

And here’s the 2019 list: https://dramioneficrecommendations.tumblr.com/post/190216354767/what-is-the-best-dramione-fic-you-read-in-2019