#an exercise in having fun for meeee

[ishgard]

what if i finally started to write that long form xiv fic alongside ahru's replay what if?????

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Said I would post them eventually, and here they are... my for-fun redesigns of the main Replikas with see in game, Elster and Ariane being the primary focus of course

If you are curious about my general thoughts and on why I did this fun little thing, and my personal criteria doing it, feel free to read below!

Let me just say that I love Signalis to bits. It has a beautiful, heart-wrenching story. But - and this is just my personal opinion, and without any animosity truly - the style of the cutscenes (not the 3D in-game style or the models) is not my cup of tea. It's just my taste. My personal style just cannot accomodate that kind of stylization anymore, and even if I tried I couldn't draw the replikas as they are in game for the life of me. That said it's still a beautiful game. So if I draw more fanart (which is likely), I will probably use these designs.

Analyzing the approach I took when doing these redesigns:

I wanted the Replikas to have a clear correlation between each other, while still being unique in small ways besides hair, body and armor. This resulted in trying to instill diversity in their faces by making their noses reminisce the beaks of the birds they are named after.

All of the replikas, as you may notice, have much more practical hair. No bangs in front of the face anymore. Personally I think Elster, Starling, and Ara units especially should not have bangs - because of the kind of tasks they are committed to by design. It could hinder their efficiency in carrying out their work - so, no bangs for anyone.

I have given them all top surgery (joke). No faux-boobs except the Eule. The reasoning is the same as above: they are simply not practical! The only exception are the Eule, because...

...I am bad at wording things but to me it's because Eule in concept are supposed to evoke also, besides other things, a 'feminine' gender normativity with them being the main workforce of the Nation but also cooks, teachers, etc (jobs that in our real world, for many years, were relegated to 'only women'). This also reflects to how I have given Eule shinier lips, a fuck-ass bob (middle part to evoke the shape owls have) and (optional) eye make-up.

On a cosmetic note, Stars have white hair tips as a way to more directly pay homage to their avian namesake. And it looks cooler (imo).

Storches and Kolibri have eye make-up/"war paint" and they're meant both to evoke a further feeling of authoritarianism and to intimidate other replikas or gestalts into complying with their orders. For Storches I was inspired particularly by the face make-up used in a certain scene in Suspiria (the 2018 Guadagnino reimagining), and not just for cosmetic reasons! Kolibri's are more generally inspired by the hummingbird's actual appearance.

Ara's grease marks are reminiscent of the pattern usually found on macaws' faces! Not all of the Ara's dirt looks this precise, but well, I thought it would be a fun touch.

Noted before in my previous fanart posts but Ariane is decidedly more sickly-looking but with an extra step. While Elster loves Ariane very much no matter how she looks, I think before the ending of the game she still has an 'idealized' version of her in her mind, albeit still a sick-looking one: long haired Ariane. In my idea the further you get to the end of the game, the more Ariane in the flashback flashes looks how she actually is - hairless, with missing teeth, and extremely irradiated.

Are these like, headcanons I think everyone should adopt when drawing replika and/or ariane...Honestly no idgaf... Just do what you want... I just liked coming up with these and wanted to explain my thoughts. Again I love Signalis and regardless what I think or not of the official style of it, love is love. What else is there to say about it. You should draw these fucked up lesbians however the hell you want which includes meeee and I'm exercising the right to do so

Maybe I'll also draw Adler, Falke and Mynah in the future but they're not here because by principle there is not much I would change about their designs. I have a vision for Falke which is not as drastic as these I drew for now. For sure I'll eventually draw my own ideas for the other gestalts in the story, but I'm gonna take a break and go back to OC stuff now 👍

If you read till here you are nuts and I love you. Let's all get ice cream together

[emryses]

ty @queerofthedagger for tagging meeee. big love for u always

As we're finishing out 2024, what is one thing from your writing this year that you're particularly proud of? And what is one fic you wrote that you would recommend for others to read?

i had to sit and percolate for a few days because my brain was like being nice? to myself? pffft. but i'm here now.

i wrote like So much multichapter stuff this year it isn't even funny. i keep forgetting that even though i wrote most of it in 2023, i only started posting my steddie bang (memoria) in january! i'll always be proud of myself for finishing that fic.

i'm also proud of myself for diving into a new fandom, and new characters that are sooo different from what i've been writing in the past couple years. sometimes i don't think i have the dead boys down quite right, but i'm looking forward to next year to exercise that muscle even more.

i feel like i won't stop talking about it, but Suo Gân is absolutely my favourite thing i've written this year (which feels blasphemous because i know i wrote so much fun steddie this year too). i got to have some fun going full headcanon mode which i don't often do, i got to make OCs which i REALLY never do, and i got revisit some old historical interests from my ye olde academic days. Suo Gan feels very Me in a way i don't quite know how to articulate, i also wrote a lot of it while going through Not a Great Time so it feels comforting to me for that reason as well.

tagging @postmodernau @carbonbased000 @babyseraphim @williamvapespeare @idliketobeatree @hartigays

[obsolete-stars-if]

I have finished porting over some presets (it's easier to port them and then test, rather than make the customization part and test the things I want to). And now they're all running around in my mind. They're sextuplets. The MC sextuplets. And I decided to draw them.

(As always up for interpretation, this is in no way the only way to see the presets. As long as u can see urself or ur character in it, that's all that's important.)

It def was a good exercise in all the different types of mcs I want to offer. Not to forget how much fun it was.

If u wanna draw ur own MC or one of the presets (they're still in the old demo besides jezebel), pls pls pls tag meeee. I love seeing any art and I will kiss u through the screen. (Unless u don't like kisses or physical contact, then I will manifest near you and intensely vibrate.)

[koipalm]

20 questions for fic writers

@anorlondo00 u tagging me in this is so funny bc i barely think of myself as a fic writer.. i could be 40 fics in and still be like idk man not really my thing

1) how many works do you have on ao3?

10!

2) what's your total ao3 word count?

60,348 omg...

3) what are your top five fics by kudos?

1. i've been far away 2. the stance of the sea in the absence of green 3. slaves to any semblance of touch 4. rage, rage against the dying of the light 5. night garden

4) what fandoms do you write for?

hades, orv, & one piece mostly... i should really write another immortal days fic

5) do you respond to comments? why or why not?

yesss i went to reread some of my older stuff a little while ago & got so confused why i didnt reply to anything...??? idk! but i love love talking to people and hearing what they think about my fics so yes absolutely it makes my day ^^ come talk to meeee

6) what's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

hmmm... none of my stuff has very hard endings bc i only really tend to write something that id read lol... if anything i think my zagnos one night garden depresses me the most. two guys stuck in a place that hates them and yeah they can kiss about it but nothing is really resolved? damn!! theyre such horribly tragic characters i cant think about the house of hades without getting upset HAHA

7) what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

objectively... maybe don't stare too long? id say running off into the night with your new bf is pretty happy hehe

8) do you get hate on fics?

yupp it doesn't bother me though i just laugh and delete it :] not that serious

9) do you write smut?

nowadays yes my bad guys.... its like all i do now 😔 to be fair though even if its really raunchy (or the age gap is huge lol) i put a ton of thought into how the couple functions and how to balance the relationship. like for the deuceace one... ace was willing and receptive to deuce because hes a pretty reckless thrillseeker BUT also because he trusts deuce not to take it too far or to apologize if he does. explicit stuff is fun to write but its also a fun exercise in doing this for me!

10) do you write crossovers?

i've been far away is the only one so far ^^ im willing to do more but it has to be really clear in my head. creating aus is usually more fun for me!

11) have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of! honestly i might care if someone did that but no real guarantee.. id probably just laugh lol like what possesses someone to do that

12) have you ever had a fic translated?

i've had someone ask before! not sure where id find it tho

13) have you ever cowritten a fic before?

hmmm... best i can say is that i have written mini fics with @pepsiiwho in her dms that she has compiled before so sure! maybe one day we'll put those somewhere

14) what's your all time favorite ship?

oh man im really not sure... there's so many i adore. i will say that liushen from svsss holds a special place in my heart

15) what's the wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

one day i want to go back to rage, rage against the dying of the light... i started that years ago in high school and then so much happened it was really difficult to go back... but i dream of one day completing that fic

16) what are your writing strengths?

im a stickler for grammar if only bc if i write something thats off or misspelled itll break my concentration & its rly hard for me to write like that! aside from that im not really sure. i do love trying to balance exactly how i want readers to picture my scenes tho! i like seeing how little detail i can add that will still create a clear enough picture, like writing a character's left hand holding their glass, so if they use their other hand to pat someone next to them, the reader will probably imagine that person on their right! it matters so little yet means so much to me

17) what are your writing weaknesses?

for some reason every time i write dialogue i feel like im dragging it out for one william years. & then it wont even be that long. also i often catch myself repeating phrases bc they get stuck in my head. & of course everything i write always feels repetitive & redundant but that may also just be the nature of writing

18) thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

im very bad with learning languages so if i do end up doing i try to be deliberate & sparse so im very clear on what im writing & how im using it

19) first fandom you wrote for?

mmm either bnha or fma i think

20) favourite fic you've ever written?

ill admit i had the most fun writing don't stare too long it was just so amusing to me... something so funny about a guy who thinks hes straight being 100% willing to fuck his gay friend & his gay friend whos completely bewildered by this. i rly want to write this dynamic for deuceace again i keep laughing at it

@pepsiiwho @sctir and @trans-yllz i would like to hear it from yewww

[gorematchala]

I've been playing a ton of shit and not talking about it but

Star Ocean 2nd Story (PS1) is already one of my favorite RPGs just like First Departure R was. I'm kinda leaning toward not liking Claude but its probably because I'm playing as Rena so I'm not getting his internal monologue. But based on his intro in the 2nd Story R demo and how he's acting about Dias I'm like youre kinda a dumbass huh. But not in the lovable heroic way Roddick was. But I think its fine if he kinda sucks, there's room for that

Umihara Kawase is another game that is like instantly on my favorites of all time list. I'm on stage 5 and I'm like okay top 3 SNES game. Could be top 1 but Hebereke and Star Ocean are on there too hehe. But its like a physics based grapple platformer and its so cool. I need to go look at the new one again even though its kinda uggy

I bought Mushihime-sama because I'm still trying to expand my shmup horizons but I haven't been on my Switch much because I'm playing Star Ocean 2 and Pokemon Ruby but from the 2 seconds I played it was really good

Kingdom Hearts 358/2 days, I'm giving so much leniency because I want to like Xion and I wanna experience her story. So far I've only done the tutorial with Axel and its a DS game so I dont expect much from it in terms of performance or visuals or whatever, its fine. My problem and why I'm having to exercise patience is that the writing of that series is so frustrating. The idea of that game is flawed. The whole thing exists to make the organization seem lamer. Like the mysterious shadow guys that were a big threat in chain of memories and 2, those guys all get together for meetings where xemnas assigns them busy work and they groan and complain about it even though i always forget theyre supposed to be emotionless. Vexen doing the Nagatoro crazy eyes all the time doesnt come off as hollow to me. It just makes me mad because its like FF7 where it could be great but a man named Tetsuya Nomura was handed a pen and paper and now we're here. But I will do it for her

I played 20 minutes of Izuna Legend of the Unemployed Ninja and I basically did the intro and then died to the 3rd enemy in the first floor of the dungeon but that game shouldve been more popular. It's really good but unfortunately it released on the same system as Pokémon Mystery Dungeon. Izuna sucks so bad I love her. The first thing she does is go to a shrine that says "this gem keeps the gods from being mad at us do not touch" and shes like hehehe all for meeee. Then the inn keeper is like I'm charging you 300x the rent till you fix this and shes like "we cant afford that, I will pay it... with my life" and she takes out a matchlock pistol and puts it to her head, and the inn lady is like yeah alright do it, and then you hear a click noise and Izuna is like damn out of bullets. I was like this is an insane way to introduce this character but shes my fail girl and we're gonna solve this curse together

The other fun thing has been playing Dark Souls 1 with my brother alongside his co-op playthrough of Smellden Ring with his partner, cuz DS1 is a good game and Smellden Ring is so bad that he has fully admitted I was right when i was bitching like a year ago or whatever. Cuz he took faith this time and now that theyve hit the wall of Mohg and Malenia hes like why the fuck is everything in this fucking game INT. And I'm like yeah dude, idk!!! But then like, we just did Sen's Fortress in DS1 and that place is so mean and fucked up but I was having a chill time just walking through all the traps and snake men and kicking my feets under the desk. DS1 is fully relaxing to me just like Bloodborne and most of DS3. Next time we play is O&S though so I'll get back 2 u on that statement

[yamithediaperdork]

A wild baby appears! (pokemon)

Gary Oak signed in annoyance as he wanted in the woods. here he was, the mother fucking best trainer the world had ever seen (at least in his own mind) and he was waiting after midnight for a meet up just outside of viridian city. Normally he wouldn't of been caught dead outside this late at night, not with the league coming up and having put himself on a strict regiment of exercise, training and sleep, but he'd received a note from a secret admirer who had promised to make it worth his while if he met them at this time, in the woods. and now whoever the fuck it was suppose to be was running late. "I swear to god, if I wasn't so blue balled.." He muttered to himself, keeping his light up watch again and giving it anther five minutes TOPS before he took off. "M-maybe I can help with that.." Came a voice. Gary turned to face the voice, already recognizing it as belonging to ash ketchum, his wanna be rival. The dork was in the shadows so Gary couldn't make him out, but he still gave a grunt of annoyance. "Ok dork, whatever. I don't really swing that way but glad to have it confirmed you've been hanging off of..of.." Gary said but then ash stepped into the moonlight. He heard what ash was wearing before he saw it, and couldn't believe his ears at first but then as Ash was illuminated in the pale moonlight his eyes confirmed it. Ash was dressed in massive diapers, to the point the boy was waddling like a baby learning to walk and was bare foot (which explained WHY it had taken him a bit longer then expected to make it to the meet up.) The diapered were pikachu yellow for the most part, with orangeish red tapes and as to be expected little chibi pikachu's running around  and playing for the designs on the padding. aside from the diapers, the only other thing that Ash had worn out to the woods was a massive pikachu print yellow bonnet, with a ribbon under it tied in a cute bow. Looking at the way ash was dressed, one would of expected for Gary to burst out laughing and start mocking the other trainer, but the thing of it all was Gary had a deep down fetish for diaper wearing beta boys. and Ash was checking off all his wants and more. "S-So what do you think? A-Am I cute?" Ash coo'ed, wiggling his hips and crinkling loudly, and the tip of his right index finger on his bottom lip. "I..I Uh..I.." Gary said, blushing and in the moon light Ash could make it out and smiled. "hehehe I knew it!" Ash giggled and clapped his hands and switched to a seductive smile, then kissed his right palm and blew a kiss over to Gary and winked. "Mwah~" Much like a pokemon being hit with attract, the effect was instant and super effective as Gary got little hearts in his eyes. Still this was ASH, his rival and childhood friend and not one of those random twinks he'd meet on the road and have some fun with. shaking his head Gary tried to find the willpower to resist. "Hehehe I can see your trying to fight it, but it's no use daddy~" Ash said and waddled over, a huge predators grin on his face. "I've got you locked in my sights and your NOT getting free! We both know despite your earlier claim your barn door at least swings both ways, though from what Daisy told me it really prefers cute widdle guys like meeee~" Gary gulped and squirmed, frozen in place as Ash came in close and then put his arms on Gary's shoulders and around his neck, then licked his cheek. 'I should of NEVER told Daisy about this!' Gary whimpered mentally, while at the same time also thinking. 'But hot damn, If she's the one who filled in ash I owe her a huge thank you gift.' "A-Ash..I..Look.." Gary said, willing himself to come under control and taking a firm hold on ash's arms. "yes daddy?" ash asked. "I..I need to know if you actually like..um..dressing up like this or if your just doing it because you like me." Gary said. As cute as ash was, he wasn't gonna make anyone dress up JUST for him, he had standards after all. "pfft, silly daddy. I'm a total diaper wearing beta dork. Sooo even if you don't wanna play with the baby, I'll still be rocking huggies." Ash giggled and then darted in, smooching Gary's cheek. "That said..Richie is too vanilla for this, Brock is too big brother and won't play fun games, and Snap just wants to take pictures. I never even thought you'd of been into this till Daisy caught me in my diapies and spilled the beans on you. I've always like liked you~" "..W-Well I mean..I've always kinda liked you too, but your always so stubborn and stuff..I never even thought you'd of um.." "turned out to be a bigggg baby just waiting for the perfect daddy to keep me small and helpless forever?" ash giggled and kissed Gary's other cheek. "Yeah..that. heh.. You know if we do this..I'm gonna wanna keep you with me.. we can still travel around and challenge gyms but you'll always be in diapers and always be daddies little boy right?" Gary said, pulling ash into a hug now and kissing his forehead. "Ehehehe threaten ME with a good time." Ash coo'ed and winked. and so the battle was over so to speak. a wild baby had appeared in the woods and to this day it's hard to argue exactly who captured who. Gary would be a loving and dotting daddy to his widdle ashy but wasn't scared to lay down the law when needed, but on the other hand Ash had Gary wrapped around his little finger.

The end

[boct-kimerakal]

well i’ll be. a repost... from MEEEE? actually, this was intended as a discord message in reply... but i think i just got too into typing it over here and then i got too lazy to transcribe this over to discord. because i’m actually secretly a CAT and we’re anecdotally LAZY. PLUS. i SUUUUPPOOOOSE there’s also no pressure to ever reply if i put it on here for you to just read first! since OC yappage can tucker a guy (ghost) out... if you ever see this that is. i’ll likely NEVER do this again because of course i’ve got an air of mystery to maintain, but for now you get a little interview sesh since i’m FUELLED BY GREEN TEA.

first. can i just say actually. with a twirl of my hair even. that a society of faun goths is something so extremely whimsical i’d have never ever thunk it.

ANYWAYS. these were the thoughts i was too GROGGY to convey to you THIS MORNING!! again. the back and forth compounding of guilt insecurities captivates me and i said it earlier but i really like how you set it up, it’s so TERRIBLE AND INTRICATE. i like that it feels like light is danger but dark is safety but that that was also born from more of the danger side of associations of danger/safety. and that that gets FLIPPED by meeting finlay. in a way that is so profound it must simply mean something definitive. if that makes any sense....

AND.. MAY I.. ASK QUESTIONS TOO.. WELL I SUPPOSE THIS ISN’T A DIALOGUE! I’M ASKING THEM! you don’t have to answer them of course! they can be fun thought exercises for you. even though you’ve probably thought of them already... oh whatevs, it’s just that i’m a curious little cat and one of my faaavourite things to do is ask questions. questions as bold as:

is there a particular reason why faust has always wanted children and, if there is, does it affect how he views silas and silas’ upbringing?

and the teeth thing makes me feel something actually. by the way oh my GOSH will you come up with anything for what he could wind up looking like?

ohhh, would he fearfully imagine what he could wind up looking like based on his features at present? see the shadow of a monster in the woods and fear it could be him? pre-teen silas seems like a dreeeeaamer, who’s never had a dreeeeaam. nightmares abounding and what not..

alsoooo, faust’s position? he can’t give it up? what’s that about..

& fake antler accessories.. is that a normal faun accessory or does he need to make those / get those made... would he model them after faust’s or create his own unique shape..

if he starts to PREFER darker clothes does that mean he liked lighter clothes before.. am i reading this wrong.. or was he just neutral and then a preference came about..

i don’t want to ask tooooo many of course, so i’ll leave you to it now.. not to forgot to mention, you’re having such a LOVELY CONCEPTY TIME!! i’m not snoopin for definitive answers.. i just loooove spitballin

i SHOULD mention the way you’ve described in detail his design and your process has COMPLETELY ENAMOURED ME. i’ve never been so deliberate about the designs of my characters ever and seeing such a structured thought process on character design is SOOOO COOOL!!

sorry for being annoooooying :3 forgive me also if you DID say something and for WHATEVER REASON my reading comprehension totally failed to grasp it. i guess in that case i DO fail to COMPREHEND YOUR VAST AWESOMENESS!! unfortunately this is the fate of everyone who’s had the misfortune of knowing me. :3 hehehe. i skip n’ dance away. gootbye spectralstitions on tumblr

Part 2 of my Silas design ramble post! This one gets more into the relationship Silas has with how he looks & his relationship with another important character...

That's right bitches it's CHILD SILAS!!!!!!! Oughghhu he is so little and soft I just want to pet his big ol ears and THROW HIM AROUND. These are drawn in order of toddler -> kid -> preteen -> mid-teens. I have SOOOO many different possible ideas floating around for Silas's upbringing so I'm going to TRY to be a little vague for the sake of not writing a massive amount. But I DO know that the name of Silas' caretaker is Faustus Rose, or Faust for short. So VAGUELY what I'm thinking is that Faust wants a kid so very desperately and Silas is like an answer to his prayers. But he ends up feeling very guilty about Silas for the rest of his life, thinking the fact he wanted this kid so bad makes him to blame for how hard his life ends up being. Yeah as you will soon see, Faust has all the constitution of a wet noodle and he's kinda just pathetic about everything.

The name "Silas" means "of the forest", and I think it's a name Faust would have chosen very intentionally. Like a prayer of some kind to have him turn out like any normal commonfolk kid. And although Faust is smitten with Silas and doesn't care that he's more or less raising an imp, A LOT OF OTHER PEOPLE CARE. THEY CARE A LOT. The rest of his community has a very "what the actual hell is that burn it with fire now" attitude towards Silas. Well, once they find out about him, anyways. Faust is very secretive about him, but it becomes increasingly more difficult to hide an entire person as that person gets bigger and more curious about the world.

I dressed little baby in Silas in white because 1. my fauns historically lived in very deep dark woods with very little sunlight and dressing in dark colors meant camouflage from bad scary things. and 2. fauns love upholding traditions. So combining those two lore bits means fauns still wear all blacks and dark colors to this day and are basically not so subtly an entire civilization of goths. White and brighter colors in general are more associated with being easier to spot by dangerous things, so if I went with my idea of Silas being abandoned by his bio mother, it'd make sense that she'd have wrapped him in white to attract something to eat him.

In childhood, Silas' tail grows longer, but the appearance of his buttons makes Faust hopeful that Silas will at least grow antlers and that maybe he'll grow up to resemble fauns well enough to fit in with his peers mostly okay. It's a small bit of relief for him. Silas also comes into his very cheery, sweet, and curious nature, and so they have a couple of fun and hopeful years together. Silas does start to hear a few fucked up things firsthand, though it causes confusion more than anything as he's not quite self-aware enough to understand that he looks different from the people around him. And OOUUGHH I think when Silas first notices his buttons he gets SOOO excited and is always yapping about how excited he is to grow antlers just like Faust.

Eventually though Silas stars interacting with non-Faustus fauns out in the real world (He probably sneaks out to be real) and oh it does not go so well. By kids his own age, he's relentlessly and violently bullied, with a particular incident where his tail nearly gets cut off. And by adults he's treated like an actual freak and always assumed the worst of (picturing him trying to give someone a thing they dropped and they immediately assume he's a thief). It starts fucking him up real fast. Faust really pushes to have Silas stay indoors as much as possible and homeschools him as a part of this, but once the cat is let out of the bag so to speak they can't really fully go back to how things were.

Silas becomes uber-shy to the point of selective mutism for a few years and is pretty much guaranteed to be constantly scared and miserable unless he's with Faust which I'm sure does not establish any sort of alarming pattern of behavior at all. Faust's solution to Silas' problems is never to move away (he can't do that! he can't give up his position! *shoots him*) and it isn't to build up his self confidence. Instead he tries to help Silas find "solutions" to hide everything he doesn't like about himself and what he gets bullied for. That's most clearly seen in the fourth drawing, with the gloves and fake antler accessories (and his developing eye marks are covered by makeup). Oouughhh Like. Silas starting to freak out that some of his teeth are growing into fangs and becoming utterly hysterical over it, and Faust's response is "Oh no my sweet darling innocent baby angel this is so horrible and awful Oh this is so unfair. Don't worry my love I will teach you how to smile and talk without showing your teeth. Maybe we can even shave them down!" and OUUGHHHH THE ANGST OF "Is this happening to me because I'm a bad kid" and Faust getting speared through the heart LOL.

Silas also starts to prefer darker clothes and cloaks, partially because of the safety he feels in hiding and partially because it's more in line with typical faun fashion.

Once Silas starts noticing how different he looks from the people around him and how other people regard him, every single new development just completely shatters him and he considers the way he looks to be moral failing on his part. He's terrified of his own body -- Especially considering he has no reference point for what he's going to end up looking like. Eventually he just avoids looking at himself entirely. And Faust although very loving is also so soft and useless that he spends all those years kinda just reinforcing all of Silas's insecurities and feeling guilty without actually doing anything to help him.

Finlay coming into his life, not giving a second thought as to how he looks and describing to him a gigantic world out there full of people who look ten times weirder than he does, is the little thing that in the long run ends up turning his life around lol. Finlay is the first person he talks to outside of his own bubble and he quickly becomes obsessed with the notion of going on adventures around the world with people who are kind to him and maybe even finding other people who look like him. The reality of it ends up not being so black and white, but his belief that it IS is the only thing that keeps him going and gives him hope for the future. Even though it causes a lot more trouble down the line....

WELL. HOPE YOU ENJOYED MY SILAS RAMBLE. Writing this made me realize I have like ten thousand ideas for what his childhood could look like and I think I need to spend some time pouring over a google doc and dumping every last thought I have about him.

[faerielleart]

Your les mis!levihan stuff gives me life 😭😭😭 Any chance we can get some more headcanons??? 🖐️

ANON MY CHILD YOU’VE COME TO THE RIGHT PLACE also this is like . Probably really niche so forgive me oomfies for getting really specific about thIS

uhmmm let’s see, i’m trying to imagine the vets’ voices and associating them to the actual stage actors

for erwin i imagine him sounding a lot like either bradley jaden or daniel diges from the spanish adaptation, just a really really powerful voice that makes buildings shake ✨ and recently i’ve found out that john owen jones understudied enjolras back in 1997 and i’ve listened to the audio and i loVE IT so yeah lemme throw a bit of JOJ voice in there as well; and yeah since he’s got the range he’s totally going for the optional high note in “let others rise to take our place until the earth is FREEEE”. for his mannerisms i feel like he’d do his homework and he’d try to emulate book!enjolras more than the usual direction the show takes with this character. i imagine erwin’s fav moment in the play would be getting to “scold” marius-levi for being distracted by his love for hanji-cosette. like i just see him really exaggerating the “MARIUS YOU’RE NO LONGER A CHILD” in red and black during rehearsals and idk the thought gives me life lmaooo also in drink with me he’d totally go for a hug with mike who plays grantaire (erumike stans make some noise), as anton zetterholm used to do back in 2013/14 and in general would be really touchy with all the students on the barricade. he Loves the red and gold vest, absolutely hates the paris outfit. he is so tall and wearing the all black suit he feels like he looks like a penguin. also HATES being in the ensemble playing a convict during the prologue bc the fake dirt is really hard to wash off and he doesn’t want to stain the pristine white shirt he wears as enjolras

for levi it’s a bit harder to find a voice that suits him as the play tends to cast tenors for marius and levi is clearly a baritone in this au so i’m going with classic michael ball, who might be the marius with the deepest voice i’ve heard among all, with definitely less vibrato and definitely less less less less polished vocals as in my au dude has never taken singing lessons. i feel like he’d absolutely loathe having to sing “in my life/a heart full of love” at first bc come on can you imagine levi singing shit like “IN MY LIIIIFE SHE HAS BURST LIKE THE MUSIC OF ANGELS, THE LIGHT OF THE SUUUUN” SKDJDKSMSKAHSH but yk after spending more and more time with hanji mf actually starts to enjoy it 😳 but his favourite scene to play i guess would be drink with me, bc it gives him a weird sense of nostalgia and deja-vu that he really can’t explain to himself but it’s a pleasant feeling. would probably dread having to sing empty chairs at empty tables bc it’s nerve-wracking for him as it’s a bit out of his range and doesn’t want to make a fool of himself in front of the audience if he fails the high notes on “the very WOOORDS that they had sung BECAAAME their last communion” and “oh my friends my FRIEEENDS DON’T ASK MEEEE” but he’d emote really well nonetheless even with unpolished vocals good job bby we’re all proud of you!! also hanji totally helps him out with vocal exercises. refuses playing a convict in the ensemble and gets yelled at by the directors for it but there’s no way in hell he’s smearing fake dirt all over his body. he loves the paris suit tho makes him feel ✨classy✨. doesn’t roll up his sleeves at the barricade bc he feels like an idiot

for hanji WELL i see her voice being similar to katie hall, with a really giddy and carefree take on cosette and a strong tone that’s never screechy; compared to many cosettes i feel like katie has a much less soft voice and is actually really loud? as if playing christine in phantom of the opera (IF YOU CAN’T TELL KATIE IS MY FAV COSETTE AND MY FAV CHRISTINE so of course imma assign her to hanjo). cosette is a soprano role and i imagine hanji as a mezzo with an amazingly developed upper range and head voice (thank you @ hanji’s parents for all those classical singing lessons). also katie has a really nice belt and her fantine has me scream and cry so yeah that’s hanji’s voice in my head, just imagine it a lil bit deeper! hanji’s fav scene would probably be the wedding bc of the thenardiers acting goofy, and her fav song to sing would be a heart full of love just bc she gets to witness levi acting bashful while singing “cosette, i don’t know what to say” and she answers “then make no sound” with the biggest shit eating grin EVER and levi wants to say “stop making fun of me four eyes” SO BAD but he can’t bc he’d mess up the scene and they’d have to start again and he’s not sure he can handle staring lovingly into hanji’s eyes and holding hands and oops maybe at some point the whole “falling in love” thing stops being an act 🤡 what a clown he is,,,,,,, ALSO hanji probably loves being an ensemble member in the the lovely ladies scene as well bc of the bright exaggerated make up?? and all the dirt like she has so much fun in the dressing room smearing the paint all over her body and then putting on white powder and smudged red lipstick and bright red unblended blush. loves the combo corset + pants in the scene

also can i just say that the abc cafe is pretty much everyone’s fav scene bc they get away with teasing the shit out of levi without risking their lives lmao

[toomanysurveys9]

A Art: When was the last time you painted something? I don’t even remember. Adventure: When was the last time you really felt alive, and what were you doing? Family vacation to TN with the family this past Memorial day weekend. It was a nice break from the “real” world. Allergies: What is one thing that you are allergic to? Grass. It fucking sucks. Answers: What is one question you would like an answer to? Why me? Age: What has been your favorite age so far? As much as I don’t like getting older... I love being a mom. So now.

B What month is your birthday? September. I’m 28 this year. Have you ever played house inside a big box? Probably. Are you boisterous? Definitely not. Have you ever dated a bad boy? Kind of, I guess.  Name one thing you like that is blue: Blue moon ice cream. C Cinnamon–yay or nay? Usually I enjoy it.

Chocolate: do you love it? I have to be in the mood for it. Name one favorite type of candy. Lately I’ve been craving skittles and gummy candies. Children: Name one favorite thing to do with kids while babysitting. Movie night with drinks and snacks! Carefree: Are you carefree? Definitey not. D When was the last time you danced like no one was watching? A few weeks ago with the kiddos. Do you daydream? I do. Dreams: What is one of your dreams? Have my own marriage and family therapy practice.. What is one thing you are currently dreading? My ultrasound tomorrow. I’m SOO excited but I am also dreading it because I’m always afraid they’re going to say my baby is gone.. Even though I can feel her move now. It still scares me. Or that they will tell me something is wrong with my baby. Name something delicious. Smoothies. E Would you ride an elephant if given the opportunity? I have once when I was younger and my mom took my siblings and I to the circus. Do you live life on the edge? I don’t think so. Name something you like to eat: These days.. watermelon. Do you believe in everlasting life? No. I wish. But no. Name something that comes easy to you. Being a mom.. usually. F Name a fragrance you like. There are several from Bath and Body!  Are you a free spirit? I don’t think so, no. Are you fickle? No. Are you hiding your feelings from someone? I mean.. maybe. Name one flavor you like. Hm. Caramel. G Are you gentle? Yeah. I think so. Are you generous? I try to be.. but I could probably do better. Name something green. Cucumber. Name a famous giant. The Iron Giant! Are you a girl? I am. H Are you generally a happy person? I’m happier now than I used to be. The days I want to go back to self-injury are further between each other. Do you honor the holiness of the day? No. Do you believe in Heaven? No. I wish. Name one thing you are hoping for. Our ultrasound to go well tomorrow. Name one thing you hate. Not having our own house even though it’s our house. I Imagination: Write the name of one of your imaginary friends from when you. were younger. Pebbles. From the Flintstones.  Issues: Name one magazine you subscribe to, if there is any. Family Therapy Magazine. Internet: Name one website you visit often. Facebook and my school website. Itinerary: List one place you would like to visit. Italy. Interest: Name one thing that interests you. Marriage and family therapy.  J Are you joyful? Eh. I dont’ know about joyful. When was the last time you were filled with joy? Watching my kids have fun when we went to the pool last Friday. Can you jump high? No. Name one girl’s name that starts with a J that you like. Jenna. Name one boy’s name that starts with a J that you like. Jacob. K Have you ever been kissed? Yup. Have you ever feared that you would be killed? Something like that. Are you kind? I try to be.

Who is your kindred spirit? I don’t know.

Name one thing you liked as a kid. Playing house with my sister. L Do you love someone? Yes. My kids. Jacob. The rest of my family. My friends. Do you live out loud? I don’t think so. I feel like I live pretty quietly compared to others. Also. This question made me think of my boss/the owner of the company I work for because her Facebook bio thing says something about coming to live out loud. Do you read food labels? Occasionally. Name something local that you like. Our local ice cream place!

List one thing you like to do at the lake. Swim. M Do you like… monkeys music musicals mansions miracles N Do you want something…. new nice neat never-before-seen nature-inspired O How old are you? 27. What is the last great opportunity you missed? I missed a deadline for joining this group I wanted to. Hopefully I get an invite again next year. Name one thing you like that’s orange (besides oranges). Orange sherbet. Are you open? Not so much in person. Name something odd. My cat, Arlo. Lol. He’s the best though. P Are you… patient perky pale peaceful passionate Q Do you own a… quilt quail queen-size bed quill pen book of questions R Do you like to… run rave riddle rhyme rap S Are you ever… shy sensitive secretive sure stable T Are you… ticklish trouble tall thankful tactful U Have you ever… ridden a unicyle used an umbrella visited an uncle been undecided played a ukelele V Do you own a… violin vehicle violet dress vampire cape veil for a wedding dress W What is something you wish for? Cures for so many illnesses. Wonder: When was the last time you opened your eyes in wonder? I don’t know. Name five words you like. I’m too tired to think that much. What is something you wonder? Why they picked me. Name someone who thinks you are worthless. MEEEE. X Have you ever… played a xylophone had an x-ray enjoyed exercise had excision surgery been excluded Y Are you young? I’m 27. So ish. Are you youthful? I guess so. Did you have a big yard growing up? Not really. But it was enough for us. What did you do yesterday? I worked. Came home. Took care of my kids and my parents kids. Took care of Jacob because he wasn’t feeling well like I haven’t been. Do you like yams? I’m not sure I have had them but just the name makes me not want to. Z Zeal: What are you passionate about? Mental health. Which is hilarious considering my own. Zing: Do you like raspberry lemonade? I do! What’s your favorite zoo animal? Monkeys. All the monkeys. Do you own anything from Zales? My wedding ring set... that has now been lost. List a name that starts with a Z. Zelda.

[multiplesmutthings]

Yang has been teasing and prodding Jaune for months now, wanting to take the Blonde's eyes off her sister. Unfortunately, she never accounted for how pent up Jaune would get, the dam breaking when Yang interrupts his training at the gym. Having had enough, Jaune barges into the female shower, determined to mak Yang regret her actions. (Rough, rape, hair pulling, forced orgasms, slight mind break)

(With help from @vecnawrites thank you very much!)

Ever since she found out he had googly eyes for her sister, yang couldn’t stop herself from teasing and prodding Jaune, wanting to keep her sister away from him a bit longer. She knew ruby was growing up but Yang wanted her to stay a kid a bit longer. However as she teased the Arc she never knew about the beasts she was creating. Even as she went to the training gem alone to get a workout done. Jaune was going through the motions, attempting to keep himself calm with the burn of exercise. Ruby had recently confessed to him, blushing darkly, and he accepted. They were currently figuring things out, but one thing was sure: Ruby wasn't ready for sex, instead saying it was ‘okay’ for him to fuck others, as long as he came back to her. He was shocked, but thankful, his semblance worked passively internally with his own Aura, making everything improve and heighten, including his libido...however, with every sunny day, there was always a rain cloud, and that cloud was Yang. She did everything she could to keep them from spending time together when they had downtime, and even *Ruby* was getting annoyed with her over it. Yang was currently minding her own business this time, going into the gym with her tight leggings and tank top. MP3 in hand as her ear buds were on. She didn’t notice Jaune not the way he looked at her as she began to do some squats. She’d eventually tease him today, but she didn’t know she already was, with the way her ass showed off to him each time she did a squat. Jaune ground his teeth together, watching Yang's ass bounce and jiggle as she worked out. Not as bountiful as Blake's ass or as perky as Weiss' or Nora's, and *especially* not Ruby's, but it was still nice. He could feel his cock growing hard, sliding down the leg of his exercise shorts. He refocused on his exercising, not wanting to give his fellow blonde another reason to tease him. He was reaching his limit. Yang felt herself being watched, but ignored it and kept going, once she moved and she did some stretches her leggings hugged against where legs and ass more than ever, giving off the nice shape and figure she had as she teased Jaune indirectly. Jaune switched to push ups as his cock stretched down his inner leg to it's full length. His size was part of the reason that Ruby wanted to wait, after all, a ten inch, wrist thick cock wasn't something to laugh at...he only got harder when it became obvious from the jiggle that Yang wasn't wearing a bra of any sort, catching a protruding nub of a nipple as well as she twisted and stretched herself. If she teased him *one* more time, he would not be held responsible for his actions...

When yang finished her stretches she groaned and sighed while moving her hips a bit. “Damn Im good.” She said slapping her ass nicely in front of a mirror. Loving the shape she had, it was no question that she worked to get strong, and she liked it. Besides an added bonus to teasing Jaune as well. Jaune caught the action, but was unimpressed. Ruby had done the same thing to him to tease him in those tiny things she *dared* call "workout shorts"...and he had subsequently pinned her to the wall and made out with her...as well as give her her first orgasm by accident due to her grinding against his leg. Looking back she noticed Jaune and then noticed the lack of attention she gave her. Smirking Yang still noticed the erection growing in Jaune’s pants and began to rub her tits to ‘adjust’ her top a bit more in front of him. Jaune scoffed under his breath. Yeah, her tits were large, the largest of those he travelled with, but considering he flirted with Weiss and was dating Ruby, hadn't he proved he liked them a bit smaller?...it didn't mean that he wouldn't love to get his hands on them, though. He wasn't stupid. Yang then pushed her hair into a pony tail before moving past him and spoke. “Hey careful Vomit boy, if Ruby gets a glimpse at your short sword she might blush.” She mocked as she took notice of the large bulge in his pants and tried to make fun of it before she went off to the showers. Jaune stilled, fighting his anger, before he took a deep breath as he heard the shower starting...before standing, his cock sticking out and pulling his shorts away from his body as he moved towards the shower. He was horny, and how very...*kind*...of Yang to "volunteer" to sate his libido. Yang was cleaning her body in the showers. Her workout was nice and as a bonus she even teased Jaune. It counted as a win for her, as she cleaned her body she didn’t notice anyone like Jaune enter the showers as she was fully naked and oblivious. Stripping himself naked, Jaune licked his lips as he looked over Yang's naked, glistening body under the hot water. As much of a bitch she could be, she was hot. Walking up slowly behind her, he grabbed her and ground his cock between her ass cheeks, enjoying the squeal of shock he received. “Ahh! J-Jaune?!” She looked back and gasped as she felt something thick and long between her assheeks and she realized what he was doing. “W-Wait Jaune stop! I don’t know what your trying but if you don’t get off me I’l-AH!” She felt his cock rubbing between her asscheeks more.

Jaune chuckled as he reached around and palmed one of her heavy breasts, pinching and tweaking the erect nipple. His other hand came down and cupped her core. He snorted. "*REALLY?*" he asked, trailing his fingers over her soaking folds. "Just a little bit of teasing me, and you're *this* soaked? You truly *are* a slut, aren't you?" he asked.

“Nnngh Ahhh!” She felt him tweak her nipples, making her gasp and moan out involuntarily as she panted and tried to move her body against his but no luck in getting him off. “N-No I’m not! So... nnngh.. let go of me...” she said with her cheeks bright red and her pussy getting wet as something other than water dropped down her thighs.

Slipping one, two, three fingers into Yang easily, Jaune snorted again. "With how easily you're swallowing my fingers? I'm pretty sure I could shove my *fist* in you without trouble..." he chuckled, feeling her walls squeeze around his fingers and her legs tremble. "Did you just *cum*, you slut? *Wow*..."

“Nnngh... be quiet.... just pull your fingers out and go.. before I... I...” Yang felt so helpless. Her pussy already gushing with arousal as she came. Her hips bucking a bit she felt her Pussy clenching down on Jaune’s digits.

Jaune laughed. "No, I don't think I will, slut." he pressed his thumb on Yang's clit and rotated it, getting a squeak and loud moan from the blond in his arms. "You must be the Beacon Bicycle being *this* sensitive? Tell me, how many men, women, or *both* have had you in this position?"

“Nnnaaagh~! No... I haven’t... no. I haven’t even... nnnghaajhhh~!” The feeling of Jaune’s thumb pressing against her clit was enough to make Yang cum and squirt all over Jaune’s fingers. She moaned out loudly as she did, leaning back against him.

"You haven't even what? Been gangbanged by every boy in the year yet?" Jaune asked, his other hand abandoning Yang's breast to grab her lush blonde locks and *tug* on them, yanking her head back. Instead of anger, which he was expecting, he got rolled back violet eyes and a loud, slutty moan. Brow furrowing in thought, he moved his index finger and thumb to circle her clit for a moment...before squeezing. "Oh my *Gods*...not only are you a slut, you're a masochistic one, too!" he said as Yang cried out, pussy squirting hard enough to hit the shower wall before them.

“Ahhhhh! Jaune! Let gooo~!” She wailed out in pleasure as she felt him pull her hair back moaning. Her cheeks were bright red as she felt so embarrassed, being reduced to a cumming puddle as Jaune caused her orgasms. “I-I... I’m not.. aaaa slut~!” She could help but yelp as her clit was circled by his index finger and thumb.

Jaune laughed, tugging her hair harder, enjoying the sight of her breasts rapidly bouncing from how hard and fast she was breathing. "That's what *all* sluts say, Yang! But don't worry, I'm more than happy to accommodate *every single one* of your slutty holes with my cock..." quickly shifting himself, he lightly knocked Yang's leg, making her fall back onto his cock, her pussy making a loud *SLICKT* noise as it swallowed his cock to the base with no difficulty.

“N-No Jaune wa-AIIIIT!” Yang screamed out in the showers as she felt back into his cock. Yelling out as she felt it slip into her pussy entirely. She gasped out with wide eyes as she looked down to see a slight bulge in her abdomen and a bit of blood running by the water from her pussy. She gasped and sputtered as she shook in his grip. Moaning out as Jaune pulled her hair and groaning as she felt it enter her womb. Jaune didn't hesitate a moment, one hand yanking Yang's hair, the fingers of the other roughly pinching and rolling her clit as he moved his hips with focus, feeling his tip slam into her womb, her walls rippling around him in what he recognized as another orgasm. God, he was going to make it so this slut couldn't *live* without his cock! “Guh! J-Jaune... waiaitz.... your brealing meeee~!” Yang said crying out as she felt her pussy being fucked and railed by his cock, her hair being roughly pulled and the feeling of he clit made her cum, even if she didn’t want to. Her voice was coming out and her breaths ragged with each orgasm she had.

"As often as I'm sure you've done this, I doubt I'm breaking you." Jaune felt her clench tightly around him, milking him of his cum. "Here cums your first load, Yang!" he groaned, pressing his hips flush to Yang's ass as he unloaded into her pussy.

“N-No Jaaaauuuunnnee~!” She felt his hot load fill up her pussy and womb, making her gasp out as she went limp in his arms. Speaking incoherently as she was just raped and creampied by the guy she wanted to get away from her sister. As she did go limp she fell out of his hands and fell to the floor panting with her ass in the air as her gaped pussy was oozing out Jaune’s cum along with some red from her hymen being broken by his cock and her tougue stuck out form her mouth, panting as she tried getting up.

Yang's heart shaped ass was upturned towards him, her pussy oozing a mix of his and her cum out of it. Above that, was the untouched pucker of her ass being offered. "Why, thank you, slut...don't mind if I do!" Jaune grabbed Yang's ass and spread it apart, pressing the slick head of his cock to it. With a quick snap of his hips, he slipped into Yang's backdoor, reaching halfway before he met any resistance. "Wow, such a slut...even *BLAKE'S* ass made me work to get in!" granted, he hadn't had sex with Blake, but then Yang didn't need to know that, now did she?

“AHHHH~! Nnngh.. Jau.... Ju....” she couldn’t even say his name right as her toes curled and her hands were flat against the floor as she tried to get up but the feeling of his cock going deep into her ass made her lay back down against the wet floor panting like a slut as Jaune’s cock went deeper in.

Jaune laughed as he began to saw in and out, spanking Yang's ass hard, loving the wobble of the creamy flesh, which was swiftly turning red the more he slapped it. "Admit it, your body was made to take cock! It's all it's made for!"

“Ah! Nnngh Ah~ Jaune... slow... doooen~” she couldn’t even say words right as she felt him thrusting deep into her ass. Stretching her unused hole more as she stuck her tongue out and her eyes crossed from the sheer pleasure and pain she was received.

Yanking on her hair more, Jaune grinned. "What was that? Go *faster*? Okay, just for you!" Jaune thrust harder and faster, his hips slapping into Yang's backside, the loud *cracks* filling the showers, his free hand slipping around and between her thighs, rubbing, pinching, and twisting her clit again.

“Nnngaaaaggg~ jaaaune your gonna drive me crazy!” Yang came again as she felt her ass being pounded before her eyes began to roll up as she felt her clit being rubbed and pinched as she came more. Her legs shaking as she felt her mind breaking.

Jaune chuckled low. "That's the general idea, my slut. Here cums the second helping!" Juane thrust several times more, short and hard, before slamming his hips against Yang's cherry red rear and unloading his second load into her ass. Yang couldn’t say much more as she felt him cum deep inside of her ass. cresmpieing her as she stuck her tongue out and panted loudly as her body shook. Slowly pulling out of Yang's ass, Jaune let her go and watched her collapse to the floor, watching her gaping ass gushing out his cum with a smirk. He knelt down next to her and turned her head so she wouldn't drown, before speaking. "Did you enjoy the show?" he asked their watcher, before gasping slightly, looking down to see that Yang had wrapped her lips around his still hard and cum slick cock, slowly swallowing it down as she looked up at him in adoration.

“Yeah... I guess you can say I did.” Ruby said revealing herself as she saw her sister sucking Jaune’s cock hungrily with her eyes having small pink hearts and the eager gags coming from her as well. “Hopefully she’ll stop teasing you so much.” Ruby said as she walked over and kissed Jaune’s cheek. “That’s my job~”

Turning his head and capturing his smaller girlfriend's lips, Jaune made out with Ruby as he grabbed Yang's hair and *pulled* her down to the base of his cock, her nose buried in his trimmed hair. The choking and tight throat wrapping around him made him cum one final time, his balls emptying down Yang's throat and filling her belly, before yanking her back and unloading the last shots on her face.

Breaking the kiss, Jaune bumped noses with Ruby. "Yeah, and you do it so well..." he glanced down at Yang, looking up at the pair of them with glazed eyes and cum spattered features. "How do you like the picture?"

[wisdom-walks-alone]

JAYYYY are you ready. first off huge huge HUGE congrats!!!!! i love all of this for you. now for my request! i want some timsteph, cause i'm a ho for them, with the prompt "is that a knife in your pocket, or are you just happy to see me?" because i think they'd be hilarious with that line. writer's liberty if you want to change knife with batarang. ily!!!

mel!! i love you so much, and this prompt is so fucking funny i can’t.

this might get a little racy so the rating is at teen and up, so know what you’re getting into with this one.

“Is that a batarang in your pocket, or are you just happy to see me?”

Tim looks up from the batcomputer to see Steph sauntering towards him, cowl down. “What?” He looks down and laughs when he realizes what she’s talking about. “Oh, no, it’s my bo staff,” he says, taking it out and deploying it to full length.

Steph purses her lips, a pout forming. “Aw, you’re no fun. And here I thought I still had that effect on you. Am I boring you? Is that it? Are you getting bored of me?”

She puts a hand to her chest dramatically and her face twists into an expression of mock offense. Tim huffs out a laugh, turning his attention back to the monitor in front of him. “You know you could never bore me even if you tried.”

Steph drapes herself over him, wrapping her arms around his neck and pressing their faces together. “Then why won’t you pay attention to meeee?” she whines, and Tim can hear the pout in her voice.

He pulls away and levels her with a look as he gestures to the batcomputer, which has his various case files pulled up and various surveillance videos playing. This only serves to make her pout grow.

“Aren’t I more important than work?”

Tim sighs tiredly and pulls her into his lap, scooting the chair closer to the desk. Steph seems satisfied with this as she leans into him and watches him work, the surveillance videos playing again in their loop as he tries to catch the exact moment he needs.

They stay like this for some time, comfortable and content in each other’s presence. Tim reaches a breakthrough in his case, with some helpful input from Steph, and he gets to the solution pretty quickly after that. After awhile, Steph starts to play with his hair, and he’s glad the bulk of the case is figured out because it’s very distracting.

“Have I ever told you how much more I like your new costume over the old one?” she asks.

“Hm?” Tim hums, eyes not leaving the screen.

“I do,” Steph reaffirms. “I was never a fan of the cowl, I’m glad you got rid of it.”

Tim frowns. “Why’s that?”

“It just wasn’t working,” Steph says simply, twirling a piece of hair around her finger. “The new look suits you so much better. Besides, I like to be able to do this.”

At that she grabs a fist full of his hair and tugs, tilting his head back and then leaning in for a passionate kiss. Tim lets out a small noise of surprise, first at his hair being pulled and then at Steph pressing her lips to his own, but once he realizes what’s happening he leans into it, case all but forgotten.

“I must admit,” he says after a minute, more out of breath than after any training exercise, “I’m also a fan of your new costume.”

“Oh?” Steph asks, smirking down at him.

“Yeah,” Tim continues. “I did like the Spoiler costume, the hood and mouth mask brought out your eyes, but you look hot as fuck in the Batgirl cowl.”

“You think so?”

“Definitely.”

Steph’s smirk grows as she pulls the cowl over her head, and Tim feels a burning arousal tug at his gut. He pulls her back in with a purpose, kissing her hard as one hand cradles her face and the other wraps around her waist.

He isn’t sure when she moved to be straddling him, but he doesn’t complain as his hands move to her hips. Steph’s weight in his lap serves to ground him as he feels like he’s about to float away into nothingness.

For a while it’s just the two of them, moving against each other with the quiet echoes of the cave, and Tim can feel himself smiling as their kisses become more heated, more desperate. It’s as if this is the only thing in the world that matters, him and Steph, together.

Suddenly, there’s a loud noise as something slams into something else, and Tim is startled and embarrassed to see Bruce standing there, fully clad in the batsuit, cowl up, and looking very much not amused.

They both stare at him, frozen, neither one able or willing to move. Bruce just grunts something unintelligible and throws something at Tim, saying, “Not in the cave,” before turning and leaving for the showers.

There’s silence for a moment as he and Steph remain frozen, but it’s quickly broken when Steph looks down and starts laughing hysterically. Tim can feel his face heat up as he realizes what Bruce threw at him.

She climbs off of Tim, taking the package from his hands and pulling him up with her. “Come on, Boy Wonder,” she teases. “You heard the big man. ‘Not in the cave.’”

send me a prompt and a character/ship and i’ll write a short fic!

[writing-things-4-fun]

Pt 2. Short Story

The living room of the Mathews house was like something out of an Enid Blyton novel. A fire crackled in the corner of the room, casting dancing shadows onto the chintz armchairs, and overlapping Turkish rugs covered the floors. June was perched by the fire, watching as her mum, Maureen, and five other woman crocheted and gossiped. She had been attempting a simple chain stitch but the tangle of yarn that now sat at her feet suggested it was a hopeless case. For the most part the crocheting women were engrossed in conversation, but every now and then the woman nearest the June would fix her with a hard stare, clearly trying to coerce her into conversation. June’s defence had been to stare deeply at the hole in her sneaker which she had been picking nervously. It had worked rather well until she had dropped her guard and looked up to make eye contact with the woman. Her eye’s brightened and June internally groaned, bracing for the onslaught of questioning which would inevitably follow.  

“So Junie. What’s been going on at Tulsa-Grove? I remember when I went there” The woman casts a grin at another sitting to June’s left, “Remember the times we used to have Shazz.”

Shazz looks to June to be about 50 something, though with her taught, shiny forehead, platinum hear and leathery tan limbs it’s clear she’s trying to pass for several decades younger.

“Do I ever! Maureen you should’ve seen us. Remember our song Sue?” To June’s horror she begins singing a croaky rendition of Guns and Roses’, Sweet Child of Mine.  “She’s got a smile that it seems to meeee”

Sue chimes in, “Reminds me of childhood memorieees”

“Where everything was as fresh as the bright blue skyyyyyy” The woman get up clumsily from their crocheting and begin re-enacting what they assure the other woman was, “the best dance routine Tulsa-Grove ever saw.” Their moves are somewhat limited by the overcrowding of armchairs and poofs, but they manage to make it work, egged on by the other women who sing along with them. June isn’t at all surprised to see that the wine glasses which are perched around the room are all empty.

The woman stumble back to their seats, surprisingly composed despite the physically demanding routine June just witnessed, she supposed they had their spin class addictions to thank for that. Many members of the crotchet club are also part of the local Fitness First spin group, June’s mum being no exception to that rule. Maureen actually despised all forms of exercise, particularly of the cardio variety, but put herself through the torturous 90 minutes every Wednesday and Sunday morning to maintain connections in the town’s elite group of mothers. The Tulsa-Grove spinning mums wore Lulu Lemon athleisure at all times, it gave the impression of a productive and humble lifestyle whilst requiring neither humility nor exercise. The women met every morning for almond and oat milk lattes at Ambiance Du Matin, a French café and hot spot of note on the local high street. They owned dogs, a Cavoodle or Bichon Frise, and had children enrolled at Tulsa-Grove Prep. Wine groups of the mothers were held at least once a week in which the women would drink excessively, complain about their husbands and brag about their children. The more extra curriculars and societies the child was a part of, the more respected the mother. Despite the exhaustive list of unspoken requirements to be a Tulsa-Grove mum it was tantamount that the women still exude the impression of carelessness and apathy. A Tulsa-Grove mum is a fun mum. A Tulsa-Grove mum is a fit, carefree, yoga-doing, banana bread baking, gluten free, paleo, tipsy, together mum. June hated watching her mum squeeze herself into this mould, but at least she didn’t extend any expectations to June.

“That song never fails to take me back, it was actually what Craig and I danced to at our year 12 formal.”

The woman let out a collective “awwwww”.

A woman with a horse like face pipes up, “At least some good came of that night.”

A quiet falls over the room like a blanket and the reminiscent glow of Shazz’s face falls away instantly. The faces of the previously smiling women are all drawn and pinched together, with the exception of one, who’s remains much the same, frozen, the result of a little bit too much Botox.

Frozenface slices through the silence, “Oh gee I completely forgot about that. Poor, poor girl.”

The women nod in affirmation, heads bobbing up and down stupidly.

“Might I ask what happened at your formal?” Maureen asks cautiously.

“A girl from our grade, Hannah Denton went missing. There’s a plaque in town, you might have seen it?”, Horseface answers solemnly.

June’s interest piques and she stares up from her phone, suddenly listening. Maureen assures the women that she was not familiar with the missing woman and so a few short moments later June finds herself bending over her mother’s shoulder, engulfed in the oppressive musk of the woman’s Tom Ford perfume and staring down at her phone.

   “In loving memory of Hannah Jean Denton. We will meet again one day.”

An involuntary shiver runs through June as she reads the inscription on the plaque. A breeze tickles her neck and she runs a hand along the flesh to find it textured with goosebumps. Flicking her eyes towards the window she sees it is shut.

to be continued...

[nevilevinotherlicmii-blog]

1. No next question

2. Yes most vaginas have

3. Invisibility

4. Yes, but like ethically responsible rich

5. I used the men’s bathroom and sat down on a urinal like it was a toilet and proceed to piss while laughing hysterically all while talking to people that weren’t there.

6. I was too expectant of her and always wanted more from her, when I didn’t give her the same in return.

7. Eaten by wild animals in a survival situation.

8. To stop eating garbage food, save money and to exercise.

9. More than like.

10. Myself.

11. Yes, it’s taken me a long time. She could be a little more toned but she likes to eat.

12. Yes, I keep a very strict diet of what ever I want to eat.

13. You’re doing fine and don’t forget to vote responsibly.

14. Too much but not enough all at the same time because I’m a magician at spending money.

15. I wouldn’t consume this, but I’d definitely eat pussy for the rest of my life. Breakfast, after breakfast snack lunch second lunch after second lunch snack dinner desert after desert snack midnight snack 4am snack. Consistent snatch snackin’ leads to longevity.

16. Coo-oover meeee in tattoos, this is my last requestttt. Body modification, no crying, don’t give a hoot if my tattoos oooffenndd youuu.

17. Books

18. Very poorly

19. I told myself that after I showered today, to add context it had been a few days.

20. My sad bits

21. Yes, I should write in it more often

22. Only when I’m having fun

23. *phhhht* it is a good way to let people know you’re there with out speaking.

24. A car filled with stern women that make me behave.

25. No, grades are a construct invented to attempt to control the masses.

26. Dreamy, assertive, and wise. She also smells like the way a self made childhood tent feels.

27. Not to be that guy but End Game.

28. *standing in front of the mirror at work after I’ve already left the house* “You look good in those shorts”

29. “You look good in those shorts”

30. Yes, especially when you’re wasted and oblivious to every other human in the room.

31. My art

32. Beer

33. Eating pussy and making short bread

34. As long as they aren’t small assholes

35. Horny

36. Oviave

37. The appreciation of simplicity and the consideration of its complexity in a simple world.

38. Not particularly, I prefer to punch people’s faces with very well structured power phrases.

39. A sensuous glance from an unexpected on looker.

40. A bag of hay for my sisters pony.

41. LP

42. Bookstores/Art supply stores/ Sex Shops

43. The earth and thier curves

44. 11

45. 13

46. 17

47. 10

48. What?

49. Yes

50. =^•¥•^=

51. My best friend

52. Bad politicians with self fulfilling agendas

53. All kinds

54. Be nice to your parents

55. Any and all

56. Lol any and all my darlings, any and all

57. People that are morbidly humerus and sarcastic, but also optimistic with a good sense of self.

58. My sad bits

59. ? Have you seen my ass ?

60. Everyday

61. Being tied up and fucked into submission on a bed of rose petals. By the right person, of course.

62. Lol

63. Meh people are irritating regardless of gender.

64. Toxic masculinity, I’ve found that both genders contribute to this, however.

65. A flight to LA

66. The ying to my yang

67. Some days I am, I like to make people feel special

68. Pussy in my face and to leave behind something that changes people’s mind

69. I won’t answer anymore questions until my lawyer is present.

70. Bish yes she’s just hungry and horny

71. Yes

72. Yes, my pussy is pretty and my tits are flattering in the right light

73. Yes

74. Take 5

75. @through-war-and-at-peace

76. Nah

77. Sherlock

78. I’m a spiritual being that finds god in moments with people

79. Screenplay The foundation of screen writing by Syd Feild, yes very much especially because it is a Goodwill find.

80. It is a must to secure the future of human existence

81. A few hours thanks to these 100 questions

82. What are “Chineese” food?

83. Wendy’s

84. That whisk

85. Weed and beer

86. Yes

87. Marry me?

88. Falling in love and staying in love

89. Someone assumed because I was easy to sleep with that it meant I was easy to know. Very different things.

90. Convincing my very drunk mother to give me the gun she kept putting to her head.

91. A picnic in space

92. Instaham

93. Lavender

94. I watch YouTube documentaries and like those weird trip hop videos that are like 7 hours long

95. “Here’s lookin at you kid”

96. Falling in love with struggling

97. Yes

98. Yes, I made her a card that said I wouldn’t be me without her

99. As lucky and special as a prized pigeon

100. Yes of course but you didn’t hear it from me.

100 questions

Is a kiss considered cheating?

Have you ever faked orgasm?

If you could have one superpower, what would it be?

Do you think you are going to be rich in 7-8-9 years?

Tell us some funny drunk story.

Why are you no longer together with your ex?

If you had to choose one way to die, what would it be?

What are your current goals?

Do you like someone?

Who was the last person to disappoint you?

Do you like your body?

Can you keep a diet?

If the whole world listened to you right now, what would you say?

Do you work?

If you could choose only one food to eat to the rest of your life, what would it be?

Would you get a tattoo?

Something you don’t mind spending all your money on?

Can you drive?

When was the last time someone told you you were beautiful?

What was the last thing you cried for?

Do you keep a journal?

Is life fun?

Is farting in front of people irrelevant?

What’s your dream car?

Are grades in school important?

Describe your crush.

What was the last book/movie that really impressed you?

What was your last lie?

Dumbest lie you ever told?

Is crying in front of people embarrassing?

Something you did and you are proud of?

What’s your favourite cocktail?

Something you are good at?

Do you like small kids?

How are you feeling right now?

What would you name your daughter/son?

What do you need to be happy?

Is there some you want to punch in the face right now?

What was the last gift you received?

What was the last gift you gave?

What was the last concert you went to?

Favourite place to shop at?

Who inspires you?

How old were you when you first got drunk?

How old were you when you first got high?

How old were you when you first had sex?

When was your first kiss?

Something you want to do until the end of this year?

Is there something in the past you wish you hadn’t done?

Post a selfie.

Who are you most comfortable around?

Name one thing that terrifies you.

What kind of books do you read?

What would you tell your 12 year old self?

What is your favourite flower?

Any bad habits you have?

What kind of people are you attracted to?

What was the last thing you cried for?

Is there something you don’t eat? Some food that truly disgust you?

Are you in love?

Something you find romantic?

How long was your longest relationship?

What are 3 things that irritate you about the same sex?

What are 3 things that irritate you about the opposite sex?

What are you saving money for?

How would you describe your bad side?

Are you actually a good person? Why?

What are you living for?

Have you ever done anything illegal?

Do you like your body?

Have you ever made someone feel bad about themselves intentionally?

Ever sent nudes?

Have you ever cheated on someone?

Favourite candy?

Is there a blog you visit every day, or almost every day? Tag it!

Do you play any computer games? What is your favourite game?

Favourite TV series?

Are you religious? Does God exist?

What was the last book you read? Did it impress you and why?

What do you think about vegetarianism/veganism?

How long have you been on Tumblr?

Do you like Chineese food?

McDonalds or Subway?

Vodka or whiskey?

Alcohol or drugs?

Ever been out of your province/state/country?

Meaning behind your blog name?

What are you scared of?

Last time you were insulted?

Most traumatic experience ?

Perfect date idea?

Favourite app on your phone?

What colour are the walls in your room?

Do you watch Youtube? Who is your favourite youtuber?

Share your favourite quote.

What is the meaning of life?

Do you like horror movies?

Have you ever made your mum cry? What happened?

Do you feel lucky or special in a way?

Can you keep a secret?

[artemistudying]

No matter what I do, I can't make myself try in school. I'm a solid B student, but I know if I applied myself fully,instead of procrastinating until the last minute and handing in first drafts, I could be a ninties student. Ugh. I keep fucking myself over. Advice?

Hiya there!omggg i understand. i really do. this happens to me too :(( thing is procrastination strikes at times just as this & youve got so much potential & can easily score well. but dont worry, with some time, hard work & patience you can tackle it! i haven’t put the basic things you find on websites cuz you prolly know/ read em. i put a few things i use & find helpful. (sry if somethings sound harsh, it’s just that being honest is the best thing you can do to combat procrastination)

some tips: 

do you have a goal in life? a thing you’re working towards? maybe an ambition, or something personal that you want to achieve in life? everyone you sit down to study & feel like you dont want to, remember it. think of it. remember why you stared in the first place. maybe if you dont have a career choice for yourself yet, maybe have some small goal.for egs i want to be happy in life. if that’s your goal, do something that makes you happy. prioritize things that make you happy. 

a lyric by eminem i stand by:‘look if you ever had one shot or one opportunity to seize everything you ever wanted in one moment, would you capture it or just let it slip?’

procrastination is the thief of time. i know its cliché lol but look at it this way; you have 2 weeks for an exam, you can either spend 2 weeks spreading out your work load and studying OR you can spend everyday wasting time & cramming in the last 2 days. 

what’s something that you procrastinate doing? like for me its reading books or youtube or just scrolling through tumblr. i cut out reading books during exam time & read only at night. i cut out youtube during exam time as well. tumblr is something i come to once a day fr a few minutes. this all took time & it wasn’t easy.so cut out things that you procrastinate on. one by one. every small action matters. 

try the pomodoro method. give this a read & try it. you can download the app as well!

read this from this awesome site:“ I have friends who almost never let themselves do the really fun things they want to do during the semester.They’ll talk about how much they want to play a certain game or watch a new movie, but when I suggest that they just go play it, they’ll say: “I really can’t; I have way too much homework and I’d feel guilty.”Five minutes later, though, I’ll see them scrolling through their Facebook feed.I call this low-density fun. Scrolling through your news feed or watching a few funny videos on YouTube is easy, and it’s sort of fun to do. However, because it’s so easy and feels so unlike “real” fun, it’s easy to not feel guilty about it – which leads to a lot of procrastination.The solution? Commit to having your high-density fun. If you want to play a video game later, commit to starting it at 8 p.m. Then, make sure all your work is done by then.Let your high-density fun create a deadline that propels you into focused work. “

a quote i LOVE:“effort never betrays you”

try the 2 minute method. study for JUST 2 minutes. and then maybe just 2 more minutes? then maybe just 2 more! trick your brain like this. trick your brain into thinking that studying is actually fun & that you’d want to do it just for 2 more minutes & keep going on. it really works for meeee!

try this study method: 

do the easiest or most fun thing the first

then do the hardest

then the 2nd hardest

then something that HAS to be done

then finish off with something easy & fun!

eat the frog lol pls not reallyif you have something which you HATE doing, do that first. finish that first & then go ahead with the rest.

is there something you really like doing? for egs if you loooove chocolate, you can buy a small stash & keep it away. then you sit down & do some work & then IF and ONLY IF you’re satisfied with yourself, indulge in yourself. if you’re unhappy with the work done, do not take it.

if youve got a lot of things to do, make a timetable for yourself or a to-do list. also allocate an hour of activities/ exercise/ something you can do to get fresh air. it gets the blood flowing & helps a lot!

if its a subject you hate:just using my egs here, i hate physics & I’m bad at it but doing sums & questions make me happy cuz then with some hard work, i get the correct answer! so if you have a subject such as this, try to do something which helps you get an answer which might motivate you!

if you’re an audio learner (you can find you which type of learner you are here) try listening to some videos while you jog/ exercise. Khan academy (an app) lets you download the videos you want and u can listen to em offline. they’re really really good!!

if you know what type of learner you are, study using those methods!

think of the effort you have put in, in the past few years!! youve been in school for so long & if you dont put in the effort for this year, you’re basically wasting the time you spent in the past few years!

think of the effort, time & money your parents put to get you this education. work hard & make em proud ☺️

do you have a park in your area/ a coffee shop/ library? go there, DO NOT GET WIFI!!! delete all the games off your phone  a well if you want to, & study there.

think of all that you can do for this world. youve got so much potential & so much to give. why waste it? if you ever fail in anything, that is okay, you can always try again! just remember, its the effort that counts.

be a sincere student. you’re not only lying to your teachers, you’re lying to your parents & yourself.

if it really gets out of hand, call your mum/ dad/ sibling t sit with you in the same room & study while they’re there, or better, teach them! that way they can call you out when you’re wasting time.

switch off your wifi modem? ask ur family members if its okay lols

give ur phone/ computer/ tablet/ etc to your patents, tell em to lock it in a cupboard & not give it to u. tell them to hide the key as well 😂

study with friends if that helps you! prom each other when you waste time 

try fear? the day before your exam, work up all the things that might happen if you dont do your exam well or if you dont study. that might get your motors running? warning: this is kinda pessimistic. this is not for everyone. also if you have anxiety pls ignore this 

remember, just be you. having fun is no crime but trying to escape your responsibilities is well kinda. try to get eternal happiness NOT momentary happiness.

do not let the toxic mixture of laziness & fear mess everything up 

watch this 😂 

watch this as well! then get back to work k!!

this post by @emmastudies on how to beat procrastination is v v good!!

make a good timetable if you’d like & stick to it. again u can force your fam to help u

discipline is MUST. try to follow a strict routine!“suffer the pain of discipline or the pain of regret.”

do NOT compare yourself to others.

everybody makes mistake, everybody has those days but the goal is to nOT make the same one again. try not to!

look, you can do it. set your mind to it. sit down, get your things out & just begin. i know you can. YOU know you can!!!! the only thing stopping you is you. do not let your dreams be crushed by a the needs of momentary happiness.

sry if this post is kinda long oopsi hope this helped! ace this, hun! you can do it. if you ever want to talk/need help, pls do send me an ask/ message.  i know that its hard to break procrastination but trust me, you will get over it. just keep trying, k?take care & good luck. 💕

[falconemuses]

we interrupt this program to bring you....

.....nothing in particular, actually. i just wanted to put out some original content that didn’t have anything to do with schizophrenia. don’t get me wrong, it’s great to be able to talk about it in a non-judgmental environment, but i’ve spent so long hiding it that part of me just feels incredibly attention seeking to bring it up every single fucking day. xD like i don’t want it to become the thing that i/my blog is know for, y’know? i don’t want to be a “schizophrenia blog”, no, i’m just a tumblr user who happens to have schizophrenia. i don’t wanna hide it, but i also don’t wanna spend like every single fucking minute correcting misconceptions and fighting for the cause or whatever. i just wanna do my own thing. guess i’m just fucking selfish xD

spent so long talking about schizophrenia when i said i didn’t wanna talk about schizophrenia xD ANYWAYS. i need to get into the habit of writing a regular diary. probably i’ll have two, one private and one public one, because there’s a lot of stuff you can’t say on a public platform, but at the same time, the point of this exercise is not just to engage in emotional release, but also to improve interpersonal communication skills. “but you’re literally just writing into the void! you don’t even know if anyone sees it!” yeah, but i’m writing it under the assumption that it can be seen, so therefore i will have to choose my words and be grammatical and make sure i’m politically correct and steer clear of controversial topics. 

so! what shall be my uncontroversial topic of the day, that shall hopefully also not take up too much space? because if i launch into one of the things i’m interested in, like the cutting of diamonds or the tuning systems of music, it’s liable to take up like 5 whole pages and be fucking annoying to scroll through. there’s really too many aspects to talk about. sometimes i think about starting a youtube channel in which i just verbal diarrhea about random topics i’m interested in for 10 minutes straight, but then i think youtube is a bit too much for me. i mean, obviously here there’s already not much privacy, i’m already broadcasting my thoughts to whoever might stumble across this, but on youtube it’s like......idk, it just feels a lot more, “hey, look at me!!” like this, this just feels like a diary, that just so happens to be accessible to anyone who cares to read it. but a youtube channel, that’s like specifically aimed at getting people to watch. and also i’m afraid i’ll end up addicted to the approval of subscribers and then i’ll end up running outside at 4am to steal the neighbours wifi to upload videos xD 

.....why’d i end up talking about youtube. well, i guess that serves as a fairly uncontroversial topic that won’t take up too much space, since i hardly know anything about it. i’ve already written 3 paragraphs so i probably shouldn’t launch into a full-blown discussion of a topic i’m invested in anyway. it’s a strange phenomenon. i’d never have expected it to become this popular. as a consumer, it’s great for me, of course - i get to find all these helpful tutorials for everything from fixing a toaster to winging eyeliner for free, and i get free entertainment and sometimes knowledge as well to boot. but on the uploaders’ side, i - this is not a moral judgment or saying they’re narcissistic or anything, i just genuinely do not understand why people upload videos. i feel like the cons outweigh the pros, for the youtubers. you get public scrutiny and monetisation isn’t guaranteed, and you get - what? some of the challenges/quizzes do look fun, i’ll admit - i like answering them in my head, and videos definitely gives one a reason to answer these things out loud - kind of like the tumblr asks lists that people reblog with the tags “ASK MEEEE” (and then no one ever does xDDD) but that doesn’t really seem like enough to outweigh the kind of pressure you get from media scrutiny and audience expectations. idk, maybe there’s other stuff that i haven’t thought about that makes it worth it. *shrugs* but even though i don’t understand why they do it, i definitely appreciate them uploading videos xDD it makes my life a whole lot better, and i’m sure many others can say the same. for whatever reason - lifehacks, tutorials, or just plain entertainment - i’m really grateful, youtubers, if it means anything.

WOW okay can’t believe i managed to write so much on something i have not much idea about. i think this post is long enough, so i’ll just end it now. i’ll try to have a central coherent theme in my next text wall, hopefully.