#and I guess that's something we have to keep in mind when managing conflict with others

[dirkxcaliborn]

Reddit is absolutely insane sometimes. "my boyfriend gets sad when I don't want to watch him play video games and doesn't feel like playing anymore."

"Your boyfriend is a childish control freak" < not even paraphrased. That's literally how the comment started word for word.

[drdemonprince]

sorry for the longpost.

i only just now read your essay "be jealous. make demands. want more." and greatly enjoyed it and related to a lot of the things you described as far as your feelings about mainstream polyamory. to me it often feels very manicured and not honest or natural, which has been a turn off in seeking connections with other poly or ENM people. i'm pretty slow at processing, and dont have a lot of dating experience anyway, so just the prospect of being asked upfront what i want and desire and prefer just doesnt mesh with me. that's not how i get to know myself and not how other people get to know me. i like to do things first, then survey myself and circle back on what can be done better.

even before i read the essay i saw you posting about it, saying things like "be jealous, be audacious" etc. and i really took that to heart. over the past few months i've been working on communicating my feelings and needs to people rather than bottling them up and just adapting to the environment until i cant adapt anymore and i snap. i still find that, sometimes, an emotional outburst is rhetorically advantageous for me because it communicates the degree to which i've been neglected, i guess, and also it feels good to be needy when i'm used to taking care of everything and everyone else.

i sent very emotional emails to my managers at work, i've cursed a few coworkers out here and there, and i straight up walked out during a conflict. i still have my reputation as hardworking and nice and easygoing, but now it's known that i won't tolerate certain mistreatment against me. people are being kinder and friendlier to me. i'm not embarrassed about being emotional in front of other people. it had the intended impact. now i can survey how i feel each day and be more mindful of when something bothers me without giving into my reflex of compartmentalizing until i "forget" (but secretly keeping tally until i have no more space for tallies).

i wrote a super heart-on-my-sleeve love letter to a man who we took turns ghosting each other due to our mutual shit communication and avoidant behaviors, and before i had the chance to send it he told me he met someone. i still told him how i felt. i got this far in practicing speaking the fuck up, by god i'm not letting anything steal this opportunity from me lol. it took me a few days to figure out how to do it, and now i'm waiting for a response (or waiting until i figure it's been long enough that, this time, he probably is ghosting me lol). but i feel the most relief from the fact that i did it. i hate the feeling of regretting not saying anything. been there, done that, time for something new, see if that yields any results i like.

every time i've been needy and audacious, i haven't always gotten exactly what i wanted, but at least i no longer resented myself for being complicit in my own hurt. all along i secretly knew that being quiet and polite was only adding to how much other people could push me into boxes they liked but it was so hard to stop that habit.

anyway "be needy and have the audacity" is probably the best advice i've ever followed. tbh i first learned this from the perks of being a wallflower, but it has taken years to really practice it and reap the benefits. glad i am here and thank you for being part of that

wow. i find this so inspiring. thank you for sharing this.

[riofann]

10. tempestuous

Tempestuous: characterized by strong and turbulent or conflicting emotion.

Previous Chapter

Monday July 4, 2022

“Y/N! Y/N!”

“Yea what's up?” you turn to face your sisters 

Gia asks “You okay?” 

“Why does everyone keep asking me that?!” You ask frustrated 

“Well because I just had to call you like 10 times to get you to respond” 

“I’m sorry Gia just thinking about work” 

“GOD! are they still texting you” 

“Yeaaaa” you say in a ‘duh’ tone

“Then your managers suck that's why you have managers to manage not text you all the time give me that!” she says snatching the phone from you

You reach for the phone “Hey! I need that!” 

“No! Alicia back me up!” she commands before  throwing the phone to her

“ALICIA!” you plead

Alicia moves away from you “I’m sorry sissy but sis is right”

You throw your hands up “Oh my god! You guys are killing me” 

“Look at you!” Gia points at you “you’re killing yourself.” 

You shake your head and sit down on the couch

“When's the last time you treated yourself or went on a date?” 

“Not this again” you say, this has been a recurring topic of conversation 

“No seriously when's the last time you were told you were beautiful” 

You roll your eyes “A lot of my customers tell me that daily” 

“Not your customers, your boyfriend! your man!” Alicia asks 

Gia approaches you “Listen when is the last time you got some really good dick?” 

You feel your palms sweating, “Gia really is that important?” 

“YES IT IS! we have needs too just like guys” Alicia interjects 

“Alicia! I can’t hear this!” you say covering your ears 

“No you’re gonna listen”  Gia says laying on you. “We are worried about you, and you're overworking. It was bad with one bar but now two?!”

Alicia jumps on top making you both groan “and you’ve canceled on us like 50 times!” 

“That's an exaggeration”

“Okay not 50 but every time its like I can’t ‘I'm working I cant gotta run to the bar’ ”

“I'm a busy woman!” 

“We know we also know you won’t make time for things unless someone forces you to ! You’re working too hard!”

You sigh “I promise to do better”

“We want a boyfriend for Christmas if you dont we are gonna snitch on you”  

“Nooo dont tell mom and dad” 

“Well I guess you better get to doing other shit besides working”

You groan and finally get the strength to push them off you 

“Its because we love you” Alicia hugs you 

“Yea I know” you say begrudgingly but hugging her back 

As you drive home that evening you think of the dream  you had recently. You and Rio were in his office arguing over something stupid you can’t even remember the details. Next thing you knew he was kissing you, shoving you back against the wall, and you were kissing him back! It was sloppy, not quite coordinated like it would be in real life, he was groping the same areas, some scenes kept replaying over and over, others were so vivid you could smell his cologne, taste the spearmint gum he chewed occasionally, the fabric of his shirt against your fingers. It ended when he reached up your skirt to yank down your panties, and just as you felt his calloused fingers graze up your thighs your alarm went off. Saved by the alarm! You would have liked for it to continue, because that would be the only way you were getting any. When you go to take a shower you feel the wetness between your thighs. Anyway the conclusion that you came to was you thought there was too much proximity to him and you were horny so your mind conjured him up nothing more, nothing else. 

Saturday August 13, 2022

“It's hot!” you complain as you approached Rio, once again at the country club 

“Its summer” he states the obvious 

“Yup anyway here you go” you stated dropping the bag on the floor. You changed tactics you were either dropping it on the floor/table or in his hand now by holding it with both hands on the straps instead

He shoves the bag to the side next to his duffle “It’s getting cooler though it was burning at 3” he adds 

“You’ve been here since 3? (it was 6:30 in the evening)” 

He nods “had a couple of meetings”

You nod feeling the awkward tension “want anything else or can I go?” 

He smiles, looks at the tennis court then back at you “Not gonna take me up on my offer?” 

“Offer? What offer?” You think to yourself “Oh tennis? I can't” pointing to your attire dress and heels 

He nods “I know you don’t have to work at either place so what's holding you back?” 

“Actually, stalker, I have to be at Oasis tonight so I need to get going” 

He chuckles at your stalker comment before arguing “James said he had it covered” 

“Well James is your hire and he doesn’t ‘have it covered’ because” you show the text message James sent you begging you to go in because the Andersons were gonna stop by with some friends  and only you knew how to make them happy. “I have to go in” 

He sighs with slight irritation “he should be able to manage” feeling like you were just making up an excuse 

You smile at him “He is your hire” you reiterate bringing back the memory of you telling Rio he may not be the best manager but Rio insisting 

“Let him take care of it” he argues 

“Can’t Andersons are big customers spend close to 2 grand or more every time they stop by I gotta go” you turn to walk away

“How is he gonna learn?” he continues 

You shrug and open your hands “You should have asked yourself this before you asserted his position at Oasis!”

He scoffs looking around 

“Oh look at you two! How cute! Again!” 

You both turn to face the older woman and both give her an awkward smile there's a brief moment of silence before Rio asks “Hey I’m sorry do we know you?” 

“Well I saw you two at the launch of Oasis” 

Your mind immediately remembers her “Oh how nice to see you again! Have you been back? I’m sorry if I haven’t recognized you” 

“Oh I have but you're always at the other bar Cure?” You nod “I haven't been but my husband and I plan to stop by with friends”

You give a small pout “I’m sorry I keep missing you”

She waves you away jokingly “Oh it's alright the place is still great, drinks are just the way I like them strong” You giggle “and you know staff is perfect life is still merry!” 

“That's good!” you smile 

“I didn’t mean to interrupt I just thought I would come say ‘Hi’ my name is Edith by the way” she extends her hand 

“Edith nice to meet you I’m Y/N and that's..” 

She answers “Christopher he’s in the Tennis tournament this year saw your profile” she winks 

Rio smiles

You look at your watch. “I have to go, or the manager is gonna be calling me nonstop. It was nice meeting you again Edith and next time you're there have them reach out to me I’ll stop by” 

“Okay see you later young lady” 

You don’t even think to say bye to Rio just wanting to get out of there as soon as possible 

“Boy you must have made her mad!” Edith jokes 

He laughs “something like that”

“That's alright, nothing a bouquet of flowers, chocolate, and a big kiss can’t fix! Always does the job!” She advices

He nods and looks at the older woman Edith looks at the tennis court then back to Rio “You up for another round?”  she asks

He shrugs “sure why not?”

“Good because I'm gonna smoke ya!” 

He takes a sip of his water “I owe you a round of drinks at Oasis if you do”

“Oooh more motivation!!” 

Thursday September 8, 2022

As things slowed down and the staff began closing down at Oasis you went into the office to grab your purse and go home for the night, a vow you recently made to not work past midnight. You hear footsteps walking in after you. You look back to see James standing there 

“Oh James!”, you smile at him even though he annoyed the shit out of you tonight i was just grabbing my bag

“Hey Y/N I wanted to talk to you?” 

“Yea what's up? Today was a hit right? Made a lot.”

“Yea I didn’t want to talk about that” he walks closer “I wanted to talk about you and me”

“Excuse me? I don’t follow” 

“Sorry came on too strong but I have to say it”

“Please don't” 

“You’re really beautiful and you’re an amazing woman”

“James Seriously”

“I know you’re not dating anyone why won’t you give me a chance” he says reaching to touch your cheek 

You jerked back “OH!”  You are shocked that he touched you “Don’t do that!” 

“I like you”

You roll your eyes “I know you do and I told you I’m just not interested right now it's not you its me”

“Why won't you let yourself be loved?” he asks reaching for your 

“James” you warn

He retracts “Seriously I can take care of you, make you feel good, make you feel loved

“I’m just not interested end of discussion”

“I can take care of you, you don’t have to work anymore”

“Well no that's...” 

He cuts you off “Come on” he says stepping closer to you and blocking you in as you push up against the desk “I think you’ve had a lot to drink, we’ll discuss that later but right now I need you to back the fuck up”

“Don’t be scared just let it happen” he whispers 

“James, if you don’t back up, I will shoot you.”  You declare in a flat tone 

He sucks his teeth “you wouldn’t do such a thing to me baby” he says inching closer  as you lean back placing your finger on the trigger 

“You better listen to her” You both hear from the doorway James head snaps to see Rio leaning against the door way “She will shoot you” 

James harshly mugs Rio, “cock blocker” he mumbles 

You’ve never been so grateful to see Rio “I’m going home good night!” you say moving away and walking past James 

“Text me when you get home” James says trying to stake his claim to you

“Good night James!” You say forcefully you’ve never texted him he was either really drunk today or really bold or both

“What the fuck was that about?” James asks stomping up to Rio. “I called first dibs, you knew this, You know I like her!” Rio squares up as James reaches him “you fucking up my spot now?” 

“Take your drunk ass home James before you do something that gets your ass in some shit you'll regret” Rio speaks unwavering 

“Oh you big man now?! You gonna make me regret it?!” Rio doesn't say anything he holds eye contact with him refusing to back down “Fuck you man no ones fucking scared of you!”  They both have a stare down contest before Rio snickers to himself and walks away. He had other things to do he didn't drop by for James 

“Y/N!”  you hear Rio’s voice calling to you as you speed walk to your car

“WHAT?!”  You snapped, spinning around as he was walking towards you. 2 strides and this man caught up to you. Lanky bastard “I am not working with him!” You announce “Did you see that bullshit I had my hand on my gun! I was getting ready to shoot him!”

He waves away your concerns “Don't worry about it Ima take care of it”

“By doing what “talking” to him?” 

He looks you in the eye “What’d I just say?” he responds 

You look up and rub the back of your neck. The migraine was returning  “Why are you here? What do you want?” your feet were hurting your and adrenaline was high 

“Need to talk to you” 

“About?”

“Need a favor”

You roll your eyes again “Favor before apology wow” you mutter 

“What was that?” He asks not fully catching what you said but knowing you made a smart comment 

You smile at him “What is it boss? How can I be at your disposal?” you ask sarcastically 

He drags his tongue on his lips taming the irritation from your sarcastic tone and comment “Got a gala night coming up at the country club need a date”

You scoff and roll your eyes  “Do you really need one? Just take one of the many women around you”

He smirks “Jealous?” he teases

“No! But why the hell do you want me? Don’t you have cousins, aunties or I don’t know?! Lady friends you can take?” He nods “I do but you fit the bill plus how do you want me to tell Edith we broke up?” Your eyes bulge “Did you tell her we were dating?” He smiles seeing your reaction “No but you didn’t tell her either that day or when she saw what happened on launch night” “That was your fault I was trying to move out of the way. I remember correctly you wouldn’t let me!” “So that what?  Your ex could corner you and you stand there looking like you don’t know how to tell him to fuck off I did you a favor”

You throw your hands up frustrated “I don’t get you” 

“Feelings are mutual”

“Why do you want to take me? You don’t even trust me!” you state

“Who told you that?”

You point at him “You!” you look at him unbelieving of his naivety “Every chance someone gets to lie to you telling you I screwed you over you believe them” He scoffs looking away, waving you off “why the hell would you trust me around those country club people? People I am assuming you want to impress” 

He sighs “It was a yes or no question” he asks now annoyed 

“I told you no”

“No you asked about irrelevant shit”

“Okay well the answer is no! There!” 

“Reconsider, I’ll be in touch” he says before walking away

Saturday October 1, 2022

The butterflies in your stomach might as well be wrecking balls your nerves are bad. Why? QTNA. You spent the last 3 weeks finding gala appropriate attire. Some were too much, others too little in any case you had back ups in case your highness didn’t like what you had on. 

You hear the doorbell ring and you hang your head low shaking it as you walk towards the door you had told him to text you so all you had to do was get out of the house. 

You open the door to see him standing there with a tuxedo “Nice tux” an all black tuxedo you couldn’t have predicted anything else 

He nods “clean up nicely yourself”

“Thanks, ready to go?”

He slowly takes you in before responding “mhmm” he hums 

“Okay lead the way” 

The ride to the country club was silent with old school RnB playing in the background. You were temporarily okay until you got to the club and were forced back to reality. You ran over the details you had memorized. 

You and Rio have been together for a little over a year, he owns several businesses around town. He is working on a non-profit to help families pay off medical bills. You’re just there to be his arm candy nothing else as he put it. Even though you argued over him literally getting said arm candy from the slew of women he had at his disposal 

“Ah Mr. Serraño your table number is table 5” 

“Thanks” he says, taking your hand and pulling you along into the room. When the space got too small making it hard for both of you to walk by he would go first, occasionally during that time your hand would bump against his glock that was secured around his waist. 

He stops to mingle a bit catching up with old friends/partners? You don’t know you're just here to be here. 

Eventually you made it to your table. You hated feeling like the newcomer but at least you weren't the only one. 

The night events commence shortly after  with a speech (how the club did this year, plans for next year expansion blah blah blah), announcement of silent auctions, awards, dinner and drinks. 

“Congratulations on the awards Mr. Serraño” He does something that resembles blushing but you write it off as a smile. Rio had gotten 3rd place in the single tournament and 2nd in the double tennis tournament. 

You turn back your attention to the host of the night. The drinks were good, food was good, a good change of scenery from your usual. At some point after dinner during the drinking hour and silent auction Rio excused himself. You don’t question why you just assume it was his usual running to the loo or getting another round of drinks. 

You notice he had been gone awhile when you glance down at your phone and realize almost 30 minutes had passed by. 

He returns shortly after in a huff, irritated. 

“You good?” you ask, glancing at him before you return to listen to the host not wanting to bring attention to his changed mood to your table mates. All he does is grunt frustratedly in response. 

When the host stops talking and the attention is brought back to the table for desserts/drinks/conversation. You notice Rio’s right hand and left, bruised and bloody. With the right being worse, it was bleeding and just as he finishes putting his glass down you grab it in a sly manner bringing it to your lap. 

Rio goes to pull it away but you hold it there pretending to be engaged in conversation while removing the tissue that was in your purse. You hold it firm and in a quick moment you look down at the tissue which was showing stains of red and up at Rio who locked eyes with you. 

That got him to relax enough to let you deal with it. 

When you're confident the bleeding has stopped you let his hand go and Rio takes the hint to go to the bathroom and clean up the rest. You two linger for a little before you both make your exit. You don’t know what he discussed half the night, plans for opening up another business it was all corporate jargon you just weren’t interested in. 

The car ride now is completely silent, no radio, nothing just breathing and the occasional glance at the phone here and there. 

You pull up to a strange building and Rio drives underground and parks the car. He turns to look at you and you stare back not knowing what he’s gonna say

“Gonna wait in here or upstairs?” 

“Upstairs?” you answer unsure of what the right option was

He nods and gets out of the car and being the gentleman of the night he opens the door for you again. You slowly make your way out of the car and walk beside him as he walks into the concrete building, you see number letter combos on the doors. It must be an apartment building you think to yourself. When you arrive on the fourth floor via the elevator only one door is present to you, you assume it was a penthouse unit. 

He opens the door and lets you in, “I’ll be quick just need to change” you nod “make yourself comfortable” he offers before disappearing into the hallway. 

Only  a few lights were turned on. From what you could see it was very much Rio, in some ways it resembled his office at the warehouse. Not a lot of clutter, everything seemed to have its place and served a purpose, no need for the extra fluff. As you continue to take in the space you see a few pictures of Marcus and him along with a larger picture of the greater family. Even the art framed matched him somehow. You turn to the kitchen and think to yourself either he didn’t cook or he cooked everything from scratch except for the very expensive espresso machine sitting on the counter. 

You take a few steps in and your hand grazes the back of his leather couch. It has minimal signs of being utilized. He was busy so a couch with signs of use didn’t seem right. You turn to face the hallway hearing noise coming from that end, a door closed. There were two hallways one by the kitchen the other by the wall where Rio disappeared. You want to walk around exploring his house like he has done to yours several times, you want to strip away any ounce of privacy he had left, you wanted him to feel exposed and vulnerable like he made you feel, not maliciously, maybe some ill intent involved to get back at him if you were being truthful with yourself. To even out the playing field in some sort of way. After he broke into your house the first time and you discovered he looked around you got rid of every sex toy that existed practically became celibate involuntarily. 

“I’m ready” you hear as Rio walks out with a bandaged arm wearing his usual garb. You smile at him and wait for him to approach you. “You could have made yourself a drink or sat down” he chuckles

“It’s okay, I know you have somewhere to be, don’t want to hold you up.” you say before turning to walk away towards the door. 

This time there was music on your way to your house. 

“Sooo what happened to... your...... hand?” you dare to ask after 15 minutes of driving. There's a long silence before he responds. He takes in a deep breath “Fucker moved and I punched the floor” 

“Ouch” you comment 

“Mhm!” 

“Take pain meds?”

“Mhm!”

You nod and look out the window watching as the city lights fade away as you approach the suburbs. Satisfied with his answers. 

He pulls into the driveway turning off the car before slowly turning to face you 

You feel nervous; it's not how he typically looks at you with a blank face or annoyance; there's familiarity in his gaze; he is comfortable with you, well at this moment anyway. 

You giggle nervously “You have somewhere to be”  you say before looking into your bag to find your key “got my keys and cellphone” 

There's a lazy smile on his face “ ‘preciate you joining me tonight” 

You nod, smiling “You made a good impression, they really like you.” That was the whole purpose of the night, right? 

He smiles again looking away  

“Yup well goodnight Rio” you say before opening the door

“Oh come on you wouldn’t let me open the door this time?” he asks jokingly as you step out “Oh! Slipped my mind, sorry” 

He nods stepping out of the car “well the least I can do is walk you to your door” 

You nod in response and close the door making your way towards the house, you were used to him being angry with you, you knew how to navigate around him when he was, this was different it felt like you were being studied in ways you didn’t even understand. 

You fumble slightly to open the door but you do and step in “do you want to come in?” you offer just to offer not that you really wanted it 

He shakes his head “can’t” 

“Right you have things to do, well I guess thanks for the evening I had fun hope your hand heals” 

“Yea here’s your cut” he says handing you the envelope full of money before walking away. 

Friday October 14, 2022

“Have you talked to him?” Alicia asks

“Talked to who?” “Who else?!” 

You sigh “no!” you were starting to regret telling your sisters about the faux date between you and Rio

“Why not?” 

“Well it’s more of like a ‘hi’ and ‘bye’ thing”

“Did you text him the next day?”

You look at the camera on your phone “To tell him what?” 

“Y/N!” Gia scolds 

“Whaaaaat?” You whine

“You were supposed to tell him that you enjoyed your time” she continues

“I already told him that when the night was over! He doesn’t need me to say it again!” 

“You’re supposed to remind him, to keep his mind on you!” 

You roll your eyes “Ugh there's too many rules to dating now”

“Christmas is approaching” she threatens 

“I know!” 

“Either you show up with a boyfriend or we tell mom and dad!” 

You let out a sigh of frustration “Fine! Just tell them. Tell mom and dad!” They remain quiet “What? I don’t think I will have anyone by then guys. I'm busy, I just don’t have the time and I can't ask any man to accommodate this schedule of mine. I know mom and dad won’t be happy  but hey its okay we can’t have it all” 

“That's not true” Alicia speaks up sounding sad

“Don’t Alicia” you warn “I’m not dying here, you guys are acting a bit crazy over this”

“What's wrong with wanting someone to take care of you like you do everyone else?” 

“Nothing I just want you guys to be a bit more realistic on how soon or the possibilities of that happening. But I don’t like talking about myself. I wanna hear about you guys. How are your beaus?”

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XOXO Rose

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[chainelunaire]

how we fight each other

gojo satoru

starts an argument unknowingly. he usually just says some random shit out of nowhere, which might leave you speechless. is ready to appologize if asked for, but rarely fully understands the reason behind. however, he doesn't like the tension, so he's willing to compromise. has a trauma regarding fighting with someone dear to him. during fight, is either calm and collected or relaxed and playful, which is somethimes infuriating. he might sound cruel (unintentionally, but it feels personal, bc of his sharp tongue). in general really doesn't like arguments, would like to avoid them at all but he sort of can't stop his mouth from spewing shit. most of the times he's pretty chill and peaceful, he doesn't just go around looking for someone to annoy (if you're not nanami, of course). fights with him are about stupid little things, mostly chores or something like that. he rarely engages in something serious, he refuses to and he will avoid it like a vampire avoids garlic. because of this behaviour, sometimes he might seem distant or secretitive, but he's really not. actually he's kind of a sweetheart, he never truly gets mad and feels bad after. he's usually the one to make a first move and make up. does not hold grudges, very forgiving, even if you really hurt him during a fight.

geto suguru

complete opposite. it's impossible to have an argument with him about something as stupid as who cleans the kitchen next, he won't engage and simply do it himself. will appologize for things he haven't even done, all in order to keep peace (mark that part). he won't let you to start a fight either, he's a great mediator. hates the idea that you are mad or upset with him, is very dependant on others opinion of him. takes time to understand your reasoning, is compassionate, and he's in general careful with words, so if it is an argument, it is for sure a serious one. he has some issues with anger managment and he feels weak if he feels anger, so he prefers to avoid conflict at all costs. he might go like that for literal weeks, if not months, until the bubble finally pops. it takes a lot for him to be truly angry and start a fight. he's taking it very seriously, even if he has that relaxed and cold demeanor. everything he says is very intentional, so if it hurts, do not second guess it - he wanted it to hurt. will remind you of everything he's done for you and hold it over your head (remember i told you that?). is the type to end relationship over one argument. he also holds grudges, even tho he refuses to acknowledge that.

nanami kento

actually, he's kind of easy to get into an argument with, but it's because he's usually very tired and therefore easily irritated. he doesn't like that part of him, when he lashes out. he prefers to avoid conflict until he literally can't anymore. he sounds more pained than angry, it feels like he's desperate and just wants it to end (he does want it to end). easily appologizes, each time genuine. he's also careful with his words even when he's angry, but unlike geto, he doesn't want to hurt you in the process. fights drain him out to an extent even sorcery can not. kind of willing take all the blame, if it means this all will end. could piss you off with his selflessness, because sometimes this could be something really important to you, and it feels like he would choose to end your relationship rather than listen to your complains. he wants to, he really does, but he rarely is able to do so bc of how worn out he is. however, when he's rested and has more clear mind, it's almost impossible to have an argument with him. he's perfectly able to talk things out calmly. just don't start anything when he's right back from work, please, and you'll be fine.

fushiguro toji

you would be surprised, but he's very difficult to have an argument with. mostly because of how absent he can be, when he senses trouble, and oh he senses it from very very far away. he'll be back when you cooled off and will play it off like it was nothing. very hard to corner, it's practically impossible to talk things through with him. but, if you somehow manage to do that, you will be surprised again at how calm and collected he could be. you want to talk about things - okay, he will, do not complain later, because he warned you. he's won't show any empathy towards you. everything he says is calculated and very rational, he's also has almost godly patience (thanks to his past with zenin clan, he can go very far with being the last sane person in the room). it doesn't even feel like an argument, it's very one-sided with you being hurt and him complitely unaffected. he's not even mad. if you want to say something, let it be something very logical and rational, so he can take it into account. otherwise, he simply won't listen. you want to hear his side - fine, perfect, but he won't compromise in any way if everything you have is just your emotions. he has his reasons to behave like this, it's either you accept it or you suggest something more effective (from his perspective of course). and don't cry. god forbid you start crying.

ryomen sukuna

another anomaly. even tho he's not easily pissed off, fights with him are frequent. not because of you, but because he enjoys to annoy the hell out of you just for fun. the more aggressive you get, the better. absolute win if you cry out of helplessness, since you can't physically shut him up. but he rarely means anything with all the shit he throws your way, it's mostly because he's bored. like gojo, he's usually chill and peaceful, when he's in a good mood - and he's rarely in a bad mood. however, unlike with others, he has a twisted mind, and he himself is a sadist, so his good mood doesn't really apply to yours. but, these are still some small petty fights, which are not even considered as such in his mind, it's more of a playful (almost loving, from his perspective) banter. when he's not bored (when he's somewhere near actual battlefield, for instance) he's very calm, dare i say, serene. when he's not mocking or teasing you, there's nothing to fight about. if you want to fight back and have your revenge, well, mostly likely you won't. to hurt him - to really hurt him deep inside - you need to be at least mentally on his level. he usually just laughs everything off, if notices at all. for him to listen to you takes a lot of effort from your side. your words won't sting if you can't see through him, and to do that you need to match his intelligence and share his worldview. the only way not to get hurt by him is when he respects you. and it's easier said than done.

[mystycalypso]

what does the "my dad can beat up your dad" episode look like in ur au? Cool concept btw I want to. Eat uour art.

"My Dad can Beat Up Your Dad"

I actually decided to keep the title the same because, well, no, "your mom" joke I could make would really fit nearly as well

The episode opens as normal at Beardo's food truck, and as K.O. takes too long to order Chameleon Jr. starts using your mom jokes as insults after failing to attack him, getting visibly annoyed as they bounce right off of him, and he demands an explanation. After all, he must not like his mom if none of this is affecting him. Or maybe she's just THAT lame.

"Well- um, I guess it's probably because-" his face drops. "I don't have a mom..."

There's an awkward silence in the parking lot. But he's quick to recover, "But! I've got a dad! And he's awesome!"

Chameleon Jr. takes the opportunity. "Oh yeah?! Well, my dad could beat up your dad!"

"You're on!"

"Then it's offical. 3:00 sharp, roof of the plaza."

"We'll be there! Oh man, he's gonna love this!"

"I hate this K.O.! I'm very disappointed in you, young man! Consider yourself grounded."

"But Daaaaaaad!"

"Why would you go and do something so reckless? What were you thinking?"

"There was this kid... Chameleon Jr... he kept zinging me, and he called my mom lame, and I guess it kinda got to me cause- cause I don't got a mom"

Laser's face softened. "Oh K.O., Pumpkin... you did have a mom. She was an incredible woman. And an even better hero, and she loved you very much..."

"But, you know, getting mad and escalating a situation is never the BEST idea, Champ."

"Escalate? Escalate?! How can I escalate something when I don't even know what "escalate" means?!"

"Yeah, see that right there? THAT is escalating, kiddo." He hands him a burrito.

"Aw, snappy-whap-whappy! Dragon Dragon Burritos."

"So, I've decided that I will make an appearance on the roof later, but not to fight. I'm gonna face Chameleon Jr.'s dad, but with my words, not my fists. I'll show you how a conflict is de-escalated in the flesh."

"De-escalate? Wassat?"

"It's making a big thing smaller"

"YEAH! Power Battl-"

"K.O., what did we just discuss, little man?"

"Sorrey, dad, I'm just excited to hang out with you." Laser sighs before Chameleon Jr. perks up from across the roof.

"About time you chumps got here."

They scan the roof top but it looks completely empty. Laser confidently places his hands on his hips and smiles at K.O.

"Looks like Chameleon Jr.'s dad took the high road and decided not to show. Maybe we won't have—"

Loud footsteps shake the ground before Chameleon Sr. lands on the roof, throws his briefcase, and pats his son's head.

"Well, never mind! lesson resumed! You just sit back and watch carefully now, K.O." he clicks his tongue and gives his kid a two finger salute before clearing his throat. "Hey there, Mr. Chameleon Sr.! I heard about what our boys did today and though we could show them the right way to solve conflict — by talking things out!"

"Ha! You think I'll let that little squirt of yours slide after zinging my precious boy? I want to fight! Bleh!" He shoots his tongue across the roof and Laser rolls to dodge it.

"Look, I appreciate a good battle as much as anyone! But fighting over something so silly sends the wrong message to our sons, dontcha, think? We should sit down and-" he dodged the kaiju's tail, only for Chameleon Sr. to turn invisible. "Huh-? Mr. Chame- !!!" He manages to dodge again and Chameleon Sr. laughs.

"You're pretty good at not fighting, just like your weakling of a son." Laser stops in his tracks.

"You did not just insult my son." Chameleon Sr. laughs harder

"And If I did? What are you gonna do about it?"

"I'm gonna challenge you... to a POWER BATTLE!"

"HA! Now, what could your puny coward arms and coward legs ever hope to do-" He grabs the kaiju's tongue and punches him, and the two began to fight.

"What do I do? Dad's made this situation even bigger. Wait a minute. That's it!" He grabs the lunchbag of burritos and walks up to Chameleon Sr. "Excuse me"

"Hi, Mr. Chameleon Sr., sir. I'm K.O.. This whole thing started because I took too long to order my food, so I was hoping we could all eat these peace-offering burritos together and forget this whole thing ever happened."

"Aww, that's real sweet of you, kid. The only problem is, I'm a forgetful guy, and I don't like sharing." He eats K.O and the story once again continues as normal.

"Wow. I guess there are all sorts of different families, huh?"

"There sure are, sweetie. Looks like you've learned a valuable lesson today, K.O."

"Yeah. Seems like inside every bully is a big, sweaty, troubled man."

"True. But also, you learned you shouldn't escalate situations you can't handle." He taps his nose and chuckles

"So does this mean I'm not grounded anymore?"

"Oh-ho-ho-no, you're still grounded." He laughs, ruffling K.O.'s hair

"But Daaaad, you escalated things with a power battle!"

"Huh, well then I guess I'm grounded too!"

"Huh?" He hops into his dad's arms and laughs "you grounded yourself!"

"Welp. Guess I can't take you out for surprise ice cream, either. Oh, well."

Laser laughs as K.O. rocks back and forth in his arms

"Noooo! Unground yourself. Unground yourself!"

This was a really fun episode to do in full! So much so I accidentally made one too many screenshot edits

Although I'm sorry it's taken so long to start up on asks again, I've been distracted with work and the campaign. Expect more to be answered over the next couple days

[changbinsboobs]

haii can you do skz ideal types? like physique and personality. thank youu

Hi:) since i want to do those readings properly im gonna do them one by one and since i already have some for individual members i'll use this ask to start with chan:)

So, i originally started doing an Ideal Type reading but it got hijacked😅 so i guess im reading on his current energy. I'll try to still add something about his ideal type if i manage getting past the bitter energy but i think ill have to redo it some other time since i believe his opinion would be very influenced by his current feelings right now.

Take it with a grain of salt!!!

Chan's current energy / Ideal Typ

For his physical type i got pretty weird cards ngl, 3 of them are the tower, 5 of cups and 5 of wands, the 4th one's queen of pentacles. Tbh i didn't really get any hints about anything physical. He seems angry and bitter.

I think this reading is gonna be hijacked by something else he wants to talk about. I sense he has had a bitter experience thats still fresh in his mind, i think he got dumped tbh!

Like im seeing a situation with lots of bickering. Ogmg ok wait i have so much to say about it this situation has so many layers!

He feels like he lost something great and regrets his stupid actions.

At the same time tho he thinks its that persons fault and if they were better he wouldn't have acted in a way that would get him dumped.

But then again he feels like he's at fault and regrets it a lot.

But he's also so angry cuz they kept having fights, and she kept exhausting him and he kept not being enough. He feels horrible when he's not enough! He doesn't want to feel like that. He wants to live up to her expectations, to peoples expectations. But he just couldn't in this situation with that person.

It seems like he actually got himself a high quality girl - the he couldn't keep obviously. And he's in so much distress with all his conflicting feelings and thoughts. Im sry but im getting a bit angry at him here🙄 its that male stupidity with lack of accountability whatsoever! You cant expect to give the bare minimum, to be an excuse of a "man" and except to get all the perks real man and masculinity gets you! Deal with the consequences bro🙄 -> not necessarily meaning him, im just seeing the picture from his view, so idk how "horrible" he actually was, i was rather talking about the general population of useless men that just have the audacity to expect the best when they themselves aren't worthy of it and then get mad when they can't keep it.

Anyways back to chan - im also getting mommy's boy vibes here omg its getting worse😩😭 i feel like with this situation he's like "forget her bro, she's not worth it. Your mom used to cook and clean, and take care of 3 children and do everything by herself and she didn't whine and was always so giving. I want a woman like that! This girl wasn't lie my mother - she's not worth it, get over her and stop feeling guilty." Don't take that monologue word for word i was rather training to paint the feeling behind his thoughts.

So yeah we have that...tbh i didn't expect him to have a reaction like that like with the comparison to his mom. The rest i expected, but this? Damn🥲

Also this whole situation seems very dramatic, but what I've noticed in the male population overall is that they tend to blow things way put of proportion, and so knowing chan and his tendencies for a victim-complex, pick me, delulu and stuff - im pretty sure this situation might've been not dramatic at all. Just 2-3 little discussions (not full blown arguments and fights as he depicts it) or even just opposing opinions, where he just felt attacked in some way just by her disagreeing or something...and then after a few dates or weeks of dating she politely told him she doesn't want to see him anymore cuz they don't see compatiable and he broke down.

Again idk how things are for real cuz i haven read the other girls energy nor have i read just the energy itself, im just reading HIS energy and perception, but it feels really needy and excagerated so thats whats leading me to believe that it might not be nearly as bad.

So i managed to get some cards on his ideal types personality only and i got those: 3 of cups, 6 of pentacles, page of cups & king of wands.

His types a younger, more innocent and inexperienced girl he can take care of and teach and lead.

She likes a girl that's social but shy. Someone he can take with when meeting his friends and show of. But as i said - social enough for him to be able to do that - but but also shy so he stays sure that theres no risk of her "going wild" (goddamn bro u forreal?🫠)

Im actually getting something about physical appearance - slender, middle hight, like just a bit shorter than him, prefferably forreign with lighter skin and ginger or light brown or dark blonde hair. Im also seeing big head? Like yk this type of body with very slender narrow shoulders, long lanky arms and legs, but a bigger head where it also seems disproportionate to the body? Its so specific i almost think thats what his last girl looked like.

And he also wants a girl thats submissive and will see up to him and make him feel like a boss or a king or a ...daddy (🤢 im sry i just cant hold in the cringe)

In conclusion - i think this ideal type i got from the cards isn't his true ideal type but rather something that came out of spite. Like if i had to guess he's describing the girl he lost, but without her empowering qualities so that he doesn't get hurt.

Judging on the energy of this reading and previous ones ive done i think he has had a think for strong dominant women because he's fascinated with inner strength and power and always wanted to conquer a woman like that because in his head it meant he has that amount of power and strength the said woman had and even more - since he has managed to tame and conquer her. Now that he's tried tho he got met with the cold reality and got a slap in the face realizing he might not be fit for the task just yet and is just sour about it😃

As weird and unexpected this reading was i really enjoyed it cuz it was really shocking to me actually and even gave me a bit of a slap in the face, reminding me how he's just a man...and that he apparently does stupid things like any other guy too.

[angesaurus]

The kids went to Grammy’s for a sleepover and Grammy also gave us a movie gift card AND we had a free movie ticket pass so Dan and I went to see Wicked. I LOVED it. We saw the show in Philly back in 2013 but we had crappy seats so it was not the best experience (Dan bought limited viewing seats not realizing that’s why they were so cheap LOL).

But we get to the theater and go to the theater it’s in, and sonic is playing??? We were confused because our movie was set to start very soon! Dan went to go ask about it and the girl who scanned our tickets is like oh no never mind you are theater 5 not 4! So we’re like oh ok. Guess they changed the theater? Go into theater 5. We purposely picked end seats and our seats were NOT on the end. The new theater layout was way bigger than the theater layout we chose seats for on the app (so the seats we chose were now in the middle). We were like WTF? I asked another group to confirm they were also seeing wicked here and they were. So I was like well whatever, we’ll just sit in the seats we picked even though they changed the theater on us. Then I was like well no, this is annoying I purposely chose the end!

So I went out to talk to the girl and she’s like eh go to the box office they can move your seats. I’m like oh ok! Well the box office was like “I’m so sorry but the manager is really busy because we are very short staffed! Go ahead and sit in the end seats you want, if someone comes and makes you move, then let us know and we’ll make sure we fix it” … I was like well okay! The movie was about to start so I went back in the theater and we just stayed in the seats bc I felt like I was being annoying lol plus like really who cares? We paid for the movie regardless. then a few minutes later a huge group comes in and they are like hey these are our seats??? And Dan was like no these are ours? And we show each other the seat numbers. So now we’re like WTF? So I say it’s fine we’ll move (down to the end, which is what I wanted LOL). The movie was literally a few minutes from starting and I hate conflict so I was like it’s fine!!!! Whatever! I just want to enjoy the movie yay end seats.

But still at this point I’m like WTF is going on. I ask Dan to check the app to see what seats are still available and he’s like well the 2 new end seats we are in are open still so we’re fine. But he’s like “but I don’t understand! When I bought the tickets, the theater layout was different! Ther was the long row in the middle and then the rows on the sides only had 2 seats each! This theater is way bigger, so all the seats are messed up!! And my tickets say theater 4 still!!!” So we’re like, well fine after the movie we will definitely find a manager and ask about it because this all just seems weird and the whole point of choosing your seat is that you choose your seat! It’s not our fault they changed the theater!!!

Well then Dan keeps looking at his app and the tickets and he finally realizes …. He purchased tickets for TOMORROW 💀💀💀💀💀 I was like SERIOUSLY 😂😂😂

But what’s so weird is the girl scanned our tickets???? And at first an error message popped up and she rescanned them and let us go in????? Wouldn’t it have been like nope not valid and she would have said something??? We had already bought popcorn so like maybe she didn’t want to deal with it???? I have rbf but I’m really nice to employees??? 😂😂😂😂

At this point though I’m like well what should we do????? And Dan was like nothing let’s just stay and then we won’t bother saying anything obviously bc it’s our fault 😂😂😂😂 so dumb. I am still laughing about it!!!!! I mean we did pay for tickets!!!! 😂

[calcat89]

Starting a list of things that happened in the six month time skip between criminal minds season 17 and season 18 that I would LOVE to have more details on because they’re kind of important plot points 🙃🙃🙃 Fingers crossed we get some details on these this season:

The whole team found out about BAUgate, after a huge effort to keep it from everyone last year (including from JJ who was a victim of sexual exploitation ON THE FUCKING WEBSITE!!!!!!!!) I guess my questions are how, who, when, where, why, and what were the reactions? Would love to know more lol. I personally just hate this storyline so my irritation may have to do with that- I really just have no interest in watching these woman be victims of deepfake porn 😕

Tyler seems much more stable and happy and is an active and accepted member of the team. Love that! Hopefully therapy was involved in that. Yay mental health! This one is a less important plot hole but would still love a throw away line about how he’s been hard at work in anger management or something like that

Tara and Rebecca are living together! This isn’t really a plot hole and their relationship has already been a focus these first two episodes so this one isnt a complaint, but I would still love to hear more about how their relationship developed in that time - they went from bitter, rather contentious exes to living together and I do wish we got to see some of that!

Penelope has been visiting Voit for…some time????? Has it been the full six months, just a month? How did Luke find out? Does the rest of the team besides Emily know? Is Emily keeping it a secret or what?? How does the team feel about this??? If the whole team knows about BAUgate including Penelope, how does JJ feel about the fact that Penelope is still going to see him??? Not saying that to pass any judgement on my queen Penelope but like…it is a potential point of conflict.

[honeyinthesummer]

hii! as u asked for some requests, can u write one where kit walker sleeps over his gf!reader house bc she is having a really hard time going through something personal in her life and kit wants to comfort and reassure her... so that he cuddles her in bed and keep running his fingers through her hair while talking to her and stuff, also telling her stuff of how he dealt with bad things that ge went through in briarcliff?

kit walker x gf!reader. comfort. 670 words.

"The last thing you've thought of before you sleep will be the topic of your dreams."

"That's not true."

"Yes, it is! Why do you think I'm sleep-deprived for the past few weeks?"

Your voice breaks at the last few words in your futile attempt to make small talk to ease your nerves. Kit's heart clenches at the sound of it.

"It's like I can't catch a fucking break."

Even if you're baring yourself to him now, you've only given him bits and pieces of your conflict, not enough to help him paint a picture or give appropriate advice. But the way it eats you up to the point you refuse to sleep because you know your mind will just play games and let it haunt you in your dreams, he's never felt as useless.

"The longer I sit this one out, the more chokehold it'll have on my life. Every time I close my eyes to take a moment, it's all I can see. It's all I can think. It's all I can hear. And I'm just so tired. Why are bad things always happening to me?"

Hot tears pool at your eyes, and the room seems warmer and smaller.

Kit brings his hand to your face to cup your cheeks. You're the picture of vulnerable, bordering on giving up. Besides loving you, Kit must ensure you don't lose your spark.

"I wish I could take away what's eating you, love. From all I've heard, you don't deserve to be this shaken over something you didn't want to happen in the first place. It seems like you got caught up in something you had no intention of occurring, and you're getting all the lashes for it."

"How did you do it?"

"Do what?"

"Briarcliff. You got caught up in something you never wanted to happen in the first place. It wasn't your intention to hurt women. You beat yourself up for it."

He doesn't respond momentarily, and you just realized how ridiculous you sound. Not only are your circumstances different and irrelevant to another, you just forced him to unpack all the hurt he's been trying to heal for years.

"Just to be clear, you're bent on something you never wanted to happen in the first place?" Confusion seeps in at Kit's sudden question, but you nod.

"You know, I seriously believed I was responsible for those women for a while. Maybe every accusation they hurl my way carried an ounce of truth somewhere. And I let myself get lost in it, and I was ready to own up to the rumors."

"But someone told me if I'm starting to believe what they say about me, then that means I'm completely innocent. Because I would never doubt myself if I were the one who had done it. I guess what matters is when you know the truth, you fight for it."

You don't respond. You looked at Kit softly, taking in the man who's been in way worse conditions than you'll ever be, and still managed to be the gentlest person you know.

"You're not saying anything," Kit laughs nervously. "I just gave a shit advice."

Laughter bursts from you, and whatever fear Kit had in him dissolved quickly. He takes in the sight of you, your cheeks up and red, your lips in a smile, probably the first time in a few weeks.

"No, you're right." Your hand fidgets with Kit's ring finger, tracing your name on his skin. "Some situations are out of our control, but that doesn't mean we must give up. I shouldn't let it throw me off-balance."

Your boyfriend listens intently as you fully explain to him what's been eating you up for weeks, and he reels in how your uneasiness stems from the worry of other people's thinking of you after what happened. But this time you're eager. Braver even. Because you just told him how to stop this and claim your well-deserved peace. Attagirl.

a/n: i'm sorry this took long! i hope it brings justice to what you asked <3. i give shit advice btw so this was hard... JSKAJSJSJHEHE

[pamshindouu]

Aside from the "reverse Frontier" thing I've mentioned before, something that's pretty high on my list of things I'd like to see in future Digimon anime is a story set in a world where humans and digimon live together.

A bunch of thoughts under the cut, because I got a little too excited and wrote too much (this is pretty long and probably doesn't make much sense, just me thinking out loud, also spoiler warning for... a little bit of everything I guess? Nothing too major except for some Savers stuff... I think):

It's something I've been wanting ever since I was a small child watching the 02 epilogue and thinking the following season would continue the story with the next generation living in a world where every human has a digimon partner (I still remember how disappointed I was when "Digimon 3" as they called it started airing and it was a completely different story dfgj), and I keep wanting it more and more especially as recent seasons have stopped doing the "humans and digimon must separate" thing at the end and instead started allowing the kids and their partners to stay together more often (with Ghost Game ending on a somewhat similar note to 02 with the promise of a new world where humans and digimon coexist).

I know there are some games that have sorta similar concepts, like humans living in the Digital World alongside the digimon and all that, and I haven't played any of those yet so I can't say for sure but... as far as I can tell they're not really the same thing? Like they're not really focused on exploring that setting, and it's still the Digital World similar to what we know. Still, I should probably look into those eventually. I'm sure I'm missing out on some great stuff.

I just think there's so much potential in that concept, with how different yet similar digimon and humans are, and how contrasting their societies and perspectives can be. We've been shown how digimon struggle to adapt to life in the human world, how their views tend to conflict with those of humans, who on their part struggle to accept any reality different from the one they know.

(I was just remembering the case with the Sorcerimon in Hacker's Memory who wanted to work at the hospital. When he said he wasn't sure if humans would accept having a digimon working at a human hospital, my heart sank a little. Because I was sadly reminded of how very similar situations happen in real life with actual real people. If humans struggle to accept differences within their own species, I can only imagine how much messier the situation would get with an entirely different, yet equally intelligent one...)

Of course ideally I would prefer this world to be free of any such conflicts, just an ideal society where the two species coexist in harmony. That'd be nice. But this is Digimon, so I'm sure they would want to explore that angle as well, and not just have everything work out perfectly. And there's potential for some really powerful storytelling if they do decide to go down that route. Ghost Game handled that subject pretty well with the multiple instances of digimon trying to help humans in some way but failing to communicate properly or misunderstanding the way humans do things, or managing to do it right but having their help rejected by humans who were too afraid of these strange creatures to let themselves be helped. There were also plenty of evil digimon, of course. Just like there are plenty of evil humans (a particular villain from another season comes to mind).

Something else I've been curious about is the concept of human-digimon families. Ghost Game had Gammamon be treated as Hiro's little brother, and it handled that sibling dynamic really nicely. I've also really been enjoying Digimon Knuckles with the father-son dynamic between Gankoomon and Haruka (this reminds me I really need to draw fanart for some of these new manga eventually). Speaking of father-son dynamics, I suppose we also had something kinda similar back in Savers with BanchoLeomon and Masaru, although that's a bit of a special case since that was actually Masaru's father in there, but it was also BanchoLeomon since they were sharing a body (another concept that fascinates me, but it has nothing to do with this topic). Two dads in one I guess. And of course we also had Ikuto who was raised in the Digital World and had both a mother figure in Yukidarumon and a father figure in Mercurymon (there's also something really amusing about the fact that the main trio's digimon partners were raised in the human world and could in a way be considered more human than Ikuto who was raised as a digimon, another fascinating situation). Imagine how many more interesting family dynamics we could get in a world where the two species live together, where a digimon adopting a human into their family, or vice-versa, would probably be a pretty common occurrence.

And on the topic of families, I also wonder what life would be like for humans and digimon who happen to fall in love and want to share a life together. Would human/digimon marriage be a thing? Or would these relationships be frowned upon? If I had to guess, I'd say other humans would likely have a problem with it, as humans have historically been known to be very concerned about who other people love, but maybe digimon would be more accepting of it. After all, digimon themselves come in so many shapes and sizes. And I imagine with how complicated humans are, the digimon who share a world with them have more important things to worry about...

How would governments work in this world? Would power be equally divided between digimon and humans? Would some areas be more dominated by humans and others by digimon? Would this have an impact on the specific cultures and laws of each place? I'm not sure if they would go very in depth into this particular topic, but it would be interesting to see all the different individual cultures that would exist in this world, born from the mix of human and digimon traditions, and influenced by which species is more predominant in each area. I guess it would also depend on the origins of this particular world, if it was originally the human world that the digimon were transported into, or the other way around, or the result of both worlds physically merging together. It would also vary depending on which version of the Digital World got thrown into this I suppose. So many possibilities...

And this is a bit of a weird idea, but in a world where humans and digimon just coexist and share everything in their day to day lives... could human-digimon hybrids be a thing? Either as a product of science, or magic, maybe strange new evolution mechanics or just... general Digimon shenanigans? We've had somewhat similar concepts in the past but I think we have yet to see a being that is full-on half human half digimon? Not a being that can change between both forms but one that's just both at the same time. From birth. Don't think we've had that, but someone please correct me if I'm wrong. I'm just wondering if these could perhaps become a somewhat common occurrence in this hypothetical world. And how things would be like for them, as entities that effectively bridge the gap between both species, and could be seen as the future of this world. Would they just be having constant existential crises, not knowing exactly where they belong (also kind of like Ikuto, I suppose)? I think something like that could make for an interesting plot point in this setting, perhaps.

So far I've been thinking of this world as the result of humans and digimon coming in contact with each other after having always existed separately, but what if they had instead always been together? Would all the conflicts I previously wondered about not exist, or would it all just be the same? I'm now thinking about the lore in Digimon Survive where both worlds were originally one and then got split in half. What if it was a similar situation but where that separation never happened? OR what if it did but then they were united again (pretty much like what happens at the end of Survive in most routes, with varying results)? How would all these different circumstances affect the appearance and rules of this world?

I also wonder how the concept of partnerships would work here. Obviously this depends on the setting to begin with, we could be talking about fated soulmate type bonds like the ones in Adventure and Survive or something that is entirely decided by the individuals themselves. But what I'm wondering specifically is how these would work alongside other relationships between humans and digimon. I love it whenever we get to see human characters interact with digimon other than their partners, or when they're able to switch partners in certain circumstances (Ghost Game had some really cool instances of this, and I'm also remembering that one battle in Xros Wars against Yuu, the one where it's revealed at the end that they had swapped all their digimon around THAT WAS SO COOL), and it would be really interesting to see situations like that in this particular setting! Like, idk, you could have a human and a digimon who are partners and love each other a lot but also have entirely separate lives aside from that and have different friend groups made up of both humans and digimon, who are not all necessarily partnered up with each other either. So many fun interesting scenarios to explore!

Anyway... this has gotten a little long hasn't it? I just have a lot of thoughts on this. I think it's a concept with so much potential and I wanna see it so bad...

[felixcloud6288]

Dungeon Meshi Chapter 30

With this chapter, the first part of the story concludes.

That ghost is saying something unintelligible. Maybe it's speaking the ancient language the kingdom used? The ghosts in chapter 11 never said anything but the ghost of Olman in the chapter 26 flashback was able to speak.

I can interpret that beat panel before the ghosts vanish in so many ways. What I think most strongly is happening is the ghost is making a plea to the party before leaving. Other things I thought of was the ghosts are having a momentary loss of their sanity before regaining their minds and leaving, they thought the party was a threat before realizing they're the guys who fought the magician, or they decided to bail because they realized the orcs were coming.

The orc chief is Zon. That will make things easier. Now his sister is the unnamed character.

Of all the orcs we see this chapter, Zon's sister is the only female among them. My guess is the orcs split into an evacuation and recon team. The evacuation team was led by Zon and contained the women, children, and half the men. The recon team consisted of Zon's sister and the other half of the men.

The evac team was simply meant to keep all the non-combatants safe while they waited for the dragon to leave. The recon team would track the dragon and report when it was safe to return. Sinze Zon's sister is a medic, she stayed with the recon team since that group was at constant risk of encountering a dragon.

There's something cute about seeing these orcs sniff Senshi. It's giving me the same vibe as when a dog or pig approaches you to sniff you.

This is the second time the party has interacted with orcs and it's reinforcing everything I said about orc/human history back in chapter 9. The orcs were perfectly amicable to the party and are willing to help them out. Sure, the orcs were originally going to kill the party until Senshi stepped in, but adventurers kill orcs on sight so it's pragmatic that orcs respond in kind.

I'm sure the orcs are not as violent or barbaric as everyone thinks they are, but since every other race is hostile to the orcs and their civilizations are always destroyed, orcs have to be violent to survive and they never manage to build up a comparable society.

Moving on.

Ryoko Kui continues to commit to the bit.

Zon sister appears to be a shaman of some kind. So drinking and spitting out the medicine might be how she infuses the medicine with mana. I wonder where orcs fall on the mana capacity limit Marcille mentioned in MMT4. They're probably on the lower end but above dwarves.

I hope this comes up later and is jokingly referenced as Laios's first kiss.

I hope this comes up later and is jokingly referenced as Marcille's first kiss.

Zon's sister knows enough about the magician that they've probably interacted with him a few times. Maybe the magician offers the orcs amnesty as long as they stay away from the main parts of the dungeon. The orcs' presence also acts as a deterrent and obstacle to adventurers so the magician tolerates them. The dungeon might even predate the conflicts between orcs and the other races so the magician might not have any of prejudices against orcs.

How many missing adventurers are people who got the magician's ire and were sealed into the dungeon like the party was last chapter?

Zon gave the party info on the dragon knowing that if they killed it, they'd draw the magician's attention.

I went back through chapter 9 to see if there might have been anything that could let me figure out what was going on in Zon's head. At the start of the chapter, he refused to tell the party where the red dragon was because he'd have to reveal where the orc village was. He also mentioned his disdain for adventurers because they're all greedy and he doesn't want any of them to inherit the kingdom.

He only gave the party information on the dragon after sharing a meal with them. So maybe he thought that people willing to enjoy a meal with orcs might be trustworthy. Zon probably assumed he'd be sending the party to their deaths, but if they beat the red dragon, then the orcs can go back home. And if they beat the magician, Laios would be the best option out of all these adventurers for the orcs.

How have I written all this and not gotten into the main part of the chapter.

Anyway, Chilchuck and Zon's sister make their way back to the camp to pick up all the party's things and Chilchuck is trying to figure out how to convince them to abandon their quest.

As Chilchuck recounts what happened, we're shown images from his perspective of everything that happened followed by his comments which really downplay the severity of the situation. Take the one where he talked about Falin protecting them. Chilchuck says they started a fire near the dragon's fuel sac but Falin cast a defensive spell and protected them.

Now imagine the full scene from Chilchuck's perspective. He and the others are running toward Senshi when a giant explosion erupts from the dragon. Chilchuck covers his face expecting to burn to death only to see the flames not reach you. Then you look around and see Falin casting a spell.

And he further downplays the seriousness of what happened when they fought the dragon and magician. From Chilchuck's perspective, he got knocked out when he tried to retrieve Laios's sword. Then he was healed by Marcille and was screaming in pain. Then he looks over and sees Laios calmly sitting there with his leg missing.

And when they fought the magician, Chilchuck could only stand behind Marcille while she protected everyone from the magician's attack.

He was terrified seeing everyone risk their lives over all this, but Chilchuck insists on downplaying things because he doesn't want to admit how scared he is.

And being told to be honest and tell the others he's scared they'll die broke his brain.

Quick little backend thing I want to share. In MMT4, I was planning on making a joke about Laios's feet as part of the warg section. The plan was that if I could confirm the orcs have five toes, then I'd argue that Laios is either missing toes or has polydactyly. And the joke would have written itself because all the shots of Laios's severed foot only showed four toes.

I'm just bringing it up because the shots of Laios's foot this chapter confirm that his right foot has five toes.

Zon's sister is impressed Laios is able to fight through all the pain and not be stopped by Chilchuck and Senshi.

After Chuilchuck's heart-to-heart, the first act of this story has concluded. The party succeeded at rescuing Falin only for her to be snatched away by the magician. With no options and not enough supplies to continue, they opt to return to the surface to restock and report what is happening in the hopes they can come better equipped. The orcs offer their aid as well so the second journey should take less time. And time may not be as urgent as before.

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[remnantsofthepast-if]

What exactly you didn't like in new da, if you don't mind asking? <3

Oof, where to start? There're quite a lot of things, not gonna lie, but most of them are spoilers so I'm going to stick to the non spoilery ones.

Let me begin by saying that I do like the game despite its clear flaws, and I understand that it must have been a tricky development with covid happening in between and a lot of important people who worked on previous games leaving. As a (somewhat of a) developer myself, I sympathise with that, but as a consumer I have to judge the end result I bought, and after waiting for a decade I just expected something more than what we got.

Putting my opinion under the cut because I get passionate about it. Hope you have time to spare, lol!

For starters, this game gets rid of the Keep and only has three choices to import. While most of the things in the Keep are not really important (especially since the game takes place in the north), that's already a bad start and rises serious concerns, mainly with the returning characters.

It also butchers half of the already existing lore, and contradicts another bunch of events that happened in previous games, like the Well of Sorrows. Harding talks about how the Inquisitor went to the altar of Mythal (which only happens if the Inquisitor drank from the Well), but then, during a conversation between Taash and Emmrich, they talk about how Morrigan turned into a dragon during the events of DAI (which only happens of she drank from the Well)

The pacing of the first half of the game is excruciatingly slow. There are a lot of parts that are there only to lengthen the game unnecessarily, and it can get very boring very fast.

The dialogues are... okay-ish, I guess? It's very obvious that they wanted to be socially correct. Way too much, in fact. They seemed so focused on being inoffensive that there’s little real conflict between characters or in the plot. There's a part where two characters apparently argue? Except that there's no real argument. I only knew because the game told me, otherwise I wouldn't have noticed because again, nothing really happened. And they were completely fine with one another after one conversation two minutes later.

All the companions feel rather dull to me, and some are incredibly annoying. For example, there was a series of quests regarding Solas that I enjoyed at lot, and the companions would get together to comment on it. It was a serious and very interesting subject, but then one of the characters would jump out of the blue to (try to) make some witty remark that only managed to take me out of the story.

Plus, the childish dialogue most of them have (all of them, really) doesn't help at all. Another problem of being socially correct in a game that's supposed to be dark. Most of the time, conversations with them feel more like talking to teenagers than adults.

And don't even get me started on how awful Taash's character is... And no, the problem is not their gender identity, but how it was handled. This ask I got about Albert/Lavina describes perfectly my problem with Taash.

Also, and this only happens with the spanish translation, why the fuck did they translate Harding's name? Why is the text calling her Encaje instead of Lace!? God, that pissed me off so much I ended up changing the text to english, lmao!

Lastly, what they did to some of the returning characters... Poor Isabela, smh. Thank goodness Morrigan doesn't have that big of a role, and that there's zero mention of the Warden and Hawke.

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It's not as bad as I read in early reviews (thankfully!), and I'm still having fun with it. But I expected to get so invested that I'd end up making several runs like in previous games. Now I'm only playing once and probably forget about it for a long while. Hopefully when (if) I replay it I won't ditch it like I ditched my second run of MEA.

Anyway, TLDR: Mediocre at best. Good individual game, but pretty bad sequel. The only good thing this game does as a sequel is give those Inquisitors who romanced Solas a happy ending. That's pretty much it.

The name "Dragon Age" weights heavily on it. Probably the reason why I'm judging it so harshly.

Thanks for the ask, btw! That was entertaining xD Shame on me for spending more time writing this than a chapter of my story, lol!

[faelune-home]

FFXIVWrite 2024 #21: Shade

(A/n: Another sort of interaction piece for the role quest series, this time G'raha and Hien. Both my ranged quests so far have had this allusion to G'raha's long life and former duties and the weight that would leave on him...idk why, I think it just pairs well with Hien's troubles in the quest series, despite being a young man only new to the position of responsibility.

Having a duty of care to people as a leader, but also having to cope with the losses even if they're out of your control, but people also feeling like you shoudl've known how to prevent it.

Keeping this one short due to the time left to write but also, as I said last time, I already make these so long I should embrace the shorter writings as well.

Word count: 966)

It was a night not dissimilar to the night before the siege and recapture of Doma Castle - Hien sat by candlelight nursing a cup of sake, ruminating. The only difference was that there was no war on the horizon, no buzz of anticipation, just a heavy dread and uncertainty over a foe they couldn’t find.

And he was alone. No companions to join him and share in his musings. Yugiri was on patrol duty with her shinobi and Gosetsu…well.

He had a lot to think about - the fears of his people, the conflict in those that lost their loved ones to the Garleans, loved ones that never came home after conscription. Haunted by shades, and surely Minato had to count herself - the only reason she became their blasphemy was because he couldn’t ensure her beloved could return home.

In some way, he wanted to argue back, call out the unfairness of it all - he was only one man, and he couldn’t do everything. For all his training, he couldn’t face down the Empire on his own, lest he be cut down like his father before him. He couldn’t storm the camps and save the people all on his own.

But he couldn’t do that. A prince can’t argue back. As the figurehead of the people, he had to hold his head up and atone for the losses under his name.

A creak of the wood outside his room startled him from his thoughts. His door was still closed but he could hazard a guess at who it was - the servants and the shinobi knew where the weak spots were.

Indeed when he strode across the room and opened the door, G’raha jumped back at his arrival, looking sheepish to have been caught.

“My apologies, my lord, I didn’t mean to wake you,” he started.

“Not at all, I wasn’t even sleeping. Too much on my mind. Why are you awake?”

“I just…to be honest, sleep eludes me as well. I feel as though there’s more I should be able to do, more names to search through, and I can’t find rest until I do,” G’raha sighed, tail lashing behind him. “I got up for a drink. I didn’t want to bother your people at this late hour.”

Thinking it over, Hien dared to step aside, inviting access to his quarters, and asked, “Would sake do? Perhaps we can share our burdens together. Though if you’d prefer water instead, I can get you some.” G’raha’s ears perked up, surprised at the offer, but he nodded.

“Nay, I’ll manage with the sake. Thank you, my lord.”

Even once they’d settled down, chat was idle at first, Hien trying to find out how his guest had settled during his time at the Enclave before broaching the subject properly.

“If I may,” he said, finally making the move, “I obviously do not know you truly beyond what little Fhara told me, but I get an impression off of you.”

“Oh?”

“Like you’re much more experienced than one of your years would suggest. The way you take on the burden of the lost prisoners, the transformed peoples, as though it is something already familiar to you in some way. Am I wrong?”

G’raha sipped from his cup, then placed it down, letting Hien refill it again, giving him time to think of a response.

“You’re not wrong. Though forgive me if it isn’t something I would like to go into detail on. But yes, I’ve certainly lived a life experiencing loss, and feeling the burdens of one responsible for many peoples. Much like yourself.”

Hien downed his own cup in one go, but forewent a refill.

“I wouldn’t pry into your personal matters. But knowing we are of similar experiences, I would ask some advice of you. Though maybe it is less advice I ask for, and more just solace, given our current times.”

A flick of the ear.

“Whatever it is, I’ll provide what aid I can.”

“As it stands now, we know our quarry - a woman turned through the loss of her husband through conscription. He never came home, while many others are reunited with their loved ones. Those that turn are of similar despair to Lady Minato. Especially those that would’ve suffered personally at the hands of Yotsuyu, who they got to see roam free, even if in a highly compromised state. It was my decision that she lived, and the people would’ve known that. They resent me, as they should, and I know not how to appease them now.”

His hand tightened into a fist, frustrations brewing.

“This isn’t about appeasement though, is it?” G’raha asked, seeing this.

“Nay.Though I may vent to you, I wouldn’t ask you to solve my problem for me. It is my duty to bridge the gap between me and my people, especially after I burnt it in the first place. I suppose the problem I seek your help with is more a personal one.”

He was stalling. How unlike him. Hien knew if Gosetsu was here, he would’ve pried it out of him before any of the rambling could even begin. He sighed, trying to push aside the memory of his absent friend to focus on his guest in front of him, still aware he was making him wait.

“How does one cope with having shades to haunt your every hour, reminding you of your failures? How do you ignore them so that you may focus on the people in front of you, on moving into the future?”

G’raha didn’t respond for a long while, red piercing eyes seeming looking right through Hien a million miles away. And when he finally did respond, it was only two words, but they carried the weight of a lifetime upon them.

“You don’t.”

[isei-silva]

As I am replaying Deyaenus and re-exploring his character through RP, I noticed the difference in how I RP'd him in the past, versus how I play him now - especially in regards to his confidence. His lack thereof before, to today's abundance. Back in the day, Deyaenus was far more ill-tempered, anxious, and depressed; a reflection of myself. We often say and try not to bleed over into our characters, but these figments of our imaginations are our brain-puppets, and as ours as can be are inevitably reflected by the thoughts, emotions, and constitution of their birth place.

Once my exterior environment changed and bettered, so did I. And, by extension, so did Deyaenus. This reflected itself in RP through a burst of confidence and tempered demeanor from the character that was a pleasant surprise.

Mind you, the meat and potatoes of the character has not changed: opinionated, stubborn in some archaic beliefs, and faction biased. You know, the good stuff that people dislike him for. And that's fine! I enjoy being the "in-the-wrong" character if it helps push other people's RPs and character development. Both those things can only really move forward with conflict.

"It's me hi, I'm the problem, it's me~"

It's just funny how I remember Deyaenus, as a Holy Priest, desperately clinging to the doctrines of the Church, the Light, and stomping his foot about being right in it all, when he was at his emotional lowest because being part of something greater and as non-negotionable as The Light made him feel just as indomitable. He could hide behind the white robes, and the verses and preaching, behind prayer, behind dogmatic virtues of beliefs carved by mortals, because it made him feel good. He wanted to be a preacher for the immediate idolation he would get, for the attention, the praise, bask in the benefit of devotion, from the lack of receiving the same in his home life. Of course he never recognized this himself, and he DOES truly, honestly believe in the goodness that the Church has extended and wants to be part of that, but with that little sidenote of "and I will get everyone's love and respect because of it too".

Now, as a Shadow Priest, stuck with a parasitc infant (not so?) Old God and dealing with it through the adventures, trials, and shenanigans thereof, he is both at his loneliest (no guild, friends moved on, on-and-off romance(?)) and, at the same time, his most confident. I've been personally headcannoning and RP'ing that the void parasite - named Junior - managed to anchor itself to the physical realm by feeding on Deyaenus' depression and poor emotional state. He doesn't know it, recognize it, or think about it, under the misguided belief that this is just normal and every shadow priest has a little bugger like his. It's not like the parasite has 'eaten' or removed or replaced Deyaenus' depression. It's, much like in Real Life, you can eventually learn to positively live with it! I still have the same poor thoughts, fears, and insecurities as before, when I first roleplayed Deyaenus and these were more evident both in RP and in myself, but over time I've grown to nurture myself, build myself up, and find confidence inwardly.

Nowadays, I like thinking that while Junior is the symbolic, physical manifestation of depression (how similar are those corruptive "your friends hate you" whispers in-game to actual depressive thoughts?), Deyaenus has learned to depend on himself and keep positive momentum regardless. Junior works for him. Deyaenus can't afford to wallow in these poorly thoughts, even though he won't ever get rid of them. And if ever he did end up overpowered by those thoughts, THAT'S when corruption would kick in at its strongest. THAT'S when depression eats you alive IRL too.

Deyaenus cannot ever get rid of depression, mental illness, what-have-yous, but what he has done is recognize it ("I guess this weird worm is part of me"), take responsibility for it ("The actions of this weird worm and the powers thereof are what I make of them"), and move forward with it ("Weird worm is coming with me whether I like it or not"). And he's that much better for it.

Not perfect, but better.

[wevelocityteampresents-blog]

Pokémon Pocket Monsters XY Volume 1 - Chapter 2

Red and his Pokémon spend some time at a school to avoid the summer heat.

The adventure in Kalos has just begun. And in the second chapter, we get yet another filler chapter. And by filler, I mean nothing important really happens in this story.

We're only 2 chapters into this saga, and the first place Red and the others go to is a school. And it's not like a Trainer's school like what we've seen in Pokémon Pocket Monsters RS and DP. Just your average school that teaches stuff like math and English. There could have been so many new story ideas Anakubo could've played with like fishing for Skrelp or Clauncher on Route 2 or having Clefairy hunt down Vivillon with rare patterns in Santalune Forest for a prize. But instead of anything like that happening, we're treated to what's essentially a sleepover in an abandoned school. (I guess Red, Clefairy, Pikachu, and Conkeldurr have become squatters now.)

Speaking of wasted ideas, we have our first appearance from Green after a few years of absence. His appearance in this chapter is brief and he's only there to give our heroes a conflict they'll have to resolve. 2 years away from the manga and this is the grand return he receives? There's also narrative issues revolving around Green's presence in this saga.

What's Green doing in the Kalos region? Why does he have a vacation home in Kalos? Is this his actual house? Is this story supposed to take place in Kanto? The manga won't answer any of that because why waste time trying to tell exciting, yet, hilarious stories when you can go skiing on a blackboard?

This isn't to say the chapter isn't entirely awful. For one, unlike its embarrassing predecessor, "Stay In School!" does away with the onslaught of exaggerated faces and uses them sparingly. This allows for some actual comedy that manages to get a chuckle out of me every few pages. It felt kind of nice to read a chapter of Pokémon Pocket Monsters XY that was genuinely pleasant to look at. If only this visual improvement was paired with a more engaging plot.

"Stay In School!" wasn't as bad as "New Pokémon Friends Appear!". But for the small improvements it presents, it is still riddled with plotholes, little to no attempts at gauging the interest of readers, and missed storytelling opportunities in what's supposed to be the latest saga of Pokémon Pocket Monsters. If the jokes aren't enough for you, this is one chapter you're not missing out on if you plan on skipping it.

I want to enjoy this series. I really do. But from what I've read so far, I'm still not impressed. No new Pokémon, no antagonists, not even a single Pokémon battle. It looks less like Red is on a journey to become the best or to expand his Pokémon collection and more like he's mucking around the country doing who knows what.

If Anakubo wanted to write an episodic comedy manga, I'd be perfectly fine with that. But this is Pokémon Pocket Monsters. A long-running manga that showcases a character on a journey with a specific goal in mind for him. When that part of the manga is tossed aside, it just becomes a shell of its former self and makes it difficult for a lot of long-time fans like myself to continue reading.

Maybe the manga will improve in a later chapter. (A MUCH later chapter.) But until I get to that specific chapter, the bar has been set incredibly low for me. And I only fear it'll get even lower as I keep reading.

TRANSLATOR'S NOTES

In what could be described as the most weirdest thing to happen in Pokémon Pocket Monsters, Pikachu actually speaks.

This is something that'll be kept as the manga continues. Pokémon like Pikachu won't be able to talk to other humans, but their words will still be shown. When translating this chapter, I wanted to make it a bit like Garfield. But after italicizing the text, it became a bit difficult to read. It wasn't until I read a few strips from a webcomic I used to enjoy called Random Doom that I wrote the Pokémon's sentences in parentheses. (It also matched with the original Japanese text.)

While this was an interesting change, it only makes my job more difficult than it needs to be.

[never-not-ever]

I had therapy and it wasn’t bad but it was also eh. I definitely feel more of a connection and can trust her more than my previous therapist who speaking of which is back from her medical leave and reached out about scheduling an appointment but I haven’t replied back. I’m not going to be working with again and I feel bad telling her that. Maybe I just won’t reply. But I feel like I owe her an answer.

Therapy today was challenging and she said in the end that she’s going to keep challenging me. I told her how conflicted I am cause my thoughts say one thing but then my actions show otherwise. Like me continuing to show up for therapy even when I’m having hopeless “what’s the point” thoughts…

I told myself before therapy that if she didn’t ask I wasn’t going to tell her which reminded me of inpatient. “Don’t ask, don’t tell”. A silly way around admitting to self harm. She did end up asking about the SI and the drinking and self harm urges so I told her the truth about yesterday. Part of me is saying that it wasn’t that bad, nothing to worry about. But I know it’s just opened the doors and soon it’ll escalate.

She didn’t however ask about the other stuff. Which my mind is going wild thinking I can just run with it. That it was stupid to have even brought it up during the last session. But that’s enough of that for now.

She mentioned how a lot of my thinking, especially in regards to self harm tends to focus on “rules” like “if this, then that” and I never really realized that before. I guess the whole “don’t ask, don’t tell” is a rule.

In the end we talked about upcoming appointments and I said how I’m already having urges to cancel next week but that my case manager is taking time off soon. I checked and said “next Monday I’m seeing her but that’s her last appointment so I guess I have to come”. She laughed and said “oh so you won’t cancel with me cause you have to see her”. Then she said something about “if I don’t see you next week then I’ll know something fishy is up”.

My mind is already thinking just cancel with both of them. I guess I could. We’ll see how the rest of this week goes.

I see my psychiatrist again tomorrow. I’ve seen him so much lately cause of med changes. I went back on Wellbutrin last week so he wanted to see me again soon to up the dose. I’m going to ask about increasing the gabapentin prn and frequency too. When I was inpatient it was up to 2 times a day and I don’t know why but outpatient it changed to just once a day. I wasn’t even using it up until the other day when I was spending time with my Nana. But it was helpful so I need to remember to ask him tomorrow.

I’m also seeing my case manager tomorrow too. I think we’re getting coffee. Then I’m done with appointments for this week thank god.