#and I had problems while doing it
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
He has seen things
#azi's doodles#digital doodle#guys I promise I will post actual art#i've been working on one and I've dropped sweat and blood while doing it#and I had problems while doing it#the file corrupted and I had to do the most annoying part of the render again and my computer died and had to get a backup#but luckily I didn't lost any data
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
if we're being honest. bobby should've died on a somewhat ordinary call Like Real Firefighters do. without any obvious Mortal peril present. maybe in a fire. and then it would have Hit.
#like that first fakeout death scene tim was cruel enough to do? something like that.#the team hoping and hoping and hoping he reappears and then he doesn't. and no one got to say goodbye.#because that's the reality of this job every day could be your last when you least expect it.#and not a call in a likelihood of one in a million.#like if you want to do tragedy then fucking commit.#sorry it might be finally sinking in like hima said.#and i'm angry about the fakeout. i'm angry maddie survived a slashed throat no problem but we had to lose bobby.#sooorry i might be oscillating between sitting on it summer mood and Show Crit for a while we'll see.#911
498 notes
·
View notes
Text
so, this post, huh
#cult of the lamb#cotl#cotl lamb#cotl narinder#the one who waits#toww#my art#started this a while ago had to stop cause i was having graphics card problems that made my screen ourple and i couldnt do colors properly#fixed it a few days ago though so i finished it the other night#uhm#cw suggestive#i th ink the other one is not really that but its a shipost so
734 notes
·
View notes
Text
so uhhhhhhhh. not to be cryptic and bitchy on main but congratulations to everyone in my messages for like 5 months on being right i guess
#ramble#ughhhhhhhhhhhh ok so#i will delete this later bc idk if this person has tumblr and i genuinely mean no ill will i just need an outside opinion#i vented about it on my close friends story already but i need like. a neutral party#i won't say their name but if you're on other socials you probably know who it is#basically for a while i've been getting messages saying 'this person has hacked your art style' or 'is REDACTED your alt account'#and in the beginning there were like. similarities? but nothing i could really claim and also i don't want to accuse someone of theft#like i don't own any stylistic choices or anything. i've used things from other artists i like. honestly it's kind of flattering#and we are actually really friendly in DMs now and we even joke about it. we message eachother any time we get a comment about it#i made a joke literally 2 weeks ago about how we're two different people i swear#but after adding some Very specific things to my art (like the paper texture/hatching/shiny lighting). they also added them#and i gave them the benefit of the doubt bc i don't like to believe anyone has bad intent with stuff like that. and i've done the same obvs#but recently they dropped some tav lore and it was. basically a panel for panel copy of one of my cyra comics down to the HAND PLACEMENT#and obviously i don't own the Bitch Mother trope or anything but it's just. mmmmm it makes me feel weird#idk it just feels like it's gone a bit far now and i'm not sure what to do about it#like you would think after we became moots they would get scared and stop but i think i was too openly trusting and they just kept going#recently someone on THEIR PATREON thought they were me and they weren't even one of mine (which by itself is funny but. y'know)#i don't want to call anyone out or upset anyone bc it only causes more problems but like. i Know. and idk if they should know that i know#maybe i'm just stupid idk i really trusted that it wasn't happening but it is and i don't know how to feel#hONESTLY I'M JUST MAD THAT I CAN'T DO ANY MORE CYRA LORE NOW BC PEOPLE ARE GOING TO ACCUSE **ME**#also PLEASE do not witch hunt this person i want to deal with this as quietly as possible#i really felt like i was in the twilight zone or just being paranoid so i had to ask
452 notes
·
View notes
Text
i really do think there’s a huge disconnect on here w/ people who have never used tiktok as to what it actually is and who actually uses it. the number of people i’ve seen call it a “teen dancing app” is actually insane. it has not been a teen dancing app since i was in high school, around 2016 - 2020. the main communities i saw on a daily basis were 1) black history/anti-racism educators, 2) high school & college teachers sharing in-classroom strategies and frustrations with the education system, 3) local/state political leaders giving real-time updates on behind-the-scenes government decisions, & 4) community activism & leadership. like tiktok is an adult platform. almost every person i interacted with was my age or older. and yes it completely depends on your fyp and how you interact with the app, yes there’s still teenagers and dance videos and literally anything else you can think of. but these communities of adults aren’t insubstantial at all, they have literally millions of interactions on a daily basis. there’s about a million other types of communities that i could name just off the top of my head, because the range of users was SO diverse and thriving. it’s a long-distance community tool, just like any other social media—and honestly much better than any other social media, because it relies primarily on the kindness of strangers. i saw at least 5-10 videos today of queer people in rural areas panicking because they don’t have any access to queer community on any other platform or in real life. and before i end this i do want to say i think tiktok is coming back, i think this is a highly orchestrated political move, etc., but i do know it won’t ever be exactly the same. people are panicking about free speech violations because tiktok was a place where people fucking SPEAK. i have never seen mass mobilization and communication in this same way for as long as i’ve been alive. it is the people’s app, not just a silly teenage thing. if you’re not on tiktok and never have been, please stop talking about it like you know anything at all😭
#idec if i look stupid for these posts i am fucking Mad#it’s not about doomscrolling. be so fr. i’ve had a time limit on for years and i’ve done perfectly fine#people’s jobs were on this app. small businesses were on this app. fucking CULTURE was on this app#project willow? bisan in gaza? like this is the most interconnected and fast-moving source of news we have#literally straight from the ground. from the places where it’s happening#i know i can still read news. that’s not the problem.#the problem is that i have nowhere else to see the videos from my minnesota legislator who’s been giving daily updates on the republican#coup in the house of representatives. like. do you see the problem.#not to mention half the news sites are paywalled anyway.#and i saw someone say that this forces us to foster irl community which is true again. but you can still have irl community at the same time#as long-distance virtual community????#my best friends are long distance. if all social media went dark i could never talk to them again.#like we are in the fucking 21st century. we should be able to have both.#anyway. sorry for all the ranting lately except i’m really not because i am fucking PISSED#i’ll be on rednote and youtube for a while except neither of them are really the same.#genuinely nothing was like tiktok fr. i miss it already#tiktok#tiktok ban
633 notes
·
View notes
Text
Hey y'all, do you have any experience with the Visible app and arm band thing? I've been using the app for a month or so, and I think it's helping a little, but I don't have the arm band yet and I'm not sure how big a difference that will make. I think I probably should be tracking my heart rate, but I cannot overstate how much I get rings and bracelets caught on things, especially during flareups. Like getting beltloops caught on door handles but even more so, so I think maybe the arm band will be better for me?
#the person behind the yarn#I think having texts to my phone to say hey. sit down.#would maybe help#because at least this week that's been one of my main problems#not realizing my heart rate is shooting up until it's in the Bad Symptoms Zone#which for me is like. 160s standing still#I meant there is also the moderate symptoms zone (120-140s) but I keep missing when I'm in that zone???#idk why I am not noticing anymore but I am not anticipating getting sensitivity to that back soon#because I was off my meds for two months (because my doc said I didn't have the thing the meds were prescribed for)#not getting into details but last time I had one of these symptoms it took me like a year and a half to get back to baseline#I don't anticipate it taking that long this time because A. I have meds for it and B. I know to eat more salt#but uh. I do anticipate that while I will be feeling waaaay better than I have been in the last two months by like next week#I probably won't be back to what had been my normal for a few months#(last time this happened was the very first time I got sick twelve years ago)
363 notes
·
View notes
Text
Merry christmas everyone <- 3AM, December 26th
#xmen#xmen tas#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#professor x#magneto#ok fine ill tag the others theyre like Significant to this comic rodnkw#scott summers#jean gray#remy lebeau#snap sketches#im not looking over this if something is scuffed so be it my EYES are HEAVY#THIS was the stupid shit i wanted to draw back in october. btw riEPDJSK#I HOPED to get this done WHILE it was christmas but alas… 3AM december 26th will have to do#i initially planned for this to be a lot sappier ngl but the unfunny funny bone in me always wins out the electoral vote yk how it works#anyway i have to take the train in like five hours. gotta go to the DOCTOR#and then my dad is taking me out for EMPANADAS. very epic …#esp cause im getting bloodwork done which means no breakfast for me . which. usuallt not a problem… lowkey…#anyways. good night everyone i hope yall had a lovely christmas !!#or a lovely wednesday if you dont celebrate 😩
753 notes
·
View notes
Text



pediatricians are hard to find.

you aren't broken and other important things a triangle needs to hear



#gravity falls#book of bill#non euclidean geometry au#bill cipher#pyramid steve#billford#parent au#rip doc mc buggins#you won't be missed#ableism#pyramid steve is too young to really understand what's going on here which is Good#ford would be here for the checkup but bill simply has more inter-dimensional contacts on his side#also far far FAR more medical trauma to work with#not that ford doesn't#but i think his problems were always rooted in more SOCIAL problems#while bill got the fun cocktail of childhood bullying AND medical abuse AND parents couldn't/wouldn't help him#he should not be a parent#he IS trying#he is trying so hard#he will not share these worries of course#why worry ford? bill's a GOD clearly he's got this#...bill is deep down terrified he ALREADY screwed up pyramid steve#he probably had more to do with him existing as the power half of the couple-#anything wrong IS probably his fault-#he doesn't know what he's doing! did?! how does his own body even work let alone-#whatif-what if he put him together wrong. what if whatifwhatif#thoughts he will never EVER say outloud#pyramid steve is a perfect little angle#anyone who says otherwise is dead wrong#my art
662 notes
·
View notes
Text
more old sally face art :)
#if you recognise the drawings a couple of these were referenced on#i do admit i had a problem with half tracing shit a while ago#i don’t condone my behaviour but i still think the pieces are sweet so im posting them anyways#if you can find the original artists i’ll link them for credit#my art#digital art#fanart#drawing#illustration#digital drawing#sally face fanart#sally face#sal fisher#art#clip studio paint#artists on tumblr
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
@ninadove YOU.
Thank you for making me appreciate the tragic nature of slithering-out-of-grasp design of Aspik. I could not resist :(( I BLAME YOU FOR EVERYTHING <3
rest of you read It brings the world back into tune
Bonus: A familiar voice
#my art#my post#lukadrien#aspik#cat!luka#berlioz#adrien agreste#luka couffaine#it brings the world back into tune#snake!felix#ladybug#felix graham de vanily#okay I had to draw two new costumes for this and Berlioz's is kinda almost too casual but I feel like it fits??? well i like it#however with Felix I knew I could go silly and extra :D#if I may put my own headcanons here. I've had thoughts about snake Felix while drawing#You know how Aspik's problem was caring too much and trying to rescue people every time and suffering when he couldn't#how Viperion is attentive and patient and knows when to step aside to watch and make conclusions and then guide his teammates#patience and analysis applies to Felix too#but. I thought about taking risksssss during loops#I thought about fights where Felix pushes his teammates under fire on purpose to see what happens#loops when everyone in team is convinced he betrayed them#loops when he isn't bothered too much about harming people#(after all do people really care about harming those like him?)#but all that allows him to quickly find a solution#I feel like Ladybug would surely dislike him. this is certainly pre-s5 Felix to me. spitting poison#but he does his job perfectly and Ladybug doesn't want to admit that he's... probably a better fit than Aspik#while Luka tries to deal with the dissonance#It's Aspik's voice but different song. it's Aspik's eyes but different color. It's Aspik's lips but different smile#this is still about lukadrien angst. but i got very distracted with the cobra boy#what if he took this opportunity to learn everyone's identities on purpose
346 notes
·
View notes
Text

Bathhouse rendezvous
[ID: Digital illustration of a gay couple sitting in a pink tiled bathing pool. One of them is sitting on the ledge, staring down at the other man. He has light skin and greenish short hair. The other man is standing in the water, between his partner's legs with his hand on his thigh. He has darker skin, and visible top surgery scars. His hair is short and curly, a soft gray color. Around the pool is a variety of vibrant green plants and flowers. There's steam filling the room around them. Around the image are two drooping flowers acting as a border. /. End ID]
#yipppeeee new patreon art!!!#a little steamy meetup between good friends#kept getting distracted by the dilf's chest hair while drawing hahhaa#having fun drawing larger “scenes” even if they are sometimes a pain#also as always please lmk if anything should be changed about the ID i currently have a cat sleeping on my arm so if there's any typos...#ALSO just because i had problems last time... ID means IMAGE DESCRIPTION and has nothing to do with AI LOL#my art#queer art#queer artist#trans art#transgender#mossymountain#orcaking#lgbtq#described#described art
223 notes
·
View notes
Text
I know it’s a semi popular belief that Padmé dated before Anakin but I’d say the interpretation comes from the illusion that she’s had more freedom than Anakin growing up and less restrictions, but that’s not really accurate. Padmé might have been more fortunate than Anakin but she had as many restrictions on herself as he did as a Jedi. She was the kind of person that didn’t have any time to waste and bypassed anything she deemed unnecessary in favour of pursuing her career. This same Padmé wouldn’t have entangled herself with people if she wasn’t serious about them, so the idea of her having passing fancies and short term relationships doesn’t really add up with the way her character is built. She’s a well known dutiful person who always prioritized her career over her desires. And this is leaving out the part that nobody ever made her desire them before Anakin as well, hence why she was super occupied thinking about her duties and responsibilities instead of dreaming of her happily ever after. That dream only became reality when Anakin came back into her life, and we already know that nobody was good enough to catch her eye before him.
Anakin was the first and only man that made her break her protocols to marry him because he was the only man that made her fall in love and reaffirm herself as person who could live, love and laugh a little. And even with Anakin, Padmé attempted to deny his love and their relationship for quite awhile. Saying this same Padmé who’s super strict and oriented about her reputation and career would get herself into a relationship for someone she’s not super serious about or want a family with? It just doesn’t make sense. Plus the fact that Padmé wanting a family doesn't mean she's the type to try out different relationships till she meets “the one", that's quite the opposite of her personality. 1.) because as I mentioned above, she didn’t have time to waste on passing fancies and frankly didn’t care cause no one intrigued her and 2.) because of her passion for her duty and lack of interest in anyone around trying to woo her. Sola in the AOTC novel literally had to force Padmé to think about having a family because she's so focused on career and Padmé tells her that she's satisfied that way despite that she does desire more to her life than what she had at that point, and she only completely changes her mind until she met Anakin again. This was the whole point of Padmé feeling lonely before marrying Anakin, it is indicative of the fact that Padmé only cared for her responsibilities and obligations because she didn’t feel that connection with anyone that she felt with Anakin.
Excerpt from Queen’s Hope:

#star wars#padmé amidala#anakin skywalker#anidala#pro anidala#anakin x padmé#anakin and padmé#skyberrie#sw novels#star wars: queen’s hope#star wars: attack of the clones novelization#*in the link*#made this post because i feel like people are okay with saying anakin was a virgin when he married padmé (which he def was)#but they get uncomfortable when someone points out it’s the same for padmé??#like it’s a problem if she’s a virgin herself as if that takes away from her character or experience as a fully established woman??#or that it’s not girlboss enough to be a virgin???#idk#sometimes it feels like they want padmé to be the experienced one while anakin is a inexperienced vulnerable virgin???#what kind of logic is that??#like do y’all see that as some sort of power imbalance and secretly dig it??#like one thing should be clear that both anakin and padmé were demi for one another#she was anakinsexual just as much he was padmésexual#like don’t get me wrong i’m not saying that her not being a virgin takes away from anidala’s love#i hate the obsession with female virgin purity too#but like it’s also not wrong if padmé is one???#(which she canonically is)#idk why people talk about it like it’s wrong if she doesn’t have experience and her first and last was anakin#people have this weird obsession with headcanoning that anakin had no lovers before padmé (which again is true)#but hate to see proof that it’s the same for padmé lmao#don’t know what to tell you 🤷🏾♀️
144 notes
·
View notes
Text
bttf au where they send Jennifer (criminally underused) to retrieve the sports almanac to avoid the tremendous problem of Marty accidentally meeting himself, which instead causes some tremendous other problems
#the other tremendous problem is marty running after her going 'HEY WHAT THE FUCK' and almost missing his flight back to 1985#back to the future#marty mcfly#jennifer parker#look bttf is a perfect movie i genuinely think#but bttf2 and 3 for sure arent because they HAD jennifer right there and then DIDNT USE HER#and while i prefer the original actress the lady they recast in the 2nd movie was so good with her physical comedy#anyway there is most of an au developing in my head. marty has an extremely bad time (he's dead for a good chunk lmao)#also jennifer in cute 1950s clothes :) tho she can't do her hair 50s style she has some degree of 80s teenage pride#didn't think i'd hyperfixate on bttf and i've tried to stave it off for like two months but. dude im in#drawings#jennifer parker versus the present
363 notes
·
View notes
Text
:-P
#spent a lot of time on this for it to look so terrible. but hey gotta start somewhere with animating#problem is i decided to do this without the aid of my light box drawing pad. so i had to trace while pressing paper to the windows#oh well. we shall try again someday#one piece#roronoa zoro
368 notes
·
View notes
Text
it mattered because when my brother asked me what if this is the happiest you'll ever be? the best you'll ever get? the thing i felt was fear, not peace. everybody thought you were so perfect for me. even i thought you were "helping me grow". i had to challenge every internal clock. make myself more thoughtful, more kind, more beautiful.
i told my therapist it was good because i like the changes i made and there's something so strong about saying i did that. the problem is that i can like the difference all i want, but i changed for you. something akin to getting your name tattooed, all my progress is stamped with fuck you.
it was the happiest i'd ever been and also the best i'd ever gotten. i would still get in the car and think what the fuck just happened.
#warm up#writeblr#i spent a lot of time picturing our future#how funny to think: in each version of our future#i was never myself#i was someone smarter kinder braver#better adept.#who could navigate the way you shouted and got angry at small things and never fucking believed the best of me#i would never be needy and you'd never get tired of me#people usually talk about how we picture people as being “fixable”. but i assumed i was the problem. my idyllic picture wasn't of you.#it was a version of me that wasn't ill. that needed no extra help. that could be your wife and happy#the fact i wasn't happy was because there is something so wrong inside me. it's always been that way. i convinced myself:#if i stay i can change. if i stay i can make it worth it. i can apologize and fix this. and make us both okay.#for the last year i've been thinking about how you blamed our whole breakup on me. how it was my fault for whatever thing.#and i agreed with you. because of course i did. you'd trained me to believe everything was my fault . that you wanted to love me and i made#it far too hard. that i was always finding ways to ''set you off'.#a few days ago while i was doing something else#i realized that while i was in crisis you told me to fuck off and find someone else to get help. and you never fucking apologized .#you said i made you do that because i wasn't being sensible. i had been crying too hard to speak clearly.#you said: you're doing this to manipulate me.#you forgave yourself for that. i had to forgive you without apology. you said you were right to react that way. and then you were SO#SO annoyed. any time i said: i feel like you aren't nice to me. it is hard to trust that you love me.#i don't think about you that much anymore. but these days when i do: all i can think is that im not sure u ever really understood kindness#you were the cruelest to the people closest to you. and most of the time. that meant it fell to me.
2K notes
·
View notes
Text
give me some whiskey and ill draw The Most Thing i can come up with
bonus:
#xmen#xmen comics#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#professor x#magneto#erik magnus lehnsherr#max eisenhardt#snap sketches#this wasnt the personal thing i wanted to draw this weekend but it has been on the back burner for a while so. it counts !!!!!!#i did sketch this last night. MODERATELY hammered and the final comic is Just A Tad diff from the sketch im wheezing#just in terms of angles but still thats huge to me#CHAT everyone knew i was gonna draw SOMETHING as soon as i saw those tentacles#however i flipped the script on you all. probably. idk SOMEONE prob assumed i woulda had magneto use them#but how the turn tables .... have turned. this is so stupid JVLKJVLA if this gets 5k on twitter ill do a charles ver MAYBE.#welcome back to my ongoing series of These Old Men Will Make Their Weird Love Affair Everyones Problem#i have an exam in the morning i need to stop this#ill have to this week like Truly but still VJELRKVJE I GOTTAAAA STOPPP DRAWIN THIS LATE#anyways. please enjoy this is so dumb but i got to try drawing charles' powers in effect so thats nice#i should do a study of that one day ... not anyday soon LMAO GOD moving on goodnight everyone !!
482 notes
·
View notes