#and I’m just depressed

[zenathered]

I just found out the most hilariously amazing thing.

[iiflywithmeii]

i just wanna cut everyone off and rot away in my bed

[mavigator]

i talked about it a little bit already but i have things to say about it. for context, i was born with amniotic band syndrome. the amniotic band wrapped around my left wrist in utero and stunted the growth of my hand. i was born with about half a palm, four nubs for fingers, and a twisted half of a thumb. i can open and close my thumb and pinkie joint like a claw.

yesterday at work i had a shift in the room with 5-10 year old kids. i had my left hand hidden in my sleeve (a bad habit of mine). a kid asked if he could see my hand, and even though internally i was debating running into traffic, i said “sure you can” and showed him my hands. he stared for a moment, looking disturbed, and then said “i don’t want to look at that anymore”. that hurt to hear, but i understand that kids are new to the world and he probably didn’t mean it out of malice. i put my hand away again, told him that it was okay, and that i was just born that way.

he then went on to talk about how he knows a kid with a similar hand to mine and called it “ugly”. i told him that wasn’t a very kind thing to say and that he wouldn’t feel good if someone said that to him, and he replied that no one would say that to him—because he has “normal hands”, and he’s glad he does because otherwise he’d be “ugly”. i tried to talk with him for a bit about how everybody is born differently, but he just started talking about a girl he knows with a “messed up face” and pulled on his face to make it look droopy. i went on some more about how it wasn’t very kind to talk about people that way, but the conversation moved on to something else.

i’ve told my supervisors about it and they’re going to have a talk with his mom. what i wanted to say is this: i’m genuinely not upset with the kid. kids are young and naturally curious, and he clearly simply hasn’t been taught about disabled people and kind ways to speak to/about others. which is why i am upset with his parent(s). i know he’s encountered visibly deformed/disabled people before (he said so himself!), yet his parent(s) clearly haven’t had any kind of discussion with him about proper language and behavior. i knew from birth that some people were just different than others, but my parents still made a point to assert to be kind to and accepting of others. i wonder if adults in his life are the type of people to hush him and usher him away when he points out someone in a wheelchair. that kind of thing doesn’t teach politeness. it tells children that disabled people are an Other than can’t be acknowledged or spoken about; which, to a child, means disability must be something bad.

i’m lucky enough that this was a relatively mild incident, and that i’m a grownup with thicker skin. i’m worried about the other kids he mentioned to me. has he been talking to them this way? when i was a kid, i had other kids scream, cry, and run away at the sight of my hand. or follow me around pointing at me and laughing at me. or tell me i couldn’t do something because i was ugly or incapable or whatever. one time a girl at an arcade climbed to the top of the skeeball machine, pointed at me, and screamed at me to put my hand away and wouldn’t stop crying until she couldn’t see me anymore. another time, a kid saw my hand, screamed at the top of her lungs, and ran into my friend’s arms, crying hysterically about how i was scaring her. that second incident made me cry so hard i threw up when i got home. i can kind of laugh it off now, but having people react to me that way as a child is something i’m still getting over. why do you think i have a habit of keeping my hand in my sleeve? it just irritates me to see children that have clearly not been taught basic manners and kindness—their parents Clearly missed something pretty important .

[ganseybois]

It’s taking every ounce of my self control to not reread a little life

[panthermouthh]

And I said, “Hello, Satan

I believe it’s time to go.”

[chrollohearttags]

you ever get the feeling that you’re not really liked but just kinda tolerated?…like you don’t really belong anywhere and you’re just kinda always on the outside but you don’t fit in or wtv.

[cecelovegood]

Okay, but thinking of asphodel as a forest.

Imagine 12 year old Hazel, wandering through that forest for 80 years. All alone, watching as the souls around her turn into trees.

Think about when she meets Nico, a person who doesn’t just look right through her. And she has hope.

[seryotonin]

Bracelet date ♡

Bonus

[kagoutiss]

the newly vassaled gerudo king is inexplicably handed a baby

[mkzmerryfriend]

*cracks knuckles* we know Tyler isn’t the original Clancy right? Y’all caught that? Clancy’s bishop was Keons, Tyler’s is Nico, and now “Clancy” is Tyler. Because “scaled and icy” is an anagram for “Clancy is dead” and that album was the one where dema was using Tyler’s popularity for their own purposes. Clancy failed to stop the cycle on his own, and despite already being used as a figurehead for dema, Tyler decided to take up the role of “Clancy” in the wake of what seemed like a total collapse of the Banditos. Their leader had been taken out, and now they had no one to organize them.

But Tyler taking on the name Clancy isn’t him taking on the role of leader or even organizer. He is showing us (the Banditos) that we all can be our own inspiration, we don’t need a figure to follow, we don’t need a leader to lead us. We can do this, fight dema, ourselves.

Y’all got that, right?

[iiflywithmeii]

i just wanna fucking matter

wanna mean something to someone

i’m fucking nothing

i hate myself

[clownsuu]

Wally talks to his dad about his love life

Home I feel is a really good listener (maybe a little too good since he eavesdrops a lot on accident- very observant of his surroundings)

cw minor obsessive/possessive behavior on first photo under cut

I remember I freaked out years ago when I found out some bugs, specially some spiders, have lil beaned peets

[thebibliosphere]

I really don’t understand some people who tell you to “chill out” or “relax” when you’re expressing enthusiasm or happiness about something. Like yeah, sure, maybe my excitement seems misplaced to you, but maybe I’m just a happy person. Or maybe I’m trying to engineer some sense of whimsy and relief from the relentless horrors of daily existence so I don’t kill myself.

Either way, you’re being a dickhead.

[molly-pocket]

[ashen-sight]

The urge of casual intimacy. To just hold hands, kiss and cuddle, fall asleep entwined in their arms, and to have your hair played with. To just snuggle with forehead kisses, and feel all encompassed and loved and wanted. When your heart just swells and burns like it’ll burst out of your chest with how overwhelmed you are by your love for the other half of your soul.

[nonbinary-vents]

What people have done to the am Yisrael chai (and also עם ישראל חי but a little less so cause these guys don’t know the first thing about Hebrew) is beyond disgusting and shows exactly how ‘just anti Zionist!’ they really are. Am Yisrael chai is a centuries old Jewish saying that celebrates us not just surviving, but living in a world that will kill us every time the opportunity presents itself. Am Yisrael chai is the best defiance to the world of still being here when everyone wants us gone, it is a pure joy of being on this world and being a Jew, it is that the Jewish people are alive. We are alive

You know, I wanted to talk about how horrible it is that that’s been twisted, how non Jews ar e determined to snuff out our life, but like… actually I don’t want to. I’m so tired of all of that. I just want to be happy, and I want to celebrate with my people. We’re still here. We’re alive! !עם ישראל חי! עם ישראל חי

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