#and i WISH i had the words to articulate it

[yonpote]

i guess another thing is like. what about crackships. do people still crackship? just shipping characters or people who have no reason to ever be together? or like shipping pairings that arent canon and not really caring about them being canon? i think maybe... ok i have to word what im trying to articulate carefully... but sometimes i think that the height of discussion of queerbaiting ended up putting this massive emphasis of canon representation (which is undeniably important!!!) that fandom shipping culture has completely shifted and doesn't really leave a lot of room for imagination, at least in the mainstream. like, whether or not a pairing ends up together in the end has always been kinda important in fandoms, but since most of the popular ships have been m/m (and before queerbaiting became more commonplace as a term) there was just kind of a quiet understanding that yeahhh they're probably NOT gonna end up together at the end...

i'll give bbc sherlock as an example. actually sherlock might be the perfect example as it came out around the turn of the 00s-10s decade which is exactly when the conversation surrounding queerness in media began to shift. now i fell off sherlock after season two so my knowledge of the show after that is limited, but from my pov of that early fandom, i don't really remember anyone clamoring for johnlock to end up confirmed canon. i mean people wanted it to happen ofc but it felt like wishful thinking rather than something that could actually happen. it wasn't until fans had this direct communication with the creators of the show that they realized maybe they COULD have an impact on what happens, applying pressure on them as queer representation in media became more of a hot button issue. and ultimately i DO think that the chemistry of john and sherlock as a couple should have been something that the creators took more seriously, regardless if they became Canon. i mean people have been shipping holmes/watson and even holmes/moriarty since the books were first published probably. so the showrunners dropped the ball on that big time in the end, but imo it wasnt until queer representation became viewed as more than just a pipe dream that johnlock's Endgame Status became of utmost importance.

thats kinda what i mean by "i"d ship dnp even if they werent straight up a couple" and why i mentioned feeling a tiny bit bad for the frerardies in the shipping poll lol cuz like a ship being Real probably shouldn't be what makes a pairing good, and if we treat that with extreme importance then we lose out on the transformative side of fandom, the fact that we can make something "real" even if it's not word-of-god Canon.

[oh-katsuki]

im gonna say something corny but... the profound effect that living in a women-only house had on me was and is insane. it was (almost) completely by chance that only women ended up living there, but i think moving in with my housemates was possibly the best decision i've ever made. i genuinely wish i could describe that kind of love and community, but i don't have the vocabulary. all that i know is that it's such a privilege to have gotten to live in that house and to love those women and to get to keep loving them. they're my most precious friends and i owe that feeling of safety and community to them. there was just something very special about that house. i was very lucky, i think. i don't think people get to love like this every day.

[angelmush]

the other day i walked around the golden lake w my love and the sun was setting hot and orange and we watched a brown duck preening through the weeds, ducking her head under the dark water. the cool lake swallowed up my tired feet to the ankles and we counted the dog walkers with their curly panting doodles and their handsome german shepherds and their whip smart little terriers and we admired the careful construction of a sand castle whose moat held determinedly against the lapping of the waves. we could feel in our chests the persistent thunderous thumping of celebratory music at the finish line of the lakeside 5k, welcoming each gasping runner across its bounds. and i felt like crying. i felt like curling into myself and crying. we walked through the swamp of the bird sanctuary afterwards and listened to the woods sing and croak and groan and then we went and got ube and yuzu gelato and devoured it suntired and sweating on the couch in our living room. and i was so overcome w a deep and true unshakeable happiness and a sort of confused grief that i wanted to sob and sob and sob.

[raptorrobot]

i'm gettig very emotional again about Transgender Gabriel sub(dom)text. they ostracised him they degraded him they left him to die all for something out of his control gaauhhhHHHH i'm going to EAT DRYWALL

[patheticrafeenjoyer]

so, at this point barry's been made fully aware that rafe's going to go through with suicide by cop so that he doesn't have to go to jail.

like rafe's resigned himself that he's either escaping or dying; there's no way he's going to let the police get him. and really, he has no hope of shooting his way out of things anyway, there'll be at least a dozen cops out looking for him at any given time, one single gun is not going to do him any good.

but he knows if he has it and uses it/shows it/threatens to use it, the cops will be trained to fire because he's a threat to them. the gun is not even to "defend himself" like barry says, it's something that'll make sure he's dead instead of in police custody. [i genuinely do not think rafe would actually shoot anyone on his way out, not with the intent of doing any damage, because we've seen his reaction to killing someone for real, like the gun is only there to force the cops to shoot him]

in the 3rd pic you can sort of see the shock etched onto barry's face even though he's blurry, but rafe, who until now has has only been interested in self-preservation, has just made it explicitly clear that he will kill himself/get himself killed if the cops come.

but barry knows the cops are coming (he tipped them off himself), so this situation that was him turning rafe in to custody (where he'd serve his time alive) has morphed into a horror show that is absolutely going to result with rafe dying.

barry even clocks that he has the gun and realizes that's going to pose an issue to him just being taken into custody (because, and i'm sure i do not need to say this, but him having a weapon means the cops will kill him). he's lured rafe out into the marsh, the cops are coming, rafe has a gun and he plans to die if the cops show up; barry pretty much just walked rafe out to the firing squad.

so, the second barry jumps out of the boat, he calls to the cops that rafe has a gun. because the gun is stowed away in the bag and rafe is caught off guard, he has no way of reaching for it; the cops are already there, he's already pinned. as well, by saying this, barry makes the cops aware that rafe has a gun, so they'll be poised to shoot if he makes any move toward it. he's banking on the fact that rafe's self-preservation will kick in and he won't go for the gun because it'll mean certain death. also, by letting the cops know, perhaps it would mean that they don't shoot him lethally (but lets be real when have the cops ever fired a non-lethal shot) because it won't be a surprise, so they can shoot to disarm and subdue rather than to kill.

and yes, rafe goes for the gun anyway, but shoupe knows about it so he doesn't have to kill rafe. and we know that shoupe really takes no pleasure in being shit to kids, so he's absolutely not going to want to have one shot on his watch, even if he thinks rafe killed peterkin.

basically, by immediately making the cops aware of the gun, barry pretty much saves rafe's life. yes, he turned rafe in, but barry doesn't want him to die.

[remyfire]

Feeling some type of way right now about Hawkeye who excitedly calls BJ the greatest surgeon in the world versus BJ having his little fit about how he's just as capable of Hawkeye as a surgeon a couple of seasons afterward. The way that Hawkeye's words have such a strong effect on BJ's sense of confidence in his skills as a surgeon. His words of praise make BJ almost take flight but when Hawkeye's not reaffirming him, BJ gets so defensive, sullen, snappy. Poor guy.

[paranorahjones]

Just saw the Christopher Reeve documentary that just came out. Only cried about 5 billion times.

[the-yearning-astronaut]

Finally watched Everything Everywhere All At Once....

I'm fine.

[moe-broey]

Like a whole other thing is when I have put Mani/Moe in situations where suicide as a topic is part of the punchline, I am so cautious about it, and there's always a greater intention behind it. Biggest thing is the characterization -- this is a part of its history. Moe's experiences inform a lot of its feelings, choices, even core personality. It's also a distinct characterization of Mani. A reflection of the past. Mani is more prone to becoming volatile and destructive. I have so much lore in my head I can never elaborate on LMFAOOO (SCRAMBLED. EGG). But that is the point/idea behind it, and I am always So Careful. I don't do anything without intent.

[oasisofgalaxies]

forgive me im not the best at writing these kinds of posts but i just really need to put these thoughts somewhere-

ok so over the past year or so ive begun to realize exactly how valuable of a genre horror is. i never really interacted with it growing up as the types of horror i was exposed to didnt really click with me. i mean, I liked FNAF but it never made me feel anything beyond a surface level interest. The horror movies i saw advertised in theaters never really pulled me in.

but as i grew older i found new brands of horror. not only that but i found that horror can be used as a tool. it gives people a space to think and feel uncomfortable thoughts. Emphasis on a safe space because horror is fiction! and that allows people to explore really miserable, depressing, heartbreaking topics in a way that is safe! Because ultimately the scenario you are seeing on screen is a story. Sure it might have reflections of real world topics but you are exploring those thoughts in a place thats meant for you to do so. Horror can help you think through these things and even help you have talks with yourself.

i may not be articulating this well but its just this- Ive come to really appreciate horror for its value as a way to safely explore scenarios of all kinds. It also is valuable as an outlet for people who are struggling to cope with their emotions in their own way. Horror is just such an important genre for so many reasons and I've come to respect it so much for that, its so amazing

[pummelingbat]

like PeterMartin, To Me, is about Martin (Guy Who's Pigeonholed Into Being World's Biggest Sweetiepie Caretaker) getting so exhausted with being the world's biggest sweetiepie caretaker & seeing Peter as someone who is "deserving" enough for Martin to just take what he wants from him guilt-free. and Peter (Guy Who Loves Transactional Relationships That Make Him Feel Bad) goes along with it bc he responds to direct personalities who tell him explicitly what they want from him.

and if they both catch feelings at some point like what of it!!!!!! what!!!!!!!!!!!!

[oh-katsuki]

IN LIGHT OF THE JJK CHAPTER I AM PREEMPTIVELY SENDING YOU LOVE AND AFFECTION IN THESE TRYING TIMES

Very genuinely btw, I know the caps might make it seem otherwise but I am truly offering you all the best wishes and love right now i hope you have a lovely day in spite of the explosion currently happening online

i genuinely like.. what the fuck am i supposed to??? do??? im actually like... devastated what the hell. oh christ.

thank you for the well wishes i am so distraught im sick to MY STOMACH. i am sending u so much love and hopefully peace bc i......... '

LIKE WHAT THE FUCK>??? WHAT???!! WHAT THE HELL!!???@?@

[thejacespace]

randomly thinking about that one assignment during the lord of the flies unit in 10th grade english where we were given a hypothetical: 4 people are stranded and their boat can only carry 3, who do you leave behind? and idr a lot of specifics but 1 character was asthmatic and 1 was diabetic and at the time i didn't know how to articulate how fucked up that was and said something to the tune of "you're asking us to play god and i'm not okay with that"

eugenics.

my teacher was asking us to do eugenics based on ableist bullshit.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I honestly don't know if I could have earned my undergrad degree if not for YouTube teaching videos and text to speech features for reading pdfs

[autisticethanmorgan]

giving benny and ethans friendship romantic undertones creates such a great parallel with his relationship with sarah because theyre both these intense friendships, with this sense of understanding that comes with the fact that they know about these supernatural things that not many others do, and the romances both have this aspect of being societally not acceptable/conventional with sarah vampirism and bennys being a boy

vampirism has pretty much always had this connection with queerness so the idea of ethan having this similar romantic aspect with both sarah and benny could be really cool

[2024skin]

August 14

PSA about dick-poisoning: it's real 😔 stay safe sisters