#and i said i was gonna read it after i caught up on wha and then the anime got announced

[yxami]

just wanted to drop by and say i’m in love with yandere streamer 🙏🙏 will you be planning to write more for him by any chance?

Yeah probably, I’ll do it right now cuz I’m bored

description: yandere streamer x gender neutral reader, soft yandere, he’s a creep, hinted stalking, bro is watching u even as u read this 😭😭

You were so excited and shocked from the message that your favorite streamer sent you. It was along the lines of you winning the opportunity to meet him! He had millions of subscribes so your chances were basically zero. You had no clue he was even holding a random event like that!

“When did you announce that you were doing a random thing to meet up with your subscribers? How many others are you gonna meet up with?”

“It was random! I didn’t even think about doing it until a few days ago. I’m only doing one meet up and you won that! It’s really lucky that you lived in the same city as me” His tone was chipper like an excited bird.

He was so happy he got the excuse to see you in real life. You looked so much more adorable in person, your outfit was neat and colorful, and your voice oh my god your voice was so cute he fell in love again.

“How long have you been a fan of me anyways?”

“For about 2 years! I remember the first time I got your merch I was so happy” You perked up at the question. You were so ecstatic to be talking to your favorite streamer up close and personal. It was like a dream come true for a committed fan like you!

“Really? I’m coming out with some new merch, I could give you some a little early if you’d like” He cheesed at the fact that you were so lively about his merch, his stuff, him!

“I’d pay anything for some new merch! I really like the designs, do you do them yourself or is it with a professional?” You were even more exhilarated to see not only him but new merch!

“I design em’ myself usually, sometimes with a buddy if I’m not creative. You don’t even have to pay for it anyways, it’s free. Just keep it a secret” He grinned, signaling it was a secret with a finger in-front of his lips.

“Don’t worry! I won’t tell anyone, I don’t have much friends to tell anyways so you don’t have to worry!”

“We can be friends! Here give me your phone” He put his hand out and you handed it to him. Immediately putting in his phone number, he took a selfie with a peace sign and made sure you were in the photo by turning the phone. He added his name with a heart and sent the photo to himself. Of course, he deleted it after so you didn’t see that he sent it to himself.

He wanted to treasure the photo once he got home, maybe even have a little fun with it.. like last time!

“Just don’t show my number to anyone, it’s just for you” He handed your phone back with a big smile.

“I won’t, I swear!” You beamed at the fact that he trusted you so much. You were happy that he was giving his number, and maybe butterflies formed in your stomach when he said ‘just for you’ but that’s something you can hide deep down!

“So, do you exclusively watch me, or is there other streamers I need to compete with to get your full attention?” He grinned, his tone was teasing but he was sort of serious. He wanted to get your full attention, even if it sounded incredibly greedy.

“I’ve been watching this other streamer, they’re pretty cool! But I’m watching you more don’t worry! I wouldn’t unsubscribe or anything, I’ve watched you for too long to give up now” You were being truthful about watching the other streamer but lately you have been tuning in on them more.

“Really? Who are they, are they as handsome as me?” He leaned in, resting his head on his hand to intensely gaze at you. Almost as if he was looking for any lies behind your eyes.

“Wha— I don’t know, I mean no they’re not but why would you ask that” You sputtered your words out like an old car starting up. You were caught off guard enough to fail saying a basic sentence.

“So they aren’t? That’s nice to know, anything I should worry about?” He chuckled at how nervous you got, you were even cuter with the red blush dusting your cheeks. You shook your head in response, refraining to even attempt at talking again.

“I’m glad! I’d be so upset if my favorite fan was giving me up after so long” His flirty comments and smile were so entrancing you had to look away or else you’d embarrass yourself again.

“What else do you do other than watch me? Any hobbies?” He was curious about things he couldn’t see from your camera being set up in your room. He wondered what you’d do throughout the day when you weren’t in there.

“I don’t know, I focus on work a lot during the day, and in the night I relax with games. A pretty simple life, not one like you have where you stream and play with others”

“That’s just as interesting as me streaming! I’m doing the same thing as you after-all, playing games while chatting with people. You don’t play with anyone else?” He sat back in his seat, making his posture more suitable for talking instead of teasing you like before.

“Yeah, I guess that’s true. I don’t really play with others cause I haven’t met a long term gaming buddy yet. I’m sure I’ll find one soon enough though!” You took a sip of your drink, enjoying the sweet strong taste of it.

“Well we gotta fix that don’t we? Consider me your gaming buddy then!”

“Sure! That’s really nice of you” You giggled at his enthusiasm at the end. He was so nice, you were really happy he turned out to be even better than what you thought he’d be.

His phone loudly buzzed before the two of you could talk more. The vibration was felt throughout the table, unable to be ignored.

“Shit I forgot, I’m supposed to meet up with my friend. I gotta run but it was nice meeting you. Text me when you get home and I’ll text you my address so you can come over tomorrow and see the merch and pick out your fave!” He got up, scanning you for as much as he could.

He was sad he had to leave you now, looking so cute for him!

“Okay! I’ll see you tomorrow then?” You planned to wave him goodbye but instead he hugged you tightly, showing the large height difference he had against you as you were pressed into his chest. He smelt like a vanilla and something addicting you couldn’t put your finger on.

He let go out the hug, enjoying one last sight of you before he had to go.

“Mhm, we should play some games later today and maybe some tomorrow when you come over” He pat your head, craving to touch you more but he decided not to be greedy, especially if he wanted to seem normal to you.

“You’ve been playing a lot of my favorites lately so we can play those!” You nodded in agreement.

“Alright, I’ll see you later then. I’ll text you when I can play!” He waved his goodbyes, leaving with a cheesy smile at the fact that the meeting went so well. You were even more addicting in person. He was sad he had to leave you but at least he could see you tomorrow!

He could even hear your voice today when the two of you played games! And maybe use the photo he took to treasure your beauty as he pleasured himself..

[ramp-it-up]

Paring: Ransom Drysdale x Reader (Minx Drysdale)

Word Count: a little over 1K

Summary: Ransom helps your anxiety.

Warnings: 18+ As always, MINORS DNI, SMUT, RPF. Not Beta’d. All mistakes my own. Mentions of anxiety, nervousness, restless sleep. Soft Ransom, sleepy sex, manual sex, nipple play, overstimulation, squirting, oral sex, p-in-v, a lil' dumbification kink, good girl kink, degradation kink, dirty talk, breeding kink.

A/N: This is for #KinktoberMaybe and may or may not be based on some things that may or may not have happened in real life. Part of the Minx Series.

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"You Up?"

You rolled over and looked Ransom in his sky blue eyes. Maybe you’d dreamt him asking you that. It made you remember the days when he would text you begging to come over at 2 am.

After he’d just left you at midnight.

“Mornin’ Ran.”

Ransom leaned up on his elbow and so he could see you better. You’d been sleeping restlessly, making a 180 degree turn with your head ending up at the foot of the bed.

You'd been ball of anxiety lately, working on the final edits of your book and more than a little nervous about your debut novel, despite the encouragement Ransom and Walter gave you. Ransom had even said it was the most brilliant thing he’d read in a while. That was high praise coming from him.

Caring for an active toddler and trying to make sure that you didn’t neglect Ransom were forefront in your mind as well. You were exhausted from what seemed a million things at once and had fallen into bed late the night before.

“You sure you’re awake?”

He did ask you that. You smiled at your husband and nodded.

“Yes. I’m sure.”

“Good. C’mere. Wanna make you cum.”

Your giggle caught in your throat as you saw he was serious. You just hummed as you moved into his outstretched arms and grabby hands.

“Ran?”

You had no doubt about his desire for you, but this was new.

Ransom pulled down your panties and lifted your tank top up to your chin. He pulled you close and hooked his leg over yours, opening you up to the cool air of the room.

“Been thinking about this all night when you were tossing and turning. You need something to calm you the fuck down.”

You gasped as Ransom moved his fingers into your mouth.

“Be a good fucking girl and get ‘em wet for me, Minx.”

“Hmmmm? Ummmhmmm.”

You nodded as your eyes rolled back into your head. Your anxiety started slipping away as Ransom whispered sweet nasty words in your ear.

“I’m gonna play with this sweet, sloppy cunt until you cum a couple of times in my arms. I’m gonna hold you down and make you take it while I watch that perfect slutty face of yours as you take what I do to you.”

Ransom was already playing with one nipple with the hand that was around you and grasping you close to him; as he withdrew his fingers from your mouth, a trail of saliva filled the path of his fingers down your neck and to the other as he twisted your nipples in tandem. You moaned at the disparate sensations from wet and dry fingers, wiggling in his grasp.

“Look at you. Going dumb all from me playing with you already. Gonna be my sweet little dumb baby girl? I haven’t even started yet. Go dumb all you want. Just be sure not to run away from what I’m about to do.”

You sighed and sank further into his arms, trusting and anticipating the pleasure that was to come.

“Oh!”

Ransom’s hand was at your pussy now, and the quick force of air before his finger came down to slap it was your only warning.

“Ran!”

You arched, pushing your ass into the mattress and your head into his arm as you moved with pleasure. You could feel his hard cock on your hip and the wet spot on his boxers and you reached for it.

Ransom let you have what you wanted, and he kissed your temple.

“Sweet little dumb Minxy for my cock. Go ahead. Play with it. S’not gonna stop me from doing what I want.”

Ransom smoothed his fingers down your clit, collecting the wetness there and pushing all three fingertips inside you sideways as your thumb swiped across his wet, dripping slit.

“Fuck, Ran…,” you whined as he moved and curled his digits just right to reach that sweet spongy spot inside you. Ransom thought you were the most beautiful thing in the world.

“Right… right there, hunh?”

Ransom chuckled into your ear as you opened your legs wider for him. He bit your earlobe as his thumb strummed your clit. Your legs started shaking and you arched into his mouth which was now at your nipple, sucking hard and causing sparks to go off behind your eyelids.

“Ummmhmmmm.”

You started stroking him faster and licking your lips. Ransom was paying rapt attention to all your expressions.

“What’re you thinking about, Minxy? Giving me that neck while I make you cum? Want me to stuff it down your throat?”

Your eyes rolled back into your skull as the thought made you even wetter and Ransom could feel your pussy tremor.

“Yes, please Ran!”

You nodded frantically.

“Not this time, Minx. You always manage to distract me with that and you run away from your orgasm. This time you’re gonna get what you deserve.”

“Nooo…”

This time you shook your head as Ransom carefully watched your face. He could read you like a book and he pulled you even closer by pulling his arm around your throat. He pulled your legs even further apart as he concentrated on circling your clit as he controlled your air.

You grasped at his arm because you felt what was coming, and it was going to be big. Ransom eased up on your windpipe as you arched into the bed again, your body stiffening as you neared the top of the rollercoaster of pleasure. His mouth drew nearer to your ear as you signaled how close you were.

"Give it to me, Minx."

That gravelly bass was all you needed.

“Uh.. ah. OHHHFFUUUUCCCKKK!”

You became a bucking bronco and Ransom's strong arms and leg held you captive to feeling all of the pleasure. Your mind blanked as Ransom relentlessly thumbed your clit.

You couldn't breathe, but you managed a weak, “S-t-tooo much…”

“You can take it. You��re a strong girl. A real good girl Minx. You made me fall for you. You carried Golden. You can do anything. My good, sweet girl.”

You began to feel another orgasm building as Ransom continued. You felt the pressure building again and had to get away, trying to grab his hand in vain.

Ransom’s muscles rippled as his arm stayed right where it was. He palmed the back of your head and tilted your head.

“Look at that. I want you to see what I’m doing to you. What your body is going to do for me…”

He groaned as he felt your pussy spasm when you watched his fingers moving on you.

“Ransom!”

You squealed as you watched yourself squirt all over him. He must have been magic because you thought you saw his hand as it moved even faster between your legs.

“Ahhh. Yes. Yea ha ha yesss! Give me that shit.”

You were sobbing now as Ransom let you go, climbing down your body to put his mouth on you.

You jumped as he licked and sucked your slopping wet slit and smiled at your bliss. You were alternating between tears and laughter as you saw his delighted face.

You tugged his hair gently as he playfully kissed your sodden, pulsing pussy and smiled up at you.

“There now. Don’t you feel relaxed?”

You laughed at your husband.

“I hate you Ransom.”

Random placed another kiss on your pussy as he climbed back up beside you.

“I love you too, Minx.”

You were boneless, floating in space as you looked at your tousle-haired rake of a spouse. You ascertained that he was fully naked and still hard against your thigh even though you were floaty and your eyes were half closed.

“There’s just one more thing Ran...”

“What’s that Minx?”

Ransom's eyes were dark as you pulled him to you. He couldn’t resist slotting himself between your thighs as he stared at your fucked-out face.He leaned down and gave a taste of his you-flavored lips as he slid his thick hard cock inside you and moaned.

“Fuck me back to sleep Ran. Need more rest.”

Ransom rocked deep inside you, sucking and marking up your neck as his hand slid down your body. You relished his girth and the feel of every bump and ridge of him as he started stroking inside you, making your insides light up like the early morning sky.

“Whatever you need, Minx…but you’ve got to give me one more. Around my cock, like the good little girl you are…”

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[mschimdt]

OBSERVE pt.1

5455 words

recom!navi!quaritch x recom!navi!fem!reader

summary: you were reborn into a navi recom inorder to fight for pandora, but soon you ensed up feeling a connection to eywa, and you ended up escaping only to be caught by the colonel and punishrd accordingly, till he find you one dy during your heat cycle

this is a 100 folower special, thank you all so much, yes this is a series now and this is part one out of maybe 2 or 3

warnings: p to v, degrading, mention of injury, embarassment, public humiliation, sex, heat cyle, this hasnt been proof read so theres alot of typos, ill fix them soon when i have the motivation to

you opened your eyes, a bright light blinding you, you saw blue figures wandering around you, you went full panic mode thinking the navi caught you, you sat up, your head hurt but you couldnt let the dirty navis get away with this, your vision started coming in and one of the blue navis came towards you to attack you "LEAVE ME ALONE!!"

you stood up and attempted to punch them "(Y/N) CALM DOWN" said an oddly familiar voice, you were in a medical room, weird, they must have attacked bridgehead while you were out cold you didnt notice the 'little' humans under you

the blue guys came towards you restricting you from delivering anymore slaps and punches to their faces. you couldnt move, they were all holding you, "LEAVE ME ALONE YOU DIRTY BASTARDS" you said, still not noticing thay youre litteraly navi

you were still trying to set yourself free when you heard the familiar voice again. "y/n its us, stop freaking out, its me quaritch" he said "wha-" he cut you off "lyle, Z-dog" he said pointing at each of them, "okay okay let me go" you said

they let you go and you still hadnt noticed that you were navi, you were the same height as them but you didnt think anything of it, until you looked down "what the-" you said cutting your self off staring at your blue feet

you walked towards a reflective window observing your new look, fangs, a tail, blue skin, stripes, ears, and shit you were even 8'11

some scientists walked inside and told you to sit down so they could take your vitals and make sure youre good before letting you go

they took your vitals and you were infact good to go, they handed you some clothes, the others already left to inform the others that you were okay

you put the clothes the scientists gave you on and walked out of the door, this was a completley new area, not the hells gate you remembered, luckily there was a small map hung on the wall, you stared at it wondering where everyones gonna be

you didnt know where they might be, so you just headed in a random direction hoping youll ens up finding some other blue guys wandering around, after a few minutes of walking you infact did find another navi, it was mansk, atleast thats who you thought he was because of the shades, you walked toward him

"heyy uhh do you know where the others are?" you said regreting your life decisions, sure you knew mansk but this was awkward, "yeah, theyre over there in the lounge" he said, straight face "okay thanks, mansk right?" "thats right, y/n?" "mhm, thanks though" he gave you a little smile and continued walking towards wherever hes going, you headed towards the lounge only to find quaritch awfully speaking navi, you didnt know how to either but atleast you werent speaking gibberish

"we need to look navi, eat navi, hunt navi, the only way were gonna get jake sully is we act, like jake sully" you walked in and leaned against a wall listening to quaritch, then you spoke "they stull didnt kill jake? its been 15 years" you said fully expecting jake to be 6 feet under right now

"unfortunatley they didnt catch him, its our job now" quaritch continued rambling about how were gonna kill jake and how were gonna give humans a "bright future" and get rid of all the savages

before you knew it, you were already out on your first mission, you didnt even have time to observe your body and get used to it before you were sent out to explore, ever since you came back as navi, you felt a connection to eywa, similar to what jake felt

one part of you wanted to be with the people and the other wanted to kill the people, eventually you forgot about this arguement eith yourself when you saw 2 navis walking through the forest, they were omaticaya people, jakes people, or should i saw toruk makto

they were 2 teenage looking navis arguing with eachother, they didnt know you were there so they were screaming random shit in navi, the others noticed the noise and slowly walked behind the 2 kids, they were still arguing, which signaled they hadnt noticed you

suddenly lyle and walker snuck up on them and restrained them by their queues they started fighting them, you walked oit of the bushes along with the others, you had a decent military rank, you were a seregeant, right under lyles rank but higher than the others, so if quaritch and lyle werent there you'd be incharge

you walked up to the kids behind quaritch, as a form of respect, "what're yr' names" he was death staring them at this point, the kid said something in navi and quaritch replied back, both the kids started laughing at his bad pronounciation of words

" i dont like to repeat things, whatre yr names?" quaritch said, it lookes like he was about to fucking explode

"n-neteyam- and loak.." one of them said "neteyam what huh?" quaritch replies forcefully grabbing the other kids hand, noticing the 5 fingers on his hand, "lo'ak and neteyam sully huh, i suppose you know where he is dontcha" you were still standing behind quaritch incase anything happened

quaritch said something into his ear peice, "cuff them" he said turning away, "yes sir" you said walking over to the kids and harshly grabbing their arms to cuff them, when you notices something in the distance, before you had any time to tell the others, an arrow peirced through walkers skull, knocking her to the ground

quaritch stared at the arrow, imediatley recognising the arrow, it was neytiri, sullys woman

you spoke up "is that you Mrs. sully?" you said dragging the kids with you toward a tree, they kept kicking you with their legs, you ended up also having to cuff their legs "listen here little bitches, you stop squirming and trying to wiggle out of the cuffs, or else it wont end too well for you" you said completley fed up with their shit, you heard a scream from behind you and now fike was down too, he had an arrow in his leg, you were surprised about how quick these arrows could kill a person, they must be poisonus, quaritch came over and helped you carry the 2 boys

"cmon hurry up, dont wanna get one in the head" you said as you swung one of them over your shoulders ran for your life

one of the kids ended up activating a tear bomb with their fingers, and they somehow uncuffed themselves and escaped while you got knocked to the ground for a few seconds, you regained your consiousness only to find yourself on lyles shoulder, "lyle im okay you can let me go" you said waiting for him to drop you onto the floor

he let you go and a bright light shone from above, the helicopter was finally here and you could leave this shitty mission and think about what you were going to do about your "connection" to pandora

you got on the helicopter and finally arrived at what now was called bridgehead, walking over to your assigned room, you took your shirt off and stayed in your sport bra not having the energy to change your clothes

you layed in your bed thinking about what you were going to do to stop this awful feeling of emptiness because you werent living freely, roaming through the forest, embracing the culture of navi

after a few days you were fed up with the feeling of having to destroy a place you wanted to embrace so bad, so, you made an escape plan

you were going to leave on the next mission, ans youll turn your comms off aswell as your location so you couldnt be tracked, it was the only way you could do this

you woke up the next morning heading to the bathroom to brush your teeth and do your morning routine, you slipped on some cargo pants and left your room

you were in a shared "apartment" with all the recoms, there was a small room for each recom with a bathroom each, and a living room and a kitchen between the rooms, it wasnt bad just a little cramped

you headed to the living room, lyle laying in the corner of the L shaped couch and quaritch awake drinking a mug of coffee on the other side

"goodmorning sir" you greeted, you knew nott o get on the colonels nerves, hes DEADLY and when i say deadly i mean it.

"g'morning" he said back, not even looking at you, you headed to the kitchen to grab yourself a warm cup of tea so you could head back to your room

suddenly a voice spoke "why're ya up so early?" quaritch said, you couldnt read his emotions, he was basically unreadable

"i didnt realize it was so early, pandora timing is really confusing" you said, you actually didnt realize that ot was early, since the sun was up you just assumed that it was when you usually wake up

"makes sense" he said, still not looking at you, god this man gets on your nerves sometimes

awkward tension was building up, yoh were inpatiently waiting for your water to start boiling so you could make the mother fucking tea because you couldnt handle the overly dominant aura quaritch was giving off

finally, after what felt like an hour of waiting, the water finally boiled and you made your tea as quickly as you can so you could go back to your room, you went back to your room, finally

it was pretty early outside, almost 6am, you wondered why quaritch would be up so early, you took a sip of your tea, it was bitter, god fucking damn you forgot to add sugar

now you had to go back into the room that had the energy of 100 men radiating off 1 man, great

you unlocked your room door for the second time in the past few minutes and headed towards the kitchen again, already feeling the tense atmosphere, you also felt quaritchs eyes burning through your skull

you grabbed the sugar and turned back around, expecting to see quaritch staring at you because you could feel his eyes poking holes into your skull but no, he looked unbothered reading some book about the navi body that he was reading earlier

you entered your room AGAIN and you inhaled a breath, not even knowing you held your breath back there

you were bored so you decided to map out your escape plan on a peice of paper, or aeast write down the steps to it incase you forgot

you heard a loud knock on your door followed by other distant knocks on other doors, you flipped the paper over so whoever was there couldnt see it and you walked towards the door to unlock it wondering who wouls possibly need you at 7 am,

"surprise training, meet me outside in 10" quaritch said to you and the 3 recoms beside your room, going to bang on the other doors inorder to wake the rest up

you wandered into your room again, slipping on a sports bra and a tanktop with camo shorts and headed to the outdoor courtyard to meet quaritch,

"ardmore said theres a mission today at 3pm, they saw some savages running through the forest and ordered us to try and find them, meet me at 2:30 in the helicopter room" quaritch said , ofcourse he had to give us some shit to do for absolutley no fucking reason

training was the worst thing youve experienced in your entire life, you felt like quaritch was torturing you on purpose because he made you run 30 extra laps because your hands gave up mid pushups

you went to the female showers, your muscles were basically torn, you ran almost 6 miles because you failed one singular pushup out of the 40 you did before

you washed off with warm water, it felt soothing to your muscles, quaritch was basically a torture machine that tortures everyone, dying was better than having him torture you then it hit you. this mission was your chance to finally put your escape plan to use

your muscles barely felt like they hurt anymore, you slipped your clothes on and rushed out of the showers running towards your room, tiny scientists gave you weird stares but you didnt give a fuck, you were finally going to leave this place once and for all, forever hopefully

you were leaving, finally going to take care of yourself, you locked your door and flipped over the map from earlier, revising your escape plan before reaching into your closet to grab some clothes, a grey tanktop, you stayed in your camo shorts from earlier

it was almost meetup time and you didnt want to get on quaritchs bad side before making him mad forever, you headed to the helicopter room, this was it, the last time youll be in this place, hopefully

you sat inside the helicopter which is now taking off, no one has mumbled a word, you were glad, youwere never friends with any of them but you really didnt want to start a bond with them before leaving, because it might make you rethink your decision

thankfully, no one said anything the entire ride, it was quiet, atleast as quiet as it can get with raging helicopter flaps buzzing above your head, the aircraft started landing and soon before you even knew it, you were already down in the pandora forest, you were split into teams of two, you ended up with mansk, you knew he wouldnt be hard to distract

you walked off into the forest with mansk, waiting for t he perfect moment to stab him with an anesthetic shot you stole from the medical lab a few days ago

you saw 2 navi figures walking in the distance, it was time, you hit mansk in the back with the needle, he tried to fight you off before landing on the floor with a loud thud, you needed to leave fast, the colonel probably already knows about this, he probably doesnt know its you, you dropped your comms on the floor, you needed to leave now

you started running toward the 2 navi people walking around, it was one of the kids from last time, and another short kid according to your memory this kid was called loak, you didnt know about the other one though, they noticed you and went full alert until they saw you raising your hands up as a universal sign of defeat, "help me please, get me away from them" yopu said desperate to go far enough because if you stayed here they could easily find you, "and how are we supposed to trust you?" the older one said backing away and sheilding his younger sister behind him

"please, i dont know how to prove it, get me away from here before they find me, here you can cuff me just plase get me away from here" you say offering him the cuffs on you which you gladly took, he cuffed your hands behind your back to ensure that you wouldnt be able to do anything to him

"you know any navi?" he asks, "unfortunatley i dont" he says, you followed him "we're going to have to secretlet meet up with my dad first" he said holding the little kids hand dragging her with him, you arrived somewhere "stop here, im going to go call my dad, dont want anyone seeing you" you nodded and watched him walk away, just a few minutes later, he was back with his dad, jake sully

"y/n?" jake said while lo'ak stared at him confused "yes i know her! never expected her to end up liking the na'vis though. you sure this aint a trick?" you were still trying to convince him "i can assure you it isnt" jake was basically shocked now. "the clan isnt going to accept this easily, but imgoing to try my best, if they dont though, i cant reallydo anything so you;d have to find another clan to be with"

"okay"you said, jake uncuffed you and lead you toward hometree, it was a bit hard for the navi at first, but they ended up accepting you

now back to what happened to mansk

quarith found him unconsious on the ground with a needle stillstuck in his back and your comms crushed on the ground, you did this. he thoughtyou were loyal, he informed ardmore of what happened and called you "jake sully 2.0"

they ended up heading back to base, quaritch was fuming, once he reached the recom quarters he broke down the door to your room and destrooyed almost everything in it, when he came to the desk. he found a paper. labeled as "escape plan" and thats when he knew you'd escaped

a few weeks latee you were wandering around hometree, some havwnt accepted you yet but you knew theyd end up accepting your presence

you were still being taught the way of the people and they were trying their best to help you, quaritch was looking for you and yoh knew that, he was gonna come for you at some point, you needed to fight

at this point quaritch scrapped all the plans of finding jake, he doeant care about jake anymore, his only goal was to find you

he wasnt gonna kill you, he was going to torture you and force you to be a loyal member to the RDA so they can finish with the jake sully mission

you were sleeping, when you heard a sound, a sound like a helicoptera proppelers, thats when you kmew, they'd found you, and that was soon confirmed when a bright light shone into your sleepy eyea

you opened your eyes to find the one and only, quaritch, with a shit eating grin slapped on his face

he had found you

"thought ya could run huh?" he said through the grin, you got up to run away, find somewhere to hide untik they were gone, but it was too late

quaritch bent down and cuffed your legs, you still had your hands so you desperatley tried to crawl away but they were soon cuffed too

you found yourself on a helicopter back to bridgehead, you were basically sobbing, "fuck you" you said through your choked sobs "maybe one day" he said followed by a laugh, you soon landed in bridgehead and you were shoved in a cell

quaritch didnt care about jake now, the only thing he wants to do now is torture you, so he begun

he walked into your cell just a few hours after waking you up from your sleep, threw you some clothes, and tols you to get dressed because you were going to go on a 5 hour training

he wasnt leaving though, he stood at the door staring at you waiting for you to change

"turn around?" you said "no"

you kmew tjere was no arguing with him so you got up and changed, he wasnt hiding the fact that he was looking you up and down, you changed and he cuffed your hands and held you while your braid while you walked out of the cell to go to the courtyard

he closed the door that led outside to the courtyard and shoved you by your queue

"alright, 20 laps right now" he said waving his fingers to shoo you off, you actually ran the 20 laps, you were already exausted after but he shoved you by your braid to the ground "50 pushups and for each one you fail 10 will be added" lets just say you ended up doing over 200 pushups

"good job, now we're gonna begin training, that was just warmup, still 4 hours left" he said walking toward a wall with knofes hung all over it, grabbing a knife and handing it to you

he taught you some ways to stab someone and each time you did one correctly he mumbled a little "good job" followed by claps

"this is going to become a daily thing, and we wont stop till you can do 50 pushups in a row without fail"

you knew this was going to be a long week, or month maybe, even year

after a few training sessions, you warmed up to quaritch and you'd have little conversations here and there, he gave you your room back, it was all back to normal other than the training that you had everyday, but you were getting better, you were close to finally being done

you walked into the courtyeard for training, as usual you did some pushups, he ordered 100 and you did them all inna row without fail

he praised you and moved on to combat, you got everything right, he was shocked how fast youve improved

"i guess my jobs done here, you gotta promise me not to run off again, your not allowed into any missions till i say so"

"yes sir" you reply knowing that if you tried to run off again you were going to he in deep shit

you decided to not run off, and serve for the RDA, they wete using yoh as a puppet to track jake down and you were giving them locations, you ddint want to get on quaritchs bad side

plus after hanging out with quaritch you guys became friends, you thought you had feelings for him but you got rid of the idea knowing you shouldnt be inlive with your superior

the next day you were finally allowed permission to go to the gym, showering after the gym, it was the first time youve been in the gym for months, you noticed something change about the shower rooms but they probably changed while you were gone

then you heard a few male voices, the shower rooms looking different made alot more sense to you now, you were in the mens showers, thankfully the rooms had doors, you were going to wait it out till they were gone

you waited for 30 minutes until someone noticed the locked door thats been locked for way too long, without wster running or anything, they could see under the door and saw feet confirming that there was someone in there

"hey whoevers in there u good" you recognised lyles voice, you tried to make ur voice deep and let out a "mhm"

"didnt know we had an extra member huh, thats weirs, the others are outside it was just me, quaritch, and a few girls at the gym" you just stay silent not wanting to embarrass yourself any further

lyle walks away to save you the ebrassasment, he realized it was someone that wasnt supposed to be here, preferabley a woman . so he decided to just leave

but quaritch stayed, he wasnt going to leave till you left, he wanted to know whos in there "whos in there, come out would ya' its been an hour" you realized that theres no running away from this now, you got dressed and glowly peeked through the door to see quaritch with his hands crossed across his chest standing infront of the stall, "why're ya in here sweet 'eart?" he says, a dirty grin smacked across his face

"i didnt realize this was the mens room till i heard you and lyle come in, tried to wait it out but that didnt work well" you said, embarassed you came here in the first place

"well its alright, grab yr' stuff n leave now, shouldnt be in e're" " yes sir" you said, grabbing your things preparing to leave the mens showers, you dont know how you didnt notice this was the mens bathroom, after all theres some urinals in the corner, must've not seen them

you and quaritvh had grown close, you were basically friends now, not normal friends though, you wouldnt hangout or anything, just occasionaly have talks

your feelings for quaritch just grew in the past few months, you had a crush on him, without a doubt, you werent really friends with the recoms, so you'd end up hanging with some scientists, they werent that bad, they were just tiny compared to you

the next day you were in bed, you were uncontrollably horny, it must be the heat cycle, you heard about it but never did proper research about it, you're fucked, litteraly, because from the things youve heard, it lasts about 2 weeks and the only way to stop it was mating, it was mid day and you couldnt handle it, you took a day off and just stayed in bed

you didnt know what to do, but then, an idea popped in your mind, sure you need to mate to get rid of this, but you could try masturbating to relieve some of the feelings you were feeling, you were pretty nearvous because 1- your door has no lock so anyone can walj it, quaritch removed it because he didnt want you making more shitty plans 2-you never touched yourself in this body.

you layed down under the covers, and slipped your shorts to your knees, you slid your hands between your legs, and you started experimenting, your cold hands on your throbbing,warm,wet pussy felt funny but relieving

you rubbed your clit, the way it felt was amazing, you were sure you'd never be able to feel like this as a human, you slipped your other hand under the covers to push a finger inside yourse;f, maybe this could solve your problem, you were pumping your fingers in and out of yourself making sure to keep an eye on your door incase someone opened it, they tend to do that alot

and, it opened, you stopped your movements quickly putting one of your hands above the covers to make it seem more natural, it would be obvious if both your hands were under the covers

and you guessed it, it was quaritch "y/n why're you talking a day off, we need you today" he said, completley oblivious of what you were doing before he came in

"i just.......needed- a little uhhh break" you said, you didnt now how you were going to explain what was happening to you to him, so you chose not to

"ya sure? ya dont look too tired dya, anything going on that i should know about? dont wantcha makin' one of ya' little plans again do i now?"

"o-okay look sir- so basically... youve heard of the heat cycle shit or whatever it is? basically its happening to me right now and i really CANT join training or anything" a smirk appeared on his face only to soon fade away, "why cant'cha tho? dont know anything bout this stuff but ya' surely can join us?"

"not unless you want me to be incredibly fucking horny while training!" you said fed up with him asking questions, you needed him to leave now, you were just getting hornier by the moment, and his strong musk didnt help

"damn so thas what is is, coulda told me earlier, coulda helped" he said, smug smirk plastered across his face "y' want me to help?" you stood still shocked for a moment, the colonels never offered you help in anything, so the first time of him offering you help, BY HAVING SEX WITH YOU was definently weird "u-uh if you could sure..." you said unsure of what you were saying, your hornyness taking over

quaritch walked over to you, sitting himself on the bed right next to you, this is the closest youve ever been with him, the losest you ever got to him before this was when he tried to teach you how to do something with a knife, you didnt quite remember but that didnt matter right now, all that matters is that you need to have sex with the colonel to get this heat cycle shit over with

quaritch stared at you, then he leaned down, joining your lips together, kissing you, holding your chin with his thumb, the kiss quickly turned into a makeout session and every once in a while one would break the kiss to get a clothing article off, until quaritch was left in his boxers and you completley bare, while you were kissing you pushed the pants that were on your knees off your body, leaving you completley exposed

he cupped your breasts, qauritch was now ontop of you, in a plank like position, still making out, you were both under the covers, quaritch reached his free hand that wasnt holding him up down to pull his boxers off, he pulled them halfway off and broke the kiss, pulled them off, "holy shit.." you said not expecting him to be this big, you were looking at his shaft, it was leaking beads of precum, straining against his lower abdomen. you could say he was ATLEAST 15 inches long, thankfully you were navi and hopefully- could take it

"holy shit i didnt expect you to be this big" you mombeled out of shock, "oh yeah? and youre gonna take it all bitch", he didnt know if you liked being called names, but by the way your body responded, he confirmed that you enjoyed being called names

he reached his hand down your torso, approaching your dripping cunt, he needed to prep you, it was necessary because he was aware of how big he was

he stuck a digit inside you, and you let out a moan, it was more of a whimper because you knew you couldnt be too loud, soon enough there were 2 fingers thrusting in and out of you, ocassionaly scissoring you

he pulled out, reaching for his member to line it up with your cunt, he couldnt wait any longer and neither could you, you need to feel any form of release, you knew you were going to cum less than a minute into him fucking you, but who cares, atleast you'll get this over with, then you remembered you heard some scientist speaking about how if someone was in their heat cycle theyd need to form the tsaheylu bond with their "mate" or else it wouldnt work

you werrnt just about to ask quaritch if you could mate, you didnt know how he'd react to that, who knows maybe itll work if you do it without a bond, it it didnt work then you were going to have to suffer through the remaninig days of this torture

quaritch was pounding into you, you couldnt supress your moans and you were now moaning, you knew everyone could hear you "ya' like tha fact that eveyone can feel hoe good im makin' ya feel huh? dirty slut" him saying that was just getting you closer to your release, quaritch ocassionaly letting soft moans out into your ears, you never expected to hear this man moaning even if it was inaudible

"im about to-" you said, not being able to complete your own scentence "go ahead sweetheart" and thats all it took for you to cum all over his cock, helping you ride out your orgasm nearing his own release

you were being over stimulated now, he finally reached his orgasm with a loud groan, filling your hole up with his seed, quaritch's body went limp and he collapsed on top of you, his head laying next to yours, he regained his strength and he pulled out "we should do this more often" "yeah we should"

quaritch kissed your forehead "cmon go get cleaned up for training" "yeah dont think im gonna be able to walk" you said " well, too bad princess because im forcing you, colonels orders" "ugh" you mumbled with a loud groan sitting yourself up "i heard that" he said reffering to your "ugh"

you got up to go shower, unfortunatley for you, there was no shower in your bedrooms bathroom so you had to go use the recom shower

quaritch left your room a bit ago, you dressed yourself and left the room to head to the showers across the hall, your bedroom was right next to the living room you heard some recoms cheering for you, your face turned purple in embarassment as you walked to the shower not looking back, this was going to be a long day....

[fandomwritinga]

nitoku is cute, like hes NERDY HUT HES CUTE. like imagine nitoku’s taking pics of u in suggestive outfits and hes all like “oh i wanna use you as reference for my literature “ but in reality he just wants to keep pics of his partner being all sexy !!(n maybe jerk off to them when ur not there)

OH MY GOD NITOKU MY LIVE

I fr love how he looks

Anyways i made it nsfw i hope thats ok😵‍💫

Nitokuuuu

- my beloved

-

- So

- You start to think its weird when you read his stories and none of them have anything to do with the outfits

- But hey maybe he just hasnt showed you the ones that he needed the pics for !

- Yes thats it! Right?

- When he first brought it up he had some shame in him

- Afraid you were gonna laugh at him

- But you didnt

- Awwww… he cant believe just how nice you are to him!

- But just how far is he gonna go?

- The first time was just a pose of two characters really close to each other

- The fact that he had a hard on is besides the point

- The next time he needed something he gave you a whole outfit!

- You were a bit surprised to say the least but he is your partner you will surely help him out

- What you didnt think tho was that he is gonna take pictures

- But dont worry he will delete them !!

- Just give him some time to finish the story!! And surely he will delete them !!

- The poses keep getting more suggestive and intimate

- You keep complaining about the pictures but you dont push it

- The reason you dont is cuz you caught him jerking off to the pictures

- You think as long as its just for him there is no harm

- But you wont lie that the last one was your favorite

- He gave you a robe similar to his

- You were naked under it

- And so was he

- Safe to say you decided to get back at him

- You slowly spread your legs even tho the script didnt need it

- He was very surprised

- But you said its a better story this way! And he listened like a lost puppy

- He just kept looking at you, admiring you

- Your curves, your soft skin

- The robe is now of you shoulders and he is on his knees on the floor

- Painfully hard

- You start to push your hand between your legs

- He does the same

- Just until you stop him

- “W-what?!” You stop him because after all the script is about a lonely woman so you must act on your own

- He looks defeated at you

- You just continue your fun, toying with him

- You start pleasing your self, lost in the feeling, you dont notice him moving towards the script

- He grabs the script and scribbles something on it

- By the time you realize, you guys are fucking, robes still on

- You are on top and he is doing everything to keep you moving

- He is whining, bucking his hips, pleading for you to keep moving but you dotn move

- You know he is a fighter, way stronger than you, but you know he would never use his strength agains you

- You check the script for the part he scribbled in

- “Woman gets to cum thanks to sex by man”…. “Is this your life greatest work?” You look at him

- He just looks back and says “i was in a hurry” and bucks his hips into you

- You both let out a chuckle

- Your hands are on him, touching him constantly

- So you decide to have fun for a bit more

- You start riding him

- He is getting loud, talking about how nicely you squeeze him, how he cant wait to cum in you!

- But then you suddenly stop

- You get off and walk towards the door

- “No! no! Please! Where-wha” he asks sadly and surprisedly, still laying on the floor

- You naked body still partially coved by the robe turns around to him, your back facing him now as you just look back at him

- Your hand brushes the robe away from your ass, bending over a bit, you bum now fully sticking out

- “I think there were a few more scenarios and poses that the script had, right?”

- He looks baffled

- “YES!” He yells out

- He starts getting up and you just throw your robe at him, now fully naked

- He looks at you in awe as you run away into the house butt naked

- He smiles and takes his robe off too running after you laughing and blue balled :)

- Who knows what else was in the script?

[ellies-little-thing]

We all die. You either kill yourself or get killed (what you gonna do? (♪ ヾ(´〇`)ﾉ♪ ) (e.w.)

My masterlist <3

pairing: ellie williams x reader

DO NOT READ IF PTSD AND VIOLENCE TRIGGER YOU

Warnings: Angst; Cheating (if you sqint); Seatle Ellie; swearing; fluf; arguing; Ellie is mean;  Violence; PTSD; alucinations, death; greiving; revenge; inplied violence; reader dies at the end; Kind of proofread, English is not my first language.

Author's notes: This one is very sad, i cried whilst writing it. Nothing sexual, just simply very sad and upseting. It talks about dificult topics, pease dont read if youre easily triguered. You are warned! Enjoy! I hope you like it! Likes, reblogs and comments are always welcome! <3 (sorry, i have vines living in my head rent free)

NSFW MINORS AND MEN DNI

w/c: 11.8k

You were with the W.L.F and were forced to go on a search. Owen and Mel were there and everything was okay until Ellie came along and killed them both which only left you, She decided to keep you as a hostess , to help her find Abby and for her to come into her trap and kill her. For now you were tied down and very scared . You could only wait for what was next...

“So why are you with the WLF anyway?” Ellie asked you.

“i.... I kinda grew up there, never really had any other choice…”

“Ah I see, are you aware of the WLF history and crimes against people?”

Ellie said as she leaned over the chair you were tied to, looking down on you

“Not really, I never hurt anyone.”

“Well you still associate yourself with people who have”

Ellie said as she grabbed a dagger from her back pocket and placed it against your throat

“I don't want to be, please don't kill me…”

“Give me one good reason why I shouldn’t?” Ellie said with a stern look, her free hand holding up your chin a bit.

“i... I guess i dont have one…” You start crying. Ellie sighed, lowering the dagger from your neck slightly, but keeping hold of your chin still, she looked down at you as you cried.

You looked back at her. Ellie looks back at you as she holds your chin with her hand and brings her face even closer to yours.

“Are you going to kill me?” You ask her, feeling very scared. Ellie didn’t respond to your question yet as she leaned in closer still, her eyes locked onto yours.

“Please don't kill me.” You close your eyes, scared. As you closed your eyes you could feel Ellie’s lips on yours as she gave you a kiss, before she pulled away still keeping her hold on your chin and dagger against your neck. “There” Ellie whispered.

“wha.... what was that?...”

“Did you enjoy the kiss?” Ellie said with a grin on her face.

“Why did you put the blade on my neck again? please....” Ellie kept the blade against your neck, holding you against the chair you were tied to. “I just wanted to see if you enjoyed it, and it seems I have my answer, not that it changes anything.” Ellie said with a grin still on her face.

“I'm not a whore you can kiss when you feel like it.”

“Oh I’m sorry, did you not like it?” Ellie said in a sarcastic mocking tone, she pulled her dagger away from your neck and placed it back into her back pocket, keeping her hands on your chin still.

“Stop looking at me like that.” You tried to look away. As you look away you feel one of Ellie’s hands slide to your cheek and she turns your head to look at her, still keeping her hold on your chin too.

“Who are you?” You asked her genuinely wanting to know. Ellie was quiet for a second, then finally answered. “Ellie Williams” She said, keeping her hand on your chin and leaning slightly closer towards you still.

“Nice name” You answer, trying to not look scared.

“What’s your name?” Ellie asked as she leaned back a bit, letting her hand drop from your chin.

“Y/N”

“Nice to meet you Y/N” Ellie said as she gave a smile, then after a few seconds a small frown formed on her face.

“Is it? Why am I tied up?” You ask, really confused by this whole encounter. Ellie chuckled a bit at the look of confusion on your face. “I caught you in my trap, you were the bait to get Abby here.” Ellie said, keeping her gaze on you.

“i don't know any Abby”

“Well she knew you, she knew your brother too” Ellie said as she put more emphasis on the word brother in the sentence. “Tell me, how did you grow up in the W.L.F?” She asked you.

“We had food and lessons for the kids and teens, it could have been worse…”

“How many people lived there?” Ellie asked as she sat down, still keeping her eyes on yours.

“I don't know, but a lot.”

“Hm.. I suppose you know about the war against the military then?” Ellie asked as she crossed her legs, still keeping her view on you

“Not really, I was going to be an arts teacher, nothing to do with the outside.” You were honest with her. “Arts teacher?” Ellie repeated, a frown coming across her face, her gaze still firmly on yours. “yes…”

“Ah” Ellie said as she looked down towards her hands, she stayed silent for a few seconds.

“If you don’t mind me asking, how old are you?”

“I’m 24.”

“And your brother?” Ellie asked, raising an eyebrow.

“He's 16.”

“That’s quite a huge age gap.” Ellie said as her eyes shifted back from her hands and back to you.

“I guess…” You looked down trying not to make eye contact. Ellie looked off to the side for a moment as she thought about her next thing to say. “When did you start living at the W.L.F?” She asked you,

“i was born there.”

“You were born at the W.L.F?” Ellie said, sounding confused and surprised. She tilted her head a little. “yes…” Ellie was quiet for a few seconds as she thought about this, she then spoke up with a little smile. “It must have been a nice childhood?” Ellie said, still keeping her head tilted slightly. “At least we didn't starve.” Ellie nodded. “I never really had a ‘childhood’, I was forced to survive in this world from the beginning, it was hard but there were times that would make me forget about what I was going through.” Ellie said in a serious tone. “oh... i’m sorry…”

“It’s okay, I’m used to it now.” Ellie smiled as she turned her focus towards you again, still sitting down and looking at you. “I’m sorry but you’re gonna be here with me for a while..” She said, still with a smile on her face.

“Can you untie me please?” You asked with pleading eyes. Ellie thought for a moment about your request. She looked from you to her dagger in her pocket and then back at you. “Fine..” She said as she grabbed her dagger out of her pocket and cut the ropes off of your hands and from the chair, letting you go free. “thank you…”

“Just so you don’t try to kill me, I’m keeping this.” Ellie said, holding up the dagger she used to cut you free. Ellie looked over at you with a smile as she put her dagger away.

“I’m sure you now have a few questions for me too?”

“Why are you here?”

“Well you see I’m looking for someone here” Ellie said as she stood up, keeping her hands in her pockets now, she then looked over at you, waiting for a response. “That Abby girl?”

“Yes..” Ellie said in a soft voice, she had a slight frown on her face.

“why?”

“She killed Joel.. I want my revenge.”  Ellie said, her face turning from a soft expression to a serious one.

“oh... I see…” You didnt know who that was but you didn't want to make her mad. “Do you understand why now?” Ellie said with a small smile, still looking at you. “Joel was like a second father to me, I looked up to him.”

“I'm so sorry…” Ellie was quiet for a few seconds, she then sighed.

“It hurts a lot..” Ellie said as she looked back up at you, her expression on her face changing back to her original sadness.

“My dad died a couple of years ago too.” You kept the conversation going.

“Your father died?” Ellie asked with a frown, her hands still resting in her pockets. “yeah, cancer…” Ellie was quiet for a while, thinking about this, she then spoke up again.

“I’m sorry you lost your dad.” She said with a soft, almost sympathetic tone.

“I'm sorry you lost yours.”

“Thank you..” Ellie said as her expression stayed the same. She looked at the ground for a moment, then looked back up at you. “I’m sorry to ask this, but can you tell me exactly where Abby is? She’s my target..”

“I don't know but I think she went to the aquarium a lot.”

“Did she?” Ellie asked, seeming interested. She had raised an eyebrow and tilted her head a bit.

“That's what I heard anyway.”

“Who told you this?” Ellie asked, looking back at you.

“heard some guards talk about her…”

“The guards did?” Ellie asked as she tilted her head a little. “What else did they say?”

“nothing else. they told me to get out of there after they noticed me.”

“I see..” Ellie said, thinking for a second. “Well then, I suppose I could go over to the aquarium and look for her, you are free to come with me or not.” Ellie said, her voice soft still. “I don't really have anyone anyway.”

“Well I guess you could come with me then, if we do find her we could work out a trap or something” Ellie said, still keeping her voice soft and her expression on her face to one of sadness.

“Sure, just dont kill me please…” You were still scared.

“I won’t” Ellie said with a reassuring smile “Are you ready?” Ellie asked you.

“Ready.”

Ellie stood up after you confirmed that you were ready, she looked over at you, still keeping her expression to one of sadness. “Let’s go then.” Ellie said before walking towards the door. “You know this place pretty well?” Ellie asked as she walked out of the building, she stayed close to you too in case you tried to run off.

“not really, never really left the center…”

“Do you know how to get to the aquarium?” Ellie asked you as she looked back towards you, still with her hands in her pockets. “From what I remember, I think it’s near here.” Ellie then pointed to a building a little bit ahead.

“I think there's a road that leads up there.”

“Okay, let��s go then” Ellie said as she started making her way to the building, still holding the dagger in her pocket just in case you tried running off.

“I'm not going to try anything, I hate weapons, please, is the knife really necessary?”

“I’m sorry but I can’t trust anyone, I don’t have any clue if you're telling the truth” Ellie said as she turned her face forward while she was walking. “But I’ll put it away if it makes you uncomfortable.” She said, then took the dagger out of her hand and put it into her back pocket again.

“thank you.” You said relieved.

“No problem.” Ellie said with a soft smile. She started walking towards the aquarium once again, taking you along with her. She looked at you as she walked, then put her hands back into her pockets. “So if you don’t mind me asking, why don’t you like weapons?”

“They only cause pain.” You said seriously, looking at the horizon. Ellie was quiet for a few seconds as she thought about what you just said, you got her thinking. “Well.. you aren’t wrong, they do cause pain, a lot of pain.” Ellie said as they got up to the aquarium. Ellie then stopped for a moment and looked at you, the aquarium in the background. “Do you think I’m a bad person?” Ellie asked you, her expression changing back to her original sadness.

“I don't really know you that well, so I can't judge you like that.” Ellie sighed as she looked down at the ground for a few seconds as you said this. She turned her face back up at you, still keeping her sad expression and frown. “Well I’m not a good person, I know that..” She said before taking a deep breath. “I’ve done bad things to people, things I regret” Ellie said with a frown. She started walking towards the aquarium door. “Don’t ask what they are, not a fan of opening up about that..”

“I don't want to upset you.” You really didn't, you knew she would kill you if she wanted.

“I’m fine, don’t worry” Ellie said with a small smile as she pushed open the aquarium door and led you inside. “Let’s look for Abby together.” Ellie said as she started walking around the inside of the aquarium, looking around. Ellie started walking inside, keeping her eyes open for Abby, she was pretty confident that the guards were telling you the truth. “I hope she is here, it would really save me a lot of time and effort..” Ellie said as she kept walking, it was nice to be able to talk to someone about it for once, she was getting a bit tired of being completely on her own. “Do you see anything?” Ellie kept walking around the aquarium, looking to the right and left of her to see if she could see anything. She then thought about your question for a moment… “No, not yet” Ellie said as she slightly chuckled, she really wished she could have found Abby by now.

“I don't see anyone either…” Ellie sighed, her face went from her slight smile to her original frown. “Ugh..” Ellie stopped walking, she now looked straight at you. “This wasn’t quite so easy was it?” Ellie asked you, still keeping her eyes on yours.

“You're scaring me…”

“How exactly am I doing that?” Ellie asked, she raised an eyebrow and tilted her head slightly. All of her facial features were still filled with sadness and a frown. “There is no one in here, I’m starting to think the guards lied to you” Ellie said.

“The way you looked at me…” Ellie chuckled lightly as you said this, she then took her hands out of her pockets. She then placed her hands on her hips as she still looked at you. “you're so scared because I looked at you?” Ellie said sarcastically with a slightly puzzled look on her face.

“a bit…” You say embarrassed. Ellie shook her head a little as she looked at you. “Well don’t worry, I never intended on harming you in anyway.” Ellie said. She looked around, thinking of where she should go next. “I guess we don’t have much choice but to keep looking,” Ellie said with a small laugh as she walked off. She was getting annoyed that Abby wasn’t here, she wanted her revenge before going home.

“I wish I could help you more…” You said to keep her in a good mood. Ellie stopped walking after you said this, her expression still filled with sadness, she then turned around to face you. “You’ve already helped me a lot..” Ellie said with a smile, still keeping her hands on her hips. “It’s better to have company than to be alone whilst also having my mind filled with revenge thoughts” Ellie said, she was feeling much better now than she was before. She was enjoying having someone else to talk to, a way of getting her mind off of her revenge.

“we can talk about other things if you want, as we look for her…”

“That sounds like a good idea.. is there anything else you’d like to know about me?” Ellie asked with a small smile, it was nice to talk to someone again. She looked over at you, waiting for you to speak first. “I like your tattoo,” You said pointing to her right forearm. “You like my tattoo?” Ellie asked with an amused look. “Thank you.” She said before smiling a little, it always made her smile to get a compliment. “It’s a bit sad of a story.” Ellie said with a slight frown, but still managed to keep a smile. “oh, sorry…”

“No, it’s no problem” Ellie said as she shook her head a little, her cheeks slightly going red. “I guess I never told you about my tattoo did I?” She asked you. “Well..” Ellie sighed as she thought about how she should say it, she then spoke up with a soft voice, her smile still fading to one of sadness again. “It's of a girl.” She said, now looking down at the ground as she continued. “A girl who meant the world to me, who now isn’t with me anymore. There was a silence for a few seconds as Ellie’s expression was completely filled with sadness. “Sorry..” She said in a quiet voice, her eyes still staring right at the floor. “I'm sorry to hear that…” You said genuinely feeling bad for the girl. “Don’t be.. it’s not your fault.” Ellie said, she sounded as though she was reassuring herself and you. She then took a deep breath and looked back up at you, there was still sadness in her eyes but she was trying to put at least a slight fake smile on her face. She knew she couldn’t stay sad for long, she just couldn’t. She was so used to it over the years that it was hard for her to show and express any other emotions.

“I love drawing, how about you?” You asked to lighten the mood. “Art was one of my favorite things to do. Ellie said as she looked at you, her face still filled with sadness but she was trying to show a positive expression. “I’d draw all the time, it was one of the things I loved to do the most.” Ellie continued as she looked down at the floor again. “Me and my friends used to always draw together” She said, it sounded as if she was trying not to think about them, as if she was pushing them out of her mind.

“That's nice.” Ellie looked back up at you as she continued to speak, there was still sadness in her eyes and face. “We’d draw anything at all, characters from games and movies, random things.. whatever we could come up with.” Ellie said with a faint smile, she then looked down at the floor again. “I haven’t drawn since though.” Ellie said, she didn’t like to think about it, that was now a thing of the past, she had to move on and survive.

“We could draw together sometime…” You suggested. “You’d do that for me, just to draw with me?” Ellie asked you, she was shocked to hear you say that to her. She was silent for a few seconds as she thought about the idea and what she could draw. “Sure, why not.. I’d love to draw something with you.” Ellie said with a bigger smile this time.

“If you don’t mind me asking… Why did you kiss me earlier when I was tied up?” Ellie was completely caught off guard by your question, she was quiet for a few seconds as she looked at you, her face now filled with shock. “Why do you think I did?” Ellie then asked you with a smirk on her face, trying to cover up her embarrassment and shock from your question. After around a minute, she finally spoke up again. “I-uhh.. I just… wanted to see what it’d feel like.. that’s why I did it.” She said, her voice going back to its soft and kind tone.

“It just doesn’t look like something a kidnapper does.” You said looking at the ground. “Huh, good point.” Ellie said as she raised an eyebrow and tilted her head slightly. You could see some slight shock but also some regret in her eyes. “But I wanted to do it..” Ellie said with a small blush on her face and a soft smile. You could see that she was a little embarrassed about this.

“It’s better than being stabbed in the neck.” You smile at her.

“True” Ellie said as she raised an eyebrow slightly, she now laughed a little. She still looked at you as she spoke. “That is true, at least I didn’t kill you…” There was a silence for a few seconds, Ellie then looked back down at the ground again. She was trying her best to not think about how awkward the conversation between you two had gotten. “So about your drawing, would you be up for doing that after we find Abby?” Ellie asked with a small grin.

“I’d love that.”

“Great!” Ellie said with a smile. “Now shall we get back to the job of finding Abby?” Ellie asked, she looked down at her knife and felt it in her pocket, feeling it's cold blade. She then got her hands out of her pockets and looked back up at you. You both began searching again, Ellie looked everywhere to find Abby, but the aquarium was big. “I think we should start doing a full search, just incase” Ellie said with a nod.

“Ok, let’s go…” You replied a bit scared. You both began searching the aquarium for Abby, as you did Ellie started to talk to you again. She was happy to have some company, if she was alone for any longer, she might have started going crazy. She now looked back down at the floor as she spoke to you with a slight sad look on her face. “So what else do you do for fun?” She asked you, you now started going up and down floors looking for Abby, checking every room just in case she was in there. “Do you like playing games, do you watch movies?”

“I love movies!”

“Oh, cool! What style of movies do you like?” Ellie asked you, she was starting to wonder what movies someone like you would watch. She looked over at you whilst you were both searching for Abby, this time she was actually looking at you, before she wasn’t and she would always be looking at the floor.

“I like horror movies.” You replied.

“Horror movies?” Ellie asked with a smile but still keeping her sad look. “I’ve never watched horror before, I do like the thrill though, the thrill and adrenaline rush you get when you don’t know what’s coming.” Ellie said with a small chuckle.

“I find them really funny actually.”

“Funny?” Ellie repeated, she was quite surprised. She always assumed horror movies were scary, you know because of the name. “Is it the plot of the movies? Or the way the actors react?” Ellie asked you, raising an eyebrow slightly. It would be interesting to see what your answer was though.

“No, just thinking of the actors doing all that stuff behind the cameras. Can you imagine? They must be holding in a massive laugh attack.”

“I guess I never really looked at it like that before. ” Ellie said as she chuckled a small amount. She knew what you meant now, thinking about it now, it would be funny to imagine them behind the cameras, doing all that stuff but holding back a laugh attack. They probably don’t even take it seriously, so they just see it as a big joke. Ellie chuckled lightly.

“And I also really love animation.”

“Oh! I love animation too! Do you like Disney films?” Ellie asked you as she walked over to a door to open it. She was trying to think if animation meant other things, so she just went with what she was guessing it meant. She then opened the door inside the aquarium, it was just a supply room. There were no signs of Abby inside.

“Oh, I love ‘the beauty and the beast’!”

“Oh my god you’ve seen beauty and the beast!? I really love that movie!” Ellie said as she chuckled a little. She was shocked to hear that you’ve seen and actually like that movie. “It’s my favorite Disney movie!” Ellie looked down at the floor, she then looked back up at you. “So what’s your favorite moment in the movie?” She asked you.

“I know all of the songs, my favorite might be Hercules actually or Atlantis.”

“You know all the songs to the beauty and the beast?” Ellie asked you with an impressed look. “The songs are amazing, they are so catchy..” Ellie said, she was smiling a little as she spoke. “You really do know everything about it huh? I don’t think I know the words to all of it..” Ellie said with a chuckle.

“It was Disney’s first full on musical animation movie.”

“Oh? Is it actually? You know this stuff?” Ellie asked you with a smile. “You know, you actually seem quite smart, it’s cool.” Ellie said with a chuckle. She looked over at you as she said this, she had a slight blush on her face. She then opened another door, this one was locked though. “Oh, hey.. it’s locked..” Ellie said as she shook her head slightly.

“That’s strange…” Ellie was quiet for a few seconds, deep in thought. She then looked over at you again. She then tried to unlock the door that she was at, it turned out to be a waste of time as nothing worked to open the door. There was no sound coming from inside the room. “I guess that’s another dead end…” Ellie said with a sigh.

“I think I have a Bobby pin, let me try unlocking it.” Ellie watched you as you tried to unlock the door with a bobby pin, you managed to unlock it. Ellie was amazed that that actually worked, she thought the door wasn’t going to open but you proved her wrong, she wasn’t expecting that at all. “Wow..” Ellie looked at you with a smile, surprised. You bowed, joking a bit. Ellie laughed a little when you did, she wasn’t expecting that but she found it funny though. Ellie was still smiling while she looked at you, she really liked having conversations with you, even though this whole situation wasn’t the best situation to be in. Ellie then looked back down at the floor, she still had that subtle smile on her face. “Shall we have a look into this room?” She asked you, she didn’t really know what would be inside, she was hoping something would be in here to help her find Abby.

“Let’s go madam” You smiled at Ellie. She laughed a little at what you had just said, she hadn’t expected you to call her that but it wasn’t a bad thing. She got right to it after she laughed, she opened the door and walked in. Ellie looked over at you and smiled “Come on, let’s go in” She spoke in a soft tone. Ellie looked around the room as she spoke, she was trying to figure out what the purpose of this room might have been. “I have no clue, it doesn��t look very special” She said with a slight shrug. The room didn’t really have anything interesting in it that would stand out to Ellie, there was just a single chair in the middle of the room.. Ellie sighed and went to go and sit down on the chair. “I guess we could have a little rest break?” She said to you.

“That sounds good.”

Ellie smiled at you. She sat there staring at the floor, she had her hands together, fingers interlocking with each other. Ellie put her feet up on the chair so she could rest them there, she looked over at you whilst she did this. She was starting to like you, she had never talked to someone this much before, you seemed to like the stuff she liked, and you looked comfortable talking to her even though the conditions weren’t the best. She looked back down at the floor again, her face going back to its normal sad expression.

“You okay?”

“Oh- uh.. yeah, just tired I guess.” Ellie said as she continued to look down at the floor.

She seemed to be lying to herself, as she spoke her eyes were slightly glazed. She was also a little fidgety, her hand still holding the knife. This wasn’t a normal Ellie, she usually was a lot more upbeat but right now she seemed to be lying to herself.

“You can talk to me, if you regret it could always just kill me with that knife. “You teased her smiling.

“Huh?” Ellie said suddenly, her head shot up and she looked over at you. A look of a bit of shock and confusion as she stared at you, Ellie thought that she had heard what you said right but she wasn’t sure. Did you just say that she could always kill you with her knife? Was that a joke or a genuine statement? Ellie took one hand off the knife and held it at her side. “I mean, I’m not going to kill you now..” She said awkwardly.

“I'm joking.” You gave her a wide smile. “Oh-.. yeah.. I thought you were.” Ellie said with a slight laugh. She sounded a little confused and still seemed to be wondering if you were joking or not. She moved the knife around while she spoke, just to be careful about her knife. “So-.. uh.. can I ask you a question?”

“Yes?”

“What made you join the wlf?” Ellie asked you, she was now interested in you. She put her hand back on her knife as she spoke, she still wanted to have it at her side. “I’m not judging you by the way, I’m just interested, that’s all.” She was speaking in a soft tone whilst she looked at you.

“Born there like I said earlier.”

“Oh- right” Ellie said as she realized that you had already told her that, her memory sometimes fails her, she then turned the conversation slightly and went to the next question. “Do you enjoy it there?” She asked in a slightly more serious tone. Her tone didn’t change to a dark tone though so she wasn’t trying to be intimidating or anything. “Like, do you enjoy being part of the wlf?” Ellie said in a casual tone now, she was trying to keep the conversation light and friendly between you two.

“I never had any other choice really.”

“Ah I see, how is it living in the WLF?” Ellie asked you again, this time with a soft smile on her face. She was looking at you, trying not to sound like she was interrogating you too. Ellie just wanted to get to know you more, her questions were more out of the curiosity of who you are and the life you’ve led, she was also just happy to have someone to talk to. Ellie seemed to be enjoying herself.

“It could be worse, everyone is fed and educated, and the kids I was starting to teach were adorable…” You smiled to yourself a bit sad, thinking of how you’d never see those kids again.

“Aww, you were teaching them?” Ellie asked you with a sweet smile. She seemed intrigued about the teaching children part. This made Ellie’s mood change slightly, her face looked slightly more friendly and happy. “How old are these kids by the way?” Ellie asked you.

“4/5 years old.”

“Oh my god.. they would be so adorable, you must have loved teaching them! I mean.. I can only imagine what their little faces would have looked like! If only I could have seen it!” Ellie said as she chuckled a little. Ellie seemed happy to picture what the kids would’ve been like since children are one of the few things that make Ellie happy in this world, she loves children. “How many kids did you teach by the way?” Ellie asked you with another smile.

“About a dozen.” You said with a small sad tone in your voice, you really loved those kids.

“Oh my god, I wish I could have seen the look on their faces as you taught them! What did you teach them by the way?” Ellie said with another smile, she was picturing the kids again. Ellie seemed really happy to know that you taught children, she is a very sweet person that loves children so naturally she would love to hear about you teaching those kids about all those things! Ellie was now sat up on the chair, with her legs over the chair as if she was sitting on it normally. “I was the arts teacher.”

“Ohhh, so you taught them all about art? Like.. the drawings and paint and all of that stuff?” Ellie asked you, you could tell that she was very happy to hear this and she was starting to imagine things again. “Was it fun teaching them?” Ellie sounded genuinely interested in you and what you were going to say, she was enjoying herself right now by listening to you.

“Yeah, it was so much fun, they were all so creative.” You continued reminiscing on the memory of your tiny friends.

“The kids had creativity in them?..” Ellie asked you as she raised an eyebrow slightly. She looked over at you and grinned. “Aww, can I ask you a question please?” Ellie said with an awkward smile. She sounded a bit nervous to ask this question, she felt like it was important for some reason. “Sure”

“Is it okay if I can.. hug you?..” Ellie said to you with a nervous chuckle as if she had just said the most random yet awkward thing. She looked down at you and had an awkward smile. Her face then turned to a serious look as she realized what she had just done, she felt so embarrassed right now. Ellie was blushing quite a bit, her heartbeat was also going quite fast as she spoke. She looked like she was panicking.

“Oh, ok… I think a hug would be nice right now.” You said feeling a bit sad about missing the kids. Ellie looked up at you and smiled a little. She then jumped down from the chair and walked right up to you. Ellie then opened both of her arms as if she was going to give you a hug. Ellie hadn’t really been hugged in a very long time, she had kind of forgotten how to feel a hug. But she did love hugs and felt like she really needed one right now. Ellie’s arms were still open and waiting for you to walk into her arms.. “Hugs?” Ellie said in a small and quiet voice. “Hugs.” You hugged Ellie, closing your eyes into the embrace. “Okay then…” Ellie said as she closed her eyes and slowly walked into your arms, she then wrapped her arms around your body. Ellie seemed surprised a little by the hug but it felt good to her, it had been a very long time since she had a hug. Ellie then opened her eyes again and sighed very softly. “I haven’t hugged someone in a very long .. long time…” She said quietly as she looked at you with a sweet smile. “Me neither , this feels nice…” Ellie continued to hug you, she seemed very happy about this moment. She continued to hug you for a little bit longer, she seemed sad for some reason. Ellie seemed to want to keep this hug going forever, she didn’t want to let go but knew she would have to sooner or later. Ellie was still hugging you, she felt a bit bad for you in all honesty, she felt like this hug was much needed for you. Ellie was holding the hug tightly still. “What’s wrong ? You okay?”

“No no, I’m- I’m fine, I- I just- It’s just-“ Ellie seemed to be in a difficult situation with her words as you were still hugging her. Ellie smiled at you but the smile was slightly sad. “Could I ask you a question please?..” Ellie said in a slightly more serious tone. She was still hugging you, she looked like she really didn’t want to let go. “Of course” You said to her reassuringly. Ellie sighed quietly and spoke, she had this big sigh filled with stress and sadness. “Can I tell you something and you won’t hate me?...” Ellie waited for you to answer. She was still hugging you, she was hugging you really tightly and she seemed scared.

“Yes, I have no right to judge anyone.” You responded calmly. Ellie took a deep breath and spoke once more, she was now shaking a little bit, you could probably tell that she wasn’t happy at that moment. Ellie seemed nervous, she seemed scared to tell you what she was about to tell you.. “Do you promise you won’t be angry?..” Ellie said in a slightly more calm tone. “I promise” You reassured her. Ellie sighed again and spoke to you but with a very quiet voice. “I’ve.. I’ve done bad things before.. things that I might have needed to do..” Ellie was struggling with her words right now, she wasn’t sure if she was doing the right thing by telling you this. It’s not like Ellie was a bad person, she felt guilty for her mistakes but was doing whatever it took to survive. Ellie kept hugging you tightly as she spoke.

“It’s okay, I think everyone has done bad things , as if it isn't the apocalypse and whatnot.” You said still holding her. Ellie sighed again, she was thankful that you were understanding of her situation and didn’t hate her for the things she might’ve done. Ellie was still hugging you, she really needed this hug right now. Ellie smiled a little. “Thank you, I mean that with the fullest of my heart…” Ellie then turned her attention slightly, she let go of you and looked you dead in the eyes, she felt like there was another question she wanted to ask you. “Do you have a name?..”

“You’re welcome, I’m Y/N. Are you okay? You asked me that earlier. Are you feeling alright? Hungry or thirsty?”

“H-hungry would be nice to say the least, do you maybe have some food in this room?” Ellie said in a more calm and quieter tone than she usually spoke in. She was hungry right now, and she really wanted to have something to eat. “I can’t see anything in this room so I’m not sure if there is or not.” Ellie looked at you in a nervous way. She didn’t know what she would do if she didn’t get some food soon enough, she felt very hungry.

“I think I have something in my bag, some dried fruit, just a second.”

“Do you mind if you could give it to me please?” Ellie asked with a look of hope on her face, she was hoping and hoping that you had some sort of food in your bag like you said. Ellie was ready to eat any food you might have had, she didn’t have much high standards, she just wanted to eat. Just to clarify though, she would have never eaten you, even if you were the only food source, she wasn’t that barbaric! “Do you actually have any food in your bag right now?..” Ellie said with a faint smile.

“Yes, here you go.” Ellie’s face then formed back into a smile, she looked a bit more happier as you said it was okay for her to get some food. “Thank you very much…” Ellie was really looking forward to this food, she had been hungry for a while. She then looked over to your bag and nodded her head at you. “If it’s not a problem for me to have some of the food, could you pass me the dried fruit..?”

“Here, you can keep it.” You gave her a smile. “Oh, are you serious?..” Ellie was stunned, you were willing to give her the food and let her eat it. “Are you sure about this?..” Ellie said to you. Ellie still couldn’t believe this was happening right now, she was getting the food and she didn’t even have to do anything to obtain it. Ellie was speechless, she was also very thankful for this act of kindness you did. “Thank you.. is there any way I could return the favor for you?” Ellie asked in awe.

“It’s okay, not killing me is reward enough” You smile at her. Ellie chuckled and smiled back, she was very thankful for this act of kindness you were giving her right now. The food you gave her made her stomach growl, she then took the bag out of your hands gently. Ellie looked inside of it and took a large piece of dried fruit. She then ate it a second later then smiled. “Thank you very much, Y/N..” Ellie said in a calm and quiet tone, she hadn’t eaten for quite a while before this point. Ellie seemed to be relieved by having some food now.

“You’re welcome Ellie.” Ellie then took another large piece of the dried fruit and ate it right after, she then took a moment to look back at you. She looked up at you with a warm smile, she was now a bit less hungry than she was. Ellie then continued to eat as she looked around the area. “What were you doing in that room?” Ellie asked you as she still ate. She seemed to be quite interested in you and what you had to say. She then placed the bag with the dried fruit back down onto the floor.

“They ordered me to go on a random search around town and ended there I guess, until you found me.” Ellie seemed interested in what you were saying, she was now eating a third piece of dried fruit as she spoke to you. Ellie looked down at you in a pleasant way. “So you were just going around town trying to look for people?...” Ellie asked as she ate her food slowly. She seemed curious about what you were doing when you came across this room that she had put you in. Ellie placed the bag of dried fruit on the floor again and then looked around the room. “So you were ordered into this room by a group of people?”

“Yeah. Sometimes we had to do random searches and everyone had to do it, even a teacher like me.”

“The teacher has to do random searches?” Ellie says as she takes a fourth piece of dried fruit and eats it in front of you. Ellie seems intrigued by this information you are telling her, she wants to listen to every little bit of detail you can tell her. She is very much interested in everything you are saying right now and what you had to do when you went out. It seems like you’ve had a more interesting job than Ellie though, Ellie never had an official task or job to do when she went out and scavenged…

“Community stuff and whatnot.”

“Community service and.. and what?” Ellie says as she looks at you. She seems confused by the last part you said, she wanted to know what it was exactly you did for this community stuff. Ellie still had one piece of dried fruit left, she was going to eat it as soon as you finished talking.

““Everyone must do their part.” they used to say.”

“Well it sounds pretty hard to be honest, that “every one must do their part” stuff”. Ellie said as she then took her last piece of dried fruit and ate it slowly while looking at you. Ellie then put the bag back down on the floor and took a small drink of water. Ellie sighed to herself and smiled at you. “You said what you did made you happy, is there anything else that made you happy?” Ellie felt bad for asking so many questions but she was just curious to hear more about you.

“Not really, I never had many friends.”

“You didn’t?..” Ellie sounded surprised, she honestly wasn’t expecting you to say that. Ellie felt bad for you now, this made her feel very sad.. Ellie looked down at you, she felt terrible about herself for asking so many questions that made this woman sad. “You can be my friend if you want, I’m sure you will be able to find a lot of people to be your friend.” Ellie had just finished her last piece of dried fruit, she looked over back at you once more.

“I’d love to be friends with you, Ellie. What about you? What’s your home like?” Ellie had finished her water and put the bottle back down on the floor. She then turned her attention back to you and smiled. Ellie seemed happy to hear that you wanted to be her friend and not only was she looking forward to being your friend but she wanted to get to know you too. “My home? Well.. I’m not too sure if you would like it or not.. it’s a very different life compared to this.” Ellie was talking about Jackson, it’s where she lives with her family and friends.

“I bet I would like it better than never being able to leave that place.” Ellie then let out a small laugh, this made her seem slightly more happier than before. She then smiled and spoke again. “I guess I can’t blame you for that, living in a place like this must be pretty terrible.” Ellie looked down at you and thought about what you said. “Hey, do you mind if I tell you something?”

“Shoot” You said playfully. Ellie smiled at you, she then looked up at you once more and spoke. “I uh.. I’ve wanted a friend for a very long time now..” Ellie said slowly, she seemed a bit nervous to say this now. “I-I’ve never really had a friend before, everyone I know that I can count as a friend is just… family…” Ellie sighed and closed her eyes for a moment. “I’m glad that I can call you my friend now.” Ellie said to you.

“I'm glad too, you’re super nice when you’re not kidnapping people.” You smiled at her playfully. Ellie then let out a small chuckle, she appreciated the joke. “Thank you, it means a lot that you are glad about this.” Ellie then smiled at you once again, she was quite happy about this new friendship she had with you. She would always remember this event as the moment she first made a friend ever. Ellie then started to look around the room once more, she seemed to be thinking about something. “By the way, could you tell me your name again?..”

“Y/N.” You said again starting to get worried.

“Y/N, thank you..”

Ellie looked down at you and smiled, she seemed happy that she had gotten to know you. Ellie then thought to herself, she was wondering if she should tell her about her past. “Hey.. can I tell you something?..” Ellie asked you slowly in a quiet tone.

“Yes?”

“Can I tell you my secret?.. I mean, it is a really big thing that I don’t tell a lot of people about.” Ellie then smiled at you, she wanted to tell you something big about her and she felt comfortable telling it to you. Ellie was quite interested in how you would react upon finding this out.

“Okay…”

“If it’s okay with you, can I ask you to keep this a secret?..” Ellie asked you, she seemed nervous about this but she was still very curious to see how you would respond. Ellie also looked at you right in the eyes as she waited for you to answer.

“I promise.”

“Okay..” Ellie took a deep breath then spoke. “I’m.. I’m immune.” Ellie seemed shocked to actually say this to someone, she wasn’t sure if you would believe her at all or not. Ellie still had a very nervous smile, she wasn’t sure what to do from this point onwards. She looked at you in the eyes and waited for your reaction..

“Wait what??”

“Yeah.. I’m uh.. I’m immune to the infection, I have been for years now..” Ellie looked quite nervous about telling you in all honesty. Ellie felt like she made a mistake telling you, she was still scared of what she might think of her.. But, this was a part of Ellie and she was finally ready to tell someone about it. Ellie was ready to tell you everything..

“How? I mean… it seems impossible…”

“It felt impossible when I found out but, here I am.” Ellie shrugged her shoulders. She wasn’t really sure about how it happened but she was just thankful that she did. “I don’t really know how it happened, I just found out one day that I wasn’t infected.” Ellie seemed very confused about it herself, she didn’t know what to even say. Ellie then looked down, she didn’t want to tell you anymore. She felt pretty bad for telling you this..

“You’re special, you know? I never even heard of anyone being immune.” Ellie looked back up at you, this compliment from you made her feel slightly better. She hadn’t been told that she was special before but for her, you were right. Ellie smiled and looked back at you. “Thank you for saying that, I appreciate it..” Ellie then looked down, she felt like she should tell you a bit more about herself. “I uh.. I actually met Joel once and he didn’t believe me at first either.” Ellie said this while looking at you with a slight smile.

“Is that why you have the tattoo? Where got you bit?” Ellie looked down at her arm and saw the bite mark on her arm, then she looked back up at you. “Yeah, I actually got infected but instead of turning into one of them I ended up being immune, it’s strange if I have to say myself.” Ellie sighed and let out a smile before continuing. “It was really difficult to convince Joel that I was immune to it as well when we first met, he didn’t believe me at-first.” Ellie then looked around the room. “He didn’t believe me until I made fun of him.”

“Joel sounds like a really nice person.” You say sincerely. Ellie laughed before speaking. “You really don’t know him, he’s far from nice but I guess you could say he’s alright.” Ellie was now looking at you in the eyes once more, she then nodded and spoke. “He’s not as bad as he seems though, he’s done a lot to protect me..” Ellie smiled and spoke a bit softer. “Thanks for listening to me, this means a lot..” She was glad that she could finally get this out, she never told anyone this..

“Anytime Ellie.”

“Can I ask you a few more questions..?” Ellie asked you as she looked back up at you. She wanted to know about you, she wanted to hear more about you. Ellie took a small breath and waited for your answer. The mood had changed from a tense situation to a much more friendly situation now.

“Of course!” You smiled. Ellie took another small breath, she was a bit shy to ask you these questions so she wanted to try and make the questions as casual as possible. Ellie stared at you for a moment before asking her question. “Have you ever gone on a date?..” Ellie smiled and looked back down at the floor as she asked this question, she hoped you didn’t mind. She wasn’t sure if you would answer honestly or not.

“No, I never dated anyone…” Ellie seemed curious about this, she was a little confused as to why you haven’t dated anyone before. “Oh really? You’ve never dated someone?..”

Ellie asked you in a quiet and shy voice, she seemed interested in hearing your response. Ellie looked back up at you once more, she still seemed nervous to ask you the question but she felt like she had to ask you. “..is there a reason why you haven’t dated anyone?..”

“Just never found anyone I liked, I guess…” You looked at the ground. Ellie smiled and nodded a little bit, she seemed to now understand what you were saying. “Well, that makes sense.” Ellie now looked away again and then spoke. “Do you go out frequently?..” Ellie was looking at you again, she seemed to be curious as to what you would say. Ellie was interested in hearing about what things you did outside of this place, she hadn’t spoken to someone about their outdoor life in such a long time. She was genuinely curious about you.

“Not really.”

“So you aren’t too outgoing then?” Ellie asked you with a raised eyebrow. She was still looking at you with a curious look on her face, she wanted to hear more about you and what sort of person you were. She was even wondering what you would look like outdoors, she was curious to know what she would look like out in the open area. Ellie then took another small breath before speaking again. “..you seem like a nice person to me.” Ellie said this while looking you straight in the eyes. 

“I never had the option to be outgoing, maybe I might be, don’t know.”

“You never had the option of being outgoing?..” Ellie asked and raised an eyebrow, she was a bit confused by what you said. “Why, was it because you didn’t have time or were you not allowed too maybe?..” Ellie asked this while looking up at you, she seemed to want to learn more about your past. Ellie had asked quite a few different questions now so she was hoping she wasn’t overwhelming you with all of these questions.

“Not allowed.” You said in a serious and somewhat sad tone. “Not allowed?..” Ellie sighed and nodded a little bit. “Why though?..” Ellie was looking at you, she was starting to feel curious as to why this was the case. Ellie had another small breath before speaking again. “Why weren’t you allowed to go out?” Ellie was hoping you would answer this question, she really wanted to know. Ellie also wanted to know if this affected you in any way now..

“Rules or laws as they liked to call them…” You said remembering your old life. “Rules?..” Ellie said in a surprised tone. Ellie was still staring at you, she seemed to now be wondering if you were happy in life at all. “What were these rules and laws, was it very strict..?” Ellie was looking at you while asking this, she was still interested in who you were. Ellie wanted to continue the conversation with you, she was really enjoying these small questions she was getting to ask you. “Yeah, but I never knew anything else.” Ellie seemed sad about the fact of this. “Oh..” Ellie put her head down and sighed, she felt like she had ruined the mood by getting you to talk about this. She was also a bit confused about how you thought about it, you seemed to accept these rules as if there was no other choice. Ellie then said something. “You seem to have a nice personality..” Ellie now looked back up at you, she seemed to have perked up in mood a bit now. She was smiling at you and wanted to hear more about you. “Thanks, you too.” Ellie smiled once more at the compliment from you, she then thought of something else she wanted to ask.

“Can I ask you another question?.. I don’t want to overwhelm you...” Ellie was now looking away from you, she seemed a little bit worried about whether you would be okay with her asking you more questions. “Of course, as many as you want.”

“I promise it won’t be too many..” Ellie then looked back up at you. “..did you have any friends.. when you were growing up?” Ellie smiled a little as she asked this, she was quite curious about this question. Ellie had wanted a friend for years now and maybe she could understand where you were coming from. Ellie was once again staring straight at you, she looked like she actually cared about you now and your responses. She was glad that someone was actually sitting and listening to these questions she was asking.

“One or two but they didn’t stick around…” You recalled feeling sad. “Oh okay..” Ellie now sounded intrigued, she wanted to know more about this answer. “..why’s that?”

Ellie asked in a quiet and curious tone. She was now staring at you once more, she wanted to know more about you and your life growing up. Ellie wasn’t sure if she would ask you many more questions so she decided she should ask as many as possible right now.

“Not sure, but it’s okay. Sure I felt a bit lonely but it was fine.”

“Well.. that’s good that it was alright.” Ellie now had a slight smile on, she seemed interested in this new conversation she was having with you right now. Ellie then seemed to have an idea about something. “You know, can I ask you a personal question?..” Ellie didn’t want to come off as offensive to you in any way, she just wanted to ask this question to know more.

“Yes?”

“Have you ever kissed someone before?..” Ellie asked you in a quiet and nervous tone, she wanted to know more about your love life. Although, she wasn’t sure if you wanted her to ask you this. Ellie just hoped that you wouldn’t be offended by the question she just asked.

“You were my first kiss…”

“I.. um..” Ellie froze, she felt her face go all red and her heart was beating out of her chest. She was so embarrassed about this. “Really?..” Ellie could barely get the words out of her mouth. Ellie was now just staring at you in complete shock, she seemed embarrassed and surprised. Ellie didn’t know what to do.. “I.. um..” She tried to speak again but she couldn’t think of the right words to say, she just wanted to bury herself in the ground now.

“It’s okay, no need to be embarrassed.” Ellie was still blushing and now she knew that if she had to speak anymore she would probably die of embarrassment. So she decided to shut up and take in the words that you just said to her. She then looked at you and gave you a smile, hoping that you wouldn’t think that she was weird for her reaction to the question. “Oh okay, well..” Ellie then got cut off by her own thoughts as she realized what you just said.. “Wait, really?..” Ellie was very shocked to hear this..

“Really, but now that I know you better, I’m glad it was with you.” Ellie was blushing harder than ever now, she couldn’t believe this was happening to her. Ellie then puts her head down to try and avoid your eye contact. Ellie felt like a huge idiot around you now, she didn’t know what to say. “..um.. I.. I didn’t think I would ever be someone’s first kiss…” Ellie spoke in a soft tone now, she seemed to be feeling very shy right now. Ellie’s head was starting to hurt due to the amount of blushing she was doing.

“And you? Like anyone?” Ellie took a small breath and spoke now. “Actually, yeah.. I have..” Ellie seemed a bit embarrassed when she said this, she wasn’t sure if you was going to think that it was a big deal. But Ellie decided that she shouldn’t hide anything. Ellie seemed to be blushing a little bit as she spoke. “..I have kissed someone before..”

“Were they nice?”

“Yeah, they were very nice actually, they’re the best person I’ve ever met..” Ellie now spoke in a more quiet and reserved tone. She sounded a little bit sad now, she was thinking about someone she cared about. Ellie then spoke again. “..their name was Riley..” Ellie still hadn’t gotten over Riley, she was still thinking about her and how great she was to Ellie. “..she was just everything to me..” Ellie went silent again after saying this.

“Was? Isn’t anymore?” Ellie stayed silent for a moment before speaking, she had started to tear up again now. “Yeah.. she isn’t with me anymore.. and I really do miss her..” Ellie was looking away from you now, she was trying to keep herself together around you. Ellie didn’t want to ruin anything by crying around you, she was trying so hard not to cry.

“I bet you do, if she was so important to you.” You said with a sympathetic smile. Ellie tried to speak but she couldn’t get a single word out, she was now just silently crying at this point. Ellie could not for the life of her control this situation and what she felt right now. Ellie seemed to be trying to hold the tears back but it was no use, she was now just crying in a full blown sob. Ellie was now just trying to say anything, although the words weren’t coming out through her tears. “Ellie? It’s okay to cry, you know?” Ellie just shook her head no, she really didn’t want to cry in front of you. Ellie was still trying not to cry but she just couldn’t control it anymore. She just sat there in silence and continued to cry. She felt like a huge idiot right now, she really didn’t want to show this to you. Ellie was slowly wiping the tears away from her eyes, she seemed to be calming herself down a little bit. Ellie then decided to now speak. “..I’m sorry..”

“There’s nothing to apologize for.”

“But I’m crying in front of you now, I don’t want to seem like I’m a cry baby..” Ellie was still wiping her eyes and cheeks, the tears just wouldn’t stop coming. “..I just wish.. I could have told her how much she meant to me..” Ellie spoke in-between wipes, she really wanted to speak but didn’t want to ruin this moment with her cries. Ellie seemed to calm down once more, her tears were slowly falling down her cheeks.

“It’s okay, everybody cries, I like to say that it washes our souls.” Ellie nodded and sighed, she now stopped wiping her tears. “I really hope that’s true, I guess if crying washes the soul..” Ellie now started smiling slightly at your comment. “..maybe mine is now cleaner.” Ellie let out a small laugh, she felt better about herself now that she got to speak to someone and let out a few tears. Ellie was starting to cheer up but still had the small tears making their way down her cheeks, she looked a little bit better but not fully fine just yet.

“Do you need a hug?” Ellie nodded once more, she now seemed to be in a much better mood. “Yes please.. I haven’t really had many hugs since Riley passed..” Ellie was glad that she could now hug someone again, she really needed this right now. Ellie then opened her arms to give you a hug, she was glad that you were being so nice to her. Ellie was also smiling, she couldn’t believe how much this meant to her. Ellie was just standing there with her arms open, waiting for you to take her in your arms..

“Oh Ellie, come here.” Ellie quickly walked over to you, she was ready for the hug. Ellie then hugged you as tight as she could, she was glad that she was able to be in your arms. Ellie was smiling and crying at the same time, she was just so happy right now. “Thank you, you don’t know how much this means to me..” Ellie was now just hugging you as tight as she possibly could. She felt like she could really trust you.

“I'm so happy I met you Ellie.”

“I am too.. I have never had someone be so kind to, you have no idea how much this means to me..” Ellie was crying again, although she wasn’t sad tears this time she was tears of happiness. She didn’t want to let go, she was so happy to be in someone’s arms again for once. Ellie was just smiling and wiping her tears away now. She looked at you and wanted to say something again. “..thank you..” You just hugged Ellie tighter, she is way taller than you so you could hear her heart beat on her chest. Ellie smiled once more as you pulled herself closer to you. Ellie liked this, she didn’t care how short you were and was so happy to be in your arms right now. Ellie was still smiling, she couldn’t stop now since she was just so happy. Ellie was now very close to you, her head was now resting on your shoulder and her breathing had slowed down a bit. She really wished that everything could stay like this for a while, she just loved being in someone’s arms.

“What about we take a nap? I think we both need some rest.”

“That sounds amazing actually, I really could do with a nap.” Ellie wasn’t kidding, she hadn’t had a good sleep in weeks due to the lack of a bed. Ellie was now starting to nod off, she had to now be supported by you as she was starting to drop. “Sorry, I think I might fall asleep soon.” Ellie spoke in a very drowsy voice now, she sounded like she was now going to fall asleep. “It’s okay, just rest.” You assured her of it. Ellie was completely asleep, she was now just in your arms and resting. She was still smiling a little bit in her sleep as if she knew you were being kind to her. Then she started to snore a little bit from her deep sleep, she sounded really peaceful as you now had your arm around her. Ellie was sound asleep..

You fell asleep too eventually. Ellie was still asleep, you could also hear her very gentle breathing in your shoulder. She seemed to be very peaceful with her hair falling over her eyes. Ellie was now starting to sound like she was now having a dream, her movements became a little more rapid. Shemoving her lips, it looked like she was saying something. Ellie’s snoring and deep breathing was slowly fading away, she sounded like she was finally in a deep sleep.

A few hours later you suddenly heard a loud yawn and then you felt a little bit of movement from Ellie. She opened her eyes as she woke up, she was still in your arms. Ellie looked at you as she spoke to you. “Hello.. I’m awake now.” Ellie was still drowsy and didn’t want to move much, she seemed to be comfortable where she was. She was still looking at you with a sleepy smile. “Hi! How was your nap?” Ellie was finally fully awake now, she yawned and spoke again. “It was very good actually, I haven’t slept well for months now so this felt so nice to have.” Ellie was now just looking up at you and smiling as she sat there in your arms. Ellie was still a little drowsy it felt like but she finally felt a bit more energetic. “How long have I been asleep for?” Ellie asked you, she was curious to hear how long she had actually been asleep. “A couple of hours”

Ellie then spoke again. “Oh.. did anything major happen while I was asleep or was it pretty peaceful?” Ellie was still half asleep as she spoke to you, she was glad that you were here with her right now. Ellie didn’t want to move at all, she was starting to get comfy in your arms. She gave you another yawn as she tried to keep herself awake.

“How long have we known each other for actually..? I still don’t have your name..”

“Since this morning.” You said with concern in your eyes.

“Wow.. it feels a lot longer than that.” Ellie was still sounding somewhat sleepy. Ellie was trying to stretch out a little bit, she was also starting to wake up. Ellie spoke to you now. “So what is your name again..?” Ellie was confused as to what your name was, she still hadn’t found out yet. She stretched her arms out.

“Y/N, like I said before. You were really tired, huh?”

“Oh yeah, sorry I forgot about that. I still feel a little bit tired to be honest, but not as much as before.” Ellie slowly started to get herself out of your arms, she didn’t want to disturb you and didn’t want to be a burden to you. Ellie stretched out her arms to the left, she seemed to have finally woken up. Ellie was starting to look at you more, she also liked your name as well. “I like your name Y/N, it sounds cute.”

“Thank you Ellie…” You were starting to get really concerned about her. she had forgotten your names too many times. “Your welcome, I think Y/N is a very pretty name.” Ellie now looked around and found a seat nearby, she sat down and stretched her legs out. She was starting to feel a little better about everything now that she was awake and out of the dream world. Ellie then had an idea as she looked back at you. “So Y/N, can I ask you something?..”

“Yes?”

“Can I ask you a question and you don’t have to give me an answer if you don’t want to?” Ellie was now starting to get a little nervous. “Are you single..?” Ellie was now blushing a little bit again but this time it wasn’t because she was embarrassed. She was just thinking of any other question she could ask you. “I am, never dated anyone actually…”

“Really?!” Ellie seemed surprised to hear this, she felt like that couldn’t have been true. Ellie then nodded her head and decided to speak once more. “Well, I know I just met you today but I think you're cute Y/N, and I was wondering if maybe I could be your first kiss?” Ellie put a finger above her lips and then spoke again. “I’m really sorry if this is moving too fast or you don’t like me but.. I just thought I would ask.”

“You already were but I wouldn’t mind you being the second too.” You smiled. Ellie was surprised to learn that you already had a first kiss but she was pleased to know that you wouldn’t mind a second one anyway. Ellie looked up at you now, she was so shy right now and also excited but also a little nervous. “Uhm.. do you mind if I..?” She was starting to get a little teary-eyed due to how sweet and kind you were being to her. and was now looking at you and smiling, she couldn’t believe this was happening. You got closer to her face. Ellie now looked surprised as you got closer to her face, she was blushing immensely right now and her heart started beating really fast. Ellie was very happy to be speaking with you and didn’t want this moment to end, she really wished it could last forever. Ellie now closed her eyes as she was expecting you to now kiss her.

Ellie opened her eyes after you kissed her, she was blushing immensely as everything was so new for her but she liked it. she couldn’t speak at all at the moment. Ellie was now completely silent as she was now staring at your face. She felt slightly awkward now but also really wanted to kiss you again..

Ellie was blushing even more, her face was bright red and she was smiling a lot. She was still finding it hard to control her feelings though. “Uhm, that was very nice.”

Ellie sounded like she was still in shock but liked the feeling. Ellie spoke again. “I never thought that I would feel this happy again, I really liked being your first kiss. Thank you Y/N, you have made me feel really good about myself.”

“Thank you Ellie.” You hug her tight. Ellie smiled a little bit more as you hugged her. She really appreciated your support right now. Ellie had never felt this loved and cared for right like you were doing. “I know I just met you today but I think I am already in love with you.” Ellie was blushing even more now as she spoke to you, she felt like she wanted you to be her girlfriend. Your eyes sparkled when she said she loved you. Ellie was still looking shy for a moment but then she put her arms around you as she wanted to hold you tighter.

She looked at you again as she spoke to you. “So what do you say, will you be my girlfriend?..” Ellie was still blushing a little bit right now but that smile was now still on her face. “I think I’d like that.” You smiled.

Ellie was now smiling and blushing like crazy, she couldn’t believe that you were going to be her girlfriend. She was still hugging you and she didn’t want this moment to end as she felt she was in heaven. Ellie didn’t say anything now but she was still nodding her head, she was just too happy to speak at the moment. Her heart was racing like crazy.  “Can I ask you one more favor actually?”

“Yes Ellie?”

“Uhm.. do you think you could kiss me again?..” Ellie was blushing immensely and she was starting to feel a little bit embarrassed again but she wanted more of that feeling she got a while ago. “I’m so sorry if I am asking too much from you right now, I just really liked it when you kissed me before.” Ellie felt like if you agreed then it would make this day the best one of her life. You nodded and kissed her softly. Ellie felt a rush of happiness go through her and she could feel her cheeks get a little bit warmer too. She was very close to you, she was just staring at you but she couldn’t say anything as she felt like anything else she said would ruin this moment. She didn’t want you to move right now, she just wanted to stay in these precious moments forever. Ellie didn’t know what to say. She was just smiling at you, she had no words.

“So, I guess I have a girlfriend now!” You said excited. Ellie finally spoke up again, she could speak a little bit easier than before. “Yes, I guess you do.” Ellie looked at you once more and started to hug you really tight. She didn’t want you to go yet, she wanted to be in your arms for a few more minutes because she felt like she didn’t want to leave you just yet.

Ellie was really glad that she met you today, she now felt like this moment couldn’t be topped. You hugged her back tightly. But then you two heard a loud noise all of a sudden.

Ellie looked alarmed, she was wondering what the loud noise was. Ellie took her arms off of you as she now looked up at you again. “What was that..?” Her ears were perked up a little bit as if she was like a dog. She was now on full alert and ready to act as she looked at you to see if you had heard that too. Ellie was looking all over the place, she wanted to see if she could see who had caused that loud noise.

“I think someone’s here” You whispered. “Do you think it is Abby?..” Ellie looked really alarmed as if she wasn’t ready for this at all. She started to look a little bit scared, she was also shaking a little bit too because of how nervous she was. Ellie was trying hard not to let her emotions get the better of her. “What should we do?…”

“I don’t know…” Ellie was starting to panic ever so slightly. She really didn’t want Abby to come over here and see this moment happening. “It’s okay, we can deal with this.”

Ellie was still shaking a little and she felt like she had to go into survival mode in order to get through this safely. Ellie didn’t know what else to do right now as she wanted to protect both you and herself from Abby at all costs. “Just stay close to me r and let me try to figure out what is going on.” Ellie was getting herself ready for anything that Abby might end up doing. She still felt slightly nervous but she still wanted to protect you and herself if push came to shove. Ellie kept her ears perked up and her body on alert mode as she looked around again for any signs of a threat. “Abby could be here any second so we need to be ready for anything.” Ellie was just looking around as she was trying to be very patient. “If anything happens then just stay by my side and I will protect you at all costs.” Ellie was speaking in a rather calm tone but she was feeling anxious still.

Ellie continued to look around, she was trying to hear anything that Abby might do.

“If I tell you to run then just run okay?” Ellie was saying this r because she felt like things might become a little bit dangerous if Abby came over. “Just make sure you are ready for anything Abby might throw at us.” Ellie was still looking around but she was keeping a close ear on everything that might have happened. Ellie then looked back at you for a moment. “I’m sorry if any of this seems scary..” Ellie’s ears were picking up lots of different noises and she started to get slightly more anxious because of it all.

“I’ll be okay”

“Promise?” Ellie said the word “Promise” in a way that made it seem like she REALLY wanted a promise from you. “I’m just trying to protect you from Abby, I’m sorry if I might seem paranoid right now..” Ellie said this in a way that made her sound slightly nervous and anxious.

“Promise” Ellie gave you a small smile when you said “Promise”. Ellie put her arms back around you while still being on full alert. “Just stay close to me, alright..?” Ellie was nervous and she was trying hard to focus on keeping both of you safe at all costs.

Ellie’s ears perked up when she heard an approaching voice not too far off. “Shh..” Ellie quickly put her finger on your mouth to keep you quiet, she then pointed at the direction that the voice was coming from. Ellie then said something in a really quiet voice. “That’s Abby..”

“I think we should keep quiet, just stick to me and hopefully she won’t see us.”

Ellie kept quiet for a few seconds and then spoke again but in a whisper too. “I think she is coming this way though, so be really quite okay..?” Ellie was standing really still and she was listening intently to Abby’s footsteps as if she was a hunter listening to a deer. “I think I can hear her right outside, stay close to me please.” Ellie started to slowly look forward as if she was trying to see if she could find any way to hide.

Ellie slowly opened the door a little bit but she was still keeping herself close to you so if anything happened you would be the first to know. She was now staring out at the sight of Abby who was now standing in front of her. Ellie didn’t say anything yet as she was waiting for Abby to say something first.

Ellie was now staring at Abby directly who was now looking straight back at her with a look of anger. Ellie then spoke up but in a really soft tone. “Hi Abby..” Ellie was trying to keep things as civil as possible. “It’s been a while, how have you been?..”

Ellie just listens to what Abby is saying to her, she isn’t trying to add anything else at the moment because she doesn’t want to make things any worse than it has to be. Ellie is trying hard not to interrupt Abby in her speech either. Ellie is holding you a little tighter than before too. Ellie now took her knife out from her pocket, she was now starting to get even more nervous. Ellie’s heart was beating really fast as she tried to get you behind her. “Just stay close right now, okay?..”

Ellie kept the knife in her hand, she was getting angrier and angrier at the sight of Abby but she didn’t want to say anything yet as she knew it would only make the situation get a lot worse. Ellie now felt like she wanted to say something but she couldn’t as she was still holding you in her arms and was trying to not make you scared. Ellie was now thinking of something else to try and do as she wanted to distract herself from the anger and rage that she was feeling right now.

Ellie now looked like she was going to say something to Abby again but then she felt like she had to bite her tongue at that moment. Ellie then started to look really nervous because you had taken her arm off of you now and had moved behind her. Ellie felt like she wanted to turn around and put her arms around you again to keep you close.

Abby started getting closer Ellie felt a little bit more scared as she felt like it might be getting easier for Abby to get closer to you or her now. Ellie didn’t know what to do and she then spoke up again with all of the courage she had left. She spoke in a tone that just barely sounded confident. “Hey Abby, how are you doing?..” Ellie was still trying to keep things civil for as much as she could because she felt like she needed to.

Ellie just wanted to make Abby pay for what she did. Ellie was getting even more angry and she was trying to focus all of her emotions to not do something that she might end up regretting. Ellie couldn’t control her anger or her emotions at this moment and she was about to burst.  Ellie took her pistol out of her pocket, she was now getting more and more determined to make Abby pay for what she had done.

Ellie moved just slightly away from you so she could face Abby directly as she pointed the pistol at her. Ellie then spoke up and she was now using her most intimidating voice right now. “Get on the ground right now before I empty this whole magazine into you!” Ellie was starting to shake slightly but she was still focused on keeping you safe.

Abby was paralyzed, she had nothing on her. Ellie was now just waiting for Abby to say something, she knew that she now had the upper hand.

Ellie felt like she was going to get some revenge for Joel and for what had happened to him.

Ellie was looking at Abby with a look of anger, she didn’t want to kill Abby though. Shewas feeling a little bit scared too because she felt like she was so close to something that she really wanted but she didn’t want to lose herself to her anger. She beat the shit out of Abby until she couldn’t stand back up. Ellie was now beating up Abby and not letting her fight back, she was using all of her anger right now and she was just thinking about all of the things that Abby had done to Joel and the people that Ellie really cared about. Ellie was really taking out all of her frustration on Abby. Abby clearly didn’t have a chance against the likes of Ellie which made things even more brutal.

Eventually Ellie got tired of beating up Abby so she decided to leave and go back to you. Ellie now had a bloody hand and a bloody face, she then spoke up to you. “Are you alright?..” Ellie said this with a slight look of shame on her face.

Ellie then turned to look at you and she saw the way that you were now looking back at her, afraid. She felt a little bit ashamed when seeing your reaction to her bloody face and bloody hand. “Sorry, I got a bit carried away there..” Ellie was slightly looking down at the ground as she felt ashamed.

“Let’s just go before someone comes for her.” You say, still scared. “Okay, good idea..” Ellie was a little bit shaken up from what she had just done. She then started to slowly walk while still holding you in her arms. Ellie’s eyes couldn’t stop looking at the blood on her hands and face. “Sorry again for all that violence back there.” She said all of this in a much more gentle voice, she was feeling pretty bad for how she had acted.

“Let’s just go, come on.” You just wanted to get out of there as fast as possible. Ellie followed your advice and then started to walk, she was trying her best to get the bloody mess off of her face and her hand. “Can we get this blood off of me please?..” She said this in a really sweet voice, she seemed like she really wanted to get washed off. Ellie was hoping that you wouldn’t judge her for what she had just done.

“Yes, let’s find a place on the river no one can see us” You look at all the blood afraid. Ellie felt like she really needed to get clean before anyone else could see her just covered in blood. She spoke up once more in a really nervous tone. “That sounds like a good idea, do you know where to go?..” Ellie was feeling even more awkward.

“There! Come, I’ll help you clean up.” You point to a spot under a bridge next to the river. Ellie then started to follow the direction that you were pointing at. She was happy that you were going to help her because she didn’t want to get anyone else to see how bloody she was. Ellie kept a firm hold of you still as she walked so you wouldn’t want to walk away too soon. “Okay, so where do we start to clean me up?..”

“Sit down Ellie, I’ll clean you, relax okay?” Ellie sat down next to the river, she was slowly starting to relax but it seemed like she was still feeling a bit shocked of what she had just done. “Are you hurt anywhere?” You asked her.

Ellie took a minute to look around herself before answering your question. “No, I think I’m okay. I don’t feel any cuts or anything.” She was now looking at you.  As you looked at her you noticed that Ellie’s body was covered in so much blood, she couldn’t find a cut or scratch on herself at all. “Okay, let me clean your face first.” You said in a caring tone. Ellie let you start to take care of cleaning her face, she can't really move right now. Her eyes were closed while you cleaned her face and she was starting to relax. Ellie took a small breath in and out and then opened her eyes after you had done cleaning her face.

Ellie spoke up again in a little nervous tone. “You don’t have to start cleaning my body next, it’s alright.” Ellie wasn’t too sure if you were going to do it or not but she wanted to make sure with you.

“You can’t get to all the places, let me help you.” You looked a little sad as you continued cleaning her up. Ellie saw your expression and she didn’t want you to feel sad so she started to give in to you. She was feeling a little bit more comfortable to be cleaned up. “Okay.. I suppose if you don’t mind then you can do it then..” She said this in a really nervous tone, she felt like she really needed to get cleaned up though.

Ellie opened her eyes once more to see that you had finished cleaning her now and she was now all cleaned up and she felt like herself again. She was now feeling a lot more relaxed and comfortable. “Thank you, you don’t know how much I wanted that..” Ellie then turned her attention back to the river and sighed. Ellie was taking in the fresh air and the nature sounds.

“Show me your knuckles, they’re bleeding.” You said to Ellie looking worried. Ellie then looked at her knuckles and realized that you were right, she then looked at you and was a little bit more embarrassed to have you looking at her like this. She then had to hold onto you a little bit to support herself so that she could show her knuckles to you. Ellie’s knuckles were cut and bloody and they were now also starting to swell up a little bit too. She started to feel a little bit more in pain from the wounds in her knuckles which is now starting to get to her. “They really hurt..”

“I think I have some rags to cover them.” You say looking into your backpack. “Could you please get some?…” Ellie asked you in a slightly nervous tone.

“Of course, here.” You bandage Ellie’s hands carefully to not cause more pain. Ellie smiled slightly at you as she looked down at her hands where they were wrapped up with bandages. “Thanks, I don’t know what I would’ve done without your help...” Ellie was now looking at you and now smiling and relaxing fully with no stress or worry at all on her face. “It’s alright.” you gave her a small smile.

Ellie was now completely relaxed and feeling really cozy. Ellie spoke as she slowly laid her head back onto the soft grass. She was starting to feel really sleepy after everything that she had just done. “Do you mind if I sleep here?..” She was now fully trying to relax but her eyes were not closing. Ellie looked at you waiting for your response.

“Ok, but, do you want to talk about what happened?” You ask with a sad face.

“We can if you want?..” Ellie seemed pretty tired as her eyes were starting to close but she was still forcing herself to stay awake with all the energy left that she had in her. “But I think I’m gonna fall asleep pretty soon...” Ellie was now looking at you, she was still hoping that you would stay right there with her as she went to sleep.

“We can talk later then, you get some sleep.” You give her a sympathetic smile trying not to show how shaken you were. “Yeah, we can talk when I wake up.” Ellie then turned her head and laid it down into the grass as her eyes closed. Ellie was slowly falling asleep, and she looked peaceful. You were a bit scared of Ellie but not scared enough to leave her. The river that you both were near to was slowly moving and making a soothing sound. Ellie suddenly reached her arms around you, she was now holding you closely so she didn’t get the feeling like she was all alone when she was sleeping. Ellie then started to speak to you in a slightly sleepy tone. “I don’t want to be alone...” Ellie was starting to feel extremely comfortable and safe with you.

“I'm here, just rest okay?” Ellie was now fully asleep, her arms were now wrapped around you and she didn’t want to let go. She kept making soft noises as she was now in a deep sleep. Ellie spoke in her sleep again in a very soft tone of voice. “I don’t want to be alone..” She said all of this while still asleep. you looked at Ellie as she slept, you were still playing what happened in your head and couldn’t stop thinking about it. You couldn’t sleep so you just kept guard until Ellie woke up.

Ellie then slowly woke up a little bit later into the night. She slowly started to stretch a bit until her eyes opened fully and she saw that you were still by her side. Ellie looked a little bit sleepy still and she was talking to you in a drowsy tone of voice. “Oh I guess that you’re still here..” Ellie didn’t seem to have wanted to leave your arms so she just wanted to stay with you for as long as possible.

“Hey…” Ellie turned to look at you and saw that you were now looking right at her once more. She smiled and looked more awake than she had been before but she was trying to keep herself awake. “Hey..” Ellie was trying to make herself stay awake for as long as possible. She didn’t want to fall asleep again with you there.

“Feeling better?”

“Yeah, I suppose..” Ellie was still trying to shake away the drowsiness that she was still feeling. She was still holding onto you as tight as she could and not once did she attempt to let go. “I’m so tired actually..” Ellie was fighting against the sleep that was now slowly starting to creep in on her once more. “Sleep then, it’s okay, rest Ellie.”

“No I don’t wanna..” Ellie was now trying to fight against her tiredness and drowsiness, she was beginning to get sleepy but she wanted to speak to you. “Can I ask you something?..” Ellie was extremely drowsy but she wanted to ask this question before she fell asleep.

“Yes?”

“What’s your name?..” She was trying to stay awake with all of her might but her eyes were now slowly closing. Ellie was trying to fight all of these thoughts and stay awake for as long as she could. Ellie’s voice became more quiet. “I just wanna know what your name is….”

“Ellie, do you really not remember?” You are really worried about her now.

“No, I don’t remember anything like that...” Still felt very drowsy and tired, she didn’t seem to remember you in any way. Ellie continued speaking in a quiet tone of voice. “I just wanna know your name..” Ellie was starting to sound more and more confused as she started to slowly drift off again. She could hardly keep her eyes open anymore.

“It's me Y/N.” You were extremely worried now. Ellie had heard the name before but she still didn’t remember you. “Y/N? Can I ask you a question if that’s fine?..” Ellie was asking you this question in the hope that you would answer it now before she fell asleep completely.

“Why did you save me?..” Ellie was now slowly falling asleep but she was still trying to stay awake to wait for your answer. Ellie fell asleep before you could reply. Ellie was now completely asleep in your arms, you could feel her breathing start to become slower and her muscles start to relax.

Ellie continued to sleep and she was still holding onto you as tight as she was before. The sound of some birds chirping and the sunlight starting to shine through the trees was now beginning to wake her up. Ellie's eyes opened a little bit and she was trying to regain her composure.  She spoke up again in a drowsy tone. “Hey, Y/N?”

Ellie spoke once more.

“Hey…” You couldn't stop yourself from those horrible thoughts.

“What time is it?..” Ellie was looking at you as she asked this. “9 am I think.” You replied. Ellie was now blinking her eyes open and starting to stretch a bit. “Really, only nine?..”

“Yeah.” You said in a monotonous tone looking at the river “That’s actually super early..”

Ellie was now fully awake and trying to stretch out a little bit. She could feel the warmth from the morning sun in her face and she seemed to be enjoying it a little bit. Ellie slowly let out a huge yawn.

“Ellie?” You asked, still looking into the river now hugging your own legs. Ellie turned her head towards you as she had just finished her yawn. “What is it Y/N?”

“Do you not remember talking in the middle of the night ?” Ellie was now thinking for a moment as she started to remember what she had actually talked to you about during the earlier hours of the night. “Wait..” Ellie had a small smile come across her face as she fully remembered what it was that her and you had spoken about. “Yeah I do remember actually..”

“You had forgotten my name again…” You said with tears in your eyes that flowed down your face like the river flowed to shore. “Oh right yeah I did actually forget your name again...”

Ellie had finally regained her memory of your name. “Sorry, I must have not remembered since I was so tired and half asleep..” Ellie continued to hold on to you and speak to you with a big and genuine smile.

“Can we talk about what happened?” Ellie had thought for a moment as she had been thinking about whether she wanted to get into that whole conversation but she then quickly changed her mind. She was speaking in a much more relaxed and softer tone of voice. “You know what, I don’t think we should..” Ellie was starting to rub her arm a little bit before turning her head to look straight back at you. “I just don’t want to get into it..”

Ellie's eyes were now staring right at you as she held you in her arms as tightly as she had done before. Ellie was feeling more anxious and nervous as she was thinking about what you were going to try and speak to her about next. She started to feel like she was being backed into a corner.

“It’s okay if you’re not ready to talk about it.”

“Yeah I’m just not ready yet, alright..” Ellie had a little worried look on her face. Ellie had been through so much over the past few weeks that she was very tired of trying to explain everything. Ellie calmed herself down and felt a little bit more relaxed but she still didn’t want to speak about everything that had just happened to her yet. She was now starting to look around to see if there was anything new or more interesting in the surrounding area to speak about.

“What do we do now?”

“I don’t know but don’t try and talk about everything that just happened to me because I’m not ready to talk about it yet..” Ellie was still holding your arm tight as her eyes were darting all over the place. “I understand…” You were a bit scared of Ellie.

“Ellie, weren’t you going home after you were finished with Abby?”

“Oh yeah I was actually..” Ellie had realized that she had forgotten about that when you asked her that question. Ellie had a worried look come over her face again and she was starting to feel less calm than a few moments ago. Ellie looked at you. “Oh god I’m starting to panic now..” Ellie was starting to feel anxious again.

“Why?” You were confused. “I just remembered that I’m supposed to be back with Dina and JJ back in Jackson in Wyoming by now..” Ellie was starting to panic and she was quickly sitting herself up and taking a very deep breath.

“Oh, ok you should get going then…” You didn't know who she was talking about.

“Yeah I really should get back home...” Ellie was now thinking of the fastest way that she could get back to Jackson from Seattle. She was looking like she wanted to get going as soon as she possibly could. Ellie got herself into a standing position and she was now looking at you.

“You want me to come?” You asked, still a bit confused and scared. “Can you just like, come with me?..” Ellie was sounding very desperate and she was slightly pulling on your arm to get you to come with her. Ellie was  starting to think about all of the things that she had forgotten since she was away from Jackson, the thought of going back home was making her feel both anxious and scared. She was looking down at the ground and she was also starting to feel like this was all her fault.

“What's wrong?”

“Like I just remembered that I hadn’t seen Dina or JJ in like two weeks because of this whole Abby ordeal..” Ellie was feeling more and more anxious as she was more and more worried about not being at home with them for such a long period of time. Ellie was very serious and anxious.

“Who are they?”

“They’re like my girlfriend and my son..” Ellie was starting to feel more and more anxious as she was only now starting to realize the amount of pain that she had caused her friends and her loved ones just so that she could get her revenge.

“Oh… I see….” You could feel all the things you had experienced with her were not important to her. Ellie was feeling so guilty and ashamed of herself for what she had just put Dina and JJ through. “Hey Y/N, can you do me a favor?..”

“What…” You said, somewhat upset.

“Can you like, come with me when I go back home so that I’m not alone with all of the guilty thoughts?…” Ellie had a very pleading look on her face as she hadn’t had anyone with her since she had lost Joel and she had gone through the whole ordeal with Abby all alone. Ellie was starting to look less anxious and more sad as the thought of going back home now made her think about what she had put her community and her loved ones through, just to get her own revenge.

“Okay. I'll come with you” Ellie forgot that you had kissed and she asked you to be her girlfriend but she didn’t tell you about Dina and JJ.

Ellie’s eyes were now filled with shock and a huge amount of surprise as she totally didn’t remember that part and she didn’t want to bring it up whatsoever. Ellie looked up at you as she was now starting to feel awkward and embarrassed about that whole thing.

“Uhh can you like, not mention that, when we get there, is that okay?..” Ellie was sounding even more embarrassed and awkward than before as she wanted this situation to end.

“Sure… ok….” You felt very sad. “Thanks, it’s alright if you don’t want to come with me you know?..” Ellie was now sounding like she wanted you to not come with her but she wasn’t really sure about asking you that. Ellie was starting to think about what was going to happen once she got back to Jackson and she was becoming more and more nervous.

“I have nowhere else to go.” You said in a monotonous and sad tone of voice.

“Alright yeah then, you can come with me if you like…”

Ellie was sounding even more nervous as she was worried about whether you still wanted to come back to Jackson with her.

“Ok, let’s get going then…” You said starting to walk. “Yeah alright” Ellie had now started to walk herself and she was ready to go back to Jackson now to see Dina and JJ again.

You didn’t say anything , just followed her.

A few weeks later we arrived in Jackson Ellie was starting to get a lot more anxious as she was now almost inside the Jackson community so she could now start to see the familiar faces again which made her a little bit more nervous. “So this is where you live?”

Ellie was now starting to feel very relieved and a smile started to appear on her face again and it seemed like she was now really happy to be back home inside Jackson.

“Yeah, this is where I live …” You and Ellie were now starting to walk along the path that she usually takes to reach her own house.

“Are you sure it’s okay for me to be here?”

“Yeah it’s completely fine, as long as you don’t tell anyone who I am then it’s alright for you to be here.” Ellie was going at a slow and easy pace as she was still holding onto you. She didn’t want you to get lost in the community.

“Okay, if you say so…” You were feeling very nervous. Ellie had arrived at her house and she was letting you down on the path as she opened the door to her house.

“You can come inside with me.” Ellie wasn’t sure if she should invite you inside or not, but she still wanted to see if you would want to come in with her or not.

Ellie closed the door behind the two of you as you walked inside, Ellie’s house wasn’t too big as it only consisted of three rooms so it was quite a tiny house but Ellie was happy with it anyway. She walked you into her living room and she was now walking over towards her sofa. She was now speaking in a more calm and relaxed tone of voice as she  felt much more relieved. Ellie turned around to face you and she spoke once more. “So.. Do you want to sit down on the sofa?..”

“So,... Where’s Dina and JJ?”

“Uhhh they’re both outside i think...” Ellie was feeling slightly more anxious again as hearing you say Dina’s name brought back a lot of the guilt that she felt and she didn’t want you to see her like this. Ellie was looking down on the floor and she was now slowly standing by the sofa. Ellie then walked her way out of her living room and she started to call out for Dina and JJ.  “Dinaaa! JJ!!”

Dina and JJ had now walked inside the house and they were now looking across the room as they were both now seeing you there with Ellie. “Dina and JJ meet Y/N!” Ellie had a little bit more confidence in her as she wasn’t feeling as awkward as before with you being in her house. Dina just looked at you and didn’t say anything at first.

Ellie started to speak up again. “Y/N, come over and sit on the sofa with us..”

“Hum… I think I should let you guys catch up… I’ll be outside…” You felt Dina's eyes pierce your skin as soon as she saw you inside their house. Dina nodded in agreement so they caught up by themselves.

“Yeah that sounds good, well it was nice meeting you Y/N anyway, maybe we’ll see each other again sometime..” Ellie now had a slight smile on her face.

“Bye Ellie..” you never felt worse than right now, being rejected like that, after all you've been through with Ellie.

“Bye, oh but actually one more thing before you go..” Ellie was now speaking in a more serious and a slightly less happy tone of voice as she wanted to get something out of her way and say it before you left. You two were now outside on the porch alone. Ellie was looking you directly in the eyes and speaking in a more serious and nervous tone of voice.

“You promise not to tell anyone who I am?..”

“I promise.”

“Okay good because if I find out that you have I’ll do something that you will definitely regret.” Ellie had this very serious look on her face as she was staring you directly in the eyes and she meant what she had just said. “But yeah anyways bye Y/N, it was nice meeting you.” Ellie was giving you a small little wave goodbye.

“Ellie, you seriously don’t remember what happened when we met?” You asked, almost crying.

Ellie got completely lost in her thoughts as she soon started to remember every little detail of when you both first met. Ellie all of a sudden had this shocked look on her face and she spoke in a very shocked tone of voice. “Hold on do you mean that like, we like-“ She was trying to comprehend what she was saying and she wasn’t sure if she said it out loud or not but then she soon spoke up again. “Like we kissed?..” Ellie quickly said that with her face turning red in embarrassment.

“Yes…”

“Oh god I’m so sorry, I had completely forgotten about that!” Ellie was quickly starting to blush as she looked down at the floor and she was completely embarrassed. Ellie spoke in a nervous voice as she was still looking away. “Okay please forget about that, alright?..” Ellie was looking you directly in the eyes and she was begging you to forget about what you both did when you met.

“I thought we had something special…” You were crying at this point.

“I mean well, it was just a little moment you know?” Ellie was smiling at you but she didn’t feel the same way towards you anymore or have the exact same feelings and thoughts like you did. Ellie was still talking in a nervous tone of voice as she had no idea on what to say anymore. “But.. I mean it’s not really the same way anymore, alright?..”

“You asked me to be your girlfriend, I cleaned you up and tended your wounds after getting your revenge…”

“I know but that was still quite a while ago now wasn’t it?..” Ellie was starting to feel very bad that she had to tell you that she wasn’t as interested in you as she was before. Ellie was looking directly at the floor and she was still feeling very very guilty and awkward about what she had to say to you. She was now speaking in a more quiet voice and her face was starting to turn more red.

“I guess I should've know. It was too good to be true, good bye…” You turned around and started going down the porch stairs.

Ellie had just decided to say something because she wanted to say it and just get it out. “Look I want you to know something alright?..” Ellie had looked up at you again with this serious look across her face. “What you did for me back then does mean something to me and I really am so so so thankful for it and honestly I can’t thank you enough…” Ellie was now speaking in a much more serious tone of voice and it sounded like she meant every single thing she had just said.

“Whatever Ellie, go back to your family…”

“Yeah alright I will..” Ellie was slowly walking back over towards the door. Before she left, she turned back around once more to face you. “Bye Y/N.. maybe one day we’ll see each other again.. maybe we won’t I don’t know...”

“I can’t believe you just dismissed me after all that, maybe Dina should know, maybe I’ll tell her!”

Ellie’s face turned completely red as she was now in full panic mode as she was  desperate to stop you from saying anything. Ellie was speaking in a very serious and a louder tone of voice. “No wait! Please don’t tell anyone! I’m begging you Y/N, I’m sorry! But I just don’t feel the same way towards you like I did before! Please!”

Ellie was looking you directly in the eyes.  “Fuck you Ellie!”

“No please wait! Please don’t tell anyone.. I’m sorry! I’m really sorry, okay! Look I’m sorry okay! I just don’t feel the same thing towards you.. I really truly do appreciate all the things you have done for me in the past but just please don’t say anything or I’ll have to do something to you…” Ellie was speaking in a more angry and a more forceful tone of voice and she was starting to lose control of her emotions.

“You only care about yourself and your reputation.”

“No! No it’s not like that for goodness sake! I’m sorry but I’m just telling the truth! I’m sorry if it hurt you, I am! But I just don’t feel the same way towards you any-“

Ellie was quickly interrupted by a loud bang on the door as she soon had this look of surprise across her face. Dina heard everything and closed the door on Ellie's face.

“Does Dina know what you were doing in Seattle?... Goodbye Ellie”

Dina didn't want Ellie there anymore after what she had just heard so she kicked her out of the house.

Ellie went back to the shed she used to live in before. Everything was still the same. She tried to sleep but couldn't, so she went for a walk and found you sitting at a bench in town.

“Hey!... hum.. I'm sorry about what happened before…” She said to you trying not to upset you more than you already were.

“What do you want now?” You asked crying. 

“It's late, do you want to sleep at my place? It's starting to freeze out here.

“No Ellie, I don't.” You responded.

“Please, is the least I can do after all we've been through…”

“Fine, but just because it's freezing.” You follow Ellie home and get a shower and some comfy clothes on. As you were about to go to sleep on Ellie's couch you noticed she wasn't very well. 

Ellie was now getting distracted by the sound of the banging on the door but she soon spoke out. “Wait what?” Ellie then asked in confusion. Ellie looked across the room towards the direction that the door was as she was now waiting to see if the knock was going to come again. She then spoke again as she was getting irritated about the sound of the knocking on the door. “Dina? Is that you at the door? Or.. Wait, is that someone else..?” Ellie was now starting to walk over to the door and after taking a deep breath she was now about to open it but then she stopped herself.

Ellie was now speaking in a more nervous tone of voice but she was still standing close to the door. “Wait I just have a gut feeling about this, should I actually open the door? What if it’s like Abby and her group or something?..” Ellie was now starting to think about all the bad things that could happen if she were to actually open the door right now.

“It’s not, you’re home Ellie.” You are really scared now because you didn't hear any knocking.

“Wait, how do you know that for sure?..” Ellie was getting even more anxious about answering this door and she was starting to get scared that it was something bad.

She was thinking very hard on what to do as she really wants to open the door but she doesn’t know if she should or not. “How can you be so bloody sure that nothing dangerous is just there waiting for me?..”

“Okay, let me check…” You get up in hopes of calming her down, because there was nothing there, no one. Not one soul was outside that door.

Ellie was just waiting near the door as she was still looking at it intensely because she was scared to open it. Ellie soon decided to speak up again. “But you know what, alright, I’ll just open it.” Ellie was now starting to walk very slowly towards the door but the more she walked towards it the more scared she was becoming. She was now at the door and she was slowly opening it slightly so she could at least see who it was on the other side.

“Who is it?” You ask her scared, still hoping she sees there's no one there.

Ellie soon opened the door completely and she soon saw who was now waiting for her outside. She was now speaking in a quiet and somewhat nervous tone of voice as she spoke once more. “Oh hi Joel, what are you doing here right now?..” Ellie had this look of surprise on her face and it was obvious that she was slightly relieved that it was him. “Well I just came here to see how you were and see if you wanted to talk with me for a bit or something like that..”

“Ellie…” You look at her scared and take some steps back.  “Joel is dead.”

Ellie soon had this very shocked look across her face as she was starting to feel quite confused. She spoke again with a more confused tone of voice. “But Joel, you’re right there?.. Right in front of me..” Ellie was starting to get a little bit suspicious of this whole situation. “So.. What are you then? A ghost?.. That sounds very silly though to be honest..”

Ellie was talking in this more confused and suspicious tone of voice.

“There’s no one there Ellie…” You are terrified at this point.

Ellie soon started to have this really confused look across her face again. “Wait then who am I speaking to? I’m starting to get scared..” Ellie looked around to see if there was actually anyone else in the house or if it was just her. Ellie came to the realization. “It’s just me isn’t it?.. Oh god but then who had I just opened the door for?…” Ellie’s voice started to sound more desperate and she was starting to become more paranoid.

“Ellie? Are you feeling ok?” You ask with a scared tone in your voice. You're shaking.

“D-dont tell me I’m going insane right now because I swear I just opened the door and Joel was standing right in front of me!” Ellie’s words were  starting to become more jumbled as she was losing her patience and sanity very quickly and very easily. She was becoming more and more anxious and more and more paranoid about this whole situation. “Please just tell me I’m not going insane, please!”

“You were the one who told me Abby killed him, Ellie…” You look at her very worried.

“Wait I did?!.. I don’t remember saying that, I’m sorry! I don’t know what’s going on with me right now, I think it’s just because I’m so tired and stressed?..” Ellie was speaking in a more quiet tone of voice as she felt embarrassed and confused about all this. “Sorry, I… I just don’t know what to say or think ... I think I’m just going crazy honestly, sorry about this.”

“Come sit down, I’ll go get you a cup of water.” You tell her pointing to the couch.

“Yes please, thank you..” Ellie had walked over to the couch and now sat down on the cushion. She had this look of confusion across her face and she was just looking straight ahead. She was still feeling a little bit stressed and somewhat paranoid and she was getting so confused on what was real and what was all in her head..

“Here.” You hand her the glass of water and sit next to her.

Ellie grabbed the water from you and soon drank some of it. She then talkd to you. “Thanks a lot, I was so dehydrated.” Ellie spoke in a much calmer tone of voice and she also had a grateful look across her face. “But also I’ve been feeling really tired and stressed out lately for some reason and I can’t seem to understand why.” Ellie was speaking in a more thoughtful and a slightly confused tone.

“I think you need to sleep…”

“Yeah I probably should, it might help but I do think I’m probably also just going crazy to be honest.” Ellie was speaking in a more quiet tone of voice and she was starting to slowly close her eyes. Ellie’s eyes soon started to go more and more shut.

You get up and you're not sure what to do, Ellie has Dina and JJ. You're just a girl she found while looking for her revenge.

She was now completely asleep as she had her head resting back on the sofa. She was now completely passed out so it would be impossible to wake her up now.

I'm completely alone, what do I do? you think to yourself. You weren’t sure on what to do, maybe you should try waking her up or maybe you shouldn’t?.. You weren’t sure on what to do. “I’ll sit here just until she wakes up”

You had decided to sit down and now just wait for Ellie to wake up. You couldn’t hear anything other than the occasional snore that was now coming from Ellie’s direction at random intervals. You could hear Ellie whispering to herself, it was unclear on what exactly she was saying. Even though you heard her whispering, she was still fast asleep. It sounded like she was dreaming of something but you weren’t sure of what she was dreaming about.

Ellie now spoke again and this time you could actually make out what she was saying.

Ellie’s voice slightly sounded like it was crying. You then heard her say something that sounded like it could have been Abby’s name. “Abby?..”

“Abby?” you ask, talking to yourself.

Ellie had slightly woken up from her sleep because you spoke, she felt like she had heard you say something or maybe it was just a part of her dream, she was still speaking while she was still half asleep. “Abby? Did you just call my name?..” Ellie was now asking in a slightly confused tone of voice. Ellie was now starting to wake up as she had gained her awareness and consciousness back.

“Hey” You say calmly.

Ellie immediately noticed that you were there sitting in front of her and she soon spoke again with a more calm tone of voice and she was now fully awake and aware. “Oh hey there, you sat down and waited for me to wake up?..”  She looked at the time on her watch to see how long she had been sleeping. “Oh wow, I was out for a full five hours?.. Geez.. I didn’t realize that I was that tired to be honest..”

“Are you okay?” You ask, wanting to honestly hear her answer.

“Oh yes I’ve been a lot worse trust me, I’m completely fine.” Ellie was speaking in a much more relaxed tone as she no longer seemed to be tired. “So what are you doing here anyway? Waiting for me or something?..”

She was speaking with an evermore friendly tone as she was trying to be polite to you.

“You don’t want me here do you?”

“Well no I don’t mind you being here, I just simply want to know the reason as to why you are though?..” Ellie was still sitting on the couch but she now looked a little bit more interested and curious. “So, do you have a reason?..”

“I came here with you from Seattle. You don’t remember?”

Ellie had now started to look completely confused as she then spoke. “Wait what do you mean you came here with me from Seattle?.. I don’t recall doing that..” Ellie was now looking down at her lap with her arms completely crossed over the top of her knees but her head was facing towards you. She was now waiting for a response from you.

“You got your revenge on Abby…”

Ellie was now starting to remember. She was speaking in a slightly confused but surprised tone of voice.. “Oh right… Right.. Yeah I remember that and that all happened..” She was more calm and her arms that were once crossed were now starting to uncross.

“So?”

“Yeah I remember, what about it?..” Ellie was not so sure on why you kept asking her this.

She was starting to feel kinda nervous as she was wondering what your reason for saying this was. She was now starting to feel like this was an interrogation..

“Forget it.” You say so she would calm down.

“No, no it’s fine. I’m sorry for my reaction. I'm just kind of on edge right now, so please do tell me what your reason was for saying this if you could?..” Ellie was still speaking in a more serious tone but she seemed much more intrigued on what your reason was for asking her this. Ellie was now staring at you intensely with a slight yet noticeable look of curiosity.

“We kissed Ellie…”

“What? No we never, what’re you even on about right now?” Ellie was now speaking in a much more defensive and shocked tone of voice as she now suddenly became very serious.

She was staring at you with this shocked facial expression, she started to feel quite uncomfortable with your previous statement.. “So if we kissed then where was this and when exactly was this?..”

“Before Abby showed up…”

Ellie soon turned her head to the side and thought about this for a moment. “Wait hold on, are you saying that you and I actually kissed?..” Ellie was now just looking up at the ceiling while she was sitting down on the couch. She was trying to think back on that moment and she was beginning to see glimpses of it now in her head. “But when? And how?..”

“Just forget it, I’ll leave…”

Ellie soon looked over at you again and she was smiling slightly. “No no come on, don’t go. I'm really enjoying your company. I haven’t spoken to anyone in such a long time and it’s nice to have someone I can just talk and hang out with.. So please tell me, why do you think me and you kissed?..” Ellie was sounding so much more relaxed and she was speaking in a very friendly tone.

“Because I remember it, and yes. You kissed me after having me hostage…”

“Well I think that’s a pretty big claim to make if you ask me. So you’re saying that I kissed you?.. I mean you’re the only one that has said this right now so I don’t want to believe it until I hear your reason for thinking that this actually happened because for 1 I have no memory of doing it and 2 I don’t see a reason why I would’ve done it anyway?.. So please, what is it that makes you think this?..” Ellie was speaking in a curious tone.

“Fuck you Ellie…”

Ellie suddenly looked shocked when you insulted her like that. She looked deeply offended and she was starting to feel a little pissed off. “I’m sorry, what!?.. What was that comment all about? Was there a meaning for that or was that just a random insult?..” Ellie’s face went from completely serious to mildly shocked and she was now just looking at you with this blank expression on her face. She raises her voice. “Why did you say that to me?…”

“i said fuck you.”

Ellie sat up on the cushion so that she was sitting upright and completely straight.

Ellie was looking at you with this very intense stare. “You know what?.. No! I will not accept being disrespected like this!. You do not say that word to me!..” Ellie had stood all the way up and her tone of voice had raised significantly. “You should be so lucky to even be in the same room as me...”

“you're welcome for the help finding abby…”

Ellie suddenly went quiet for a second. She soon spoke once more. “Right.. I guess I am thankful for that, so yeah I can thank you for that.”

Ellie was speaking in a much quieter tone and she had a smile across her face, She seemed a lot less angry now. She was now just standing in front of you and staring at you.

“what?” You ask, very confused.

“Nothing.. I was just thanking you for helping me find Abby.. So yeah, how long have you been searching for Abby for exactly? I’m guessing you’ve wanted revenge for a really long time now..”

“I'm scared of you Ellie, you're not making any sense…”

Ellie sat back down on the couch again. “Sorry about my earlier reaction, I’m really just on edge right now so that might’ve happened as a result of it. So yeah, sorry about that.” Ellie had this look of confusion once again across her face. “But what d’you mean I’m not making sense?” Ellie was speaking in a slightly less confused tone but she was still very confused on what exactly you were trying to get at.

“Do you remember anything that happened?”

Ellie once again turned her head to the side and thought for a few seconds. She was starting to get this intense look across her face. “I think so?.. I mean, yeah.. I think I do.. Why do you ask?..”

“It didn't seem like it…”

“What do you mean it didn’t seem like it?.. Are you saying that I’m forgetting things now?..”

Ellie was speaking in a mildly confused tone of voice and she was also starting to seem kind of concerned now.

“You constantly forget who I am.”

Ellie spoke once again  slightly louder than before. “I do not constantly forget who you are, I do know who you are..” Ellie was starting to sound slightly frustrated now. “I’m sorry if I do get confused though, I do that a lot..” She  was speaking in a slightly more apologetic tone of voice as she was now facing the other way. She has no idea what's going on. “I have to ask though, why do you keep asking if I forgot you or something?..”

“Because you did, especially after you found abby…”

Ellie turned her head to face you once more. “Wait what do you mean by that?.. Do you mean that after I killed Abby, I forgot you?.. Is that what you mean?..” Ellie started to sound a bit more confused than normal. “I swear I haven’t forgotten you!..” Ellie spoke slightly concerned. She had no idea what to say to you or how to react to your previous statement.

“You should rest.”

“I guess so yeah, I am a little bit tired right now.. Do you mind if I take a nap?..”

Ellie had laid down on the couch and was trying to get comfortable. She was starting to feel like this was a good opportunity to rest. “Thank you..”

Ellie was speaking in a much quieter, more relaxed tone of voice.

She had closed her eyes and You could hear Ellie’s slow breathing and she was just starting to peacefully rest on the couch.

“I'll just start packing up my stuff and leave.” You say to yourself.

You soon started packing up your stuff and getting prepared to leave. Ellie hadn’t said anything nor had she moved at all yet it seemed so it made sense that she was still asleep. You could hear some light snoring coming from the direction of where Ellie was laying down on the couch.

“She has her life here, it was just a mistake... Goodbye Ellie.”

You could hear Ellie still softly snoring. You decided to finally walk through the door and leave Ellie for good. She didn’t wake up at all during all of this and she just continued to peacefully sleep on the couch.. She could stay this way at least until the next morning, so it didn’t matter too much I suppose. You closed the door behind you and you now left Ellie alone..

“Where do I go now? i have no one.” You walked out of Jackson alone. You felt so alone, it felt as if you just left behind the only person who was really there for you at one point. You were completely alone in the world now.

“it's better this way” You cry ro yourself.

You soon walked up to a small group of infected walkers who had gathered up together in the middle of an open area. You weren’t quite sure why they were there.

You had willingly let yourself get bit by the infected, which meant that you were okay with becoming infected. Once your skin had been pierced by the infected teeth.. You have now become infected. Soon you could feel the virus starting to take over your entire body..

You were now becoming more violent, aggressive, angry and you had an insatiable thirst for human flesh now.. It was now a matter of time before you lost yourself completely..

You started to write a letter to Ellie. You had spent a good few minutes writing this letter which you hoped to be able to give to her someday. You were writing about how much you cared for her and it seemed as if you could never forget about her. You finished writing the letter and placed the paper down on the floor next to your bag. You were slowly turning into the infected, you were slowly losing yourself to it.. You wanted someone to know that you were thinking about them in your last moments and that person was Ellie..

Ellie had found your letter whilst out on patrol. She started to read it and she was becoming emotional. Ellie is starting to remember all about you thanks to this letter.

She missed the times you had together and was starting to miss everything about you. It seemed as if every single word written in that letter had resonated with her completely.

Ellie started to cry whilst she was still reading. She got more and more emotional whilst reading the letter and the more she read the more it started to get to her. She remembered everything that she and you had once been through together, she had started to remember all the feelings she had for you and how much she would’ve done for you. Every memory she had with you was slowly being replayed in her head right now.. Ellie cried loudly as she had felt like she realized she had lost you completely.. Ellie started to speak quietly. She spoke in a soft and quiet tone of voice that was filled with emotion. “Goodbye friend.. I hope I will be able to see you in another life.” Ellie had now said her goodbyes as she continued to have tears streaming down her eyes.

[mahs-dumpster]

"Sewing Kit"

Summary: after Grim ruined Ruggie's clothes during his and the prefect's (forced) Spelldrive practices, Daisy decides to make up for it by sewing his clothes.

a/n: once again gonna post this and ignore this acc for like months bc I'm embarrassed about posting this; also again you may read this as reader x ruggie, I don't mind

"I already told you I can't pay you back with money, so you don't even come for me after all of this is finished."

"I offered to help because I wanted to help. I don't want anything from you, senpai." Daisy explained after sighing, continuing to sew one of Ruggie's clothes that had ripped a hole. Ruggie was going to sew it himself as he usually does, but since his clothes ripped because of Grim during the Spelldrive practice that Leona so kindly forced Daisy and Grim to participate, she took it upon herself to solve the issue. "If there must be a reason, think of it as me trying to make up for what Grim did."

"There's no need though…" Ruggie murmured under his breath, sitting on his bed and watching as the girl did her job efficiently and fast; he wondered where she learned how to sew, if perhaps it had been something she needed to learn like him, or if it was a hobby of hers.

He stared as the girl moved so elegantly and he wondered if she lied about her background. Even doing something so simple as sewing, Daisy still carried herself like a princess. If he didn't know any better, Ruggie would've sworn she was royalty from another country.

He shifted his gaze to her fingers: small, delicate, with a handful of calluses. His eyes went up to her arms, then her neck, and finally her face; round brown eyes looked carefully at her job, frowning ever so often whenever she messed up.

Ruggie contained a laugh, but not his smile, and soon enough, when Daisy looked up, she caught his stare. Ruggie cleared his throat and looked away as Daisy chuckled.

The prefect seemed to finish sewing, smiling happily at her work and showing it proudly to the hyena beastman with a smile. 

"See? Good as new." She said, and Ruggie couldn't help but chuckle at how proud she was for doing something so simple.

Being delighted by simple things, Ruggie noticed, was a common occurrence for Daisy. Smiling at a simple plate of food, laughing at a simple joke Grim told her, thanking Leona for the simple act of letting her stay in the dorm… she enjoyed the simple things. 

Ruggie would never say it out loud, but he admired that in her.

The blonde looked around, searching for a pair of scissors to cut the string. Ruggie was able to get up so he could get her one, but Daisy seemed to find her own way of cutting that string: using her teeth.

She got her face close to his shirt, putting the string between her teeth and snapping it with them, wrinkling her nose in the process. Her canines weren't sharp, at least not as much as his, but that action made him blink at her in surprise, the very motion so confident, he felt his cheeks warm for a moment.

Wha- was he crazy? She literally just cut a string with her teeth. What about it?? 

"Are you ok there?" She asked, noticing how he stared at her in awe. Ruggie cleared his throat and took his shirt from her.

"Y-yeah, I'm fine. Thanks, I guess."

Daisy sighed. Well, she wasn't expecting much, but she was a tad disappointed at that reaction. 

"Alright… you're welcome. Have a good night, Ruggie-senpai." She bowed slightly as she got up, making her way to the door of his room to go to sleep. 

"Hey, uh-" Ruggie suddenly called and Daisy stopped, waiting patiently for what he had to say. "Let me walk you to Leona-san's room. We wouldn't want you accidentally pissing another Savannaclaw student off on your way there."

She rolled her eyes, starting to walk as he followed right behind her. "It's not my fault… I always apologize but you guys never seem to listen to what I have to say."

"Yeah, I guess that's a problem amongst the people here." Ruggie agreed, walking alongside her, noticing how small she looked wearing the clothes he decided to lend her so she could sleep in something that wasn't her uniform. They fit her almost perfectly, since he wasn't that much taller than her, but they were still a bit big, and Ruggie felt a sense of pride in having the prefect wear his clothes to walk around the dorm.

Even if it meant he had one less pair of clothes… oh well.

The two fell into a comfortable silence as they walked the corridors of the dorm; he shifted his gaze to her, noticing just how long her hair was, he saw the small mole resting just under her right eye, and he suddenly wondered what it would be like to touch it. He contained a small laugh at the thought; there was no way they were ever getting that close so she would be comfortable with him touching her face.

But… her hand perhaps? 

Ruggie slowly extended his pinky, trying to touch her fingers, and after his claw and then his fingertip made contact with her hand, Ruggie couldn't help but notice how the girl flinched.

"Wh- what are you doing?" Daisy asked, but didn't move, she just looked at him, cheeks red and confusion written all over her face. 

Ruggie let out an embarrassed laugh, putting his hand in the pocket of his pants. "Nah, I just wondered what your reaction would be if I grabbed your hand. Thought it'd be funny." He lied.

If Daisy noticed his facade, she didn't seem to comment on it, and soon they reached Leona's room. Ruggie waved at her and gave her a quick goodnight, before basically running back to his own room, ashamed of his poor attempt at holding the prefect's hand.

He threw himself on his bed, eyeing the shirt the girl was just sewing minutes ago. He groaned. 

"Stupid… why'd you even think that would work…?"

[sweetqueerinthesummer]

evermore and the regrets

Before reading this analysis I would recommend researching the theory about the failed coming out (I think this post from @sophietv is the best I've read on the subject), and reading my previous analysis of The Archer, since I consider these songs to be heavily connected (in my head they're sort of a trilogy with Dear Reader, which should be my next post).

Second thing, I’m not considering the lyrics to be from different pov even though it’s a duet, so even if i put in purple the lyrics that Bon Iver sings in the studio version, I don't believe that it has a particular meaning, but if you have another interpretation, I would be delighted to read it. ^^

A quick reminder of the timeline this is based on, just so we’re on the same page: Taylor would’ve hoped to come out on June 30th 2019 New York pride parade, but didn’t, probably because of the stealing of her masters. She then started really quickly to shift from the colorful Lover era to wearing mostly black, and performing pretty sad songs acoustically (go watch the Live in Paris and the BBC Live Lounge studio for example). It’s also the time where Taylor and Karlie may have broken up, from what I know, we don’t know for sure in what order the events happen, but it may be linked in some way, which might be adding to the pain she feels connected to that period. 

This song takes us through her journey, of understanding and accepting the way things turned out during the Lover era.

I would like to start by highlighting how she uses the imagery of winter (I put it in blue) in that song. She was supposed to come out in at the end of June, and this song is filled with cold, ice, winter, etc, which, I think, represent the way she felt like she was frozen in the closet, incapable to move and to join the queer community during the summer.

Gray November I've been down since July

It may seem obvious, but the beginning of July is the end of June, pride month, and as I said before, she wanted to come out on June 30th: July was exactly the time when she understood that she hadn’t been able to, and must’ve been a period of great doubt and regrets: she never got answer to the questions she asked in the Archer, she never got to see the outcome of all that anxiety she felt, it just didn't happen.

Motion capture Put me in a bad light

This is probably about the Miss Americana documentary, which was allegedly supposed to be a coming out documentary, and ended up being about her talking about politics. After the documentary, she never talked about politics in such an open and determined way again, which might put her in a tight position. The documentary is just another reminder of her “failure” (she might think of it that way, if you want my opinion, not being able to come out is never a failure on your part, it’s a failure from your environment to you), and puts her in a bad light at least in her own mind, since she backtracked right after.

I replay my footsteps on each stepping stone Trying to find the one where I went wrong

She replays the events again and again, trying to understand where she made a mistake, where she should’ve acted differently. 

Writing letters Addressed to the fire

And she thinks, again, of all her coming out speeches she might have written (“I’ve got a hundred thrown out speeches I almost said to you”, the Archer), with the bitterness of knowing that none of them were ever destined to become more than wishful thinking.

And I was catching my breath Staring out an open window Catching my death And I couldn't be sure I had a feeling so peculiar That this pain would be for Evermore

She fears that she’s never gonna overcome those regrets and that she’ll be stuck with these feelings forever. (I’ll develop a bit more on that part when i’ll reach the last chorus.)

Hey December

At the beginning of the song, we were in November, thinking about July. Here, time has passed, but she’s still caught in the winter...

Guess I'm feeling unmoored Can’t remember What I used to fight for

Here again, her not being out can be one of the explanations as to why Taylor stopped talking about politics as much as she did at some point. She can’t find the hope she had before, about her future and her life, and she may have lost the will to fight, feeling like if she wasn’t “even” able to come out, she wasn’t able to fight for anything else.

I think it could also mean that the breakup and/or everything that happened at the time made her lose her desire to come out in any way. 

I rewind the tape but all it does is pause On the very moment all was lost

She can’t understand where everything went wrong, she can’t remember what happened, how it happened, how she ended up where she is, the only thing she remembers is the feeling when she understood that she had “lost”, that she wouldn’t be able to win this.  

The way she says “all was lost” means – in my opinion – that she held so much hope, and that so much of her future was dependent on her coming out, that not being able to do it made her feel like lost everything she had worked for.

Sending signals

The beginning of the Lover era was probably one of the moments Taylor was the loudest about her queerness…

To be double crossed

…But in the end, she was betrayed and she couldn’t get through with it, she couldn’t actually act on these signals. In that situation, she was betrayed, but she could also feel like she betrayed those who understood what she wanted to do.

And I was catching my breath Barefoot in the wildest winter Catching my death And I couldn't be sure I had a feeling so peculiar That this pain would be for Evermore

Can’t not think of all the cost And the things that will be lost

The anxiety is still there, and she’s wondering if it’s worth it. She was sure it was, in the Archer, but now she isn’t anymore, she realized what she could lose, how much it would cost her. 

Oh, can we just get a pause? To be certain we'll be tall again

Can I just take time to think, to make sure that it’s still what I want, to be certain I won’t lose everything (again) if I end up doing it.

Whether weather be the frost Or the violence of the dog days I'm on waves, out being tossed

This seems to confirm that the the cold represent the closet: whether she stays frozen in the closet or she faces the violence of being out (a violence that echoes hundreds of years of oppression), she's not in full control. It’s something I’ll develop further in my analysis of Dear Reader, but at that point I think she realized that whatever she does, it’s gonna be at least in part determined by the society she lives in, its intolerance and expectations, and she understands that the closet does not have less worth, as a choice, because coming out is also something that is dictated by heteronormativity. This choice is deeply personal, either ways it’s gonna be hard, and she can finally take a decision without being afraid of “betraying” or “lying” to people. 

Is there a line that I could just go cross?

Is there a way for me to just get through with it and never have to think of it again, is there a rule I could break that would make it impossible for me to be mistaken, and for people not to understand who I am? The answer is no, whatever she does, her queerness will never be fully recognized and accepted. 

And when I was shipwrecked I thought of you  In the cracks of light  I dreamed of you  It was real enough  To get me through And I swear  You were there

I *think* she’s talking to her fans here, the ones who wouldn’t have left, had she actually come out. The end of the song is a call for hope and she actually end it up in an optimistic way.

And I was catching my breath Floors of a cabin creaking under my step

In the first chorus, she’s “catching her breath / staring”, she is the most silent possible, voluntarily and she doesn’t move, she’s watching passively. Then in the second one, she’s “barefoot in the wildest winter” you can imagine the snow, she doesn’t make a sound when she walks, and the sound of the wind is covering her anyway, she could not be loud even if she wanted to, but the focus is back on her feet, she’s in movement but it doesn’t change anything, she isn’t able to make a sound. Now, the floor is creaking under her step, she’s back home, in a cabin and she can finally walk loudly without fear or being caught. Is it because she’s finally comfortable in the (glass) closet she now lives in, or because she intends to be fully out at some point, I don’t know, but the end of this song, I think, convey the feeling that she’s safe, or that she’s going to be, at some point.

And I couldn't be sure I had a feeling so peculiar This pain wouldn't be for Evermore

This goes with what I said before, she ends up accepting herself and stops seeing the failed coming-out as an irreparable mistake, she understands that it’s a period of time and that the way she felt at this specific moment will eventually fade out.

[talksliketherain]

Rowan Laslow - Hurt

Background- Rowan and Y/n have been best friends forever and they both have feelings for one another but are oblivious to it. Recently he's been going to Nightshade meetings more often, leaving y/n alone to fill her own time.

Not proof read!! Please do not post my work to any other sites or steal it!! If you have any requests dm me!

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Third person Pov-

Y/n and Rowan sat in his dorm, finishing up their project for botany. Rowan hated botany. He had no special interest in plants or flowers or nature of any sort. But he knew y/n did. He looked up at her, observing her squinting her eyes in focus at the drawing she had been working on.

The two had practically grown up together. Before Rowan's mother died, she was best friends with Y/n's aunt, who y/n lived with. After his mother died he began spending a lot more time at the L/n household. His father wasn't too interested in what Rowan did, and kind of detested him because of how much he resembled his mom.

Nevertheless, Y/n and her aunt took Rowan in. He even had his own room at their house.

At about age 13, he began to realize he was deeply in love with her. Since he practically lived with her he got to see all sides of her. This included seeing her sob after her first heartbreak, laugh until she couldn't breathe, and get so mad to the point where she was quite literally red in the face.

He adored every side. He adored everything about her.

He snapped back into reality, hearing her call his name in that voice that drove him nuts.

"Rowan?" she asked, trying to get his attention.

He mentally screamed at the sound of her saying his name.

"Sorry what?"

"I asked what you think about the drawing."

"Oh. Sorry."

He turned his head to observe the picture. They were assigned a tiger lily. His mouth opened a little bit. The drawing was perfect.

"Wow. That's really good. You're gonna give Xavier a run for his money."

Y/n blushed at the compliment. She had been doing her best at trying to make the drawing look as good as possible. She didn't want rowan to think she was incapable.

Just recently she had caught feelings for the Laslow boy. She never really paid him much mind before until earlier in the year. She saw him get hurt during fencing and went with him to the nurse's office. Seeing him there with his hair perfectly parted to the side, glasses sitting perfectly on his nose, and sleeves rolled up a little made her want to die. She thought back to that moment at least twice a day.

She tried forgetting about the skip in her heart when she saw him at that moment, but couldn't push it out of her head. About two weeks ago, she realized she was madly in love with him and gave in to her feelings.

"Thanks, Row. Now I just have to color it in." She looked up at him, sucking in a breath realizing how close they were.

"I could do that part. I mean you pretty much just did the whole thing." he chuckled.

"Uhh. Okay yeah, go ahead."

"Great. I'll finish it before it's due next Monday."

Rowan suddenly realized how close he was to the girl. He didn't want to be weird, so he scooted back as subtly as possible when he put the drawing in his bag.

Y/n frowned at the movement. She had thought that just maybe he was that close on purpose. Guess he was too close for comfort.

Rowan had taken off his jacket and was just in his button-up and vest. Y/n watched his back muscles contract as he leaned down to put his stuff away. Fencing sure did pay off.

He sat up and caught the girl zoned out, staring at his back.

"...You okay?"

"Wha- uh yeah. I'm great. Fantastic actually", Y/n said, hoping it wasn't too noticeable that she was staring at him.

He nodded and picked his bag up, slinging it over his shoulder. Y/n knew what was coming. The two had this unspoken thing with each other where they gave a hug whenever the other left. Recently she had been dreading this. Every touch they shared sent an electric pulse through her body.

She sighed, looking up at him with a sad face.

"Do you have to go?"

Rowan looked down to hide the crimson blush that he could feel spread across his face. They used to hang out all the time, but ever since Rowan joined the Nightshades he had been spending less and less time with the girl. In his defense, he was working on building up the courage to ask the others if she could join. Until then, he had to keep it a secret from you. He didn't know why he was so nervous. They all loved you anyway.

"Yeahhh. Xavier needed me to tutor him for algebra."

"Ah. Okay. Well..bye."

She stood up and mentally prepared herself for what was to come.

When did he get so tall?

He pulled her in, wrapping his arms around her neck. She wrapped hers around his waist, face right in his chest. They stood there for a moment just holding each other.

They both inhaled. As y/n took in the smell of Rowan's light cologne mixed with fresh cold air, he took in the smell of her green apple shampoo and conditioner. Her hair products frequently changed, so he was always excited to see what she chose this time.

Even though they both grew extremely nervous about this hug every time it came, it was addicting. Neither of them could get enough. It was like an excuse just to touch each other based on a tradition from when they were kids. They both mentally cursed and thanked their past kid selves for it. It had grown to mean so much more.

"Sure you don't wanna stay? I'm gonna sneak out and go into Jericho for some coffee and snacks.."

Rowan tried to think of an excuse. He felt bad for ditching their usual hang-out together (again..), but this was the meeting he would ask if she could join. They would finally be able to join each other again.

"I can't. His test is coming up soon. No time to waste."

"Right. Okay. Bye Rowan."

"Bye Y/n"

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Rowan closed the door behind him and immediately felt sick. He knew Y/n was upset with him, but it would all be worth it after tonight.

But he just kept thinking.

Maybe if you got the courage to ask sooner you wouldn't have to feel this way, and she wouldn't be upset.

No. What's done is done. No point in feeling bad about it now. It wasn't like waiting an extra day was gonna kill her.

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Y/n pulled her jacket on and grabbed her wallet in a huff. She knew Rowan wasn't tutoring Xavier for algebra tonight. Xavier was in geometry with her, and their test was yesterday.

Knowing he lied to her angered Y/n. Why would he be ditching her like this? What if there was a girl?

She shook her head trying to shake off the thought of Rowan being in love with someone else. Whatever. Maybe a latte and some chips would get her mind off of this.

She snuck out of the school doors, shivering once she felt the breeze hit her. She knew she should have grabbed Rowan's hoodie he had given her instead but was too stubborn to wear something of his right now when he had pissed her off so badly.

She began heading through the woods, observing her surroundings. She had always felt one with nature. It was peaceful to her.

As her journey continued, she didn't make it too far in before she heard a low growl.

"Enid?" she asked wearily.

Enid was always messing around with her like this. Even though she hadn't wolfed out yet, she had still always had a knack for growling and scaring the girl.

She heard it again.

"Enid come on this isn't funny. Come out!" she demanded.

Out of the corner of her eye, she watched as a strange creature crawled out of the darkness.

Y/n immediately started sprinting back toward the school. She had almost reached the front lawn when she felt her legs give out from under her. She was pulled back by her leg and flipped over until she felt the violent stabbing pain of the creature clawing open the skin on her chest and legs. She screamed as loud as she could, hoping someone would find her and come help. Her adrenaline got the best of her, as she was frozen in shock and fear. She suddenly snapped back to reality when the monster had finished with her.

She felt the burning of the wounds and the wetness of the blood seeping through her clothes in the cold night air. She couldn't scream anymore, and the blood rushing out of her drained her energy. She reached down and slowly pulled out her phone, pressing Rowan's contact to call him. Even though she had been mad, she needed him right now, and he was the closest thing to family around here.

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Rowan looked down at his phone repeatedly buzzing in her pocket. His face lit up with joy seeing Y/n's contact. He had already asked and received the blessing for her to join the club he was buzzing with excitement. When he asked everyone look at him like he was stupid.

"Dude, why didn't you just ask before? We love having her around. I'm surprised she isn't already one of us." Xavier said.

He got a bunch of different "yeah" and "Duh of course" from the entire group. Easy enough then. He had just sat down and started drinking a mocktail Yoko had made. He was just about to text and ask if he could come to her dorm because he had good news when he got her call.

Rowan picked up the phone and held it to his ear.

"Hey, I was just about t-"

He stopped. He heard sobbing from the girl and immediately stood up, already on edge.

"Y/n what's wrong? Is everything alright?"

"I...need help. Now. Monster...attacked..me... "

"Ooooh My god. Okay. OKAY. IM COMING. Send me your location I'm on my way."

"O...K...." Y/n sobbed.

Rowan hung up and took his robe off. It was time to go. NOW. He didn't even bother explaining to the others. He rushed out and ran towards the location you had sent him.

He made his way toward the edge of the campus lawn, finding you passed out on the grass. Not considering the circumstances, you looked peaceful. Your long eyelashes over top your cheeks and the moonlight above you shone across your face.

But Rowan didn't have time to think about that. He had to act fast.

"Fuck fuck fuck" he quickly used his telekinetic powers to lift you into the air and had you floating behind him as he broke out into a jog to the nurse.

He got to the nurse and quickly explained what happened. The nurse told him to go get her clothes as she tore off the bloodied ones and cleaned the poor girl up.

Rowan rushed down to your dorm and flipped the light on. Yoko was your roommate, and she was still at the meeting so he didn't have to worry about disturbing anyone. He went through the items in your closet, knowing you would want something to be comfortable in. He grabbed a tank top and shorts, knowing you also might not want anything touching your stitched-up wounds.

He grabbed some of your things along the way, knowing you would be spending at least a couple of days in the infirmary. On the way out he spotted his hoodie laying across a chair. He grabbed that too.

Turning the light off and shutting the door, Rowan rushed back, waiting to see what your state was.

He entered the door and handed the nurse your stack of clothes through the curtain. He didn't want to look in and invade your privacy. He tried talking to the nurse through the curtains. He was very impatient.

"How is she? Is she going to be okay? What's going on?" he asked frantically.

"Well she lost a lot of blood, and she's going to need MANY stitches. As of right now, I'm not sure when or if she'll wake up. But ill let you know..." she responded.

He sucked in a breath and held it for a second. This was all his fault. If he asked sooner or left the meeting earlier, or just stayed with you, this would have never happened. He let a single tear roll down his cheek but quickly wiped it away.

For the next couple of hours, all he did was wait. The nurse finally came out.

"She'll make it. But she'll be out for a while. As I said, Miss L/n lost a lot of blood. She's numbed up for now but she'll be in pain for the next few days. If you want you can go check on her. She's cleaned up."

He let out a sigh of relief.

"Thank you so much. Do you mind if I stay with her until she wakes up?"

The nurse smiled at his request. The simple act reminded her that young love still existed. It was a breath of fresh air compared to the cuts and bruises from fights she was constantly healing.

"Go right ahead"

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Y/n woke up dizzy, but stable. She felt sharp pains and something burning all over her. She lifted the hem of her shirt, seeing bloodied stitches all across her abdomen. She pulled down the waistband of her shorts and saw the same thing on her thighs. Same thing on her arms.

At least I'm alive

She looked over to see Rowan sleeping in a chair next to her bedside. A nurse walked over and checked up on her while y/n stared. The nurse glanced up and looked over to see her looking at him so intently.

"Your boyfriend there stayed with you for the past 2 days. He barely leaves your side. Reminds me of how close my husband and I are."

Y/n didn't want to ruin the moment and tell her it wasn't her boyfriend so she just replied "Yeah we're really close."

The nurse walked away. Since she was awake now and Rowan was asleep, it was her turn to watch over him. She looked over all of him, from the freckles on his face to his cupid's bow. She loved every.single.part.

She was still laying down observing his face when he began to stir. His eyes fluttered open and he lifted off his glasses a little bit to rub his eyes before he fully opened them.

"Hey, you're awake! How do you feel?" he asked.

"Fine. Sore. Thank you for saving me."

"It's the least I could do. You're here because of me in the first place."

"Are you kidding? I understand you had things to do. I was going whether you were there or not. This isn't your fault."

"Listen there's something I need to tell you..."

Y/n raised her eyebrow and slightly nodded, telling him to keep going.

"I'm a part of a secret society here called the Nightshades. Recently we've been having more meetings which is why I've had to ditch our usual time together so much. Last night was especially important because...I asked them if you could join. They said yes. So now we can do our usual hangouts again...I mean. Only if you want."

Her eyes widened at the statement.

"Really? Wow. Yeah, I'd love to join. And to think I thought.." she said the last part a little quieter, realizing she ratted herself out.

"You thought what?"

"Well, I knew you weren't tutoring Xavier. He's in my class. I thought. Well, I thought you were ditching me for a girl."

Rowan laughed at the statement, making y/n slightly glare for laughing at her.

"ME?"

He continued laughing but then saw the serious look on her face. He knew it was time. This may ruin their friendship, but holding on to this anymore would make him explode.

"Y/n, the only girl I want in my life is you. I've been in love with you since we were kids. When I saw you laying there, lifeless on the ground, all I could think about was how I never got to tell you how much you meant to me."

Her eyes went as big as saucers. She never thought he would ever say anything to her like that. She sat forward and stared down at her hands, trying to figure out how to tell him she reciprocated feelings.

Rowan sat in silence, worrying he made her uncomfortable. He stood up from his chair.

"Listen I'm gonna go I don't want you to thin-"

Y/n quickly turned to him, gripping his wrist with one hand to pull him down, the other hand on the back of his neck to pull him in.

As their lips connected they both melted into the kiss. Y/n felt him smile a little, but quickly force it down so he could go back to kissing her. He lifted his hand to her face and rubbed his thumb back and forth across her cheek.

Y/n sat up a little bit to deepen the kiss, trying to push away the immense pain she was feeling on her stomach, but eventually gave in. She sharply inhaled and leaned back to the spot she was in before, breaking contact between the two.

Rowan sat back down in his seat with a dopey smile spread across his face.

Y/n looked at him with what was only recognizable as unconditional love in her eyes.

"Rowan. I'm in love with you too. Every part of you. I've known you for so long, and I can't imagine what my life would be like without you here."

Rowan took her hand in his, drawing little circles on it as they both stared at each other with love in their eyes. He leaned over and kissed her forehead, then whispered to her...

"I swear. I will never let anything hurt you ever again, my love."

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AND THATS IT!! Thank you for reading and stay tuned for more updates!

[viilpstick]

HI GIRLLL HELLO HEYYY😍🥰 (me trying to act as if I didn't just come here without any warning whatsoever to gush about this new scenario idea I had like a week ago)

Ok but like jokes aside and before I get started: how have you been? How was your day? :] I hope school was less stressful to you today and that you were able to study well!(⁠＾⁠∇⁠＾⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠♪

•••

Kalim might not be the smartest student, some might even say he didn't even fit with Scarabia’s values, but Kalim was not dumb. Sure, he wasn't book smart like his servant, Jamil, but he could read people's emotions well, even if they didn't realize it.

And one thing he caught on right away was that Jeanne Hook didn't love him.

Jeanne looked at him with hunger and greed, she looked at him as one would look at a newfound treasure. The same beautiful blue eyes Kalim fell in love with were the same eyes that looked at him as if he was nothing but a means to an end. He would lie if he said it didn't hurt him, but at the end of the day, Kalim was completely enamored with Jeanne. He couldn't deny himself, he couldn't deny his feelings. So he would be honest, and trust that she had some compassion in her.

He would let her stare all she wanted. As long as it meant her eyes were fixated on him and only him.

“Where are you taking me anyway, Asim?” She asked, a performative smile on her lips as he gently held her hand and led her to the balcony of Sacarabia. “Jamil will soon notice that we’re missing from the party and he’s not gonna be happy about it.” He turned and smiled at her as they finally reached their destination, holding not only her right hand but her hook she used to replace her left hand.

“I just wanted to show you something.” Kalim smiled, his dimples showing. “I want you to meet someone.”

Jeanne’s expression showed confusion as the boy stopped holding her and walked straight to the edge of the balcony.

“You… want me to meet someone?”

“Trust me, Jeanne, you’re gonna love this.” Kalim said confidently as he stood on the edge of the balcony, Jeanne's eyes widening in a mix of surprise and maybe even worry, if he dared to hope.

Then, Kalim let his body fall, letting gravity do its own thing. Jeanne hurried to the edge, calling for the white haired boy frantically, looking everywhere but somehow being unable to find the body of the Asim heir.

What was he thinking?? Jumping from the balcony all of a sudden! Jeanne gritted her teeth and started climbing the edge, ready to jump to find him, but before she was even able to get her right foot up, the familiar voice of Kalim called to her from behind, and as she turned she witnessed him, wide eyed and standing on a carpet.

A flying carpet.

“Wha- were you going to jump after me?” The boy asked, touched, and Jeanne let out a big sigh of relief, passing her hand through her dark hair.

“Duh! I thought you might’ve hurt yourself, how the heck would I explain that to Jamil?” She expressed, but then decided to leave that aside, looking at the carpet he was standing on. “So… this is who you wanted me to meet?”

“Oh- yes! This is my magic carpet, Jeanne.” The carpet flew closer to the girl, she laughed as a portion of the fabric seemed to hold her hand and pretend to kiss it. Well, it was just as intriguing as Kalim himself. “Do you like it? It’s been my friend since I've known myself.”

“It’s wonderful, Asim. Really.” Jeanne said, passing her hand on top of the fabric of the carpet, in awe of its beautiful and intricate design.

Kalim kneeled down and looked the girl in the eyes, a hopeful smile on his face as he asked: “do you want to go for a ride?”

Jeanne’s smile dropped, turning into a rather… stunned expression. She looked at the carpet and then back at Kalim, chuckling at the idea.

“Oh no, Asim. I’m way more friendly with boats and brooms… this is such a thin piece of fabric, I doubt it could-”

“Do you trust me?”

Jeanne's eyes locked with Kalim’s, his ruby pupils seeming to make her dizzy. She learned from a very young age that the only person she could count on was herself and her sister, no one else seemed worthy of her trust… yet… looking at this boy’s eyes, she didn't feel a single ounce of doubt. It was as if she knew him her entire life, despite being sure to have only known Kalim for a few months.

"I... Asim, it's not-" she hesitated. Well... It was just a ride, right? If he tried anything, she could slice his neck open with her hook. She sighed at the idea. "...sure." she said, hesitantly, as her hook made its way to Kalim’s hand, and the boy gave her the warmest smile she had ever seen.

His gentle fingers touched her hard, cold metal hook as if it wasn't dangerous. As if it couldn't be used to harm him, as if the idea of Jeanne hurting him never even crossed his mind.

Kalim dragged her onto the carpet, and as they sat the white haired boy guided the object up high in the clouds, letting out a scream of enjoyment, and Jeanne held onto his waist for dear life. Why did she say yes? Forget about feeling like she knew Kalim since forever, she was clearly going to fall at any moment!!

Kalim's hand made its way to touch hers, squeezing it as if reassuring her that she was fine. He said: “open your eyes! Trust me, Jeanne!”

The taller one squeezed his waist, and, taking a leap of faith, opened her eyes, and she saw the most wonderful sight she had ever seen: a view up on the clouds, the sky filled with stars with nothing to hide their shine... She had never seen the world in such a beautiful way.

She truly had never seen anything like this, not even in her travels with her parents.

“So? What do you think?” Kalim asked, catching the girl's attention.

Jeanne stared at him, noticing every part of his face: his red pupils shining with expectation, his round cheeks with dimples that showed as he shot her the most genuine and caring smile she had ever seen. Her heart skipped a beat, her own face went red as her gaze softened.

She chuckled embarrassed, finally letting go of his waist, and Kalim instantly missed her touch.

“This is beautiful. I never knew how incredible the view from up here was.” She admitted, avoiding his gaze. Kalim took her hand and she felt her whole body stiffen.

“You can come ride on the magic carpet with me anyday, anytime. I’d love to show you my world.” He giggled shyly, looking to the side but still refusing to let her hand go. “I know I would love to spend even more time with you.”

“You're… very trusting, Kalim.”

Kalim shook his head.

“No. I just choose to believe in people.” He looked at her and smiled softly, though she could see a bit of hurt in his eyes. “I believe in you. I know that you're not as bad as Jamil thinks. For example, you just called me 'Kalim' instead of my family name.”

Jeanne quickly put her hook to her mouth in shock. Since when did she let herself call him by his actual name? Since when her perspective on him changed so much to the point she would think of him as Kalim and not the Asim heir?

“I’ve no idea what you mean by that.” She lied.

“It's ok, you're not the first to have come to me for my status.” Kalim laughed as if it was nothing, but Jeanne couldn't laugh with him. “But… will you call me by my name? Please? I adore it when you say my name.”

It was true. Kalim's chest felt like it would explode the moment Jeanne said his name, the word sounding so melodic and he felt giddy because he knew she was speaking so beautifully about him and no one else. His heart felt warm and he couldn't help but smile.

Jeanne looked at him again, his red eyes forcing her to give in once more. She sighed, before she opened her mouth: “Kalim.”

And he smiled, and giggled, and kissed her knuckles. He looked at her as if she was the most precious jewel, and Jeanne felt at a loss for words.

She has no idea how on earth she's going to take advantage of him now.

u rlly said "i can show you the world" when wrote this scenario.

i need a moment, a minute even...

GIMME AN HOUR.

I NEED TO CRY.

THIS IS SO MAGICAL- IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN IT.

IT FELT LIKE WATCHING ALADDIN FOR THE FIRST TIME AGAIN.

CHILLS, LITERALLY CHILLS.

i need them to kiss. mah. i need them to kiss rn. plsplsplsplsplsplsplspslplspls.

THIS IS SO AAAAAAA I LOVE IT JEANNE AND KALIM MY BELOVEDSSS

[theatregaymer]

Part of the Family

Finished commission for my good friend @wertzunge​. Kawaki is acclimating to life as part of the Uzumaki family, but every now and then he feels like he might still be an outsider looking inwards at an ideal family. Thankfully, his family members don’t think the same and are all too happy to remind him how cherished he is.

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As the birds began to sing their songs to the morning skies above the hidden village of Konoha, a certain family was just barely getting started waking up...well some of them. To say things had been lively after the Hokage brought Kawaki into his home would be a bit of an understatement. But after some time had passed, the boy had started feeling like he was actually part of this family, from his brotherly bond with Boruto, Himawari warming up to him and even being asked to help with preparing dinner on occasion...it was such a shift from his years of isolation and pain. 

Honestly, Kawaki and Boruto both were normally at least able to wake up on time. The thing with today was, they had nothing to do, none of them. Naruto had gotten ahead of the curve on his work, arranging for things to be taken care of for a single day at Hinata's behest so that they could spend the day together as a family. Of course it was a shock to both boys, who had spent a lot of time the day beforehand wearing themselves out during training. Kawaki would have slept even longer had he not heard a ruckus from the floor above his sleeping space in the Hokage's home office. What the hell was Boruto doing up there?" Grumbling as he wiped the sleep from his eyes, Kawaki sleepily opened the door to call out to him but caught Himawari's look instead as she came down the stairs. "Good morning Kawaki...hehe Papa is just waking up brother. I'm gonna go help mom in the kitchen!" She said cheerfully as if she hadn't just read his mind before scampering off to the kitchen. As he blinked, it finally became clear just what he was hearing from the upstairs area of the house. That was most definitely laughter...and something like a scream? Was nobody else confused like he was?

He decided despite Himawari's casual attitude, he wanted to investigate since she did mention the Hokage was there as well. He climbed the stairs, his bare feet tapping lightly on the flooring since he didn't often need to be stealthy in this place, save for it he needed to take a leak in the wee hours of the morning. As he neared Boruto's room however, a chill ran along his spine for some reason as he began to clearly understand more words even with the door shut. "BWAHah...Old man stohop....DAD SEHEHERIOUSLY!" His caution was soon overcome by curiosity as the dark haired boy gently turned the knob and opened the door, hearing Naruto's voice through the din of his adopted borther's laughter. "Oh come on now, my first whole day home and you sleep in? How can I not wanna spend some quality time waking you up Boruto?" This was followed by more wailing and cackling from the smaller blond ninja as Kawaki saw the Hokage looming over his son, one hand holding one of his arms over his head while the other was moving quickly up and down the side of his night shirt. What was he doing? Boruto was clearly laughing and smiling, but his free hand was desperately trying to snatch his father's away in an effort to escape this strange torture. "NOOhohohoohahh ahahaAHA STAHahaphihithahah ah ahah KAHahawaki save mehehe!" Boruto called out his name, blowing his cover as the Hokage turned to look as well to see his second son halfway in the room. "Ah morning. Sorry if this guy woke you up." The blond said, chuckling as Boruto denied it. "Wha-Ihit's your fault gah! Gehet offa mehehe!" Wrenching his wrist free and rolling over, Boruto attempted to flee, only to slip on his own covers and falling to the floor. His panic seemed to escalate as Naruto reached down to scoop up his legs, dragging him back and locking both his legs with a single strong arm before beginning to move his other hand along his bare feet. This of course seemed to be even worse for the young Uzumaki as he cried out, desperately trying to claw away at the floor, reaching in vain for a still rather bewildered Kawaki.

"NAHAHa OH god no NAHahaht thaahthaha Nhoh nahat the feEEHEHETHTEHHAHAHA DAAHAHAD!" His pleas seemed to fall on deaf ears as Naruto simply continued holding a brief conversation, albeit a loud one with Kawaki. "I think Hinata wants us all to go on a picnic together today. We still have time but maybe see if she needs some help getting prepared?" Kawaki nodded, still too stunned to say much as he didn't know if he should leave or ask what this was all about. He didn't even realize he was blushing slightly as Boruto cried out with tears in his eyes. "NOHOHOTHAHaa don't touch myYHYH TOHOHESHHAHA!" Naruto was drilling his fingers between the tender valleys between his son's digits, before things finally seemed to calm down as the Hokage gave an affectionate few pats to his son's slightly reddened soles and let him go, the boy slumping for a second before quickly crawling a few feet away as his father stood up and headed out the door past Kawaki. "Haha and maybe make sure that one didn't wet himself." Naruto left just in time as a pillow was flung across the room, softly smacking against the door as Kawaki felt it prudent to close it after the older man left.

Now it was just him and Boruto, the latter panting heavily, flushed and teary eyed but very much awake. "Why...didn't you help?" He asked, earning a scowl from the raven haired teen. "I didn't think you needed it...you were laughing and smiling." Boruto gritted his teeth as he managed to get back to his feet, beginning to fix up his bed as he continued to recover. "Only because the old man was tickling me! Ugh he's done that since I was a kid whenever I oversleep and he's home. So dumb.." Despite his words, something in the young blond's tone hinted at a sort of fondness for the activity, likely since such bonding moments were more rare since his father took office.

"Tickling? So that's like...a tradition?" Kawaki asked, honestly a bit confused at Boruto's words as he moved Boruto's desk chair over and sat down. His adoptive brother turned slightly, an eyebrow raised in equal confusion at the question. "Huh? Tradition? I don't think so it's just...a thing he does sometimes...why?" Kawaki shrugged slightly, unsure why this strange feeling of jealousy was slowly building up inside him. "It just seemed like something special judging from how he was smiling when he left as well, but he wasn't even being tickled like you were. It just looked like his fingers were squeezing you a lot." At these words, Boruto began to catch on to a feeling in the air, a smile slowly returning to his features, though this one held much more mischief this time around. "Ehhh? Kawaki....do you not know what tickling feels like?" The blond finished making his bed as Kawaki blinked, trying not to show how honestly confused he felt. "I...I know what it's supposed to feel like." He insisted, hoping that answer would suffice. However, Boruto didn't seem to buy it as he walked closer, still grinning widely as he raised his hands slightly and wiggled his fingers. "Let's just make suuuuure heheh." Kawaki once more was struck by a sensation of both sudden anticipation and slight fear as those fingers got closer, his throat swallowing a lump before his brother began skittering his fingers along the raven's sides and stomach, instantly earning some unfamiliar sounds as the dark haired boy seized Boruto's wrists, yet did nothing to defend himself. "Wha-a-aahah ah whahat the heehehell is thihisheheha Hehehey Bah Bohoruto knock it ohohoff!" The blond of course only chuckled in reply, recognizing that despite his protests there was no action to actually stop this sensation from continuing. "Hahaha come ooon you like it! You're smiling and laughing right?" As the two began to wrestle, Kawaki forwent defense and instead reached out to mimic Boruto's actions on his own flanks before the two both fell onto his bed, ruining the nicely made sheets. "NHAHaha ah hahang oh naha noho stahahpha Dahahd already gohoht mehehe!" Both boy's continued to laugh, Kawaki being no exception as he cackled out loud. "KEHEHahah AHAHAH Youhuhu stohop fihihirst!"  Their legs helplessly kicked as fingers flew up and down their torsos, digging into armpits, clawing at their stomachs, all leading up to their mutual signal to stop horsing around.

"Boys if you don't get down here, Naruto is going to finish your breakfast!" At Hinata's words from downstairs, both of them stopped their antics, flushed and panting as they blinked, knowing the tone used was one of both playful urgency, but also a slightly more serious note beneath it. "We're on our way!" Boruto responded, hoping it bought them some time. He then broke away from his adopted sibling, pausing briefly before bringing up his thoughts. "So...why were you so interested in that?" He asked, earning a stammer from the other boy before being followed by an awkward silence. As Boruto began to change, Kawaki finally spoke up. "You and the fourth...have a connection strengthened through traditional acts such as this. I don't...I can't explain why I got interested in it. I guess...my own dad never..." Boruto tossed a pillow from the disheveled bedding at his brother, stopping that thought process. "Hey now come on, you're part of the family now, you're my brother! Dad wouldn't have even brought you home if he didn't see that you have a good heart ya know?" If Kawaki were more emotional, he supposed this would be one of those time he shouldfeel a bit teary eyed, but instead he could do nothing other than grip the pillow a bit tighter after it hit his chest. "Yeah...I guess you're right..." Thusly Kawaki actually helped fix the bed much quicker before they were headed downstairs. Thankfully Hinata's bluff was just that, and the two finished their breakfast quickly before helping to get things ready for that afternoon. Thankfully, there were no emergencies, no sudden meetings or crises that required Naruto's attention. The Uzumaki family was able to actually enjoy themselves, spending quality time together, playing some card games, enjoying some good food, and nurturing those bonds Kawaki was so worried over. The daylight slowly ebbing away, the orange sky signaled their time to head back home as they all gathered their things, though Naruto did have the extra baggage of a very worn out Himawari. Kawaki too felt surprisingly tired, having played more tag with her and Boruto than he would have expected. It was especially challenging once Hinata joined in, his mother figure being far more impressive than he could have anticipated. Something else he didn't notice, was how Boruto and his father hung back a bit behind, walking slower as the younger blond had something important to apparently convey to the Hokage. Kawaki stayed in the dark on this of course, helping to handle some minor cleanup at home before dressing down to his evening pants and tank top, climbing onto the sofa bed in the office as per usual to lull off to sleep, likely to wake up to a more familiar, albeit less enjoyable day tomorrow... "...waki...Kawakiiii...heh you're almost as deep a sleeper as I am." That voice...Kawaki recognized it immediately, before recognizing something else, a light and fluttery feeling that instantly had his nerves lighting up. "Eh wh-whehehah ah F-fohourththeh ah whahat the hehell haha let goho." His laughter was still somewhat tired, despite the feeling of strong fingers dancing against his bare soles playfully. He was still tired sure, but shouldn't he have been able to escape this weak hold? No...he realized Naruto had positioned himself in a way that Kawaki's ankles were trapped beneath one of his thighs, allowing two hands to wreak havok on his feet. He swiftly rubbed the sleep from his eyes, giggling the entire time as he continued helplessly trying to pull away. "PFTHEeh hah whahat tihime is ihithehe gaha youhuh haha you shouldn't behehe here!" He was getting more of his energy back, though not nearly enough to stave off the fingers attacking his toes now. "CAHAHA CAH gEHEHehehet offa mehehehe!" The Hokage simply laughed, continuing his tickles before swapping positions, pinning the young man beneath him as he began tickling up and down his sides, his blanket slipping down as those hands shoved up into his shirt to get at his bare skin. "A little bird told me youmight be feeling left out hmm?" Kawaki tried shoving at the older man, shaking his head as his forced smile was coupled with endless giggling. "HEHEhehahahAHAH ahah ah no nahaha hihi'm nahaAHAHAHt AHAHA NOT THERE!" His pits felt those fingers digging in skillfully, the trained hands of someone used to tickling a squirmy victim no doubt. "STAHa ahaha stahap ahalreadyhyhyaha AHAHA PAH PLEHEHASEHAHA! Ah....aahahah hah...gah..*cough* hah..." The tickles ceased as he wished, Kawaki wiping a tear from his eyes before looking up at a smilin blond who then ruffled his dark hair.

"Kawaki...I hope you realize you are just as much a part of this family now as anyone else. Never forget that." Those words brought another wave of unexpected emotions surging into the boy's chest, the desire to cry overwhelming him as he brushed any budding tears away, blaming them on the tickling. "Hehe and if I have to tickle you in the mornings to remind you of it, just say the word." Kawaki blushed fiercely, "N-no way!" he shouted, throwing his pillow at the man in a move reminicient of his brother as Naruto laughed brightly, blocking it with one hand as he waved goodbye before heading out to work no doubt. Kawaki took a moment to collect himself, still feeling the tingling sensations all through his body as he fixed his shirt and folded his blanket. He went to the bathroom, finding it was still rather early and he hoped he hadn't woken Himawari. But when he suddenly recalled the Hokage's words, he looked up the stairs with a different expression. "A little bird huh?" Oh Boruto was so gonna get the wake up of his lifetime.

[muichiro-obsessed]

TBKH CHARACTERS WITH A HYBRID!S/O

Hello! Thank you for reading, I'm making this because I simply want to. These hc's + one shots are written to be romantic, but can be interpreted platonically. Reader is gender neutral!

Warnings: pure fluff, might be suggestive in some parts. Reader has ears and a tail.

On with the story...

Hanako kun (amane yugi)

This boy, gosh, where do I start with him

He *adores* your ears and tail, and often gives you nicknames based off of which animal you stem from (ex. Kitty, foxy, puppy, ect ect..)

It also gives him an advantage teasing you because even with a poker face, he can tell your reaction by your ears twitching

"oh would you look at you, what a fluffy thing you are," hanako says, flying above you, "You are so adorable, you know that?" You tried to keep a straight face, but your tail and ears didn't think the same. "Awww, you look so cute like that, kitty!"

Yashiro Nene

Oh my gosh, this girl would be freaking out

With how fluffy you are, how could she not?

When she first saw you, she thought she was dreaming

"gorgeous person, with fluffy ears?!"

Be prepared to catch her, she's gonna pass out most likely

Yashiro walked into the bathroom, prepared to clean again. Her gaze is met by hanako, and a fluffy animal-person. "WAIT WHA-!" Yashiro yelled before nearly falling to the ground, only to be caught by you. When she woke up she apologized profusely, only to forget about it within 5 seconds. "I'm so sorry for passing out on you, wait OHMIGOSHYOURSOFLUFFYPLEASECANUPETYOU-" (oh my gosh your so fluffy please can I pet you). You nodded. Ever since then, yashiro has been petting you as a greeting.

Kou Minamoto

This boy first saw you, bless his soul, he thought you were an appriatian

Poor boy was ready to exorcise you

You had to rush to explain to him, you weren't meant to be excorsied

Once he calmed down, his situation set in

"why is there a fluffy animal-person Infront of me"

He decided to just go with it

You two are sweet together, he protects you like an older brother, even if you're older than him

Kou walked down the hallway after school got out. The hallways was lit by the golden sun, and he could make out a figure in the distance. "Head, arms, legs, ears,tail," he thought to himself, "WAIT EARS AND A TAIL?!" he yelled. You looked at him. You had forgotten about your ears and tail for a second, lazily swaying as you looked out the window. "HEY YOU! PREPARE TI BE EXCORSIED BY THE ONE AND ONLY KOU MINAMOTO!" You looked at him in confusion and then said to him "Why would you exorcise me? I'm not an apparition," you stated calmly. Kou was thrown off by your calming aura and decided to take you to hanako.

Teru Minamoto

teru was worried at first when he saw you with kou

"why is my little brother with an apparition?"

He soon saw how relaxed kou was, and decided not to panic

He then took a good look at you and saw one thing

FLUFFY PERSON

He found you absolutely adorable

Teru went to find his brother, only to find him with what he thought was an apparition. "KOU WHAT ARE YOU DOING-" he yelled. You and kou looked up at the eldest Minamoto with confused expressions. "Hey bro! I made friends with this cool person with animal like features, say hi Y/N!", Kou states. "Hello! You must be kou's older brother," you stook out a pawed hand for him to shake, "it's nice to meet you!" Teru took your hand, or paw in this context, and shook it gently. "Hello there, Y/N! Nice to meet you!" Teru said with a smile. The rest was history between you two.

Mitsuba Sousuke

When mitsuba first saw you, he instantly thought one thing

"I wanna take a picture of them.."

He was entranced by the fluff of your ears and the way your tail swayed

He had a lot of thoughts racing through his head seeing you

Like, for example

"wow, they're really pretty"

"I want to pet them"

"they're so fluffy"

He chose to silence most of them though

But he did talk to you

You were on the balcony, looking around at the dusk sky. The orange of the sun and the purple hue of the night coming in, and the astonishing amber in the middle, what was there not to love? Mitsuba has heard that there would be a particularly beautiful sunset today, so he went to go take some pictures. He didn't know, however, that there would be an even more beautiful sight than the sky out there. Mitsuba saw you and gripped his camera tighter. He felt a strange aura coming from you, one of tranquility, and peace. He had a rush of thoughts come into his head, but one made its way to the front. "I want to take a picture of you," he found himself saying, "your unique appearance would make for a beautiful picture." You turned around, to be greeted by a cute, pink haired boy. "Yes," you spoke, "there's no harm in a few pictures!" The rest of the golden hour consisted of camera shudders going off, and a nice breeze going through your fur as you took pictures.

Tsukasa Yugi

Tsukasa told Sakura to bring you to him once he had one look at you

The way your tail bobbed as you walked past, the way your ears swayed

He wanted nothing more than a cup of tea with you

When he saw you, his first reaction was

"pet the fluffy"

So he did

It made for a rather awkward interaction, but it was still enjoyable

Since that one day, he kept petting you, like hanako

"Sakura," tsukasa's voice called out, "can you bring someone here for tea?" She brought you in. When tsukasa looked at you, his first thoughts were "pet the fluffy." Since tsukasa is tsukasa, he did just that. Tsukasa walked up to you and had reached a hand out to your ears, and ruffled the fur. His expression had gone from playful to shock from how fluffy you were. Sakura guided you to a chair and poured you a cup of tea. "Hey fluffy, what's your name," tsukasa spoke," I wanna get to know you!" "Well then, my name is Y/N, and since I'm here, I have no choice but to get to know you as well!"

I'm afraid this is the end of this fic, thank you so much for reading this! Good bye, and have a wonderful life!

[hannahhook7744]

Desperation is a Dangerous Thing;

Summary; Hannah is not excited about going to Auradon and leaving her two closest friends behind. And you know what they say... desperation is a dangerous thing, and leads people to doing dangerous things.

Tag list; @olithetalker .

Latest part of 'The Marvelous Misadventures of Hannah Hook'. Story and series can be found here on ao3 in chronological order. Trigger warnings: swearing, panic attacks, child labor, resentment, and dumb, risky plans.

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"Shit, shit, shit —" Hannah cursed, waving the paper frantically as she paced around her quarters. Pale and sweaty as she reread the paper again, silently. 

Skia watched her, almost bored as she laid atop Hannah's bed—used to her captain's freak outs by now and knowing her well enough to know that she'd figure something out before it was time for her to leave. 

And that was the scene their third half, Luke, walked in on. 

"Woah, what's with the freak out?" The redhead asked, eyeing the brunette concerned. Because no matter how many times he'd seen Hannah's freak outs, he just couldn't seem to get used to them. 

Skia leaned over the edge of the bed, dangling upside down and met his eye lazily. "Hannah and the core four are going to Auradon."

Luke furrowed his brow, clearly confused. "Uh what?"

Skia snapped her fingers. Like she usually did when Hannah was having one of her freak outs to get her attention (since it usually worked). 

This time was no exception as it caught Hannah's attention. "Wha—Luke? When did you get here?"

Skia snorted and Luke put a hand over his heart, pretending to be offended "Why I never—"

"He was wondering what you were freaking out about."

"Oh. OH !" Hannah said, recalling that Luke had been scheduled to work at Curl Up & Dye that morning, meaning that he hadn't been with them and that he had probably done his best to block out their mental link to avoid getting distracted. 

He had learned his lesson after he got his nose broken the last time he left their mental link open. 

Hannah strolled over to him and handed over the letter before joining Skia on the bed. Getting comfortable as Luke began to read the dreaded letter aloud. 

"His Royal Majesty,  Prince Benjamin Florian of Auradon and his council hereby invite Hannah Hook to spend the current academic year at Auradon Prep.  If you wish to attend, please meet the royal driver at the bridge at 8:00 Am sharp on the Friday following this letter with any luggage you may have.  Pets are allowed but must have a collared or chipped upon the first week you arrive in Auradon.  Sincerest Regards,  Prince Benjamin Florian of Auradon. And  His royal council. "

It was Tuesday. 

Luke blinked before re-reading the letter. "Well, fuck . What are we gonna do?"

Skia shrugged "same thing we always do, figure it out. Together. "

The red head rolled his eyes "Well, duh . But what is the game plan?"

Hannah didn't respond as she began to fidget again. Laying down and sitting up, stretching, and tapping on her knees as she tried to calm herself. 

So, Skia spoke for the both of them. "We don't have one yet. We've only had it for half an hour 'cause Mal dropped it off with a threat from her mother about what will happen to our crew if Hannah doesn't go."

Luke groaned, knowing just as well as Skia did that Hannah didn't take threats against their crew lightly. Which definitely explained the big freak out their best friend had, had. 

"Okay. That's… crappy.. but we can adjust our plans and account for this mess."

The hopefully part went unsaid as Hannah whipped out the notebook and pen she had under her pillow. 

It was time to start brainstorming.

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Hannah took a deep breath, once again pacing as she gestured with her hands. "Okay, so debrief—"

Luke sat on her desk, leaning against the wall. Looking bored as he spoke up "do we have to do a debrief? We just made the plan."

Skia cut in for Hannah. "Yes, we do. We need to remember in what order to enact our plans so that we don't forget any of the steps. Plus she probably added some things that she didn't tell us about as we were brainstorming."

The redhead pouted and crossed his arms. As if he was one of their charges and not a twelve year old who was taller and older (by five minutes, 55 seconds, and 5 milliseconds as he so liked to remind them of constantly). Which really wasn't that surprising given the fact that he needed the most sleep out of the three of them and probably hadn't gotten it yet. 

"Fine. Carry on."

Hannah waved her hands at her side. Hyping herself up before picking up where she left off. "Okay, so obviously you two are coming with me—"

"No shit." Luke replied instantly. 

"Not even in question, " Skia added in agreement. 

"So. Obviously. I have to inform my family which means you two will have to inform yours—"

"There is no way in hell I'm telling Evie that you're gonna sneak me to Auradon when she hasn't approached me or our sisters about the fact she's going to Auardon, " Luke spat, scowling for once at the thought of his big sister. 

Which was surprising. 

"And I'm not telling Mal," Skia drawled. Looking pained at the very thought of doing so. 

Which, on the other hand, was not very surprising. 

"You two don't have to tell anyone you don't want to," Hannah sighed. "I'm just saying that you don't have to hide it.  But anyway, after we inform who we want to inform in our families, we will have to gather the crew and make an announcement about the… situation.."

"And we gotta do it by the end of the day, don't we? So that we can gather the stuff for the farewell party you got planned?" Luke asked, trying to show that he was paying attention. 

The brunette nodded. "Yep. And after the farewell party, we will put Peachy, Treycor, and Remi in charge of the crew—"

"And give them the chore wheel and remind them to watch the kids." Skia reminded. 

" And give them the chore wheel and remind them to watch the kids. After that, we'll all pack up our things and then Luke will go into my spare suitcase. Then Skia will wait close to the barrier, hidden, for the driver to arrive and change into whatever form she can before the barrier closes completely near that area. Any questions?"

Luke raised his hand. 

"Yes, freckles?"

"Do I have to go in the suitcase?"

"Yes, Luke . You don't have magic and we don't have time to figure out another solution that isn't too rushed and risky."

The redhead pouted again.

Hannah sighed. "Luke?"

"Yes, your majesty?"

"Okay, first of all smart ass, you're the royal here–"

She only got a hum in response. 

"And second of all, go to sleep. You're not you when you're sleepy."

Luke narrowed his eyes. "You stole that from one of those Auradon commercials, didn't you?"

"Not that you can prove. Now. Bed." 

"But it's too loud at my house for me to get any beauty sleep and Noah and Levi are still asleep in my room here."

Hannah pointed at her bed. " Sleep. "

"Fi–" Luke yawned, cutting himself off before he could even finish the word. Yelping briefly as Skia helped him towards it. 

Others might have been exasperated by the taller boy's behavior but to Hannah and Skia, who had been sharing a mental link with the boy for almost as long as they had known him, it was normal. Because it was far from the first time that the boy had gotten grouchy with them due to not getting a full 8 hours of sleep.

Which had annoyed them both at first since they both only ran on 4  hours each usually, but they had come to understand it over time. 

Because they had, had to.

They had no other choice with the shared mental link and bond they had.

And because desperate times had called for desperate measures. 

Which was once again the case here with the whole Auradon situation that none of them wanted to touch with a ten foot pole but had to anyway.

[laniminchanlix]

~Forever Together~ Pt2

No warnings!!

Plot: bestfriends to lovers trope, minlix, fluff , vanilla, kissing.

Summary: Felix and Minho never knew of each other until Felix started taking the bus to school. There first meeting was kind of funny but as it goes on things started to take great turns. That’s until one day Minho leaves for awhile and Felix is lonely and misses him. He can’t get Minho out of his head for days. He doesn’t want to seem clingy so he doesn’t call or text much while he’s away. Felix started noticing his feelings for Minho when he left, he wanted to keep it a secret but secrets come out one way or another.

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Later that evening Minho showed up a couple minutes after he texted me. I heard the knock at my door and hurried up to answer it cause we haven’t hung out in like 2 months just me and him I was excited but another part of me is curious to what’s happening. I opened the door and Minho looked like a mess, his hair was all over the place, he had bags under his eyes, and a tear stained cheek. “Wha-“ before I could ask he just pushed himself inside and went straight to my room. I furrowed my eyebrows and confusion and followed him. “She cheated on me.” He said as he sat at the edge of my bed putting his head in his hands sighing loudly, he chuckled loudly, “I’m such an idiot to think this was real.” He said laughing with tears running down his face. My eyes softened and I sat next to him rubbing soothing circles on his back. “Min, don’t call yourself that you know that’s not true, people come and go this just is saying that she was needed in your life at one point but she wasn’t meant to stay forever.” I said softly. “I loved her Felix.” He said crying even more. I pulled him into me and hugged him tightly. “Minho, listen don’t beat yourself up over this to much yeah? I promise you the right one will come, just be patient. There is someone out there for you that is just gonna click right in.” I said rocking us softly to calm him down. I heard a slight sniffle and he pulled away to look at me. God my heart hurts so much seeing him like this. This isn’t Minho, this isn’t the cocky, funny, bright Minho. “Your right. I’m sorry I came here and put all this shit on you.” He said wiping his tears off his face. “No no, it’s okay Min you can come to me about anything you know this that’s what b-bestfriends are for.” I said gulping, with a slight pain to my heart when I said bestfriend. “Forever together, remember?” I said smiling at him. And that’s when I got him, he smiled brightly at me. “Yeah, forever together.” He said taking my hand and locking out pinkies together.

After all that’s we decided to lay in the bed and cuddle like old times and watch movies. This is what I needed, I missed this and I’m never gonna let this go to waste. I snuggled closer to him for more of his warmth that I missed so much. “What’s wrong Lixie, your clinging to me like a cat right now.” He said laughing softly while holding me tightly. “Nothings wrong I just… missed this I guess.” I said frowning a little into his chest. He moved so he could look directly at me, I looked up at him confused. “What’s wrong?” I asked worriedly that he’s thinking about ‘her’ again. “Lix.. I’m so sorry.” He said with a guilty look on his face. I sat up and so did he. “What are sorry for, there is nothing to be sorry for.” I said playing with his hair slightly for a minute then I put my hands back on my lap. “I just was so caught up in ‘her’ that I never made time for you to text, call, or even hangout, I missed out on so much that I don’t even know how you are or how life is going.” He said in a whisper of shame. I looked him tearing up a little bit, “that is not your fault, I get it Min, you got into a relationship, not everything is supposed to be about me you have make your time for your lover of course.” I said as I felt a tear go down my cheek, but I quickly wiped it away so he wouldn’t notice, but he did. “No lix, I promised you to always be here right by your side no matter what and to always make time for you no matter what I’m doing, and look I even made you cry, I even probably made you cry more than that.” He said sighing loudly leaning against the headboard of the bed looking up at the ceiling. “Min, I’m okay I promise, you didn’t hurt me I understand I promise okay? Your here now so that’s all that matters.” I said grabbing his hands then leaning faints his chest to cuddle him again, I was itching for his body against mine.

He pulled me tightly to me pushing his face into my hair whispering, “I love you Lix you know that, and I’m so thankful to have you here by my side, I don’t know what I would do without you.” He said smiling while rubbing circles against my back. “I know, I love you more Min and I’m glad you came ti me when you were upset, cause you know I’ll always be there.” I said snuggling even closer to him. Sooner or later it was 11:15 pm and the lights were all of even the TV, I thought he fell asleep so I just payed here against his chest thinking. Should I tell him my feelings? What if I ruin our friendship? Does he even feel the same way? Is he even the slightest bit of gay? My thoughts were interrupted by Minho. “What are you thinking so much about Lix?” He asked tapping my back lightly. “What do you mean?” I said blushing that he knew me so well. “Lix, I know you, when you think about something to much you start to move your leg a lot when your thinking hard even if you don’t know you do it.” He said chuckling a little. “It’s nothing I promise, don’t worry about and let’s sleep.” I said turning over towards the wall to sleep. “No tell me, I don’t want those wild thoughts running around in your pretty little head all night.” He said turning to my back pulling me against his chest spooning me. I blushed and felt my heart literally about to test out of my chest. “Min I’m telling you the truth it’s nothing alright.” I said kind of snapping at him. “Okay. Now it’s definitely something g if your snapping at me like that.” He said manhandling me to turn towards him so we’re now facing each other, not much space between our face. I blushed even more furiously from the proximity of our faces. “I-it’s nothing I said.” I said going to turn back over so he wouldn’t see me blushing because of him. He just glared and grabbed me and put me back where we were but even closer. My eyes widen and I gasped.

“Lix don’t lie to me, tell me now.” He said sternly. My heart leaped from the time he gave me. “Lee know, I’m being serious it’s nothing.” I said getting kind of annoyed rolling my eyes turning my head away from him. His eyes darkened and out of nowhere he grabbed my face roughly bringing it back to look at him. “Lee Yongbok, your gonna lay here and say it’s nothing, but your getting snappy and rolling your eyes at me now.” He said clenching his jaw. And god was that fucking hot. Now I know he’s annoyed with my bratty attitude cause he only ever calls me by my full name when he’s serious or annoyed with me. “N-no I-I’m not lying it’s really nothing.” I said softly and shrinking a little from his dark aura looking away from his eyes, he still had his hands gripped on my jaw to keep me from looking away from him. “Yongbok. Look at me now.” He said sternly, so I did and blushed again, he looked so pretty, his cat sharp eyes, with his beautiful soft skin, his black fluffish hair, and his perfect shaped lips that I could kiss forever and never get tired. Ever. “Your pretty.” I said in a whisper then gasped loudly putting my hands over my mouth. God what the fuck am I doing. I just spoke my thoughts aloud. I’m fucking done for now. “Your prettier and you know that, but don’t try and change this subject yongbok.” He said flaring a little at me. I blushed at him calling me pretty. “I’m not pretty, the freckles mess up the whole look you know?” I said nodding my head to agree with myself. He let go of my jaw and his expression softened, he put his hand agains my cheek I looked at him widely. What’s he doing, trying to fucking kill me!? “Lixie, don’t say that, that’s one of the most precious things about you, there like little stars spread across your face shining brightly just like you, don’t get me started with your smile, god your smile is so special I would never get tired just to see you smile every god damn day and every second and minute of the day, Felix you are so perfect and I wish you could see what I see.” He said rubbing his thumb against my cheek softly while admiring my face fondly. “Y-you no that’s not true.” I said blushing furiously looking down at the pillow instead of his eyes cause god he’s killing me right now. “Felix stop saying that. You are so perfect you don’t understand, everything about is perfect, the way one eye squints when you laugh, or when your having a really good laugh your voice gets higher, I love your little nervous habits that you do, and your heart shaped lips are just perfect when you put lip gloss to make them pop out more.” He said dropping his gaze down to my lips. I started breathing shakily. “S-stop, d-don’t do that.” I said stuttering. “Do what, admire how special you are?” He said rubbing his thumb across my bottom lip. “No, stop this whatever your doing, stop giving me mixed signals that you want me. Stop that, because I don’t wanna be in pain anymore cause I can’t have you like ‘she’ did, Minho I’ve been inlove with you since forever, I haven’t said anything cause I didn’t want to ruin your happiness with ‘her’ and I didn’t want to ruin our friendship we have, but it doesn’t matter anymore cause you need to know so I can move on without pain.” I said crying. He looked up at me smiling fondly at me, he wiped the tears off my cheeks kissing my forehead.

“I knew I would get it out of you one way or another.” He said chuckling, I went to snap at him till I felt a pair of lips on mine. I payed there frozen eyes widen big, I’m so confused right now. He let off my lips and looked me in the eyes. “Whats wr-“ before he could finish his sentence I crashed my lips back on his pulling him by his shirt closer to me chest to chest. He smiled into the kiss kissing back. There was nothing sexual about this kiss, it was all full of love and passion for each other. I wrapped my arm around his neck kneading my hands into his hair. At some point we needed oxygen so we pulled away from each other breathing heavily with swollen lips, leaning our foreheads together looking at each smiling. “I love you Felix, I’m so fucking in love with you since we met, when I saw your beautiful freckled face I just didn’t like me back or would accept it.” He said rubbing my cheeks out of love. “You idiot.” I said smiling pulling him into another kiss. Once we were done we cuddled again but more closer than ever afraid one of us would slip from each other forever. “So.. like you wanna be my b-“ before he could ask I jumped in, “yes dummy, forever together.” I said smiling hugging him tightly. “He laughed, “forever together my Lixie baby, forever together.” He said sighing fondly kissing my head before we drifted off to sleep with a smile on our face happy to be each others missing piece to our puzzle.

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(Thank you for reading this, I think I did pretty great so far. This is the end of Forever Together, I know it’s kind of short but it’s my first time so I’m trying lol 😂)

Minlix 😋

[bestfrozenskittles]

Mission 1: Cartel Protection

Hostage Secured

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“You only have about 10 minutes to get into that building Crow, Ghost and Soap are on their way here, if they find you sneaking in they’ll know” Graves spoke while he tied my hands in front of me tightly. “I know” I mumbled, Graves glanced at me and chuckled “Good luck with it, we’ll drop you off here” He backed up and looked at his handy work. 

I was in civilian clothes, no vest, no weapons, no radio; and I felt vulnerable and uncomfortably weak. The helicopter we were in lowered down to a safe distance “Gotta roughen you up Crow, nothing personal of course” I frowned in confusion “Wha-” before I could finish my question he punched me in the jaw. 

My face turned to the side from the force and I groaned, while I was disoriented Graves pushed me out of the helicopter. “Have fun!” I covered my head as I hit the ground, I took a moment to regain some sort of balance as I watched the helo fly away.

“I’m going to kill him when I get the chance” I mumbled “10 minutes' ' I slowly stood up and began making my way to the building the men would soon arrive at. I sighed and looked for a way in after awhile I found a window. “That’ll work” using a fence as leverage I jumped up and held onto the window ledge. 

I pulled myself up and crawled into the empty bathroom the window was in. I looked around and heard two men talking outside the bathroom door, quietly I got into the bathtub and let out a sigh. Soon the sound of gunshots filled the room. 

“Soap! Clear the room!” I closed my eyes and leaned back “They’re here” I whispered to myself, the small movement made me feel the bruise Graves had given me. A man I recognized as Soap bashed the door in and pointed an M249 to my head “Clear for Hassan, but there’s a hostage here!” He called out to the men behind him.

“Hostage?” Another man, Alejandro, walked up behind him, I groaned and opened my eyes. “Are you alright? Can you stand?” Soap asked putting his gun away to help me up, Ghost watched from the doorway, looking me over before turning around “This is Ghost to Actual, we found a hostage in Hassan’s previous hiding spot” He radioed in. 

Alejandro helped Soap pull me out of the tub. “Hablas español o Inglés” Alejandro asked me as he watched Soap cut the ropes off my wrist, I shifted to rub my wrist “Both” I mumbled. Soap finished and looked over my bruises “Actual, you said hostage Ghost? Keep them with you, ask them questions, we can’t send an evac right now” Shepherd answered.

Ghost took a moment before sighing in frustration “Alright” he mumbled and walked back to us. “Figure out if she can stand, we’re taking her with us” Alejandro looked over at him “It’s too dangerous, are they not sending anyone?” Ghost shook his head “Negative, she's staying with us, she's under our protection”

“Alright, can you stand?” Soap asked again, I looked up at him “I’m….I’m not sure” I mumbles. “Hold onto me I’ll help you” I nodded as Soap wrapped my arms around his neck and helped me stand up. Soap took me to a couch near a window and sat me down. “They must’ve moved him” Alejandro sighed, I glanced at the table beside me and noticed some papers Shepherd wouldn't want anyone to read through. “When?” Soap glanced at him “Recently” he answered. 

“Quds force flag, that’s his flag” Ghost pointed out, Alejandro huffed “He was here” Soap nodded “Alejandro’s intel was good” The sound of vehicles caught their attention. “Comandante el ejército está aquí” A man said through the radio Alejandro moved to look out the window “Mierda!” he cursed. 

Ghost moved with him “What is it?” he asked. “The army” Alejandro answered, I frowned as I realized again that I didn’t have any other choice but to put my life in these men’s hands. “We’ve got reinforcements?” Soap asked, Alejandro shook his head “Negative, 0-3 retroceder, retroceder ahora” He spoke into his radio. 

“Entendido” Soap looked back at me “Stay down alright? You don’t have to worry about anything we’re gonna keep you safe” Alejandro nodded and grabbed a pillow “Put this over your head and lay down we’ll tell you when It’s safe” I nodded and took it “Thank you” I mumbled and did as they said.

“What are we doin?” Soap asked Alejandro, the man moved positions and got ready “Covering my men, once they clear we’ll fall back” He answered. Soap frowned “You want us to engage the fucking Mexican army?” he asked in surprise. 

I moved the pillow from my head to underneath my chin to look over at them and to hear better. “No carnal, these troops are paid by the cartel, they’re helping the cartel protect Hassan” Alejandro reassured, Ghost hummed and walked over to the couch I was on, he pulled the pillow back over my head “Stay down” He mumbled to me. 

I huffed but did as I was told. “Hold your fire, we’ll dig in until my men are clear” Alejandro explained. Ghost looked out the window “Multiple vehicles, troop transports, light armor” He called out. Alejandro nodded “Hold fire, let them get close” as soon as he said that a bullet shot through the window and broke it. 

“Weapons free!” Alejandro called out as they started shooting back, I tightened the pillow over my head as broken glass fell on me. They yelled out information to each other as they cleared out the corrupted army troops, soon Rodolfo radioed to them “Commander we’re clear” 

“My men are clear! Let's go!” Alejandro yelled, Ghost pulled me up off the couch and grabbed my hand as we followed Alejandro to the back of the room. I snatched the papers on our way out and shoved them into my pocket. “This way!” He called out and led us to a window as the army threw smoke grenades into the windows. Soap opened it “Here take her, make sure she’s safe” Ghost hands me over to Soap who nodded, Alejandro jumped out the window and onto a shack roof underneath it. 

“You’re turn” Soap helped me up onto the window ledge, I jumped down and jumped over to Alejandro with Soap following after. Once Ghost caught up to us we began to run. I coughed into my arm as I followed the men down a dirt path “The armys right behind us!” Soap called out as he reloaded his gun. 

“Copy that, we’re moving!” Rodolfo called over the radio. Soap turned to look at me and quickly grabbed my hand to help me run faster. “Keep close” he said as they kept running, Alejandro cursed under his breath as he realized how close the army was to us “Down the hill! We’ll lose them in the mountains” He yelled at us.

“Fan out and stay close” He said into his radio “La vieja ruta?” Rodolfo asked. “Straight to the bridge Alejandro responded, as soon as he finished speaking one of the men was shot down “Rodriguez!” he called out. I cursed under my breath and held my arms over my head “The armies on us!” Soap called out. 

“Get to cover and return fire!” Ghost ordered, Soap nodded and pulled be behind a rock he pushed me down and started shooting at the army. I could hear Alejandro checking up on the man that was shot, after a while the bullets stopped “Are we clear?” Soap asked, “For now, we gotta keep moving!” Alejandro answered. 

“Lets go” Soap grabbed my hand, I tightly held his hand as we began to run after the others. “You know these trails?” Soap asked Alejandro who turned to glance at him “Very well, but so does the army” he answered. “We can’t hold off an army. We need extraction” Ghost called out. 

“Rodriguez, llama para extracción” Alejandro ordered “Sí comandante”, we stopped at a small cliff, Soap jumped down first “Come, I’ll catch you, promise” He smiled up at me. I was taken off guard at how gentle the guy who looked so roughed up was being to me. I hopped off the cliff and just as he promised he caught me before I hit the ground. 

“Thank you” I mumbled, we ran a bit more before bullets being shot at us stopped our running. “Contact!” Ghost yelled, he backed up and pushed me behind a rock a bit too harsh, knocking the air out of me. They shot back while I regained my breath. 

Rodriguez called for extraction besides me. “We clear?” Ghost asked “For now, they’ll be more vamos” Alejandro answered as we began running again. “Any word from Rodolfo?” he asked Rodríguez who huffed “No - perdimos comunicaciones” 

We crouched beneath a knocked down tree “Puta, let’s keep it moving, through here, the mountains are blocking the comms” Alejandro grumbled. “Your man get the call out?” Ghost asked, they slid down a steep hill before us “Let’s hope so” Alejandro sighed in frustration. 

Soap slid down before me and helped me up when I followed him. “What’s the plan?” He asked the others “There’s a bridge at the river, extraction will be there” Alejandro explained. An RPG being shot at a tree ahead of us stopped us from going forward. 

“Contact! RPG!” Ghost yelled, Soap pulled me with him while I looked for the person with the RPG. “Up there” I pointed at the man on the cliff “Good eye” Soap grinned at me and took him out. I pressed my back onto the rock while they fought back. 

“Almost out” Soap huffed, Alejandro looked over at us “I have ammo here!” he called out. He tossed a box of ammo at us, Soap was too busy shooting back so I caught the box and pressed it against his chest to get his attention. “Thank you!” He said while reloading. 

The shooting stopped soon after “Anyone hit?” Alejandro asked, “Negative” Ghost answered. Soap turned to me “Are you alright? Did you get hurt?” He asked, other than the lingering pain of Ghost shoving me behind the rock by pressing on my stomach I was fine, I shook my head “I’m ok” he nodded and turned back to the others “We’re good to go!” 

“Copy on me!” Alejandro called out, we followed after him until we made it to a large gap between cliffs. “We’ll have to jump here” Alejandro explained “Can we make that?” Soap grimaced at the height and so did I “Do or die, brother” Alejandro chuckled. 

Soap jumped first landing less than graceful “Your turn” Alejandro put a hand on my back “He’ll catch you don’t worry” I looked up at him for a moment “I hope so” I mumbled. He chuckled, Soap held his arms out to me “Come on! Promise to catch you!” he called out. 

If I die, I’m suing Shepherd. I jumped onto the other ledge and into Soap’s arms “Good job!” He grinned at me, I felt my soul leave my body for a moment before we slid down a steep hill. “Pinches cabrones aren’t far behind” Alejandro huffed “Where to Alejandro?” Soap asked. 

We stopped at a cliff edge overlooking the mountains, and a long way down. I stayed close to the mountain wall with sweaty palms “You nervous?” Soap asked and I nodded “Not a fan of heights” I sighed. “Soap push forward. Rodriguez, keep working on the radio, rest o’ you watch for snipers. Use that ledge. There will be a way up the mountain”

“Got anything?” Ghost asked, Alejandro looked around “They’re out there, believe me” he answered. Soap jumped onto the ledge below and helped me down, Rodriguez was fiddling with his radio, trying to get ahold of Rodolfo. Soap climbed up a tall rock and pulled me up afterwards. 

“Rodriguez, any radio signal?” Rodriguez shook his head “Negativo” he answered. “We need to get to the river” Alejandro called out, I helped Soap look for the path we needed to take, I found out behind some overgrown bushes. “Hey, It’s here” I pulled Soap over to the path. 

“She found it!” He called back to them, we moved down the path before Alejandro stopped us. “Escucha…You hear that?” Ghost nodded “Incoming heli” He said, Alejandro nodded “Si. Get into a firing position. We’ll take them by surprise” He called out. 

We stopped running and looked for cover. “Which way to the bridge?” Ghost asked as we looked around for any army men. “Straight ahead. Past the helo, they’ll try to cut us off” Alejandro answered, Soap nodded “We’ll have to go through them” He said as he put me behind another rock for cover before beginning to shoot back.

“Weapons free!” Alejandor called out, “Secondaries” Ghost huffed out. Alejandro threw a box of ammo at us, I caught it and handed it to Soap. “Appreciated” He smiled. “Clear” Alejandro and Ghost said in unison. “Go up that hill, the bridge isn’t far” Alejandro said as we began moving again. 

“They may position shooters out here, watch your backs” He told us before we got a clear view of the bridge. “There’s the bridge” He pointed out, Soap used his scope to look it over “No visuals on extraction” he called out. Rodriguez let out a sigh “Comms didn’t get through, hijo de puta” He rubbed his face. 

“We’ll radio when we’re down there” Alejandro sighed too and continued his way down the path. “This way” He cocked his head to the side, he jumped down to a ledge down below that seemed could give out at any moment. Like the other times Soap jumped down first and helped me down afterwards. 

“Watch your footing here” Alejandro called out to us “These cliffs are dangerous” Rodriguez followed. “You know your way?” Ghost asked while following them “We use to cut school and play here” Alejandro chuckled, Soap gave him a strained smile “Until the cartels moved in?” with a sigh Alejandro nodded. 

“Exactly, the narcos changed everything” He grumbled, Soap helped me down a ledge and I gulped when I saw the tiny little ledge we had to walk across. Soap grabbed my hand “I’ll hold on” he tightened his grip “There’s no chance you’ll slip then” I hesitantly nodded “Ok” I mumbled. 

We walked against the mountain wall slowly, a bullet shot right above mines and Soaps interlocked hands. My soul left my body “Oh shit-” I cursed regaining my balance “Sniper! Move!” Ghost yelled, Rodriguez suddenly got shot down, he fell down instantly. “Rodriguez!” Alejandro called out before taking out the sniper that killed his friend.

“Sniper’s down” He said “Bloody good shot, mate” Ghost complimented. We jumped to another ledge and then climbed up another one, my body was getting sore from all the ups and downs. “Army’s trailing us” Soap called out “We’ll gain some ground” Alejandro responded to him as he led us down another small ledge before jumping. 

We followed him until eventually we slid down a steep hill and to a dead end. “You led us to a dead end, mate” Ghost said, Alejandro shook his head “We jump from here! Don’t lose your weapon!” He smirked before jumping off the cliff and down into the river below. 

Ghost turned to Soap “Take her down with you, can you swim?” He looked over at me. “Yeah- but that's a long way down…” They can’t expect me to actually jump off this right? Soap grabbed my hand again “Hold onto me, we’ll go down together, you won’t get hurt, promise” He smiled down at me. 

His smile was somewhat comforting “Uh..alright, ok” I sighed. He nodded and brought me into a protective hug, I was caught off guard for a moment at how warm he was. I hesitantly wrapped my arms around his neck before he ran and jumped off the cliff. 

Ghost jumped down after us, I held on tightly to Soap and shoved my face into his neck to protect it from smacking too harshly into the water. When we hit it I let go of him to give both of us a chance to swim up to the surface. “You good, hermanos?” Alejandro asked “Affirm” Ghost answered, Soap rubbed his eyes “Soap?” Alejandro looked back at him “Breathing.” 

Alejandro looked over at me “We’ll figure out your name later, for now are you ok?” I nodded “Yes” he smiled and nodded. “Move down river to the bridge. Use the rocks for cover” We all nodded and began swimming down the river “All stations, this is Victor-0-1- how copy?” Alejandro said into his radio.

“—dow 1! Do you—? -ya again, -o you re—?” I tensed when I heard Graves' voice through the radio. “Radio’s picking up something” Soap hummed, Ghost nodded “Sounds American” he added. “Here they come, weapons free!” Alejandro called out when the Army began shooting at us. 

We took cover behind some rocks, I took the time to recover my breath. “Army reinforcements rolling in! Keep pushing up river” Alejandro turned around and began swimming down the river. Soap shot down some army men before we swam under a log.

“Enemy vehicles! Right bank! The rivers slowing us down mate!” Ghost yelled out, Alejandro began reloading “It gets shallow up ahead, swim up! Keep moving!” We began moving again. We stopped when the water got shallow enough “Vehicles on the bridge!” Ghost pointed out, “They’re not ours! Fuck-! It’s the army!” Alejandro cursed. 

“Get to cover!” Ghost called out, I ran behind some rocks and peaked over it. The cars were pulling up onto the bridge. “We have to hold here and get extraction” Alejandro explained “We can’t do shite against that armor! “ Soap cursed as he shot at the armored men. 

“This is Shadow-1! Engaging the bridge north of your position. Danger close!” Grave’s voice came from the radio. “Who the hell is that?” Alejandro asked, Ghost turned to him “Commander Graves, Shadow Company. They’re with us” he explained. 

Graves shot a rocket at the bridge, bringing it down. “Shadow-1, Bravo 0-7! Good shots! Fire for effect!” Ghost said into the radio “All stations, no enemy movement detected. You’re clear” Graves confirmed. We ran up a path near the river “Good to see you boy, who's the lovely little lady you got with ya?” He asked.

“Likewise mate, she’s a hostage we found and will be interrogating soon” Ghost answered, I should start getting my answers ready. “This way!” Alejandro called out “Graves, we’ve located a vehicle for exfil” Ghost said. “Roger that. Be advised, we got a possible hit on Hassan, two clicks north of your position” I looked up at the airplane Graves was in. 

“That’s cartel land. They have a compound there” Alejandro explained as we got closer to the truck. “Load in!” Ghost opened the back door for me, I got in and let out a sigh. “Let’s roll” Soap grinned and got in “I’ll drive” Alejandro turned the engine on “You boys good to roll up Hassan with some fire from the sky?” Graves asked. 

“What about the hostage, she’s still technically in danger” Alejandro pointed out, I rested my head against the back seat in exhaustion. “Graves, think you can take her with you? Back to the base” Ghost asked into the radio, my eyes widened a bit, I had to stay with them until they completed the mission. I can’t go back too early or I won’t get paid.

“No can do, we won’t be returning back to the base for awhile boys and Hassan might get away this is the only chance we’ve got” Graves saves the day with a lie, the men took a moment before nodding.

“Alright hermanita, you’re under our protection for the foreseeable future” Alejandro turned to look at me with a soft smile. I nodded “Ok…” Soap finally strapped in “Let’s wrap this fucker up, Graves” he grinned “Solid copy. We are pushing to the target di-rectly, Shadow-1 out” Graves got off the radio leaving us in silence. 

“Alright, so what’s your name?” Soap asked, turning a bit to look at me. I glanced at him “F.N” I answered and shifted in my seat, I could feel Ghost’s eyes piercing into the side of my head. “So F.N, do you have any idea why they took you hostage?” Alejandro asked, looking at me through the rearview mirror. 

“I don’t know, wrong place wrong time, they thought I was trying to sneak in” I answered “Did you hear them speaking about a man named Hassan while you were in the bathroom?” Ghost asked right after. I hesitantly shook my head “I was asleep for most of the time, I did hear them say something about trucks moving up to the north” I lied.

“How old are you exactly?” Soap suddenly asked, the other two turned to him. “You seem too young to be involved in any of this, I mean” he clarified. “I’m 17, just turned…” I mumbled “17?” Alejandro asked alarmed “I’m sorry you had to go through all this right now, but we’ll keep you safe” He added. 

“We’ll get you home safe” Ghost mumbled and leaned into his seat. “Your parents must be worried about you, how long have you been in there?” Soap asked, I looked away for a moment “Yeah…for about 4 days I think” I leaned my head back and closed my eyes. 

“Rest for now F.N, we’ll keep you safe”

[loufi8iepuff]

Cd - Lee Felix (Part 2/3?)

Warnings and/or tropes: Best friends to lovers, Kind of unrequited love?, Mention of food, Written a while ago, not my best work.. Pretty dramatic, (-but feelings are always vallid!! Just depends how you act on them)

Summary: (y/n) is acting weird after she found out that her best friend, Felix is in love with her and he notices. He tries confronting her, but she doesn't say anything. While Felix is trying to figure out what's wrong, (y/n) is slowly developing or discovering feelings.

Word count: 1881

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I slam that cd out of my laptop and throw it back. I jump, -or rather katapult myself back onto the bed and barely two seconds later Felix walks in.

He probably looks very confused. I wouldn't know though, because I can't even look him in the eyes right now.

"What happened?"

He sounds genuinely concerned. He thinks I hurt myself. Right!

"I just fell"

Quiet.

"Are you okay, (y/n)?"

Still concerned. That's good, he believes me.

"Yeah, I'm fine"

"You sure? You don't really look fine..."

I don't really feel it either... But he wants to act like nothing happened, so I have to do at least that for him.

"I'm really fine, mother"

"Look at me"

I can't. I try, but I physically can't.

He places a hand on my cheek and guides my head in his direction. He is looking me right in my eyes and I have never felt more nervous. He just stands there and keeps looking me in my eyes. Yep, my heart is gonna explode in about five seconds now. 4..

"Hey, I'm really okay, Felix"

3... 2... And I look away again. I know he doesn't actually believe me, but he'll stop asking.

"How about we go and make the coco and then finish the movie?"

"...Okay"

And we do just that. Then I leave.

As days pass and I feel less and less awkward around Felix, but we both know that something changed. Felix hasn't said anything about yet, but I know he really wants to.

I hate this too, Felix.

Then he asks. I brush past it as quickly as possible.

He asks again and I avoid it again.

He asks again, I avoid it again.

He asks again, and again, and again-

Until I get the call.

I'm sitting comfortably in my bed reading, drinking tea. Peacefully. Quietly

*RING RING RING*

I jump in shock. I have no idea why my phone is so dang loud.

*RING RING RING*

I frantically throw around all of my pillows.

*RING RING RING*

"I SWEAR T- .. oh" And it's on the bedside table.

*RING RING RING*

I hurry over to take the call before I claw my own ears off. It's Felix.

"HI! what's up, fellicia?"

"... hi. (y/n)?"

"..yes...?" I suddenly felt very cold.

"Did you find the Cd?"

Forget cold, I'm now in antarctica.

I'm frozen. literally and metaphorically. The goosebumps spread around my body at an alarming rate and my toes and fingers might just fall off at any second now.

My fingers does. They fall off and with that my phone falls to the ground. The sound of it hitting the ground, sounds like ice breaking.

The ground I'm standing on falls apart -or it's my legs that can't carry the weight anymore. I don't know which.. All I know is that I've fallen into the ice-cold water. Not waist or neck deep, but all the way under. It feels like a million knives stabbing me. I'm suffocating.

I'm overeating.

I am aware of that and I know I don't have the right to. I'm not the one who loves someone who doesn't love me back. I'm not the one who is probably hurting everyday and spends forever being scared that they might figure out my feelings. I'm not the one who has to be terrified of losing my best friend because of some dumb feelings i have no control over.

I couldn't live like that. I can't live without Felix and now I might lose him. Just because I was curious. Just because I had avoided thinking about him like that my whole life. If I hadn't, I might've known. I might have caught feelings for him too and we would have lived happily ever after.

"(y/n)?" It's Felix' voice. Hesitant and quiet.

"y-es?" I manage to mutter.

"Did you?"

I don't want to answer. What if I just died right now? If the cold water around me and in my lungs caused a heart attack? That'd be nice.

But I can't; I have to answer.

"Yes." This time my voice sounded more sure, but it still wasn't much.

"Okay.." 1.. 2.. 3 seconds of silence.

"-Did you listen to it?"

"Yes."

"And that's why you've been ignoring me?" Happiness..? He sounded relieved.

"I didn't ignore you!"

"Avoiding, then." I really didn't!

"No, i-"

"Yeah, whatever (y/n). It doesn't matter... The distance.. between us. It's because of.. that, right?"

"..yeah."

"Oh thank god. I thought i did something that would've made you hate me"

He was relieved? That doesn't make any sense at all. His big secret just got exposed and I'm the one who is freaking out?

"You're not-.. Why-... I-.. I really don't get you, Felix."

"Well.. How would you have wanted me to react?"

I have no idea.

"I don't know? .. I just figured you'd be like.. Scared or shocked or... Mad even?"

"Why would I be mad?" ... Duh, Felix?

"Because I looked through your stuff?"

"Oh, right.. Nah. I bet you feel guilty enough on your own."

Silence. It's my turn to say something, but nothing comes out.

"Hey, it's okay, (y/n). I'm okay. I'm used to it by now. I know you don't feel that way about me. I think I'm actually happy that you know. It feels like a burden has been taken off my shoulder."

It takes me a few seconds, but finally something comes out.

"I'm sorry, Felix"

"It's okay! Do you want to go get ice cream or something? I'm really craving sugar right now. -It's not a date or anything! So no pressure."

He changes the subject, to make me feel better. It feels wrong. It should be the other way around, but I don't think he wants me to comfort him.

Honestly I'm in no mood for ice cream, but i can't say no to him now. Plus, maybe it'll be less awkward now. Maybe things can go back to normal.

"Sure!"

"Let's meet in the park then."

The ice cream shop in the park, behind the big playground. The one we've gone to so many times. Times where I'd blabber on about; First my, then, boyfriend, then my ex and now the latest date i'd been on. It had probably made him feel horrible.

"Sounds good."

I take my shoes on and walk out the door. It's a short walk; the park isn't any more than five minutes away. I enter the park through the rose-filled entry and not even a minute later I can see Felix, standing a few meters from the people waiting in line.

And then he sees me.

He waves at me, with a big smile.

I try to smile too, but it comes out a bit weird. I run, -or speed-walk, over to him and he hugs me. A big hug that lasts a few seconds. Pretty much just like he usually does.

"Ah, I've missed you, (y/n)!" He just looks at me happily. Not a sign of anything else.

"I've missed you too" I really mean that. I smile at him too.

"So what flavor? And I swear if you pick vanilla and chocolate again I am never gonna let you hear the end of it!" -I said. It felt normal. Our interactions. Maybe everything will go back to normal now! I feel a little bit bad, but this was what he wanted, too.

"What's wrong with vanilla and chocolate?!"

"Vanilla; nothing, it's just plain, but chocolate ice cream kinda tastes like shit. Chocolate is great, but the ice cream: No!"

"Cmon! You literally eat "plain" vanilla with raw cookie dough."

"And it's a million times better!"

Felix and I spent the rest of the day together, first we ate our ice cream. Brownie fudge and cookie dough. We walked around the park for a while and then we walked back to his dorm. Then we just sat and talked for hours.

After that we talked everyday and things went back to normal. mostly.

To Felix and everyone else it probably seemed normal, but I keep getting nervous.

I don't know why and it's incredibly unlike me.

I would get it if I just felt guilty at times, but I'm just always nervous.

When he is talking to me, looking at me or just close to me in any way. I get nervous when he calls and texts me. I get nervous everytime i think about him, which lately is a lot.

I feel unsure of myself around him, for the first time in my life.

Maybe I do have a crush on Felix? It just doesn't make sense. If I did, I would know. I've always been so sure of my own feelings.

Maybe I'd been in love with him for years, I was just so used to it that I didn't notice?

No.. Back then, I had feelings for my ex and not much has changed between me and Felix, since then.

Can you have feelings for two people at the same time?

I don't think so..?

How do you even know that you have feelings for someone? What does "having feelings for someone" even mean?

My thoughts keep rambling. For hours. It's late, waaay too late to use my phone, but I still pull it out.

How do I know if I have feelings for someone? :I googled.

I click on the first link.

It's long and takes me forever to read. While I read I take mental notes. What I do and don't do. I do feel nervous around him, I care so much more about his opinion than everyone else's, I think about him a lot, list goes on.. But all of those could just be because he is so important to me.

I don't, -I can't, imagine being with him. -romantically. Or maybe I just haven't?

He would be a good boyfriend. I mean he basically already is. There aren't really that many differences, from our relationship now; to an actual relationship.

I think I've always viewed our friendship as more than any other kind of relationship.

I trust him with my life, I feel safe around him, I love spending time with him.. I love him.

That's how someone would feel about their partner, right? That, just plus the kissing and stuff.

I wouldn't mind kissing him. He has such nice lips. They look soft and... very kissable.

I'd like to kiss him.

You don't think like that about a friend. I wouldn't really want to kiss any of my other friends.

I've always been very attracted to him, haven't I? I've always thought he was the most beautiful person I've ever met. He looks like an angel. I just thought it was simply an observation. A fact. I can't imagine someone not finding him attractive. You just do?

I found him a million times more attractive than everyone I've ever dated. -Which probably isn't a very friendly thought.

I've always known that I love him. -I do.

What's the difference between loving someone and being in love with someone?

Isn't being in love with someone, just loving someone, while being attracted to them?

I love Felix and I'm for sure attracted to him.

I'm in love with Felix. -too.

Gosh. It feels like I'm floating. High up in the sky, looking through the skies down on the place I was laying two seconds ago.

The guilt I've been feeling the last few weeks is gone. Most of it. I still feel a little guilty for not realizing earlier. I don't know when I developed feelings, but it must've been a while ago.

I know now, though.

I know that I'm in love with Felix, too.

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I think I want to finish this off better, but if I do it might take a while. Don’t wait on it..(: 

Here might be part 3. 

[lab-trash]

Moments Caught On Camera (pt 3)

Read on AO3 if you like

“We’re pulling into the RV park,” Oliver said into the camera. 

“Did you take my phone?” Kaz asked. Oliver turned the camera around to face Kaz, who was now in the front seat. “When did you do that?” 

“Don’t worry about it,” Oliver said from behind the screen. 

“Oliver,” Kaz said, agitated.

“Skylar! What are you gonna do once we park?” Oliver asked, turning the camera to face her.

“Jump rope,” She said plainly. 

“You packed a jump rope?” Oliver asked, in the most neutral tone he could manage. 

“No, I did,” Bree said. “For Skylar,” She added. 

“Yeah, I haven’t been this cooped up in a small space like this since I was buried alive,” She said. Oliver turned to Kaz when he heard his voice.

“Gah, you just had to bring that up!” Kaz exclaimed. 

“Sorry,” Skylar said genuinely. 

“Wait, why haven’t I heard this story?” Chase asked, putting the vehicle in park. 

“We don’t like talking about it,” Kaz said with a shrug. “It happened like four or five years ago, it’s not that important.”

“I think being buried alive is important!” 

“Did you tell them about when you were buried alive?” Bree asked. Chase sputtered. 

“Wha— That matters so less,” He said. 

“You were buried alive too?” Skylar asked. 

“It was snow! It’s not like I was actually buried alive!”

“I think that might be worse,” Kaz said, “At least Skylar and I were trapped in, uh,” He glanced at the camera. “Something.” 

“It’s not a big deal, I was saved,” Chase said. 

“Ah, yeah, see, that didn’t happen to us,” Skylar said, “We had to figure out how to—”

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The camera was facing the starry sky, moving slightly with the breaths the mic picked up. The pricks of light in the sky only hardly picked up on film. 

“I’ve never seen the sky like this,” Chase’s voice said. “I’ve always lived in the city. Too much light pollution.”

“Me too,” Kaz’s voice was heard. “The closest I got was when Kenny took me out to the middle of nowhere to break stuff,” He added, as if it were the most normal statement in the world. The mic managed to pick up a light laugh from Chase. 

“The closest I got was that train that almost crashed into Welkerville. That was in the middle of nowhere. But we had to leave after that,” Chase said. “Apparently Tasha showed up soon after we left, with cameras. So it’s good that we left so fast, I guess.”

“Tasha knew about you guys though.”

“Yeah, but the news network she worked for didn’t,” Chase said. The camera shook slightly as Kaz laughed.

“You like the stars?” Kaz asked. 

“Yeah,” Chase said. “It’s nice. It’s weird; I prefer seeing them without a telescope.”

“I don’t think that’s weird,” Kaz said. “It makes sense to me.”

“Did you know that the light from stars takes so long to reach us that some of them could be burnt out by now. We’re basically looking back in time,” Chase said. Kaz chuckled lightly again and the camera shook. 

“Yeah,” Kaz said, “You’ve told me before.”

“Oh,” Chase said. “Sorry.”

“It’s okay.” 

“Hey!” Bree’s voice rang, clearly from farther away. “Get down from there. We’re about to lock up.” 

“Down in a minute,” Kaz yelled back, loud in the mic. He picked up his phone, showing Kaz and Chase’s legs laying together on the top of the RV. 

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“Say goodnight guys!” Kaz yelled through the back room, zooming the camera as much as he could. 

“Goodnight!” Oliver yelled

“Night,” Skylar groaned.

“Shut up,” Bree called.

“Say goodnight, Chase,” Kaz said, zooming the camera back out and facing it toward the boy next to him.

“Goodnight, Kaz,” Chase said, humouring him. Kaz flipped the camera and did a peace sign.

“Goodnight!”