robinhomudas

[hwajin]

i'm shaking and trembling i have to wake up at 2am tonight to be at work at 3AM never work at a bakery 😋🫶

[izzy-b-hands]

First notif i see after getting out of the shower i forced myself to take:

Button's (the poetry group, not the pirate lol. tho i would happily be a part of his poetry group too) chapbook contest opens up in November

do i dare dream and try to put together another chapbook again

[mingi-s-dimples]

Can I request a yeosang x reader smut where she's hurt during the concert and waits outside and Yeosang spots her and takes her to the Hotel he's staying in but she's bleeding and he wants to see the would( it's on her side where her bra is) so he bluntly asks her to take off her top and bra etc?

Please make it to where they have intercourse and she's a shy one. So when she squirts she gets really really embarrassed

perfect opportunity - yeosang

REQUEST BY: anon

pairing: bf!yeosang x gf fem!reader

rating: 18+

genre: slight idol au, romance, some fluff, smut (not filth)

summary: you get hurt at the concert, but that only ends up being a nice and wanted opportunity for the two of you.

WC: 2k

warnings: bf!yeosang, gf fem!reader, first time intercourse, cumming, squirting, some nice fluff here and there, mentions of blood (reader got hurt at the concert), lil bit of overstim (reason of reader squirting), pet names, smut (def not filth), aftercare ☹️🤍, completely consensual!, unprotected (WRAP UP IRL!), unedited, probably forgot something.

Author's Note: this was really nice to write actually. Anon. I hope you'll enjoy it! I loved to build up the crumb of plot for this one, I absolutely loved the circumstance they were in. I hope I'll see you around more, anon! (Also anon 💭, I didn't forget about you!!!!!! It's in my drafts ��)

Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction & does not represent in any way the reality of the member.

The energy in the venue was electrifying, with thousands of fans cheering, their voices blending into one thunderous roar. The lights danced across the stage, illuminating Yeosang as he performed with the effortless grace that always took my breath away. I couldn’t take my eyes off him, captivated by the way he commanded the stage. His presence was magnetic, and the crowd responded to every move he made.

As the beat of the music intensified, the crowd surged with excitement. People around me started jumping, their enthusiasm contagious. But in the chaos, I suddenly felt a sharp push from behind. My body jolted forward, and I stumbled, my chest colliding with the barrier beside me. Pain radiated through my side, sharp and sudden, catching me off guard. A wave of dizziness washed over me, and the noise of the concert started to feel distant, almost muffled.

Knowing I needed to get some air, I carefully made my way out of the crowd, each step feeling heavier than the last. The moment I stepped outside, the cool night air hit me, wrapping around me like a comforting blanket. It was a chilly night, the kind of August evening where the heat of the day fades into a crisp, refreshing breeze. Despite the circumstances, I couldn’t help but appreciate the night’s coolness; I had always loved these chilled nights in August, where the air was cool enough to wake you up but not cold enough to make you shiver.

Leaning against the wall outside the venue, I took a deep breath, trying to steady myself. The pain in my chest was still there, a dull ache now, but the dizziness was beginning to fade. The distant hum of the concert was still audible, and I smiled faintly, thinking of Yeosang on stage, hoping he hadn’t noticed my absence.

*about an hour later*

As I was sitting on the bench, at the back of the stadium where the boys would come from, far away from the main entrance and the public, I saw someone rushing over to me. It was Yeosang.

"Baby, what happened, hm?" he said catching his breath. "I suddenly couldn't see you in your spot and I panicked. Are you okay?" he said, looking worried.

"Yes, yes. Nothing to worry about. We were jumping and I was pushed and hit the barricade rail, hurt my side a bit but I promise I'm okay! I just got out to get some air and that's all" you said, trying to reassure him.

"Hey, let me see" Yeosang mumbled, trying to get you to move your hand. You did as he wanted and he saw a bloddy spot on your side, still a bit wet, meaning the injury was still open.

"BABE JESUS WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT'S OKAY?!" Yeosang shouted, hugging you thightly. "Let's go to the hotel, let me see the wound there, alright?"

"Mhm, okay. Let's go, baby."

*several minutes later*

"Here baby, let me see" Yeosang said approaching you after closing the door.

"Where is the injury, hm? Tell me babe" he said willing to help you.

"On my right side, here" you claimed, tapping on your torso, right besides your bra.

"Oh, there? Take your shirt off"

"Hm?"

"Take it off, let me see"

"Uh, okay sure"

You were confused at how adamantly he was asking you to undress yourself, but he was your boyfriend anyways. Matter of fact, the two of you haven't been in a relationship for too long. You only officialised it about 2 months ago, both of you being really shy about it and all. Like, you knew he liked you and he also knew you liked him, but it was so hard for him to confess to you at first. You gave him a nod, softly blushing at the situation you were in. He took of your shirt, leaving you in your bra in front of him. He gulped at the view, himself shy and hesitant, but you gave him a soft kiss and he felt more confident. After all, it was the first time he has seen you like... this. You were feeling a bit aroused, not knowing what would happen next if you gave him the idea of having sex with him for the first time. But you waited.

He froze for a moment, watching you contently. He hovered his eyes over your collarbones, then over your shoulders. His gaze darkened upon seeing your cleavage, chest rising with slow and steady breaths. He slowly approached your body with his hands, almost scared to touch you, thinking he might make you uncomfortable. He unbuckled your bra, letting it fall by itself from your chest. His hands stopped at your waist, squeezing it tightly.

"Ah, fuck" he mumbled, looking down at his pants, a tent forming. His flushed face, he was trying to look you in your eyes but he couldn't.

"I'm so s-sorry, babe. I don't know what's gotten into me" he said rapidly, flustered.

"No, no, don't worry! Actually I-uh.. was enjoying it as much as y-you were" the words came out of your mouth, his eyes searching yours.

Yeosang tried to continue without thinking about the situation in.. that way. "Give me a bandaid, I already disinfected it. Let me stick it".

"Oh, yes sure. Here"

He lifted your arm, the wound exactly on the side of your chest, under the place where your bra would be supposed to sit. He slowly but firmly tapped the bandaid, making sure it was stuck completely. Then, his hands went to your thighs, rubbing them slowly up and down, trying to say something.

"Uh, -h, baby."

"Y-yes? you mumbled.

"C-can I?" he said, closing the gap between the two of you, his hands traveling politely, gently on your body.

"Y-yes, Yeo" you said and went in for a kiss, which he deepened in a second. A slow, lustful kiss, more of a longed one. You knew he might have wanted to do this for a while, but both of you were so shy, neither of you could make a step. But this was an opportunity he didn't let go of and gave in.

"Are you sure? T-tell me if you want me to stop" he whispered, putting you slowly on the bed, a pillow under your waist and him on top of you, inspecting every part of your fair body. His hands were travelling, from your collarbones, to your waist and to your thighs, then again up to your chest, softly fondling with your breasts. You could feel his hands slightly trembling, himself being so shy about it, that you could've laughed. But the next move threw you off a bit, as his right hand went to your pants, slowly unbuttoning them. You could feel how arousal was pooling in your panties, feeling the urge to close your legs for some friction, but as soon as you were left only in your panties in front of your boyfriend, your chest rose with a relieved sigh.

"B-babe you're so.. pretty and.. beautiful" your boyfriend stuttered, trying to unbuckle his pants, but fumbled two times. He was staring at you, no wonder he failed. He was eating you up on the spot with his stare. When he finally undressed himself and was only left in his briefs, you gulped at the sight. He was big, you didn't know what to expect before this exact moment, but you were... pleasantly surprised.

He then approached you, his crotch softly brushing over your thigh as he got to your panties, pulling them down. He then froze for a moment, debating what to do. He approached you with a soft but deep kiss, then he left kisses all the way from your neck and collarbones, to you belly and your thighs. He looked at you contently for a moment.

"C-can I?" he said, refering to what he wanted to do all night since you've met and saw you like that.

"Y-yes, please Yeosang"

He didn't hesitate. His right hand went between your thighs, softly rubbing your wet folds. He was still looking at you from time to time, to make sure you're doing good. You gave him a nod of approval and he pushed two of his fingers inside, receiving a soft moan from your slowly rosing chest. He was working his way in, shy at first but slowly getting more confident, he was prepping you up for himself, taking his time.

"A-are you ready?" he mumbled, shy and almost quiet enough to not hear him. He went in for a kiss, guiding his length to you cunt, pushing himself in, slowly but surely. He let you get used to his size, then with slow thrusts he closed the gap between the two of you. Your legs were over his, leaving room for him to bottom down with every thrust. He was still deep in the kiss, feeling your soft moans revebrating through his body, sending shivers down his spine. It hurt, you woulnd't lie but.. it felt so good at the same time. You were making love with your lovely boyfriend, feeling his love and sweetness radiating from his body. His pace got a little faster, one of his hands on your waist and one on your back, he lifted you up to sit on him. He was hugging you thightly, all touchy on your back, feeling up every inch of your soft skin.

"Ngh-h Yeo, I t-think I'm close" you tried to mumble, your breath hitching with every thrust. His length hit your sweet spot every time, sending shivers through your whole body. Your chest rose with every breath and whine you let out, feeling how the heat in your belly was getting tighter and tighter. When he bottomed down again, you felt yourself trembling under his grasp, creaming on his dick, feeling it twitching inside you. He slowed down his thrusts for a moment, giving you time to catch your breath. He then suddenly sped them up a bit, your face rose with confusion.

"I k-know you've finished, babe" Yeosang whispered.

"But I' didn't so-" he stopped for a moment "I also want to finish" he mumbled, his voice rumbling and sending shivers down your spine.

You could feel your high building up again, his dick hitting all your right spots and his pelvic bone also hitting your clit whenever he completely bottomed out. But in the end it wasn't your... high that you were catching. Yeosang thrusted into you a couple more times, holding onto you for closure and finally came, still fucking you through his orgasm, but slowly. Suddenly, you could feel how overstimulated and overwhelmed you were and when he bottomed out for the last time, you squirted all over him.

"Oh- my fucking god"

"I'm so s-sorry Yeosang" you mumbled embarrassed, trying to get off of him.

"What are you sorry for? You... squirted, that's all" he reassured you, but you weren't quite.. content with what happened.

"H-how could this happen... oh my god" you burried your forehead in the nape of his collarbones, you didn't want your eyes to meet his.

"Babe, relax. It's normal. I should be sorry for overstimulating you after you came, that wasn't very nice of me, but you felt so good... I had to finish" he said, giving you soft forehead kisses.

The two of you stayed like that for a minute, feelings overwhelming you with how loved you were by him, by your boyfriend. He then got up and washed you up, then tucked you in bed. He did the same and while you were waiting for him, the only thought that was racing through your mind was how long he must have waited for you to have courage, but you were so happy to finally give in.

He then came in the bed and tucked himself in, turned on a random movie on the tv and stroked your hair and forehead to sleep.

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[lovesunshinefelix]

You're my lover

tags: Fluff 😃👍 , really soft Felix now I want one ☹️

Note: I wrote this one a reaaaally long time ago, and this was the time when I was randomly reading something in tumblr (which was heavily inspired from this and of course, the mother, TAYLOR SWIFT), and I suddenly just 👯‍♀️ I feel bad since I haven't updated after I was telling myself to do so I'll just... put this out here

It had been such a busy week for you; studying for your finals, finishing the last bit of requirements for your classes, and trying to keep up with your part-time job. You were tired. Heck, all you really wanted was to lay in bed and nuzzle in the arms of your boyfriend, who was kind enough to come over and help you around the house for the time being, but you were trying your best to finish your final requirements before your term break so you can finally spend some time with him. You finally submitted your work and stretched happily, clapping them in the process. Since it has been hours of sitting down in front of your desk in your room, you decided to finally get out of your room and look at what your boyfriend is up to.

Contrast to your room, the rest of your house is fairly dim, the light in the kitchen suggesting that your boyfriend has occupied the room. You can hear the faint music playing there. Smiling to yourself, you went your way over to the kitchen, seeing the beautiful back of your boyfriend working on something he randomly decided on. When you were about to be close, he suddenly dropped the plastic bowl he was working on, flour and all sorts flying all over his body. You rushed to his side, stifling some laughter. "What the hell happened?" you said, getting the bowl from the floor. The boy just sighed, trying to scoop some of the products on the bowl. "I wanted to make you some brownies. I already ordered dinner hours ago because I got bored and I wanted you to have a small treat for yourself." he said. You just smiled and chuckled, rubbing off some of the flour from his face "You didn't have to. It's literally your day off." you said, "We can just do them another day." he pouted in response, "But you always tell me how much you've been dying to eat them again! I wanted to surprise you." he whispered the final part. You just chuckled "I'll be fine. There's still tomorrow." I said. "I finally finished everything. I have the rest of the night and the whole day with you tomorrow." you smiled. His eyes beamed at the thought, and he just nodded at you. "Okay, let's just have dinner."

You both had a pleasant dinner, trying to catch up on what you both missed on each other while softly listening to the music in the background. As if on sudden cue, when Felix was done with the dishes (which he insisted on doing), Taylor Swift's Lover started playing. He smiled at you, while wiping his hand on your rug. "Wow, you listen to Taylor." you chuckled, walking over to him and wrapping your hands around his neck. He giggled at you, "What? Olivia recommended it and it was nice." he said, wrapping his arms around your waist. You hummed, "Yeah, it is." You nuzzled your head on his neck. You both swayed to the rhythm, just enjoying each other's company. "You know," you said, looking up at him. "I've always wanted to dance to this song." you confessed. He just chuckled at your confession. He pecked your temple softly, "What do you think we're doing now?" he said, taking one of your hands and positioning yourselves like how people waltzing would. You just smiled happily at him and began dancing around your kitchen.

Can I go where you go?

Can we always be this close forever and ever?

And ah, take me out, and take me home

You're my, my, my, my

Lover

Felix spun you around and pulled you to his arms, laughing at how silly and random it was for you both to just suddenly dance in your kitchen. You just laughed along at him. He nuzzled his nose against yours, his breathing tickling your lips. You just giggled at him, feeling so much love for him. He then finally leaned in and gave you a kiss. One with so much love.

[mossyivy]

CHRIS STANS RISE!!! WE NEED TO GIVE THAT MAN MORE LOVE AND ATTENTION!!! 😤

Domestic Chris…Because that’s my specialty. 🥹

I see Chris having three kids, two boys, one girl. He’d be the type of dad to push his boys so hard, always expecting the best of the best from them. His daughter as well, but not as harsh. I see them all pretty close in age, maybe 1-2 years apart for each kid.

He’d have his boys do all sorts of sports and activities. Football, baseball, basketball, tennis, track, cross country, you name it, they do it. Chris would also help them practice, especially in football and baseball. His daughter would probably do ballet, tennis, and be in the Girl Scouts with Cecilia, and maybe do drama with Violet as well.

Also, it’s very much cannon that Chris spoils his daughter 10X more than his boys. His little girl wants to go on a Sephora shopping trip? Take his card and go crazy. His boys want to go out with their friends? Here’s $25 for the both of you.

Chris is also such a loving husband. He’d buy you gifts “Just because”. Or if you mention a new designer purse online, it would mysteriously show up on the dining table to greet you when you woke up…With a handwritten note of course. You were very much a spoiled wife, but he didn’t care, you gave him three beautiful kids for god sakes, of course he’d buy you whatever you want.

If there was ever a time any of your boys were disrespectful to you while he was gone, (Because they know better than to mess with their mother while dad’s around.) He’d give them the “You don’t disrespect MY wife.” Talk. Ugh, 😣 give me a chance Chris…☹️

- Anon! 🎀

🎀 ANON I FUCKING LOVE YOU I'VE BEEN WANTING TO TALK ABOUT HIM BUT NO ONE REALLY DOES MUCH IN THE CHRIS TAG ANYMORE AND THAT PLUMMETS MY MOTIVATION!!!

But I'll scream with you anyday bb!!!

(I'm sorry this is so long I just couldn't help myself 😭)

Okay so I've had the idea that Chris met someone with a child from a previous relationship (Your first born son, Let's name him Oliver and call him Ollie for short! He's like 2 years older than Violet. He struggles a bit in school so they're in the same grade, along with his younger brother, after he was held back in 5th and 8th grade but that's okay! Everyone struggles!)

Ollie was like 2 when they first met. Your ex-husband was a HORRIBLE MAN, absolutely terrible to you and the only good thing he ever did was bless you with Ollie. That's it.

Chris and his wife met through work (let's be honest here, how tf else would he meet a woman? Chris is very much a workaholic.) His wife is basically the lead of the BSAA's dispatch response team (Basically what Hunnigan does at the FOS but the BSAA's version) and she's good at her job. Very strong willed and mouthy as a mf. Isn't scared to go back at anyone over the radio and definitely got into it with Chris once or twice before they officially met.

(catch me posting what happened when they met in person the first chance someone asks)

Anyway!!

After y'all start dating it doesn't take long before you introduce Chris to your son and Ollie is just OBSESSED with Chris. Like you've never seen this kid so excited to see another human being until Chris shows up. You two only started dating for a few months and Ollie already calls Chris dad. You try correcting him scared AF that Chris is gonna get freaked out but he's actually super chill with it. He's use to taking care of people, he basically raised Claire after their parents died but this little guy is much younger and a lot more fun and excitable than Claire was.

A few months into the relationship you find out you're pregnant. Chris is excited but also freaking out with how often he's gone. But everything works out and you end up having your second son, Christopher Jr but CJ for short.

You and Chris end up getting married not long after your first anniversary after the babies born. Not making a big deal out of anything just getting papers signed and having a little get together celebrating everything.

2 years go by, Ollie's in Kindergarten and CJ does daycare. You start getting horribly ill out of nowhere. So you go get checked out and oh God you're pregnant again...

(This would be the point in time where Leon starts bugging for another baby with his wife)

9 months of Chris being a nervous wreck fly by and the world meets your daughter, Talulla, Lulu for short.

Chris would be adamant on sticking the kids in after school activities once they're old enough. His boys would do sports and his baby girl in softball and girl scouts so she can hangout with her pseudo cousins. (Her being 2 years younger than Violet and 2 years older than Cecilia) Until her older cousin quits cause girl scouts are for babies (🙄)

Chris and his wife would be UBER COMPETITIVE when it came to cookie selling season. It's all out war between the Redfield's and Kennedy's every year.

I feel like Ollie would also really be musically gifted and play piano for the school choir and musicals. Lulu would Ed up wanting to do drama but be a stage hand or in the costume department. She's actually very shy.

CJ is basically Chris when he was a kid. Always doing stupid shit... Getting in trouble over the dumbest of things but looking out for others. (Definitely beat up that kid who was picking on Violet when they were 7.)

You're getting calls from the school at least once a month because CJ got in trouble for either getting into an argument with a teacher over rules or another kid tried something stupid.

[misanthropic-phobic]

SOMEONE HELP ☹️

Whats my gender??? Does it matter??

I'm a bit nervous to think too hard about it because my mom has always told me it doesn't matter and "my generation" always makes a big deal about it and worries too much about labels, so I'm doubting if it's even something I should put a title on or worry about it.

Like yeah it's my identity but what if it changes again and all this overthinking was for nothing? I feel so overwhelmed by it and I feel like it shouldn't matter because it's not the biggest problem in the world. But it's my problem and makes me worry and anxious so I should worry after all???

Anyways,, my current crisis is uhm. Idk if I'm truly genderfluid or not. It's the label that I stuck on because I think it fits me but idk it does.

Because, yeah, I feel fluid sometimes but most of the time I'm not. It's like, i always have Masculine undertones no matter what I feel like. Like yeah, I'll feel comfortable being a girl sometimes but it's mostly just the presentation, not the feeling or anything. It's like I'm looking at myself through third person whenever I feel feminine, because deep inside I know its not me but I like to invision myself that way, like it's something I want but I don't want to feel.

But I've always felt so comfortable being masc/male for years now. It's never been something I hated or felt uncomfortable with. I always felt so much joy and giddy when someone used he/him on me or prefered to me as a boy.

But sometimes I also feel like nothing at all or like I'm in limbo between masc and something else entirely. It's not exactly non binary or agender, just, it's nothing at all. I'm just existing and I don't feel much like I'm anything or need a label.

So, in conclusion, I guess I like the idea of me being femme but I don't want to be a girl/present as one (gender and pronouns wise. I'll never hate wearing stuff like dresses lol)

I have Masculine undertones I suppose and always felt like a male the majority of the time, but other times I just don't feel like being male or having to label it at all.

So?? Am I a demi boy or trans male? Or?? Idk man 😞

I just dunno where to look to find something that fits because I need to put my gender in a box to keep my head cool, personally that's just how my brain works and it gets chaotic if I don't have a clear answer

[makemeadoll]

I felt so tired today... maybe I overdid it with the files yesterday!

I feel a bit frustrated because files don't do much, and I don't get why!

I was given pretty good advice the day before yesterday, when a lovely person helped me trance. It felt so good and simple and effortless to just read and follow their words! And the advice was to not listen when you're sleepy or about to go to sleep, but instead to do so fully awake.

With them it worked like a charm, not only once! I even got 'caught' in it during a work meeting where I was just hearing, and suddenly everything faded away and felt so good! When I woke up I moaned hehe, and had to muffle it cause the mic was open (although I think they still noticed 🤭).

Then I went straight to listen to some audios in here, but didn't have quite the same effect. I just listened, but nothing made me relax or feel compelled to follow them. Just listened expecting it to get easier the more I did. Sadly, nothing...

I got a bit bummed ☹️ but didn't want to stop there, so I went straight to YouTube! Decided to listen again the first file I found, which the first time I did, sent me to sleep and I experienced the most erotic dream / need for pleasure ever. It made me feel so good! But it was just my subconscious haha, because the file is about a click trigger.

That file was part of a playlist and seems I was pretty tired already cause it K.Oed me into sleep haha and I somehow managed to keep holding my phone and body in the same position without dropping it, so the videos kept playing for 2 or 3 hours! Hahaha, but I don't think they did a thing... I tried following the most interesting ones again while awake, but felt the same way as before and couldn't let my mind just follow along 😔

But oh well, I think everything worth it is a journey, so I'm gonna keep trying and hopefully soon I'll find myself becoming completely mindless and dollified and feeling nothing but pleasure while my body does what it's told and my eyes see whatever they are told to see, while minutes become days in that sweet and addictive good doll trance 💖

[aaaaaaaaaaaa-hey-its-jude-or-bee]

i honestly love the petals name. But because you call us requesters ‘pollen’ and ‘honey’ idk if we should be called the bees.. (as in we help get you working/writing?) or the petals.. (as in we're the roots of what you write maybe? No idea ehe)

tbh; just stick to whatever you like the most!! Tho I like being called a petal for my personal opinion

-🫚anon

I was talking to @cupiddoves about this a while ago and I'm still unsure of what to call you guys atp but I'm imagining I'm talking to myself while everyone thinks I'm crazy, as you guys are like helping me and then each post makes you all in like a body until the post request is done and you become bees/petals)whatever again and the characters have no memory of it whatsoever but remembers it very faintly (edit That DOES NOT make sense to me but like ok so they remember not all of it but it's like, when you hear a name or something like that you get nostalgic feelings about it)

Anyways teeehee😁

(please god help m-)

Make sure to read my tags ...... BC I add words to them as well ☹️ (unless your Sirius/cupiddoves... Then don't rea-)

🫚 anon you can send more asks if you want I'm still writing the first bits I don't care how many you send I'll get them done whenever i am done with the first(I WRITE A LOT.....) I don't mind whatever you send, I already know your preference, you don't like angst and I understand that👍🏼👍🏼

[aly4khq]

HEADCANONS: What if AOT characters saw you breaking down (or about to) because of stress?

Characters: Mikasa, Eren, Armin, Erwin, Levi, Hanji

AOT x Black!Reader (SFW)

- - - - M I K A S A A C K E R M A N - - - -

• She'd be walking to her room when hearing your whimpers echoe from your lips. Slowly opening the door, she gazed upon the sight that was displayed. You grabbing onto your hair, possibly ripping out some strands, while tears raced out of your once overjoyed, warming eyes.

• She would hold you in her arms, rocking you gently, whispering soft comforting words into your ear. A bunch of i love you's and you're okay's.

• "Let's take a break, I'll protect you from everything dear." Her voice hypnotising your moves as your eyes start to drop heavy. Curling up in your bed, waiting for sleep to overcome you.

• Makes sure that if you need anything like a bath and gives it to you. At that moment, you are the main character.

- - - - - - - E R E N J E A G E R - - - - - -

• He'd catch onto your behaviour quickly. Sudden change of attitude? He'll make you feel like yourself again. Changing of food schedules? He'll encourage you to get betters

• But the day you were literally hyperventilating and crying, he felt hopeless. He didn't know what was wrong and how to help comfort you. '

'Should I touch them? No, they could panic more. But a hug can be good? Touching them though?'

As he came to his senses, his arms slowly wrapped around you and ordered you to breath carefully.

• To be honest, he was scared himself and was about to burst into tears right then and there just by looking at you.

• Gently caresses your muscles, giving you a soft massage after you relax.

• Reminds you that he is there. Let's you vent if you need to.

- - - - - - A R M I N A R L E R T - - - - - -

• READS YOU LIKE A BOOK, I TELL YOU‼️‼️

• Before you even acknowledge that you're not doing well, he's comforting you.

• "What's wrong? You can talk to me."

- "Huh?"

- "Why are you down, love?"

- "I don't even know myself."

• Treats you like a baby. Comforting you at night, reading you stories so you can sleep. Hugging you ever so often.

• He was so gentle and patient with you one time that you cried because of it.

• "☹️Woah, why are you crying?"

- "😭I love you so much. You're the best thing that ever happened to me. I don't even know how I'll pay you back for everything-"

- "😰Okay calm down-"

• Your problem always has a diagnosis when Armin is around.

- - - - - - - E R W I N S M I T H - - - - - - -

• He isn't always spot on since he's a workaholic but 99.95% of the time he is.

• He'd send someone to find you and bring you to his office.

• "You're not in trouble nor is this work related" -> probably the first thing that comes from his mouth while you close the door behind you.

• Encourages you to take it out on the titans on the next expedition. 😁

- "Slice out all of your rage!"

- "Where?"

- "...Titans, darling. Titans."

• One minute you're sad the next you are laughing at his dad jokes.

• He also would let you sleep it out, you on his lap while he continues to do his work.

• Would still take on meetings with people he's close with (Aka Levi and Hanji)

- *Levi stares at you and Erwin in awe*

- Hanji screams, "AWWWH SO CUTE-"

- "Quiet, Hanji."

- - - - - L E V I A C K E R M A N - - - - - -

• Very confused but understands completely. First kneels down and tries to communicate with you.

• "Hey..? I'm here now."

• More physical therapy then verbal. Tends to hold you more and talk in your secret language.

• Makes sure that you have a bath and wipes away your tears.

• Doesn't mind if you cling onto his waist while he touches up your afro's shapes.

• "Um...brat...?"

- "Hm..."

- "Do you..need anything else?"

- "No." 🥱

- "Oh, okay." 😊

- - - - - - - - H A N J I Z O E - - - - - - - - -

• Gasps aggressively before immediately taking you in their arms.

•Treats you like a baby. Rocks you around the room and rubs their hand down your back.

• "What's wrong?"

- "I can't deal with this anymore.." 😥😭

- *You start to cry even harder*

- "Awwh! It's okay." 🥺

• Hugs you like it's the last day on Earth.

• Let's you take out your anger side on her bad experiments.

• Makes a little invention where you can hurt but it always comes back to it's origin form.

• Always keeps an eye out for you.

[seiwas]

hello!! i just devoured col and i adore the way you write gojo in it 🥺 i was wondering if you had any specific song you’re particularly fond of that inspired (or just makes you think) of that series??

augustine!!! 🥹🥺 omg that is such a compliment coming from you!!! i am so giddy rn!!! ❣️ thank you so much for taking the time to read it and for leaving such lovely things about it in your tags 😭

i am also so so happy that you asked this question!! bc i have a whole playlist!! 🫣

i'll put it under the cut bc i put some links n lyrics + explanations ! i'm sorry in advance augustine 😭😭 playlist making is part of my writing ritual 😭😭

for 'do you believe in love?':

ozone - chase atlantic "i wish i was more of a man oh, no, you don't understand i neglected you again"

the meaning of the entire song doesn't exactly fit but those lines kind of capture gojo's stance on love when he tells reader 'not for me'! i think he's really aware that it's just not something he can give at that point in time even if he wants to 🥹

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for 'tell me about love (show me how)':

turn to you - the careful ones "'cause i will always love you and i will always want to give you a reason in me to hold on to"

this song is my ultimate comfort song ☹️ i see this as coming from reader's perspective more than gojo's! it speaks a lot to the enduring love reader has for him, especially since they've known each other for so long and the feelings have always been there, growing.

in a lot of ways, i tried to make reader embody all the good, all the hope, all the kindness and purity that gojo doesn't think he can have (idk if that makes sense) but deep down really believes in. and it's important that reader embodies these things because it balances gojo out and grounds him in a way.

have you ever been in love? - the ivy "i never wanna do this alone have you ever been in love? 'cause i don't think i have, i don't think i have."

this one inspires the confrontation scene (when gojo says 'show me how') & the second half of tmal! represents when gojo makes baby steps towards all this love stuff and when he realises that he really doesn't know anything about it 😭 (and is kinda scared bc of that).

devotion - emotional oranges "and i'm ok with i'll be patient just take as much time as you need no more pain from my past to hold on to me & you we're so connected, you affect me"

this one splits into reader's perspective (first chunk of the lyrics) and gojo's (second chunk), and is pretty self-explanatory! throughout the entire tmal, reader's really given him all the space and time he needs and as a product of that i think it does something to gojo that helps him warm up to everything much faster, more organically (because there's no pressure or anyth!).

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for conversations on love #3 (coming soon, title tba!):

yours - maye "and maybe i'll surrender 'cause loving you is better it's not worth it to fight it i'm giving up"

lots of lovey stuff!! the entire song really reminds me of them honestly, especially for a stage in their relationship when gojo's accepted all the feelings fully and grows into all of it in his own way!!

sanctuary - joji

this one's mostly here to convey feelings of ~safety and ~peace that make up a very big chunk of col gojo and reader's relationship! if anything, it's probably the foundation of why they work 😭

bloom - the paper kites "oh, you fill my lungs with sweetness and you fill my head with you"

this song is my ultimate falling in love song AAAH and i love the allusion to sweetness too (bc i love playing around with the fact that gojo has a sweet tooth!). this song is very much gojo in love!!

sugar - alayna "woke up in paradise found myself in your eyes baby i think we made it, we made it we were loving in lowercase but now we're seeing better days you're the sugar that my body craves (mm, mm) you're the reason i don't go insane i'm realizing more everyday i really need you and that's okay (mm, mm)"

another one that shows gojo very much in love!! (and alludes to sweetness again!!) except this is a lot deeper 😳 and more intense 😳 gojo getting really serious in his feelings!! the lyrics here inspire some scenes in col #3 so the song might make more sense when the fic comes out hehe.

tú - maye

more for the ~very loved up kinda whipped~ vibe hehe the song is in spanish and i searched the eng translation and think it conveys the same thing too! but the sound itself is really sweet and captures what i think it would feel like in that stage of their relationship! even tho i've written col gojo as primarily shy and hesitant when it comes to love, i do think that when he warms up there's no stopping him 😭

slumber - lewis watson, lucy rose "only you who can calm the thunders only you who can steal the colors oh"

this one inspires one of the scenes in col #3! that's all i can say 😳🫣🫢

i feel like the songs for col #3 already give hints on what the fic's gonna be like dwjebgd

@exatse also so sweetly sent me 'i just couldn't save you tonight' - ardhito pramono, aurélie and said that it reminded them of tell me about love 🥺 and the lyrics really do remind me of col gojo so much!!

but yes, thank you so much for asking this question augustine omg i really love talking abt things like this!! it's still so surreal that you enjoyed reading col and that you're asking me this now asfsaf i'm so sorry it's long hfbhd i blabbered so much 😭😭😭😭

[a-void-guild]

How did Saturn and Skell first met ?? And also what was going on in Parents life before it joined the guild ??

Saturn and Skell's parents were friends, so they've known eachother for basically their whole lives

And Paeden's backstory is kind of complicated so i'll sum it up pretty simply 💀

ok so basically his dad's only reason for having a kid with Paeden's mom was to have a strong child to basically be his prodigy because his dad basically runs a gang. Paeden's mom find out about this and is like alright man get out of here i never want to see you again, so now Paeden's mom is a single mother. When Paeden is born is shown that he seems to have bad anger issues and violent tendencies ( he gets it from his dad 😻) and so when he gets older (not that much older tbh), the leader of their "town" that they live in is like "alright little buddy you gotta get out of here you keep hurting the other kids 😾😾" so he basically gets exiled, which his dad finds out about and comes and picks Paeden up and takes him to live with him, we're Paeden is immediately subjected to a much of really intense fighting training and after a few years Paeden realizes that he's gotta get out of there. So he runs away, but he's never really lived out in the wild before so he is struggling a lot, like he's strong and can fight, but that's about all he can do. and this is where the story gets a little goofy and i'm still working it out some. But Paeden goes to Arceus ( don't question it it's weirdly easy to talk to arceus in this world) and asks for arceus's help ( his town was really "religious" so that's why going to arceus was his first thought) and arceus is basically like " nah man i've got more important things to do so they send Paeden away. Paeden is really angry about this so he's kind of sulking to himself when a little purple-ish portal opens up near him ( this is something that happens often in this world, and is also Saturn and Skell's inspiration to call the guild the Void Guild) So Paeden figures hes got nothing else to do, so he jumps into the portal (nobody else has been able to do this before) and it takes him to the distortion world where he meets Giritina, and he tells giritina what he's been going through and giritinas like " yo that first half of your story sounds just like what happened to me!!" (this was actually completely accidental and i did not know giritina's story before i made Paeden's) so they become friends and giritina give Paeden the bracelet he wears that basically connects the two of them (unrelated but the bracelet is actually based off of a bracelet that I made myself and basically never take off, it's tigers eye and lava stone) So Paeden goes back to the real world and starts getting his shit together with Giritina's advice and blah blah blah he lives in the forest for a bit then almost gets killed by a Braviary that tries to carry him off but he gets it to drop him so he's like passed out in the bushes and that's where terracotta and lore find him WAHOO !!!!

after writing that i realize i failed to keep it simple ☹️

Also Paeden fun fact of the day : his name comes from this dnd podcast " Dungeon's and Daddies" it is not as bad as it sounds and it's actually super silly but there's this one 8 year old kid named Paeden who would 100% be a scraggy if he was a pokémon

Paeden fun fact #2 : he's like 16 years old pokémon wise

Paeden fun fact #3 : the stones of the bracelet are tigers eye because in the dnd podcast one of the characters says Paeden has " the eye of the tiger"

[give-soup-please]

Again, very soon, because of a few reasons, but tis I, May! 1. Thank you for the fun honey fact - I can't believe that it's copyrighted, although, maybe I can, it's not the weirdest thing I've heard of copyrighted. Fun fact: did you know that the word "Home" is technically copywritten for Facebook? 2. I have consumed water as per the agreement of mutually taking care of ourselves! (This is now a legally binding agreement, you cannot escape) 3. I don't believe in God but GOD BLESS for those chapters/fics you posted, for the love of all that is both holy and unholy I read those faster than I've read anything in my entire life - seriously, I finished all of them in 30 minutes. I do think it is important to say that I agree with you: Enjoying reading toxic relationships and things of that nature in fics, is not equivalent to wanting to experiencing it in real life, or condoning/supporting it in general. I also am an avid enjoyer of such things (and have written a few in private myself.) That does not, in the slightest, mean I support stuff like that. I don't. But wHOO if I don't enjoy reading it... (it totally does not consume 90% of the fanfictions I read... no, it would never...) 4. I don't believe I have ever interacted with you on Discord, I'm not even sure I know what your Discord is, actually ☹️ I have interacted with Munchies though (Not sure if I can say her actual name or not... I haven't spoken with her enough to know) I do want to say, in regards to her, that it is so wonderful that you continue to help and inspire her to write - her writing is amazing and I would be much sadder if that didn't exist (just like I would be sad if you didn't write - I will consume whatever writing the two of you make) 5. One of the most important things I've learned though therapy and experience is that being upset is okay, feeling your emotions is okay. You just have to act on them in a positive way, and deal with them in a positive way. I.e. it's okay to be irritated that someone just walked in front of you and took your place in the grocery line, but that doesn't mean you flip out on them. You probably didn't ask about that, but I did see the reblogged post and wanted to mention it since it was at the forefront of my mind. 6. I don't know why I'm surprised about that A.I. thing, but I am. I can't believe people would take someone's work and do that to it. It could never, and would never amount to what they can actually create, and is never worth it. Not only that, but I am also someone who's fics are all (mostly) unfinished for a variety of reasons. I do plan on finishing them, and finding out that someone did that to it would devastate me and also make me feel underappreciated/like I have no reason to write at all. That's all for now, surprisingly a lot but I do end up getting a lot of thoughts I forget to write down (these ones were just fresh in my mind and I HAD to say something about those most recent writings... damn...) You know the drill by now, you better be taking care of yourself because you're important, and you matter. Drink water, try to do something that might be a little difficult, and also be self indulgent - you deserve it. Your friend,

~May

hello again, may. good to hear from you. and feel free to pop in the inbox whenever, i like your messages.

i really hope that the facebook thing isn't real because i'll be so salty about it sdlfkjsdlkfsdjklf... pomegranate honey is rare and hard to find in supermarkets. you usually gotta go to a specialty jam shop or somewhere similar to locate it, at least where i am in the area.

2. i'll raise a glass of water in your honor, then/gen - i know i need accountability partners sometimes when it comes to self care and taking care of basic needs.

3. i'm really glad you liked it! it always makes me very happy when folks have positive responses to my work. as for the thing about telling people i don't condone certain things, it's just to cover my bases, really. early on in the headcanon project, i did a few yandere requests and someone came in my inbox and told me off about it. i didn't know tumblr back then as well as i do now, and i didn't want to step on anyone's toes. this blog is an attempt at drama free posting, for the most part, and arguments about what writers should and shouldn't be able to write are... hotly contested on this site. (understatement of the century, good lord.)

4. if you haven't interacted with me on discord, then i truly have no idea who you are, and i'm chill with that. you'll reveal what you want to reveal whenever. i don't generally hand out my discord to folks, because i cultivate my circles very carefully and don't want my username public. so for now, that stays secret. i'm honored that she takes inspiration from what i do, it means a lot. i have no idea how i do it, but i'm not gonna knock a good thing. i'm happy for her.

5. good advice. i don't have much else to say about that.

6. yeah the development of AI stuff recently has been... distressing, from an artist standpoint. i've heard people are already trying to use AI to replace certain jobs, and the idea of my 'voice' (for lack of a better word) being stolen to produce cheap/free content is incredibly distressing. i'm a firm believer in AI/robotics being used to handle manual labor so humans have more time and energy to make art, not having the AI/robots make art so... we have... more time to work. there's something backwards about that.

take care of yourself too, ok?

[izzy-b-hands]

Ed takes a day off that honestly is just him getting to sleep in bc the plot interrupts said day for him unfortunately.

Note that this wasn't going to end sadly but then...there I was and now I made myself sad ☹️

No one dies, but there is a loss. A beautifully designed, many-secret-passageway'd loss. Stede cries over it and tbh I nearly did too by the end so I'd weepily join him in a sobbing session over this.

I gotta write something happy and/or smutty tonight yet to balance this, but for now, have at.

---

He wakes, face smooshed into a pillow instead of Stede's chest.

Not ideal.

Less ideal is that the room is empty and the sun has clearly been up for awhile now and-

It clicks. He can sleep in today. Barring an emergency, of course, they should come get him then, but since there isn't one...

"Nah," Ed waves away his leathers, sitting on the patch of floor where he'd stripped them off for Stede. "You guys go on ahead without me."

He giggles to himself, and faceplants into the pillow again.

Not as good as Stede's tits. But good enough for now, while he sleeps until he decides he actually wants to be awake.

--

"We aren't waking him!" Stede hisses. "I've got this!"

'This' is a tentacle. A long, heavy tentacle that has slapped up out of the sea and onto the ship, holding it firmly where it is.

"Maybe he'd prefer not to see a tentacle anyway," Izzy remarks, and Stede catches his eyes.

The Dutch fuckery comes back to mind. Izzy's right. This is one of Ed's first days to relax and use as he wants, however. The last thing he needs or probably would want is this.

"Buttons," Stede turns back to the helm. "Any ancient sea magics to rid us of this beast?"

"Aye," Buttons nods. "Called an oar."

"What oar is long enough to reach that?"

"Tie it to another one," Buttons continues. "Till it reaches."

"And it'll let go?"

Buttons chuckles. Then giggles, then laughs, until he's bent over at the waist cackling with Olivia hopping around him in apparent concern.

Then, she lets out a call that sounds suspiciously like seagull laughter.

"Alright," Stede scowls. "It isn't that funny."

He turns to a red-faced Izzy.

"Sorry," Izzy says, muffled by the hand over his mouth. "I'm not laughing at you. I promised Ed I wouldn't-"

"Just shut up!" Stede snaps. He's heard of ships being pulled to the depths this way, but no one seems as concerned about it as he is. "Unless you intend to actually be helpful for once!"

"Well now," Lucius pipes up. "That's not entirely fair. He's always done stuff. Even made us do stuff on occasion. Did you even see the new chore wheel?"

"The what?!"

"Chore wheel!" Lucius continues with an eye roll. "I told you ab-never mind. Look, I really don't th-"

There's a deep groan and straining in the ship's wooden panels, and she rocks hard before slamming back to her usual position.

Then, the wet, slimy slap of another tentacle, maybe two, this time on the other side of her.

"Oh for fuck's sake," Stede sighs. "What if we just kill it?"

A gallery of offended faces greets him.

"Okay, no killing it then, geez. It might kill us first but whatever," he can't help but spit at them. "Leave me to it then! I'll figure it out all alone!"

--

He's in a lovely dream.

Stede, shirtless, rowing them in a dinghy along the sea. Not for any escape, just as a little outing.

However, each time he rows, there's an oddly slimy slap into the water.

"Did you do something to the oars?" Ed asks Dream Stede. "They shouldn't sound like that. Sounds more like-"

He topples out of bed at the slosh of water at the windows, and the shadow of a tentacle near it.

"Fuck."

--

"He's being stubborn; let him be stubborn," Izzy says. "I did it all the time and I'm f-"

He frowns. "Never mind. Bonnet! Wait up, please."

"Even the 'please' thrown in there," Lucius teases. "Look at you."

"Just make sure everyone else gets back to work," Izzy sighs. "For now, at least. If things get worse, then we'll call folks back to help as needed."

"Okay," Lucius smiles, and turns to Pete. "Babe, could you go do that? I should really document this for the new journal."

"Exactly what I was thinking," Pete kisses his cheek. "Consider it done."

Izzy watches him walk off. "There's no work getting done, is there?"

"Awww," Lucius takes his arm gently. "No. Not even a little. Because we're being attacked by a possible, though seemingly very lazy, sea monster. Sort of hard to concentrate with that going on."

By the time they've found Stede, he's already tied several oars together with rope, and is smacking the first tentacle as hard as he can.

"You can swim!" he screams. "You don't even need a ship! There's nothing on here for you!"

"Buttons' ancient sea magic isn't working?" Izzy asks, regret immediately flooding him as soon as he says it.

Stede leans back up from over the rail, and glares. "Does it fucking look like it, Israel?"

He shouldn't laugh. Normally, someone using his full name like that would piss him off. But the entire thing is ridiculous, painfully so, at least for now...

He leans into Lucius, dampening his laughter in his shoulder.

"There, there," Lucius sighs. "He was worried about you."

"He was not, and he isn't now!"

Izzy lifts his head, wipes the tears from his eyes, and smiles. "I am, in that you're a member of the crew like anyone else, and I don't want anyone falling off the ship trying to fight this thing. We'll try something else instead of that, maybe-"

"What?" Stede tosses the oar monstrosity to the deck floor. "What the fuck else would you suggest?"

"Okay," Lucius says softly. "I think we're all a little worried about things right now, but-"

"Oh shut it!" Stede snaps, and yanks the oar back up before leaning over to resume his tapping of the beast.

"Wow," Lucius scoffs. "Yeah, I'm recording that. He can feel bad about that later, reading it in here."

Izzy frowns. "No, he can feel bad about it now, I think."

Before he can take a step over to ask Bonnet if he thinks that's how a captain ought to speak to his crew in a panicky moment, the ship rocks hard again.

"I hate you!" Stede bellows to the tentacle. "You are literally the worst!"

--

The first tentacle he sees doesn't concern him. One isn't so bad.

The second, third, fourth, and fifth are concerning though.

"What's our game pl-" Ed pauses. "What is he doing?"

"Captain Asshole is taking out his frustrations on the sea monster," Lucius sighs impatiently. "But he's only frustrated because he won't stop to try anything else to get rid of it!"

He looks to Izzy, who nods.

"Honestly, we didn't help though. I mean, we came over here to help, but before this we all...we didn't handle this well."

"Kinda got that idea," Ed says. "We should be abandoning ship before the thing gets more curious and yanks us down to see what we are."

"That can happen?" Lucius asks. "Wait, actually, don't tell me yet. I'm gonna go get everyone ready to abandon and...yeah, I'm moving, meet you at the dinghies!"

He jogs off, and Ed turns his attention to Izzy.

"Look, whatever happened before...just be honest with me. Did he panic because he didn't want to wake me up?"

Izzy nods again. "Normally, I would have gone to you regardless, but you did ask me, when I swore my pledge of loyalty to Bonnet, to try and abide his orders first. Well."

He gestures to Stede, still bent over the deck rail, shouting wordlessly as he slaps the everloving shit out of the tentacle.

"We'll keep working on it," Ed sighs. "Go gather your things, then whatever you can of mine and Stede's. We'll grab the rest ourselves. If we take a bit, then just start getting the others out on the boats, and-"

He stops himself. "What am I talking about, you know what to do for this. Sorry, go on."

Izzy speed walks off, and finally, there's Stede.

"Hey," he leans on the rail by Stede. "So, in theory, the ship might survive this. If she does, we can row back and see if repairs can be made, and if they're economical. If they are, great, we get to work and then sail off. If not, or if she gets pulled under..."

Stede's arms stop, and he leans back off the rail with a groan.

"Ed," he says, looking utterly miserable and defeated. "She's my first ship. I helped draw up her plans, and I swore I'd do anything I could to keep her safe, or I'd go down with her."

Ed nods. "Were we in a situation that demanded that, sure. But something like this? No one will care if the captain went down with his ship. Besides, squid are curious, and this one probably just wants to figure out what the ship is. Sometimes they let ships go."

"I didn't even think they would or could do this! I expected at least an actual sea monster!"

"I don't think it's like, a squid hobby," Ed says. "And not many that I've seen are this big, or act this way. But some are, and some do, and I've watched people get pulled under while trying to salvage their vessels."

He stands and pulls Stede into a hug. "The first loss is never easy, but this might not be that. We don't know yet, and we can't unless we get away to safety then keep an eye on her. Alright?"

"I shouldn't cry over this," is sniffled into the leather of his jacket. "Stupid."

"Not stupid," Ed murmurs. "I cried after I ran one of my first aground. Felt like the biggest idiot and worst person in the world when we realised we couldn't get her free, and even if we did, she was too badly damaged-"

Tears prick at the corners of his eyes. He can't help it.

"She was a damn good ship, just like this one. And maybe our lady here will fare better. But even if she does, you can't help fix and sail her if a squid is using you to play pirates at the bottom of the sea."

Stede doesn't argue when Ed leads him away, towards the remaining dinghy, and the assemblage of tied oars is left on the deck.

"I grabbed everything," Izzy says as they step carefully into the boat. "I figured..."

His voice trails off as Stede hiccups and snuggles closer into Ed's arms.

They end up floating near the rest of the crew, fairly far away from the ship in case she should break apart or be pulled below.

Izzy wraps one of Stede's oversized velvet robes around their shoulders. "Lucius and Roach made sure food was in each one of these. I'll unpack and see what we've got."

"I'm good," Stede says, voice wobbling. "Not much of an appetite now."

"Fair enough," Izzy sighs. "Ed?"

Before he can answer Izzy, an alarming amount of additional, larger tentacles rise out of the blue, only to slam in The Revenge's middle, splitting her nearly in half.

He reaches a hand back and grabs Izzy hard. The ensuing waves might not be the biggest, but he doesn't want anyone in the water right now.

That's not a squid. Probably not. Not like any he's seen before, even the big ones.

Stede dives back into his shoulder, face pressed there and shoulders shaking.

"I know," Ed murmurs. "If it helps, I don't know what the fuck that thing is. Technically, I think we just made some sort of history with this."

Stede sniffles. "Really?"

"Yeah. Lucius is over there sketching away, and-"

Stede pops up from his shoulder. "We can commemorate her in a story about this!"

"Yeah. Once we're somewhere safer, we can. Like an inn, maybe not right near the beach."

"Ed, I can't row us away if you don't let go of me," Izzy says gently. "The others are looking here for some direction. I know it's a bit of a crapshoot, but...what way are we headed?"

Ed blinks, and watches the tentacles finally crush completely through the ship's middle, sinking most of her down below the waves. "Any direction that isn't that one."

"Got it," Izzy says, and Ed can feel him gesturing motioning the others to row away from the scene.

But he doesn't let go of Izzy's other arm. Not yet.

He's not ready, and he can tell Stede isn't either.

Besides that, someone needs to witness her final moments, before the last bit of The Revenge is gone for good to the depths.

So they sit, a trio in a violently rocked dinghy, as the beast drags their home to Davy Jones's Locker.

[kopivie]

it's been so long right??! i haven't been on genshinblr for more than a year now ☹️

honestly i'm just so happy that you're doing better tbh like what 🦫 anon said it doesn't matter that youve gotten rusty like yeah, i don't write and draw as much as i used to (life just happens sadly 🥹) but when i get the chance to i'm just happy that i did it (even if i didn't finish it 🫢) i enjoyed your fics and i still enjoy it to this day so tysm for sharing all your beautiful works!! <3

but life's been treating me okay! it's been chaotic on some sides but i finally have some better friends and i've been getting into some kpop groups (derogatory /j) and getting myself more out there yk!! enjoying my silly little troubles, also i just took the jlpt test in july :)

also i'm rooting for you and violet so bad!! you guys are so cute i smiled a bit at myself while reading some of your older posts.. i'm praying for nothing but the best for both of you!! ❤❤

i'll drop by whenever i can :) just to share tidbits of my life here and there if you don't mind!

- mari anon

i'm so glad life has been kind to you lately 🥹🫶🏽 OH and i just KNOW you passed that test! man i gotta take it someday.. maybe korean first..

honestly i don't think i'll ever truly understand why you guys enjoyed my writing so much, but i'll always be forever grateful that you did. you guys truly were, and still are, the spark that keeps my creative spirit alive. so thank you from the bottom of my heart. really. 💜

and thank youuu aaaaghhhdjwndksnd violet is so... he's a giant baby, really... i'm a little embarrassed by how frequently i talk about him, but i can't help it;; it's like kazuha posting except he's REALKDJSJSDHDB

ALSO YESSS PLEASE DROP BY WHENEVER YOU CAN please talk my ear off whenever you feel the urge!! i'm so happy to talk to you again, mari 🥰

[jakesangel]

im having a break before continuing my degree so i spend a lot of time alone. i feel like im perfectly fine since i dont feel sad or anxious, i think my mental is okay and nothing’s wrong. i just want to be able to enjoy my hobbies back ☹️ but i just want you to know that your daily updates and asks really makes me happy everyday and it has become something im looking forward to. thank you so much for being a good listener ❤️

i'm glad my updates makes you happy > < so you do look forward to something then ?ᩚ n even read post on tumblr? if so i dont think youre in a slumo but perhabs your hobbies arenr full filling you anymore n that you are changing... or that you can experience anhedonia.

from what i've hear, you maybe just need a break but a planned one ᵎᵎ if you don't take breaks ( yes even hobbies ) you get tired n ur body/mind gives you signals . i personally do them a lot so that i can avoid burn-out. im actually off of mine since yesterday n i was excited more than ever to be productive again. so even if i want to do my workout or study, i'll force myself to not to, for two weeks so that i can rest n focus on healing my mind off of work. our bodies can get tired so succumb to your feeling n accept it ᵎ it also gives me time to discover new things, that could possibly become my new hobbies ᵎ

you can also be addicted of overproduction of dopamine, like you want to do then but doesn't bring u as munhc joy as scrolling ur phone for example. or you're escaping reality ( idrk what you are doing during your day but if daydream a lot, it could be that ᵎ )

i think to come out of a slump in general you just do an instropection n have a clean or new environment. that could mean your body or your bedroom. so if u can change something about your apparence or have a specially body care day ᵎ same w your bedroom, go take urself in a date n buy some accessories or a new bed sheet to change things up. having a clean environment means having a clear mind n it also automatically makes us want to do something ^__^ also surround urself w ur friends ᵎ wathcing a movie with them will help you, the same as reading. read a book w a friend at the same time n give you guys a end time so you can talk about together ><

i hope those could help you ᵎ i've experienced slumps but they were more emotionals one so i'm note sure if i've been the biggest help. but u can always comeback in my inbox if needed <3

[wave2tyun]

You have no need to apologise for leaving, as long as you feel like it helped that's all that matters!! 💞💞

I saw Moon reblog your "coming back" post and cried tbh, it feels a little silly to say but I missed you :')) and you kept all the cats???😭😭❤️

When I noticed you were gone my first instinct was to open the drawing board and draw you a final kitty, but the board was gone as well :( I'm happy you're back, and I'm always here if you want to talk☺️ (I might even reveal myself at some point just to show you my sweet kitty at home🤭)

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i do believe it was able to make a positive difference😔✊🏻 my biggest thanks goes to moon for helping us find our way back to each other, i was hoping you'd see the post!!🥹🥹💓💘💖💞💓

you're so cute, i really missed you a lot as well!!!! i actually couldn't believe my eyes when i saw that i received an ask from you, i was so happy :(((((<33 all your cats have been treated with much love and care every day, i promise😼 i'm not sure what happened to the drawing board though because i didn't actually delete it or anything, maybe it stopped working because the link was gone??☹️ i'll most likely put a new one once i make a navi post :D i need to work a bit more on my theme because i love this icon but i'm not feeling the header😖😖

i'm always open to conversations especially with you so please drop by anytime<33 and OMG i would absolutely love and adore it if you'd introduce me to your kitty, it would be such an honor!!!😚😚💖