#and it's very upset that i can't seem to write bc writing is usually how we work thru things but! lately! I get words down barely

[izzy-b-hands]

Attempting to organise the our flag characters into levels for that complete cast challenge thing bc surely attempting this challenge on hard mode with a huge cast will help my writer's block/s

and checking imdb for all of it and just....there's a guy on here for a character named Dax, and it went uncredited and i'm just sat here like. Whomst in the fuck was Dax and where was he. How in the fuck am I gonna write for this guy and the huge list of other extras when I can't even place the fucking scene some of them were in. Like, some like Abshir I remember of course but others im just. fuckin' patrick looking under his rock like 'whomst the fuck are y'all????' I know I probably saw y'all but had no idea this is who you were meant to be playing and-

I make good decisions lmao

[idyllic-affections]

i just read both of your muichiro works and I’m really impressed 😭😭💓, so I would like to request some thing. What would the reader (gender neutral pls) have to do to cheer giyuu,obanai and muichiro when they are is sad 

what might one need to do to raise the hashiras' spirits?

summary. how do you comfort the hashiras?

trigger & content warnings. no applicable warnings.

tropes, pairings, fic length, & other notes. reverse comfort. muichiro tokito & reader, kyojuro rengoku & reader, tengen uzui & reader. 0.7k words. no pronouns for reader.

author's thoughts. hello lovely!! thank you so much. muichiro is like... my favorite ever, so recieving praise for the content i write of him is so heart-warming <33 on a more serious note, please please remember to read my rules before requesting. like any writer, i have boundaries. it states who i do and don't write for, and as of right now, i'm just not comfortable writing for giyuu or obanai. i replaced them w/ kyojuro and tengen. muichiro's is the longest though bc i love my son <3333 also this is kind of a different writing style than my usual content? if you guys like it enough i might try to use it more often.

T. MUICHIRO—

oh this boy. this poor boy.

i like to think that he goes through random bouts of sadness and frustration, especially before he regains his memory; he doesn't even know where his deep-seated rage towards demons come from! that fact just perpetuates his frustration. he can't understand why he's so angry and that only serves to anger him more.

also, let's not forget that he's a child. he is a fourteen-year-old child. he has a hard time processing his feelings and working through his trauma alone. children need love and support, love and support that he does not get enough of.

(the other hashira try their best, but let's be honest—they're all always so busy. they wouldn't realistically have time to attend to the emotional needs of a child.)

i don't care how independent canon muichiro seems to be.

he is a child. he grew up too fast.

to ease his soul, i think the best course of action would simply be to dote on him.

he needs the attention. he really does.

dote on him.

brush and braid his hair (braiding it would have practical value, after all!) with his permission, cook for him... just small, familial gestures.

he may or may not cry.

if he does, squeeze his hand and run your thumb over his knuckles. he's like a cat; do not make any further contact unless he initiates it first.

he probably won't vent because he doesn't know what's upsetting him. just let him cry it out. don't expect an explanation (and don't be surprised if he forgets about his breakdown soon after it happens).

give him a lil forehead kiss. he deserves it.

R. KYOJURO—

kyojuro is an interesting one!

i personally think that doing little domestic things with him would be a good way to cheer him up.

or even just doing things with him, spending time with him.

take a walk! go out to eat! make friendship bracelets! any activities done together are always a good bet with kyojuro.

simple little gestures are definitely the way to go, too. he's got a big heart. it's really not too hard to cheer him up, as long as your efforts are genuine.

also, definitely give him a big hug. he'd love that. squeeze him like your life depends on it. it won't hurt him; he's a hashira. he'll be fine.

i headcanon that he's a very good cook!

he is, however, a disaster with baking.

doing things like cooking and baking with him would raise his spirits so so effectively. trying to teach him how to bake would be really good for making him laugh, because i guaruntee that you & him would end up covered in flour and shit like that LMAO

be sure to listen to him talk if he decides on opening up. he'll appreciate having someone that listens.

U. TENGEN—

we all know this man is flashy and loud!

because of this, i think the best way to cheer him up would actually just be sitting in the silence with him.

no words, nothing. just calm silence between two friends.

observe the stars at night with him. listen to the wind rustle leaves and blades of grass.

anything that's simply low effort and relaxing would be good for him, i think. he's got so much energy all the time. tengen spends so much time being... loud and—obviously—flashy.

because of that, every now and then, he needs quiet time to recover.

he needs to decompress sometimes.

like kyojuro, i think he'd appreciate a good hug too. in his case though, it would be best and most effective to hug him once he's feeling better, not while he's feeling bad.

with his permission, massage the tension out of his shoulders. that would help too.

really, he just needs a judgement-free safe space in which he can wind down. i don't imagine him as the type to vent, so that's not something he'd be doing. he just needs someone who understands his need for the quiet, someone who won't pressure him to open up when he just isn't ready to.

he just needs a friend to be there for him.

please consider reblogging, it helps me out quite a lot!

[kiankiwi]

Hiii could you write a Jacob Elordi fic about pregnant reader going through baby blues bc she realizes it’s never just gonna be her and jacob anymore and jacob comforts her and reassures her and it’s very Fluffy <3333 your writing gives me sm comfort ^-^

Jacob walked into your guys bedroom to find you in bed sobbing. "Lovie, you alright?" You whimpered as you squeezed your small hands into fists. "Y-you weren't s-supposed to see me like th-this." You cried, wiping your tears from your red face and hiding behind your "Why not baby?"

"Because it's silly!" You yelled. You hated feeling embarrassed and that's what you felt whenever your pregnancy hormones caused you to cry over something, anything small. It was a small reason but a big feeling. And you hated that you felt a loss of control over your own body since your pregnancy hormones seemed to dictate your emotions now.

Jacob blew air from his lips and crossed his arms. "Baby, I wanna help. Why didn't you tell me you were upset?" Crossing his arms was not the right thing for Jacob to do. Jacob usually knew that; he just forgot that you often thought he was mad at you for anything and everything. It was just how your brain worked. And it was even worse now that you were pregnant and extra emotional. Before he could remember and fix his arms you blubbered, "A-are you mad at me? I-I'm sorry..." Jacob's heart broke as you apologized. It wasn't your fault you were crying. It wasn't your fault your body felt all out of wack and you felt so silly and embarrassed.

Jacob finally realized his arms were crossed and he immediately broke them and put his hands up. "No no I'm not mad at you at all baby. Here, let's start over. What's wrong? Why do you think crying is silly?" You shrugged trying to take a deep calming breath but a snuffle came out instead as you tried to fix your breathing. "It's okay, take your time, I'm just gonna get you some water." Jacob said as grabbed your water bottle from the nightstand and walked into the bathroom.

"I just.." You shrugged . "I guess it just hit me that these are the last few months of just you and me. I love this baby so much already and I can't wait to become a mama but it just hit me that once we become parents, that's it. There'll be no more time for just you and me. And I'm gonna miss that." You explained, looking down and rubbing your blanketed bump.

Jacob came back into the room, set your now full water bottle on the table and sank to his knees at your beside, taking your hand. "Baby, you'll still have me. I'm not going anywhere. And I know you struggle with change and this is a whole lot of change but this is a good change.." You nodded. "I know but I-I'm gonna miss the times when it was just you and me." Jacob cupped your hand in both of his and kissed it. "I know baby, I know. And it's not silly to grieve the way things are changing okay? Your emotions may be big but they're never silly okay? And I'm sure if we just ask, your parents or my parents would love to take bubba for a night or two so we can spend some time together, just the two of us again. But for now let's just soak up every last bit of time we have to ourselves okay?" You nodded, squeezing Jacob's large hand.

"You gonna be okay?" He asked quietly. You nodded. "Thank you, can I have a hug?" He chuckled. "Course, love. C'mere." He crawled up into the bed and took you into his lap, hugging you tightly. He could feel you physically relax against him.

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I love dad!Jacob

@mooodyblue @eee-lordy @crypticminx

[shigarakisslutbag]

how we feeling bruh

I'm feeling at my limit, anon. MY. LIMIT.

Regarding the manga leaks;

I know I sound delusional (I am but idc), but genuinely I can't wrap my head around this being tomuras end?? Like? Just like that ? I will say, I am not very caught up with the manga, so I'm just going to comment on what I do know.

Let's say it is the end for him, and tomura is really gone;

I don't say this often, bc usually I know the writer knows best, but if that is tomuras end it just feels,,, not impactful. I know horikoshi has said the manga is going to end soon. But he's said that,,, sooo many times lol. But back to what I said about the ending, it feels rushed, and tbh it's felt rushed for a while. I think, from my understanding, it seems he's just burnt out on writing it. Which tbh I don't blame him because the series has been going on for 8 years.

Personally, I wouldn't be upset if he just took a break and came back. Even if it's a very long break. But of course, that's up to him entirely. Im not gonna be *that* fan lol.

That being said, I'm going to take the ending with a grain of salt (if it's truly tomuras end). I think someone also mentioned there was a small mention of a "reconstruction" part of of his quirk?? So it's possible horikoshi is going to revisit that in the scene where tomura may die.

It would really feel odd to see tomura die, after all this time. Like so much was put into his character. In my *personal* opinion, he has more character depth than izuku at this point. Izuku had great potential, but to my knowledge there's no back story other than him being quirkless and fatherless(?). The only thing that I liked about his character in the beginning, was his drive and genuine determination to be a real hero.

At this point though, it feels like I don't even know his character. Having so many characters, and trying to fit so many stories in them, will eventually lead into some sort of conundrum with the plot. It got to a point where I felt more connected to the villains than our supposed main character?? I almost thought that that was the direction horikoshi was going in. To be like "oops you thought izuku was the main character, but really this is tomuras story" which would've been really cool. It's so hard to relate to izuku as a character because there's no depth. I don't see many flaws in his character. His flaws as a character are his flaws, if that makes sense. He had nothing to improve on besides his quirk. I didn't see any growth in him as a person because there was nothing to grow from.

That being SAID, it feels like an absolute waste of tomuras character if he's thrown away, and would feel so unnecessary. Tomura had so much growth, and development, it's so hard not to love him. So many of us can legit relate to the villains on a personal level. I think I'm going to be more sad at the fact that the characters are being wasted. I grew up with these characters. I started watching when I was 16 and I'm 21 almost 22 now.

If this is tomuras end, I'm just gonna write a self indulgent fanfic about how I want the ending lol. Even if tomura is meant to be the villain, he deserves a better ending. They all do. I'm still in denial about twice's/Jin's death 😭.

Sorry for the seemingly long rant LOL. But ugh, I'm gonna be so disappointed to make a long story short. Again, I am not caught up with the manga, so if there's something I don't know just let me know lol. I tried to make this as broad as I could because I don't wanna seem like I know everything. So I apologize if I came off that way:').

[sillygreenrat]

I have some more smokeybat headcanons, got inspired now

#. Sam gets a big crush on Uzi, he wants to try impress her and hang out with her. So he tries asking her out whenever he can, Uzi oblivious to his crush agrees and hangs out with him a lot.

#. Uzi shows him anime and he ends up liking anime quite a lot, his favourite type being chill slice of life or the cooking anime. Makes him jealous they can't eat like humans can

#. He makes her a badge of their favourite anime character for her to wear on her beanie.

#. Sam is a talented artist and has a sketch book full of drawings and abstract work too. When he on magnets is when some his most colourful work is done. He has a very detailed drawing of Uzi he keeps special. It's of her in class reading, she looked so pretty that day.

#. Sam got a bit jealous when Thad started talking to Uzi , he could see Uzi seemed to like him a bit and was a little sad by that. He got more upset when N showed up because he could definitely see Uzi big crush on him.

#. He talk with Uzi about N and he encourages her to tell him how she feels, being a wingman.

#. Sam writes a love note to Uzi along with a drawing and sends it to her anonymously, hoping to impress her. He was too scared to sign it.

I have more if you like to listen to it

i am SO sorry for taking so long on these lmfao???? i really wanted to think abt these. tysm for sending me all of these delightful thoughts to grab and run with i would absolutely be willing to hear more

1 + 5: it was a crush that's been there since the begining, uzi was always kinda cute and charming, the way she interupted class with sarcastic wit on occasion, the way she would go above and beyond what the assignments were just to have her own fun. sam has always been the more quiet, shut in type, always following rules, never usually being the type to speak up or make a sound, but whenever uzi does something particularly silly he can't help but laugh a little (and boy shes a whole fucking circus so lemmie tell you). though he had to eventually start making moves once thad god involved.

for the record, i do NOT ship thad n uzi, i get it as a ship, but it just aint my thing, however im a big fan of unrequitted love, and i can absolutely see uzi just not being interested in the popular jock type (shes more into the silent stoner type COUGH COUHG(J)), seeing thad as more of a close friend due to him being so caring when no one else seemed to be.

unfortunately for sam the only time he was able to fully talk and get to know uzi was AFTER she was already introduced to his oil (lmfao)

2: this dude wants to eat so bad, let this man manifest some robot mac n cheese for his ass. its not 'hunger' but its like, some fuckin program malfunction due to the magnets that you could compare to stoner munchies but lord does he get angry when uzi puts on a ghibli or some shit and they start makin ramen or some shit.

on the topic of anime tho uzi would absolutely be into anime and try and get sam (and by extention N and possibly V) into anime

current hyperfixation is firmly beliving shes be a nutcase over jujutsu kaisen (would love the curses and their vibe of 'we wanna take over humanity' but the humans are pretty cool too she GUESSES) but i think shed also be into shit like kill la kill, evangelion, maybe even a smidge of ouran on the side bc damn it she wants to be surrounded by a buncha cute boys (and low and behold be projecting trasmasc feelings onto uzi but boy she'd feel a sense of 'man i bet i could pull off a suit' and she WOULD)

3 + 4: him being obsessed w/ drawing n stuff is honestly a small headcanon i had personally!!!!! glad its a thing for another person ugh (positive) he would totally pay attention to the characters she hyperfixates on and go CRAZY making her posters and small keychain hangers and such (probably has an old laminator in his house that he uses to seal the all to keep them from getting ruined). i like to imagine he likes to draw/paint skyscapes, trying to find really interesting cloud formations or spots where the moon shines through them to draw cuz he thinks that kinda shits beauitufl, would absolutely love earth sky's so fucking much let this man see them

6 + 7: N IS BEST WINGMAN. i ship all of them together in one homoginous poly so i can confirm this happened and it was real. would absolutely help sam before he even considered allowing his feelings for uzi show

[thegoldencontracts]

Okk this post is a lil thing I had to get off my chest (hot take ig) but I saw a post recently that was complaining about azujamj fandom dynamics and it made me so angry, not because it was disagreeing with my take, but because it just seemed so?? Angry?? It's completely okay to dislike a common trope but don't be a pretentious mf??? It's really not that hard??? Don't bash people who happen to have a different interpretation of characters than you and say they're completely OOC (bc as an avid reader and writer azujami has so many good fics)

This is my thing: Please, please, dislike a thing as much as you want. But don't get upset with others for liking that thing. There's a difference between, 'I don't like trains and wish there was less train content of my feed' and 'ughh god I would like trains but God most train-lovers are so annoying and only share the most boring facts ever I swear'

Also, if you want to see more of something and you're gonna be like this tm about it, I have a much better idea for you:

Spread your takes in a nice way. Write fics that feature your interpretation, if you can't write post small HCs and theories, in a kind way that doesn't bash people who disagree with you. I see headcanons about Azul that I disagree with, some of which are pretty popular. And yeah, I can make a post about how these stupid people who enjoy the same thing as me and make content that I get to enjoy for free dared to disagree with me, but you know what that makes me? A dick.

I know, I know, it's weird to get so worked up about it, but this feels like such a common trend in this fandom. If you have a darker interpretation of the characters, that's lovely! Diverse interpretations make a fandom with media literacy. But don't complain about how everyone's woobifying your faves just bc they don't think the twins loved Azul's overblot and were really disappointed they couldn't eat him please. It feels belittling and very pretentious - your take isn't necessarily the correct one.

And you know the funniest part? A lot of people who complain about everyone woobifying or excessively darkening their faves or whatever? They don't even make anything for their fandom. If you want to see more X, don't complain about people not making X, make X or request X from someone who takes requests if you really really don't wanna write.

I'm not criticizing takes here - you can say that you feel, or just straight up evidence contradicts X take. You can analyze X take and say it seems implausible. But when you criticize people and complain about real people who do x thing, you're not trying to analyze, debate, or share information anymore, you're being a dick.

No one gets hurt by someone saying that the twins and Azul deep down consider each other friends, and no one's hurting anyone by saying that they find jamiazu 's funny scenes a major part of their HCs. No one's sinning by disagreeing with you.

So please, for the love of all that is holy, if you're going to criticize a take, actually bring up reasonable criticisms - 'Azul being treated like a crybaby because of his breakdown may be a popular take, but it belittles his character and clearly contradicts Canon', isn't that much harder to write than 'Ugh why doesn't anyone realize that Azul's actually a terrible person, Jesus he'd murder you for a single corn chip', and it's more accurate because it's a genuine criticism not just you complaining people don't have the same interpretation as you, but also kinder. It's not that hard just BE NICE. Please! The people who have those takes and still people, and also, even then, their takes are usually backed up by some form of evidence. Don't act objective if you're not even gonna be open to criticism of your own takes.

[dolliebabydoll15]

You Belong With Me: A Roudise Fanfic

decided to write a roudise fanfic with T.S references from her song, "you belong with me" bc it fits them sooo well. <3 where all my swifties and bob's burgers fans at? 🫶🍔

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Louise was groaning with impatience.

It was the last 10 minutes of class, and Rudy still hadn't come. Where had he been? Did he have an asthma attack? Did he get lost? No, no, that's not right. He always knew his way around. The whole class did not twitch, not even Ms. Labonz. Just then, there was a knock at the door. Ms. Labonz opened it, and in came Rudy, not looking very happy.

"Rudy, where have you been? You're late." asked Ms. Labonz.

But he was far to upset to respond. He plopped his things down on the neighboring desk to the left of Louise.

"...stupid Chloe Barbash..." "...who does she think she is?..." "...can't even *wheeze* take a joke." he muttered aggravatingly.

Louise was shocked. She didn't usually see her pal outside of his happy-go-lucky self (well, unlike that one time he asked her to leave after she called him a weenie). She quickly grabbed an index card that was supposed to be for Ms. Labonz's assignment, and quickly wrote down a brief sentence, and passed it to Rudy. Even though Louise knew she couldn't pass notes, now didn't seem like the time for rules.

"you okay rudy-rudes?" the note read.

Rudy immediately wrote back and passed it.

"tired of drama."

the conversation on paper went on for a few more minutes.

"sorry :( what happened?"

"chloe wanted me to ditch class with her so we could hang out together. we were having so much fun, and i made a joke asking her if anyone ever told her if she looked like a female rupert grint from that one wizard movie. she got all mad and decided to go off about what i said. i didn't like it at all. but hey, she'll cool down eventually. i guess i was probably overreacting.

"I CAN'T BELIEVE HER! YOU'RE RIGHT, WHO DOES SHE THINK SHE IS?"

"eh, i'll be okay, louise. if i'm being honest, chloe will definitely go back to being the nice girl she is."

Nice? Please. Chloe Barbash was far from nice. Louise had no idea why Rudy still liked her. Chloe didn't get Rudy's humor the way she did. Plus, she never even bothered to give Rudy his first kiss. Like, come on, where was the credit? For some reason, Louise didn't know how it happened, but something gave her the nerve to write, "i love you." on another index card. She was about to pass it when the bell rang. Louise turned sideways to pass the note, but Rudy was gone. Suddenly, a wave of disgust ran over her.

"SICK! Oh man, Louise Belcher, you are SICK! WHY were you about to do that?!" she thought.

~~~~

Later that typical Tuesday night, Louise began to listen to the kind of music Chloe didn't like to let out her anger over her with the cassette she had stolen from Tina's room.

🎶"I-I will keep your secrets, I'm so interested in youu..." 🎶

Ugh. Boo Boo. The one person who could comfort her during these drastic times. Although Chloe Barbash was a big fan of Boyz4Now as well, this was the one song she hated the most. Louise was still stunned after hearing what she said to Rudy.

"Why can't he just get over her? Why can't he just...no, no, NO WAY! Too cliche for me."

Louise scoffed to herself as she thought of that. But really, there's no way she could like-like him. Chloe wore short skirts, and Louise wore T-shirts. Chloe was cheer captain, and Louise was on the bleachers. What had she got to offer him anyway? She wasn't really that special. Ugh, no, it was fine. Louise had better things to focus on anyway. Still, at the same time, she was dreaming about the day Rudy would wake up and find that what he was looking for had been here the whole time.

"If only he could see that I'm the one who understands him, and that I've been here all along too! So why can't he see that he belongs with me?"

~8 Years Later~

"...calculus? More like 'crap-ulus'." Rudy joked.

Louise threw her head back in laughter, knowing she hadn't laughed like that in a long time. High school had been hard lately, and she couldn't veer away from the stress. As she walked in the streets with Rudy and his worn-out-jeans, she couldn't help thinking this was how it ought to be. They sat down on a park bench, with Louise thinking to herself,

"Hey, isn't this easy? We're just two friends on a pleasant day, nothing more..."

As Louise looked at her best friend as they talked, she couldn't help but notice that he has a smile that could light up the whole town, even brighter than the Wonder Wharf could. She hadn't seen it since Chloe Barbash brought him down.

"...Chloe's been great too, even though she still gets mad at me if I don't call her back in 10 minutes instead of 15. You know, I sometimes wish she wasn't so mad all the time, but that's just Chloe. Gotta like her for who she is."

"You sure you're okay with this Rudes? I don't really think she's a good girlfriend, or a good person in general."

"I'm fine, Louise. You don't have to worry about me." Rudy replied, smiling. But it didn't really comfort Louise as much. She knew he was better than that. Hey, what's he doing with a girl like that anyway? All of a sudden, a pink convertible pulled up. Louise immediately recognized it as Chloe's.

"Rudyyy, get in Cutie-Bear! We're gonna be late for the party!" Chloe called in a fake sweet manner.

"Coming, babe!" Rudy shouted back. He turned to Louise and waved goodbye. As he got in the car, he and Chloe hugged affectionately, but as they did, Chloe looked over at Louise with a smug stare. Louise just blankly stared back, because at this point, she could do nothing about Rudy's obliviousness to how cold Chloe was. After all, Louise couldn't compete with her. Chloe wore high heels, and Louise wore sneakers. Chloe's status as the cheer captain was still going strong, and Louise still remained on the bleachers. She still dreamt about the day when Rudy wakes up and finds that what he's looking for had been here the whole time.

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Louise was watching the near end of Rudy's football game. She snickered, watching him stumble one too many times. She remembered begging him not to join, because that sport required a lot of air, which didn't accommodate to his health. Rudy didn't care, as long as Chloe could cheer him on. Redirecting her thoughts to the football game, Rudy was surrounded by the enemy team. He tried to escape, but he ended up slipping and tossing the ball into the air. But that slip up resulted in his teammate catching it and making the final touchdown. The whole school cheered, especially the cheerleaders with their passionate spirit for the school. Rudy and his football team cheered, running toward the outlines of the field. As Rudy went to celebrate with his girlfriend, he spotted her flirting with another guy.

"Chloe...what are you doing? Why are you talking to him?"

Chloe glanced back at him in annoyance. "I can talk to whoever I want, Rudy. Stop being so dramatic."

"I'm not being dramatic if you're...I don't know, ALREADY DATING SOMEONE?" Rudy retorted.

Louise heard the whole conversation from above on the bleachers. She shook her head, seeing now that Chloe's showing her true colors. She couldn't imagine how it would go during junior prom, yet to come in 1 day.

~~~~

The next day, during the final class of the day, everyone was buzzing with excitement. Tonight was the night that all juniors had awaited. It was the night of the junior prom. Louise simply didn't see a care in that event, because, well, she just doesn't feel the need in dressing up. Without notice, Louise spotted Rudy pass a note from the corner of her eye.

"you going tonight?"

"no, studying."

"i wish you were though! parties aren't fun without you."

Louise smiled at him. Even though she wasn't going, at least Rudy would have fun.

~Later That Night~

Louise laid in her bed, thinking about how idiotic of her it was to not go. She really wasn't studying, it was just an excuse for her not to look at Rudy while he's with Chloe Barbash. It pained her far too much. She remembered that time he walked to her house in the middle of the night when he was unhappy about his parents' dinner. Louise was the one who made him laugh when he knew he was about to cry. She knew his favorite songs, and Rudy told her about his dreams. How long will it take him to know who he belongs with? She sighed, and picked up Kuchi Kopi. But just then, she noticed the index card beneath him. She picked it up, and saw the words from 8 years ago written on it.

"i love you."

Maybe it wasn't too late for him to know. Maybe this could be her chance. Louise opened her dresser and dug for a fancy piece of clothing to wear. After minutes of searching, she found a long sparkly lime-green dress that her sister, Tina, gave her for her 17th birthday. She hadn't intended on wearing it, but she wanted to make Tina happy, so instead, Louise shoved it in the far back of her drawer.

"Oh, Tina, you beautiful beast." she satisfyingly whispered underneath her breath.

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Rudy was waiting for Chloe to come back from hanging out with her friends, when he turned around and saw the most gorgeous girl in the whole world. Louise strode through the crowd in her best dress. Her dark, curled hair fell down to her hips, and donned a pink headband. Rudy stared at her in wonder. How could a girl look so beautiful in one moment? He was still in his euphoria, coming toward her, when Chloe returned, grabbing his arm.

"Hey, Rudy-Bear, don't you wanna come dance with me? I don't want you looking at her."

"Chloe, don't you call me that. You are one of the most heartless people I have ever been with. I can't do this anymore." He pushed her aside, and kept walking toward Louise.

"WHAT? Rudy, come back! PLEASE!"

It's go time, Louise. She pulled out the notecard, finally confessing her love from so many years.

"i love you."

Rudy stood there, blushing in his navy-blue tuxedo. He grabbed a notecard from his pocket, and it also said, "i love you." Louise was wonderstruck, not believing he felt the same way.

"Really? Y-you too?" she asked in surprise.

"Yeah. I've had feelings since 4th grade and...since forever." he chuckled.

"Even after all those things I did to you 8 years ago?"

"Of course. I know you still care."

Louise put her arms around his neck. Rudy was amazed.

"Is it happening? Is this really happening?"

"Yep...it took you long enough anyway."

Rudy rolled his eyes and laughed. Then, they both leaned in for a perfect kiss, just as overwhelming and delightful as their first. This time, they both were well aware of each other's love, no one else in the way. He finally belonged with her, and she belonged with him.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~OKAY...this has got to be one of the most romantic fics i've ever written. AND IT'S ONLY MY 3RD 😭 i'm a roudise geek, and "you belong with me" basically screamed louise and rudy. i suggest you look at taylor swift's songs every once in a while, i think they make up for a good listen! <3 btw, if anyone wants to create some art out of this fic, please do! tag me, bc i'd love to see it 💕

[squirmydonnie]

Vent: CW: unreality

I'm just very upset lately. Very angry.

I don't want to do any of the things that I've done for my whole life.

And I guess that's because I've done them for my whole life but it feels weird.

Nothing feels the way that it did. Everything is wrong and weird.

Nothing feels the same or different.

Everyone I know I don't know anymore.

Everything I do isn't the same anymore.

Most things I do make me upset.

Not really that they've become unenjoyable.

Because the things that I'm talking about aren't enjoyable things. They are things that usually bother me or make me sad. But now it makes me sad and then angry.

I'm more upset most of the time.

Not enjoying things.

I'm just mostly upset all the time.

I've been shaking this whole time writing this. Not out of anger.

I just have so much anxiety.

Nothing feels right at all. I'm just waiting for it to be over.

But I've been waiting for so long.

That most things just feel like me waiting. Waiting for it to be over.

I know how long I have. But it's become pretty tiresome.

I'd really like for time to just speed up.

It doesn't help that this is the boring and uninteresting I've ever felt.

My friends and family are gone.

I don't have them. So I miss them. But do I really?

What I'm really missing is everything they gave me.

But if that was all just me, I've just been alone this whole time.

I don't have my friends or family.

I don't even have myself anymore.

before coming into "real contact" with my daydreams, I only ever talked with Cookie 12.

We could short conversations with each other.

He didn't really know who or what I exactly was. It sometimes seemed like he didn't really know where he was.

We were like on a white piece of paper. White screen. White walls.

I enjoyed talking with another version of me. And of course I did.

I've always done this. Making stories about myself and changing my name in them even though it was clearly me.

I like putting myself into stories. I like thinking of myself in a very vague way.

But once I'm unable to do that, I don't know "what I are".

I don't know what I'm doing. Its extremely lost. Theres nothing I can do.

Theres nothing I can look up and find for this.

I find this problem often. So much that i don't like it when something is like me. Or if it relates to me. And don't like clones.

Or people who I sometimes see as my clones due to my similarity to me.

I've since had less problem with this. But. I really do like clones. When I can tell its me.

I like Cookie 12 and BC.

I miss having BC.

Earlier this week I wanted BC to brush me.

I don't know how to explain this, but I was in class and something was wrong with my back.

So I wanted her to brush it with a brush?. But she can't because shes gone.

So it was just me in the white room being brushed by nothing. Like the brush is floating and brushing me but no one is there but me.

Cookie 12 isn't gone, but I know he doesn't want to talk to me. Xe used to be okay with it. But now that he knows I'm the one who's been doing all this stuff to him. He obviously doesn't want to be around me.

I used to take Mama from him and just have her in my room.

If I didn't take things so seriously and at face value I wouldn't have this kind of problem.

And I'm specifically talking about things that can be considered imaginary or fake.

These kind of things I take as real.

And when it's not that. Its serious subject that everyone else takes as a joke.

And this seriously effects me. Its hurts me so much I can't move on from it.

I'm hurt by these things and I can't handle it.

I hate so many jokes and I find nothing funny a lot of the time, despite how humorous I am.

It's all just very confusing.

It's the first time I've been human I guess.

Everything's is just wrong now.

[anti-katsuki-lounge]

So there one thing I see a lot in fics and upset me fot the rinse and repeat...is "quirkless discrimination" and is smth on the veer of "bakugou daces consequences and is just a slap on his wrist" why? Bc is always the same

"Izuku is being abused by strangers bc ge is quirkless. Thise strangers want quirkless's blood" and usually is used for ship plot. Nit here to talk about ship...but is annoying to see this.

Its always the same thing. I saw earlier a fic where "Izu works in a shop...he is quirkless and his coworkers abused him ans Izu can't do anything. Thank god his new LI will rescue him"

Like why? We never saw any of this in canon. What we do see is how BK abused him and how Aldera wasn't the best place for Izu...fic writers make like "THEY HUNT IZU, THE QURIKLESS FOR SPORT" and we, in canon, never saw anything or any quirkless.

"Ah but Aoyama is quirkless" I still think this was so poorly executed and stupid I ignore it.

But even if you take in consideration...Ayoma's parents try to do smth - was being quirkless that horrible? Why? Hori show such no care for this issues- while Inko cry and be silent.

If being quirkless is that horrible...what it means to Izuku? What it means to the story? I mean think about it...if we removed this...nothing would change.

"Izuku has a weak power. Bk bullies him for that and life goes on"

And never will get the obsession "quirk discrimination is awful. People beat up Izu up for existing" sorry, this seems so edgylord.

And we never see ant reason for that. What? Izu keeps babling he is quirkless to people who wear shirts "quirkless good is a dead one"?

Sorry just ranting a little bc "quirk discrimination" tag usually means "more suffering but Izu shall get a LI either bk or maybe someone else"

No worries. I completely understand where you come from. A lot of fics don’t really tackle quirkless discrimination as a theme, instead using it for Izuku angst. When writing fics that involve quirkless discrimination as a plot point, I try to make sure it plays a big part in Izuku’s character, whether it be his source of motivation to accomplish something and/or exploring how it affects him. I’ve seen some shipping fics where Izuku being quirkless is treated very well and handled fantastically. Sadly I’ve also seen fics that do it to either make him a damsel in distress or add needless angst to a fic (not to say angst derived from being quirkless is bad storytelling, but good god do some fics take it to unbearable levels that serve no purpose).

[safetycar-restart]

Ok so subby boyfriend driver comes back from a very exhausting gp weekend that you couldn’t attend. The race could have been very exhausting (maybe Singapore) and on top of that the team gave your boyfriend the biggest master class there is. So he is feeling very down and exhausted and just wants to fall in your arms and forget the weekend ever happened.

You decide to treat your boy to the nicest and softest extend possible. You put him in his/your comfiest clothes and snuggled him in loads of blankets and give him a nice back massage that turns into a full body massage. Your sub is so relaxed that he can’t tell his left from his right. After he is so close to sun space from massages alone you also give him a nice, slow and soft hand/blow job and praise him so much.

Also the team is scared for when you attend a gp weekend next… bc they know it’s their fault your boyfriend is exhausted and you will fight for his rights

-🐞

Ooo I love this idea. To me this screams Charles, Mick or Marcus? I'm gonna write Mick, but you can always ask me for one of the other two as well and I will happily write more :))

You weren't at the race, but you watched it and instantly you knew that Mick was going to be very upset when he got home.

Usually Mick likes to talk to you about his race? Even if you don't fully understand everything he's saying because he rattles off about all sorts of numbers and statistics, but you don't need to. You just need to listen. Mick loves having a safe space to decompress after a race.

If you can't be at the race weekend, then he'll still want to talk about the race with you when he gets back to you. Maybe he even makes a list of points on his phone to talk to you about? Personally, you have no idea how speaking to you even days later could help, but he seems to really look forward to it and you're always happy to listen to him.

But this time, he doesn't say a thing? You ask him if he wants to talk about his race when he gets back, because he always does. But this time he just shakes his head and heads to the shower.

You go after him of course, because something is obviously very wrong. You ask him if you can join him in the shower, and you honestly think that he's going to say no, but then he actually just whines and mumbles, "please."

You know what he needs then, and you quickly undress before joining him in the shower. You wash him slowly, making sure to let kiss all the skin you can. You can see how he's relaxing, slowly coming back to himself.

Originally you weren't going to give him a massage, you just wanted to get him into your arms as soon as possible. But then you saw how tense he was when you washed him, and you changed your mind.

You just wanted him to end up soft and safe in your arms, but you could tell he wasn't okay enough for that yet.

Maybe you let him lay naked for his massage? Just dry him in a towel and then lay him down on the bed. He lets out little whines and huffs as you massage him, body practically melting into the bed.

You tell him to turn over, thinking that you can massage his arms and maybe give him some kisses. But then you see the slightly glazed over expression in his eyes and you realise he's close to subspace. It's not what you expected, but clearly he was more stressed you realised.

Normally he tells you if he's close to subspace, if he thought that he might slip. So he clearly didnt realise how close he was.

But that's okay. He's your sub, your good boy. If he needs to drift into subspace to feel better, then you're more than happy to look after him.

He has a soft smile as he stares up at you, not worried at all about being so close to subspace. He knows you'll look after him.

It's so easy to just slip further down and end up between his thighs, taking his cock into your mouth for a slow blow job. Mick makes the sweetest sounds, crying out and whining. You pull off and tell him that he can cum any time he wants, that his only job is to feel good and let you play with him.

He can do that, he can absolutely do that.

He cries after he cums, tears running down his cheeks and whining until you quickly shuffle up the bed and let him hide in your arms.

He opens up then, tears still running down his cheeks. He speaks against your chest, telling you about his race and why he was so upset. You hold him tight, running your hands along his back to try and offer some comfort.

You only move again once he finishes talking. You can tell he's done because he takes a deep breath and settles in your arms, more relaxed than he's been the entire night.

You get him into some comfy clothes then, knowing that he loves feeling the soft fabric against his skin.

The next morning, he has a proper debrief with you, and thanks you taking such good care of him.

[bonesandthebees]

So here is the second part to my glass divine chapter 9 analysis:

So Phil immediately getting super protective of Tommy is sweet. [He looked about two seconds from tackling the Pythia.] Understandable given how Wilbur's escape attempt went.

Tommy gives me so many conflicting emotions. As I said before, I'm still upset with the way Tommy is handling this, but he obviously doesn't have any malicious intent. Like Tommy is a good guy. Not telling anyone Wilbur's name because he hopes Wilbur will one day tell them himself-

bless his soul the sweet boy

I find this crimeboys relationship to be very strange. I have never seen them written like this before. It's super interesting because–god, how do I even put this into words–like, they shouldn't trust each other. They shouldn't even like each other; Wilbur is a prisoner and Tommy is his captor. And they don't but they do?? It's so odd and captivating!

Wilbur doesn't want a different guard. And he doesn't know why he's so drawn to Tommy. We can assume Tommy feels the same way about him too. They confuse each other andmake things so complicated.

Phil's wife:)

I love Jack so much. He's what everyone needs in life. I don't think there is much else to say. I don't see Jack written enough and if he is in a story he's usually just comic relief. You did him right in stars and are doing him so well in glass! Thank you

Niki too. You don't write her as a pushover. She's kind but she won't take anyone's shit. Her and Jack have so much (platonic) chemistry. They feel like they've been friends for a long time and fit with Tommy so well.

can't wait to talk about tubbo and sam next as well as wilbur's mental state:)

-🧭

HI COMPASS ANON SORRY THIS TOOK AGES I was holding onto your analysis in case I was struggling to get back into the glass mindset bc answering these asks sometimes helps me get back into the headspace for it (it wasn't needed in the end I've finished the next chapter, but of course I'm still thrilled to answer this)

lol yeah phil is very protective of his kid even if he's not super outright about it

I'm so glad you're enjoying this take on crimeboys!! i'm having a lot of fun writing it. it's definitely different from how I've written them before and how I've seen them written before, and I think it's a very interesting way to twist their dynamic around. they have no reason to trust each other or like each other but they do. something between them just clicks, and as time goes on they're just getting closer and closer.

aww ty!! i love writing rocketduo so much. I loved c!rocketduo on the dsmp because I thought they were such interesting characters, so I love including them in interesting ways in my fics. strangely enough, writing c!jack is super easy for me. he's funny but he's also not just comic relief, and i love exploring the sides of his character the majority of the fandom usually ignores in fics. meanwhile writing c!niki is a lot trickier bc I try to avoid writing her in a way that could make her seem like a 'mom friend' or a 'caretaker' because so many writers just pigeonhole her into that because, well, woman character. she's kind, but she's not just there to take care of the male characters around her. I'm glad the chemistry works well between all of them :)

[golbrocklovely]

It was one interview, their answers change in half the interviews they do, I bet if they were asked about their editing in a different interview we'd probably get a different answer, so basing your whole opinion on the livestream interview (where Sam was letting Colby so most of the talking, I guess cos he's socially awkward) seems a bit weak. Sure if they gave the same answer in countless interviews maybe I'd see your point of view more.

I would also say a lot of your response to me was talking about how Colby seemingly has nothing going on compared to Sam but truth is we simply don't know what Colby has going on because he simply does not choose to share it with the general public. He could be re-learning an instrument as well, he could be writing songs, he could be becoming a fortnite champion for all we know. Just cos he's not talking about it does not mean he's not doing it, that's his private life he doesn't need to tell us that stuff.

The only reason we know about Sam's stuff is cos he's chosen to tell us, if he didn't tell us then would you assume he was doing nothing but editing his life away as well? And even if he's not doing big things like Sam does he even want to? he's an introvert after all and most introverts prefer to spend their free time at home doing whatever their heart desires. Why does he have to be doing big things like Sam for you to consider him having a fulfilled life? Not everyone is like that, some people are happy with a quieter more peaceful life (I'm very much into not doing any of the things Sam is doing, that's all big extrovert energy to me)

You consistently point out that Colby gets less credit but that's not what I've seen especially in the fandom of this time, of the two of them Colby is usually the one getting most of the love and most of the credit in most of the corners of the internet while Sam is just there or getting hate. The only places I've seen people claim that Colby is not getting credit has been here on tumblr and tbf you guys are older than other areas so I will concede that maybe that's how it used to be in the fandom, but it's not how it is now.

I'm sorry, but your attacks on the man do seem very justified and mostly based on assumptions given we don't know what Colby's doing in his personal life and one interview. But you are allowed your opinion, just as I'm allowed mine so I suppose we'll have to agree to disagree. I'm probably going to block you now though as lately your asks have been very spiteful and negative, I love your fanfictions though so do please keep writing even if I no longer get to enjoy them.

i guess it's a little pointless of me to answer this since apparently you're blocking me, but i feel like talking so…. it's whatever.

first and foremost, if we're gonna say "we can't take their own words into consideration bc their answers always change" then what is the point in listening to them? what is the point in getting upset at me for going off an assumption if apparently i can't take their word at face value? i'm not disagreeing that their answers change - bc they do from one livestream to the next, but that doesn't negate what they said currently, which is jc's livestream. if they do some other interview or whatever and their answer says that sam does most of the editing, then i'll gladly eat my words. but based off the fact they hired an editor that does sam's part, one that he gave 20 pages of notes to, and that SAM AGREED WITH WHAT COLBY SAID, i'm gonna assume it's correct bc why else what they have said that? they wouldn't randomly lie.

also for the longest time the both of them did edit their content, it's only recently that things have changed; pretty much within this past year. so their answers from years ago are gonna be different than what they say now.

and about colby's free time - he doesn't share with us what he does, that's true. but he also has SPOKE about what he does - which is literally editing and that's about it. he has outwardly expressed that he doesn't really have free time. all he does is hike, mostly edit, and go out to the same parties that sam does. and to me, personally, that's not a lot of free time.

and i'm not expecting him to go crazy like sam and tell us everything or do the same as him and relearn instruments or whatever. that's not the point. my point is that sam all of sudden weirdly has a lot of time to do things, to have hobbies - which is not something colby has outwardly expressed is something he has - and my GUESS is bc sam isn't spending hours on end editing. and my reason for thinking that is bc colby explained their editing setup, and sam doesn't edit all that much anymore. he gives notes, he supervises. but physically editing is not something he does all that often anymore.

but again, i never said he doesn't edit AT ALL. just not as much as he once did before, when it was a 50/50 split.

if we're talking about across the board who gets more love, sure; colby gets more than sam. however, if you're trying to argue that sam gets hate in space of that, you are incorrect. ppl either ignore sam or like him. he gets hate, don't get me wrong. i would be dumb to say he doesn't hate. but compared to colby??? apples to oranges. as someone who has been in this fandom since 2018, i can tell you first hand that colby, while getting a lot of love, also gets a RIDICULOUS amount of hate. borderline on a level that is unheard of. here, i'll spitball some of the random hate colby has received over the years: wished happy international women's day on twitter and was called misogynistic, literally any single time he's around a girl there's drama, constantly being slut shamed even tho we don't even know how often he hooks up (and also that doesn't matter anyway), getting made fun of for his face getting puffy, liked a pic of a fan in merch that didn't have a fan account, talked about his diet and exercise and didn't take into account that not everyone should follow that same regime even tho that's not what he was saying, anytime he grows facial hair he loses followers, literally was so concerned with how fans would react to him possibly not having hair bc of chemo he CONSIDERED NOT TELLING US ABOUT HIS CANCER DIAGNOSIS. need i go on?

colby got a death threat so severe and dark and gross that he removed himself for over a week off of twitter and from that point forward barely goes on that site bc of it. the equivalent for sam? nonexistent. and i don't wish that for sam. no one deserves that level of vitriol thrown their way. but while sam may not get as much love as colby, he also certainly doesn't get as much hate as him either. sam has also said in a video (i wish i could remember what one) that he doesn't care if ppl like colby over him. and vice versa. so this is such a non-issue. the hate in general needs to stop, that's the only thing that matters.

also when i'm talking about colby getting credit, i mean in terms of editing. bc again, tons of fans have said sam's a great editor for years now, but no one has ever truly said it about colby who has ALWAYS done the editing.

and yeah, i guess we gotta just agree to disagree. i don't agree with you that my asks have been spiteful or negative, just bc i made one or two comments about sam. but if that's how you feel, so be it. bye ✌️

[jinhyun]

part forty six,,, so much happened i don't even know were to start talking like????? i felt so bad for hyunjin because i totally understand where we was coming from being insecure about y/n hanging out with changbin and it made me so sad that he felt that way my poor little meow meow i hate to see him sad :(((

i didn't really like y/n in this chapter i'm so sorry i love her most of the time but it seemed for a bit that she didn't want to see hyunjin's side of the story?? like idk i think she did overreact a bit when he brought yerim up, he was clearly very upset and trying his best to make his point and that's why he mentioned her but then again i also get where y/n's coming from because she also felt insecure about her so like ????? idk how to feel actually after typing it out i'm having very mixed feelings right now ahdjshk

but i'm glad they made up after that argument bc they're both doing their best to make things work and i'd be very upset if their relationship was damaged after this because i want them to be together so bad 😭 changbin and y/n talking about hyunjin was also very cute i really love their friendship 🥺

also !!! drunk watercolor!hyunjin was really cute?? i usually hate dealing with drunk people but he'd be the exception i fear i'm too whipped for him,,,

thank you for another amazing update i'm very happy that you're back!! 🥰 (i feel like this is too long i'm so sorry)

- 💗

honestly part 46 was a true roller coaster 😭 but it was fun to write lol. jinnie was very valid to feel the way he did :( y/n and bin were fwb after all and it can't be erased even though they're just friends now, so...

omg i knew someone wouldn't like y/n in this part jsñsksl i get you tho 🤧 she did see hyunjin's side of the story tho, hence why she was willing to apologise, but then yerim was mentioned and she kinda stopped reasoning. but yeah ldñsks it's okay to have mixed feelings about it 😹

it would've been so sad for their relationship to be damaged once again after all the progress they've made :( but thankfully they were able to see eye to eye and make up that same night 🥺

kdñaksñs there are different kinds of drunk people and thankfully jinnie is part of them cute (and horny) ones 🤧🩷 love that for him and y/n lmao.

thank you so much for reading!! i'm glad to be back and please never apologise for sending me long asks regarding my fics, i love them the most 😭😭😭💘

[ruthlesslistener]

I'm just gonna say, you really did sound like an angry asshole back then and now. I wasn't even a part of the issue back then or the anons, but I seriously thought you were... pissed. Very angry? I understood why. But it wasn't really a "rightfully" angry situation on your part, since I wasnt really happy you called something you didnt understand as "weird" or "sus". The sus weird really did it for me and I was hella surprised you didnt mean what it usually means. So I think the aggressions of the other anons might have come from that vibe you had. Which maybe clouded judgement, idk I'm just guessing but that seems like what happened here.

I think it's just miscommunication on your part, sorry to say. You really do sound mad, even in your pinned tweet. Though that could be just me, who has trouble reading vibes in writing at times. But this is just my insight. Please don't get mad and dogpile me like what you used to do.

No, that's fair. I have the tendancy to speak bluntly, use aggressive modifiers, go heavy on punctuation when I'm serious vs using textspeak with inherent tone modifiers pre-built and I don't use tone tags because they're confusing to me and make my head hurt. That DOES contribute to making me sound angry even when I don't mean to be. Ex, for right now I'm not angry at all, just confused and tired at my own incompetance, bc I didn't try to dogpile you and also because this whole 'not fucking up socializing' thing is really fucking exhausting. That's not a dig at you or an attempt to emotionally manipulate you btw, that's entirely an internalized frustration at myself that doesn't reflect you. For example, I didn't mean to dogpile you and the fact that I probably did so anyways is really frustrating to me. This whole thing feels like a math problem that I know the answer to but can't solve, and I have dyscalcula.

For most of it, I wasn't angry- I was confused, upset, frustrated, and defensive. I guess you can construct all of those under the umbrella that is anger, but to me it really didn't feel like anger, it felt like panic amd sorrow and 'what the fuck, I didn't say that I didn't mean that what is happening'. I know I certainly came off as angry because of the afformentioned issue with internet speech, and with some asks I was, but for the most part? No, I was panicking, deeply shaken, and upset. That doesn't make me the victim here, it was my own fuck-up and incompetence that caused it, but the 'fight' part of a fight-or-flight response is not anger-based.

It's def. not only me though, because if it was then I wouldn't have had to repeat myself a bunch of times. Everything else was me being a massive bumblefuck, but people repeatedly saying stuff back to me that was different than what I kept trying to clarify wasn't an issue on my end. That isn't me being unable to accept that I'm wrong, because I was, that's just how it was. If they had listened and understood what I was saying, then I wouldn't have had to repeat myself more than once. Also, based on the feedback of people I talked to over discord, there was a level of intentional misreading and/or refusal to reconsider my words that worstened the issue, so it def. wasn't entirely my fuck-up. It was just MOSTLY my fuck-up

[nana2capriccio]

[ Kiryu - Ayakashigatari | English Translation ]

己龍 - 妖語 [Spirit's Tale]

JP lyrics: Mitsuki Sakai | EN translation: me:3

hiii it's been a while! next in order was benitsubaki but i put it off bc that song is...so hard to translate and this one is more fun LOL. notes at the end as always~

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If you think about it, when everything is ridiculous, nothing feels particularly strange

Once you get a taste of the futility of your faith, everything will begin to lose its flavour

Perhaps it seemed like smooth sailing... You didn't even notice you were stuck in the mud

Drifting along in with warm flow of joy... You didn't even notice you were sinking in shallow waters

To deceive or be deceived... Always one or the other, such is the nature of our world

What a shame... What a shame... 1

A cacophony of piercing wails and creaking bones, stifled by the sound of raging hellfire

I realise... I realise...

"I" am here... As my tears evaporate, they speak for themselves 2

"You" clear your throat as you're watching "me" lament

You who wears that crooked grin, don't you know who "I*" am? 3

Time ticks by, one and two... as you peel away the monsters' masks 4

It wasn't "me", or even "me*", it was "you" who they believed in

To deceive or to be deceived... It's got to be one of the two

As the clock ticks, I come to realise: "This^, that^, and everything else was just a misunderstanding." 5

How dark... How dark...

Peeling away piled layers of vermillion... Until not a shadow remains 6

Help... Help...

"You" in the sky above, licking your lips, the last thing I saw

What a shame... What a shame...

What a shame... What a shame...

A cacophony of piercing wails and creaking bones, stifled by the sound of raging hellfire

I realise... I realise...

"I" am here... As my tears evaporate, they speak for themselves

If you think about it, when everything is ridiculous, nothing feels particularly strange

Once you get a taste of the futility of your faith, everything will begin to lose its flavour

Even if you're caught deep in the lies, to think you can deny it is a lofty ambition 7

Someday when even your bones decay, you'll have reached your pointless ending

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1. The word used here is literally "it hurts", but the way it's used is more like "that's painful to hear"/"how upsetting". I think towards the end, however, it's meant in a literal way

2. could not for the life of me make this sound good, basically the speaker is in Hell/jigoku and their tears quickly boil away due to the fire which is what tells them that they're...in hell

3. This one is very important— in Japanese, there are different ways to say "I", and this song uses two different phrases, "watashi" and "atashi". It's not clear why this was done, but I saw another translator mention how "atashi" is often used by girls so it could be that the speaker is male but is referring to a past life in which he was female, or had a false identity which the person who's referred to as "you" saw through. Since many Kiryu songs are about Buddhism, I'm going with the reincarnation theory lol

4. another untranslatable phrase, "peel away the monster's masks", would be literally translated to "tearing off the monster's skin" and basically means revealing someone's true nature. it's a bit confusing but i like to think of pulling off someone's "skin" scooby doo style

5. I probably should mention that every pronoun in this song is written using katakana, the alphabet used to write loan words or add emphasis to things like names or scientific titles. Not 100% sure why, but I think it's because "this" and "that" (are and sore, not usually used for humans) are referring to people, or maybe past lives of the speaker. Just note that this is the case for all the pronouns!

6. The phrase used here for the "piled vermillion" is more like "piled up too high", but I honestly don't know what this is supposed to mean so I can't give more context. But anyways, the "nothing but a shadow remains" is another Japanese phrase, "not even light or shadow remains", to say that there's absolutely nothing there.

7. This line calls back to the last line, I believe the full message of this song is that the speaker was a Buddhist who held onto his faith throughout his life only to end up in Hell, now using this song as a warning to living Buddhists that it will all be worthless. Also, "lofty ambition" is ANOTHER japanese phrase, "to paint the sky" meaning something impossible to do, I liken it to "painting the colours of the wind"

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Michael Distortion and DoorKeay headcanons

Ok, some might seem repeated or similar to other people's but these thoughts got reinforced when I read other people's HCs and I'm itching to write the list.

Also, everyone's alive and happy in the Archives. AND post-apocalypse.

Michael can play music out of thin air. However, all of the songs seem to "hiccups" besides the static intervention.

Surprisingly, now everyone in the archives seems to prefer the "new" Dolly Parton song 9 to 9 to 9 to fi-five.

Keeping a human-looking shape feels straining, like an old rubber band being stretched to the point of slightly tearing.

It unfurls when relaxed, depending on how tired it is, different bits and pieces distort more than others (for example, the legs will sprawl like never ending noodles, but other times the hair will just POOF in a funny way).

When it needs to be around people, it wears extremely oversized clothes in order to relax without occupying the whole place. Think of it becoming some sort of mountain of yarn held together by a massive t-shirt. We're talking Jared Hopworth's sizes of clothes.

You know those mesh bags that go in the back of plane seats or car seats? You know how sometimes your nails have like, a spiky bit, like a broken tiny bit and you can't usually see it but if you drag your nails onto a fabric it "scratches" or gets like, stuck??? Michael's whole being goes through that with those mesh bag things. And any other object with that material.

It needs socks to feel safe. Really bad. But either those that are very short, or those that get up until right below the knee. Other socks just... feel?

Michael has sensory issues. It hates touching other "static-y" textures. It feels weird when something that feels just like itself touches it.

Michael is AMAB enby, don't come for me.

It knows how to use a smartphone but the tactile screen cannot read its fingers so it uses one of those mini-keyboards and a stylus bc otherwise it would never be able to play games on the Archivists phone.

It asks Jon if he has any games on his phone. Constantly. Just because it thinks it's funny when throughout a statement there's a sudden door slam and a very weird voice just going "Archivist, do you have games in that?"

Michael carries all the groceries in one hand, in one trip. Strong noodle buddy.

However it can't hold stuff like cups or bottles. Has the grasp strength of a claw machine, and also its fingers can't let it use the handles of mugs or teacups. Sad noodle buddy :'(

Gerry holds its finger when it feels upset. He respects that Michael needs space but he knows it also craves a slight squeeze for grounding so when he sees its finger slowly stretching and tapping next to him softly, he holds it until it retracts.

Gerry and Michael sleep bunk-bed style when Michael is too tired to keep a regular human shape or when they don't have a place to sleep comfortably. Basically it puts a door on the wall almost touching the ceiling and drops its hands to make a hammock-like bed for Gerry.

Gerry once asked if he could draw a thing on Michael's door. It got offended but dropped a few washable markers onto the floor and then left to its hallways.

When Gerard started drawing, the door giggled and rattled a bit. He took this as an interesting challenge and ended up drawing a whole landscape that seemed to be on a TV with bad signal. Michael was amused by this, somehow.

Both DESPISE being cold. Michael for obvious trauma reasons and Gerard because he's too used to being near fire or wearing super thick clothes so whenever they go on vacation they head to arid places.

They visited the Atacama desert once and some nearby areas, and they thought Mike Crew was there because the air feels so fucking non-existent there omg?

They also thought they would be hot all the time but were so confused by the air thing that they forgot desert climates go on subzero temperatures during the night. Top 10 anime betrayals.

Gerard finds out Michael can do the :3 face and shows everyone. Tim loses it. Martin asks for more character-made emojis.

Gerard knows how to navigate the halls and is one of the few who has been able to partially draw a map of them.

Jon is constantly worried about Michael being able to "fit itself" in the Archives comfortably, telling everyone to keep an eye (no pun intended) on whether rooms start looking wobbly. They have to tell Gerard immediately.

Gerry will take Michael to its hallways and coax it into unfurling itself so it can "stretch" properly and without limits.

Michael is not allowed to boop anyone or anything.

The two went to South America again and an old lady asked for help and called Michael "papito"* as an endearment term and Gerry spent the rest of the day in confusion and shock.

Michael knows Spanish and several dialects so it didn't mind being called that.

Gerry knows German, Swedish, Italian and Russian.

Michael knew so many languages before the Spiral, and now he can also mimic the pronunciation/accent for most of them perfectly.

*Explanation: "papito" translates literally to "daddy". However, many people in Latinamerica say it as an endearment term in the same vein of how black grandmas call people "baby". So, being called "papito" in a completely innocent way is not uncommon. (I've heard my own uncle call his actual baby son "papito", some people call their small, spoiled dogs "papito", etc)

Also, Note: I've seen many others with the headcanon that Michael is on the autism spectrum, but I am not comfortable writing that someone is autistic because I do not know in depth of the subject and since everyone is different, I don't want to proclaim that someone is autistic just because they share some things with what we think is "the norm" for autistic people. So yeah, I will have some HCs that could be interpreted as autism characteristics if you want to, but they could also just be related to other conditions, or just be stand-alone characteristics. I'm no one to say what you can or can't headcanon, just my personal boundaries of what I think is okay. Sorry if this sounds blunt, I'm not a native English speaker and sometimes my way of saying things can seem cold, but I don't mean it!

EDIT: Hi, yeah, future me here, turns out I do have autism and I was taking from my own experience on several of these thingS, take the disclaimer at the end with a grain of salt ❤️