#and like that’s fine whatever people can do all kinds of funky shit with their sonas and still be cis

[cripplecharacters]

Hi! Sorry if this is a stupid question but I was wondering about representing disabilities/things in general that you don't have.

I always see people say that they want characters to be represented properly, and to show their disabilities and lives in an accurate way, but I also see people talk about how you shouldn't write about the struggles a POC/minority/person with a disability/etc. faces because you don't experience that and you're speaking over them or only using their story for "trauma porn" or whatever.

Maybe it's just because I'm autistic but I'm really not understanding how those two things coexist. How do I show how someone lives, especially with a disability that might be painful, without writing about the things they face?

Obviously it would be super weird if the character's entire personality was just "My life is awful because I'm so different, I can't do the things everyone else can, my life sucks."

But what about normal things that they struggle with? Like "Yeah I only have one arm, it's a pain in the ass to do dishes but it's not the end of the world." or "I have albinism so my depth perception is shit but whatever" or "It's fucking annoying when people stare at/judge me because I look different, but if they don't like it that's their problem, not mine lol."

Is the problem whether or not a characters ENTIRE story revolves around their disability? Using my own as an example:

A story, specifically, about how Funky Bungus, as an autistic person, lives in the world and what struggles he has due to his disability, VS a story where Funky Bungus is trying to stop two kingdoms from going to war and there's a short scene where he feels bad about not being able to make eye contract with people, before going back to the Kingdom War Drama.

I just want to use my stories as a way to educate people about disabilities and make people go "Hey, that character is like me!" or to make people think about their actions, like having a character complain about people staring at their scar/missing arm/etc. so maybe people will read it and go "Wow, I guess it IS rude when I don't mind my own business, from now on I won't stare at people."

Sorry if this got long and incomprehensible 😬

I guess the question is "How do I write about the struggles someone with a disability faces without coming across like I'm writing trauma porn or speaking over people" but I just have the Overexplain Everything So I'm Not Misunderstood Disorder™ lmao

I believe you have it right; the problem with many stories about disabilities written by non disabled authors often lies in when the story relies entirely on the disability.

It’s absolutely fine to write about the struggles a character faces — for an example with one of my disabilities, say a non-disabled author wrote about how a character kinda hates their chronic pain and wishes they didn’t have it. But otherwise there’s other stuff going on in the character’s life, like friends and family and hobbies, not just self-pity, and there’s other things going on in the plot, like maybe a mystery to solve or an Item to find or an adventure to go on or something.

That would be perfectly fine, and I’d love to read it actually, and really writing is kind of a balance of using what we know already and mixing it with things we haven’t experienced but have researched and/or thought about.

That’s how you show an authentic character with disabilities — they have struggles, things they can’t do or can’t do as well as others, but that’s not all there is to them. There’s things they enjoy doing, things they’re good at, people they spend time with and things they do.

Good intentions combined with research and knowledge (and good plots!) will make for good stories that feel authentic.

Hope this helps!

Mod Sparrow

Hi!

I think that there can be good stories that have disability/ableism as its primary focus, but they should be #OwnVoices (as in, made by people who experience said thing). That's largely because it often gets very specific and thus easy to misrepresent even if you have good intentions. Sometimes it can end up like "being disabled is so sad and everything is inaccessible, how tragic!" and end up pitying the character - rather than actually sympathizing with them - just because that nuance is missing. To use the same example as you did, "character complains about people staring at their scar sometimes" would be a completely normal way to include ableism as a part of life that does happen, while "character gets bullied for 300 pages for having a facial difference" would be in the torture porn category (when written by someone who doesn't have that experience).

I think that what Sparrow described is the best if you're not describing your own experiences. Including ableism as a thing that happens from time to time or as a tertiary focus is totally fine. That's how it is in real life - sometimes things do suck, but there's still a whole lot of other things that we do.

I think your desire to educate people is admirable and it should be very much doable with the solutions you presented! Good luck writing!

mod Sasza

[isa-ghost]

what about Philza and social situations headcanons? (Parties, meeting strangers, that sort of thing)

Smh this is just Irish Goodbye bait /j

qPhil headcanons masterlist

Okay yeah obligatory Irish Goodbye mention. There's so many islanders and he gets distracted so easily, if he says goodbye to everyone he's gonna get stuck in 600 more conversations and he'll never leave the Whatever he's at when he intends to.

Also obligatory: He will genuinely enjoy the gathering to its fullest but he will still be on high alert. He cares for every single islander no matter how infrequently he sees them, which means while he's still immersed in the get-together, he remains vigilant to ensure nothing can harm anyone, ESPECIALLY when there are eggs present. The banquet with the fake eggs really reinforced this.

The above is why, especially while everyone is just bantering before the real event begins, Phil will perch up high on and off and just observe everyone chatting. He's on the lookout, making sure no one is vanishing inexplicably or worse, being taken. Keeping mobs and other threats away when necessary.

When encountering strangers, he plays it cool, he's very kind and engaged. But he is observing the shit out of the person. Analyzing them, their body language, forming an impression of their Normal, their Default state, so in the future he can tell when they're off.

Hilariously his memory is ass sometimes so it takes A Few "first" impressions for him to really ingrain in his brain how a person generally is.

Once he determines your vibes check out and you're a neat person, he's ride or die. No man left behind when it's Us vs The Feds in his eyes. You need something? He's got you unless you'd rather do it yourself.

When it's not an islander though... He'll put on a nice face, he'll stay civil if they're civil first. But truthfully, he is Not interested in the stranger whatsoever, ESPECIALLY if it's a new Fed worker. Then he's straight up suspicious. It takes a lot longer to determine whether or not they're a threat, if they're worth being bothered about, or if it's fine to live and let live.

The capybaras are excluded in the above though, he fucking loves those funky guys he wants to see them more often. He loves that they're so invested in helping him get cool pictures and stuff.

He LOVES new islanders. It's fun to watch the initial impressions, seeing who bonds with who most, joining them in picking their place to set up home, and checking in in the future to see how their new abode is coming along and how they're settling in. Honestly? It's partially that Hardcore Historian brain, he loves discovering what's been built in his absence.

When he's stressed, a lot of the above goes out the window, or becomes inconsistent at least. He's no longer observant for protection, he's observant out of fear; especially for himself. He perches almost always, or never stays in one spot for too long. He gets tunnel visioned. He really doesn't want to socialize at all. He dislikes being caught not in his best shape and he can get very paranoid and self conscious about it.

Btw he sometimes has the social awareness of a fucking grape so like. If you have an issue with him, please say so. Please communicate. He's a birdbrain boy in a birdbrain world ok. Tunnel vision and ADHD go brr.

Sometimes he socializes with birds the same way he does people. Just whole ass short conversations. Usually when he's bored and lonely.

He's down to socialize literally any time. The one time he probably Doesn't want to be bothered, at least not very often or for long, is when he's Eggza doing task grinding or resource gathering.

He hates being out of the loop of things because he has no idea what to do or say when a crisis arises, which makes him feel kinda useless, and that SUCKS when the person(s) impacted are particularly close to him. But at the same time, he has so much going on already at any given time and he Always prioritizes safety (esp of the kids) over anything else, so if there isn't an immediate threat or emergency, he'll stay out of it and just let people come to him about the thing if they deem it necessary. He's not the U.S, he doesn't feel the need to insert himself into every going on on the island. Especially potentially dangerous ones, getting involved if he doesn't have to be is just inviting harm and stress. He's not everyone's dad or guardian or whatever, he doesn't have to rush to aid everyone in their time of need. He'll offer it if relevant and he'll of course come rushing if asked, but generally speaking, he minds his business if he's not roped into it in some way and then hope that someone will fill him in well enough in the future. Fit's usually got his back.

You are Not getting his ass out and about at night, at least not unless you're just inviting him to your base. Especially with the kids. You're just not. Way too dangerous, shit always goes awry.

[tennessoui]

Hey Kit!! This past year when the Acolyte came out, my heart broke and I decided to step away from Star Wars. It’s fine that others liked it but personally I didn’t; actually to be frank, I REALLY didn’t like it. Star Wars and Anakin got me through a lot, so watching Disney take an actual shit on his origin and then his redemption ark by half-assing the lore, felt like a punch to the gut, and I had to step away. (This is my personal opinion, if you or others liked it that’s great! I just didn’t). However, when I saw that u published the body politics au, I decided to sit down and catch up on all your fics (btw I love the Hanahaki one!), and it got me back into the fandom. I’m glad one shitty (imo) show didn’t push me away permanently and I have you to thank for that. I’ve met so many great people thru Star Wars and made a lot friends so it had really been kind of hard to turn away from it. I just really wanted to say thank you. your writing is, as always, too beautiful and inspiring to ignore. Star Wars means so much, and I’m so thankful that your work was able to help me look past all the stuff that made me unhappy with it. I hope you have a wonderful day!!

this is very kind to send to me and a very nice morning read! i admit, i actually have not watched the acolyte, though not for any particular reason. i've definitely heard mixed reviews about the show and its take on the jedi order and the sith, which have been sorta sad to read cause i do like the jedi (though i guess i never label myself as pro-jedi cause like? they're the good guys? you're not like. pro-percy jackson or something right? pro-katniss everdeen? you just sorta read the book and you're like oh yeah these are the good guys. might find aspects of a character annoying but i'm definitely not supposed to be rooting for the Capitol or smething right)

but i've also heard from other people that as a pew-pew show, it delivers on that front! lightsaber fights are cool and everyone has a funky haircut that they pull off somehow which does feel quintessentially star wars

my general view of the disney plus star wars shows is that i'll watch the ones that strike my fancy, and if one of them doesn't then i won't. the star wars disney execs produce a lot of content (and i truly mean content, i.e. material to be consumed - not necessarily art) and a lot of it i'm probably never going to watch. it wasn't made for me, and i definitely get the lurch and disappointment you may feel if you look forward to something for ages and then it's not what you wanted in a thousand small ways or a handful of big ways. i think that's especially hard to guard against nowadays when trailers for tv shows rely more on aesthetic and punchy one-liners and brief second cameos than they do explaining the actual story of the show

but you can be a fan without loving the direction some shows go in or the choices directors make!! if that looks like only watching shows that have been peer-reviewed, or if that looks like ignoring everything but a small corner/subset of a massive fandom, or if that looks like turning from the media itself and diving further into fanart and fanfiction and interacting with people online then that's what it looks like! especially now that the world of canon star wars media isn't just 6-9 movies + 2(?) non trilogy movies, you should absolutely go about watching star wars content with a you-first mindset 100%

you know how many people were disappointed in the obi-wan kenobi series?? soooo many because he was a sad little pathetic and broken man with greasy hair. but that's exactly how i like my obi-wan kenobis, so i was thrilled every episode lol but i'm sure other people hated it and boycotted and whatever. but i found my corner of the fandom who also enjoyed that and it's been wonderful <3

so anyway thankyou so much for your very kind words i hope none of that sounded too preachy i was mostly trying to agree with you that it's really great that one (shitty) show did not keep you away from the fandom forever and that you're back!!

welcome back :)

[erigold13261]

Love how many of the JJK characters are already queer in the post-timeskip

Since we have… Yuta and Rika (Lesbians)

Miwa and Mechamaru (T4T)

Kinji and Kirara (okay Kirara is probably some flavor of queer in canon but still enby4enby)

Also shoutout to Ilia with his funky gender!

Let's keep going, Happy Pride Month! (you have any other folks/HCs?)

I have a lot, but I'll keep it to JJK characters for now.

Gay Megumi

Aromantic Maki

Lesbian Nobara? Maybe?

Aroace Yuji? No labels Yuji? He appreciates people's inner beauty but also isn't opposed to looking at what he sees as a pretty woman. Demisexual aromantic straight? Or maybe more like Aegosexual homoromantic? Some kind of gray-asexual at the very least, and either homoromantic, aromantic, or demiromantic, but very much needs time to form a romantic bond.

Aroace Kento

Lesbian Utahime

Toge is SOMETHING. What? I don't know yet lol. Possibly gay

Gay Satoru. He/him nonbinary with sky/blue pronouns

Either gay or bi Suguru. Leaning towards bi. He's also he/him enby

Aroace agender Shoko

Transman bisexual Haibara

I think I got an ask about Todo being a gnc cisgender guy and I like that (him dressing in drag in his free time seems like something he would do, it would also be neat for Kento to introduce Dodo to Todo since Dodo also does drag)

Nonbinary Uraume

Genderfluid Takaba

Noritoshi, like Toge, is something, but I don't know what. Might go with aromantic, asexual, or aroace

I don't mind trans Yuki, but honestly her and Choso being cishet together is something I like a lot

Choso, Eso, and Kechizu (along with any other death paintings if they were reborn) probably have some identity issues that would translate to their gender because of their memories from their vessels mixing in with the nature of their own consciousnesses

OH! Actually, with that! I think I'd like Yuki to be a detransitioned cis woman (so she thought she was a transman/transmasc for a bit of her life but then realized she was a woman). She helps Choso find out who he is as him and not just as a curse/entity, human, vessel!

Aroace Sukuna maybe? Like high libido but just does things for the pleasure of physicality rather than a drive he has

Curses don't really have sexualities/genders that can be easily translated to human society, similar for how Trolls can't really be "queer" in a human lens as they have their own societal structure on gender and romance.

That being said:

She/Her Hanami, no gender or sexuality (anything is a go for her but she wouldn't use the pan or bi or omni labels, or any gender labels. She's fine with anything and is very passive on her self image)

He/Him Jogo, possibly gay, possibly aroace and just wants connections with people without realizing it (kinda the same idea of how Eve needs others to make herself feel complete, so perhaps Jogo is like her and also demisexual/demiromantic)

Mainly he/him Mahito, but honestly I can see him using any pronouns (especially any of my human Mahitos who are usually genderfluid. Even if curse/entity Mahito just uses he/him, I can still see him being genderfluid in a sense of physically changing his form to whatever he likes including a feminine and androgynous form)

They/Them Dagon. No thoughts, head empty when it comes to gender or sexuality. It's not really something they dwell on at all. Closest thing would probably be agender?

He/Him Kurourushi. Transmasc aroace lesbian or sapphic? (made an art of curse Kurourushi and Smallpox Deity and someone tagged it as wlw and that shit hit me hard! So Kurourushi is definitely transmasc, but might identify genderwise as still a woman or at least nonbinary). [This also goes for my human versions]

She/Her Smallpox Deity. Acoace lesbian, Cisgender

He/him, maybe also they/them Ko-guy. Transmasc/transman

Rainbow Dragon is something. At least their human version is. They/them for them, but not sure about anything else, or if their curse version is anything. I need to revive them as a curse/entity in the Eriverse lol

Don't know about the Roppongi curse, but they have something going on with the Mannequin, but it's not FWB or something like that. Possibly a QPR? Also I think he/they for Roppongi curse (which I still need to make a name for them)

They/Them Mannequin Curse. Acts like a knight in shining armor for Roppongi curse. Will throw their life away for him. I think it's kinda like how Pearl is with Rose Quartz, but also not exactly that way. Very much a lot of love there but not in a romantic or sexual way. Possibly aroace, at the very least aromantic.

Kenjaku identifies as a cisgender man, he/him. However, when he is in a female body then technically he could be seen as transgender. He will play the part of a woman based on society's expectation in order to fit in to get what he wants, but he still always identitfies and believes he is still a cisgender man. His sexuality though is probably all over the place or demisexual where he needs to get attached to the person himself (with some exceptions he's had in his life). Otherwise he is just following the instincts of his body if he gets bored enough and wants to have fun.

I think Miguel Oduol and Larue have explored each other at some point? But like just to see what it was like? Otherwise I see those two are cishet.

Manami is bisexual but really has only dated men. Usually just has fantasies about women but never really acts on it, not because of society or something, but because she hasn't had a chance really

Toshihisa Negi. I almost forgot about this guy from Suguru's group, but his design looks really cool/fun and I can see him being queer. Perhaps he is bisexual as well or gay.

Alright, that's all I have for right now. I probably missed a major one somewhere (had to go back and write for Yuji and Nobara because I forgot those two lol). But yea, this is what I got at least for the JJK cast! Both can be applied to Eriverse and JJKverse (and some for my Swap JJK AU as well lol).

[saltynsassy31]

orca sanitization story pls 🍽️

Soooo okay!

One thing I had seen quite often was the hospital theme when it came to OE, from fanart to aus, and with good reason too, the concept art looked really cool!

And I took a similar approach to Orca, he's, for the most part, an experiment. I haven't thought of the smaller details about it, all I know is that he got kidnapped as a kid and only really remembers living down there.

His time there is also a blur to me but he got partially sanitised, he got freed a bit after Hachi and his friends did, mostly after the NSS investigated further and found him along with whatever remaining survivors of the deeper, underground experiments.

They managed to remove most of the sanitisation on him, having not fully taken affect but it still did take a toll on his physical form.

Now, idk how canon this is, it's mostly observations I had, but I guess it would be accurate to call it a headcanon.

But basically, from what we know, sanitisation is basically a form of zombification. They don't seem to have any heart beat and are mindlessly following an objective? That sounds like zombification to me!

Orca being partially sanitised has affected him slightly, more similar to deadf1sh than agent 3, but still kinda in my own funky way cuz he was still an experiment (100% an excuse to bullshit my way through this and make shit up lol).

He still has this need to follow orders and follow a pattern, thus his obsession with grizzco work and disdain for turfing/ranked battles, sure it has a general rule but people are unpredictable! And really disorganised in his opinion, grizzco is kind of a mindles grinding and although its recommended, he doesn't really need to depend on his coworkers, there is more but I think you get the point XD.

He has a very, VERY weak heart beat, to the point that when he sleeps it's practically non-existent, which can give unsuspecting people a mini heart attack XD, when he exercises a lot his heartbeat is the same beat as a normal heartbeat and it never goes beyond that. It makes him a bit sleepier than normal and is more prone to fainting in high stress (which is ironic considering what his job intels lol but he feels more at ease doing grizzco so it's very rare he'd faint during work).

This is also a reason why he avoids the hospital like the plague, cuz he doesn't want people freaking out about his little condition and he's scared he'll be experimented on.

Yeah, so, since I'm taking the hospital approach of OE he also has an irrational fear of hospitals, like, he doesn't even go a mile radius near hospitals and rather treat whatever injury or illness he has himself, it's a phobia of his.

He told his friends everything they need to know as to why that is and told them to only take him to the hospital as the last option.

He has some medical knowledge that he taught them just to avoid going.

And as I mentioned, the sanitisation also left him needing glasses, mostly cuz I think it would have damaged some of his cells, taking in the zombification HC, but not enough to blind him, he can see just fine with glasses.

His blood is also permanently an ugly green/teal color, no matter what ink color he goes with (you can see that by the color of the inside of his mouth always being the same cor as the tips of his fingers/ears/hair).

[starlooove]

If you wanna ramble about it 👀

Gimmie /lh

(Same about Riven Musa Aisha Nabu being a squad, they have to be, I love them)

(u don't have to I just really wanna hear)

AAAH ok so in order: before we start this isn’t necessarily Abt physical presence this Abt their SOULS! Their vibes, their energies, can you truly be at peace without these people around you in some form??

Nabu and Riven: At the start; Nabu could exist without Riven in his general vicinity but Riven cannot exist without Nabu. From Rivens perspective they cannot be separated and Nabu is just like “love this funky lil guy” and it’s only later that Nabu is also like “we cannot be separate under any circumstances you don’t understand, he’d die, then I’d die, and if I died it’d kill him which would be bad for me cause then I’d also die and then he-“

Nabu Helia and Riven: it HAS to be the three of them! Like it can’t just he Helia and Riven, or Helia and Nabu, (Nabu and Riven would be fine but it’s like…not the same) they’re a GROUP! They just go together! It’s like Tecna, Musa and Aisha! They could pair off just fine but when it’s the three of them it’s All or Nothing! And here’s my thing; I feel like Nabu and Helia are very good with general apathy but that Helia and Riven would’ve gotten close eventually. So if not for them being a Unit; they’d be one of those friend groups where it’s awkward if one of them (Riven) leaves. Thankfully, they’re not like that and it just gets rlly quiet in a comfortable way. Helia and Nabu def rant Abt stupid intellectual shit to eachother that the other doesn’t understand beyond what they’ve been told by the other. So Helia can’t tell you shit about the building blocks of a spell but he CAN tell you why this weird old ass famous ass sorcerer is actually a fraud for doing the wrong gesture and pretending he discovered smth. Nabu can’t tell you the difference between a haiku and free form but he could def tell you the top three poets of all time and they’re greatest works. (Riven could tell you ALL of that)

I don’t have any specific scenarios for Musa and Aisha or Musa and Riven they just HAVE to be together, they CANNOT be separated, they are literally exactly who the post is about. Same thing for the four of them as a unit, there’s no explanations or hcs it’s there, that’s them!!

Helia and Flora: each think the post doesn’t apply to them; they’re both wrong. They think they can survive away from eachother but don’t realize that not being together in the sense the post implies ALSO means no writing letters or communication or anything. They think they’re just fine when they’re apart but watch the mail be late one day, they’ll both go insane. Flora/Helia: “honestly we’re do independent, sometimes we forget we’re dating sometimes haha :)” also Flora and Helia: “if they don’t write me back in the next day I’m gonna air this bitch out”

Brandon and Stella think the other person is like the post and that they themselves are just amused and tolerating it, they’re both wrong. Stella thinks Brandon wouldn’t survive a day without her, Brandon thinks Stella wouldn’t survive a day without him, they’re both correct.

Aisha, Helia, and Flora: is honestly just very fun for me. You’d think it’s Flora and Helia holding Aisha back but it’s Flora gently encouraging them to go batshit. Flora is the mom friend bc most of her friends don’t have common sense. Despite the…drastic measures they sometimes take, Aisha and Helia do have braincells and Flora honestly let’s them do whatever and joins in if she’s feeling like it atm. They’d get nothing done but through a series of wacky domino affect type shit they’d produce some kind of result. A. This is why, in the case of a mission (that’s where I see this group being formed) they need someone else to balance them and ACTUALLY take control of the group. I think Riven would actually join Flora in this case but be a lot more vocal Abt his encouragement. Yes, it’s fun to go apeshit, but it’s also funny to watch. They would get nothing done. F. Musa would add balance to the group by not only joining Helia and Aisha, but again by giving direction. She’s all for doing crazy shit but maybe let’s also be productive the mission?? They’d get it done extremely late, but better late than never right? C+. Brandon would suffer heavily but it’d be funny. He’s easy going but he’s actually trying to get the shit they were supposed to finish done. “Flora help me out here?” “No.” “Ok.” B-

[parker-d-bloodrose]

 Before I go to bed, I want to talk about something. Some of y’all may’ve noticed that I’ve been posting more art over the past week. And like, it’s honestly because of some things that have happened over the past year. Firstly; I’ve gotten back into collecting comics and manga. It was a pursuit I stopped at the behest of my ex-spouse back in... oh I wanna say 2017? “You aren’t even reading them anymore.” Which is kind of correct, because I had shifted my focus from being a reader to being a collector. I’m back to being a reader because I’m being more narrow minded in my focus of what I’m buying. Primarily whatever funky shit catches my attention. Anyway point is. I started getting back into comics and surrounding myself with beautiful art. I’ll be putting the rest of this under the cut.

I’ve also watched many of my illustration friends work and post work and thought it was extremely cool. I even picked up some art books from artists whose work I admire, like Gerald Brom and Yoshitaka Amano. While their art styles are both extremely technical and detailed, and at a level beyond the scope that I personally want to achieve, I still admire and find their work inspirational. Amano’s work in particular, because when I have the time and mental energy I adore playing Final Fantasy 6. It’s just so gorgeous, even though it’s rendered in smooth pixel form.

I’ve also been working on pixel art in general as a way to destress after work, as well as producing my own tokens to sorta fill out my monday game where the art provided for the adventure path just doesn’t have the unique creature I need. It isn’t something I wanted to do beyond pursuing my own hobby interests. I find it extremely relaxing and calming to draw pixel art, much like how other people build mini figs for their TTRPG games. About a week or so ago, I saw an absolutely gorgeous pixel art picture of a woman coming out of a pond and I was just... stunned by what the artist did. I don’t know the resolution or anything but it was, like many other great pixel art pieces I’ve seen, a gorgeous fucking thing to behold. And it struck a chord with me. I realized that pixel art isn’t just about sprites. Sprites are certainly a cool part of it. But the medium can do more than I was allowing myself to do with it. And for awhile I was like “eh it’s fine. I don’t... have to do anything amazing. This is just a hobby.” And then I watched the video “Sekiro’s Parry and Other Pursuits of Perfection.” by Jacob Geller. In it, Geller discusses how playing Sekiro and mastering it led him to wanting to pick up piano playing again, even though he wasn’t intending on composing his own music. He just wanted to get that feeling of playing a perfect note again. I thought it was kind of cheesy but also lowkey? Despite Geller making fun of himself by pointing out how it was typical of a video essayist to veer off track of the original point to talk about a personal anecdote, it was also kind of impactful on me.  As y’all may’ve noticed, I’ve also been playing Sekiro too and while his enjoyment comes largely from knowing what to do next and executing it perfectly like sheet music, my take away from this game is actually different. I enjoy this extremely punishing video game not because I know the timing or whatever, but because I enjoy the challenge of learning something new. I’ve been toying off and on for... quite frankly about as long as I’ve been writing with doing traditional art. I have never considered myself a good illustrator. But, that’s okay. I don’t need to be. I can accept that I am an amateur artist. But I do find that I crave learning a new skill and mastering it. I was going to get better at pixel art. So, with all of these things happening, I made a resolution - I was going to produce a 64 x 64 pixel image myself by the end of the year, one of the largest canvases I’ve ever been comfortable doing shit on. Then I dove into a pixel art tutorial and ended up doing a 100 x 64 pixel image following the steps. But.... a lot of it didn’t look right. I found myself frustrated by my inability to get the landscape to look the way I wanted it to. The mountains were... mountain-shaped and passable. But the image I was referencing had clouds with rim lighting and I did not understand how it was working. My brain couldn’t grok it, so I removed it. There was also a person in the foreground who was sillouhetted. I ended up removing that person and instead focusing on the little wizard tower. Which came out.... mostly fine, except for again the lighting. I very quickly realized that my rudimentary understanding of lighting and shapes needed to be honed. I can’t afford a tablet right now, because I’m actually between jobs (Hello I quit my job and my last day is tomorrow!) and I also don’t really want one because I work more comfortably using a mouse with the kind of art I do. But I can afford a sketchbook, pens, and paper. So, I think what I’m going to do is fill these 100 sheets with sketches. And I’m going to have fun doing it. And I’m going to learn shit. So that maybe by the end of the year I’ll produce an original 64 by 64 pixel image. It’s also been relaxing to have an additional creative outlet aside from writing, because right now I’m kind of suffering from an extremely bad case of writer’s block and I’m having a hard time breaking it. Anyway, it’s late and I actually have work in the morning and this already took me about forty minutes to write so I’m going to bed. I hope y’all enjoyed this personal essay. 

[lemonking00]

Dumb Headcanons with LK!

I have a headache and feel like shit but whatever. 

Today Imma go off about Jason Todd

Okay so we know this man has enough trauma that if it spilled into the ocean you could drink it and it would take like sad boy soup (please don’t drink the ocean). But I thought it be funny just to go off about some of the silly HCs i have about this man. There are some that are more not so funny haha, but I will put a TW before them so you can skip over. anyways, enjoy.

Everything is under the cut cuz this bitch long af

FtM Jason

I vibe with both cis and trans Jason but FtM Jay will always hold a special place in my soul. that being said, I feel like this boy either didn’t really have a chest (through hormone blockers or just genetically not having a big chest.) Or he had some of the biggest honkers known to man. 

If Jay has a small chest I feel like he keeps up with a very strict workout regiment so he doesn't develop fat in and around his chest area. Boy is so flat that he didn’t need to get top surgery (lucky bastard) so he has no defining scars. Tho I do think he feels like his chest doesn't look right sometimes and kinda freaks himself out.

If Jay has a big chest I don’t think it’s because Bruce is transphobic or anything, but because Jay either a) didn’t tell Bruce tell later on. Or b) Didn’t find out he was trans tell a few years after he hit puberty. Could also be a bit of both. Like Jay figures out he’s not a girl when he around 12 (So when he first meets Bruce) but doesn’t tell Bruce until one day Bruce asks why Jay always has some kind of tenser bandage around his chest (Jay’s around 13-14). Jason finally gives in and comes out to Bruce. Que getting a stern talking to from Alfred about the importance of binding properly and all that jazz. He gets on T as a gift for his 15th B-day. Kinda sucks cuz he dies not too long after. After he wakes up he’s very much so pissed about everything (Especially the fact that he still has tits) Anyway, a few months after being in life pt2 the electric boogalo he goes up to literary anyone he knows that can use a knife and not fuck up and asks them to yeet his teetes. So his scars are kind funky. Don’t get me wrong his chest looks great and is not misshapen in anyway, but the scars are kinda funky.

Jason Todd needs glasses

If seen some art and fanfics where he has reading glasses and it always makes my brain feel fuzzy/pos. But here me out, what if this boy just needs glasses. Like hes not blind af but its to a point that if he doesn't have contacts in everything is slightly fuzzy. his eyes were fine before the pit, but now they’re just slightly fucked. He usually has contacts in (cuz glasses don’t exactly fit under his helmet) but he does were his glasses when he isn’t on parole or is just chilling. makes for a good disguise though because not many people know he needs glasses.

Jay Hates the taste of blood (TW mentions of: Blood, Puking, The way Jay died, PTSD.)

Jay HATES when blood get’s in his mouth. If he get’s a nose bleed or a cut on or around his mouth he’ll do everything in his power to not get it in his mouth.

When he has blood in his mouth it makes him think about how he died cuz ya know he got boinked to death (He doesn’t always get flash backs from this but he does get very uncomfortable whenever he tastes blood.) There’s also a very good chance that he’ll just puke his guts out if the blood sits on his tongue for too long. If his on a mission or parole and has his helmet on he will rip it off to either spit out the blood or so he doesn’t puke in his helmet. 

He also can’t stand the taste of metal but it freaks him out slightly less because it cold and not warm.

Jason colour codes people (TW mentions of: Panic, jay’s death, maybe some PTSD)

I have no clue how to describe why i think he does this but Imma try. So basically when jay dies the last thing he remembers seeing is joker (obviously) but with that comes the fact that The Joker is very colourful. The green purple combo especially made him uncomfortable. so eventually he decided to colour code the people he knows so hopefully he’ll fell less shitty when seeing certain colours. (He either learnt this through a friend/family or from a therapist.)

Red: Tim Drake

Orange: Roy Harper

Yellow: Duke Thomas

Green: Damian Wayne

Blue: Dick Grayson

Purple: Kori (Koriand'r)

Black: Bruce Wayne

White: Alfred Pennyworth

Gray: Bizarro

Green and purple combo still make Jay feel uneasy but he’s a lot better now that he does this.

That’s all I can think of rn but i may add more at a later date. If you wanna share your HCs with me I’d love to read them!! That’s all for now until next time!!

[kharmii]

*sigh*

When you thought things have cooled off again someone has to whack the anti-beehive yet again and call out pro shippers 😑

Hope nothing is thrown in your way but I am truly amazed by how well you deal with this here! Really if I wasn’t so terrified of being targeted with harassment not only supporting you (even if my thoughts on shipping are a little bit different <not into ships but everyone should be free to ship whatever if it’s making them happy and they don’t actively hurt others>) but also agreeing with you on so many topics that you’ve shared.

I know there must be more people out there just too afraid of the harassment that they could receive but agreeing as well! Keep up the good fight and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise!

I knew it! I knew there had to be some sort of drama going on somewhere I didn't know about. This morning, somebody sent me this message out of the blue that said, "You're disgusting. Don't reblog my art. Being autistic doesn't make you a terrible person." They then blocked me. This individual is a Volo artist who does reasonably good sketches but not good on backgrounds. I habitually reblogged their stuff because they are a committed Volo fanatic.

Out of curiosity, I went on the Volo Nation Discord to ask this person what that message was all about. I jokingly said something like, "The sneaky little spiders of the SJW whisper network must have started some drama. The traffic on my blog ebbs and flows because of this, and now recently, I'm at a descent". Whisper networks would be useful if the women involved called out actual rapists and sexual predators, but amongst the radical left, they're usually petty (fake males) biological females who gossip about people who disagree with them politically.

What do you know, but my intuition was right! -Turns out the message wasn't about autistic people at all. A bunch of them got pissed about my transgendered stance and had a cabal in a locked Discord channel. I got bombarded by the girlies (who will assuredly grow up someday and fall into heteronormative lifestyles) who all had to tell me about how they were 'non-binary' and whatever crap. I told them I was bored and left. When I peeked in just now, I noticed they booted me, which is fine because the algorithm on Twitter is better at throwing me good Volo art.

Srsly tho, transgendered people are BORING. Nobody gives a damn about transgendered people except other transgendered people. Nobody cares about your snowflake gender, unless you are super hot like the God-Emperor of Fuckableness. Then you can say whatever goofy shit you want, like, *flips hair* "I'm Giratina-gendered, and someday I'm going to subjugate the power of Arceus and kill every last mother fucker on this entire planet!" *does cute little skip*

Emmet: *eyes pointing off in different directions* That's really interesting honey! *pats ass* You can do whatever you want, and later you can throw on that cute chiffon tunic with the shoulders cut out so I can run my autistic trains gendered man meat down your subway tunnel. Keep some ice packs handy!

Anyway, where was I. Oh yeah, transgendered people are boring af. It's no wonder people in most of the fandoms I'm in have nothing better to write about than stupid werewolf porn because they can't think of actual good stories. Worrying about genders is the equivalent of how boring people with no personalities have to dye their hair funky colors and get piercings to be interesting. My guy Dabi is like that. His douchebag dad Endeavor didn't let him go to school and build character, so now he had nothing better to talk about than how many piercings he has on his dick, or how he likes to start fires, or how he wants to murder his douchebag dad for ruining his life. At least he isn't so boring all he wants to talk about is his stupid fake gender because he doesn't look like the kind of guy who gives af about what people think of him.

[the-breloominati]

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[bitsandbobsofwriting]

What is everyone’s tell (if they have one) when they lie?

(Headcanon Masterlist) (Full Masterlist)

Oooooooh funky. I only have a solid idea on this for like... a few characters, the rest I'm bullshitting, so feel free to add your own ideas in the tags/comments/reblogs!!

When Merlin is a babey, new to Camelot and confused and naïve and kind of arrogant, he is TERRIBLE at lying, and we all know it. Any tell you can think of? Merlin has it. He speaks too slowly, he ums and ahs, he kind of stares at you wide-eyed? As if to check you're buying whatever it is he's selling? He stutters, he contradicts himself, he either fiddles VERY obviously or stands far too still. So yeah, Merlin has ALL the tells. However, as sad as it is, the more he lies, the better he gets at it, to the point where he doesn't even consciously come up with excuses any more. They just fall out of his mouth automatically, without hesitation or a sweat broken, to the point where he's lying seamlessly to even Gaius and his mother and Lancelot over frankly inconsequential things. He has to catch himself sometimes, and it kind of worries him when he has to backtrack when Lance had asked if he'd eaten already, and his subconscious brain had, for some reason, forced "Yeah, yeah I snacked all afternoon whilst I was shopping for Gaius earlier, so I'm fine." out of his mouth before he realises that... he hadn't been shopping today. And he hadn't eaten. And there is literally no reason to need to lie about that?

I feel like Arthur's tells are kind of subtle, and it takes Merlin a while to figure out what they are. When they're playing cards or any other sort of strategy game, I imagine his face is perfectly trained to stay still, but he'll fiddle with one of his rings or something: softly when he's pleased, and kind of harshly and almost painful-looking when he's frustrated. When he needs to lie in actual verbal conversation, he'll pause, just for a moment, before he speaks. He puts this thoughtful face on as though he's assessing whether the person he's speaking to really needs to know what he's about to tell them, but it's actually a cover so he can give himself a second or two to come up with something. Then he says it in this voice like he's trusting you with something, so you won't question it's validity. And be inclined to keep it to yourself. It's very sneakily manipulative, which is why it takes Merlin like a year to catch on. No one else, bar maybe Leon and Morgana, can reliably tell when Arthur is lying.

Leon gulps. It's not obvious, and he tries not to, but if you happen to be looking at his throat, you'll definitely see it. Honour is sort of his whole thing, so he hates lying, but he also understands that it has its place, so will do it when necessary.

Gaius just freezes slightly and stares with wide eyes for barely a second, before perfectly slipping into a lie. It can be simple of extravagant, but once he gets over that momentary blind-sidedness, his lies are very difficult to detect.

Morgana narrows her eyes VERY slightly, sort of like she's daring you to notice, and then daring you to call her out on it?? Or she'll tilt her head, trying to come off as all innocent, but also still daring you to call her out on it. People rarely do.

Now. Gwaine. Gwaine has no tells, at least everyone had thought so for a very long time. The truth is, his lies are either so obvious and ridiculous that people just roll their eyes and stop questioning him, or are as close to the truth, or some version or part of the truth, that he can get, so he can avoid detection. When he says he was "held up chatting to some lads I used to know" what he actually means is he was briefly captured by a group of bandits he swindled a few years ago, and spent an hour having the shit kicked out of him before he managed to escape, throwing a witty one liner over his shoulder as he ran.

Elyan does something kind of stupidly obvious like pout his lips slightly, BUT he lies so rarely that it doesn't really get noticed for a while. When he doesn't want to answer a question, he'll just raise an eyebrow and very pointedly turn around. He doesn't need to lie if he just ignores you.

Gwen blinks a lot and tilts her head, almost like she's questioning her own excuse?? Sometimes it just comes off as sweet and innocent, most of the time it's quite obvious.

Percival doesn't lie often because he usually gets caught out before the words even leave his mouth. He'll fully freeze, um and ah for a minute, and then stutter his way through a TERRIBLE lie, if he even gets that far. To be fair though, he very rarely has a reason to lie so it's not really a big deal, and if he's about to lie about something, it's probably because he's covering for Gwaine (at which point, Arthur or Leon or whoever will roll their eyes and wave him away because they can't be bothered to deal with it), or he just doesn't want to talk about whatever it is (traumatic past or something, in which case whoever it is just drops it).

I feel like Lancelot is a pretty good liar. He has to cover for Merlin fairly often, and is otherwise a smart and well adjusted adult who can control himself when it comes to big important things. But if it’s something small or stupid or potentially embarrassing (hiding his feelings for example, or pretending he isn’t injured when he is) he’s pretty obvious. It just garners a whole bunch of raised eyebrows until he’s lobster coloured and confesses all.

Mordred doesn’t... lie, per se, he just omits certain truths. Like... he didn’t lie about not being a Druid... it’s just that no one asked. If he doesn’t want to answer something he’ll either A) If it’s one of the knights (other than Leon), just turn around and ignore them, or B) If it’s Arthur, Leon, Morgana, or Merlin, he’ll just clench his mouth closed and look away until someone gives in (it’s him, more often than not, at which point he doesn’t even bother trying to lie, he’ll just tell the truth).

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Hope that was what you’re after anon!! I love you!!!!

[makeste]

BnHA Chapter 334: Horikoshi Apology Chapter

Previously on BnHA: Horikoshi was all, “hey, guess what! Remember Star and Stripe, that new badass female hero character I introduced out of nowhere about six weeks ago, whose super-OP quirk is powerful enough to either end TomurAFO for good, or give him a game-changing upgrade at a critical time right before the final battle? Anyways, so you guys will never guess what I’m about to do to her!” Fandom was all, “are you going to kill her off.” Horikoshi was all, “HOW DID YOU -- okay, fine, whatever, yes. I’m killing her off.” Fandom was all, “( •̀ _•́).” Horikoshi was all, “(・∧・   ).” Fandom was all, “(  ・ _ ・).” Horikoshi was all, “.........whatever, I’m still gonna do it.”

Today on BnHA: Horikoshi is all, “ACTUALLY, STAR REALLY WAS THE GREATEST HERO OF ALL TIME. AND OKAY FINE, I WON’T KILL THE PILOTS, AND ONE OF THEM IS ACTUALLY SUPER HOT. AND HERE’S SALAAM, FOR NO REAL REASON ASIDE FROM HE’S THE FUCKING BEST. AND HERE’S A CREEPY BABY TENKO, AND AN ACTUAL CLIFFHANGER ABOUT AFO THAT FOR ONCE DOESN’T HAVE AN OBVIOUS RESOLUTION. AND HERE ARE YOUR KIDS!! AND A FUNNY KACCHAN FACE! AND A SURPRISE APPEARANCE OF THE WINTER COSTUME EVEN THOUGH IT’S SEASONALLY INAPPROPRIATE! AND MORE DEKU ANGST, BUT THIS TIME TRIO-CENTRIC! THERE, I’VE DELIVERED EVERYTHING YOU COULD POSSIBLY ASK FOR, SO NOW WILL YOU PLEASE GIVE ME YOUR FULL AND UNRESERVED LOVE AND AFFECTION AGAIN.” You son of a bitch. I’m in.

okay Horikoshi, go ahead and get it all out of your system man

one last hurrah of playing around with all of these screentones and funky line widths and shit. fine. but then we really have to go back. it has been seven weeks. your other characters are wondering what happened to you. “say guys, whatever happened to Horikoshi?” “oh, he said he was going out for cigarettes.” “seriously? that was like seven weeks ago”

seriously man. hasn’t Deku already been through enough?? are you really gonna abandon him too? just like HIS DAD?? Deku where are you buddy. I need you to come over here and give Horikoshi the Guilt Trip Eyes

(ETA: holy shit it worked.)

lmao what the fuck

what the hell. does Tomura have wings now?? or is that the Noumu?? which just happens to have Tomura’s head now for some inexplicable reason?? and is spewing lightning everywhere for bonus incomprehensibility?

oh wait lol I scrolled down three inches and the narration is all “yeah so Tomura has wings now” WELL OKAY THEN

lol so he’s just zooming off all panicked like FUCK FUCK FUCK I NEED TO GIVE THIS TO SOMEONE ELSE FUCKING SHIT FUCK

and he’s heading for... is that his tropical island hideout?? no fucking way you guys. no way that the Spinner theory is actually going to come true. right??

(ETA: our little lizard buddy lives another day. on a related note, r.i.p. to our very short-lived new friend Kashi Kashiko.)

okay so the next page is just more of Star’s vestige intimidating the shit out of TomurAFO, and Tomura/AFO bitching about how YET AGAIN, All Might somehow symbolically showed up to ruin his day

yes yes, more flying panels yes okay we get it. so he’s running and they’re chasing him

but now they’re being blown away by some kind of shockwave or something? okay

FUCK YEAH MAN. LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK

okay real talk, I’m glad at least one character finally acknowledged that S&S was leagues above All Might and who are we even kidding. that said, maybe next time we can get a moment like this before you brutally kill the character off for the sake of furthering TomurAFO’s character development. does that make sense? do you understand where you went wrong here, Horikoshi? are you taking notes?

oH MY GOD we are finally transitioning away from this battle holy shit. A CHANGE OF SCENERY AT LONG LAST

lol okay, so these two new characters are just chilling out and trying to watch some TV, and also just as an aside one of them is wanted for fucking murder

“anyway so that’s a brief two-sentence summary of my life up till this point. hope you enjoyed that, my companionable Fellow Murder-Person or whoever you are. anyways but yep, things are really starting to look up. I just hope nothing ludicrous and improbable happens to ruin it all, like for instance a crazy guy with monster wings suddenly crashing through the wall like the Kool-Aid Man and melting my brain by giving me a cursed-ass quirk”

LMAO

OHHHHHHHH YEAHHHHHHH

lol that was perfect. so this is what it feels like to be on the same page as the mangaka for the first time in almost two months. thank you Horikoshi I will cherish this

aaaaaaand here we go

so what exactly is the deal here. he gets to keep New Order but in exchange he lost almost all of his other quirks? I mean it’s better than nothing, don’t get me wrong

hahaha what

(ETA: don’t wanna badmouth the typesetters here, because they’re doing this shit for free every week just out of devotion to the fandom. that said, ngl, I totally read this at first as “still willing to help each other and they will surely the will of a hero...” lol.)

S&S: [shows up 328 chapters late to the party] [proceeds to become the main character for six weeks, most of which are spent finding increasingly outrageous ways to punch TomurAFO in the face] [casually tries to kill TomurAFO with some cruise missiles] [deliberately lets her quirk get stolen so that she can wipe TomurAFO’s Quirk HDD clean from the inside out] [melts into a giant floating skull and calls him a nameless punk] [flips the double bird and vanishes into the night]

huh. just... huh

well, whatever else, she certainly Came and Saw. and I guess time will tell if she also Conquered. I hope she did! please at least let her sacrifice play stay relevant. that’s all I’m asking at this point

anyway so AFO is all “WHATEVER, I LIVED, BITCH” because he doesn’t want to admit that he totally got his ass kicked by A GIRL omg. how embarrassing. sure hope nobody was watching

DSLKJSDFWERGJSLFKHGJ WHLAKJFSLD

THIS FUCKING SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME. THIS FIVE-YEAR-OLD CHILD’S FACE APPEARING OUT OF NOWHERE SURROUNDED BY SO MANY CREEPY HANDS THAT IT’S OVERKILL EVEN FOR HIM. WHY ARE YOU STARING INTO MY SOUL LIKE THAT

AND NOW WE’RE CUTTING AWAY JUST LIKE THAT LOL OKAY THEN. YOU HAVE FUN PONDERING THAT SPEECH THEN TENKO

oh my goddddddd we’re finally cutting away from the battle holy shit. WE SURVIVED, YOU GUYS. HOW IS EVERYONE. IT’S BEEN SO LONG

OMG WELCOME BACK YOU FUCKING LOSERS

I’D ASK WHAT YOU WERE BUSY DOING THIS ENTIRE TIME, BUT I ALREADY KNOW THE ANSWER IS “ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.” IT’S BECOMING A TRADITION OMG

DYING FROM THE SECONDHAND AWKWARDNESS OF IMAGINING THE HAWKSQUAD HAVING TO BREAK THE NEWS OF HOW THEY TRIED TO CALL IN A FAVOR FROM AMERICA’S COOLEST BESTEST BADDEST SUPERHERO AND IMMEDIATELY GOT HER FUCKING KILLED SMDH. “FROM THE BOTTOM OF OUR HEARTS, OUR BAD”

OH SO NOW SHE’S HERALDED AS THE STRONGEST HERO HUH

ONCE AGAIN, SO GLAD THIS IS ALL HAPPENING POSTHUMOUSLY. IT REALLY IS AN HONOR. VERY MEANINGFUL TO BE ACKNOWLEDGED

omfg it’s Salaam

you guys. the last time we saw him I hadn’t seen movie 3 yet and so he didn’t leave any kind of impression on me. but now that I have seen the film, let me just put it out into the world that I fucking love Salaam and he is the greatest meme hero to ever walk the earth. sorry Jeanist, it’s time to give up the crown. you had a good run

anyway and he’s right, too. the fuck do these guys think is going to happen if they just abandon Japan now. supposing AFO wins, do you think he’s just going to stop there? “not my country not my problem” is all well and good right up until it does become your fucking problem, and by then it’s already too late

but you know how it is though. governments gonna government

whatever. more importantly, holy shit

holy hell my man. that pilot helmet was not doing you any favors. please never put it on again. can we get this man and Naomasa and Aizawa all together in the same room and have them all just standing next to each other you guys. no particular reason, I just think Horikoshi owes me after all of that bullshit lol

anyway so the hot pilot guy is now explaining that their fighter jets were recording the battle, and so they have all kinds of cool data and shit which they’ll be happy to share with All Might and the rest

man I really want to see them actually sit down and watch that video lol. “okay so this is the part where Star turned into a giant and made a sword out of lasers and stabbed Shigaraki with it. and this is the part where we were all ‘fuck it’ and dialed up some hypersonic cruise missiles”

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

“THAT FREAK” OMG SAY NO MORE. ONLY ONE CHARACTER IN THIS SERIES COULD TAKE SUCH AN OTHERWISE NORMAL SENTENCE AND EFFORTLESSLY THROW IN THAT “FREAK” PART TO MAKE IT CRUDE LOL. SHOW ME MY SON, BELOVED MANGA

EYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

it’s really bothering me that there was no simple way to crop that last panel out (which, nothing against All Might, I just want to put the focus where it belongs right now) because of the other two panels being connected by Kacchan’s spiky hair which I have missed so fucking much. eh whatever it’s fine

“MORE IMPORTANTLY,” Horikoshi says as he brazenly strolls back in from the doghouse, “I BELIEVE YOU WERE SAYING SOMETHING ABOUT FORGIVING ME IF I PROVIDED YOU WITH A NEW HILARIOUS KACCHAN FACE” okay first of all, I didn’t say I would forgive you, I said I would let you out of the time-out corner. and second of all... dammit

HOMG IT’S THE KIDS

TIME TO OVERANALYZE THIS EXTREMELY UNFINISHED BLOB OF A PANEL BECAUSE THAT’S HOW DEPRIVED I AM OF GOOD WHOLESOME 1-A CONTENT

THEY’RE ALL WEARING THEIR HERO COSTUMES BUT SOME OF THEM LOOK TO BE IN CASUAL MODE? OJIRO ARE YOU NOT WEARING A SHIRT?? AND JIROU TOOK HER JACKET OFF BECAUSE SHE WAS HOT OR SOMETHING I GUESS? AND OCHAKO ROCKING SOME KIND OF NEW “IMMA JUST THROW A FLANNEL OVER IT FOR THE AESTHETIC” SORT OF LOOK WHICH I’M ALL IN ON?

WINTER COSTUME? IN THE MIDDLE OF APRIL? IT’S MORE LIKELY THAN YOU THINK. AND NO GAUNTLETS EITHER?? ARE WE OFFICIALLY BACK IN THE GOOD TIMELINE

DON’T KNOW WHY BUT TODOROKI’S PANTS SEEM BAGGIER THAN USUAL AND NOW I’M HAVING THIS IMAGE OF HIM TRYING TO BORROW A PAIR OF PANTS FROM BAKUGOU. “HEY BAKUGOU CAN I BORROW YOUR PANTS.” “HAAAAAAAAAAAH?”

DID IIDA’S COSTUME GET TOO DAMAGED FOR HIM TO WEAR, OR WAS HE JUST LIKE “FUCK IT, I, IIDA TENYA, HAVE DECIDED THAT IF I’M GOING TO PUT MY LIFE ON THE LINE FIGHTING ALONGSIDE MY FRIENDS IN AN APOCALYPTIC BATTLE AGAINST A DEMIGOD SUPERVILLAIN, THEN I MIGHT AS WELL BE COMFY”

“WELL SAID, IIDA,” KAMINARI CHIMES IN WHILST ROCKING HIS SOFT KNIT CASUAL V-NECK

“MEH,” SAYS HORIKOSHI, SHAKING OUT HIS SORE WRIST. “THE TRUTH IS I PUT MOST OF MY SPOONS INTO ALL OF THOSE SCREENTONES EARLIER, AND THEN USED UP THE LAST OF THEM ON THE KACCHAN FACE. WHATEVER, TOKOYAMI DOESN’T REALLY NEED LEGS ANYWAY. AND KOUDA, SHOUJI, AND MOMO ONLY NEED ONE EACH. LET’S SEE... SERO... TSUYU... IT’S ENOUGH IF JUST DRAW THEIR HEADS, RIGHT?”

IS HAGAKURE EVEN HERE OR IS SHE BUSY TRAITORING. I DON’T SEE AOYAMA HERE EITHER. I ONLY COUNT FIFTEEN CHILDREN IN TOTAL WHERE ARE THE REST OF THEM

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, GOOD ON YOU KIDS FOR BURNING DEKU’S COSTUME OFFSCREEN. IT WAS THE RIGHT CALL. I’M PROUD OF YOU

OH NO I FINALLY SCROLLED DOWN AFTER TEN YEARS, AND

I fucking can’t. USE THIS TIME TO GET THIS KID SOME THERAPY I’M BEGGING YOU

WOOOOOO, YESSS, ALL RIGHTTTTTTTTTTTT

I’m not gonna analyze the conventional run-of-the-mill trio pose cliffhanger panel. I am not going to fucking analyze the conventional run-of-the-mill trio pose cliffhanger panel. I am not... ah fuck

Todoroki unbuckled his neck strap thingy because it’s casual day lol. as usual your face gives away absolutely nothing. just as handsome as ever though. good to see you

KACCHAN WHY DO YOU LOOK SO WORRIED WHILE LOOKING DIRECTLY AT DEKU COME ON MAN. YOU CAN’T JUST SHOW UP AFTER TWO MONTHS AND DO ME LIKE THIS I HAVE A FAMILY. PLEASE STOP MURDERING ME WITH YOUR OPENLY SOFT GAZES

DEKU LOOKS SO DETERMINED AND ALSO SO ANXIOUS AT THE SAME TIME SOMEHOW? I THINK IT’S SOMETHING TO DO WITH THE ADDED LINES DRAWN AROUND HIS EYES? LIKE THEY GIVE HIM THIS SUBTLE KIND OF WORN, STRESSED-OUT LOOK. HE REALLY DOES LOOK LIKE SOMEONE WHO’S BARELY SLEPT AT ALL FOR THE PAST HOWEVER-LONG-IT’S-BEEN-SINCE-JAKKU-I-LOST-TRACK. ANYWAY BUT HE IS ONLY JUST A LTTLE BOY STILL, AND HE’S GOT THE FATE OF THE WORLD RESTING ON HIS SHOULDERS, AND HE’S JUST LIKE “OKAY” BECAUSE HE’S A GOOD FUCKING KID, AND BECAUSE WHAT THE FUCK ELSE IS HE SUPPOSED TO SAY, BUT HE’S ACTUALLY STILL UNDER SO MUCH STRESS, AND OH MY GOD. WHY DO YOU KEEP TORMENTING HIM LIKE THIS HORIKOSHI

anyways omg. I am so full of energy right now. literally all he did was hide the kids from us for two fucking months and then bring them back for like two pages and I’m over the fucking moon about it lmao. this manga has me fucking whipped

but what can I even say though. “glimmer of hope on the horizon” haha, fuck yeah

[itsclydebitches]

I really haven't been paying attention because apparently season 2 of the Witcher is out. Like now. I went to Netflix randomly and there it was. Here's hoping its good.

No idea if you two are the same anon or not, but you're getting paired up!

Spoilers below.

Yeah, the only reason I didn't lose track is because I follow a couple of Witcher blogs and reminders have popped up on my dash the last few days. And I'm glad one of us is enjoying it! I'm in a 50/50 split so far regarding season two, as I've only watched the first two episodes. I thought "A Grain of Truth" was great. Yeah, there were changes, but they still fit the overall thematic questions (which I think is the key to a faithful adaptation) and I love everything they did with the bruxa. From the Exorcist walk around Ciri's bedroom to using echolocation in her bat form, I think her characterization was both entertaining and struck a nice balance between "Holy shit this is a dangerous monster I shouldn't trust" and "Is she really something to instinctively fear simply because she's different?" Good stuff there.

"Kaer Morhen" on the other hand... good god, where do I even begin. Eskel is a completely different character. Just nothing like his book or game counterpart. And I know this is a minor issue for some people, but his scars are a pretty defining characteristic, both in terms of how he got them and how they've impacted his sense of self, and when the trailer dropped there was some disgruntlement over how non-disfiguring they were. Well, in the actual episode the lighting is so dark I could barely even see that there were scars at all. If I hadn't been looking for them I likely would have missed they were there at all, outside of maybe a, "Oh yeah. A witcher. Witchers have some wounds yeah?" reaction.

He's rude. He brash. He's cursing at Ciri instead of trying to make her feel comfortable because he knows he's intimidating. He lasts for a grand total of one episode. Eskel arrives at the keep, goes back out (??), and brings a whole slew of prostitutes with him because... dragging a ton of women up the insanely dangerous looking, snow covered mountain to a place that Geralt just told Ciri is kept mostly hidden since the massacre makes perfect sense? But it's fine because they took something (???) that'll make them forget everything in the morning. They exist only to a) die and b) tell Ciri that women are meant to run when things get rough, so that she can be positioned as the outlier who stands her ground and stays. After they're all forgotten Eskel turns into a Leshen (because that's canonical) and is killed by Geralt while attacking Vesemir. And it's not even in a cool, "You really had to do it" kind of way. I mean Geralt stands there for a looooong moment debating, after Vesemir has just told Eskel that they need time to try and cure him, when Geralt could have just cut the branches holding Vesemir like they've been doing this whole fight. But nah we kill him and before he dies Eskel admits that he came back because he thought Geralt could help him, which both rubs salt into this needless wound and begs the question of why Eskel didn't tell them anything worthwhile. I mean yeah, there's this implication that whatever part of him was already Leshen was hiding his affliction out of self-preservation, but then why draw attention to the strange battle in the first place? Eskel comes back and everyone is like, "Oh yeah, a seasoned witcher with sword skills to match Geralt took 6 hours to kill a Leshen and just forgot to use fire. Classic Eskel!" Why not just have Eskel acting like everything is fine and then Geralt discovers something funky in the limb that tips him off? As it stands, both scenes don't accomplish a thing. The witchers randomly shrug off this anomaly and Geralt doesn't find anything because he's distracted by prostitutes arriving.

I've said this before, but I don't think Netflix would be in so much hot water if they'd just admitted that they were doing Witcher fanfic from the start. But advertising this as an authentic adaptation and making changes that, for most, make the series worse is just a bad combo. I don't even like most of the books. There are plenty of things I'd like to change in those... but none of that is what Netflix has done. They keep taking the things that do work, that are the heart of the story, and twisting them for seemingly no reason. At this point it's not a practical matter of, "We can't fit this in because it's a TV show and we have limited time" or "We couldn't recreate this because of budget or safety reasons." They're just making huge changes for reasons I personally can't fathom.

If I didn't know anything else about the Witcher franchise I would have had no problem with this version of Eskel. Random side character becomes a monster for the witchers to fight? Sure, that's cool! Why would I care about him outside of that? But as someone who does know a lot of the lore and, more importantly, knows the character, it's hard not to be frustrated by all this. They took a character who Ciri thought was a monster because of his disfigurements before he reveals himself to be one of the most kind and level-headed witchers... and turned him into a literal monster. Why? I'd really love a peek into the writer's room to find out what thought process they went through to hit on these changes.

[multi-lefaiye]

HELLO. VOIDWALKERS?

HI YES I HAVE VOID-WALKER INFORMATION FOR YOU!!!

I just got out of a VERY exciting campaign session, which doesn't have anything to do with void-walkers, but I just wanted to share that.

Anyway, I have a new void-walkers development for you, and that development is that I'm starting to narrow down the supernatural abilities that void-walkers have!

I think I might've mentioned this previously, but void-walkers have funky powers based on a wide variety of factors, such as how successful the ritual was and also when it was performed. I haven't worked out all the nitty-gritty of that, but I have some ideas.

(And I'm starting to think it might work best to have it be a power system where powers are... not necessarily UNIQUE to each character but there's so many possibilities that it's hard to narrow down what each void-walker can do for the most part, it's just a matter of how powerful they are.)

So generally the powers void-walkers have are limited to like. Supernatural type shit, not any kind of physical superpower type things. So you're not gonna get a void-walker with super strength or shapeshifting (as much as I love shapeshifting). I'm just gonna list some powers that my void-walker OCs so far have:

Juno is telepathic, allowing them to glimpse into the minds of those around them and also "speak" telepathically to others. Unfortunately, their telepathy is very unstable and they can't peer very deeply into others' minds unless they're really concentrating. Generally, they only see surface-level thoughts. (Also this ability is extremely overwhelming and they can't turn it off, so they get overstimulated around large crowds easily.)

Asher is one of the stronger void-walkers around so I think she has multiple abilities, but her main one is that she can look at another void-walker and say "no" and completely nullify whatever power they have for a time. Juno can't read her mind, for one thing, and she can just decide to "turn off" Juno's powers for a bit (which she does whenever they have to be around a lot of people, so her friend isn't too overwhelmed). Asher doesn't really advertise that she can do this, but she can! It has its limits (like I think she can only limit one person's powers at a time), but still.

Aeneas essentially has fucky mind-control powers, wuh-oh! She can't completely take control of another person, but she can very strongly influence them to do her will, and they're 100% aware that they're being controlled the whole time but they can't do anything about it. This doesn't work on other void-walkers, but it works very well on humans.

Apollo is telekinetic, but its telekinesis is very limited and generally speaking it can't lift objects that are over five pounds. However, it can lift a bunch of objects at once, as long as those objects are less than or equal to five pounds total. (If Apollo REALLY concentrates, it can lift heavier things, but that takes a lot of energy so uh. That's pretty rare.)

[Redacted Bastard Man] can quite literally drain the energy and life force of those around them. I haven't developed this ability too much just yet, but it's a large reason why even other void-walkers don't like being around him. Actually while typing this I just got the idea that it could very much relate to touch--physically touching others (as in skin-to-skin contact) allows this character to drain energy from those around him, which he can then use for whatever bullshit he wants. That's very similar to the main antagonist of an old kinda-sorta-WIP I haven't touched in a while, though, so. Hm. Will have to think about that.

Jason actively tries to ignore everything about him that is affected by him being a void-walker, so I'm thinking a lot of his story would center around the fact that he doesn't know what abilities he has and not only is he afraid to ask but he's simply not going to ask. He doesn't know what's happening and he is perfectly fine not finding out. Jason just wants to get through his week and watch sad romance movies while crying on the couch.

Anyway this took longer to type up than I thought it would!

[in-tua-deep]

Hufflepuff Five is so good! Are the Hargreeves lives as students as adventurous like the main crew from HP? What about the Ministry of Magic? Would they get involved if someone caught wind of the sibling’s powers that weren’t just magic?

Their lives are SO wack honestly like, they just vibe. They just are going through their magical youth being absolute feral children who don’t trust adults as far as they can throw them while trying to hide their weird funky powers and also ravenously going through magical feats like they’re going out of style

Luther is every sibling’s go-to practice partner because apparently durability extends to being like? Slightly magic resistant? Basically if you hit Luther with a spell it will only be like, maybe half power? So the siblings use him as a magical shield half the time and an experiment the other half and Luther just Suffers Through This until it all goes wrong and he ends up as a werewolf, oops

(But at least Ben is alive! Honestly the only reason Luther wasn’t straight up mauled to death was a combo of his durability, Ben’s proficiency in healing magic, and Ben managing to befriend the acromantulas)

(Luther eventually gets a sense of humor about this after long years of working on accepting himself and constantly threatens to bite his siblings or makes comments about them looking extra tasty when they irritate him)

Allison is a quidditch star, super popular and athletic as all hell. She probably ends up being the Slytherin team captain, honestly. Allison is all glamor and charisma and in her later years of hogwarts has an absolute blast. Allison is very much functional passing so she’s usually the front man to get the professors off their backs, but she also is the front man for a lot of the shit that the family sell for extra spending money. Five and Ben might make potions, but Allison rules the underground black market in slytherin with an iron fist (which gets them into shenanigans involving other kids who Owe Debts)

Diego is on the gryffindor quidditch team and so him and Allison are constantly at each other’s throats on the pitch (Allison sometimes rumors him during matches when she gets within earshot which makes all of the siblings yell at him but she maintains that he gets to use his stupid powers to score points so she should get to as well). Diego gets roped into everything because he’s super soft. He starts a lot of fights because he has vigilante genes so he serves a lot of detentions. His house tolerates him losing them points because the man is a wizard with a quaffle

(Diego and Allison actually practice a lot together, which their respective teams are like HMMMM over but they’re siblings and slytherin knows that Allison would never hesitate to knock Diego off his broom and wave cheerily as he falls to his death, and gryffindor is aware that Diego can, should, and must throw a ball directly at Allison’s dumb face if she gets too close to him because of the Cain Instinct)

(Honestly Allison and Diego do a LOT for interhouse unity, showing that you can still be ride or die for each other while also wanting greatly to kill each other uwu)

Ben is too independent for his own good, which is what gets him into trouble. He likes gardening, and he likes herbs, and sometimes he’s just GOTTA go into the forbidden forest on a full moon to gather these very specific ingredients, c’mon. He also just. Likes spending time in the forbidden forest. He’s Hagrid’s favorite student because he doesn’t bat an eye at all the weird magical creatures, bc homeboy got an eldritch horror in his navel. Ben makes friends with the acromantulas (who have a healthy respect for him after the Horror ate a few of them), patiently avoids the centaurs, and bribes the pixies into giving him their shed wings through liberal application of jam stolen from the Hogwarts kitchens. 

You know what Allison is functional passing and Ben is distinguished passing, all their teachers assume that Ben is the most put together of them but they’re WRONG. They haven’t seen Ben at two in the morning yanking Vanya out of ben because if they don’t break into greenhouse four and help those poor fucking plants the first years are tending to they’re all going to DIE and that’s not fair??? ben is single handedly going to save all those poor plants (and all those first year’s grades)

Vanya is just VIBING, he ends up coming out as trans in fourth year and gets to be roommates with Ben which is pretty sweet. If only Ben didn’t drag him into shenanigans?? All the teachers are like “ah yes Vanya, such a quiet boy not like his siblings at all” but Vanya can will should and must climb onto the roof of the astronomy tower to play his violin because He Just Likes To Be Tall. Vanya once punched a snobby ravenclaw kid in the nose and then stared them down saying “the teachers will never believe you.”

Vanya steals Luther to practice his powers with in unused classrooms the most?? he’s durable. he’ll be fine if Vanya blasts him into a wall with his powers lol

Vanya’s solution to all their problems is “do you want me to blow it up with my powers?” or “do you want me to kill them for you?” 

(All of the siblings now refuse to duel with Vanya except for Luther bc Vanya is RUTHLESS. He WILL murder his siblings (almost) given the chance. They’re all so lucky that Ben is so good at healing and carries extra vials of healing potions on his person otherwise Madame Pomfrey would be VERY CONCERNED)

Five and Klaus probably get into the most shenanigans? Klaus gets less and less afraid of ghosts the more he runs into nice ones like Fred Weasley. Fred also lovingly nurtures Klaus’s absolutely terrible sense of humor and encourages him to prank the whole school. Klaus knows ALL the secret passageways thanks to Fred, a previous owner of the Maurauder’s map, so he’s just like. Constantly in the walls. He once dropped out of the ceiling to get to transfiguration in time and nobody even commented on it because Klaus is just Like That.

(A few people see Klaus’s boney elbows and knobbley knees and thinks he’s a good target for bullying just because he’s a slytherin and interhouse awfulness absolutely it at an all time high so recently after the war. YEAH his siblings step in and put the fear of god into any bullies, but Klaus fights like a cornered raccoon.)

Five is just way too smart and curious for his own good. He likes to poke around, figure things out, and also make money. Five does people’s homework, charges them for potions or rune work, tutors, dismantles shit in the chamber of secrets, ALSO explores the secret passageways (and finds some that weren’t on the map), is lovingly bullied into Friendship Activities with his housemates, breaks into the other houses’s common rooms for funsies, and keeps getting fed by the house elves who found out he can ‘apparate’ like them (without a wand) and have apparently adopted him against his will

Five is the sibling who has his fingers in like. ALL the pies. and just constantly pops up and drags them into things. Five will be helping Klaus with potions homework then glance up and tell Diego he’s cashing in the favor he’s owed for carving runes into Diego’s knives and that Diego now gets to break into Douglas Eddington’s room to steal back Lana Delwich’s diary so that Five can trade it to Lana for her rare Solomon Babik chocolate frog card which Five can give to Barnaby Beeson in exchange for a Large Distraction of Five’s Choice and a sketchy book on ward breaking which Five needs so he can break into the headmaster’s office to get a confiscated dark magic book that has some information Five needs to alter a potion that he’s probably going to make Luther drink later

Five is the sibling who is like “Ugh, I thought I was trading for some nundu ingredients but now i have a Whole Baby Nundu in the basement :/”

Which, of course, Klaus wants to keep despite the poison breath.

“This is literally one of the most dangerous magical creatures, we are not keeping it.” Luther says, unimpressed. However, he definitely has it cradled in his arms and makes kissy faces at it when he thinks no one is looking. (Apparently baby toxic nundu breath only makes Luther sneeze, so there’s that?)

“If you guys are arrested for smuggling I am not bailing you out.” Is Allison’s only decree about the matter.

Honestly I wouldn’t be shocked if someone DID eventually find out about one of the siblings’ powers - however, they would come to entirely the wrong conclusion about them?? Because this is a world of MAGIC and so everything magical has to have a magical explanation, right???

Luther is durable as all fuck???? Uhhhhh maybe he has some like. Troll blood or giant blood something back in his family line, obviously not something he would ever want the world to know about bc of species-ism

Allison can make you do whatever you want with her words????? Maybe she’s part veela? With that charm appeal?

Five is doing. Wandless apparation?? I mean, that’s rare as FUCK but wandless magic is,,, grudgingly accepted though it’s usually only used for small or very familiar spells and not usually something as complex as apparation but OKAY just sit him down and forbid him from doing it anymore bc boy boutta be SPLICED or some shit

Klaus can. Klaus can talk to ghosts. Who are not full ghosts. Hmm. huh. Maybe it’s?? A family ability??? a super rare one? like being a metamorphagus? (What the fuck??????? what the FUCK???????)

Primarily the kids started off paranoid because they believed that their abilities indicated that they weren’t the same type of magic, and they didn’t want to be returned to their father, and then it progressed into “these abilities might make people scared of us (looking at you allison, with your imperius-ass abilites)” or “we can’t afford that kind of scrutiny or curiosity about our powers (they might find out luther is a werewolf or something idk)” and “if we are ‘desirable’ children with ‘rare abilities’ the government might try to split us up and adopt us into weird pureblood families or something OR might try to lock us up (like where would they even put Ben??)”

honestly if ben ever got found out he’d just deadpan “it’s a curse, hand me the black wormroot would you?” and be like “oh yeah it’s under control i just go vibe in the woods every so often and rip up a tree or something. I think the horror wants to be the whomping willow when it grows up actually, so just don’t get too close when i’m in the horror zone. if you can live with a murder tree on campus you can live with me on campus”

someone sees vanya fuck something up with his powers and is like ???? and Vanya is just like “accidental magic lol” 

“aren’t you... a bit... old for accidental magic...”

“accidental. magic.”

[trulymadlysydney]

1/ ok long anon :) back longer than ever ! because was there one time Harry was seen at like a western bar? or a bar that had a mechanical bull and he rode it ?? Then left with a girl? did that actually happen am I making that up? Anyways Harry’s in the middle of his American tour and has a 3 day break before his next show on Friday. And let’s pretend he’s somewhere around Nashville, or down further south near Dallas or Houston, or maybe west near Phoenix, or could be up in Boston, anyways point is, it’s Tuesday night and Harry just wants to find a place to have a beer at an actual bar with his band and some of the crew, and hopefully not be center of attention for a moment. And the bar he manages to make his way into isn’t packed whatsoever, but still has a nice crowd of what seems to be older locals, there for open mic night/karaoke. He and the band manage to make their way in to go sit at a booth tucked away and if any of the patrons do spare a look at him, it’s not really at him, but more so at his funky multicolored cardigan. And Harry’s having a great time just being able to be out drinking and having a good time with his friends, just laughing over stories told, pausing to listen to whoever is up at the mic if they catch his ear. Harry suggests another round of drinks, and he walks up to where you’re behind bar in a pair of Levi’s shorts, head turned away as you’re filling up a glass from the tap, and as if you could sense someone there behind you, you’re already saying “I’ll be with you in a second” without even turning around. And when you hear a “take your time” in an accent that’s definitely not from one of your usual crowd, you quickly look over your shoulder and just as quickly turn back to the tap because holy shit…it’s actually Harry Styles at this bar of all places. And as you turn to take the drink you poured to the patron at the corner of the bar, Harry gets an actual look at you and thinks to himself oh wow…she’s pretty. Really, really pretty even in this low lighting. And as you slide your way back over to him, you ask “what can I get you?” in the most calm cool collected way you can manage. And maybe it’s the alcohol or maybe it’s because he’s naturally a menace, but Harry says “your name” with a slight grin. And you won’t lie, hearing that from Harry Styles did make your heart start pumping faster, and a smirk starts to make its way to your mouth that Harry catches, but is shaken away as you roll your eyes because men really are the same no matter who they are and you respond “it’s y/n. Now seriously, what can I get you? They don’t look it, but this crowd can get rowdy if they don’t get their drinks in time even if I tell them that it was a young big shot rock star decided to hold up the line” And there it is. The little weight that settled on your shoulders for a second lifted because you know that he knows and he knows that you know who he is. But you also can’t help but notice the little bit of hurt that crossed Harry’s face when you responded. And Harry, he’s a little taken back by your sharp response, mouth dropped, but not so much shocked that you know who he is (he’s not conceited just knows how relevant/big he is). And he doesn’t know what it is whether it’s the fact that you’re so pretty, or the fact you tried to play it cool (the shocked-knowing glance you made at him when you thought he didn’t notice turns out was noticed) the alcohol, or the slight bite in your response, but he turns to look back at the booth with his friends and notices that they’re so deep into conversations and laughs and (some even dancing with some of the older patrons) honestly, haven’t noticed that Harry’s been gone for a moment. He looks back to you and says “Y/N” (that rolls nice off his lips), “I’m sorry, I’ll have one of whatever is on tap.” And you nod as you turn to pour his drink while Harry decides to settle in and take a seat at the bar. And when you place his drink on the table, he goes “Seriously, I’m sorry if I offended you or made you uncomfortable in anyway.”

2/ And you notice how genuine he sounds right now, and you were neither offended or uncomfortable, just more shocked that Harry Styles is asking for your name. You tell him “it’s fine, really, just wasn’t expecting /that/ from you. Anyways, what managed to bring you all the way over here?” And that’s how you two started talking about everything really even as you excused yourself to fill orders, the conversation was easily jumped back into. Harry told you of how he’s been on tour and just needed to feel like a person and you told him about yourself. How you took up bartending because you’re starting grad school in the fall and little stories about the old timey crowd that like to inhabit this place. Like how behind the dingy curtain on the little stage, there’s actually a mechanical bull that is hardly ever used now because too many drunk old people nearly breaking a hip trying to live out their Wild Wild West fantasy. And you both don’t really notice, but as the conversation has gone on, he’s leaned more across the bar as you’ve leaned closer to him as well. Harry’s noticing how your eyes crinkle when you laugh and the mole on your forearm as you stretch to hand people their drinks. And your beautiful doesn’t go missed by the kind elderly guests who he can hear make comments on how “you get prettier every time I see you y/n” And you’re really smart. When you told him what you’re going to grad school for, and what you’re researching, Harry was reminded how he stopped going to school at 16. And you’re noticing how easy he is to talk to. Surprisingly easy and despite being a huge celebrity, he’s really down to earth, still cocky but charming. He’s also so handsome, strikingly so, especially this close. Anyways, the night has gone on, more of the crowd turning in for the night, and you’re now around the bar, sitting on the stool next to Harry, knees occasionally knocking against each other, still talking. At some point you’re both broken out of whatever trance you’re both under by each other by one of Harry’s friends coming over to tell him that they’re all leaving and you think sadly to yourself that this weird, unexpected, encounter has come to an end. But when you see that Harry hasn’t gotten up from his stool, and he tell them that’s going to stay back and he’ll get a ride back later, something lights up in your belly. As they all wave back at him you send a wave off as well and Harry turns back to you and says “Is that okay with you? I’m honestly having a really great time talking with you.” And you swear steam could come out of your ears and your face is probably beet red right now as a high pitch “no, that’s fine, I’m really having a great time too. But I am going to have to start closing up now, so if you do want to leave…” and Harry is all “oh….well is it okay if I stay as you close up, give you some extra company? I promise I’ll stay out of your way, or I could help, you know?” And he adds with a smile, “Whatever I can do that’ll make you want me to stay, lovely” And that last part makes you smitten really as you nod okay to him. So the bar is now closed, and you’ve been going through your usual closing routine (it’s just you that night since it was Tuesday) and you just can’t believe Harry Styles is here helping you sweep and flip chairs onto tables (“I can help some. I used to be a baker you know?”) And you’ve plugged your phone into the speaker to play your Spotify as you clean and when you hear the opening of Canyon Moon, a shock runs up your spine as you pause mid tabletop wipe down and your eyes move to meet Harry who has looked up mid sweep. And you’re blushing again and stammering an apology of “I am so sorry let me change it” as you rush to your phone to change it as Harry who has gone back to sweeping says “no I like this one” with a grin and looks back to you. And you’re a little relieved but still embarrassed biting your lip as you tell him “yeah i do too” with a returned grin.

3/ And you both go back to cleaning and talking, you’ve both ended up in one of the booths, Your feet brushing against each other under the table as you finish up looking over inventory sheets between asking Harry about his tattoos (his sleeves rolled up,holding his arm out on the table as you admire and you didn’t miss the flex of his hand when you brushed against the one of the holy Bible asking if the placement of the bookmark means anything particular). And at some point Harry looks towards the stage at one point and asks “is there really a bull behind there?” And you told him “yeah and that bull has a name, and it’s Stella by the way named after an actual cow the owner had on a farm as a kid” and now you’re pulling the curtain to reveal, the very intimidating mechanical bull that takes up most of the tiny stage. And Harry’s all “can I ride it?” And you’re all “are you sure? I mean it hasn’t been used in awhile besides my coworkers when we’re fucking around after closing sometimes.” And Harry’s like “yeah it looks like fun.” And that’s how he ended up, on top of the bull, shoes discarded and socked feet, holding on with one hand as the bull bucked and you laughed at first because of how ridiculous he looked, and he’s laughing along with you having the time of his life too, but oh…the way he’s practically grinding against the seat is making you have some really impure thoughts. And you shake your head a little as he’s finally lost his bearings and has fallen off onto the protective padding below laughing his head off. And jokingly you say “23 seconds. And here id thought you’d last longer.”

4/ And Harry catches your shot at his ego as he gains his composure, rising up to where you are at the controls to say “heyyy now. Bet you can’t do better.” And you’re a little insulted at his assumption because you mentioned earlier to him that you and the rest of the workers here will occasionally ride the bull after work for fun and you’d managed stay on the longest several times thanks to your highly strategized technique you’ve developed, as you scoff “oh please I know how to ride” and your eyes widen because you didn’t mean for your response to be that saucy, but Harry is already looking at you with that smirk and says “well, show me how you ride then” and you swallow and agree and after giving harry a rundown on the easy to use controls, you’re perched on the bull. With the bull facing the away, your starting with your back towards Harry, and he can’t help but to notice your ass in your shorts again as it’s slightly arched on the bull with your hand in the air. Once he actually starts up the bull, he realizes how right you were about knowing how to ride. And he didn’t think this was possible but you’ve managed to make this whole activity seem graceful? In the way that you’re going with the motions of the bull. Harry also can’t help but notice how sexy you look up on it too, he can’t help but let his himself imagine you riding him like how you are on the bull right now. You rocking rhythmically back and forth on the saddle. Harry’s glad that he’s behind the controls right now as he reaches to his pants to discreetly adjust himself because he’s getting hard. And your gleeful laughter snaps him out of his dirty thoughts as you make eye contact with him, and it’s a split second but oh did you just see him? adjust himself? Oh… and it breaks you from your concentration as you’re flung from the bull a little harsher than expected onto the padding below. And Harry has exclaimed your name as he has stepped his way into the padding of the bull pen rushing to you as you’re rolled onto your side catching your breath laughing a little because this is, just so crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy that Harry Styles has not only showed up to your bar, but he /likes/ talking to you, he called you lovely and now, he’s hard over you. And Harry is leaned over you, rolling you onto your back, concern on his face, and asking “are you okay?” And you’re still trying to catch your breath as breathless laughs escape you as you tell him “yeah, yeah I’m fine.”

5/ And now you’re close, really close and really looking at each other as Harry goes to sweep some of your hair off your face. And you reach your hand up to softly brush against the bare skin of his tattooless arm. And you’re looking at Harry’s lips as he’s paused his ministrations in your hair looking down at you and smirks “you were right about knowing how to ride.” And a smile spreads across your face, and your eyes are doing that crinkled thing that Harry likes as you reply “oh, you think?” and your hand moves to tug on his collar, to bring him down to your face as you kiss him.

Anndddddd that’s all I’ve got lol.

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BESTIE....... BESTIE OH MY GOD HELLO??? IM SPEECHLESS IM... OMFG HIM BEING A LITTLE NERVOUS? YOU BOTH BEING SO EXCITED TO HANG OUT AFTER HOURS, AND THE REALIZATION THAT LIKE... OH FUCK HE’S ACTUALLY KIND OF INTO YOU... OH MY GOD