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xelpaz · 3 months

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brian wakes up to the phone ringing.

he blinks, letting reality settle over him until he figures out what the noise is.

it takes atleast 10 seconds for him to squint and realize that its the phone across the room thats rattling.

brian groans and turns over, pulling the blankets back over his head in an attempt to block out the noise. he does not want to talk to anyone right now. in fact, he very specifically remembers knocking it off the line because the constant calls had been annoying him.

anita must have put it back on when she came to check on him. one frantic visit from roger had been enough. brian blesses and curses her at the same time.

anita is great. she has been nothing but understanding, a fantastic lover and a friend, and he wouldnt exchange her for the world.

but right now, he really wishes she had left the phone hanging down. he brings his hands up to cover his ears. the tone is grating on his already exhausted nerves, all he wants for whoever is calling him to lay off, to go back to sleep and forget that hes still here.

finally, the ringer goes dead.

he lets out a sigh of relief

it immediately begins to ring again.

brian makes sound of frustration into his sheets. maybe if he squeezes his eyes shut long enough, the incissitent ringing will cease and he can be left alone in his misery in peace.

hes sure it gets louder just to spite him.

he makes it another 15 seconds before he breaks.

"oh for fucks sake-" he rolls and pulls the blankets off and swings his legs over the side of the bed, padding over pick up the reciever.

"what. do you want" he says flatly. hes well aware he sounds bitter but fuck, hes tired. company of any kind from another person is the last thing he wants right now.

even if he kind of needs it. not that he'll ever admit that.

"oh good, youre alive" rogers voice comes out the other end. some far away part of him thinks that he sounds concerned. brian softens a degree. "are you decent? i'm coming over. we're going out. be there in 10"

"what? roger, no-"

the line goes dead. brian curses again.

he really, really, doesnt want to go out. he hasnt showered in 3 days, 10 minutes isnt nearlt enough time to make himself look presentable if he tried, and the thought of having to interact with another person right now makes his arms itch. he'd nearly strangled the last interviewer as it is.

for half a heartbeat he considers just barricading his front door and going back to bed.

not that thats ever stopped roger taylor from getting what he wants.

he rubs his hands down his face. if he was capable of damning roger, he thinks he'd of done so a long time ago. /still/ he thinks. /theres never been a better time then now/.

theres not enough time for a shower so he settles for the cleanest clothes he can find, a damp washcloth scrubbed hastily over his face, and comb through the end of the worst of his curls. at one point, he makes the mistake of looking at himself in the mirror and grimaces.

he looks and feels like death. the meager scraps of self confidence he had have withered away to near nothing. whatever roger has planned have better be damn worth it.

hes pouring himself a drink when the doorknob rattles. a moment later, roger is crossing over the threshhold into his kitchen.

"and where are we even going?" brian asks as he clicks in his seatbelt.

"somewhere."

brian rolls his eyes.

"and what will we be doing?"

"youll see."

"honestly, rog" brian huffs. "if youre going to drag me out of bed /now/ then i think i atleast deserve to know whats going on"

"and you will soon enough." roger doesnt even bother taking his eyes off the road. brian makes a face in his direction, and then turns to watch london pass by.

roger is silent the rest of the drive. it isnt long. within minutes, theyre pulling up in front of a largely unassuming building, save for one thing.

in big letters over the main entrance reads "london psychiatric hospital"

"roger." brian deadpans. "what are we doing here"

"simple. you have an appointment" comes the reply. at last, roger looks at him "i booked you in a few weeks ago"

brian looks at him incredulously. a retort sputters and dies on his tongue. it takes a few tries before he can speak again.

"you what?" he finally manages.

"i booked you in for a therapy appointment. a few, actually. go in and ask for doctor callaghan. dont worry about paying. i did all that already"

brian is looking at roger like hes grown three heads.

"roger." he says at last. "im not going to therapy."

"like hell youre not" he replies flatly. "this is something we should of done for you 20 years ago. youre long overdue for this."

"you cant just-!" brians voice rises up a tick. "i dont need anyone to complain to, i think ive had a very expected reaction to everything going on."

"a normal reaction?" roger hisses. "you think anita finding broken razors in your bathroom is normal? seeing as you wont let me in anymore? you need this, bri. youre not you"

"take me home, roger. im not doing this".

roger swears and kicks under the center console.

"honestly, rog, it isnt that big of a deal so-"

"so what" roger yells, cutting him off. theres fury in his voice. "so you can try to kill yourself again?"

as soon as the words leave his mouth, he deflates. he bangs his head against the steering wheel once, raw frustration. his shoulders are shaking.

"you cant leave me and john alone. not now". this time voice comes out ragged.

brian blinks. theyve all been hurting. he thinks of john, so full of pain that hes retreated where neither of them can reach him. he thinks of cold, empty beds that will never feel truely full again. this has been impossibly hard on all of them, but roger doesnt have an anita or a veronica to fall into. john and brian are the only hearts he has left.

he is he to rob him of another one?

"okay." he says quietly. "what time will i be done"

roger lets out a breathe he hadnt known he'd been holding.

"two hours, give or take. call me when youre done, i'll take you home. if theres not a phone inside, theres one a block away"

"okay"

he sits for another moment and then leans over and presses a small kiss to rogers cheek. this close, he can see rogers eyes flutter close behind his sunglasses.

without another word, he slides out of the car and walks up to the front door.

roger slides a thumb over the place where brians lips touched, and watches him go inside.

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markberries · 4 years

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a l o n e t i m e┊draco malfoy

ALONE TIME — DRACO MALFOY

info: you and the infamous draco malfoy were always at each other’s throats, so when you’re by yourself planning to prank the irritating slytherin, you take this as an opportunity to finally relieve yourself. but of course, things go a little unexpectedly.

warnings: absolute filth, smut smut smUT !! cursing

genre: SMUT, fluff at the end, enemies to lovers, gryffindor!reader word count: 2400+

a/n: ok so like... i got onto dracotok, and decided to write this. it's been awhile so i hope u enjoy!! btw this isnt edited at all (n if u know me irl, no u dont)

god — you absolutely despised draco malfoy.

he reminded you of why you asked the sorting house to not place you into slytherin; he was rude, a smartass, and an asshole.

everyone knew how much you and draco liked to bicker with each other. it's almost as if he knew what got under your skin, or maybe it was because everything he said gave you the urge to tell him to shut up. he would never stop talking about how you would ruin the school's reputation, being an international student from north america.

honestly, arguing with draco had been a regular thing. maybe a few small pranks here and there, but that was only when he had royally pissed you off (it happens quite often). although you did find draco quite attractive, it was completely overlooked by how much of an arse he was.

you sat in the dining hall with your fellow gryffindor students, harry, hermione, and ron. they were the only ones you really talked to, well in your year at least.

from across the room, you locked eyes with draco. you glared at him, then rolled your eyes, focusing your attention back to your three friends.

"seriously y/n, if you want to ace herbology, you're going to need to listen to me," hermione mutters, continuing to go over notes with you.

"sorry, it's just malfoy has been giving me dirty looks, kind of in the mood to punch him right now," you snort, then feeling hermione flick your forehead shortly after. "come on y/n, you can deal with malfoy later."

"how long have you and malfoy been going at each other?" ron asks, "it feels like it's been decades."

you laugh, "it's only been a year, alright? and it's only because he's such an ass."

"me? an ass?" you hear malfoy emitting from behind you, you could practically hear the arrogance dripping from his voice. you roll your eyes, then turn to look at him.

"listen here malfoy," you hiss, "i swear to god, if you don't fuck off, i will personally, beat the shit out of you."

malfoy laughs, looking back at his friends, than back at you. "looks like the pretty girl has a potty mouth," he says through his laughter.

"get out of here malfoy," harry told draco, and draco only replied with the roll of his eyes.

"whatever, potter. see you guys around, and watch yourself, y/n. you never know what's coming."

malfoy leaves after that, and you groan in annoyance. hermione breathes deeply, feeling the same amount of irritation as you.

"how do you put up with his shenanigans? i cannot stand malfoy," ron states, venom lacing his voice when he says malfoy's name.

"well you know," you sigh, "it just never ends. i get him back for doing something to me, and then he does something even worse after, but i don't mind."

harry looks at you with confusion in his eyes, "what do you mean you don't mind? i would definitely mind."

"well," you pause, glancing at draco who is already glaring at you, "i've been thinking. ever wanted to see draco with red hair?"

"oh my god, y/n no! we'll lose a terrible amount of points!" hermione gasps, closing her notebook to convince you that this would be a big mistake.

"it would be worth it," harry chuckles, imagining how draco would react to having gryffindor's colours among his head.

"harry!" hermione snaps.

"by the way y/n, are you coming to the common room party tonight?" ron asks, but you shake your head. "no, i don't think so. i want to prepare for malfoy's new hair do, but i'm sure you will have fun."

"but y/n! i need you there to survive," hermione begs, she's told you before that she was so excited to have another girl in her friend group, if that's what you can call it. she didn't mind being the only girl with ron and harry, but it was a nice change to have you there.

"i'm sorry hermione, next time, i promise!" you smile, winking at her and tilting your head.

"okay.. just be careful with malfoy, alright?"

—

you sat in bed, reading spells that you could do to make draco's hair red. even if there wasn't a spell, you had red hair dye ready to go.

while you were sitting there by yourself, you couldn't help but realize it had been ages since you were left alone, you were almost always surrounded by people, and that means it's been awhile since you had "relieved" yourself.

i shouldn't let an opportunity go to waste, right? you thought to yourself, fuck it.

you placed the book onto your bedside table and removed your cute little pyjama pants that had penguins on them, discarding them onto the floor and sticking a hand down your black lace underwear.

you brought your fingers to your clit, letting out a mewl. it truly felt so nice to finally be able to touch yourself again, after months of not doing anything.

you slowly trailed your fingers to your folds, collecting the building up wetness. you slid your fingers up and down, rubbing on your clit a little more as well. you slapped your free hand onto your mouth to cover up any loud noises.

you moaned to yourself, shutting your eyes as you played with your little bundle of nerves, before sliding a finger into your pussy swiftly, moaning quietly. lost in the moment, you began thinking of draco, sure he was a douche, but he had a pretty face, and that was good enough for you at the moment.

you imagined what it would feel like for his finger to pump into you like this, how it would feel like for him to call you pet names as you moaned.

you slid another finger in, whimpering even louder as you felt the unforgotten feeling of the knot being formed in your stomach. you imagined how it would feel like for draco to kiss you as he finger fucked you, how it would feel like if he curled his fingers in your pussy as you moaned his name.

"draco.." you whimpered quietly.

"oh love," someone said from the shadows.

you immediately froze, retracting your hand from your panties as you scrambled to cover yourself with your blanket. you heard footsteps, and then saw a familiar figure emerge from the darkness.

"what do we have here?" the platinum blonde boy smirked, staring at your embarrassed form on your bed. "never thought someone like you would be wanting me this badly."

"what the fuck, draco?" you whisper-shouted, holding the blanket to your chest and staring at him with furrowed brows, "you better get out of here before you regret being here in the first place."

"ah yes," draco chuckled, walking closer to you, "i would love to leave and tell everyone about how you were moaning my name as you touched yourself." you wanted nothing more than to smack that stupid, hot smirk off of draco's face.

"what the hell do you want?" you asked, quickly looking at what he was wearing. a white dress shirt with the sleeves rolled up and a pair of black dress pants.

"i was actually here to dye your hair green, you see, i saw you weren't at the party, and thought you were sleeping, but i can see it's obvious that you weren't. but now," draco explained, "y/n, the question is," he took a seat on your bed, lifting your chin to look into your eyes, "what do you want, hmm?"

his eyes trailed to your exposed neck and shoulders, "do you want me to bend you over like the bad girl you are? or do you want me to fuck you with my fingers, is that it?"

you stayed silent.

you hated the fact that you could feel yourself getting wetter as he spoke, and you hated how much you wanted him. you wanted him to do all those things, and more. you wanted him to make you say his name, you wanted to tangle your fingers in his hair as he fucked you.

"perhaps i misread the situation," draco said, rising from his position and dusting off his pants. "i better be going, crabbe and goyle may be looking for me already."

you grabbed his arm, "draco malfoy, i swear to god that if you don't fuck me, i will kill you." draco smirks at you once again, "now that's something i'd like to hear."

draco gets into your bed as you lower the blanket, exposing your top half, only being covered by your bra. he gets on top of you, kissing you with desire and hunger. you moan into his mouth as you feel him unhook your bra and grab your breast. he takes this as the perfect chance to slip his tongue into your mouth, asserting dominance with your own.

he breaks the kiss, panting to take off his own clothes and throw them onto the ground.

"you know, i always thought you were hot," malfoy says, and you scoff. he throws your bra onto the floor as well, before getting on top of you again and kissing your neck.

"i never thought that i'd get to fuck you, though."

you palm him through his boxers, and he groans, hardening quicker by the minute. he bites down softly on your neck, making you gasp. he drags his hand down to your clothed heat, rubbing you through the thin fabric.

you bite down on your lip, wrapping your arms around draco's neck. he kisses your collarbone, before tucking his hand in your panties, playing with your clit between his two fingers.

"love, i think these drenched undies of yours are gonna have to go," he says, grabbing the elastic part, pulling it back and then letting it go, slapping your skin lightly. "mind if i take them off?"

you quickly shake your head no, and he puts on that smug smile of his, before going down to crotch level, and sliding your panties down in a one, quick movement.

"god, i bet you imagined this," draco muttered, sliding a finger into your already soaking core. "all prettied up for me, saying my name.."

he slowly inserts a finger into you, pumping in and out slowly. "fuck, draco!" you moan, grabbing onto the bed sheets. it feels so much better to have him with his finger inside you, pressing light kisses to your stomach.

he inserts another finger, pumping faster this time. "how do i make you feel, hmm? how much did you want this? did you want to come with my fingers inside you?"

draco keeps his fingers inside you, thrusting them at a steady pace, but he comes up to look at your face. you screw your eyes shut, enveloping yourself in the pleasure.

"look at me, love," draco says sternly, making you lock eyes with him. he puts another finger inside you. "do you want to come like this?"

you nod furiously, intertwining your fingers in his hair. "oh god draco.. i'm gonna come.. fuck.."

suddenly, draco removes his fingers from your insides, chuckling to himself as he sees your face form into a vicious glare, almost as if you were ready to slap him. you clenched around nothing, irritated with draco for retracting his fingers as you were just about to reach your high.

"what the fuck, draco?" you yelled, he just laughed and sat up from his position.

"we're just getting to the good part, love, and you're lucky i brought condoms just in case. now be a good girl and turn around for me, yeah?"

you quickly obliged, scrambling to get on your hands and knees as draco rolls on the condom.

"tell me how much you want this," draco whispers in your ear, sending shivers down your spine. he lines up with your entrance, only waiting for your word.

"i want this so much," you say, panting.

draco squeezes your ass, "not good enough."

"for fuck sakes draco, i want you to fuck me. i want you to mess up my insides and make me moan your name. that's what i want, malfoy."

draco doesn't help himself after that, he thrusts into you, making you yelp and grab a fistful of the bed sheets. you clench around him, making him groan out in pleasure. "do that again, fuck. it feels so good to be inside you like this."

malfoy grabs the headboard, slamming into you at a moderate speed, and you could feel your high approaching.

"you take my dick so well, y/n, i've wanted nothing more than to take you into my room and fuck you just like this," he admits. the sound of your skin slapping is the only thing that could be heard in the room, other than the party going on in the common room.

you feel a knot forming as draco hits a spot in you, making you whimper. "right.. there.. fuck!" you yell, as draco continues to hit the same spot.

"i'm gonna come," draco grunts, picking up the pace and biting his lip. "are you gonna come with me, love?"

"yes! yes! i'm gonna... fucking come!" you moan, your arms almost giving out as draco's thrusts become deeper and faster.

"come then, i wanna hear you scream my name," draco groans, slapping your ass lightly. "f-fuck! i'm-"

"draco!" you cry out in pleasure, as the knot in your stomach untangles in the most euphoric way. draco pulls out, taking off the condom and throwing it in the trash. you collapse on the bed, breathing heavily with sweat glistening on every inch of your body. you feel a dip in the bed beside you, and you hear draco panting.

"well," draco says, facing you. you turn your head to see him with a confident grin on his face. "unexpected, huh?"

"yeah whatever, shut up malfoy," you reply, now turning to lay on your back, but still looking at draco. "still don't like you."

"i think different," he teased, playing with strands of your hair. "i think you like me."

you scoff, "as if! i just needed some dick."

"okay y/n, whatever you say," he grinned, "but how about i take you out to hogsmeade, and lets see if you have a change in heart."

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noritoshiikamo · 4 years

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game over

pairing: noritoshi kamo + fem!oc genre: angst tags//warning: established relationship, wild gojo appeared // blood, character death, emotion distress, mention of shibuya note: the obligatory trio of mine: not well edited, lowercase intended, english isnt my first language im sorry if i murder it. note that i put descriptions of the characters i write so it would be easier for me, you’re free to imagine the character the way you seem fits! okay listen imma be honest i dont like this part that much dhhdbdjksncjddiem and im sorry if it sucks bcs istg i cant compete to part 1 and 2 of it so IM SORRY tagging @unabashednightmarepizza @sassyeahhhh @dok-ja @sukirichi [bold means i cant tag u idky :( lemme know if wanna be tagged in the next part] read the first part | second part | third part | bonus

few years ago;

“you’re fucking ridiculous!”

“you’re injured, how the fuck is it me that’s being unreasonable?”

she contemplated stabbing him straight to his chest. “i’m fine, leave me alone,” she hissed, holding on to her arm as she tried to limp away. second year jujutsu student noritoshi kamo wondered how the hell one could be this stubborn. with blood caked up on the side of her face, lips busted and bruising in the corner, not to mention the broken arm and probably twisted ankle, he could not understand how one could be this reckless and stupid, it’s almost ridiculous.

but here she is standing in front of him.

“you could’ve let me handle it,” he said, coldly.

she never turned that fast in her life; her limping leg suddenly worked fine as she hauled her ass, throwing both fists to his chest. the force put was enough to threw him back a few steps, he caught her wrists holding her from falling down. “stop acting like i’m so fragile. i can exorcist the curse just fine. you make me hate you so much,” she spitted, pure rage etched on her face, “just because i’m a girl, because i’m your girl, i’m weak. please, i am as good as you are, kamo.”

their faces were so close, he could count the freckles spread on her nose and cheeks. he loves her eyes the very first time he caught glimpse of it; one is a dull brown while the other looks like it carries the secret of the bright blue sea. this time, the eyes he loves looked hopeless, lack of the burning spirit she carried with tears threatening to spill. letting go of a wrist, his trembling hand brushed the hair coated with the blood back, carefully not to hurt her. “i never said you are bad,” he clarified, fingers busy brushing the hair back. his sudden reaction surprised her, and her body betrayed her thoughts as she eased in his arms.

he tilted her chin, his head was panicking as he realised that his brain was no longer controlling his movement as he leaned down and kissed her.

she tasted like blood.

she winced, pain aching on the swollen part and he apologized so quietly as he deepened the kiss. “nori-” her voice croaked as she swallowed his moans. he hummed, satisfied by the kiss. their foreheads rest against each other, the tip of their noses touched as they struggled to catch breath.

“stop being stupid. let me help you okay?”

“okay.”

slipping his arm under hers, he helped her walk, leading them out of the abandoned building they managed to exorcist. nothing major, a couple of pestering level three and four curses that them both handled well but their supervisor missed to tell them about the hiding level two curse that took them by surprise. she had become the curse’s main target.

if she would’ve just listened to him and stay close. he sighed.

“ouch, ouch,” she cried, clutching on her left leg, forcing him to stop. impatient, he slipped his hand under her knees, lifting her up in his arms. she apologized profusely, embarrassed to be such a burden to him. he brushed it off immediately.

“did you call them? told them that we are done?”

she gasped, “wait, i thought they’ll wait for us.”

he huffed, “you’re not that important, y/n. give them a call, please. i want to go home.”

kicking the door open, the moonlight shone on them as he carried her down to the bottom stairs. settling her down on the steps, he sat beside her, letting a long sigh. he watched as she took the call, letting them know that she was slightly injured, and they need to go back asap. she was visibly tired, and he was the same too.

he couldn’t help but to sigh at the way the moonlight enveloped her. he had loved her from the very first moment he caught his eyes on her; she caught him staring, called him out publicly and ignored all his advances. it took him a lot to court her. she’s a gojo, she can have anything and everything with the sky is the limit.

but one thing money could never buy is affection.

it started with little stuffs; noritoshi waiting for her with her lunch readied every day. it annoyed her but momo (who was secretly rooting for him) forced her to just do it. “it’s just a lunch,” momo said sheepishly. noritoshi would have them paired all the time for the missions. she’d accepted it with open heart. noritoshi would also teach her how to weld a bow and shoot arrows. she promised that she would go out on date with him if he taught her.

by the end of their first year, they became inseparable.

the idea of being apart from her hurts him physically and mentally. she took a sharp breath when he laced his fingers between her own, quickly telling the other person on the phone that she was okay. “it was just noritoshi,” she replied with a small laugh. their hands fit each other; his skin contrasted her slightly tanned skin. while his hands were rough from welding the bow and he kept his nail short and clean, hers were slightly softer with her nails painted prettily. this month she had her nails painted in pastel. all the girls’ day out with momo and mai had proven its importance. he was happy to provide her with his black card despite her discontent.

“analysing my hands now?”

he smiled slightly, “it looks very pretty. i guess i got my money worth. are they coming?”

she leaned on his shoulder, his own wrapped around her as she closed her eyes, “they are around the corner. i would definitely need another round this week,” she teased. kissing her forehead gently, he didn’t mind that his uniform was stained with her blood; he was glad that she’s safe.

“i’ll happily take you there.”

few years later;

noritoshi kamo almost lost his mind. the stadium was half destroyed, huge craters on the pitch with the sight of his wife nowhere to be found. he looked up to the black pitch curtain encasing the stadium area from the sky, a curse escaped his lips.

“where the fuck are you?” he grunted, scanning the area.

she is gone, his stubborn little wife. she could’ve just wait but annoyed that their dinner date was interrupted and eager because this was their first mission together as a married couple; she escaped his supervision. as they were dealing with minor curses outside, she decided to head on forward, leaving him to deal with whatever is left. he beat himself inside for letting her come, he could easily do this himself and send her home safely, but she blinked her eyes and he was weak. she always has her way with him.

his step stopped when he realised there was a shadow ahead.

“she’s pretty,” the thing said.

his blood ran cold, “what did you do to my wife?”

the curse let out a laugh. it was sinister enough to send chills down his spine. especially when he realised the head it was stepping on was his wife. her eyes were fluttering back and forth, struggling to stay awake. a howl shocked him, shivers down his spine at the painful whimpers her shikigami making. cursed spirits were devouring it alive, overwhelming it and chewing every part of its body. his wife was too weak to dispel the shikigami; it’s dangerous as the devoured wolf shikigami will drain her cursed energy by a second.

all shikigami linked directly to the owner; everything inflected to the wolf, she could feel it too.

he needed a plan.

hidden in his wedding ring was a retractable knife. he rarely carries blood bags anymore as his power solidified itself. the older he got, the better he was at using and controlling a small steady flow of his own blood straight from the tap. with a clap of his hands, the knife cut his hand enough to send blood shooting like bullets. the blood hit the curses straight to its cores, died out instantly on impact, but the shikigami was beyond salvageable. it let out one last howl, one last goodbye before dropping to the ground, half of his snout gone. she will be devastated, it’s her only shikigami she managed to tame at such a young age, but at least it has stopped the shikigami from stripping his wife’s cursed energy to its core.

the fire burning in his eyes only made the curse laughed. he kicked her body away, spurting blood out of her mouth. she was halfway close to death’s doorstep.

“i will fucking murder you,” he hissed.

“my blood is my power. it’s supposed to rot human, stripping its meat from the bone like acid. however,” the curse nudged her body, “your wife didn’t. humour me, did your blood tainted hers? tell me, i’m curious how.”

“are you going to chit chat because i don’t have whole day.” his blood dripped on the pitch.

the curse grinned, shrugging his shoulder. he kneeled, running his bloody fingers on her cheeks leaving trails of flowers pattern that dissipated immediately, “i’m not here to fight. i’m here to serve a warning,” he looked up to the tensed sorcerer, “for gojo satoru. tell him, we’ll be waiting for him in shibuya.” noritoshi’s face scrunched in confusion.

“we have no business with the gojos.”

“but she is. she could change her name, married you, but it doesn’t erase the fact that she carried gojo’s blood in her vein. she’s the bridge to your two clans. i’m just killing two birds with one stone. ruin the kamo clan’s relationship with gojos and hurt gojo satoru. all thanks to her,” the curse turned his back on him, his laugh echoed as he walked away. the dark curtain disappeared slowly as the ground rumbled. a perfect chance for noritoshi to strike if it wasn’t because of the cursed spirit’s words gluing him to his spot, “oh, kamo, i believe a congratulation is overdue. let me know when’s the baby is due, i would love to drop by personally.”

the pillar holding on to the roof collapsed sending wave of dust all over the place. noritoshi covered his face, coughing as he sucked some in, removing his coat as a shield. the cursed spirit was no where to be found.

“the place is going to collapse! i’ll get the curse, you go get her!”

a voice echoed and he caught a glimpse of blond hair running past him and noritoshi didn’t think twice as he sprinted around the cracks and holes. who was that voice or who was the curse, he couldn’t give a single fuck, he just wants his wife back. he was shaking when he got to her, arms immediately scooped her up in his arms. her chest was raising slowly, blood dripping on the side of her lips as she struggled to exhale.

“you’re going to be okay,”

he told her, but he wasn’t sure if he will ever be.

“can you turn down the stupid light, it’s hurting my eyes.”

the voice laughed melodiously, the light moved to the other eye repeating the same thing.

“as you can see, she’s awake, slightly weak, but she should be okay.”

another voice interrupted, “are you sure?” she gasped, excited to hear a familiar voice. “nori?” she called out, unable to open her eyes, relying strictly to her hearing as she reached her shaky hands out for him. “her senses might be slightly off, just let her do it herself,” the woman’s voice noted, and she felt annoyed. how dare you underestimate me, her mind scoffed.

“my senses are fine. see?” she claimed as she held noritoshi’s hand up. he smiled, gently rubbing her hand with encouragement. “thanks, shoko, we are fine.”

“i’ll leave you be then. call me if you need anything.”

she listened to the clacking of shoko’s heels, followed by the door opening and slamming shut. she jumped, but he held her hand tighter, reassuring her that it’s alright. “so why can’t i see?” she asked, confident that they are alone now. she felt the bed sunk a little on the left side, “you were high on anesthesia, i’m surprise you could even move your jaw to speak.” she felt a finger brushed her hair aside, breath loomed on her face and she could feel her own face reddening up.

“are you going to kiss me or are you just going to tease me?” his heart swell up, despite her shaky voice almost made him laugh.

“do you trust me?” his hand cupped her cheek gently.

she nodded eagerly, “always.”

“good.”

his kiss hit her like a waft of fresh air. every kiss felt like a first kiss to her that she couldn’t help to react so eagerly to it. his tongue slipped through her defense, overwhelming her taste buds with such strong taste of iron. it didn’t stop her. she knew what he was doing from start. he peeked a little, didn’t stop a second from kissing her as he watched his blood marking appeared on her face. her hands went up around her neck pulling him closer and he obeyed, deepening the kiss.

heal; his mind commanded.

after a while, she pulled back, being the one to break apart from the kiss first, her chest raising up and down as she struggled to catch her breath. her eyes were wide open now, fluttering lazily as she leaned back on the propped-up pillow. he wiped the corner of his lips, eyes on her as he watched the open wound on her face and arms slowly closed leaving the fresh healed red marks behind. he relaxed when he heard a thank you coming from her, as she checked her healed arms.

“i’m disappointed with you,” he finally broke the silence.

“really?” she frowned. he always does this thing where he will immediately go into lecture mood every time she does something that pisses him off. it’s almost like a game to her as she waited for him to explode, “right now? not even going to wait until i’m discharged. this is a new record, toshi. like shoko said, i’m fine.” he shook his head, “it doesn’t make it right. you always disobeyed me. ignored my orders, going about with your goddamn big head, you could’ve been killed.”

she rolled her eyes, noritoshi is being noritoshi, what a drama queen, she mentally rolled her eyes, “but i’m not,” she pushed her hair back, twisting it easily into a simple loose knot, “i told you, i am not weak.”

“your shikigami was destroyed, your blood was poisoned, 70 percent was already circulating to every part of your vein, i had to beg for the higher up to help purify your blood,” her smile died down. this game no longer feels fun for her. noritoshi was really mad this time. “you think it’s fun and all game but game over, y/n. you need to stop doing this. if you can’t do it for me, do it for yourself.”

“leave me alone, nori, if you just going to nag, please i don’t want to hear it. i’m tired.”

it made him angry that she was taking his word lightly. running his hand in his messy hair, he felt like hauling his head to the wall.

“you don’t understand-”

she slammed her hand on the bed, interrupting his words, “no YOU don’t understand me, i’m tired of you babying me. i’m an adult, i am your wife, stop treating me like a fucking child! we have been married for months, but god you’re suffocating me.”

“i will when you stop endangering yourself. i will stop treating your like a child when you stop acting like one. you’re pregnant, for the love of god!” he threw his hand on the wall. the wall cracked from the force. “i’m what?” she felt the world stopped spinning. she was hundred percent sure that her ears and head were deceiving her. he removed his hand from the hole he made on the wall, his body shaking from the amount of anger building up.

“noritoshi, answer me! what do you mean- i’m not pregnant, i had my period this month.”

“you are,” he shrugged. he felt something hit him in the back; looking down he saw the fluffy white pillow sitting by his feet.

he pointed to the bedside table where a sonogram perched up against a tissue box. she was about to lose her mind. “this is not funny, if this is your mean way of fucking me up because i won’t listen to you then this is just fucking cruel.”

he marched towards him, his hand went down on his chin, forcing her eyes on him, “until you stop playing your stupid games, until you stop treating your life like it’s nothing, until you consider my feelings and my worries, as your husband is valid, i do not exist in your life,” tears fell down her cheeks, “like you, i’m tired too.

“nori i-“

he left her before she could say a word. she broke into sob; her chest was pounding so hard that the blood pressure monitor was beeping. the door burst opened but it was not the face she wanted to see. she was immediately hysterical. satoru managed to hold her wrist down before she ripped the tubes and needles off her arms. “no, no, i want nori. where is he!” she screamed as satoru held her down. “you need to calm down, it’s not good for the baby,” satoru cooed, but she was not having it. he turned to shoko, “her cursed energy is skyrocketing, she’s going hysterical, do something!”

“let me go!”

shoko held out a syringe, “hold her down.”

she screamed, thrashing so rough that she almost slipped out of the strongest sorcerer’s hands. she managed to get a needle out before she felt another sharp pain on her back. shoko pulled the empty needle out and they retreated away as she fell on her butt backward. she was reduced to a babbling mess, her eyes drooped as she struggled to fight the waves of sleepiness hitting her one after another.

“tell him i’m sorry,” she croaked out, before everything turned completely dark.

the blood pressure monitor returned back to normal.

three days later;

“are you still going to ignore her? it’s been 3 days.”

“she needs to learn her place.”

gojo satoru disagreed. he eyed the head of the clan, shaking his head before standing up. he thought he could convince noritoshi kamo to visit his wife, but the man was as stubborn as- huh, her.

“i think she have learned enough, she’s miserable. you’re miserable.”

the man glared at the blonde man child, raising the cup of tea up for a sip. the tea doesn’t taste as good as the way she made it. he left her for 3 days and he found himself struggling to do everything alone.

he, noritoshi kamo, 23 years old and the head of the kamo family, could not make a cup of fucking tea.

she always said that the best way to make tea depends on how long you let it steep. “too early and you won’t get the right amount of flavour,” she explained, her back facing him as he watched from the counter as she loomed over the stove, “but if you steep it way too long you going to burn the tea leaves and it will make everything taste bitter.” she turned around, a huge smile on her face that made his heart skipped a beat.

he frowned; the tea tasted bitter.

“she’s pregnant, she’s supposed to be crazy. you are supposed to be the wise one. she is going to carry your child for 9 long months, i can’t explain to you how long that’s going to be but she is allowed to be crazy.”

he dropped the cup on the floor when gojo’s hand grabbed him by his collar, pulling him up from his chair.

“now please, see your goddamn wife before i deck you in the mouth.”

“i will.”

satisfied with his answer, gojo’s demeanor changed and he was again the man child they all know of him. noritoshi could no longer focus on the report in front of him; not when his mind is full of her and only her.

would she forgive him? he wasn’t sure.

but he would spend his lifetime making up to her and the baby if that’s necessary.

#I FEEL LIKE THIS ONE IS JUST AINT IT AND I MIGHT REMOVE IT #jjk #jjk angst #jujutsu kaisen #kamo noritoshi #noritoshi kamo #noritoshi x y/n #jjk y/n #jujutsu kaisen x y/n #jujutsu kaisen x you #gojo satoru #wild gojo appeared #tw blood #noritoshi x reader #i already have part 3.5 have written tho loool #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen x reader #writing: fics

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bakugousbabygirl · 4 years

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Toxic Aizawa Headcannons

genre: angst i guess?

pairings: aizawa x fem!reader

cw: || cheating || jealousy || cursing || manipulation || overall toxicity ||

A/N: this is kinda short, but i might do more of these and make them longer and add scenarios at the end. idk

SFW

• he's a scorpio.....that shit is toxic enough on it's own lmao

• but fr everyone seems to have this image he's a patient caring man and i mean he is, with his students

• but you? no

• you're an adult, you should just GET things but you don't which frustrates him beyond belief

• you're his partner, not his student he shouldnt have to baby you

• i also feel like aizawa has a thing for younger women, he's 31 and he likes his women in their early to mid 20's

• i feel like that isn't inherently toxic but the way he uses your younger age against you most definitely is

• when you get in an argument he throws it in you face calling you childish and stating how he should've just dated someone his own damn age

• shota definitely prioritizes his job over you, will stay out late at night patrolling. he will stand you up on dates to go to hero meeting and even be gone for weeks on missions without contacting you

• luckily toshinori and hizashi are nice men knowing how their colleague and friend is so they send you updates about him to keep your mind at ease

• this causes a lot of fights. he questions you on why you're talking to his friends, he wants you to stay out of his personal life. you try to rationalize with him that you are apart of his personal life and needs to start acting like it. if he's gonna be gone for long you tell him the least he could do is give you a heads up

• he argues back that you should just KNOW if he hasn't shown up he's gone for hero work and should be content with that. he tells you that you KNOW what you were signing up for when you started dating so why are you trippin now.

• he never yells but his tone becomes really harsh and his words cut like blades tearing you apart cutting you down until you feel so belittled that your argument isnt worth it anymore making you grow quiet

• he'll glare at you and make a few snide remarks before leaving like a upset father after scolding his daughter

• definitely avoids you afterwards, i mean he doesnt come home for a solid 2 weeks after and you dont get any updates from hizashi and toshinori because he told them to but out of his business

• when he comes back he pretends as if nothing ever happened, he already said what he had to say. why rehash it? and if you're really still hurt it's just gonna reinforce the fact he thinks you're childish and thinks he should've dated someone his own age

• speaking of people your own age if he catches you texting or hanging out with a guy your age he's gonna be pissed

• "what am i not good enough for you, you think i'm too old or something!?"

• like no bruh we were just having a friendly conversation what's your deal, PLEASE get over whatever complex you have dude

• I feel like aizawa would definitely judge the way you dress lmao

• with alternative fashion coming back in style you have a stab at it and start dressing like an e-girl because it's the easiest look to manage

• aizawa laughs his ass off at you saying how that isn't true alternative fashion and calls you a poser

• yeah yeah aizawa is a fuckin gate keeper, you can't tell me he wasn't emo back in the day

• tells you to change and never dress up like that again because it makes you look like some cheap cam girl

• if you ever try to walk away when hes scolding you he will use his scarf to tie you up making you sit down and admit you're wrong

• he's the type to stress that communication is key but doesn't communicate himself

• its more like he talks and you listen if you haven't gotten that by now

• he refuses to open up to you and keeps you 100% separated from his work and personal life

• probably makes fun of your trauma, nothing too fucked up like if your parents are dead or anything. hes not that much of a douche, but if its something like your sister use to lock you in the dark cold cellar at night and told you a monster was gonna get you he'd definitely laugh

• would even go as far as locking you in the basement closet to see how you'd react

• also gaslight you using your age against you saying how he knows more because he's older

NSFW

• wanna start this off by saying aizawa is defo cheating on you with midnight lmao take that how you want but he is

• when you catch him he just says it's not that serious and it just happened because they have history together and shes more mature and experienced. he said it wont happen again so why cant you get over it, stop being so childish

• i have a feeling he'd probably complain about how annoying you are to her during pillow talk 😹😹

• he's the type to keep a straight face when you're giving him sloppy toppy to give the illusion that you're underperforming and can't satisfy him but in reality his toes are curling and he's doing his best to hold back his moans because your head game is out of this world

• definitely is the dominant one and he'd laugh in your face at even the slightest mention of you taking over ( he does let midnight dom him tho😒)

• it was this one time where you asked could you ride him so he allowed it, you got on top of him and just when you were getting into the groove of it he rolled his eyes flipped you over and growled in your ear saying to never waste his time like that again

• when you try to initiate sex with him laughs at your cute efforts of trying to seduce him saying he's too old for that stuff to be appealing to him

• he'd use sex to take out all his frustrations on you

• it seems hot but not the way he does it, he'll have you in his lap infront of a mirror as he pounds into you while degrading you

• it starts off cute and light with just calling you things like his pathetic kitten but then the insults start getting a little too real saying how he could go find a better girl with a cunt just as tight as yours who doesn't annoy him and how you're such a bitch and you can't nag at him now that you're stuffed with his cock

• yeah needless to say you start crying and hit his ass with the safe word making him stop and he just rolls his eyes and mutters to himself about how the younger generation is so sensitive and kinda just....leaves you there to mope

• also yeah theres never any aftercare even after particularly rough scenes like that he just showers then goes to bed and expects you to do the same

• and it's not like he doesn't know with aftercare is, i mean he's banging midnight our bdsm queen he knows what aftercare is but just doesn't see you as important enough to be that intimate with

• if you do something that turns him off during the middle of sex and kinda just pushes you off of him and goes to sleep on the couch and won't have sex with you for a while

• drags himself at all types of late nights and early mornings crawling into bed with you whole you're still sleep and kisses you're shoulder saying to himself outloud "i'll do right by you one day"

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im-a-meteorite · 4 years

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i’ve been marathoning the harry potter movies since im in quarantine and i’ve been taking some notes. i’ll post them all bc why not

sorcerer’s stone

harry knowing that there’s no post on sunday,, a genius

hedwig’s theme playing when harry looks out of the window and sees an owl flying by, very nice

hagrid doing magic at the house on the rock thing,, wouldnt the ministry be able to track that?? since there’s no wizard that lives there, they should be alerted?? or did they remove the trace from hagrid once he got expelled?? like does it work by the trace only or? bc if it doesn’t work by location then how would they know that a muggle witnessed the magic?? idk anymore

the kids staring at the nimbus 2000 and saying its the fastest model yet,, then the camera zooming on the handle w/ the background blurred -> the most straight forward foreshadowing

hagrid is actually the worst person to take harry on his tour situation,, like bro literally left him in the middle of a train station

the weasleys and harry going to the platform while theres a shit ton of ppl walking around,,, statute of secrecy where??

the great hall is on the first floor?? i thought it was on the ground floor

ew the hats

i wish the movies had dumbledore’s weird few words speeches

“theres not one witch or wizard that went bad that wasnt in slytherin” broooo

mcgonagall is so savage i love her

snape is an asshole

a crap ton of chessboards in the great hall study hall scene,, foreshadowing the challenges?

madam hooch really yeeted herself out of neville’s way

✨🥰 oliver wood 🥰✨✨

harry really wiped the troll buggers on his robe,, disgusting

snapes hair is lowkey on fleek tho,,

making most of the slytherins ugly bc they’re the “evil” house is just a disservice to all the inbreeding

hermione setting snape on fire is truly iconic and very extra tbh like sis why tf would u know a spell like that

seasonal transition wasnt that great tbh

overall the directing style is kinda basic

“not in the restricted section,,” rule breaking hermione is the best hermione

dumbledore’s handwriting is so extra and loopy like tf?? but it fits his character

the hedwig flying season transition was good

“immortal?” “it means you’ll never die.” “i know what it means!”

50 points each for being out of bed??? wtf is this point system

filtch saying there’s werewolves in the forbidden forest,,, thats illegal sir

hagrid calling the trio by their first names but draco by his last,, we love favoritism

harry’s thoughts r so ridiculous,, “snape doesnt want the stone for himself, he wants it for voldemort!” lmaoo wtf,, evidence pls sir,, u don’t even know he was a death eater. was it the bad vibes?? bc same

harry figuring out that the person who gave hagrid the dragon egg is voldy,, a genius

“kill us faster?? now i can relax!!” ron is so iconic i love him

“lucky we didnt panic!” “lucky hermione pays attention in herbology”

how is it that harry’s hand burned quirrel but not the skin on harry’s neck?? that shit makes no sense

yeah i really cant imagine this dumbledore fighting voldy in movie 5

hermione’s headband in the reunion scene is so cute i love it

chamber of secrets:

how is dobby even allowed to just jump on the bed?? like is it bc harry isnt his master that he can do smth like that

“dobby has heard about harry potter’s kindness” or whatever,, bro u work for the malfoys either the elves gossip or draco is waxing poetry about harry

aunt petunia saying “we have ice-cream” after that whole affair is just ridiculous

DIAGONALLY

this seems like the extended version bc i dont remember the borgin and bruks scene to be that long

the close ups with lucius and ginny’s books r insane lmao like chris columbus made it so obvious

also mr weasley’s acting is so funny like its so exaggerated

lucius malfoy is so dramatic and extra we love it

also lucius knowing hermione’s name and “draco’s told me all about you”??? bro whats with draco?? lmaoo

snape really got mad with the whole car business

mandrakes r fucking weird bro how did jkr come up with that

PERCY WALKING WITH PENELOPE CLEARWATER??? HOW DID I MISS THAT??

omg colin had so many lines?? wow

omg erol with the fucking howler,, iconic

ron’s facial expressions?? pure comedy, rupret is so good

LOCKHEART REALLY SAID “GOOD GIRL” THEN WINKED AT HERMIONE

“pesky piksy pescinomy” this bitch dumb

“why is it always me?” poor neville

omfg ✨🥰 oliver wood 🥰✨

ahh using the seeker position for fighting

ew draco used the m-word

the shit the basilisk is saying is so lame lmaoo

how does harry not recognize that he’s hearing a different language?? or does parsaltongue act weird

HOW IS THE WHOLE SCHOOL IN THE SAME CORRIDOR???

“i know the counter-curse that could’ve spared her” bitch the dirty looks he got?? omfg

the movies would’ve been 500% better if they had lee jordan’s iconic quidditch commentary

“scarhead” “TRAINING FOR THE BALLET, POTTER?”

“what did you expect?? pumpkin juice??” madam pomfery is a queen

dobby is dumb dumb

“who am i, hedwig? what am i?”

“reading? i didnt know you could read?”

“look at my face” “look at your tail!”

“you can’t cancel quidditch!”

“oh harry, if you die down there, you’re welcome to share my toilet”

lockheart: do you live here? ron: no *smacks him in the head with a rock*

“voldemort is my past, present and future” are all slytherins this dramatic??

the tension between hermione and ron in the last feast was insane

justin filtch fletchy is so ugly im so sorry i cant

prisoner of azkaban:

im sorry but harry doing underage illegal magic pisses me off every time

aunt marge 🤢

“do they use a cane boy?” “oh yeah, i’ve been beaten loads of times”

that whole scene is so chaotic

“you cant do magic outside of school!” “oh yeah? try me”

sirius really dumb for barking at harry like it makes no sense

the knight bus is probably one of the best things in this movie

“whatcha doing down there??” “i fell over” “whacha fell over for?” “i didnt do it on purpose!” “well come on then, lets not wait for the grass to grow”

harry leans over and looks for the grim, stan: “whatcha looking at?”

“yeah take it away ernie,, its gonna be a bumpy ride”

this whole thing is written and directed so perfectly

i hate how they replaced tom bc it really made no sense

all the bits of magic in the leaky caldron is so genius

fudge reminds me of trump but like dumber

the blue lighting and coloring is just great, it fits the colder vibe of the story (not like HBP with the hazy/blurry effect)

ugh the glass and mirror transitions are one of my favorite things,, alfonso curon really did that

i love the weasleys,, also everyone looks great in this movie

omg the scene with arthur talking to harry about sirius with the sirius poster always being in sight?? amazing

contrast of light and darkness just echos the whole dementor vs patronus situation

i dont even understand why remus took the train other than for the nostalgia

the lights slowly turning off in the different carriages?? amazing

the visual representation of the dementors’ effect is great

REMUS!!!

i wish there was more emotion from remus when he’s talking about sirius,, like that was one of his only friends

snape clapping literally twice for remus,, ajhshsh

ahh the placement of the slytherin and gryffindor tables right beside each other to increase the tension and further the plot

oh yea the new dumbledore, also cool hat he has

omg the new fat lady painting

omg the candy scene?? so cute i love lads being lads. that scene just echo’s dumbledore’s light in the dark quote bc its storming outside at night and they’re creating a happy environment within the dark especially with the dementors

ah yes the clock references + following the bird to show us important parts of hogwarts and putting the whomping willow in the forefront

ron’s reading of harry’s tea leaves,, still on point tho. ron really has a knack for divination

buckbeak! omg drapple

draco is so hot especially with that ring also the slytherin pins??

“oh yeah, terribly funny, really witty. god, this place has gone to the dogs”

the kids look so messy i love it + harry’s uneven tie

HERMIONE CLINGING TO RONS ARM!!

“its killed me! your gonna regret this, you and your bloody chicken”

omg the boggart lesson

“riddikulus!” “this class is ridiculous”

fuck snape!

draco really pushed someone with his bandaged arm

remus is such an amazing professor i love him and i just miss him so much

ugh harry in this hoodie?? amazing

remus and harry’s conversation with the music :(( lily :((

wtf is that eye painting??

percy screaming about being head boy,, bro stfu

sirius is such a dramatic little bitch i love it

seasonal changes marked by the wimping willow

“turn to page 394”

what a fucking rude ass bitch,, i hate snape

harry really be seeing the grim everywhere

i wish they had “wheres wood?” “trying to drown himself in the shower”

winter transition with hedwig! + clock tower

“come and join the big boys”

i just adore this scene of the twins giving harry the map (bro i really want a series about the marauders)

whos that skinny bitch with draco???

harry’s way too rash tbh

also mcgonagall being also too nonchalant about the whole marauder’s situation?? like those werent your students

remus is a soft boy dark academia icon

if only dumbledore wasnt a dumbass,, remus could have been uncle moony raising harry with sirius

ron’s nightmare scene?? iconic

“my dad didnt strut. nor do i” umm james potter was also a drama queen sooo probably strutting

“you, YOU FOUL LOATHSOME EVIL LITTLE COCKROACH” “hermione no, he’s not worth it”

sirius’ dog form really looks like a rabid dog omfg

the part where hermione grabs harry while she’s on the wimping willow omfg

“only one will die tonight” YOU DRAMATIC BITCH UR NOT MAKING THIS BETTER

“finally the flesh reflects the madness within” “well you’d know all about the madness within, wouldn’t you remus?”

why the fuck is the shreaking shack is swaying in the wind??

QUARRELING LIKE AN OLD MARRIED COUPLE

why the fuck didnt they knock peter out?? like tf?? they’re actually dumb dumb there were so many ways for this to go right

this man really sent 2 13-year-olds on this dumbass mission

buckbeak really beat up remus,, “professor lupin’s having a really tough night”

harry’s a fucking psycho with this patronus bullshit,, i cant

can they stop screaming while flying on buckbeak?? someone might hear them

im still mad sirius didnt get his name cleared,, so much would’ve changed

“we did it” “did what? goodnight” i fucking hate dumbledore and his mindlessness omfg sometimes i wanna punch him in the face

fuck snape for outing remus as a werewolf,,, but also he really didnt have to resign. like istg wheres the marauder energy when it comes to defying everyone??

i wish the movies had went into the marauders’ history :(( its one of my favorite aspects of the series

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smallestclowninthecircus · 3 years

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Ok yall I'm listening to tma for the first time and im gonna record my thoughts here.

I dont even know if this is worth posting but im going to do it anyways. I listened to episodes 1-40 in 3 days, I believe that's the first season.

ep 1: this is v good so far idk not much to say

ep 2: are all of these gonna have somebody named jon? thats the name of the dude speaking right?

ep 3: design with lines and a square in the middle? gotta be real that just sounds like a spider web. (isnt there an entity or wtvr called The Web? i think?) also are we just gonna brush over whatever thing shoved her into the street bruh

ep 4: the eye! That's a thing I remember seeing posts about

ep 6: worms? Worms!! "This story is concerning" arent they all?? who the heck is Jane prentiss uh oh

ep 7: so I'm guessing this is one of the entities we hear about?

ep 8: fractals feel like a Web thing idk its just vibes. this box sounds like a Web thing too- oop yeah spiders

ep 9: ik the hand with the eye on it is significant cuz i see it in fanart but im not sure what it means.

ep 11: web go brrr

ep 12: eyes!! In ep 4 the poem mentions smth about hearing right? AYO look at me makin connections Jared Keay (keye?) baybeeee. Beholding is a thing!

ep 15: I think theres an entity called The Dark but I'm not sure if im just making that up

ep 17: is it jorgen shitener or wtvr his name is again. IT IS!

ep 16: web time

ep 18: sus smells. Is it Eye time?

ep 19: oh!! this is connected to the other one! woah!

ep 21: this feels a lot like the cave diving one so far. was that a squish noise i heard at the end? worms? doesnt he have worm scars from whatever thing?

ep 22: martin voice reveal!! pogchamp! oh wow ok i knew the worms were gonna be somewhat important but not this important oh boy.

ep 23: oh god please no not the books. is this related to the graveyard thing from mist? jw 1279 (doesnt jw mean jehovah's witness) ffFUC KING KEAY

ep 29: i wonder if gerard keay (as ive learned his name is spelled) is one of those immortal death thingies. he does seem to show up a bunch but somehow i doubt it

ep 30: The Slaughter time? Meat! like the upstairs neighbor one!

ep 31: he mispronounced Appalachia >:( aw hell naw this is some Most Dangerous Game shit. this has The Slaughter vibes

ep 32: Prentiss oh boy. worms go brr. beholding is such a specific word i feel like i have to write it down ever time i hear it. spiders again. I still havent figured out which entity prentiss is related with. "you rob it of it's fear" "i dont know why the hive chose me" Is there an entity called the hive? i wouldnt be surprised but i cant remember hearing about it. Nicholas says worms are related to The Corruption

ep 33: "trying not to think about eachother" sean kelly o no re u gonna die. yeah im with jon on this one theres not rlly any supernatural stuff happening. probably they sacrificed him to keep something ? at bay (heh)

ep 34: i dont have to talk about how weird John Doe is right? v sus. The cracking noise is them giving themselves bones right. Apple? spiders? awww teeth i tried to call it. Teeth like the trash bag episode!

ep 35: passages: as in from a book? please no god not litener tell me it isnt so- GODDAMMIT OH WAIT JARED ITS HIM THAT LITTLE SHIT 13 passages + the one they came from. Weirdly wet, probably covered in blood. Bone! from the book that jared has! that's where he got his fuckner book. pages with web, figure in the darkness (anglerfish) stranger who means him harm, smth abt heat idk lightless flame go brr. eww the wormsss.

ep 36: buzzing? like in Hive? this sounds like a worms thing, perhaps the person who gave the statement got infected, thats why she was washing/ itching her hand? lighter?? hold on jared had one and the guy who got killed by the crime dude had one. spiderweb design go brr web go brr

interesting note cuz i cant remember which episode this came up in. In one of the past episodes tim was talking about some mistakes in the recordings. jon doesnt seem like the type of person to just not care about mistakes. he's gotten obsessed with these recordings like others get obsessed with the web etc

ep 37: They have the table? hmm... is this gonna be some fairy ring stuff. oh boy more burning. iron oh boy fae shit. milk bottle? this all sounds like witch shit i gotta be honest. rain water? yeah this feels like witchy things lol. dont tell me he opened one of the bottles. istg. he messed with some witch's spell jar and now he's cursed. is it a photo of his "predecessor" AYO IT ISS I CALLED IT

ep 38: books at lease we know they wont be involved but they couldve been. how come no one but jon ever calls the design a spiderweb? he has a migrane from the design? (idk if it is a guy but i always use he/him in my head cuz jon does) hopefully that means he wont be influenced? idk. oh dear a person is gonna disappear arent they. is david gonna go missing. is the speaker gonna go missing? spider oh no jon. oh no worms oh fuck

ep 39: oh dear this is quite unfortunate. LMAO he just asked if martin was a ghost im losing my shit. AYY TIM. fucking sasha is gonna get brainwashed by the web istg. I think that's a new voice but i cant tell im not v good at determining different voices. is it prentiss?

ep 40: "my eyes are up here but yknow, theyre not." LMAO how come those worms were slow (tim's statement) sasha sounds off. it's not her for sure. Is it like NotGraham? NotSasha? its funny she (gertrude) has such an ordinary death but that almost just causes more questions. If she didnt die due to a supernatural thing then it's something scarier, a person. (ayy me n jon said like the exact same thing) "they'll have to kill me first" oh god oh fuck foreshadowing

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mousehole5000 · 4 years

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this is it... the final post.... 226 through THE END!!!!!

this shit with mu qing and the river of lava is SOOOO dramatic im loving it

oh my god theyre on a FUCKING bridge of course they are okay let’s go boys

“You’re right. We’re alike. You think me odd, I think you to be rather weird too.” - so what im getting from this is that xie lian and mu qing are the only characters in this book with working gaydar okay yup got it this checks out

god... the fact that xie lian is ready to be like “look mu qing we can just forget about the past it doesnt matter we dont have to be friends i know you dont like me but im not gonna let you die over it” and then mu qing is like “.... god i really do admire you huh”

“You...certainly...are rather amazing. You’re...also...a better person...than me. Long story short, I...very much wanted...to become your f-f-friend.” - going to think about this for the rest of all time im about to become utterly unintelligible im overcome with emotions

“And, at the end of the white silk band, Feng Xin was gripping Ruoye with one hand while the other was holding on to a steel-faced Mu Qing, and he shouted towards him.” - the fucking IMAGE of this im gonna cry this is everything i could have asked for im so happy also mu qing dangling there like “ welp. guess ill live“

“Feng Xin was almost burnt by that pillar of fire, and he shouted in outrage. “WHAT’S WITH THIS BAND OF DOG SHITS, ATTACKING PEOPLE WHILE THEY’RE DOWN, SO VILE! FUCK YOUR ENTIRE FAMILY!” Xie Lian responded, “IF THEIR ENTIRE FAMILIES ALL LOOK LIKE THAT, YOU SURE YOU WANT TO FUCK THEM??” - theyre so funny!!! and theyre best friends!!! theyre joking together now in the middle of all this i could cry theyre back!!!

“Using sticks as arrows, he held the bow with one hand and used his teeth to bite back the bowstring.” - no clue how practical this is but okay archer boy. hot

i actually have so many little quips between the three of them highlighted but we’d be here all night if i included them all. im literally so delighted by this omg worth the wait

“Each sabre strike slashed to the bone. It wasn’t like Xie Lian had never seen Hua Cheng use the sabre before in the past, but his style had always been easy and leisurely, nonchalant and casual. Rather than say he was handling a weapon, it was more like he was toying with a small knife. Yet those blade marks were filled with killing intent. It was easy to imagine just how skilled the one exchanging blows with him was, and how perilous this battle.” you have no idea how mad i was when i read this and thought we missed witnessing the fight between hc and jw omg

“Behind him, Feng Xin muttered, “Dear fucking god, may all the gods and buddhas grant their blessings, that better absolutely be Crimson Rain Sought Flower, otherwise he’s gonna go mad!” “Stop your rubbish,” Mu Qing berated. “We’re all the gods and buddhas ourselves and we can’t grant shit, just keep up with him! Look at the stumbling way he’s running, he’s gonna trip and fall to his bloody death before he even sees the man!” - okay i know i said no more quips but this is literally too funny i just wanted to read it again

“ However, for whatever reason, that vicious ghost, in its muddled state, took that large group of live mortals under its wing and fled for many days. In the end, they were still surrounded by millions of ghosts, trapped in a dead end, and it was going to be eaten along with those humans.” [...] “That vicious ghost almost made a move against those humans, but for some reason, in the end, it didn’t. It instead used one of its own eyes as the price to forge a blood weapon. That vicious ghost was already forcibly hanging on with its last breath; after digging out its eye it should’ve broken apart completely. Yet somehow something had shocked it, and it instead woke to its senses completely. “ - THIS IS AMAZING ARE YOU KIDDING ME???? IS THIS ALL WE GET ABOUT HIS GHOSTLY LORE?????? HUA CHENGGGGGGGG

“What a terrible offence, his old habit had come out, and he quickly apologized. “I’m sorry! You don’t have to listen to me!” Hua Cheng, however, only smiled happily. “Everything gege tells me is the best advice, so why wouldn’t I listen?” - this isnt the fucking time afjdkfjsdkl they really never stop

“So you can hold the illusion of a perfect Crown Prince of Wuyong to face and dismiss the Jun Wu now. Isn’t that your objective? Did you think I don’t know what you’re thinking?” “THAT’S NOT IT!” Guoshi cried. “Stop getting tied up in right and wrong, victories and defeat, I’VE NEVER THOUGHT THAT WAY BEFORE!” - jun wu only being able to see xie lian as his successor and believing that thats all anyone else sees too... okay

honestly this whole final showdown was a blast i cant put everything in but it was so much fun to read. the DRAMA the LAVA the SHOUTING t

“Hua Cheng had poured too much spiritual power into him. There really was too much, so much that it was completely outside the amount the cursed shackle could withstand.” - okay.... okay... the love you give will set you free... okay....

“With Jun Wu in his grip, he carried both their bodies and forcefully slammed into the incomparably-solid rock wall! He used all of his power in this smash, and in the rumbling and crashing of rocks, he also heard the sound of something breaking.” [...] “A moment later, Jun Wu suddenly asked, “That move. What is it called?” “...” Xie Lian raised his sleeve and wiped away the blood on the side of his face. “Shattering boulders on the chest.” YES!!!!! YES!!!!! xie lian actually lived that life!!!!!! i loved this detail so much

“After a moment of silence, Xie Lian took off the bamboo hat carried on his back, took it in his hand, and covered it over Jun Wu’s face.” - xie lian... good... another detail i love. a hat that protects from the rain, given in a moment of need, even to someone who has caused you hardship... we do not forget the kindness granted to us

“There was gratefulness, there was shame, there was heartache, there was wild joy, but above all else, there was incurable love.” - :pleading: i wish it was just that easy tbh. “i have to tell you about the worst parts of myself” “ive already seen them and i dont care i still love you“ truly the dream

“ It’s been so long since anyone listened to me talk, won’t you stay? Don’t...actually do this. I won’t be able to take it. Twice, it’s been twice already! I really don’t want there to be a third time!!!” - the bit about just wanting someone to listen to him talk... xie lian... :(

emily corpse bride moment.... i knew it had to happen.... butterflies.... death and rebirth.... inevitable

xianle trio bickering about ruoye..... mu qing complaining but not letting anyone else fix it... im so happy

“The Rain Master sat down on the spot, looking like she was going to perform a passing service for her. After all, Xuan Ji was the only one left of the Kingdom of Yushi besides herself.” - xuan ji you sure the hell were... a character. this little moment tho..... yushi huang... many thoughts

“ Who hasn’t made promises, or swore to the mountains and the seas when they were young? Talking of affection, of love, of forevers. But, the longer I hang around in the world, the more I understand, something like ‘forever’ is impossible. It’s never going to be possible. Having it once was already good enough. No one can truly achieve it. I don’t believe in it anymore.” - jian lan im happy for you bummer it didnt work out with feng xin but yeah that was looooong ago. also this quote me same mood kin but its chill. having it once was already good enough

although yeah tbh if theres anyone who can have a forever like that... it would be a ghost and a god

fasdfjadklfj GOD... pour one out for ling wen.. but is that not the truth of this world? the one can be pardoned for being good at paperwork that no one else wants to do? isnt that the plot of the shawshank redemption?

okay but the fact that all xie lian’s friends come to visit him while he waits for hua cheng is making me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.... fengqing coming together to try to get him out of the house but get scared off by his cooking... amazing

“Last time, they spent eight hundred years running towards each other. This time, it only took an instant to fall into each other’s embrace.” - im completely unaffected by this. im not lying i swear (i am lying im very emotionally affected)

okay i love this final wrap up chapter party its so fun. mu qing moving on from the broom thing!!! good for him!! the beggars get their reward!!! the fun ghost city chefs!! SQX!!!! and he xuan is?? here too??? he’s hungry??? fjadlkfjsdl

“The grounds that Feng Xin and Mu Qing had just swept were once again filthy from that giant crowd of muddy feet. Mu Qing gripped his broom, looking like he felt someone had infected him with fleas, and his eyes were wide.” - me when my dad comes into the kitchen when ive just finished washing dishes i get it king

the little folklore bit... fun!!! oh my god its over..... :(

that was really fun i had a blast reading it and on the whole really liked it i WISH soo badly that hua cheng had gotten more outside of being cunty and devoted even tho those are both important i just wish there was more about like how he got by during those 800 years and like did he ever have doubts? what shaped his worldview was it all xie lian or was it his experience as a mortal as well? why is he so mean to e’ming? theres bits and pieces here and there and i know it was already SO long but that really would have been great if there was more about hc cuz tbh by the end, at least for me, the hualian relationship didnt actually feel as fleshed out as the xianle trio relationship like i still liked hualian’s dynamic and it was really sweet how much they clearly really liked each other and everything but i kind of wish some of the other subplots had been dropped or diminished in favor of more hc development i think that would have been cool

but anyway thats some of my thoughts and i really did enjoy the hell out of book 5 that was a riot and uhhh thanks to everyone who read these or commented *lends you spiritual energy through a high five*

#tgcf liveblog #it is Complete i can move on now #i actually have a lot more thoughts about hl because i uhhhh relate. to things. and have opinions due to my experiences #but its also quite Personal soooo i might just keep them tucked away #anyway im freeeeeee #mouse mumbles

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unicyclehippo · 5 years

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Prompt idea? Jester talking to Yasha about "realizing things", as a young/newly queer person wanting advice/acceptance from an older wlw ("whats it like- having a wife?"), and maybe conflicted feelings re beau bc on one hand jes doesnt want to get between beau and yasha if they'd make each other happy but on the other hand she is jealous and isnt her own happiness worth fighting for too??

‘what’s it like - having a wife?’ jester asks. nearly immediately regrets it when the other woman jerks, eyes darting to hers, wide and surprised. ‘i’m sorry,’ she’s quick to say, shaking her head quickly, enough to make her jewellery jangle as the movement tosses them against her curling horns. ‘that’s not - it’s probably the worst thing to ask you right now, and, i mean, you look busy—‘

yasha looks down at her empty hands, around at the largely empty room, and back to jester, eyebrows raised. ‘i am not busy.’

‘oh.’

‘would you,’ yasha swallows hard. gestures toward the other piece of furniture in her room beside the bed, a solid chair. ‘do you want...to sit?’

‘um.’ jester glances behind her, down the empty hallway to the closed door of the room she shares with beau. ‘yes. sure, yes.’

‘you don’t have to if -‘

‘i want to!’

yasha seems to recoil a little at the very forceful show of what was supposed to be casual. she nods. arranges herself awkwardly as though they are about to have an interview, and jester wonders if maybe she’s afraid. just afraid would be bad enough but afraid of what jester might ask, might do because of her answers? that feels bad.

jester forces herself to relax. she closes the door and takes the seat, folds her legs criss-cross and plays for a minute with her skirts, getting the pleats to sit just so.

‘have you been sleeping better?’ jester asks, voice breaking the silence. yasha doesn’t flinch this time, but jester thinks that might be because she’s holding herself too tight and still. like a perfect alabaster statue.

‘ah. yes. caduceus came by with some tea,’ yasha says. ‘he...says some very strange things,’ she adds a little hesitantly, unsure if she’s allowed to comment on his strangeness when she—has done what she has done.

‘oh yeah, he’s great, isn’t he?’

yasha nods.

it’s a bit dizzying, actually, to be watched so intently by yasha. her gaze hasn’t fallen since jester entered the room, and she watches each small motion of jester—the way she brushes her hair behind her ears, the way her tail curls, the way she fiddles awkwardly with the rings on her fingers—but jester isn’t sure how much of it is the other woman understanding that she feels incredibly deeply nervous or, or off-kilter or strange, and how much is yasha watching out for an attack. the intensity is one thing. yasha’s dual coloured eyes are another. jester finds her own attention split between them.

‘we weren’t married for long.’ yasha jerks when jester does. ‘i’m sorry—did you, still want to know?’

‘only if you want to talk about it!’ jester insists.

‘i—don’t mind.’

‘i don’t ever want to make you do something you don’t want to do!’ jester says that forcefully, entirely on purpose. yasha needs to know, she needs to know, jester would never—

‘jester,’ yasha says, her voice low and soothing. her accent breaks jester’s name in two, each spoken with infinite fondness, gentleness. ‘everything is okay.’

for once, jester doesn’t reply to that. sometimes she denies it sadly, other times agrees fervently, but now she just sits in it. yasha is right, more or less. they got her back. killed the Hand. killed obann. things are better than they have been for a long time.

‘we were married at dawn,’ yasha tells her. ‘it was...not romantic. except that it was her, and we were getting married.’ jester can’t sit alone on her chair; she hurries across the room to sit next to yasha on the bed, brings her knees up to her chest, chin resting on them as she listens, bright eyed. ‘okay,’ yasha says, and shifts accordingly. turning her body toward jester and crossing her legs. ‘when you are married in the tribe, you, ah, you make offerings to distract evil spirits from you, so they are not watching, will not curse your union. i delivered a great sacrifice,’ yasha says, almost sounding like she’s trying to convince jester or herself of it. ‘but it mustn’t have worked.’

‘i’m sorry, yasha.’

the woman shrugs. ‘i don’t—there are some things that are missing still. from my memory. but if you have questions...’

‘i don’t know,’ jester admits. maybe she should have written some down. maybe she should figure out why she’s so interested in the first place. probably because if she knows how marriage is supposed to work, why it works, why it is good, she can get the gentleman and her mama back together and they can live happily ever after. or maybe—

‘is this—‘ yasha looks like she has bitten her tongue but she continues very carefully, very quietly. ‘about beau?’

jester plays it very very cool. ‘what? no? why would - did she - why would this be about beau? that’s totally ridiculous and not at all something i am thinking about.’ as she rambles, super convincingly, she starts to wonder herself if maybe she isn’t being entirely...truthful. ‘is it?’

‘i don’t know,’ yasha shrugs. ‘is it?’

jester frowns down at the blanket on yasha’s bed. plucks at It where it is frayed and works for a few minutes at mending those small rips. ‘she—‘ nearly died, jester thinks but doesn’t say, because that, despite the mind control, that was yasha. jester wants to cry all of a sudden. when had things become so difficult? when had she started to think seven steps ahead in a conversation to make sure she didn’t upset, didn’t offend, didn’t hurt her friends? it feels like a cage pressing in around her and she sucks in a shaky breath.

‘jester?’

‘i’m okay.’

‘no.’ yasha—so carefully that jester wonders if the woman thinks she is fragile, about to crack into shards at a too-heavy touch—sets her hand on jester’s. the little mending magic fizzles out with the jolt of surprise, fibres and threads of blanket untwisting and snapping apart once more. ‘you can talk to me, jester. i am—not weak.’ there’s a charge that flickers, over her fingers and behind yasha’s eyes. ‘you are my friend. whatever you say, we can...figure it out.’

it isn’t a question but it almost feels like one. like with the gesture yasha has reached out on two levels, both with hands extended, and is asking for her trust. and jester’s trust is small now and bruised and scratched but she hands it over regardless.

‘she died,’ jester says, flat and pained. ‘or nearly did. and i was so scared.’

yasha nods. ‘you are scared when any of them—us,’ she corrects after a moment, ‘falls. is she...different?’

‘yes,’ jester says, no need to think. ‘she’s my best, my first best friend.’

yasha hums. her expression is blank of judgement but there is a faint air to her like she remains...unconvinced.

jester falters. ‘she’s my best friend, isn’t she?’

‘yes.’ yasha squeezes her hand. ‘tell me, jester, do you think of her first in the morning?’

‘well...yeah. we’re roommates, she’s the first person i see.’

yasha shakes her head. ‘before that. before you even open your eyes.’

jester frowns. yasha seems to be hinting at something, the meaning of which slides sneakily away each time jester tries to grasp it, to find what it looks like, what it feels like, what it is.

‘she snores, so i hear her.’

yasha nods. ‘okay. well. when you are doing, mm, fun things like—‘ she blanks for a moment and then says, hesitantly, ‘dancing?’

‘i love to dance!’

‘okay, when you are dancing, who do you want to be dancing with you?’

jester squints suspiciously. yasha seems to be hinting that she thinks jester’s answer will be beau. and the thing is, of course it is beau! beau would make an amazing dance partner? that’s just natural? she’s taller than jester and strong and lean, with the build of a dancer and when she fights she has the grace of one too. she’s also great at leading and not leading, so that wouldn’t be a problem if jester got carried away and jumped into lead when maybe she shouldn’t. jester explains all of this very matter of factly to yasha, who just nods again.

‘and when you are bored?’

‘nott is very funny,’ jester is quick to point out. ‘and fjord has the best stories of sailing, and caduceus knows so much about so much, and you of course,’ she adds, just to see yasha smile.

it works. yasha smiles very fondly down at her and says, ‘and beau?’

‘beau, no, she isn’t good for boredom.’

‘why not?’

‘because she—‘ because i’m not bored with her, jester thinks. and just shrugs instead. if she thinks the small concession will halt the questions yasha asks, these big seemingly easy but oddly confusing questions, she is wrong.

‘what is your favourite colour? what do you give beau when she is hurt? does she make you laugh? do you want to make her laugh? has sh ever given you a gift? who do you want to be with when you are sad?’

‘that’s too much!’ jester cuts her off, oddly anxious. she jumps off the bed, hurries to put a few yards between them.

yasha doesn’t move to follow, but she watches jester go with a soft expression jester doesn’t recognise.

‘i...thank you for talking to me, yasha,’

‘it was like being more than myself,’ she says before jester makes it to the door. her voice is louder, warmer, richer, and when jester glances back at her, she sees that soft expression has morphed to something...peaceful. deeply sad, but peaceful. ‘i always heard it was two halves of a soul—the man and the woman, joined together. united, a match. but when i met zuala, when we met again and again and spoke, and laughed, and danced,’ yasha’s breath catches and she begins to cry. her eyes close. ‘it was more than myself, what we had. perhaps it was two halves joining, but it never felt like that.’

‘what did it feel like?’ jester whispers when yasha is silent for a short while.

‘terrifying. wonderful.’

‘terrifyingly wonderful?’ jester suggests.

yasha opens her eyes. the tears have leaked a little, spilling down her cheeks, and her eyes—watery, washed out—are clear and bright. ‘she made me very happy, in a time where that was very difficult,’ is all yasha says, and though she doesn’t send jester away, jester can hear that she needs some time.

she steps out with a quiet ‘thank you’ and closes the door behind her. leans back against it. lets out a long, slow breath.

she is still there when beau climbs the stairs, hair slicked with sweat and skin glistening, mottled with purpling bruises. beau grins, lifts a hand.

‘hey.’ her eyes flicker to the door behind jester. ‘everything alright?’

jester stares for a moment. beau is handsome and beautiful—hot, she thinks beau would insist upon—and so much more, and some of yasha’s questions make a lot of sense all of a sudden in a big, important, kinda scary way.

‘jes?’

‘yes. yes, everything is great. just a little chat.’

beau doesn’t look convinced, but she nods anyway. ‘okay.’

#cr tag #tagging my stories #prompt fill

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eremika-forever12 · 5 years

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Basically this one shot is based on time travel or rebirth theme...which is my imagination for the climax of Attack On Titan story. 😋

••|Freedom|••Eremika One Shot

Steam coming out from everywhere on land....it seems everything....every single home has been dstroyed! Lots of people died....along with titan corpses everywhere!

Among the blood stained grasses, lies down the fallen gigantic corpse of a titan....

The titan size is so huge that it would be almost equal to triple size of colossal titan...

Just from its nape....erupts a sudden smoke allowing a body falling over the ground freely...

The body starts to evaporate as soon as the figure came out and fell off from the nape....

With worn out clothes and injured body with no symptoms of chance of any recovery....Eren Yeager rolls over as he lays flat on the ground staring at the sky...blankly!

His Body was completely heat up ,blood was oozing out from his nose....he looks tired and stressed out....

His face was in no form of good health...

Eren could realise he has reached his end....he suddenly started to cough vigorously as blood came out of his mouth...

His long hair was mess...as he tried to catch his breath...

Slowly Eren looks around trying to figure out the situation....

He could see so many blood spilled in every place with so many bodies...

Suddenly he felt in need of search someone....but he had no strength left...he could barely move an inch.....

Still he wondered....Where are they? Are they safe? Has finally the war ended? Did peace finally arrive!

Eren's throat was dry and sore....he wanted water...badly...

Eren murmurs in low tone- This...p...pl...place....where is....everyone?...someone...any....one....ah....h.....

He gulps trying to catch his breath....as he raises his one hand in air and looks at sky....

He smiles as he tries to touch the sky with his hand....a tear trickled down his cheek...

He makes a fist in air as if trying to hold something....

Eren in low tone as he mutters slowly- Is this....Freedom? Are we free? Where is everyone!

His eyes twinkled as he remembers someone...speaks further- I wonder....where are they? They....they....were....in....battle field....fighting for me again! They...sh..ou..ldnt have come here...Why they..

“ Eren We trust you....we trust your decision....we trust your belief....We are with you Eren....”

The tears rolled down his tears as he started to cough again and spoke in between- Mikasa....Armin! I Want To See Them For Last Time!

Eren with whatever strength he had tried to roll over and move by crawling so that he could find Mikasa & Armin....

He was having tough time to drag himself as he was completely weak....he knew for sure....his time is up...this time he wont be recovering....

He has fought till its bitter end....all he wanted was freedom...freedom for his friends so that they could live their lives well free from titan and marliyan fears....

Eren was feeling dizzy....the time is ticking....he cant crawl any further....but he needs to see them badly specially her before he dies...

His voice was dry....words were stuck in his throat...

He cant drag himself any further so he roll over and laid flat again on his back...

Where is she? Mikasa!

Tears rolled down his eyes again as his vision blurred...

Is she safe even? And Armin? He better be alive...

He did all these for them too....to keep them alive and to free them from this cursed life...

Do they still hate him? Or do they finally understand his motive?

Eren whispers- Mikasaaa...Where are you? Just...co...me...back to me...for....o...ne...last time! I need to ask....for...givness from you....for everything I did...to...you! Please just come back....be safe....

Suddenly Eren hears a rattling sound nearby....it was more like a footsteps...

Slowly Eren turns his head in the direction of sound....as his vision was blurry & unclear.....he could only see a limping figure....coming towards him...he could say the person was injured badly...

As the figure came close....he could hear his name which was faint but prominently...

“ Eren....Eren....Er...en”

All of Sudden Eren eyes shone....as he realised who it was....

He blinked his eyes to clear off his tears from his eyes so that he could have a clear view...

Eren whispers with faint smile- Mikasa....

Just then his smile disappeared and horror arrived on his face to what he just saw....

Mikasa was badly injured from head to toe....it was a miracle that she was trying to walk fast to reach him as much as possible...

Her right part of abdomen was possible severely injured....as she was heavily bleeding from that part ....she was keeping her hand on the area to minimize the bleeding but her hand was completely drenched in blood...

Her expressions showed she was in severe pain as tears were flowing down her cheeks....he head was injured too while one of her sleeve was torn....

Eren was in shock....What have he done! Why is she so badly hurt? She isnt supposed to get hurt...she is supposed to be in safe hand....

Wait where is Armin? What....what happened to him?

Wait....

Suddenly Eren had a flash to what happened an hour back or some hours before....

The whole 104 trainees were there along with Reiner & Aniee...

Mikasa was there too along with Armin....they were there to stop him....but why were they there to stop? Didnt they put their trust on him!

But it was too late already....the memories are vague....all he could remember there was a huge blast from all of the colossal titans while probably they were caught in the blast too including him. After that what happened , he couldn't remember anything at all.

Mikasa kept on walking towards him as he kept on staring at her trying to say something....

With a blink of second suddenly he saw Mikasa tripping and falling on ground as she lost her imbalance....

She screamed in agony as Eren finally spoke up in fear....this time his voice audiable- MIKASAAAA....

Mikasa was laying there flat as her head hit the ground....her hand was clutching to something. It was the RED SCARF!

The scarf was completely drenched in blood...

Eren started crying as he suddenly felt a severe pain in his heart....he didnt want this! He didnt want any of it! He just wanted to save his friends....but Mikasa....she is so much injured! She shouldn't be here....she should return back....she can still be saved! Eren regrets for wishing to see her one last time....its him who dies not them!

Mikasa slowly raises her head and stares back at Eren with tears in her eyes....

She was struggling badly to come close to him.

Eren says in heartbreaking voice- Dont! Dont come....near me! Go back Mikasa....its not worth to come here! You are not suppose to come back to a monster! Hurry and go back before your health detorates!

She was just five hands distance from him as she struggles to crawl towards him.

Mikasa whispers in low tone- I dont think it would change anything....I dont think I will be surviving either!

Eren in agony- No...Go away from here! Its not you guys who deserve this....Its me who should die! My freedom is my death! I want you guys to live long....leave me here & go back! Why did you even come here on first place with those wounds?

Mikasa looked deeply into those weak green orbs as she said weakly- Why? Why do you push me away from you always? Just to die like this? What did you get by doing this anyways?

Eren just kept on staring at her unable to say anything as Mikasa slowly starts to crawl towards him....she was weak....she was almost drained out with the amount of blood loss...but still all she was doing is coming towards him.

At last she came close enough to hold fallen hand on ground.

As soon as he hand touches his....a sense of spark ran through his spine.

Mikasa looked at him- Everyone is dead on this battle field....I doubt there is a single soldier alive anymore here except the two of us....

Eren afraid to ask but still he did- Where is Armin?

Mikasa lowers her gaze as she speaks- There is no one alive Eren....Armin breaths his last a while ago a bit far from this place...

Eren's tears were unstoppable as he whimpers in despair- This....Cant...Be True! Our freedom...I did saw Our Freedom! I Did All These For Freedom...To Stop The Curse! Why! Everything.... I did...Every person, family, child I have killed....means nothing....My actions means nothing....just....I only built a mountain of sins for nothing....

Mikasa finally reached him as she laid besides him- No you haven't Eren! Your actions do have some meaning....though the sins you did has no forgiveness! But The People Of Paradis Are Indeed Free....The Eldians Are Free....The Land Will Be Free From Titans Fear! You did achieve your goal! But Why did you push us away Eren? Pushing us away didnt change the fate of ours....We all were destined to die, to sacrifice our lives for the cause of people of Paradis...

Mikasa puts her hand on his chest as he immediately tried to shove it away as he spoke in agony- Go Away Damn It! I Didnt Want You Guys To Die....After What I Did To You! Why would you choose to follow me again? I thought the acker bond would have been broken...and you would be free from this slavery!

That was enough for Mikasa as she yelled at him for whatever strength she had- Stop It Eren! (Winces in pain) What makes you think I always cared for you just for that acker bond & tried to protect you just for a stupid bond! Please Stop It Eren! My care & feelings were more than a bond....maybe such bond might have exist but What I feel is more deeper than any bond! And lastly you are no Monster Eren! I dont know about the people but for me you will always be the boy who saved me out of kindness!

Mikasa slowly came over him as she placed her face on his chest trying to hear his heartbeat....

Eren was feeling weak again but he slowly puts his hand over her head...

Eren weakly- I Just Wanted To Save You Guys But I Failed Clearly....

Mikasa whispers – No Eren You Havent....Our Death Is Our Freedom....We Will meet again in some different world!

Eren staring at the sky....the birds were flying as the clouds started to run....

“ Is There An Outside World? “

Mikasa with raw breath- I believe there is where everyone of Us Will Be Free!

Eren with his feeble breath mutters- Will we remember this life? And identify eachother?

Mikasa whispers as her eyes started to feel drowsy- I Dont Know....But I Will Always Find You Where ever You Go!

Eren softly as tears fell from his cheeks- Mikasa I Am Sorry For Everything! I....I Have Always Loved You....That Day... I Didnt Mean....

Mikasa interrupts – Sssh I Know...

Suddenly she realises that she was still clutching the scarf in her hand....she smiled weakly...

She slowly pulled it up and pushed it near Eren's neck with her hand still laying over his chest...

“ Warm....Isnt it? “

There was no response....she tried to hear closely....his heartbeats slowly faded away....

Mikasa raised her head to look at his face....

His eyes was open staring at the sky but with no emotions at all...

Mikasa with tears in eyes smilled “ See You Later Eren....”

As she slowly closed his eyes with her hand & laid back on his chest...while her eyes slowly drooped down...

“ Eren..... Eren.....Eren....”

The Voice was quite louder now...

“ Eren....Come On...Wake Up...Eren...”

Hearing the huge scream , The green eyes finally shot open as it stared blankly at the person hovering over him....

That black silky hair floating in air as she stared at him with her big grey eyes....

“ Eren....You Are Late! We dont have much time....did you forget...today is our first introduction class in millitary !”

The Sudden Realisation Stuck Upon Him As He Quickly Jumped Off From His Bed Muttering Under His Breath- Shit....Shit....Damn It! How come I am late! Today is 1st day in military training and I am damn late....Hey Mikasa....Just Save My Ass From Mom! She is gonna be really pissed at me for being late!

Mikasa rolled her eyes- That she already is....she sent me here thrice already but you were still in deep sleep...

Suddenly Mikasa noticed something and she held Eren's hand as she freaked out- Heyyy Were You Crying?

Eren stared at her shocked and touched his cheeks- Me? Crying?

He realised there was something wet on his cheeks....most probably tears..

He quickly rubbed off his eyes....

Mikasa worriedly- Whats wrong?

Eren holding his head as he says- I Dont Know....I Actually Had That Same Long Dream Which I Am Having For Last 7- 8 Years! But Every time I Get Up I Dont Remember Anything Properly....Must Be Some Nightmare....

Mikasa hears someone calling her from downstairs to which she replies " Coming Mrs. Yeager"

Mikasa was about to leave for downstairs, just then Eren called her out- Hey Mikasa! Dont tell mom and dad about it! That I was crying or something...

Mikasa shrugged- alright I wont....

*******

The two of them were on board in a ship which will be travelling to the outer district “ Shinganshina”..... A Historical place of thousands of years with full of mysteries....

Eren lives with his parents in the new town across the sea....along with his childhood friend Mikasa who has been living with them since she was 10. Mikasa’s parents basically lives in the hilly areas and had not planned to shift in main town yet. Mikasa always had an interest in doing education in the main city along with her childhood crush Eren.

As her parents werent ready to shift to main city yet, her dad asked Dr. Yeager, a good friend of his & ofcourse Eren's dad....to let Mikasa live with them for a time being.

Mikasa couldnt be more than happy....

They were 15 now....both of them got eligible to be admitted in Millitary School & College To Persue Their Dreams To Become Soilders....

Mikasa never wanted to be a soilder though but Eren had some kind of crazy dream to become a scout and protect people. While she decided to follow him cause where ever Eren goes she goes....she hopes one day she will be able to tell Eren about her true feelings but till then she wonders does he also feel same for her?

Her thoughts were broken when Eren asked Dr. Grisha Yeager “ Hey Dad! Why do we have to travel across and reach Shinganshina? Why cant the Millitary school be here in main city?”

Dr. Grisha....as he adjusted his glasses said widely- This is because....Shinganshina is the place of mysteries....history of ancestors lies in its ground! It is said that the Millitary people want their students to be taught about the history of Great Wars....Stories of the legends! Who sacrificed their lives for the people of Paradis! Millitary not only wants to make strong Soldiers to protect our lands but also they want to set new examples which will resemble the heroes of Shinganshina!

Eren's eyes shone brightly- heroes of Shinganshina? Who are they?

Grisha smiled- You will know soon Son! As soon as you will be taught about their stories of freedom....

Eren's energetically- Yesss! I Cant Simply Wait....Mikasa this is going to be fun!

Mikasa smiled weakly- Ah yes I guess so....

Just then they heard their names from somewhere far....

“ Eren....Mikasa”

Eren with wide eyes as he looked in the direction- Is That Armin? Ah I thought he had already left for Shinganshina....seems like we all are in same ship!

Armin as he came running towards them- Hey guys! What a pleasent surprise! Guess what we all are late on the 1st day!

The three of them started laughing....

Soon they could see some huge walls approaching.....

The shore of Shinganshina was waiting for them....

While Eren spotted a huge sign of lady face on the walls which could be seen from far....

Eren whispers- Wall Maria!

Mikasa looks at him surprised- huh? From where did that come from?

Eren while being confused himself- ah....I....I dont know...I just thought thats Wall Maria...those wall I mean!

Mikasa wondered- How do you know that?

When Armin suddenly chirpped in- Guys....Dont you feel like something....Deja Vu! Like As If We Have Seen This Place Before....

Eren stared at the huge walls approaching and the huge port where lots of ships arrived...

Eren lost in thoughts- Indeed there is something about this place....

While Grisha smiled- Yes....There is something...about this place! After all this is the place where the freedom of people finally arrived....

Grisha knelt infront of his son as he spoke – The Freedom You Were Waiting For....Eren....Its Here Finally...You are Free my Child!

P.S Hope you guys like it....do share your thoughts and comment.

#eremika fanfic #eremika #eremin #eren x mikasa #mikasa ackerman #eren yeager #snk #shingeki no kyojin #attack on titan #armin arlert

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anastasiaskarsgard · 5 years

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Meeting Roman Godfrey

Chapter 2

Warning: cursing.

Author notes: establishing these two dynamic. The calm before the storm if you will. Lol.

“I can honestly say that I’m jealous.” Roman mumbled as he stared in wonder at myr Uncles’ home. Walking around touching the original furnishings, and admiring the extensive art collection that was everywhere you looked, in some form or another.

My uncles home had been designed by famous architect frank lloyd wright and was dramatically built on top of a waterfall, giving it the suitable name of “Falling Water”. It was as famous for its genius design, as it was for being owned by a reclusive antisocial billionaire that didn’t allow journalists, photographers, architects or anyone for that matter near the home, let alone photograph it.

I think, the waterfall is annoying,the kitchen impractical,pretty much had no storage space, was constantly in need of some major renovation or repair, and was as close to living in a fish bowl you could get. I’d never admit any of those things out loud, because it truly was beautiful, but deep down I hated living in the famous home.

“I’m just shocked you drove all the way out here. I figured for sure you’d see how far it was and be like pass.” I said trying to draw some attention from the home.

“He recognized the address.” I spun around to find my Uncle standing by one of the homes many staircases.”hello Godfrey. I bet you’re beside yourself to finally have a look inside.”

“Absolutely, sir. It’s an absolute honor to be in your home.” Roman said politely.

I looked at him incredulously. He was known for being a pain in the ass and a brat, but maybe he was just smart and chose his battles. My uncle was as famous for being an asshole as he was for being a genius, but it seemed as though they knew eachother. “So I guess you two know eachother?” i asked.

“Since i can remember. your Uncle loves to tell me to go fuck myself on the regular. Well not since I tried to buy this house right before....” Romn trailed off as he seemed to get lost in some distant memory...

“What happened to your cousin Letha?” My uncle asked. Strange for him to even ask personal questions, let alone remember names (even if it was my name too)

“Uncle! It might be polite to ask him how he is first...” I huffed.

“I dont care about his emotional state. I care about how a perfectly strong healthy girl died so suddenly and then it just went away.” he analyzed Romans reaction, but there was none. my Uncle liked to test people.

“brain or blood vessel burst in child labor. I was there. So much blood... then she was gone.

“Uncle!!! Are you seriously...”

“No need to defend me Letha.” Roman interjected with a pleasant smile, “your Uncle is one of my favorite people.”

“Did I ever tell you how not just one, but two women ended up with your terrible name?” he asked me with one of his mischevious smiles. “in Greek it translates to forgetful, and considering you’re not forgetful in the least its ironic. Marie and your mother both hated Olivia, and bonded over that mutual hate. Marie was so taken by your others charms, she named Letha after you the following day.”

I looked over to Roman and he was staring into me. i glanced away to my Uncle, who was watching Roman wth a strange smile on his face. He was acting kind of strange, even for him. I’d better get Roman out of here before he hates me.

“. Come on out here with me and we can chat you two. Letha grab me a ginger ale and get Roman a water since he’s driving.” my Uncle ordered.

I agreed and hurried to the kitchen and watched in curiosity as the two notoriously difficult business tycoons seemed to be enjoying one another out on the terrace.

I hadn’t planned on inviting Roman in, but he had been so obviously enamored by the famous home, that i couldn’t refuse when he’d politely asked to see it. Normally a guy asking to see inside was a question with shady intentions, but the pure wonder on his face had proven otherwise.

Now i didn’t even know what to think about my Uncle being his version of kind to Roman. Uncle hated visitors. I wasn’t totally sure how much he liked me even. I felt like I was in some alternate reality

I grabbed the drinks, put them on this fancy tray and carried them out to the terrace. It was just nearly dusk and this was one of the prettiest times to see the house, when it was all lit up like a lone lantern in the thick forest with the dramatic waterfalls, and otherworldly feel.

It was kind of silly that the house was the view, instead of the house having a view. And ironically, the house was so hidden away on 1700 acres up a long winding road, behind a massive gate, with full time security, that nobody really ever got to view it.. Uncle has grown tired of people just showing up or seeing flashes in the woods, so he hired this crazy security company to keep everyone out and monitor all the borders. Hardly anyone ever made it thru now. It was private, but extremely isolated and lonely.

“I’m surprised you’d take interest in Letha.” My uncle said, eyes narrowing obviously oblivious I was right behind them. I held my breath and didn’t move a muscle. I wanted to hear this.

“Why? She’s a beautiful girl.” Roman chuckled.

My heart warmed and stomach fluttered a bit. OH HELL NO Letha. Keep that shit in check.Hes gorgeous, and tall, and sexy, and charmng, and smelled nice, and could hold his own with your uncle, but hes also famous for bedding every woman in his path....

“Frankly her breasts are too big for my taste, they seem like a handicap more than an asset, but that’s trivial and shallow. She’s too smart and she doesn’t listen for shit.”

“I had noticed that actually...” Roman said thoughtfully.

“Which part?”

“All of it.”

I cleared my throat, so I didnt hear anything else wrong with me. “Drinks guys.”

Roman hopped up to help me but I signaled him to sit, as I served them their beverages. I could feel his eyes on me, but was careful not to look at him and notice.

“Take a picture, it’ll last longer.” My uncle said. I was gonna punch him in the face, hes such an ass! god I love him.

I burst out laughing and looked at Roman who was 3 shades redder and forcing an uncomfortable smile.He isnt that cool, he does get embarrassed, thats better.

My Uncle started to laugh but winced. “Ouch. Shit. Fucking neck.” He cursed as he was reminded laughing wasn’t allowed yet. He hardly ever did laugh so it wasn’t really an issue normally.

“You’re my favorite person in the world Uncle.” I meant it too. He’s always been there for me, and when I heard he’d hurt himself and may need my help, I dropped everything, hopped in my car and drove the nearly 3000 miles to his house.

It’d taken nearly a whole day to get permission to pass the guards. They were new and usually my uncle came to see me. I’d only been to this house one time when I had graduated high school more than a few years ago. With me going to University, my uncle no longer had to live in the city, so he came here.. Something about the house and town was unsettling to me.

“Well considering the competition, it’s not much of a compliment.” My uncle said dryly. “One day you two should compare notes and see which one of your mothers is the more despicable creature.”

“Is it ok if I take Roman on a little nature walk so he can see the house in all its glory?”

“Go ahead. I’m gonna go to sleep shortly but no hanky panky you two.” He said with a mischievous grin.

Now it was my turn to be red. I turned to Roman and he was already up by my side. I took his hand and walked to the floating stairs that led to the ground floor. I was sure to walk slowly so he could take in all the house had to offer.

“Beautiful.” Roman said under his breath.

“Oh my gosh I know! Can you believe they built this out in the middle of nowhere in 1935? Can you imagine? And it hasn’t been cheap or easy keeping it perfect like this. A few years ago they had to rip half the house apart and reinforce it because the terraces were sagging. Uncle spent like 11 million dollars that time on engineers and architects and materials. He was not letting it go, and I don’t even think the whole house is worth that, but when he likes something, not hell nor high water can change his mind.”

“I wasn’t talking about the house, although good to know.” He smiled at me almost shyly.

“Are you trying to be adorable? You aren’t shy, and yet you’re acting almost sweet.”

“You’re so weird. You just spit out whatever you’re thinking don’t you?” Roman challenged me. Super cocky confident Roman returning.

“Omg you’re a peacock. Look at you preening about, puffing up your chest.”

“A peacock? Really? What does that make you?”

I had to think about that for a moment.”I’d have to go with a honey badger I think.” I said.

Roman choked on his water. I pat him on the back, giving him a moment to catch his breath. “Why is that such a shock?”

“No reason.” He tried to look innocent but I could see thru his shit. “Why did you choose it?”

“Well I’m resourceful, fearless, I don’t listen, I prefer my own company, no one can keep me contained, and snakes don’t intimidate me.”

“Ya?” Roman got very close to me and wrapped his arms around me looking down through long lashes. He oozed sex appeal and I could see how all the girls fell all over him.

I reached up and booped his nose. “Boop.” I giggled hysterically at his facial expression.

“What was that?” He asked confusedly.

“Shut. The. Fuck. Up. No one has ever booped you in the nose? That’s crazy! You have the best looking nose I’ve ever seen.”

“I’ve never gotten that one.”

“Well that’s cuz most women are probably trying to be sexy and mysterious with you. theyre not being themselves. Boop. Ok last one. Sorry. I barely know you, I can’t go booping you all over the place on our first date, you’re a nice Christian boy...” I said sarcastically. I grabbed him by the hand and pulled him along the way. “We are almost there and it’s getting dark. We don’t wanna get eaten out here or have to kill something.”

i looked back and Roman was genuinely smiling. I felt warm all over, I looked t our hands intertwined and was puzzled with the feeeling i felt. i looked back at Roman and he was looking at our hands too...

We walked along in happy silence until we reached the rocks across the lake and waterfalls from the house. I was wearing Converse, but his dress shoes were proving to be less than nature friendly. We finally got up the slick stairs cut into the stone to reach the sitting area, after a lot of effort and laughs. They were the worst shoes for this environment ever.

Upon seeing the house, Roman audibly gasped. He took a few steps ahead and I just admired his profile and form. He really was beautiful. I knew he was going to kiss me before the night was thru. I knew better than to trust this boy, and I knew this was really stupid and I couldn’t put my finger on it, but I was completely enthralled and was going to see it through. I didnt half ass anything, and i wasnt going to start with him.

“Take a picture, it’ll last longer.” Roman said playfully.

My eyes flashed at him trying to tell me what to do. I lowered my head and looked up at him thru my lashes with a sneer.

“Hey hold on, that’s my trick! We can’t BOTH have intense sexy stares.” he walked over and casually grabbed me around the waist.

“Good thing mine is just evil then.” I said in my best creepy witch voice.

He burst out laughing, eyes shining. It was a genuine laugh. I could tell by the way he instantly tried to control it, that it didn’t happen often.He tried to be so intimidating and serious, but there was a warmth to him, just under the surface.

“You’re a nerd.” He said quietly.

Oh boy here we go. He’s gonna try this again. My mind was running 1000 miles a minute as I tried to decide whether I was going to let this happen, when all of a sudden it was too late. His lips were on me as he pulled me into a deep embrace. If I was the type to get caught up in a moment, this would be that moment. He smelled amazing, and tasted so sweet. I felt gum in his mouth with my tongue and I snatched it. I pulled away victorious and mock screamed like a roaring crowd, jogging in a circle arms raised.

“You did not just steal my gum.” He beamed at me, chasing me and catching me in his arms before slipping and pulling me down on top of him, wincing at the impact.

i hovered over him laughing hysterically. “grace and beauty,” i teased. “ No gum is safe when I’m around.” I grabbed his hand and dragged him to his feet and then back to the stairs. “Time to go on the date I have planned for us.”

His eyebrows shot up and he looked genuinely shocked. “You planned out a date?”

“I did. And I have a feeling, you’re going to love it giiiirrrlll!” We both were giggling like school kids as we made our way back to the house.

I looked up to see my Uncle watching us from his terrace, a worried look on his face. That was kind of odd, but this was Roman Godfrey for chrissake.

I obnoxiously kissed my hand with a big “muah!” And threw it at my uncle who ducked like he was really avoiding getting hit.

“You nearly got me that time.” He yelled down to me.

I laughed and waved goodbye as we walked around the house to Romans Mercedes G wagon.

“Do you know why this suv is so expensive?” I asked him.

“It’s a Mercedes.” He said rolling his eyes.

“Although that’s part of it, these are built by hand and take over 40 hours buy two master craftsman to build. They have all the top-of-the-line materials used as well as three locking differentials. It’s the only one in its class with that so it’s superior for off-road Ing especially with the all wheel drive. Add that with superior safety and brand reliability and you have a very expensive, amazing machine. And since you of course have the AMG, you have to add two more craftsman to its build to hand build its engine that’s a mechanical marvel in itself.”

“You know more about my car than me. “ he laughed.

“It’s no big deal, I just never forget something once I’ve read it.”

“Never? I understand your ironic name now”

“Nope. It’s a blessing and a curse. I get it from my Uncle I guess.”

“That’s impressive.” He said sincerely. “I better never lie to you.”

I looked at him and our eyes locked. We stood there eyes locked on one another, neither of us wanting to be the first to look away. A smile crept across his face and i did an exaggerated silly wink.

“You are full of surprises Ms. Letha... what is your last name? Same as your Uncle?

“Nope. My last name is Dahl although I’d love to change it. Not a fan of my father.

“Oh? Family drama Letha Dahl?’

“You have no idea.” I winked and got in the passenger side before he could reach the door and open it for me. I watched him walk around to the drivers seat and stop to read a message and reply. He scanned thru his phone and slipped it in his pocket. He climbed in and pushed the button to start the car. I went to the navigation and entered the address of our destination and pressed start.

I looked out the window analyzing my thoughts and emotions with scientific precision, first identifying the particular emotions and then assessing where there root was, before filing them away as solved. This was how I regulated thoughts and feelings, so they never got the best of me but this time there were emotions, I had no name for and there was nothing logical about them. I’d dated and even had boyfriends, but I’d never been this absolutely enamored by a man. i felt .... God, what was it?

Roman Godfrey was way cooler than me, but I was smarter, but for the first time in my life, I wasn’t sure if that was an advantage. I had never let emotion take the wheel, but i almost wanted to. I wanted to be lost in this tragic gorgeous boy.

#billy skarsgard #bill skarsgard #bill istvan günther skarsgård #roman godfrey #hemlock grove #imagine #fanfic #meetingroman100 #my writing

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yellowbluemoonshine · 5 years

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Why Shigaraki can get redemption? Hints (give it a chance)

well first of all, obviously i am not sure about that but i would like to share what i saw with you guys so please give it a chance. and first, let me say this. i usually dont like villains and dont care that much. cause i hate when someone excuse their past even though its understandable but this time, its different. this is my first expectional. and i didnt care redemption things that much in the past but this one is my first and i hope it really can happen. i never saw someone who deservers and needs redemption more than anyone else. he needs a hero more than anyone else.

and my favorite character is deku, second is shigaraki and thats why this redemption is important for me.i want real justice. and only this redemption can bring real justice to this story, i think. thats why i love deku, tenko and this story. i believe this is all about, this is what it supposed to be so hopefully you can read it. i believe, its worth it. (and sorry for bad eng btw)

1- GREATEST VICTIM:

if you really pay attention shigaraki s past and everything about him. he never had a choice but to be a villain. it was only path for him. “villain who had no choice but to be a villain. horikoshi said this in his interview. he didnt say it is shigaraki but shigaraki wqas the only villain who had no choice so).

people who doesnt know about (manipulation, abuse, dehumanized people, how you shouldnt raise a child, psychological torture and psychology) , cant see shigaraki as a human but monster. they ohly see shigaraki s present but if you really research about these things, shigaraki coulnt be something else. you can read the theories about these on my tumbrl or you can check on other people s tumbrl. abuse,victimhood and blah blah. it will help you to understand. if you read all of them, you can see how much victim he is, maybe.

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184767559607/shigaraki-tomura-abuse-and-victimhood

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185347164252/shigaraki-abuse-foils-and-desires

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184767947307/shigaraki-s-speech-bubble

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185094678537/gloomypear-hey-guysi-just-noticed

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185304265272/slurpingsoba-i-saw-that-i-had-this-post-in-my

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184769118987/what-is-shigaraki-gonna-do-after-he-learnt-about

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184878444347/mourning

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184975629107/mew-cake-i-like-how-through-the-sketchy

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184769118987/what-is-shigaraki-gonna-do-after-he-learnt-about

https://galacticana.wordpress.com/2018/07/13/can-you-please-tell-me-more-about-tomura-shigaraki/

its not that. shigaraki is in constantly in pain and completely empty. yeah he cares about his comprades but thats it. he likes NOTHING. i mean, everything about him makes him more victim.

nothing will change the fact that tenko should be saved, no matter what happens.

2- TENKO - SHIINA - HANA :

did you ever read horikoshi s other series? tenko one-shot. oumagadoki zoo.

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185435057607/hana-tenko-shigaraki-deku

first, tenko one-shot from horikoshi. there is a character that named “tenko”. main character. and that kid is really similar to shigaraki but he has different life. in that story, tenko wasnt manipulated by someone. he had tragedy but still, he was a good person with his own way. he was lost, broken whatever and in the end of story, he was saved by hana. hana save him from his curse.

oumagadoki zoo. shiina is shigaraki. now. he is an adult but mentally kid. no one manipulated him. and also luckiely he had his friends. he had a curse and trying to healing with his own ways. then hana came and well in the end of the story, hana saved shiina from his curse (it cancelled but it was the real end, i think)

in every story, shigaraki is a character who is lost, broken, dont know what to do and waiting for to being saved. he is a traegedy character in evrey series. no family, tragedy, they all have their own curse and blah blah. well, tenko from one shot and shiina from oumagadok zoo was luckier than shigaraki. in bnha, shigaraki is completely lost, broken. its like same people who has different life.

and in every story, hana is the one who saved tenko from his curse. if you really read these stories, real hana in this story is deku. so deku is the one who will save tenko from his curse. (it doesnt mean that it has to be same but still, hopefully it can happen cause i think it should happen.)

3- ) author is preparing deku to him understanding shigaraki:

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184784638422/author-is-preparing-deku-to-him-understanding

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185462390237/aysall-hanyuu7-replied-to-your-post-daily

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184784640747/another-parallel-in-bnha-part-2

why shigaraki is a parallel with the all characters who saved by deku?

(not just this, author is showing to him faults of society)

bakugo, todoroki, kota, eri, mr gentleman (even hawks).

they were good victims but shigaraki was bad victim? shigaraki was DEHUMANIZED, he was groomed to be a villain. its really important difference. anyone could be like him.

for example, eri doesnt remember his father s death but shigaraki does. his pain is deeper than anyone else s. and overhaul didnt remind of her what she did cause he doesnt care about her. she was just tool. but for afo, tenko was important as his successor, as his product. he was needed to be manipulated. i think at first tenko also didnt want to hurt anyone just like eri thats why he was wearing the gloves, at first. something must happenned to change his mind.

stop underestimating and ignoring tenko s pain. cause i can see the kind, gratefull child who wants to be saved inside of him. he could be cruel, ungratefull like overhaul (he betrayed the man who took him and that man didnt even force him to being a akuza, he said you can go.) but even though, he was dehumanized, he didnt. he was always different from othner villains and always close to good side s victims. if you really think about it, you can see it too.

not just with parallels, he is doing with a lot of ways. he is showing to deku that something has to change. with heroes, with villains even with his quirk.

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185347750102/about-decay

dont be surprised if he gets decay quirk from nana :)

btw i wrote all parallels in my tumbrl. you can check on.

4- MAIN CHARACTER:

a) deku shouldnt kill shigaraki

(even shigaraki kills allmight or someone who are precious to deku, even its inko or hana who is tenko s sister cause it wont change the fact that shigaraki no tenko still needs to be saved. enemy or not, there is someone who needs help, and you must save him. who, how, where, doesnt matter. this is the true hero

and deku is not the type who gets revenge or hold a grudge, even overhaul hurt a lot of people, only thing deku was thinking was “its a villain who needs to stop” not kill or revenge he doesnt think these kind of things.)

and i dont think he will. its not just about shigaraki. its about deku. its about just who he is. he is a hero, TRUE HERO and he shouldnt kill villain. he shouldnt kill his biggest enemy, no matter what happens. thats the certain difference between villains and heroes so deku wont/shouldnt kill shigaraki.

(and i wrote a lot about the reasons about this, you can check on my tumbrl.)

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184876269697/why-shigaraki-hates-allmight-why-deku

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184863066257/what-if-one-for-all-is-exist-to-save-all-for-one

b) i just cant imagine a future that deku s giving up on saving tenko. deku will eventually learn his story

i mean if he wouldnt learn, it wouldnt makes sense so after he learnt that how much shigaraki victim is,

we all know that deku will try to save shigaraki from his curse. you can say that shigaraki wont want that but the posibility that tenko s being a hero will always be there.

i mean he saved eri. shigaraki s condition is worse than eri so he will just give up?

it just doesnt fit deku s character. he should find a way no matter what happens. i mean come on, its deku that we are talking about.

i dont believe that deku would call himself a “hero” if he couldnt save tenko but deku said “this is the story how i became the greatest hero” so definitely he should save tenko

c) we have a main character who can change the future so

deku can smash shigaraki s fate about being antagonist and destroying everything. (interesting part is remember this, all “future changing/bending fate thing) is happenning to save eri who is parallel with shigaraki. eri is one of the biggest proof of that shigaraki should (hopefully will) be saved.)

d) deku and bakugou are learning “save and win” part.

so what if someone that you must defeat and save is the same person? answer is obvious. you should stop him, defeat him. (not killing him, obviously). and save him (giving him a new chance,hope, showing what hero means). i dont exactly know how it will happen though.

e) how deku can be greatest hero? how deku can show the difference between true hero and others?

the difference between deku and the others.

did anyone try to understand villains? did someone try to fix something before? no one did so only deku can do this. only deku can change things.

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184873685777/why-deku-wont-become-symbole-of-peace-why

allmight cant do this or gran torino or someone else cause shigaraki isnt in a state that listen,understand,love someone. and he is the last boss. so at least he wont get redemption until the end of the story, until the last arc. he will face with deku. so only deku can do this

and deku might get some help about shigaraki s redemption from his friends maybe, who knows cause he is not the type that who fight alone. he will fight with his friends. unlike allmight. maybe unexpected characters will also help deku too about this, who knows. we will see.

and maybe until the last fight, we will all loose our hope about this redemption, not just we bnha fans, also all characters in bnha including deku but maybe last moment, deku will make some miracle, i hope he can.

he (his true hero soul) is my only real hope about this redemption. so we wont get real answers until the end, unfortunately.

5-STORY:

a) shigaraki is a very broken character and he is one of the most tragic victims in anime history

and this a story about heroes, justice and showing their faults to heroes and made them better heroes so in these kind of story, shigaraki shouldnt stay as a victim but if they dont save tenko, he will allways be a tragic victim cause there is a posibility that he could become a hero will allways be there

b) shigaraki was ignored by the world when he was a kid.

so are you telling me that he will be ignored and abandoned by the world again? didnt everything happen cause of people s ignorance? it just doesnt fit this story. time to stop being ignorance.

c) you can say that he is the antagonist

but who said biggest enemy cant be redeemed? in the end of story, why not? after the big fight with deku maybe? cause we all know shigaraki is the last boss and will become the greatest villain so maybe greatest villain doesnt mean evilest villan? it means the most dangerous villain maybe? and remember, people who are in pain are the ones who are the most dangerous. so its basically what makes shigaraki dangeours. his deeper pain. his victimhood is what makes him a villain. it still can chappen.

d) in this story, there are a lot of victims especially villains s backstory.

so someone has to change this and you cant change this while killing villains. you have to find something else, another way. especially shigaraki is a blow-back and you cant just destroy blow-back. if you do that, one day another shigaraki will be born and nothing will change but it will be worse

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185341644322/hero-society-only-rewards-powerful-flashy-quirks

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185017729452/what-the-villains-are-probably-gonna-do-to

e) not just villains, even in hero side there are a lot of people who are victims and a lot of people dont know what hero means. mostly of them are anti-hero. even deku dont know, he just following his hearth. saving shigaraki can show the world, not just to shigaraki, not just to deku s himself, to everyone. everyone can see/learn what hero means

f) deku always win his enemies and saved victims until now.

this is exactly why last fight will be so hard cause now, the person you must saved and stopped will be same. it will be amazingly so hard. it wont be just power fight. it will be more than that. thats why it will be so epic. just defeating enemy wont be enough, thats one of the amazing points in this story. also if this happens, it will make a difference between this story and others.

g) it would be cliche so it shoulnt happen ? everything is cliche in these days. and if shigaraki gets redemption and wont die, it would be something different cause author usually kills antagonist but what about something different, this time? antagonist is stopping being antagonist and being normal person?

btw protagonist deku should live hopefully, i dont want deku s sacrificing himself. (he should live to save more people in the future.) and “dont getting redemption” doesnt fit shigaraki s character, deku s true soul and this story. so it can happen. maybe author will do something extremely extraordinary. maybe deku will still live, tenko will live and tenko will be saved and it will still be fair, amazing and happy ending? who knows what will happen, we will see.

h) not even need to talk about author is keep reminding us that how much victim shigaraki is with secret hints. so hopefully it can happen. i am not saying that it will happen, i am saying it should happen for the sake of everything. (i think)

5- TENKO ORIGIN:

look at this notes. i believe that his origin tenko is good. tomura is evil.

https://codenamesazanka.tumblr.com/post/184783095389/codenamesazanka-yet-another-proto-shigaraki

why we get shigaraki tomura distortion but not tenko shimura origin? did you ever think about why all for one worked so hard to turning him to a villain? i mean, he said “he was born twisted” maybe he is right shigaraki was pure evil, even when he was a kid. but i dont think its true.

a) if he is a pure evil, why afo messed him that much? why did he try to controlling him that much? psychological torture was unnecessary but why did he do it? why someone like him wasnt confidence enough about saying that cause he was sad while saying that, wasnt laughing. (not sure though) if he really thinks shigaraki is “pure evil” then why did he watch every move he did from camera? maybe he was talking about something else idk. but i dont believe that tenko is evil. i believe tenko is good. tomura is evil. i think afo sees shigaraki as his product, something he created. tomura is something afo created. this society created. (author is saying that, not me. so it cant be real him, i believe)

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185569751072/why-did-all-for-one-choose-shigaraki-theory

A monster created by today s society. its not origin. why author or afo , why everything forced him that much? i mean, if he is a pure evil, then why author give him a this much tragedy? its so unrealistic and unnecessary. if shigaraki was a pure evil even when he was a kid, i would felt like being cheated cause its just makes no sense. cause otherwise, it would be like “i gave to him a lot of tragedies just to making a drama” and it would be so waste.

b) he wanted to be a hero........................................

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184878069647/fumikage-so-tomura-tenko-found-out-about-his

if he never met All For One or if someone taught him what is right, if there is someone who was there for him, shigaraki wouldnt be a villain. he would be a hero just like todoroki, bakugou, deku :’) maybe he could be greatest hero and this story would be his story, who knows. for example, this part was unnecessary ok i get author wants us to feeling sorry for him but it was already enough??? i mean why author did go so far? it was already enough!!! this is too much, this is just makes him ultimate victim that we (at least, i) ever seen.

and you can say that his character isnt like this but actually it makes more sense. cause hate comes from love. so he hates everything and heroes so much cause there was a time that he loved them so much. he bileved them but they disappointed him probably.

nothing will change the fact that tenko is exist and he deserves better than this.

c) i believe tenko was like izuku who could be greatest hero but couldnt cause of some certain reasons. izuku and him are parallel who could be each other. so deku will fight with his parallel. shigaraki will face his old self. after this fight, hopefully deku win. hopefull, tenko defeat tomura. hopefully it can happen. saving your parallel. its what it supposed to be, i think. honestly, my biggest hope is deku but nothing else about shigaraki s redemption.

6-SHIGARAKI S POTENTIAL TO BEING A GOOD PERSON:

shigaraki character is evil and monster but he is a monster created by today s society and All For One so the real shigaraki isnt like that.

a) shigaraki isnt joker or thanos. he wants to destroy everything only cause of his deeper pain. “everything rubs me the wrong way.” this is true, author, afo, society, everything makes him villain. so they are forcing him. basically its not what shigaraki really wants in deep:

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184719577087/what-is-that-shigaraki-really-wants

and interesting is shigaraki always being more broken lost and confused. he isnt finding his way. he cant understand a lot of things about life.

-he doesnt know what hero means so dont you think someone has to show him what hero really means?

-he doesnt see the difference between heroes and villains so d ont you think someone has to show him the difference (like not killing him or giving a new chance or with a lot of way)

-he is hopeless so someone has to give him a hope?

-he lost his faith in heroes, justice, everything. so dont you think someone has to make him believe again?

b) shigaraki isnt happy as a villain,

this isnt what he really wants. he is so dead so hopeless, so empty.

shigaraki hates everything cause they are remind of him the happiness he will never have again. so shigaraki basically hates happiness s himself. he wants to kill/destroy happiness. he wants to kill people s hearth. killing hearths, his main goal. well, killing people are second goal.

(but shigaraki s real wish is being happy, i think but he thinks he will never be happy again thats why he is doing this)

just like deku. deku wants to save people but main goal is saving hearths. opposite sides each other.

shigaraki likes nothing. he has no joy in his life. this is another proof of that his life is completey far away from happiness.

he even thrown up when he remember happy memory in chapter 227.

he felt happiness and it makes him sick? you dont need to be geinus to see how much far away he is from happiness.

yeah he cares about his comprades / people who are good to him but it doesnt mean he is happy with his life. only redemption can make him happy. destroying everything wont make him happy. and he knows that. he doesnt believe that he can be happy. this is why he is doing this. he just has no hope :’))).

only redemption can bring happiness to him even he end up living in prison, i believe he will be happier than now, also he will pay what he did. this is real justice, it supposed to be. his death wouldnt be justice or something like that. with every way, it would be tragic so i hope deku can give him a new life chance, despite shigaraki s crimes. hopefully.

c) there is still something good in him and always will. cause i believe its origin.

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185348474272/why-is-league-of-villains-like-a-family

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185350066687/secret-kindness-of-shigaraki-tomura-give-it-a

some people say redmeption doesnt fit shigaraki s character but i dont believe that people really understand shigaraki cause redemption cant fit more than this to a character so shigaraki can be redeemed despite his crimes. definitely it can happen.

d) everyone could be like him, EVERYONE or big posibility worse.

e) he is different from other villains. shigaraki is the only villain who really had no choice. he never was cruel like overhaul and didnt even think sacrifice people he care about him/ people who are good to him even though he hates everything.

(btw, if shigaraki gets redemption, i dont think he will abandon his comprades (as long as something unexpected thappenned or his comprades betrayed him)

so i dont think that shigaraki will be the only villain who gets redemption but to me, he is the one who definitely should get redemption. cause he was really in despair and he deserves this yeah even though everything, he did, do and will deserves this more than anyone else. yeah.

he doesnt deserve it? no he does and if he gets redemption, i am almost sure that he will regret everything he did. (and its the best punishment that can happen)

f) and remember this:

When you have to save someone, they're usually in a scary situation. A true hero saves not only their lives, but also their hearts... That's what I believe. So no matter how scary things get, give 'em a smile, as if to say, "I'm a-ok". The people in this world who can smile are always the strongest.Nana Shimura to Toshinori Yagi in "One For All"

and we have shigaraki, who 's hearth is broken, empty, full of pain. someone needs to save his hearth and who else can do besides deku, the true hero? but not by killing him. saving his life and hearth. yeah and hopefully it can happen.

yeah, you cant save someone who doesnt want to be saved but shigaraki does. he wants to be saved in his deep that he doesnt even aware of that anymore and he doesnt believe that he will be saved, happy, normal again thats his motivation as a villain. his pain is his weapon. but if someone heal his hearth, shigaraki s pain/weapon will gone, his reason to being a villain will gone and deku will win with his true hero soul.

g) characters like him usually gets redemption. The king Meruem from Hunter x Hunter, Gabimaru from Jigakuraku. (X from Dice. it didnt end yet. i will check on when it finished). (well even shigaraki was more victim than all of them). if you really understand shigaraki character, you will see: he is not like joker or thanos. he is not afo, maybe in the future he will be like him but it wont be the same cause he doesnt want this fate, everything forced him to that way. cause its not what he really wants, i believe.

you cant save everyone. (so in the future, deku shouldnt be like allmight like “i can do it alone and can save everyone its ok” but he should save tenko) yeah but shigaraki, tenko is there. he will be in front of deku. you can t save someone who doesnt want to being saved but in his deep, shigaraki wants that. he doesnt even realize this, i think but its what he really wants. so hopefully people can stop being ignorance and see that.

h) and i dont think that

one for all wielders would want to abandon tenko like that. especially nana who is gradmama of tenko, also tenko s inspiration in the past. also allmight too. but not just cause of he is nana s grandson. its cause of he is someone who needs to be saved, no matter what happens. they probably wont say like “save him” to deku cause they will believe that deku will do the right thing as a true hero.

i) what would be the best way of defeating All For One? afo really worked hard to turning tenko to tomura, his successor. if they kill shigaraki or they just defeat him and abandon him like that or they dont save him, shigaraki always will be a victim and it will still be afo s victory cause shigaraki s existence is proof of that heroes failed to save a child who desprately need help.

it will be burden of their hearts but if they save tenko/shigaraki, afo will completely loose and everything he did will be waste. one for all wielders will defeat afo and shigaraki with their true hero soul, if they save tenko. maybe after that, even afo saw the difference between heroes and villains. he will see. his brother will show him and finally it will be good guys s victory and it would be really epic.

so what is the problem about his redemptions?

1- he has no redemption moral right now. i mean he lost everything. lets suppose he wants to be good again but will he even get a new chance, normal life? i mean, he has no one he has nothing and his pain is still there. he is still in pain.

but for now, this is the case but it doesnt mean he wont get his moral in the future. its impossible? there is no hope?

who said that

2-he will go so far, shigaraki probably will destroy everything. he will be the greatest villain. he will do a lot of bad things and sometimes we will lost our faith in his redemption posibility.

will society even forgive him? or lets suppose somehow, he lived but can he even take all of this? can he live with that remorse feeling? cause it will be so hard for him.

it will be hard but its not impossible. miracles can happen (and i am waiting for that miracle), especially our main character is deku.

3-fandom. a lot of people dont want redemption cause a lot of people doesnt want this so author might change his mind cause of this? but if he doesnt, i think it would ruin the story cause shigaraki s character isnt made like that. hopefuly fandom dont affect his story.

4-this interview. he said shigaraki can no longer turn back. i have no idea what does it mean. so shigaraki cant be tenko again? idk. actually only this interview took my all hope and also fandom s ignorance. besides that, i was completely sure that tenko will be saved. and i heard author loves marvel, star wars, tragic things, bad ending, dark things?

so i wonder he would sacrifice this character cause its too late? cause it would be so hard to save him? “death will be the only salvation”??? (its ridicilous) cause author pushed him so hard? cause fandom wanted like that? honestly, my opinion it would ruin everything in this story about cause its just doesnt fit everything in this story. tenko who needs a hero more than anyone else, shigaraki s broken hearth, deku s true hero soul, a lot of victims in this story, heroes are learing their faults, the fact that something has to change, showing the what true hero means

(this kind of story shouldnt have tragic victims and if they dont save him or kill him, shigaraki alwqays will be a victim cause we all know if that tragedly didnt happenned, if there was someone for him, he wouldnt be the way he is now so they should save him and shouldnt kill him, obviously and hopefully)

and blah blah a lot of things. so hopefully it can really happen cause this is all about. so hopefuly hopefully hopefully it can happen :’))).

but idk what author means that. maybe he wil do something really unexpected and maybe he will still save tenko but with different ways (not killing) and we just dont know yet?

cause author said “villain who had no choice but to be a villain” i am almost sure that he was talking about shigaraki and he said villain who can be saved story should get reward? idk maybe he will surprise us? maybe he will save him cause his story is telling me he will be saved but this interview made me confused. hopefully he can do something really amazing.

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185456913512/bnha-redemption-why-you-shouldnt-hate-redemption

redemption doesnt mean that he wont pay his crimes. feeling remorse is the best punishment that can happen. it will also the person s himself to him finding the right way.

why i write this? i talked a lot of people and a lot of people dont want redemption for shigaraki but weird part is i never met someone who looks the big picture here. people who dont want redemption for shigaraki:

-people who ignores the fact that shigaraki is completely victim who had no choice and every could be like him,

-people who dont care shigaraki s character and not even trying to understand,

-people who love shigaraki as an evil but they cant face the fact that shigaraki is NOT happy as a villain at all. they sees LoV as a normal family and they thought they are happy together but its so unrealistic. if they were really hapy, if shigaraki was happy, his hearth wouldnt be empty and he would loose his reason to being a villain so :) and not even need to talk about, big posibility its not shigaraki s origin so its not real shigaraki

-people who sees somethings but not full things, well i think am a little carefull about these things. i never met someone who saw all things. yeah some people understand that shigaraki s abuse or maybe parallels with eri or kota maybe? but no one talked about deku s similirtiy with hana and no one said LoV isnt family. i mean its like everybody has some peace but no one has big picture. thats why i wanted to show this

there is no hope for shigaraki? its impossible? its too late? i dont believe that. its never too late to save someone.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3taZqA0FTQ0

“hero’s job...is to risk his life to make the lip service into reality” cause its all about. there will be times that even me, everyone ‘bnha fans, shigaraki, deku allmight, everyone) will giving up on shigaraki s redemption cause story will be go so far (maybe redemption hints will decrease or increase) but when we thought that its too impossible, arent the heroes the ones who should give us a hope? isnt this all about?

(and in the future, we will all forget this maybe cause shigaraki who is evil, monster now will do a lot of bad things, he will laugh, he will kill, he will destroy (specially after he learnt about afo, he will be more dangerous than before and it will be really scary but tenko, his real self always be there even though we dont always see it. and more importantly,

nothing can change tenko s despair. nothing will change that horrible past. he didnt choose this fate, didnt want to be like that. its not what he really wants, i believe. well, nothing will change the fact that he didnt deserve this and he deserves better than this. the posibility that he could be happy, hero, have better life, better person, someone like nana. this posibility will always exist. nothing will change that despair eyes of tenko. so he will always be worth of being saved. not only cause of its so tragic, its also cause of simply, his horrible tragic backstory (his all life) made him like this. story will change and go so far but never forget that tenko s despair, his hopeless, empty dead hearth and his INFINITE PAIN.)

and if you really think about what hero means, answer is simple. deku should save tenko. listen this music. this music is giving me a hope sometimes. :))). this is so obvious. this is what it should happen and hopefully it can happen:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RRkIQ1Djlbs

when your hopes gone about shigaraki s redemption, read this and let me be your hope. let this theory be your hope. cause i will do that. :). hopefully, our hopes wont be wasted :’))). i really hope that. hopefully, everything will be fair, happy and good. hopefully. :)’D

(there might be things that i forgot to to tell but for now, thats it. if you read everything, thanks and hopefully you got me. if you like it, please reblog it. i dont care being famous but i hope a lot of people can see this.)

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