#and then she drops the bomb that this girl is a general's daughter

[beameized]

If I had a nickel for everytime I may have offended the child of a powerful family and could've died but didn't, I'd have three.

[voidsentprinces]

Join FFXIV we got:

Fuckable Monster Gods, Yandere General, SUCH DEVASTATION, Malevolent Breadloaf, Hate Fuck Philosophy between Church's Money Illiterate Doomslayer and the Heretical Dragon fuckers, Bestest Boy, Butch Scholar with an axe, France with hot single elves, Lesbian Gunslingers, Manwhore of Astrology, his love rival and the asexual woman who has no clue, Inner Feral State, his legal partner and their adopted daughter, Murder Bimbo, his angry red head and their sadistic feral viceroy with her himbo henchman, Hopeless Romantic who gets bullied, his very heterosexual tribe of male only warriors, the apeshit warlock stealing his women while being transpiritual and a shepherd wife, frat boy emperor, Iroh Samurai and the sickest ninja woman ever, Your Own Personal Catboy, his eligible straightforward daughter who is also captain the guard, THE HIMBO FAMILY complete with bomb throwing cat girl, adoptive mechanical nonbinary child, and psychotic hard line temper mother, entire village of rabbit woman, the most love struck catboy outside the Crystarium and his religious group, an entire kingdom of nonbinary fae folk and their they/them King, the Ghosts of Christmas Past as well the Ghost of Christmas Present with his talking dog, THE TRUEST BESTEST BOY and his robot companion, the Dragon Father and his brood of angsty teenagers, Genocidal Tsundere Emperor, his grandson no-nonsense Emperor and the pretty boy handsome girl of ancient times, the hero worshiping companion of eld who doesn't remember you BUT YOU CAN FIX HIM!, a entire continent of nerds ripe for the punching, an entire continent of geeks ripe for picking on you and your companions including their leader SCIENCE WIFE, SUCH DEVASTATON's extended family who will remain perfect if you don't touch that fucking side quest, an entire moon of bunny people not to be confused with the village of rabbit women but while we're talking about rabbit people have this stoic and handy rabbit man and his VERY ENTHUSIASTIC TRANS LION FRIEND! Did we mention you get a punchy very enthusiastic woman clad in red? Drop by Ala Mhigo she is always happy to help you punch things! Also while you're there meet the main soldier you're deprogramming from the Garlean Cult he likes giving buuz to people and has this...Great Dane vibe, I don't know how else to describe it. Got a moment? Meet your adoptive family, a knife daughter and her hammer girlfriend, a sword daughter and her scholarly brother, an entire orphanage out of both Ul'dah AND Idyllshire, and a berb daughter who almost ended the entire universe because she COUDLNT STOP FEELING!!!!!!!!!! Also meet more monsters for you to fuck Flayed Demon, MUSCLE GODDESS, Cowabunga, grumpy fire man, and Knight in Shining Identity Theft, and their friend nonbinary lass who can kill AND EAT! There is, of course, also...adoptive fathers in partnership with you and knife daughter, wine aunt of a thousand Fire IVs, a cantankerous short lad, scholar woman who is getting into art, Tataru the Most Powerful and Important Character in the game and therefore the only one I shall refer to by name here, THE HORNIEST WOMAN IN ALL OF FICTION, two Roegadyn brothers, a fabulous elezen healer and her exasperated sister, the adoptive mother and legendary dancer AND bartender, an equally exasperated woman who just convinced her patriarch to retire from adventuring, a short Sultana, an oblivious Seedseer, and the greatest admiral to grace this franchise, General Father and his son from the Shire, the inventor with a heart of gold, his companions, their stern manager, and the gremlin man who is here to make the inventor eat his shirt while laughing. AND THATS JUST THE PEOPLE IN THE MAIN STORYLINE.

So join FFXIV today.

[livwritesstuff]

So Steve and Ed are fine with their kids cursing (for a few reasons, but selfishly because they themselves don’t want to stop their own cursing for the sake of their kids) and in general this works out fine. However, they do have some ground rules that were shaky at best initially with Moe but by the time Hazel came around, it had solidified into a system that was at least semi-functional.

Rule 1: Curse words can only be used in the house (the first rule, the one that established the whole system, and was created after 2yo Moe dropped many f-bombs at a gymnastics class much to displeasure of all the other parents)

Rule 2: You must know the meaning of a curse word to use it – their dad is, after all, an accomplished writer and he will not have his children using any word incorrectly, even if it is profane

Rule 3: No cursing at anybody – “go to hell” is one of very few phrases the girls learned from someone other than their dads (they’re pretty sure Robbie had snuck out of bed one night and eavesdropped on a not-so-kid-friendly movie Ed and Steve were watching), but one that was nixed from their vocabulary the second it dropped from one of their mouths

Rule 4: No angry-cursing – this one is sort of an addendum to the third rule that developed as the girls got older and started to actually bicker with each other, and any follow-up conversations about it are usually accompanied by something like this:

Steve: If your insult requires a curse word, it’s not a good enough insult 

Eddie: *face palms*

The rules are easy enough to enforce, but a little trickier to teach, mostly because Steve and Eddie both find it absolutely hilarious to hear their daughters cursing (honestly it’s another big reason why they allow it), even if the way they’re going about it goes against the “rules”. Most notably, when Robbie was 4 and trying to get Steve’s attention from another room, she had confidently yelled “Papa, get the fuck in here!!!” and Steve had been practically doubled over with silent laughter, managing a straight face long enough to tell her to never say that again before he had to remove himself for five whole minutes.

[canonicallyobserving911]

Brokenhearted Bad Cop Parent

Fanonwriter2023 on AO3

Where CANON and FANON collide!

Part 5 is now available on AO3: "Brokenhearted Bad Cop Parent" - As Eddie prepares to return to work, Daniella’s reaction to his adherence of the LAFD dress code makes him feel like he’s a bad cop parent but Buck’s there to comfort both of them.

10.2K Words; Rated: Mature

Brokenhearted Bad Cop Parent

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Here’s a snippet of Buck's and Eddie's conversations.

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Eddie sits on the couch and lowers his head because his baby girl doesn’t recognize him.

Buck takes her to her bedroom, he lays her in her crib and after he exits, he returns to the living room.  When he walks around the corner, he sees his husband sitting there with his head down looking so sad.  Since he remembers how he felt when Chris wouldn’t talk to him, he completely understands how heartbroken Eddie is.

He slowly walks over, sits down on the couch next to him, then he takes Eddie’s hand in his, laces their fingers together and asks, “Hey… are you ok?”

Eddie meets his eyes and in a voice laced with sadness, he responds, “She hates me!”

“No she doesn’t.  Babe, Liz loves you and there’s no way she hates her dad.  She just didn’t recognize you without your beard.”

Eddie pouts and says, “It sure feels like she hates me.  Buck… she screamed and cried like I was a stranger.  She’s never cried like that before… not even when we took her to get her 6-month-old vaccinations two weeks ago.”

Buck hates seeing his husband sad because when Eddie’s hurting, he's hurting too.  He opens his arms and says, “Come here babe.”

Eddie falls into his husband’s arms, buries his face in between Buck’s neck and shoulder then he loudly sighs.

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Bad Cop vs. Good Cop Parents

31K Words; Currently 4 completed works.   A multi-part fanfic series about Eddie and Buck parenting their teenage son Chris. Usually, Eddie's the bad cop parent and Buck's the good cop parent but occasionally, their roles will reverse similar to the way they did in part 1 of this series, as different situations occur.

Becoming the Bad Cop Parent

7.3K words; Rated General Audiences:  Or Buck gets a call from Christopher's school and for the first time he has to be the bad cop parent.

“Growing as Good Cop Parents”

8.8K Words; Rated: Teen and Up Audiences:  When Chris makes it home after hanging out with his friends, Buck smells and unmistakable scent and everything that happens afterwards, helps him and Eddie realize they’re growing as good cop parents.

“Bad Words and Bad Cop Parents"

6.0K Words; Rated: Mature:  After Chris accidentally drops the “F” bomb in earshot of Eddie and Buck, they have a family meeting and hijinks ensue as they work on eliminating “bad words” from their vocabularies before they have an addition to their family.

"Grateful Good Cop Parents"

9.2K Words; Rated: Teen and Up Audiences:  Buck and Eddie are anxiously awaiting the birth of their daughter, Daniella Elizabeth Buckley-Diaz.

Parts 1-5 are available on AO3.

[c0usingreg]

Lets talk about the PIZZA SCENE

And how it COMFIRMED the end of Mileven (at least for me)

When El reaches for Mike's hands, they show a close up of their hands/wrists and just the fact that you can CLEARLY see the blue bracelet El got from Hopper on her wrist. I didn't notice it at first, but you can not see El's bracelet before the close up (as her sleeves presumably cover it) and you can not see it after. Not even while they're talking, still holding hands. Let me REPEAT YOU CAN NOT SEE THE BRACELET IN ANY OTHER SHOT DURING THIS SCENE IT WAS SPECIFICALLY INCLUDED IN THE CLOSE UP AS A FORM OF SYMBOLISM. And it's just so symbolic IMO because not only does it look like a friendship bracelet but it's something she got from Hopper, someone who TRULY loves her - ALL OF HER, the way she wishes MIke would (NOT just being seen as some kind of superhero, because she's NOT she's just a scared HUMAN girl - albeit with powers - trying to figure out how to live in this cruel world).

And even though it's not in the show, David Harbour confirmed here that the bracelet she wears is the same one he wore in ST1&2 and that it once belonged to his daughter. It's something extremely significant to both Hopper and El, as it symbolizes familial love. So the fact that they made absolutely sure to have her sleeves rolled up in this shot so the bracelet could be 100% visible really speaks volumes to the message they were trying to convey and hints at what she was about to say when she took his hands. She loves him yes, but she's not IN LOVE with him.

While it seemed like she was going to say something hard (the hesitation, the deep breath, the starting with something gentle "I missed you" before dropping the bomb "but you don't really love me and I don't think I love you either, at least not in that way") we don't get to hear because instead of listening to her feelings, Mike tries to push out what he thinks she wants to hear, what he thinks he should say.

He interrupts her to try to tell her he "loves her" (Exactly what she doesn't want and you can see she is visibly uncomfortable and looks away, lips pursed, shoulders dropping in defeat) But before he can say it, Argyle drops a pizza in between them. (Spoilers, the pizza is Will)

And this last part might be a stretch but I get the feeling that the Pineapple pizza is symbolic of Will and homosexuality in general. It's a dumb and mildly offensive(?) form of symbolism but hear me out. Mike's first thought of it is "gross, wrong" but Argyle say "Try before you deny". Then El takes a bite, because she has no sense of "How things should/shouldn't be" and has no qualms about trying it nor is she upset that their talk was interrupted (if she wanted to hear his love confession she might have seemed even a little annoyed? But then again Mike wasn't too upset either? Maybe they were both relieved that the conversation was interrupted). Not only does she think it's good but she the look on her face is like she's had some kind of epiphany.

Mike says putting fruit (often a term used to describe queer people) on pizza is blasphemous (as we all know far right religious nut jobs also think being LGBTQ+ is sinful). And then you see Argyle and El FORCING Mike to try it and my God, she even repeats what Argyle said as she tries to force him to try the pizza. "TRY BEFORE YOU DENY"

I'm sorry, but the scene is honestly kind of pointless to me without the subtext and symbolism. And that's what I thought it was the first time I watched it, just a silly scene they could use to then cut to Will pining from the kitchen, but the Duffers are smart. They don't show, they TELL. After rewatching the scene I honestly believe there was more to it than what was on the surface.

[twoidiotwriters1]

The Curse of Oenone (Leo Valdez xFem!Oc)

A/N: *Cradles Logan's Percy in my hands* I don't get you but I'd still kill for you -Danny Words: 2,288 Series' Masterlist Previous Chapter // Next Chapter Listen to: 'Starting Line' -by Luke Hemmings

IX: Sorry I Threatened to Kill You, It Will Happen Again

"What do you mean?" I stare at the goddess. "I've been obedient, I never complain—who cursed me?"

Aphrodite moves a strand of hair out of my face with a pitiful expression. "It's not something you caused, my dear."

"Am I an actual arae?" I ask in horror. "My father did this?"

"Oh no, it wasn't his intention to curse you when he named you Arae," Aphrodite makes a face. "He had the brain of a monkey, but oh, if there was ever a mortal with charmspeak, that was your father..."

"Lady Aphrodite," I frown. "Focus?"

She pushes the plate of cookies toward me. "You've seen Janus."

"Yeah, but he didn't talk to me this time. I thought he was taunting me," I state.

"I'm here to warn you," she continues. "In this lifetime, you are my daughter, so I can grant you an advantage. Take it as a birthday present."

I want the gods to think about what they consider a proper gift, 'cause telling a young girl that she's got a centuries-old curse on her ain't it.

"That's generous," I say.

"Your first time around," the goddess sinks into the beauty of whatever memory she's revisiting. "People traveled from afar just to catch a glimpse of you. You were perfect..." she wrinkles her nose. "And wasted. Given to an empty carcass of a man."

"Okay," I reply, not following. "And when did this happen, exactly?"

"Then he came," Aphrodite sighs, not listening to me. "Young and charming—I saw him for what he was: your match!"

I feel like she's about to drop a bomb on me. "Cute."

Her eyes focus on me again. "It wasn't cute. It was destiny. I had to give you to him, you see, your union would jumpstart my son's mission. The end of the golden age for Greek Heroes had come at last."

I've heard that sentence before. Not when talking about my love life, but during my lessons with Jason. "Mom," I start, voice shaky. "Are you talking about the Trojan War?"

Aphrodite looks at me."You understand, then?"

"That's crazy," I blurt out.

"Don't lie!" The goddess takes the plate of cookies away. "I've given you enough clues throughout the years for you to figure it out, and you were born my smartest child, Arae. If you ignore it, you'll never break the curse—"

"What curse?" I exclaim in frustration. "I haven't heard anything about a curse!" 

"Oenone's curse," Aphrodite declares. "She put it in place when Paris left her."

Ara drops the hammer and holds her injured finger cussing under her breath. This is the third time that she's hurt herself by not paying attention to what her hands are doing, which is not ideal when you're repairing a ship.

She thinks of her conversation with Leo last night. Ara has to tell him about the curse, but it's the kind of stuff that no matter when or how you say it, is bound to make things worse, and the more she waits, the more it scares her. She doesn't want to lose Leo.

Annabeth hands her a pair of safety gloves. "Won't do much to stop you from cutting off a finger, but it can help with the scratches and stuff."

"Thanks," Ara shakes her hand to get rid of the ache and then puts on the gloves. "I can't focus today... I don't know if Lily talked to you before we sailed..."

"I heard the screams," the girl replies, though she keeps it vague. "Wanna talk about it?"

Ara looks at the boards in front of her, lining them in place. "I don't even know where to start..."

"What do you mean?"

She goes back to work while she explains. "At first, it was about Nico, and then... I said things I'd never intended to say out loud and then Lily snapped too. I know I've been... difficult—"

"That's a way to put it," Annabeth walks past her.

"I thought it was for the best if, you know, if we didn't talk about... Michael," she clears her throat. "I had to look after our camp, I could grieve later, after making sure we were all okay."

The older girl sighs. "You wanna know what I think?"

Ara stops a second time and looks at her friend. "Always."

Annabeth leans against the mast, kicking some pieces of splintered wood as she gathers her thoughts. 

"After what happened to Michael, you kept Lily in place until you smothered her." The girl points at the dagger hanging from Ara's belt. "You care about what everyone thinks a little too much and you forget about your feelings. I think this is exactly what you two needed, she can process her grief like she wants to, and you do the same. Codependency between members of a good team is still toxic."

Ara rubs her nose with the back of her hand and leaves a smudge of dirt on it. "But when I leave her alone, all she does is get in her way."

Annabeth laughs. "Look who's talking!"

"That's not me!" She argues. "I've always gone after the things I want!"

"Have you considered that never stopping is just as bad as not moving?" The girl raises a brow. "Next time, Ara, try sitting down instead of... what was your last near-death experience?"

Ara pouts. "Are you implying I rather die than take a nap? Do you really think I'm that insane?"

"I grew up with you, I know you are. Which reminds me," Annabeth walks up to her and grabs her by the shoulders. "Talk to Percy. He's super bummed out. I don't know what happened but he hasn't seen you in months and now you don't wanna talk to him 'cause you're too busy coddling Leo."

"Percy has you to coddle him," Ara replies grumpily.

"But you're his sister," her friend insists. "Girlfriends and boyfriends are good, but you two need each other. I know it because I know you both." Something behind Ara catches Annabeth's eye. She squints. "Blackjack?"

"Wait—wait," I start pacing the room. "Leo and I... are Helen and Paris?" 

The statement sounds like something I'd say on my deathbed if I were in a soap opera. But my mom shrugs like this isn't news to her.

"Your soul once inhabited Helen's body, which is not the same as being her. You're Arae Jackson, the current curse bearer."

"But I was Helen of Troy once," I repeat numbly. "And Leo was Paris the loser."

Aphrodite gasps. "He wasn't a loser! He was one of the best romantic leads of ancient times! And that boy you love is carrying his curse!"

I wave my hand around to dismiss that. "Fine. Let's say we are, because why the Tartarus not, right? I died and was born again—and what, I found Leo and then... and then..."

I stop. It's been so long since I had those dreams that I'd almost forgotten about them, but now they're back all at once.

"Agape," I whisper, my heart pounding as I speak. "All those people in my dreams... they were all Leo?"

"Oh, you have regressions?" Aphrodite beams. "How lovely!"

"That's what they are?" I frown.

"Well, when a soul has been around for too long, they develop a slight immunity to the Lethe's powers, it creates a crevice in the mind. Some humans get to dream about their past lives, or they spend their first years with those memories until they're old enough to become a new person."

"But I..." I sit down slowly. "In all those... I'm never really with... Leo." 

It's weird to pinpoint all those faces to a single name.

The second realization hits me like a train: In some of my dreams, I've gotten this feeling, like a part of me knows I died too soon. My hands go up and over my mouth, but they can't stop me from talking.

"Oenone's curse... kills us?"

Aphrodite looks away. "At first, I loved it. A nymph's heart so broken that marked several lifetimes, how romantic! I thought it'd be one of those petty curses that lasted one lifetime, then the arai would let you go... but you came back and found each other. And it happened again, exactly like the first time."

"Why do you say it like it's a bad thing?" I hesitate. "Shouldn't you be glad that I'm still fighting against it?"

"Each time, you live blindly," she tells me. "There was a time when you could've chosen to stay dead and wander the Asphodels fields for eternity, but you came back, and the arai like to play with you."

"We keep making the same mistakes..." Suddenly I feel exhausted, like all the centuries my soul has lived through are finally weighing on me.

Aphrodite seems genuinely sad. "I think it's because you keep dying young. You never grew out of that youthful optimism, convinced that you'll break the curse on your next try." She leans and holds my hands tightly. "But I think this time you made the right choice when you came back, my dear."

"What? Why?" I'm unable to release my hands.

"The fates have granted you a chance," she cups my face. "They gave you a prophecy."

"My prophecy's about Oenone's curse?"

"I'm sure of it!" My surroundings start to get fuzzy, I'm starting to wake up. "You've failed too many times, Ara, don't do it again!"

When Piper arrives with Percy and Jason both unconscious, Ara heaves a sigh and carries them to the sick bay with Coach's help.

"At this rate, we're going to run out of ambrosia," he groans while helping Ara to patch up the boys. "How come I never get invited on these violent trips?"

"'Cause I don't have enough stuff to put your limbs back in place," Ara grumbles.

"Leo, are we ready to sail?" Piper asks.

"Yeah, but—"

"Set course for Atlanta. I'll explain later."

"But..." He sees the urgency in the girl's eyes and gives in. "Okay."

"What hit him?" Annabeth examines Percy's injury and winces.

"Blackjack."

"What?"

"They got possessed, just like Leo," Piper explains. "Fought each other and would've probably died in the process if Blackjack hadn't shown up."

By the time she finishes the story, Jason and Percy are awake but still out of it. They don't remember much, and they can't get up either.

"Knocked out twice in two days. Some demigod." Jason makes a face when he looks at Percy. "Sorry, man. I didn't mean to blast you."

Percy's body isn't as hurt as Ara's when she got hit by lightning, probably because he's more resilient. "Not the first time. Your big sister got me good once at camp."

Ara smiles while she puts away the unused bandages. "Same year I met Apollo."

"And Nico," Percy reminds her.

"Couldn't be a perfect year."

"Yeah, but..." Jason shifts awkwardly. "I could have killed you."

"Or I could have killed you," Percy replies.

"If there'd been an ocean in Kansas, maybe."

"I don't need an ocean—"

"Boys, I'm sure you both would've been wonderful at killing each other. But right now, you need some rest," Annabeth says.

"Food first," Percy sighs. "Please? And we really need to talk. Bacchus said some things that don't—"

"Bacchus?" Annabeth interrupts him. "Okay, fine. We need to talk. Mess hall. Ten minutes. I'll tell the others. And please, Percy... change your clothes. You smell like you've been run over by an electric horse."

Ara moves to the side so Annabeth can leave. Piper stays for a few more minutes and then takes Jason away to get him changed. Percy and Ara are left alone.

"You're lucky Blackjack didn't kick right through your hollow skull," she taunts him. "Mom would've killed me if all I'd brought back was a jigsaw of her son."

"Yeah, not ideal..." he rubs the back of his neck. "How is she? And Paul?"

"Worried, but when we located you, things got better. Not much, but they improved a bit. Dad decided to make repairs so Leo could visit more and—"

"Leo knows our parents?"

Ara leans against a cabinet and crosses her arms. "I told you, Percy, we've been dating for half a year. Everyone back home knows him."

He runs a hand through his hair, touches the bump at the back, and winces. "Crap. Does that mean you were thrown to the lake already?"

Ara wrinkles her nose. "Yeah, it was cold."

"Aw, man," he pouts and leans against the wall. "You hate the cold. Can't believe I missed it!"

"But you're back, and you'll be present at other stuff—and now that you've been possessed you'll cut Leo some slack, right?"

He sighs, pulling on the loose strands of his battered shirt. "Yeah, being possessed isn't fun."

She pats his knee with affection. "Let's get you changed."

He groans as he gets on his feet. "So how'd you two meet?"

"That's a fun story," she smiles. "I was looking for you with Annabeth, she'd had a dream the night before..."

As they make their way through the corridors, the stairs, and towards the cabins, Ara tells him about the first encounter she had with Leo, how bad it went, and then how it didn't matter because Leo still won her over.

Percy's sad that he couldn't witness the whole thing, and he'll have to ask Lily for details later. The girl's name causes Ara's gaze to shift for a brief second. Percy notices her expression and pauses. "What's wrong?"

"Lily and I fought," she confesses. "And now that Nico's been taken, if I don't get him on time... She might never speak to me again."

Percy squeezes her shoulder. "So that's what's been bothering you this whole time?"

"Not exactly..." Ara makes a face. "I'm sorry I was mean to you—"

"I wasn't any better..."

"You don't want me to get hurt," she says with understanding. "I get it, but my relationship with Leo is the one thing I can control, and I need to feel in control. When you questioned it, I got angry."

"Well, it happens to all of us," he pats her head. "No need to ruffle your feathers over it, Birdy. We'll rescue Nico."

Ara scowls. "Again."

"Again," Percy chuckles and guides her out of the room. "Hasn't been that many times though..."

"Speak for yourself," she scoffs.

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[bijouxcarys]

I know this is a bit late, but I’ve been meaning to share my Spotify top 100 songs from 2023. So uh… here it is lol

Whole Lotta Love - Led Zeppelin

Baba O’Riley - The Who

Sunshine Of Your Love - Cream

The Sound of Silence (Acoustic) - Simon & Garfunkel

Let’s Live For Today - The Grass Roots

Immigrant Song - Led Zeppelin

Paint It, Black - The Rolling Stones

Sweet Emotion - Aerosmith

California Dreamin’ - The Mamas & The Papas

Cherry Bomb - The Runaways

Voodoo Child (Slight Return) - Jimi Hendrix

Eat The Rich - Aerosmith

Dazed and Confused - Led Zeppelin

(Don’t Fear) The Reaper - Blue Öyster Cult

Wig Wam Bam - Sweet

Kings and Queens - Aerosmith

You Shook Me - Led Zeppelin

Great King Rat - Queen

Born To Be Wild - Steppenwolf

Last Child - Aerosmith

April Come She Will - Simon & Garfunkel

Tie Your Mother Down - Queen

Barracuda - Heart

Dream On - Aerosmith

Jungle Boogie - Kool & The Gang

You’re So Vain - Carly Simon

Touch Me - The Doors

Pink - Aerosmith

The Riddle - Gigi D’Agostino

Ramble On - Led Zeppelin

All Day and All of the Night - The Kinks

Dude (Looks Like A Lady) - Aerosmith

Around The World (La La La La) - A Touch Of Class

I Was Made For Lovin’ You - KISS

Another Brick in the Wall, Pt. 2 - Pink Floyd

Magic Touch - Aerosmith

Rebel Rebel - David Bowie

My Generation - The Who

EAT ME - Demi Lovato, Royal & the Serpent

Cheese Cake - Aerosmith

Drowse - Queen

Good Vibrations - The Beach Boys

Off To The Races - Lana Del Rey

Walk This Way - Aerosmith

Cum on Feel the Noize - Slade

I Get Around - The Beach Boys

Layla - Derek & The Dominos

Mrs. Robinson - Simon & Garfunkel

The Hustle - Van McCoy

SKIN OF MY TEETH - Demi Lovato

Piece of My Heart - Janis Joplin

Super Freak - Rick James

Rasputin - Boney M.

Bad Reputation - Joan Jett & the Blackhearts

Love In An Elevator - Aerosmith

You Know You Belong To Me - Queen

Dancing in the Moonlight - King Harvest

Here Comes The Sun - The Beatles

Sedona Sunrise - Aerosmith

You Can’t Hurry Love - The Supremes

Hold the Line - TOTO

Time of the Season - The Zombies

I Want To Hold Your Hand - The Beatles

Bass Slut - S3RL

Born To Die - Lana Del Rey

Seven Seas Of Rhye - Queen

Taste of India - Aerosmith

House Of The Rising Sun - The Animals

(I Can’t Get No) Satisfaction - The Rolling Stones

Son And Daughter - Queen

29 - Demi Lovato

Happier Than Ever - Billie Eilish

Pretty Rave Girl - S3RL

Tarzan & Jane - Toy-Box

The Fairy Feller’s Master-Stroke - Queen

A Building Panic (Album Suite) - James Horner

Drop Dead Gorgeous - Aerosmith

Oxytocin - Billie Eilish

I Can’t Live With You - Queen

Debil - DJ Blyatman

Big Ten Inch Record - Aerosmith

NDA - Billie Eilish

Now I’m Here - Queen

No More Mr. Nice Guy - Alice Cooper

Janie’s Got A Gun - Aerosmith

Therefore I Am - Billie Eilish

The Logical Song - Scooter

Crimson and Clover - Joan Jett & the Blackhearts

Crazy - Aerosmith

HEAVEN - Demi Lovato

Alone - Heart

L’Amour Toujours - Gigi D’Agostino

Angel - Aerosmith

All Along the Watchtower - Jimi Hendrix

FREAK - Demi Lovato, YUNGBLUD

my strange addiction - Billie Eilish

Sight For Sore Eyes - Aerosmith

Purple Haze - Jimi Hendrix

Brighton Rock - Queen

Bring It on Home - Led Zeppelin

[starrywangxian]

warning: the last of us spoilers!! (episode 9 in particular)

to the new people who are adding to the moral dilemma debate at the end of tlou from the show, first of all: hello! second of all, you're missing some points about the importance of the sciencists' dumbassery and joel's ain't no one touching my daughter rampage and hopefully i'll explain what those missing points are.

1. the cure wouldn't have worked.

you're very right, cures are impossible for fungal infections such as Cordyceps, however the key missing detail is joel didn't know that. joel is not a scientist nor did he know how the fireflies were going to make this cure. as much as i love the "we're all fucked" segment in the first episode and the scared scientist from episode 2, none of this context happens in the game so, it's not general knowledge that fungal infections cannot be treated let alone cured. it's a good point but it's not relevant to joel's moral dilemma because he doesn't know that the cure wouldn't work. when he's in his rampage, he's not thinking "silly, fireflies. this cure won't work! you can't cure fungal infections" because if he did, i'm sure he'd at least try to tell them first. and anyway, FEDRA really don't want to tell people that there is a way to cure this infection and then not do it. more people would join the fireflies that way and the QZs would quickly become under new management. so FEDRA are certainly not telling people that fungal infections cannot be cured (heck, FEDRA aren't even telling people about the different infected - ellie didn't know what a clicker was, pre-museum).

2. the scientists dropped out of med school.

yeah, they probably did because med school, as we know it today, hasn't existed for 20 years. doctors are most likely taught in the QZs - the place the Fireflies are currently bombing - and these courses are probably taught by FEDRA or at least the government, which are the people that are killing the fireflies by the masses. even if the fireflies running the tests and doing the operation on ellie did go to FEDRA med school, they most likely were not taught how to do precise biopsies or extraction surgeries as in an apocalypse, they probably want to train their doctors to do more practical operations and ones they're most likely to come across, or maybe they just forgot! it's been 20 years! plus the fireflies aren't exactly in the best place right now (FEDRA are doing a good job of killing them all), so they're probably too desperate to go through it thoroughly. so are these firefly scientists good scientists? no. but they're trying their best with the resources and expertise they have and most importantly, the exact procedure that ellie goes through does not matter.

ik it's a pain that there's a few holes and flaws with the plot but these little bits really don't have that big an impact and if these little details were accounted for then the impact on joel's decision wouldn't be as big as the writers wanted it to be.

the moral dilemma joel faces has to be a big deal: we spend all this time travelling across the country for this cure, just for one man to murder everyone in his path for his newfound daughter. that's the point here! the writers want us to think about sarah; joel didn't get a choice with sarah, she was taken from him but this time, he can save her. he has a choice and he'll do whatever it takes to make this time different. in those moments when he guns down everyone he sees, he's not seeing them as people with loved ones and hobbies; they're obstacles, they're threats to his ellie's safety. (think "you'd just come after her").

he doesn't care about these people, he only cares about ellie. joel did save the world that day, it's just that his world was that little girl. honestly, a lot of joel's reasoning is explained in part 2 of the game so if you're really hung up on it, give it a play (or wait until season 2).

my point being here is, the writers wanted to create a situation that 1) reminds us of sarah, and 2) makes ellie and joel's relationship very tense afterwards. because ellie knows that joel is lying about the fireflies and this creates a big rift in their relationship. the choice joel made has to be big to have this same impact. ellie is willing to sacrifice herself for a cure, even if it doesn't work because she already believes that she's getting more than she deserves. she should've died with riley that day, and then with tess, sam and henry. all these people she's seen die should have been her all those months ago. but joel can't let that happen, he can't let another daughter die. and boom the tension flowers! this moral dilemma is showing us how deep joel's feelings go; he'd kill half of salt lake city and doom all of humanity to death for his little girl, even if that means going against what she wants.

so to summarise, no one knows that the fungal infection cannot be cured, the little details that you're hung up on about the science do not matter and the writers needed to create this big moral dilemma to really test the love that joel feels for ellie.

*breathes* so any questions?

[hasdrubal-gisco]

eurovision '24 semifinal 2 early review

content and spoiler warning for albania, armenia, austria, czech republic, denmark, greece, malta, switzerland, belgium estonia, georgia, israel, latvia, the netherlands, norway, san marino, france, italy, spain

albania - opening witha good and strong song. would have been better if it was in albanian, but albania always brings the heat. albanian and serb are brothers because they are son of same bitch (many are saying this !)/10

armenia - absolute banger. singer doesn't have the classic hayastani spade face which must have hard for her growing up. genuinely This is what eurovision is about. may you drop thousand bombs on baku/10

austria - (watching music video) i liked display of aryan man masculine power energy, sweat dripping down his chest. how this make you feel ? song ? generic, forgettable, this will score no points without mr schutzschtaffel flipping tires. you will never regain lost glory/10

czech republic - Yes i am deadnaming this country. i do not recognize these silly zoomer pronouns like "czechia." NOT REAL ! song is relatively good on its own but to me it its not a eurovision song. it's giving pale waves without the production by mr the 1975 whatever his name is. i think this will be well received by juries but it's not fun in the way we expect from battle royale evropa edition. props to the czech republic for sending a russian girl in these russophobic times. i will not mind hearing this on the radio in the car in the coming year/10

denmark - she's technically white seeing as she's very obviously ethiopian (amhara, not those COLORED varieties). good singer but the song is nothing. relatively dignified considering the scandinavian's propensity for cringe/10

greece - she gave cunt she served she died or whatever it is you kids say these days. it's giving noa kirel if we're being honest. in my top 3 i'd say. no wonder greeks invented civilization/10

malta - for this one my opinion is colored by the fact that going into it i know she's some commercial real estate magnate's daughter who paid her way into the competition. when will people learn, war criminals' nieces are simply better than investor's daughters. don't even thing about being a talentless hack if your uncle isn't exterminating minorities. only positive is the tooth gap/10

switzerland - european college student is not immune to american they/them disorder. if he sings the hard parts well, this could save some of it musically but culturally it's a L. go back to sending kosovar albanians/10

belgium - european man in his 30s is ALSO not immune to american they/them disorder. this is nothing, but we must always keep in mind only a few years ago a good third of the contestants would send ballads so. belgium has no reason to exist, think about it/10

estonia - MICHAEL VSAUCE ?? estonian pitbull be like mr balt-wide. it's above average in an extremely poor year/10

georgia - rising from the ashes like a phoenix is actually referencing the historical period during which georgia did not exist on the map, like poland, but re-emerged as a sovereign state. and this is what they did with it. also the bizarre sour food. below average in an extremely poor year/10

the illegitimate fascist ethnostate of isnotreal - the best of this variety of song we've heard, largely because the music is more subtle and she can in fact sing. this will either get high or no votes from the general public depending on prevailing sentiment on the holocaust du jour. thee mathematical average in a poor year/10

latvia - na-baron, house harkonnen does not know what's coming for it. bro the lisan al gaib's fedaykin are coming for ur bald ass ! this is nothing/10

the netherlands - i will confess this is not bad. TO ME it is a quirky and lighthearted version of a stupid eurovision song, with some self awareness that the finns (both this year and last) sorely lack. unlike other TREASURED MUTUALS i do not consider this man SEXUALLY ATTRACTIVE. i will let the senatus populusque tumblorus draw its own conclusions based on the notes of this post. MAGNA EVROPA EST PATRIA NOSTRA/10

norway - i can recognize there is an audience for this and that audience is not me. is it good ? i'll have to ask them. i think this may get an unusually high amount of votes from juries for some reason. feels like the kind of song that would play for a super epic and dramatic ( :I ) final scene in vikings (tv show). eeeh/10

san marino - you can tell she thinks she's quirky from the facial expressions. if i wanted sexy skeletons i'd have played undertale. this sucks, you're san marino you have no identity, genuinely this should be a vehicle for importing flo rida or something. this sucks/10

france - incredible voice. getting a lot of dune princess vibes from the outfit (<- guy who just watched dune). this will get panned because it's france, and somehow american warships have secured total anglo victory in the cultural thousand year war (the hundred year war). liberté, égalité, fraternité/10

italy - i had not heard this as i abstained from san remo, but this is pretty good, it's very ethnic, it's sexy, it has hot blood coursing through its veins. top few (final ranking pending)/10

spain - relatively okay beat/instrumental that's wasted on a nothing singer. send basque opera singers next time. i'm ready to go to sleep/10

final conclusion - there were more good entries than in the first semi, i'll come up with a final list and rough ranking of who i'd like and hate to see go to the final for any undercover jurors reading the die karthagische zeitung. feels like the entries that are good are really good, and there's a lot of blah, but at least we're skirting by with very few ballads. pee breaks speckled in for those of us who have bladders like old women who have somehow had babies (not me tho).

[mouseclarke]

I got sent here for David headcannons.

YES I GOT ONE. I FUCKIN GOT ONE. THANK YOU. THANK YOU. He has been on my mind for months now.

- For his appearance, I think it differs between pre and post-war. The general gist of his appearance being white, with light reddish-brown hair starting to turn grey and light blue eyes. He was probably clean shaven before the war, but after the war he probably has a lot of stubble on his face, a lot of combat scars, and a large scar across his right eye that has caused him to lose vision in said eye.

- At some point, he bought his way into getting a vault spot for him and his family. As well as Rosaylnn. Except we all know he was on holiday when the bombs dropped. (I didn’t make this one up. This was @chaosintheavenue)

- Going off that one, I believe he had a reservation at the Sierra Madre Casino & Resort maybe a few months after the opening.

- Bastard has definitely been to Vegas a few times, either because he wants to party or on business. (You know that one episode of "Don’t Tell The Bride" where the wee guy tries to plan a wedding in Vegas but it cost so much that the bride's brother couldn’t be invited? Well, the follow-up interview with him said that he and his mate went to Vegas multiple times after it.) That’s David.

- He’s 100% from West Virginia but has been out of state for so many years that his accent has been diluted. But still, he’s a local.

- I don’t think he grew up in a working class household, nor do I think he was extremely wealthy. Probably in a comfortable middle class, leaning to upper class, household.

- Likely grew up in the comfortable suburbs of Charelston. His father was a business man (likely a junior executive or a marketing agent (Think “Mad Men”)) and his mother a stay-at-home wife.

- Defentintly had a few siblings. Maybe an older brother, a twin (*COUGH* Josef, *COUGH*) and a half sister from one of his Dad’s affairs. 

- I don’t think his father was a good man and likely shaped him into who he was. I’m not saying his dad was a terrible parent, but I do think he was a cruel husband. Constant cheating and a lack of respect for his wife since he fell out of love with her, yet he was too scared to divorce her. 

- Inittally went to VTU for a year and a half because his best friend was going there before they transferred. So David took up his Dad's offer and went to some Ivy League university (Idk where. He probably went to Dartmouth College or Brown University.)

- He would 100% be one of those kids to be on the debate team. 

- He has lived in a fair number of states. New York, Connecticut, Maryland, Pennsylvania.

- I do think his children were still young when the war happened, but I don’t think they were extremely young. Maybe around 8-13.

- I also think he only had two children with Rita. A boy and a girl.

- Now to get into the Rosalynn stuff. I firmly believe she and David met at some university career fair and it became love at first sight. 

- Rosaylnn joined Arktos as an intern to get some extra credit for her chemistry degree, and David couldn’t have been more ecstatic.

- Of course, David kept his professional manner up the entire time, but he wanted Rosalynn so badly and all her casual flirting made it way worse.

- Likely at some work party, Rosalynn acted on her feelings and kissed David. Thus the start of their affair. 

- They frequently vacationed at the Whitesprings or Pleasant Valley because 1) David enjoys golf and 2) Rosalynn enjoys the snow up near the mountains.

- David’s a pipe smoker. He’s also a man who quite often drinks (not like full blown alcoholism, but it’s slowly leading down that path).

- After the war, David was desperate to get off the ski resort. I'm thinking of any plan or scheme to get him and Rosaylnn off. When Harland and a few other survivors went down to Charleston for help, David went with them since he knew what the city was like.

- There in Charelston, he found out that his daughter had died, and it made something snap inside of him. David changed that day from a high-ranking business executive to the possible future CEO of Arktos Pharma into a caulatuing monster.

- Soon after taking over Pleasent Valley, he soon turned into a stone-cold man, refusing to show any emotion and desprate to keep all the power he had in his firm grasp.

[jerzwriter]

Tobias & Casey Asks

It’s not complete, but it’s a start. This has most Tobias/Casey Asks through January 2022 and most from July 2022. I will be adding asks from February - June 2022 as soon as time allows. (Updated 7.22.2022)

Where do they live - my HC.

About Casey:

Why is she insecure at times? Why was she insecure at the beginning? (Revisited 01.2023) If Tobias wasn't a "player", why is Casey insecure in the beginning? How does Casey feel about Ethan in this series? What is an item Casey would send a lot of money on? Does she have any phobias or irrational fears? Five things she can't live without? Do Tobias & Casey's daughters ever find out Casey was once involved with Uncle Ethan? Would Casey get plastic surgery? How would Tobias feel about it?

About Tobias:

Will you ever write jerky Tobias? What would Tobias do if Ethan flirted with Casey? Would Tobias still be with someone younger if he didn't meet Casey? Does Tobias have an LI in the Ethan/Kaycee world? Why do you HC that Tobias comes from a rich family? Was Tobias a total player/lady's man/"Mark Sloan" before Casey? Do you think Tobias and Ethan were ever sexually/romantically attracted to each other? Did Tobias ever regret settling down? Tobias's favorite gala gowns for Casey? Sluttiest thing Tobias does (that turns Casey on).

More below...

General Questions:

As an interracial couple, do they experience racism? Do their kids?

Their Relationship:

First Attraction? Without the attack, how would they have gotten together? When did they first "feel soft" for each other? Do you think Casey is more compatible with Tobias?| So did she make him get "tested"? How would they have felt if one slept with someone else during their "Just Friends" phase after the attack? Plans for Tobias & Casey in 2022? The hottest photo of each other. Does Casey take Tobias's name when they wed? Does Casey change her name when she gets married? What if it was Tobias from the start - if HE was her attending? Would Casey be upset if Tobias had a relationship like she had with Ethan (as an intern) with someone else? Were they sleeping with other people when they met? Do they ever run into his exes around Boston? What are their love languages? What is moving like for them? How do they celebrate the Fourth of July? What is their song(s)? Favorite Shows/Movies? What do they fight about? Where did they like living best? Who dies first?

Parenting:

Easy adjustment? Would Tobias have been OK if Casey didn't want to go back to work after having kids? Happy Girl Dad? Why 3 Kids? (Comp to Ethan/Casey) Is Casey expecting when they wed? Why no baby boys? How do they respond to hearing their toddler drop the F bomb? Did Casey consider not having Samantha? On grown-up parenting issues...

The Carrick Girls:

Tell me about the Carrick kid’s school/career goals. Future ideas for the Carrick Girls How does Vivian like having 3 granddaughters after 2 sons?

NSFW 18 +:

How well endowed is T? What is their fave sexual encounter? What songs to they like to… you know… to? What is Tobias's favorite bra on Casey? Where did they get busy before they moved in together? If someone asked them for a bad/funny sex story, what would they say? Several NSFW Questions Favorite sex positions Uhm... noises? lol So are they into the butt? How was their first time together? How were their first times (not with each other)?

What ifs...

T&C had been in high school together?

MISC stuff:

What was their fave song from 2022

Writing for Tobias & Casey:

Why two pairings? (Prior to when I stopped writing Ethan x Casey, and moved to Ethan x Kaycee) Why no siblings? (Prior to when I gave Tobias a younger brother) Great questions about writing for E/C and T/C. (Prior to when I stopped writing Ethan x Casey, and moved to Ethan x Kaycee)

From Ask Lists:

OTP Asks 1 | OTP Asks 2 | OTP Asks 3 | OTP Asks 4 | OTP Asks 5 | OTP Asks 6 | NSFW Asks 1 18+ | NSFW Asks 2 18+ | NSFW Asks 3 18+ | OTP Asks 7 | OTP Asks 8 | OTP Asks 9 | OTP Asks 10 | OTP Asks 11 | OTP Asks 12 |

[direwolfrules]

Hey, so, vent time. If you only follow me for Star Wars related nonsense then this is your warning to escape now. If you hate LGBTQIA+ individuals then please just fucking leave. Get out, block me, drown in a river, whatever. Just leave.

My dad’s an old school Bensonhurst type of guy. He drops slurs like the US government drops bombs, liberally and with great intensity. And some of his favorites happen to be the homophobic ones.

Now, I feel that I should mention that I’m only out to my mom. My dad has no idea that his daughter is anything less than 100% heterosexual. Part of that is because of the reasons in this post.

So, my dad loves to throw around a certain word that begins with D. I’m not censoring it because of any bullshit TikTok nonsense btw, but because I physically cannot type it out with wanting to cry.

Dad loves the D word. Him and my uncle, always throwing it around. Any woman who looks slightly butch? “She looks D***y”. Any time my mom mentions her multitude of sapphic coworkers? “Is that the D**e one?”

And in one particularly fun incident, when I was 13 my mom and I got into our eight millionth fight about my wearing a dress to a school function (I wanted to wear my really nice pantsuit and seriously how the fuck did my mom not know until I came out?!) and my dad decided to throw in his two cents. Can you guess what he said? I’ll give you a hint. It rhymes with “You look like a shmike”.

Great thing for little me who was first realizing that straight girls don’t think about kissing other girls to hear. Set me so far back in the closet I didn’t even see the door again till senior year of high school. Can you see why I’m not out to this man yet? Or possibly ever? I can just hide a part of myself away forever, right?

Now, this brings me to what happened not even a full fucking hour ago. Family dinner, everything was nice, until we started talking about how a guy we were once associated with got blacklisted from a local vet because he got into the face of a woman who also does animal rescue. My dad asks “Was it a woman who’d need protection or one of those really d**ey looking ones?”

I tell him not to say that word again, because I have friends in the community and I fucking hate slurs (again, not out and not coming out to him anytime soon). He gets pissy, tries to say it’s just a word, he’s always used it, he doesn’t get what the big deal is, it’s just a descriptor, etc.

My mom plays peacemaker between the two of us, corrects dad on his vocabulary and introduces him to the word butch, and my mom tries to tell me that I have to understand her and dad are from a different generation (you know, that old excuse, as if my great-grandfather who served in WWII didn’t wash out his children and grandchildren’s mouths with soap for saying slurs, because “Hateful language doesn’t need malice behind it to be hateful”).

I admit, I escalated it. I, with tears in my eyes because it fucking sucks hearing slurs that apply to you from the mouth of someone who’s supposed to love you unconditionally, brought up the incident from when I was 13. That he knew that word is an insult because he used it as one against me. He knows how to use that word in hate.

It was the first time I’ve brought up that incident since it happened. You see, we don’t talk about stuff in my family, we bottle up all our emotions until they explode in either rage or near suicidal depression. Healthy, I know.

Anyway, dad got pissy, things got tense and silent, until I asked him to pass the bread. He fucking flung the bread knife down on the table in front of me. Which. I’m a 19 year old with out of wack hormones, it’s expected that I be a little bitchy (literally what my doctor said, love her). What’s his excuse?

So like, yeah. Now I’m just doing that fucking shame spiral thing in my room where I hate myself and wishing I didn’t think girls were just like, fucking amazing. I think my life would have been a hell of a lot easier if I was only into guys. At least then I wouldn’t feel like someone took an ice pick to my heart every time my dad and uncle make another fucking gay joke.

My mom tries at least, but she’s got no fucking idea what to say to me. She was raised not to rock the boat. Unfortunately, it’s already been rocked and I’m off the side, drowning under the waves. I’m drowning, and instead of pulling me up my dad’s wacking me over the head with the oar, and he doesn’t even fucking realize it.

[positivlyfocused]

What Happens When People Kill Themselves

I once contemplated suicide. In high school, I dated one of the prettiest, most popular girls. One day, she quit dating me. Her parents didn’t approve apparently. Drawings I made of her and I engaged in sexual acts, which her parents found, didn’t help my case…

So much did her parents disapprove that they dropped the bomb, in person…on my mom. They showed up at my home one day and, in no uncertain terms, told mom I wouldn’t see their daughter any more. 

My adolescent heart broke. Not knowing what I know now, I thought my youthful world ended right there. What was the point of living without her?

Obviously, I didn’t take my life. It was a momentary blip. The next day, the experience past, I moved on. So did my ex, apparently.

That’s why I understand the dismal place people find themselves where suicide seems logical. Getting to the place where suicide makes sense sucks. But it needn’t suck. Nor need it be fatal.

Instead, it can be the best launching pad to a better life.

Emotions as divining rods

Suicidal thoughts feel scary. Especially when they sneak up on you. But do they though? Are people contemplating suicide happy one moment, then, voila!, they want to die?

Of course not. Suicidal thoughts usually come to ordinary folk after a long period of gradual, increasingly negative thoughts. As such, suicidal thoughts resemble any other thought and their associated momentum.

Thoughts trigger emotions. Nothing else does that. Anyone can figure this out by watching where their emotions come from. The common refrain that “X made me” sad, or angry or jealous is a lie we tell ourselves constantly. No one makes someone else feel anything. How someone feels depends on thoughts that person thinks about what they’re thinking about. That’s the only source of emotions.

And yet, emotions are crucial. They help tell us many important things about every choice we make. Some of the most powerful thoughts humans think happen underneath human awareness. It’s not that they’re “unconscious”. It’s just that the thinker is oblivious to how they’re choosing to think about what they’re thinking about. Emotions, therefore, act as an immediate feedback mechanism for our thought-choices. Not just those we choose “unconsciously”, but ones we consciously choose too.

Emotions also tell a person what’s coming in the future. Yes, they’re a kind of divining rod, accurately and constantly predicting the future before the future comes.

But since most people don’t know this, they end up feeling chronically anxious, worried, doubtful, insecure and depressed. Then they’re frightened when suicidal thoughts show up. Thoughts they could avoid completely had they used their emotions, humans’ natural divining rod, appropriately.

^^Most people don’t understand emotions’ purpose. So they can’t fully benefit from their emotions. (Photo by K. Mitch Hodge on Unsplash)

Negative thoughts start it

Negative thoughts, and their associated emotions, essentially tell the thinker “stop how you’re thinking or you won’t like what comes next!”

Suicidal thoughts do the same, but at volume 10. They say “Dude! Wake the fuck up! You’re heading somewhere you’re not going to like!” That’s why thoughts about killing one’s self feel awful. If someone thinking about suicide looks back across their “thinking” history, they will find a succession of increasingly negative conclusions about life, themselves or some situation. They’ve been thinking thoughts on a variety of subjects that are grossly inaccurate. And they’ve felt increasingly awful-feeling emotions along the way.

So suicidal thoughts usually indicate a strong momentum of negative thinking (long held beliefs) leading to feeling unworthy, powerless, hopeless and depressed; all emotions signaling immediate action is needed.

People generally panic or they double down when such thoughts happen because they don’t know how they happened or where they come from. So they don’t know what to do when they show up (that’s powerlessness), which exacerbates their feeling out of control (that’s helplessness). That triggers more fear and powerlessness and lack of control. See how that momentum builds up?

But such thoughts can be reversed with very little effort.

^^A client who had suicidal ideation found near-complete relief from such thoughts after one session.

What happens after the act

A hopeless or depressed person who kills themselves ends up where everyone else who dies ends up. They return to where they came, a place I call “nonphysical”. There, they remember everything they forgot when they became human. They remember they are an eternal being. Their awareness expands back into the Broader Perspective that tried guiding them while in a physical body. They realize there’s far more to what they are than life on earth.

They also return to the pure positive, joyful energy being that is their natural state. In that state they also realize something else. They get that their exit from the life trajectory they chose was premature. They also see that, like a bad dream, experiences they feared were of their own making. A path they created that, had they kept walking, would have improved.

Human life experience offers so much rich and satisfying opportunity. It literally changes the being experiencing it in profound ways. It does the same for everyone involved.

The experience offers such profound opportunity, a being standing in nonphysical finds it irresistible. That’s one reason why so many humans and other living creatures incarnate.

Post-suicide, these realizations deeply move the person. They remember the profound reason they chose human existence. That reason compels them so completely, they find themselves drawn right back into another body to resume the process they began. The process leading to profound transformation and elevation.

This doesn’t happen against their will. The happening happens because the being, the eternal being, knows what this experience offers. And it wants that.

^^Life offers profound transformation and elevation. (Photo by Liam Pozz on Unsplash)

A temporary fix at best

So suicide offers at best a temporary respite from a chronic series of interpretations that ran counter to what really happened. Instead of seeing their life unfolding in a beautiful, perfect, divinely-timed unfolding designed by them, they saw it as an awful experience over which they had no control.

Such distorted interpretations usually don’t lead to suicide. Otherwise far more people would kill themselves than do. Suicide happens less frequently because, most of the time, human consciousness, guided by its Broader Perspective enjoys an underlying propensity towards “good”. Inner guidance steps in well before the train gets near careening off its track.

Killing one’s self looks bad and wrong and scary. But it’s none of these things. At worse, it’s a temporary detour. At best, it offers a reset for the eternal individual. A chance to recover that awesome awareness state from which the human journey began.

^^In the midst of suicidal thoughts, killing one's self seems like a good idea. But it only prolongs the inevitable. (Photo by Kristina Tripkovic on Unsplash)

Suicidal thinking’s great potential

Ultimately, all paths lead to fulfilled desire and expansion of All That Is. No one need experience emotions leading to suicide. Such thoughts usually resolve themselves with just a little attention paid to creating other thoughts aligned with one’s Broader Perspective.

People thinking about killing themselves possess tremendous energy. Such people can transform then channel that energy towards their desires. In other words, a person contemplating suicide enjoys great potential.

I help people learn to channel that energy and potential. I show them how to improve their thinking. After that anything becomes possible. That’s what life holds for everyone. Unlimited possibilities available to all. That makes life so worth living.

I think anyone would enjoy that. Why wouldn’t they? Because most people don’t realize how good life can be. I love helping folks realize life’s goodness; a perspective born from realizing they are, as I am. God in human form.

Thinking about committing suicide? Get help by dialing 988 in the US.

[canonicallyobserving911]

Guys, A Girl, Curls and Good Cop Parents

Fanonwriter2023 on AO3

Where CANON and FANON collide!

Part 6 is now available on AO3: "Guys, Girls, Curls and Good Cop Parents" - Buck, Eddie, Chris and Daniella all have thick hair but Buck’s, Chris’ and Daniella’s is curly and it tangles easily. Since Daniella’s getting older, her hair is growing and Buck and Eddie have to find ways to not only comb and style it but they also need to find the best products to use.

Guys, Girls, Curls and Good Cop Parents

5.7K Words; Rated: Teen and Up Audiences

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Here’s a snippet of Buck's and Eddie's conversations.

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Eddie walks up and down the aisle, he stops in front of a name brand bottle of shampoo and says, “Here’s one.  I think I saw it on a commercial.  What do you think about this?”

Buck huffs and responds, “Eddie… that’s not a good brand.”

“What?”

“Maddie told me it’s not good because she tried it on Jee’s hair before and it irritated her scalp.”

Eddie nods then he puts the bottle back on the shelf.

A few seconds later, Buck asks, “What about this one?” as he holds up a tall black bottle of 3-in-one shampoo, conditioner and detangler.

Eddie sighs and rubs his hand over his face because they’ve been standing in the middle of this aisle for more than twenty minutes and they still haven’t been to the other side of the store to purchase groceries yet.  When they left the house this morning, he thought they would be able to enter and exit Target quickly so they could be on their way back home but that didn’t happen.  Apparently, they’ve never been able to come in, get the items on their list and leave.  Shampoo for Liz is on the list but neither of them knew there were so many different brands of hair care products for girls with curls and they also didn’t know until they bought the last bottle that just because it says it detangles curly hair, that doesn’t mean it’s true.

“Babe… we’re not buying that because that’s for adults.”

“We have to buy something Eddie and uh… all these hair products are starting to look the same to me.  It says it’s rich in moisture… so Liz’s hair won’t dry out if we use it.  Then we’ll be able to easily brush through it without the brush getting stuck in it.”  He looks at his husband and says, “Don’t you remember the brush incident from a couple of weeks ago?”

“Don’t remind me.”  Eddie says as he thinks about how Buck tried to brush through her hair but the brush got stuck.  She wouldn’t sit still long enough for them to untangle her curls from it but finally after it took them more than thirty minutes to get it untangled, they were able to remove it.

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Bad Cop vs. Good Cop Parents

31K Words; Currently 4 completed works.   A multi-part fanfic series about Eddie and Buck parenting their teenage son Chris. Usually, Eddie's the bad cop parent and Buck's the good cop parent but occasionally, their roles will reverse similar to the way they did in part 1 of this series, as different situations occur.

Becoming the Bad Cop Parent

7.3K words; Rated General Audiences:  Or Buck gets a call from Christopher's school and for the first time he has to be the bad cop parent.

“Growing as Good Cop Parents”

8.8K Words; Rated: Teen and Up Audiences:  When Chris makes it home after hanging out with his friends, Buck smells and unmistakable scent and everything that happens afterwards, helps him and Eddie realize they’re growing as good cop parents.

“Bad Words and Bad Cop Parents"

6.0K Words; Rated: Mature:  After Chris accidentally drops the “F” bomb in earshot of Eddie and Buck, they have a family meeting and hijinks ensue as they work on eliminating “bad words” from their vocabularies before they have an addition to their family.

"Grateful Good Cop Parents"

9.2K Words; Rated: Teen and Up Audiences:  Buck and Eddie are anxiously awaiting the birth of their daughter, Daniella Elizabeth Buckley-Diaz.

Brokenhearted Bad Cop Parent

10.2K Words; Rated: Mature: As Eddie prepares to return to work, Daniella’s reaction to his adherence of the LAFD dress code makes him feel like he’s a bad cop parent but Buck’s there to comfort both of them.

Parts 1-6 are available on AO3.

[transamorousnetwork]

When Suicide Is The Best Way To A Better Way Of Living

I once contemplated suicide. This was long before I discovered my transamory. In high school, I dated one of the prettiest, most popular girls. One day, she quit dating me. Her parents didn’t approve apparently. Drawings I made of her and I engaged in sexual acts, which her parents found, didn’t help my case…

So much did her parents disapprove that they dropped the bomb, in person…on my mom. They showed up at my home one day and, in no uncertain terms, told mom I wouldn’t see their daughter any more. 

My adolescent heart broke. Not knowing what I know now, I thought my youthful world ended right there. What was the point of living without her?

Obviously, I didn’t take my life. It was a momentary blip. The next day, the experience past, I moved on. So did my ex, apparently.

That’s why I understand the dismal place people find themselves where suicide seems logical. Whether trans, trans-attracted, cis or hetero it doesn’t matter. Getting to the place where suicide makes sense sucks. But it needn’t suck. Nor need it be fatal.

Instead, it can be the best launching pad to a better life.

Emotions as divining rods

Suicidal thoughts feel scary. Especially when they sneak up on you. But do they though? Are people contemplating suicide happy one moment, then, voila!, they want to die?

Of course not. Suicidal thoughts usually come to ordinary folk after a long period of gradual, increasingly negative thoughts. As such, suicidal thoughts resemble any other thought and its associated momentum.

Thoughts trigger emotions. Nothing else does that. Anyone can figure this out by watching where their emotions come from. The common refrain that “X made me” sad, or angry or jealous is a lie we tell ourselves constantly. No one makes someone else feel anything. How someone feels depends on thoughts that person thinks about what they’re thinking about. That’s the only source of emotions.

Emotions are crucial. They help tell us many important things about every choice we’re making. Some of the most powerful thoughts humans think happen underneath our awareness. It’s not that they’re “unconscious”. It’s just that the thinker is oblivious to how they’re choosing to think about what they’re thinking about. Emotions, therefore, act as an immediate feedback mechanism for our thought-choices. Not just those we choose “unconsciously”, but ones we consciously choose too.

Emotions also tell a person what’s coming in the future. Yes, they’re a kind of divining rod, accurately and constantly predicting the future before the future comes.

But since most people don’t know this, they end up feeling chronically anxious, worried, doubtful, insecure and depressed. Then they’re frightened when suicidal thoughts show up. Thoughts they could avoid completely had they used their emotions, humans’ natural divining rod, appropriately.

^^Most people don’t understand emotions’ purpose. So they can’t fully benefit from their emotions. (Photo by K. Mitch Hodge on Unsplash)

Negative thoughts start it

Negative thoughts, and their associated emotions, essentially tell the thinker “stop how you’re thinking or you won’t like what comes next!”

Suicidal thoughts do the same, but at volume 10. They say “Dude! Wake the fuck up! You’re heading somewhere you’re not going to like!” That’s why thoughts about killing one’s self feel so awful. If someone thinking about suicide looks back across their “thinking” history, they will find a succession of increasingly negative conclusions about life, themselves or some situation. They’ve been thinking thoughts on a variety of subjects that are grossly inaccurate. And they’ve felt increasingly awful-feeling emotions along the way.

So suicidal thoughts usually indicate a strong momentum of negative thinking (long held beliefs) leading to feeling unworthy, powerless, hopeless and depression; all emotions signaling immediate action is needed.

People generally panic or they double down when such thoughts happen because they don’t know how they happened or where they come from. So they don’t know what to do when they show up (that’s powerlessness), which exacerbates their feeling out of control (that’s helplessness). That triggers more fear and powerlessness and lack of control. See how that momentum builds up?

But such thoughts can be reversed with very little effort.

^^A client who had suicidal ideation found near-complete relief from such thoughts after one session.

What happens after the act

A hopeless or depressed person who kills themselves ends up where everyone else who dies ends up. They return to where they came, a place I call “nonphysical”. There, they remember everything they forgot when they became human. They remember they are an eternal being. Their awareness expands back into the Broader Perspective that guided them while in a physical body. They realize there’s far more to what they are than life on earth.

They also return to the pure positive, joyful energy being that is their natural state. In that state they also realize something else. They get that their exit from the life trajectory they chose was premature. They also see that, like a bad dream, experiences they feared were of their own making. A path they created that, had they kept walking, would have improved.

Human life experience offers so much rich and satisfying opportunity. It literally changes the being experiencing it in profound ways. It does the same for everyone involved.

The experience offers such profound opportunity, a being standing in nonphysical finds it irresistible. That’s why so many humans and other living creatures incarnate.

Post-suicide, these realizations deeply move the person. They remember the profound reason they chose human existence. That reason compels them so completely, they find themselves drawn right back into another body to resume the process they began. The process leading to profound transformation and elevation.

This doesn’t happen against their will. The happening happens because the being, the eternal being, knows what this experience offers. And it wants that.

^^Life offers profound transformation and elevation. (Photo by Liam Pozz on Unsplash)

A temporary fix at best

So suicide offers at best a temporary respite from a chronic series of interpretations that ran counter to what really happened. Instead of seeing their life unfolding in a beautiful, perfect, divinely-timed unfolding designed by them, they saw it as an awful experience over which they had no control.

Such distorted interpretations usually don’t lead to suicide. Otherwise far more people would kill themselves than do. Suicide happens less frequently because, most of the time, human consciousness, guided by its Broader Perspective enjoys an underlying propensity towards “good”. Inner guidance steps in well before the train gets near careening off its track.

Transgender people who commit suicide are no exception. Pain they experience before the act is self-generated. Taking one’s life releases the person from pain. But not from the joyful path they took on. Suicide represents a short detour before returning to finish what they started.

^^In the midst of suicidal thoughts, killing one’s self seems like a good idea. But it only prolongs the inevitable. (Photo by Kristina Tripkovic on Unsplash)

Suicidal thinking’s great potential

Killing one’s self looks bad and wrong and scary. But it’s none of these things. At worse, it’s a temporary detour. At best, it offers a reset for the eternal individual. A chance to recover that awesome awareness state from which the human journey began.

Ultimately, all paths lead to fulfilled desire and expansion of All That Is. No one need experience emotions leading to suicide. Such thoughts usually resolve themselves with just a little attention paid to creating other thoughts aligned with one’s Broader Perspective.

People thinking about killing themselves possess tremendous energy. Such people can transform then channel that energy towards their desires. In other words, a person contemplating suicide enjoys tremendous potential.

I help people learn to channel that energy. I show them how to improve their story telling. After that anything becomes possible. That’s what life holds for everyone. Unlimited possibilities available to all. That’s what makes life so worth living.

I think anyone would enjoy that. Why wouldn’t they? Because most people don’t realize how good life can be. I love helping folks realize life’s goodness.

Thinking about committing suicide? Get help by dialing 988 in the US.

[theskyexists]

NONA part 2

Damn. Hot Sauce is part of a terrorist even more radical anti-necromancer group. And NONA's part of her gang - it's to cry about. Do love how that bomb is dropped instantly along with a vivid description of how the House army killed all her family.

'this isn't the hokey pokey' who the fuck would say that

Wtf. What happened to ianthe. PRINCE Ianthe Naberius? Huh

THE GIRL IN HER DREAM

Hold up what where how the fuck did they get Gideon's body back

KIRIONA GAIA. HOLY SHIT

WHO IS THE ANGEL

Something about the resurrection beast must be causing the stiffness and need for stretching all the time. Or maybe the gravity.

Me, realising Phyrra could die: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAA I LOVE CAM AND PALAMEDES SO MUCH OH MY GOD GODDDD

Camilla thinking Nona is lucky for being a merger would align with Corona thinking the same.

Kinda frustrating that Nona doesn't think to tell Camilla about GIDEON!!!!! AAAAA

How's Corona doing she must have seen it

I LOVE that Corona pretending to be Cam's partner got back to Camilla HAHAHAHAHA

What did Nona Draw???????

Did Nona get shot? By hot sauce? Why did pal reveal himself there?

DOUBLE MACHETE??? I THOUGHT SHE SEEMED SIMILAR!! THEY....SHE?

The Angel gave a liquidation order???

WHERE IS HOT SAUCE

Wait. What. No. Hot sauce...isn't dead....is she. Oh right no. She saw Nona regenerate.

Nona fawns over women just like Gideon. Only her tastes ARE Gideon lol. And she has buried memory of the body.

Oh my god Nona ACTUALLY is in love with Camilla kndldkdjdnkd. I guess the new ship is Cam/Alecto

Hot Sauce vomited at the sight of Nona horribly killed.

Oh my god, she thinks she made it up. Nona is so unbelievably dumb she's wonderful and so dumb. Oh my god, she manages to lie. Terribly.

Oh no. Hot sauce always had it in her, of course. That complete and utter certainty.

Oh I will be so sad if Nona is subsumed....

'i will not be party to this again' oh palamedes...he's thinking of dulcinea

What is it with nobody being allowed to fire a gun in front of the Angel, who I suppose the narrator has also been referring to as they?

Corona is going to Ianthe....

Where the fuck did they dig up Naberius and why (necromantic reasons?) For Ianthe to inhabit and how did they get Gideon's body for John to inhabit probably.

CORONA AND IANTHE!!!!!! Absolutely fucking horrible woman tha ianthe fondly speaking of Babs Jezus CHRIST

Did Pyrrha betray them????? RIGHT. Deadweight!!!

Good twohander stance. Gideon. Blood hemorrhage. Harrow. WHO AND WHAT

NONA JUST CALLED IANTHE CORONA'S BOYFRIEND. MUIR REALLY LOVES THE FUCKED UP TWINCEST AJKDJDKSKFN

'i don't think anyone could blame you for getting confused' STOP. AHAHAHAHHSHAHSHSHS

Nona, just like Gideon, is literally in love with every woman she meets.

Oh shit I forgot that.....like. the sixth house. Were they in the barracks? Are their necromancers two thirds dead? :'(

What did Harrow used to call you? Tortoise? Blorgus? Oajdjdjdirjr

All of pyrrhas nicknames are so sweet :'')))

They're dressing Nona up as Harrow oh my godddd

I LOVE Pash and I love We Suffer and the hilarity of their exchanges.

PALAMEDES MISSES HARROW AAAAA!!!

Ianthe is surrounded by people who are not on her side. But. She's a lyctor.

Why did they Name Gideon daughter of God when her soul's lost.

'duplicitous sluts' lol

What the fuck is up with Corona and Ianthe. What the hell. This is terrible twin representation but I can't find it in me to be offended.

YES. THE THEORY WAS RIGHT. IANTHE AND CORONA HAD A GOAL

The drama between Ianthe and Corona is so unbelievably delicious I don't know what to DO

Camilla/Palamedes is deliberately not healing to not tip Ianthe off that pal is still with them

HOW DID THEY DO THAT????

Ianthe is so fascinating and wonderful while being so fucking shit!

THEY KICKED HER OUT OF NABERIUS' BODY??? SOULS CAN HOP INTO BODIES NOW? OH WAIT THATS HAPPENED BEFORE. WHY DOESNT THAT HAPPEN MORE???

How the fuck did palamedes win????? I know hes the best necromancer of the generation, but god - damn. And he gained respect for her PROWESS. What kind of battle was it? He left her alive but could have killed her....my god.

Wait...killing her would not have killed her then

Corona would love to be free of her sister, but would love to be with her forever. How painful, to never be enough for your sister...

I feel like, Nona is Alecto with Gideon's and Harrow's memories buried somewhere. Or they're all together somehow. how the fuck did they get Gideon's body though??? And howthe fuck did Pyrrha get out of the river.

WHAT. Is going on

God I love Corona. She really was as fond as Gideon as Gideon was of her

Where are the cohort in the barracks? Surely there weren't only 15 left??

Gideon is ALSO a revenant....in....her own dead body. What.

Why is Gideon so ...hm. so glib.

'someone as awful as kiriona' - yeah....there's something wrong with Gideon here. I don't know what has happened, but it's bad. I will not believe that this is how she came across to others before.

'i could kill all you guys' WHO IS THIS. GIDEON WOULD NEVER SIMPLY KILL PALAMEDES AND THE PERSON WHO LOOKS LIKE HARROW AND PYRRHA.

The fact that Nona keeps calling her Kiriona also means something

Hm. Her first instinct is to help Camilla, then she becomes aggressive. What trauma has she weathered. She's deeply sad. Ok. Is that the reason to be a piece of shit to your friends Gideon? Huh?

I am speechless oh my god ah fuck Hot Sauce and Honesty they forgave her they love her they'll always be friends I am dying I am dead

'Green thing' EARTH? NONA HERSELF

'no she finally ADMITTED' OH ALECTO

Earth GAVE John his power? What an absolutely insanely stupid ass pick of a human out of billions

My god

Anyway. I was right. He killed everybody.

So if I understand correctly, the Warden and Camilla got enough freedom from Boe to tell the sixth house to follow Cassiopeia's instructions - to follow a lyctor (which one?). They left and the leadership went down planetside (this one, for some reason) to negotiate. (What?) But they were taken hostage instead. The cohort was with what 100 to 50 by that point, in this city, which seems to have been the capital. That doesn't seem like a lot. Lots of resettled people on the planet. Militia have the power. BOE still operate under cover, but have serious power as well. Semi-successful rebellion. Um. And the RB is there for some reason. Why did We Suffer go to this planet?

How did Pyrrha get out of the river and to this planet with Harrows body. How did Ianthe recover Gideon's body which was in possession of BOE.

Oh no. No no no no. Don't let Alecto win, let Nona live please!!!

Alecto is not nice.

Ah. Palamedes is gonna go through the river. I KNEW IT

What the FUCK are they gonna do??? Are they going eightfold????? IS CAMILLA DYING FOR REAL? WHAT IS GOING ON STOP STOP

They became one?????????? What the fuck guys. No. What the fuck!!!!

And why is Gideon so completely fucking apathetic! Piece of shit!

Well this fucking sucks. Harrow will never see Palamedes again. Fuck this.

Oof I hate this. I really hate this.i do not like perfect lyctorhood. It's another kind of self-destruction. Mutual this time.

PAUL. FUCKING!!!! PAUL????? I AM SORRY BUT MUIR YOU HAVE MADE AN ENEMY OF ME HERE. FUCK!!! OFF!!!!!

Is We Suffer not staying on a planet that's entirely FUCKED?

Why not go along to supervise the mission?

John draws a heart with his initial and the initial for Earth, Alecto and then Harrow.

I did not understand that last bit

Ok so she knows how to navigate the river because she's Alecto. She can feel her other self coming

How has Gideon become so deeply unlikeable holy shit. Is it deliberate? For sure.

AIGLAMENE IS ANGRY AT HARROW FOR GIDEON BEING DEAD

Honestly, Paul, like their name, seems most like Palamedes. Don't know where Camilla has gone. Fuckin hell

Who the fuck is this Gideon. How is she so callous, so apathetic, so evil. How is she best friends with fucking Ianthe. I find it difficult not to HATE her. In fact I DO.

Lol Ianthe flashing back to dios apate

Oh NOW they suddenly care. We're mean and apathetic to Nona the whole time, but now they're like - yeah, oh this is HARROWS BODY.

Oh NOW she cares. Now she offers up her blood. Now she works together with them. What was all that fucking arrogant useless bullshit then Gideon? Hah????

Ah I see, the importance, the wanting to be important, and outgrowing drearburh and the ninth then, yeah.

THE THEN PERISH MEME

Wow, even Alecto returns devotion to Harrow jfc

The epilogue acknowledges that there are very few memes. WHY

Well.

I found the unwrapping of these secrets and histories and most of all beloved characters, QUITE unsatisfying. I'm unhappy with Alecto. Don't give a shit about her thee dost thou shit. Most of all, of her STILL loving John, when he killed humanity, and the world and HER, and then made her sleep for ten thousand years. Don't care about Paul, I want Palamedes and Camilla back, and I can't recognise them. And why did they do that if it didn't give them the power of a lyctor? Pal could have gone back into Camilla and healed her. I am still deeply - how do you say - upset at how Gideon acted. And I do not understand it. She was kind to the people around her in Canaan house. She appreciated the sixth as friends, and held affection for anyone who was kind to her in turn. She was brash, and loved to fight, and kinda dumb, and very funny. But she was good to those around her. Now she's a prince in the aristocratic sense. Arrogant, playing with lives like they don't matter, and - pretending? - that she doesn't care - about Harrow's body, about who she once called friends, wearing some sort of vindication on her soul over being Daughter to God, somebody she immediately identified as a terrible fucking man. She's so much more like John now and I despise it. The jokes in serious circumstances, because they won't affect her - using that privilege to make a parody of life and death and struggle. It's a terrible habit to have picked up. A hateful habit. She was not good to anyone in this book.

So why did Nona reflect so many parts of Harrow and Gideon when she was never either of them....

Also the pacing of this was.....at times too slow. Mostly because a lot of this book, for once, was clear. Maybe.

But DAMN, Harrow actually for real has a harem of the most powerful people in the WORLD right now: Gideon, Ianthe, arguably John, and apparently Alecto as well.

Why is she called Alecto though. So he killed her and then took most of her in and made the rest of her from ribs and mud and blood and vomit. Well. That still tells me nothing about how any of that makes sense.

I hoped I was gonna like Alecto, but unfortunately all the characters I liked were taken away from me this book except Ianthe and Corona and Pyrrha.

this was a very nice book i laughed a lot at all of the dialogue and I loved the characters with serious passion but god - damn. The lore and magic - by its explicit but unclear explanation it has both become less cool and equally unclear and has almost exhausted my reserves of 'this will make sense one day'