#and tracked my exercise to make sure i was in a calorie deficit

[just-your-average-tangerine]

My local theater did a special showing of Velvet Goldmine so of fucking course I went. It was amazing getting to see it on a theater screen, I loved every second of it.

But god fucking damn did seeing Johnathan Rhys Meyers and Ewan McGregor shirtless on that big screen make me so fucking dysphoric

[mortiskiller]

Could you give me genuine advice on how to gain weight? I don’t eat enough in a day and I’m not exactly well off where I can buy myself fast food every single day. Any advice/tips? My goal is to gain an additional 30 lbs. I don’t have a feeder but I would love to be overweight again. I just want to be fat again!!!! It makes me really disappointed bc I’m stuck at this weight right now.

Gaining weight is hard if you don't stick to a schedule, especially if money is an issue.

1. You may need to have repetition in your diet. Pasta, beans, chicken thighs, and root veggies are cheap and easy to cook. With some solid recipes and time, you can easily eat 3k or 4k calories a day with those ingredients. Before I got a good paying job, I had a stable of about 4 recipes I rotated through each week to stay on budget but not lose weight.

2. Liquid calories are easy but not cheap. Cream is a typical option given the calories per dollar ratios. Usually, $1 is roughly 750 calories for a quart of cream. Try to mix with with simple ingredients like syrups, fruit, or baked goods for some better flavor.

3. Know your exercise level and how many calories you need to maintain your weight. My daily requirement of calories to not lose weight is around 3500 since I work out quite a bit. If your job has you on your feet or moving a lot, you need to be aware of calorie deficits. It's not fun to track calories, but given your situation, you may have to. Your body can't store fat if there are no excess calories to do that with.

4. Light to moderate exercise helps to keep your appetite normal and helps you feel hungrier faster. I am at a point with my workout routine that I can eat 2k for a meal and be hungry in less than an hour. Walking, weight lifting, and even yoga at home can be a great help.

5. Weight fluctuates, and that is ok. In a month, my weight goes as low as 285 and as high as 310, depending on some of the factors listed above. Your weight will not always be going up given you say money is a limiting factor.

6. Your body may not be geared toward gaining, and that's fine. Some body types struggle to gain or keep on weight. It's part genetics, part hormones, and part metabolism.

That is a lot and I am sure others have advice as well. Overall, there is no full proof way of gaining short of massive quantities of food all the time. It's easy to gain when you can spend 2k a month on take out!

Personally, don't be disappointed about not gaining. It's easier for some people for a number of reasons. Find what works for you and celebrate the little victories on your journey!

Hope that helps!

[rawchickendinnerparty]

Trying to really make a habit of tracking my food with an emphasis on protein and making sure my sugar intake isn’t toooo much. Because that’s been the hardest to cut down the most but once I’m paying attention to how much sugar is in things it does become easier to avoid it. Like less stressful, because im better connecting the whole “eat sugar” and “feel physically unwell” things that happen to me lol. Also to make sure I eat enough calories, the vyvanse and trulicity combo makes it very easy to barely eat and not really notice until I feel sick. Like yesterday because it was the day after I did my shot for the first time in like two weeks, my blood sugar was all over the place.

Ended up with a much bigger calorie deficit yesterday than I anticipated, partly because exercised a lot which apparently burned way more calories than I expected.

[skinimini80]

Ok so I overate a lot on Wednesday.

I was at this event and suddenly there’s free food?

My broke ass ate it even though I wanted to go lower than the previous day. It was too good an opportunity.

I didn’t binge, didn’t purge, just again overate.

Because I didn’t make it myself, my cals are a guesstimate but I figured I ate 746 cals worth of food. I kept track of what I ate don’t get me wrong, I just didn’t have like a scale or access to the brands of the food.

Also earlier in the day, in class, I was given more free food as well! There were free cookies. Luckily the calories were on the bag, and I don’t really like eating in front of others. I nibbled on my portion throughout the hour.

Anyways that with my eating beforehand set me at 2020 cals.

Today I woke up insanely early, and the food I had eaten was also with alcohol and very late into the night, so I chose to not check my weight.

My new goal for the week is to make my lose it app at least balance out in terms of calories/ be in a deficit no matter how small. I ate 1244 cals today which puts me in a tiny deficit according to my app, 195 cals. I have my app set at maintenance, and say that I’m sedentary.

Throughout my overeating Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday I built up a surplus of 1114 cals.

1114- 195= I’m currently in a surplus of 919 cals. Thats a reasonable amount to take away from a 1439 calorie budget in the span of three days.

It would be satisfying to have a whole week of mostly accurate cals tracked out like that. I am pretty sure my maintenance is higher than 1439, even if I don’t exercise on purpose. Information is information.

Because water weight is tricky as shit to interpret, here’s how I’m gonna analyze my weight on Monday.

112.8, is around where I assume I started this week at. It I’m below 111, I’ll trust I’ve lost some amount weight. If not, I’ll assume I roughly maintained. If I’m over 112.8, uh I’ll assume I gained I guess. Hope that doesn’t happen, but you never know.

I almost b/ped today because I felt guilty after feeling full from eating a shit ton of apples. That ended up working out for me because I just took a nap to try and sleep off the guilt. I woke up at like 7. Catching up on missed sleep and re-entering my deficit era! Yay!

[nkemaghalives]

Your initial body mass and composition may also affect how quickly you can expect to lose weight.

Your initial body mass and composition may also affect how quickly you can expect to lose weight. However, it’s difficult to quantify a time for weight loss (sorry!). “A lot of people want to lose weight fast, but we also need to realize that most of the time people gain weight slowly over time,” says Dr. Griebeler. That weight shift over time will change your body’s weight “set point,” and your body will work to keep your new higher weight. “The overall goal is then to reset the set point to a new level that will be sustainable over time,” explains Dr. Griebeler. “This timeline and fluctuation may be different for different people, as each body reacts differently to exercise and food consumption. There is no one-size-fits-all [solution].”

Weight loss occurs when you consistently consume fewer calories than you burn each day. Weight loss occurs when you consistently consume fewer calories than you burn each day. With innumerable weight loss diets available — all promising impressive and quick results — it can be confusing to know which one is best.

Long-term weight loss takes time and effort — and a long-term commitment. While you don't want to put off weight loss indefinitely, you should make sure you're ready to make permanent changes to eating and activity habits. Ask yourself the following questions to help you determine your readiness: Long-term weight loss takes time and effort — and a long-term commitment. While you don't want to put off weight loss indefinitely, you should make sure you're ready to make permanent changes to eating and activity habits. Ask yourself the following questions to help you determine your readiness:

Your target of 6 months is a realistic one. Slow, steady weight loss is ideal so that you don’t regain weight you have lost. After having spent Christmas and New Year's eating like many others, I realized I have put on weight by 5 kg and now I feel like a nightmare. I was 85kg, height 1.73 now I'm 90 kg and I feel I have crossed the limits. How long could it take to loose 15 kg (to be at my ideal weight) if I were to go on the most strict diet possible?

So if you stay motivated and follow weight loss routines like exercise and an adequate diet while avoiding fast foods, you can lose 20 kg in near about 7 – 8 months. Your initial body mass and composition may also affect how quickly you can expect to lose weight. “If the patient can maintain a steady calorie deficit, I expect them to lose one to two pounds per week,” says Dr. Seeman. So after 12 weeks, her clients are usually down around 20-25 pounds. She adds, however, that this is very patient-specific and would depend on their initial body fat percentage. “As you get closer and closer to an ideal body fat percentage the body will start adapting and weight loss will slow,” she explains.

Dieticians advise that if you eat 500 calories less than your daily requirement you will lose about 1lb every seven days (expect some variation from person to person). How long will it take to lose 15 kgs? Generally, with diet and exercise, 15kg will take about 4 months to reduce. I lost 4.5kg at an average weight loss of 200g a day. That was on a 1200 calorie a day intake, along with light excersize each day. Sorted.

However, many dietitians and nutritionists have explained that a person can easily lose around 2-3 kgs of weight in a healthy way in 15 days. Some even say that if you follow a healthy diet and exercise routine only for a stipulated frame of time without being too strenuous on your body or fasting unto death, you can easily lose weight in 15 days.

If you keep these simple tips and tricks in mind while following the shared sample diet plan you can easily lose weight in 15 days. Do not forget to track down your progress after 15 days and ensure that you are yielding effective outcomes in quick time. “The safest and most sustainable timeline to lose about 15 pounds would be about two to four months,” says Valdez. “This obviously depends on your current weight, body composition, and other factors, but for most people losing 1 to 2 pounds per week will be the safest and most manageable goal.”

However, it’s difficult to quantify a time for weight loss (sorry!). “A lot of people want to lose weight fast, but we also need to realize that most of the time people gain weight slowly over time,” says Dr. Griebeler. That weight shift over time will change your body’s weight “set point,” and your body will work to keep your new higher weight. “The overall goal is then to reset the set point to a new level that will be sustainable over time,” explains Dr. Griebeler. “This timeline and fluctuation may be different for different people, as each body reacts differently to exercise and food consumption. There is no one-size-fits-all [solution].”

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[newathens]

can i be honest ashley if youre not losing weight its because youre not in a calorie deficit like it is physically impossible for the number to not move the way it isnt moving for you. you need to start counting calories more meticulously and you need to consider significantly increasing your deficit taking into account your bmr. i used to think that it was hopeless too but actually it was because i let myself off the hook way too much. for ppl like us with shit metabolisms the only way to lose weight is to be insane about tracking calories unfortunately. even if you eat like one chip from your friends bag you need to track that. if im going to keep it real, from my experience at least, exercise is an incredibly small factor in losing weight. its great if you want to tone up, think 11 line abs or your back, but besides being crazy about cardio it wont do much.

putting this under a readmore cause i think the dialogue is verging into places that might make others uncomfortable. i am in a calorie deficit babe

i am in a slight deficit of around 1850 now sure i could have plateaued but from my research a minor deficit like this shouldn’t cause a plateau. yes i could lower to 1500 cal but then my body would most likely respond as it has last time i dropped it there & lower, which was not good, to say the least.

But that aside, a deficit of 1850 SHOULD get me results albeit incredibly small. and it is not. do you really think im not counting the 63cals of my tab of butter i cook in the pan? that im NOT counting the 35 cals of my tbsp of creamer? that i don’t meticulously count the 10 m&ms i eat or the four peeps that i ate during Easter?

now i know a lot of nutritionists & dietians have unfortunately made blanket statements (made for ppl with bad history with food) that led a lot of bigger people astray saying intuitive eating is the better way to lose weight, but i am not one of those people. i am well aware the only way to lose weight is to be in a deficit. but there ARE people who are in deficits and do not lose due to underlying issues. i do not know what my issues are because doctors cannot tell me. i am trying to solve it on my own. but it IS a possibility, it happens.

and im trying to type this in the least snappy way possible, because i know you’re trying to help. sorry if i want to whine on my blog about the fact that i AM doing everything correct and not getting anywhere.

im not hopeless or upset because im giving myself leeway. im upset because the science is fucking me over because of some hormonal or digestive or whatever issue that will not make itself known. sure i could go down to 1200 EASY i know the diet and the structure AND i’ve done it before. but that will fck me over like it has already. A slight deficit is the only deficit i can be in. anyway. Sounds like you’ve done well on your journey. Very happy for you

[run-sam-run]

A Breakdown of my Routine

So I've broken down my goals for the year, particularly the weight loss goals, but I haven't talked about how I plan to reach those goals.

For weight loss, it's simple, I am just eating at a roughly 500 calorie deficit (at my height, weight and activity level that rolls in around 2,200 calories every day). At this pace I anticipate losing a pound a week on average, and I'm tracking my weight daily and measuring a seven day average to ensure that I have a more accurate read of my weight without worrying about water weight fluctuations day to day.

In tandem with my weight loss goal, my running goal demands that I build an exercise routine to supplement my diet! Based on research backed articles and videos, I intend on using the same methodology for my running program that I used to train for a 10k--the 80/20 method. The concept is pretty simple, develop a routine in which your runs each week are run at a conversational pace 80% of the time, and 20% of the time you run at a more elevated heart rate. Because I'm looking to lose weight, but more specifically fat, I'm going to need to retain muscle the best I can as I shed pounds, so I'm going to incorporate a decent amount of protein into my diet and strength train twice a week with a full body routine. Lastly, once a week I am striving to play soccer with a pick up group I've joined, this gets me running around 5-6 miles each Sunday (albeit with pauses to catch my breath), but I like to treat it as a 4 mile long run in my running log as additional cardio where I work on explosive, high tempo bursts of running with rest periods in between.

So in short, I plan to run 3 days a week and lift two days a week, with a recreational activity like soccer or hiking as a replacement or compliment to one of my runs. This way I have a rest day each week, or two if my recreational activity is on the lighter side. I'm not going to be too rigid with which days of the week I do what, but generally speaking I'd like to keep my runs and lifts to the work week if possible and recreational activities to weekends. I also want to make sure my body gets rest from running and lifting, so I'm going to make sure that my lifts have a couple of days between them to allow for full rest and recovery, and as runs are less intensive on your body I'll use lifting to rest from running most days, and a traditional rest day when needed!

Here's what my blanket schedule looks like:

Day 1 - Slow Run, 3.1 miles. Basically running at an elevated heart rate, but not so fast that I can't keep a conversation going where I can speak in short sentences.

Day 2 - Lift, full-body.

Day 3 - Tempo run/Interval run, 3.1 miles. This is the 20% of my runs, where I run at either a race pace or use intervals to run at higher outputs with slower run intervals to rest and recover.

Day 4 - Lift, full-body.

Day 5 - Slow run/Long run, 4 miles. This is a long run to help build endurance over time.

Day 6 - Rest/ Rec Activity

Day 7 - Rest/Rec Activity

[pablice]

I Ate Pineapple Daily and Lost 5 Pounds in 1 Week - My Weight Loss Results

Benefits of Eating Pineapple Every Day Pineapple is packed with many essential vitamins and minerals, including vitamin C, potassium and manganese. Eating pineapple on a regular basis can bring about several health benefits. Studies have shown that pineapple is a natural anti-inflammatory and can be used to help reduce joint and muscle pain. The high amount of antioxidants and minerals can also help to protect your cells from damage caused by toxins and thus promoting better overall health. In addition to its health benefits, pineapple is believed to aid in weight loss. The combination of enzymes found in pineapple can help to break down proteins and fats more quickly and effectively. This means that the body needs to work less hard to break down these compounds, leading to a faster metabolism. Pineapple also helps to reduce cravings, making it much easier to stick to a healthy diet. With its low calorie content and high fiber content, pineapple can help to satisfy hunger while keeping calories and fat content to a minimum. My Weight Loss Journey Overview After years of unhealthy eating habits, I finally decided that it was time to take control of my weight. I was putting my health in jeopardy and knew that I had to make some changes. With determination and perseverance, I developed a comprehensive weight loss plan for myself. This included changes in food intake, as well as an exercise plan to follow. To keep myself motivated, I set up milestones along the way. I made sure that these milestones were within reach and easy to track, such as losing a certain number of pounds within a week or reaching a specific body fat percentage. Keeping track of my progress helped me stay motivated and encouraged me to stick to my plan. I was determined to make the necessary lifestyle changes in order to reach my desired weight. Factors Contributing to Weight Loss Engaging in a healthy lifestyle is key to reaching weight loss goals. Eating a balanced diet with fewer calories and regular physical activity are both essential. Eating fewer calories than a person spends creates an energy deficit, which leads to the body burning stored fat for fuel, resulting in weight loss. Making healthy food choices, such as including plenty of fruits and vegetables, whole grains, and lean proteins is an important part of any weight-loss plan. Exercise is equally important for weight loss. Research has shown that at least 150 minutes of moderate-intensity aerobic activity per week can lead to significant reductions in body weight. It is also important to mix in some strength training in order to build and maintain muscle. Balance and strength exercises are great for developing muscle mass and burning fat. Ultimately, losing weight and maintaining a healthy weight is about creating a long-term lifestyle shift that includes healthy eating, regular physical activity, and overall mental wellness. Eating Pineapple for Weight Loss Pineapple is a nutritious and versatile tropical fruit that has numerous health benefits. Eating pineapple every day can support healthy weight loss by providing essential nutrients and curbing cravings. This is because it is high in fiber and water, both of which help to promote feelings of fullness, making meals more satisfying. Additionally, pineapples are low-calorie fruits with an average of 73 calories per cup and no fat. Eating pineapple can help to fill you up without adding excessive calories or unnecessary fats. Pineapple can also work as an appetite suppressant due to its high vitamin C content. Vitamin C helps to reduce stress hormones, which can trigger cravings. Snacking on pineapple between meals can help to reduce cravings and keep you feeling full for long periods of time. Pineapple can also aid digestion due to its high fiber content and natural enzymes. The fiber helps to move food through the digestive tract more easily and quickly, which can help to relieve constipation and bloating. Pre and Post-Weight Loss Measurements Before I began my journey to lose weight, I wanted to make sure that I knew exactly where I was starting from. To that end, I weighed myself, took some body measurements, and wrote down my weight goals. Keeping track of these metrics was essential to helping me keep my progress in check and move forward with confidence. After the completion of my journey, I weighed myself and took my measurements again. It was definitely a pleasant surprise to see how much I had changed. My weight had decreased significantly, as had my body measurements. I also met my goals and felt a deep satisfaction in my accomplishment. Exercise and Diet Changes I made several changes to my exercise and diet routine in order to lose weight. For exercise, I started doing regular cardio and strength training. This helped to burn more calories and build muscle. I also started walking more often and taking the stairs instead of elevators. All of this exercise helped to increase my metabolism, which made it easier to lose weight. For diet, I cut out unhealthy or processed foods and added more fruits and vegetables to my diet. I also focused on eating foods with more protein and fiber. Eating these foods filled me up faster, so I didn't feel the need to overeat. I also reduced the amount of sugar and carbohydrates in my diet. All of these changes helped me to maintain a healthy weight and reach my goal. Challenges I Faced The weight loss journey can be quite challenging and filled with many obstacles. During my journey, I faced a few very difficult challenges. One of the biggest challenges was changing my eating habits. I had to completely alter and adjust my eating plan to reflect a healthier lifestyle. This proved to be particularly difficult, as I was used to eating unhealthy and processed foods and had to then switch to healthier alternatives. The second challenge I faced was the lack of motivation. The journey was long and time-consuming, and I had to really push myself to stay dedicated and determined. I used a combination of personal motivation and external support (from family and friends), to keep me going on this journey, despite the difficulty. Motivation During the Journey Throughout my weight loss journey, I found that motivation was an invaluable tool. Each day I set a small goal for myself, such as exercising for 30 minutes or eating two servings of fruit. Seeing these small achievements increase my overall motivation to stick to my weight loss program. I also thought of my weight loss journey as a long-term project that had to be completed slowly and steadily. This helped me establish positive daily habits that would lead me closer to my goals. I reminded myself that even if the journey appeared lengthy, the end results would be worth the effort. When motivation began to falter, I looked through my progress pictures or read through personal weight loss stories. This inspired me to keep going and achieve my goals. What are the benefits of eating pineapple every day? Eating pineapple every day can help with digestion and weight management, boost immunity, reduce inflammation, and improve skin health. It also contains a wide variety of vitamins and minerals, such as Vitamin C, B-Vitamins, magnesium, and potassium. What is an overview of my weight loss journey? My weight loss journey began by making small changes to my lifestyle, such as altering my diet and increasing my exercise routine. For the duration of the journey, I tracked my progress and kept a food diary to make sure I was making progress. I also weighed myself regularly and monitored my body measurements. What factors contributed to my weight loss? Eating pineapple regularly, along with other healthy fruits and vegetables, was a major factor in my weight loss. Additionally, I increased the intensity and duration of my exercise routine, and altered my diet to incorporate more whole grains, lean proteins, and healthy fats. How is eating pineapple helpful for weight loss? Pineapple is a natural source of fiber and is low in calories. It also contains a number of enzymes that can help break down food and aid in digestion. Additionally, eating pineapple can help curb cravings for unhealthy snacks, as it is sweet and satisfying. What pre and post-weight loss measurements did I track? During the journey, I regularly weighed myself and tracked my body measurements, including my waist, hips, and chest circumference. I also kept a food diary to help me monitor my diet and progress. What exercise and diet changes did I make? As part of my weight loss journey, I increased the intensity and duration of my exercise routine, and altered my diet to incorporate more whole grains, lean proteins, and healthy fats. I also ate pineapple daily, as it is low in calories and a natural source of fiber. What challenges did I face? Initially, adjusting to the changes in my exercise routine and diet was difficult. I also faced cravings for unhealthy snacks, which I had to resist in order to stay on track with my weight loss goals. What motivated me during the journey? Seeing the progress I was making in terms of my weight, body measurements, and overall health kept me motivated throughout the journey. I also found that having a support system of family and friends helped me stay on track and motivated. Read the full article

[andy-eat-world]

Tw weight mention ig



Hi, so I'm starting uni in 5.5 weeks and i need to lose weight... any tips?



-Drink lots of water, depending on your gender and weight is how many liters u need to drink a day! (usually around 2L)

-walking on a treadmill or outside! atleast 30mins a day

-either watch your calories or watch your portions, you CANNOT lose weight if you're not in a calorie deficit!

-figure out how much weight you want to lose in a week

-make sure you get a good night's sleep every night

-either cut out sugar and junk food or only eat them in very small portions

-don't eat while doing another activity like watching tv, you'll end up eating more than intended

-eat fruits & veggies to fill you up

-try cutting out dairy

-keep a diary tracking food intake and exercise

-stop drinking sugary drinks like soda and juice, drink tea and water or low calorie drinks

-drink a glass of water before each meal and chew your food slowly (count to 9 between each bite)

-try to avoid processed foods

-weigh yourself atleast once a week to track progress

-brush your teeth after every meal

-drink atleast 1 cup of green tea a day (don't add sugar)

—that's all I could think of off the top of my head!

if you have PCOS or prediabetes/diabetes type2 losing weight will be harder but not impossible! Be patient with yourself.

[lifewithoutmeds]

April 14, 2023

Oooh, another long spell without writing, curiously, and things haven’t been that good and i haven’t really been trucking along.

Not much has transpired in the last month. work, social outings, the usual to-do chore list. i was doing pretty well budget wise then went a lil manic and bought a new LL Bean jacket, new adidas NMD shoes, and a fly fishing rod/reel combo (new, but off of OfferUp.) Those three cost $350. I also bought a hair dryer, but I probably needed it, not having ever purchased one and having used a small portable travel one for the last several years.

Kinda feels nice actually having a few new shiny things in my life.

Buying and the contemplating of buying the jacket made me have to face my weight again and my body image. I could have gotten a regular small, or a petite small or a petite medium, and i realized that with my circumference, i’d probably have to go with the medium, and with some embarrassment/chagrin, i did so, and glad i did, because it fits almost snugly. realized again how much my body image/weight is negatively impacting me and making me feel like i can’t participate in fashion or what i consider to be good taste even in clothing.

so once again i’m re-dedicating myself to weight loss, to the discipline required in taking small steps in the right direction. Had a great session with kelda yesterday and she was saying how much i vacillate between extremes. i will binge eat then go to extremely restrictive eating, then binge some more. i don’t just eat pasta once; once i eat, i finish the box, i eat the entire pound, maybe not in one sitting, but i figure, i’ve already slipped, why not just go all the way. and she was encouraging me always find the middle, because i have such difficulty doing that.

yesterday was practice, as i watched what i ate, tracked my calories, and made sure i had good amounts of protein and some fruits/vegetables, but when i saw i still could eat some calories, instead of just starving myself, i treated myself to a haagendazs bar that still put me in a caloric deficit. but it didn’t make me feel like i was starving or limiting myself unduly.

kelda was saying that even if i didn’t feel like getting up or moving, if i just made myself move for five minutes, that would be better than just vegging. i think it’s called the two minute rule. just to commit to two minutes of any task that seems troublesome, and typically, upon having started, it’s easier to keep going and keep at it longer.

today feels better. yesterday, i had done all of the things, so maybe that contributed. i worked hard (at work), ran the vacuum twice, washed the dishes three times, walked for 40 minutes, exercised for 20 minutes, read some of my book, and filmed a bit for my fishing youtube. i ate a small salad, i ate well-portioned and relatively healthy meals throughout the day, had my one hour of facetime therapy with kelda. i brushed my teeth and even washed my face and put on overnight face lotion before i went to bed, a task which has been strangely difficult for me even though i hate myself for not doing it afterward.

this weekend’s plans: Today/Friday: a few chores, getting gas, in n out for lunch, then fishing from about noon - 7 p.m.

saturday: brunch with amy lee, exchange a few items with lana around noon, hot flash lesbian event in the evening

sunday: not much so far. a walk? some cleaning? probably preparing a bit for the trip to belfast/dublin later in the week.

i think it’s important to: keep moving, as kelda said. to have things on the calendar. to stop getting deeper when i already feel bad about myself. to have regularly scheduled social things, travel things, and have adequate rest in between times. it’s important to stop and process, and journal/write this stuff out. it’s important to pause and clean and purge as necessary.

it just occurred to me how much i enjoy matt and kendy’s company. i should probably schedule something with them soon. i love good conversation that flows, i love the banter, i love the cleverness, the wit, the undercurrent of care and kindness.

today feels better than others. probably some combination of a week that has felt accomplished, with some good coffee this morning, and anticipation of a few good things to come (fishing, amy, lesbians.)

also i’ve committed to living a lifestyle that allows me to lose 1.5 lbs a week. that means: calorie tracking/restriction, 80-100 grams of protein a day, 15,000 steps a day (which usually necessitates at least one longish walk), and 20 minutes of weight training daily. it’s nice to think that if i keep this up, in x days i’ll be y pounds thinner, and ooh by x month, i’ll be z pounds thinner! the trouble is the days, is the hours, is the minutes, is the boredom, is the emotions, is the tiny acts of slipping up or giving up. but i have to use that as exercises in discipline, which i admire, and feel i lack. i must be what i admire.

[discipline-your-body]

Journal entry: surrendering to the wisdom of plants

Since last fall, I’ve been gradually making changes to become healthier and lose weight. I have been having a lot of trouble with getting that number down on the scale. It hardly budges. It goes down slightly, then back up again. Weighing myself every day was not a good strategy.

So I got frustrated with lack of results and gave up. But then I gradually got into it again. I bought a smartwatch to become more aware of my step count and heart health. And then I bought AirPods so that I could feel more motivated to be active (music always helps.) Small steps but I think they will add up in the long term. These are small yet sustainable changes.

I’ve been exercising much more frequently. But I’m still not getting results and it’s so frustrating. So I just downloaded my fitness pal and I’m going to track calories. The most basic part of weight loss is calorie deficit and you can’t ignore that.

The only time I saw ANY results this past few months was during calorie deficit. And it sucked, and I wasn’t losing fast enough, so I stopped. I just focused on exercise. But I realize it has to be both. There is no way around cutting calories.

I’m allowing myself to make my weight a priority. Your body is the most important part of your life. I refuse to spend the rest of my life uncomfortable with my body. If I get a little obsessive, a little carried away, I’m fine with that. We SHOULD be obsessing over our bodies because again it’s all we have at the end of the day.

We eat too much as a society. We too easily rely on food as a drug or an emotional support. We demonize addiction but almost all of us are addicted to junk food.

Will power can take me far but obviously not far enough. I’m not afraid to rely on herbs and supplements to aid my weight loss. I admit I can’t do it alone! I need the wisdom of plants!

Nobody talks about how weight loss is a spiritual journey more so than a physical. For me this is about surrendering my ego to the wisdom of plants. Turning to plant based foods, and appetite suppressing herbs. I admit that my ego is not strong enough to just eat less or just quit all junk food, without any help from the power of plants. So that’s my first revelation. I’m sure there’s many more to come.

[myjourneytoahealthyme1]

If your path to healthy involves getting your body to a healthy weight or size, there is a vast difference between just eating whatever you want but at a calorie deficit, and eating balanced macronutrients at a perfectly calculated calorie deficit to ensure your body is properly nourished. This is where I FAILED every other time I tried to get healthy...I was manipulating all the diet programs, saving points for drinks and sweets, and tweaking things to make sure I wasn't *really* giving up anything I wanted or thought I deserved. I wasn't all-in (even though I thought I was), because there were always loopholes. I was only tricking myself, and in the end, I am the only one I was hurting. I would play all the mental games - I'd justify eating a sugary dessert because I did some exercise that day, or having another glass of wine because I didn't eat dinner, or eating a few cookies and a salad and calling it a day....none of that helped my body, and I certainly wasn't nourishing my body with the proper nutrients. That's why this program is different. I knew it almost immediately when I started following it. It was so easy to follow because it took all the thought process out of meals. I didn't have to prep or shop or use brainpower to track and count everything that I ate. I didn't have to pay attention to macros - because it is all taken care of for me. I didn't have to stress. It was SO EASY to provide my body with perfectly balanced nutrition, with perfectly balanced macros, and because I didn't have to think about it or stress over it...I was able to start focusing on the mental work behind making small healthy changes to my habits, so I didn't fall back into old unhealthy habits. THAT is why I am sharing every day that I lost 60 pounds in 4.5 months and have happily and successfully maintained it. It is the BEST THING I've ever done for myself. I am going into this holiday season with a completely different mindset than ever before. You can do it too. I'm here to share it, and coach you, and guide you, and support you. Join me. I'm offering you a $42 gift this month in honor of my 42nd birthday, & we'll celebrate CHOOSING YOU! #myjourneytoahealthyme https://www.instagram.com/p/CkgMPi2OANQ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[lucysweatslove]

Weight update.

TW/CW: weight, eating disorders, measurements, body checking, etc. (under a read more to reduce unintentional triggering)

Because of the Brazil trip coming up next year in which I’ll be in a wedding, not just attending, I’ve been feeling a little insecure about my body and thinking about attempting to change my body’s aesthetics (you know… size). I gained legit 15-20lbs or so after I recovered from COVID, and part of that is that it’s hard to accept my “new body” because of internalized fat phobia, but also my old clothes don’t fit well and I am worried about what people think or say behind my back and the struggles that I may have with access to appropriate medical care in this body. It’s really tricky to navigate any attempt at weight loss/fat loss with my ED history, since I can slip back into disordered patterns super easily. I shared some of my concerns with Husband who said he would support me in my goals “so long as I do them in a healthy manner.” So I think he’ll be looking out for me too.

My current plan is to just focus on doing some basic light home exercises trying to avoid triggering a back spasm + some gentle cycling during the week + hiking as weather allows on the weekend. Really just some simple/not too intense movement that I enjoy about 5 times a week, maybe 6 if I want to take a walk. I have set Wednesdays to be a full rest day, no just a “not lifting” day or “active recovery” day but a day to focus on a) work, b) home care, and c) other aspects of self-care. My back spasms limit me from going really hard which is a bit of a built-in check to reduce risk of exercise purging or over-training.

Nutrition wise, I’m a little stuck on the best approach. I’m trying to shift mindset from “where can I cut calories to facilitate energy deficit and weight loss” to “where can I incorporate more produce and nutrient-dense foods?” But, I’m also trying to focus on getting enough of each macronutrient too, and ensuring a more balanced approach throughout each meal and throughout the day. Basically, all of my past “go to” behaviors I’m actively trying to challenge- calorie saving until the evening, avoiding added sources of fats (like nuts, full fat salad dressings), avoiding all full-carb “carby” foods (like only using Carb Balance tortillas or diet bread), meal skipping, relying on protein bars for meals, stuff like that. I’m also making the conscious effort to still eat meals that Husband prepares for us. Admittedly at the moment I AM food tracking. I’m not sure if this will need to be stopped, but if I have a detailed log, I can easily show it to healthcare professionals if they have any doubt about how I’m eating. I am using it as a bit of a crutch for nutrition too. I’m very actively trying to make sure I’m meeting macronutrient AND micronutrient goals throughout the day (as in, not getting too little), and tracking helps put my mind at ease. That said, I am trying to be flexible and estimate when I don’t know for sure (eg, local coffee shop orders, food Husband prepared, stuff like that). Im also trying to be flexible about not eating every food item if I’m full and not worrying too much about how I will track that. Example: Saturday’s scrambled eggs were loaded with spinach and mushrooms and I just made a little too much. I never finished it. I saved it for later, but later I just wanted toast, so I threw away the eggs and ate the toast. In days past, I would’ve forced myself to finish what I had already tracked or like, obsessively separated out the spinach, eggs, mushrooms, and sausage from the scramble and weighed them all separately to determine how much I had “actually” consumed which is… yeah super disordered. Not doing that now. And I’m trying to not care so much if Husband takes something off of my plate, or if I shared something with Oreo, etc. Basically right now I’m tracking but trying to be less rigid about it and I’m using it as a guide to make sure I’m getting enough, not as a guide to see how little I eat.

I started focusing in on my nutrition more and exercising again last week (4 days of light spinning + 30 min at home strength training, plus a hike over the weekend). This week it mostly more of the same with maybe an actual gym day on Friday if I have the day off work (Husband has said he would go with me Friday afternoons). Nutrition has been fine with my half a multi a day (the multi I have is 2 caps/serv so I just take one cap). I’m a little low in iron and think I may need to find foods I enjoy that are higher in iron- might be a reason to add in some breakfast cereals lol.

Anyway, I’m not pretending like I’m not actively trying to lose weight or change my body size, and I AM tracking my weight and just took measurements this morning, but I’m not sure I want to fully document it because I’m not sure if it’s what I want on my blog? Like on one hand I want to be transparent, but on the other I don’t want to like, promote the idea that fat people actively need to try to reduce their body size/fat/weight? I’m a big proponent of healthy behaviors at every weight/size, and it feels a bit inconsistent to encourage focus on holistic health when I myself and also focused on aesthetics.

The whole thing is confusing to me because I fully recognize that my motivations for monitoring my body IS related specifically to changing how I look at not at all related to actual health. Because I’m honest about it, I don’t actually feel like I’m going against my own values, but I worry about how other people will take it if they see somebody who says just focus on health and NOT weight or body size or fat, but then here I am also focusing on my body size/fat.

There is another component now too: I don’t want comments on what I should or shouldn’t be doing. If I put my body out there how I am now, it invites people to tell me their opinions about how I look and how I should exist. It invites the “Ew” comments. It invites the “I’m just worried about your health” comments. It invites the “good for you for getting healthy” comments etc etc. It also invites the ignorant ED comments… the “you don’t have to worry about anorexia since you’re fat” or the comments of people assuming my ED is BED or the “why so many nuts?” “You don’t need that big of a meal” “lol not eating a piece of bread is good for you, not disordered behavior” types of comments. I. Don’t. Want. Them. Hard stop. I don’t want any discussion about my body’s shape or size as that discussion is horribly triggering, no matter what it is.

Also, regardless of how my body responds, I don’t want anybody comparing themselves to me. I don’t want people who are fat to think they “have to” work to change their aesthetics the way I am- because my aesthetics are mine and what I like on me has nothing to do with what I want other people to look like. I don’t want people to think if they eat and move like me, their bodies will respond like mine. If I lose weight, I don’t want it to be moralized with the “good job” “so proud” “you worked so hard for this” commentary. If I don’t lose weight, I don’t want people to assume they have to eat less and move more to avoid being as big as I am.

What I will say is this: im actively working on body acceptance at every size and measurement. This morning when I measured my waist, hips, and thighs I started to freak out a tiny bit. My waist is larger than my hips were prior to my 2019 weight gain. My thighs are almost as large as my waist was at their smallest. The discrepancy between my waist and hips in terms of clothing sizes reminds me of how my body shape is not the celebrated shape. Measurements are needed for lots of things, not just body checking. If I want to buy clothes online, measurements help me find the right fit- and my body deserves clothes that fit it. But the discrepancies mean clothes just… don’t fit. Im trying to look at changes in body size/measurements as data, not goal-driven, and to remind myself it’s just a measurement. My body is as it is no matter what. It’s the same if I measured and if I don’t. It’s like having a lab like cortisol drawn- just a snapshot of how I am right now. Clothes will fit just as well before and after I take measurements. But even still. I didn’t take measurements last week before I decided to start focusing on movement more because I was scared of how I would internalize the numbers. I thought this week, well, maybe I wouldn’t be as “fat” (larger numbers) and I wouldn’t feel as bad about it. But knowing that these measurements might not even be the largest is still somewhat hard because of my own personal aesthetic desires and it’s like… I worry about my clothes and what I might have to do for them to fit my body again.

[finestoftheflavors]

Thermodynamics Diet - complications

Thinking about the concept of the “Thermodynamics Diet”. Naively, you’d think that, assuming you’re currently at a stable weight, you could simply reduce the amount of food you eat, or exercise a little bit more, and then you’re done! But it’s not that simple. What could go wrong? I think there are three basic categories here.

One: You are (probably) not actually measuring your energy input. I mean, maybe you are. How dedicated are you to counting calories? Suppose you limit your diet to only products that have reliable nutrition labels so you can put a number on every macronutrient you ingest. Tedious but doable. Would you trust the average person to accurately follow this to the letter? Keep in mind that it’s easy to say you’ll do this at the start, but then when you’re into your calorie deficit and you feel like your blood sugar is low, then suddenly you come to your senses and find yourself elbow-deep in a bag of French’s French Fried Onions, like a werewolf or something.

Two: You are not actually measuring your energy output. This is more difficult than the first one. Your body constantly expends energy to heat itself, and you’re constantly making little movements that you have no way of tracking. Sure, you can estimate calories expended by big showy activities like weightlifting or cardio, but that might not even be a majority of your body’s energy use. When you are tired from being in a calorie deficit, you might feel less energetic and might use less energy in little ways throughout the day.

Three: Here’s the one I’d like to see some scientific discussion of. How energy efficient is your body? How much energy are you actually using, from the food you eat? I know we’re not using all of it. Just off the top of my head, I know that feces is used as manure, cow dung has been used as fuel, and some species use the feces of another species as food. These are all illustrations of an animal not using 100% of the energy contained within its food, because you can see that there’s some usable energy left over at the end.

So, how efficient is your body? Is everybody’s digestive system equally efficient? Maybe your body is using all the nutrients in the food you eat, but your skinny neighbor’s body is half-assing it and that’s why they’re able to stay thin. Does your body always operate at the same level of efficiency? Hypothesis: When I eat lots of food, my body only uses part of the nutrients and expels the excess, but during conditions of famine or dieting, it’s taking as much nutrition as possible. Has anybody ever tried to investigate this?

[pleasemakemethinspo]

Time to get serious

I've been binging for the past few days because i'm obssesed with biscoff. All I've had today is some fruit, ramen and like 2000 calories worth of biscoff. I'm a failure.

To get back on track I needed to put the thoughts swirling into my mind, into words. I've set my self a deadline to lose AT LEAST 2kg in the next 2 weeks. I've been going to the gym consistently, weight lifting but I think its making my muscles too big (that or it's the binging and I'm in denial). I've also added running to make sure I'm actually losing fat, so I need to set myself a work out and eating schedule so I can refer back to this when I feel lost.

1. I'm not going to weigh myself tomorrow. It's the day after a binge, i'll weigh way more, there's no point depressing myself further. I'll wake up early, go on a run (preferably 5km at slow pace) and work on my leg day with lower weights. I also need to incorporate swimming into my routine. So early morning run -> into lifting weights ( I want to look toned and not skinny fat -> into swimming -> into a long walk home. That should be enough exercise to get me into a high deficit.

2. In terms of nutrition, i'm either an orthorexic(-ish) extreme or I dedicate my calories to biscuits. I need to care more, skinny people will eat 2 and feel full, skinny people don't eat the entire plate and skinny people don't eat takeaways. If I need to takeaway, it'll be a matcha latte at starbucks or a matcha bubble tea. Nothing else. I found out the my turkey rashers are 22g of protein for 99kcals at a 100g. I need to live on this. Up my fiber and protein, reduce my carbs. My meals should look like:

Breakfast: 1 innocent kids smoothie (59 cals) for fruit. Turkey Rashers (99kcal). Roughly 160 for breakfast. I can maybe make my own smoothies and add soy yoghurt, which gives more protein and the fermented yoghurt is good for guy bacteria.

Lunch: Avocado toast on protein bread (just found this at my organic store). It's 250g for 5 slices and a 100g is 241kcal, which is pretty high. 50g for 1 slice will be 120.5 kcal, 5.5g of fiber and 10g of protein. The avocado will also add to my fat and fiber needs. Roughly 200 for lunch, maybe 250 to be safe.

Dinner: A salad, or veggie stirfry, maybe with huel. I just need to get my veggies in here. I need to pick just a few and not get obssessed with eating the rainbow. Brocolli, Carrots, Spinach and peppers are a good start. Tomatoes and Cucumbers if i'm having a salad. All veggies are super low cal anyway. Then Huel to round up my protein intake, maybe just 1 scoop for 200 cals. Maybe 400 cals for dinner?

This would bring me to 850 cals for the whole day. Which may be high for some people, but i'd rather be satiated to prevent a binge. Consistency is key. 2 Biscoff biscuits is 74 cals. I'll let myself have 2 if I manage to be at 850 for the day. It brings my total to 927. I'll use the rest for honey or agave in tea, matcha latter with soy milk, etc. In a day with exercise, I burn roughly 2000 calories (without running or swimming) Including those, I should be burning roughly 3000 calories (with increased cardio for fat loss). A deficit of 2000 cals a day, that's 14000 cals in a week. If a 3500 cal deficit will lose me 1 pound then Ideally, I should be losing 4 pounds a week. 8 in 2 weeks. That's roughly my goal. I need to do this without compromising my health or feeling dizzy. I need to be skinny and hopefully not miserable.

I can't believe I wrote all this. I'm not sick though... just want to lose some weight.

[digitalstowaway]

Tw for eating disorders but I also wrote a lil fic in my head last night where Klavier develops an eating disorder and Kristoph notices and kinda... pushes him a little bit to see how far Klavier will take it (triggering stuff below the cut)

Klavier is 17, and he asks Kristoph if he's "chubby." Kristoph isn't really listening. He tells Klavier not to worry. It's just baby fat. It'll go away when he's a little bit older.

Klavier does have a little baby fat left on him, Kristoph thinks. It makes him look younger. His jaw isn't quite defined yet. He's a little soft in the middle. He was a late bloomer, and Kristoph knows he still has some growing left to do.

But Klavier starts dieting, and Kristoph quickly notices to want for control. Klavier is careful about portions. He turns away sweet things he used to love. His band is about to debut their first single, Klavier explains, and he wants to look good just in case it does well. No one wants a pudgy lead man.

Kristoph thinks it's interesting. Klavier, who's always been a bit of a free spirit, is capable of control and discipline after all. Kristoph introduces him to phone apps that'll help him count his calories, track his exercise, and even monitor the nutrients he eats.

Months pass, and Klavier does slim down. He also grows a bit taller, it seems. All of a sudden Kristoph isn't looking down at his brother anymore.

Even more months pass, and Kristoph catches Klavier analyzing his app. He hovers over his calorie intake for the day. Kristoph can see his calorie deficit set a but high, and he thinks for a second that it's a bit worrying. But he brushes it off. It's about control. Klavier will stop if it gets out of hand. If he doesn't, then Kristoph will see his little brother doesn't have discipline after all.

Klavier visits him for week over Christmas after the drama with Wright passes. He gets off a plane, and Kristoph sees a stylishly thin man where his brother used to be.

"Are you feeling alright?" Kristoph asks when they're home and settling Klavier into a guest room. Kristoph thinks he should run a little test. "Your cheeks are flushed."

"It's from the wind," Klavier says, pressing his hands to his cheeks. "I need to moisturize. I'll look chapped in the morning."

"Are you sure? Your face looks a little puffy, too."

Klavier looks at Kristoph with mild alarm. "Puffy?"

"Like you're ill, Klavier. You can't exhaust yourself."

Klavier’s fingers feel his cheeks and then move down to his jaw. He presses into the firm bone, no doubt feeling give that doesn't exist. Kristoph wants to tut. How easily Klavier let's himself get worked up.

"Rest for a little bit," Kristoph says. "When you get up, we can make dinner."

"Can an airplane make your face puffy?"

Kristoph is tired of talking about the non-existent puffiness. "Probably. Don't fuss over it."

Klavier's hands drop to his side. Kristoph insists he take a nap. When Klavier pads down to the kitchen later, he looks tired, and he's in a large sweatshirt and baggy sweatpants. He tells Kristoph maybe he isn't feeling well after all and turns down dinner.

It comes to a head when Kristoph checks the news one morning and sees the headlines that Klavier fainted on stage. The article doesn't explain anything beyond him hitting the stage mid-set.

Kristoph calls Klavier. He should have known his little brother was going to spiral out of control.

"I'm going to take a break from everything," Klavier explains over the phone. "We're postponing the last leg of our tour. Not willingly, but I was told that I really should."

"Will you visit me?" Kristoph is interested in seeing Klavier up close. "I always have a room for you."

"I'd like to, but," Klavier trails off. He starts again with little confidence. "I'm in Germany right now, and I think it's best if I stay put. The doctor who saw me last night wants to see me again, and it'll be easier to stay here then to try to shuffle medical records across countries."

"Okay," Kristoph says. He suspects there's more to Klavier's story. "I understand. But I'm here if you need me."

"I know."

And Kristoph hangs up and returns to his morning coffee and thinks his little experiment is over.