#august web weaving

[haunted-by-words]

Hello, August.

[atlanticsea]

all is fair in love and war: or, where relationships and sportsmanship intersect.

citations: challengers (2024), wikipedia (various articles), friend at court 2022 handbook of rules and regulations, gq interview.

(insp)

[fromdarzaitoleeza]

Charlotte Eriksson, Empty Roads & Broken Bottles; in search for The Great Perhaps/Carlie Hoffman, from “High Bridge Park,” published in Gulf Stream

[mad-girlslove-song]

when ethel cain said “i tried to be good am i no good am i no good am i no good” which started with her self-loathing after being abused by her father and neil perry said “i was good. i was really good” and then he killed himself because he knew that he would never be good enough for his father

[noodles-07]

on august and the end of all things

all things end, Hozier / @/nobodysflower / dancing fairies, August Malmström / Zoë Lianne / quote from Georgia O'Keefe / mine / four withered sunflowers, Vincent Van Gogh / Ophelia, Friedrich Heyser / Sylvia Plath / unknown / @/diarygirls / lyric from ARIZONA by young friend / Francesca, Hozier

[araekniarchive]

eve, after the fall (auguste rodin; bronze, 1883)

Mark Twain, The Diaries of Adam and Eve // Hozier, From Eden // Angela Carter, The Bloody Chamber // Frank Bidart, The War of Vaslav Nijinsky // Eagles, The Last Resort // Anne Sexton, Words for Dr. Y

[mysterieuxclairdelune]

{Tumblr User: @poetryatmost (x)/ Charlotte Eriksson, Empty Roads & Broken Bottles: in search for The Great Perhaps/ Franz Kafka, from The Diaries of Franz Kafka, 1914-1923/ Anne Sexton, Live or Die; from 'Imitations of Drowning'/ Emily Dickinson, from "No crowd that has occurred" (Poem #515), Complete Poems of Emily Dickinson/Franz Kafka, from The Diaries of Franz Kafka, 1910-1913/ Tumblr User: @poetryatmost/ Listy Tamtego Lata, from Letters of Summer Past/ Carlie Hoffman, from "High Bridge Park," published in Gulf Stream/ Alex Dimitrov, from "Love," in Love and Other Poems}

[hum--hallelujah]

you ever think about how we sing "you are the dreamer" back at him after all these years?

Clandestine merch c. early 2005: "I am the dreamer you are the dream" (photos via @predoom) // Pete's LiveJournal, Feb 08, 2005 // August 2005 // Clandestine merch mid-late 2024: "Still dreaming after all these years" // Hum Hallelujah // Fake Out

[helenaredamancy]

august of another summer, and once again

the pond by mary oliver // nothing twice by wislawa szymborska // late august by margaret atwood // august by alex dimitrov // paradoxes and oxymorons by john ashbery // again august by haley mlotek //

[sinligh]

It’s late July, A lost breath of soulful desperation bled half the year that has passed over my eyes, painting a veil like fabric that blinded me mercifully.

can time really heal anything? I’ve been struggling with digesting all that it stored for me…

My cruel heart is only a result of the ignorance that i built brick by brick from its remnants

I even named the process defensive mechanism.

It’s early august, I’ve held on to a routine for as long as i can, living off of small accomplishments; cause what’s the alternative?

Prisesstant melancholy? Undoubtable anguish?

I became insensitive to time passage, like a child that never knew health only saw it as a blanketing apology covering everyone they love.

a child that can vividly touch the heaviness of the life they’ll carry for as long as they’re allowed to.

I’ve been accumulating feelings like corpses that are waiting to be identified in a morgue.

frozen above my brainstem, that until the heat of the summer caused them to melt and overlap into a storming ocean; leaving little versions of me to drown in their waves

and I as a helpless outsider watching from a coast and hoping i could pour all of this in one single poem, or maybe aspire it all like you’d do a patient with fluids in their lungs: Thoracentesis.

And use it as a supply to wash away the catatonic rage that flows through my veins.

reality is ringing it’s bell inside the cavity where my eyes should be, and even though i can hear it.

It’s taking me longer than I thought it would to reach; cause thats all i can do.. try.

I measure my self value interchangeably with all the pieces of me i left behind to comfort others.

That and all the leftovers of my mother’s life.

My soul is constantly tugging.

Tugging, tugging, tugging. Never in the same direction but it’s still clear that it wishes to be free from me.

Emotionally attached to this and that to her and him

But they’re never enough; i never am…

And I’m so tired of it all, the never ending self loathing.

But to whom do I confess ?

Who would acknowledge my longing, Who will embrace my infelicitous desire to be held together or even just touched,

an innocent reminder of my existence, to ease me into being a human again, especially after I starved myself for the sake of nourishing others.

•••

•Quotes: Louis Tomlinson/ Taylor swift/ Henry Miller/ Rainer Maria Rilke/Helen Oyeyemi/Anne Sexton/Franz Kafka/Susan Sontag

•Original context: Sinligh

•Art reference:

1. Timothy Archer - The blue rider. 2. The Train by Ben McLaughlin. 3. Paintings by Raymond BonillaRaymond. 4. Ottoman Beauty with a Butterfly by Harold H. Piffard. 5. Side Light by Quang Ho. 6. Painting by Alex Kanevsky. 7. Fine Morning by Sally Strand. 8.painting by Steven J. Levin

[fromdarzaitoleeza]

William Faulkner, The Sound and the Fury/from Letters of Summer Past (Listy TamtegoLata) VI

[danananapple]

stars

"This Wish (Reprise)" - Wish (2023) // "Become" by Emery Allen // Midnight Mass [S1E7] (@flanaganfilm) // "The Cosmic Connection" by Carl Sagan // "shine your icy crown" by Amanda Lovelace // "Fighting the Stars" by @thealyssataylor-blog // August Rush (2007) // "Desiderata" by Max Ehrmann

[naivesilver]

@eggseabutters' Eggdad Week - Day 3: Broken/I Can Fix It

Interlude With Forgotten Myth, or, Portrait of Ibrahim's Daughter, Yasmin Belkhyr // Sonic The Hedgehog issue 44, IDW // Untitled, Ijaazat // Sonic The Hedgehog issue 49, IDW // Night Sky With Exit Wounds, Ocean Vuong // Once Upon A Time episode 1x20, The Stranger // The Civil War, Anne Sexton // Sonic The Hedgehog issue 50, IDW

[cabeswaterdrowned]

Peter by Taylor Swift / The Raven Cycle by Maggie Stiefvater

[inthefades]

L’Eternelle Idole by Auguste Rodin + Nosferatu (2024) Dir. Robert Eggers

[austin-friars]

Summer's End