#autistic gorgug

[seen-the-stars]

thinking about gorgug and the thistlesprings. thinking about how wilma & digby have gone their whole life trying to raise gorgug as a sweet, non-violent kind if guy. how they were so fixated to prove their families wrong that they didn't realise it wasn't healthy for their son. that they've been loving gorgug despite his rage for so long that they haven't even considered to love him with it, because of it.

thinking about lydia barkrock who's been continuously raging for 20 years, and how her rage is so special and noble. thinking about ragh who's grown up with a barbarian half-orc parent. the fact that despite all he's been through, he was never ashamed of his rage.

thinking about autistic gorgug, who's been masking his rage for all his life, being in porter's class where he's told that if he isn't boiling angry all the time he's useless. how he sees all the kids around him having no issue engaging with their rage. if he ever thinks, "why am i the only person who is struggling with this?" or "fig's not even a barbarian why can she do it and i still can't fucking get it?" or "what does everybody want from me and can they just please fucking agree instead of pulling me in 5 different directions at once all of the time??"

wondering if gorgug ever sees the barkrocks together and feels that quiet jealousy bubbling. if he reprimands himself instantly because it's not fair and ragh deserves this and his own parents aren't bad people, they're just.. different. maybe a little too wrapped up in their families' prejudice to allow them to be even the littlest bit of right.

thinking about lydia barkrock looking at this kid who's never been taught that it's okay to feel his feelings, all of them. wondering if she sees ragh's struggle with his identity mirrored in gorgug. does she feel guilty, for not noticing her son was so afraid to be who he is? does she wish she would have been more there, more open, more supportive? does she ever look at gorgug biting down his rage and think "don't do this, kid, don't go down that path, look at how much damage it did to my son"? does she consider talking to the thistlesprings about it? does she know about their parenting?

thinking about gorgug and ragh, having support in the aspect of their life they didn't really need– gorgug in his sexuality, ragh in his rage. do they bond, over this? do they joke about swapping parents sometimes? do they support each other in the ways their parents couldn't do for them?

[lightning-system]

Pain

Fig slams a final note down in her guitar, a sound that goes ricocheting through the arena as everyone cheers and Fig almost collapses right then and there. But she doesn't. Instead she breathes and bellows out “thank you Bastion City,” and exits stage left, Gorgug right in front of her.

The moment they're behind scenes, Fig collapses into a chair, heaving breaths. A water bottle is pushed into her hands and she takes it, swallowing deep gulps as her legs shake and tremble. She pants, exhales, and wipes the sweat out of her eyes. She puts everything into her performances, and her body knows it. She shifts her position and her hip protests at the movement, flaring pain across her side. She winces, and someone else slides her some ibuprofen.

Or: After a Sig Figs show, Fig hurts.

[paimt]

wanna help a poor bastard out? send me money and i'll draw you stuff

[hyperfixatingmenever]

[fakesorbet]

hi i have agendas to spread

[jesseoftheorder]

Gorgug is the bad bitch Mary Ann pulled by being autistic.

[bunniewaves]

Omg look It's Zelda & Gorgug <3

Looking back on these I think I should draw Zelda again soon. Maybe The Seven designs next?

I saw a tik tok recently that was like start a group spotify session and walk around together while with headphones and stim with your bestie or significant other and I truly imagine them doing that when they're not adventuring

[aspiring-wildfire]

“i’m swimming, and if i happen to catch something floating i do, but it’s a real crapshoot for me finishing things”

“and i feel like if i attend a class more than two days in a row i lose interest”

get these kids some adderall asap oh my god is this the season of the bad kids getting neurodivergence diagnoses

[gods-jester]

i love you ayda aguefort. i love you gorgug thistlespring. i love you zelda donovan. i love you figeroth faeth. i love my dimension 20 autism representation

[o-vera-nalyzing]

we got another one guys

[italicized-oh]

somewhere in the soup of my brain there exists a fic from mary ann's perspective about the network of fucked up relationships in fhjy. it's not birthed yet. but i can feel it bubbling in the ooze

[dysaniadisorder]

every dimension twenty season zac manages to play an even more autistic character

[lightning-system]

Rest

He is tired.

Gorgug has maybe never been more exhausted in his life. He is tired. Very, very tired.

Riz is driving which is honestly a little scary to think about and Gorgug’s in the back. But he can’t drive because his hands are shaking and his body’s rocking. Forward back, forward back. Rocking, rocking, rock. His headphones are over his ears too, clamped down with noise canceling turned on but nothing playing. He’s spent months without silence and months with yelling and all he needs now that this is all over is some quiet but he can’t quite get that. He needs it to be quiet so so bad, but it can’t be.

Or: Expanding on the line “I’m not listening to anything. I'm just exhausted," from ep2 of Junior Year.

[ray-of-frost]

gorgug saying "i'm not listening to anything i'm just exhausted" about his headphones sdfjsdfjgndg. he's just so autistic.

[scarcelypresent]

so i’m rewatching fhsy again (it’s fine everything’s fine) and in ep 2 they establish that gorgug is 17 so now i’m choosing to believe he was held back a grade bc that is both true to his character and a very comforting thought for me. thank u for ur time

[dullahandyke]

didnt even touch on the sandra lynn stuff int he tags of the last post bcos if i talk about her im liable to explode. get behind me, middle-aged divorced woman proficient in archery