#burnout explained

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Autism Burnout: and the Mismatch of Support

Laura Hellfeld Neurodivergent Nurse Consulting

[umblrspectrum]

happy solvermas

[not-poignant]

sometimes the chronic illnesses are just really exemplary at being both chronic and illnesses and i wish they'd try a little less hard

[numbuh424]

matt 🚬🥽

some slight color variations under the cut 🫶

[thatswhatsushesaid]

man. is there any feeling more frustrating than needing a creative outlet for all the different ideas gambolling around like baby gazelles in your brain (or spinning like they're plates balanced on those sticks street performers use) but the 'function' part of your 'executive function' is, you know. not functioning.

i'm so mad about it because i had SUCH a good executive function day yesterday! i got so much done, both at work and around the house! now i'm back to being a bitchy potato! what the cinnamon toast fuck.

[viric-dreams]

A portrait gifted to someone held dear.

[sciderman]

I swear I have read your big post regarding Peter Parker's neurodivergence and why it is best to avoid labelling him, but he definitely has a weird brain

Can't find it and feel kinda sad about it cuz I deeply related to it

i know exactly which post you're talking about and i can't find it either! i've raked through my archive, and it's just - nowhere to be seen. i think tumblr eated it (it happens.)

really, tumblr's search functionality is so so useless, i don't know what to tell you. there are plenty of keywords i can search to find it that post, but the search functionality actually just does not work!

undiagnosed audhd-addled peter parker, my darling, my light, my life, my everything.

i think peter parker's such an interesting creature to write, because a lot of people will point to a certain behaviour about him and say "this is an autistic thing, right?" but a lot of those behaviours are actually, in my head, tied to certain traumas in peter's life too.

people say "oh, the food thing, peter's a picky eater because he's autistic" and yes, absolutely. but also it's tied to his trauma with his parents.

peter gets overstimulated, and yes, it's an autism thing, but also he was bitten by a radioactive spider and his senses are dialled to 11.

it's a similar case i've found for myself, too – where a lot of friends i have kind of diagnose me because i have autistic traits, but actually - i'm hesitant to claim the label or pursue diagnosis because, actually, i know where these certain behaviours come from, and they come from certain traumas. there are events i can pinpoint in my life and say "yep. that's where this behaviour comes from."

so - i think there's a lot of overlap between trauma and autistic traits. the brain is very complex! i think the reason for that overlap is maybe as simple as the fact that people with autism and people with trauma are both doing the same thing - developing behaviours to protect themselves or soothe themselves. so - i think it's nice to be able to see a character like peter parker, who may or may not be autistic, but recognise behaviours in him and see yourself in him.

people who go undiagnosed for whatever reason - people who are really good at masking - so good, in fact, that they have no idea they might be on the spectrum - everyone and anyone at all can look at peter parker and recognise themselves. because i think we discredit the thought that every single brain does the same thing! develops certain behaviours in order to survive. every brain has that same software - we've just all been faced with different hardships that we need to overcome, and that's were all the differences come in.

autism is a spectrum, i guess - everyone falls into it to some degree. and i think events in your life probably push you along on it. but i don't know, i didn't study brain science. probably what i'm saying is very stupid and uninformed. of course there's brain chemistry involved. but i know people in my life living with autism and certain events in their life have exacerbated certain behaviours or made coping with it a lot more difficult. so maybe trauma is a catalyst.

[forveiin]

basilisk finds a brain eel

[purplespookybatx3]

literally incapable of doing fucking anything rn but whatever

[petrow1tch]

They weren't lying, this psychological recovery journey got hands

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Autism Butnout and the Mismatch of Support

Laura Hellfeld Neurodivergent Nurse Consulting

[edge-oftheworld]

I don’t really talk about it much on here because I’m extremely lucky to be able to understand exactly what’s going on in my body, but it’s scary to live for years as someone who Gets Things Done in a way your peers don’t really understand, be putting effort into so many things you care about, and then suddenly lose the ability to do not only that but also basic tasks overnight after a deadline, and bit by bit after many. it’s scary getting really irritable sometimes to the point of violence, just when you were meant to be celebrating the rewards from your hard work, the only impact of the work you did that you can see is that you overdrafted your ability to do anything. including have a basic conversation without getting grumpy or crying. and your body is going to make you pay it back with interest, you already know that, but you don’t know how to start filling yourself back up. you’ve only ever enjoyed being on the grind, hard at work on exciting things.

I don’t know how many of you have been through the kind of burnout that’s years of needing 12hrs of sleep a night but with terrible insomnia, waking up to what feels like a hangover for weeks on end with little relief then rinse and repeat without having a single drink, feeling too sick to eat and needing to exercise to emotionally regulate but being unable to, anxiety that doesn’t come from worry but you’ll pick that up too at some point, dissociating every time you try to do mentally taxing tasks that you’re PAID for so it takes an hour of grounding yourself just to get five minutes worth of productive concentration, falling asleep the minute you feel a little safe by being in the presence of loved ones. but I suspect I’m not the only one.

I’ve had songs for the energetic and angsty times leading up to this. for the exasperated times and the brain fog and the times where all my limited energy is tied up in feeling things. that I need to, need to acknowledge, but it’s overwhelming and I live in a haze for weeks as a result of. songs telling of the kind of youth I wish I had, even when I was sold something else. songs for the months spent as a teenager trying to be there for my friends, worrying for them, distracting me from worrying for myself, trying to cling on to positivity and hope amongst it when I had to choose to make a discipline of always seeing that. I’ve had songs for healing and when healing is harder than expected and songs that have the right level of musical complexity to capture the layers of everything that’s happening in my head, making it sound good, telling me it’s gonna be okay.

I don’t know how I could ever say thank you for this. but I do know that I see parts of myself in the people behind these songs, of course I do, and I worry for them as a result and ache for them because it’s hard enough to feel this way when no one knows me or feels the need to control me or mould me into what they think I should be. I’d do anything to keep them all healthy and happy and all of their loved ones too and I don’t think it’s strange as a fan to take that seriously. I hope we can understand the need to treat them gently, and to while not questioning their privacy and the fact that they’re never going to tell us everything they go through, listen to our intuition when we catch something we relate to and treat what they’ve shared with us or hinted at with the dignity we would if someone we love told us something vulnerable. be kind in our expectations and be intentional in the fan culture we create because it does make its way back to them.

and the same goes with all of you. we’re bonding over the same things. I know a lot of this fandom is in the stage where interpersonal relationships are hard. we don’t mean to be grumpy of frustrated but we are. and I’m sending love to all of you. we can get through this together. it’s what they’ve always longed for isn’t it?

[bluequeerio]

Idk why but I feel so lonely this week

Maybe bc I have 2 essays, a midterm, and a speech coming up. Which one of said essays is abt loneliness so maybe that’s it

I miss my gf and I miss just hanging out with ppl outside of school.

School year wise spring SUCKSSSSS

I’m also wondering whether my attachment to plushies is weird esp my Ragatha one cuz I need to change outta my going out clothes make lunch fold laundry and do a shit ton of hw and my cats r usually by my side particularly my tortie lmao XD (in fact she’s chirping and just jumped up on my bed for cuddles YAY!!!) but sometimes they aren’t and I feel so empty and alone. I think another part of it is that I need to actually do some fucking hobbies during the week but I’m exhausted and anxious so I just end up being on my phone or laptop or YouTube on my tv. Sometimes it’s boring BUT I’m too drained to do anything else :( when will it end fr 😭

I also think reading those Ragatha x reader and even some Pomni ones last night has made me realize just how fucking screwed over and alone I feel

I just need to go on a cute date fr 😩💕

[byanyan]

i think... i'm gonna take a little break for the weekend. i'm struggling with energy and focus and, like. autistic inertia. which is making writing (or even opening up my laptop with the intent of writing) difficult. and then i'm putting pressure on myself bc i feel bad about not keeping up with things which makes it that much harder. so i think!! i need to just take a step back for a few days!! remind myself that it's not the end of the world and it's okay to not write if i'm having a hard time!! let myself indulge in the hyperfixation i have for a couple of games rn without feeling guilty for it!!!

could i do this without announcing it to everyone bc who cares if someone you only know online is away for a couple days? yes. but it takes a weight off my chest to explain myself, so!!!! shhh!!!

[cheesepancakes]

Have this lying around for a few weeks or so but uhhhhhhhh

Just wanted to show off a thing I have been working on :p

Meet Altinak, a Starfolk child from the star-group ‘Orion’ (approximately 1000+ years old)

I will probably change the species name from Starfolk to smth else… but in lore its what my POV character names them for now

[lesbian-disaster-academic]

okay so it seems u want the burnt-out gifted kid series (disclaimer)

Confessions of a Burnt-Out Gifted Kid (part 2/?)

I have no idea how I survived high school lol

part 1