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modern-oedipus · 2 months

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Gonna update Conflict on Norman's birthday March 21st

#tpn ray #the promised neverland #tpn norman #norray #writing #fanfiction #conflict #ao3 #i have been so busy and braindead #but i opened the docs MANY times #ı just dont like how chapter 21 turned out but i dont have any better idea to navigate it #thats shy i havent updated it even tho it is ready since last month #hoping and planning to figure out a better chapter until normies bday

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mattodore · 3 months

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pay attention to theo’s beautiful face and not whatever matthias’s arm is doing... i liked the lighting more here than against the wall

#these are the last screenshots i wanted to edit from the ones i took on the 22nd and had been slowly editing throughout the week #will finally be putting mattodore in their thirties to rest 🙏⚰️#river dipping #echthroi #matthias evanoff #theodore doe #a burning house to live in #ts4 #ts4 edit #simblr #ended up not doing much to these screenshots tbh… i was so into the audiobook i was listening to i kinda just. stared at the wall a lot...#my brain was telling me this wasn’t worth posting bc i’ve done so many mattodore edits recently and this isn’t anything different but.#like i did actually spend a few hours with these edits so. on one hand i’m like this isn’t really anything #but on the other hand i’m like. well they’re my ocs whom i love dearly and i’ll probably enjoy looking back at this #the same way i do all my other recent edits which i open my own blog up to stare at like. multiple times in a day #obsessed atm……..#anyway.#god… matthias is so huge he always takes up so much space i’m constantly having to crop him out of edits 😭#and these are poses that weren’t even made from me…. so he’s not even at his full 6’3’’ height and size like 😭😭😭#he distracted me but that aside... i'm waiting for my game to open up atm so i can get back to tweaking alessandria's sim #her face is gonna take me forever.................................#ik i don't talk about my other ocs on here much anymore but alessandria is my third favorite oc (mattodore obviously being my top two)#so... i'm seriously gonna agonize over every update i make for them now kjdhknjf #ocs with tragic backstories save me...................#i’ll probably spend a few hours with alessandria in cas and then i’m going back to google docs to write more abt mattodore

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howtokillavampire · 7 months

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My brain is rotating too many fanfic ideas to focus on anything else right now they have consumed my every waking thought

#now if only i could write them all down and actually finish any of the wips in my google docs #my brain is such a fun place #there are too many ideas to focus my time and energy on one #i have to have at least ten wips open and be working on them all simultaneously #fanfic #fanfiction #ao3 #archive of our own #coldflash #hannigram #drarry #mattimir #sterek

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doctorbrown · 11 days

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Note to self: write that hc post about how Doc is extremely open-minded even towards things like the supernatural/paranormal & how he doesn't discount the possibility that such things can indeed exist in our world just because they seem to 'break' some pre-conceived notion we have of how the world works

#I've got that quote on my pinned for a reason and doc is willing to believe in very many things #because why not?? time travel is possible. he'll (later on in my canon) perfect spatial displacement too #allowing for travel anywhere anywhen #why shouldn't he be open to the possibilities?#&; there's something about that one 「 ooc 」#I also love the ghostbusters films dearly and in my universe for Doc - they're around too #opposite side of the country but - ghosts are a part of reality even if hill valley hasn't been touched #the films play out during about the same time frame anyway so why should I not capitalise on this

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padstardust · 1 month

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I'm writing a little story where Regulus has selective mutism and a hard time with words and now this has consumed my brain in a way that i can't even explain.

This is all i think about everyday. The way he communicates with his friends and the way they support him even when they don't really understand him. The way his relationship with James develops little by little and James tries his best to understand Regulus and his perspective of the world, never judging and always being appreciative of all his good and his bad. And last but not least his relationship with Sirius and the fact that they need to relearn everything about each other after being estranged and find new ways to communicate, they used to understand each other better than anyone else in the entire world and they don't anymore.

#marauders #regulus black #james potter #I'm so unwell right now #the black brothers in this story will be the death of me #i've never opened my google docs so many times in a day as i have today

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moregraceful · 11 months

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put 712 of the worst words ever put in a google doc tonight BUT! it is 712 more words in the google doc than i had yesterday. this fic will be more than 2k, so help me god

#the past six months have been so weird after posting over 200k last year (including the longest fic i've written since bandom)#i think i would have been fine continuing to post 1-3k one shots all year if i had not just had to request extended time off of school #but between that + having no idea if i have a regular schedule at the library + my nonprofit boss sending a harrowing welcome back #i'm like by god jason robertson we are going to take a couple of leisurely 7-10k+ strolls to get you a boyfriend or two this summer #well all that + being horrendously writers blocked on the other two longer projects lmfao oh my god #10k deep in one and every time i open the google doc a portal to hell opens up in my living room #0k into the other bc every time i open my outline another different portal to hell opens up in my shower #i get no rest. i get no peace. every morning i wake up and 5 more demons are- oh my god #bro my fucken train of thought just got completely derailed by spotify. i know i'm the last person in the world to know this but #3oh!3 and big freedia remixed rebecca black's friday?? and it's completely unlistenable?? girls what did you do #3oh!3 kill me bc no time traveler ever took their faces in hand and kissed them gently on the forehead and looked into their eyes #said ''please focus on coloradosunrise it will literally course-correct the trajectory of your career from frat house gimmick to #rowdy but respectable indie edm artists. you can remain true to your warped tour dirtbag origins but you HAVE to develop THAT sound''#like the chainsmokers are a joke but i feel like THAT + ANGRY EMO GIRLS + THEIR TOTAL DISREGARD FOR MARKETABILITY... could have been THEM #when the piano drops?? hello?? i had so many mental breakdowns in college listening to that song they could have defined a generation #like who else is gonna get noah cyrus and ashe and gayle and olivia rodrigo's vision. only warped tour dirtbags.#me @ myself [so lovingly]: what are you talking about. how old are you #me @ myself: talk to me abt earth 2 in which 3oh!3 remixed i got so high that i saw jesus....and it whipped ass #also. i had to google how old i was. THREE TIMES last week.#the minute i turned 32 apparently i was like i'm in my mid-30s now the rest of this decade is NOT my business until i turn 38 #this post was supposed to be an uplifting reminder to myself to keep pushing forward and trying hard and to not let the rot consume me #but i think i just drove off a cliff like fully my god #i need listen to big freedia more she rules #fresno oilers.txt #another banner day in the tags with kasper moregraceful

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dukethomas · 6 months

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mannnn i want to write poetry i love writing poetry but i am either stuck in poetry or prose mode for months at a time

#crys speaks #you know how many times i open my poetry doc per week and don't do shit. too many

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faultsofyouth · 1 month

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Not me realizing that a man breaking into my house is the source of all my stalker dreams and all my breaking and entering dreams and all my late night paralyzing anxieties about someone being in my house uninvited. Duh.

#for years and years i thought i just inherited anxiety from my mom #i thought that too many shane dawson videos and true crime docs gave me this unshakable fear #and then one day this memory surfaced like a hippo coming up for air #and now it all makes sense. a man i knew was dangerous broke into my house.#broke down my door. i heard the door and the inner frame crash to the floor #for years afterwards the door did not shut right. if it was unlocked it would swing open in the wind #even as i dealt with this every day. even as i knew that my door had been broken through before #i did not truly understand the weight of that memory until very recently.#i could not have told you about the intruder taking my moms purse and car keys #could not have told you where he put them #could not have told you about the neighbor man who came to our door. who offered to fix it up for free #who offered to buy my mothers broken gun off her hands. who waited with us while the cops went on a manhunt #who was found out to be harboring our intruder in his house the whole time he was talking to us. he had invited him in #thats how this neighbor man knew where to find us and what had happened #i could not have told you any of these things that i remember so clearly. i remember it happened on a tuesday #this was all lost to me for so many years. buried in the mud at the bottom of my mind #and now here it is. clear as day.

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altruistic-meme · 7 months

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pov: you're Abram when he's about to start writing something

#if no one else got me i know the stupid little note at the top of my draft got me #there are many that I've written that are missingfrom this bc i know for sure i wrote one for every chapter of (wit)jitp #but i write each chapter in the same doc and then move and delete them as i work on the next chapter #so at least 10 me have been lost to time :(#also in case this wasn't clear yes i do genuinely do this most of the time when i start writing the actual stories #usually it's if I've been writing notes especially and want to move on the the story instead #but sometimes I'll just open with it lmao #anyone wanna guess at what stories these are all from? fjjsjxjzj #I've posted about several of them... lemme see...#(wit)jitp #wip: laurent stabs damen #wip: i see you you see me #wip: good omens fic #wip: moon fic #that should be all of them #not in order #shh ac #wip: Amaranthus caudatus

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fractalkiss · 5 months

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wip title game

thank you for the tag @wewentcarracing!

RULES: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! and then tag as many people as you have WIPs. I can't tag bc I'm so late with my coffee walking in here and everyone I know has probably already done this, i feel. plus i only have ONE actual wip.

with multiple document versions and titles:

they are literally all the same and I'm dying.

#it's obviously 1418 lol #i rarely rarely ever write multiple things at once bc if i actually open a doc for an idea i do intend to finish and post.. some day.#in my defence this is the first time in a long time i've made this many versions #writing has been hard!#tag game #writing

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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Me, explaining things in a way that's completely incoherent: I don't understand what you find so difficult to comprehend???

#i think the problem is that something in my brain structures information in a way thats hard for other people to understand #it may be a dyslexia thing. but it is the most frustrating thing to be misunderstood without any #idea of howbwhat ur saying doesnt make sense. like. look. fucking. its right there. laid out in a way that looks like an absolute disaster #bc u would think with as many control issues id b extremely organized but no. i kno where everything is #but its in a pile. aye. this project is such a clusterfuck #this is how my brain collapses. what sort of shape will i b in by the time we finish? (ie my birthday lol)#let's not think abt it. it wont b good.#everyday i get texts and emails and i have to put my head down and take a deep breath so by brain doesnt explode. the amount of psychic #pain i am burdened with when i open my manuscript doc is shocking.#is this my villian origin story? ive lost the ability to not look like im in pain while im in meetings. if u pay close attention u can see #the misery behind my eyes. my boss is gonna turn up the 23rd and b like: ready to go get icecream to celebrate #ur paper and phd accptance? and im gonna b like: i would rather eat glass #if u try to rope me into a surprise party i might walk out. excpet i wont bc im not that much of a brat #theres nothing to celebrate. just let me lay down on the floor for a while #unrelated

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mattodore · 6 months

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found out while putting together matthias's oc page that his name has the exact same etymology and meaning as theo's name...

i’m sure this is information matthias is very normal about…

#theo is in fact a gift from god so jot that down !#river dipping #i've been throwing myself into oc stuff bc i'm not doing hot mentally which is... tbh when i do my best writing 😭#none of this is new tho i wrote the bios and 'at a glance' intros months and months ago when i first made an oc page #which is why i do plan on rewriting them but for now i'm leaving them like this... so i guess the echthroi page is done?#obviously echthroi has more characters than this but i haven't taken new screenshots of everyone yet...#i put the gray cas bg back in my game a few days ago only to completely forget i wanted to take new headshots for the oc page 😭#like these are just placeholders... i want the backgrounds to match the oc page. oh... or maybe i could just do transparent pics?#i think i remember vyx made a post abt how to do that... will look into that when i open the game again. rn i'm at my keyboard 🧑‍💻#like i am writing new things! started a google doc for theo yesterday and have been writing on it here and there since then #i've already cried in there... lmaooo. i like oc pages for sure but i think a huge google doc is what i really need to keep track of things #i drop so much lore in tags on here and it's like! river write that down somewhere else or you'll lose it 😭#like i fr have never actually written down any of the info i've shared on here. i've just had all this oc knowledge stored in my brain.#so i went through and copied over a tonnn of tags and posts i've made into google docs but i just know i'm missing things i've probably #said in the tags of their core tagged posts... 🧍 if my blog didn't have so many posts i'd have an easier time going through it but 🤷#and on top of that i've been making a bunch of posts about theo and matthias on my main acc. which is like 🧍 well great now there's more #i'm gonna lose track of...... i fr have gottt to get into the habit of actually putting things down in theo's google doc!!!#i'm just trying to figure out the best way to format it all but i've downloaded a few templates that i've been messing with.#...anyway. if it isn't obvious i'm trying to get back to posting on here. i'm opening my inbox now with the intent to just.#sit here in my inbox until i can get myself to reply. lads... avpd is actually so torturous i'm not kidding.#i feel like i'm dying trying to get myself to interact with people sometimes even despite how badly i want!!!! to interact!!!#theo and me and our avoidant trauma responses holding hands and skipping around together

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exhaustedwerewolf · 3 months

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no bond greater than that between a man and his favourite clangen save

#I should not have started playing around w it at midnight but gosh… Fireblossom my beloved. I need to draw him he is indeed my little meow #meow. get it because he’s a cat. he’s had so many children die tragically. I love him.#also dusk and nettle my toxic orphan boyfriends <3 #I also started a new one to keep notes ins. Google doc thoufh bc the notes in my fave make the app threaten to crash every time I open them #they’re getting long

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reiverreturns · 1 year

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me from 12 hours ago: i’m so happy i finally published that fic! i worked on it for ages! i’m really proud of it! now for a well deserved break

me now: if i don’t have a writing project to fixate on right this minute i will simply pass away

#made the mistake of opening the bone yard doc and seeing my old hangster wip #i used a fair chunk of ideas for the rooster & phoenix fic but... there's still good stuff there #i also have the beginnings of some sad mavdad hours #sereshace smut that's brainwormin' around my frontal lobe #bobnix smut that also do be wiggling #SO MANY THINGS AND SO LITTLE TIME BECAUSE I WRITE AT THE SPEED OF PERMAFROST MELTING #don't even look at my ac wips #just gonna broom them (apologetically/affectionally) into a cupboard for now #reiverwrites

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dreamy-demons · 1 year

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Does anyone else have a document where they plan fanfics but it's the most useless planning in the world.

Mine is just insane ramblings to myself like

Okay okay so hear me out they're going to make out on the couch DUDE HOLY SHIT CAN YOU IMAGINE!???!?!?!!!!

And then maybe 1% of the time I'll actually bother/manage to turn that into something

#i dont even write much but i have so many of these 'plans'#and most of what I do write is smut #and holy shit the amount of times I've opened google docs in public forgetting to switch google accounts #fanfic #ao3 #fanfic authors #not that I'd call myself a fanfic author but anyway

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allylikethecat · 6 months

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If one had to choose... would you want the next chapter of On a Friday or the first chapter of an entirely new fic next? 👀

#allylikethecat #ally asking questions #not saying that it's going to end up being either of those #BUT i am trying to figure out what i should prioritize finalizing #watch it end up being a third thing i didn't even consider #i have too many google docs open and this time of year is not the vibe for me even though i love christmas #so i am writing even more than usual because thats how i deal with stress at the moment lol #and tomorrow is thanksgiving #and its giving me war flashbacks to how miserable last years was #and i am just.... looking at my google docs and fictional!Matty is making me feel better #...happy thanksgiving?#on a friday #all the king's horses

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