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shenzuns · 2 years

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man.

my 2022 hard pill to swallow is that sometimes being bitter is not the best result for those i care about and even though i’m angry about things, being the mature one, being the kind one though that’s Really Fucking Hard will be the best thing.

and it hurts, and it sucks, and i want to be the asshole guard dog i’ve always ever been but no one’s ever stayed in the face of my rage so i have to be kind always. and i want to be kind, don’t get me wrong, but it’s so difficult and it hurts. i would love to stew in my rage and my bitterness and my cries of ‘it’s not fair’ but i’m not given the option to be childish anymore and it SUCKS ass and dicks and this is the cruelest thing abt growing up. being kind isn’t as easy as it used to be.

#𝟶𝟶𝟶. 𝙳𝚄𝙼𝙱𝙵𝚄𝙲𝙺 𝙰𝚄𝚃𝙷𝙾𝚁 ，𝙳𝚄𝙼𝙱𝙵𝚄𝙲𝙺 𝙽𝙾𝚅𝙴𝙻. — ( out. )#tbd.#vent /#it... sucks this isn't like uhh oh im being cruel to ppl around me!#no i just got #into a big fight with ppl closest to me who said some very hurtful things #but. in lieu of this. bc they aren't prepared to be the mature ones #it's My Mantle to be mature and be less spiteful and it hurts #and i wish it was easier to make it stop hurting bc a big part of me just wants #things to go back to how they used to be but i'm angry and sad and bitter #and so i have to overcome that in order for things to be ok and it... sucks dude #indignation at its finest #i dont know at my core i dont think im a cruel person #i just know i can be very bitter and spiteful and these r my fatal flaws to work through #but. it's painful. idk.#hopefully when i swallow this Ugly Pill to be the 'mature one'#i can convey to those ppl that their actions also hold weight and even though i'm trying i will not be the only person #to make an effort. it's mutual and i am willing to put aside my hurt for the sake of something better to come from this #it's...... yeah. typing this out makes me feel so self righteous but i dont know #i have to scream about it somewhere i think

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s-ccaam-era-crepe · 1 year

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i think everyone who's ever had migraines should be financially compensated forever btw

#camera talks #disability stuff #this is for my chronic migraine girlies (gn) <3 #i think we should all get 1 million million dollars everyday actually #this is the worst fucking night of my life (everytime i have migraines) (specifically rn tho)#chronic pain #chronic migraine #migraines #chronically ill #disabled #disclaimer because idk I’ve got a lot of notes on this #I have diagnosed chronic migraines. I used to have them 5-6 times a week #now with medication on a good week I’ll only be affected 2-3 days #on bad weeks it’s much worse #anyways don’t doubt my condition I know what I’m talking about thx

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hinamie · 1 month

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new official illust of them with puppies healed something in me

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #megumi fushiguro #nobara kugisaki #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #file name pupys btw bc they r all. pupys #6 pupys in this image #cries eternally u kno the cruel thing is there is no winning fr me when it comes 2 creating art fr this series #i draw them in canon situations i experience pain i draw them in noncanon Relaxed situations i experience pain #illusion of choice.....#regardless i care them so much i would MUCH rather them b in a sunny field with dogs #i will endure the bittersweet feeling of being an audience member n knowing that their reality is nowhere this tranquil #i can dream :'< i can draw :'<#anyway this took a billion years bc i made megumi stand smh #he didnt fight or anything but th overall Composition ws a bit harder 2 navigate because of it #smth smth sizing smth smth planes idk i cant draw #i think it makes sense tho! nobara/yuuji sitting chilling casually rolling a tennis ball fr their puppies #meanwhile megumi Actively trying 2 train his #head in hands god im MISERABLE #anyway this will b available as a print per request if any1 wants 2 b miserable with me

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pien-art · 3 months

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really fun autism and chronic illness cycle 😀👍👍

#literally who allowed this #autism #chronic illness #chronic pain #meme #idk if this makes sense

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artkaninchenbau · 3 months

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People keep on asking for more Baby Robin and Papadile so here is more Baby Robin and Papadile. Now never ask anything from me ever again

#My art #One Piece #Long post #Sir Crocodile #Nico Robin #Alternatively panel 5 would've been a close up of Crocodile's face from Robin's POV where he looks like he's giving her a death glare #Not intentionally he's just a big scary bastard with a Resting Murder Face and Robin is a small traumatized child #But I wanted to focus on the silliness of the moment so you get the goofy version instead #IDK man there's just something very funny to me about the idea of Robin just randomly info-dumping about a subject she's read about #And Crocodile being like ''?????????????????????? The fuck you talking about??''#Robin leaves the ship's kitchen and Crocodile just stares at the tomato like ''...It's a fruit? Forreal?''#(Meanwhile Robin is sweating bullets like ''I called his favorite vegetable a FRUIT right in his FACE he's going to KILL ME'')#Robin grew extra feet from the bottom of her feet to reach the counter and that actually isn't me trying to explain bad art away #In the original Papadile comic there was a panel of Robin doing the dishes with extra feet to reach the sink but I cut it out #(It was a stress relief comic I did not feel like drawing a complicated background in detail) (BUT YES I THOUGHT OF IT)#Nico Robin Age 11 is *more* than capable of cooking Crocodile just does not trust her with his food. At least not yet #She did start doing the dishes unprompted and continues to do so (mostly out of fear). Croc told her she didn't have to but allows it #IDK a lot of people seem to headcanon Crocodile as incapable of cooking and like. Surely Mr ''I don't trust people'' knows how to cook #Like he doesn't have to be a master chef or anything but and maybe he enjoys not HAVING to cook (pain in the ass with one hand + knife/hook #But surely he can cook decent enough. SURELY #Botanists don't @ me I know the ''tomato is a fruit'' thing isn't fully accurate this is just a silly little haha comic

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quackquackquackin · 1 year

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since I have both adhd and anxiety i took both the creatures and combined them into one species.

I call it the “holy shit”

#artists on tumblr #art #artwork #digital art #drawing #anxiety creature #adhd creature #btw creature #yippee creature #idk creature #it’s in pain #send help #foaming at the mouth #it’s so silly #it screams

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captainharlock · 4 months

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comic i made about out-aging the person i've been grieving

#tw death #tw dead body #tw blood #tw sibling loss #idk what else. i dont know #gio arts #i kind of made this partly to get over my fear of drawing you. i dont know how ive been using art to reflect pains and i still couldnt do t #that #anyway #LONG POST #THAT TOO

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lotus-pear · 1 year

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clowns in court

#i haven't played genshin in four months so lmk if this is accurate #bro i forgot how much pain it causes me to draw genshin outfits there’s so many stupid details #this is all from memory btw so idk if it's accurate i was just looking at past drawings to double check outfits💀#anyway it was so fun seeing chuuya COUGH i mean childe!! in fontaine!! my fav ginger <33 #genshin #genshin impact #lumine genshin impact #lumine #childe genshin impact #childe #furina #focalors #fontaine #chilumi #lotus draws

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nova-rpv · 18 days

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ftm amy. hell yea

reminder to bind safely!!!! take care of ur ribs <<3

dont forget ur daily clicks!!

#doing him justice by drawing him with a skirt pained nails and lashes #i think i love him too much to let him go. would u guys be ok if from now on i just drew aimé instead of amy??#also idk if u say fem ftm or ftm fem. i dunno inglish 👍👍#im gonna go to bed now bc i ddidnt sleep shit bye :33 #sth #sonic fanart #sonic #amy rose #aimé rose #transmasc amy rose #nov.aart #nov.oodles

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clownsuu · 24 days

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bullying ford just for funzies 💥🥄

cw, the tiniest amount of blood/body horror

#Ttteeeeeeeeechnically “””vent””” art???? Idk life is stressful atm smhh #Gravity falls #gravity falls bill #gravity falls ford #bill cipher #ford pines #Toxic old man yaoi to ease da pain..#billford #Still working on how to color bear with me plz LMAO #Spent all my life neglecting it I feel like a toddler discovering crayons again #Only I’m eating the crayons and I get confused on why my canvas isn’t colored yet #Ford with big ol naturals 💔💥🥄

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mythicalthing · 2 years

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#im curious #idk whats considered minor #probably both of mine were minor #even though recovering from septum surgery felt like the worst possible pain #polls

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demon-of-the-ancient-world · 6 months

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Hate (affectionate) how it's made so clear from the very beginning of part 1 just how loved Paul is by his family and household. Both his parents, Duncan, Gurney, Thufir, even Dr Yueh all clearly care so deeply for this kid, and we're shown that time and time again.

Cut to the end of part two, and almost every one of those people is gone. The only ones who remain are a weird, came-back-wrong version of Jessica, and Gurney who has gone from mentor to worshipper. Paul goes from someone deeply loved and valued for who he is by a small but caring group of people - to someone followed and worshipped and feared by thousands. They're obsessed with him in a way, as a leader and "messiah", but nobody loves him.

The only one remaining who loves him for who he is is Chani, who leaves him because in the end that love isn't enough to bring who he is back.

#dune #dune part 2 #paul atreides #i am losing my MIND #upon rewatching part 1 it struck me just HOW loved paul is. and then you contrast that with his horde of followers in part 2 #none of whom will so much as touch him when he's injured badly enough that he can barely walk #he's not human anymore. he's just an idea.#i am in physical pain #something something it's about parasocial relationships & celebrity culture #like idk if that was frank or denis' intention but. i see a bit of That.

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meatiors · 3 months

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