#cw venting in the tags:

[shirogane-oushirou]

having a no good very bad health day so i've decided my trainersona DOES in fact have a lugia on standby. as a treat. bc fuck you. 💖

current loose trainersona idea + some art:

they did in fact get through most of the johto league, went hog wild, burned out a bit after all of the Commotion around catching lugia (need to brush up on this, my memory is fuzzy, but i'm firmly in the "there are a bunch of legendaries they're just reclusive and hard to catch" camp so they're not like. taking The One And Only Lugia lol.), took a break to travel for college in kalos, got into a poison sting accident w a nidorino / nidorina while traveling near geosenge (and was saved by wild-but-eventually-partner sawk), and re-joined with their family who had either moved to coumarine in kalos OR wedgehurst in galar.

(i'm planning a swsh replay as ren once i'm done with x so i can compare the Vibes of the two places. also so i can dress him up HEHE.)

they officially retired their league challenge on the basis of permanent damage sustained from the attack. even if they could have somehow physically managed victory road, the brain fog made on-the-fly strategizing basically impossible.

if in coumarine: they're usually either in their family's home at the top of the cliffs, or they've ridden their scolipede down to the harbor to draw.

if in wedgehurst: they're either in their family's home on the outer edge of the town, or they've ridden scolipede to the lake at the end of route 2 to draw. basically "place with fresh air where they can ride their bug horsey to a body of water to draw some landscapes".

undecided if they do streaming on the side or not. after their intense league challenge and their accident they've become a little snippier... a little deadpan snark. but they aren't good at relaying sarcasm, and they DO have good jokes but it takes a while for them to form, so the quick-on-their-feet "sarcastic snarker" jokey archetype of streamer wouldn't work for them -- they just come off as mean unintentionally. and they can't be peppy or actively entertaining or anything. maybe they just stream to an audience of a couple of friends and the occasional stray chatter who finds their stream on accident.

hennywaise! all this to say. i want to ride my bug horsie and fly on my big-hands birdy and sit on the shoulders of my punch guy. i wanna ride a funny little Guy to local towns for a day without it being a whole Ordeal.

i want to be on a date with ren, when it's getting late, and he's like "oh shit how are we gonna get you home safely if the sun's already going down?? dangerous pokemon might be around!!!" i turn to him and say, "oh don't worry about me, i have a safe way home. =v= " i pull out a pokeball, toss it behind me, and out comes a giant shadow of a legendary bird with frightening glowing eyes.

and then i turn to it and its form settles into a big cuddly Wet Bird with Big Hugging Hands and i bunt my head into his head and scritch his chin. ren's on the ground, thoroughly spooked, bc Um Why Does My Frail Partner(???) Have A Legendary Bird In Their Back Pocket Like It's Nothing?? Who Are They Actually?????? and i can turn around and casually smile and reach out to him like "want a ride?" while he's still having a Moment.

like this:

....... i didn't mean for this to turn into a mini illust, i was just gonna scribble a little bit, but i mean... hey. neat. teehee. i might post this separately once i have everything figured out. who knows. shrug.

ALSO: working on back-tagging for poke!ren and poke!ro, so once that's done and i'm 10000% sure i want to stick with those tags, i'll make a post with a few tags for potential blacklisting.

[chainmail-butch]

We (The Panthers) were out doing food distribution yesterday and there was a homeless trans woman with cerebral palsy.

And just. Fuck me, man. It was all we could do to get her some estrogen. We gave her some razors but like. Can she even use them?

It felt more personal. Here was one of my sisters at the lowest she could possibly be and there was nothing I could fucking do.

I haven't been able to get her out of my mind.

She couldn't speak. She was terrified of men. She was on the corner begging for cigarettes. There was a smear going down her cheek from where she had applied her lipstick. She started crying when she saw another black transwoman. When she held me I could feel her drowning.

Fuck.

[the-real-loser-otaku-girl]

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[hexcii]

Hey mom, what the fuck

Gonna tag this as a vent just in case, but it’s mostly just me being confused and grossed out

[disteal]

I think something a lot of adults need to realise about Interacting With Minors online (particularly in regards to dunking on a kid who’s been engaging with adult-only spaces) is that… Kids seek out these spaces because they’re for Adults. The young brain loves to feel special. It’s normal and fine for a child to want to be flattered, or to act like a loser because they think it makes them look more mature, or pretend they’re smarter than they actually are. It’s sooooo fine, everyone did it growing up. Feeling comfortable enough in your own existence that you don’t bend over backwards trying to prove something to others is a process. They are allowed to behave like that, they get the same ‘fuck, I was such a dork’ slack period that you did, have some grace and let the child online who annoyed you go.

And to get truly upset at a kid for ‘invading’ adult spaces is like yelling at the moon; they’ve been sitting on each others shoulders under a trenchcoat to see scary movies for all of human history, because curiosity and pushing boundaries are a part of growing up. It’s fine.

I get the impression that sometimes the frustration against ‘stop yelling at this minor’ online really stems from a subconscious ‘but they made it so easy to get upset at them, why do I have to let it go?’ But the real bastards will always be the predatory adults who play into this need for approval in children. It’s the ones who insist it’s fine for the 15 year old to participate in a kink discussion with people twice their age, or exploit childish insecurities to better control them. That’s the real loser shit.

[shhquietmoths]

feeling some kind of way lately cw: blood, cartoon violence/gore

[kawareo]

Bhaalist Unholy Communion

This post has been living in my brain rent free and then it hit me in just the right headspace to turn into a vent thing and made me write poetry for the first time since eight grade anyway enjoy my ramblings under cut

because isn't it fucked up that Durge has no bodily autonomy? That he's nothing (using he/him because im looking at my Durge specifically) without Bhaal because not even his own body is his own but still a part of Bhaal?

And sure it is an honor to be Bhaal's Chosen, but is it really if you never got the chance to choose yourself? Strike, my Durge, was born a Bhaalspawn and grew up in the cult since he was eight. It's all he's ever known, he's worshiped for being a demi-god, he's powerful and on top, and in the end, literally everything he has is only because his Father lets him have it.

The Communion especially shows that, with Strike being still worshiped, but it hurts him, the Bhaalists rip his body apart, use it, consume it, and he needs to think of it as a blessing because how lucky is he, to be the soul that was loaned piece of a god to guard? He'd think of his own body like that.

And it hurts Bhaalists, too! It works both ways! His blood is poisonous and his flesh aches in their throats, but it's a blessing! God of Murder loves his son and his love hurts, and if you love him back, you must let yourself be hurt and know how lucky you are to be allowed to be hurt by Bhaal or his mortal flesh itself!

I'm just very into the whole 'no bodily autonomy' thing that we have going on with Durge, like his father not only can take control of his body via the Urge, but he has Sceleritas to guide him away from anything that could be not by Bhaal's books, Orin and Saverok to be a (although messed up as hell) family to him so he'll never look for another, and to some degree, Bhaal can control Durge's mind...

No wonder he'd run to Gortash in the end. The first one who sees more than a Bhaalspawn when he looks at Strike, more than Bhaal's scion, he sees a person and ngl it's totally Bhaal's fault that Strike ended up like that

[sugarhog05]

Um um I have some SugarHog lore accompanying a sketch of the boys.

So my name is a mix of sugar glider and hedgehog. I used to have a hedgehog named Lois and two sugar gliders named Midna from LOZ twilight princess and Daenerys from GOT (this was before the terrible ending that I refuse to acknowledge in any shape or form lol)

I’ve been really missing them recently (they’ve all passed <\3) so I drew them with Sun and Moon. Lois was super silly and would often sploot when they slept. I remember her literally climbing her cage bars and having to get her down (I added walls after that lol) Midna was the biggest grump but always had a soft side for Daenerys who was the biggest sweetheart. After Lois and Midna passed me and Daenerys were attached at the hip and I’d take her everywhere in her little pouch. She’d also just snuggle into my hair and sit there while I would draw.

Sorry for the random vent lol, I just drew the boys with them and thought I’d share where the random drawing of them with sugar gliders and a hedgehog came from.

[hooligankloobian]

[thatonegaybrit]

; having bad memory is absolutely terrifying when you realize you genuinely CAN'T remember something. it's gone, maybe it never happened, you've forgotten something and it's soso scary.

[sappi-papi]

my structure's compromised, but you still batter at all my fault lines

[youraverageventblog]

It really hurts when you realize you aren’t their closest friend anymore.

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

had such a terribly awful day from start to finish yesterday but i am snuggling my sugu plushie and drinking warm milk like a domesticated cat and the sun is shining ……. today will be a little better

[the-lion-guard-88]

⚠️Attention SMG4 Fans! Especially Mr. Puzzles fans⚠️

I just wanted to let you guys know about a specific person on YouTube by the name of “NesrinBulut-zm2gc”

This guy has repeatedly went onto my posts and talked about their hate for the PUZZLEVISION saga. While there’s nothing wrong with that, this guy has repeatedly harassed me and my fans for simply liking Mr. Puzzles as a character. An example of this is them saying us Mr. Puzzles fans deserve to be in jail for liking him as a character

This guy also goes as far as saying Mr. Puzzles is like D1ddy. Comparing Mr. Puzzles to a certified p3d0 is so fricken nasty

I’m almost 100% sure I saw them comment on @blue-doofus’ YouTube video of “Just A Man”, but when I looked back, it was removed

Here’s a big one

So this guy has been repeatedly going to other peoples’ pages saying this whole “Do I think the PUZZLEVISION series is overrated? Yes” paragraph, but the thing is…

HE DID THIS ON A POST OF MINE THAT WAS MADE TO MOURN A FRIEND OF MINE WHO PASSED AWAY ON FRIDAY

He did this under @hplonesomeart’s comment and I didn’t notice it until I was looking at previous comments. Thankfully HP and another person told him about his actions and I made a reply to him because I was genuinely pissed off and am still not in a mentally stable state

I will share more info if anything happens, please stay safe from this guy if he starts to harass you for liking Mr. Puzzles or spams on your page

As a Mr. Puzzles fan, I will say that you don’t deserve to be in jail for liking a character. I’m honestly ashamed that I need to say this because it’s common knowledge that nobody deserves to be in jail for liking a FICTIONAL CHARACTER

So yeah, please be aware of him. Stay hydrated! 💚🖤❤️

[stupidanimal]

DISGRACE

(alt version under the cut)

[wizardsfang]

I depend on you Me.

My version of the I depend on You Art Trend from Twitter; please do not reupload my art on other blogs or platforms

Im in a moment of my life where I have people I can trust & love, but not necessarily depend on for too much. Which has resulted in me trying to figure out a lot for myself; it can get lonely, but it means I depend on myself in unexpected ways.

And lately, my biggest supporter has been who I used to be.

—

The little filly who had no doubts, the biggest of dreams, and the deepest well of bravery n compassion; thats who I rely on most to guide me now. Thats who I need to become again.

That’s who I want to be again.