#dense's ramblings

[densewentz]

I have a lot of feelings about season 2 obviously, mostly that it was brutally fantastic, but it really serves to highlight the main difference between Crowley and Aziraphale's understanding of loss. long angsty analysis under cut

Because Crowley already knows what it is to lose Aziraphale. I mean really lose him. He fell to the floor in the burning heart of the bookshop thinking Aziraphale was dead and gone. We get to see in fantastic living color how broken it leaves him. He's forced to spend time wallowing in the hopelessness of it before Aziraphale is miraculously back. Then cut to heaven during their ruse, where Crowley is standing there in the flames with Gabriel grinning maliciously in his face, telling the love Crowley just got back to shut up and die. If that scrap of prophecy hadnt found them, if they hadn't been quick enough, clever enough, Crowley would have lost him again. For Good. For Ever. That entire scene, from the cropped cut of Crowley twisting Aziraphale's wrists in their bonds all the way through to the end, Crowley is in a visibly barely contained rage. He's quiet, and still. These are the beings that have been tormenting his love for centuries, who tried to take him away once already and want to take him away from Crowley again. And it boils in him in the same combination that makes terrified dogs Bite. And we see the lasting effect that fear has on him throughout season 2. It drives almost every interaction Crowley has with other characters, particularly in his vehemence that Jim!Gabriel not be anywhere near Aziraphale. Crowley is able to word for word quote that moment back to Jim!Gabriel mostly unprompted because I guarantee its just been repeating in his head since the archangel showed up in the bookshop. He needs Aziraphale safe in that desperate and agonized way you can only feel if you already know what its like to lose them. And the entire season he's combating the fact that the biggest threat to Crowley's love is sitting in his livingroom and Aziraphale keeps handwaving Crowley's trauma away.

Which brings us to Aziraphale. Aziraphale who has never had to experience losing Crowley. His demon is always there just on time, always at his shoulder and on-call. Aziraphale has no concept of the depth of Crowley's grief during the time Crowley thought he'd died in the bookshop, and no idea the damage Crowley's incognito trip to heaven had on him. And then parallel Aziraphale's part in the ruse. Yes, he's playing at being cheeky Crowley, but I'd bet all my money most of that was just Aziraphale relishing in doing what he loves to do: Dramatizing. Watch his scene in hell compared to Crowley's in heaven. Aziraphale is having a blast. To him its a stage production, a clever trick he gets to play. Michael pours 'Crowley' a holy water death bath and it just makes Aziraphale grin because he knows it wont work. He plays it up, wings the water at the demons, makes silly demands, asks the angel who would have killed Crowley to bring him a towel. It's a joke to Aziraphale, because he never even seems to consider (as Crowley obviously does) the reality that if they hadn't swapped places Crowley would be dead. That Michael came grinning down to hell to destroy him. Forever destroy him. And Aziraphale even giggles about it to Crowley on the bench. Aziraphale has no reference or context of what it would be like to actually lose Crowley, it'd be unheard of, so he never processes what could have happened in the way Crowley does. And we continue to see that ignorance crop up in season 2. His dismissal of Crowley's fears as being silly, the way he never once seems to worry for Crowley's safety even with the other angels and hell minions in the room. Michael and Beelzebub are right there. The two who would have seen Crowley turned into nothing. But there's just not the awareness of the threat to Crowley (or himself, but thats another problem) that Crowley inversely possesses. And it all boils down to the simple fact that Aziraphale has never ever lost Crowley. Until now. And you can see it beginning to process post-kiss. You can see it in Aziraphale's face as Crowley dons his glasses and turns his back on Aziraphale for real. This is going to be the beginning of Aziraphale learning what it is to lose his love, and its going to be absolutely heartbreaking yes, but also completely necessary to his growth.

There's that wretched little saying "you don't know what you've got until its gone". Crowley's learned that lesson the hard way already. I guess now its Aziraphale's turn.

[forestshadow-wolf]

Ghost completely forgetting to ask soap out so he goes MONTHS just assuming that they're in a relationship. It all comes to a head when ghost says something to tip soap off to the fact that ghost thinks they're officially together.

Soap's just like "wait what?"

And ghost just freezes for a moment as the realization dawns on him that "... I forgot to ask you out, didn't I?"

And soap, a little slack jawed, just nods at him

[clopiya]

big fan of how noelle will leave susie baffled at everything she says

[bones-of-a-rabbit]

My friend @rainbowcat-writing hit me with the absolute best au idea the other day. The concept? Sun and Moon as Big Magical Lion(-Shapeshifting-Centaur) Creatures that r in love with Y/N, a conservation manager, and absolutely will not stop being big lovey dovey baby meow meows abt it

To copy and paste a good summary from the discord convos last night:

reader works on a conservation team set up in the field, finds Moon wounded, patches him up, keeps coming back to check on him, meets Sun, sun n moon get attached, guess what th two really big scarily smart lions are actually lion,, centaur. creatures and theyve understood everything youve said also they keep calling you their mate and ur pretty sure theyre flirting with u but its “””hard to tell”””

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sun and moon: our mate :3 tiny human mate. we will make such a good pride with u, who is our mate.

reader: hmmmmm. i think maybe, just maybe,,,,,, they might be exhibiting some courtship behaviors. but i cant be sure if they are or for what reason,, its a mystery

(Vanessa is the security team lead and connects the dots after watching the Strangely Intelligent And Very Big Lions that have been lurking around camp for several weeks leaving ‘gifts’ (pretty flowers, dead animals, one time a twisty-shaped tree branch only bc it looked like something a human would find interesting) one day straight up just grab reader by the back of their shirt and drag them off all while Reader is shouting that they’re fine and it’s not a big deal you’ll be back in like two hours tops and she’s just like “alright yknow what? fuck it. whatever. I don’t even care anymore. so long as they don’t eat the moron they can just go nuts about it” as she pours liquor into her fifth coffee of the day)

[wandering-wolf23]

PSA

Things I should not have to say:

Don't threaten to blow up pro-shippers on social media. That's called a terroristic threat. Don't even joke about it. You might think it's funny and it might get a few eye rolls from the adults in the room, but the DoJ/FBI/Homeland Security/People it gets reported to have no sense of humor.

Trust me. I work with them. I swear any sense of humor gets trained out of them.

At best, they're going to knock on your door and explain to your parents/partners/assorted housemates what you're doing online. At worst, it's a no knock raid because they think you're a terrorist.

All it takes is one person reporting what you said. What may be an obvious joke to you probably isn't to the team of people going through the cyber tip line. While you might be joking, Cletus in Montana with the pile of tannerite talking about how he wants to blow up the government probably isn't. There have been too many Cletuses recently for online threats to be ignored.

TL;DR: Don't be a fucking dumb ass and make threats on social media. It's a good way to ruin your life.

[fuedalreesespieces]

sota's brave confession of love being that episode:

[worth noting here that in the dub the way richard says "WHAT-ever..." priceless.]

[also worth noting that in the dub he says "you already said that" instead of "hah! what're you saying?!" which feels more like an inuyasha response to me. then again we'll never know since this is technically anime-only, and while i tend not to like a lot of inuyasha filler, if it's in the modern day i will eat it up. every. time.]

inuyasha being stunned by the sheer amount of goods in a grocery store...gold. earlier in this episode he also seemed enamored by baked goods, and i wonder if he's ever really had anything resembling it? bread made its way to japan mid-16th century via portuguese traders, so it's likely he's never had anything like it and the smell must've been new to him - it would've been interesting if we'd seen him trying all these new foods!

i can never decide whether or not sunrise likes inukag bc they'll cut out canon scenes of them but then insert scenes like this in their filler eps...what game are ya'll playing? but flustered inuyasha is adorable so i can't complain this time.

eavesdropping...

i'm sorry WHERE is he getting these questions from i actually burst out laughing

called out by an eight year old...

i don't care whether or not this is ooc because i laughed way too hard like he really got dragged from potential sleep to deal with this LMAO

this is the cutest thing i've ever seen and it only gets better:

shortly after: sota getting kicked out of his own house after chickening out for the tenth time this episode

smol

flustered inukag my beloved...

anyway this episode is a dumb fun and i love it to an insane degree. the only part i would say is out of character (at least, more out of character than sunrise already does inuyasha) is when he literally makes this face at the thought of confessing to kagome:

coming from the guy who was pretty open about his feelings in the manga and quite literally told kagome - thinking she was hearing him - that he likes seeing her smile and feels relieved when he's by her side, i don't see him getting this flustered - but the face he makes is priceless.

[myuminji]

I don't think it delivers well in one panel so I expanded it _( :⁍ 」 )_

[jemmo]

i didnt watch unknown as it was airing bc i knew it would consume me so i decided to binge it all today. i was correct. it has consumed me.

[angst-iguana]

Seiji's face-

He's flustered and startled, but more importantly, he's mortified. Their baggage goes beyond fencing, it's not just fencing Jesse, it's fencing Jesse. Jesse who shows up at Kings Row if only to see Seiji, Jesse who trys time and time again to get Seiji back. Jesse, who left him defeated in more ways than one after nationals. Fencing Jesse means facing Jesse. Jesse makes bold, confident moves, they're all calculated to push Seiji's buttons and mixed with a charming 'this is how far I'm willing to go for you.'

We learn their friendship consisted a great deal of Seiji following Jesse's lead, we can likely assume Seiji trusted Jesse in every way, to be a good friend, to protect him from other people, and to always be an out from the world. Seiji has a look of 'please don't make me do this' but we know he would. He feels helpless and becomes incredibly flustered because maybe he's always caved and maybe, he doesn't want to disappoint Jesse any longer, maybe he is overreacting because part of Jesse is right, this is how it's always been.

And Jesse, Jesse knows this, he knows what cards to play with Seiji, they've known each other their whole life. Jesse knows how Seiji feels about him and he takes advantage of that. The beginning of their conversation was genuine and heartfelt, but when Jesse felt Seiji slipping away, he plays his confidence and charm and gets Seiji flustered because Seiji's much more likely to cave to Jesse and all his charm.

[abisalli]

Sometimes I think about that time I was at a botanical garden with friends from university and I think this one girl wanted to figure out if I was queer and single because she kept telling me:

“Oh it SURE would be NICE to go on a DATE here ;)) With your GIRLFRIEND….? ;O It sure would be so CUTE to visit the botanical garden with your GIRLFRIEND!!! ;)) What a cute DATE idea it would be!! <3 ;) ;)”

But I absolutely did not get the hint and just kept answering

“Yeah it sure would be cute! ^_^”

[analligatorr]

that Twisted Fate has been in love with Graves for 20 years, we already know, is pretty much a general consensus between us.

BUT how did you imagine this happening?

[densewentz]

i bet if you shook Dream of the Endless by the shoulders he'd make that wub wub sound

[ridl]

I like to say keqing has rocks for brain but just to be clear, it doesn't mean she's stupid. It has a very specific meaning that's hard to put into words really. It's the way she just says things without filter, how she's just too honest and straightforward, so what she says might be hard to digest by ppl. She means well and is actually kind, but her honesty might hit u like a rock.

And bc i like to think she's a rock nerd ofc. Points at moonchase storyline with keqing and her big rock mystery adventure, as well as just her job as the yuheng

[linktoo]

I'm so obsessed with this tma s5 trailer interaction ok

first of all Jon's affection for Martin is so immediate which is exactly what i needed in my heart all along etc etc but also.

It's such a good double entendre as Jon shows his humanity by affectionately pretending to "not See" something so simple as Martin knocking at the door. He is feigning the ignorance he no longer has the privilege in having.

I yearn to write this efficiently holy shit

[i-am-a-fan]

sure sure. there’s the black cat and the golden retriever. The orange cat and the black cat. Let me put you on:

German Shepard and the Husky?

The Cheetah and the Labrador?

The Tiger and the Frog?

[silencingspellsongs]

i gotta stop coming up with ideas for my own redacted ocs x listeners because the newest one got me watching the hour long DUMP paperwork video and taking notes 🙄