#dice vents

[sedittedice]

Tw: vent

So back in like October I got in some drama in a server I'm in (I'm not gonna say what server I'm just gonna say it was the server of an artist I use to really look up to)

But yeah I was friends with one of the mods/server owners friends let's call them Tiffany

So me and Tiffany agreed to ship our wh ocs (let's call the ship MM)

Ok real quick ill just go ahead and make a name list thing:

Server owner: Britney

Owners friend that I became friends with: Tiffany

Ship me and Tiffany made: MM

My friend: Amanda

The server: the Britney server

Other person that shipped their oc with Tiffany's: Megan

Ok so now that that's all cleared up

Let's continue

So it originally started when I made a small vent drawing in the server vent chat

(I covered up the pfps for privacy sakes and for my sake)

But basically it's a vent of my holding my pfp at the time and my face being static with the discord pfps of artists I wished to draw like

I had forgotten to put that this vent wasn't me trying to attack anyone and according to Britney this had made people upset

They never told me who got upset so I couldn't personally apologize to those people

But me and Britney sorted it out and I told them to apologize to the people I had upset since Britney never told me who got upset

They said ok

After a bit , I slowly noticed that Tiffany never drew any MM stuff (which I didn't really mind)

But then I noticed she drew a bunch of ship art of Megan's oc with hers

So I nicely tried to ask/suggest ideas for MM art

As you can see I made it clear that they didn't need to if they didn't want to

But she never replied so I just dropped it

And I slowly started getting more depressed cause Tiffany seemed to be ignoring me and the rest of the Britney server

So I asked my friend Amanda if she could help

So she tried to subtly bring up MM

But as you can see

She got ignored aswell

As I slowly got more and more depressed a few other small problems happened (my writing on a magma was removed and a few people moved their drawings a little for me to fit something)

And just when I thought I couldn't be depressed enough

I got a dm during school from Britney saying they kicked me from the server due to my behavior and stuff

Calling me immature, etc

And since we were no longer in the same server, I couldn't dm back an apology, so I asked my friend Amanda to help me

I then made a vent on here, but they forced me to delete it

They also were taking their friends side saying I was trying to force people and guilt trip people into making MM ship art WHEN I CLEARLY DIDN'T

And THEY NEVER LET THE PEOPLE I APPARENTLY HURT THAT I APOLOGIZE AND SO EVERYONE IN THAT SERVER PROBABLY THINKS IM A FUCKING ASS HOLE

And apparently I was making Tiffany uncomfortable with the MM ship??

WHEN LITERALLY THEY NEVER TOLD ME THEY WERE UNCOMFORTABLE AND EVEN WENT ALONG WITH SOME OF MY SHIP IDEAS

AND NOW IM TOO AFRAID TO SPEAK IN ANY SERVER IM IN CAUSE OF WHAT HAPPENED

MIND YOU BRITNEY IS AN ADULT HERE AND I WAS 15 AT THE TIME NOW 16

I GOT BULLIED INTO HAVING EVEN WORSE SOCIAL ANXIETY AND NO ONE KNOWS NOR CARES EXCEPT FOR MY FRIEND AMANDA

ALL BECAUSE AN ADULT CHOSE TO SIDE WITH THEIR FRIEND AND NOT FUCKING CARE ABOUT WTF I HAD TO SAY

AND ISTG BRITNEY IF YOU SEE THIS AND TRY AND MAKE ME TAKE THIS DOWN I AM GOING TO FUCKING DO SOMETHING THAT YOU MIGHT REGRET MAKING ME DO

I HATE THIS SO MUCH

IMAGINE GETTING BULLIED BY AN ADULT

THIS IS THE 2ND TIME IVE BEEN BULLIED BY A GROWN ASS PERSON

I AM FUCKING DONE WITH THIS SHIT

I AM TIRED OF THIS I JUST WANT TO SCREAM AND CRY BUT I FUCKING CANT

[liorlen]

hate me baby, maybe i’m a piece of art~

[nicheguides]

How to Distract Yourself from your Quest for Purpose

looking for purpose is hard! harder than you realized… maybe give it a break, just for a bit~

[jazzy-flowerr]

I love King Dice but GOD DAMMIT why is his STUPID HEAD so FUCKING HARD TO DRAW-

[grotesque-grimoire]

I think one of the worst things about being a spoonie witch is when you finally get the mental/psychological urge to do something physical (clean or redeco an altar, perform ritual, craft, etc.) but your body is too tired, sore, exhausted, etc. to do so, or you don't have the spoons to spare.

[ivorydice]

Finishing off a bad year by catching covid seems pretty fitting lmao, like come on I just wanna write in peace I'm so close to getting my second draft finished ugghhhhh

[kokichis-inner-demon]

There’s only 3 people I wanna talk to but none of them wanna talk to me

I don’t know if it’s because of like me specifically , or because of something else but all 3 are online and I know damn well at least two of them are talking

I feel they often don’t like me but please you’re like the only people I can actually socially interact with — without like wanting to kill my self immediately

[loverboybrightsideghost]

i don't know why instagram is a dumb fuck, but ever since i got it like two years ago i always get reels (i almost typed commercials, which, atp yeah) recommended that are just people doing makeup, it's a bunch of makeup influencers. i don't remember what gender i put or if it even asked what gender i am when i made this account, but regardless, this is ridiculous. i have never worn makeup in my life apart from intentional shitty eyeliner. i block every single makeup account in every suggested reel (unless they seem genuinely cool). lately i've been getting reels talking about "facial harmony" like people will say shit like "when you have good features but bad facial harmony" and quite frankly i'm getting tired as fuck of all this complete fuckass bullshit. everyone chop your faces off then we won't have this problem and our true inner beauty will be revealed in the form of wet electrified meat! fuck off

genuinely what the fuck. it really does seem like this stupid fuckass app is trying to fucking depress me into wearing makeup or some shit. i don't know how much of this was "she put her gender as Female, go go go girls like makeup!!!" or whatever, i don't know how the algorithm works, but this shit is fucking vile and sinister.

[maeve-99]

Don’t mind me, just thinking about Mirror’s Edge...

again.

Of all the games I loved in past years this one makes me sad. I loved the gameplay & vibe in both games (Original game + Catalyst), and although Catalyst had some problems with a rushed ending, I loved it dearly. The concept, the gameplay, the music, the characters, the visuals, the story - it was all set up to be something more, something truly phenomenal.

Faith as a main character has so much potential, the whole city and lore begs to be explored. Tell me about the citizens, Faith’s friends Icarus and Nomad, the people in power, the struggles, the greylands, the world beyond the city.

I wanted to know so much more about this world and the characters as well as Faith’s personal story. It’s an absolute tragedy that this franchise got thrown under the bus. Maybe it was too niche but I think a more elaborate and longer story and a better ending could have increased sales by a lot. I honestly don’t know. Maybe it was the wrong place and the wrong time.

I think I would be less mad, if Catalyst had a more “conclusive” ending. But it’s ending was a straight setup for a sequel. It was practivally saying “to be continued” & “see you in the sequel”. And then ... NOTHING.

Faith deserves a sequel, or at least a reboot. Or something else?! A Book?! I don’t know, maybe an anime? ANYTHING.

Or maybe some other studio can snatch the rights to this franchise and actually do SOMETHING with it, since EA/DICE isn’t capable of it.

[sedittedice]

Small vent

Sometimes I think about the past when I was still with my ex gf and how she made me so happy and made me feel loved and important and how she always made me laugh like an idiot even in the roughest times how she always listened and understood me and my interests and how amazing she made me feel....

Sometimes I wish I still had that....

Sometimes...I wish I wasn't so easily replaced...

[antignocchiphase]

Ok so yeah it's kinda On Me to crochet something technically difficult for a non-crocheter, but god I'd love to at least get an "oh cool".

[thornstem]

are you hungry?

[tarithenurse]

Mixed week already...

Good stuff:

New dice arrived

Got the rest of the ACOTAR books

Nightshift was a breeze

Got saved by sister and then SO when I was having a mental breakdown

Mom's operation went well

Bad stuff:

Mental breakdown that's still lingering even after 24 hours

I'm alone

My car is giving me a warning light

Brain's completely kicked the bucket and refuses to both write and read

What to expect for the rest of the week?

[pxppermxnt-tea]

NO. NO, NO, FUCKING NO!

HE'S NOT GAY, HE'S NOT A "BABYGIRL" OR A "MALEWIFE" OR A BOTTOM OR ANY OF THAT

HE'S NOT A FUCKING UWU DEVIL BOTTOM FEMBOY

HE'S NOT A GAY FUCKING BOTTOM, HE'S BISEXUAL AND HE'S MINE AND ONLY MINE AND WE'RE FUCKING HAPPY TOGETHER

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP

NO. NO. NO. NO.

[the-moogle-of-your-nightmares]

i hate my stepdad i hate my stepdad i hate my stepdad i hate my stepdad

[ivorydice]

I would very much like to stop feeling so tired all of the time please. Since like the beginning of August I constantly feel two seconds away from curling up in bed to sleep and I'm behind on so much stuff I want to do because of it, redecorating, writing, dms, reading, etc. Like blehhhhhhhhh this sucks lmao