#don’t binge

[anabarns]

I know I need to get my shit together fr when I find myself coming back on here

[lontanodalpanicoo]

I miei occhi non ne vogliono sapere di dormire. Sono stanca, ma loro insistono sul rimanere aperti, come se darmi qualche ora di sonno sia uno sforzo immane. Riesco a sentire il mio corpo ricattarmi in quel modo che solo lui sa fare “Se dormi adesso ti faccio svegliare dopo le tre di pomeriggio” forse a sto punto meglio non dormire. Però sono stanca. Sono stanca di guardare porno sul telefono, stanca di leggere, studiare, mettere in ordine. Vorrei cadere in un sonno profondo per anni, diventare un vegetale. Talvolta mi viene ancora voglia di lanciarmi dal balcone, così mi rinchiudo fortissimo nelle coperte, per evitare di seguire quel pensiero. L’altro giorno A. mi ha detto che ha iniziato a farsi del male per superare lo stress dell’università e mi sono sentita gelosa, perché è tornato il mostro del “non sei abbastanza malata, non lo sei mai stata, sei solo una stronza in costante ricerca di attenzioni” ed è vero. Lo siamo tutte, cazzo siamo così sole, l’idea di qualcuno che stia lì a consolarci e capirci h24 è oro puro. Vorrei tornare a provare qualcosa, perché in questi giorni non provo più un cazzo. Sono tornata a non sentire più nulla, cuore di sasso, sporca, stupida, svogliata. Forse è il caso che mi rinvoltoli nelle coperte, perché a forza di analizzare i miei pensieri mi è venuta voglia di buttarmi di nuovo di sotto o di dormire abbracciata a qualcuno (che non ho, quindi si risolve masturbandosi), ed opterei per quest’ultima.

[disturbedbutterfly]

Just a friendly reminder that Easter holidays are not an excuse for binging ☕️

[tragicreally]

I went from starving myself for two years to binge eating for 3 years.

I’ve gained 5 stone in that time.

Not once have I been happy about this weight gain but I haven’t been able to stop.

I am now at the heaviest weight I’ve ever been at and I’m embarrassed and terrified.

After Christmas things are going to change, I don’t have a choice anymore. It’s time to get skinny again…

[clear-pee]

remember how good it feels to be wearing a nice outfit while having a nice body. remember the compliments, the staring, the attention. remember the confidence. remember how good that is.

[theoldkyokodied]

Really quick doodles of a few scenes from the stream yesterday. Including combat flirting taunting, gale’s magnificently distracting shoes and.. whatever you wanna call gale agreeing to give 15 gold to astarion 😐😑😐😑😐 (that’s me blinking)

[spkcoochie]

i had a lot to eat last night and spent all of today terribly sick and not being able to do anything but lay down and throw up so do not binge!!!

[bingingbish]

I’ve gained 10lbs in first month of my new job I’m so scared

[providnce]

Friends (1994-2004) 01.02 | "The One with the Sonogram at the End"

[bulbabutt]

i think its weird that arcee is like. a core member of transformers groups now, cuz it makes her stick out like a sore thumb being the token girl when at the time she wasnt exactly supposed to be? she was part of the second generation of characters (even though I know the movie was being made first)

like it seems like modern stuff tries to do this with her

which just shows off how much that design doesnt fit and comes off like it was made to be "i am THE girl. you need no more girls we have made the one girl”

but when she was actually designed to match the movie crew, a bunch of more futuristic (the far off year of 2005) cybertronian vehicle transformers with her rounded shapes and pastel colours and she isnt even the only pink one because hot rod is also pink, albeit a much darker pink

(leaving ultra magnus out cuz he was designed to be a brick holding optimus doesnt count)

the point like yeah shes still the only girl but its less egregious when you look at what she was actually supposed to match. i dont think shes designed perfectly but i think its weird that because shes the most recognizable girl transformer she has to be pulled away from her crew and forced into a group she doesnt share the design philosophy of (let alone for her character its sad like... are those not her friends? she’s not allowed to hang out with her own friends anymore cuz she’s the only girl who’s marketable? sad)

it’s extra weird when you realize there’s this crew who were the original girl transformers shown on screen

they’re not perfect either but I like that they have the same busy more squared off shapes and more strong colours, and I just think if they got added in arcees place you could have a less skewed view gender binary for the robots

there’s also the part where it would be cool to have more than one girl in a group, but again arcee with her iconic leia space buns head fits in aesthetically better with the movie crew

[naturecalls111]

[ghostbergara]

We could be us

[lontanodalpanicoo]

Un dolore devastante mi sconquassa il corpo. Mi fanno malissimo i denti, ho mal di testa, sempre sonno. Sono piegata in due dal male alle ovaie perchè dovrei avere il ciclo, ma non mi sta venendo. Mi sento in colpa perché non sto aiutando in casa, spendo troppi soldi, mangio troppo, studio troppo poco, la mia stanza è un casino, la pila dei panni da lavare è altissima, gli armadi sono in disordine, non mi lavo i capelli da una settimana, ho delle vampate di caldo assurde, silenziosamente odio come la mia coinquilina sbatte la porta di casa ogni volta che esce, odio i miei capelli scoloriti, odio il non aver passato un’adolescenza normale, odio il non aver mai baciato un ragazzo, vorrei fare coming out con i miei ma verrebbe a saperlo tutta la famiglia e non voglio assolutamente, odio le mie mani che sembrano quelle di una vecchia, odio i miei occhi troppo miopi, la mia infinita tristezza che non mi fa fare le cose normali, odio me stessa per non voler abbastanza bene ai miei genitori, mi odio mi odio mi odio.

[nottheeconomy]

*points to Tsumugi*

She’s just like me! For real for real!!!

There’s just something about drv3’s meta exploration of what fiction truly means that just scratches my brain the right way hahahahaha

Need to draw more pregame stuff!!!

[tragicreally]

Vogue th1n$p0 collage

[clear-pee]

you feel it, truly, completely. you try to avoid it, ignore it, but what use is that when no one else is?

it’s your ugliness. your fat. your round face and droopy eyelids. your big neck and thick waist.

to everyone else, this is what they associate you with. it might me subconscious, they might not fixate it on it too much. it might just be the normal image of your own self in their minds. but how much scarier is that?