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gobstoppr · 4 months

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Tetris Fanart.

I've been playing tetris while listening to horror podcasts. and yeah

#text #art #eyestrain #cw eystrain #bright colors #cw bright colors #tetris #nintendo #god i dont know what to tag this with. i dont wanna tag it with the podcasts themselves cuz that feels disingenuous. swagever #i actually started this piece a while ago. ok yeah looking at the date that was almost 3 weeks ago wow #but i finally decided to bring it back and finish it #ive been getting back into digital art and its been really nice. its nice having finished pieces.#ive been trying to get weirder with my art. like this piece was weirdly 'personal' in a sense #its been my unique experience listening to these pieces of media. the game in the bg is jsut as important to my experience as the art itsel #the looming sense of dread these podcasts give fit weirdly well with the high tension of some of these games of tetris #i wanted to have that sorta weird ominous vibe to it. have even the pieces feel loud and threatening.#and the gameplay being Past the ds itself is something i thought could be neat #ykno the tetris effect? where you play a bunch and then after you see the shapes everywhere;you play it in your mind?#that was part of what i wanted to channel there. but also like; how your attention works with this stuff #i might be looking straight at the ds but my attention is elsewhere; my brain is in another world #the game is still inescapable tho. tetris effect whatever. these stories stick in my brain just as much.#its all given me some. very very annoyingn anxiety. but i have to go back to them. like a moth to a flame etc. hince the moth climbing out #but uh yeah. that set up was my life for a few weeks whenever i had free time.#the main podcast this is about was magnus btw <- not typing full name so im not on the tag #and uh.#objectum #yeah i think. i think yeah.

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icewindandboringhorror · 9 months

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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

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tana-draws · 2 months

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my brain is so fucking stupid. I was bullied in fourth grade, my friends were like “actually erm we don’t want to be friends with you :/“ on the second to last day of eighth grade (even though we were all zoned for different high schools and would never see eachother anyway). And because of that my brain is, as my therapist and mother (two different people,) theorized, “hyper vigilant for any perceived social ostrichaztion”. The thing is it’s fucking stupid about it. Sure it has the generic “uwu your friends probably hate you secretly” thing.

But it also. Like: I’ll see a post that is somewhat negative towards a thing I like or a trait I even remotely identify with (including stuff as vague as ‘nervous’ or ‘writer’) and I’ll be like “yeah that makes sense” or “I don’t agree but I also don’t care”. But then my brain will repeat the negative phrase on loop for like a week. And will trigger physical reactions (crying, shortness of breath, etc) in response to it. I’ve actually had public panic attacks over things I give 0 shits about because my brain is a fucking helicopter parent.

#there’s one fic writer I love the work of #Who’s made a lot of good posts for a semi niche ship I like #And they’ve done nothing wrong but some of their posts (which again are not morally wrong my brain just sucks ass) have caused this #To the point I had to unfollow them #And a mutual reblogged one of their new posts that has the hallmarks of something that could cause this #(Reason I made this post actually. My thought is that venting about it will get my brain to stfu)#Thankfully since most of their stuff I look at is related to this ship so for now I’m safe #Because I’m currently fixating on oliretta and benslie ship wise (and in general I have rewatched like most of parks and rec)#(Within the span of a week. It’s a problem)#I’ve been on/off obsessed with this ship for like two (?) years so chances are I only have #Maybe four months to get my brain to calm the fuck down #vent #vent tw #vent post #mental health #mental health issues #anxiety disorder #Idk if this is a result of it but I do have clinical anxiety so that could be part of it #bullying #btw fuck people who say “bring back bullying” in response to people being cringe #Like that shit can effect people #And god forbid a teenager or young adult be confident about what they like #Instead of having issues likely caused by being treated like shit by their classmates when they were younger #stress #actually mentally ill #mental illness #actually anxious #bullying mention

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sunmisbf · 7 months

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#I ❤️ MUSIC #i’m having the anxiety attack of the week listening to these rn full volume isn’t enough i need them inside me #trying to trick my brain into thinking the anxiety is adrenaline instead.. sunmisbf hacks follow for more 👍#side effects n adios r brother n sister n nightwalker n scream r brother n sister. they’re cousins…#.txt #Spotify

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variantia · 3 months

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BELLUM. it's bedtime and I'm yawning but I am being kept awake by sheer feels alone HELP

#is that a fucking gremlin ?? ( OOC. )#(( Elsa using her ice as a 'therapy' / treatment for helping with Spinner's chronic pain tho #will it work ? maybe a lil maybe it's not super effective and even if it helps it's not a total 'cure' like #nothing is gonna take away all the pain and make it entirely 10000 % better #but the fact that she's even TRYING something knowing that it might work #knowing that it might be what others would consider a 'waste' of her energy ; just on the off chance that it helps him even a LITTLE #hi leave me alone I have thoughts #I should sleep since I have to be at the store at 7:30 tomorrow morning BUT-#follow the simple rule of noticing my online presence after 10 PM #''if ye see ... let it be''#dfjhklsajfalkfa I'm sorry anxiety and shit has like. fried my brain lmao ))

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swinging-stars-from-satellites · 7 months

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*uncontrollable guttural screaming intensifies*

#need to write a story or perhaps an academic work. to cleanse my brain #I'm sure part of this is just that I have less than a week before I leave and so even though cosnciously #I don't feel very stressed about it... it's still a subconscious stressor yknow???#I've been trying to do matcha in the mornings instead of coffee first thing and I do feel a bit better doing that #the only effect caffeine has ever had in me is The Anxieties TM so like. I still drink lots of coffee #but opening the day with Gentler caffeine is nice. also apparently green tea is good for ye Olde brain so yeah #anyway :')

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performing-personhood · 2 months

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"Oh this stimulant that my system has become accustomed to - my adhd system, which converts stimulants into relaxation? Yeah it definitely won't cause a massive anxiety regression to remove this substance from my body. It absolutely won't throw off the homeostasis at all."

- me, being both halves of a whole idiot

This post is about nicotine, by the way.

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floral-hex · 4 months

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ayyyyyyy I set up an appointment for medication this Friday (telemedicine but whatever) and I get to see my former therapist again later this month. I’m kind of excited. More than kind of. Little sad, but I’m lonely and want to talk to someone. He’s a real cool dude. I’m a little worried to trauma dump the last 6 months on him, but whatever, it beats sitting there for an hour feeling like I’m wasting his time and struggling to think of things to say. dang dang dang, I’m excited.

#I’m excited to tell him about my mom’s transplant. less so to mention all my dark moments since we last spoke.#ok so I gotta wait a week for antidepressants and then a couple of weeks for them to take effect #that’s a lot of waiting #especially with how rough I’ve been these last couple of weeks #I probably have more appointments I should schedule but we’ll see #I’ve only been able to sleep sitting up #like the dang elephantman #something about laying down freaks me out #it’s uncomfortable and not very restful and just thinking about sleep gives me anxiety #brains are fucky #oof… now it’s setting in. I’ve got an appointment but it’s 5 days away #5 days of… this. anxiety and distraction and my sick brain #this is my fault #well… no. yes. I don’t want to COMPLETELY beat myself up for it #I should have been managing my mental health better instead of waiting until I spiraled out #I should have been managing my health better in general!#this isn’t sexy to say but I hate my body. I’ve run it down. and it’s going to be so much harder getting back to something semi healthy #but I’m trying now 😕 so maybe that’ll count for something #I’ve been realizing that I really really miss going to the gym late at night #that’s what I need now. been doing these little drives at night to distract myself but having an actual place to go would be much better #BUT! too expensive. need to work and make some money. not excited for that but I needs it. I neeeeeeds money. for burgers. and distractions #this is too rambly. I’m sorry. I thought about counseling and got too excited to talk and talk #I talk too much #you can ignore this #text

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dandp · 29 days

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#sooooo fun when my brain convinces me someone has started to be mad at me/dislike me #and i try to calm my anxiety brain and say no that's crazy you're worrying about nothing!#and then actually it turns out im correct #and the extremely subtle vibe changes were not in my head #so i can never effectively shut up that part of my brain because it's been correct several times in the past 🙃#sorry to harsh the vibe here lol just learned something that really soured my good mood immediately

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slingbees · 4 months

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Wish I'd stop inventing new ways to make myself feel unsafe even though I'm not doing anything

It's like an alarm is going off in my head at all times just generally pointing at my brain and going "SOMETHING IS WRONG SOMETHING IS WRONG SOMETHING IS WRONG SOMETHING IS WRONG SOMETHING IS WRONG" and it doesn't stop because I haven't identified it

I'm not tired. I'm not dehydrated. I'm not hungry. I'm not physically uncomfortable. But something is so so wrong

#It's not anxiety it's like... A warning #If I don't fix it things will get much worse #But I don't know what It is #It's in my brain whatever It is #And It's probably dangerous #But I don't know It yet #And I think I just have to wait and find out #To clarify the warning is some kind of chemical thing in my brain it's not a vague paranoia that something bad will happen #It's more like a lit up sign that my brain itself is doing something bad to me #It's Not just anxiety #Although I don't know how effective or tangible it is. But the feeling is something else

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relicsongmel · 4 months

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New ADHD medicine in conjunction with brain fog is doing strange things to me. One minute I'm dealing with headaches and fatigue. Then I'm having an anxiety episode. Next thing I know I'm trying to figure out the best way to clean coins

#mel's musings #it's been three days and i already HATE what it's doing to me #i've had this prescription before but in the past i always took it alongside an anxiety medication that i am no longer on #so the anxiety/heart rate side effects of this medication are that much worse #my neurologist asked me to give her an update after 2 weeks. but to be honest idk if i can even make it that far w/ how things are going no #it sucks. everything feels wrong. at the VERY least i'm getting the longer trains of thought that the brain fog took from me back #but with all this plus the inevitable crash at the end of the day when the medication wears off? it's just not worth it imo #mel rants

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jamandjazz · 2 months

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The way my brain is so in tuned into notifications is actually crazy. Like wdym that a SINGLE buzz will wake me up?

#it’s so bad actually cause my brain makes sounds and buzzes that aren’t there #I’ve been told that it was a side effect of my anxiety 😔#it’s also probably cause I turn off any notifications I don’t want #so the only ones I get are from people or things important to me #like ao3 notifications ✊#or messages from people I like #if I don’t fuck w you I turn off ur notifications #easy peasy #I’ll see ur message when I see it #otherwise tho I text back pretty fast #unless I’m REALLY busy

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qqqqqqqqqqq0 · 2 months

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i've been having some trouble falling asleep lately

#art #i'll be yapping in the tags #its not that im depressed or anything. it is the opposite actually #ive been using this medicine for quite some time. and it made all my negative emotions disappear #“oh wow huh but isnt it great you don't feel bad anymore”. this is the same thing my psychiatrist told me when we were discussing this topic #in hindsight it was kinda silly of her to say. i can't believe i pay a ridiculous amount of money per session just to hear shit like that #but she's cute and im a pathetic homosexual who'll seethe at the sight of other specialists like a beaten dog so I will let it slide i guess #we see each other twice a year anyway and all i need from her is the prescription for happy pills. anyway the happypillen #i would fight god if it means i can use stertraline for the rest of my life. thanks to it i can and i do live #but I don't really feel like myself anymore. do you get what i mean #the things that have been giving me anxiety attacks or flashbacks not so long ago? i feel almost nothing about it at this momet #it still haunts me to this day but the intensity of my feelings and emotions does not reach even 1/5 of what it was before #i do not want to disclose more specific topics so i will use a simple example. i used to be afraid of dogs #the fear was so severe that the mere sight of the tiniest little barfing creature was enough for me to freeze #now i can pass one without any problem. the fear i feel today is nothing more than a shadow of bygone times (something i do out of habit)#but i guess this example is not objective enough since my close irl friend has a dog that i became fond of #im still pretty sure this dog of her is capable of biting my ass off if necessary but im not afraid of it #because fear is not an option in this brain of mine at this moment #i don't feel any anxiety sadness or anger anymore. even if something close to it begins to rise in me it shuns down within a few minutes #i can't even cry. i am craving emotions that i was so eagerly trying to dispose of back then #i feel the most mentally stable I have ever been and at the same time i feel pretty much dead.#perhaps i just got used to the fact that sorrow accompanied me for a very long time and i should learn to live without it #perhaps sorrow is just as important as happiness and its absence is a mere side effect of the happy pills #and i have to put up with it in order to have a functional brain #perhaps we people are never happy with what we have in our hands. also i hate drawing #one's can tell since the picture i attached is raw as fuck #but even despite my praised mental stability if i were to stay alone with it even for a minute longer i would go insane #next time i will draw something lighter and cuter. like my favorite kpop boy or fortnite. maybe in the next century #thanks for coming to my tedtalk. bye #i made a typo in the word “sertraline” but im too lazy to fix it i would fight god for you but i will not do this im sorry zoloft

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ketolivityblog · 3 months

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What are the basics of the keto diet and mental health?

Learn the basics of the keto diet and its impact on mental health in this comprehensive guide. Learn about the science behind ketosis and how it affects brain function, neurotransmitter production, and gut health. Discover potential benefits for conditions such as depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, and neurodegenerative diseases, and gain insights into effective implementation, potential risks, and emerging research trends.

Originally published at https://ketolivity.blogspot.com

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mutalune · 3 months

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really wish there was a tag that separated “I’m having Big Angry and/or Angsty Opinions about Star Wars” from “I’m goofing off with Star Wars I’m playing in the sandbox none of this is real so yes I will make my blorbo and this random glub shitto go on an adventure that makes no logical sense” posts because there’s too much of the former and not enough of the latter for my current mental state

#starlight personal #the good news is that I finally have another ketamine appt scheduled and it’s sooner than I thought they’d have an opening #the bad news is that the appointment is not tomorrow and we’re kinda at the end of my mental-emotional rope #now kids this is what we call: an inherent flaw in my treatment plan that cannot be removed #because pretty much in an ideal world I’d have ketamine appointments every 6 weeks but 1) expensive and probs can’t afford that #2) they don’t have enough availability for that to be realistic 3) can’t take off of work THAT frequently without consequences #4) I would probably start to doubt reality if I was tripping that frequently 5) I don’t think docs would allow it #treatment resistant depression and anxiety my beloathed if we could just chill that’d be great #treatment resistant PMDD my other beloathed someday I will do my damnedest to cut you out of my body #idk not to be too selfpitying on main but god it fucking sucks that I appear to be doomed to another cycle based mood thing #PMDD means I get two good weeks two bad weeks #ketamine being the only effective treatment for whatever my brain’s got going on means two good months followed by x bad months #until my next appointment #which like! two good months is better than no good months I am grateful that something helps #I just wish it was a more convenient help and it could be applied more consistently than my psych office provides #also wish I didn’t have to call them 3 times to get it scheduled but it is what it is #also also wish that I had fewer of the physical side effects of my anxiety and wouldn’t wake up puking the min things are rough #this is all to say: I want silly SW headcanons and droid headcanons and silly fic ideas and not Everyone is Always Suffering #but I’m also too lazy (I.e brain cannot make decisions rn) to search for new tags that may give me more silly #which means time to browse my bookmarks for good good comfort fics I have saved I suppose #(this is lowkey why i want to physically fight everyone i know who’s like ‘yeah meds would help but idk :/‘ like!!!!!!!!#bro it’s a privilege to have access to meds and it’s a privilege to have a body that doesn’t turn on you the min you take one!!!!#just try 10mg of zoloft I would kill for 10mg of zoloft to not make me entirely incapable of functioning!!!)#I don’t mean that - you have a right to take or not take medication and everyone’s reasons may be their own #I just had my body and have some rough feelings around treating my issues being so expensive and inconvenient #and then feeling guilty b/c I know I’m lucky that I can afford it and can take off of work for it when I need to #like I am pretty lucky to have something that works and to have a care team that helped me get here #so I don’t wanna be ungrateful or unappreciative of my own luck in this and the work that went into getting here #I’d just also like it if I could change the circumstances slightly #make treatment on the weekends an option - get my psych office to have more than 2 trip sitters so scheduling isn’t so bad

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vulpixelates · 3 months

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spending all weekend kissing my wife like 24/7 and then going into monday is so painful. i just wanna curl up and talk about the lesbians that live in our head and touch her biceps 😔 but we can't even hang out in the same room bc she has Work and Meetings 😔

#*dykeposting #at least she has a 3 day week this week bc of the holiday + fridays off for the summer #and also thankfully i'm having a great brain day somehow #i didn't wake up having a panic attack!!! it was amazing!#this was like the first time that's happened in two weeks #AND this weekend's storms barely touched us but i was also able to manage my anxiety about them really effectively #so i'm hoping the techniques i used carry over well into when storms are being actually scary #... i think the pmdd is clearing bc i feel actually hopeful for the first time in two weeks lmao

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