#embarrassing myself

[maths-screaming]

Things That Are and Are Not Changing as a Result of Re-Teaching Myself Basic Math

Things That Are Changing

I am less anxious about basic math.

I have more tools for doing basic arithmetic problems.

I'm better at identifying which will be the fastest or easiest tool for any given problem.

I can more quickly and easily ID when an exact answer is needed or when an estimate will suffice.

I'm marginally better at noticing when an answer can't be correct.

Things That Are Not Changing

I still transpose numbers frequently.

I still transpose operations frequently (adding when I should subtract, dividing when I should multiply, etc.)

I still have initial anxiety when looking at a math problem, before the "oh yeah, I have more tools for addressing this now" kicks in.

I still frequently mix up my right and my left.

My sense of direction is still bad.

I cracked Maths - No Problem! Textbook 4A today, putting me halfway through the series. I'm making this list for future reference, because I suspect the things that aren't changing will continue to not change.

Better math education won't change the fact that I have dyscalculia. I didn't expect it to, but I also didn't know what it would or wouldn't change. When I started this, I didn't know where my dyscalculia ended and my poor math education or math anxiety began.

Still, if we can fix "poor math education" and "math anxiety," I'll be much further ahead than when I started - and more willing to live with the dyscalculia.

[lolomustdie]

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[toobytoobs]

I always forget that Superman has freeze breath or whatever it’s called.

So I’ll see a bit of fan media where he uses that power, and I’m just like, “Wtf??? Doesn’t he already have enough powers to begin with? You’re adding more???”

And then I remember and I spend the rest of the day embarrassed.

[someguyingotham]

me @ catwoman: yk, like… nya

catwoman:

me:

[malicemerridew]

Unpleasantly remembered a memory I thought I buried. I was either 13 or freshly 14, but it happened during school in my history class. So me and this other girl were moving between like a small space between tables, until she suddenly bent over a table to do something. I was close behind her and had to get past her to go to my table. Unfortunately, being an anxious and nervous teen, I did not say anything. She left a slither of room left.. And for some stupid reason I decided to just try and move past her. The reason it is such an embarrassing memory was because my chest was facing her so my crotch touched her arse 😬 it wasn’t even brief either, it was like I was rubbing my crotch in for a solid 10 seconds bruv. I still die a little every time I remember it

She looked both shocked and terrified, I don’t even know the face I was making

[251-dmr]

Uncomfortable Ramifications

As a separate follow-up to my post about my perceived disparity between the actions and their results of the alarms in heaven and the apology dance, I'm going to try to describe - as if it isn't obvious - why these are so scary to try and resolve. And this is coming from someone who is all-but onboard with the possibility that there are two realities (for want of a better word). And/or that things are so very out of order. Or overlapping...or something!

So, yeh, I'm just going to put myself out here for ridicule and pity. But I think I will feel better just to get it out of my brain and out there.

If we I try to put the bright flash of light in heaven with the Jim-hiding miracle, that puts Crowley in two places at the "same" time... but at two supposed different chronological times (????): performing the miracle with Azi AND being in heaven with Muriel and Saraqael, which is supposed to be during the demon attack. WTH?

In my post comparing the different Arrivals, I asked about this:

As for those trumpets...what? Why are we hearing trumpets? I know we hear them in S1E4 after they beat up Aziraphale and that was to signal that Armageddon was starting.

If the trumpets that Azi hears in the music shop with Maggie in E2, are when Crowley and the angels return to earth as a result of Azi blowing up his halo and nearly declaring war on hell, rather than the "hiding Gabriel" inquiry...well, that obviously puts Azi in two places at the same...different...time. WTF?

As an aside, if the trumpets really correspond to Michael, Uriel, and Saraqael simply going to earth, to the bookshop, to inquire about Gabriel, that seems to contradict the Metatron's desire (order?) to explicitly NOT raise any alarms about Gabriel's disappearance.

SARAQUEL: Right. I can't… I can't find his memory anywhere. In fact, I can't find him in the building. He's left Heaven. Should I sound an alert? METATRON: Oh, don't be so wet. No, you're all just going to have to find him. That's all.

So, again, I ask, what's with the trumpets?

Anyway, I don't even know what I'm saying anymore.

If the apology dance is for not returning to help defend the shop against the demons, that puts the demon attack before they even perform the miracle to hide Gabriel. Not to mention before the kiss and Azi's departure.

So even though the actions (e.g., the hiding miracle/halo explosion, and what warrants an apology dance) and their results feel out of proportion, trying to swap those around just makes things worse.

And, yes, I am very much aware what utter BS this must sound like. I get it.

My own brain hurts. It's just that I'm having a problem taking the chrono order that we've been shown without questioning it. On the other hand, perhaps I have no choice.

I hope I have given you all a good laugh. And maybe this post just needs to sink into obscurity. Yeh, probably for the best.

[novacainedaydreams]

Does anyone else make really cringe cai stories?

I'm not talking like self insert stuff. I think self insert stuff is fun. I mean like you make an OC and ship it with a person who is real type thing. I'm fully over here turning famous people into my ocs and then writing an OC character to fuck them lol.

[letmelickyoureyeballs]

A rite of passage is embarrassing yourself trying to do a somersault after not doing one in years thinking it’ll be easy

[rhythm-of-space]

how do I write angst without feeling like a dweeb asking for a friend

[maths-screaming]

In which I do some coloring

Discovering that numbers have patterns and relationships is absurdly exciting to me. If someone had told me this at any time in my childhood, I might not have feared and hated math so much.

So I printed this 1-100 number chart I found online and colored it. Numbers 2-9 are each assigned a color, in rainbow-esque order (pink, red, orange, yellow, green, cyan, indigo, violet). Each square has a stripe representing each color it is a multiple of/can be evenly divided by. When I ran out of stripes, I finished filling in the square with the final stripe to indicate "that's as far as this number goes."

Is it useful? idk. Was it fun? Very much so.

Numbers are friends. Friends have relationships. Now I know who not to seat next to each other at my (imaginary) wedding. Whee.

[jue-jack]

Kirby is a star!!!

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[littledrummerb0y]

Trying to learn a song on drums without any papers.

Super easy.

[enderbrah2sexy4u]

Yo.

[hinamie]

quick megumi style study

[lovingthedenial]

you know the feeling, when you are in yoga class and the teacher praise your puppy pose... And you realize you are getting wet and had to bite your lip to stop saying the wrong(right) things...

Just me? Ok...