Wow two posts within a day? Gotta makeup for my absence somehow 💀🥴
Today was alright. I spent the whole day almost sleeping. I’ve been so tired lately. for dinner today I got subway :). Which may seem like an odd dinner choice considering the last two days (if you seen my last post) and it is an odd choice, but the way to get back into things is slowly and steadily. Definitely don’t try to jump back in the deep end after drowning. Build ur way back. I got a 6’ rotisserie chicken on flat bread, all the veg, no cheese, and hot sauce. 🙌🏼🥪Someone tell me WHY subway took away crispy chicken…I just wanna talk🔪That was my FAVOURITE. grrr.
Today could’ve been “better” sure. But like to me this is what works. No harsh punishments, just keep on keeping on. Ew, I hate I said that. This isn’t 2015💀💀💀💀💀
Is this about trouble getting back on the band wagon? lol no, but yeah I haven’t gotten back on. Unfortunately.
BUT BUT BUT… I’m moving back home from my uni apartment and my mom came down to help take back things ANNNDDD… I made the STUPID mistake of not wearing baggy clothes. I thought because this past week I’ve been eating so much, I was all bloated and some gained weight. (Which I prob have like 2-3lbs)
Well I was wrong. First thing she said to me was “you’ve lost weight… ?!?!?” And then her face was something I’ve never seen before. Anger, sadness, frustration, concern… she said “this is the worst I’ve seen you Anna.. you are looking extremely an0rezic!!?”
Ew. The A word. I mean valid. My bmi last time I weighed myself was like 16. BUT. Gross. I hate that word. She wouldn’t let it go, and a family friend came with her and she was like “yeah anna… I notice too” OOPS. fuck it was so embarrassing.
She also found my laxatives which was the icing on the cake.. because allegedly she said she was An0 when she was a kid so she knows the “tricks” She also tried forcing me on the scale. My oh my what a mess today.
So yeah. In summary my mom is REALLLLLLLY concerned as hell and hypothetically “getting me help” this summer. So if I go MIA. Yeah. Or t worded for this post. Either or, that’s why. I am truly scared for what’s bout to come tbh.
ALSO DONT MIND MY DIRTY HOUSE, as I said I’m moving out. So chaos.