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lilgynt · 2 years

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i really do need to stop thinking about this fight but i’m legitimately gonna blow my brains out about it

#personal #like i just keep doing the same loots on the train of thoughts about it #and like as a kid i always has moments after fights were i was like #i’m never talking to him again and then he’s gonna realize how awful he is #and then like next day i’m talking to him bc my big brother is my favorite person ever #but like. i keep imagining scenarios where i can correctly explain myself and he’s listening #but i lose all the anger and fight like a sentence in #i just can’t do it #it’s not gonna change and he can’t hear me and i just can’t do it #and that makes me so fucking depressed im just fighting back tears rn #and i want to be fair to him i really do #and i’m always gonna be more biased to myself bc. well. you know #but god he’s done awful things to me #he ruined the word fag he outted me he’s said genuinely nasty and cruel things i’ve never said to him #not that i haven’t been awful back #god im getting tired explaining even this #and then i just keep thinking about how much he must hate me and that hurts worse bc i love him and i know i’m not a positive force in his #life im just like an annoying hurdle you enjoy sometimes but more out of familarity than anything else #and everyone in my family vastly prefers him and i don’t blame them!!!#i remember being a kid and seeing him get some kind of reading reward #and i was so. upset with myself bc i wasn’t like him. and i was jealous #but mostly i remember clapping super loud and thinking about how happy and proud of and for him i was #i just want him to stop treating me like i’m dumb and he says he doesn’t but he does #all the time #and i want him to stop trying to fix my problems all the time #and i feel awful that i was his responsibility unfairly for so long and im actively trying to get away from that role from him #i’m trying i’m trying and i’m trying but god above #i’m just so tired and so upset #and i’m starting to think i just cause issues on purpose #like i’m subconsciously bored bc this can’t just happening all the time to woe is me like i know i’m not but i have to be at this point

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bloodsbane · 2 years

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Kitchen Nightmares, S5 E1

#kitchen nightmares #kn lb #do i even have to explain why i dropped everything to capture this moment #you don't understand her smile makes me fucking insane #slowly unfurling like when the fucking grinch he realized he was gonna steal christmas #the staff on kn ARE NEVER FUCKING AROUND #especially when their bosses are shitty like. oh my god #it's the best part of this show hands down lol #love when the staff get tired of being nice #also im so glad i got that EXACT last frame it really really encapsulates the energy

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bonnieisaway · 11 months

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seven's the best protag ever because i could make a million "get you a man who" jokes about him. get you a man who looks at him the way thirteen does. get you a man who has undefeated whimsy and love for the world like seven. get you a man who holds his friends above everything else. get you a man who'd rather go broke and hungry rather than tear apart the bonds between people. get you a man who'd get himself killed for someone who barely knows him. get you a man who'd get himself killed for an island which he's barely familiar with. get you a man who'd dress up as you and settle the arguement between you and your girlfriend including a really long serenade. get you a man who could both save the girl in white like that and also let thirteen save him like that. get you a man who's driven purpose in life is loving others

#i think i shouldnt limit it to just “best protag” but im too lazy to think of better phrasing #i know very little medias who would be willing to write a man who's that loving and empathetic and caring and also have him have killed #literal thosuands and those two points of his characters dont contradict his very personality because his actions have genuine sensible mot #a character who is the victim of his own narrative and continues to fight it over and over and over even if he's tired #because being tired does not mean he gets to stop fighting for what he loves #the s4 op lyrics literally say something along the lines of “who's tired of fighting evil?” i cant check the netflix captions of it rn #god i just love seven as a character i love how he's written #i cannot interract with the tiktok side of the fandom because #i feel like i'm pretentous or a gatekeeper when i say this #but some people just wanna see funny badass who should be feared and will not comprehend how empathetic and adoring he is #and that's ok. that's an ok character to want and love #and i will not be the person to burst the bubble but also the bubble chokes me alive LOOK AT HIM /j #explaining the intricacies of his character takes so long and its so fun but also some mfs jsut dont wanna hear it i need mfs who need it #scissor seven #wu liuqi #seven

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bedforddanes75 · 3 months

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my issue with terminology discourse isnt that i think everyone's stupid and sensitive it's that literally nobody explains the meanings of things and then get pissy when people dont know what things mean

#like oh my GOD how do you expect people to know certain words arent For Them if you just. DONT TELL ANYONE #like i understand researching for yourself but ??!?!??! if you don't think its wrong in the first place why would you research it!??!?!??#like ok ive just seen a vid of this woman saying “thibgs im tired of hearing straight people say as a lesbian” and it was all yeah whatever #but the COMMENTS #someone asked why they cant be a bi fem if fem just means feminine and people were getting so mad being like #no you CAN. be a bi fem. you just cant be a bi FEMME.#like queen if they dont know why they can be a bi fem i dont think theyre gonna know what a femme is!!!!!!!!#dear god its annoying #like i get the issue with people misusing terms specifically for lesbians or queer people but oh my god #like genuinely just are you thick #if you dont Tell people what a pillow princess is how do you expect them to know they cant use that word to describe themselves??????#AND NONE OF THEM EVER EXPLAIN IT.#EVER.#oh my god i hate tiktok so much #i dont even know why i use it #blah blah!#not 75 stuff #to elaborate about getting pisst #i mean that they all expect everyone to google things but 1 google sucks atm and 2 how are you meant to find out whats legitimate informatio #and what's just completely fake unless you Tell Them #like. if you want people to stop misusing terms then you have to explain WHY #and DONT get fucking annoying about it being all like “lmao yeah i knew you wouldnt get it” because then theyre going to do it out of SPITE #like it's ridiculous genuinely

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micamone · 3 months

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hey guys

#vent #just... gimmie a sec im gonna put it in the tags i cant find the readmore on my phone rn #im havin a straight up not good time but not the worst in the house!#the worst is my cat. whose old and dying. and i have no money to put to sleep to fuckin put us both outta this misery #typical. she cant get a heart attack and go fast like my moms dog #shes gotta wail and be ill for a month while im recovering from one surgery and trying to get ready for the next #its also an amazing time for my ocd that i learned i have from artists on hear explaining what it is to send me into spirals #over germs. but shes just 20 with teeth and respiratory issues her whole life and been struggling with constipation #so i KNOW how shes dying. shes backed up and hungry and dehydrated but feeling bloated still and not eating or drinking.#shes probably got arthritis and has been moving like a geriatric for a while but its to the point now she wont even lay down. shes just #perched on a pile of towels in the bathroom dozing and occasionally crying for me to come pet her. im so fuckin tired #and theres nothing i can do! the vet i could find a timeslot for in a reasonable time said 500$. so thats cool. im paying 1000$ for me in #a week for my stuff and its just. god all she and i are doing is crying and it sucks ass #she wants company for comfort and i dont blame her - so the fuck do i!#but i cant sit in the bathroom with her my damn legs keep going numb. and my roomate 1) cant emotionally buoy me thru this #and 2) has a long work day tomorrow and its already mad late. sigh #dont try to offer me condolences ive worked thru her dying already its just now we're botb exhausted in the form its taking #if anything i just need another distraction to keep me from spiraling over something again #edit: ARUGH AND THE OTHER CAT THROWING UP IN THE OTHER ROOM. GOD DAMN IT #the younger one has so many allergies and wont stop fucking eating things off the floor babygirl i am BEDRIDDEN you gotta stop eating shit #off the floor!!!!!!!! you have specialty food for a reason!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#awesome it was right in my bed

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jessiesjaded · 4 months

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i shouldnt be shocked by peoples naivete and yet I am.

#the blog this is meant for is not getting it bc i dont feel like starting shit but good god #like having principals and sticking to your guns is a good thing dont get me wrong- im literally also doing that #but seeing people just be absolutely feral and stupid using fandom shit as a moral crusade will never not tire me out #like im sorry but youre not a saint or a martyr for not streaming a song. dont act like you're a hero saving the day bc youre not #youre doing absolutely bare minimum wont even leave a drop in the bucket shit and expecting a pat on the back for it #like i think thats what gets me i dont believe half of these people truly care beyond a surface level social media way #like have you written to your local governments? actually read the links people post explaining what will actually help for you to do #or did you just read a tumblr post and maybe not even a longer tumblr post lol #like the way everyone is annoying me with this is kinda impressive lol

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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 1 year

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goodnight

#off to bed and we. shall see. if i keep my streak. i desperately hope i do.#but oh God help me it's hard #i ust want to harm so bad #well really i want to do more than harm but i Won't #i am so tired from work lately #ransom has her first vet appointment tomorrow #i have work tomorrow #it just #all stacking up i don't even know #had mildly difficult/thought provokin convo today #aaaaa i want to jump off my balcony #of course i won't i definitely won't but i Want To #gah i can't even explain why im feeling like this ugh hate it #puddleglum hours #i really need a decent cry but it's all bottled up inside me and the only way i know of releasing that in the way it feelin now is to harm #tw sh #ive been nearly ten and a half days i want to get to at least a fortnight #hmmm gonna bring puter to bed so i can listne to music real quiet tho bc i lost my headphones idk where htey are #watch me Not get much sleep huh #a dnthen be unfit for work tomorrow? its more likely tha you think #i also wish i had a lighter i need to acquire one next time im getting petrol #(no im not a smoker. just a pyromaniac.)#(mostly i have a healthy enough fear of fire after dressing a nasty burn wound on placement last y that i probably wouldn't harm using fire #probably.)#i dont know in my head is all ajumbled mess and i dont see how i am to keep going #and every time i say that i keep going anyhow and that thought makes it feel like im overreacting to all this which. of course i am.#nothin but a fool a very tired helpless useless one #was playing the piano earlier. played a movt from a concerto to which ive set words to a section at least (not the full thing yet)#'and though the night seems endless/until the storm has passed/still i will hope in God my trust/i will follow him'#my favourite lines from that

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firelordhotman · 1 year

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friendly reminder that even if youre open about something on your blog, even if you think its so obviously right in your about/description/pinned/whatever, most of the people who will interact with you are not even looking that far at your blog. they dont know your name or your pronouns or your disabilities or your interests or your credentials or whatever you think is just *so obvious* that they *must* be intentionally ignoring it just to hurt you. ESPECIALLY not if theyre a random stranger who youve never interacted with once before, has never interacted with you once before either, and has absolutely zero reason to care about you. its not a personal attack, its just a fact. this is literally the internet

#i am TIRED. yes this is a vaguepost idc #utter stranger shows up in my notifs DEMANDING i explain a simple little joke tag about me and my loved ones experiences #as if i owe them the slightest ounce of attention in my day #and then when i do explain my & my loved ones lived experiences. they get mad & say im using THEIR personal experiences as a weapon #like. i dont have the slightest clue what your personal experiences are! i dont even know your name!! and i dont want to nor do i have to!!#i dont mean this rudely. but factually: you are not important enough to me to care even a little bit about your experiences #i dont bring up suicide or addiction or any shit like that because its Your experience. bc i have no fucking idea what your experience is #i talk about those things because its MY EXPERIENCE. that IM TALKING ABOUT. in the tags of a post that doesnt belong to either of us no les #this is probably the last thing im gonna post abt this bc i know youre still up my ass looking at everything i post rn #but to finish off. i was never even making a Point about anything in the tag. i wasnt starting discourse about anything.#it was just an Acknowledgement of a shared experience that me and many of my loved ones have. whether u like it or not #like literally i dngaf if YOU personally wouldnt describe your experience that way. We do describe it that way! We can be different #i just made a silly little tag for my friends to see. and YOU decided that you were entitled to both hear my life story and blatantly #misinterpret everything i say about it. like literal 'how dare you say we piss on the poor' type shit #like. saying 'x can cause y' does not mean im saying 'y is literally x' fucking OBVIOUSLY. god #i didnt fucking ask for this! YOU DID!! YOURE the one who DEMANDED it of me unprompted #& clearly must have just gone looking thru the tags of posts for ppl to beef with lollllll #i mean cmon. you didnt follow me i didnt follow you and that wasnt even your post. theres no other explanation lmao its p obvious #anyway i hope u find a better hobby or at least a more fun and fulfilling way to use this website. sincerely #at least get some better critical thinking skills before picking stupid arguments with random strangers online #but hey! play stupid games win stupid prizes<3 right??#also one final note: to hear someone talking about the lived experiences of them and their real life loved ones and go 'hmm. sounds fake'.#its just giving Friendless. its giving 'how could anyone make fun art without doing crazy drugs!!'.#its giving 'Wait yall have friends irl? i thought it was just a joke'. its fucking hilarious and im gonna think about it forever #thank u for a lifetime supply of laughs godspeed

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pepprs · 2 years

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bad enough that i am stuck in my life but even worse when i have to work through / around the stuckness in front of people i care about / explain it / be perceived in experiencing it. UGH!!!!!!

#purrs #i live in my childhood home i share a bedroom withy sister it hasn’t been redecorated since before we were born i don’t even have a license #ive never dated or even been liked like that by someone i know except one time ive never done like 75-80% of the things ppl my age do and im #gonna show up empty handed and empty brained to everythi ng and be seen as stupid and uncaring and whatever when really im just tired and my #life is so flat rn and i don’t have the strength to pull it up by myself and give it shape again but i have to. i don’t think i have covid (#thank GOD) but i can say even without having ever gotten it and hopefully never getting it that it has ruined my life like genuinely. i mean #good things have come out of it too but i was already socially / emotionally stunted and then being locked down for a year and a half like l #literaly not leaving my house for anything but medical stuff until july 2021 was so PRPFOUBDLY damaging. i feel like someone has taken a the #motion blur tool i. photoshop and just drawn like a scribble over me so some parts of me are stretched to where they need to be and other pa #parts are stuck at like age idk 16 and i think i need to have most of the parts motion blurred to like… move forward! but i can’t make that #happen and i have to explain it and move around it and it’s so EMBARRASSING omg. girl help i am flowering on the wall i am blooming late i a #am hiding in my shell and i want to come out but i also DO NOT so i am cowering in fear forever and never standing up for myself or standing #up at all to be honest!! lol 😸👍#anyways this post is brought to you by how INSANELY much i do not want to reply to a particular email in my inbox or spend my time tonight #[redacted] on express when i am already so exhausted. and if that makes me a bad person then so be it i guess i am one #* i don’t even have a LEARNERS PERMIT let alone a license. lawl <3

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ii-zi · 1 year

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Even when they ask, venting to people makes me feel like a tar pit lol

#E asked like what's up i havent seen u in years u never come when we gather like are u Ok #n i was thinking for so long like a way to explain without burdening them but also not seem like making generic excuses..#and after thinking for so long and not liking anything i was too tired to be coherent #so I just started writing.. and ended up venting without even asking if it was ok in 34 fucking messages lol #dropped as much as i could think of. cried in the bathroom for a while. played it cool in the gc #genuinely feel like concrete shoes on everyones feet every time i speak to anyone specifically my friends #like yeah friends r there to support u n shit but like. im well aware of how terribly tiring it gets when someone only #opens their mouth to vent lol #worrying about worrying them only adds to my worries. do you see my point #vent #personal #it is not only a chore and a pain (and a source of worries) to them but also to me #so they can like. pretend it's not happening. or keep poking to try and help. or silently slide off like w C #but idk which one would hurt less lol #even here w how often i vent i feel like yall see these type of post and just go ''ah. bottomless pit of despair again. dear god''#and that's not like. being unking towards yall. i get tired of /having/ to vent this much lol it is a lil freeing but #freeing like putting off a lil of the fire that is burning you alive is freeing. id much rather not have been on fire from the beginning yk

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astrxealis · 2 years

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sometimes (often) i think about the characters i kin or relate to and then the realization comes in again and again that i need therapy (/lh?)

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#unfortunately i doubt i will ever get therapy bcs i have this. thing. idk. but i believe in myself to just rely on myself?#and yeah i uhh can go on more about that BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT OF THIS sorry i suck at explaining things. anyways #humans. interesting. i am fascinated by humans and myself and i'm tired of typing now GOODBYE anyways xiv music is so fucking good #and also idk how to interact w others sorry ..... i am scared of getting close to people bcs everyone i've grown close to has ended up #leaving me or i mess up! but tbh it's better now i think and also not as bad as i think but sorry i still have bad issues with. that #me saying i don't want to type anymore and then proceed to rapidly type out so many words oopsies #pls just do not PERCEIVE ME !! unless you want to ig but idk why you'd want to do that uhm #yk i like tumblr most out of all social medias bcs it feels like i can... sort of just be my weird self here! and it's not fully nice #and i still have anxiety problems and overthinking problems and whatnot which is evident by my 100+ notifs i havent checked since #christmas but that's not the point (?) idk whats the point honestly uhhhh nvm (??)#OH I LOVE FF SO MUCH tbh it's w/o a doubt still my favorite series ever but drake/nier is also up there for sure #which i think is amazing bcs i have yet to finish a game. and ive only like played idk 5 hours of replicant and automata #and then ive already spoiled myself on important aspects of all games but that helps ngl uh. i could explain but im tired of typing #ANYWAYS GOD actually noehgjbsejhbghjes i really suck w interacting w others i really wish i were better at all that #im not super introverted or shy im just kinda awkward and anxious but im a fun person and all and idk #and tbh its interesting thinking abt my personality... some parts of me havnt changed at all from a bit (/pos) like my lively. aspect of my #personality !! i was a bundle of energy and a little annoying (perhaps unintentionally but now i think its a bit more on purpose lol)#but the only person who really sees my true self is me. and the closest to that is lune. but even i dont know who i really am #and yeah... wnvr im like woa ill make more friends !! and then when i have the opportunities i suddenly dont care anymore IT SUCKS #anyways i think i have Opportunities now again so lets see haha ?? at least uhh in school. its like 2nd sem and i dont rlly have friends #as usual haha that sounds so sad help BUT its not like im disliked im just rlly quiet and shy at school..... throwback to 7th grade tho #that was rlly the worst but also now is just as bad in a diff sense but back then i cldnt talk w my crush at ALL i didnt speak at all im so #sorry about that HELPPP I RLLY JUST CLDNT SPEAK anyways moving on in my class rn i do have a group of sorts. like #we're grpmates wnvr theres grpworks and we can pick which is nice! ive been classmates w em all b4 and theyre the cool kids #but in the more fandom sense and one used to be a close friend of my twin and of mine too by extent and then the other was someone #who knew me when i was more extroverted so yeah uhhh anyways #OKAY ALMOST MAX TAGS im DONE rambling. bye. hopefully. bye. oh god

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hecksupremechips · 6 days

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I forget that I have every mental illness until I’m having another week long spiral over a offhand comment made by a friend months ago that if you take and interpret in the most bad faith way imaginable it means uh oh this person isn’t who you thought they were ahahaha you idiot you obsessive freak you’ve been so attached to this person and it turns out they’re a monster actually and you’re so lonely and desperate that you forced yourself to be okay with them this is proof you’re incapable of feeling anything for anyone and that you’re right to believe everyone is evil and stupid. Die

#ughhhhhhh and the worst part with this specific kind is like how would i even get reassurance if i needed it #like its like ‘hey dearest friend i bet you dont remember but you made a joke 4 months ago that ive obsessed over and basically ive decided #that youre irredeemably evil so please explain to me why you arent’#and in general i have a bad habit of acting like a parent towards others and like i know everything and have to teach them how to behave #cuz yippee unhealthy family dynamics mess everything up #so I have to restrain myself from doing that with friends cuz not only is it exhausting its also like #is really condescending and assumes they cant take care of themselves and make their own choices or have their own opinions #but then i try so hard to avoid being that guy that if i let minor things slide i panic over it #like really stupid shit like someone could sarcastically say they idk push old ladies down the stairs for fun #but they dont make it super obvious with their voice that theyre being sarcastic #and then i panic cuz what if they genuinely think its okay to push old ladies down the stairs and i said nothing?#i thought they were a nice person but theyre gonna betray me just like everyone does and im stupid for trusting them #ughhhh i hate this i hate it so much i dont know why i do this so bad i try every technique to calm down #i gotta be okay with no one being perfect and not every moment of confusion getting closure #but god im so tired of turning on people like this its like i feel so fake i love you so much its obsessive #but then you say one thing that i dont particularly like and uh oh i hate your guts actually!#and yeah what triggered this specific spiral is actually so stupid lol but it reminded me why i keep everything secret all the time

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sevynchaos · 1 month

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the double standards of a western sport, how nice!

#iykyk I am not explaining any shit bc im tired #god knows any other person would get eaten alive #for something thats not even as big as this #sev lb

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kimmkitsuragi · 6 months

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2 days until great news 🤗🤗🤗 it's manifestation or whatever u guys call it

#yes :))) sure im so normal and fine about it #can other things get announced too like omfg. im so sick and tired of being in a transitional period #it's like. so humiliating to go haha it's kinda complicated to explain what i do rn :D #why? because what you do is complicated??#oh nooo it's just that um. it's just that i dont do it. haha #honestly. honestly i feel like everyone around me is sick of this too and #i feel like most people dont even want me to go through with this even if i succeed #and like i tried SO HARD and im still trying so hard so. it feels very discouraging to see people going 😒🙄#god i literally tried to pull a spiderverse miles moment like IMMA DO MY OWN THING #and thought i could actually do it 🤣🤣🤣 pathetic #and now everyone is disappointed everyone is booing and im so. very normal #absolutely doing good . 100% believing myself it all starts with self confidence 🤗🌸💅#well truthfully i feel like im giving the kendall 'i feel like if i dont get to do this i might like. die' moment 👍👍#but anyway. haha yeah surely what can go wrong. i can just die if i fail it's chill guys #🗒

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 8 months

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My sleep schedule lately has been 6am-9am and 11am-5pm, which is not super great tbh, so today I tried to stay awake by walking to the coffee shop and getting a nice coffee and pastry, which worked for a bit but now it's 1:30pm and I'm super sleepy so I thought "I'll just nap from 1:30pm-2:30pm and that'll fix me" but I can't fall asleep. But I'm too tired to do anything. So guess I'll die??

#why yes i am worried about how much sleep i need #thank you for asking #i literally wasted my last three days by just sleeping through them #which is not great for my mental or physical health #i havent done any research into this yet but i feel like it might be vitamin d deficiency #that makes you tired right?#i know when i was younger i was deficient and they thought that was why i was depressed #pretty sure the guy just did not take my mental illness symptoms seriously because i was young so he blamed it all on deficiency #not saying i wasnt deficient. just saying that not all of my symptoms could be explained by that and i feel like he overlooked some #and last time i saw a doctor they said im d deficient too. so i took supplements for awhile but only because i got them on sale #theyre expensive when theyre not on sale. so i stopped #but now im thinking of maybe getting more and also a sun lamp #because my life is very sad when i spend all of my waking time exhausted and all of my free time sleeping #today is a rare energy day #and i feel like its because its almost sixty degrees and sunny and i took a little walk #im gonna mske some pasta salad and shower snd take my dog for a walk #so hopefully thatll help even further #because god the health is bad rn #edit: i just ordered some vitamin d gummies and a sun lamp #hopefully thatll fix my brain because tbh im at the end of my rope rn and i need some help climbing

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ozlices · 9 months

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wrote another note as civilly as i fucking could despite still being triggered, honestly. if this one doesn't result in us actually make up i fucking give up bruh i cant keep doing this w her

#mine #i tried in the og letter to be like i rly wish u'd just understand my journey w dealing w my trauma wrt my abuser #is the same journey that ur going on w my dad & im not ready for that journey yet.#like dawg. i literally watched my daughter fucking die this year then got betrayed by my roommate & damned back to where it happened #sorry not sorry coddling my 30 y/o abuser who still throws tantrums is not on my priority list of processing & healing ??????#she literally has held this shit over my head my entire life #she believes my abuser at her word automatically & she always has #but my word is always called into question. like... god it's so fucking exhausting.#even when i was a kid if we woke her up from fighting my abuser always told her side of the story before me #& it was believed even if i was sobbing my eyes out from being traumatized.#she literally said in her note that i need to explain stuff that happened to her if it rly did happen & it's just.#I DID!!! I DID /WHEN/ IT HAPPENED!!! & GUESS WHAT?! YOU BELIEVED MY ABUSER OVER ME!!#WHAT DIFFERENCE WOULD RELIVING MY TRAUMA MAKE NOW??? NONE!! ALL IT WOULD DO IS TRIGGER ME FOR NOTHING!!!#im so fucking tired bruh i literally am at my wit's fucking end #i am trying so damn hard to stay afloat but i wanna scream & break shit #bc it's so fucking infuriating to have made sm progress just to get reset like this. & to an even worser degree UUUUGGGHH #i hate being a person so much #vent//#delete later//#abuse mention//

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