#i basically kind of idolized him i think and i didn't pay attention to a lot of his downsides

[yotd2009]

ok fr last one but there's actually a bootleg of my school's anastasia and i'm linking it bc you all NEED to understand that my infatuation with this one girl's voice which started when i was in the 6th grade and still hasn't really worn off isn't based on nothing

[lemorgochan]

oh, good afternoon!how do you feel? I would like to ask: how do you feel about any pairings in the fandom "Hello, Charlotte!" have favorites? If yes. then what?: "D

I was a huge enthusiast of Vincent/Charles (quite tender-obsessive in romance and nothing about any sexual stuff because that didn't really make any sense here). But recently I changed my mind about Charles in very,,, sad direction. Had to witness the worst fucking charles kinnie ever seen on the planet to fully realize his downsides and also have most of the good associations ruined after that. It made me change my mind about the ship too, now their dynamic seem to me a lot less appealing I also enjoyed Bennett and Felix's ship, but I'm not sure if I see it as a romantic or a platonic one, probably closer to platonic. I think Anrie and Charlotte might be a nice ship, but i personally wasn't much into it, so idk And overall i like the concept of everyone being friends. because i love friendships.

[inconspicious-random-thoughts]

I recently stumbled upon a short fan comic on Tumblr that indicates that Vox's bent antennae and Valentino's plucked antennae respectively were a result of a previous fight with Alastor. Do you think there could be some truth to this? We know Vox is obsessed with Alastor for more reasons than one, but Val's comment about the Radio Demon owing them "much more than money" indicates that Val has his own little beef with Alastor that go beyond just being supportive of Vox.

Hey there my friend!

I completely agree that Alastor responsible of their damaged antennas as a result of a tussle between them. (It's kind of cute its the same side so they "match") Personally, I think its from THE fight that "Alastor nearly beat" Vox. Which I think, Alastor was winning against Vox, until the other Vees stepped in. "powerless without the other Vees" Along with Val pinching Vox cheek in a fond yet mocking fashion when he said "almost beat you that one time" knowing it was because of Val involvement Vox didn't lose. They all sustained some type of damage from that fight. I'm curious if Alastor took damage of an antler but fortunately for him, antlers grow back.

We focus on Vox with his beef with Alastor but its very plausible Val has his own reason to beef with Alastor too. Val just isn't as consumed and fueled by it like Vox is. I think with Vox, its just a lot more personal. Because Vox fell about 20 years before Val, so for a good while I assume Vox and Alastor was a duo. I think it was more or a friendly mentorship on Alastor part. Vox more then likely idolizing Alastor and only connection/friendship he had or at least cared about. So there's about 20 years of more of a close personal connection Vox had with Alastor, who also most likely reason Vox was able to survive and stand on his own legs in Hell before he even met Val. So when that very close relationship was cast aside by Alastor because Alastor or Vox couldn't put aside their difference on the big fight, it stung.

I think with Val, Alastor always had animosity with. He looked down on Val because of Vals involvement in the sex industry and just his general nature. Val being one of the people Alastor would hunted in life.

So I think Val always being belittled and dismissed by Alastor, along with some annoyance and perhaps jealously that Vox is still hung up on the Radio Demon, AND with his damage antenna, its very possible that Val would want Alastor to suffer or knock down a few pegs.

Plus that line "much more than money" is so mysteriously ambiguous. It felt it had a personal note. But perhaps Val was speaking mostly more for Vox and little for himself.

But we don't get to witness Val animosity towards Alastor. He basically dismiss Alastor as a point of interested and regard with him boredly. He didn't pay attention to Alastor fight, just scrolling through his phone. He only mention Alastor being at the hotel to Vox like it was a passing thought that he knew would grab Vox interest. because "Killing Alastor was Voxs kink."

Val wasn't all that interested or concern about Alastor potentially making deals with the princess of Hell. He looked like he was required to be at the Vee meeting and bedazzled his weapon to make time pass quicker during the meeting.

While the Vees support each other, they don't seem to hold much of their own weight in interest for their partners personal interest. They scroll through their phones as one of them rant. Vox scrolled almost boredly with Vel complaining about Val, and the same as Val complained against Angel. While both Val and Vel supported Vox interest in Alastor and the hotel fight (You think they are more invested in it?) by sitting with Vox as they scrolled through their phones. So all of them are clearly there for each other (At least physically) but clearly don't express or shown interest of the Vee they are supporting (some seem even reluctantly) unless it may affect the business.

Logically by filling gaps with guessing, Val should have a vendetta about Alastor but he doesn't seem to match what we seen canonally. He seems to merely be supporting Vox. I prefer Val has his own personal grudge against Alastor, even if it was a much smaller compared to Voxs grudge against the Radio Demon. I think the annetna was done by Alastor and I think Val would take that a great personal inflection and cause a great hostility towards Alastor for it. I mean...originally Lex Luther hates Superman because Superman was the reason he was bald. Lex became Superman greatest enemy and it all started by an accidental baldness. I think Val would be just as petty if not more.

Unfortunately, I don't think we ever would get to see Val take and reasonings against Alastor if there are any because I think the show would only focus on Vox vendetta against Alastor. (complicated and sad) So I don't think we see more then Val support of Vox in regards to Alastor. (I don't think the show will get a lot of air time because with every show I enjoy, it gets canceled)

[dreamychuu]

Hey is it possible if u can do cute fluff seperate headcanons of hiiro, nazuna, rei x reader where the reader is an energetic and sweet fan saying her admiration for him of his asking for a hug picture with him? Can u also state their reactions and the type of hugs the characters give pretty pleeease?

A/n : many detail's blow my brains out, i have no idea how to make headcanon im sorry if this is actually do not count as headcanons. I hope this is long enough for you! , and please enjoy! (I think im gonna update my rules after uploading this)

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๑ - mesmerizing in my eyes

╰┈➤ - Warning/info : no use of spesific pronouns only (you/your) for the reader , a random fan acting creepy (not reader) , not proofread im too sleepy

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Hiiro amagi | catcher hug

◇ I think he's not used to hug someone

◇ and if he do hug you tightly until you got suffocated.

◇ or he will hug you in a "catcher hug" Either if you jumped on him or he is the one who carry you.

◇ both of his hand wrapping it self of you while your Hands in his shoulder as the bot of you stare at each other eyes while he let out a chuckle.

◇ But if he does you need to hold on him tightly so you wont fall

◇ overall hug his 7/10! But if were talking about his carrying kind of hug its 4/10 (you can fall at any times especially if you got to mesmerize by his beautifull eyes)

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◇ You are very excited when your friend invite you to go with them to Alkaloid meet and greet! Especially the fact that you will meet the leader of alkaloid "hiiro amagi", the person you truly admire and the one who always shine in your eyes.

◇ when its finally your turn to met him , you definitely just jumped right in front of him and start talking about how amazing he is! Leaving your friend confused.

◇ and basically you tell him about how much shining and talented he is , especially when he is new to the idol Industry!

◇ at first he will be caught of guard by you suddenly apper in front of him but hearing you talk to him about how happy you can finally met him , making him smile.

◇ will be very happy and start following your move (ex. When you randomly start jumping while talking to him cause BEACUSE of how excited you are)

◇ he might start to feel bad that he doesn't know anything about you! Especially when you're the sweetest person he ever met (or the sweetest fan)

◇ Seeing how close you look with hiiro makes Tatsumi and Aira laugh while Mayoi doesn't pay any attention. (he was too nervous okay)

◇ aira whispered something to tatsumi ears before he do as aira pleased and approached the both of you

◇ he offer you to take a hug photo together with hiiro.

◇ being an energic person + and beacuse of excited you're , without hesitation you immediately accept tatsumi's offer.

◇ as you and hiiro facing each other you thought he will hug you a good 'ol bear hug but you were wrong...

◇ he suddenly carry you and hugs you in a catcher hug hug except he is the one who carry you instead of you jumping in his arms. he laughs happily as you froze by the sudden move.

◇ but finally you come to your senses again when aira has started counting.

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"1 , 2 , 3 , CHESEE", aira said while taking a photo of the both of you. in the photo you both look like a couple.. if people doesnt know that you are just an idol and a fan, you probably will get him in trouble.

even after the photo shoot you didn't let go of the hug and with that , he didn't let go of the hug either.

You two was giggling at each other before you finally heard your friend called your Name indicating your turn is up to and you have to part away with him.

after that you were putted back down by him and ran to your friend who was waiting for you. but before you turn around , you shouted at him who was still staring at your direction.

"you're my favorite person! i wish you nothing but unlimited happiness just like the happiness you have brought to me!"

he was a bit surprised by your statement but he still replied with "thank you!! I will try my best to keep you feel the happiness!!". before you finally left with your friend.

after the words fell out of his hands , he felt a poke on his shoulder.

"Come on, hiiro," Aira said while pulling the red-haired boy hair running toward the rest of the alkaloid member. He looked back to the direction you dissapear one last time with a smile on his face.

Being an idol isnt his reason to be here, but knowing he bring someone happiness make him glad that he became an idol.

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Rei sakuma | intimiate hug

➹ this man will hug in a one of those loving couple position and im SERIOUS (man is the king of fanservice)

➹ and while so he definitely will tease you about the hugging position you're in with him!

➹ the position is similiar with intimate hug but you guys arent actually couple.

➹ at first it would be a normal hug but when you let go a bit he pull you into the intimiate hug!!

➹ one of his hand on your waist as he grab your hand and wrapped them around him.

➹ if you're shorter than him you have to look straight up to his face with a mischievous on his face.

➹ if you're taller than him you have to look down as his hand on your face start to pull you down closer to his face!

➹ anws when you both pull out the at the same time the sound of a scream came from koga meet and greet room.

➹ what happen you ask..? He get caught of guard by a random fan that sneak out to his meet and greet room!.

➹ BUT YEAH overral his hug is 8/10 (bonus 1 point for the romantic move)

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➹ it was finally your turned to meet with one and only leader of demons or what we can call the dear "sakuma rei"

➹ The meet and greets are held separately for some reason but maybe its for the agency profit

➹ so if there are fans who want to met them all will pay more. but it doesn't affect you of course because you just want to meet the dear sakuma rei!

➹ before entering the door, You excused yourself to the guard next to the door.

➹ when rei realized that someone just get in he moved his head around to greet the person.

➹ when suddenly he got cut off by you who jumped in front of him so fast while pulling out a gift out of your little bag.

➹ he just stare at the gift on your hand as his mouth can be seen in a "0" Shape. Showing that he was Impressed and shocked by your sudden burst out energy.

➹ after thanking the gift. He start interrogate the gift as you can be heard saying that you really admire him and think that he is very talented!

➹ he smiled st your statement and before he wanted to answer your ramble the sound of someone laughing can be heard in the room

➹ it turns out that kaoru is walking around to the others meet and greet rooms while its his break time!

➹ "how about you two take a hug photo together? I think this dear would like it" , kaoru said to rei

➹ the both of you nod indiciating that the both of you agree.

➹ he moved and stand in front of you as he pull you into a normal hug that a fan and an idol will always have!.

➹ but after the long hug you wont let him go making a idea pop out in his head.

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After kaoru taking a picture of you and rei hugging, kaoru pulled down his phone. Rei expect you to pull out of the hug but unfortunately you didnt

He was thinking for a while as a idea pop out of his hands. As he change the Position and put his hands on your waist followed by his face move closer to you.

Its not just his face that moved closer but his hand actually pull you closer to him as he pull you to an "intimiate hug".

kaoru was definitely suprised by the vampire move but decided to laugh it off and secretly take some picture.

But of course the moment was ruined by a scream of a certain wolf boy.

"WHO ARE YOU!?? GET OUT!!!", koga scream as he grab a random stick and point it out towards the window.

Kaoru's attention was diverted away from you as he went out of rei's room to koga room while calling the security to follow him.

Rei sighed as the both of you pulled out of the hug. "Maybe its your time to go, sorry that your time have been disturbed..", he said while looking at the other direction.

You tug his cloth sleeve making him look at your direction once again.

"Thank you for being my favorite , I hope the problem will be resolved quickly and hopefully you will feel the same happiness that I feel because of you!" , you said before finally exiting the room and leave him.

he looked towards the door one last time and let out a chuckle before smiling.

"Hearing you say that alone already make's me feel happy"

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Nazuna nito | bear hug & side hug

✮ nazuna give the BEST HUG you ever had in your intire life

✮ he is literally ra*bits nii-chan! Of course he give the best comfort hug ever.

✮ if i could rate his hug i think it will be, for the creative move 3/10 BUT FOR THE MOST COMFORTING AND WARMEST HUG IT WILL BE 10000000000/10

✮ HEAR ME OUT BEAR HUG NAZUNA! , BEAR HUG NAZUNA! , BEAR HUG NAZUNA!, AND BEAR HUG NAZUNA!

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✮ one day he was going to the amusement park with the rest of the ra*bits member

✮ and at the same time you were there too, waiting for your friend in front of the cotton candy machine.

✮ until you saw nazuna approaching to the cotton candy machine making you all excited!

✮ what is nazuna doing here!?, is he going on a vacation?!?? , is he approaching you!!?

✮ nazuna does notice how someone beside the cotton candy machine was staring at him as he take on of the cotton candy.

✮ some how just by looking at you caught hus interest and thats why he decided to walk closer and introduce himself.

✮ he would be flattered when you suddenly said how much you admire and adore him so much after he tell he was "nazuna nito" The Ex - ra*bits leader.

✮ a blush apper on his face when one of the rab*bits member apper behin him and offer you to take a hugging pictures with him.

✮ after all you're so sweet , of course the dear yellow haired boy would loved too if you want to take a picture with you , right?

✮ i don't think nazuna have a weird or some unexpected kind of hugs.

✮ he will pull you in good ol' bear hug

✮ if you're taller than him. Your hand will be on his back While one of his hand on your neck with the other one on your back.

✮ if you're shorter than him it would be the same but just reserved.

✮ after the hug you doesnt immediately pull out making him confused but he just went along with it and give you a little pat in the head/the back of your Head.

✮ a called of your Name can be heard from a familiar voice as the Voice get closer.

✮ You then remember that your first destination here is just to wait or your friend. finally.

✮ and oh well..?

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Hajime let out a small chuckle as he adjust the camera he was holding. The two of you looks like already deep into the hug maybe its beacuse of how much you adore him..?

whatever the reason Hajime thought it was cute! even though at first he was a little afraid that you would refuse his offer.

and after taking a few photos with Nazuna asked you to take a picture with a "one sided hug" Too, finally your photo session was over.

But that doesn't mean your hugging session was over. As You don't let go of your hug made the boy shocked and froze.

Hajime once again laugh at the both of you. But After being stuck in that position for a while, a shout of your name calling can be heard from afar.

oh yeah... you remembered... you were near tge cotton candy machine because you were waiting for your friend.

As You finally let go of your hug and looked Nazuna right in the eye. "I hope you feel true happiness like the happiness you gave me", you said followed with a sweet smile apper on your face.

he replied with a smile too and said goodbye when he saw you walking away towards your friend who was looking for you.

"Thank you..."

[pepperoniandmeatballs]

☆Bathtub Breakdowns☆

An angsty fic about our favorite skeleton Killer! Basically a debrief on what goes on in his head when he's not feeling his 100% silliness!! He's just a girl.

But I wanna mention a big WARNING for SHELF HATEFUL THOUGHTS, VOMIT, GAGGING, SUICIDAL IDOLATION, VERY BAD COPPING SKILLS, REFERENCES TO HYPER SEXUAL TENDENCIES, DRUGS AND ROMANTICIZING NOT SO GREAT STUFF. Please please stay safe guys and if you prone to like idk manifest these kinds of things don't read. Like seriously.

But anyway, In my opinion it's not that bad but it does have some triggering topics soooo ya... be careful?

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Trembling fingers frantically scatter agaisnt cool metal as he heaves. Mouth full with black tar, he gags and wretches all over himself. Spilling his insides down the drain like black goopy rain. White hot pain travels through magical veins like fire as he messily carves more diagonal lines up fractured wrists. The cuts are so deep HP dwindles like falling snow, however he's not cutting to kill. He's cutting to feel.

Killer can't even see how crooked and messy they are as they overlap each other creating a thick pool of blood that fully covers the whites of his marrow. It gives him a little rush of power that fuels his left hand into continuing. Because this is him. He's the one breaking himself beyond repair not others. He's the reason he's bleeding, shaking and draining himself empty. Its all his fault. And that very thought makes him laugh in a manic display. It's a weak attempt of control but it works. It works so good he loses himself in the movement.

Hours before his recent endeavor, he sits in the infirmary shrouded in guilt beyond himself. Horrors by his side, with bandages in one hand and a deep frown in his features. On his left Dust sits by idly, he's red scarf had been pulled down to reveal his mouth, exposing he's scuffed up face as he breathes heavily.

He was the one who had to carry Killer through the woods, up two flights of stairs, past a heavily concerned cross and into the infirmary. So it makes sense why he's panting like a dog.

They're mission was a success but at the cost of Killer's soul being damanged in the process. It hadn't been anyone's fault but his own. He hadn't been paying all that much attention as they entered the A.U. Lost in space, thinking about nothing in particular, which should've been his first red flag. He's always thinking. Something wasn't right and he ignored it like an idiot.

Perhaps he was manic. He never knows it till after, when he has to face the detrimental consequences of his previous actions.

Everything after that was as fuzzy as Cross's cotton gloves as he lurches forward. Thick blotchy black hate paints his lap. He gurgles and gags as he rasps a breath. He feels like he's drowning.

"Gross.."

Dust from all the way across the room grumbles. Horror lays him back down with unsteady hands. Face making a sour expression as he does so. Killer probably looks a wreck as he drowns. Soon a veiw of midnight tentacles fills his blurry vision until he drifts off into a dreamless slumber.

Now, the waters' hot against his bones as blood flows steadily down the drain. It's almost comforting. The way the water trickles down the back of his head, taking blood and vomit with it. They swirl together in a murky pond of crimson. He's wet and cold but he feels. He feels. It makes him crack a little smile as he's arms sting like killer bees because he feels and last night he didn't but now he does. The pain guides and grounds him to a softer place as he leans against the cold, cool surface of the tub.

He'll stay like this, even just for a little while. Atleast till he's back to whoever that person he is with the others. He assumes that is normal killer. Not cutting in the shower to feel an ounce of emotional coexistence killer. As normal as Killer can get, that is. He's erratically unpredictable at best and recklessly bipolar at worse. Even for this castle, that's not normal.

His white shorts are stained red now, he'll just have to throw those away. There's no salvaging the stained. He thinks bitterly as he curls into himself. The water's cold now. He feels numb and tingly. He needs to get up; do something, but at the same time he just doesn't want to. He's body craves it but he'd rather drown in his own filth than twitch he's fingers.

He just doesn't care anymore to pretend, to put on a show, not right now, not here. Here he's alone and painfully sober. Would weed even fix how broken he is right now? A souless addict who's not even real. How pitiful. He's nothing but a bad joke someone found on the bottom of their shoe. A burden for anyone who's had the misfortune of even looking his way. He's a parasite who feeds off others and he's never ever satisfied.

He fills himself with sex and drugs and sweet adrenaline. He burns with a hunger so violent its practically animalistic, the way he's constantly wanting more. Its never ever enough.

He doesn't have a real self anymore, no real personality. The real him died the moment he made that deal. Causing him to became this. This walking, talking, tool for anyone to pick up and use. That's what he wants. To be used, to be manipulated, handled, bended this way and that way till he snaps like elastic. That's why he taunts and taunts. That's why he acts the way he does, to get that delicious response to his fabricated facade.

That's why he clings to the boss so closely. That's why he tests his patience to the absolute thinness. He's an addict to the power play, to the pain, to be played with in such a horrific way it makes his psychotic little mind do flips. He wants to be destroyed by Nightmare's hands and then molded back together just to be broken again. It's sick and twisted but he doesn't care because he's nothing but that. Rottoned and diseased.

Color tries to fix him and he doesn't understand why he still sees a skeleton who onced lived in the same bones he does. And like the miserable leech he is, he uses Color's kindness and feeds off of it. Colors so different from Nightmare and yet it still gives him that same blissful high that leaves him patheticly obsessed.

Without them he wouldn't be here. He's so whole heartily dependent on others that when he's alone he doesn't know what to do with himself. It's sad honestly. How pitiable he is. It should disgust him if he wasn't so disconnected with himself.

"Who's the real killer?"

They mock and laugh at him. All of them secretly hate him. Everyone. They just keep him around to tormet him. Or maybe there just raging masochists like him. How hyperitcal then.

As someone who stands on the edge and let's the wind sway them every which way he understands what it's like to want to die but not commit. Disheartening isn't it? That he rather hide in the bathroom and waste water than step outside and put on another show.

He rather bleed himself out then get up and start the day. He's such a disgrace. Even Dust atleast rolls outta bed and sulks in the living than in his room. Don't get him wrong though, Dust is no better than killer when it comes to this stuff but atleast he has the ounce of decency to not parade himself around and be a nuisance to all.

He wants a cig, anything at all to smother the agonizing emptiness but deep down he knows he doesn't deserve it. Not right now. The water's still running and he's barely bleeding now. He won't die, not like this but he'll be hella sore tomorrow. Lucky for him there's no errands that need to be done so he'll get to cause as much caos as usual.

"This is what you deserve."

While he self-loaths he decides to occupy himself by looking around his restroom. It's simple for Nightmare's gloomy castle. The walls are a deep purple with gold accents here and there with black trimmings. His bulb went out a while back so the room is filled with red candles. Crimson wax drips from them and its funny how much he finds himself relating to those candles. Its not like he needs them, he just likes them and they're dirt cheap. It never gets fully dark anyway, not with killer soul always glowing. It's annoying to say the least but you get used to it over the years.

His bedroom is much smaller than the others and Is the closet to Nightmares study. Sometimes if he's really quiet he can hear him writing. He lets out a breath as he stares at himself through his crooked reflection.

The mirrors glass is cracked due to a violent episode he had months ago. Tore up his knuckles and fractured all his fingers. But it was worth the pain since he got cross to sit down and pick all the individual glass shards out of his hand. Killer can still remember the touch of fingers. How he made him feel delicate and fragile.

Normally he likes things to be intense and rough but on the occasion does he crave passion and vanilla. Something raw that beats lust. Something that leaves him breathless and feeling vulnerable.

He snorts and leans his head back against the tub to stare at the ceiling instead of his mangled display. Stars he's a mess. Wanting love and affection like he deserves that. What a cruel joke.

"So stupid."

He mumbles quietly, it sounds weak even to his own ears. (Ears?) He wonders loosly just how much HP he lost today. Probably quite a bit to feel this shitty. A shitty feeling for a shitty monster. Sounds about right.

He's a murderer, a manipulater, a manic monstrosity. A sadistic freak who puts his life and other endanger just for the thrill. How is he even still alive at this point, because if we're up to him- well you know what he would do. He wouldn't be in the shower sulking around like some kicked mutt.

"Killer?"

He doesn't realize how quiet it got when he heard it. At first he assumed it was just another episode until he heard the timid nock. Cross.

"Hey man, um, you missed breakfast so I brought you some coffee.."

His voice is muffled through the thick door and the sound of the shower but he can still hear that awkwardness in his voice. He's probably picking at fingers too, just like he always does when he's nervous.

"I can leave it by the door but.. Boss says he wants to see you- not now but like, in awile, ok?"

Killer litsens silently. He doesn't want to talk, he doesn't trust his vocal chords to not sound like a little bitch.

"Ok... I'll be in the training room, if ya need anything. See ya around Kils.."

He feels bad. Cross in all his degree and cleverness deep down is still a sympathetic solder who tries to do his absolute best. Helping him comrades must be an old habit becuase here that doesn't happen often. When one of are going through it Nightmare's the one who fixes it or distinguish it. The other just try to mind their business and leave the other alone.

But Cross on the occasion will do something small. Like a worried look, or hand in patrol or a damn coffee that killer can smell all the way from the bathroom and fuck does it smell heavenly. Cross is just good like that and it baffles killer how he can find it in himself to care that much. Even if it's a small gesture it still counts and damn does it help.

So now he moves because he doesn't want to not drink something that might help his neverending numbness. He still doesn't deserve it but who gives a fuck. Later he'll steal a Xanax from Dust and see Nightmare with as much normalcy he can pull out of his ass.

With blood soaked fingers he reaches up and turns the sower off. He falls into routine perfectly. Slowly get up, make your way out off the tub without passing out, crawl towards the cabinet, try not make a mess as you fumble with the bandages and wash your hands. All of it, he's done a million times before.

After shucking off his bloodied shorts and damp clothes he heads to his messy closet and grabs a pair shorts, stolen from Cross, and a long sleeve black turtle neck, thanks to Dusts laundry always finding perchase in his room. Normally his long ass gloves are enough to cover everything but his wounds are fresh and he half assed the bandages so.. long sleeves it is. His soul still looks wrecked from last night as it shakes and fizzes around the edges.

He's a mess as he fumbles toward his door. Slowly does he turn the nomb, expecting cross to be hidding out behind a corner or something. When he peeks out he finds the hallway empty. Good. Looking down he finds the mug full of dark brown goodness. Losing his balance he sits down with a thump and snatches the cup with the gracefulness of a drunk.

The door closes with a click and he's left to wallow in this dimly lit room. With a groan he pushes himself against the wall and pulls his knees to his chest. He looks down and stares at the mug.

A mocha Frappuccino, that's what it is. It's obvious Cross made it. It's in his favorite mug, Dusts' mug, nice and cool with messily drizzled chocolate syrup and almond milk. Killer takes a sip and the tight coil in his gut loosens slightly because of hazelnut. Killer loves hazelnut.

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I love putting all my favorite characters through it lol.

Any request for a future fic with Kils? I'm desperate. XP

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[hannahbanana29]

Enha - When they're jealous Pt4

Heyyyy babes. Part four here... JAKE! Our Aussie mate had to join us at some point. I'm just gonna jump into it - requests open, hope your days are fab 💐

SHIM JAEHYUN

Naur.

Anyway

Jake is flirty, clingy and puppy-like 🐕

Tbh, I think with ALL the members I can see them being jealous but also really chill

BUT AGAIN, I LIKE JEALOUS GUYS, AM I TOXIC?? 🤷‍♀️

I think Jake just really loves you, tbh 😌

Congrats 🎉

What made his clinginess worse today was that he was looking forward to a really relaxing evening with you, and then it gets interrupted by... AHH I NEED ANOTHER BRAD-LIKE NAME 🤦‍♀️

✨Brantley✨ and these names are only gonna get worse I think... Lol

BUT JAKE DISLIKES HIM FOR MORE THAN HIS NAME

Braxton, ✨Brantley✨, Brady - WHATEVER NAME HE HAS

You said to Jake when he returned from his idol duties (lucky you with the rich bf) "Jakey, how about we go to the arcade?"

And you already knew he would be happy to go, which he was

Boy does a little doggy thing where he jumps up and down, then dives onto the couch on top of you, way too excited

Say it with me: "LeT's GaUrRr"

And so you do, but your friend ✨Brantley✨ happened to be there, and you couldn't just not play some games with him 💁‍♀️

"Jakey, I'm just gonna play (a game??) with ✨Brantley✨ and then we can play whatever you want baby"

"But... But skeeball." Jake pouts, holding your waist while trying to convince you by being cute n needy

Puppy dog eyes ENGAGE 🐶👀

But you were looking over to where ✨Brantley✨ was stood by the arcade game you guys had chosen to play, having forgotten it was there for so long and now wanting to relive it

"One minute, Ja-"

'Ja-' didn't let you finish; he'd connected his lips to yours, and at first you almost smiled and you leaned into it. A surprise kiss from your boyfriend was always accepted with delight 🥰

But you tried to pull away, and he didn't let you. Jake even pressed against you closer. You place a hand on his chest, just lightly to push away, but he still doesn't stop kissing you. 🤨

"Oh my gosh, Jake!" You exclaim, kind of shocked 😳

"Uhm, sorry, Jagiya. I just really wanna play-"

"And you thought you could get that by making out with me? Kids come to this arcade" you reasoned, gesturing to a 12yo who was by the air hockey game

You sigh "2 minutes."

While you're playing with ✨Brantley✨, you're both super into it

Biting lips, furrowing eyebrows, slamming your hands down when you make a wrong move 😤

You feel Jake snake his arms around your waist, but you ignore it as you're focused on your game for the moment

He then presses a kiss into your hair, but you don't react. Not to upset him ofc 😢 why would you do that? It was just because you were busy

But then he peppers little kisses along your jawline, closer to your face from behind and you can't just ignore him

You literally freeze 🥶 and stop paying attention to the game and -

"YES! I saw you were distracted and - ah! Won!" ✨Brantley✨ punched his fists in the air giddilt

You sulked. You weren't mad at your friend, ofc, but you were pissed with your boyfriend. Sure, you don't see him every minute of the day, but you hadn't seen your friend in weeks!! 😑

"Jake" you folded your arms, turning to face him with a stern voice

His imaginary tail stops wagging hopefully, and his imaginary dog ears stick to his head in guilt 😣

Basically, he tried to apologise but -

You wanted to have a light-hearted evening of fun. Couldn't Jake let you play a game with your friend for a few minutes at least? He'd have to make it up to you.

You just leave the arcade in a bit of a spiteful way, but it was understandable why

Jake seemed to think the only way to get your attention was through kisses. WELL! You weren't that easy 💅 slay queen

He does the K-Drama thing and runs after you in the rainy night

Grabs your wrist

You stay facing away from him, but he just talks to you from behind, not letting go of your wrist from fear that you'd walk away again

"Y/N. Just listen, please." He sounds serious and his voice is quiet. It must run deeper than simply wanting to play a stupid game

"I... I was looking forward to a nice evening with you after work. I always do, you know? But I guess I just want you to myself a lot of the time. You don't have to come back inside. You can go home. But not without me. I can't imagine you being mad at me without me being there to try and fix - "

Damn.

DAMN JAKE

that's too cute 🥺 WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO US? NAUR!

At home, he makes it up to you how you ask him to 😏

It's dirty

That's right. He washes the dishes when it's acc ur turn

GET YO MIND OUTTA THE GUTTER

Kidding. He makes it up how you want 😉

So that's my FICTITIOUS version for Jake. I've done jungwon, heeseung and Jay as well, if you want to see those. Thanks for reading <3 hope you enjoyed! 😄

Bye bye <3

[mingzisdrgongxuo]

Money!

See? People pay attention to that.

What I don't like is how rich white people preach to their kids as if their kids were black, talking about "you need to be humble", ..... from their 5 bedroom mansion and $500,000 barn for their two pet horses, with the highest luxury model BMWs in their gated, private security driveway.

Talking about "money doesn't grow on trees". Or "I don't have that kind of money".

Preaching like he's the Buddha. Be humble. No wealth. No luxury. Don't look or dress in luxury. Let the other guy be the one who looks wealthier than you.

Probably because none of it was ever his. He was probably owned.

My father was not a role model. I never wanted to grow up to be like my dad. He puts social class division in his own family.

King and his crown, counting his money, and preaching to his beggar son and telling him it "sucks to be you", and then it's off to Germany for a week on "business". Next week it'll be China. Too bad you're hungry. It's winter. Try not to freeze out there.

Fuck this bullshit.

Rich white man with no soul preaching about hide your money or wealth as if they're gonna steal your hubcaps, or swarm you for handouts.

Vice president for a european luxury car manufacturer that supplies the world. Lies about how many houses he owns and collects rent on.....

Mom's brother was an airline pilot. He "showed" more wealth or prosperity bigger houses with bigger swimming pools and manicured yards, and he was basically a bus driver that was good at showing up to work on time.

I don't know. You SEEM to succeed in business. But you sure as fuck didn't succeed as a father or husband to my mother. You split and ran off with your fucking secretary. And I KNOW you didn't tell my stepmother to start saving a half million in pennies when she wants him to buy/build an additional house for two pets, and call it a "barn".

There's no room for me, but there's plenty of money and room for my sister. Ever seen the movie Titanic, and how there was no room for leonardo?Leonardo?

My stepmother must have had a magic pussy or mouth. I know she influenced and put more than half his judgements or decisions in his head.

Stepmother raised by Disney family artists. Saving "orphans". how she never wanted to give birth to kids and had her ovaries removed, .... Openly speaking about how she wished her own mother would hurry up and die through the years as a teenager and young adult.

What else were they doing while saving those orphans?

"Sorry first born son. Your new mom says there's no room for you AND your sister. Now I have to go spend half a million to build a home for two pet horses."

That's how the world works under my father.

It's not who you know. It's who you Blow. Coke or dick.

Being or "looking" poor and meek and humble, did not open doors for me, or earn anybody's respect, did not give me first class seating or put me at the front of the line.

Did faking the funk and being humble so the airline pilot can look like his dick is bigger, make me idolize my parents?

Is my stepmother thankful that I don't go around openly wishing for her to "hurry up and die" in front of the other orphans?

But it did give the other guy their turn, and time in the sun to look better or be better than me.

My father didn't want a son. He abandoned every opportunity his first and second wife gave him to a wife/mother that "mutually" wanted to have children.

They had all this stuff, all this wealth, luxury, and power in business, and STILL didn't look like Nikki Minaj.

What do you think they actually do to ascend higher than that? How are you doing better than the vice president of an international luxury car manufacturer? Wheres your mansion? Wheres your Lamborghini? Where's your Gucci shit? Wheres your masters degree in college? Wheres your high school diploma? Where's your arrest record? Where's your 14 hours a day for 10-20 years devoted to training, schooling, or daily practice as a performing athlete or musician. Don't forget you need a job to pay your rent at college too. Make time for work. Make time for school. Pay rent to live with drug addict and wanna-be gangster roomates to live someplace nice that they turn to shit. How much does that commute take from you?

Why do doors open for you at all?

Nothing is sacred to you "dick". The shit you do to invade my family and their homes... my mom's house, my dad's, my grandparent's, my uncle's, my sister's, my brother's, my house. You disrespect all of us. Every household. Every family.

You've been wiretapping the entire family tree for generations. Raping our legal and constitutional rights.

Were we EVER under investigation?

Illegal surveillance and raping privacy for generations, and you never found anything to arrest anybody over, you just talk your shit through your corporate and media connections and call yourselves justified in your disrespect because religion. Was it supposed to make people go to church once a week to make the television answer my questions about legal disrespect?

C.i.a. was never known for being good people.

I did not need a father that teaches or raises me to be a "good" loser.

[seonghwasriceball]

Enhypen Reaction

To being jealous

Lee Heeseung

A difficult guy to make jealous, I think. Like, it's Lee Heeseung. It doesn't get much better than that. But, anyway, he wouldn't get jealous in a "Someone was flirting with my s/o, what if they woo them and I lose them" kind of way, but more in a "My s/o is giving someone else attention, and I want them to pay attention to me" sort of way.

You were at Enhypen's dorm to spend some time with your boyfriend, but the maknae line had called you away to play a game with them because they were tired of only interacting with people in their group. And for the first little while Heeseung was fine with it, happy even, he loved seeing that you and his group mates got along well, but after two hours, he was getting lonely. He didn't like that you were spending more time with the youngest three than with him, because you were there to spend time with him in the first place. At first, he sat in the room and stared at you for a while, hoping you'd get the hint, but when that didn't work, he went away to sulk in the bedroom. After about twenty minutes of self pity, Heeseung began to feel guilty, because he was the eldest, and therefore he should be more mature than this, and after all, they are kids. They need to interact with people, they're still growing and developing. But the way you hugged Riki when he lost a round instead of hugging him made Heeseung sad. So, instead of whining into his pillow, he texted you to ask if you'd come spend time with him any time soon, and started giggling and wriggling about when you told him you'd finish that round of whatever it was you guys were playing and you're all his. When you finally came and laid down next to him on the bed, he had the biggest, cheesiest grin on his face, and he basically pinned you to the bed with his body, his face in your neck, voice slightly muffled when he said,

"Hope you peed before you got here, because I'm not letting go any time soon."

To sum up, Heeseung will get quiet, then disappear when jealous. He'll recognise and acknowledge the feeling, and then feel bad and immature for it, but cuddles and reassurances from you make it all better.

Jay Park

Jay is more easily jealous than Heeseung, but again, not in an insecure way, but in a "this guy has the audacity to flirt with and touch my s/o? Nah, I don't think so" and a "that should be me with my arm around their shoulder" kinda way.

So, you were out with Jay shopping, and whilst in one of the shops, you met a classmate who was always kind of flirty with everyone but had been much more forward with you specifically over the past few weeks. It had made you pretty uncomfortable, but he wouldn't stop. You had told Jay about it when it would not let up, and he had asked if you wanted him to do anything about it but respected your wishes when you said no and that you just wanted to vent. But now, this guy was right in front of him, flirting with you and taking your hand to play with your fingers, ignoring Jay and his arm around your waist. When you took your hand back, and he reached out to take it in his again, Jay decided he had enough. Slapping his hand away and glaring at him, Jay pulled you closer to his body and proceeded to tell the guy off.

"They are quite clearly in a relationship, dude. And on top of that, extremely uncomfortable with you. Take a hint and back off, have some self-awareness."

Overall, Jay doesn't really get insecure kind of jealous, more of a protective kind of jealous. He just wants people to know you're taken, and above all, he wants you to feel safe and comfortable. I want one

Jake Sim

Cliché, I know, but I will push the soft boy Jake agenda as far as I can. Jake doesn't get jealous much; he loves and trusts you way too much for that. He wouldn't put his entire heart and soul into you if he didn't. But, sometimes, he'll see you post a picture with some friends, or see you talking with them so freely and excitedly, or you'll mention one name more frequently than usual. He'll start thinking about how being an idol means you can't do all that stuff with him out in the open, and he can't always be there for you when you need him like that one guy from your class can. So, he gets sad and starts to close in on himself. He's more quiet than usual and doesn't joke around with the boys as much.

After class, you had gone straight to the dorm to congratulate your boyfriend and his group on their successful promotions stream fever. You were currently telling Jake about your day because he always insisted you tell each other everything, just to stay as connected as possible. You mentioned one name a lot more than you usually did during your story because you were set up to do a project in pairs, and he was your partner. The guy in question was a classmate you were sort of friends with, but not entirely. Like, if you didn't know anyone else in a room and he was there, you wouldn't feel uncomfortable sitting next to and talking with him, but you wouldn't go out of your way to eat lunch with him, so you had never really mentioned him much before, but he had made a hilarious mistake when working together, which you thought would make Jake laugh, so you told him all about it. When you finished, you excused yourself to the bathroom, and that left Jake alone with his thoughts. He began thinking about how this guy makes you laugh, and is in your class, and can spend so much more time with you, and he started to get really sad. When you came back, you recognised the look on his face immediately and went to sit on his lap and tell him about how much you missed him and how you wish he could be the one doing the project with you. Good intentions, didn't work. That sort of just highlighted the fact that he was missing out on time with you. When you saw it was just getting worse, you resorted to the most fool-proof method you could think of - you began kissing him all over his face and telling him that you're so proud of everything he's doing. You don't mind the long periods of time apart because you wanted him to do what he loves and that you'll always be waiting for him when he has time off. If that doesn't seem to work (it usually does), you would tackle him down on the bed and cuddle him, basically like a koala on its tree. Arms around his shoulders, legs around his waist, your nose against his ear, telling him every three seconds that he was your favourite thing ever.

"Thank you for staying with me no matter what, baby. I love you so much."

Yeah, he gets sad, but you just cling onto him and force it into him that you love him; he'll soon be back to the happy little Aussie boy we all know and love.

Park Sunghoon

How are you gonna make Sunghoon jealous, huh? How are you going to find someone who could live up to that? That's right, you won't. The only way Sunghoon is going to get jealous is if you're sitting really close with somebody else who could possibly be as good a boyfriend to you as him. Like, say you have a guy best friend who you're really close to, and you're sitting on the couch with your legs over his lap. This guy knows you almost as well as Sunghoon does, and you're clearly comfortable with him like you are with Sunghoon, so it's entirely possibly that if he were to make a move, you'd be up for it. That's really the only scenario I think Sunghoon would get jealous in. Of course, he won't say anything, tsundere Sunghoon ain't about that. He'll probably just come sit next to you and make some sort of physical contact that gets across the message of, "My s/o, I love you, even though I don't verbally tell you all the time."

You were over at the boys' dorm, just cause, and were watching a movie with your best friend, Jay, and boyfriend, Sunghoon. You had known Jay for much longer, and in all those years you had been best friends it just became natural that you would invade his personal space, so when you put your legs over his, and leaned back on Sunghoon, neither one thought much of it. Sunghoon got up about halfway through the movie to get a refill on his drink, and you just let your body flop down in his place, legs still on top of Jay's, who now had his hand over your knee. Sunghoon thought nothing of it, until he got back, when a specific line was said on the screen. You and Jay said it in perfect unison and then burst out laughing. Sunghoon recognised the line as one you and Jay would say to each other all the time, it had become an inside joke between you two that neither of you ever explained to anyone, so you always looked like a couple of weirdos to everyone. Everyone except for Sunghoon, who saw that and couldn't help but think about how Jay knew you throughout all of your life, and he was relatively new to you, and got kind of insecure. But, he knew you wouldn't choose Jay over him romantically, but he still didn't see any harm in showing you both who was really your favourite boy. So, instead of lifting the top half of your body and sliding underneath so you were once again leaning against him, Sunghoon picked you up from the couch completely, and sat back down with you in his lap, making sure your body was slightly turned away from Jay. For the rest of the movie he sat there with his chin on your shoulder, arms around your waist, giving you little kisses on your neck every so often.

"Mmmm, isn't this so much more comfortable than before, Y/n?"

All in all, Sunghoon doesn't get jealous often, and when he does, he refuses to admit to it. But, you know. Everyone knows.

Kim Sunoo

HO, BOY, when Sunoo gets jealous, he gets JEALOUS. And, what's more, he makes sure you know. He makes sure the person making him jealous knows. He makes sure everyone in the room knows. He'll start doing aegyo for you, then turn to the guy with a disgusted look on his face, you know the one, the very Sunoo one. Then he'll turn back to you and ask you how cute you think he is, then has the BALLS to ask who you think is better looking, him or the guy who was trying to flirt, and he doesn't even acknowledge them as a threat, he just wants to show them that he has you whipped because he does.

You were hanging out outside with Sunoo when someone came up to you and started flirting, eventually asking for your number. Obviously, you instantly declined and turned to grab Sunoo's arm to leave before he got all competitive, but, alas, it was too late. 4Sunoo was already giving this guy The Looktm. Sighing internally, you just decided you would enjoy the show and pull Sunoo away before he emotionally destroyed this guy. At first, it was just some light scolding. 'They shut you down when you started flirting, what makes you think they'll give you their number?' and 'Couldn't you see they were clearly with someone. We were holding hands, are you blind?' but then he busts out the aegyo, asking you if you would really leave him for some rando off the street, finally turning back to the guy, and telling him once and for all to get lost, before he grabbed your arm and flounced away. You were positive that, had his hair been long enough, he would have ended with a sassy hair flick. and now I must manifest long hair Sunoo real quick

"You really thought you did something there, huh? Newsflash, they've been trying to shut you down nicely since you looked their way."

Yeah, he ain't having none of it.

Yang Jungwon

my SON As much as Jungwon wants to appear mature in your relationship, he's still just a kid, and kids emotions get the best of them sometimes, so yeah, he gets jealous. He gets jealous like Heeseung, in that he wants all your attention, and like Jay because he wants to be the one who's holding on to you, and like Jake, because he knows that he can't spend as much time with you as is ideal, because not only is he an idol, but he is a leader, and therefore has more responsibility than just another classmate you know. So a jealous Jungwon is a sad, insecure Jungwon pls my heart I just want him to smile and never feel sad ever, I will punch his emotions for him if he needs it, he activates such big caring older sister feelings in me, more so than my actual little brother

Enhypen had finished their schedules for the day in the mid-afternoon, so instead of just lounging at the dorm, Jungwon decided he'd pick you up from school and take you to get something to eat. He texted you beforehand to make sure you didn't have any schedule clashes that might get in the way. He waited in the company vehicle while student streamed out of the building, watching to spot you. When he did, he didn't like what he saw. You had exited the building with a boy he had never seen before, laughing and joking. You were actually being quite boisterous, pushing and pulling each other, he could hear your laughter from where he was in the car park. He always loved that sound, and he was happy you were having fun, but he wished like hell that it was him you were hiving fun with. He wanted to mess up your hair and then trip you over and laugh as you stumbled, he wanted to be the one telling you the jokes that made you laugh so hard you had to bend over. When he saw you jump on the other guys back was when he had had enough. He got his manager who was driving to honk the car horn, and got out of the car and waved at you. When you recognised the figure in the mask and bucket hat, Jungwon saw your eyes light up like a Christmas tree right before you started sprinting towards him, without even saying goodbye to your classmate. When you were finally within hugging distance, you launched yourself at your boyfriend, telling him how much you loved and missed him, and how boring everything was without him. Just your natural reaction to Jungwon's presence was enough to calm his insecurities, and he calmly told you that he had missed you as well. It wasn't until later, when he was dropping you off at home did he ask about what was happening with your classmate at school.

"So, who was that guy you left the school building with?"

Baby gets jealous easily, but is also comforted really easily, to the point you never even realise he was jealous in the first place.

Nishimura Riki

Riki is not having it. He doesn't even give the jealousy a chance to creep upon him. If he wants your attention, he's asking for it. If he needs reassurance, he tells you. If he is ever uncomfortable with the way somebody else is touching you, he makes his objections known. He doesn't see the point of keeping this all to himself and worrying about it when he could talk to you and sort it all out. He has more important things to worry about, like whose bed he's going to invade that night or when he's next going to get his fix of bungeoppang. A lot of times, if you're interacting with someone in a way that makes him feel jealous, he'll just pick you up and carry you away, usually just to plop you down in the next room and take a nap on your shoulder.

You were backstage at Inkigayo, waiting for Riki to finish getting his makeup done, so you talked to Sunoo for a while. You actually found out you had quite a lot in common and were bonding over your shared interests for so long that you didn't even notice when Riki was let out of the makeup artists chair. He came and sat next to you, but you didn't acknowledge him, which was fine with him; he didn't want to interrupt such an animated conversation. When Sunoo suggested exchanging numbers so you guys could continue your conversation later, Riki began to feel that tiny bit strange. As he watched you enter your numbers on each other's phones and then Sunoo walk off to get his makeup done, he recognised what was happening and decided to put a stop to it. When Heeseung came up to try and talk to you both, Riki just straight up ignored him as he stood up and lifted you up by your armpits to take you to the corner of the room where he sat you on top of the dressing table and just pressed his face into your neck, muffledly complaining that you liked Sunoo more. Carefully, you ran your fingers through his hair and told him you could only see Sunoo as a friend and that the number was literally just so you guys could gush over Anne With an E when you got home that night.

"All these guys do is take up your time away from me. I hate them. You're never allowed to speak to anyone but me ever again."

Yeah. Riki doesn't take no sh*t when it comes to things cutting into his cuddling time.

[uhhhhforgetaboutit]

Heyyy, so I made picrews of my re8 ocs. Here we have Elaine Dogwood Giannatacio (usually just goes by Elaine Dogwood since some people [cough Heisenberg and Angie cough] cannot pronounce her last name) and Isabel Sato.

Elaine is 5'11 and rather gangly. She kinda stands there like 🧍‍♀️ most the time lmao. Her voice is deeper and smooth, but with just enough rasp to be *chefs kiss* perfect.

Isabel is 5'3 and just small. Not in a super-short-oompa-loompa way, but just a petite way. Her voice is really soft and sweet. The kind of voice you could fall asleep to. Also she can sing! She's not like American Idol or anything but she has a good voice.

Anyway, let us start with Elaine shall we?

Elaine is a very deadpan person with a quick wit and a subtle sense of humor. She likes to keep her emotions under lock and key for the most part. She fears people won't tolerate her if she spills all her negative emotions, so she tends to keep them bottled up. However, she is not a cold or unkind person. Quite the opposite actually, she loves to help people and animals (animals!!!).

Now, about her "powers" (cadou induced abilities) They consist of extreme persuasion/compulsion. By making eye contact with her red eye she is able to compel basically anyone to do anything. Now, Elaine usually wears an eye patch over her red eye because she worries she may accidentally compel someone. However, she does use her ability if she feels lazy or angry and can regret her choices later on. She also compels animals into being her pets because she is lonely.

Now, on to Isabel!

Sweet little Isabel is simply a small town girl who ended up in the wrong place at the wrong time. She wanted to strike out on her own and make a life for herself, but ended up being kidnapped by Daniela. So now she finds herself working as a maid in the Dimitrescu castle. It's not all bad, Alcina treats her employees considerably well. For the most part.

Now, the girls are awfully fond of Isabel because of her inherently sweet nature. Of course Isabel is terrified of the girls, but she doesn't let them know that. She is kind to them, even when they are covered in blood and a bit manic. She makes sure they're warm and happy, and they love that. Of course it's literally Isabel's job but if she was being honest, she'd probably help then anyway. Even though the girls are bloodthirsty and a bit sadistic, Isabel couldn't help but see their personalities underneath. She had grown to love them for themselves, rather than fear them for their violent side.

⚠️Trigger warning⚠️

Depression, anxiety, mentions of suicide and self harm

Now, Isabel is just a kind and happy girl, but she does have her own hidden issues. She had a history of anxiety and depression before getting captured by Daniela, but now that she lives in the castle it's amplified. Her hands tremor regularly as she works form the amount of anxiety roiling around in her small body. At night she lays awake crying silent tears as she remembers the taste of fresh air and the feeling of sun on her skin. Sometimes she feels as though she no longer remembers what happiness feels like. At one point her thoughts turned to offing herself for some type of relief, but she grew scared and steered away from that thought. Instead she settled for cutting her wrists. She felt relief from being in control of her pain, unlike her time in the dungeons with Cassandra.

End of trigger warning

Uhh, now this is basically just a fic of Elaine and Isabel meeting for the first time lmao

Isabel and Elaine met when Elaine came to visit Alcina and the girls. Isabel had been one of the maids to serve dinner, and she cought Elaine's eye. Elaine was very aware of how the girls "played" with the maids, and though she didn't exactly agree with it, she couldn't really blame them either. They needed blood to survive, after all. However, she noticed the faint tremble in Isabel's hands as she set a plate down in front of her. She also caught sight of a single cut on Isabel's wrist as her sleeve rode up, but it was enough for her. 'Poor thing, she's not doing well here.' Elaine thought. Now, of course most of the maids dont do particularly 'well', in the castle, but Isabel was different. Most maids were hurried and spurred on by fear and resentment. Isabel... Isabel smiled, a genuine smile. Isabel had gentle hands as she worked, she worked with care.

So after dinner was finished and Isabel reached for Elaine's now empty plate to take it to be cleaned, Elaine gently grabbed her sleeve between two fingers. Isabel froze, pale blue eyes snapping to Elaine's in surprise mingled with fear. Alcina perked up at the interaction. It was rare that Elaine payed any mind to the maids.

"What is your name, darling?" Elaine asked softly. Isabel hesitated, seeming confused by the entire situation.

"My- my name is Isabel, my lady." Isabel responded in her soft, silky voice. Elaine smiled gently at the girl, examining her face closely. She was very attractive, Elaine mentally acknowledged as she turned her attention to Alcina.

"I've noticed Isabel here has been quite attentive all night, a very good maid indeed. I was wondering if I may take her home with me." Elaine proposed, trying not to let on how much she wanted to whisk this poor girl away from the castle. Alcina grinned wolfishly as she tilted her head downward slightly.

"Oh? You wish to take her home with you?" Alcina echoed in a suggestive tone. Elaine refrained from rolling her eyes and simply smiled thinly.

"Yes, that is what I said." Elaine replied, the hand gripping Isabel's sleeve moving to cup her elbow instead. Her fingers curled around Isabel's arm in a possessive manner as she maintained eye contact with Alcina. Alcina narrowed her eyes for a moment before chuckling lowly.

"Alright, you can have her. Consider it an early birthday present." Alcina said with a grin, and Elaine nodded in response, turning her gaze to Isabel, who looked rather taken aback by the whole ordeal.

"Go gather your things, we'll be leaving shortly." Elaine murmured softly, rubbing Isabel's arm before releasing her. Isabel stayed rooted to the spot before curtsying and hurrying away.

Once Isabel had finished packing and Elaine said her goodbyes the two soon found themselves sitting across from eachother in Elaine's personal carriage. Isabel kept fidgeting in her seat nervously and Elaine sat in an awkward silence. Out of habit she fiddled with her eye patch and saw Isabel tense. Realization dawned on Elaine like icewater being dumped on her head. 'The poor girl probably thinks I'm going to compel her into having sex with me.' She thought guiltily as she lowered her hand to her lap. She cleared her throat.

"When we get to my estate I shall show you to your chambers and leave you to get settled in. If you need anything you can find me and ask, I'm usually awake at most hours. When I do sleep I sleep light, so don't worry about waking me. I also must warn you about Marcello. He's my raven, and he likes to be a pest most of the time. If he bothers you just shoo him away." Elaine explained, watching Isabel closely. The blond seemed to relax the smallest bit before nodding.

"Yes my lady. Thank you." She murmured softly, and Elaine swore her heart melted at the sound of her voice.

"You may also call me Elaine. I'm not one for titles. Marcello on the other hand, you might need to watch out for." Elaine deadpanned with an eyeroll. Isabel covered a giggle with her hand and Elaine's ego inflated itself at the sound.

"Alright, I'll keep that in mind. Thank you, Elaine." Isabel replied with a soft smile, glancing up at Elaine through her bangs. That was the moment Elaine swore to herself that she'd do anything to see Isabel smile that way.

Suddenly, the carriage came to a halt and Elaine quickly got to her feet. She stepped out into the crisp night air before turning to offer her hand to Isabel. In the dim light she could have sworn she saw Isabel blush as she took Elaine's outstretched hand.

"Well here we are." Elaine announced, gesturing to the dark mansion before the two of them. Isabel stared in wonder at the sheer size of the place. She wondered if Elaine truly lived by herself here. 'If she does it must be rather lonely.' Isabel thought, glancing at the taller woman in sympathy. She was surprised to see Elaine already looking at her. They exchanged awkward smiles before walking up to the mansion together. Little did they know how pivotal that moment was.

[hobisenby]

role model

jungkook x male reader

Summary: a young male, y/n, debuts into bighit. The boys from BTS take it upon themselves to help and guide him, but one of them in particular seems to take a liking to the shy boy.

Y/N Y/L/N, latest addition to the bighit "family" as some might call it. A shy and kind, but talented boy. But then again, how couldn't he be talented if he was allowed to debut? It was a surprise to the boy as well, his audition not having gone the way he hoped for. But luckily they saw potential, and looked through the mistakes he made.

During his tour through the bighit building they'd show him where the other artists work, so he'd know where to stay quiet, and where he is to work on his songs. He got a little studio of his own to write and produce his songs, knowing his debut would be soon. So when he was left alone he got to know the place a bit and then got right to work.

A few days later is when he ran into some txt members, Soobin and Taehyun. They all politely greeted each other and got to talking for a bit, the main topic being y/n's upcoming debut. They gave him some encouraging words, and a bit of advice based on their experiences, and then went on to join their other members, leaving y/n alone to wander back to his studio.

A week after that is when y/n first ran into Jungkook, literally. The older boy seemed to be in a hurry and didn't look when he turned a corner, bumping into y/n, causing him to fall over. Jungkook exclaimed in surprise and quickly bent down to help the small boy up. "I'm so sorry, I was in a rush and wasn't looking where I was going." But instead of replying the other boy just nodded, his cheeks seemingly turning red, and his eyes slightly bulging. Unknown to Jungkook, the younger boy was just kind of intimidated and shy in front of the good looking but sweet boy. "I have to get going, I'm sorry again." And Jungkook continued on his way, leaving the flustered boy behind.

Ever since that incident y/n had been bumping into him and the other members quite occasionally, and he got along with each of them well. They all seemed to want to help him with the debut and the stress that will come with being an idol. All of them offered a different kind of support.

Jin is mostly the type to make sure he takes care of himself. Always reminding him that eating and resting is important. Yoongi is the type to listen to the boy rant for a bit, maybe not giving advice, but the fact that he listens can be enough. Hoseok is the one that has assisted him with the choreography for the debut. Namjoon as a leader knows a lot about responsibility, and as a solo artist you'll have to face a lot of stress and responsibilities. So he gives advice and tips concerning all that. Jimin and Taehyung aren't people y/n runs into a lot, but when they do its all so natural. They talk and have fun, making y/n forget about all of his stress for a little bit.

But the one to have been there the most is Jungkook. And to be fair, y/n always goes to him the most, feeling the most comfortable around him. See, y/n is a very shy person, so approaching someone for any reason at all isn't a common accurance and is very hard for him. But Jungkook is one of the few people he would dare ask if needed. Maybe because Jungkook is and always has a huge support to him. Like right now.

"You seem nervous." Jungkooks voice is soft and gentle, like talking any louder will startle the younger. And to be very honest, it actually might. Y/N flushes, keeping his eyes on the screen in front of him. "I am." He whispers. He sounds very unstable and shaky, sounding like he might fall apart any minute. Jungkook sighs softly, turning the chair the boy in sitting on and kneeling, getting to his eye level. He gets close and lays his hands on the boys knees, taking note of how y/n looks anywhere but him. So to create eye contact he lifts one hand to the boys chin and turns his head to his. "Its okay, its been 7 years and I still get nervous when we drop an album, it's natural. But you'll be okay, people will love it." He smiles, dropping his hand to y/n's shoulder instead. This seems to cause the boy to feel flustered, as his ears turn a bright red and he chuckles nervously. "Thank you, Hyung." He stutters out. Jungkook laughs and pulls the boy up from the chair and into a hug. "Anytime."

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"Whatcha working on?" Y/N startles at the sudden voice behind him, but doesn't turn around. Instead he keeps drawing. "Some sketches for upcoming mv ideas." He softly tells Jungkook.

Y/N is still that shy small boy around Jungkook. He still speaks softly, stutters and gets flustered by almost anything Jungkook does. And for some reason it drives Jungkook to him, he finds his responded cute, endearing. He loves it and purposely draws them out. Like this

"Hmm, like what?" He comes closer, almost standing against the back of the chair y/n is in, and lays his hands on the boys shoulders. It's impossible to miss the way y/n tenses under his touch, but doesn't respond to it. Still drawing the boy starts to explain his ideas, talking more freely the more he gets into it. Which is another thing Jungkook loves, how he starts talking louder and faster when he's invested in something. But instead of paying attention while y/n speaks he focuses on something else. The way the boy seems to jerk and tense as Jungkook softly starts to massage his shoulder. Y/N starts stuttering and tripping over his words, clearly not being able to think properly while being touched like this. But what neither of them expect is the yelp he let's out when Jungkooks hands wander to his back. Both of their faces turn red and they go back to what they were doing earlier, neither of them wanting to bring it up.

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"I don't know if I can do this, Hyung." Y/N and Jungkook sit on the couch in y/n's studio late at night. Both of them next to each other as y/n talks about his troubles. In this case its an upcoming award ceremony, and the boy has to do a speech. But he knows his shyness will mess it up for him, and he's terrified. "You can." Jungkook simply says, laying his head on y/n shoulder and yawning. He feels the boy tensing one again but he doesn't milk it this time, knowing it's not the right timing. "You're y/n. You're talented, kind and amazing. You can do anything." He continues snaking an arm around the younger. Y/N coughs and looks to the left, the opposite way of where he'd be able to see Jungkook basically cuddling into him. "I hope you're right."

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"I WON!!" y/n yells as he runs up to Jungkook. He has a huge smile on his face and his yell could probably be heard throughout the entire building, but neither of them care. As the younger gets closer Jungkooks first response is to wrap his arms around him and lift him up. "I'm so proud of you." He exclaims and puts the boy down. Y/N face could be compared to a tomato and while the smile is still on his face his eyes show just exactly how flustered he is. His excitement gets a bit lesser and the shy boy Jungkook knows so well is right back in front of him. He smirks, knowing how easily he can make the boy act like this. "It's all because of you, Hyung." The smaller whispers, causing Jungkooks heard to flutter.

He moves some hairs out of the youngers face and smiles the way someone smiles at the one they hold dear and love the most. "I told you you're amazing."

[apparentlyaswarmofbees]

The Brothers VS Just Dance feat. Yukihime (My MC)

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Extremelly for my own enjoyement because I hyperfocused HARD on just dance so now I am making it everyone else's problem (*・∀-)☆

This was solely inspired on the fact my MC has a talent related to anything related to rythm games and dancing (the first more than the second), and the fact that your dear admin right here is also pretty damm good at dancing and they like it very much.

Extra note, I don't specifically have my MC in any relationship with any of the boys, but I do ship her, which is why this post exists too.

And this is basically already in a Season 3 setting.

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Lucifer - Chantaje

The pure fucking sexual tension in this fucking video.

Yukihime would 100% challenge this man to this song.

Yukihime would play the woman and Lucifer the guy.

And they would steal, so, many, glances, at, each, other.

Are they even looking at the game...?

They not looking at the game-

How are they even getting max stars when they appear to not even be paying attention to the damn game?!

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Mammon - The One That I Want

You can't tell me this doesn't reek Mammon energy.

Yukihime likes some of the musics from Grease, she probably sang a few songs of it and Mammon caught the gist of it and watched the movie.

So Mammon would be the one to challenge Yukihime this time.

Just think of Mammon taking it literally and taking off his jacket at the beggining just like in the game-

He would be smiling so much and his cheeks would be so red I can't-

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Leviathan - Jump in The Line

Yes part of it it's because of the pirate outfit, also it would be so c u t e to see him dancing the pirate part.

He would probably be so focused on beating Yukihime in a music related game that he didn't process the fact that they were going to dance a duet.

Snake boy would be dying from both repetitive movements and having his arms so close to her but his determination kept him going.

They ended up on a tie.

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Satan - Sugar

Of course with this cheesy boy it would need to be something sweet.

Yukihime really likes Satan to the point of her being slightly shy around him.

She also kind of idolizes him lmao.

This song would definetelly be choosen by Satan and Yukihime would slowly loosen up as the song proceeds to the point she would be laughing by the end.

Satan missed a step when her character in game became a carrot.

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Asmodeus - Can't Take My Eyes Off You

Definetelly chosen by both of them together.

And what would be more fitting for the avatar of narcissism than this?

Asmo is definetelly one of Yukihime's favorite people to play Just Dance with both for the fact that he also poses a challenge and that she always has so much fun with him.

Anyone close would definetelly be impressed, cameras filming and pictures being taken and all.

At the end of it Yukihime would start spinning her head around wildly and Asmo would definetelly almost lose him balance in shock.

That's why it ended on a tie.

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Beelzebub - Bailando

Baby bear is not exactly the most confident in his dancing habilities.

But he would have a lot of fun with this one, would definetelly play it several times with Yukihime until he got at least all 5 stars.

It was basically dance classes and Yukihime loved it.

Everytime her hands touched his face she would squish it a bit, specially at the end.

He's just too cute to not squish.

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Belphegor - Hips Don't Lie Sumo Version

This one was hard to convince, the only result was this because he wanted to try the sumo suits.

Yes he wanted to see if they were good for sleeping with.

They weren't.

If you think this stage was already ridiculously funny, imagine one of them lazily moving around giving half assed movements in those costumes.

Because that's exactly what happened.

And Yukihime laughed so much Belphie actually got a higher score.

[nightswithkookmin]

Hi I just want to ask something. Do you think Jungkook has been always like/love Jimin the way he is before or just when he started to glow up. I'm just asking this bc you know Jungkook has been always rank Jimin last on looks or said he look different without makeup before. I know he didn't meant harm to Jimin but do you think Jimin has been trying to look good and go on extreme diet to be loved by Jungkook or Jungkook has been always trying to hide his feelings for him but act tough

Huh?...

What an interesting question....

For a moment there I thought I had already discussed this in my blog posts? Chileee.

Now you'd have to specify which period in time you consider a glow up point for Jimin. Do you mean the period of 2014/15 when he was starving himself, passing out on stage and bleeding through his nose to stay anorexic? *Side eyeing you.

To me, Jimin's 'glow up' coincided with their debut in 2013. Those fine abs, sculpted muscles yet soft toned feminized features- sorry Jimin, you weren't fooling no one.

This was also the period I noticed JK showing overt signs of sexual and emotional attraction towards Jimin. Jimin just seemed oblivious to it. And he would begin his own whipped journey around 2015/16 in my opinion.

Personally, I believe JK fell first for Jimin and 'turned' him- turned for lack of a better word. I don't buy into this whole Jimin fell first JK fell harder rhetoric.

But I think JK's interest in Jimin began long before this period. I don't think Jk had fully grasped the concept of his own sexuality much less to have come to terms with it in any time before 2012- before Jimin arrived in Bangtan- ok maybe he had a vague idea of it, but I do believe Jimin was his sexual and romantic awakening.

Jk and Jimin have two very distinct and opposite idol personas. I keep saying this.

Since we don't know them in person, I think it's safe to assume every aspect of them we experience on screen is a persona.

That persona is a facade, a curated wall on which they project bits and pieces of their true self and often put up a performance of this identity for our consumption.

In Jk's persona, he likes to retract and conceal aspects of his true personality and censor himself a lot while JM likes to amplify and exaggerate his true personality and put up a performance of it.

As I've said, it's mainly due to their backgrounds. JK was given a lot of leeway in his upbringing which he feels puts him at a disadvantage because he ends up exposing himself too much. Thus he likes to retract and hold himself back.

Jimin coming from a conservative background with many rules and what not revels in the new found freedom Idol life gives him so often he doesn't hold back as much as JK does. But that doesn't mean that who they really are in real life.

So often you'd hear people say Jimin looks more serious in person than he does on camera while JK is said to be more expressive than he usually is on camera.

But here is the thing, concealing his feelings is not JK's nature it's his choice. And this is very important to note. He chooses not to do certain things on camera while Jimin chooses to do certain things on camera.

So when JK is not showing his feelings for Jimin it's not because he can't show those feelings, it's more like he doesn't want to show those feelings.

Thus when people say he wasn't showing his feelings for Jimin because he was shy I raise my brows- Shy my ass. Lol

Was he acting tough then? Hmmmm. He likes to act tough no two ways about that. I've said he has a good poker face between him and Jimin. If you are not careful you might think he doesn't like Jimin. But trust me, that man is whipped on god.

But I don't think that's what he was doing in those early dynamics.

I think he was hesitant in pursuing Jimin openly at the time because he wasn't sure about Jimin's sexual orientation much less whether or not Jimin reciprocated the feelings he had for him.

And you could tell not knowing these about Jimin terrified JK a lot, hence his hesitation.

But later when he was certain of both he became more confident in the way he expressed himself and his feelings for Jimin.

Prior to this you could see him fishing and testing the waters with Jimin, slowly pushing Jimin's boundaries- a gentle touch here, a lingering stare there.

He would often pay attention to the things Jimin would say but especially about his romantic and sexual preferences. Like when Tae said he felt Jimin liked men and when Jimin was asked about why he liked JK and JK seemed like he wanted to know.

Then he went through that phase where he seemed obsessed with Jimin's reaction to when other guys sexualised him and expressed interest in him. He seemed very attentive to these little details in a way that seemed to me as if he was fishing for confirmation that Jimin actually liked men and liked him- in a nonplatonic manner.

I feel Jimin noticed these things too in JK but was mostly fascinated by it. So often he would go out of his way to express his sexuality, exaggerate it and perform it as if to let JK know he was ok with JK liking him in that kind of way. Often, you'd see him egging JK on to touch him where JK seemed hesitant, reassuring JK- I think y'all know the bit I'm talking about. I feel JM wanted JK to feel comfortable expressing his interest in him- he ain't slick.

I've said Jimin's persona is a performance. I can see how to JK that could be very confusing. Hell, half of the fandom still read Jimin wrong to this day. Is he gay, bi, straight, a woman, a man, bigender- it's a lot of questions. Legitimate questions.

And I think for JK, seeing Jimin behave like the rest of BTS with the skinship towards him was equally confusing. So often he would shy away from it. Jk was going through puberty, everything was heightened for him.

It's also important to consider the possibility that, if JK was LGBTQ plus that he was going to hide it and not come out to his bandmates for as long as he worked with them- because it's none of their business first and foremost but also because it would have affected their attitudes towards him.

I mean look at the fear and panic with which they greet Jikook when Jikook breath anywhere near eachother in public spaces- not to call them out or anything but I don't think if they were straight that they were going to treat them same. I mean Taejin is as wild as Jikook but.... sigh.

So then going on to catch feelings for one of such said band mates who gives off queer vibes, he had better be sure about him before coming out to him and confessing to him lest he risked his career and friendship with him.

If Jimin wasn't LGBTQ plus it would have been cruel of him to act the way he does with JK honestly. For instance Joking about marriage knowing full well the fight LGBTG plus couple have to put up to have this basic human right- of course JK would yeet himself out of that conversation. I'm talking about that Jikook Vlive and all the time JK has squeezed his face disgruntledly when Jimin has asked him to have his kids- like why Jimin!

Jimin I feel because he is Bi whatever doesn't take this gay business seriously at all. If you've ever dated a bisexual you'd know the feeling. He is my bias and I love him but God he frustrates me for Jk honestly.

What annoys me most is I know how deep he is into JK. Like I've never seen a man so in love with another man in my entire queer life! Like shut up whippidy whipped ass we saw your face at Manila. You like that man. You like him.

Let JK put up a front and you'll see this tactless homegirl descending into that space we all hate so much and embarrassing himself left right left clinging on to JK seeking validation and reassurance- like can you be serious in your life for once Park Jimin. 😒

Anywho, I went off on a tangent there. Sorry.

But yes, this is another aspect of their dynamic I feel most people get twisted. Jimin enjoys JK's expressions of interest in him- however way he does it. Jk enjoys it too when Jimin shows him he wants him. Remember magic shop? Show me, I'll show you? And that line JK sang to Jimin that made Jimin nervous on Live with VMin? Yea...

They love each other and they love when the other is showing and expressing their love. Hell, isn't that why they are constantly trying to find creative ways to communicate their love? 5/8, love letters punctuated with sorries? Chileee.

Could Jimin's look be a contributing factor to JK liking him? Let me put it this way. People are attracted to people for a plethora of reasons, physical appearance being one of them.

Looks attract people, emotional connection binds them and make them stay. I have said this time and again JK is attracted to all of Jimin-looks, everything. When asked which part of of Jimin he liked most he put all of Jimin as the answer.

With regards to JM's weight, I think the tears he shed on stage during the performance of I Need You says it all. Jimin was killing himself and it was killing JK. Jimin wasn't doing all that out of self love much less for the love of JK.

He was doing all that because he wanted to be an Idol in every sense of the word. He was killing himself for his career. A career JK was once willing to walk away from and JM advised him to stay.

Jk defies the dictates of his career with the piercings and tattoos and gay pubs- the emphasis is mine. Y'all think he is about to be demanding of his life partner to look like what now? Chileee.

And when JK was starving himself and losing weight who was it that brought him down that ledge? Jimin. If it was a positive thing I thing he would have encouraged him.

Jk allegedly called Jimin his Mochi in that infamous graduation night track video. Did you see his reaction to when James Corden called Jimin Mochi? Baby fat cheeked Jimin was cute not ugly. And even if you think he was, JK still found that attractive. Jimin could be looking like my Aunt Becky and Jk would still fuck him.

Have you seen JK freeze frame to take snapshot photos of Jimin? It's almost always pictures of Jimin looking like the wicked witch of the west. He loves him some park Jimin memes. Loves that man to death.

How many times have he said Jimin looks beautiful without makeup? Remember the Vlive Jimin didn't want to be on camera because he didn't have makeup on? What did JK say?

Jk isn't a shallow person you know. He really isn't. He doesn't strike me as the kind at all. Questions like these presupposes that JK is a vain shallow person who only likes people for their looks. Don't get me wrong, it's a valid question, one that I'm happy to discuss but it also exposes the biases against JK and indirectly, Jimin.

Do you feel JK is shallow? I find a lot of people do and it breaks my heart.

Have you heard any of his songs? His GCFs?

He barely idolizes his subject matter's looks and appearances. You gave me the best of you, so I'll give you the best of me. What I found in you is real. That's doesn't sound shallow to me.

They work in a highly competitive and highly vainglorious environment. I think they know more than anything the dangers of vanity- it's fleeting. They put themselves through so much to appease the vanity matrics, to subject people they love through the same.

I've talked about how because JM comes from a demanding home and work environment that acceptance is one key aspect of his love language. He wants a person who loves him for who he is and accepts him without placing expectations on him.

If JK was this shallow JM wouldn't honestly have found him attractive much less love him to begin with. He wouldn't have found fulfillment and nourishment from JK. He loves JK because JK's values and upbringing makes him the perfect person for him to trust himself fully to.

Besides, for JK to be only attracted to JM because he glowed up, he himself must have been a ten from the onset which he wasn't let's be honest- no shade to him but he wasn't exactly packing now was he?

BTS are pretty but they've all undergone hefty transformations throughout the years, magic foreheads and all. So if you wonder if Jimin's glow up contributes to JK liking him, then you'd have to wonder if Jk glowing up also contributed to Jimin finding him attractive- it's a vicious cycle.

As for JK ranking Jimin last... did he ever rank himself first? No. He ranked Jimin last and himself second to last consistently. If he found Jimin unattractive he certainly found himself as equally unattractive only one step above Jimin.

I honestly think he was just teasing Jimin. He loves teasing Jimin because it's how he flirts with him. It's just the masculine energy in him I guess. V does this too when he flirts with Jimin. He teases him about his pinky, his Mochi cheeks and his glow up- Iland anyone?

Why y'all think JK looked away sharp when JM dropped to the floor?? He recognized what V was doing- don't mind me. I'm trolling. Lol. But deadass.

Jimin teases JK too by acting like he is available most times. It's the feminine energy in him. Girls like to tease their crush by amplifying their sex appeal. What better way to amp up your sex appeal than by having other people show interest in you? Jimin is a tease. Bless him.

Besides, when JK ranked Jimin first in looks he ranked himself last. I hope y'all don't think it's because he has low self esteem?

He ranked himself and Jimin last because he wanted to humble himself and by extension Jimin because he sees himself as Jimin's equal and as such recognizes their place as the youngest within the group. As he has explained, as the youngest, he places everyone else above him.

I honestly don't think Jungkook had always been interested in Jimin. But somewhere along the line while he came to terms with his own sexuality he began developing feelings for Jimin. His glow up had nothing to do with it. In my opinion.

I think Jimin caught him off guard? It's that red string serendipity destiny voodoo working its magic that orchestrating their love. In my opinion.

I don't think either of Jikook went searching for this love thingy either as I keep saying. It wasn't planned, it wasn't foreseen, it just happened to both of them but at a different pace.

I hope this helps?

Signed,

GOLDY

[shyrose57]

Brothers anon back again after like a week, sorry about that. But as a sorry I worked out a bit more with the Great SMP town! Also idk if you know but the Brothers au link is broken on your pinned post, I tried using it to skip to the questions I had yet to answer and it didn't work. 

1: The idols people could choose from where Technoblade, Sapnap, George, Ranboo, Bad, Fundy, Karl, Phil, Tommy, Tubbo, Sam, Wilbur, and Eret. People who choose Technoblade or Sam often become the guards of Mizu and those who keep laws inforced. The difference between following Technoblade or Sam is, for Technoblade you focus purely on fighting and less about laws, you also learn more about history. While for Sam you focus much more on laws and even restraining and helping people (If its confusing think of Sam followers as the police and Technoblade followers as SWAT). Technoblade followers are also sometimes called to provide protection during resource gathering missions. For Karl you tend to learn story tellings and study writings, Karl followers are also the main librarians and take care of books and preserve them. Sapnap and Phil followers are the people who go on supply missions or runs, though for Phil you learn how to address wounds and further study most things. While for Sapnap you further study monsters and their weaknesses, along side where they most commonly spawn. George followers tend to study architecture and tend to be the architectures of Mizu, designing new sections of the city and planning out where stuff goes, their also the people who handle stuff like ventilation and supply of water and checking damages on almost anything. Eret followers study history like many other idol followers, but unlike the others they focus solely on history and laws, they tend to be the leaders of Mizu and the ones who organize basically everything. Bad followers study and learn psychology and reward and consequences situations, while Eret followers make the decisions, Bad followers are also great helps and a very important part of what's basically The Council, as they study and guage how actions will affect the city and provide their input. Wilbur followers of course learn entertainment, like they learn how to play instruments, how to write and play in plays, some even make games! Tommy and Tubbo aren't actually common idols, their referred to as "Mix" idols most of the time, as the people who pick them typically have a wide range of skills and interests that just don't fit in any other idols. So Tommy and Tubbo followers really just go through a college type thing, where they learn a wider range of things than any other idol follower, those followers tend to pick up basically whatever job they want. Tubbo differs slightly though as Tubbo followers can focus a little bit more in a certain field than Tommy followers, which can allow Tubbo followers to often be picked or asked for help for things like building, or recording history, though they CANT be used to help Technoblade or Sam followers, and can't be chosen to go on supply runs or missions. Than Ranboo followers are similar to Karl's, in which they are the librarians and study writings, but they are also the main recorders of history and are tasked with writing down what happens every single day. 

These are the things some idols share, Technoblade, Phil, Sapnap, Sam, and Eret followers all study weapon and armour formations and how to make them. All idol followers learn at least some history of what their learning and their own idols. Bad and Phil followers tend to be the doctors in Mizu. And every idol has one representative in The Council.

2: Its how he shows that theres no hard feelings against the other person, and that he has already completely forgiven the other person. He continues to gently prank the other person until the person either also says that they forgave Grievous or that they show their comfortable around him again. Jackie and Cletus found the situation incredibly funny and laughed hard when it first happened. Watson just kinda watched it all play out with his amused father face but also was ready to step in if it seemed like Grievous went to far. 

3: Benjamin has a lot of life experience in stressful situations, which allows him to relay on pass experiences in a great multitude of situations. And he's just a very calm person. So he's able to just handle the situations better than anyone else. 

8: It was Jackie's birthday when Levi gave him alcohol, Jackie was tired and Levi gave him it, telling him it would keep him awake and make it easier to talk with everyone. Jackie did drink it and got a bit tispy before Watson figured out what happened and stole it away from Jackie, then going and hitting Levi. 

Almost everything from the SMP was lost due to time and weather, the buildings still remain, although crumbling and ruined and many things are missing from them, but a few things (like weapons, books (although heavily weather worn), discs) did survive and are somewhere in the world. The town in the Greater SMP does have 2 weapons, Orphan Obliterator, and Dreams Nightmare sword, and have the original copy of Ranboos memory book. People knew it was there at first, many visited and a few attempted to even preserve everything, but over time, other stuff happened. New kingdoms popped up, with quite a few claiming that the history of the SMP was just made up, a cleverly devised story and since at this time its been a decade or two since the SMP fell, and people just aren't as into it or studied the history as much, they believed them. So people stopped visiting, and everything fell into ruin. Only the town in the SMP grounds still believe and study the SMP, but their often called the idiots of the world for what they do. 

Jackie gets hurt after he jumps about and accidentally steps on a magma block, Charles gets distracted by worrying over Grievous after he got shot that he isn't paying attention and almost falls into a lava pool before Ran saves him, and Cletus gets to cocky and gets hit by a wither skeleton before Watson has to come in and save him. By the end everyone is whining and saying how they regret it as Ran tells them off for not following what he said and how he said they weren't ready. They find a bastion and fortress! They find the fortress first and Watson, Cletus, and Grievous go in to grab blaze rods after Watson basically freaks out about blaze rods and won't shut up about getting some for potions. And after Cletus gets hit by the skeleton they rush to a nearby bastion they saw to barter with the Piglins for the cure. But after they get it they stay behind and continue to trade as Watson teaches them about Piglins. 

10: I'm thinking of adding maybe mind control or hallucinations to the battle. With Ranbob being so close to Dream again, and even though he'd tried so hard to break Dreams control in him, Dream is still able to control Ranbob to some degree. Causing him to have hallucinations during battle of him killing his family again and Ran trying to kill him. While for Ran, Dream manipulates him, trying to get him to believe that this all is still Ranbobs fault, and how Ranbob doesnt care about him or anyone, and only cares for himself. Basically he's trying his last ditch attempt to separate the two so he can get his puppet back, and get rid of a annoying nat (in his opinion) in the process. 

13: A lot of people know of him being the General actually. But it only matters to people who actually fight in the Pit, as again its merely a fighting title. Not many people have been able to beat him, only 2 have actually been able to bet him and win whatever the prize was when they competed, but those people also choose to not take the general title. But they've said it was very hard to beat Jackie with his speed and him being able to do whatever he wants basically. Jackie, Ran, and Watson are all at some part on par, they share similar fighting moves and tatics which are obviously shared in battle. But other than a few shared tatics, their not considered on par at all. They do! The Corporal fights first, Sergeants go next, then the General. 

14: A few times Ranbob tried to break off from the group and head back to Mizu, but every time someone caught him, weither it be Charles or Cletus or even Jackie, and were able to bring him back home. Talking to him and talking him through the whisper episode, keeping him calm and in charge of his mind.

Nice to have you back, Brothers Anon! I tested the link, and it worked fine, so I think it might’ve been one time, but I went ahead and re-linked it, so I hope it works for you now.

1: Honestly sounds cool. I call studying Karl! With all the different builders, Mizu sounds like a beautiful place. What would you say some of it looks like? Any special areas? And also, the Council? What’s that? I assume they’re the leaders, but is that all they do? Do they make decisions over everything, or are they divided for certain areas, like farming and education? Does every idol have a representative, or are their multiple under one for the Council?

2: Aww. That’s actually kind of sweet. Grievous gently pranks people to show affection. I like that, anon, I really do.

3: What kind of situations?

8: Levi! You should be ashamed of yourself! Bad person, bad!

That’s really interesting, actually. Was there a reason people claimed it was just made up, or did it just happen? Also, do any of the gang realize Nightmare is Dream’s sword? Does Dream try to get one of them to bring it back?

And SMP town isn’t believed? Were they never in contact with Mizu?

Honestly, all those injuries were about what I expected. Charles was worrying over Grievous? Just general concern, or have they forged a friendship? How’s Ranbob faring with the whole ‘two of my idiots just about died’ thing? He strikes me as a worrier. 

Do they have fun, at least once it’s all over? What kind of potions do they up and brew? Do they just sit down and experiment with all their supplies for a bit, and see what happens? Does Ran commandeer it all?

10: Oof. That’s gonna hurt. If Dream has that power, why didn’t he use it before, to force to fishermen to give Ranbob back? Did they have some sort of protection against it? Does it only work for certain people? Also, if I may ask, why is Dream so vested in Ranbob? Surely he could get another puppet, eventually? Is there a particular reason, or is it more of a ‘I worked way too hard on this one to give it up now’ kind of thing? Is Ran the nat? If so, what’s his opinion of all the others? 

13: Huh. So Jackie’s pretty strong, then. In what way are they not considered on par? Is one considered stronger than the other? Faster? Is Jackie considered stronger than them aside from shared tactics, or is it the other way around? Also, can there only be one Corporal and two Sergeants, or is it simply because those were the only ones to catch Porkius’ eyes.

14: Oh, so this happened during the road trip? Jackie even got involved? How did the gladiators react to Ranbob trying to bolt for Mizu randomly? How far has Ranbob gotten? Was it ever far enough to seriously concern the fishermen? Does bringing him back ever get physical an evolve into a fight, or does he usually stay pretty docile during it?

[imo-chan-imagines]

『 Haikyuu!! Week 2020 | Day 3 』

· Sept. 27th → Irresistible Force ·

Characters: Karasuno team

Prompts: A. favourite team + B. crossover/AU

Tags/warnings: Haikyuu!! (anime), PG, fluff, crack, a teensy bit of angst (because who doesn't love a sad superhero backstory), headcanons, AU, superheroes, HaikyuuWeek2020

A/N: Again, I love all the teams and didn't want to pick, but life is cruel, so here I am. This is headcanons about my fav team (Karasuno) in an AU (superheroes). I was thinking of a Hero Association, kind of like in 'The Boys'? But less corrupt... Maybe more like in 'One Punch'? I think you get me.

All of my Haikyuu Week 2020 posts will be SFW, but I have NFSW content on my blog if that butters your biscuit. Feel free to check it out! Thanks for reading! Please enjoy ♡ Imo~

Karasuno / Superhero Association AU

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☆ Sawamura Daichi ☆

Powers: nigh invulnerability, super strength, enhanced healing

If he's not the ordinary cop that somehow befriends the heroes I was tempted then he's definitely the leader of the superhero group

Kind of like Superman in the old-school Justice League, just not as OP lol

Looks damn good is spandex those thighs *sweats*

Cape!! so ✨majestic✨

Probably wears dark-ish, neutral colours with a dash of blue

A bit serious. Not the kind of hero to go around making quips all the time, but will make light of his own suffering like Captain America

Takes younger heroes under his wing like the true Dadchi he is

Strong moral compass. Unbreakable

Won't hesitate to lay down his life for others

Who am I kidding. He's basically Captain America with a cape

Poster-boy for the Hero Association

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☆ Sugawara Koushi ☆

Powers: telekinesis

A soft, pearly aesthetic with his suit, hair and skin. Lots of white and silver

A favourite among the ladies he's just too pretty, damm it T T

Very plucky and adorable

People in the vicinity will literally faint when he goes all serious to concentrate and use his powers

Has a duo move with Daichi where he literally throws him like a missle YEET

Has the most followers on Twitter and TikTok and his fans can be pretty nuts

Has a perfume line named after him and models for the adverts

Will smile like an angel right before bringing a building down on top of you fuck, I find this one really funny

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☆ Azumane Asahi ☆

Powers: regeneration, enhanced stength

Kind of like Wolverine or Deapool but, like, much, much softer on the inside uwu

Wears green and black

Messed up big time back in the day and dropped off the grid out of guilt some people died :(

Was convinced to come back when his old teammates finally found him again because they needed his help in a crisis

Literally shed tears of relief when heroes and citizens alike welcomed him back instead of hating him mah heart *sniffs*

Can withstand seemingly anything and fully heal within a matter of days

Doesn't know the full extent of his powers himself. How exactly do one test it? 🤔

Still has to psych himself up for a fight, though big softy, really

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☆ Shimizu Kiyoko ☆

Powers: electrokinesis, flight

Powers like Storm from X-Men, and kicks ass like Wonder Woman

Refuses to wear a revealing suit, but looks bomb af anyway

Kiyoko = absolute queen

One of the most powerful heroes, but doesn't throw her weight around unless she's kicking bady-guy booty

Stella gynamast, and has mastered several martial arts

Can literally throw a guy three times her size, all without any strength powers Tanaka: 👁👄👁

Somehow has perfect hair all the time secret superpower??

Is active on the political stage as a human rights activist, headlining women's rights yes, yes yes

Will strike you with lightning for sexual harassment

Comes up with really good mission plans

Is a soothing balm for Tanaka when he loses it

Black and gold aesthetic✨

Asymmetrical cape! super fashionable

Poster-girl for the Hero Association

☆ Tanaka Ryuunosuke ☆

Powers: fire generation and manipulation

Tanaka brings the heat literally

A bit of a chaotic-good, but what's new there?

Can get out of control if he loses his focus, so his friends have to keep him grounded Kiyoko is a literal angel when that happens

Kiyoko: Sun's getting real low...

Bonus points if you get the reference

Is terrified of hurting innocents if he gets out of control

It rarely happens, but if he loses his self confidence, his powers don't seem to work

Shouts cringy lines at the villains before roasting their asses lmfao

Wears a black and orange flame-retardant suit, and actually looks pretty fine in it 😌👌

Literally head over heels for Kiyoko just imagine it. Biggest hype man

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☆ Nishinoya Yuu ☆

Powers: animal metamorphosis, enhanced speed

Think Beast Boy from 'Teen Titans', but less green he's more likely to be yellow or orange, lmao

Handy in lots of different situations. Very versatile

Incredibly cheeky and joins in with Tanaka's cheesy jokes and one-liners

Absolute maniac, but the people love him, especially schoolkids lmao

Has his own energy drink flavour, and he's STOKED about it

Yellow and black suit, kind of like his hair

Has a surprisingly large following of fans

Laps up the attention, but it doesn't really go to his head

Quiet and serious when he's on a mission/fighting

☆ Hinata Shouyou ☆

Powers: self replication, super speed, levitation

His powers took a while to properly manifest, which left him feeling isolated as a teen

Was pretty lost until Ukai helped train him

Got into a fight with Kageyama in an alleyway when he first met him MET HIM IN THE STREET, LMAO

Argues with Kageyama a lot at headquarters, but they work together like a dream when taking down bad guys

Has a heart of literal gold precious baby

Is contantly amazed when he helps significantly

Was inspired to become a hero by his idol, the Little Giant and it's his dream to inspire someone else 😭😭

Uses his replication ability to confuse the bad guys ULTIMATE DECOY

Levitates around the room when he's excited like Aang from ATLA, hahaha

Wears an orange, white and yellow suit with little wings on his heels cuuuute

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☆ Kageyama Tobio ☆

Powers: water/ice generation and manipulation, breathing underwater, superhuman reflexes

I was tempted to give him fire/ice powers like Todoroki, but I didn't want to detract from Tanaka

Has problems focusing his powers, and can be quite turbulent in the heat of battle

Finds it hard to work well with others initially, but really makes an effort

Has hurt people close to him by accident before and never wants to do it again it would tear him apart

Becomes a power duo with Hinata when Ukai helps train them, even though they don't seem to get on well at first

Broody boi on the surface, but a cinnamon roll deep down

Wears a dark blue and deep purple suit that has fins to assist in underwater escapades which are his forte

Freezes Hinata's feet to the floor when he pisses him off or anybody's feet, tbh

Can dodge almost anything because of his reflexes don't ever try to punch him. You'll look stupid

Is surprised by the number of people in his fan club especially the number of women asking to marry him??

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☆ Tsukishima Kei ☆

Powers: telepathy, superhuman intellect, mind control on weak-willed individuals

Prefers to outwit his enemies rather than getting into a brawl

But his self-designed gadgets and tech help him out if he has to a bit like Tony Stark, wink wonk

Sometimes makes you question if he's really a hero or not Tsukki, please

Doesn't take orders well

Baits villains by insulting them and getting the better of them with his words it's hilarious

Comes up with good plans, but improvises well with whatever he's got

Probably wears suits over his spandex most of the time fancy shmancy

Is prepared to die to protect Yamaguchi waahhh

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☆ Yamaguchi Tadashi ☆

Powers: invisibility, force fields, teleportation

Susan Storm with added teleportation, lol

Often finds it hard to value his powers because they're not as visually strong and impressive as other people's

Rather than squaring up to a battle, he often has to 'hide' from it by literally going invisible

But he gradually becomes aware of how vital his powers can be, and learns to control them and make them as advantageous as possible

Is a highly important and valued member of the team

Soft bean that gets nervous and throws up before a fight

But he's hella determined and won't back down

Honestly, just wants to protect Tsukki and make him proud PROTECT HIM

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☆ Yachi Hitoka ☆

Powers: size manipulation

She can shrink and enlarge herself and objects she touches at will, including other people

Sometimes shrinks really small to avoid social situations she doesn't want to be in samez, honey

The clumsiest and least experienced on the team

But she tries her best, gradually getting to grips with her powers

Sometimes uses her powers by accident, like when she's nervous

Once touched a watermelon slice on the refreshment table and accidentally blew it up to the size of a car Hinata, Kageyama and Noya fully dug in with their faces 😭😭

Nearly passed out when Daichi, the literal god of the Hero Association, told her she had great potential

Don't worry, Yams teleported and caught her

☆ Ukai Keishin ☆

Powers: laser vision, metal mimicry

The has-been hero who lost his enthusiasm for hero-ing and retired some years ago

Was really cool back in his hayday. Big hot-shot with a fan club

Has been working as a convenience store attendant to pay the bills and is bored out of his mind but refuses to admit it

Was convinced to get back in the game when he found Hinata and Kageyama fighting, both struggling with their abilities. He broke up the fight and agreed to coach them

Doesn't do much of the flashy hero stuff anymore, but will occasionally get stuck in when he's needed must protecc his children

Is only, like, ten years older than the other heroes, but they treat him like some fossilised sensei out of Natuto, or some shit

Tbf, he has the back problems of one 😭😭

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☆ Takeda Ittetsu ☆

Powers: power absorption

Transferred from being a hero to hero management after having having issues with the effects of his powers he has a conscience :(

He felt guilty and responsible for permanently taking the powers of others, even if they were criminals

It was like removing a piece of their souls it kind of broke him

These days, he makes sure nobody knows about his powers, so it can't be used against him

He helps in any other way possible

He would only use his powers again in dire circumstances he knows he'll eventually have to

Is generally chipper and good natured, though

If he was ever captured by a villain, they'd probably send him back because he talks too much omg, hahaha

Helps gather info for the team and direct them on missions and in fights

Gives bomb inspirational speeches ✊

© imo-chan-imagines 2020

[itsyabtsbitch]

Hyung Line! Reaction to you being their Soulmate

Note: The Maknae Line Reaction is already up on my page!

Requests are open!

Kim Seokjin

You had a timer on your wrist and at the young age of 12 those numbers seemed to go on forever

Even when you became older it still felt like you would only meet him when you're 56

While you didn't like it, other people were jealous of you knowing when exactly you would see your s/o

,,You don't get it. I wish I could have the whole surprise moment..."

It was also kind of sad going out and knowing that nothing would happen while all of your friends were excited of it maybe 'finally being the day'

Over the years you started to pay less and less attention to the numbers counting down

If you were also good at math you could have realised that one faithful morning you were hours away from meeting your soulmate

But of course you didn't

After not finding any milk and or cereal, you knew you had to go grocery shopping

You were grumpy af, because you didn't get to eat any breakfast

Oh well

Just as you were rounding another aisle, you crashed against something or rather someone hard

You were ready to feel the impact of your fall, but it never came

Mr.worldwidehandsome reacted with precise skills and caught you

His eyes met yours and for a few seconds the world seemed to stand still...-until both of you realised how akward the position you were in was

,,Thank you for uhm...saving me. I will try to pay attention the next time." You hung your head in shame. The blinking of zeroes brought you out of your embarassment though.

,,Yes you really should...but I'm glad that both of us didn't pay attention today" the handsome man showed you his wrist, that displayed the same number of zeroes on his skin.

,,I'm Kim Seokjin."

Kim Namjoon

The first time you noticed your soulmate connection was when you woke up with blonde/brown/black hair (whatever you don't have now)

It was shocking but you honestly didn't mind, because it didn't look bad

You were also happy to know that your soulmate existed

But that happiness ceased very quickly when you realised that the chance of actually finding that person was pretty low

Like, there are a ton of people with that hair color?!

Well anyway

One fateful day your stupid boss just fired you without a chance to explain yourself...Like, you didn't mean to set the kitchen on fire, okay?

You obviously had to go and find a new job after that

Lucky for you, it only took you 30 min of searching through the internet, to find a open spot as a make up artist at a company called Bighit

Not thinking too much about it you sent your application and one day later you had an interview

It went really good

They called you 2 hours later and told you that you got the job

Of course you did your personal happy-dance that looked more like a bird trying to fly for the first time than an actual dance whoops

At least your neighbours didn't see you

Yeah uhmmm

One week later you had your first day at work

You were nevous as fuck and everyone could see it

But they understood what you were going through so it was fine

Your new chef introduced you to Kim Namjoon, a very attractive idol that you would take care of...make up wise ofc.

Thinking about being close to him made you even more nervous and when it was time to do his make up you were shaking

Namjoon didn't even blink an eye at that. He was completely calm and just told you to breath in and out slowly

On the inside he was freaking out about how beautiful you were though

About two months later you and Namjoon were a great team and even the other members started shipping you (*cue Joonie being a blushing mess*)

Since Bighit was pretty chill about their employees having special hair colours or tatoos, you decided that you needed a change

The fact that your soulmate also shared that connection with you may have affected your choice just a liiiittle bit

You were also tired of being single so you picked a colour that would be easy to recognize and let's just say...Namjoon was not too excited about waking up with purple hair...

But at least you both instantly knew that you were soulmates, sooo yay?

+ his grumpy additude disappeared the second he saw the smile on your face. Even the teasing of his best friends couldn't tear his new mood down.

Jung Hoseok

You were a fan of BTS for about 4 months

But somehow you managed to read almost every single fanfic about Hoseok in that time

Your favorite is the one where you have that special moment during a concert

Like: your eyes met, the lights dimmed..the crowd around you got silent and all that other shit

Just basic soulmate stuff that you would never ever experience...

Hah. Joke's on you.

Okay time skip for another two months

BTS announced a Tour in your city and of course you were freaking out

Thank god you tried to save some money for a vacation...that could wait anyway.

After aggressivly typing and scrolling on your computer you actually managed to get a ticket

You may have screamed a little bit too loud but whatever, right?

The only sad thing was that you would have to go alone

Brushing that thought away, you started to think about what you would wear and need

When the day of the concert came you were r e a d y.

So ready that your dumbass somehow made it through the line and got a place in the front row

Congrats to you

You didn't realise how close you were to the stage until the boys actually stood there

Like holy shit wow omg what

The first 30 min were a mixture of happiness, crying and (let's be honest) a little bit sexual frustration

Fucking Jung Hoseok and his black clothes. Ugh.

When 'so what' came on though...Hobi stopped right infront of your corner

Obviously everyone started screaming and calling his name

But you were too lost in the moment to actually react

Maybe that's why he noticed you...

Wait what?

The crowd around you seemed to fade, the music was barely recognizable and his eyes held a unspoken story in them that you would like to explore...

At least that's what you tell everyone when they ask you about the moment you met your soulmate

But deep inside you know that no words in the world could ever describe the way you felt when his eyes met yours...because it was almost magical (at least that's what Hoseok always said)

Well anyway

After getting out of whatever trance you were stuck in, Hobi talked to the security guards

They managed to get you out of the crowd (where at least 30 girls were watching you with a jealous death stare) and get you backstage

That's where you met your sunshine loving boyfriend for the first time

Min Yoongi

You were a music producer masking your identity under the name 'saltea' (lmao you know I had to)

At first your music barely got any recognition

20 views were the maximum for you and even though it may seem like a small number to some people, you were so proud

,,Mom! It just got 23 views! That's almost a whole class!"

Big uwu energy

You obviously continued to follow your dream, even when some of your 'friends' told you that nobody would really care about your music

Well screw them because your new music video got 50 views hah!

It went on like that for another 3 years until you were 21 years old

You somehow got the offer to collab with Selena Gomez after a particular song you posted

That was when your career did a whole 360 and went 📈

People started to follow you, like your music and ask to work together (Guys I'm so sorry but tumblr says I reached a limit??!?🤡 so you'll have to deal with pics now UGHHHH WTF SEND HELP :(

[0omisakio0]

YG fucked up

I still can't believe it. I feel as if it's a horrible dream and when I wake up, DoubleB's album will be up. It happened so fast, so suddenly. My heart still hurts. I'm devastated. I feel like I lost a part of my soul. At some point I did. When I was alone, his music was there. When I felt like the whole world is against me, his smile shined the brightest. When I was in a dark place, his passion reminded me you can do everything.

I don't personally support drugs. I don't trust them, I don't like them. But I do understand that claiming someone's a piece of shit just because he thought (repeat: THOUGHT) about drugs due to problems is ridiculous to me. Learn about the circumstances. Meet that person first. If you're judging another human jest because of something like that, you are the real cunt here.

And to people repeating he should have known better: I fully understand and respect that statement. Being an idol means you're constantly watched. But if you look closely, at him, his behavior, lyrics of his songs, you'll realise he surely have problems. Maybe even something mental due to all that shit he went through. And let me say something, a little explanation story: I have seasional depression. It comes and goes. I am taking medicine, so it's different now. But I thought about commiting suicide. Pure hatered for myself was filling my body day by day. I felt nothing, but misery. And you know what? When you're in that kind of state, which I believe Hanbin was at the time, you just don't give a single shit about consequences. Because at least once, you want to feel like you're the one making decisions, not those fucking demons in your head. Because maybe for a minute, which is more than generous, you want to feel like everything's fine; like you escaped that shitty reality you're obligated to live in. Only after that shit passes away, you think what might happen and what people may say about it. I don't want to decide whether it's a crime or not. I am trying to tell you that you should pay more attention to details rather then only its surface.

About members? They must feel so lost, confused and betrayed by YG. Yes, only him. Because I think Hanbin told them at least a bit about his problems. And they supported him. YG is oficially the biggest dipshit of the year. He didn't even talk about it with Hanbin, he surely didn't allow members to post anything about it. When all that messed up stuff saw the light of day, he basically covered one controversy up with the one that would bring a lot of attwntion. What, he suddenly released that shit after 3 YEARS!? Not to mention the unfamous drug dealer is a girl known for seeking as much attention as possible (while not caring if they are negative or not) and holding a grunge against YG. Way too fucking shady.

And letting them go on that Japanese tour anyway? Are you fucking nuts, YG?!?

First of all, did you even care about their feelings? They mental state? You just sent on tour a group that promised they'll be OT7 forever. Second, how the hell does he even imagine that? Every choreography is in sync and made specifically to match the rhytm. What, you're just going to tell the fans they should pretend there is not a single, empty spot in the whole dance? What about actual songs? We all know B.I has more or less big parts in them. You wanna cut them out? Play the original with Hanbin's voice in the background? Censor his rap and vocals? Give someone else his lines? That would be the dumbest one out of all other ideas. You know why, YG? Because Hanbin knows others' voices perfectly. He wrote it like that to make the track sound flawless. If someone covered his lines, it would be a very hearable disaster.

I love all members. I really do. Donghyuk is an amazing dancer. Bobby's rap is stunning. Vocalists' voices are one of a kind. But you can't ignore the truth. Hanbin is the heart, fillar, shoulders, veins and brain of this group. Nobody can match his leadership nor his commitment to it. You just kicked out a guy made out of gold out of your stupid agency.

Hanbin, I support you. I support iKON. I wanted to but all DVDs and albums, but now I'm conflicted because a single thought of that human scum getting my money makes me sick. You didn't shame us. You are not weak. No, if in the moment of pure pain you hold yourself and didn't take anything, you are way stronger than you think you are.

To dispatch: fucking comgratulation. You just ruined someone's life.

And I beg you people (or at least some of you), stop being so judgemental and close-minded, especially when it comes to drugs. Yes, they cause serious problems. But it depends on various elements. You for example may not agree if someone smokes a joint for fun, but in your opinion, do you really think a person being young and naive deserves to sit next to murderers, rapists and pedophiles? Do they harm other people that much?

Or in Hanbin's case- what if your close friend or a loved one/ family member wanted to take drugs due to serious problems, would you treat them like trash? If yes, you have no idea what being a friend/family is about.

At the end? I just hole, deep down, it will work out at the end. That we will see our boys together and happy. Because I want what's best for them. 7-1=0.

Well... that's most of the rumbling I needed to get out of my chest. Sorry for a long post. Stay strong, stay safe.

#SupportForiKON #SupportForHanbin