#i don’t wanna be here

[its-merrilee]

can you die of anxiousness?

[another-anime-daydreamer]

Rainy Day Blues

[neptunes-saddest-alien]

At this point it is basically impossible to even think there’s a place for me in this world anymore

[sars-wulf]

Also this volunteering place looks very liminal and it’s creeping me out

What is this place.

[wolfstrong]

The bosses son pulled me into his office and was like “hey your not yourself lately…. Are you okay?” No. Do you wanna hear about my boy drama ?

[queer-alienbean]

Let me go homeeeeee

[rhysnolastname]

i don’t feel good today it’s a bad mental health day

[aniverse-x]

everytime I’m in a tough situation in a chess match I’ll think. “What would Magus Carlsen do?” Then still lose either way

[intelligent-space-gay]

I want to cry I don’t wanna be out anymore I don’t want to be a person I don’t want to be perceived I’m not going home I’m going to my partners but I want to go HOME I’m going to put my headphones on n watch shameless on my phone n cry n then go to sleep

[ishipmutualrespect]

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[hot-coffemilk]

Idk it just genuinely feels like I’m destined to be by myself and never have the chance of forming a deep connection with anyone

[cb-writes-stuff]

I wanna go home. But noooooooo, people have to “socialize” and stuff.

[bl0w-m3]

In another universe I hope I am beautiful.

[no-see-um-incorrect]

GUYs

My sister wants to see my writing concepts I do for the Yuurivoice boys

Pray for me 

[b4ry0nyx]

this is a random vent

a while back my dog randomly attacked my cat. i loved them both so much. basically my cat was on the counter and i was warming up some food. my dog was on the floor waiting for the food cos he thought i’d give him some. i pushed my cat away from the food and he jumped off the counter then my dog just started attacking him. it happened so suddenly and it was so unexpected. i tried so hard to get him off but my dog was a staffy so he had that death grip. my brother was also with me he was screaming and panicking, i was panicking tryna get my cat out of my dogs mouth. honestly that was really traumatising. that was my childhood cat yk idk. that whole event. it’s hard to explain how traumatising it was but yeah. my cat ended up not surviving. we kept my dog. then on february 21 my dog attacked my brother. my brother is fine but it was really bad. i was getting ready in the other room then me and my mum heard my brother screaming. i had to pull my dog off my brothers arm. the thing is he wasn’t aggressive at all he would coddle all the time. he loved us all. and he used to sleep in my bed so idk the explanation for these 2 events.

anyways i’m not sure if i have some sort of ptsd from these and i’m not sure if my feelings are valid. the worst thing is how attached i was to my dog. i loved him so much. he was literally the centre of my life i devoted all my time to him he’s all i cared about and now he’s gone. we had to give him away immediately so he was in a shelter for a bit. that sucked but i thought i might be able to seehim one day cos i thought he was getting rehomed but i found out that he got put down on march 1st. i didn’t even get to say good bye yk.

so yeah i just feel so shit about everything. idk what was up with him. and it’s not like i had control over what happened in both cases. i don’t blame him at all cos i love him. i miss him everyday. it sucks cos i do get really bad flashbacks to the events whenever i see slightly aggressive behaviour in animals or when i hear people scream. even that one scene in jurassic park lost world when the guy was getting attacked by complies that’s really triggering for some reason. i’m not sure if it’s valid to have trauma from those experiences or not. also i miss him so much even after what happened, i mean that dog was my life,i lived for him yk? idk i just feel kinda empty and so alone without him.

anyways this was a very long random vent i just dumped a bunch of info for no reason. i can’t really talk to anyone about it cos i don’t open up to people and i hate being vulnerable. i can kinda talk to my bf abt it cos when my dog attacked my brother i was getting ready to go meet up with him and the attack happened 2 mins before we was gonna leave so my bf had to meet me at the hospital so he knows abt it but i don’t wanna talk abt it. also he just got a puppy and i don’t wanna bring the mood down yk

it’s also really hard to live with these memories. like i feel like i’ve experienced my fair share of terrible stuff but this hurrrtttss bro. it’s so much harder to exist. these memories are 😬😬. i think my anxiety has gotten worse as well. idk bruh, pretty shit situation. i just wanna know if my feelings are valid also apologies if i didn’t explain this very well.

so i don’t think anyone will actually read this shit but yeah :)

[kaiaden]

POV: Ur school is on lockdown right before school ends

HELP

Bro, I’ve been in the damn building for about an hour longer than I need to, I’m so tireddddd

I just wanna go home

Too bad there’s people out there causing ‘suspicious activity in the surrounding neighborhood’

Edit: 7:10 pm (3 hours after school ended)

IM FREEEEEE