#i dont want to exist

[mysticaidenanimatez]

Another vent post with my mother figure.

And yes, I put my watermark on this, too. Why? Idk.

I don't want to be here currently. Please don't ask me to open up about it.

[gl1tt3ryb0n3zzz]

i feel like i’m suicidal most of the time or i just get the feeling i don’t wanna exist but most of the time i’d be too scared to go through with it so i feel like it’s not that deep. i’ve only actually come close a few times but yh. it’s tiring just not wanting to exist most of the time 🙉

[squishymain]

Why do people make it so hard for me to want to live

[namekujii]

Lima Bean is gone

[lipgoth]

i would really rather die than feel this way rn

[semercury]

"and I'm the monster on the hill. Too big to hang out, slowly lurching toward your favorite city, pierced through the heart but never killed" is a weird tswift lyric to start crying to in my car, but weirder things have happened I guess.

[lostwanderer42]

A medically induced coma would fix a lot of my problems right now

[iamrennet]

I’m tired of this sh1t.

[can-i-give-up-now-please]

The world is going up in flames, filled with suffering and I'm the one being judged for not wanting to be here ???

[edwardslostalchemy]

Wow I'm feeling super down today. This sucks.

[gl1tt3ryb0n3zzz]

so i think i have pmdd cos i’m always super suicidal before my period but i’m confused cos i’m also suicidal after my period?

[pixiegrl]

dear diary

[tulipsxbooks]

I don't know who I'm meant to be

But I know that it's not me...

[moonly-bitch]

Somehow I'm always finding myself back in this state of loneliness and hopelessness, I just want to lay on my bed until it swallows me whole, I don't really want to die I guess, but I would really like not to exist

[smellyowl]

TopGolf is the most embarrassing thing on the planet

[the-softest-butch]

everyone tells me how much i changed their lifes, how much of a blessing i am to them, that i am their best friend or one of the most precious people in their life. i keep enriching everyones life. they dont want me to leave or kill myself cause im such a blessing. cause they will have to live with a big loss. they dont understand that this doesnt flatter me one bit. you are telling me i shouldnt kill myself for your own benefit. i know its meant as a compliment but its not. but i cant tell them these harsh words. it will hurt them. they wont understand. so i just smile thru it.