#i get like 10 minutes of my brain being ok and then the next 5 hours is Suffering Time

[goodoldfashionlovercorpse]

Casual (pt. 2)

pairing: Sirius Black x slytherin! potter! reader

summary: Y/n Potter has been in love with Sirius for as long as she's known him. During their 6th year at Hogwarts, they start hooking up. Sirius declares it casual, but are they both truly ok with this secret?

a/n: this is part two of my Sirius series! hope you enjoy. @hisparentsgallerryy and @planets-and-stars thanks for the support !!

warnings: angst, secret fwb situationship, jealousy, explicit language

Classes went on as normal: a few people passed while others clung for dear life. Unfortunately, Y/n shared a class with him, the one she fell for. She couldn’t pinpoint why she was glaring at him, maybe it was what Lucius had told her. All Sirius did was pretend she didn’t exist until the night. Somehow, he pays more attention to class when she’s in the room. James had sat next to her. She always felt guilty for hooking up with his best friend, he was such a good brother. Even when she was sorted, he bragged about his sister proudly, flaunting the fact she was the brains to his brawns. Sirius got paired with Snape, who was sending her glances that screamed “Help!” every time Sirius said something dumb. Gods, why did she stare at his lips? She always sent Snape a sorrowful expression, reassuring it’s just a partnership for the week. Potions had to be Snape’s and Sirius’s best class, so she didn’t worry that much.

“Ok, so, this week we’ll be brewing Amortentia. It’s powerful, so no one is allowed to drink any of it. Got that?” Slughorn asked, receiving hums from every student, “Right, now turn to page 201 and get started, you have all your ingredients set up. Have fun and remember, the first 3 groups to finish receive 5 house points each!”

As soon as Slughorn finished, James turned to the page. “Alright, I’ll dictate, you add. This should be finished by today, then ready by tomorrow.”

Y/n added the rose thorns, the pearl dust, and all the other ingredients, slowly stirring them. The twins looked at each other with puzzling gazes. “How is this gonna take people a week?”

“Maybe he wants it perfect?”

“Maybe.”

As the pair finished, Slughorn came behind them 20 minutes later. He congratulated the two and encouraged them to sniff. “What do you smell?”

James chimed up first, “Books, tea, that sweet scent of spring.” Ever the romantic, he described. From scents to scenarios, he gushed for 10 minutes as Lily stared at him, smiling. He played with his hands and then blushed once he was done. Turning to his sister, “And you, sis?”

Y/n went near and sniffed. She knew what she smelled, she knew who she smelled. But if Slytherins are taught one thing, it’s acting. “Some leather, a bit of peanut butter, and… dog?” She tried not to scrunch her nose, trying hard to come up with something, anything, to find someone else to match. Sirius was staring at her, his gaze locked on hers. “Maybe it’s Paul McCartney?” the crowd laughed. She stared at Sirius, no smile present on either faces.

Soon three more groups described their scents, the last one being Snape and Sirius. Snape described a simple smell, but she knew he smelled nothing, love just wasn’t his thing. Sirius, on the other hand, tried to finish it quickly. His hands were on his neck, resting on thin air as he bragged bout perfume and chocolate. The very things she liked. “I guess there’s the scent of a night out, doing makeup and dress-ups or whatnot,” he added, the corner of his eye directed at her. James was puzzled, staring Sirius down with pressed brows. She continued looking at Sirius’s table, seeing how Snape tried hiding under the table as girls came flocking towards their table. 

“That’s so romantic!”

“I need to buy more perfume…”

“Hey, Sirius, wanna go out?”

Before you knew it, they were being whisked off by Prof. Slughorn to go to their desks. As class ended, only four out of ten groups had finished, much to her surprise. She started packing up, getting ready for her next class. Snape came up to her as James went over to Sirius. “Can’t believe I got paired with him.”

She shrugged, “You’re both top students, it can’t have been that bad.”

“It is when you’re stared at by everyone  to smell something that’s not there.”

“Hey, everyone believed you.” she pats his back and smiles, gaining a half smile from Snape. The two went out of class, having no clue of Sirius staring at them, a layer of jealousy coated in his gaze. One that didn't go unnoticed by James. The Potter shoved his friend, mumbling something about ‘brotherly duties’. Perhaps tonight will be the night… then again, it was always casual.

Y/n and Snape went along with their classes, being joined by their other friends, but mainly just Lucius. Lucius was quite excited about the Ravenclaw party, and Snape planned on studying. Both gave her a glance, though. A sort of questioning look. “He’ll be there,” Lucius said.

She shrugged, looking down. It wouldn’t have made a difference, she would seen him tonight regardless of whether she attended, that’s how they worked. “I’ll probably go to help James and Lily.” she earned a shrug from Lucius, the other male yapping about homework and studies.

“We should start preparing for our test next week, though.”

“Relax, Sev, that’s days ahead.”

At least friendships weren’t casual, Y/n thought, laughing along with Lucius and hugging Snape. They departed at the common rooms, her having to go up. She smiled, maybe tonight will be about her.

[sophies-junkyard]

NOBODY ASKED but… Obviously Simon’s arc in adventure time solidified the series as one of greatest of all time (and I’m so hyped for this ice king sadness renaissance) but now I’m thinking of OTHER Adventure Time moments that rewired my brain as a kid. In no particular order:

1. “Once the strong guys got it how they liked it they said ‘this is fair now. This is the law.’ Once they were winning they changed the rules”. They really had the cartoon dog say that on tv in 2014.

2. “People get built different. We don’t have to understand it, we just gotta respect it”

3. The entirety of All The Little People. That shit was absolutely nuts for a kids show but also like…. I can’t articulate the lesson I just know there was one and it haunted me. The danger of the human ego. Hubris. Irreverence. Don’t play god bro.

4. Lady and Peebles. When PB ripped Ricardio’s leg off and bashed his skull in with it. And it was so hardcore they edited it out of the episode. Bro. I remember watching that after school one day and how my jaw just DROPPED at a PRINCESS being so brutal. They let her be so fucking angry and that was a game changer.

5. [Finn, about a horrific memory] “that one’s going in the vault. Aaaaaaaaaandd. It’s gone.” I quote that CONSTANTLY. It’s a great way to bring levity to a bad situation, but also forces me to go “hey wait a sec that’s not gonna work forever”. Things don’t stay in the vault.

6. Puhoy. He lived an entire life in that pillow world. He had kids. And then it’s just gone like a dream.

7. The deer. It was probably my first real introduction to horror. The hand wiggle. You all know exactly what I’m referencing. Were the candy people stuck in that well for 6 months???

8. What Was Missing!! Obviously now because it foreshadowed (and confirmed past) Bubbline, but back then just because it was so good??? IMO, this is the episode that defined WHO our main cast was, and how their relationships needed to grow for them to be content. It set up the next 6 years of the show! Plus it gave us 2 absolute BANGERS. Ugh i rewatched that recording so many times it wasn’t even funny.

9. Ghost Princess. Really just for the line where he sounds like he’s gonna shit his pants remembering his death and then in a clear narrator voice he’s like “I was a broken man.”

10. The pajama war episode. Now I’m doing this from memory so I could be wrong, but I think this really marks the start of Finn growing up. “I’ve really enjoyed just… hanging out with you.” The ability to start over with someone you’ve got complicated history with. The kindness. The growth from both of them!! It’s a direct parallel of episode 1 but their tones couldn’t be more different and I love it.

11. The slow and horrifying realization that The Mushroom War was nuclear Armageddon. Mushroom clouds. That went so far over my head as a kid even though they reference it constantly. It finally clicked during “I remember you”. Which I am NOT gonna go into because holy fuck that’s like 18 posts on its own.

12. Goliad! A child mirroring EVERYTHING they see, for better or worse. Seeing Jake in a bad moment screaming at the kids and goliad absorbing that behavior. Seeing she can use fear to control people. Also PB was Fucking Crazy! Her line “I’m not gonna live forever… I would if I could” is even more unhinged when we learn (like years later) that she’s already 900 years old. But she does physically age so I guess there’s that. The Suitor also falls into this category of episodes.

Ok getting into some of the more talked about moments

1. OK I LIED I have to talk about I remember you. I was 11 years old. I turned on the new adventure time episode like usual. 10 minutes later I was grappling with a grief I had never imagined before. Absolutely BAWLING not just for Simon and Marceline (the PLOT), but for what it showed me. The reality that every kid tries not to think about: your loved ones will leave you someday, even if they don’t want to. It’s an episode that becomes more powerful with every year I get older. To get a bit personal, dementia has completely taken my grandparents from me. I’ve seen sides of my grandfather that should never have existed, and I must constantly forgive him for what he does… now that he doesn’t remember me. And someday it’ll be my parents. That’s just the way of the world, ya know? Anyways, I remember my mom got home right as the credits were rolling and we had a long talk about keeping people alive with memory, mortality, and how the future was far away and we should decide on dinner lmao.

2. The Hall of Egress. I was almost 15. Life was changing. I was changing, and it was strange and frightening. That feeling where you know you’re losing your childhood but you just want to cling to it. Follow the same old familiar path, stick with what’s comfortable. But life doesn’t work that way. It took me years to really understand this episode and it’s symbolism. Honestly I still don’t think I could fully explain it. It’s like. How do I put this. I was so glad to be in the target age group in that moment. I was so glad that something I was growing up with was assuring me “you’re changing, but we’re changing too”. And isn’t that the theme of adventure time? Everything stays, but it still changes.

3. The absolute horror of Ferns existence. He’s Finn, but he’s wrong and warped. All those memories of the people he loves and they can’t stand to be in the same room as him.

4. Susan Strong. The introduction of a RUNNING PLOT. The show up to that point had really been so goofy and so monster of the week. I think the only really plot heavy episode before this one was It Came From the Nightosphere? And then suddenly they call into question the fact that Finn really is the ONLY HUMAN in all of OOO. And then… is he? It was SUCH a departure from the usual tone. Ending that episode with him reaching below her hat and gasping in shock, but never telling the audience what he found. And then she’s just gone. Which leads us to Islands!

5. Min and Marty. Second saddest episode in the entirety of adventure time, made worse because you know exactly how this family is gonna end up. There’s SO MUCH to dissect about Martins behavior in the series. A reformed con artist receives a traumatic brain injury while attempting to save his son. They’re both lost at sea, and he never looks for him. Was it the emotional trauma? Was it the physical damage? Meanwhile a mother loses her husband and her child in a single night and never EVER learns why. Nobody but Martin knows what happened that night. Also Finns fear of the ocean from season 1 is finally explained. 7 years of ignoring Finns origins and then they throw you THIS??? Watching it live was unreal.

Anyways I’m sure I’ll think of more. I might add on to this later for my own sake lmao, but I’d love to hear other peoples formative moments, quotes, episodes, etc. I really just needed to dump this information out of my brain so I can get on with my week.

[huellitaa]

bee's record player: march edition. 🎀𓂃 ࣪˖

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 !! notice !! ♡

surpriseee <3 wanted to try and add a little of my personal influence to my girlblog since music is literally my entire life & thought it might be funny to show u all what makes up the chaotic glittery mess that is my brain (and because there are almost 1000 of you beautiful people following me whatt?? thank you😭). i've allllways wanted to do smth like this too so, here u go !! 🩷💗

(+ this is a way for me to rant about my interests without being annoying to my friends / moots 😭. to anybody who has listened to me rant or cry or scream or whatever over music ily guys mwa)

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 NEW ARRIVALS

goddess, laufey

♡ released march 6th, 2024

♡ single

♡ running time: 4 minutes 28 seconds

eternal sunshine, ariana grande

♡ released march 8th, 2024

♡ full album / LP

♡ best songs: supernatural, the boy is mine, we can't be friends (wait for your love), intro (end of the world)

♡ running time: 35 minutes 33 seconds

unheard, hozier

♡ released march 22nd, 2024

♡ extended play / EP

♡ best songs: too sweet (i adore this song.)

♡ running time: 13 minutes 59 seconds

super real me, illit

♡ released march 25th, 2024

♡ extended play / EP, debut! ♡

♡ best songs: magnetic, midnight fiction

♡ running time: 9 minutes 36 seconds

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 BEE'S TRACKS: TOP 10

♡ 10. my world, illit

girly girl song!! i've been obsessed with illit's whole super real me album, their debut is soo good oh my gosh. its criminally short but i seem to have listened to it a lot !! 😭

♡ 9. we can't be friends (wait for your love), ariana grande

i have SO MUCH to say about this song but it resonates with me so much in so many different ways and i just. oh my god. ariana i love u so much

♡ 8. we got so much, le sserafim

k so i initially didn't really like this song but... it's grown on me. a lot. since it first came out. um. it's pretty simple honestly and it's just really girly girl it makes me feel like a school girl i love it

♡ 7. this is what makes us girls, lana del rey

girlblogger anthem!! okay confession i did not get into this song until LAST MONTH. i know. it's terrible and i am ashamed i am so sorry. but i have formed such a strong emotional attachment to this song its crazy i adore it

♡ 6. imperfect for you, ariana grande

exposing myself pt.3 i was in a really big depressive slump for like one half or more of this month actually and this song helped me so much i can't 😭 i love you ari

♡ 5. the boy is mine, ariana grande

(are you noticing a pattern here yet) um another ariana grande song no lol um idk what ur talking about haha 🥰 this song is so twerkable im sorry i wasnt a fan at first but im obsessed i need to stop

♡ 4. smart, le sserafim

no words. once again wasn't a huge fan originally but oh my god im obsessed w it now. afrobeat type of songs are, will, and always be top tier and i will die on this hill. (i've been SO OBSESSED with le sserafim lately but i think thats fairly obvious here😭)

♡ 3. eternal sunshine, ariana grande

i adore this song oh my god. its become one of my favs of all time since it came out. this was on loop for HOURS when i first heard it and its such a comfort song for me. it shows her growth so beautifully and there's so much about it i just absolutely adore like i could write a whole essay on this song and still wouldnt be able to express how much i love it

♡ 2. magnetic, illit

illit was bound to pop up here again this month tbh ok so me and my bsf were listening to this on loop the entire time at school a little after it came out like we were sitting in the front row of our class and were still watching the magnetic mv under the desk on her phone. so in love with this song it makes me so happy n feel so cute i ahh <3

♡ 1. supernatural, ariana grande

SUPERNATURAL IS THE SONG EVER. first day it came out i listened to the album and this was on loop constantly for the next week or more. it's made it up to my top 10 fav songs of all time ever and i listen to A LOT of music. this song is my life<333

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 ALBUMS

♡ 1. eternal sunshine, ariana grande

fairly self explanatory. i love u ari. there was soo much ari this month bc ive been a diehard ari stan since i was 8 and have never looked back. since yes and released in january i have been ecstatic about ag7 releasing in march after 4 YEARS of no ari so this was MONUMENTAL for me 😭😭 THE DROUGHT IS OVER ARIANATORS RISE 🩷🩷🩷

♡ 2. super real me, illit

so basically the day this album came out my best friend was spamming me about them and i only listened to them like 2 days after cuz she was annoying me about it and OH MY GOD. i listened to them and then proceeded to loop the whole album for the next 72 hours 💗 and for a debut as well is amazing ily illit girlies

♡ 3. with you-th, twice

so i wasn't much of a fan at first bc they just sounded really similar and bland to me but its grown on me a lot since it came out and i've been listening to it so much throughout the entirety of march. its just so oddly comforting in a way and feels like a hug in music form (+ rush and bloom are the best songs argue with the wall)

♡ 4. easy, le sserafim

self explanatory. i'm obsessed with le sserafim at the moment and this album is everything to me. ass shaking album 10/10

♡ 5. k-12, melanie martinez

i have been revisiting one of my fav albums of all time this month and its as amazing as always. this has been my favourite album of all time since it came out and i will never ever get over k12 🩷 10000/10!!!! <3

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 ARTISTS

♡ TOMORROW X TOGETHER

♡ TWICE

♡ LANA DEL REY

♡ LE SSERAFIM

♡ ARIANA GRANDE

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 SPECIAL MENTIONS

♡ happy 1 year to portals by melanie martinez! oh my god this album helped me through all of 2023 and i went to see her on tour in london for my birthday last november and it was surreal. she's amazing. i adore her and this album (i have it on vinyl hehe) and love it SOO MUCH 💖

♡ expect ordinary things by ariana grande to be high high on my top 10 next month its been on loop for days now im obsessed

♡ there's going to be a LOT in next month's issue seeing as 2 of my all time favs are coming back next month, so prepare for that! so excited ahh <3 (one has already released at the time of writing this. prepare urselves.)

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 EDITOR'S NOTE

this was SO FUN oh my gosh. i am 100% making this a regular thing~ lmk if it was entertaining, improvements needed, artists / albums you'd like me to keep up with etc, or just general comments, ideas, reviews and so on. thank you so much for reading, this was so fun! look forward to next month 💗🫶💖

lots of love 💘

[ellaenchanting]

Hypnovember 2023 Master Post.

This year was my 5th Hypnovember! To be honest, it felt particularly hard-fought since I had a lot of life stuff happening in the background this month. (Nothing traumatic, don't worry.) Still, I managed to write about 10,803 words, record almost 50 minutes of audio, and pay tribute to a lovely friend. I'm likely not doing daily prompts next year but I'm glad I ran this marathon one more time. 5 years is a respectable amount of time to do anything so- I'm proud of myself.

Everything I wrote/created is below! Use these icons to find what looks interesting to you:

Icons- 📰- story 🔊- audio ✅-recommendation list ⭐-Ella's favorites 😍- romantic 🌈- queer 😴- regular ole’ hypnosis 🛀- brainwashing and/or hypnotist in a tub 👻- spooky ❓- bad or reeeally questionable consent  👨‍🔬 -science! 🤪 -crackfic #-#sceneideas 😭-feeeels  🦄 -mythological creatures   🔥 -explicitly sexy  🔁 switchy switches 😵‍ -intelligence play  🫥-amnesia 🏴‍☠️- Our Flag Means Death fanfic ☕- comfort 🤏-tiny fic 💌-poem 🚫- denial or teasing 🪞-autobiographical or contains autobiographical elements 🧲 old timey mesmerism

Day 1: Dazed 🔊⭐😴

File description: One Take Wonder induction designed to remind you that going into trance isn't difficult at all.

It's OK.

Just drift.

Day 2: Brain Drain M/m(/m) 📰 😴 🌈😍 🔁🏴‍☠️☕

Choice quote: "Izzy grinned too, feeling oddly proud to be trusted with this quiet moment. He and Ed had never been conventional. Maybe it was OK that Ed and Stede weren't either."

Day 3: Coils (Author/you) 📰 😴 🤏☕

Choice quote: "When I say 'my words coil around you', it IMPLIES control but what it really gives is permission. "

Day 4: Denial 🔊😴🔥🚫

File description: "Denial. That's it. That's all the description you get."

Fun fact: Unless you want spoilers- then head over here

Day 5: Maid (The author/you) 📰 🤏🛀

Choice Quote: "What if you could clean your home and clean your mind at the same time? "

Day 6: Soul Contract (Being/supplicant) 📰 🤏🦄🤪

Choice quote: "So- you say you'll give me your free will?"

Fun fact: This is secretly Good Omens fanfic about Aziraphale (with the serial numbers filed off).

Day 7: Repetition is Hypnotic 🔊👨‍🔬

File description: "Repetition is Hypnotic- what it says on the tin"

Day 8: Addicted (M/f) 📰 ⭐❓😭🛀🪞

Choice quote: "It felt like being owned. It felt like love. Then just as surely as the flood started- it stopped."

Fun fact: This was NOT a fun story to write, partially because it dug up some of my and my friends' worst experiences. I'm glad it's been helpful for some people who have been in some really bad situations, though- I'm hope I did you all justice. You (and we all) deserve so much more than this.

Day 9: Erased (?/f) 💌🛀

Choice quote: "That had all been/Erased"

Day 10: Confidence (F/f) 📰😴🌈🫥❓😍🤪🧲

Choice quote: "'No,' interrupted the young mesmerist. 'I mean- I know this is quite unusual but- I find myself quite fond of you, Harriet.'

Day 11: Attitude Adjustment/IQ Reduced (M/f) 📰⭐😴😍😵‍#🔥

Choice quote: "'That's good, honey,' he encouraged. 'You don't need to think right now. I've got all your bigger thoughts for safekeeping.'"

Day 12: Hyperfocus (The author/you) 📰😴🤏👨‍🔬

Choice quote: "I know you can focus, but can you HYPERfocus?"

Day 13: Smile (Being/f) 📰🤏👻🦄

Choice quote: "It made her smile."

Day 14: Impossibly Deep (Person/person) 📰🤏❓🛀🫥#

Choice quote: "'Not possible to be this deep, isn't that right?'

'Mmmm not possible. Too deep.'"

Day 15: Shatter 🔊👨‍🔬🛀

File description: Just a quick loopable file with a nice "shatter" mantra

Day 16: Sex Obsessed ✅🌈

Fun fact: Recommendation list of my favorite content from my friend @sex-obsessed-lesbian

Day 17: Corrupted (M/f) 📰⭐🤏❓🔥#

Choice quote: "'I can give you what you want," he said, silkily. "All the submission. All the pleasure. Everything you've been dreaming of...All you need to give me in return,' he continued, 'is your 'no'".

Day 18: Pet 🔊☕😴

File description: I'm a bit sick so- did some nice self hypnosis around the idea of being pet.

Day 19: Elevator (F/f) 📰😴🔁#

Choice quote: "Have you ever ridden the Tower of Terror at Disney World?" Ivy asked.

Day 20: Transformation 🪞⭐

Choice quote: "She didn't know that something could be both campy playacting and extremely real at the same time-the feelings, the bonding, the lingering effects-all of it."

Day 21: Forget 🔊🤪🫥👨‍🔬

File description: "Similar to the style of Samsung's website that helps you forget TV series you've watched, this file is designed to help you forget all of my Hypnovember content for this year- so you can experience it again for the first time!"

Day 22: Hypnotic Hands (F/f) 📰😴#🌈

Choice quote: "But mistress could make anything hypnotic. And today she had made HER hands hypnotic too."

Day 23: ...And Back Down 💌😴😭

Choice quote: "...And back down"

Day 24: Ready to Play (F/m) 📰😴#🪞🛀🚫

Choice quote: "The slight curve of her lip indicated she had something in mind but- had it started?"

Day 25: At Peace (Being/f) 📰🤏👻🦄

Choice quote: "It was useless to fight against it- although in the beginning she had tried."

Day 26: Shadows (F/f) 📰🌈🚫🛀

Choice quote: "Those shadows of her former self were still there- they helped make her who she was now. Who she was now, though, was happy."

Day 27: Shiny (F/m)📰🤏#😴🛀

Choice quote: "The leather boots weren't 'shiny, shiny' like in the song, but it didn't matter. "

Day 28: Workout (F/f) 📰⭐🛀🚫🔥🌈#

Choice quote: "'I'm going to challenge you a bit today, ok?' she says. 'Are you ready for that?'"

Day 29: Wholesome (The author/you) 📰⭐😂😴☕🪞

Choice quote: "It means something to us, and thus it has meaning"

Day 30: You Win (F/nb)📰😂😍😴☕

Choice quote: "'Hmph,' they responded, grumpily. 'I know what you're doing.'"

I'm entirely a hobbyist content creator and work primarily for feedback and belly rubs. :) (I do take tips on Ko-fi though if you're feeling generous!) If you liked anything I made this month, I'd be really really delighted to hear about it. Hell, I'm delighted to hear constructive criticism as well- anything to know this isn't all going to into a void somewhere. Reblogs are also very much appreciated.

That being said- here are a few people in particular I want to thank for your encouragement, your inspiration, your cheerleading, or just generally for helping get me through the month- @thekinkycocktailclub @mentat101posts @jam-and-stuff @linnybeenaughty @sex-obsessed-lesbian @theleeallure @tennfan2 @spiralturquoise @daja-the-hypnokitten @misscammiedawn @royb8772 @hypno-potion @hypno-sandwich @wellgnawed @redriotwest @egur19 @mozart32 @mys-oleander @sleepwithgiggli @telephonetrance @dommestic @subbypuppy (I know I'm leaving a bunch of people off so- I apologize if I am and know I still appreciate you a lot.)

Extra special shoutout to @emptyofbrains2 who has not only given me lots of great feedback but has also written a lot of her own great stuff this past month. Check out her Tumblr if you haven't already!

Stay tuned to this space for- whatever it is the future holds. :) I'm excited- I hope you are too.

Thanks y'all :)

[speedychildnight]

FOREVER MINE// CHAPTER 5

Chapter 5

He left your cheeks and started walking again. Soon tears made their way to fall. You hang your head while crying silently and walking behind him.

Jungkook also got shocked and that's the only thing which was roaming inside his head that's why he failed to notice.

After some minutes you both reached in front of your houses. By that time you already wiped your tears.

Jungkook: Ummm...Yn... actually I... wanna go home today. As you know I didn't go there for 5 days. I think dust covered everything. I just wanna clean the house a little bit.

He said to you and it hit your heart like an arrow but you didn't lift your head and just nodded then went to your house without saying goodbye.

At your house...

Yn: I knew it...he...he will break everything. But I also can't handle it anymore. I am also a human.

You cried out loud while Jungkook's brain was also in a mess.

Time skips....

You cried a lot...

Yn: All those times I was just being fooled. I know I am not his type. That's why he didn't answer. I get it as we are bff so he doesn't wanna break my heart and tell me that.

You're thinking about it only while sitting on the bed. Your eyes became sore, red and puffy. Soon you drifted into sleep being tired while crying this much.

At Jungkook's house...

Jungkook: Did I just overreact? She told me beforehand, right? Shit... Ahhh I am in a huge mess now.... Oh no I have to sleep.

After 10 minutes...

Jungkook: I don't think I can sleep like that. Oh shit, I have to go to my dear plushie.

He got out of his house and came to your house. Your mom already told him the password. But when he tried that he couldn't able to open it.

Actually, you changed it. Cause you thought Jungkook would never come. That's why.

Jungkook: Aish! This girl. Did she just change the password? OK, I have to work on plan B. Ok, Jungkook be ready.

He climbed the pipe and reached the balcony. He opened the window.

Jungkook: Look at this clumsy girl. She locked the door but left the window what if someone who will enter other than me? Anyway, let me sleep. I can't even able to sleep without her.

He came near you but was shocked when he saw a dry tear stain on your cheeks and your puffy eyes.

Jungkook (in thought): She cried?! But why? Is it because of me? Don't tell me that....oh no. I am sorry Yn.

He climbed to the bed hugged you tightly from behind and drifted into sleep.

Next morning...

Jungkook woke up and saw you were sleeping beside him while hugging him so tightly.

He stared at your face for some time then brought his hand to your hair and started caressing it.

You woke up feeling some touch. As soon as you opened your eyes you saw Jungkook and a tear slipped from your eyes.

He wiped the tear with his hand.

Jungkook: Why my chatterbox is crying?

Yn: J-jungkook y-you c-came?

Your voice was shaking from crying.

He wiped your tears and again asked...

Jungkook: Ynaah what happened??

Yn: J-Jungkook I am very very sorry for yesterday. Please don't break our friendship. Please, please.

You were pleading him more like begging.

Jungkook: Are you crazy? Why would I break our friendship? You're too precious to me Yn. And why the hell are you crying?

You decided to avoid this topic as you got your answer that he is not going to end this friendship.

Yn: Nothing. I am just silly. I just want our friendship to never break.

You said and hugged him very tightly. He also hugged you back.

................

Finally, the day came for which both of you were waiting. The exam day...

You both wished the best of luck to each other and went to the exam hall.

As soon as the exam ended Jungkook came outside while running to tell you that he did his best. But you were nowhere to be found.

He thought maybe you were inside so he waited for you until the last people went from there.

He called you several times but all the calls went to voicemail. He started to worry about you.

Without thinking he rushed to your house and there he saw you curled up.

He ran to you and hugged you tightly. After some time he pulled out from the hug and started scolding you.

Jungkook: Are you crazy or what huh? Don't you know how worried I got about you? Tell me how many times I called you huh?

He was scolding you nonstop until he noticed that you were giving no reaction.

Jungkook: Ynaaah what happened? Tell me.

You opened your mouth to tell something but again stopped.

He got that you're not comfortable to tell right now. So he didn't force you and escort you towards the dining table to feed you.

Time skips...

It's been one week since you're trying to avoid Jungkook. It's so hard to avoid him when you're living under the same roof even in the same room.

But Jungkook caught you. So he decided to talk with you right now. Cause he can't take your silent treatment anymore.

You both were eating lunch. But suddenly Jungkook spoke

Jungkook: Ynaaah you know there is a Tteok-bokki shop in front of Seoul National University. Very first we will go there after our admission okk?

It's that moment when your heart is clenched. So, you kept silent.

Jungkook: yn I am asking you something.

Yn: I can't go to the college.

And that's when finally your tears made their way down to your face.

Yn: I am sorry Jungkook I can't keep my promise.

His chopsticks fell from his hand.

Jungkook: What happened Yn?

Yn: P-pa-papa i-is a-alive......

[stupidspidey]

AJR - Living Room

if you told me in 2013 that this was the absolute pinnacle of music and that it would get no better than this, chances are i would’ve told you “that’s nice, leave me alone creep” and went to go kick the shit out of my brother at Mario on the DS. Now if you told me now that these guys ended up being my favourite band, i’d probably give you the same response but i’d go play a Spider-Man game instead. Regardless, Living Room by AJR is just… not good, by any sense of the word realistically, don’t get me wrong it’s got its merits but holy fuck, it’s really hard to listen to. Now, i don’t want to be too unfair about this, believe it or not sitting here for a good 5 minute read yelling about how bad something is is REALLY undesirable in a review, and it’s even more undesirable since my girlfriend refuses to sleep with me because of it. (jk rose ily) So, i’m gonna take their advice from one of their next albums that came after this and well, skip to The Good Part, which unfortunately should only take me like, 20 lines, maximum, before i start either repeating myself or talking about how a line in “The World is a Marble Heart” is was reused as a backing vocal in “I Won’t” like, 10 years later.

The Good

My GOD, do these guys know how to write a decent line or few. Sure there’s a few “Thirsty, Thirsty, Thursdays!” in there but, every one of those is definitely made up for by the honestly-adorable Infinity or the surprisingly-hopeful My Calling, each lyric will either strike you as cheesy in a really cute way, or inspiring in a really dumb way, the album could honestly be mistaken as written about someone with how directed and loving each line feels from the start to the end and briefly sidestepping around at least 49.2% of each song. Big White Bed especially, but as i wrote that down all i could think to describe the song was “I love you… BITCH. I ain’t ever gonna stop loving you… BITCH.” from a vine like 10-or-so years ago. So, really, pretty appropriate for their timing on the albums release realistically. A really specific praise for the album but, i think the art itself is really pretty? something about it feels so real. Like, if you made an album with two of your brothers and basically pro-tools, a mic and a big idea (yeah, that’s a quote from one of the songs, Big Idea.) would you not just make the album art you all sat on the comfy family sofa in the middle of butt-fuck nowhere with your band name splattered on the wall in a nice deep red? I know i would if i could fit all 5 of my brothers onto one tiny-ass couch. Now unfortunately i can only realistically think of these two points for the positive part but, i will say this: Every track on this album, has thought behind it. It sometimes comes across as them just lobbing the entire processing power of a Windows 7 computer running pro-tools at you, but if you listen to the audio-commentary edition of the album (because, for some reason they made that?) it really is easy to tell the three of them had passion for the thing, especially seen in Jack’s (the J in AJR) enthusiasm about finally making it out of slummin’ it in the streets while his two way-fucking-taller brothers tap danced and sang, outside of his appearance in Pink Panther 2 and Sesame Street of course. (seriously, i’m deadass, look it up, he even has an iMDB page.) Now, unfortunately, on that point, i can’t realistically stay on the positives forever on this without ending up on some TikTok calling me a brainrotted liberal or some slur that hasn’t been unsealed since some crusty fucking 4channer woke up from his food comatose over a reddit girl with fat tits so, with that point.

The Bad

Ok right so, you know how i mentioned this was considered some sort of principle of music back then in 2013? Well guess what, motherfucker. I wasn’t even joking, the way people view Bruno Mars now is the way people viewed Living Room in 2013, though it was hard not to when their brain cells rubbed together and they decided the best way to promote their album was to tag every artist under the sun on gods green-motherfucking-earth and tell them to listen to it. Even then, the only one who listened really was Sia, and realistically what the fuck have you actually seen Sia do in the past like 5 years? This is a real question seriously please for the love of GOD tell me i have no idea past *Chandelier*. Anyway, enough of throwing Sia some strays (i’m sorry ma’am i’m sure there’s a grammy somewhere i didn’t bother googling), back onto Twenty-One Pilo— Coldplay— I mean, AJR. The album had passion behind it, don’t get me wrong here, but it is completely misplaced. The only way i can describe this is that, if this was the latest release around the time of E.T. for the Atari 2600? Music probably wouldn’t have survived past that either. Though realistically it was probably one of the better albums of that era since by then every other song was the most bassy-pile of “please dance to this” you’d ever seen, but i’m sure there’s someone still out there hitting the dab to fuckin’ The World is a Marble Heart, surely. The album itself had some pretty… interesting, approaches, but really you can only get around 30 seconds into the first song before that fucker starts yodelling? why the fuck is he yodelling? Regardless, no matter how many times you make a sequel to Turning Out or how many times you make some good shit like The DJ is Crying for Help, to those guys at TikTok? you’ll allwwaayyss be the guys who made Thirsty. You could get a treaty and a vulcan salute from half of space, but all those motherfuckers will still only know you for Thirsty. Personally? i’d be so fucking mad. I mean, you look to your left and Kanye has just dropped Yeezus, and what do you have to compete against that? a new national holiday celebrated exclusively by kids who get bullied at school, Thirsty Thursday, if i were them i wouldn’t have even made it to The Click without some sort of apology statement.

The Ending

Now, if i’m being completely real here. I can’t entirely slander Living Room, it’s got ideas, it’s got (marble) heart, and most importantly… It let Neotheater exist so… some good out of the bad right? Sure, for anyone else, unless you’re subconsciously subscribed to every single opinion on r/Music like some sort of absorption sponge. And just… in future, for anyone reading this, Include yodelling in your song and i will fucking SLICE you, not for poor mixing choices, not even for poor taste, but for reminding me that i sat here for an hour, and reviewed an album. Worst part? one out of five baby, i’m not down until i hear the fat lady sing, i’ve still gotta drop my useless thoughts for The Click, Neotheater, OK ORCHESTRA and *The Maybe Man. So, i’m gonna go out with a BANG! and by that? i mean get gunned down by the mexican cartel for even daring to include a good section in this slice of piss.

4/10 - Not enough yodelling really.

[elizabethplaid]

Saturday's notes, part 2 - May 4, 2024

Part one here

Things got better as the day went on, after the alarm debacle in the morning. LL-K shared cookies with me from our fav local bakery, the one with the huge cookies.

When I went to pick up my take-out order, they didn't have it. Turns out, dad never hit the confirmation thing to finish making the order on their website. I almost asked to make the order right then, but I just wanted to go home. I texted my dad before leaving, then tried calling him, but his battery had died. So yeah, just go home; didn't want to wait another 20 minutes.

(Plus my Lego friend was starting her stream soon, and I wanted to chat with her as much as I could. Still ended up being like half an hour late, but she was still just getting started.)

THEN, on the drive back, I re-encountered the same lawn ornament I'd forgotten about from my drive out that morning. Remember the shadow-silhouette cut-outs that were popular in the late 90s? (Well, at least they were popular in NC, back then.) Some motherfucker had a human-sized one, like it was walking out from behind the power pole. Freaked me the fuck out, thinking someone was walking into the road.

Then I'm like, "Wait, those arms look familiar." IT WAS FUCKING SASQUATCH! And then it got me again, as I drove home! It wasn't even obscured by the pole on this side, and it got me even worse. Like, of all the shit that happened, that's the one that pisses me off the most. It's the only one that I can't let roll off my back.

Ok, so I got home, confirmed with dad that he forgot to finish the order. He was pretty apologetic about it. I put it on-par with how I fucked up the alarm that morning, so eh *shrug emoji*. He made some frozen stir fry meal for us instead. Certainly not the best, because it's a frozen thing and not made by responsible chefs, but it hit the spot. Plus dad did the work, as I ranted about Sasquatch. Very sweet of him.

Got to my friend's stream and chatted with her. Looked up some Lego stuff, shared links, etc. After finishing my food, I told her about my day. She encountered the same Sasquatch cut-out in her area, too. Big laugh with that.

She started her stream at 6pm, and she was on bag 10 of 22 by the time I bailed. (She intends to start at bag 12 for the next stream, I think.) It was after 1am, and I admitted that I'd been up since 5:30pm the previous evening. She's like, "Go to bed, girl." I texted her a pic of me in bed, with my Monty Python rabbit biting my face, to confirm I obeyed her order, haha. Still felt antsy (a "toddler tantrum" of resistance) and played on the phone for a bit. Finally put down the phone at 2am.

Woke sometime after 8am, to my daily "good morning" message. Text-chatted with phone friend, kind of explained how frustrated I was feeling. Both over- and under-stimulated, body-fatigued and brain-wired. Writing out my thoughts helped me vent the feelings, thankfully. Vocal-speech talking is tough on me, trying to find and form the words. But texting is easier, so I was able to form a lot of thoughts, and it got easier as I kept writing.

Texting with phone-friend and Lego-friend have really helped me. I don't know why they're different from other people I've talked with in the past. Maybe it's because they're both in Maine, or that they've met each other in person and I've met phone-friend in person. They're more tangible than other internet friends, even though we're still apart most of the time. =======

I'm still jittery, now that I'm more awake. Just a bouncing leg. My mind has calmed to the point where I could probably doze off if I laid down again. Briefly considered going to Ellsworth with my dad, at least to pick up fast food. Nah, I think I want to nap; it's probably wiser in the long-run.

As usual, I have library on Tuesday. Thursday is a dental appointment in the morning (fillings on back molars), followed by meeting up with my phone-friend. They've convinced me to try boba tea for the first time, so that's my plan for Friday, before heading back home.

It'll be a lot of chilling again, snacking in the room instead of going to a restaurant. After dental stuff, I want to take it easy anyway.

Just need to make sure I have my gifts for phone-friend's family wrapped, and I'm all set. I'm glad I went with an alternate plan. The embroidered drawstring bag will wait til Christmas, thankfully. =======

So yeah, I had a fucking day, my god. I'm in a better mood now, though more venting will be necessary. Still feeling like an over-stimulated toddler, somewhat. Struggling with the weight of fabrics on my skin versus feeling chilly. Had to close my window after I woke up.

Will probably go back to bed soon, though I might read webcomics or that Jane Eyre thing. (They just had the scene where the ~mystery person~ set fire to the dude's bedroom, hahaha.)

[silverpolish]

me being annoyed abt food below the cut 👍

bc like. pretty much all my acute problematic nausea that makes me feel Very bad is gone (just in the mornings around the time i take my meds) so i just get v low level stuff that i think is mostly anxiety

but regardless i’m still eating like. nothing. and i get hungry (ok well my stomach makes a noise and cramps so im assuming that’s hunger i don’t actually get the hunger brain signal i don’t think); but then there’s 0 desire to follow through on that so i have no appetite and just . don’t eat

like it’s 7pm, i woke up at 5:30am and today to eat i have had: half a toasted bagel

but usually i get really bitchy and headachey and i can physically feel the effects of not having had food but i don’t get that at the minute

plus after i eat im still crazy nauseous and have to lie down for half an hour usually . And week after next im going back to my 10 hour a day on my feet constantly in the heat job so. ha ha!

[moonjxsung]

STAAARRR I NEED UR ADvice . PLZ

ok so theres this concert happening next thursday that i may or may not already have bought tickeys for without asking my parents and my parents are VERY STRICT AND WILL NEVER ALLOW ME TO GO TO A CONCERT AT ALL. ESP AT THE TIME ITSBAT (8-10 PM SO ITS LATE) AND SO . I was being a little devious and thought of some excuses. that it was a dinner conference for my internship which i had to go to bcs i didnt go to the one during the winter. which came off well to my mom but her only response was “ohhj thays late…its ok ur dad can wait outside the venue” UMMMMMMMMMMMmzzzzzzUELP . I did research and the venue is literally ONE HUGE ROOM. LIKE THE EXITS LEAD STRAIGHT TO THE STAGE AND THE FLOOR SO I CANT EVEN BE LIKE “oh there was a concert and a conference happening at the same time” AGH! AND THEN MY FRIEND DID RESEARCH ONLINE THRU GOOGLE IMAGES AND SAW THAT EVEN THO THE VENUE IS INT HE CITY, THERE MIGHT ACTUALLY BE PARKING RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE VENUE BCS OF HOW WIDE THE STREETS ARE. SO MY DAD CANT EVEN WAIT LIKE 5 BLOCKS AWAY IM CRURITKEKEJTKJFKEJ. AND ALSO ITS LIKE…IN THE CITY. WHOSE ACTUALLY DRIVING TO THE CITY PEOPLE USUALLY USE PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION. IM GOING TO SOB. THERES NO GUARANTEE THAT THE STREETS WILL BE FULL OF CARS BCS OF THAT.

so we made another plan. i think she forgot abt the conference for now bcsssaaa i mentioned it sometime last week but like. now my excuse is that my boss gave me a ticket to bring a friend and so im gonna “bring” my girlfriend. and then ill say that my gf has to do smth w her family the next day so its more convenient for her dad to pick us up and drop us off bcs he was gonna come do that anyway.

on monday, my friends and i r literally going to the venue to scout the area out im being so fr 😭😭💀

do u think itll work be honest. im also terrified of even bringing up the “conference” again bcs idk im jist SCARED 😭😭😭 But i wanna go to the concert so bad plslslsl WHAT DONU THINK. I need multipple BRAINS ON THIS. HOW DO I BRING UP THE CONFERENCE AGAIN TO MY MOM

- a very desperate and malding 💫

HELDPXPSOLEKRKRKFMEKRKKTNT THIS STRESSED ME OUT SO BAD JUST READING IT OH MY GOD 😭😭😭😭 idk if you’ve ever seen the movie New York Minute w Mary Kate & Ashley Olsen but this literally sounds like that movie JSKDKLDSKWOEKKRRK ANYWAYS my first thought before I finished even reading this was that you need to get a ride home from ur FRIENDDDD there is literally no way around it I’m almost 100% sure that if your dad waits outside the “conference” for you he’s going to know what’s going on 😭😭 but I think it makes total sense to say that your friend has something the next day so you need to get picked up by your friends’ family! Don’t even phrase it as a suggestion or a question just straight up be like “yeah her parents are picking me up so I’ll let you know when we’re all on the way home” and be as casual about it as possible! Don’t say anything that might invite more questions 😭 AND if worse case scenario you do get caught, just say there was a change of plans (keep it very vague) but don’t pile on more lies, just be mostly honest w them. Like “yeah there was a change of plans so my friends and I opted to go to this event instead but I didn’t think it’d be a big deal because I already told you guys I’d be busy that day” and if they scold you then just let it happen and don’t argue more! Parents just want you to be safe at the end of the day so you can’t blame them too much but also I don’t see an issue going to a concert if you already said you’d be out, I change plans all the time and as long as I get home safely and answer the phone when my parents call they’re usually okay w it. GOOD LUCK BESTIE LMK HOW IT GOES……… also have fun at the concert wtaf that sounds so exciting!!!! Be safe please!!!!! 🩷💘💝💓💞💖💕🫶👼✨

[moogmigmagmoog]

An Actual Tried-Gun Stamp’d 3D Animated Sci-fi TV Show Ramble

Ok ok I’ll try to say at least a few more paragraphs about it. Several paragraphs actually. It’s not very insightful or anything, but I’d like to get it out of my system anyways.

(Also yes I’m changing up names to avoid key word searches. Hope it’s not too confusing.)

I’m stating the obvious here, but the animation alone is groundbreaking and carries the entire show from start to finish. I’ve got scenes that live in my head forever now just because they were that cool. Stamp’d’s one of the best looking shows I’ve seen in a long time. The attempts at world building were nice too, and I’m also not that against some of the streamlining they’ve done (like replacing the 5th moon scenario with July). Didn’t hate most of the redesigns either; Bug Fella got the best update, and I grew fine with Red Guy and Tiny Woman’s new looks by the end. The way they have the cities encased in the ships is interesting too. It loses a good chunk of the Wild West charm but I can see what they’re going for at least, and I don’t mind it. But man did this show need double the episodes it got for the story it tried to tell... The Studio tried to cram so much in every episode, and as a result a lot of the major moments felt empty to me; as soon as you try to process what happened it’s time to move on to the next big thing. I finished almost every episode feeling burnt out while at the same time wishing it was 20 minutes longer, just so they could’ve jangled 2 sets of keys at a time in front my face instead of 5 all at once.

It’s the dangers of trying to retell an old story in a new way in such a limited time. You can change up the visuals and setting, but you still need familiar enough plot points to still be y’know, that story. With how little time The Studio was given, it feels like they reached those plot points like they’re checking off a list. A glaring example for me is how Cross Guy and Red Guy never had a chance to pal around for the entire show; but because the Laws of Tried-Gun dictate that these guys are supposed to be close, they have to be close here too (even if we never fully see how or why). Now for some people that’s not an issue. Plenty of viewers are willing to fill in the blanks themselves. And that’s fine... but in this context I’m not one of those people. I know what should be there, and it’s just not there! Let me see these goofballs eat spaghetti and bicker towards one another, please!

Just to save time and your brain cells, I’m not gonna try to go over every single change in the story I had issues with. Not even sure how to go about talking about it... Really the root of my problems come from how these changes were presented, which again, comes from them having no time to flesh anything out properly. (But I’ll be fair to the pacing, I don’t think extra time would’ve made me feel better about GHG and EoM being merged into a secret eugenics agency run by Bald Scientist)

So I dunno...  I feel very conflicted about Stamp. I was frustrated with a good chunk of it, but it was still fun to look at, and in the end I don’t feel like I hate it. It’s why a 6/10 feels right to me; it’s not the worst thing ever, and there’s enough going for it that I see why it’s hooked so many new people into the series, which is something I’m very happy about.Trigun deserves to be appreciated by a wider audience, and if the new show means even an extra 10 people start checking out the older material, then I can’t be mad. I know we’re supposed to get a 2nd season, so maybe now that The Studio knows this isn’t a one-and-done deal, they’ll be able to stretch the story out more comfortably now. I can’t say I’m fully looking forward to it... but I’m in it for the long haul now. I have to know what happens next.

[stanley01]

HELP OUT A NEURODIVERGENT,WILL YOU?

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok,so-- in short: I need activities.

In long: I am a student in a horrid school with outdated education,loud children and partially useless teachers. I've been searching for ways to make things more bearable but have come to the conclusion; I need help. Internet's help.

I,no doubt,have some sort of neurodivergency (some sort of illness or just a different working brain than my peers) and due to the insane prices,I can't get diagnosed. I have tho been researching alot of different mental illnesses and divergences and display alot of ADHD/ADD symptoms. Almost 90% of the common and uncommon symptoms I have,at some point in my life,felt. I also display autism symptoms but much less. There may be other ones but again,I'm still in the middle of researching as it's not just a small Google search and the first few links that pop up.

I do have the ability to drop out of school but many people in my life + darn society have forced me to go to school for the next however long it is for 5 times a day,7 and a half hours a day,sit in 5 mundane classes,go home,and possibly suffer some more. I have been having a hard time paying attention or finding motivation in the classes although have pretty good grades. (My attendance is... Something else 😬 BUT purely for what I'm about to say next) The teachers at my school spend too much time trying to shush and punish the misbehaving kids (which I sometimes join too but purely because there's nothing better for me to do as the whole class is paused while the kid is misbehaving but I'm nowhere NEAR as bad as them.) and so,much of the 7 and a half hours are spent sitting at the desk;in full uniform,not being able to stand up, and not allowed our phones. Pretty understandable but when you sit for 1 hour for 5 whole classes for 5 times a day with nothing but your thoughts it is an absolute WRECK. And for some people this may seem like a dream! And it would be,IF IT WASNT FOR THE CONSTANT CHATTER,CONSTANT BICKERING AND TALKING OF THE APPROX 30 OTHER KIDS IN THE FKING CLASS. IF IT WASN'T FOR THE AIRPLANES THROWN ACROSS THE CLASS EVERY 10 FKING MINUTES. IF IT WASNT FOR THE 'POPULAR GIRLS' THROWING RANDOM PAPER BITS OR SMALL SWEETS AT YOUR HEAD. IF IT WASNT FOR THE SCREAMING OF THE TEACHER AND CONSTANT FIDGETING OF OTHER PEOPLE LIKE PEN CLICKING OR HUMMING.

Calming down now,it ofcourse isn't always like this. This isn't some class from a movie about an untameable class with only one good perfect student. But the absolute things I would do to absolutely hush every child in the damn room would definetely reach headlines. Only thing stopping me? The consequences that would follow. Detention,police involvement,fines,possible criminal record,maybe jail time,who knows! But definetely not a great big thank you.

Ok ok, we're getting slightly off topic now,it's about how I,a neurodivergent,would like advice on what to do in class while I have hours of free time that's completely being wasted. At home I can think of tons of things to entertain me but at school my brain shuts off. I need a list of things to do or bring or think of to distract me from the chaos. A few rules tho of my school: no big or loud fidgets (some teachers prohibit them entirely),no phones or gadgets in class(a small bypass to this is I have wireless earbuds and shoulder length hair which can cover my ears but need to be charged daily and I may miss something of the teacher),must always wear uniform but can take blazers off,in p.e can't wear jewelry and some strict teachers don't allow it In their class either, and that's mainly it from what I can remember. But this isn't the most important part,the most important is me,my brain. So in short he's what I observed about myself and behaviours I never noticed before: I can daydream but I do not have the ability to clearly visualise images and have a hard time thinking of what to think about. I have poor time management. I'm very forgetful,and I mean VERY. I love the textures of sponges but who tf brings a sponge to class? But also I hate the texture of sharp metal rubbing on blazer-like material (ironic as I have alot of safety-clip backed pins. Yes I absolutely cringe when it makes that rough ''skghh" sound). I love worksheets, especially when others are not doing the same one as me. I like reading but can NOT focus when others are talking. Like drawing but find it hard to find something that I am passionate on drawing for that moment specifically and ofcourse can't remember what exists,bad memorryyyy,so I just draw what's around me and ofcourse there's barely anything. I like researching,making lists,and brainstorming on topics that have no connection to the class- it's something weirdly fun,but I can't seem to know what topic to choose! I love animals (specifically birds,pets,dogs,cats and mammals);the other world like space,metaphysics,magic,ect; my own brain; gravity falls; ciphers; Rick and Morty. There are a few other things but once again,bad memorryyyyyyy (I have litterally forgotten my own identity on multiple occasions.

So please,if you could,give me ANY idea of what to do. I appreciate it if it's something to do with writing. I can get a notebook just for writing random stuff but just tell me what!!! An example be like: write about all your current interests,write about every single person in class,ect.

Some things that have worked for me before in school was writing about my show/book,listening to music while doing worksheets and glueing glitter to my book. Some things that didn't work at all was drawing other students andddd I think there was alot of other stuff I tried. Shit I genuinely can't remember although I've sat here for like 10 minutes.

[devourerofcheesecake]

This is for my brain rot of an oc I made. I thought I posted this already but I can’t find it anymore so apparently it didn’t actually send the first time. Thanks!

Lost: The Guide to the Domain and your Demon Daughter

Tw: Chase scene??, Implied monsters, being bitten by a monster, lonely environment??

Raine careened past a corner, running with every ounce of energy at his disposal. He was so close, he was almost there, he just had to make it to the train stations. He swore he heard one of them stumble behind him, and he felt another pant hot air on his legs. If he tripped or fell, Raine would surely not survive the encounter.

Just a little bit longer. The lamps are so close, just a little longer. Dim yellow light radiated out, like open arms aching for an embrace.

It had to be 30 feet.

One of the shadows bellowed in dismay.

15 feet.

He was running out of breath, his lungs burned and his feet ached but he couldn’t stop now.

5 feet.

Raine felt a nip on his left foot. The sudden force to his leg forced Raine to his knees. A string of ‘oh no’s’ and ‘oh shit!' passed through his mind. Please oh for all that is good please no no no no no no no n-

He couldn’t stop, that was for certain. He was going to end up on the ground anyways, he just needed to get away. Instead of dropping, he decided to roll. The sudden movement caused his pack to crush into his back, and a swell of agony circulated.

2 feet.

He crawled the final stretch and slammed on the ground. He didn’t stop moving until he was securely within the perimeter.

Safe.

They snarled with rage. The one that nipped him, having traveled so close, could not stop in time before it barreled through the deflection lamps. All Raine could see was a burned claw before it was pulled away in an unholy screech of pain. Retreating in darkness, all Raine could see was the reflection of the lights in the beast's eyes. Understanding that this prey had escaped beyond their reach, they left, leaving the darkness empty in their wake.

~~~~

Raine surveyed the damage to his foot. A large bite mark tore the skin of his left calf. It hadn’t gotten too deep, but there was still a considerable amount of blood trickling down his leg. Adrenaline would dull down the pain for a while, but it’d wear off soon.

Sigh, all Raine could do was hope the station had some guaze or something. Knowing how many monsters inhabited this level, they ought to have survival supplies in some of the vending machines. He wasn’t familiar with this level, and thus the contents of these vending machines were a mystery to him.

He stood up and winced. Even though he hadnt felt pain yet, his leg was definitely not working right. The best Raine could mange was a limp. So limp he did. Dim yellow lights led the way down a corridor, where the access machines were. Normally hed jump over these, but he crawled under to accommodate his leg.

Trash littered the stairwell. With an already shaky gait, the man decided schootching down the steps would be better than falling down the flight. All that running would be all for naught if he went and decided to trip on a wrapper and crack a skull on a step.

~~~~

The next train that’d be going to level 376 would be another 30 minutes, so Raine focused himself on looking at the vending machines.

“Snacks… Snacks…. Credits…. Snacks… Ah! Essentials!”

Leaning on the corner of the machine, he pulled out a paper and stuck it in the slot.

“Auhmmm…. Gauze C7…. Antibacterial.... D5…. ok that’s it. Jeez, these labels don’t look too old. Overpriced but worth it.”

Checking his watch; 11:57 pm. Unless something came out and got him in those three minutes, Raine had survived another day. A celebratory healing session was in order. Shuffling over to the loading area, he put his back against the wall and sighed. He covered what he could, rested his shoulders, and closed his eyes.

11:59; Almost.

11:59.

5+9= 12

11 : 12

It’s in order:

10, 11, 12…

11+12 -> 10+10+3 = 23

There are 24 hours in a day, it’s the 23rd hour of the day now, it’s almost done.

2,3. It’s in order.

1,2,3,4…

….

A timer chirped from the watch.

12:00. He’d survived another day.

Content within the safety of the lights, and time to kill, Raine closed his eyes and slept

[eddisfargo]

I posted 3,305 times in 2022

That's 1,882 more posts than 2021!

7 posts created (0%)

3,298 posts reblogged (100%)

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I tagged 916 of my posts in 2022

#dracula daily - 233 posts

#ouat - 33 posts

#goncharov - 24 posts

#once upon a time - 22 posts

#psa - 17 posts

#queen's thief - 11 posts

#elon musk - 9 posts

#backreading dracula daily - 9 posts

#skipping the queue - 9 posts

#incredible - 8 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#i sometimes have like a dozen that are still sitting on my default new tab page just because i opened one and then remembered there's a tab

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Not a day will go by (9/?)

Hello my patient friends! Sorry for the wait! It won't be this long again (for real this time)! This is a Christmas fic for last year's Secret Santa, and I've given myself a deadline to finish it before this year's secret Santa. Specifically, I'm trying to finish before December 18, which is mine and @cosette141's birthday! Thanks so much to everyone who's still reading and leaving comments--they keep me going when my brain refuses to write! Thanks especially to @MotherKat for being the best beta EVER! I'm going all out in November, and I've actually already got Chapter 10 written!! So it won't be too long!

Tagging: @resident-of-storybrooke, @everything-person, @teamhook

AO3 Ch 1 Ch 2 Ch 3 Ch 4 Ch 5 Ch 6 Ch 7 Ch 8 Ch 9

Summary: He may not remember his present, but she doesn't know his past. If she did, she wouldn't have married him… right?

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19 notes - Posted November 5, 2022

#4

Not a day will go by (10/?)

OK, confession: I've had this one mostly-finished for a couple weeks. Nervous about it! Finally earning the M-rating, although it definitely goes nowhere near E. Not a thing I've done before, so your patience is appreciated! I'm really hoping I can finish the fic this month! Wish me luck! Thanks as always to @motherkatereloyshipper for her EXCEPTIONAL beta-ing, and for this BEAUTIFUL cover I just edited in! If you find any errors, they were probably my last-minute pre-post edits!

Tagging: @resident-of-storybrooke @everything-person, @teamhook

AO3 Ch 1 Ch 2 Ch 3 Ch 4 Ch 5 Ch 6 Ch 7 Ch 8 Ch 9 Ch 10

Summary: Hook gets a chance to get to know his wife.

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20 notes - Posted December 3, 2022

#3

Not a day will go by (7/?)

APRIL FOOL'S.

Get it? The joke is, you thought you were definitely not getting an update of this fic today, but actually YOU DID. The first of 2022 (yikes)!

But seriously, so sorry it took me this long! ADHD is apparently the boss of me much more than I would like. But I'm hoping to get back on--not nearly an every-day posting schedule, but definitely better than every-four-months.

Thanks a bazillion to @motherkatereloyshipper for coincidentally being awake at a million o'clock her time and willing to beta so I could post this on April Fool's!

Tagging: @resident-of-storybrooke   @everything-person @teamhook

AO3 Ch 1 Ch 2 Ch 3 Ch 4 Ch 5 Ch 6 Ch 7

Summary: Captain Hook wakes up in a strange bed, next to a woman he does not remember. He finds nothing particularly unusual about this situation. But the woman seems to know him very well.

In Storybrooke, there’s only one surefire way to get back a lost memory. And it’s not going to work until he loves her.

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20 notes - Posted April 1, 2022

#2

My beautiful complete set, + a bonus first edition I got from a Secret Santa and the Spanish edition I’m working through! Somewhere I have the Vince Natale edition of The Thief, but I lent it to a student. I’d... better get that back before graduation, huh?

I think I might already have a somewhat more matched set in my classroom, at least part of it. I don’t mind whether I win or not, I just really wanted to share my beauties! 

25 notes - Posted April 1, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

My fellow Friends of Jonathan on the Discord were talking about who they picture when imagine Quincey P. Morris. There were many excellent answers, like Owen Wilson, Woody Harrelson, and Daniel Craig doing his Benoit Blanc accent. 

I apologize profusely but my answer is Doug Dimmadome, owner of the Dimmsdale Dimmadome. .

42 notes - Posted May 26, 2022

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[stela20]

I'm sorry if my English is not good, I use Google Translate

This is my story from the Quotev website, so I wanted to write it and publish it here and enjoy ❤

Information about the hero

Name: y/n

Hero name: Gwen

Cork or supernatural power: Angel wings give you healing power and give you a beautiful shape and appearance, as if you are an angel, and you can use your feathers and have a sharp weapon or a sword.

Disadvantage: It may be damaged because the fire will burn the wings, and the ice will freeze the wings. Also, you will not be able to fly in these cases because of the fire and ice.

Y/n's pov

After 5 years, I finally graduated and became a champion, and now I am very happy that I am with Hero No. 2, Hawks. He is my coach and also my boss at work. 5 years ago, Hawks admired me, admired my supernatural ability and strength, and suggested that I be with his team, and I agreed. I always worked hard and practiced a lot to always be ready throughout the 5 years. I loved hero number 2 and I always hoped that he would be my lover, but I cannot. He will definitely reject a girl like me. There are girls who are always next to Hawks, and I have no chance to pass. He is a distraction from my feelings, and all this time I imagine and hope that he is with me

Hawkes: Okay, guys, I've arrived. Sorry for the delay. Well, today's training is all about speed

We trained and finished the exercise, which lasted for two hours

Hawkes is tired and happy: Okay, guys, a short break. You have put in a very great effort, especially you, Y/N. Take a break.

I was very happy that Hawks was very proud of me. The rest of the team started to rest, and I found a sofa and sat in it, drinking water, closing my eyes, and imagining Hawks with me, and I was very happy.

POV Hawks

I was looking at y/n while she was resting. How beautiful she is. Every day she gets more beautiful… But why is she closing her eyes and smiling like that… Is she imagining being with Bajuku or someone else? This is starting to make me feel jealous. I went to… y/n whispered in her ear

Hawks is angry: Can you stop thinking about your lover, Bajuku, or if he is the person you are thinking about?

Y/n felt so terrified that she fell off the sofa and was terrified. Y/n made her stand up and gave her another bottle of water.

y/n: Thank you… One minute, who told you that I am thinking of Bagoko and who told you that I am my lover?

Hawks is angry: Stop lying, why are you thinking about Bagoko?

y/n: I'm not lying to you, Hawks. I'm not thinking about Bajuku. I'm not thinking about anyone. I'm not into anyone at all.

After y/n said this, I felt relieved because she has no feelings for anyone yet. How happy I am with this and this is my chance.

Happy Hawks: Ok y/n, I'm sorry I scared you, I was just worried about you, sorry for bothering you, bye.

Y/n's pov

Hawkes went, but why was he asking this question? Was he feeling jealous? No, no, definitely not, but I would like to know his reaction if I told them that I was thinking about him all the time.

Shy y/n: Hawks, can I say something?

Happy Hawks: Yes, what's going on?

Shy y/n: What would you do if you knew that I was thinking about you all the time?

POV Hawks

What? Is this true? Was she really thinking about me? Did she like me? Does she love me? So many questions are inside my brain right now, to the point that I didn’t feel the time. 10 minutes had passed to the point that I didn’t know what to say to y/n. I didn’t know how to say a single word.

y/n Sad: Okay, I'm sorry I said that to you, don't worry, I'll keep practicing, bye

I saw sadness in y/n's eyes. I can't bear to see y/n sad like this. It wasn't anyone, it was me. I want to know what y/n is thinking and how she feels towards me. He held y/n's hand before she left.

Hawks: y/n wait

y/n tensed: here's what's going on

Hawkes: Tonight there is a party and I should not go alone. I must have a partner with me. Do you agree to be my partner in the party? We will have a lot of fun.

Y/n's pov

After I heard this, I blushed and was very happy with this talk, just me and Hawkes alone. Yes.

y/n Saeed and Farah: Okay, I agree

Hawks Saeed: That's good. Take this card. This is the address of the party. It will be in a very luxurious place. I want you to be dressed up. I want you to be there at 8 pm. Okay. All right.

y/n Saeed and Farah: We agreed

After the end of the day, I went home and I was very nervous and I did not know what to wear or what to do. Without any hesitation, I called my friend Mina to help me. She knows how to deal with these things. Mina came and explained everything to her, and she helped me with everything.

Your dress:

Your shoes:

your Hairstyle :

makeup :

After half an hour, I was ready. I thanked Mina very much, and before she left, she said to me with a smile and a wink at me. Enjoy your time, girl. I thanked her again and went to the quilt. I used my wings to arrive faster and arrived in only 10 minutes. He found Hawks in front of the party door waiting for me. I went towards him

y/n Saeed: Hey Hawks, I'm sorry for the delay. Are you late?

Happy Hawks: Hello y/n, no you didn't come….

I saw Hawks staring at me for a minute and did not speak. I was very ashamed. Was my doubt bad or ugly?

y/n tensed: Mmmm Hawks, are you okay? Do I look ugly?

Hawks is shocked: No, you… Wow… You are so beautiful

Shy y/n: Mm thank you and you also look elegant

POV Hawks

Oh no, no, how could I not have thought of this? She is so beautiful that I am blushing now. Fortunately, I know how to control myself, but more importantly than that, I will feel intense jealousy over Y/N. Everyone will look at her. I calmed my nerves, took a deep breath, and spoke. with her

Hawks Saeed: Should we go to the party or what?

Shy y/n: Yes

Y/n and I entered the party, and it was from the upper class. There were people dancing, drinking juice, and talking, and there were those who sat and did nothing. Y/n and I stood and talked for a while, and after 5 minutes I heard one of the girls screaming and calling my name.

Girl No. 1: Look, girls, it's Hero No. 2 Hawks

Girl No. 2: He really is this handsome man

Girl No. 3: Hawks

I found 15 girls standing towards me and wanting to talk to me and take pictures with me, and because of all this, I cannot see y/n.

Y/n's pov

I saw a lot of girls with Hawks. I thought that just me and him would be together if only once. I couldn't talk to Hawks because of the number of girls. I went to one of the empty seats and asked for some juice. After 10 minutes, while I was waiting for my order, I saw 5 men. They come towards me and talk to me

Man No. 1: Hello, can we say something?

y/n: Yes

Man No. 2: You are the heroine, Gwen, who works with Hawks, right?

y/n: Yes, me

Man No. 3: We are your biggest fans

y/n: This is really beautiful

Man No. 4: What are you doing here?

y/n: Well it's a long story

Man No. 5 is shy: Well, can we sit with you and talk to you for a little while?

y/n: ok no problem

POV Hawks

I'm tired of all this, and I hope these girls leave here. I was trying to look for Y/n. I saw 5 men talking to her, joking with her, and flirting with Y/n, and she blushed. I couldn't take it anymore and screamed.

Hawks got angry and screamed: I can't take any more of this

The music stopped and everyone looked at me in amazement, including Y/n. Without any hesitation, I used the speed of my wings and took Y/n with me, and it was just me and her flying in the air and seeing the lights of the city.

y/n Tension and fear: Ahhh, what is this, how are you so fast?

After a long search, he found an empty garden, and without any hesitation, he gently placed Y/n on the ground and hugged her.

y/n tensed: Hawks what's wrong?

Hawkes: y/n, tell me how you feel about me. Do you love me? Please tell me everything. I can't take it anymore. Confess your feelings to me.

Y/n's pov

I moved away from Hawks for a little while while I looked into his beautiful eyes and it was time for me to confess how I felt towards him

Shy y/n: I love you, Hawks. I love you more than anything. The thing I love most about you is not your appearance. No, I love the strength and courage in you and the way you are kind to me. I love all of these qualities in you. I love you very much and I hope you will be my lover ❤

After that, I closed my eyes and was afraid that he would say something bad about me, but after a minute I felt something touching my lips. I opened my eyes and saw Hawks kissing me. I blushed so much because I thought my face rivaled the color red.

Hawkes is shy and happy: I love you too, y/n. In fact, I adore you. 5 years ago, the first time I saw you, I encouraged you and everything about you. I loved you at first sight, and since then I have hoped that you would be my lover. Will you be my lover, Y/n? My little bird ❤

I took Hawks in for a deep kiss and he also shared kisses with me

Y/n is shy and happy: I love you so much, Hawks, and yes, I agree, I will be your girlfriend ❤

Hawks is shy and happy: Me too, my little bird, you will be mine no matter what happens ❤ I love you ❤

Since then, Hawkes and I have been together and I am happy that he appeared in my life. After a while, we got married and now we live happily with our son Luca, who resembles his father very much ❤

❤ The end ❤

[dragongirlfriend]

happy new year!!

i finally got my first good nights sleep in like. over a month. i think bc a lot of the stressors in my life are finally being resolved

so heres a little personal life update post, if yallre interested in that

my concussion has healed to the point of it being manageable, though it definitely still causes issues. i still get the occasional muscle spasm or brain fog, but the biggest thing has been the muscle pains that have been keeping me down. every once in a while ill get a big sharp pain in my back, or my legs, and it keeps me from moving for a bit. im managing well enough to where i can kinda push through it if i need to go somewhere which is good, but im hoping to follow up with my doctors soon when my insurance kicks in.

my income situation has improved MASSIVELY. new job, huge benefits, guaranteed raises and bonuses *written into my hiring contract*. just, really really really lucky with that one. plus my manager and coworkers are all really cool, hell everyone in my direct chain of command is awesome (i.e. my boss' boss, and my boss' boss' boss the CTO). hoping i can stay with this company for a long time bc god they are really taking care of me.

got a new apartment in a good location with a good landlord, for less than my previous place was with more space. like genuinely this was the luckiest thing so far. ive got a single bedroom for 1-2 months while the other unit of the duplex is renovated, then i'm getting that whole 2br unit for less than i was paying for my prev one bedroom. plus the location is good with trams, heavy rail, and bike sharing on the corner of the block, with lots of shopping and medical care within like 5-10 minutes, and just. god its nice. im so thankful for my awesome landlady and my luck for pulling me out of this mess

and peaches is here still, entering her second year with me c: shes been extremely brave and well behaved thru all this tho definitely been stressed. gonna make sure shes doing ok and settles in before introducing her to the landladys cats and getting her to her vet checkup.

honestly though i'm at least glad that i can rest, even just a little bit. like i was told by my psych that i could finally rest after like. having to fight and claw for getting my last job and apartment. but if anything getting those was like a ticking time bomb, bc i really got screwed over in how much the apartment was vs how much is was making, i just needed *something* to get me out of the homeless shelter i was in bc otherwise id like, probably end up back in the psych ward for the third time bc of how awful it was to live there

this is about as solid a start as i have ever had, even though after all my moving expenses i have about 150 left in the bank. i can at least rest a little with the impending doom not being a problem, now i just gotta be a bit of a scrapper while saving until my next paycheck, and then everything should be ok

god im just. glad i can relax at least a little bit. god...

[wellnesscard]

omg my teenager coworker was talking about how theyre gonna make a five night at freddys movie im like ya it already came out i saw it - with nic cage? not in my top 10 its no time bandits but whateva. guess nododis seen that one tho. also why do so many ppl with like d.i.d. Obsessed with that franchise ? or maybe thats just tumblr. even b4 tumblr tho there was this girlie at my highschool who was like mental like insane not in reality at all n it was all she fuckin talked about? what specifically is the pull like creating this demographic . but it weirds me out so i dont actually want 2 engage in real five nights at freds only thru the sweet filter of nic cage am i safe ig. cos that was a knockoff? who made that movie it was so weird and not even in an awesome way like many other b movies. idk the whole concept like. and yk fs theres towns like that in america. but theyre just racist. this post is getting away from me . idk the insaneos just dont talk abt jeff the killer anymore maybe im just old . do any pardonmyfrench normal ppl like five nitez at fred. i mean ig my coworkers pretty normal from what i know. ig im probably just in such different spheres from the enjoyers of that n the only ones being crazy abt it is the crazies so. i feel like this isnt very pc im sorry like my brain dont work good too like its no problem to be mentally ill and have interests im just . it throws me thry a loop. that n like taylor swift continuously getting bigger status thru out what feels like my lifespan. like i remember singing 'our song' in first grade w classmates n its like yeah its gud ig im 5 i dont have a critiquing of music mind yet too much. its catchy. never thought shed still be around let alone with a cult following in the year 2023. was it covid? like i havent heard about nikki minaj in ages but taylor swift is being exponential as hell in like . all this. why is she in so many commercials. ok my neighbors just got home one minute and thirty seconds ago and theyre already using power tools fuck yea girls build a house for her!! or that could be a blender tbh i thought i heard hammering though. hammering and sawing. shit did i just stereotype lesbians. i shouldnt be allowed to have tumblr app when im home alone cos then i just type type type whatever i want and we end up with this. oh sidenote too, i have a thickass nodule on my thyroid im having checked today so like ig ilyk laterz if its really fucked. like i hope i dont get all goited up thatd suck. its so funny bc in my eating disorder in highschool i was like oh what a dream itd be to have hyperthyroidism, sighs wistfully. omg what if gods punishing me and i get hypothyroidism and get f*t. but its probably just a lump and its not the consistency of cancer so we good basically. just waiting for the doc to say that too haha! and im like 3 days off all alcohol even the light beers bc i am getting sick of never having energy and like i wanna make sure my life is good and its hard to take care of everything because ngl im a heavy drinker n once i have any alcohol im just like impatiently waiting for my next drink, so. and its expensive when you drink a 12 pack a day plus other alkie snacks such as shooters pints or beers at the bar. and i need to save for a cruiseeee devon n i have been married for almost three years n still havent went on vacation yet goddamn! we deserve it , and i was the sexiest in my life when i was sober for a year too so jot that down.