#i promise im ok

[xjustpeachyx]

I know i sound crazy but bear with me here.

Ok? Ok.

..hear me out: british artificer

STAY WITH ME PLEASE, UNDERSTAND

Just Imagine these in her british accent???

"I truly have pity for you, cheiftain, for you have met something worse than your end." Or

"Scavenger. You have made a grave mistake. This will be your kinds' downfall."

LIKE DOESNT THAT JUST SOUND SO COOL???

[deesi-academia]

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it must be so sickening if you're religious and have a failed s**cide because wtf even god didn't want you

[star-on-a-beach]

GOING TO FUCKING KRILL MYSELF OH MY GOD

[estinienbestinien]

mental health: surviving

final fantasy xiv: thriving

[cosmic-horror-jester]

Hey hey hey Marx what's your FAVORITE food

favourite food huh? anything I can steal tbh :3 I like to sneak up behind someone and snatch their food from there hand and run off with it

[framethepieces]

healing

It’s not an evil thing to look at yourself with kindness Your life was never meant to be a punishment But that doesn’t mean that it won’t feel like it at times

I tell myself to stop attacking the past versions of me They were doing the best they could at the time And that’s worth being grateful for

Is this what growing up is? Just leaving things behind Over and over again?

Too much self reflection is not a good thing Even if they say you have to look back to keep moving forward Which is dumb because you’ll just end up walking into a wall

But if you reflect too much You end up lost Infinitely refracting

A never ending house of mirrors That you didn’t even pay to get in But you’d pay anything to get out

Even if you break through the mirrors You’d find yourself stuck in a merry go round In the middle of a carnival, but

There is no audience to perform for No trapeze artists swinging from extrapolations No psychics seeking guidance from the divine

There are no actors playing no roles Except the role of two lovers, both cast to me An enemies to lovers romance between me and myself

But this time There is no one to convince You just have to let it go

You’re allowed to unlearn who you’ve been if it isn’t who you are Or who you want to be anymore

I’m allowed to learn who I want to be can be anything Or it can be nothing. There are no deadlines

I promise you, little by little The healing adds up You just have to stick around long enough to notice

And when your cup runneth over And the night is dark and damp The moon shining observantly above

I realize I’m where I meant to be Maybe not where I want to be But I know how to walk forward

[fucknugg3t]

ur ass, hand it over.

[lovecoreclownz-archive]

Aw man, usually I don't talk about personal feelings or anything on my blog but my partner systems are asleep so I'm just kinda. Chillin. Thinking about like, myself as a person. Like. I dunno you spend so long reflecting others you forget what's on your side of the mirror yk? Man. I'm not like. Spiraling, I'm just kinda like. Shit :/. I was having this same kinda breakdown earlier but now it's less of a break down and more who DO i want to be as a person? I'm the host of a system, I'm a multi source fictive, I'm a dadmom, I'm a Malewife, I'm someone's kid. I'm Gordon B Freeman, I'm Benrey, I'm a lizard, I'm an eldritch abomination and a disgrace to God. Those are the things I used to be, but who do I want to be yknow? I'm so used to trying to help everyone else figure themselves out I never gave myself time to do the same. I like colors, my favorite color is probably teal, and a kinda salmony peach color. My favorite numbers are 2, 3, 4, 5, and 6. I love plants, I love animals. Cuttlefish and vampire squids are my favorite ocean animals. I love the holiday Valentines day, I even picked one of my names from it. I see the horrors of the world, the pain the suffering the everything and yet I see a beauty within the cracks of light in the dark. Sometimes chasing the beauty of the world leaves me awe struck. Sometimes, it leaves me writhing on the floor at night. I have a million emotions but not the words to convey them. I'm a beast, I'm a human, I'm a God, yet I'm mortal. Being put in this human vessel has made me feel things I never thought I could. It's made me think things I never even stopped to consider. What IS the point of all this? I think to me the point of all this is to have a snack with someone you care for and just enjoy life. Smell the roses every day, pick up a cool rock you found, blast your music in the car on the way home. I think that maybe the question of who I am doesn't matter actually, but more of what will I do today. I think spending my life wondering who I am, restricting myself to a few identities, never letting myself truly be free would be painful to do for the rest of my life. I think that maybe for once who i am doesn't matter, because for once I'm content, and I feel ok to shift and move and branch out and expirement. I think right now I'm not looking for a definite answer, but rather an experience. I want to experience the world now, for the first time in years. I think that maybe tomorrow I will go outside and sit in the grass if I feel well enough. In the past i spend so much mercy on those around me, I think it's time to hand some to myself. Anyway, I think I'll sleep now, maybe I'll actually cook myself breakfast tomorrow.... who knows? Goodnight everyone, sleep well

[sage-hendricks]

You know what's really cool? When you have a mental illness that sometimes causes issues with unreality and your brain decides to have a dream where you are explicitly told you can't trust reality after you wake up because your brain has been controlled.

I'm finally calming down but it should be fun to have this hovering in the back of my mind for the next indeterminate amount of time, just a constant low level voice telling me this isn't the real world and I need to run. Very excited to spend pride month in that.

[lonelyinkcap]

im trying my best

to hide all the sharp stuff

out of sight

out of mind

yknow?

but i have six sets of scissors

in my room alone

and a full box of safety pins

and nail clippers and wire cutters

and a retractable box cutter

i keep in my nightstand

i thought it was rusting

i got worried

its fine tho

its just blood

[kaplisdb]

when your boyfriend's form of intrusive thoughts is saying things like "skibidi toilet" and your thoughts are "I want to rip out my teeth and give them to you so you'll love me". lmao.

[tubbytarchia]

My friend convinced me of the potential of this very specific trio (especially in a roadtrip context) so I'm spreading the propaganda

Again, oddly specific trio but listen. Look at this graph @liauditore made. This is all you need to know (TLDR these guys make for fun duos between one another, but putting all three of them together would neutralize any cons that would arise otherwise)

We call them sappies because idk it sounds cute and funny. Very vaguely based on the idea of tree sap (not just from how that can be related to "treebark" but also the idea of sap being a thing that helps a tree survive and making for good glue and medicine in some cases. Idk they're sappy. You get it)

The croc meme is based on this. I think Martyn would be too stupid to grasp the concept of gender so I replaced his speech bubble with watcher lore

[sunydays]

@somerandomdudelmao I has a gift! I went the more dream/memory route of the chapter (which I could not finish in TIME) the poem

But yeah, have some sadness.

Master Post

Bonus

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i have a Scene - a Plot if you will - that backs this as context. y'all are gonna have to trust me on this one <3 or read the tags...

[milkbreadtoast]

choose your protag..... YOU COULD WRITE A SUPER LONG META ESSAY COMPARING/CONTRASTING THESE 2 BUT I WANTED TO MAKE A SHITPOST FORGIVE ME🤧✌️

[heartorbit]

bugs when you lift up a rock