#i used to be a fan of an atrocious pairing in that fandom but that wasn't my heart

[synesindri]

do people still talk about pirates of the caribbean

[ofstarsandvibranium]

Precious Truths: Part 6

Fandom: Bridgerton

Pairing: Benedict Bridgerton x F!Reader

Summary: After your father finds out you’ve been writing under a male pseudonym, he threatens to marry you off to an atrocious man unless you find yourself a husband within a month’s time.

A/N: I will not be taking tags for this series!

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Benedict follows you and Lord Montclair with a frown on his face. He seems to love to torture himself when he agreed to accompany Daphne as she chaperones your promenade with the marquess.

His eyes glance down to your arm hooked around the other man's and his brows furrow. Daphne looks up at her brother with a smirk, "Something the matter, brother?"

Benedict suddenly looks away clearing his throat, "No, no. Just, um, thinking about a piece I need to work on."

Daphne hums unconvinced, looking back at you and Lord Montclair, "They do make a handsome couple, do they not?"

"I suppose," Benedict replies as he casts his eyes down, paying more attention to the path rather than you and the marquess.

"Are you upset with me?" Daphne asks, pulling her arm away from her brother's and stopping to look at him.

Benedict looks at her with confusion, "Should I be?"

She purses her lips, "Well, I was the one who introduced the marquess to Y/N and considering your feelings-"

"Please, Daphne, I already endure this from Anthony and Kate. I do not wish to hear more of it from you," he takes a quick glance your way as the distance grows wider between you and he, "I may love her, but I cannot give her what she desires. He can," he nods to Lord Montclair.

Daphne sighs, hooking her arm around her brother's once more, "Regardless, I cannot imagine this being easy for you."

The second eldest Bridgerton sighs, "'Tis not. Hopefully, with time, it will be."

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You hide your laughter behind your fan as you walk the path with Lord Montclair. He relays a memory he had of when he was a boy. How he tried to capture a frog and in his attempts, it jumped on his face, causing him to fall into a lake.

"That reminds me of when I was a child. I was probably two and ten years old. Be-I mean Mister Bridgerton and myself decided to sneak away onto a row boat. We had seen a fish into the lake and leaned over the edge too much. We both fell in. Our mamas were so upset with us, but we had a good laugh," you state with a giggle.

Lord Montclair chuckles, "So you have known the Bridgertons for a while?"

You nod, "Almost my entire life. They are like my second family."

"And you are the closest with the second eldest, Benedict?" the marquess asks with intrigue as he guides you to a bench for some rest.

You nod, following him to sit, "Yes. He is my dearest of friends."

Lord Montclair clears his throat, leaning closer to you, "I do not want to seem too forward, Miss L/N, but I think I have made my interest quite clear. Is it safe for me to assume that there are no romantic feelings between you and Mr. Bridgerton considering," he gestures between you and him.

You cast your eyes towards Benedict, who is now entertaining two women in conversation while Daphne speaks with their mama. You feel a twinge of jealousy as the women laugh with Benedict. No. You shouldn't feel this way. He is not yours. He never will be.

You turn back to Lord Montclair and give him a small smile, "I can assure you, my Lord, there is nothing between Mister Bridgerton and myself except for friendship."

Happy with your response, Lord Montclair changes the subject and shares another story of his youth. You nod, smile, and laugh at the appropriate times, occasionally glancing back at Benedict. Every once in a while, your eyes will meet and then look away. Your heart strings tug a little more with each wavering gaze.

It seems you like to torture yourself since you cannot help but keep your eyes away from Benedict entertaining women that wasn't you.

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After your promenade and lunch with Lord Montclair and the Bridgertons, you arrive home to see your father waiting for you.

His eyes were glossy and his body slightly swaying, signifying that he was already drunk once more.

"I heard a marquess is courting you," he practically mumbles out.

"Yes, papa. I am certain he will propose before the end of the month," you respond plainly, no emotion and no love for the man who you are now unfortunate to call your father.

He hums, "And does he know of your...hobbies?"

"He only knows I enjoy reading poetry, not writing it."

"Good. A man does not want a woman who is too well-read."

You bite your tongue, not wanting to suffer from a potential strike to your face like previously, "Of course, papa." You dryly reply and head to your room.

You proceed to isolate yourself for the rest of the day. Although Lord Montclair is exactly the man many women would kill to have court them, you still cannot find yourself to fall for him completely. You don't think you ever could. You've lived a majority of your life loving Benedict Bridgerton, you aren't sure how else to live. Even if Benedict could never love you back, you will still continue to hold him dear in the depths of your heart for you and only you to know.

You didn't lie to your father that you are sure Lord Montclair will propose soon. He had spoke of marriage, children, just your potential future in general. Both of your desires and goals line up perfectly with one another and you are certain he sees it to.

Now only to mentally prepare yourself for the inevitable.

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Benedict's heart drops to his stomach when he hears the news from Daphne: Lord Montclair plans to propose to you soon.

Obviously, he knew it was bound to happen. Of course he would propose to you. You, perfect, beautiful, intelligent, cunning, funny, wonderful you.

It was inevitable and it was becoming even more real that Benedict would lose you forever.

It was then that Benedict decided to drown himself in his art. Go to parties, brothels, bars, whatever he can as much as possible to forget the pain in his heart.

If only he wasn't so stubborn and truly listen to his heart and his family. He could be with you and give you everything you want and deserve.

But alas, he was just too blind and hard headed to see it.

Lady Whistledown, however, made it well known to the Ton of how she as well as a majority of Mayfair, expected him and you to marry.

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Two weeks. It took two weeks of courting until Lord Montclair asked your father's permission to marry you. It was an easy "yes" from him, obviously. With the status of being the marquess and willing to pay well over your dowery, well, how can your father refuse?

Even though you were expecting it, you still felt hesitant. Your aunt joined you in the sitting room, watching as Lord Montclair, James, as you learned his name was, knelt down and presented his mother's beautiful ring.

"Mon cher, you have made me so incredibly happy these past few weeks. I think we can have an amazing future together. Will you do the honor of marrying me?"

You know you should say yes. But your mind immediately goes to Benedict. Your best friend, your first love, the man you saw yourself marrying and growing old with. But he didn't feel the same. If he did, he would've courted and proposed to you by now.

It was officially time to let go of your silly fantasies and face reality.

"Yes, of course," you reply breathlessly and James slips the ring onto your finger.

Aunt Eliza lets out a breath of relief, "I am so incredibly happy for you two! I plan to hold a ball in your honor at the end of the week, so be prepared for the fan fair that will be headed your way."

James takes your hand and kisses it, "I shall go. I must begin contacting my family so they can be here for the wedding."

"Of course, my Lord."

James smiles at you sweetly, "You may call me James now, mon cher."

You return a sweet smile back, "Of course, James. Then you may call me Y/N."

"I will see you later, future Marchioness Montclair," he gives you a wink and heads out.

You look down at the ring, the diamond sparkling in the sun. Your aunt rushes to your side and kisses your temple, "You did it, dear. You did it. You will be free soon enough."

You gulp and nod at your aunt, "Yes. I will be free."

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Dearest Gentle Reader,

It seems that wedding bells are to be heard soon with now the engagement of Miss Y/N L/N and the Most Honorable Marquess, Lord James Montclair. The marquess had turned many heads since his arrival with Duchess Bridgerton. Many ladies of the Ton had hoped for a courtship from him. However, it was quite the surprise that our very own Miss L/N, one who has previously rejected the idea of marriage, set her sights on the marquess and lured him with her charm.

As I am sure many of you are disappointed by the engagement, I am certain no one is as disappointed as the second eldest Bridgerton son, Benedict Bridgerton. For we all knew those two were always at each other's side. This author thinks that perhaps the second eldest never proposed to Miss L/N because he knew he could never provide for her as a second son.

Nevertheless, I do look forward to see how Miss L/N will take to the role of marchioness. Will she crack under pressure or will it be smooth sailing? This author waits in anticipation.

Benedict crumples up Lady Whistledown's newest edition, tossing it across the room. His family's eyes are all on him.

His heart rate quickens, he feels a sweat coming on. The walls are closing in and he can't breathe. He doesn't like how his family looks at him with pity. They all know now. They know how he feels for you. There is a chance know how he feels for you now. A part of him hopes that you don't believe what Whistledown has to say. Not everything she says is always factual. Nevertheless, it makes the Ton talk.

"Excuse me," he abruptly stands from his place and Anthony stands with him, "Brother-"

"Please, don't. I need a moment alone," Benedict quickly says as he rushes out of the room.

[musicalmoritz]

Good Femslash Fics Already Exist

With the whole push for more femslash in fandoms, I’ve never understood the amount of hate I see femslash “fans” direct towards existing creations. There’s nothing wrong with wanting more variety, I do too, but every time someone brings up the fact that femslash fan fictions are already being written someone opens their mouth to say “yeah but those suck.” And then they proceed to read 300+ atrociously mischaracterized mlm fics. They complain abt plotless fluff and then read the exact same pwp scenarios over and over again

And hey, if you don’t want to read femslash that’s totally fine. You don’t have to pretend it interests you. I’m someone who actively looks for femslash and my only problem has been a lack of content in smaller/male-dominated fandoms, the fics themselves are cute af. Ya’ll are missing out on some real masterpieces by labeling all existing femslash fics as “boring,” some of my favorite fics ever are femslash. If an mlm ship invades the tags just filter it out, filter out every mlm pairing in the fandom if you have to. AO3 gives us that option for a reason

I’m not saying we don’t need more variety, but we’re not going to get that by shitting on writers who actively put in the work to make more femslash. When I started writing femslash consistently it was very discouraging because I’d seen soooooo many people online saying they want more femslash fics, yet nobody was reading mine. Then I looked at the stats on other femslash fics and they were the same, really great fics were barely getting any hits or kudos. It kinda sucks knowing that an mlm fic I wrote in 3 hours got more kudos than a wlw fic I spent months on (for pairings of relatively equal popularity). This seems to be the biggest roadblock for people wanting to write femslash, no one supports it. Even tho fandoms claim they would support it, they never do. It’s something I’ve learned to stop caring about but not every writer is gonna push through

This brings me back to a comment I saw about “boring, hair-braidy wlw fics.” That description really stood out to me, and to this day it makes me feel a little self-conscious about my old femslash fics that were “boring” and “hair-braidy.” But then I came across a fic for this one pairing that had actual hair-braiding. It was incredibly well-written and meaningful, exploring how both characters struggled to ask for help but they were able to recognize each other’s dilemmas and help in subtle ways. They did this, of course, by fixing each other’s hair when they both felt helpless to do anything with it. Such a simple way to express a very deep bond. This made me reassess the way people talk about femslash fics, and the way I’d been thinking of them myself. Is fluff really that much of a crime?? Do all cottagecore-type fics really have no substance?? Do femslash fics have to copy exactly what slash fics are doing, or are they allowed to have their own tropes??

My attitude towards the overload of plotless fluff wlw fics is “this is a good starting point.” We need more people writing femslash, more variety in what is written, but that doesn’t mean what we have is bad. I critique wlw fic tropes a lot but I always give the disclaimer that I actually love the fics themselves, I just want to see more of a different thing. And I comment on every femslash fic I read (every fic I read in general but especially femslash), I try to leave something thoughtful to let the writer know I appreciate the effort they put into their work. You’d be surprised how many writers said they were encouraged to update a fic or write more femslash because of a positive comment I left them. Engaging with fics will give you more of a good thing. It has so much more influence than that video you’re about to make talking about how there’s no good femslash fics. When you say things like that it actually discourages people from writing, and makes them feel bad about things they’ve already written. Support femslash writers guys, it’s sexy

[leventar]

SHIPPING INFO — ANSWER THE FOLLOWING FOR YOUR MUSE(S).

WHAT'S YOUR OTP FOR YOUR MUSES(S)?

it's hard to say because i don't necessarily have otps from a writing standpoint, they kind of evolve depending on the pairing and who i'm writing with, and sometimes my otps become notps depending on the dynamic / plot. tl;dr i just don't default - ship. i write waaaaay too many muses to list them all but from a die - hard, canon brainrot perspective, most of my otps include: naksu / jang uk, katherine / stefan, chuuya / dazai, gojo / geto, katara / zuko, juliette / roma, orion / rosalind, zoya / nikolai, inej / kaz, zero two / hiro, raven / bellamy, catra / adora, malia / stiles, harrowhark / gideon.

WHAT ARE YOU WILLING TO RP WHEN IT COMES TO SHIPPING?

i think i'm down for most things so long as it isn't obviously something that's atrocious ( adult / minor ) or like, a poorly executed oppressor / oppressed. i genuinely like exploring toxic dynamics when it's detached from a romanticized lens, and it's for that reason why i ensure it's a topic i can trust my wps with. this may be an unpopular opinion, but i'm fine with writing cheating. i'm fine with writing unequal distributions of power ( to a certain extent ), i'm fine exploring variations of abuse. it's just that if it's toxic, i tend to keep it toxic. if it veers into actual abuse ( best example i can think of is alina / darkling, i don't write nor ship it but sklsdkldskldskl ), it's not so much a ship but just a subset of an complex one, and won't be resolved to a point of genuine romanticism.

HOW LARGE DOES THE AGE GAP HAVE TO BE TO MAKE IT UNCOMFORTABLE?

uhhhhhhh, if they're under 18, i think two years? the age gap widens the older the muses are in a bracket, but i'm generally not an age - gap fan. + / - five - 10 years feels accurate? maximum five if it's like, a muse that's under 25. immortal muses are different and vary based on circumstances.

ARE YOU SELECTIVE WHEN SHIPPING?

yeaaaahhhh. yeah. i usually figure out through writing or plotting if there's chemistry to even think about shipping, and i tend to ship with my circle of friends / exclusive shipping partners just because it's always been easier that way. doesn't mean i'm not open! just very chemistry - oriented. we could plot the best thing but if we're not vibing as writing partners when we chat, it won't work.

HOW FAR DO STEAMY MOMENTS HAVE TO GO BEFORE THEY'RE CONSIDERED NSFW?

anything past like a full make - out session or questionable touching. i don't smut on dash across any of my blogs, and if i do venture into that territory, it's always suggestive and with my utmost closest wp. but as it stands, i typically don't write anything further than making out or allusions.

WHO ARE OTHER MUSES YOU SHIP YOUR MUSE(S) WITH?

refer to the first question, but i really like cross - fandom shipping. i think it's fun and forces people to think outside of the box. i also looooove oc / canon. i'll use this opportunity to say i'm always intrigued with these dynamics: chuuya / yosano, atsushi / lucy, yosano / dazai, lottie / nat, gin / higuchi, malia / kira, nobara / megumi, nobara / yuuji, higuchi / akutagawa. there's more but i'm blanking.

DOES ONE HAVE TO ASK TO SHIP WITH YOU?

yes and no! sometimes it happens naturally, but you can alwayyyyysssss ask to ship. just need to approach with an open mind and understand that i will likely ask that we write first or sus out vibes! if we chat a lot or obviously get along, that makes it a little easier for me to envision a romantic ship!

ARE YOU MULTISHIP?

yes! unless stated otherwise, i'm multi - ship by default.

ARE YOU SHIP - OBSESSED OR SHIP MORE - OR - LESS?

ship more - or - less by default sdlkfjgsdlgkdskl. with my partner and close friends, i tend to be more ship - obsessed because we rot more consistently. but i don't really look to ship romantically at first! i've become more preferential to non - romantic dynamics over the years just because i feel like they get pushed aside or under - appreciated in favor of romantic shipping.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SHIP IN YOUR CURRENT FANDOM(S) ?

for canons, it's naksu / jang uk, chuuya / dazai, gojo / geto, juliette / roma, orion / rosalind, yosano / dazai, gin / tachihara. for ocs, it's less favoritism but just what occupies my brain currently, fallon / noemi, ushi / mizaru, fumi / seiko, tommy / jay.

FINALLY, HOW DOES ONE SHIP WITH YOU?

you need to be insane <3

tagging. @qismet , @memuntos , @ephamerel , @starspurn , @omonzuru , @ownlore , @rottedfigs , @ategod , @fatedriven , @yaburnae , and whoeverrrrrrr wants to <3

[justenjoythegossip]

CHRIS WILL BE JUST FINE…

A portion of Chris’ fandom is really mad at him for accepting to be part of a shitshow with such a problematic girl. And rightfully so. But it’s important to keep something in perspective: Chris is going to be just fine.

Stars have gotten away with much worse

I saw this article this morning about celebrities being involved in big scandals. https://www.buzzfeed.com/hannahmarder/wild-forgotten-celeb-controversies

There are many more that didn’t make the list and definitely could have. Even recently, Greta Gerwig’s partner left the mother of his unborn child to be with her. It’s awards season so of course, it has been buried. Same situation with Claire Danes’ sordid affair with Billy Crudup a long time ago. 

So many of these Hollywood folks are problematic and have gotten away with it and continue to get away with it. 

Their behavior range from the problematic to the horrific and criminal. 

Casey Affleck allegedly assaulted a woman sexually and settled his case out of court. He won an Oscar for Manchester by the sea anyway. If people are curious, look at how Brie Larson handed his awards. She knew!

According to Rose McGowan, his brother Ben Affleck would have told her after she had confessed to him that Weinstein (let's not even discuss him) raped her: “I told him to stop doing that”.  

Allegedly a former girlfriend of Fassbender pressed charges against him after he violently assaulted her. And I could go on and on. 

Many have done much worse than being in a PR relationship with someone problematic and have gotten away with it. So in the grand scheme of things, Chris will be just fine. His “relationship” with Abba will be buried and soon it will be a forgotten memory, only remembered by a small portion of his fandom. 

Chris’ darker side

Chris’ history is rather tame compared to all those super problematic people and or criminals that are still on the loose. 

But yes, he has made mistakes in the past like everyone else and he has done his fair share of problematic stuff as well. In his younger days, there were rumors of fights and being thrown out of bars. There has been rumors of drug use. There was that messy affair with a married costar during the shooting of Gifted. Also let’s not forget the more recent papwalk in London with Lily James during Covid Lockdown to clean her sniffing cocaine in the park. The pairing of Captain America and Cinderella was a good idea on paper but the execution was atrocious and tactless. It was already a sign of his team’s gross incompetence and miscalculation. There was also the leak of the screenshot of his phone. The d..k pic was all people talked about but some of the other pictures were even more problematic, not as embarrassing of course but more problematic.

Also Chris’ friends and family and Chris himself have trolled his fandom for years. A day before he left for Portugal at the beginning of this shitshow, he tweeted a pic of himself and wrote something like: “I love my fans and Dodger loves you too”. He then hopped on a plane and purposefully filmed a video for that teacher from his hotel room in Lisbon so that his fans (plants?) could place him there. And surprise surprise, there was some backlash on certain platforms and just afterwards he or his team tweeted a picture of him with a bald kid with cancer. It was actually the low point for me. Much worse than anything he did with Abba. I think the picture was 2 years old and I know celebrities use charities to make themselves look good all the time. But using the pic of a sick child for damaged control was as low as you can get. I am not sure he promoted Christopher’s Haven ever since. 

And of course, there are still the ongoing shenanigans with the Nazi sympathizing yacht girl…

But like Chris said in an interview the past year, the industry makes you do things you don’t want to do. Hollywood is indeed a snake pit where they sometimes force you to compromise yourself and play certain games if you want to be successful. That is part of the price to pay.  

He needed a change in his PR image

Chris was at a good place in his career after Endgame. Knives Out was a huge hit and Defending Jacob got good reviews. He seemed to have diversified but Covid happened and derailed a lot of stuff. Little shop of Horrors was canceled. He didn’t have Marvel to fall back on and he seemed to be at a crossroads career wise and PR-wise. He couldn’t remain the perfect internet boyfriend and play Prince charming waiting for the one forever. He had to evolve into more adults parts as well: husbands, fathers etc. 

This is probably why his team came up with this PR relationship and those kinda of weddings. Again it was a good idea on paper because it enabled them to change his image in a natural and organic way. But the execution was again as disastrous as it gets. Abba was not a good fit for him and she was not a good choice especially if they wanted to rebrand him as a family man. 

The question remains whether she is the only one who agreed to this charade. Indeed the contract’s terms seem rather drastic. She has never been able to even post anything about him (just his dog) or about marrying him. She has mostly hid for the past years and just popped up for PR events or reasons. And given the GQ event, it's likely she is not even allowed to speak in public. Remember the articles saying she was rude and refused to talk to the media. Who would agree to this kind of contract but a desperate clout chaser with little prospect? 

An artist’s career is full of ups and downs. Hopefully, once this is over, Chris will get opportunities to expand on his body of work with more diverse roles. I think Pain Hustlers was supposed to do that for him but even if he was rather good in it, the movie wasn’t. I do think he has the acting chops to do it. Whether or not he will get such opportunities is another question… I am not sure this shitshow would have helped him at all in that regard but time will tell.

[mauveberries]

I saw your anti-Jegulus post, and wanted to offer my two cents. I actually don’t personally mind Jegulus as a ship itself (I wouldn’t call myself a fan or anything, but I’m not too bothered by it), but I actually do think a lot of the fanon portrayals of Jegulus have constant hints of misogyny. For example, I’ve seen a lot of Jegulus fics/headcanons about Lily having a baby and essentially abandoning her family in order to leave room for Jegulus raising Harry. It’s a very tired cliche of fans of MLM ships trying to get women out of the way any way they can, as long as they can get use out of them first (in this scenario, Lily giving birth to Harry).

Another common thing I see is the criticism/opinion that Jily is boring (which is absolutely fair, everyone is entitled to their opinion) but then project a lot of Jily’s tropes onto Jegulus (some that I’ve seen are matching patronuses, James being extremely infatuated and pining over Regulus, or making Regulus’ personality identical to canon Lily’s and then turning Lily into a bland, one dimensional character). I think where people are coming from is that because of this, it genuinely feels like these people would in fact like Jily, and the only issue they have with it is that Lily is a woman. I also find myself genuinely wondering if Regulus would be as popular as he is now if he were a female character.

I don’t think people who like Jegulus are individually being misogynistic, I think it’s more of the general concept of Jegulus becoming popular and the treatment of all characters involved has strong undertones of misogyny.

This isn’t meant to be hateful or combative btw, so I hope it didn’t come off that way. I just saw your post and wanted to offer my perspective on it.

oh no worries anon, your message is clear. and you are right, the jegulus fandom is misogynistic in the way that you say that they are, and i dislike that.

but the point of my post is that you can't exactly be mysogynistic towards lily evans, because the author herself is already misogynistic towards her. my point was that jily is no better than jegulus.

think of it this way, lily evans, the mother of the protagonist of the series, whose love saved the protag’s life should have a more prominent role in the series. but instead, her whole life is portrayed to revolve around male characters. her role in ths story is reduced to being a mother. [i'm not saying motherhood is a bad thing, i just wish it was explored with more complexity and nuance.]

jily is also the most basic, misogynistic heterosexual pairing ever imo. james is immature, lily is mature, and james changed for her because he wanted her to like him.

that's it, that's literally it. the fact that james 'changed' himself is the more important part of their dynamic. lily herself is not shown having any feelings for james, and how she went through the process of forgiving him. james is this manchild, with atrocious behaviour and he's expected to change for lily. it's like lily isn't even her own person anymore!

i don't like the jily dynamics as well because james was lowkey blackmailing lily into dating him and the way that their romance is pprtrayed, it feels like she just eventually accepted it, after he 'changed.'

at this point, even though it was lily's love that saved harry's life, she is such a non-entity in the series. harry is portrayed to be more interested in learning about james, and lily is depicted as having NO concrete friends in canon! the mary detail in canon hardly counts because that scene was more focused on snape! another man. seriously! every aspect of her life revolves around some GUY.

not to mention, after she graduates, guess what. she stays at home to take care of the baby while james becomes a strong auror! are you seeing this?! she's a trad wife. she's literally a stay-at-home mum because she decided she wanted to get knocked up in the middle of the war. the only counter-point to this is if voldemort wasn't after harry, she might have gone to work, but it is iffy, too, because who decides it's a good idea to have a baby in the middle of a war? she could have fought alongside james but nooo she has to watch while james puts his invisibility cloak on to goof around with sirius while her baby's life is in danger.

"it genuinely feels like these people would in fact like Jily, and the only issue they have with it is that Lily is a woman." <- you're right anon, but this doesn't matter to me as i feel that both the ships are equally bad.

tl;dr: jily is also a lowkey misogynistic in my opinion. jegulus is just as bad, and you are right, some of its fans are misogynistic as well.

[sapphic-saionji]

I get mad about this on the regular I know and I've gotten hate mail over this subject before but the amount of insane hate togafuka as a pairing gets is honestly disgusting. Like, way too far by all and any means. The togafuka community is small and mainly consists of cute domestic posts about them living together in a healthy and loving relationship (mind you, these are two consenting adults who are not biologically related to each other), and people will scream to the heavens how it's disgusting because it would THEORETICALLY be abusive/toxic in canon and like... ok, where's the abuse content? Where's the hundreds of thousands of togafuka shippers who are making abuse fetish content then, if we're theoretically fetishizing abuse that ISN'T EVEN CANON, because they are not in a relationship and never have been?

Trying to say that two characters would have an abusive relationship when you don't know HOW they would behave in a relationship, because they have never canonically dated ANYONE, is atrocious logic. I could say ANY ship was abusive because NO Danganronpa pairing has ever been canonized. I could call Gundham and Sonia an abusive relationship. I could call Makoto and Kyoko an abusive relationship, because I personally believe that if they were in a relationship, it would be abusive, but I don't, because that is fucking insane people behavior. I have no idea what they would be like together!! The only thing I would have to base this off of is fan content, which depicts these couples in happy and loving relationships, JUST LIKE THE TOGAFUKA FANDOM DOES!!

The hate that that pairing gets also goes way too far entirely. I remember how uninhabitable instagram was for a while (possibly even to this day, I'm not sure as I don't much use it anymore) because the togafuka tag was spammed with so much irl gore and selfharm, and even posts that weren't gore and sh were just people talking about how much they fucking hated togafuka and how gross and abusive it was. The only hatemail I have ever gotten on this blog in my entire life, in almost a decade on this site, has been about togafuka. Just stop and think about how fucking batshit insane it is to direct this much hate and vitriol towards someone for being a fan of two non-related adults in a healthy, consenting relationship.

[my-meadowlark]

fic: monster mash [supergirl - kara danvers/lena luthor]

Title: Monster Mash Fandom: Supergirl Characters/Pairing: Kara Danvers/Lena Luthor Rating: E Word Count: 3,134 Content warnings: Smut, Kara's cowboy impersonation Summary: The last thing Lena wants to be doing is hosting L Corp's Halloween party, but as the CEO, it's not like she has a choice. She doesn't like Halloween, she doesn't like the people at the party, she doesn't like that the best friend she has unrequited feelings for couldn't come to the party, and -- as if that wasn't enough -- she especially doesn't like Supergirl's cowboy hat. But sometimes all you need is a helpful super-heroine and an empty office to discover a newfound appreciation for celebrating All Hallows' Eve. Prompts used: "Monster Mash by Bobby Pickett" for the Halloween Bingo at @mfbingo "Celebratory Sex" for Kinktober Bingo "Kara" for Supercorptober 2022

Read on AO3 HERE or under the cut.

"Welcome to the L Corp Halloween dance!"

Lena hears herself say the words in her best corporate voice. Just this side of enthusiastic. Almost sincere. She smiles for the press and shakes hands with all the important people she has absolutely no interest in beyond the name recognition they bring to any event.

There are very few holidays Lena Luthor hates more than Halloween. And she uses the term holiday loosely.

"Miss Luthor! A picture, please?"

Lena flashes the photographer a smile that doesn't even attempt to reach her eyes.

She's never been a fan of Halloween, but this year she's feeling particularly curmudgeonly towards it. Maybe because she's getting more and more tired of feeling like everything she does has to count as networking somehow. Maybe because the one relationship that truly feels hers -- hers, not L Corp's – has accidentally crossed the line from friendship to a hopeless, very much unrequited crush. Maybe because her party is full of reporters but the only one she wants to see had to stay home to get her approaching deadlines under control.

Maybe Lena just needs a drink.

Maybe – she thinks when she finishes her drink and her mood hasn't improved one bit – she needs two.

And she's on her way to get it when she's intercepted by someone dressed up as Supergirl. Someone who very clearly did not get the memo that this is not a costume party. Just a party that happens to fall on Halloween.

But when Lena looks up at the Supergirl impersonator's face, she realizes it's actually...

"Supergirl."

In a cowboy hat, may she add. Supergirl in a cowboy hat. She swears she only had the one drink.

"Howdy," Supergirl says, touching the rim of her hat and winking at Lena in a way that's not even flirty. It's just friendly. Borderline goofy, even. So why – Lord, why – is Lena suddenly feeling like someone's cranked up the party's temperature by at least ten degrees?

"Are you all right?" Supergirl asks, suddenly serious. There's this... this concern in bright blue eyes that's devastatingly sincere and makes Lena think of another set of blue eyes that look at her like that sometimes.

And she can't have that. She can't—she can't stand here and try to mingle and network all evening while her brain is full of the kind of thoughts that can only be entertained when there's free time for wallowing in self-pity while rewatching Titanic. She just can't.

"I'm fine."

She very clearly is not. Supergirl either doesn't notice, or chooses to ignore it.

"I think I saw a bar over yonder," Supergirl says in an atrociously bad accent that Lena can't even place, "wanna go wet your whistle?"

Lena feels her skin flush pink, Supergirl's display of-- whatever that was working for her somehow. She purses her lips and shifts on her feet, thighs rubbing together as she considers her options. She could go have another drink or two or three or however many it takes to put her brain in stasis for the night. But that would not be too conductive to networking.

Or.

She could do the adult thing. Have a conversation with Supergirl. A mature conversation about double checking dress code instructions when receiving a party invitation and how she should never, ever, say 'wet your whistle' in her presence again.

"Pardner?" Supergirl attempts to pull Lena back out of her thoughts, and the combination of that goofy accent and the genuinely caring smile on Supergirl's face is nearly enough to make Lena choose option A and order a dozen stiff drinks.

Nearly enough.

"You," Lena says, and it comes out like she’s accusing Supergirl of something, "come with me. My office."

“All righty,” Supergirl says, already following Lena towards the elevator. At least it’s not yeehaw, Lena figures. Small victories.

It’s the longest elevator ride in history. It must be. Lena stares intently at the vertical line between the closed sliding doors, trying to ignore the fact that Supergirl is right there, right behind her.

When the elevator finally, mercifully dings and the doors slide open, Lena lets out a breath she hadn’t even noticed she’d been holding.

“Lena, seriously,” Supergirl’s hand wraps around Lena’s bicep, gently, and something about knowing how much self-control that must take for someone who can crush cars between her hands makes a shiver run down Lena’s spine, “are you all right? You’re kinda worrying me.”

“I’m fine,” she lies once again, pulling herself free from Supergirl’s grip and walking towards her desk.

“Well, somebody's poisoned the waterhole.”

Lena freezes mid-step. She recognizes that line. She recognizes that line because Kara’s been making Lena sit through the entire Disney-Pixar catalog to make up for everything she missed during her childhood, and they watched Toy Story just a couple movie nights ago.

“Okay,” Lena says, turning around and pointing her index finger at Supergirl, “that stops now.”

“What?”

“That. The cowboy…” Lena gestures in the general direction of Supergirl, “everything. Enough.”

“But why? It’s Halloween! Come on, Lena, yee your haw.”

Lena frowns. Stares at Supergirl like she can’t believe she just said that. Subtly pulls on the satiny fabric of her own dress because it’s just so hot in here for some reason.

“Are you gonna tell me what’s wrong? Maybe I can help. It’s kind of my thing.”

“Nothing is wrong. I just need—“ A quick lobotomy. An ice-cold shower. Hard liquor. “I need—“

Supergirl does it again. She looks at Lena like that again, concerned and sincere and like she cares so much. Like she’s desperate to fix whatever’s wrong. Like she’d do anything to make Lena feel better.

“Lena,” Supergirl says, strong fingers ever so gently wrapping around Lena’s wrist, and Lena swears she can feel her own pulse against Supergirl’s warm skin, and she feels her eyes flutter closed against her will, “just tell me. Anything you need.”

It’s something in the way Supergirl’s voice sounds when Lena has her eyes closed. Some kind of deep brain connection that sparks alive when she hears her voice like that. Lena will blame that for what happens next.

Because one second she’s standing there with her eyes closed and the next her eyes are still closed but she’s kissing Supergirl instead. It’s greedy and hungry and immediately — and enthusiastically — returned and Lena is so glad everyone’s busy with the party because she’s not sure she’d be able to stop even if every single reporter in the building walked into her office right now.

Lena presses her free hand against the crest on Supergirl’s chest to guide her towards the glass wall behind Lena’s desk. Supergirl’s back meets the glass with a soft thud, and she sighs into Lena’s mouth as she grabs Lena’s ass to press her closer, deepening the kiss, and Lena is so glad she chose to have a mature talk about this.

There’s a moment when Supergirl sucks on Lena’s tongue, lightly, and Lena’s knees buckle under her weight, and Supergirl holds her up and keeps kissing her without missing a single beat and Lena is pretty sure this is how she dies (and that’s ok) except suddenly it all stops.

“Oh!” Supergirl pants against Lena’s lips. “I love this song.”

“What?”

“They’re playing the Monster Mash at the party,” Supergirl explains like this is normal behavior, head bopping slightly to a rhythm Lena can (thankfully) not hear.

“Okay. Supergirl?” Lena extricates herself from Supergirl’s arms. “I need you to focus.”

She’s sure having superhearing makes tuning things out a little harder than it is for regular humans, so Lena decides to help her out. She crouches down just enough to wrap her fingers around the hem of her dress and starts pulling it up her legs, but when it’s just above her knees she hears Supergirl’s voice humming quietly. Humming the freaking Monster Mash.

“No singing.” She can tolerate the cowboy hat but she draws the line at having sex to the tune of that song.

“Aw, but I—“ Supergirl suddenly sees what’s right in front of her, blue eyes darkening as they roam up Lena’s legs and up where the dress is bunched up mid-thigh.

“Oh.”

Lena smirks. That’s more like it. And she wants to reward Supergirl’s redirected attention by taking her dress off, but suddenly Supergirl’s hands are on Lena’s, stilling them.

“No,” she says, voice just husky enough to make Lena feel it right between her legs, “leave it on.”

And then one of Supergirl’s hands is under her dress and Supergirl kisses her again, slow and deep in a way that feels almost like she’s showing off, and Lena suddenly feels the edge of her desk against her ass and she slides her fingers into the softest blond hair to have something to hold on to.

Not that Supergirl seems likely to let go any time soon.

Especially not when her hand slides up the inside of Lena’s left thigh and Lena can feel the exact moment she realizes just how wet she is because Supergirl moans quietly into Lena’s mouth and her breath catches in her throat.

Supergirl’s fingers press against damp lace and Lena moves her hands to strong biceps, feeling the muscle through the material of her suit.

And then, something changes. It’s a split second. Lena pulls back from the kiss to take in a breath and she opens her eyes and sees Supergirl looking into them, and for a second she thinks she sees—

But before Lena can let the thought fully form in her head, Supergirl grabs her waist and turns her around so the edge of the desk is now against her lower stomach, and then Supergirl presses herself against Lena’s back and moves her hair out of the way so she can kiss her neck and whisper a soft, “Is this okay?” which travels up Lena’s spine leaving goosebumps in its wake.

“Yes,” Lena breathes out, both hands on the cold surface of the desk, “yes, don’t stop.”

If it was an important thought, she’s sure it’ll come back later.

Because right now she has more important things to focus on. Like Supergirl hiking the skirt of her dress up over Lena’s ass and leaving it bunched up around her waist. Supergirl holds her there, strong hands on Lena’s hips and soft lips trailing kisses down the back of Lena’s neck, below the clasp of her necklace, down her spine, making Lena so very glad she chose a dress with a very, very low back.

Supergirl sinks down to her knees and Lena bends over her desk, already knowing she will need all the support she can take.

“That’s pretty,” Supergirl says almost to herself, fingers hooking under the elastic of Lena’s lacy black thong. She pulls it down over the curve of Lena’s ass and halfway down her thighs, following its path with a trail of soft, open-mouthed kisses that have Lena struggling to keep any air in her lungs.

“Still okay?” Supergirl asks, sincere as always even when her lips ghost over the spot where Lena’s right ass cheek meets her thigh.

The simple question makes all the warmth pooling on Lena’s lower stomach relocate to her chest for just a moment, and her voice comes out slightly shaky when she manages to speak.

“Yes.” Lena feels Supergirl’s lips on the back of her thigh and Supergirl’s hands on her ass, pushing just enough to spread her pussy lips open. “Yes.”

“So pretty,” Supergirl all but whispers, almost awed, and that’s really the last thing Lena can process because next thing she feels is Supergirl’s mouth on her cunt.

She doesn’t know exactly what Supergirl is doing — whether she’s using her alien powers or this is just plain superhuman skill — but Lena doesn’t think she’s ever been fucked this effectively in her life.

Flushed cheek rests against the cold surface of her desk, fingers gripping the edge of it like she’s scared she might lose all sense of reality if she lets go. Supergirl’s lips are around her clit and then her tongue is inside Lena and then teeth nip at swollen, dripping lips and all Lena can do is moan her encouragement and let Supergirl do whatever she wants to her. And then—

Lena hears the spank before she feels it, somehow, the sound of skin of skin thrilling between her legs right where Supergirl’s mouth keeps working its magic. It takes a fraction of a second for the sting on her ass cheek to fully register, and then Lena is fighting her incoherent brain to let out intelligible words instead of desperate moans.

“Oh—kay,” she manages, not without difficulty, just because she’s fairly sure she will die if Supergirl stops what she’s doing to check in on her feelings regarding being spanked right now, “I’m o— fuck,” one of Lena’s hands lets go of the edge of the desk just so she can slam it on the cool glass surface instead, thighs quaking as every flick of Supergirl’s tongue pushes her closer to her release, “don’t stop. Justdon’tstop.

And Supergirl doesn’t. There’s lips and teeth and God, that tongue, and another spank on Lena’s already sensitive skin and when Lena finally comes she presses her own hand against her mouth to keep herself from screaming but even she realizes just how ineffective it is.

She repeats Supergirl’s name like a chant, a little softer each time as Supergirl helps her ride out every wave with her mouth.

Lena’s muscles are still weakly contracting when she feels herself land back on Earth. Supergirl’s still between her legs, but her mouth feels gentler now — almost lazy, like she’s no longer doing this for Lena but for her own enjoyment. And Lena, still trying to catch her breath, is more than happy to oblige.

When Supergirl finally pulls away it’s with a sigh, something content and almost dreamy, and for a split second Lena has that feeling once again — that spark of something that could become a fully formed thought if she’d let it. But she won’t let it. Not right now, when she feels fully relaxed for the first time in weeks and her body feels weightless and like it’s made of lead at the same time.

So she focuses on the present instead. On the way Supergirl ever so carefully pulls Lena’s thong back into place. The way she kisses the lacy triangle and then the still tingling skin on Lena’s ass cheek before fixing the skirt of Lena’s dress and letting it fall into place once again.

Lena hears the slight rustle of the fabric of Supergirl’s suit as she gets back on her feet, and then Supergirl’s slick lips pressing a kiss to her shoulderblade.

“Better?” She asks, voice lower than before — lower than ever — as it hits Lena’s skin.

Lena nods and takes it as her cue to at least attempt to stand up straight and see if her knees will support her. Supergirl, unsurprisingly, is right there for Lena to hold on to as needed until she feels like she can stand on her own two feet.

“Thanks,” Lena says, feeling a little ridiculous the second the word leaves her lips. But she figures it’s really only polite.

Supergirl chuckles. “Hey. My pleasure.”

Lena just takes her in for a moment. The bright blue eyes and the even brighter smile and that stupid cowboy hat and her lips and chin glistening with Lena, and Lena doesn’t even know how she feels. Doesn’t even know how she’s supposed to feel. So maybe grateful will do just fine.

“Here. Let me—“ Lena reaches for the box of tissues on her desk and grabs a couple of them to wipe Supergirl’s face clean. She only realizes it’s a mistake when she notices the way Supergirl looks at her as she works — the way Supergirl’s breath hits her lips in warm puffs and Lena’s heart can’t seem to find its rhythm. And she knows Supergirl can hear.

“There,” she says, voice quiet and suddenly almost bashful, which is absurd after what just happened between them.

“Thanks.” Supergirl echoe’s Lena’s word from before, and her hand wraps around Lena’s fingers, and it’s suddenly a bit too much. It’s suddenly a bit too close to the way she feels about— It’s too much.

“Supergirl,” Lena starts, taking one step back, “you know this was—“

“Nothing,” Supergirl finishes with a smile and something Lena is completely unwilling to acknowledge in her eyes, “I know. Just… a Halloween celebration, right?”

Lena lets out a quiet chuckle. “Right. I’m nothing if not festive.”

“You could even call it a—“

Lena knows what’s coming. She knows what’s coming so she puts one finger up and opens her mouth to stop her, but Supergirl has Superspeed after all, and she finishes her sentence anyway.

“Monster mash. If you will.”

Lena stares for a second. “I will not.”

Supergirl laughs, something light and genuine, and it works to clear the energy in the room somehow.

“Oh!” Supergirl’s eyes round in delight, and she grabs Lena’s wrist once again, pulling her along towards the elevator. “They’re playing it again. Giddy up! We’re can’t miss it this time.”

And Lena is a bit too relaxed to argue with her.

***

On November 1st, Lena wakes up slightly hungover. Nothing scandalous. In her defense, you need a certain level of alcohol in your blood to endure a night of dancing to ridiculous songs with a superheroine who is fully committed to her Woody impersonation. All things considered, Lena thinks four drinks was close to angelic.

But she still feels… is guilty the right word? She’s not ashamed. Not embarrassed. She shouldn’t feel guilty, either. But when she walks into Kara’s workplace with two coffees and an extra jam-filled donut, she feels like she’s maybe trying to atone for something not even she can name.

Her mood lifts the second she sees Kara, bright and beautiful even this early in the morning. Lena often feels like she has her own personal sun to orbit around, and today is no exception. Especially when she notices Kara seems to be in an extra good mood this morning, smile even wider than usual as she does a cute little dance by the copy machine.

Lena takes a few steps closer, fully intending to surprise Kara with her favorite breakfast treats, but the second she’s close enough to hear the song Kara’s quietly singing as she dances, all she can do is freeze and keep herself from dropping the coffees on the floor.

They did the monster mash (The monster mash) It was a graveyard smash (They did the mash) It caught on in a flash (They did the mash) They did the monster mash

[charlesemersonwinchesteriii]

charles+hawkeye, charles+margaret

I combined your first request with some others, but thank you for the additional one!! We love biodiversity <3 Ok so. CharMarg huh.

To get it clearly out of the way: Canon CharMarg Bad. Both because it was just atrociously quarter-assedly attempted in one of the most pathetic pseudo-storylines ever scraped together, an embarrassment to put into such an otherwise quality show, and more importantly because any attempt to make these two get together in canon would always be bad no matter what, because Ms. Swit and Mr. Stiers did not want to do that and if anyone tried to make either of them do something they didn't want I would kill that person and then myself.

But there is one thing worse than canon CharMarg. And that is fanon CharMarg. Because obviously basically nobody actually ships these two, but there are many people, particularly of the mainstream h*wkbeej variety (#notallh*wkbeejers and certainly none who would be in the general vicinity of my blog at this point, I don't think), who like the idea of Charles and Margaret in a lavender marriage.

I love the recent interest in lavender marriages in fandom recently. Now everyone can do the same Pair The Spares maneuver fandom has always done with characters it doesn't care much about, but now they can do it even when the idea of the spares being in love is completely laughable. And it sounds so much cooler, too!

Man I'm sorry I don't know why this irks me so, but alas! It does. The thing is, a lavender marriage would do nothing for either of them anyways, in terms of "playing at doing what society and family want them to do", which is after all the entire purpose of such marriages. Margaret already basically had a test run of marrying into a family like Charles' when she tried it with Penobscott and she HATED it and they basically rejected her for not being the perfect Aryan race anyways. And that's beside the fact that what Charles' family want from him more than anything is children, and Margaret is at the very LEAST extremely on the fence about having kids. So she'd be as miserable as ever, obviously. And with all this, it's fair to say that the Winchesters would be hardly any more satisfied with CharMarg than they would be with Charles just staying a bachelor, so what the hell would he be in it for either???

So it's a no for me on that. So why did I put down that it's "better in fanfic"? Well now we must discuss not canon CharMarg, not fanon CharMarg, but a secret third thing. Hypothetical CharMarg. Essence of CharMarg if you will. The CharMarg that exists only in slight little glimpses in scenes where I'm like you know what? If they hadn't forced it, if they hadn't tried so hard and so badly, if they'd done nothing at all, if they'd just given us all these quiet little moments of friendship and kindness and smiles and affection and never implied anything else and then I’d seen that last scene with the book.......... I’d have been like yeah. I see that. 

And then the fandom could have done Pair The Spares normally, without pretense. And the thing is, I actually always loved fandom pairing the spares, putting every set of characters in groups of two (or three or four, if we really wanted to have some fun and get silly with it) and never leaving anybody behind, making sure nobody was alone. Even if they didn’t care about the spares much, really. It was always hell on fans of those less popular characters, of course (been there!), but it seemed to come from a place of awkward, fumbling love. Nobody gets left behind.

(Aromanticism?? Characters not needing a relationship to be fulfilled?? What’s that lol this is 2014 era Tumblr. Romance shipping LOCKDOWN.)

But of course they did force it and they did ruin it and now it’s hard to even write CharMarg as friends, sometimes, trying to parse out what their friendship is really like when they’re allowed to be people instead of two barbie dolls smashed together. 

They’re still great together though. It is great whenever they’re on screen hanging out together and being narrative mirrors and trying to figure out how to have a friend for the first time in their lives. God I wish they’d gotten to talk about their fathers together, about expectations and never being good enough and having to keep themselves apart from everyone else and repressed anger and repressed love and repressed loneliness. I wish everyone would stop smashing them together like two barbie dolls and just let them be great together. 

In conclusion society would be fixed if Loretta Swit and David Ogden Stiers got everything they wanted forever

[redjaybathood]

Jason/Eddie, Dick/Barb,

1. Jason/Eddie

As you might have noticed, childhood friends falling for each other is my weakness. Eddie has a bonus point: long silver hair is Jason's weakness (2 out of 3 girlfriends had it).

As a pairing, it's carried by more than 2 but less than 5 people in the fandom on their shoulders. You continue, kings.

The fact that Jason meets Eddie's Titans team but not him is atrocious.

The best thing about jeddie/Red2 is - there's no way Eddie dies should they reconnect. There's no way they would struggle as much. And I am not a person who's "Having a significant other will cure your mental issues" but it sure would have helped them if they had someone who knows them before Red Hood/Red Devil, who knows and gets it. Gets them. Even if they're not like you at all.

2. Dickbabs

Boooring. Also, some of the fans are real assholes regarding Kory and it's a turn off. Some Dickkory fans are assholes too, but Anna Diop.

Though to be honest, I really see them more as partners, the first Batkids (first Batman's sidekicks), the ones who get each other on that level. I don't know if Dick leaving was hard on Babs or if she left before him. But this, I would prefer to explore in terms of friendship, war bonds if you will.

Whereas a pairing between them is like compulsory heterosexuality being showed into my throat (which, if you remember the history of Batgirl as a character, kinda what's happening). Thank you, not interested.

Tbh, I am glad I am not really invested in either of them so I can pretend it doesn't exist. Titans TV kinda led me down on that one but by the point season 3 rolled around I was used to Dick getting all the age-appropriate girls except maybe Donna.

[mileapokp1677]

Three Steps to Win You (CH 1)

Title: Three Steps to Win You

Rating: M

Pairing: DaddyChan/Tankhun, Kinn/Porsche, Vegas/Pete

Category: M/M, AU Nerd-Jock

Summary: Accidentally, scientist Tankhun Theerapanyakul embarrassed footballer Captain Chan "Daddy" Knight in front of his coach, teammates and fans. He had to fulfill three tasks from the captain before his apology was accepted.

AN:

1. This fan fiction is a tribute to Chan the Man aka Daddy Chan, the coolest and the most badass bodyguard of the Theerapanyakul main family and Khun Tankhun Theerapanyakul, the most fashionable and fabulous character that I love so~ much.

2. English is not my first language and my grammar is atrocious. Sorry in advance for any mistakes. This fanfic is un-beta’d, you’ve been warned.

3. I’m not native Thai and have never been to Bangkok before. I know nothing about the city or about the Thailand Football League. Everything in my fanfic comes from my imagination. I’m trying my hardest not to be offensive, but if I did, please correct me and please do it gently. Once again, please forgive me if I make any mistake.

4. This is a Rom-Com crack fanfic AU Nerd-Jock, I’ve had enough angst (><).

5. I’m using almost the whole gang of KPTS characters in this fan fiction. I’m just borrowing them to play around.

6. In this story Vegas and Macau are not related to the Theerapanyakun boys.

7. I would say everybody is going to be slightly OOC, especially for Vegas and Kim, because they’re growing up in a loving family.

8. This is my first fan fiction in this fandom, and the main pairing is so rare, so I don’t even know if people are willing to give it a try or not. But if you do, I hope you enjoy it.

9. I’m using the last name of the actor (Peter Knight) that acted as Chan in this story and Vegas' middle name (Kornwit) as his family name.

Chapter 1

(Tankhun POV)

Tankhun Theeparanyakul was not an ordinary person, he has always been and will always be extraordinary. In high school, he was the best student. Some people call him a nerd but he was not just any geek. He's a super fabulous nerd with an unparalleled sense of fashion. The only reason why he is now dressed modestly is that the University Research Center where he worked as a senior researcher had a very strict dress code. But still, nobody can rock white long lab coat, black safety boots, and lab goggles like Tankhun. He added tasteful little ornaments here and there that are his trademark, like colorful goggles straps that always matchy-matchy with his socks, and nobody allowed to protest, including his boss, the super cool Miss Erica, who happened to adore him very much. And why shouldn’t she? He was after all the Tankhun Theerapanyakul, who’s goddamn fierce and of course fa~bulous with a capital F.

Born as the eldest of three children (all boys), Tankhun was naturally expected by his father to take over the supermarket chain which has been their family business for five generations. But Tankhun, who has been infatuated with science since childhood, firmly refused his father's request. Fortunately, his younger brother, Kinn – blessed his soul, the second child of the Theerapanyakul family, had a very high business instinct, and was able to prove to their father that he was the better choice to manage their family business. Meanwhile, Kim, the youngest, just like Tankhun, was not interested at all in business. He was a football maniac, who lives and breathes sports. He currently served as the football captain of the University team where he studied, learning Sports Science.

This morning, like the previous mornings in the last 5 years, Tankhun went to the Hattrick Coffee Shop to get his hot Americano that he has crowned as the best Americano. Well, at least from 16 coffee shops that are located in a 2 KM radius from the University Research Center. Tankhun could support his statement earlier scientifically, because he took things into his own hands by diligently taking the data samples from all 16 cafes to make the comparison at the laboratory. In case anyone wants to refute his claims, he still keeps the results of his 2 weeks intensive research in his desk drawer at the office.

At exactly 7.30 AM, Tankhun was already standing in the queue in front of the cashier. Unlike last week, no… not that long… even compared to the queue line two days ago, today’s line was longer than usual. Tankhun glanced at the watch on his left wrist to confirm today’s date. He had been so busy at the lab lately; he sometimes forgot the date. The experiment he was currently working on has occupied his mind and really kicks his butt.

Ah... July is almost ended. No wonder… Sigh…

If there's one thing Tankhun didn't like about the Hattrick Coffee Shop, this cafe is located right next to the stadium used by Bangkok Super FC as a training ground. When the season ends, the Hattrick is only visited by regulars, but once the new season starts, this cafe will be crowded by BSFC fanatic fans. And looking at the long queue today, it looks like the pre-season training for the most loved Bangkok football club has commenced. Tankhun was very grateful that no BSFC players had ever stopped by this small cafe, he couldn't imagine the chaos that would arise if they came here. Luckily, those fanatics only treated the Hattrick like a hang out place to wait for their idols to finish training, before they chase after their autographs or selfies.

But it seems like Tankhun spoke too quickly, because the figure standing right in front of him in the queue, was almost certainly, Tankhun 95% sure, a football player. The reason why he was so sure about it is because his younger brother is an athlete and a footballer. Although Kim is not a professional footballer, most football players have the same body shape and manner of movement as the result of their training. That’s why, even though this man tried to cover his tall, muscular, very well-trained body, not to mention, bubble butt, by wearing loose track pants and an oversized hoodie, he couldn’t really hide, at least not from Tankhun’s sharp eyes.

He stared at the shapely back in front of him intensely, and maybe that is the reason why the footballer – allegedly – out of the blue turned his body half-way to steal a quick look at him. Tankhun gasped and couldn't believe his eyes. Of all the BSFC players who possibly stopped by this cafe, how could it be that it’s the captain himself, Chan "Daddy" Knight? Who’s none other than Kim’s favorite footballer! Daddy Chan could try to hide his face behind the biggest and darkest sunglasses ever, but Tankhun never misses recognizing people, especially someone that important to his youngest brother.

Tankhun opened his black LV messenger bag, and slowly reached inside to take out his notebook and pen. He was still thinking about the best way to ask for Chan's autograph without attracting the attention of the other café regulars or God-forbid the football fanatics, when a voice heard from the bar.

“Next customer!”

Tankhun must have been so focused on this small matter that he didn't even notice that he was almost at the front of the line. In fact, it was Chan's turn to order his coffee. The researcher put-off his intention to ask for Chan's autograph right now and chose to wait until the footballer placed his order first. After all, you never stop someone from getting their first cup of coffee of the day.

He’s a professional athlete, and the pre-season training has just begun. His coffee order can't be complicated, right?

Tankhun felt that he had found a good opening to break the ice before he started his mission. If Chan ordered a hot Americano like himself, then he would give him a compliment of his great taste in coffee before begging for his autograph.

I’ve got this in the bag!

“Caramel Frappuccino with double whipped cream and chocolate chips on top.”    

The scientist raised his head quickly, and gaped for a moment. The word shock cannot begin to describe how he felt at the moment, when he heard the coffee order from the great Captain of Bangkok Super FC. Tankhun was so close to open his mouth to ask the man himself, ‘Are you fucking serious!?’

“Do you want extra caramel on top?” asked the barista.

Tankhun actually held his breath waiting for Chan’s answer.

“No, just chocolate chips.”

“Do you want anything else? A muffin maybe?”

“No.”

“Okay, total 85 Bath.”

Tankhun still didn’t budge from where he was standing and still couldn't believe what had just happened in front of his eyes. Suddenly, he pictured his youngest brother's shocked face, and just like that, he started giggling. Oh, he tried… truly he tried to stop himself but he just couldn’t. Kim really adores his favorite captain, and has always looked up to Chan as an example. Since he was 14 years old, Kim has been very careful about his diet and very disciplined with his exercise regime. He would say something like, ‘I need to watch my diet like Cap to maximize my muscle mass.’ or something like, ‘I need to be like Cap and cut-off my sugar intake to attain a perfect body like him.’

If only you knew, ‘lil brother, if only you knew~

Tankhun was still giggling when the barista called him.

“Sir? Sir, your usual?” asked the boy.

“Yes! Ehm… yes, please,” Tankhun answered as he gave the boy 50 and then put 5 Bath in the tip jar.

“Thank you, Sir.”

Tankhun moved to the side to wait for his coffee and found out that Chan was also still waiting for his complicated order. Thinking about that sweet concoction, to be honest, he wanted to laugh again, but this was a golden opportunity to ask for an autograph, because Chan was standing alone and there was no one really close around them. So, Tankhun tried his hardest to hold back his laughter and he succeeded, before moving closer to the captain.

“Do you mind signing this for my brother, Daddy Chan?” asked Tankhun in a super low voice as he pushed the notebook and pen that he had previously placed on the long table, towards Chan. For a moment, Tankhun felt like he heard a soft cheering sound from behind the big coffee machine, but then he ignored it, because he was pretty sure his voice wasn't loud enough to be heard.

“You must be mistaken for other people,” Chan responded in his deep voice while looking left and right. It was clearly shown that he was worried other people would hear their conversation.

“Uhm, I don’t think so, because you see… I’m rarely wrong,” whispered Tankhun, who then pushed the notebook and pen toward Chan even closer.

Chan chuckled. “Oh, wow… such arrogance.”

“Just stated the truth. Besides, I don’t think I will miss recognizing a face that I’ve seen everyday for the past 12 years pasted on the wall of my brother’s room. He’s your biggest fan.”

Chan looked a little hesitant, and once again looked to his left and right timidly, before finally picking up the notebook and pen that was lying on the table right beside his right elbow. Just as the captain was about to sign his autograph on Tankhun's notebook, the barista who prepared his Americano to perfection every day, walked up to Chan and shouted, "We're from the Hattrick Coffee Shop are very proud to present this Caramel Frappuccino with Double Whipped Cream and Chocolate chips on top for the best Captain in the country, Chan "Daddy" Knight!"

Fuck! Stupid lil shit!

It only took seconds and then chaos ensued.

“Daddy Chan?”

“Where? In here?”

“OMG! He’s here! He’s really here!”

“CAP!”

“Daddy~~~~”

“DADDY CHAN!!!”

Like magic, all the football fanatics who were in the cafe, immediately stood up and ran towards Chan, holding their cellphones to take picture after picture while shouting and screaming, some of them even starting to sing the BSFC’s chants.

In under 60 seconds, fans managed to surround Chan. Requests for autographs and selfies poured in immediately.

“Cap! Please sign my jersey!”

“And mine too, please~~~”

“Daddy~~~ please take a selfie with me!”

“Daddy Chan, please smile and look at the camera!”

“CAP!”

As the person who stood closest to the captain, Tankhun of course got caught up in the crowd. It was a miracle that he managed to retrieve his notebook, it was a LV too, thank you very much. At first, Tankhun decided to forget about his coffee and just leave immediately, but he went to this cafe every single day to get his caffeine intake and he refused to leave the Hattrick without his Americano.

“Hey, boy, my coffee!” yelled Tankhun to the barista who couldn't do anything but stare at the chaos before his eyes. Luckily, the other barista had finished making his order. He quickly grabbed his Americano and carefully escaped from the crowd.  

Seconds before walking towards the exit, Tankhun turned around to see Chan’s condition, and it wasn't very good. The sunglasses he had worn earlier were gone, and the hoodie cap no longer covered his head. Tankhun winced.

And yes, of course, Tankhun felt a bit guilty, he’s not heartless, but what could he do? After all, his schedule was very tight today and there was a very important experiment in the lab that needed his expertise. So, he can’t be late.

As Tankhun was leaving the Hattrick, out of the corner of his eyes, he saw a tall foreign man who was wearing a tracksuit, enter the café. Not long after that, a super loud shout was heard from inside the cafe. 

“DIO MIO, CHAN!” 

“SHIT! COACH, HELP ME~!”  

Tankhun walked toward the University faster, so fast he’s literally running.  

TBC 

[firelxdykatara]

not gonna lie I would love to hear more about the drama and infighting that went on in The Vampire Diaries fandom if you have the time (and also want to use that time to give your experience with the fandom, which from the snippets you've told sounds Not Fun so I get it if you don't want to lol)

oh god, there was like, SO MUCH, i just

i really feel like tvd is one of those fandoms that is so hard to describe without a lot of ‘you’d have to have been there’, but it really felt like this huge and all-consuming beast for about five years until the show finally imploded and the fandom basically turned on it en masse. (you ever see that post going around that’s like ‘if you ever want to know what true regret feels like, ask someone who once called tvd their favorite show’? still a mood, all these years later. basically the entire fandom thought the show should have just bowed out with whatever shreds of dignity it had left at the end of season 6, and became more of a hatedom than a fandom for the last two seasons. when you have an entire fandom cheering news of your show’s cancellation, i think that’s a sign you done fucked up, julie.)

first and most infamous, of course, are the ship wars. which are pretty much inevitable in any teen-centered drama, and i really think the CW fucking thrives on them, but it was particularly egregious in TVD’s case because not only was the base premise of the show a love triangle, but the two main romantic leads were brothers that the show constantly pit against one another--in pursuit of elena’s affections, but also because it kept up this insistence on the ‘good brother/bad brother’ dichotomy which stopped making sense after about season 2 (by which time we have found out that the good brother was never as good as he appeared, and the bad brother has been growing and isn’t nearly as bad as he pretends to be)--and the question of which brother ‘deserved’ elena (and no, what elena wanted very rarely factored into these discussions, especially in the team stefan camp because they turned on her when what she wanted was no longer The Good Brother, but i’ll get to that in a bit) was hotly contested.

i’m not kidding when i say the shipping wars were vicious. i started watching tvd shortly after it began to air, which was late 2009, and kept up with it fairly sporadically over the years. i didn’t come onto tumblr until 2011/2012, and by then, the fandom was already pretty much a garbagefire. there were anti ship and anti character blogs, any time something bad happened for one ship the rival ship would invade the tags to gloat about it (seasons 3 and 4 were especially rough, and i’m not gonna pretend delena fans weren’t just as bad about tag invasion and shit, but as that was my side of the road i saw a lot more of the stelena shippers being assholes, which soured my opinion on the ship a long time before i started rewatching and realized the red flags were there from the start), confessions blogs were popular also toxic as fuck (so much fighting happened in the notes of those posts, good gods), and this was right around when twitter’s popularity was on the rise and the line between Celebrity and Fan was thinning, so the fandom was absolutely atrocious to much of the tvd cast and crew.

(some of them deserved a lot of the later backlash, but in the early years a lot of it was ‘how dare you write the story in a way i dont like, you terrible fucking person’, and gods don’t get me started on the dobsley vs nian Thing)

i think what really encapsulates my feelings on the tvd fandom as a whole, though, is the way they (to this DAY) treated elena gilbert, which can be summed up in one meme that gained a lot of traction around season 3 if i remember right: that gif of pam from true blood, with the text altered to read “i’m so OVER elena and her precious doppelganger vagina!”

i swear at one time i had over half the active tvd fan accounts on tumblr blocked, because i got to a point where i would no longer tolerate elena hate, and she was (and still is, in what remains of the fandom; you’ll see a lot of ‘elena was one of the worst things about the show’ takes from ex-fans, too) one of the most widely despised characters in the entire fandom. because she -checks smudged writing on hand- was a traumatized teenage girl who -reads off a crumpled notecard- couldn’t always perfectly sort out her own feelings and -squints at the ceiling- sometimes made mistakes or bad decisions. (except a lot of the fandom also insisted that she was a mary sue who had no character traits or flaws or faults and it was like....make up your fucking minds???? is she a calculating conniving bitch whose somehow manipulating these centuries old vampires to tie them around her little finger or is she a boring flat character with no depth and no flaws??? jfc)

there was this massive double standard, too--like, stefan and damon could fuck whoever they wanted and that was fine, but elena was constantly raked over the coals for the crime of developing romantic feelings for the two men who had become constants in her life and whom she cared for deeply, and oh my GOD the slut shaming that happened when elena slept with damon was fucking wild. (and also happened in canon lmfao. like the show had one of elena’s best friends basically call her diseased on screen for falling in love with someone other than stefan. it was gross and ridiculous and the friend in question was also being a giant hypocrite at the time since she was happily flirting with someone who was directly responsible for the deaths of like four of elena’s loved ones and her own boyfriend’s mother but that’s beside the point) but like elena was called a slut and a bitch and a whore for ‘cheating’ on stefan (she hadn’t, and she had in fact broken up with him on screen the episode earlier) and ‘immediately’ jumping into bed with damon, even though none of them said fucking boo when stefan had one night stands or damon had fuckbuddies or whatever.

shit, caroline didn’t get any of this treatment when she started falling for tyler while dating matt! which isn’t to say i think she should have, just that i think it’s fucking ridiculous that elena was absolutely demonized by the fandom for daring to have feelings for two guys at once and eventually acting on them--despite the fact that the entire premise of the show was a love triangle. it’s not a love triangle if both sides don’t eventually get explored, and the crew had been pretty explicit about the fact that delena was going to happen at some point--but when it did, a huge chunk of the fandom absolutely threw a fit.

and a lot of these elena haters were alleged stelena stans, and i say alleged because they hated her so much for not wanting stefan’s dick anymore that it was clear they were really stefan stans and only wanted stelena to be endgame because they wanted stefan to ‘win’ at the end of the day, because ‘he’s the good brother’ so he deserved elena more.

it was all very gross and very misogynistic and very sex shaming (apparently delena was a ‘shallow’ and ‘superficial’ relationship because they had sex after two years of unrequited feelings slowly becoming requited and then pining for ages on both sides, and because they had a lot of on screen chemistry that the show capitalized on for years so of course they did a lot of making out and shit but it’s not like stelena didn’t have its fair share of making out and sex scenes, stefan was just too much of a coward to let elena top i’d apologize for that joke but i’m really not sorry because it’s true), and when i say it was egged on by the crew, that’s because they refused to let the love triangle die back in season 4 when it should have.

they insisted on stringing stelena fans along, dropping little bread crumbs to keep them invested, like dreams of a future where they were married and revealing that stefan was also a doppelganger and he and elena were descended from a pair of star-crossed lovers (a plot that ultimately went nowhere, to no one’s great surprise), and then fucking like. julie plec turned around and threw nina under the bus after she chose not to extend her contract and pretended that stelena might have happened again if she hadn’t left the show, which....i mean frankly i wouldn’t put it past her, but it would have been shitty writing. then again, she thought having a vampire pregnancy where a uterus was magically transplanted from a witch into a vampire that could somehow......carry the babies to term.... made sense and was a good way to accomodate candice’s RL pregnancy rather than like literally ANYTHING else, soooooo. but anyway julie saying that around like, end of s6 sparked off a new wave of nina hate and elena hate and ship wars bc they SEers took it as ‘confirmation’ that stelena was REALLY meant to be endgame and it was all just a hot fucking mess

another thing is that, while tvd was in its prime before the anti/purity culture shit started picking up any real steam, there was still this pervasive attitude throughout the fandom that if you liked Damon, you were A Bad Person. liking damon was apparently grounds for insults and harassment, and apparently he was The Worst Person on the Show even though literally nothing he does on screen is any worse than shit we know stefan has done (and frankly every other vampire too, but i mention stefan specifically because he was always held up--in the show but especially in the fandom--as the Good Brother while damon was the Bad One, and if you liked damon more then that had to mean your morals were dodgy and you clearly couldn’t appreciate what a heroic and saintly figure dear stefan was and....oops, i’m sorry, my salt keeps leaking -cough-).

meanwhile klaus quickly became a fandom darling despite not even really having much of a redemption arc (on tvd anyway, he just became more ‘affably evil’ as the show went on and more inclined to work with the main characters rather than try to kill them; i have no idea what went on over on his show, though), and like i can 100% appreciate liking villains and not caring that they do dodgy villainous shit, even just liking them bc they’re hot and wanting them to kiss a main character bc they have insanely good chemistry (yes i ship klaroline, no i won’t apologize for it, they could have been Really Great), it’s just really the double standard that gets me.

and all of this, incidentally, required ignoring some truly gross shit stefan was responsible for wrt his relationship with elena, that frankly it has always bothered me never really got addressed in the show. i get why elena herself would never be able to actually call him on it, but the fact is that he stalked her for months after he first saw her and thought she was katherine (meanwhile it only took damon .5 seconds to realize she was someone else entirely, but that’s another topic entirely), and then he deliberately inserted himself into her life because, in his words, ‘i have to know her’. he never gave a thought to how his presence in her life might affect her (or rather, he did, and tormented himself about it in his internal monologue, but never let this actually dissuade him from disrupting her life), and elena would wind up blaming herself for every tragedy that befell her friends and loved ones as a result of getting mixed up in vampire bullshit even though none of it was her fault--she literally blamed herself for existing but most of the fandom didn’t give a fuck about that lmfao--and stefan did shit like find out that she was adopted and then withhold this information from her until she got pissed about another secret he was keeping (her resemblence to katherine) and drop it on her to try and distract her from her very reasonable anger, and like... i should stop before this becomes a whole rant about how much i hate stefan fucking salvatore, but the point is, he did a lot of really sketchy shit he never answered for and elena never really took him to task for, and the fandom just kept eating up his insistence that he was the Good Brother and therefore he deserved to have elena, and if she didn’t want him anymore it was because she was a heinous bitch who didn’t deserve him.

uh.....i think i got off track there. and there’s probably a lot of shit i missed, like i think i was incandescent with rage for most of seasons 5 and 6 so i missed a lot of the interfandom shit cause i was too busy being increasingly pissed off at the show itself, but if nothing else this should give you an idea of how much of a goddamn cesspit the fandom was while the show as in its prime. there’s a reason both the show and the fandom have such a lousy reputation lmfao.

[randomcanbian]

(re: Fandom Meme) B, D, N, P, R, Y ??? (also if you feel like answering T again about anything else pls do (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.) (also let the record know that your first answer was *chef kiss* wonderful and should've been canon imo (╯▽╰ ))

B - A pairing you initially didn’t consider but someone changed your mind

Felix x fem!Byleth from FE3H... I thought it’d be the same as f!Dimileth (the fandom version of it at least) where the man is like ~~ohhhh I’m a monster I’m so broken ahhh I push people away and go on berserker rages because of my tragic backstory~~ and the woman has to be gentle and kind, the epitome of femininity (despite being a mercenary who had been trained to kill since she was 11...), basically put himself above her on so many levels and the onus is on her to ~~fix him~~~...but apparently not??? The fancontent is so gorgeous and has them as equals, both lonely people who’ve had their childhood taken away from them, both who’ve closed themselves off from the world (or in Byleth’s case, has never known how to open herself up to it), both of them seeing themselves in each other, both taking it upon themselves to meet each other half-way and from thereon help each other process their past and walk forward into the future...damn man, the kinship and the partnership in this ship... (also it really helps that 1. Felix is awed at Byleth’s swordsmanship and tactical mind and pushes himself to surpass it, forming a foundation for a healthy rivalry 2. the fandom does not forget that Byleth is her own person and not just Felix’s partner *cough* Dimileth *cough* Edeleth *cough*)

D - A pairing you wish you liked but just can’t

Hmmmm well sometimes I wished (in general) that I could actively ship mlm couples, just because there’s so much content for them :)) (don’t get me started on how fandom gravitates towards male characters and mlm ships...lmao someone way back then gave me the excuse that it’s because the actual creators put more effort into their male characters and that they end up becoming more complex and interesting and like *looks at my fandoms where there are just as many girls as guys, just as interesting (if not more so) backstories and dynamics and interactions for the female characters, looks at the sheer number of mlm shippers in those fandoms who squeeze the most out of every insignificant moment for their male characters while ignoring the depth and complexity of the female characters* sure)

N - Name three things you wish you saw more of in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice)

Glee

1. Fanfic with more “out-there” ideas :)) (Don’t get me wrong, there are fanfics that fall far from Glee’s high school/young adult/modern-coming-of-age setting, and even for fics that do fall under those spheres there are some that deal with complex, intricate themes in such an incredible manner or even if not that are just plain enjoyable but like,,, there aren’t enough for my ever-expanding hunger HAHA)(my last couple of fandoms were dark fantasy/sci-fi/whatever The Good Place is so I guess I just got spoiled lmao)

2. More analytical thinking LMAO I guess it just frustrates me that there are so many people in the fandom who take things at face value??? Given how biased the writers are and how shit they are at continuity it really doesn’t make sense to me that so many people take things so literally haha

3. More fanart unu I totally understand though that the fandom isn’t as big as it once was but a girl can dream, you know?

P - Invent a random AU for any fandom (we always need more ideas)

Something that I had wanted to write for Brittana (since 2012!) but never had the brain cells to: a sailor!AU where the characters live on a flat world and they’re trying to sail towards its edge (encountering so many mythical beasts and legends on the way) (may or may not be inspired by C.S. Lewis’ The Voyage of the Dawn Treader haha)

Special mention to this AU since I've used for at least three fandoms by now haha: Pygmalion&Galatea!AU wherein one character creates a statue and her love for it brings it to life :)))

R - A pairing you ship that you don’t think anyone else ships

LMAO I went through Bae Doona’s body of work (what was available of it at least) in 2015 and ended up shipping her character Park Hyun-nam with her best friend (Yoon Jang-mi) in 플란다스의 개 (Barking Dogs Never Bite)...I wrote a very small ficlet of them (I literally had to create the section for them in ao3...and lmao I just checked and I am still the only fic in there HAHA)(please don’t look for my account btw all my fics are so self-indulgent and atrocious huhu) and I also made this gifset of them :))) As far as I know I am literally the only one in the entire world who ships them HAHA

Similar story for her character Ri Bun-hui in 코리아 (As One)...although honestly if it turns out that a decent number of people have seen this movie I’d be surprised that no one else shipped Bun-hui with Hyun Jung-hwa??? Because they??? Tennis table rivals from North Korea and South Korea who have to team up to win at the Olympics??? Jung-hwa trying to get Bun-hui and her team to loosen up??? Them becoming closer??? When the Olympics are over and the North Korea team have to go home, and Jung-hwa chases after the bus and tries to reach for Bun-hui’s hand, realizing that they might never see each other again??? I??? (Just...I had to make this gifset of their hands: when they first meet each other, when one takes the other’s for comfort, the last time their fingers will ever touch...)(Also let’s ignore that it’s a re-telling of real life event akjsndaskj haha)

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending, about anything at all

(Thank you roseate ;u; I’m glad that you agree and are interested with my headcanons ;o;)

Santana’s a trivia nerd and is the type to deep-dive down Wikipedia pages which is why she makes all those obscure references :))) (Also a more specific version of this headcanon, not something that I’d die defending but like,,, something that I won’t let anyone take away from me lmao is that she’s a TV/movie buff, dabbles in comics (specifically, DC and follows character like Wonder Woman, the Birds of Prey, Poison Ivy/Harleyquinn, Batwoman, and Renee Montoya), and started getting a little into theater/musicals after spending time with Kurt and Rachel :))) She also has a record player back in Lima and has a bunch of vinyl records back home (back in high school she’d play a couple of slow songs and just slow dance with Britt in the privacy of their bedrooms uwu)(imagine this scene and this song playing in the background ;u;)

Y - What are your secondhand fandoms (fandoms you aren’t in personally but are tangentially familiar with because your friends/people on your dash are in them)

BTS, because so many of my friends are KPOP fans

Genshin, also because so many of my friends are into it

魔道祖师 (The Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation) because my close friend fangirls over them so much and we just exchange anecdotes with me and Glee/Fire Emblem and her and TGDC

Critical Role and My Brother, My Brother and Me podcast because my gf is a huge fan of them :))

Not quite there yet, but I am looking forward to having Dostoevsky’s extended universe as a secondhand fandom HAHA

[jellyfax]

So, I kinda got a rebuttal to this ask I had sent to an "anti-shipper." I'm still pretty confused, frustrated, disappointed, and disturbed that a fair number of "anti-shippers" essentially OK’d the statements from Lindsay Ellis shown below. They, rather poorly, attempted to argue that she's not trying to portray all "anti-shippers" as being unreasonable, overly emotional, aggressive pearl clutchers who have their priorities mixed up. Even though that's clearly what she's doing here. She's using the Beetlejuice franchise as an example, a patient zero of sorts, for how "antis" (people critical of positive and romanticized depictions of abuse in media) ruin fandom with what Ellis views as unsolicited antics.

That group of so-called anti shippers also ignored how Ellis shows approval for what she describes as "an asexual couple [that] give off couple vibes." The couple in question are a 12-year-old child (Lydia) and an adult of indeterminate age (Beetlejuice). The implication here is that Ellis views the pair as a romantic couple which should be concerning to supposed antis. Those anti-shippers made no attempt to claim that that would constitute as a pedophilic relationship. And, they didn't seem even the slightest bit disturbed that, at least according to Ellis, the pedophilic ship could be canon to the Beetlejuice cartoon. Albeit, there's no real, hard proof that that's the case, it seems more like wishful thinking on the part of people who ship Lydia and Beetlejuice, but you'd think that anti-shippers would still be alarmed that child grooming and pedophilic child abuse may be being promoted in a children's cartoon.

It stands to reason that if she's fine with the elements of child grooming embedded in a relationship between Beetlejuice and Lydia,  it's not a stretch that she'd be alright with shipping something like Sesshomaru and Rin from Inuyasha. Oddly enough if you really think about it, Beetlejuice x Lydia is arguably worse than Sesshomaru x Rin, because it's rumored to be a canon romantic, "asexual" be dammed, relationship between a pre-pubescent girl and a grown man. Even SessRin doesn't have that kind of baggage because canonical shipping has not occurred between Rin as a child and the young adult Sesshomaru. It's strange that these anti-shippers express more ire towards the least substantiated and comparatively less controversial pairing (SessRin) while the more contentious ship basically gets a slide (Beetlebabe). Needless to say, both pairings represent child grooming in a positive way, so they're both atrocious and it's so bizarre that some antis would be so hesitant to admit that.🤷🏽‍♀️ UPDATE 3/21/2021: In retrospect, SessRin is a much worse pairing as to date it's been canonized in Yashahime. Even so, given her comments, it's safe to say that Lindsay Ellis would definitely think SessRin was fine too.

Then, those antis completely neglected the fact that Ellis presents antis here as mostly newbie fans brought in by recent adaptations and are largely interlopers in decades-old fandoms. Such intruders resist the "ship and let ship" way of elder fans and Ellis is not having it. No matter how unfazed she tries to seem about it, she's obviously very upset by what she believes is new fandom presumably spearheaded by those darn young'uns. What I'm saying is she's giving off noxious levels of fandom mom 'tude here. However, yet again the anti-shippers, some of whom practically wrote essay-length retorts, didn't even mention her clear bias against antis and her favor towards pro-shippers.

Lindsay Ellis isn't just passing overly generalized judgment against anti-shippers in the Beetlejuice fandom, she's applying that judgment to all antis across all fandoms. To defend her statements as an anti is antithetical, contradictory, and even hypocritical. If antis side with Lindsay Ellis on these ideas, it really means that they're going against most of what they claim they stand for. And for what? Ellis has a few good takes, so you won’t oppose her in anyway when it's brought to light that she bears a clear resentment towards people who speak out against media that portrays child grooming as attractive and harmless?

Like, yo she don't like people like you, why ya stanning her? She's not only passing judgment on antis who behave badly, those who harrass, bully, make false claims and are overall very abrasive, she dislikes all antis regardless of behavior. Lindsay Ellis wouldn't consider you one of the "good" antis and she'd never want to side with you over her ilk: pro-shippers. If you're an anti with a blog devoted to anti topics, you better believe she wrote this thread to make you feel like an unwanted, purity policing intruder in fan spaces. Geez, also the fact that these "anti-shippers" are pretty tolerant of fans shipping children characters with adult characters is unnerving in how incongruous it is. "When big media corporations OK positive depictions of child grooming it's totally bad, but if fans do it, those depictions don't really affect anyone or anything. Fan-made media, especially if it's easily and publicly accessible as well as prevalent, exists in a vacuum and bears no weight on how we view and interact with our world! Anti-shippers and pro-shippers can all just coexist, guys!!!"🤦🏽‍♀️ On second thought, maybe ~anti anti fandom moms~ like Ellis would be cool with you, since you give them so much leeway. I swear, this isn't the first time I've encountered antis that are this hypocritical and backpedal on their stances, and it won't be the last.

I had also mentioned how Lindsay Ellis's defense of the Twilight Saga greatly downplayed and even omitted core criticisms of the franchise like it's racism, misogyny, and child grooming in favor of only stressing how backlash against Twilight was due to misogyny directed at the writer and fanbase. Unsurprisingly, the anti-shippers dismissed that claim without much thought despite that being an ongoing issue prevalent in many assessments of the Twilight franchise.

Anyway, if you're critical of positive and romanticized depictions of abuse in media (both mainstream and fan-made), maybe don't stan or defend Lindsay Ellis. Especially when she makes "anti anti" comments like that shown below

[bookishable]

harry potter opinions

not all of these are unpopular

dumbledore should have been in slytherin

the only reason people ship dramione is because they think the actors are good looking, if the characters had been played by actors who aren’t conventionally attractive people wouldn’t ship them

draco and hermione are just not compatible at all

fred’s death was the worst one

the golden trio belong in gryffindor because they use the traits they have from other houses in order to be brave (harry has ambition to survive and a strong sense of self-preservation, ron’s loyalty helps him defend others “if you want to kill harry you’ll have to kill us too”, yeah thanks for ruining that movies, and hermione often uses her intelligence to find solutions and work a way out of a situation)

kreacher is more likeable than dobby

on balance the order of the phoenix is the worst film

i agree that the sorting system should be based on the traits you value most not the ones you have, and if this is canon then it should have been made clearer in the books

snape is not a good person but one of the best characters

it’s pointless to compare james and snape to figure out who is a worse person they had totally opposite lives

slughorn is a better example of a flawed but good character/person than snape

luna embodies ravenclaw house more than any other character

it sucks that ravenclaw has only luna as good character representation, we had cho who became a bigger character, but so many people in the fandom hate her and her relationship with harry ended badly from his pov

harry potter is the most underrated character in harry potter which is a crime

kreacher’s tale should have been in the films

percy, fred, george and ron could all have fitted in slytherin fight me

the best portrayed character in the films was snape

most of the hogwarts professors were also very accurate to the books and well acted, especially mcgonagall, sprout, lockhart, flitwick and madame pomfrey (although she should have had more lines from the books)

oh and also filch

daniel radcliffe looked most like harry potter in prisoner of azkaban

charlie and ginny fit in gryffindor the most out of all the weasleys

ravenclaws are probably the ones who procrastinate the most

peter pettigrew is such an interesting character

dean thomas needs more appreciation

ron and hermione are simultaneously the best couple and the most annoying couple

pettigrew should be viewed as a true marauder not just someone who tagged along with the other three because that’s what made his betrayal so terrible

regulus black deserved better

fleur delacour is underrated but i’m glad to see she’s starting to get more appreciation now

i could write a 300 page essay on how amazing harry and ron’s friendship is

it annoys me when people make harry potter as vines videos and just stick the name padfoot over any video of a dog even if it has no relation to sirius

most of harry’s escapes were due to luck and i love that he acknowledges that

but this doesn’t make him any less brave or skilled

the deathly hallows is the best book

the idea that mary poppins is a witch is more canon than hogwarts being a school (which isn’t saying much because honestly the only thing the students learnt there was that they lived in close proximity to several things that could kill them)

dumbledore is a better person than everyone makes him out to be

aberforth dumbledore is underrated

the best house pairing is slytherin and hufflepuff

harry should have named his children sirius, remus and ruby (rubeus), but i totally get why he used his parents and dumbledore’s names even though i can’t accept severus or luna

i still love harry and luna’s friendship and i guess since ginny was close friends with her too they both chose her name

jk rowling is not a bad person, yes she has done some controversial things, but people should be more appreciative of the world she created and how she encouraged generations of children to read

harry and hermione’s friendship is so precious

i love ron because he is a realistic character and a great guy

the crimes of grindelwald should have been named ‘the rise of grindelwald’

people need to stop complaining about characters being portrayed as poc in fan art, these artists dedicate their time to creating something and it’s their choice how they interpret the characters

also i’m sure lots of artists don’t design them this way just to encourage diversity, it can simply be a stylistic choice and some probably just prefer to draw them this way

not all slytherins are obsessed with the colour green omg

same applies to the other houses and their house colours, i just see the slytherin one more frequently

voldemort’s movie death is atrocious

but cool use of cgi i guess

ginny and ron were ruined by the films but not the actors

so was the entire weasley family a little

arthur and bill should have been in ravenclaw

molly should have been in hufflepuff

the whole “calmly“ thing doesn’t really annoy me, but i do think that dumbledore was too angry generally in the fourth film (maybe this was purposeful for the character i just prefer book dumbledore)

this leads to my conclusion that goblet of fire is the second worst film

i actually liked crimes of grindelwald, but i thought the first film was better because it was quite different to the harry potter series

however,, even though cog was very plot heavy, bear in mind that they are setting up for 3 more films. the first has to be simpler to set the scene and kick off the franchise, just like philosopher’s stone. the next film will naturally have more to it. it was dark because grindelwald played a bigger part. this is just like the chamber of secrets film (a lot of people dislike it) which was also plot heavy and had a different feel to it. people need to give it time, there’s 3 more films

jk rowling needs to write a new children’s book with a new universe to harry potter, and leave the harry potter franchise alone after fbawtft. it’s fine as it is. she still has the talent to create something great

the books are infinitely better than the films

even though i disagree that all the weasleys belong in gryffindor, i support the idea that they all have the same values and would probably choose to be sorted into gryffindor over the other houses

[ravenqueen89]

of love and other sordid tales

it’s a 2 in 1 day, y’all!!

i was waiting to post this to make sure that the amazing and gorgeous @agentkatie would see it and be happy with it first, seeing as it’s her Patreon July reward. i’ve wanted to give this pairing a try for a while, and hopefully it worked out.

Fandom: Dragon Age Inquisition (post-Cory defeat, pre-Trespasser)

Title: Of Love and Other Sordid Tales

Pairing: Dorian Pavus/Iron Bull

Rating: Mature

Summary: Dorian believes they both initially expected it to be a one-time thing, until it wasn’t. He kept coming back, and the Bull kept inviting no one else, and so it became routine - an extremely fun routine, to be sure, but nevertheless a constant.

Notes: I really hope I avoided the pitfalls I hate reading when it comes these two. No dialogue, really, just a small intimate moment.

Word count: 736

They’re not good at this.

They’re extremely good in bed in a way that constantly borders on the obscene, matching in ways that Dorian had never expected, but they unfortunately also match in what Evelyn once referred to as ’extreme lack of emotional maturity’ after one too many drinks of maraas-lok.

Dorian supposes it makes sense, considering their backgrounds, but he doesn’t like dwelling on self-analysis. The insights he has regarding his own behaviour and reactions are all Evelyn’s fault, he’s sure.

They’re not good at this, but they fall into it the same way they fell into bed that first night: much too easily. Dorian believes they both initially expected it to be a one-time thing, until it wasn’t. He kept coming back, and the Bull kept inviting no one else, and so it became routine - an extremely fun routine, to be sure, but nevertheless a constant.

Dorian also expected the sheen of it to wear off once his hunger was sated, but it simply kept growing, untamed and uncontrolled, which were also words that could be used to describe how he behaved in bed. His need to be touched only grew the more he was touched. His thirst for the freedom of bliss grew the more he tasted it, the more he felt safe enough to give in, to feel, to be overwhelmed.

When Dorian thinks about it, in those languorous, decadent moments after they’ve both managed to tire each other out, he can admit to himself that there has been nothing casual about this thing between them.

They’re not good at this, though. They communicate plenty to each other with their bodies, but talking about something like this? Dorian can’t imagine either of them have confronted that before.

The word spills out easily, like it holds no implications, right after the end of Corypheus, when all Inquisition matters have been suspended. Dorian is curled into Bull, his hand drawing idle shapes along Bull’s arm, Bull’s hand on his hip, proprietary in a way they both enjoy, his eye heavy-lidded with sleep.

When Dorian’s hand moves to trace one of Bull’s horns, Bull makes a low sound that causes a flush to break out all over Dorian, that makes his grip tighten on Bull’s horn at the same time Bull’s grip tightens on his hip.

Bull claims Dorian’s mouth with the usual amount of fervour that’s guaranteed to make Dorian’s heart stutter in his chest, and then he says it, lets it fall between them like it’s the thousandth time, kadan, fanning out over Dorian’s skin.

Dorian’s mind stutters like his heart, and all he can do is hold on with all the strength he can muster. Bull is watching Dorian in that open way he reserves only for him, that open way that makes any coherent thought Dorian could ever have fly right out into the mountains. He looks at Dorian like Dorian is everything, and Dorian never knows if his face communicates the same amount of intensity, because it’s reciprocated, and he wants that to be known.

Dorian knows some words in Qunlat, which is a fact Bull is aware of, a fact he can’t have forgotten. He knows this specific word well, having encountered it in one of Cassandra’s atrocious smutty books. He knows the meaning, knows the importance, knows that Bull knows.

They’re not good at this. They haven’t built up to this.

Bull pulls Dorian closer, and Dorian is more and more aware of how debauched he must look and how little he cares about looking vulnerable in front of Bull, but he can’t say anything, his usual bright mind faltering.

The thumb on his hip is drawing soothing circles over the skin, over the bone, and Dorian feels strangely serene, as if he’s used to this, as if he’s been in this situation before.

The extended silence gives Bull the advantage, and he sits up only enough to reach Dorian’s ear and says it, says it all, voice deep and warm, his breath on Dorian’s neck first, then his lips.

Dorian doesn’t know what to say so he holds on, holds on as hard as he can, his famished lips mapping Bull’s shoulder without rhyme or reason.

In the end he says the only thing he can, amatus, and the panic he expected never materialises, so he laughs, and laughs, free and loved and safe.