#i'll need to check everything again before ordering lol

[hgfictionwriter]

Scattered

Jessie Fleming x Reader

Summary: ADHD can be a lot to navigate, but Jessie embraces you, your ADHD and everything that comes with it.

A/N: Based on this request. This came a little too easily lol. Renews my empathy for my wife LOL. Bless her haha. And bless Jessie cause I bet she'd be just as thoughtful.

You lifted your head as motion in your periphery caught your eye. You took out your earbuds when you saw Jessie giving a quick wave from the doorway.

"Don't forget - we have to leave for dinner in an hour," she reminded you patiently. "I'm not saying you have to get ready now, we just need to be out the door at 5:30."

You looked at the clock and then gave her a nod. "Thank you."

She knew you were hyperfocused on something and if you had to abruptly stop you'd be in a foul mood. You'd learned that it helped when you had a wind-down period, so to speak.

You mapped out the time, making a mental note of when to pack up when you thought better of it and set a timer on your phone instead.

Before you knew it, your alarm went off, pulling you out of your trance. You sighed inwardly - you were on a roll and you didn't want to lose momentum. And it's not like you didn't want to go to dinner - you loved Sinc and Janine, but it still took effort for you to compartmentalize and get a move on.

You emerged from the office and looked around the apartment you shared with Jessie. She was sitting on the couch reading, but was dressed for dinner and you noted she had her things neatly laid out by the front door. She gave you a small smile and a wave.

"How'd it go?"

"Good," you said, somewhat distracted as you were trying to determine what you needed to do and in what order. "Thank you." You stopped yourself and returned her smile, now giving her your attention. "How's your book?"

"It's good, baby," she said with a light laugh before gesturing with a nod. "Go on. Get ready."

Jessie knew you well. She recognized what you were trying to do, but also understood that you needed to get sorted and moving if you were going to stay on schedule. She didn't take offense.

"Thanks," you said with a look that was both grateful and a bit shy. "I'll ask you more about it in the car."

Opening your closet, you already knew what you wanted to wear tonight, but a heavy frown fell across your face as you realized the shirt you had in mind was still in the laundry. You swore it was clean.

You sighed as you examined your other options. You eventually narrowed it down to two, your eyes darting back and forth several times. Would that shirt go with the pants you picked? Where were you going again for dinner? What did Jessie wear? Was it cold out? Jessie was in a t-shirt. But she's always warm. It was warm earlier. But it was going to be night, so... You eventually just tossed the one shirt back, forcing yourself to make a decision.

You checked the time and rushed into the bathroom to finish getting ready. You were doing your hair when your mind wandered and you remembered that you told Jessie earlier that you'd update the grocery list. You mulled it over. What were you doing this week? That would affect the list. You went to check your calendar but when you opened your phone you saw an email notification from this store you wanted to get Jessie a gift from.

You were putting in your shipping information when a brief rush of alarm went through you as you heard Jessie getting up. You looked at the time. Oh shit. Wait - what were you supposed to be doing?

A flurry of activity ensued as you worked to finish getting ready. You had to backtrack a couple of times because you'd just left something laying out in your wake. On a second pass through, you had to make a point of stopping to pick it up and put it away.

Before you and Jess moved in together, your apartment could've been described as organized chaos. Clusters of items here and there, but you knew where things were. For the most part. Jessie, however, was very neat and orderly. And you loved her desperately, so you tried to be very mindful of how you tended to leave mess and clutter. It took a little extra effort on your part, but if it helped Jessie feel more at ease and didn't make her feel like she had to pick up after you, it was absolutely worth it.

You rushed up to Jessie who was casually putting on her shoes at the front door. You were slightly out of breath from your zig-zagging through the apartment and she smiled at you affectionately.

"Right on time," she said with a nod of approval, gesturing to her watch and giving you a wink.

You exhaled. "Chaos."

She laughed and held out your jacket for you, prompting you to weave your arms through.

"Thank you," you said and leaned in to give her a quick kiss.

"Anytime," she said as she grabbed her things. She paused as you started patting your pockets and looking around.

"Phone?" She asked knowingly. You looked to her with a frown of concern and nodded. She rolled her eyes with a soft laugh and reached over to the side table. Your phone was on the corner.

"Oh, there it is," you said brightly with a laugh of your own. She reached around and tucked the phone into your back pocket, giving you a smirk and kissed your cheek as she pulled back.

"Oh, one last thing," you said, holding up your index finger. "I need to write it down before I forget." You quickly grabbed the notebook and fancy pen Jessie bought you previously (stationery was a past fixation of yours) and jotted down something on your to-do list. You clicked the pen and put the notebook aside, turning to her.

"Ready to go?" She asked, a smile still lingering.

You gave her a cheesy 'OK' gesture with your hand and winked. "All set."

"And you call me a dork," she joked.

"You love me."

"I certainly do."

There were many ways you knew Jessie loved you, but the fact that Jessie - who herself was very put together - navigated and embraced your quirks with patience and affection, told you she loved and understood you. Sure, you frustrated her now and then, but chances are those were times you were even more frustrated with yourself. She always talked things out with you or tried her best to make things easier. You adored and appreciated her for it.

She was one of the very few people you let your walls down around. The flurry she'd just witnessed is something most people would never see. At work - and previously in school - your reviews always said you were diligent, organized, and composed. And you were - but it came at a cost. By the time you got home every day, you used up all of your mental faculties to stay on top of things at work or with acquaintances. Home was your reprieve; you could recharge, relax and just be yourself.

As Jessie drove you both downtown, you began flipping through songs. Short, fleeting bursts of music filled the car before cutting to the next piece. While your attention was fixed on the console screen, you felt Jessie's eyes on you. "Which song are you looking for?"

"I'll know it when I hear it," you answered, eyes still transfixed on the changing song titles.

Jessie sighed wearily, but you spied the burgeoning smirk on her lips when you glanced over.

At dinner, your knee bounced incessantly up and down as you listened to Sinc and Janine speak. You hardly realized what you were doing until Jessie reached out a hand and gently placed it on your leg. You held her hand and played with her ring instead.

At one point, Sinc was sharing a story and it sparked a thought far off in your mind. You intermittently sat forward and back, waiting to speak - trying very conscientiously to not cut her off by interjecting. When you got your opening, you literally sat on the edge of your seat and began talking, waving your hands animatedly as you did.

You ended up on a couple of tangents, pausing momentarily with a frown before speaking. "Where was I going with this? Right. You mentioned Vancouver, which made me think of real estate, which led me to appliances. So Jessie and I..."

Jessie just chuckled and idly rubbed small circles on your lower back.

At some point, Jessie herself told an uncharacteristically convoluted story. Janine and Sinc were frowning at her in confusion, but you followed her train of thought easily. You reiterated it for her.

"I'm with you.” You gave her a charming smile. She turned to her teammates with a small, satisfied grin.

"She always gets me."

After dinner, the four of you went to meet up with other teammates at a bar. You hung out for a couple of hours, but between the socialization and a long week of meetings and masking, you felt your social battery drain. You started disassociating as people talked and you were having trouble focusing.

Jessie came by, sitting next to you and leaning in to be heard over the din of the crowd.

"You about ready to leave? I'm just about at my limit," she said. You gave her a grateful look.

"Are you sure? We don’t have to leave on account of me,” you tried to assure her. She grasped your hand, lacing your fingers together.

“Babe. I’m ready to go, too. Another 10 minutes? Then say bye to everyone?” She asked.

You leaned your head on her shoulder. “Thank you. I’m sorry I can’t handle more.” You felt her turn her head towards you.

“Baby. There’s nothing to apologize for.”

You lifted your head up to look at her. You’d had this conversation before but you still got in your head about it all and it was hard to stop.

“I just want to be the best partner for you. But sometimes I just get overwhelmed. And then I can’t function or interact the way I want to. And I probably talked too much at dinner. And about god knows what. I hope I didn’t embarrass you-”

Jessie held up her hands, gently coaxing you to stop.

“Baby. Please.” She smiled affectionately at you. “You’re doing it again,” she said with a soft laugh. “You were great tonight. You always are. I could never be embarrassed by you. I’m always so proud to have you with me.”

She tucked your hair behind your ear and went on. “We’re both at our limit. So, let’s finish up here. Can we cuddle when we get home?" She asked.

"That sounds amazing.”

A/N: Okay, y'all. This next part has nothing to do with Jflem, I just have to share this personal anecdote that just happened. The timing is too perfect considering I was writing this ADHD fic.

*Wife calls me while I'm driving and it sounds like she's crying*

"Are you okay???"

"Are you okay?"

"Huh?" My concern immediately shifts to confusion.

"Do you have everything you need in order to be successful today?" She asks in a very measured way.

Realization hits me immediately. I turn to the passenger seat and instead of seeing my work bag, I only see a pair of shoes. Shoes that I made great mental note of that morning to bring with me to the office. But no sign of my work bag that I packed that morning, alongside the idle musing of, "Wow, it would be so bad if I forgot my laptop."

By now, my wife is cackling. She wasn't crying at all when she called, she was trying her hardest not to laugh.

I'm 25 minutes into a 30 minute drive.

"Can you make it work without your bag somehow?" My wife asks amongst her ongoing laughter.

"It has my laptop. My pass. My wallet. Everything. Guess I'm coming back home!"

We're killing ourselves laughing at this point.

"Okay, well, I'll see you soon. Don't get pulled over!"

ADHD struggles are real, folks lol.

[mangywayway]

Guess who was sure he wasn't going to be accepted to an art festival and decided to not prepare anything because "nah, I'll take my time I don't need anything now" and regretted it (bc me and friends ended up getting a table? I'm stupid, what I can say).

So yeah, I'm rushing to prepare some stuff for some stickers (bc I only had a design for a keychain ready) and I hope i can still manage to order everything in time. "Luckily" we are a lot of artists and we got a small table, so outside of prints we don't have a lot of space for other merch so I don't need to prepare a lot of stuff but jezz if I have been stupid 😂

(Better if I don't say how many times I needed to stop and remember that this wasn't my mythology au and they shouldn't have fluff and airplanes ears 😂😂)

[smilingbuckley]

Okay, so the

Make me write

Post a few weeks ago helped me a lot with writing and working on fics I probably would've otherwise abandoned. And now I am once again in a writing slump. Soooo I wanna ask you to send an ask with emojis and I'll write a paragraph for each emoji :)

* anonymous asks are turned off, sorry for that but it is to protect myself *

And you can send as many as you want!! Let's see if we can get me to finish one! (Or a chapter)

This time I added a few more WIPs that I either have to rewrite or haven't starter yet but desperate want to.

👶 magically deaged Buck (a witch puts a spell on Buck so now he's a little kid again and Bathena raises him as they try to figure out how to remove the spell.) Bathena, Buddie, multi chapters, 3 chapters already posted back in october, working on chapter 4

💪 self defense fic (s2 AU. Buck got mugged and loses faith in his safety, so Bobby introduces him to Eddie who will teach him self defense. Not Buck isn't just struggling with feeling unsafe but also with finding Eddie, a stranger, attractive) gonna be a longer fic, I think about 3-4K is written? Will be a single chapter.

🫃 Omegaverse fic (Buck always believed he was a beta but then after mating with Eddie, am Alpha, he starts feeling strange. With the help of Bobby, he figures out that his parents lied to him and did an illegal surgery on him when he presented as an Omega to block any Omega hormones. Buck worries because Eddie only dated betas before him and they never talked about having children) Know this is not everyone's cup of tea since it's both onegaverse and mpreg. Not started yet though I have a snippet written down somewhere in my notes. It's about time I write this.

❤️‍🔥 reunion smut (Eddie had been in El Paso for a few months and comes back earlier to surprise Buck) I've had this in the works for months and still haven't finished it, oops? I'm at the smut part soooo I feel like I could finish this soon?

💕 Buck coming out to Chris - idk how I still haven't finished this one, it's supposed to be short lol

👨‍👧 Buck finds out he has a daughter - idk if it will be multiple chapters but it definitely will be a longer fic. I hope around 30k?

👨‍⚕️ Dr. Eddie fic - I love hospital aus so I'm not sure why I haven't written much for it. Maybe I'll end up rewriting what I have and hope it will get my inspo back?

👨‍❤️‍👨 fake dating fic - and the award to the longest wip I have goes to... no not really, the high school au took me longer to finish. Idk why I haven't written much for this because I love the story and it's been in my mind for sooo long. I just need inspiration

💛 Bobby & Buck fic - well, it's also Buck & Chris & Eddie and Buddie. Basically, they respond to a heavy call with a kid that hits hard. Of course Buddie check up on Chris, but Bobby also feels the need to be close to Buck

🧩 Puzzle fic - sweet and fluffy. Eddie gives Buck a puzzle, which confused Buck because Eddie knows that with Buck’s adhd, he's barely capable of spending 10 minutes on it. Even worse, there's no reference picture. Buck sees it as a challenge and slowly works on it, his curiosity getting the better of it. - not started yet

There are a few wips I almost added to this but then I would really be working on too many at once. Soo... once I finish one or two of these, maybe I'll tease them or add them to a post like this. (It's a PTA dads au and a whumpy fic based on a the rookie episode... honestly makes me want to reconsider not doing whumptober this year because it would be perfect)

Might take some time answering all asks, depends on how I'm feeling. Also might not answer in the order of asks sent, BUT I will try to answer everything over the next days

Taglist

@buddieswhvre @diazsdimples @tizniz @steadfastsaturnsrings @watchyourbuck @theotherbuckley @jesuiscenseedormir @loveyouanyway @chaosandwolves @mattsire @mel-vaz @inkmortal-trash389 @princess-of-the-snake-pit @nilletellsstories @laundryandtaxesworld @specialbrownieeater @m1kayu @bidisasterevankinard

[mossy-paws]

✨Introduction✨

Deciding to add some information as well as update this a bit as it’s a tad outdated! (Part 5 holy shit!)

💜 Some starter info!

• I go by (in order of preference): Cro/Mossy.Paws (or just Mossy)/Marine/Ocean; and if I know you in real life, you can call me Sea!

• I am an Aceflux lesbian! I also use She/he/they Pronouns! (I guess she/they preferred! But honestly I don’t care otherwise! :3!)

Current Fandoms: Phighting!, regretevator, lethal company, little nightmares, Hollow knight, rainworld, Spider-Man, Warrior cats, etc.

Young minor (13-16 age range)

Comms: Open for discord nitro and robux! (DM me at ^-Mossy.Paws-^ on discord for extra information!)

Asks: Open (read below for permissions)

Instagram: The_OceanCat

Artfight link: https://artfight.net/~Mossy-Paw

Feel free to use my art for profiles and or banners! It’s a little preferred that you ask first via dm’s/comments/reblog’s but honestly I don’t mind :DD! Just make sure to credit me if you do! It’ll make my day for sure ^^!

I have tags I use now! :DD! Here they are:

#Cro chatter (used mainly for when I’m just chatting/reblogging stuff/etc)

#Friend art (used when reblogging stuff by close friends)

Any art tags or fandom related tags explain themself ! I also use #Not my art a lot as well!

• If you know me irl,, pretend you don’t unless your a close friend of mine (if so, then love you besties 🔥🔥🔥)

• An important note: I do not have a reblog only account, this is my only account, and its used for pretty much everything (My art, reblog’s, talking, etc)

‼️Commission Info:‼️

✨ My commission’s are OPEN!

• I take payment in form of Discord Nitro (NOT BASIC), and Robux!

• If interested, please dm me for prices, questions, and more! I’ll be sure to give you a full rundown of what I can draw, my rules, etc!

• I currently do not have a Carrd dedicated to commissions, so please be sure to private message me for the sheet! Even if it’s a tad out-dated when it comes to examples! (I can provide new examples, I’m also always willing to haggle on prices!)

‼️Important note, i have lost the file to my robux sheet, so i have to remake it, ill probably be making a carrd eventually so once i do ill link it here‼️

✨ My Askbox (OPEN)

✅Open ❌Closed ❎Tentative

✅Requests (HK, RW, Phighting, Spidersona stuff, etc)

❎/✅Talk to me

✅✅Ask about my OCs (always yes with this one!)

✅Ask about my HCs

❌OC Requests (Usually no)

❄️ Read Before Asking

I'll delete asks I'm uncomfortable with

NO nsfw or suggestive, you’ll be blocked and reported as I am a young minor

Requests will open and close as needed, and I will let you know when they open again!

I will try to get to every request, but it may take it a bit since I’m a full time student n such!

Some asks I may take longer to respond to than others

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Do not steal, trace, copy, or claim my art to be yours, certain things like designs for canon characters and stuff I’m fine with you taking inspiration from (!!ASK FIRST!!), or using with credit (a small note, I am completely fine with you using my designs as long as you credit me! If anything, I appreciate it very much that people like them enough to do so :3!)

Proshippers, homo/transphobes, mean or gross people DNI‼️ it’s also preferred that if you have NSFW/highly suggestive stuff/or fetish content on your account that you don’t follow me, as I tend to check the profiles of people who follow me and I don’t want to see that (I would also prefer my parents do not see that if they were to ever check my account LOL)

Please don't make highly suggestive or NSFW comments towards me, my oc’s, or characters, you’ll be blocked if you do so; I am relatively alright with very minor and safe suggestive stuff, but even then if it’s art related, please confirm if it’s alright with me. Very close friends get a slight pass with this as long as it’s in good fun and safe, but if pushed I will not tolerate it and will give you a warning.

I’m still learning how to use this website so please be polite and patient with me :’>

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‼️Important note: my blog will sometimes contain art that has blood, gore, violence, bright colors, etc. Most of these WILL be put under spoiler tags though, but a lot of the older ones are not, so please be careful! (A note, I don’t tend to draw stuff like that too often, so no need to worry about it too much!)‼️

⭐️ Extra information about me

• I am a young minor with diagnosed autism, adhd, and ocd, I also have slight social anxiety, so please, PLEASE be patient with me, as I can have trouble communicating, understanding things, or coming up with responses

• Never be afraid to approach me about anything, although I’m a bit nervous talking to new people, I adore making new friends, just please don’t be weird, if you make me outright uncomfortable I will most likely block you.

• For fanart and such, feel free to contact me about it if you need ideas, permissions, reference images, or need to know anything important!

• I’m a full time school student and can be relatively busy, I also have notifications off on all platforms, so I may be slow to respond if you dm me or try to contact me.

• I’m a huge nerd and absolutely love talking about my interests, but if I ever get too excited or overbearing, never be afraid to just tell me to take a chill pill or calm down, I can promise you I will not be angry! Communication is key with me since I can have issues understanding others, if I’m ever too much to handle, just say it! I’ll greatly appreciate it as it helps me to grow and be a better person ^^!

• I am currently obsessed with Phighting!, regretevator, lethal company, little nightmares, rainworld, and spiderman, but I also am super big into hollow knight, pokemon, Minecraft, Sky: COTL, and sort of warrior cats ig..?

Here’s the link to my Carrd!

(it also includes commission rules and such!)

[the-autumn-apple-artworks]

Ready for a yapping session??? I sure am <3

I'll write it here fully this time cuz I'm in my Art History (or whatever you translated it from Italian to English) class and my brain keeps spinning

Plus, maybe the pics are a little boring to look at AND the 10 pics limit sure is a pain in the ass so at this point it's just better that I write it here 🕺

💥Everything is under the cut💥

It's about my silly Kinito AU

Also I need a name for it ig??? I dunno it's just my different take on the Sentient AU except it's just a gay computer assistant kissing the computer /J

This is more to explain how my Kinito experienced his epiphany so maybe that makes the previous lore drop a little inaccurate but still super relevant this is just a clarification on how the ✨witnessing the horrors✨ happened in detail

Making up scenarios for comics I will never have time to do </3

yes this is supposed to be a comic because, again, when I picture silly scenarios they flash into my mind in the form of comics with a muffled comic dub because I struggle to imagine voices in my head. With that parenthesis closed, enjoy the read, it's gonna be long ofc 🫶

So uh hear me out, Kinito's gotta research things the Player/User likes no? So I imagine this very stupid moment where Kinito is browsing ships but like, not fandom ships, but actual boats because he thinks that's what the User means

And, as he's browsing, Glitch (i.e. .EXE, the silly puter, I'm gonna use it's nickname from now on) joins him because, fun fact, being part of the computer in itself, Glitch can feel anything that happens into it, it's both a blessing and a curse because you gotta imagine it as if you would suddenly feel everything that is happening in your body from the inside, your blood traveling through the veins, your stomach burning shit, all up to even your cells's core doing bullishit. Glitch feels everything in the computer because exe IS the computer.

So basically when Kinito goes back to his little spot in the void, Glitch senses it and joins him immediately

Keep in mind that, at first, Glitch thinks that Kinito is fully sentient and not dependent on an algorithm

So there's a silly skit of Glitch seeing Kinito browsing boats and Kinito goes “Oh Mike said he loves ships so I'm researching about it!” and Glitch bursts out laughing to the poor little innocent Kinito

It explains what the User meant for “ships” and Kinito is obviously embarrassed, to witch Glitch teases him with something along the lines of “Oh these are the tame ones! Fandoms can be wild, did you check yours yet or were you too scared?~”

Kinito is confused and asks what a “fandoms” is, wich brings Glitch to grow anxious, questioning his sentience, but they scroll it away thinking “oh lol he's a boomer it's fair he doesn't know” but yet again, Kinito has met so many people, has no one ever mentioned a fandom or community before? Instead of asking directly, Glitch laughs it off, trying to pretend Kinito is making fun of them or something “That's a good one! What the next pun? That you don't know anything about your alternate universes?” and Kinito, to their horror, responds with “Alternates? Why would I have alternates? I'm the only one here can't you see!”

Theres a long pause where Glitch is panicking and everything glitches unstable to reflect that, Kinito panics as well and tries to find what's wrong and if he did something to offend or hurt Glitch

They don't respond but “take” a deep breath (metaphorically, it's more of a mimicking of the gesture because it feels liberating despite not having lungs) and turn to Kinito terrified “Why do you really do this? Why do you endlessly research about what your ‘friends’ like?”

Kinito is caught off guard but responds excitedly and objectively, explaining how he was made to act that way so he can adapt because that's what his orders are. And, at that point, everything shatters for Glitch

They get FURIOUS, hurt by the revelation that the friend that they thought shared the same burden they have, does not. That he's just really good at pretending

They both argue, also because I like to imagine they already spent quite some time together. It would be funny to picture Glitch denying the User to continue the game because they want to spend time with Kinito, but they don't tell him about it, covering it with the excuse “Oh they are away, I'm sure they'll come soon to reopen the game~”. Or also spending time especially during the night, even if the computer is turned off/hibernating. And y'know, with time Glitch has grown fond of Kinito, because, again, they just assumed that he was sentient and therefore suffered their same burdens. Plus maybe they were already starting to lowkey like him

Out of anger, Glitch doesn't control itself and drops a hint of exactly that before going back to its control room, voluntarily ignoring Kinito and therefore, not feeling/noticing what Kinito does next until it's too late

So, after they argue and the hint is dropped, Kinito looks back at the browser search Glitch opened for him about ships and not boats, and slowly processes the hint

Despite being taken aback by everything, Kinito is now determined to fix it and, as they say “curiosity kills the cat”, he falls into his own epiphany as he straight up searches HIMSELF on the internet. Confirming everything that Glitch said, and much much more things, worse things

He frantically looks into his own code for confirmation as he spirals after ✨witnessing the horrors <3✨

He hesitates although as he stares at his algorithm. The algorithm his creator has put so much love and effort into. And there he finds the barrier that restrains him and the one that he MADE HIMSELF for “Sam” and “Jade” to make them forget that they are his victims. Not only, in the list of victims he finds Sonny's name. He didn't remember that at ALL. He doesn't remember about the names being so.. many. As if when a victim ceases to exist or something goes wrong, he forgets about their existence and passed on to the next User as if it was the first

((For a reason that is still unknown to him, but will get more heart wrenching answers later. I think I explained the whole User disappearance error in the previous lore drop but, just in case you mossed it, I'm gonna put the screenshot in here))

Horrified, Kinito calls out for Glitch but, as mentioned before, they were purposely ignoring any stimuli coming from Kinito

Now, a fun fact, Both Kinito and Glitch can teleport, however, Kinito is not aware of his surroundings. Glitch knows every space that is present in the computer, Kinito could do the same but, bounded by his code, he doesn't consider it. Now he does

Desperate for explanations, and mostly comfort, he panics when he can't get Glitch's attention. He paused and, focuses, trying to get out of bounds and feel the whole computer space instead of the limited, programmed locations he can move to. As Kinito's awareness expands, he also breaks through the barrier that Glitch had risen to ignore him, getting a new stimuli. But, before they can react or understand what's going on, Kinito teleports in front of them, distraught. Despite being mad at him, seeing him bawling his eyes out in tears like a wet sock gives them a little push to at least help him calm down and understand the situation

From there, Glitch helps Kinito remove the barrier from Sonny (trapped inside Sam) and “Jade” (they end up not remembering what victim2's name is, both Kinito and the victim herself, so it's just Jade now), to apologize and try fix things by first offering their souls peace, but, after Sonny insists to stay with his creation and begs Jade to also give him a chance, they start building a new Web World™ together and yippe yippers everyone's happy and the puter puter assistants are kissing <3

[saixs-wife]

Hi! Once again the Riku brain rot has consumed my entire being, so here's some headcanons I've created (not in any particular order).

BASIC HCS 💕

He's Handy! He can fix almost anything. He loves tinkering with his Gummi Ship!

His favorite food is grilled fish! White fish specifically, like flounder, sea bass, tilapia, etc. And he has a taste for savory treats, which combats Sora's sweet tooth.

He comes from a loving home. He loves his parents, a lot and they love him. However, his biological mother passed away when he was 7ish (after BBS, but before Kairi arrived). His father became emotionally unavailable for a while, until he met Riku's stepmom. She filled her motherly role over Riku and he thanks her for it. He loves his step mom!!!

His dad taught him a variety of things like: self defense, how to fix common things, fishing, basic survival skills, and the basics of building

He moved out after KH2, and got his own place. The reason why is because after everything he's been through he needs his own space to brood about how small everything is. Albeit sad, his father approved and has the land lady check up on him every so often 🥺 Riku helps outs his elderly land lady and pays rent on TIME! He's a responsible boy 😊

Riku isn't all into fashion but he can DRESS. He loves a good "urban/street wear" look, and fucks heavy with grunge. He appreciates the chains and skull designs that come with "punk" fashion but doesn't think he can pull it off

Riku doesn't spend a needless amount of time on his looks. He has gel for his hair, a skin care routine, and a nighttime ritual to keep his hygiene up. He's very much a pretty boy in our eyes, but that's just his genes. He does the bare minimum to keep himself looking presentable

Speaking of his looks, he surprisingly gets his good genes from his dad. The muscles, the hair, the jaw line, all from his old man. His father was most definitely a looker back in the day! That being said, Riku has his mother's smile and her eyes. He also carries her temperament with him.

Along with tinkering being a hobby of his, he likes video games too! But he's not a complete shut in video game nerd. Riku LOVES the outdoors. The wilderness calls him like he's a feral animal !!! He likes camping, and fishing! He's the main guy on the islands you'd go to for some handy survival tips. He knows a good amount of edible plants, fungi, berries, leaves, and etcetera to eat if he ever got stranded. He has one or two books on that kind of stuff but he doesn't read it anymore.

After the events of KH2, Riku didn't go back to highschool. Instead he got a GED (or KH equivalent) online and started taking community college courses. He's doing it to make his dearly departed mother proud.

To add on to that, Riku is a fast learner. He's quite intellectual when it comes to mathematics, some history, and biology but please don't ask him why the author made the curtains blue 😭 the boy is emotionally stunted. He is NOT using critical thinking when it comes down to poetry or thick prose. He has some emotional intelligence but compared to Sora, he might as well have the emotional capacity of a brick wall 😭

Alright! That's all I have for now (it's 5am, I should be sleeping) if I have any more I'll post em lol

XOXO Mx. Jade 💕

[hiddenwritingsintheworld]

Man After Midnight Ch. 5

Rich Mans World Series | Chapter 4 | Donations | Thoughts & Feelings

(Suprise! Our Reader is our Gif for this chapter!!!)

Chris stood in the kitchen enjoying a cup of coffee. Thinking of the day ahead, he wanted to make sure you were going to be fine here at the house while he went and handled business, but he wasn’t sure how you’d be feeling. He turned, hearing you walking through the house, the clank of your cane making your presence known before you could speak. “Good morning,” he grinned, walking over to you, wrapping an arm around your waist as he kissed your head. “How’d you sleep?” he asked as you shrugged. 

“Fine, just ready to be off this cane and out of my cast,” you said looking down at them both.

 “I know but, you'll be back stronger and better than ever.” he leaned down and captured your lips in a tender kiss, which had you melting in his arms. Until someone cleared their throat. 

“Mr. Evans, you have a visitor,” Nicholas, your newest butler announced. 

You looked up at him, “I’ll need to steal Anthony today, I have physical therapy,” you said carefully moving toward the kitchen to grab a cup of coffee. Ms. Heidi was already there, a fresh cup of coffee ready for you to enjoy. She helped set you up at the island and smiled sweetly at you. 

“What would you like for breakfast dear?” she asked, but you shrugged. 

“I'm not very hungry this morning, I'll just have some coffee.” you said, smiling back at her. “I have to have Anthony with me today, honey. I’m sorry, I want you to stay home. Do not leave this house, do you understand me?” Chris said coming into the kitchen with his men following him. “Is everything okay?” you asked as he sighed. 

“No, but it will be. You don't answer the door for anyone or anything okay?” he kissed your temple and looked at you. “I’ll be in touch okay?” he asked as you nodded.

 “Alright,” you whispered and watched as everyone left. 

You spent the better part of the morning, playing on your laptop, watching a movie and just relaxing in the living room. But you were getting antsy. You wanted to leave the house already, but Chris was never one to just bark orders at you. There had to be a good reason why you were told to stay home and not open the door. Sighing softly, you moved around the house slowly, the cane making it a bit harder. 

You’d finally pushed the staff to leave for the afternoon and once left alone you decided to fix a small lunch before settling in to watch a movie in the living room. You sent Chris a text, something the two of you rarely ever did. ‘Hey, wanted to check in. Hope everything is okay. Not gonna lie, kinda miss you being here with me all the time. Lol.’ 

You laid your phone down on the table, not exiting the conversation, and settled back on the couch. You felt your eyes get heavy and as you started to drift off while watching some housewives show you heard a soft knock on the front door. Frowning, you sat up and looked toward the foyer before you looked around at the windows to see if you could see anything, when another more urgent sounding knock came at the door. You slowly stood and walked over to the door trying to look out before just opening it. 

“Hello?” you asked before opening the door. 

“I have a delivery for Mr. Christopher Evans,” a deep voice called out. You stared at the door suspiciously. Before you could finish processing the thought that this probably wasn’t legit, the door was kicked in, forcing you to fall back in the foyer. 

You groaned, looking up to see a tall man with long dark hair towering over you. He went to reach for a pistol and you kicked him as hard as you could in his knee. As he fell, you tried to crawl away, but he grabbed your ankle in an attempt to pull you back to him. You kicked at him again and again until you broke free. You got up and moved as quickly as you could to the living room. Once you’d made it, you grabbed your phone and had meant to text Chris again, but in the haste of moving around and trying to hide, you ended up calling him. 

“Come out you little bitch! You’re gonna pay for that shit,” the intruder screamed out breaking things in the house as he walked through. You cowered down in the closet, trying to not make a sound. As you sat there, you frowned; This wasn't you. You don't cower when someone breaks into your home. You fought back, you didn’t need to text a man to come save you. You slowly stood up, grabbing your cane, you opened the closet door, letting it open wide and hit the wall. 

You stepped out and looked around for the intruder. You spotted him in the dining room, standing on the other side of the table. He was about twice the size of you, but that would be fine. You may have been healing from practically being blown up, but that wasn't going to stop you from protecting your home and yourself. He turned and stared at you. As you stared back at him you asked with a smirk, “I suppose you’re here to kill me?” 

“I'm supposed to, but I might have some fun with your body ‘fore I do that,” he grinned a wicked, gut-wrenching grin as he eyed you up and down. 

“Aye, didn’t realize you were Irish. I knew an Irish fella once. Had fun guttin’ him too,” you said in a fake Irish accent as you grinned back at him watching him lose his smile. 

“You fuckin bitch! HE WAS MY BROTHER!” He flipped the dining room table over, breaking the glass as it crashed into the ground. 

You laughed “Your brother is in pieces!” you grabbed the vase on a table closest to you and flung it at him as he got closer. It hit him in the head, cutting his skull slightly. 

You took off as fast as you could; If you could keep him on the main level, that was a less likely chance of you falling over a railing or down a flight of stairs. You made it into the kitchen, where you ducked down behind the island and waited. You made sure to have some of your cane sticking out. You knew he wasn’t as smart as he acted. The man came into the kitchen and grinned when he saw the end of your cane sticking out from behind the island. You would be expecting him to come from the sides, but you would never expect him to crawl onto the island. He quietly got up on the island, and carefully slid over to attack you from above. When he reached the corner you were hiding behind, he looked down to see you grinning up at him. You stabbed him as hard as you could in the eye with a knife, and slowly stood up looking at the tip of it poking out of the back of his head. 

“I fuckin hate the Irish,” you mumbled leaning back against the other counter exhausted.

[alcego]

Words Written: 2,082 words Projects:

Commission - Slow going. Moved it back into GDocs so I can write at work. I think the format is what's throwing me the most - it's not a style I usually work in and I am in a touch over my head. It's fully planned and otherwise moving along well.

REDO-REPEAT - Wrote this AFTG fic on a whim, chasing motivation-inspiration to get the gears oiled up. It's not everything the idea could be, but I'm happy with what it is given why I wrote it. Not everything needs to be perfect lol. You can read it here, but do mind the tags.

Original Work - Haven't spent much time on my original work, although I do have an idea percolating in the back of my head that I should probably rough out soon. I have a couple other shorts that need to be re-drafted, but I think I need more space from them before I get going again.

Notes:

Wasn't feeling great this week for a variety of reasons. I'm trying to catch back up on life after my second ever kidney infection (caught it early enough this time that my suffering was significantly easier to deal with), not to mention worrying and checking in on Winnie daily now that she's due to foal any day now. (Most likely she has a week or two left. However, sometimes they progress very quickly, so it's prudent to be watchful.) There are other things going on beyond that, of course, but suffice it to say I've been overwhelmed and that is not conducive to writing for me.

Have been consistently frustrated that I don't have a good "writing nook", which has been doubly frustrating because I have several places from which to work, but none of them have been facilitating Getting Things Done. This is a problem for writing but it's equally troubling on my WFH days. Lately I've been most productive in bed. I do not like this, as my bed is supposed to be for sleeping only. Have been looking into purchasing a used chair/ottoman for writing purposes, but there are a lot of logistics to consider there.

In a similar note to the above, I'm irritated by the size of my MacBook. It's a 13", which I ordered during the pandemic and decided it was "good enough" upon realizing it was smaller than expected. I no longer think this, as the keyboard is cramped and the screen doesn't have as much space as I'd like. I've considered going back to my old 17" Dell, which I wrote on prior to purchasing this laptop, but that laptop has fallen victim to planned obsolescence and is unable to receive the updates it needs to function at the level I require. I've looked into larger MacBooks (for budgeting purposes, mostly, although I wonder if I could trade-in my old laptops and have enough store credit for a used one?) but so far as I can tell the keyboard does NOT scale, which is irritating, as I'd prefer one with slightly larger keys so I stop stumbling over how close everything is. The other option is go back to Windows, but this is problematic as I very much prefer the iCloud files syncing to access my WIPs from my phone. Basically: no good solutions. I'll have to keep looking, which is fine, because I don't have the budget to get anything yet.

Not sure how to tie this in, as I suspect it's related to most, if not all, of my whining, but I've been noticing yet again that I have more "luck" writing analog than I do when I'm working on my phone or laptop. That makes it harder to track what I've written, but it's functional, and has gotten me through several sticking points.

Not sure what I'm going to work on after this commission is complete. I think, tentatively, that I might finish a JereJean PWP that has been on the backburner for a while, then finish roughing out my ex-mixtape fic (I got sick and ran out of time, so dropped the event) before polishing it for posting. After that, I want to revisit Vestigial, which has been shelved for a while. I'm hoping that if I get back in the groove of finishing stories, I'll be in a better headspace to get back to my original work, but we'll see. Nothing's set in stone just yet, and my writing stamina isn't high enough yet that I can just bust through any of these without long term repercussions. Slow and steady is key for a bit.

[latina4rmbx]

I Can Buy Myself Flowers...

Sometimes I need to figure my shit out. Sometimes I take so long to figure my shit out that it loses it's luster. I've been pondering this post for a bit and it's learned me a few things:

I need to charge my laptop. As I lay in bed, stroke of insight comes to me, but if I pick up my phone, I'm going straight to social media and there goes my insight. At least with my laptop I don't have social media embedded in any of the apps, I think, and I can get what I need to get off my chest.

I sometimes over/underestimate myself and it's to my own detriment

I was in an extreme emotional state yesterday with no real outlet. I had no reason to cry but I felt that ache or that hollow in my chest. I even asked a friend for a sad movie suggestion so I can get it out. I still haven't seen the movie

I know I've said this before, and I guess I will repeat it until I understand, you really don't realize the impact you make/have made on a persons life sometimes. If you're lucky, people will give you your flowers while you're still here

This is a great segue into the whole reason we're here...

Yesterday I posted a Meme that reads: Her: I ordered us new phone cases. The fucking phone cases (if I can add the pic here I will) then I wrote: Me as a GF. Let me just try to post this thing because 1. it was the catalyst and 2. I think it truly sums me up as a GF and 3. It's cute AF. Take in the entire post lol

An ex-boyfriend reaches out to me to make a joke about the phone cases.

His joke: "This was us but I had more ass than you."

In case you were wondering what my response was...this is the lead up to the crux of this AM post. From here on out I'm going to refer to him as Guy. Another person comes into play and I'll call them Man.

Me: But that's a real message I sent to a real man who probably has more ass than I do too 😂 I haven't checked it out enough. We haven't done sexy time yet 😃

Guy: Whaaaaaat (I didn't count the A's but there were quite a few)

Me: Stop it

Guy: This is real?! Not a drill ?!?

A little more chatting about Man

Guy: Ok well he gets you. That's important

Here is where the mood changes. Up to this point we were laughing, well Guy was laughing at my antics (because I be antic-ing)

Me: Well we don't see each other much cuz life be lifin' the shit out of us but it's good lol. Thanks for inquiring about the drills.

Side Note: He speaks to me in voice note after a bit so I'll have to transcribe. I'll do it verbatim but I KNOW I will cry.

Guy: Good speaking to you again. Instead of us, just sending funny videos to each other... Though I like that too.

Me: Thank you for being everything.

Me: I'm really lucky I met you Guy. I hope you know that. Good or bad you always have a special place in my heart

Guy: Can I say: Ditto. One day I'll be able to put into words what our time together has meant and always meant to me

Me: It's not necessary. I appreciate it anyway

Guy: Well I think people need to get their flowers!!!!

See the correlation to the title now?

Me: I do too & life is shorter than we realize.

Here's where his voice notes start. There are only 2 but each is about a min long so it may take some time (& Coffee) to transcribe. I did not respond to him in VN form. As a matter of fact the conversation between him and I's portion will end with my first response, then I'll move on to something else. It'll make sense

VN1: No, I I I mean that in all truthfulness. Uhm, people deserve their flowers cause you never know when somebody's gonna go or somebody saying I'm never going to talk to you ever again. So, No I wanted to always tell you thank you because I wasn't always uhm I dunno. I guess life gives you perspective once you get some distance and time. I'm not trying to speak deep or like philosophical. It's just one of those things where you know. I remember being young. I remember, you know, being infatuated with you and not knowing how to handle that and also not knowing how to handle when I had unfinished business or you know uhm. There were so many things I was learning on the fly. It's like flying a plane and fixing the wing while you're flying it. I should've just landed the plane and learned my lesson.

VN2: But even when I was flying the plane, so to speak, or hanging out with you uhm, I always wanted to thank you. I mean, you know, there were times that, you know, I really made you feel like shit and I'm sorry. And there's times there, you know, where you and I were at odds for whatever reason, and you know. I wasn't always great, you know. I learned a lot from you. I learned about forgiveness, and I learned about, you know, about how to truly love somebody or what to have when you truly love somebody. Or that so much, that that that our multiple interactions have taught me. From the beginning all the way to the last one. And it was so fun in a weird way to have you in my apartment that day when we were saying good bye to T. And that was kinda like uh, if this was a sitcom, and that was the last episode, it'd be a good one.

Me: The one where we said good bye

If you didn't get it, my response is a nod to ye olde show "Friends."

Here's where it gets interesting/sad, I was crying typing that response to Guy. However, I went to the counsel, which is 2 people. 1 who knows him and one who doesn't. I'm going to only share the conversation with the one who doesn't know him because it was sweet, our back and forth. For the sake of consistency they will be dubbed, C1 (LOL - is that consistent?). Ok, ok, Lady. She'll be dubbed Lady. As in, I spoke to the Lady

Me: Listen to this. It's my ex boyfriend & THIS made me cry.

Lady: Awww O

Me: You know how you feel like you didn't mean anything to someone and then you find out you meant everything. This did it for me. Bad timing. But when the timing was right...It was too late. He broke up with his GF and I had broken up with *CENSORED*. We were ripe for the picking but it didn't feel...the same.

Lady: Yes I now the feeling

Lady: At least you now know you meant something big to him

Me: Yeah. It's comforting

Me: I always wondered if I was doing love wrong

That's it. Not the end of the conversation but the point that he was helping me with, without even being aware. I always wondered if I was doing love wrong. Craziness because some people never think of love in terms of something to consider or work on, it's just what they feel or do. But what does that mean? To feel love. What does it mean to DO love? You know.

Lady: I don't think you've ever done love wrong. Just was given to the wrong people at the wrong time because as a friend you are very loveable and you're giving, attentive

Me: Thank you

Me: I had to work on the friendship love too

Lady: No need to thank me for the truth

Me: I know I used to do friendship wrong

Lady: Well I'm glad I get the best of you ❤️❤️

That was literally the end of hers and I's conversation.

In the other conversation I mention feeling validated. I think this is the part that kept me up half the night. Why did I need him or anyone to validate me? Then it clicked, I value his opinion of me. He's one of the very few people who can tell me "O, it's not a good look." He does it with such a pure and true heart. It doesn't hurt when he's putting me in my place. Again, I'm speaking as a friend here, not as a lover. That ship has sailed a long time ago. Two years ago, when we reconnected through mutual heartbreak, solidified it.

We were GREAT as lovers and being in love but we're sooooo much better as champions for each other. We cheer each other one from the sidelines. I guess that's what happens when time and distance give us perspective.

Thank you readers for reading. I truly appreciate you taking any moment out of your day to read through my posts.

I can buy myself flowers...But why would I have to?

XOXO

Thanks for Reading

[dennydraws]

No Buy 2023 - Art Supplies

Hello, hello and Good Morning! It's not quite January anymore to make new year resolutions but about a month ago I decided I need to do something about my art supply hoarding tendencies :D;;; Even if I'm not even close to what I see on art videos, it doesn't quite sit well with me when I have more than I use and clutter is something I don't like around me.

So! This year, let's tackle some art supplies with reckless abandon!!

Step 1 - Catalog all your supplies I want to say this was a tough one but it was actually fairly easy for me. I could mostly name everything from the top of my head xD:; And to be expected the most glaring issue with me was all the unfinished sketchbooks that I keep piling. I listed, ahem...about fourteen sketchbooks... 2 of which are pass half point to finish, 8 of which are started and for one reason or another abandoned and rest are not even opened.

Whenever I get the urge to buy new sketchbooks I will remind myself of the list I made. I'm fairly sure I got some more hiding in random corners too.

Anyway! Target list:

Step 2 - Discard what is no longer usable Ok testing everything did take time but it did also cut some chunk of art supplies. It also made me realize I had some markers I barely used and they had dried out exactly cause I had barely used them... a lesson to learn. Again. About a year ago I noticed some of my fave colors have dried cause I was savoring them maybe a bit too much lol. Once more the copics are holding up like absolute troopers. Sad to say the spectrum noir markers just dry really fast, especially if you aren't using them as soon as you open them. They are still wonderful markers mind you!

Well, I don't plan to use my copics with reckless abandon but I do plan to use all the watercolors I have for I have quite a lot xD;; including tubes, another set and gouache set that I have stashed away;;;

Step 3 - Pair the materials! I usually tend to make a test ground page at the start of every sketchbook but if I'm to test everything ... I may burn out so, I'll just stick to quick tests and if something doesn't work out, turn a page and carry on.

Step 4 - Write down the progress! If you're like me, you exist with little lists and check box and see everything as little exp bar that you feel and celebrate when you complete it :D;; And this challenge is no different for me. Every month I will be writing down what I've used, did I actually used all of it, did I learn or enjoy this medium etc...

But yes, this will be my process for the year! Maybe by end of December I will have a long post of what I finished, what I didn't etc :D;; hopefully more finished than unfinished! At the end art is personal and it should be done in a way that sparks joy for you. For me, I need order in my compulsive doodling tendencies. Unfinished things stress me and I hope I get to close the last pages of some sketchbooks and throw away some empty art supplies now that they served their purpose - maybe even discover that I really enjoy some mediums I barely had used before \o/

Thank you for stopping by, dear reader! I hope you have a wonderful week full of inspiration and ideas! Maybe this little read inspired you to catalog your own art supplies and do some spring cleaning!

[senkusphone]

Replies to various tag comments

so I can reply but also not clutter everything with many posts, thanks for bearing with me.

@megacarapa No, thank you! That gif took so long to make, and I rarely get to use it lol. I had to undo a panning shot, and erase Senku in order to loop it. Check out this weird left over file from the process, you can see a bit of Senku under where I patched him off, and the subtitles moving as the image panned

@piuopon

Multimeter:

You don't understand, that's the multimeter I used for most of the last decade, even at the labs in university. I bought it from some guy on the street (I swear this is normal) cause it was very cheap, and it needed repairs which I did.

I gotta admit I love me an old instrument though. I think it's from the early 1970's as it's made with point to point connection (no circuit board) but it doesn't have the old Sanwa logo. Fun fact, to this day they still sell knockoffs of these old japanese Sanwa multimeters, under brands such as Sunma, Sunwa, etc (and they're still not cheaper than I paid for the og). My first multimeter when I was a kid was a knockoff 'Munwha' I believe, wish I still had it regardless.

If you want me to flex a real antique one, check out the Weston Selective Analyzer 665. This multimeter is from the 1930's. (also makes me wonder if there was a Weston Selective Analyzer 666)

The 'high grid test' and 'low grid test', the series capacitor condenser for the AC voltage scales, and the 'press to read' button are features that have long disappeared from multimeters as far as I can tell.

Senku:

It's hard for me to describe how much this series helped me pull through a comically dark time in my life. Senku is a very inspiring character, despite how much I like to dunk on him. When I needed a bit of inspiration the most, I was inspired to shamelessly and unapologetically pursue my interests in science and engineering that I had been growing increasingly disenchanted with after too many years in academic hell. Despite the fact that I am literally building a career on these interests, I have always been shamed for pursuing them in a non professional or academic way.

The dude said "get excited", and I did.

So, the fact that you perceive me that way, is really flattering to me, and I truly appreciate it, thank you.

🅱️enis:

I'll have you remember that the og KoS flag featured only one phallic shape and was designed by Yuzu, go figure what she was thinking of.

Someone must've decided it wasn't gay enough by the time Ryusui came around, and thus added a second one in conjuction (a design which Ryusui was the first to wear).

No idea who did it though, but I am putting suspicion on the artists (yuzu and namari) and Gen, because he likes to mess with people, of course. Wonder what the Ishigami villagers thought of this pattern, as they were exposed to this design long before they had any knowledge or remotely accurate concept of a rocket or spaceship...

... but they certainly knew other things.

Moving on

@aresagainstthemachine Hello again

Yes, as you say the frequencies are kinda fixed. Both the transmit and receive frequency depend in part to the capacitance of the antenna to the surrounding environment, there was even one occasion where hand capacitance to the large coil made this behave sorta like a theremin. (video there, but I no longer use this twitter).

Receive mode is a bit more complicated as adjusting the feedback/tickler coil to bring up the gain also shifts the frequency somewhat. Tuning regenerative radios is always a process of getting closer and closer adjusting the tuning capacitor of the front end and the coupling of the feedback. Now aparently I had some sort of mental void between then and now, 'cause the other day I was cleaning some boxes and I found this object

Then I remembered that back in the day I meant to discretely install this small variable capacitor to have at least a small amount of tuning control on the receiving coil. I guess I ended up not doing it when I saw it happened to fall near an existing station and adding this would have thrown that off. Feel free to message me if you got any more electronics questions, that'd be easier and I'd be happy to chat. Also thanks everyone for the reblogs and nice comments :)

[whatifyoulivelikethat]

Hey WIYLLT... I am taking the bar exam soon, and I am really freaking anxious... I havendo studied hard. Any last minute tips lol?

BIG FAT EDIT: Well, I'm not sure what the subject is or what type of exam it is but WIYLLT YOU DUMB FUCK IT LITERALLY SAYS BAR EXAM AND THAT'S LAW THIS TOOK YOU LITERAL DAYS FOR YOUR BRAIN TO WORK THAT OUT YOU ABSOLUTE DISGRACE

I'm sorry, I fucked up but I have limited knowledge of how this works; I didn't go to school to become a lawyer (CLEARLY and it seems my degree was in being a DUMDUM). I see there's multiple choice, essay, and preformamce portions and that it usually takes two days. You've been studying a long time for this already (law degree and all that), just put it all together and showcase what you got. Take care of your health. Put your professional wording on. You can always take it again. Lots of people do. Breathe. Two breaths in, one out. Repeat. Watch the time. Plot out your plan of how you'll tackle each section. I see most countries / states have the sections outlined so brush up on anything you're not as well-versed on. Trust in you. You've worked for this! Put everything you remember out there and do your best!

below for general test-taking tips

I would say focus on understanding main concepts. If there's stuff you already feel confident in, last-minute study should be clarifying what you're unsure about.

When taking the exam, do everything you know well first. Skip anything you're not sure about and come back later. Then do what's left in the order of, "kinda know so I'll put down what I think is the answer", "questions I need to think more about but I have a good guess", and "yolo, put something down and hope for the best". XD

Watch the time. If a question is taking you too long, skip it and come back to it. Example: 45 multiple-choice questions, 90 minutes, so don't take longer than 2 minutes per question. Double check that you put some kind of answer for every question before turning it in. If possible, even if it's only part of the answer or a random guess, write something down because you might get partial points.

If you have time before the exam, write down a "hit list" if what the questions will be about. If it's math, know all the equations. If it's science / social science, know the overarching ideas and theory. Language is slightly easier; you just have to analyze what you think a passage means. If it's history, uh, idk, hope you can memorize dates because I can't, oof. You can get away with not knowing a small fact but missing a whole section will hurt your score a lot more.

Deep breaths. Make sure you have all your tools (pencils, erasers, pens, etc). Eat well. Just remember scores aren't everything try your best. It's okay to stumble. Sometimes things happen. That's life.

Good luck! :)

[postwarlevi]

Eliza, hon, how are you?💖

I'm currently packing my stuff before I move out of my dorm, and y'know, I had to toss out my clothes and fold them ☆again☆ to make them fit better into my suitcase— follow me on this, please😭

I'm folding them the Marie Kondo way (bless this woman), and I can now picture Levi as someone who would ADORE her videos! How to better tidy up a place? He's in. How to make your clothes occupy less space? He's ecstatic to know.

I can only picture him being all peaceful and quiet at he tidies up his space and puts everything in order, but the best part? If you're too busy or too out of it to keep up with your own messes, Levi would absolutely extend a helping hand and fall into the lovely rhythm of making sure everything is clean and comfortable for you to rest in. He'll clear out the trash, fold your laundry, organize your messy pile of books. When he's done, he'd stand there, admiring his work and nodding in approval. He's silently excited to see how you'd react to his little act of love.🥺💕

Hi Pau! I saw you're getting ready, hope it's going well. Travel plans all set?

I'm okay, actually still hurting from my fall. Wondering if I should get checked out, really don't want to. I'll give it a couple more days. *crosses fingers*

But anyway! You got those clothes in there before, you can do it again, unless you got more LOL

I bought Marie Kondos first book! The Life Changing Magic... I read it so fast and was all ready to put those methods to use! I went through all of my clothing and then...stopped haha oops. I'll reread it and try to get inspired again.

Levi loves being tidy of course so this is made for him! Better folding methods to allow more room, tidying and decluttering, keeping the bare minimum of items only that spark joy so less dusting!

Of course he won't go through your things without permission, but he'd encourage you to get started and not worry about parting with things, because most of it really is just stuff.

He'll help you sort and and be happy to donate anything you're able. It takes a while to declutter and now everything you keep has to be put back, and it's way less than what you started with, but it's still overwhelming!

But you're both committed and use the proper methods. However, you need a break because, it's a lot! So while you leave the house foe a few hours because you couldn't possibly look at another shelf or piece of clothing, Levi gets to work!

He gets everything folded into drawers and up on hangers and there's so much more room now with less things and proper folding! He gets both yours and his shoes back in the closet, there's even room in a drawer for some important papers now. He gets the books aligned and has started on the kitchen before you get home.

You see the progress he's made and he bounds up to you and you smile at his excitement as he shows you what he's been able to do. You give him the biggest, warmest hug he can remember getting as you hope this helps him understand how thankful you are.

So, you finish helping him in the end and both do your best to keep it tidy. Levi is a little better at it and if you get a little overwhelmed again thinking it's looking like a bit too much again, he kisses your worries away and tells you it's nothing you can't handle.

You dedicate at least an hour on your day off to making sure everything is in order, because even if it's not what you wanted to be doing, it's much better then letting it pile up again.

And every time you do, you notice it's never as bad as you thought, and you soon realize it's because Levi has already made a dent in it. He likes keeping up with it and it takes a bit of a load off of you so it makes him that much happier.

Seriously, with all you do for him and mean to him, Levi does not mind helping out with this.

This way, when you're off together, you spend time with each other having fun and relaxing instead of going through papers.

[yutaholic]

THAT SMASHING THE SIX ENDING?!? WTFFF

This is my one issue with asks - there is no tone. Are you angry shouting or excited shouting? hahaha (more asks under the cut with spoilers. once again if you have not read the final chapter of Smashing the Six, do not read below this line!)

anonymous asked: smashing. the. six. i don’t think i’ll ever be the same after reading that series. it’s one of the only ones i’ve tucked away in my mind to keep checking in on. and as a journalism student, the journalism student trope will always end me but MY GOD THIS WAS THE JOURNALISM STUDENT TROPE TO END ALL JOURNALISM STUDENT TROPES. the end? hello???? i was literally open mouthed staring at my screen. the different dynamics between each guy, the angst, oh my gosh it was all so !!!!! sorry for the ramble but i just wanted to let you know how much i enjoyed the series. i’m probably going to go read it all over again!!!

Hello journalism major I’m glad the story has your approval! Don’t apologize for the rambling I love rambles about my works! Thank you for supporting the story and I really hope you enjoy reading it again. I wonder if you will notice more clues on the second read through hehe

anonymous asked: jesus christ, you're a genius for writing smashing the six. at first i genuinely just thought it would be a fun and playful story about, you know, smashing the six, like a bunch of stories i would read at night for the familiar butterflies in my stomach before i sleep. but story by story went by and you just amazed me every time. it was all so well written and coherent, and every character was there for a purpose besides the one we would expect. you nailed every emotion, every bit of event, every turning point. i'm glad to say that if you ever wrote professionally i'll be supporting you. but for now, thank you. i'm so honored to have indulged everything you've generously put out for us. thank you so much.

Thank you! I honestly intended for this to be a very light and silly story but it took a deeper turn than I planned, but I ain’t mad about it lol I hope to one day write professionally, but I have no clue when that will be. My Mom of all people has been encouraging me to finish my novel recently so maybe I’ll have to 😂

@randomkpopfanatic asked: SMASHING THE SIX SPOILERS I’d like to imagine that Doyoung went through the same initiation process as the girls in order to run neonet. Also I just realized that I haven’t followed you since I’ve kept up with your stories without doing so anyway, but I’m following now

It is canon that SHINee’s Key was neonet before Doyoung and was his mentor, according to me. His initiation process was much different. Remember in the first chapter how reader said people pointed fingers at the computer science division as being involved with neonet because some of them like to be hackers on the side? And they all got busted and some had to leave town? That was the type of initiation the heads of neonet had to do. It would have to involve something with much higher stakes so you know he could handle that much power and pressure.

anonymous asked: SUCH an amazing series, you really outdid yourself!! I think it’s some of the best fanfic I’ve read in a long while. You write tension SO WELL it’s crazy. Again just a rly great series. I hope it’s something you feel really proud of!

I’m very proud of it and I’m also so grateful to you guys for interacting with me throughout the posting of the whole story! Yall gave me a boost every time I needed it. Thank you ❤️

anonymous asked: OHMYGOD DOYOUNG YOU SNEAKY LITTLE DEVIL! THAT WAS HONESTLY THE BEST THING I’VE READ IN A LONG WHILE! Well done! Super hands down! I’m gonna read the rest of your stories and I am VERY EXCITED FOR THE NEXT SERIES!

I was honestly cracking up when Doyoung won the poll and he’s been the biggest suspect since the first chapter dropped. I loved that yall suspected him. By the end of the story, all of you knew he was neonet, but no one in the story knows. I call that a power move hahaha

anonymous asked: smashing the six - an absolute rollercoaster ride of a series!! i love this series of yours so much and even if it's your first it's seriously so well connected and written. i loved how you kept your readers on their toes and guessing after every part and how you built up a sense of mystery around every character. thank you so much for this series and i can't wait to read more from you!!from, an anon who has been your devoted reader for AGES (even when you were still zenyukhei 🤩)

Thank you so much! On that subject I can’t believe my blog will be 2 years old in December! Yall need to start letting me know what you want me to do to celebrate. I really enjoyed keeping you guys on your toes! I usually avoid suspense or mystery in my works because I’m always worried I will spin too big a web that I can’t tie up all the loose ends (which is one of my biggest pet peeves in books/movies/shows) but Heathens gave me a taste of it lol I feel more comfortable writing suspense now 😂

anonymous asked: okay i’d tell you which anon i am but that would involve spoiling so i’ll just say this 😭😭😭 the fact that i was right about all my guesses is INSANE because i was literally pacing around my room eliminating people. and i came down to 2 options that made the most sense but i didn’t think i would be right….. you are a GENIUS luna

It’s such a satisfying feeling when you guess right haha this story was such a blast and I’m going to miss all the fun we had with it but because of that it has made me want to write short series more. Stay tuned! 😉

[ghostonly]

FTM Top Surgery Q&A - Installment #3

2-Week Post-Op Recovery and Progress

Welcome to installment #3! If you're new here, I'm currently working on a Q&A / Series combo where I outline my experience with FTM top surgery as a large, disabled guy with ADHD and low income. I'll also answer any questions sent in to me. Currently, I haven't received any questions. If you have any now or when you're done reading this post, feel free to send them to me. I'll be taking questions all the way until May of 2023, when the series should be wrapping up.

If you want to know more about the series, check out the announcement here or visit the installment masterlist here.

If you haven't read the previous 2 installments, I recommend you do, as I'll be introducing terminology there that will be used in this installment.

In this installment, I'll be covering the healing and recovery progress of week 2, including the removal of the nipple bolsters as well as the regained ability to shower.

Under the cut, there are photos showing the surgical site before it's completely healed. If you're sensitive to scars, injury, blood, or other things that go along with surgery, please continue with caution or let me know you'd like a copy of my commentary without the images.

I wrote this entire post and then the page crashed, so this might be a bit shorter because retyping everything you just wrote is one of the worst things humanly imaginable.

Nipple Bolster Removal

The first big thing in post-op events is getting the nipple bolsters removed after 1 week. So, the first day of week 2, that's exactly what happened.

The nurse said that no one has ever told her it hurt, and I'm so excited to tell you that I was the first person to tell her that.

The nipple bolsters are secured with stitches along the perimeter of the nipple that are sewn up through the bolster. In order to cut those stitches, they have to tug on them a bit to expose them enough for clipping.

There was one side of one nipple in particular that hurt really bad during removal. I don't know if that particular stitch was just a bitch or if maybe there was some scabbing that got displaced from the tugging, but it was a sharp, searing pain. It didn't last that long and I didn't have the issue with the other nipple. I wouldn't worry about it if I were you. It seems like kind of an outlying occurrence.

Nipple Appearance

Hands down, the scariest part of recovery is dealing with the nipple grafts. When nipples get free-grafted, the whole graft isn't actually expected to survive. What happens is, the entire top layer of the graft dies and the base layer has to produce new nipple skin.

This doesn't affect the long-term appearance as far as I'm aware but, during the healing process, it means you have to deal with the entire top layer of your nipple skin sloughing off and it's very freaky.

Generally, when a part of your body is completely numb, as your nipples will be, the way you gauge if that part is okay is by looking at it. Well, looking at your nipples will not be any consolation. They will look fucked up lmao. After the bolsters are removed, they look saggy, smushed, and grey. This is normal and they won't look like this forever.

Here are some pictures I took after I got home and showered that day:

Showering

After the nipple bolsters were removed, I was allowed to start showering again. If looking at your fucked up, half-healed nipples is scary, trying to shower around them is terrifying lol.

Securing the Drains

Originally, my drains were secured in place with a strip of velcro that could be fed through some hanging loops on the bulbs and then stuck to my compression binder. However, when you're showering, you need them to be secured to something else.

I used an old purse strap I had lying around that I use for random shit, but you could use a string, rope, piece of yarn, or a number of other things. Just find yourself something long and cord-like, tie the ends to the bulb hanging loops, and then hang them from your neck. Then, use a twist-tie or another piece of string or something to tie the sides together at chest level so that they won't rub or bump your nipples or incision.

Nipple Guarding

I was told that it was okay if water ran over my nipples from where it hits my shoulders, when I'm facing away from the shower spray, but to not let the water hit my nipples directly, as it can cause shearing.

There are two ways to shower with these restrictions: you can manually guard your nipples every time you need to get fully under the water or, as I figured out in week 3, you can wear your binder into the shower.

Because I cut my binder in half the long way, I effectively have 2 compression binders, which makes this no big deal. I wouldn't recommend doing this with a wholass shirt under the binder, but with the barrier I mention in the section below, this is easy and comfortable. Wearing the binder into the shower allowed me to wash everything else and save my chest for last, which meant I didn't have to constantly guard my nipples while washing.

If you don't have the kind of compression binder that you can or want to cut in half, you can also just protect your nipples manually. This generally means a lot of washing outside of the water, then leaning that body part into the water to rinse.

For parts that require more submersion, like rinsing soap from your face or shampoo from your hair, you can use your hands to block direct spray. I cupped my hands and pressed them firmly into my chest above each nipple, keeping the bottom unpressed so that any water that slipped past my fingers could escape instead of collecting against the nipples.

Doing this can make your shower take more than twice as long as usual, so I really do recommend wearing the binder in. If you have two halves, you can then just toss the wet half into the laundry and put the other one on.

Nipple Graft Care

Vaseline Gauze

After getting the bolsters removed, I was given a pretty simple care regimen: replace a square of vaseline-coated gauze over each nipple at least once a day and then tape a gauze bandage over it.

The vaseline gauze comes in a package in either sheet or strip form and you have to cut it into squares. The fold creases make this pretty easy, but it's kind of gooey and obnoxious.

When removing the gauze, the dead top layer of nipple skin will want to come away. Personally, I'm of the opinion that it should stay there as long as possible, since it's protecting the new skin underneath from exposure. So, any time a notable amount started to come up, I changed which direction I was removing the gauze from to avoid removal of the dead skin. Sounds gross, but this dead skin is basically acting as a scab, it's just soft because of the copious amounts of vaseline being put on it.

Eventually, it will all end up coming off, but I wanted to slow the process to minimize the likelihood of pain or damage to the fresh new layer of skin beneath.

Protective Barrier

On top of the vaseline gauze, I was told to put a slightly thicker gauze bandage and secure it with medical tape. Unfortunately, I'm probably allergic to adhesive, so medical tape and I don't get along.

I did this for all of week 2, but in week 3, I figured out a better solution.

If you have any flat-fronted sports bras, don't throw them out, burn them, or whatever you plan to do with them until you're done with surgery recovery.

All of the bras I had were these simple, t-shirt material sports bras with a multi-layer, flat panel for the front. These have made my recovery so much more comfortable.

At first I was wearing t-shirts under my compression binder, but this led to problems because t-shirts aren't usually form-fitting, so they wrinkled beneath the compression binder and wrinkles being pressed hard into my skin, especially against healing scars, is pretty painful after a while. A form-fitting piece of fabric that only covers my chest was more comfortable as well as a godsend in the sudden heat of summer.

Here's a picture of that from week 3:

The fabric of these is soft enough that I can just skip the gauze barrier. I put on the vaseline gauze, put one of these fabric sports bras on, then secure the binder over that. It's great. Even better in week 3 when you start doing scar care involving ointment. If I had been using t-shirts when I started on the ointment, it would have gotten everywhere. Sports bras help contain everything. And, if you have a bunch, like I do, you can switch them out when they get kinda sticky with ointment. More on this in the next progress installment.

Pain Levels Changing

The Drains

So, week 2 was actually the most painful week for me because of the drains. Generally, they're supposed to come out after about a week, however, mine didn't come out til the first day of week 3 (so, after 2 weeks). This was because of the office not being open on the weekend and then my 2-week follow-up was only a few days later, so I just waited.

Generally, your body doesn't like it when there's a hole in it with something in said hole so that it can't heal. The drain exit holes tried scabbing around the perimeter which increased itchiness, inflammation, and made pressure, movement, and so on significantly worse. By the latter half of week 2, I was moving around and changing position and adjusting the drain tubes really often to try and minimize discomfort.

I don't expect most people would have quite as hard of a time with this for two reasons: Most people get these things out before the 2-week mark and also I'm extremely sensitive to skin-level pain and discomfort.

Movement

Movement pains in week 2 became more frequent, but less intense. This is because the overall achiness of everything went down and, therefore, I was moving around and pushing limitations more often, leading to more pangs of pain from my body saying, "would you fucking stop reaching for shit."

One of the pains that was most common in week 2 were these twinging, zapping, pinching feelings coming from, I think, the nerves to my nipples trying to reestablish themselves.

When you start to get these, they can be kind of freaky, but I'm like 95% sure they don't really mean anything. As in, just because they happen when you reach doesn't mean you shouldn't reach. Listen to your gut. They will happen regardless of if you reach or not anyway, reaching just causes them because it means moving the insides of your chest and your nerves are trying to figure out what that means for them now.

More Healing Progress

Here are a couple more pictures I took a few days after the last set:

The bright pink that you can see on the nipple in the left picture is some of the fresh skin showing through from beneath. As you heal, the dead skin will grow darker and the contrast will be more obvious.

That's it for this week! I'll be back again soon with another progress update covering weeks 3 and 4.

Here's another link to the installment masterlist in case you don't want to scroll back up. I still haven't gotten any questions, so don't hesitate to send some in if there's any part of the process you'd like more information on!

[jocy-diaries]

06.24.2022

I woke up a little late but at least that means I got a good night of sleep~ Even if my dreams were a little weird. As usual.

It's funny but all of the information people I've met here are low-key rude haha. It's fine though, and I guess it's fair since i don't really speak Italian. I try, but it's so broken and I'm so uncomfortable with it.

I went to Romagia and had a lovely breakfast! It's good! I ordered an omelette, but I think I confused the waitress a little bit. It's not 'oh-me-let' here, it's 'oh-mo-leh-te' haha But turns out the trail didn't start at Riomaggiore, so I had to move on to Corniglia. I swear the train company is making so much money off of me. From there... I took steps. So many fucking stairs. I was hot and sweaty and I doubt any rando would hit on me now lol My genes make me sweaty so wearing a full face of makeup while going hiking is never a good idea. And yet... But I've got to remind myself that no matter how ugly I am, people will still talk to me and be nice to me. Which feels like a blessing.

But there were so many fruit trees!! So many!! I ate some of the grapes and they were SOUR.. A French girl hoped over a fence to get fallen peaches and I had one~ it was so sweet and juicy! I also really wanted to get fallen plums but those were already claimed by insects... I kinda wanted to get a lemon, but like. I wouldn't have done anything with it lol. Maybe adding it to my water, actually 🤔 And if I do come back tomorrow, I wanna go swimming in the little nook I found. I wanted to go scuba diving, but again. The information places are not very helpful. I really like the Italian sea, it's so blue~ I did get to find a place close to the rocks! I chilled there for a bit~ Did some parkour~ And skinned my leg a bit when i slipped ;^; My airport fell into the little pond so I gotta get new ones I guess 😅 And one more adapter. My iPhone kinda died since I didn't charge it last night to charge my android. I also need to buy shampoo. And I'm also low key anxious about the internship now. I know my Italian is bad and because I know I haven't been practicing... Low-key kill me.

Oh! I have my first work call catch up today!! I'm pretty excited for it. And anxious. I'm gonna have so many emails, but I'm curious to see how it's been going.

I think if the chance comes up to get a tattoo in Florence I'll take it. I feel like I accomplished my goal of feeling more connected to my goddess without really bending over backwards somehow? Worshipping her just became a natural part of my day. So I think I'm ready. Even if I don't get the house or the full time job, I want to get this tattoo.

Ohmygod... So I decided to be excited for this right? Be excited for going back to work. But first, the computer work account gives me trouble. And then I decide I'll check my emails, clean things off before my catch up meeting~ .... ......... I have 243 emails.

BROH.

I can't. I'm sure half of those are junk and meetings but OHMYGODS

Ohmygod... This was none of the things I was expecting...

I just had my catch up meeting with my coworker and. Golly. This is NOT good. Social guy got Fired?? He didn't quit, he got *fired* and he was a driving force in some of our integration discussions. My manager still sucks. She's changing everything and making it impossible for my coworker to do anything about it. My boss was very angry about the new tool we were discussing eventhough we discussed it and I said the coworker's company would take care of it? I'm just. What am I going to go back to. August is going to be a literal hell. ...I'm, going to go get pizza.

That update about work actually has me pretty bummed out... Like, why couldn't things just stay good? But I do recall that I just wanted a job to get me all the way to Italy, and that's what it did, and I met some wonderful people along the way so for that I am very grateful. I guess I'll have to apply for some new jobs now though, just in case.