#i'm an aquarius

[snortoborto]

Does anyone else have trouble engaging in fandom online because you're just afraid that everyone hates you? Like everything you have to say will just be annoying?

I hate being open for interpretation by others. Especially as someone who constantly over explains, cause I'm so scared of being misinterpreted. Like, it's okay for everyone else to have fun online...but not me, lest I accidentally come across wrong.

I can accept that everyone else is passionate and talented, when it comes to posting fandom related content, but I'm so scared to post or talk about anything I like too much. Everyone else's art and opinions and posting habits are fun and endearing, but when I do it, it's cringe.

I just wish I didn't police myself so heavily. I overthink everything and it always keeps me at an arm's length from like, connecting with people and making friends online.

[styleandcheek]

I'm curious

[victorianwestpiano]

It's February now, it's time for this:

[platinumaspiration]

Heading into Round 3 of my uberhood with 77 houses in the rotation. Still have Round 2's University, but eh, it's basically over. Woo!

Some stupid stats under the cut

Lifestates: my baby to teen lifestates go by pretty quickly so Adults and Elders tend to dominate. I was surprised to see teens so low, though! I feel like there's a ton of them lol

Names: no surprise that S, C and J dominate. The end of the alphabet needs to get its numbers up!

Not my big 3 in the top 5 lol. I'm pleasantly surprised about Aquarius! They say it's the rarest sign, but not in this uberhood haha

[breathing-in-waves]

I'm doing well in life.

[cowardlycowboys]

golden girl

[ameliecausse]

[cannibalgh0st]

I went out for my day off!🥲💞🌼🌺

[apollokyler]

vampire camus wip vampire camus wip vampire camus wip

camus is too gorgeous........ i always try my best in my attempts to depict his divine image

[sixhours]

Me, to my imaginary boyfriend, Pedro Pascal: Oh no, your poor shoulder bb! You look so tired after all those red carpets and parties. :( Imma put you to bed and make you soup.

Me, to my very real husband with a chronic pain disorder: ugh why are you so whiny

[thoseyoulove]

I have such different takes on Lestat and Gabrielle and Armand that I low-key afraid to share lmao

[angelastrology]

lesbian movies for the signs to watch before pride month is over ♡

aries - love lies bleeding (2024)

taurus - portrait of a lady on fire (2019)

gemini - but i'm a cheerleader (1999)

cancer - rara (2016)

leo - go fish (1994)

virgo - the children's hour (1961)

libra - drifting flowers (2008)

scorpio - the handmaiden (2016)

sagittarius - bound (1996)

capricorn - carol (2015)

aquarius - fresh kill (1994)

pisces - mulholland drive (2001)

[happilychee]

thinking about aromantic lucy

I saw a terf saying aspec people aren't actually queer so fuck them here's aromantic lucy heartfilia

cw: a few mentions of internalized arophobia

lucy who doesn't know that the word love exists until she reads it in one of the few fairytale books in her father's extensive library. lucy who doesn't quite get the kissing and the physicality and the fiery proclamations, but thinks that it's an okay price to pay for someone to be so passionate for her. to choose her and care about her, like her mother did before she passed.

lucy, who's eight years old and crying after another argument with her father, who summons aquarius and asks "do you love me?" aquarius feels her blood pressure rise, but seeing the broken look in her wielder's watery eyes, she decides to drop the snark. "I do, kid." "does that mean you wanna kiss me?" aquarius almost smacks lucy over the head.

lucy who doesn't quite understand the difference between how she cares for her spirits and how she felt about her mom. lucy who cares deeply for everyone who's important to her, who thinks that aquarius could just as easily be her knight in shining armor as the storybook prince. lucy who reads romance books because she wants someone like that in her life. lucy who's never had any friends besides aquarius. lucy who thinks it must be nice to have someone choose you, care about you, protect you. lucy decides that that's what love is.

lucy who's old enough to know she doesn't like her father. lucy who's so confused when she hates him but still cares about him. lucy who's old enough to run away from home but too young, too young.

lucy who joins fairy tail and has no idea what to expect. lucy who's startled by her new friends' openness and easy acceptance of her. lucy who blushes when natsu throws an arm around her, who feels warm and fuzzy when gray guides her by the small of her back, who has a lopsided grin on her face when erza links arms with her as they walk. lucy who suddenly thinks that she's in love with three people at once and panics (her storybooks never mentioned that!!).

lucy who turns to who she can confidently call her best friend, levy mcgarden, for help. levy sits her down with a cup of hot chocolate and cookies. they talk for hours about sexuality and attraction; lucy sleeps over that night. the word that sticks out the most in her mind is aromantic.

lucy who gets drunk at a party and gets a little too close to cana, and suddenly they're in cana's apartment, making out like there's no tomorrow. lucy who feels guilt creep up in the morning because she knows cana and gray and loke have something going, and she might've just ruined it. lucy who tears up when cana laughs because she's so, so confused. cana's expression morphs into concern and she wipes away her friend's tears, warm skin on skin. cana who tells lucy that what she does with gray and what she does with loke doesn't restrict her from what she does with other people. "we talked about it, I promise." cana reassures her. then, leaning in with a sexy smirk on her face, she whispers, "besides, they're probably jealous I took you home first~" the rush of heat is enough to make lucy's mind go blank with joy.

lucy who shyly asks cana about her relationships and learns so much she feels like her head is going to explode. lucy who has a crisis about her storybooks and her ideal romances. she's never going to have that, she realizes. it feels like someone's scooped out her chest.

lucy whose feelings ebb and flow like the tide. she's not used to this. being so... different. her storybooks are scattered across the floor, thrown in an angry fit. her door is locked, but her window isn't, and that's how natsu gets in. "you okay, luce? we haven’t seen you in a while."

the dam breaks. lucy sobs in natsu's arms, and all she can think is that this is the exact type of hurt/comfort scene she loves in her stories. she wishes she were normal, so she could love normally, so she could love natsu the normal way and be done with it. she doesn't realize she's talking out loud.

natsu cups her face, onyx eyes boring into chocolate ones. he squishes her cheeks together, the way he does when he thinks she's overthinking something. and then, natsu breaks through her entire crisis with three little words.

"does it matter?" he furrows his brow. "you're lucy, and I'm natsu, and I care about you." "but- I don't feel romantic attraction-" natsu huffs, frustrated that lucy's not getting something that's apparently obvious to him. "luce. I care about you, and I trust you, and I want to take care of you and protect you. who cares about anything else?" lucy blinks once, twice, and then she's sobbing again. natsu panics, because he knows he can be blunt and dismissive sometimes, but lucy barrels into him, clutching onto his scarf tightly.

"you care about me?" she whispers in a child's voice. that's more important to her than anything. romantic, platonic, the gray area in between, none of it matters as long as natsu cares.

natsu tightens his grip, wondering who he has to pummel for making his girl feel that way. "course I care about you, dummy. I'd burn down the world for you. and so would erza and gray and cana and everyone else."

lucy who has a really hard time moping when natsu's there every step of the way, trying to cheer her up. erza and gray show up, too, and it's hard to stay sad when she's being tickled by erza while gray cooks dinner and kicks natsu out of her kitchenette.

lucy who feels the hollow fill with something warm and gooey when erza gives her a hug, confessing that she often has trouble figuring out how she feels about anything. lucy laughs when erza tells her about the shenanigans that have happened when she doesn't pick up on someone flirting with her but gray and natsu do. she feels all fuzzy when gray leans against her, telling her that he feels the same way. his hand plays with hers, and she thinks it's nice how well they slot together.

lucy realizes when natsu falls asleep in her lap, arms wrapped protectively around her waist. lucy realizes when gray falls asleep at her side, erza tucked to his chest. lucy realizes that her friends make her feel like she's on top of the world, and she doesn't need a fairytale prince when she's got fairy tail.

[gabisart]

It was legendary // It was momentary 🌨️

[kaaaaaaarf]

Okay, very important poll time. Do you have a playlist of songs that are about you: either lyrically or by vibe? Songs that resonate with you as being about who you are as a person. Songs that make you go, oh this is about me?? I'm looking for whether you have an actual playlist of these songs.

If you happen to reblog, please also include your zodiac sign if you know it. ❤️

[snakebites-and-ink]

Living Weapon Aquarius Masterlist

General CW for the series: Conditioned whumpee, living weapon whump, dehumanization. (Most of the actual whump is in the past and only implied)

A team of caretakers take in a conditioned living weapon when the group that made him a weapon is disbanded.

Arrival

Examination

Snippet: Gentle touch

Movie Night

Status: Ongoing, updates sporadically